WEBVTT - “I WAS BANNED FROM ROBLOX” 0:00:00.200 --> 0:00:00.320 Hi. 0:00:00.400 --> 0:00:00.960 What's your name? 0:00:01.520 --> 0:00:03.560 Uh, my name is Collette. 0:00:03.960 --> 0:00:08.160 Collette collect. You texted me and you said, I'm a 0:00:08.200 --> 0:00:11.320 thirty one year old woman who just got banned on Roadblocks? 0:00:13.400 --> 0:00:15.040 Sure did? Sure did? 0:00:15.400 --> 0:00:18.080 So tell me about that. How did you get banned 0:00:18.120 --> 0:00:20.680 on Roadblocks? 0:00:21.600 --> 0:00:24.000 I guess I've just been playing a lot because I 0:00:24.040 --> 0:00:27.120 have a little brother, he's like, you know, fourteen, We've 0:00:27.160 --> 0:00:30.080 been playing for years or whatever. But also it keeps 0:00:30.080 --> 0:00:34.559 you out of trouble roadblocks does. But yeah, I just 0:00:34.640 --> 0:00:38.279 moved to Atlanta and from Texas, and I'd just been 0:00:38.400 --> 0:00:41.239 kind of in my head a lot, and so I've 0:00:41.280 --> 0:00:44.199 been like just playing by myself. But I got this 0:00:44.280 --> 0:00:47.239 new game on there. It was this like it was 0:00:47.280 --> 0:00:50.199 supposed to be so chill. It was like a like 0:00:50.280 --> 0:00:55.880 a treehouse tycoon, and basically all you got to do is, 0:00:55.920 --> 0:00:58.960 you know, say, like get all these honeybees, you collect them, 0:00:59.440 --> 0:01:03.400 you you know, you build your treehouse. But then also 0:01:03.440 --> 0:01:06.000 everybody comes in and like murders you and stuff, and 0:01:06.000 --> 0:01:08.160 you're like, I'm like, I don't understand why there's murdering 0:01:08.240 --> 0:01:11.880 this game. There's like chill jazz music, there's bird sounds. 0:01:11.920 --> 0:01:14.320 I really don't understand what this game is and why 0:01:14.360 --> 0:01:17.560 everyone was treating it like a GTA server. But there 0:01:17.640 --> 0:01:20.479 was these children and they rolled up that I couldn't 0:01:20.520 --> 0:01:23.480 collect my honey. They parked their little car. They kept 0:01:23.480 --> 0:01:26.160 on murdering me over and over again, and it just 0:01:26.200 --> 0:01:28.880 really sent me because like I was really excited to 0:01:28.880 --> 0:01:32.560 play this little game, and I just called them Brady 0:01:32.640 --> 0:01:36.160 virgins and then well I tried to report them because 0:01:36.160 --> 0:01:37.800 they were being very mean to me on the on 0:01:37.840 --> 0:01:40.399 the chat, I did not appreciate it. And they don't 0:01:40.440 --> 0:01:42.000 know what I'm going through. They don't know who they're 0:01:42.000 --> 0:01:49.160 talking to. But yeah, I did tell them that I'm 0:01:49.200 --> 0:01:52.480 sorry their parents are divorced, and I do regret that 0:01:52.600 --> 0:01:55.160 because their parents are probably most definitely divorced. 0:01:56.600 --> 0:02:01.840 What okay, why do you assume that their parents are divorced? 0:02:02.720 --> 0:02:06.040 I mean just because of you know, the ratios. You know, 0:02:06.160 --> 0:02:09.560 you can look at any like you know census. 0:02:11.400 --> 0:02:14.680 Okay, okay, yeah, sure, yeah, sure, there's a there's a 0:02:14.680 --> 0:02:18.560 fifty percent chance that that they're right. How old How 0:02:18.600 --> 0:02:20.560 old do you think these kids are? These are like squeakers, 0:02:20.600 --> 0:02:21.880 These were like thirteen year olds. 0:02:22.400 --> 0:02:24.440 They're probably they're probably yeah, they're probably like the same 0:02:24.440 --> 0:02:26.639 as in my little brother. It's probably like fourteen or something. 0:02:26.800 --> 0:02:29.480 I mean, they probably should they probably should be virgins. 0:02:31.160 --> 0:02:35.520 I mean, no, they should, I shouldn't. I I regret that. 0:02:36.320 --> 0:02:38.079 I guess. It's just like, you know, like, what's your 0:02:38.200 --> 0:02:40.680 I guess. I mean, I'm not really upset that they 0:02:40.680 --> 0:02:43.200 are that they're virgins. That's not really it was. It 0:02:43.240 --> 0:02:45.960 was just that like, obviously you haven't been through anything. 0:02:46.400 --> 0:02:49.400 You're just a stupid virgin, which is really mean to 0:02:49.480 --> 0:02:52.120 a lot of adult virgins. I get it, I understand. 0:02:52.200 --> 0:02:55.680 I was They're they're reorganizing that. I'm going crazy right now. 0:02:55.960 --> 0:02:58.880 They're life virsion, they're life virgins, their life. 0:02:58.800 --> 0:02:59.760 Their life virgin. 0:03:00.080 --> 0:03:09.280 Yes exactly, you know, uh yeah, yeah. I mean getting 0:03:09.320 --> 0:03:13.840 into heated arguments with fourteen year olds on roadblocks is 0:03:13.919 --> 0:03:21.400 probably crazy. It I you would feel irresponsible for me, 0:03:21.480 --> 0:03:21.679 it is. 0:03:23.120 --> 0:03:23.320 Yeah. 0:03:23.400 --> 0:03:25.320 Yeah, it's a little crazy. It's a little crazy. It's 0:03:25.360 --> 0:03:28.200 undeniably a little crazy. But I'm let's talk. 0:03:28.240 --> 0:03:30.000 I pull my little brother. What happened in all these 0:03:30.000 --> 0:03:32.680 textan me was wow, And I was like, okay, now 0:03:32.720 --> 0:03:35.000 I know that. I'm like I'm like losing it a 0:03:35.040 --> 0:03:35.680 little bit, you. 0:03:35.600 --> 0:03:37.920 Know, Okay, why do you why do you think you're uh, 0:03:38.080 --> 0:03:39.200 why do you think you're losing it? 0:03:43.120 --> 0:03:50.040 Well, okay, I just moved here. I was in Austin, 0:03:50.080 --> 0:03:54.360 Texas doing like a weird family thing for a while. 0:03:54.680 --> 0:04:00.280 I've been I've moved all around the country. But yeah, 0:04:00.320 --> 0:04:01.920 I was only in Texas for a couple of years 0:04:01.960 --> 0:04:04.120 because like my grandma and my mom wanted to like 0:04:04.800 --> 0:04:06.800 hang out with me a little bit. I haven't really 0:04:07.240 --> 0:04:10.080 lived around them for like over a decade, and that 0:04:10.240 --> 0:04:16.520 was really really stressful. I have like very conservative, uh grandparents. 0:04:16.560 --> 0:04:18.760 I mean, just like everybody else. It's a little bit 0:04:18.800 --> 0:04:23.080 different though, when like you're mixed and like your white 0:04:23.080 --> 0:04:26.799 family is like really really racist in like every possible way. 0:04:28.680 --> 0:04:31.080 Pretty much, Like, yeah, the only person I kind of 0:04:31.120 --> 0:04:33.560 like that I'm related to is my mom. But anyway, 0:04:33.640 --> 0:04:36.000 that's a really really long story. You know, I'm really 0:04:36.040 --> 0:04:40.080 okay like not talking about that, but yeah, it was 0:04:40.120 --> 0:04:42.919 a lot. My grandma like started hospice while I was there, 0:04:43.440 --> 0:04:46.360 and they were just like incredibly hard to please people 0:04:46.440 --> 0:04:50.080 you kind of have to perform at all times. And 0:04:50.120 --> 0:04:52.880 then also I like they kicked me out because I 0:04:52.920 --> 0:04:55.000 asked them to stop talking about Trump with me. And 0:04:55.000 --> 0:04:57.800 then so I had to like live with like this 0:04:57.920 --> 0:05:01.479 really crazy girl and and she was a lot And 0:05:01.520 --> 0:05:04.880 then I was also dating like of, you know, a 0:05:04.920 --> 0:05:07.599 comedian who was like a severe alcoholic. It was just 0:05:07.600 --> 0:05:09.640 like a lot of you know, stuff that didn't have 0:05:09.680 --> 0:05:12.760 to do with me, which I'm usually pretty good at. 0:05:12.839 --> 0:05:16.560 But I'm realizing that this is like the first time. 0:05:16.560 --> 0:05:18.160 I've been wanting to get to Atlanta for a really 0:05:18.160 --> 0:05:20.440 long time because I feel like all my hopes and 0:05:20.520 --> 0:05:22.560 dreams and like a lot of like family that I 0:05:22.560 --> 0:05:26.040 would like to get to now lives here. And I 0:05:26.120 --> 0:05:30.080 just want to make movies and I want to make TV, 0:05:30.360 --> 0:05:33.159 and like I've been working in production a long time, 0:05:33.320 --> 0:05:35.599 and like I just want to like I've just been 0:05:35.640 --> 0:05:38.000 wanting to come here and feel comfortable in my own 0:05:38.040 --> 0:05:41.719 skin and just to have a lovely time. But now 0:05:41.760 --> 0:05:44.479 that I'm here, it's like the self like I'm like 0:05:44.680 --> 0:05:47.320 actually having to like be the person that I was 0:05:47.600 --> 0:05:51.599 imagining being. And then I'm also realizing, you know that 0:05:51.320 --> 0:05:54.920 that's the anxiety is like that part is like I'm like, oh, 0:05:55.000 --> 0:05:57.520 this is like you you think about something for too 0:05:57.560 --> 0:06:00.640 long and then like you're like, oh, this is It's 0:06:00.680 --> 0:06:04.200 still me, I'm not like a different person. Yeah, and 0:06:04.360 --> 0:06:06.320 so it's like still have to do all of those things, 0:06:06.440 --> 0:06:07.640 like be a different person. 0:06:08.000 --> 0:06:08.520 Yeah. 0:06:08.600 --> 0:06:11.440 And now I'm just like cursing kids out on roadblocks. 0:06:11.480 --> 0:06:14.320 I mean that's crazy. I'm like I could be outside 0:06:14.440 --> 0:06:17.240 right now, it's like gorgeous out. I could be like 0:06:17.400 --> 0:06:20.320 meeting people, but I have a really I'm like so 0:06:20.520 --> 0:06:23.479 good at meeting people that are like terrible for me. 0:06:24.480 --> 0:06:29.760 So like I'm really terrified about like making new connections. 0:06:29.760 --> 0:06:31.839 That's also I think, really what it is is that 0:06:31.920 --> 0:06:35.599 I don't trust myself to like actually surround myself with 0:06:35.760 --> 0:06:38.440 people that are like good for me. I think that's 0:06:38.480 --> 0:06:41.240 really what it is too. Also, I just like don't 0:06:41.240 --> 0:06:43.039 know where to start at this point. 0:06:43.440 --> 0:06:49.240 You said so many things just now that pequked my interest. Okay, Okay, 0:06:49.240 --> 0:06:50.760 I want to I'm trying to hold on to all 0:06:50.760 --> 0:06:53.599 of them. Okay, one you said was first of all, Okay, 0:06:53.640 --> 0:06:55.480 I'm sorry if I got I'm trying to get your 0:06:55.520 --> 0:07:00.200 timeline correct because you because you said something, because you 0:07:00.200 --> 0:07:02.280 threw a bunch of stuff out about like okay, your 0:07:02.279 --> 0:07:06.320 family kicked you know, bad relationship with the family and 0:07:06.480 --> 0:07:10.040 the alcoholic comedian and all this is that, this is 0:07:10.040 --> 0:07:11.520 all before you moved to Atlanta. 0:07:12.840 --> 0:07:14.880 Yeah, this was all before I moved to Atlanta. This 0:07:15.000 --> 0:07:17.200 was like the first place I've ever lived with like, 0:07:17.760 --> 0:07:18.640 that's just for me. 0:07:19.240 --> 0:07:20.640 And then then you've. 0:07:20.480 --> 0:07:22.480 Done things for family and other people, and like, this 0:07:22.520 --> 0:07:24.120 is the first time I've ever done something that's like 0:07:24.440 --> 0:07:24.760 just me. 0:07:25.280 --> 0:07:29.680 And then when did you move to Atlanta? 0:07:30.040 --> 0:07:30.800 Like a month ago? 0:07:31.240 --> 0:07:33.000 And you're living with your little brother. 0:07:34.400 --> 0:07:36.520 No, I'm not living with my little brother. My little 0:07:36.520 --> 0:07:39.800 brother lives pretty close. He lives in Jacksonville, Florida. 0:07:40.160 --> 0:07:43.480 Okay, but do you live with yeah, like, are you 0:07:43.520 --> 0:07:45.280 living with family by yourself? 0:07:46.440 --> 0:07:49.080 No? I live completely by myself and I don't have 0:07:49.240 --> 0:07:52.760 like close family, like the family I have here. Oh shit, 0:07:52.920 --> 0:07:56.120 my cat, Hi, are you ready to come in Jesus, 0:07:56.120 --> 0:08:02.040 you've been gone for so long? But yeah, she it's 0:08:02.080 --> 0:08:04.160 just me and my cat and my snake that I'm 0:08:04.240 --> 0:08:08.040 hiding from the leasing office. But yeah, the family I 0:08:08.080 --> 0:08:10.720 have here, they're like I haven't seen them since I 0:08:10.760 --> 0:08:12.280 was like, you know, ten or something. 0:08:12.360 --> 0:08:16.840 You know, And you said that you mainly came down 0:08:16.920 --> 0:08:18.720 there to uh, well, you said you came down there 0:08:18.720 --> 0:08:20.000 for a lot of reasons. But you one of the 0:08:20.000 --> 0:08:21.480 reasons you said you came down there was because you 0:08:21.480 --> 0:08:22.440 wanted to get closer to them. 0:08:22.400 --> 0:08:26.160 Right, Yeah, I've got like my I've got like a 0:08:26.200 --> 0:08:30.880 lot of my my dad's side of the family in Savannah. 0:08:31.200 --> 0:08:33.520 So yeah, I've already like went and saw my grandma, 0:08:33.600 --> 0:08:36.760 who's like great. She like has always like smoked like 0:08:36.880 --> 0:08:38.840 two packs of Marbs a day, and like she like 0:08:38.960 --> 0:08:41.720 drives trucks and like she's really mean, but she like 0:08:42.120 --> 0:08:44.040 puts all of her heart and soul into like the 0:08:44.080 --> 0:08:46.920 food she makes. Like she's like so classic. She look 0:08:46.960 --> 0:08:47.960 a really nice lady. 0:08:48.200 --> 0:08:50.959 Cool. How old is she she? I'm curious. 0:08:51.600 --> 0:08:53.720 Oh my god, she had my dad. Like my whole 0:08:53.760 --> 0:08:56.839 family's just babies. My dad was like she had my 0:08:56.920 --> 0:09:00.679 dad when she was fourteen. Wow, she got real on life. Yeah, 0:09:00.720 --> 0:09:02.840 real unlucky. It was the guy she like lost her 0:09:02.920 --> 0:09:05.320 virginity too, and he's like a real schmuck. Like he's 0:09:05.320 --> 0:09:11.120 like a bad guy, but yeah he's crazy. And then yeah, 0:09:11.160 --> 0:09:13.840 my dad and my mom had me. My mom her 0:09:14.000 --> 0:09:16.640 parent her mom had her when she was nineteen and 0:09:16.679 --> 0:09:18.520 then they pretty much did the same thing. They were 0:09:18.559 --> 0:09:19.560 like twenty when they had me. 0:09:19.760 --> 0:09:21.400 Okay, so I was imagined when you said your grandma, 0:09:21.400 --> 0:09:23.360 I was imagining like kind of an old lady, but 0:09:23.480 --> 0:09:24.200 she's younger. 0:09:26.160 --> 0:09:28.800 Uh well I have yeah, like the one that's on 0:09:28.880 --> 0:09:33.400 hospice in Texas. That's my mom's mom. And yeah, she's young, 0:09:33.559 --> 0:09:36.280 but she's just like I mean, like her last name 0:09:36.360 --> 0:09:39.920 is like Dangler. She like comes from like real poor, 0:09:40.000 --> 0:09:43.520 like like her dad was like a huge drunk who 0:09:43.600 --> 0:09:46.720 like spent all of their milk money like on alcohol 0:09:46.840 --> 0:09:49.360 and gambling. So like all of her teeth fell out 0:09:49.360 --> 0:09:50.640 by the time she was like thirty. 0:09:51.000 --> 0:09:52.240 Just crazy, all. 0:09:52.200 --> 0:09:56.040 Right, So I mean back to you are the other thing? 0:09:56.679 --> 0:10:01.800 The thing, Yeah, back to you, you know, because I'm sure 0:10:01.800 --> 0:10:03.200 that we could get it. I'm sure that we could. 0:10:03.200 --> 0:10:06.800 We could write a whole textbook about your family lore. 0:10:07.600 --> 0:10:10.080 I'm sure that the Lord sounds like it goes very crazy. 0:10:10.160 --> 0:10:12.199 The well, the thing that you said that I was like, ah, 0:10:12.280 --> 0:10:17.040 fucking amen to that is the thing about yeah you 0:10:17.120 --> 0:10:21.679 imagine is is well yeah, okay, so once you I 0:10:21.720 --> 0:10:24.880 also feel like and this is actually I think part 0:10:24.920 --> 0:10:27.360 of like uh not to bring it to me, but 0:10:27.400 --> 0:10:29.560 like a little part of like an existential crisis is 0:10:29.600 --> 0:10:32.720 like what you sort of when you get a little 0:10:32.720 --> 0:10:38.120 bit older, you begin to fully understand the fact that 0:10:38.160 --> 0:10:43.600 there is no such thing as your future self, which 0:10:43.640 --> 0:10:46.520 is a little there's no such there's no such thing 0:10:46.840 --> 0:10:49.840 as your future self. And that's like a little scary, 0:10:49.920 --> 0:10:51.520 you know, because I think we put a lot of 0:10:51.559 --> 0:10:55.880 hopes and dreams and reliefs and plans and whatnot in 0:10:56.080 --> 0:10:58.920 this bucket of some day and in the future self, 0:10:59.120 --> 0:11:01.120 and but there's just it just never comes. There's no 0:11:01.160 --> 0:11:03.719 such thing as the future self. So yeah, it's still you. 0:11:03.840 --> 0:11:05.720 And I think that like the last two years have 0:11:05.840 --> 0:11:09.320 just been so stressful that I like have really just 0:11:09.320 --> 0:11:13.080 been like easing myself like self soothing with like a 0:11:13.120 --> 0:11:16.200 future self in mind. Like that's been like a self 0:11:16.240 --> 0:11:20.520 soothing like technique that I'm realizing. And that's it's it's 0:11:20.559 --> 0:11:22.080 it's it's making itself really apparent. 0:11:22.679 --> 0:11:26.920 Can I actually completely undermine everything I just said? Yeah, 0:11:27.040 --> 0:11:30.040 because now I'm thinking about it, I'm like, I actually 0:11:32.320 --> 0:11:34.200 there's kind of no such thing as the futureself. But 0:11:34.200 --> 0:11:36.720 there also kind of is such a thing as a 0:11:36.760 --> 0:11:40.840 future self, you know, because as human beings, we can 0:11:41.280 --> 0:11:42.560 anticipate the future, so you. 0:11:42.559 --> 0:11:45.679 Can manifize things and you can eventually like you can 0:11:45.760 --> 0:11:48.760 do things. You can you can visualize things and make 0:11:48.800 --> 0:11:52.160 them into fruition, not even just like you know you 0:11:52.160 --> 0:11:54.920 can you can you can emulate something until it be you. 0:11:55.480 --> 0:11:58.280 Yeah, well I actually actually kind of I just I 0:11:58.400 --> 0:12:00.160 have disagree with what I said. I think that are 0:12:00.679 --> 0:12:02.520 I mean, obviously, there is no future self. It's always 0:12:02.559 --> 0:12:04.120 just gonna be you when you have to understand that, 0:12:04.160 --> 0:12:08.520 But there is something about you can plan for the 0:12:08.559 --> 0:12:11.719 future to the best you can, you know. I mean 0:12:11.880 --> 0:12:14.240 you can do that financially, and you can do the 0:12:14.320 --> 0:12:16.199 health wise, and you can do that. But a lot 0:12:16.240 --> 0:12:17.840 of the times, yeah, I mean, the future self is 0:12:17.840 --> 0:12:21.000 just kind of like a vehicle for procrastination. But anyway, okay, 0:12:21.280 --> 0:12:26.000 I want to get okay past your family lawyer. We're 0:12:26.000 --> 0:12:33.440 getting philosophical bullshit. No, it's okay. I'm I'm steering us 0:12:33.440 --> 0:12:37.720 in those directions, and I take responsibility for that. Is 0:12:38.960 --> 0:12:41.800 why are you? Why are you sitting at home alone 0:12:41.840 --> 0:12:44.479 in your house yelling at teenagers on roadblocks. 0:12:47.559 --> 0:12:49.920 Yeah, I guess I'm just like realizing just like I 0:12:49.920 --> 0:12:57.160 don't really like trust myself the way that I should. Yeah, 0:12:57.520 --> 0:13:00.959 I don't know, I don't know. Oh, I don't know. 0:13:02.960 --> 0:13:06.400 Well, I mean, let's talk about this, right is you 0:13:06.400 --> 0:13:08.559 you set all these like okay, you want to make 0:13:08.640 --> 0:13:11.000 movies and oh well, okay, let's let me ask you this. 0:13:11.320 --> 0:13:14.840 You said that moving to Atlanta was something that you did, 0:13:15.520 --> 0:13:17.560 uh for yourself. It's like one of the only things 0:13:17.559 --> 0:13:21.200 you did, uh for yourself? Why did you do it? 0:13:27.920 --> 0:13:28.120 Yeah? 0:13:28.160 --> 0:13:35.800 I just think that I think that I'm sorry. My 0:13:35.840 --> 0:13:38.559 cat is driving me nuts. She's like yelling in like 0:13:38.600 --> 0:13:39.600 the middle of our apartment. 0:13:39.600 --> 0:13:39.880 Belief. 0:13:42.120 --> 0:13:44.760 I think that what it is is that I've never 0:13:45.120 --> 0:13:47.720 I've always wanted to make movies, and it was something 0:13:47.720 --> 0:13:50.559 that like, uh, you know, I felt like really guilty 0:13:50.559 --> 0:13:55.480 about for a long time for like familiar reasons or 0:13:55.559 --> 0:13:58.920 that it wasn't like possible, Like nobody my family's ever 0:13:58.920 --> 0:14:01.920 really really believed in me about that. But until like 0:14:02.800 --> 0:14:05.280 my dad like one random time was like, asa, what 0:14:05.440 --> 0:14:07.440 I worked on a gator Ade commercial And He's like 0:14:07.480 --> 0:14:09.880 I saw your car and this gator Rade commercial and 0:14:09.920 --> 0:14:12.240 I'm like, yeah, like I mean I can do it, 0:14:12.520 --> 0:14:16.439 Like there's like no reason like I can't. And I 0:14:16.559 --> 0:14:19.920 guess I've just never like invested in like myself and 0:14:20.040 --> 0:14:22.160 things that I wanted to do. I guess I've always 0:14:22.160 --> 0:14:25.240 like chose like the safe option. I like decided to 0:14:25.280 --> 0:14:28.400 do like clinical massage therapy because I was like, Okay, 0:14:28.400 --> 0:14:30.440 well I can just do that while I'm like figuring 0:14:30.480 --> 0:14:34.120 it out. And I've always just done like all these 0:14:34.200 --> 0:14:36.840 I'm like a side quest person, and I've like had 0:14:36.880 --> 0:14:39.280 a really hard time like with the big what are 0:14:39.280 --> 0:14:40.600 you going to be when you grow up? 0:14:40.680 --> 0:14:41.040 Question? 0:14:41.440 --> 0:14:46.720 Right, But I've always done like a bunch of side 0:14:46.800 --> 0:14:49.160 quests and I still kind of I mean, I still 0:14:49.200 --> 0:14:51.720 do want to do that, but I guess that this 0:14:51.880 --> 0:14:56.600 place just feels like there's a lot of opportunities for 0:14:56.640 --> 0:14:59.000 me to do things that I want to do, like 0:14:59.160 --> 0:15:00.800 and when it comes to like film, like I just 0:15:00.840 --> 0:15:03.400 love being on a set in any capacity. It really 0:15:03.440 --> 0:15:04.320 doesn't matter you. 0:15:04.240 --> 0:15:06.960 Said you you said you work, do you currently work 0:15:06.960 --> 0:15:08.600 in production, or you have worked in production. 0:15:10.040 --> 0:15:12.960 I was doing a lot of it in Florida, and 0:15:13.000 --> 0:15:16.840 I was doing a lot of like live concert stuff 0:15:16.880 --> 0:15:21.360 for a long time, which was really cool, and then yeah, 0:15:21.400 --> 0:15:24.480 I was working my way into the commercials. But Austin, 0:15:24.520 --> 0:15:28.600 Texas was really really weird for that, Like the community 0:15:28.640 --> 0:15:33.280 there is like really cutthroat and really quickie and intense. 0:15:35.200 --> 0:15:36.960 So I didn't get to do that as much. 0:15:37.880 --> 0:15:40.400 Do you pick Atlanta? Because it has started to keep 0:15:40.400 --> 0:15:44.200 interrupting you. But I'm just trying to get down to like, yes, why. 0:15:44.440 --> 0:15:45.880 Yeah, you're trying to like figure it out. 0:15:45.960 --> 0:15:48.400 Did you did you get Did you pick Atlanta? Because 0:15:48.680 --> 0:15:51.280 there's because of all the product I mean, I. 0:15:51.080 --> 0:15:56.360 I there's a lot of film here especially, yeah, and 0:15:56.480 --> 0:15:57.680 a lot of like TV stuff. 0:15:57.920 --> 0:16:03.000 When you say you want to like make film, do 0:16:03.000 --> 0:16:03.480 you mean you. 0:16:03.520 --> 0:16:05.560 Want if I could be if I could be like 0:16:06.000 --> 0:16:07.880 if I could be like a like a like a 0:16:07.880 --> 0:16:09.720 foli artist, but like the rest of my life, I'd 0:16:09.760 --> 0:16:11.600 be very happy with that. If I could get in 0:16:11.600 --> 0:16:13.800 a writer's room, I'd be really really happy with that. 0:16:13.960 --> 0:16:14.280 Okay. 0:16:14.320 --> 0:16:16.360 There's like so many different avenues of it that I'm 0:16:16.360 --> 0:16:19.480 like really could be very happy doing. And that's why 0:16:19.480 --> 0:16:22.000 I'm like so broad with it. It's like it's not 0:16:22.080 --> 0:16:23.680 even like a like, oh, I don't know, it's like 0:16:23.680 --> 0:16:25.800 a believe in myself that I could like direct. I 0:16:25.840 --> 0:16:27.920 think I could, like I really do think that I like, 0:16:27.960 --> 0:16:30.920 but I I there's so many different facets of like 0:16:31.160 --> 0:16:34.720 filming something that I genuinely enjoy is what I mean. 0:16:35.000 --> 0:16:41.040 So, Okay, that's good to know. So I you've been 0:16:41.080 --> 0:16:45.640 Atlanta for a month, and yeah, have you have you 0:16:45.880 --> 0:16:50.320 gone to any like fucking have you have you gone 0:16:50.640 --> 0:16:54.320 to any like? You gotta see? That's that's that's the 0:16:54.400 --> 0:16:58.360 thing is, there's a lot of And by the way, 0:16:58.400 --> 0:17:02.000 I'm the king of short I am the king of 0:17:02.080 --> 0:17:05.679 short term dopamine traps. Okay, I am a I am 0:17:05.720 --> 0:17:10.400 a complete hypograph. I'm the king of short term dopamine loops. 0:17:10.440 --> 0:17:14.199 So I say this with with uh uh you know 0:17:16.119 --> 0:17:24.520 the heart, uh, yes, the if. I'm sure that yelling 0:17:24.720 --> 0:17:29.440 at a at a little kid on roadblocks probably feels amazing. 0:17:29.560 --> 0:17:35.399 It's probably a great rush of adrenaline to to like 0:17:35.600 --> 0:17:39.159 have something that, like to care about, like to like 0:17:39.359 --> 0:17:41.880 be giving, like, you know, because we're all just we're 0:17:41.920 --> 0:17:44.280 all just looking for reasons to get out of our 0:17:44.320 --> 0:17:49.359 fucking head and into something, and sometimes that desire is 0:17:49.359 --> 0:17:53.639 what leads us to spend any amount of time or 0:17:53.680 --> 0:17:56.720 effort or fucks to give about getting a little kid 0:17:56.760 --> 0:18:00.240 banned from roadblocks. That's why you're doing that. It's because 0:18:00.280 --> 0:18:05.040 you're in I was I was driving down the road, 0:18:05.320 --> 0:18:09.240 uh yesterday and somebody like started slowing this the guy 0:18:09.359 --> 0:18:11.840 the car in front of him was slowing down, and 0:18:11.880 --> 0:18:16.520 then they started like backing up or something like just 0:18:16.560 --> 0:18:18.560 in the middle of the road. And I yelled, and 0:18:18.600 --> 0:18:21.840 I yelled, are you a fucking moron? And then I 0:18:21.920 --> 0:18:24.560 and then I and then I went I turned around, 0:18:24.560 --> 0:18:26.760 and then I and then I passed the car and 0:18:26.800 --> 0:18:29.720 then I was like, oh my god, that felt so good. 0:18:30.520 --> 0:18:36.040 My entire body and brain and essence was fully in 0:18:36.119 --> 0:18:38.720 that moment of calling that person a fucking more. It 0:18:38.760 --> 0:18:40.080 feels good. That's why we do it. 0:18:41.359 --> 0:18:44.000 Well, Yeah, I don't think I'll ever get I think 0:18:44.040 --> 0:18:48.040 the road rage contained to your car will always be 0:18:48.119 --> 0:18:50.520 a healthy outlet. And you can't change my mind on that. 0:18:50.600 --> 0:18:53.880 You know what, maybe maybe maybe you're right, Maybe maybe 0:18:53.880 --> 0:18:55.960 it is. I felt good, I felt it was cathartic. 0:18:55.960 --> 0:18:58.280 I wouldn't again, and you know what, and you're right, 0:18:58.320 --> 0:19:00.439 you're right as long as it's I think would be, 0:19:00.600 --> 0:19:03.679 I wouldn't want to, like I would never you know, 0:19:04.200 --> 0:19:07.159 go to the person to their fate, like you know, 0:19:07.200 --> 0:19:09.159 as you're right as long as it's contained in your 0:19:09.160 --> 0:19:14.399 own car. Sure, anyway, why don't anyway? Yeah, I mean 0:19:14.400 --> 0:19:17.400 all this really comes down to is like, I mean, dude, here, 0:19:17.920 --> 0:19:21.480 if I could give like, if I could give some 0:19:21.560 --> 0:19:27.720 suggestions here. I don't always feel inclined to give suggestions 0:19:27.800 --> 0:19:29.440 or feel like I know what I'm talking about here, 0:19:29.480 --> 0:19:31.080 but because it's like, you know. 0:19:31.200 --> 0:19:33.840 You used to and I remember an episode where you 0:19:33.880 --> 0:19:34.800 were talking about the ship. 0:19:34.960 --> 0:19:36.600 Yeah, yeah, I used to live in I used to 0:19:36.600 --> 0:19:38.560 live in Atlanta a couple of times, and you know, 0:19:39.160 --> 0:19:41.679 just this particular and you know, being doing film production 0:19:41.720 --> 0:19:45.400 ship and so this particular avenue. I feel, why don't 0:19:45.440 --> 0:19:50.080 you go on like meetup or Facebook or Instagram or 0:19:50.080 --> 0:19:53.320 whatever and just like go to fucking like networking events 0:19:53.440 --> 0:19:57.879 or even or even right, why don't you go on 0:19:58.040 --> 0:20:02.280 like IMDb or LinkedIn or Twitter or whatever the fuck 0:20:02.320 --> 0:20:08.360 and like email ten different Foley artists and be like, hey, 0:20:08.920 --> 0:20:11.760 you know, can I ask you for advice on getting 0:20:11.760 --> 0:20:14.399 into the industry? Not like hey can I you know, 0:20:14.720 --> 0:20:17.760 have a job, but like, hey, you know, yeah, so 0:20:17.920 --> 0:20:22.000 you just just gotta network. And by the way, people 0:20:22.000 --> 0:20:24.840 think that networking is like people the word networking is 0:20:24.920 --> 0:20:26.600 gross to a lot of people. 0:20:26.720 --> 0:20:30.160 But it's it's the only way you get anywhere. 0:20:30.560 --> 0:20:32.439 But I also it's not even I don't even think 0:20:32.440 --> 0:20:35.400 it's gross. It's like it's connecting, you know. I mean 0:20:35.440 --> 0:20:38.400 that's what you should it's people. That's what you should 0:20:38.440 --> 0:20:42.200 be doing. Is you should be out in your industry 0:20:42.720 --> 0:20:45.240 connecting with other people and not you know, at home 0:20:45.400 --> 0:20:48.560 alone yelling at teenage. It's good. It's not a gross 0:20:49.000 --> 0:20:51.800 thing to want to network. 0:20:53.359 --> 0:20:58.400 Yeah it is. Okay, okay, thank you. That's actually really 0:20:58.440 --> 0:21:00.840 a good advice. Then do that. 0:21:01.200 --> 0:21:02.960 So yeah, I mean that's what I would do, is 0:21:03.000 --> 0:21:06.080 find if you have a I mean it's also it's 0:21:06.119 --> 0:21:08.920 so great that you have a specific because a lot 0:21:08.960 --> 0:21:11.280 of people are like, oh, I want to make something, 0:21:11.400 --> 0:21:13.800