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Speaker 1: Conversations on life, style, beauty, and relationships. It's The Velvet's

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Speaker 1: Edge Podcast with Kelly Henderson. Did you just say sex?

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Speaker 1: You're a C just turned on. It's okay, it's hot

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Speaker 1: in here. Uh why did you say so? I say,

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Speaker 1: check your MinC and you're like sex sex because we

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Speaker 1: had just said I just said something about them having

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Speaker 1: sex without me home and they were like, you're like

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Speaker 1: check check and I was like that this sound like sex. Nope,

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Speaker 1: it doesn't. It really kind of doesn't. So you have

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Speaker 1: house gas tome I do. It's greats. I have two

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Speaker 1: of my closest friends from Los Angeles or visiting for

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Speaker 1: six weeks. Wow, together a lot um. I'm really excited

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Speaker 1: about it. But it's you know, it's there's definitely like

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Speaker 1: I'm we're all I'm sure adjusting. I mean, they lived

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Speaker 1: together in Los Angeles, so they're used to having people

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Speaker 1: around and I'm not, um, but like it's awesome having

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Speaker 1: you know, it's like awesome to like wake up and

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Speaker 1: like cook breakfast and have somebody to talk to. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: it's of fun, you know, so fun, fun, fun, homemaking

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Speaker 1: dinner for me right now. I mean, look at that

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Speaker 1: you're like in a little family also, and it's funny

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Speaker 1: too because I, um, um, we're like trying to hold

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Speaker 1: each other accountable on like what we're eating and like

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Speaker 1: trying to exercise and stuff. So it's like, I actually

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Speaker 1: I can't lie. Bats are so much easier when you're

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Speaker 1: single because you're like, yeah, so um, that's that's also

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Speaker 1: a benefit. So interesting, Well, we were going to talk

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Speaker 1: about our weekend for updates because we both actually had

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Speaker 1: some interesting stories. I thought, do you want to go first?

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Speaker 1: Since yours was actually Friday night? Should we go in

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Speaker 1: sequence sequential or yeah? Well, I mean I started it

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Speaker 1: was actually Saturday. I can't even keep up because we

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Speaker 1: literally did so much a Memorial Day weekend. It's like

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Speaker 1: Nashville opened up and we're like, where can we go next? Well,

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Speaker 1: before I get to like what I was doing. So

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Speaker 1: my friends got here two days ago, and last night

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Speaker 1: we went out to a writer's around Lindsay played down

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Speaker 1: at Whiskey Row really and we we took them. I

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Speaker 1: took them there and they live in Los Angeles, which,

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Speaker 1: when you know, it was slowly opening up when they left,

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Speaker 1: and um, they were like you walk in a whiskey

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Speaker 1: row and there's like a million people. They're both vaccinated.

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Speaker 1: But like Brittany was just like, I mean, I would

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Speaker 1: be lying if I said I wasn't freaking out a

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Speaker 1: little bit. Must pause for me the first time I

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Speaker 1: walked in, for sure. It's just because it's so bizarre,

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Speaker 1: especially after you've been living with a mask a shield up.

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Speaker 1: Like I remember the first time I went, I had

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Speaker 1: some jobs that we had three COVID tests that week.

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Speaker 1: I'm vaccinated and I've had it, and I still was like,

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Speaker 1: it's crazy. I mean, basically, she was like, I'm not

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Speaker 1: worried about getting it. It's just that like I'm surprised

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Speaker 1: that this is the state of the world. People in

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Speaker 1: Nashville are so over it and they're like, let's party. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: And what I said to them to I was like

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Speaker 1: most people in Nashville or tourists, especially when you're down,

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Speaker 1: so it's not even really a reflect action of like

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Speaker 1: what's going on in Nashville part of town. It's a

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Speaker 1: very tourist s um. But yeah, So on Saturday, it

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Speaker 1: started on the rooftop of a whiskey row um and

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Speaker 1: you know, we were just hanging with some friends and

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Speaker 1: it was like an afternoon drinks hang and then someone,

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Speaker 1: not me, someone else was like, let's go to the

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Speaker 1: like nine o'clock, somewhere around nine o'clock, and a few

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Speaker 1: of us went and a few of us didn't. That

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Speaker 1: was a shot. I knew it was coming. I was

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Speaker 1: waiting for it. Let me just explain something. We are friends,

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Speaker 1: had us come to Whiskey Rot four actually showed up

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Speaker 1: at five thirties. So I'm not making my story any better,

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Speaker 1: but that was right. There's like that window of dinner

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Speaker 1: if I go to the gay bar without eating anything.

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Speaker 1: I mean I could have maybe ordered food at Whiskey Row,

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Speaker 1: but I didn't. It was like not happening. In the

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Speaker 1: scene that we were in. It was packed. Well it

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Speaker 1: able to do what I went there to do, which

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Speaker 1: and like, I'm not the biggest fan of drag queens

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Speaker 1: just like, But I will tell you the ones at

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Speaker 1: the bars called Play here Nashville, and several of the

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Speaker 1: drag queens um from RuPaul's Drag Race come out of this.

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Speaker 1: It's one of the best drag bars in I've actually

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Speaker 1: worked with one of them for a Jack White video.

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Speaker 1: His name was Andrew and he was on His name

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Speaker 1: was Princess. Yeah he's beautiful and so sweet, but he

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Speaker 1: used to work at play before he I think he won.

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Speaker 1: I think he did win. Yeah, I think he did win.

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Speaker 1: And but like the screaming from the crowd, you would

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Speaker 1: have thought Taylor Swift walked onto the stan, I mean,

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Speaker 1: did she great? No? No, But they were like there

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Speaker 1: were Bachelotte groups. There was a whole group of dudes

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Speaker 1: were down from New York, like, and it was like

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Speaker 1: at once I like said check you well, I didn't

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Speaker 1: say check yourself. Mary Hilliard was like your yeah, like

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Speaker 1: I was like, there's a fifteen cover, because my plan

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Speaker 1: about the cover. I heard about the cover. I was like,

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Speaker 1: my excuse to not go. I was like, I was like,

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Speaker 1: I was like this sucks, blah blah blah, and she

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Speaker 1: Like the second and opened was like the gates we

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Speaker 1: her and I was like, Shelley, sweetheart, like I don't

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Speaker 1: did you really, sweetheartheart? I've me honey, honey. Um No,

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Speaker 1: I didn't say that to her, but I basically it

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Speaker 1: like if you don't want to stay, like, you're of

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Speaker 1: because of course there's a place in the world for them.

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Speaker 1: I love the refuge that they like provide, like everyone

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Speaker 1: And I love the self reflection that actually ended up

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Speaker 1: interesting introspective point to help you. I think, now that

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Speaker 1: you have the awareness grow out of it. Well that's

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Speaker 1: the thing is, like I've always been more comfortable around women,

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Speaker 1: Like most of my closest friends are women, and you know,

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Speaker 1: like in the movies, like every gay has their like

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Speaker 1: doesn't make sense for like me to be at the

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Speaker 1: and like have that camaraderie with, because it is a

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Speaker 1: don't make up for gay men. Like it's they're very

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Speaker 1: different beings. But I have somehow convinced myself that like it's, oh,

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Speaker 1: so I think, like it's a challenge for me. I've

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Speaker 1: got to go out and like, but I also love

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Speaker 1: forcing me now to be like, no, I'm enough because

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00:21:39,359 --> 00:21:42,600
Speaker 1: I fucking woke up today and like who I am

428
00:21:42,680 --> 00:21:45,480
Speaker 1: is enough in general, and I think as life goes on,

429
00:21:45,600 --> 00:21:49,320
Speaker 1: we're all forced to kind of face that. Yeah, it's

430
00:21:49,440 --> 00:21:52,560
Speaker 1: I mean, it's funny because I you know, it is

431
00:21:52,600 --> 00:21:55,760
Speaker 1: obviously it's Pride Month, which maybe we should Oh my god,

432
00:21:55,760 --> 00:21:58,399
Speaker 1: we should totally have talked about that when we have

433
00:21:58,440 --> 00:22:01,800
Speaker 1: a whole month. But like, I'm not gonna find it.

434
00:22:01,920 --> 00:22:04,320
Speaker 1: This literally popped in my head. So sorry Susan that

435
00:22:04,400 --> 00:22:08,960
Speaker 1: I'm not prepared. But um, my friend posted something about

436
00:22:09,000 --> 00:22:12,679
Speaker 1: Pride Month and it was like this is it's not

437
00:22:12,720 --> 00:22:15,560
Speaker 1: about being proud of being gay, Like that's not what

438
00:22:15,600 --> 00:22:18,120
Speaker 1: this month is about. It's about being proud of who

439
00:22:18,240 --> 00:22:22,000
Speaker 1: you are and existing in the world as your authentic

440
00:22:22,040 --> 00:22:25,240
Speaker 1: self and that's what we be. That's what we're celebrating

441
00:22:25,280 --> 00:22:28,360
Speaker 1: this month. And that like it hit me. I think

442
00:22:28,359 --> 00:22:30,320
Speaker 1: I took a screenshot. I'm well used my phone to

443
00:22:30,359 --> 00:22:32,040
Speaker 1: record the video of this, so I can't look at

444
00:22:32,040 --> 00:22:33,800
Speaker 1: it right now. But I took a screenshot of it

445
00:22:33,840 --> 00:22:36,960
Speaker 1: because I was like, that's a really nice reminder because

446
00:22:37,440 --> 00:22:40,320
Speaker 1: you know, for me, who isn't like out of the

447
00:22:40,359 --> 00:22:42,720
Speaker 1: gay bars and like flying the Pride flag all the time.

448
00:22:42,760 --> 00:22:46,320
Speaker 1: Like sometimes during Pride month, I get even more reserved

449
00:22:46,440 --> 00:22:50,240
Speaker 1: because like it never felt comfortable to me to be like, hey,

450
00:22:50,280 --> 00:22:54,280
Speaker 1: hey I'm gay. Yeah you know, like but I'm also

451
00:22:54,359 --> 00:22:59,000
Speaker 1: but hey hey I'm gay. But now I'm like, no, hey, yay,

452
00:22:59,040 --> 00:23:03,240
Speaker 1: I'm me exactly, And that is like it was like

453
00:23:03,280 --> 00:23:06,119
Speaker 1: a game changer. It's such a bigger message because it

454
00:23:06,160 --> 00:23:09,040
Speaker 1: doesn't have to be gay, straight, woman, man, and it's

455
00:23:09,119 --> 00:23:12,840
Speaker 1: all encompassing to where nobody is better than another. Like

456
00:23:13,160 --> 00:23:14,840
Speaker 1: sometimes I feel like that and I hear what you're

457
00:23:14,840 --> 00:23:17,520
Speaker 1: saying about you kind of like lean back during this

458
00:23:17,600 --> 00:23:19,880
Speaker 1: like Pride, because I feel like that when it's like

459
00:23:20,320 --> 00:23:22,800
Speaker 1: women's independence and all the like, you know, we have

460
00:23:22,880 --> 00:23:25,040
Speaker 1: the same kind of deals like the day of blah

461
00:23:25,080 --> 00:23:26,480
Speaker 1: blah blah. I don't I can't even think of any

462
00:23:26,520 --> 00:23:29,320
Speaker 1: right now. I'll probably get hate mail about that, but

463
00:23:29,320 --> 00:23:33,080
Speaker 1: but when it happens, you're sort of like, okay, guys,

464
00:23:33,200 --> 00:23:37,399
Speaker 1: like let's just like can't we all just put ourselves

465
00:23:37,400 --> 00:23:39,600
Speaker 1: on this even playing field. That's what we're asking for, right,

466
00:23:39,640 --> 00:23:41,119
Speaker 1: And you do want to support each other and you

467
00:23:41,160 --> 00:23:43,120
Speaker 1: do want to build yourself up, but it is about

468
00:23:43,160 --> 00:23:46,399
Speaker 1: being your authentic self and accepting yourself for who you

469
00:23:46,440 --> 00:23:51,240
Speaker 1: are and living in your whatever that nothing to do

470
00:23:51,280 --> 00:23:53,600
Speaker 1: with you you're actually sleeping with. And I think it's

471
00:23:53,600 --> 00:23:58,359
Speaker 1: like a nice reminder to like for straight, straight allies,

472
00:23:59,000 --> 00:24:03,440
Speaker 1: or whether it's men during Women's Month or Caucasians during

473
00:24:03,480 --> 00:24:09,000
Speaker 1: African American Like, it is like it's not about just

474
00:24:09,160 --> 00:24:15,440
Speaker 1: focusing on someone who's other. It's about like actually embracing

475
00:24:15,480 --> 00:24:19,720
Speaker 1: them and seeing yourself and everybody because it's like, when

476
00:24:19,720 --> 00:24:21,840
Speaker 1: you're proud of who you are, there's a little piece

477
00:24:21,880 --> 00:24:25,119
Speaker 1: of you and everyone you know. So, um, you know,

478
00:24:25,200 --> 00:24:27,359
Speaker 1: that's sort of like how I want to approach this month.

479
00:24:27,400 --> 00:24:28,960
Speaker 1: So maybe we can we can put on that a

480
00:24:29,000 --> 00:24:32,720
Speaker 1: little bit. Next. Yeah, we did just mention who you

481
00:24:32,760 --> 00:24:37,880
Speaker 1: have sex with, and so we were speaking of being

482
00:24:37,920 --> 00:24:43,399
Speaker 1: authentic or in authentic or inauthentic. Let's talk about faking orgasms.

483
00:24:44,000 --> 00:24:46,440
Speaker 1: So let's talk about how we even got to this topic.

484
00:24:46,800 --> 00:24:50,760
Speaker 1: Um wait, why did we get to this topic? I mean,

485
00:24:51,000 --> 00:24:53,040
Speaker 1: we've gone through a couple. Oh, I was telling you

486
00:24:53,080 --> 00:24:55,720
Speaker 1: I remember now, so I did. I did a podcast

487
00:24:55,720 --> 00:24:59,280
Speaker 1: earlier this week about good girl myths. So her name

488
00:24:59,320 --> 00:25:03,240
Speaker 1: is mah Home Alfino Malfino, and she wrote this amazing

489
00:25:03,280 --> 00:25:06,040
Speaker 1: book about how to break the good girl Myths. And

490
00:25:06,320 --> 00:25:08,360
Speaker 1: I think there's programming and everyone right Like, I don't

491
00:25:08,400 --> 00:25:10,359
Speaker 1: think this is just specific to women. I think women

492
00:25:10,400 --> 00:25:12,200
Speaker 1: are just talking about it a lot more right now

493
00:25:12,880 --> 00:25:15,000
Speaker 1: as a part of this like feminist movement and really

494
00:25:15,000 --> 00:25:18,359
Speaker 1: trying to find an equal playing field for ourselves in

495
00:25:18,400 --> 00:25:21,840
Speaker 1: the world. And um, breaking the good girl myths to

496
00:25:22,080 --> 00:25:25,320
Speaker 1: me is super a super big part of that. And

497
00:25:25,359 --> 00:25:29,040
Speaker 1: so you know, it's things like perfectionism or harmony or

498
00:25:29,160 --> 00:25:32,080
Speaker 1: logic or all these things that we do and tell ourselves.

499
00:25:32,640 --> 00:25:35,280
Speaker 1: You have to be perfect for this relationship to work,

500
00:25:35,320 --> 00:25:37,840
Speaker 1: for this person to love you, to keep the peace,

501
00:25:38,080 --> 00:25:40,640
Speaker 1: you have to always be happy, to be like, keep

502
00:25:40,640 --> 00:25:44,280
Speaker 1: the harmony to um, make sure life is good, and

503
00:25:44,320 --> 00:25:46,560
Speaker 1: all of these things. And it really kind of stifles

504
00:25:46,720 --> 00:25:49,399
Speaker 1: who you are as a woman. And also it's that

505
00:25:49,520 --> 00:25:54,000
Speaker 1: same messaging of like what you are is not enough, Um,

506
00:25:54,119 --> 00:25:57,160
Speaker 1: you need to go do more to earn this love

507
00:25:57,240 --> 00:25:59,879
Speaker 1: or earn whatever, and it's so old and it's been

508
00:26:00,119 --> 00:26:02,520
Speaker 1: most of us since childhood, and so it's hard to

509
00:26:02,560 --> 00:26:05,560
Speaker 1: really break. But we were talking about it and I

510
00:26:05,720 --> 00:26:09,119
Speaker 1: thought to myself, oh my god, this totally ties into

511
00:26:09,200 --> 00:26:12,640
Speaker 1: why so many women fake orgasms, I think, And there's

512
00:26:12,640 --> 00:26:15,240
Speaker 1: a lot of the there's a lot tied into that.

513
00:26:15,359 --> 00:26:19,240
Speaker 1: But one of the things that I think you and

514
00:26:19,280 --> 00:26:22,400
Speaker 1: I started discussing was one, we don't know our bodies

515
00:26:22,640 --> 00:26:24,600
Speaker 1: the way that men do because it has not been

516
00:26:24,640 --> 00:26:28,240
Speaker 1: programmed into into us in my generation. That that's okay,

517
00:26:28,320 --> 00:26:30,639
Speaker 1: Like it's starting to be talked about and it's starting

518
00:26:30,680 --> 00:26:34,920
Speaker 1: to be accepted that women masturbate or women want to

519
00:26:34,960 --> 00:26:38,359
Speaker 1: have orgasms or any of these things. But before like now,

520
00:26:39,280 --> 00:26:42,440
Speaker 1: as far as I know, at least maybe during the

521
00:26:42,480 --> 00:26:45,119
Speaker 1: woodstock days and when things were free and whatever, it

522
00:26:45,160 --> 00:26:48,040
Speaker 1: was different. But there's a lot of programming and women

523
00:26:48,080 --> 00:26:51,000
Speaker 1: to just show up and be there for a man

524
00:26:51,200 --> 00:26:54,639
Speaker 1: to really enjoy sex and to be basically like a

525
00:26:54,680 --> 00:26:57,320
Speaker 1: fucking hole in like a body, you know, and like

526
00:26:57,840 --> 00:26:59,720
Speaker 1: there's not a lot of pleasure in that for us,

527
00:27:00,280 --> 00:27:03,280
Speaker 1: and also just kind of to be like I don't

528
00:27:03,280 --> 00:27:05,280
Speaker 1: know if it was like the expectation was put on

529
00:27:05,320 --> 00:27:10,000
Speaker 1: women to be prudish, but it was kind of an expectation.

530
00:27:10,160 --> 00:27:14,480
Speaker 1: Like I mean even in The Bridesmaids when they're talking

531
00:27:14,520 --> 00:27:17,239
Speaker 1: about like having kids, they're like, well, we don't have

532
00:27:17,280 --> 00:27:19,960
Speaker 1: boys because the sheets break, you know, they crack in half,

533
00:27:19,960 --> 00:27:22,240
Speaker 1: they stand up on their own. It's like you can

534
00:27:22,600 --> 00:27:26,440
Speaker 1: like boy and there's always a stereotypical like I walked

535
00:27:26,440 --> 00:27:28,720
Speaker 1: in and caught my son jacking off, or like the

536
00:27:28,840 --> 00:27:32,080
Speaker 1: common sock or like those things are like talked about regularly,

537
00:27:32,119 --> 00:27:34,719
Speaker 1: but like no one was like I walked in and

538
00:27:34,720 --> 00:27:37,879
Speaker 1: saw my daughter rubbing one out, you know. Like so

539
00:27:38,000 --> 00:27:40,879
Speaker 1: just talking about the fact that it happens in like

540
00:27:40,920 --> 00:27:44,720
Speaker 1: a local way about boys does make it a little

541
00:27:44,720 --> 00:27:51,600
Speaker 1: bit more like accepted in society. Fucking hate so many levels.

542
00:27:51,640 --> 00:27:54,320
Speaker 1: But yeah, like I told you before we started recording,

543
00:27:54,400 --> 00:27:56,720
Speaker 1: Like when I was growing up, and especially like in

544
00:27:56,840 --> 00:28:00,399
Speaker 1: high school days or even in college, like my friends

545
00:28:00,440 --> 00:28:03,040
Speaker 1: were all just kind of like we didn't even talk

546
00:28:03,080 --> 00:28:06,080
Speaker 1: about it or it wasn't this like normal thing. Everyone

547
00:28:06,119 --> 00:28:07,520
Speaker 1: was kind of like, oh no, I don't do that,

548
00:28:07,680 --> 00:28:10,000
Speaker 1: or like kind of like I don't like that, Like

549
00:28:10,040 --> 00:28:12,119
Speaker 1: I'd rather be with a guy, or I'd rather have

550
00:28:12,160 --> 00:28:15,480
Speaker 1: a partner. You know whatever it was like, nobody seemed

551
00:28:15,560 --> 00:28:19,879
Speaker 1: really that interested in doing that. And honestly, if I

552
00:28:20,000 --> 00:28:22,080
Speaker 1: really think back about it, I feel like it's because

553
00:28:22,119 --> 00:28:25,280
Speaker 1: we didn't know how, which is wild to think about,

554
00:28:25,400 --> 00:28:28,919
Speaker 1: but like because mother is teaching you, nobody's teaching you.

555
00:28:28,960 --> 00:28:30,600
Speaker 1: I mean, you can feel around for a minute, but

556
00:28:30,600 --> 00:28:33,040
Speaker 1: it's like a little more complicated than a dude. And

557
00:28:33,080 --> 00:28:36,480
Speaker 1: it's also internal where a guy, like a boy is

558
00:28:36,480 --> 00:28:38,320
Speaker 1: playing with his dick from the day he comes out

559
00:28:38,320 --> 00:28:41,720
Speaker 1: of you know, like you're familiar with it, and one

560
00:28:41,800 --> 00:28:45,440
Speaker 1: day you get aroused. Yeah, and so then you're like

561
00:28:45,480 --> 00:28:51,040
Speaker 1: and then I remember, what was that? Yeah? Like I've

562
00:28:51,040 --> 00:28:52,800
Speaker 1: actually heard a lot of dudes be like I didn't

563
00:28:52,800 --> 00:28:55,560
Speaker 1: know what just what happened right, Like it just felt

564
00:28:55,600 --> 00:28:58,560
Speaker 1: good and then all of a sudden it was that yeah,

565
00:28:58,680 --> 00:29:01,000
Speaker 1: or then but you didn't even under stand like what

566
00:29:01,120 --> 00:29:03,440
Speaker 1: it So anyway, it was just such an interesting thing,

567
00:29:03,440 --> 00:29:05,800
Speaker 1: and we start having these conversations about like why girls

568
00:29:05,840 --> 00:29:08,440
Speaker 1: do that. I think a lot of girls, once you

569
00:29:08,480 --> 00:29:11,440
Speaker 1: get older, do it because it's just fucking easier to

570
00:29:11,480 --> 00:29:14,280
Speaker 1: be like, yeah, this isn't going to happen, and you're like, okay, cool,

571
00:29:14,360 --> 00:29:17,120
Speaker 1: let's look like and like what high schoolers do you

572
00:29:17,160 --> 00:29:20,280
Speaker 1: know that are like buying toys, you know what I mean, Like,

573
00:29:20,400 --> 00:29:22,800
Speaker 1: I do think things are different nowadays because of porn.

574
00:29:23,000 --> 00:29:24,840
Speaker 1: Do you feel that, Yeah, I mean like porn has

575
00:29:24,840 --> 00:29:27,320
Speaker 1: always been around, but it's not in the capacity that

576
00:29:27,360 --> 00:29:31,400
Speaker 1: it is until your family was in bed and throwing

577
00:29:31,440 --> 00:29:34,520
Speaker 1: the vhs and you know, you're buying magazines, Like it

578
00:29:34,600 --> 00:29:38,040
Speaker 1: wasn't like easily accessible when you're fucking found. I mean,

579
00:29:38,040 --> 00:29:41,120
Speaker 1: you don't have it anywhere now totally, and like that

580
00:29:41,240 --> 00:29:43,120
Speaker 1: is another part of the problem to me though, is

581
00:29:43,160 --> 00:29:47,480
Speaker 1: like a lot of the heterosexual porn is so driven

582
00:29:47,640 --> 00:29:50,960
Speaker 1: again for the male orgasm. It's like if guys are

583
00:29:51,000 --> 00:29:54,040
Speaker 1: watching this and they really think that those girls are

584
00:29:54,080 --> 00:29:57,960
Speaker 1: having real orgasms, Like that's another part of the whole problem.

585
00:29:58,160 --> 00:30:00,320
Speaker 1: I mean, like the guys are faking a lot of

586
00:30:00,360 --> 00:30:02,720
Speaker 1: them too. I mean, like, OK, so you said this

587
00:30:02,760 --> 00:30:04,880
Speaker 1: to me, so it's like let's talk about that. Yeah,

588
00:30:04,960 --> 00:30:08,160
Speaker 1: I mean, well, well, I mean in porn, because it's

589
00:30:08,160 --> 00:30:09,840
Speaker 1: a lot of it's acting. Like if you really look

590
00:30:09,840 --> 00:30:12,400
Speaker 1: at porn, like a lot of the even the noises

591
00:30:12,440 --> 00:30:15,360
Speaker 1: that you're hearing is done in like post. It's like

592
00:30:15,440 --> 00:30:19,520
Speaker 1: done in post like someone's watching it being like like

593
00:30:19,600 --> 00:30:22,560
Speaker 1: you're like, wait that somebody just got smacked and there

594
00:30:22,600 --> 00:30:26,800
Speaker 1: was no or the SmackDown comes like it's so annoying

595
00:30:27,280 --> 00:30:30,120
Speaker 1: it's dumb. But no, I mean it's well. In our

596
00:30:30,160 --> 00:30:32,400
Speaker 1: conversations when we started talking about the topic, I was like,

597
00:30:32,440 --> 00:30:35,080
Speaker 1: I mean men fake it too. This is what I

598
00:30:35,080 --> 00:30:39,000
Speaker 1: don't understand. Yeah, well I gotta understand how girls do it,

599
00:30:39,080 --> 00:30:41,920
Speaker 1: and like how a guy wouldn't know because there's a

600
00:30:41,960 --> 00:30:44,280
Speaker 1: lot of things like with the girl. And I will

601
00:30:44,320 --> 00:30:47,200
Speaker 1: say this, if there's any guys listening, you can basically

602
00:30:47,280 --> 00:30:49,880
Speaker 1: google how do I know if my girl is faking it?

603
00:30:49,920 --> 00:30:51,720
Speaker 1: And it'll tell you all the ways and like those

604
00:30:51,760 --> 00:30:59,720
Speaker 1: are true, Like there's all of these things. Hello, when

605
00:30:59,720 --> 00:31:03,120
Speaker 1: you you know a ton about vagina, isn't it It's like,

606
00:31:04,000 --> 00:31:09,080
Speaker 1: well that's a but that is a thing. I told

607
00:31:09,120 --> 00:31:11,280
Speaker 1: you about this and like you can even kind of fake.

608
00:31:11,400 --> 00:31:13,960
Speaker 1: You're like it's basically like keegels And I was like, no,

609
00:31:14,320 --> 00:31:17,600
Speaker 1: it's really not. And I like did a video and

610
00:31:17,760 --> 00:31:20,760
Speaker 1: I'm like demonstrating to it looks like you know, it's

611
00:31:20,760 --> 00:31:24,320
Speaker 1: like it's like uncontrollable, like whatever. Basically the same as

612
00:31:24,320 --> 00:31:28,080
Speaker 1: though it is for a guy, Like if you if

613
00:31:28,120 --> 00:31:29,840
Speaker 1: you think that your girl is having one, when do

614
00:31:29,840 --> 00:31:32,320
Speaker 1: you think she's doing a kegel squeeze? Well, you know

615
00:31:32,360 --> 00:31:37,040
Speaker 1: what's funny, Like there are I mean, for for guys,

616
00:31:37,920 --> 00:31:42,120
Speaker 1: there is a difference between truly having orgasm and coming Okay,

617
00:31:42,160 --> 00:31:44,560
Speaker 1: what do you mean? Tell me? Like, I like, you

618
00:31:44,560 --> 00:31:47,680
Speaker 1: can just kind of get yourself to come, which is

619
00:31:47,720 --> 00:31:53,200
Speaker 1: technically and physically an orgasm, like when you have a

620
00:31:53,280 --> 00:31:56,400
Speaker 1: real orgasm when you are aroused and it's like you're

621
00:31:56,400 --> 00:31:59,640
Speaker 1: in rhythm with your partner, Like it's the same thing

622
00:31:59,680 --> 00:32:02,560
Speaker 1: where it takes over your body and like sometimes it's

623
00:32:02,560 --> 00:32:06,520
Speaker 1: like it hurts. It feels so good, you know. But

624
00:32:06,600 --> 00:32:09,520
Speaker 1: there's like times like when when like when I think

625
00:32:09,560 --> 00:32:11,800
Speaker 1: it happens a lot more times when when you're masturbating

626
00:32:11,800 --> 00:32:16,240
Speaker 1: and it's really just about getting off and needing that release.

627
00:32:16,400 --> 00:32:18,320
Speaker 1: You've always said, it's not the same. It's not the same.

628
00:32:18,320 --> 00:32:20,239
Speaker 1: But like when you're like in the thick of it

629
00:32:20,320 --> 00:32:25,040
Speaker 1: and you have a an orgasm, like it can be

630
00:32:25,120 --> 00:32:28,760
Speaker 1: like your body tenses, it's like a full body experience.

631
00:32:28,760 --> 00:32:30,880
Speaker 1: What is it If you just kind of understand the difference,

632
00:32:31,160 --> 00:32:34,000
Speaker 1: it's I mean, it still feels good. It's just not

633
00:32:34,160 --> 00:32:37,960
Speaker 1: like you can. It's just like a one versus a

634
00:32:38,040 --> 00:32:44,600
Speaker 1: tenet that it's probably like, you know, it's a guy

635
00:32:44,720 --> 00:32:49,880
Speaker 1: can in any sort of sexual situation come come to release.

636
00:32:50,120 --> 00:32:52,200
Speaker 1: You know, it's just gonna happen. But I don't know

637
00:32:52,240 --> 00:32:54,640
Speaker 1: that all of them are true orgasms either, you know,

638
00:32:54,840 --> 00:32:58,040
Speaker 1: Like so I never thought about it that way. I actually,

639
00:32:58,040 --> 00:33:00,320
Speaker 1: when I heard you say that guys fake or essence

640
00:33:00,360 --> 00:33:03,320
Speaker 1: to thought about it in the capacity of like, how

641
00:33:03,360 --> 00:33:06,840
Speaker 1: would they not how would they fake coming? But I

642
00:33:06,840 --> 00:33:09,240
Speaker 1: guess if you were wearing a condom, you can throw

643
00:33:09,280 --> 00:33:11,720
Speaker 1: it away pretty quickly, or you could say like, oh

644
00:33:11,800 --> 00:33:13,600
Speaker 1: I didn't it wasn't a very big load. I jacked

645
00:33:13,600 --> 00:33:17,200
Speaker 1: off earlier, you know what I mean, Because there's there's

646
00:33:17,200 --> 00:33:19,480
Speaker 1: obviously a difference like if if you've had sex, say

647
00:33:19,520 --> 00:33:22,240
Speaker 1: you've had you had sex earlier, and then the woman

648
00:33:22,280 --> 00:33:24,080
Speaker 1: you're with or the guy you're with wants to do

649
00:33:24,120 --> 00:33:26,120
Speaker 1: it again and you're like, I'm really not into this.

650
00:33:26,240 --> 00:33:29,920
Speaker 1: So I mean, it's like so interesting to the tank

651
00:33:30,040 --> 00:33:33,360
Speaker 1: is empty, you know. Yeah, yeah, that's true. I guess

652
00:33:33,360 --> 00:33:36,080
Speaker 1: I just always like what's beat into our heads about

653
00:33:36,120 --> 00:33:38,520
Speaker 1: dudes is that y'all are always in the mood for sex,

654
00:33:38,560 --> 00:33:41,440
Speaker 1: and I actually don't think that that's true either. Well, look,

655
00:33:41,480 --> 00:33:44,520
Speaker 1: we all find ourselves in situations where we're like with somebody,

656
00:33:44,800 --> 00:33:47,880
Speaker 1: we're like, we're not really that into the person, and

657
00:33:48,000 --> 00:33:50,160
Speaker 1: sometimes it's easier just to go ahead and like do

658
00:33:50,240 --> 00:33:53,680
Speaker 1: the deed. But then when they're like, let's keep going,

659
00:33:53,760 --> 00:33:58,720
Speaker 1: you're like, I'm tired. You're like. We have a friend

660
00:33:58,720 --> 00:34:00,760
Speaker 1: who used to say she would play pause and when

661
00:34:00,760 --> 00:34:02,080
Speaker 1: she didn't want to a cup with theim, I just

662
00:34:02,120 --> 00:34:05,040
Speaker 1: lay there like she was asleep. Um, well there was

663
00:34:05,040 --> 00:34:07,680
Speaker 1: a very famous person she did that too. She rubbed

664
00:34:07,680 --> 00:34:11,120
Speaker 1: his nipples. Oh man, we shouldn't really say who it is.

665
00:34:11,160 --> 00:34:15,920
Speaker 1: It's hilarious. Um, why don't you give a bar from

666
00:34:15,920 --> 00:34:20,920
Speaker 1: a song? We don't need to, we don't need to

667
00:34:20,920 --> 00:34:25,839
Speaker 1: pay publishing. Figure it out from that. She was damn

668
00:34:25,920 --> 00:34:36,080
Speaker 1: it anyway, I think the girls. So I had a tangent,

669
00:34:36,120 --> 00:34:39,960
Speaker 1: and then I got really stuck on the rubbing the nipples.

670
00:34:40,920 --> 00:34:44,120
Speaker 1: Your nipples rubbed this week? Und oh my god, I

671
00:34:44,280 --> 00:34:48,360
Speaker 1: forgot about that. I literally forgot about that to you

672
00:34:48,480 --> 00:34:51,920
Speaker 1: just said it. I just had a hot kissed me

673
00:34:51,960 --> 00:34:54,200
Speaker 1: on my face. She kissed you on the lips. We

674
00:34:54,320 --> 00:34:56,400
Speaker 1: had a friend who had friends coming down. I totally

675
00:34:56,680 --> 00:34:58,640
Speaker 1: forgot about that. We're totally on a tangent right now,

676
00:34:58,640 --> 00:35:00,719
Speaker 1: but we need to talk about I'm so sorry because

677
00:35:00,719 --> 00:35:03,480
Speaker 1: this is very unprepared, but y'all need to know this story.

678
00:35:03,840 --> 00:35:07,719
Speaker 1: So when we were at Whiskey Row, I first of

679
00:35:07,719 --> 00:35:10,359
Speaker 1: all was standing there just having a conversation with Mary.

680
00:35:10,440 --> 00:35:12,360
Speaker 1: I wasn't saying anything like I mean, I was just

681
00:35:12,400 --> 00:35:15,560
Speaker 1: like having a normal conversation, not doing anything weird. And

682
00:35:15,719 --> 00:35:18,840
Speaker 1: this is one of our friend's boyfriend's friend was in

683
00:35:18,920 --> 00:35:21,120
Speaker 1: town from Ohio. That's like a little long tanged too.

684
00:35:21,440 --> 00:35:23,879
Speaker 1: But anyway, she was a stranger to I've never met

685
00:35:23,880 --> 00:35:25,759
Speaker 1: this girl. So she walks up to me and Mary

686
00:35:25,760 --> 00:35:27,600
Speaker 1: and she was like, wait, I'm gonna say she's not

687
00:35:27,640 --> 00:35:30,120
Speaker 1: a girl. This is a This is like a forty

688
00:35:30,200 --> 00:35:33,120
Speaker 1: some year old mother of two kind of little lady.

689
00:35:33,360 --> 00:35:35,439
Speaker 1: I mean she's all of five ft tall. I don't

690
00:35:35,440 --> 00:35:38,160
Speaker 1: even know a backpack on. I mean, she was like

691
00:35:38,280 --> 00:35:44,960
Speaker 1: she became in her husband there. She was super fun. Um.

692
00:35:45,000 --> 00:35:46,799
Speaker 1: But yeah, she walks over to me and Mary. Mary

693
00:35:46,880 --> 00:35:49,960
Speaker 1: is like, I love this girl. She's so fun. She

694
00:35:50,120 --> 00:35:54,000
Speaker 1: was like pounding tequila. I guess and she literally asked

695
00:35:54,000 --> 00:35:56,440
Speaker 1: me what I had on and I go oh, Like,

696
00:35:56,680 --> 00:35:58,120
Speaker 1: I was like, what do you mean? And she's like,

697
00:35:58,200 --> 00:36:00,120
Speaker 1: under your jacket is that a body suit? I was like,

698
00:36:00,160 --> 00:36:02,120
Speaker 1: oh yeah, she just let me see it, so I'm

699
00:36:02,120 --> 00:36:05,719
Speaker 1: like oop in my jacket to show her. But she

700
00:36:05,840 --> 00:36:07,759
Speaker 1: was like do you have But we were talking about

701
00:36:07,800 --> 00:36:09,840
Speaker 1: that I didn't wear a bra. I have like small boobs.

702
00:36:09,880 --> 00:36:12,120
Speaker 1: I never wear a fucking bra, right, It's one of

703
00:36:12,160 --> 00:36:14,839
Speaker 1: the perks of having small boobs, And so they're talking

704
00:36:14,840 --> 00:36:17,800
Speaker 1: about how they can never do that, and she literally

705
00:36:17,840 --> 00:36:20,680
Speaker 1: before I know it is like she's like looks at

706
00:36:20,719 --> 00:36:24,759
Speaker 1: my bodies and then before she's rubbing my nipples and

707
00:36:24,840 --> 00:36:28,920
Speaker 1: like they got hard. It's like to come back to

708
00:36:28,960 --> 00:36:31,279
Speaker 1: do it more. You're like I liked that. That was

709
00:36:31,320 --> 00:36:34,279
Speaker 1: like a joke, but like, yes, it was just I

710
00:36:34,320 --> 00:36:36,879
Speaker 1: literally was like, oh, Hi, nice to meet you. Rub

711
00:36:36,960 --> 00:36:40,400
Speaker 1: my fucking nipples. Well. Then she then she came up.

712
00:36:40,480 --> 00:36:42,759
Speaker 1: Then she got me. She like back danced, upped on me,

713
00:36:43,320 --> 00:36:46,480
Speaker 1: back danced up on me, backed up her thing and

714
00:36:46,640 --> 00:36:49,719
Speaker 1: like was like grinding on me and then telling me

715
00:36:49,760 --> 00:36:52,480
Speaker 1: how she she has to beg her husband to funk

716
00:36:52,480 --> 00:36:55,280
Speaker 1: her in the ass. Like she likes to be choked

717
00:36:55,360 --> 00:36:56,839
Speaker 1: and fucked in the butt, but she has to beg

718
00:36:56,880 --> 00:37:00,239
Speaker 1: for it to be your husband to do that, like

719
00:37:00,320 --> 00:37:03,640
Speaker 1: most guys are begging their but like, it's probably because

720
00:37:03,640 --> 00:37:06,680
Speaker 1: she comes in hot on him. You know, we're real hot.

721
00:37:07,000 --> 00:37:11,160
Speaker 1: I bet he's faked a few orgasms just to be literally,

722
00:37:11,360 --> 00:37:15,560
Speaker 1: I'm not choking you tonight, babe, honey. He was so sweet.

723
00:37:15,560 --> 00:37:17,360
Speaker 1: I asked her, I was like, what is in your backpack?

724
00:37:17,400 --> 00:37:20,640
Speaker 1: On iPad? And she was like, fuck you, I'm just

725
00:37:20,640 --> 00:37:23,359
Speaker 1: going to school. No. Actually her response was even better.

726
00:37:23,400 --> 00:37:27,879
Speaker 1: She has a lot of money and tampons. She's ready

727
00:37:27,880 --> 00:37:29,640
Speaker 1: to take Nashville. I mean it's kind of a smart way.

728
00:37:29,640 --> 00:37:31,120
Speaker 1: If you've got a bunch of cash in your bag,

729
00:37:31,239 --> 00:37:33,040
Speaker 1: put a bunch of tampons on it. Nobody's going to

730
00:37:33,120 --> 00:37:36,360
Speaker 1: be like I love that. You really check the tampons safe.

731
00:37:37,000 --> 00:37:40,000
Speaker 1: They literally they opened and they're like, you grow tampons.

732
00:37:40,120 --> 00:37:42,200
Speaker 1: Wait did she kiss me on the mouth? Yeah? She

733
00:37:42,280 --> 00:37:45,080
Speaker 1: kiss me on the mouth several times? My god. I

734
00:37:45,080 --> 00:37:47,919
Speaker 1: mean she was like a fun little party trick. Though. Well,

735
00:37:48,160 --> 00:37:52,600
Speaker 1: well there you go anyway back Organs. I don't really

736
00:37:52,640 --> 00:37:54,680
Speaker 1: know if we're even making our point here. I feel

737
00:37:54,680 --> 00:37:56,400
Speaker 1: like we sort of came in hot with this topic,

738
00:37:56,440 --> 00:37:59,000
Speaker 1: and do you think we did it? I wanted to

739
00:37:59,000 --> 00:38:01,719
Speaker 1: know more about min faking in well, I mean, well,

740
00:38:01,760 --> 00:38:04,600
Speaker 1: here's the thing what I read, and I feel like

741
00:38:04,600 --> 00:38:07,360
Speaker 1: a lot of these articles pulled from the same sources.

742
00:38:07,360 --> 00:38:13,560
Speaker 1: But basically, in a study of men eighteen to nine, UM,

743
00:38:13,600 --> 00:38:18,040
Speaker 1: thirty of men admitted to having faked orgasms compared to

744
00:38:18,280 --> 00:38:21,279
Speaker 1: women is around six Right, where do you know that?

745
00:38:23,000 --> 00:38:26,560
Speaker 1: So sixties? I mean, I've definitely faked orgasms in my life,

746
00:38:26,760 --> 00:38:29,600
Speaker 1: Like I don't make a fact. That was probably because

747
00:38:29,640 --> 00:38:31,759
Speaker 1: you didn't even know I told you, Like, I don't

748
00:38:31,800 --> 00:38:33,360
Speaker 1: think I had my first orgasm till I was in

749
00:38:33,400 --> 00:38:35,920
Speaker 1: my mid twenties, and so I didn't even really know

750
00:38:36,360 --> 00:38:41,640
Speaker 1: what was going. Like I was like, that's good, right, Um,

751
00:38:41,719 --> 00:38:43,919
Speaker 1: that's what I was saying about, like women not knowing

752
00:38:43,960 --> 00:38:45,719
Speaker 1: their own bodies. Like if you don't know how to

753
00:38:45,760 --> 00:38:48,000
Speaker 1: do it yourself, how then are going to tell someone

754
00:38:48,000 --> 00:38:49,879
Speaker 1: else what they need to do to get you there?

755
00:38:50,000 --> 00:38:51,719
Speaker 1: Like you don't even know how to do it, and

756
00:38:51,800 --> 00:38:53,680
Speaker 1: it is like a little more complex, but then once

757
00:38:53,719 --> 00:38:55,959
Speaker 1: you figure it out, it's really not and like you'll

758
00:38:56,000 --> 00:38:58,440
Speaker 1: know what you need for your body. The interesting part

759
00:38:58,480 --> 00:39:02,480
Speaker 1: about the statistic that you about women like six say

760
00:39:02,520 --> 00:39:06,080
Speaker 1: they have UM eighties something percent. I think it was

761
00:39:06,080 --> 00:39:08,279
Speaker 1: like eighties six or eighties seven percent of men think

762
00:39:08,320 --> 00:39:11,759
Speaker 1: that their partner never has. That's funny. So that just

763
00:39:11,800 --> 00:39:15,520
Speaker 1: goes to show you, like, yeah, like maybe I don't

764
00:39:15,520 --> 00:39:18,440
Speaker 1: know nobody's doing anyone any favors by faking an orgasm.

765
00:39:18,560 --> 00:39:22,840
Speaker 1: Well you know what's funny though, is UM? This article

766
00:39:22,880 --> 00:39:28,080
Speaker 1: on Glamour says, so obviously it's they admitted to Men

767
00:39:28,320 --> 00:39:30,520
Speaker 1: admitted to faking it during all types of sex acts,

768
00:39:30,560 --> 00:39:34,960
Speaker 1: but mostly when it's the penis and vagina, penis and anus,

769
00:39:35,000 --> 00:39:37,440
Speaker 1: Like we would have to be in something or else.

770
00:39:37,840 --> 00:39:40,279
Speaker 1: No one would be confused, right unless you use the

771
00:39:40,280 --> 00:39:43,040
Speaker 1: excuse of the chamber was empty, you know, I don't think.

772
00:39:43,640 --> 00:39:47,120
Speaker 1: But the most common reason why they did it was

773
00:39:47,160 --> 00:39:50,760
Speaker 1: to boost their partner's ego. And yeah, and it says

774
00:39:50,840 --> 00:39:54,680
Speaker 1: other motives um were to be sexy, to avoid upsetting

775
00:39:54,680 --> 00:39:57,400
Speaker 1: their partners, or because they were like on drugs or drunk.

776
00:39:58,120 --> 00:40:00,480
Speaker 1: And an interesting part of the study says the study

777
00:40:00,560 --> 00:40:03,640
Speaker 1: actually found that men who faked orgasms were happier with

778
00:40:03,680 --> 00:40:07,160
Speaker 1: their relationships. Both sexually and romantically. They also tended to

779
00:40:07,160 --> 00:40:09,880
Speaker 1: fake orgasms to make their partners happy or to create

780
00:40:09,920 --> 00:40:13,040
Speaker 1: the illusion of simultaneous orgasm, so it was really done

781
00:40:13,160 --> 00:40:16,319
Speaker 1: with the best of intentions. The simultaneous orgasm is like

782
00:40:16,560 --> 00:40:19,400
Speaker 1: such a bad idea for anybody, because like, this is

783
00:40:19,440 --> 00:40:22,680
Speaker 1: another thing in most of the articles that I read, like, um,

784
00:40:22,719 --> 00:40:24,719
Speaker 1: it says to guys, if you're going to come from me,

785
00:40:24,800 --> 00:40:27,759
Speaker 1: come from me, come on, come, come, screaming at a

786
00:40:27,760 --> 00:40:30,040
Speaker 1: girl like that's not and then she does it. That

787
00:40:30,080 --> 00:40:33,520
Speaker 1: means she's probably faking it, because like, and that is true.

788
00:40:33,680 --> 00:40:35,759
Speaker 1: I mean, it can be hot. I will say, like

789
00:40:35,800 --> 00:40:37,960
Speaker 1: if you're very in the moment and he says something

790
00:40:38,040 --> 00:40:41,560
Speaker 1: like that, you're like if you're right there already, but

791
00:40:41,719 --> 00:40:44,759
Speaker 1: like someone yelling at you to come is not going

792
00:40:44,800 --> 00:40:47,120
Speaker 1: to really make you get there. Have you ever had

793
00:40:47,360 --> 00:40:49,920
Speaker 1: a simultaneous orgasm? A couple of times yet it is

794
00:40:49,960 --> 00:40:52,960
Speaker 1: pretty funny, mind blowing. Yeah, it is magical when it

795
00:40:53,000 --> 00:40:56,080
Speaker 1: actually happens. And there's look, I think that like the

796
00:40:56,160 --> 00:40:59,319
Speaker 1: stars truly have to align. It's such a fluke. It's

797
00:40:59,360 --> 00:41:03,200
Speaker 1: such a flue. But when it does happen, it's fucking crazy. Yeah,

798
00:41:03,280 --> 00:41:04,920
Speaker 1: I agree, with that, but I just don't think it's

799
00:41:05,000 --> 00:41:08,160
Speaker 1: very common, and so it's like, maybe just let go

800
00:41:08,280 --> 00:41:11,000
Speaker 1: that idea and if it happens, it happens awesome. But

801
00:41:11,040 --> 00:41:13,120
Speaker 1: like I mean, honestly I think it would. The only

802
00:41:13,239 --> 00:41:15,400
Speaker 1: chance of it happening is if you're not thinking about

803
00:41:15,400 --> 00:41:17,160
Speaker 1: it happening. I think that's right. You have to be

804
00:41:17,200 --> 00:41:19,920
Speaker 1: so in the moment and the girl has to be

805
00:41:20,000 --> 00:41:22,799
Speaker 1: so much further along. We talked about this the guy, like,

806
00:41:23,520 --> 00:41:26,120
Speaker 1: I feel like a guy can go so fast and

807
00:41:26,120 --> 00:41:29,719
Speaker 1: a girl it just takes longer. Yeah, you gotta for

808
00:41:29,840 --> 00:41:34,080
Speaker 1: a play, Yeah, you gotta play with it. Yeah, that

809
00:41:34,160 --> 00:41:37,840
Speaker 1: little muff thing it's called a clip. Okay, well the

810
00:41:37,880 --> 00:41:40,800
Speaker 1: whole thing I'm talking about, the whole apparatus. Oh my god.

811
00:41:41,080 --> 00:41:45,800
Speaker 1: Again when Chips like he knows stuff about the jinas

812
00:41:47,000 --> 00:41:50,640
Speaker 1: that day I sent you that diagram of a vagina

813
00:41:51,239 --> 00:41:55,879
Speaker 1: have one? I don't know if you know about me, right,

814
00:41:56,160 --> 00:41:59,400
Speaker 1: I don't know all women do? Like, well, I'm aware,

815
00:41:59,520 --> 00:42:05,080
Speaker 1: thank you? Yeah, shared on your socials. Oh my vagina anatomy?

816
00:42:05,320 --> 00:42:10,680
Speaker 1: Know what? I think people can look it up, google

817
00:42:10,719 --> 00:42:13,319
Speaker 1: it if you don't know. I feel like we're just

818
00:42:13,360 --> 00:42:21,239
Speaker 1: like totally fucking this tokaf fake yourself out. My god,

819
00:42:21,280 --> 00:42:23,359
Speaker 1: what if I did that? How would you do that?

820
00:42:24,239 --> 00:42:31,440
Speaker 1: You can't? You could? What would be the point wine

821
00:42:31,480 --> 00:42:37,160
Speaker 1: that you gave me? It starts okay, so it's this um,

822
00:42:37,160 --> 00:42:38,840
Speaker 1: it's like actually one of my favorites. I'm actually going

823
00:42:38,880 --> 00:42:41,400
Speaker 1: to do a giveaway on my Instagram. So if anyone

824
00:42:41,400 --> 00:42:43,439
Speaker 1: wants to go, try to apply for this. It's called

825
00:42:43,480 --> 00:42:46,640
Speaker 1: Sunny with the chains of Flowers. It is there's no

826
00:42:46,719 --> 00:42:50,000
Speaker 1: sugar in this one. There's no sugar. It's less alcohol,

827
00:42:50,120 --> 00:42:53,239
Speaker 1: but so you end up drinking more maybe like like

828
00:42:53,280 --> 00:42:56,160
Speaker 1: you'll drink a bottle, but it's like eighty five calories

829
00:42:56,200 --> 00:42:57,759
Speaker 1: per the whole bottle. This is not an ad, by

830
00:42:57,760 --> 00:42:59,680
Speaker 1: the way. This is just like I love this wine,

831
00:42:59,680 --> 00:43:01,680
Speaker 1: and so I decided to give away because I always

832
00:43:01,719 --> 00:43:04,680
Speaker 1: post about it and people asked me about it. It's

833
00:43:04,719 --> 00:43:08,200
Speaker 1: out in Nashville everywhere right now, and so good. It's

834
00:43:08,040 --> 00:43:10,520
Speaker 1: it's totally good. I'm not a white wine drinker, and

835
00:43:10,560 --> 00:43:14,239
Speaker 1: I actually like, yeah, I like so acidic to this

836
00:43:14,280 --> 00:43:16,560
Speaker 1: is not it's not it's not heavy. It goes don't

837
00:43:16,560 --> 00:43:18,359
Speaker 1: really easy, but it does catch you by the end

838
00:43:18,400 --> 00:43:20,319
Speaker 1: because you think you're flowing and you're good, and all

839
00:43:20,360 --> 00:43:21,959
Speaker 1: of a sudden, You're like, whoa, Now I'm talking about

840
00:43:21,960 --> 00:43:27,319
Speaker 1: faking an orgasm clearly. And then also like we had

841
00:43:27,320 --> 00:43:29,560
Speaker 1: all these bold points about this topic and I'm like,

842
00:43:29,600 --> 00:43:31,960
Speaker 1: did we hit any of them? Susan is literally going

843
00:43:32,000 --> 00:43:35,719
Speaker 1: to come so hard at us. I feel like we

844
00:43:35,760 --> 00:43:38,600
Speaker 1: have this. This flowed really well. Okay, I didn't check

845
00:43:38,760 --> 00:43:42,560
Speaker 1: drop box once. Thank god. The days of you doing

846
00:43:42,560 --> 00:43:45,040
Speaker 1: that are hopefully over over. That was that was like

847
00:43:45,080 --> 00:43:48,120
Speaker 1: a real work moment that like the problem with having

848
00:43:48,440 --> 00:43:52,040
Speaker 1: my research in front of me on my computers up,

849
00:43:52,360 --> 00:43:55,640
Speaker 1: I'm like, oh fuck, So nothing like that happened to

850
00:43:55,680 --> 00:43:57,799
Speaker 1: the whole point of what our point was is that

851
00:43:57,840 --> 00:44:00,759
Speaker 1: no one does anyone any justice by faking orgasm. So

852
00:44:00,880 --> 00:44:03,040
Speaker 1: get to know your body and also be open with

853
00:44:03,040 --> 00:44:06,319
Speaker 1: your partners problem. You're not that into the person that

854
00:44:06,360 --> 00:44:09,720
Speaker 1: you were fucking, communicate that and stop sucking them because

855
00:44:09,719 --> 00:44:11,600
Speaker 1: it's not for you, or that I just say this

856
00:44:11,640 --> 00:44:13,719
Speaker 1: isn't gonna work for me. I will say to you

857
00:44:13,840 --> 00:44:17,560
Speaker 1: that with the times that I can clearly remember doing it,

858
00:44:17,560 --> 00:44:20,120
Speaker 1: it was like situations where I wasn't really it was

859
00:44:20,200 --> 00:44:23,439
Speaker 1: like a not a newer relationship thing. I didn't really

860
00:44:23,440 --> 00:44:25,680
Speaker 1: like think that this would go anywhere with the guy,

861
00:44:25,880 --> 00:44:28,359
Speaker 1: and for me, if I don't have that connection, it's

862
00:44:28,440 --> 00:44:30,080
Speaker 1: really hard for me to get there. And then if

863
00:44:30,080 --> 00:44:32,640
Speaker 1: I have a connection, it actually like changes the whole

864
00:44:32,719 --> 00:44:35,520
Speaker 1: game of every touch fills and made it's like so

865
00:44:35,600 --> 00:44:37,600
Speaker 1: different how it works for women. I think sometimes a

866
00:44:37,640 --> 00:44:39,839
Speaker 1: bit of a parachute, Like it's like it's a way

867
00:44:39,880 --> 00:44:42,120
Speaker 1: to like it's like a way to wrap it up.

868
00:44:42,120 --> 00:44:46,000
Speaker 1: You're like, yeah, you're like, especially if you know it's

869
00:44:46,000 --> 00:44:48,680
Speaker 1: not going to happen or if you know it's not

870
00:44:48,680 --> 00:44:51,319
Speaker 1: gonna like last with that person, you're kind of like

871
00:44:51,320 --> 00:44:53,080
Speaker 1: a funk it. I don't care if you know you're

872
00:44:53,120 --> 00:44:54,680
Speaker 1: going to be in this relationship, you don't want to

873
00:44:54,680 --> 00:44:57,279
Speaker 1: do it because like then you're fucked for the rest.

874
00:44:57,400 --> 00:45:01,279
Speaker 1: And I think it's fair to be like, hey, take

875
00:45:01,560 --> 00:45:03,600
Speaker 1: let's go to like this isn't gonna happen to night

876
00:45:03,600 --> 00:45:05,480
Speaker 1: and it has nothing to do with you, Like we

877
00:45:05,520 --> 00:45:09,560
Speaker 1: will get there or give them some tips, get some

878
00:45:09,560 --> 00:45:12,200
Speaker 1: some tips. You let him explore. But then the guy,

879
00:45:12,360 --> 00:45:15,840
Speaker 1: that guy's faking it really through me because I was like, Dary, well,

880
00:45:15,920 --> 00:45:18,120
Speaker 1: you know, I think some of it. I think that

881
00:45:18,200 --> 00:45:21,759
Speaker 1: happens most often when someone's been drinking too much and

882
00:45:21,760 --> 00:45:25,680
Speaker 1: they like whiskey dick, it's whiskey dick, or yeah, or

883
00:45:25,719 --> 00:45:28,440
Speaker 1: you're just not into that person and so your mind's

884
00:45:28,440 --> 00:45:32,520
Speaker 1: in another place and guy just suck anybody. Yeah, But

885
00:45:32,640 --> 00:45:37,800
Speaker 1: it's not that like there is like, no, not really.

886
00:45:37,800 --> 00:45:40,360
Speaker 1: I mean a lot more than a woman can just

887
00:45:40,440 --> 00:45:43,480
Speaker 1: suck anybody, a guy can. But like, they're definitely moments

888
00:45:43,480 --> 00:45:46,680
Speaker 1: where you're like, it's not gonna work. Yeah, so you

889
00:45:46,760 --> 00:45:48,720
Speaker 1: try to get it over with as fast as possible.

890
00:45:51,520 --> 00:45:55,719
Speaker 1: What would your faking sound? Im do it? Do it?

891
00:45:55,760 --> 00:45:58,040
Speaker 1: I mean I don't know that I even could do it. Yes,

892
00:45:58,120 --> 00:46:00,160
Speaker 1: you can know when you're faking it with your health

893
00:46:00,200 --> 00:46:07,160
Speaker 1: later what they gonna You know that scene from when

894
00:46:07,160 --> 00:46:09,880
Speaker 1: Harry met Sally and Meg Ryan is like having that

895
00:46:10,080 --> 00:46:12,399
Speaker 1: Did you imagine having to do that in a room

896
00:46:12,440 --> 00:46:14,799
Speaker 1: full of people while on camera? Now she's a great

897
00:46:14,800 --> 00:46:17,480
Speaker 1: actress and she's like slapping the table and he's like

898
00:46:17,560 --> 00:46:20,120
Speaker 1: in awe because she actually looks like she's doing it,

899
00:46:20,200 --> 00:46:21,799
Speaker 1: and it's like, no, this is right. We have a

900
00:46:21,840 --> 00:46:27,120
Speaker 1: lot of practice. That's that? Um, what's that called? Katsa's

901
00:46:27,120 --> 00:46:29,880
Speaker 1: Delicatessen in New York City that's where they shot that scene.

902
00:46:30,200 --> 00:46:33,320
Speaker 1: Thank you for you know what, Chip, That just really

903
00:46:33,640 --> 00:46:38,160
Speaker 1: it makes me want some beef. All right, Okay, let's

904
00:46:38,200 --> 00:46:41,000
Speaker 1: go to listener emails. This comes from Sarah and she said, Hi,

905
00:46:41,560 --> 00:46:43,200
Speaker 1: I saved the shows to listen when I have a

906
00:46:43,239 --> 00:46:45,920
Speaker 1: long drive. So this is two parts. One the one

907
00:46:45,920 --> 00:46:48,120
Speaker 1: about Chloe k This is an old one. We talked

908
00:46:48,160 --> 00:46:50,600
Speaker 1: about the body image stuff and she she went off

909
00:46:50,719 --> 00:46:53,359
Speaker 1: remember on her Instagram about that picture she posted being

910
00:46:54,160 --> 00:46:57,480
Speaker 1: not edited and there was this whole body shaming discussion,

911
00:46:57,600 --> 00:47:00,120
Speaker 1: and she said, I love this whole discussion. One thing

912
00:47:00,160 --> 00:47:02,920
Speaker 1: that stood out was Chip said plus size model. I

913
00:47:03,040 --> 00:47:05,440
Speaker 1: know this is standard language, but isn't that part of

914
00:47:05,520 --> 00:47:09,400
Speaker 1: the issue. We don't say super skinny or super tall models.

915
00:47:09,680 --> 00:47:12,480
Speaker 1: It's runway models are just model. I know that Chip

916
00:47:12,560 --> 00:47:15,200
Speaker 1: didn't mean anything negative, as the whole conversation was great,

917
00:47:15,280 --> 00:47:17,399
Speaker 1: And how do we start losing the plus in front

918
00:47:17,440 --> 00:47:22,160
Speaker 1: of things? That's a really interesting point, I thought, so too. Yeah,

919
00:47:22,200 --> 00:47:24,160
Speaker 1: I mean I think it's it's true in the same

920
00:47:24,200 --> 00:47:28,160
Speaker 1: way that like we don't need the word actor and actress.

921
00:47:28,400 --> 00:47:31,400
Speaker 1: They're both actors. Well something that you know you wouldn't

922
00:47:31,400 --> 00:47:36,120
Speaker 1: be like a drys. It's a driver, a drs. You know,

923
00:47:36,239 --> 00:47:39,759
Speaker 1: it's like it's a female actor is an actor. Yeah,

924
00:47:40,239 --> 00:47:42,920
Speaker 1: so I do think, why isn't she just a model?

925
00:47:43,280 --> 00:47:45,960
Speaker 1: That is true, It doesn't necessarily have to matter what

926
00:47:46,120 --> 00:47:48,960
Speaker 1: size she is. Well, I mean, look, there are brands

927
00:47:49,000 --> 00:47:53,840
Speaker 1: like Lane Bryant. They are they are built for those closer,

928
00:47:53,880 --> 00:47:58,759
Speaker 1: designed for bigger women. So I don't know, like maybe

929
00:47:58,840 --> 00:48:00,879
Speaker 1: it's just like, why do you need to descriptor though,

930
00:48:01,080 --> 00:48:04,520
Speaker 1: she's just a model? Yeah, yeah, I mean it's true. Actually,

931
00:48:04,680 --> 00:48:08,120
Speaker 1: this was an interesting point that children pointed out to me.

932
00:48:08,239 --> 00:48:11,440
Speaker 1: And I've found this so great that the younger generations

933
00:48:11,440 --> 00:48:12,960
Speaker 1: were doing this because it was part of my program

934
00:48:13,040 --> 00:48:14,560
Speaker 1: that I didn't even know. And this is like the

935
00:48:15,600 --> 00:48:18,840
Speaker 1: white privilege kind of thing. But there was something I

936
00:48:19,040 --> 00:48:21,560
Speaker 1: said one time that I was like, oh, he's you know,

937
00:48:21,719 --> 00:48:25,200
Speaker 1: he's that super nice black man. And my boyfriend's little

938
00:48:25,200 --> 00:48:26,680
Speaker 1: girl was like, why did you have to say he

939
00:48:26,800 --> 00:48:29,840
Speaker 1: was black? And I was like, oh my god, because

940
00:48:29,920 --> 00:48:34,160
Speaker 1: I was describing him as a certain way that I

941
00:48:34,239 --> 00:48:36,839
Speaker 1: thought would give them because there wasn't very many black

942
00:48:36,880 --> 00:48:38,120
Speaker 1: people in this group. I hate to say that, but

943
00:48:38,200 --> 00:48:39,480
Speaker 1: that was the truth. And so I was like oh,

944
00:48:40,120 --> 00:48:42,800
Speaker 1: they'll know when I say that, But like, that is

945
00:48:42,840 --> 00:48:44,759
Speaker 1: a weird I don't say that a white man that

946
00:48:44,880 --> 00:48:48,400
Speaker 1: blah blah blah, that descriptor. I think. I mean you

947
00:48:48,480 --> 00:48:50,600
Speaker 1: and I grew up in your parents probably said my

948
00:48:50,680 --> 00:48:53,560
Speaker 1: parents say, and it drives me crazy, Like, look, there

949
00:48:53,640 --> 00:48:56,920
Speaker 1: are definitely there are times when it is appropriate because

950
00:48:57,360 --> 00:48:59,839
Speaker 1: you have to distinguish like who it was. But my mom,

951
00:49:00,160 --> 00:49:02,640
Speaker 1: why isn't it more about like a characteristic of that

952
00:49:02,840 --> 00:49:05,759
Speaker 1: person that's not like the wins? The last time you

953
00:49:05,880 --> 00:49:08,759
Speaker 1: said is well, okay, I'll like, I don't say it

954
00:49:08,800 --> 00:49:12,879
Speaker 1: about the crude example, but you're like, um, four guys

955
00:49:12,960 --> 00:49:14,800
Speaker 1: just walked into the bar and you're like, oh, there's

956
00:49:14,880 --> 00:49:18,400
Speaker 1: my friend from across the way. Like it is how

957
00:49:18,800 --> 00:49:20,960
Speaker 1: you could be like, well, the black guys my friend.

958
00:49:21,400 --> 00:49:23,319
Speaker 1: That's rather than being like the guy in the blue

959
00:49:23,440 --> 00:49:26,800
Speaker 1: jeans and the cowboy boots, you know what I mean. Like, so,

960
00:49:26,920 --> 00:49:29,440
Speaker 1: I think there are some moments where it's like I'm

961
00:49:29,640 --> 00:49:31,960
Speaker 1: showing you exactly who it is. But my mom will

962
00:49:32,000 --> 00:49:33,480
Speaker 1: be like I was at the grocery shore today and

963
00:49:33,560 --> 00:49:35,680
Speaker 1: this black woman in line, you know, and it has

964
00:49:36,200 --> 00:49:38,640
Speaker 1: literally nothing to do. It's just a woman in line,

965
00:49:38,640 --> 00:49:39,880
Speaker 1: and I'm like, mom, why did you why do you

966
00:49:39,880 --> 00:49:42,799
Speaker 1: have thought it was an interesting point though, because I'm

967
00:49:42,840 --> 00:49:45,680
Speaker 1: my point. I had never thought about that, and I

968
00:49:45,920 --> 00:49:48,720
Speaker 1: just was like, oh, that is such a valid point.

969
00:49:48,800 --> 00:49:50,680
Speaker 1: Like I could have said, like you said the guy

970
00:49:50,719 --> 00:49:52,600
Speaker 1: in the cowboy boots with the blah blah blah, Like

971
00:49:53,040 --> 00:49:56,360
Speaker 1: we don't need to point out skin color to clarify

972
00:49:56,719 --> 00:49:59,239
Speaker 1: what we're talking about. So same thing with the plus

973
00:49:59,280 --> 00:50:01,800
Speaker 1: size model of like it's like, okay, fine, yeah, just

974
00:50:01,880 --> 00:50:04,879
Speaker 1: a model. Yeah. I think it's a really great point

975
00:50:04,920 --> 00:50:06,880
Speaker 1: and I will take that to heart. So and some

976
00:50:07,080 --> 00:50:09,600
Speaker 1: other points that Sarah made where Susan is wrong. I

977
00:50:09,719 --> 00:50:11,719
Speaker 1: love you for that. I love the shows and how

978
00:50:11,760 --> 00:50:13,960
Speaker 1: it's two friends talking. It's so much more relatable with

979
00:50:14,120 --> 00:50:19,200
Speaker 1: Bert's checking emails and forgetting words. It's a real conversation.

980
00:50:19,239 --> 00:50:22,520
Speaker 1: I love it. Three we need merch Well, you know what,

981
00:50:22,600 --> 00:50:26,480
Speaker 1: we got some designs on inlaw. Those mock ups I'm

982
00:50:26,480 --> 00:50:28,000
Speaker 1: gonna have to go back to the drawing word on

983
00:50:28,040 --> 00:50:29,960
Speaker 1: some of them. They're super boring and I want my

984
00:50:30,000 --> 00:50:32,360
Speaker 1: people to be happy. There's a couple that I like.

985
00:50:32,560 --> 00:50:35,360
Speaker 1: There's a couple, but on the whole there was like

986
00:50:35,560 --> 00:50:39,400
Speaker 1: three that I was like, Nope, will not work. It

987
00:50:39,480 --> 00:50:41,320
Speaker 1: was one of them, and that's like the one that

988
00:50:41,400 --> 00:50:44,120
Speaker 1: I'm like, no, we're fucking nailing this. I think we

989
00:50:44,280 --> 00:50:47,680
Speaker 1: just need like, yeah, that one needs something to be

990
00:50:47,800 --> 00:50:52,480
Speaker 1: jazzed up, a little bit jazzed. Okay, I'll go to

991
00:50:52,560 --> 00:50:54,360
Speaker 1: one more email and then we gotta go because you

992
00:50:54,480 --> 00:50:57,799
Speaker 1: gotta go. Uh. This just says this from Nikki. Her

993
00:50:57,920 --> 00:51:00,480
Speaker 1: email is dimples. I'm not going to read the rest,

994
00:51:00,560 --> 00:51:05,959
Speaker 1: but like, I like that. Okay, you just made it sexual. Yeah.

995
00:51:09,880 --> 00:51:11,400
Speaker 1: By the way, I do that sound a lot, and

996
00:51:11,520 --> 00:51:13,480
Speaker 1: he gets Kelly, so that's why I did that. So

997
00:51:13,880 --> 00:51:16,800
Speaker 1: he loves to fake it around me. Dear Kelly, I

998
00:51:16,880 --> 00:51:19,080
Speaker 1: love listening to you and chip, I laugh, I cry,

999
00:51:19,160 --> 00:51:21,120
Speaker 1: I feel human again. I might just have to start

1000
00:51:21,160 --> 00:51:23,120
Speaker 1: pouring a glass of tequila while listen and call it.

1001
00:51:24,040 --> 00:51:26,920
Speaker 1: Do it girl. Dating post COVID hasn't changed, but it

1002
00:51:27,000 --> 00:51:29,640
Speaker 1: probably should. At least in Nashville, it's worse. Plenty of

1003
00:51:29,719 --> 00:51:33,640
Speaker 1: guys are moving here, traveling here, but moving here and

1004
00:51:33,719 --> 00:51:35,600
Speaker 1: traveling here. But a lot of my friends noticed that

1005
00:51:35,640 --> 00:51:37,880
Speaker 1: they need to go out, and so this kind of

1006
00:51:37,920 --> 00:51:41,000
Speaker 1: speaks to my update this week. So they're wild oats

1007
00:51:41,040 --> 00:51:43,400
Speaker 1: per se and chase down a few bachelor at parties

1008
00:51:43,480 --> 00:51:45,480
Speaker 1: before they can commit. I went on a few dates

1009
00:51:45,560 --> 00:51:47,440
Speaker 1: via dating apps when there were things were starting to

1010
00:51:47,480 --> 00:51:50,520
Speaker 1: open up last summer, and I could not believe how

1011
00:51:50,600 --> 00:51:53,040
Speaker 1: many guys were complaining about the fact that they didn't

1012
00:51:53,080 --> 00:51:55,120
Speaker 1: get to go down and party on Broadway because of

1013
00:51:55,160 --> 00:51:58,560
Speaker 1: the shutdown. Really, I definitely have a timeline, So I

1014
00:51:58,640 --> 00:52:00,200
Speaker 1: threw in the towel and I want to such of

1015
00:52:00,239 --> 00:52:02,080
Speaker 1: a date just because I wanted to see what was

1016
00:52:02,120 --> 00:52:04,440
Speaker 1: out there. I swear every time I opened up those

1017
00:52:04,520 --> 00:52:07,240
Speaker 1: darned dating apps, it turns into a marathon for about

1018
00:52:07,239 --> 00:52:09,319
Speaker 1: a month and a half and then I'm decided, I'm

1019
00:52:09,320 --> 00:52:13,360
Speaker 1: exhausted and stay home with my Netflix and hibernation. The

1020
00:52:13,440 --> 00:52:15,520
Speaker 1: poor girl at CBS LA summer was like, what does

1021
00:52:15,560 --> 00:52:17,680
Speaker 1: this chick do that she is getting COVID tested all

1022
00:52:17,719 --> 00:52:21,839
Speaker 1: the time dating? That's what this is so interesting though,

1023
00:52:21,880 --> 00:52:23,960
Speaker 1: And this is like such a different pressure that women

1024
00:52:24,000 --> 00:52:26,080
Speaker 1: and men feel, but it kind of ties into what

1025
00:52:26,200 --> 00:52:28,879
Speaker 1: my update was this week. The timeline thing. Of course,

1026
00:52:28,920 --> 00:52:30,759
Speaker 1: we've talked about that a bunch or I've talked about

1027
00:52:30,760 --> 00:52:32,840
Speaker 1: that a bunch on this podcast. The pressure that women

1028
00:52:32,960 --> 00:52:36,200
Speaker 1: have and if you want to build a family or

1029
00:52:36,360 --> 00:52:39,760
Speaker 1: you want to have a kid, your timeline is very different.

1030
00:52:39,800 --> 00:52:43,240
Speaker 1: So I think we are forced to mature a lot quicker.

1031
00:52:43,640 --> 00:52:45,960
Speaker 1: And I will say she is not wrong about Nashville.

1032
00:52:46,040 --> 00:52:48,359
Speaker 1: There is people used to say to me, like it's

1033
00:52:48,360 --> 00:52:51,760
Speaker 1: starting to feel like a small l a And unfortunately,

1034
00:52:51,840 --> 00:52:54,920
Speaker 1: I think that is very prevalent amongst the dating scene

1035
00:52:54,960 --> 00:52:58,000
Speaker 1: of like these guys kind of like what I was

1036
00:52:58,040 --> 00:53:01,120
Speaker 1: saying yesterday, they're like, why would I settle down now?

1037
00:53:01,480 --> 00:53:04,879
Speaker 1: Like look at all these hotties. Yeah, there's people moving

1038
00:53:04,960 --> 00:53:08,080
Speaker 1: here constantly, and there's all these hot girls, and I

1039
00:53:08,120 --> 00:53:10,080
Speaker 1: don't know why there's not as many hot guys, but

1040
00:53:10,160 --> 00:53:13,080
Speaker 1: they're just just not like sorry dudes, but it's not

1041
00:53:13,360 --> 00:53:15,440
Speaker 1: like I wish I could find one. And yeah, like

1042
00:53:15,719 --> 00:53:18,920
Speaker 1: literally the options for us are not that great. And

1043
00:53:19,080 --> 00:53:24,919
Speaker 1: so it's so interesting because it fully like ties into

1044
00:53:25,000 --> 00:53:27,880
Speaker 1: this whole point of like women have to grow up.

1045
00:53:28,120 --> 00:53:30,560
Speaker 1: Men just get to like go out and quote unquote,

1046
00:53:30,600 --> 00:53:32,480
Speaker 1: so they're wild. It's which of course, you don't want

1047
00:53:32,480 --> 00:53:33,960
Speaker 1: to be with a guy who wants to do that anyway,

1048
00:53:34,040 --> 00:53:37,319
Speaker 1: but like, why are you still so immature in your

1049
00:53:37,440 --> 00:53:39,960
Speaker 1: thirties and in your forties and like when are you

1050
00:53:40,120 --> 00:53:43,719
Speaker 1: going to grow up? If ever? But at the same time,

1051
00:53:44,000 --> 00:53:46,080
Speaker 1: give me the devil's advocate. That's what you want to do,

1052
00:53:46,280 --> 00:53:49,600
Speaker 1: then fucking do it. I agree, But you shouldn't. You

1053
00:53:49,719 --> 00:53:53,759
Speaker 1: shouldn't be leading other people on to think that you

1054
00:53:54,080 --> 00:53:56,839
Speaker 1: are looking to settle down. You need to be up

1055
00:53:56,840 --> 00:53:58,759
Speaker 1: front and be like, hey, I'm just looking to have

1056
00:53:58,880 --> 00:54:00,880
Speaker 1: some fucking fun if you can. If you want to

1057
00:54:00,880 --> 00:54:04,120
Speaker 1: sign up for that, let's do it. And I also

1058
00:54:04,200 --> 00:54:07,680
Speaker 1: might be having fun with other people, and look, there's

1059
00:54:07,760 --> 00:54:12,399
Speaker 1: there's you want to do it. Yeah, so but I'm

1060
00:54:12,480 --> 00:54:14,880
Speaker 1: all for people do it like you, be you, but

1061
00:54:15,080 --> 00:54:18,040
Speaker 1: be honest about what you is. I agree with that.

1062
00:54:18,160 --> 00:54:20,680
Speaker 1: I think unfortunately a lot of girls are like okay

1063
00:54:21,120 --> 00:54:22,919
Speaker 1: because they've been told that you need to settle down

1064
00:54:22,960 --> 00:54:25,480
Speaker 1: and be a wife and have kids. Like a lot

1065
00:54:25,560 --> 00:54:28,520
Speaker 1: of that is society thrusting upon him. And but you know,

1066
00:54:28,600 --> 00:54:30,840
Speaker 1: I mean also because a girl who sucks a lot

1067
00:54:30,880 --> 00:54:33,080
Speaker 1: of people is called a slut, and a guy who

1068
00:54:33,160 --> 00:54:36,000
Speaker 1: does that is called like a you know, it's like,

1069
00:54:37,160 --> 00:54:39,560
Speaker 1: it's just what guys do. It's just what guys. That's

1070
00:54:39,600 --> 00:54:44,600
Speaker 1: what I hate a lot. I mean, yeah, look, as

1071
00:54:44,680 --> 00:54:47,640
Speaker 1: long as she respects herself. Yeah, she's doing it because

1072
00:54:47,680 --> 00:54:51,000
Speaker 1: it's a choice. You know. I go for it, girl,

1073
00:54:51,840 --> 00:54:55,040
Speaker 1: But have respect for yourself. What if she sucks a

1074
00:54:55,080 --> 00:54:58,240
Speaker 1: lot in a relationship, how do you love that she better?

1075
00:55:00,000 --> 00:55:10,720
Speaker 1: Then she's in a healthy relationship. Okay, well that's about us. Yeah.

1076
00:55:10,800 --> 00:55:15,160
Speaker 1: I just needed to know you respect me. That's all right.

1077
00:55:15,400 --> 00:55:18,560
Speaker 1: Well now that you got me wine drunk, and now

1078
00:55:18,640 --> 00:55:25,839
Speaker 1: I can take proper advantage of that. Was quick, A little,

1079
00:55:25,880 --> 00:55:28,520
Speaker 1: little little, I know. I didn't even last one minute. Man,

1080
00:55:28,840 --> 00:55:33,600
Speaker 1: she's that good. Still in my pants. I didn't even

1081
00:55:33,600 --> 00:55:38,560
Speaker 1: actually touch him. Just look at you, guys. We're going

1082
00:55:38,600 --> 00:55:40,920
Speaker 1: to just keep living somewhere on the edge. And I

1083
00:55:41,000 --> 00:55:42,960
Speaker 1: hope that as you get into your weekend that you

1084
00:55:43,200 --> 00:55:49,360
Speaker 1: always remember to act casual. Exactly closest I've ever gotten

1085
00:55:49,400 --> 00:55:52,759
Speaker 1: on one tart. It was actually really professional, was it. Yeah?

1086
00:55:52,880 --> 00:55:54,920
Speaker 1: You sound like a radio and so good at faking

1087
00:55:55,000 --> 00:55:59,440
Speaker 1: it your all weekend like