Speaker 1: Hi.
Speaker 2: What's your name?
Speaker 3: Uh, my name is Collette.
Speaker 2: Collette collect. You texted me and you said, I'm a
Speaker 2: thirty one year old woman who just got banned on Roadblocks?
Speaker 3: Sure did? Sure did?
Speaker 2: So tell me about that. How did you get banned
Speaker 2: on Roadblocks?
Speaker 3: I guess I've just been playing a lot because I
Speaker 3: have a little brother, he's like, you know, fourteen, We've
Speaker 3: been playing for years or whatever. But also it keeps
Speaker 3: you out of trouble roadblocks does. But yeah, I just
Speaker 3: moved to Atlanta and from Texas, and I'd just been
Speaker 3: kind of in my head a lot, and so I've
Speaker 3: been like just playing by myself. But I got this
Speaker 3: new game on there. It was this like it was
Speaker 3: supposed to be so chill. It was like a like
Speaker 3: a treehouse tycoon, and basically all you got to do is,
Speaker 3: you know, say, like get all these honeybees, you collect them,
Speaker 3: you you know, you build your treehouse. But then also
Speaker 3: everybody comes in and like murders you and stuff, and
Speaker 3: you're like, I'm like, I don't understand why there's murdering
Speaker 3: this game. There's like chill jazz music, there's bird sounds.
Speaker 3: I really don't understand what this game is and why
Speaker 3: everyone was treating it like a GTA server. But there
Speaker 3: was these children and they rolled up that I couldn't
Speaker 3: collect my honey. They parked their little car. They kept
Speaker 3: on murdering me over and over again, and it just
Speaker 3: really sent me because like I was really excited to
Speaker 3: play this little game, and I just called them Brady
Speaker 3: virgins and then well I tried to report them because
Speaker 3: they were being very mean to me on the on
Speaker 3: the chat, I did not appreciate it. And they don't
Speaker 3: know what I'm going through. They don't know who they're
Speaker 3: talking to. But yeah, I did tell them that I'm
Speaker 3: sorry their parents are divorced, and I do regret that
Speaker 3: because their parents are probably most definitely divorced.
Speaker 2: What okay, why do you assume that their parents are divorced?
Speaker 3: I mean just because of you know, the ratios. You know,
Speaker 3: you can look at any like you know census.
Speaker 2: Okay, okay, yeah, sure, yeah, sure, there's a there's a
Speaker 2: fifty percent chance that that they're right. How old How
Speaker 2: old do you think these kids are? These are like squeakers,
Speaker 2: These were like thirteen year olds.
Speaker 3: They're probably they're probably yeah, they're probably like the same
Speaker 3: as in my little brother. It's probably like fourteen or something.
Speaker 2: I mean, they probably should they probably should be virgins.
Speaker 3: I mean, no, they should, I shouldn't. I I regret that.
Speaker 3: I guess. It's just like, you know, like, what's your
Speaker 3: I guess. I mean, I'm not really upset that they
Speaker 3: are that they're virgins. That's not really it was. It
Speaker 3: was just that like, obviously you haven't been through anything.
Speaker 3: You're just a stupid virgin, which is really mean to
Speaker 3: a lot of adult virgins. I get it, I understand.
Speaker 3: I was They're they're reorganizing that. I'm going crazy right now.
Speaker 2: They're life virsion, they're life virgins, their life.
Speaker 3: Their life virgin.
Speaker 2: Yes exactly, you know, uh yeah, yeah. I mean getting
Speaker 2: into heated arguments with fourteen year olds on roadblocks is
Speaker 2: probably crazy. It I you would feel irresponsible for me,
Speaker 2: it is.
Speaker 1: Yeah.
Speaker 2: Yeah, it's a little crazy. It's a little crazy. It's
Speaker 2: undeniably a little crazy. But I'm let's talk.
Speaker 3: I pull my little brother. What happened in all these
Speaker 3: textan me was wow, And I was like, okay, now
Speaker 3: I know that. I'm like I'm like losing it a
Speaker 3: little bit, you.
Speaker 2: Know, Okay, why do you why do you think you're uh,
Speaker 2: why do you think you're losing it?
Speaker 3: Well, okay, I just moved here. I was in Austin,
Speaker 3: Texas doing like a weird family thing for a while.
Speaker 3: I've been I've moved all around the country. But yeah,
Speaker 3: I was only in Texas for a couple of years
Speaker 3: because like my grandma and my mom wanted to like
Speaker 3: hang out with me a little bit. I haven't really
Speaker 3: lived around them for like over a decade, and that
Speaker 3: was really really stressful. I have like very conservative, uh grandparents.
Speaker 3: I mean, just like everybody else. It's a little bit
Speaker 3: different though, when like you're mixed and like your white
Speaker 3: family is like really really racist in like every possible way.
Speaker 3: Pretty much, Like, yeah, the only person I kind of
Speaker 3: like that I'm related to is my mom. But anyway,
Speaker 3: that's a really really long story. You know, I'm really
Speaker 3: okay like not talking about that, but yeah, it was
Speaker 3: a lot. My grandma like started hospice while I was there,
Speaker 3: and they were just like incredibly hard to please people
Speaker 3: you kind of have to perform at all times. And
Speaker 3: then also I like they kicked me out because I
Speaker 3: asked them to stop talking about Trump with me. And
Speaker 3: then so I had to like live with like this
Speaker 3: really crazy girl and and she was a lot And
Speaker 3: then I was also dating like of, you know, a
Speaker 3: comedian who was like a severe alcoholic. It was just
Speaker 3: like a lot of you know, stuff that didn't have
Speaker 3: to do with me, which I'm usually pretty good at.
Speaker 3: But I'm realizing that this is like the first time.
Speaker 3: I've been wanting to get to Atlanta for a really
Speaker 3: long time because I feel like all my hopes and
Speaker 3: dreams and like a lot of like family that I
Speaker 3: would like to get to now lives here. And I
Speaker 3: just want to make movies and I want to make TV,
Speaker 3: and like I've been working in production a long time,
Speaker 3: and like I just want to like I've just been
Speaker 3: wanting to come here and feel comfortable in my own
Speaker 3: skin and just to have a lovely time. But now
Speaker 3: that I'm here, it's like the self like I'm like
Speaker 3: actually having to like be the person that I was
Speaker 3: imagining being. And then I'm also realizing, you know that
Speaker 3: that's the anxiety is like that part is like I'm like, oh,
Speaker 3: this is like you you think about something for too
Speaker 3: long and then like you're like, oh, this is It's
Speaker 3: still me, I'm not like a different person. Yeah, and
Speaker 3: so it's like still have to do all of those things,
Speaker 3: like be a different person.
Speaker 2: Yeah.
Speaker 3: And now I'm just like cursing kids out on roadblocks.
Speaker 3: I mean that's crazy. I'm like I could be outside
Speaker 3: right now, it's like gorgeous out. I could be like
Speaker 3: meeting people, but I have a really I'm like so
Speaker 3: good at meeting people that are like terrible for me.
Speaker 3: So like I'm really terrified about like making new connections.
Speaker 3: That's also I think, really what it is is that
Speaker 3: I don't trust myself to like actually surround myself with
Speaker 3: people that are like good for me. I think that's
Speaker 3: really what it is too. Also, I just like don't
Speaker 3: know where to start at this point.
Speaker 2: You said so many things just now that pequked my interest. Okay, Okay,
Speaker 2: I want to I'm trying to hold on to all
Speaker 2: of them. Okay, one you said was first of all, Okay,
Speaker 2: I'm sorry if I got I'm trying to get your
Speaker 2: timeline correct because you because you said something, because you
Speaker 2: threw a bunch of stuff out about like okay, your
Speaker 2: family kicked you know, bad relationship with the family and
Speaker 2: the alcoholic comedian and all this is that, this is
Speaker 2: all before you moved to Atlanta.
Speaker 3: Yeah, this was all before I moved to Atlanta. This
Speaker 3: was like the first place I've ever lived with like,
Speaker 3: that's just for me.
Speaker 2: And then then you've.
Speaker 3: Done things for family and other people, and like, this
Speaker 3: is the first time I've ever done something that's like
Speaker 3: just me.
Speaker 2: And then when did you move to Atlanta?
Speaker 3: Like a month ago?
Speaker 2: And you're living with your little brother.
Speaker 3: No, I'm not living with my little brother. My little
Speaker 3: brother lives pretty close. He lives in Jacksonville, Florida.
Speaker 2: Okay, but do you live with yeah, like, are you
Speaker 2: living with family by yourself?
Speaker 3: No? I live completely by myself and I don't have
Speaker 3: like close family, like the family I have here. Oh shit,
Speaker 3: my cat, Hi, are you ready to come in Jesus,
Speaker 3: you've been gone for so long? But yeah, she it's
Speaker 3: just me and my cat and my snake that I'm
Speaker 3: hiding from the leasing office. But yeah, the family I
Speaker 3: have here, they're like I haven't seen them since I
Speaker 3: was like, you know, ten or something.
Speaker 2: You know, And you said that you mainly came down
Speaker 2: there to uh, well, you said you came down there
Speaker 2: for a lot of reasons. But you one of the
Speaker 2: reasons you said you came down there was because you
Speaker 2: wanted to get closer to them.
Speaker 3: Right, Yeah, I've got like my I've got like a
Speaker 3: lot of my my dad's side of the family in Savannah.
Speaker 3: So yeah, I've already like went and saw my grandma,
Speaker 3: who's like great. She like has always like smoked like
Speaker 3: two packs of Marbs a day, and like she like
Speaker 3: drives trucks and like she's really mean, but she like
Speaker 3: puts all of her heart and soul into like the
Speaker 3: food she makes. Like she's like so classic. She look
Speaker 3: a really nice lady.
Speaker 2: Cool. How old is she she? I'm curious.
Speaker 3: Oh my god, she had my dad. Like my whole
Speaker 3: family's just babies. My dad was like she had my
Speaker 3: dad when she was fourteen. Wow, she got real on life. Yeah,
Speaker 3: real unlucky. It was the guy she like lost her
Speaker 3: virginity too, and he's like a real schmuck. Like he's
Speaker 3: like a bad guy, but yeah he's crazy. And then yeah,
Speaker 3: my dad and my mom had me. My mom her
Speaker 3: parent her mom had her when she was nineteen and
Speaker 3: then they pretty much did the same thing. They were
Speaker 3: like twenty when they had me.
Speaker 2: Okay, so I was imagined when you said your grandma,
Speaker 2: I was imagining like kind of an old lady, but
Speaker 2: she's younger.
Speaker 3: Uh well I have yeah, like the one that's on
Speaker 3: hospice in Texas. That's my mom's mom. And yeah, she's young,
Speaker 3: but she's just like I mean, like her last name
Speaker 3: is like Dangler. She like comes from like real poor,
Speaker 3: like like her dad was like a huge drunk who
Speaker 3: like spent all of their milk money like on alcohol
Speaker 3: and gambling. So like all of her teeth fell out
Speaker 3: by the time she was like thirty.
Speaker 1: Just crazy, all.
Speaker 2: Right, So I mean back to you are the other thing?
Speaker 2: The thing, Yeah, back to you, you know, because I'm sure
Speaker 2: that we could get it. I'm sure that we could.
Speaker 2: We could write a whole textbook about your family lore.
Speaker 2: I'm sure that the Lord sounds like it goes very crazy.
Speaker 2: The well, the thing that you said that I was like, ah,
Speaker 2: fucking amen to that is the thing about yeah you
Speaker 2: imagine is is well yeah, okay, so once you I
Speaker 2: also feel like and this is actually I think part
Speaker 2: of like uh not to bring it to me, but
Speaker 2: like a little part of like an existential crisis is
Speaker 2: like what you sort of when you get a little
Speaker 2: bit older, you begin to fully understand the fact that
Speaker 2: there is no such thing as your future self, which
Speaker 2: is a little there's no such there's no such thing
Speaker 2: as your future self. And that's like a little scary,
Speaker 2: you know, because I think we put a lot of
Speaker 2: hopes and dreams and reliefs and plans and whatnot in
Speaker 2: this bucket of some day and in the future self,
Speaker 2: and but there's just it just never comes. There's no
Speaker 2: such thing as the future self. So yeah, it's still you.
Speaker 3: And I think that like the last two years have
Speaker 3: just been so stressful that I like have really just
Speaker 3: been like easing myself like self soothing with like a
Speaker 3: future self in mind. Like that's been like a self
Speaker 3: soothing like technique that I'm realizing. And that's it's it's
Speaker 3: it's it's making itself really apparent.
Speaker 2: Can I actually completely undermine everything I just said? Yeah,
Speaker 2: because now I'm thinking about it, I'm like, I actually
Speaker 2: there's kind of no such thing as the futureself. But
Speaker 2: there also kind of is such a thing as a
Speaker 2: future self, you know, because as human beings, we can
Speaker 2: anticipate the future, so you.
Speaker 3: Can manifize things and you can eventually like you can
Speaker 3: do things. You can you can visualize things and make
Speaker 3: them into fruition, not even just like you know you
Speaker 3: can you can you can emulate something until it be you.
Speaker 2: Yeah, well I actually actually kind of I just I
Speaker 2: have disagree with what I said. I think that are
Speaker 2: I mean, obviously, there is no future self. It's always
Speaker 2: just gonna be you when you have to understand that,
Speaker 2: But there is something about you can plan for the
Speaker 2: future to the best you can, you know. I mean
Speaker 2: you can do that financially, and you can do the
Speaker 2: health wise, and you can do that. But a lot
Speaker 2: of the times, yeah, I mean, the future self is
Speaker 2: just kind of like a vehicle for procrastination. But anyway, okay,
Speaker 2: I want to get okay past your family lawyer. We're
Speaker 2: getting philosophical bullshit. No, it's okay. I'm I'm steering us
Speaker 2: in those directions, and I take responsibility for that. Is
Speaker 2: why are you? Why are you sitting at home alone
Speaker 2: in your house yelling at teenagers on roadblocks.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I guess I'm just like realizing just like I
Speaker 3: don't really like trust myself the way that I should. Yeah,
Speaker 3: I don't know, I don't know. Oh, I don't know.
Speaker 2: Well, I mean, let's talk about this, right is you
Speaker 2: you set all these like okay, you want to make
Speaker 2: movies and oh well, okay, let's let me ask you this.
Speaker 2: You said that moving to Atlanta was something that you did,
Speaker 2: uh for yourself. It's like one of the only things
Speaker 2: you did, uh for yourself? Why did you do it?
Speaker 1: Yeah?
Speaker 3: I just think that I think that I'm sorry. My
Speaker 3: cat is driving me nuts. She's like yelling in like
Speaker 3: the middle of our apartment.
Speaker 1: Belief.
Speaker 3: I think that what it is is that I've never
Speaker 3: I've always wanted to make movies, and it was something
Speaker 3: that like, uh, you know, I felt like really guilty
Speaker 3: about for a long time for like familiar reasons or
Speaker 3: that it wasn't like possible, Like nobody my family's ever
Speaker 3: really really believed in me about that. But until like
Speaker 3: my dad like one random time was like, asa, what
Speaker 3: I worked on a gator Ade commercial And He's like
Speaker 3: I saw your car and this gator Rade commercial and
Speaker 3: I'm like, yeah, like I mean I can do it,
Speaker 3: Like there's like no reason like I can't. And I
Speaker 3: guess I've just never like invested in like myself and
Speaker 3: things that I wanted to do. I guess I've always
Speaker 3: like chose like the safe option. I like decided to
Speaker 3: do like clinical massage therapy because I was like, Okay,
Speaker 3: well I can just do that while I'm like figuring
Speaker 3: it out. And I've always just done like all these
Speaker 3: I'm like a side quest person, and I've like had
Speaker 3: a really hard time like with the big what are
Speaker 3: you going to be when you grow up?
Speaker 1: Question?
Speaker 3: Right, But I've always done like a bunch of side
Speaker 3: quests and I still kind of I mean, I still
Speaker 3: do want to do that, but I guess that this
Speaker 3: place just feels like there's a lot of opportunities for
Speaker 3: me to do things that I want to do, like
Speaker 3: and when it comes to like film, like I just
Speaker 3: love being on a set in any capacity. It really
Speaker 3: doesn't matter you.
Speaker 2: Said you you said you work, do you currently work
Speaker 2: in production, or you have worked in production.
Speaker 3: I was doing a lot of it in Florida, and
Speaker 3: I was doing a lot of like live concert stuff
Speaker 3: for a long time, which was really cool, and then yeah,
Speaker 3: I was working my way into the commercials. But Austin,
Speaker 3: Texas was really really weird for that, Like the community
Speaker 3: there is like really cutthroat and really quickie and intense.
Speaker 3: So I didn't get to do that as much.
Speaker 2: Do you pick Atlanta? Because it has started to keep
Speaker 2: interrupting you. But I'm just trying to get down to like, yes, why.
Speaker 3: Yeah, you're trying to like figure it out.
Speaker 2: Did you did you get Did you pick Atlanta? Because
Speaker 2: there's because of all the product I mean, I.
Speaker 3: I there's a lot of film here especially, yeah, and
Speaker 3: a lot of like TV stuff.
Speaker 2: When you say you want to like make film, do
Speaker 2: you mean you.
Speaker 3: Want if I could be if I could be like
Speaker 3: if I could be like a like a like a
Speaker 3: foli artist, but like the rest of my life, I'd
Speaker 3: be very happy with that. If I could get in
Speaker 3: a writer's room, I'd be really really happy with that.
Speaker 1: Okay.
Speaker 3: There's like so many different avenues of it that I'm
Speaker 3: like really could be very happy doing. And that's why
Speaker 3: I'm like so broad with it. It's like it's not
Speaker 3: even like a like, oh, I don't know, it's like
Speaker 3: a believe in myself that I could like direct. I
Speaker 3: think I could, like I really do think that I like,
Speaker 3: but I I there's so many different facets of like
Speaker 3: filming something that I genuinely enjoy is what I mean.
Speaker 2: So, Okay, that's good to know. So I you've been
Speaker 2: Atlanta for a month, and yeah, have you have you
Speaker 2: gone to any like fucking have you have you gone
Speaker 2: to any like? You gotta see? That's that's that's the
Speaker 2: thing is, there's a lot of And by the way,
Speaker 2: I'm the king of short I am the king of
Speaker 2: short term dopamine traps. Okay, I am a I am
Speaker 2: a complete hypograph. I'm the king of short term dopamine loops.
Speaker 2: So I say this with with uh uh you know
Speaker 2: the heart, uh, yes, the if. I'm sure that yelling
Speaker 2: at a at a little kid on roadblocks probably feels amazing.
Speaker 2: It's probably a great rush of adrenaline to to like
Speaker 2: have something that, like to care about, like to like
Speaker 2: be giving, like, you know, because we're all just we're
Speaker 2: all just looking for reasons to get out of our
Speaker 2: fucking head and into something, and sometimes that desire is
Speaker 2: what leads us to spend any amount of time or
Speaker 2: effort or fucks to give about getting a little kid
Speaker 2: banned from roadblocks. That's why you're doing that. It's because
Speaker 2: you're in I was I was driving down the road,
Speaker 2: uh yesterday and somebody like started slowing this the guy
Speaker 2: the car in front of him was slowing down, and
Speaker 2: then they started like backing up or something like just
Speaker 2: in the middle of the road. And I yelled, and
Speaker 2: I yelled, are you a fucking moron? And then I
Speaker 2: and then I and then I went I turned around,
Speaker 2: and then I and then I passed the car and
Speaker 2: then I was like, oh my god, that felt so good.
Speaker 2: My entire body and brain and essence was fully in
Speaker 2: that moment of calling that person a fucking more. It
Speaker 2: feels good. That's why we do it.
Speaker 3: Well, Yeah, I don't think I'll ever get I think
Speaker 3: the road rage contained to your car will always be
Speaker 3: a healthy outlet. And you can't change my mind on that.
Speaker 2: You know what, maybe maybe maybe you're right, Maybe maybe
Speaker 2: it is. I felt good, I felt it was cathartic.
Speaker 2: I wouldn't again, and you know what, and you're right,
Speaker 2: you're right as long as it's I think would be,
Speaker 2: I wouldn't want to, like I would never you know,
Speaker 2: go to the person to their fate, like you know,
Speaker 2: as you're right as long as it's contained in your
Speaker 2: own car. Sure, anyway, why don't anyway? Yeah, I mean
Speaker 2: all this really comes down to is like, I mean, dude, here,
Speaker 2: if I could give like, if I could give some
Speaker 2: suggestions here. I don't always feel inclined to give suggestions
Speaker 2: or feel like I know what I'm talking about here,
Speaker 2: but because it's like, you know.
Speaker 3: You used to and I remember an episode where you
Speaker 3: were talking about the ship.
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, I used to live in I used to
Speaker 2: live in Atlanta a couple of times, and you know,
Speaker 2: just this particular and you know, being doing film production
Speaker 2: ship and so this particular avenue. I feel, why don't
Speaker 2: you go on like meetup or Facebook or Instagram or
Speaker 2: whatever and just like go to fucking like networking events
Speaker 2: or even or even right, why don't you go on
Speaker 2: like IMDb or LinkedIn or Twitter or whatever the fuck
Speaker 2: and like email ten different Foley artists and be like, hey,
Speaker 2: you know, can I ask you for advice on getting
Speaker 2: into the industry? Not like hey can I you know,
Speaker 2: have a job, but like, hey, you know, yeah, so
Speaker 2: you just just gotta network. And by the way, people
Speaker 2: think that networking is like people the word networking is
Speaker 2: gross to a lot of people.
Speaker 3: But it's it's the only way you get anywhere.
Speaker 2: But I also it's not even I don't even think
Speaker 2: it's gross. It's like it's connecting, you know. I mean
Speaker 2: that's what you should it's people. That's what you should
Speaker 2: be doing. Is you should be out in your industry
Speaker 2: connecting with other people and not you know, at home
Speaker 2: alone yelling at teenage. It's good. It's not a gross
Speaker 2: thing to want to network.
Speaker 3: Yeah it is. Okay, okay, thank you. That's actually really
Speaker 3: a good advice. Then do that.
Speaker 2: So yeah, I mean that's what I would do, is
Speaker 2: find if you have a I mean it's also it's
Speaker 2: so great that you have a specific because a lot
Speaker 2: of people are like, oh, I want to make something,
Speaker 2: but you know what it is and whatever the fact.
Speaker 2: But to have like a specific vision and be like
Speaker 2: I want to be a folly artist, I mean, god damn.
Speaker 2: Go you know, go talk to the people who are
Speaker 2: literally doing what you want to do and they're accessible
Speaker 2: to get like.
Speaker 3: An audio engineering degree, and I don't know if I
Speaker 3: should do that. I think you think it's a kind
Speaker 3: of audio engineering kind of like a useless degree.
Speaker 2: You know what, you know what Instead of asking me
Speaker 2: because I have no idea, go go find Yeah, seriously, seriously,
Speaker 2: write a billion fucking questions down and then go to
Speaker 2: like one of these networking events that I'm sure happen
Speaker 2: all over Atlanta and ask these people, ask that question
Speaker 2: to these people. You know this we live in. We
Speaker 2: live in there's a lot of like, uh doomerism around
Speaker 2: the connectedness of our society nowadays. And I could get
Speaker 2: at philosophical bullshit whatever, but like, I don't know this,
Speaker 2: Like the tools exist for you to find people who
Speaker 2: are doing exactly what you want to do and reach
Speaker 2: out to them. And by all, there's I see no
Speaker 2: reason why if you reach out to ten of them,
Speaker 2: at least one of them wouldn't be wouldn't love to,
Speaker 2: you know, talk to you. Because that's why, Because I
Speaker 2: think I think people people want to do that. People
Speaker 2: want to send the elevator back down when they, you know,
Speaker 2: get further in their careers. It makes them feel good.
Speaker 2: So you know, do that again instead of going going
Speaker 2: and saying alone in your house and yelling at teenagers.
Speaker 3: I will, I will. Yeah, I think I'm finally at
Speaker 3: the point in my life where I'm like more comfortable
Speaker 3: being alone. But uh, yeah, I think that the only
Speaker 3: spiraling thing that I'm feeling is like what I'm supposed
Speaker 3: to be doing. But being alone is like sick, which
Speaker 3: it did not used to be the case.
Speaker 2: Okay, good, good, a lot of for a lot of
Speaker 2: people being alone as hell.
Speaker 3: Yeah, so as long as I don't spent too long
Speaker 3: on robugs, I think, yeah, it's a good thing.
Speaker 2: Yeah.
Speaker 3: But yeah, it's been honestly really terrifying to you because
Speaker 3: I feel like every time I have sets out in Atlanta,
Speaker 3: it's only like romance trying to find me, and that's
Speaker 3: really frustrating.
Speaker 2: Wait, what do you mean? What do you mean it's
Speaker 2: only romance trying to find you?
Speaker 3: It's I'm I'm consistently having people trying to date me
Speaker 3: in a capacity and I can't find any friends.
Speaker 2: Why do I feel I'm I'm hold on, I'm invested
Speaker 2: in this. Give me one second. I'm I feel I
Speaker 2: genuine because I feel like there's got to be like
Speaker 2: a fucking like women filmmakers meet up in Atlanta that
Speaker 2: you can go to friends. I really just got that.
Speaker 2: There's no way that doesn't exist.
Speaker 3: It has to, right, it has to me.
Speaker 2: Look Look here, what is this? Look? What is this
Speaker 2: film hub Atlanta? I literally just googled this there's the
Speaker 2: film Fatals, an international collective of Yeah, there's all there's
Speaker 2: all kinds of this ship. I'm I yeah, there's all
Speaker 2: kinds of this ship. Look upcoming events Atlanta. Hold on,
Speaker 2: bro look at this. Look I mean this is a
Speaker 2: past event, but uh, this is a women in Film
Speaker 2: and Atlanta event Saturday, April twenty sixth. It's passed. But
Speaker 2: I just said, these things exist, you know they do.
Speaker 2: You're right, you can join. Look, this is the whole thing.
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Speaker 2: Fucking send them an email. Just you know, just I
Speaker 2: just this is I'm getting specific about it, but it's
Speaker 2: like I just just do anything to jog your brain
Speaker 2: into realizing that there's there's there's other options for you
Speaker 2: besides again, besides yelling at teenage us on the internet.
Speaker 3: Thank you, thanks Lyle. Hey did you ever watch Perfect Days?
Speaker 4: No?
Speaker 2: I haven't. I thank you, By the way, Because this
Speaker 2: I feel like I'll have multiple streams in a row
Speaker 2: where I'm like, I think I'm pretty useless, but I
Speaker 2: felt good about this call. So thanks for letting me
Speaker 2: yell at you. Collecte.
Speaker 3: Thanks for yelling at me, Lyle. It's been a pleasure.
Speaker 3: This is my first time ever really calling.
Speaker 1: Okay, that you chose me.
Speaker 2: Is there anything else you want to say to the
Speaker 2: people of the computer before we go?
Speaker 4: Mmm?
Speaker 3: Sometimes I claim to know a guy, but I can't
Speaker 3: tell you what his hands look like. All right, Lyle, all.
Speaker 2: Right, Colleede, you have a good one. Bye bye bye.
Speaker 2: I don't know what did that she's Sometimes I claim
Speaker 2: to know a guy, but I don't know what his
Speaker 2: hands look like. Is it like a is that a
Speaker 2: sex joke? What is that? Anyway? Anyway, Man, vivance is awesome.
Speaker 2: I feel like a real person. That's what it is.
Speaker 2: That's what it is. I've had a lot of street
Speaker 2: I mean, maybe that's not what it is, but my
Speaker 2: energy as a human being, I think to do this
Speaker 2: podcast is finite. And there's a lot of times where
Speaker 2: it's like nine pm and I'll chuck and I you know,
Speaker 2: I got a record, and I'll chug a fucking mountain
Speaker 2: dew and then I'll and then I and then someone's
Speaker 2: talking to me and I'm zoning out, and I'm like, oh,
Speaker 2: of course that's happening. Why would that not be happening
Speaker 2: right now? I'm always trying to solve for X, for
Speaker 2: like how to feel good and present? Yeah, I don't know,
Speaker 2: I'm rambling, but yeah, good luck Collette. Uh try to
Speaker 2: do stuff? Hello? Hello, Hello? What's up?
Speaker 1: Man? What's happening on?
Speaker 2: Not much where you call him? Are you a brit
Speaker 2: Are you a Brits? No Ah, there we go? What
Speaker 2: part of Australia? Are you in Sydney? Kick ass man?
Speaker 2: I had a great time in Sydney when I went there.
Speaker 2: Do you do you like it? Or are you like us?
Speaker 2: Is where I live?
Speaker 1: It's just where you live your I'll not PayPal travel
Speaker 1: he from all over the world and people get exhitited
Speaker 1: to say it about For me, it shifts a lock.
Speaker 1: It's an as though it is a beautiful city. We've
Speaker 1: got some good local beaches and there's a lot of
Speaker 1: like restaurants and you know, nice places to eat out.
Speaker 1: But you know, you always feel like wherever you live,
Speaker 1: you always feel like you just live in a bubble.
Speaker 1: You know, because you go to your job and to
Speaker 1: do your thing, and it's kind of like you get
Speaker 1: caught up in the routine.
Speaker 2: Sometimes, Yeah, are you Are you in a bubble? That's
Speaker 2: a stupid question, but it remains.
Speaker 1: It feels like that five days of the week and
Speaker 1: then the other two days of the week. Sometimes you
Speaker 1: try to break free of that bubble, do something, you know,
Speaker 1: out of the ordinary, but sometimes you just end up
Speaker 1: getting stuck in the bubble still, and then you just
Speaker 1: live this life in a bubble because it feels like,
Speaker 1: I don't know, sometimes it's just financeers that feel like
Speaker 1: it's holding you back from breaking free of that bubble.
Speaker 2: You said that on the weekends you try to break
Speaker 2: out of the bubble. What do you do on the
Speaker 2: weekends to try to break out of the bubble?
Speaker 1: You know, I don't so much. I haven't been doing
Speaker 1: it as much lately, but I did, like, you know,
Speaker 1: I do like going out to the beach or going
Speaker 1: on a hike or just you know, getting outdoors and
Speaker 1: getting out in nature. But i've you know, I had
Speaker 1: a bit of a work related incident this year and
Speaker 1: it's impacted my ability to do a lot of things.
Speaker 1: So I guess I'm just kind of been stuck in
Speaker 1: the bubble.
Speaker 2: Is that Is that something you want to talk about?
Speaker 1: Yeah, I guess I could talk about it. So earlier
Speaker 1: on this year. I so for work, I work in construction.
Speaker 1: I operate a piece of mobile plant, the plan I'm
Speaker 1: referring to. It's a vacuum truck and I dig holes
Speaker 1: with it. So it's a big truck, and it's got
Speaker 1: a huge tank on the back, and you have a
Speaker 1: hose that comes off of the truck and you it's
Speaker 1: a vacuum hose, and you run out a high pressure
Speaker 1: water hose as well, and you dig holes using the
Speaker 1: high pressure water and the vacuum from the truck to
Speaker 1: expose underground services in such an electrical gas and water.
Speaker 1: And I was dig in holes earlier this year and
Speaker 1: I dug you know, I dug this hole, and I
Speaker 1: kind of, you know, after I was finished digging the hole.
Speaker 1: The holes were supposed to be covered by the you know,
Speaker 1: one of these workers on the job side, and he's
Speaker 1: you know, covered the whole poorly, and I've misstepped and
Speaker 1: I've fallen in the hole. I fell in the hole.
Speaker 1: It was only about to meet a beat, but you know,
Speaker 1: I landed directly on top of the water main that
Speaker 1: was in the ground, and it's then I shock up
Speaker 1: my spine and I've slipped the disc and it's caused
Speaker 1: some you know problems and some psciattica. So it's affected
Speaker 1: my right leg completely. It's impacted my ability to exercise,
Speaker 1: which has been quite difficult for me because exercise has
Speaker 1: always been a bit of an outlet for me. So yeah,
Speaker 1: and that's it, man, It's been a bit of a
Speaker 1: head fuck, if I'm being honest.
Speaker 2: Well, I'm sorry to hear that. Man, When did this
Speaker 2: all happen.
Speaker 1: Back at start of February.
Speaker 2: Did like, did you get any kind of like a
Speaker 2: workman's camp.
Speaker 1: Yeah, So it was complicated because when it first happened,
Speaker 1: the company that I worked for thought it was just
Speaker 1: going to be, you know, maybe a one or two
Speaker 1: day thing, so they didn't want to file any claims
Speaker 1: or do anything through the workers' compensation, and you know,
Speaker 1: a couple of days. You know, even on the day
Speaker 1: of the incident, it wasn't didn't feel like a big
Speaker 1: deal at the time, and then the next morning I
Speaker 1: woke up and I couldn't even I struggled to get
Speaker 1: out of bed. So I went and I called my
Speaker 1: boss and I told him, I said, I've got to
Speaker 1: you know, I went to the doctors on the day
Speaker 1: and he actually my boss come and picked me up
Speaker 1: from the job site. Because the company I work for
Speaker 1: a week contract to you know, these job sites. We
Speaker 1: hire out our equipment to other job sites. So they
Speaker 1: will call up and say, you know, we need a
Speaker 1: vacuum truck for eight hours today, and they send out
Speaker 1: me the operator. I'll drive the truck to the job
Speaker 1: site and I work for the client for eight hours.
Speaker 1: So my boss has come after the incident, after he
Speaker 1: was made aware of it, picked me up from the
Speaker 1: job site, taken me to his doctor, walked me into
Speaker 1: the doctor's office and tried to get me sign off
Speaker 1: as you know, all clear and you know there were
Speaker 1: no problems, and you know, it was a bit I
Speaker 1: didn't really speak up at the time. I just let
Speaker 1: him say whatever he needed to say. And the doctor
Speaker 1: refused to sign the office because they're just like, we
Speaker 1: don't know what the you know, we don't really know
Speaker 1: until we get some scans done. I can't just sign
Speaker 1: him off and say he's aw clear. He could have
Speaker 1: a slip disc or you might wake up tomorrow and
Speaker 1: not be able to move. And that's exactly what happened.
Speaker 1: You know, next day, I wake up, struggled to get
Speaker 1: out of bed straight away, went to my doctor without
Speaker 1: my boss there being present, told them the whole situation.
Speaker 1: They asked if I wanted to do a workers do
Speaker 1: it to workers compensation, and I said no, that's fine
Speaker 1: because I knew that my boss didn't feel comfortable going
Speaker 1: to workers compensation, And they said they gave me a
Speaker 1: referral to go get an MRI, which I had booked in,
Speaker 1: and I got that within a few days, and the
Speaker 1: MRI results showed that I'd slept a disc in my back,
Speaker 1: and my doctor had said that I need to go
Speaker 1: see a neurosurgeon immediately. Le So then I've called my boss.
Speaker 1: I've told them that that was the situation, and then
Speaker 1: they've gone ahead booked me in to see a different
Speaker 1: doctor who then wanted to backtrack fill out our workers'
Speaker 1: compensation claim, backtrack it to the actual day of the incident,
Speaker 1: because they knew that if after I got the results
Speaker 1: from the MRI and my doctor said I need to
Speaker 1: see neurosogeon. They knew it was going to be a
Speaker 1: lot of money out of their pocket and this could
Speaker 1: potentially go on for a long time and it would
Speaker 1: end up costing them a lot more money. So they
Speaker 1: have then gone and you know, I set me up
Speaker 1: with their doctor. I've been doing everything that their doctor
Speaker 1: has been sane, It's gone through works coming. I've been
Speaker 1: going to physio twice a week, multiple doctors appointment. The
Speaker 1: first three to four weeks, I was on four different
Speaker 1: pain management medications and it felt like none of it
Speaker 1: was helping. Over time with the physio and then slowly
Speaker 1: weeding off of those medications and then slowly getting back
Speaker 1: into work, I have started to feel better, but they
Speaker 1: still haven't signed me off yet because I'm now it's
Speaker 1: still affecting my right leg. So, you know, a couple
Speaker 1: of weeks ago went and I got another MRI and
Speaker 1: it's still showing that there's a problem there. And the
Speaker 1: doctor that they had set me up with is now
Speaker 1: saying on to see a neurosurgeon, which is what my
Speaker 1: doctor had said initially. So it kind of feels like,
Speaker 1: you know that, well, all that time that I've spent
Speaker 1: with doctor doing whatever he was saying, and ultimately now
Speaker 1: he's saying, I gotta go see a neurosoge and I
Speaker 1: feel like this is something that I kind of wanted
Speaker 1: to do months ago, back when the incident first happened.
Speaker 1: But they thought that maybe I was, you know, because
Speaker 1: it was my doctor. I was somehow, you know, they
Speaker 1: were I don't know they I feel like maybe they
Speaker 1: thought I was all caught up with my doctor and
Speaker 1: they were telling me to do something. You know, I
Speaker 1: don't know if you get what I'm saying.
Speaker 2: They thought it was fishy that you were bringing in
Speaker 2: your doctor instead of their doctor. There's that basically what
Speaker 2: you're saying. Yeah, they well, well, yeah, I guess because
Speaker 2: they don't want I mean, they want to be in
Speaker 2: control of the situation. I would assume, yes, So are
Speaker 2: you Are you having issues with like with with being
Speaker 2: able to see your doctor in conflict with their doctor.
Speaker 1: I can see my doctor at any time, and that's
Speaker 1: a part of the workers' compensation. I can change the doctors,
Speaker 1: I can change fhusio. I'm in control of the whole
Speaker 1: situation essentially. But every time I brought it up to them,
Speaker 1: if they're not happy about something, because they have not
Speaker 1: made this easy for me at all. You know, there's
Speaker 1: been times, you know, when I'm at work and they're
Speaker 1: coming up to me. They essentially think that I'm milking
Speaker 1: the whole thing, or that I'm bullshitting my way through
Speaker 1: it just so i can stay on workers compensation without
Speaker 1: saying that directly. They have come up to me and said,
Speaker 1: you know, like you've been honest with us about the
Speaker 1: whole thing, and it's like like, I'm getting the skin,
Speaker 1: I'm seeing your doctors, I'm doing everything that you guys
Speaker 1: want me to do, and still you're not happy with
Speaker 1: it because they haven't signed me off.
Speaker 2: You said you were back to work.
Speaker 1: Though, right, yeah, but it's reduced hours.
Speaker 2: Okay, and so so so what are they what are
Speaker 2: they trying to do with they trying to like, are
Speaker 2: they trying to be like, hey, we're no longer gonna
Speaker 2: because obviously you're still working with their doctor. Are they
Speaker 2: trying to say like like you can't work with our
Speaker 2: doctor on our dime anymore.
Speaker 1: Well, a couple of weeks ago, my boss had come
Speaker 1: up to me while I was at work, and he
Speaker 1: was he approached the situation a lot differently to how
Speaker 1: they had previously because it felt very threatening. They have
Speaker 1: approached me a few times and it felt very threatening
Speaker 1: in the way that they approached me. But this time around,
Speaker 1: he was just like, you know, you, I feel like
Speaker 1: you're telling us you're getting better, which I am slowly,
Speaker 1: it is taking time, and I am getting better. I
Speaker 1: have made a lot of progress since the date of
Speaker 1: the incident. And they're like, but we feel like you're
Speaker 1: telling us one thing and then you're going into the
Speaker 1: doctor's office and you're telling them something different. And I said,
Speaker 1: how can that be? Like, I'm not because they're also
Speaker 1: they've also hired some third party, some guy that works
Speaker 1: for a third party rehab rehabilitation program who also works
Speaker 1: with me to get my goals on track and things
Speaker 1: such as that. But he attends all of my doctor's
Speaker 1: appointments with me and writes down statements of things that
Speaker 1: have been said, and he shares those things directly with
Speaker 1: my employer.
Speaker 2: That's fucking weird, man, that's fucking weird that they're like
Speaker 2: hounding you about it.
Speaker 1: It is weird. It's weird.
Speaker 2: And I mean, you're leg I mean, I mean, well,
Speaker 2: it's also like, look, I mean, you're what is it.
Speaker 2: It's your right leg mainly right, yes, is your right how?
Speaker 2: How how is your right leg doing? Is it still
Speaker 2: like I mean, I assume what this was back in February.
Speaker 2: I mean, it probably takes a while to like fully rehabilitate,
Speaker 2: you know. I mean they're they're trying to like rush
Speaker 2: your leg.
Speaker 1: Yeah, they are. It's it is going to take a
Speaker 1: while because it is stemming from the slit disc and
Speaker 1: from what I know, those things take a long time
Speaker 1: to recover from. But it's made my right leg essentially,
Speaker 1: like it's a little bit sloppy. I have to control
Speaker 1: over them. I can use that. I'm not really limping
Speaker 1: when I walk or anything, but it's I have a
Speaker 1: bit of loss of control over my right foot and
Speaker 1: I can't, you know, do things like I can't run
Speaker 1: when I'm you know, driving, it's kind of affecting my
Speaker 1: ability to push on the accelerator and break not completely.
Speaker 1: I can still drive, but my job does require me
Speaker 1: to drive a truck, so you know, it's kind of
Speaker 1: affected affecting my ability to work. And you know, they're
Speaker 1: still trying to rush it along, and I just don't
Speaker 1: know what to do at this point.
Speaker 2: But you can't you I mean, yeah, I mean if
Speaker 2: they're trying to rush it along, but like, don't you
Speaker 2: have I mean, by the way, I mean, I am
Speaker 2: in the grounds of things that I have no fucking
Speaker 2: idea what I'm talking about, but I can I just
Speaker 2: can we assume that there's some kind of law or
Speaker 2: like I don't know, like what are your what are
Speaker 2: your rights in this situation? You know what I mean? Like,
Speaker 2: did do you have anyone who's like telling you that ship.
Speaker 1: Anyone that I've told things that are sucked up? And
Speaker 1: I agree it is about the company that I work
Speaker 1: for can be kind of a toxic workplace, and you.
Speaker 2: Know, but I guess what I'm saying is like it's
Speaker 2: like it's like like they're trying to like like if
Speaker 2: your boss is trying to like you know, uh like
Speaker 2: strong arm you into not paying for uh, not being
Speaker 2: on workers comp is that like you know, is that
Speaker 2: is that illegal?
Speaker 1: I don't think. I don't think it's legal.
Speaker 2: So then well, I mean, so look, if it's not legal,
Speaker 2: then don't you can kind of can't you kind of
Speaker 2: be like uh, yeah, well you can. You can say
Speaker 2: whatever you want. You can try to rush me as
Speaker 2: much as you want, but uh, it doesn't fucking matter
Speaker 2: because you know you have to pay for you have
Speaker 2: to pay for this, you know, so like I mean,
Speaker 2: if they because if they do rush you along and
Speaker 2: they do try to fuck you, I assume you can
Speaker 2: just sue them. But I don't know. I can't assume
Speaker 2: anything because I don't know anything about any of this ship,
Speaker 2: either in America or Australia.
Speaker 1: M hm, yeah, you need you need a lawyer, man,
Speaker 1: You need a lawyer.
Speaker 2: You need a lawyer. You need a lawyer, not a gecko.
Speaker 2: You need a lawyer, man.
Speaker 1: A lawyer. But it wasn't really something that I'm looking to. Uh,
Speaker 1: you know, Ti up U, it's already a bit of
Speaker 1: a headache.
Speaker 2: I don't want to I'm sure. I know, I'm sure,
Speaker 2: and I I I I empathize with that. I get that.
Speaker 2: It's like you don't wanna you's don't want to deal
Speaker 2: with it. But it still is my go ahead.
Speaker 1: I was just gonna say, it still is my job
Speaker 1: and uh, you know, my form of income and following this,
Speaker 1: I'm not really it's uncertain what's going to happen. I
Speaker 1: don't know if by the end of it, when they
Speaker 1: saw me, They're going to be like I like you done,
Speaker 1: pack up your ship and go, or that's to be
Speaker 1: b my job.
Speaker 2: And I can hold on, hold on, I'm gonna I'm
Speaker 2: gonna interrupt. What's your name again, job, Marcus? Whatever? Whatever
Speaker 2: your name is? Marcus? Okay, just tell me have you
Speaker 2: have you consulted with a lawyer? Have you even spoken
Speaker 2: with a lawyer? Have you even called? I'm on the phone, No, Marcus,
Speaker 2: call a law Marcus, hang up the phone right now, Marcus.
Speaker 2: I'm gonna keeck Marcus, hang up the Marcus. I what
Speaker 2: time is it in Australia right now?
Speaker 1: Uh? Six am?
Speaker 2: Six am? Okay, Marcus? What were you doing up so
Speaker 2: late or early? You have to work?
Speaker 1: I actually don't have what till ten I am, but
Speaker 1: I wanted to get the fuck out of the assid
Speaker 1: whether it won't pay any of my family.
Speaker 2: How How old are you? Marcus?
Speaker 1: Twenty six?
Speaker 2: Twenty six?
Speaker 1: What?
Speaker 2: And you Marcus? Man? Listen? First of all, look, I
Speaker 2: appreciate you, you know, being down to talk about all
Speaker 2: this shit. I'm screaming at you that you need to
Speaker 2: call a lawyer. I get the fear, right, I get
Speaker 2: the fear of like, oh, you'll you know, like retaliation
Speaker 2: from your boss or whatever. But like this is like,
Speaker 2: like this it happens to people, and there are like
Speaker 2: people who professionally help people who this shit happens to.
Speaker 2: Because right because you don't have anyone on your side
Speaker 2: right now, you just have your fucking it's just you
Speaker 2: and your buddies and your versus like your your boss,
Speaker 2: who's clearly not on your side, and you gotta go
Speaker 2: fucking talk to somebody who's on your You got to
Speaker 2: call a lawyer, man. Like it like the fact that
Speaker 2: you even like if you had told me you were like, yeah,
Speaker 2: I consulted with a lawyer and they told me that
Speaker 2: you know this, that and the other reason why I
Speaker 2: shouldn't you know, fight back, and you know I'd have
Speaker 2: to retain that, Like but but yeah, you haven't even
Speaker 2: had a converse. I have a conversation with a lawyer, bro.
Speaker 2: Just call one. Just call a lawyer. Just please please
Speaker 2: call it. Please just call call a lawyer today.
Speaker 4: Man.
Speaker 2: I get and and and by everything that you're talking
Speaker 2: about on the on this fucking show right now about
Speaker 2: like oh I'm afraid about this. I'm afraid it's gonna
Speaker 2: be a hassle. I'm afraid that you know, they're gonna retaliate.
Speaker 2: I'm gonna lose my job. I'm afraid of this. Write
Speaker 2: down every single one of those fucking fears. Okay, then
Speaker 2: you call a lawyer and you tell them every single
Speaker 2: one of those fears, and then have somebody have you know,
Speaker 2: have them explain to you. I mean it's literally their
Speaker 2: job to deal with people in your situation. Go fucking
Speaker 2: call like a workman's comp lawyer man and be and
Speaker 2: be vulnerable and be honest with them about all these
Speaker 2: fears that you have about this situation, and like gets
Speaker 2: get some help.
Speaker 1: Dude, that's good, boss.
Speaker 2: And if you don't do it, I'm gonna come down
Speaker 2: to Australia. I'm gonna fucking break your other leg.
Speaker 1: I there's a part of me that wants to do
Speaker 1: it because it's good at boss, and then there's a
Speaker 1: part of me that doesn't want to do it, just
Speaker 1: so you come down to Australia and bright the leg.
Speaker 2: I know I'm not going to break your other leg.
Speaker 2: I'm not going to do that.
Speaker 1: Bro.
Speaker 2: Yeah, call a lawyer. I don't hold on. I'm gonna
Speaker 2: i don't know what is workman. I'm on Google right now.
Speaker 2: Workmen's Comp lawyer, Sydney, Australia. Okay, there's a billion of them, bro,
Speaker 2: Yeah go, there's so many, Bro, you gotta you gotta
Speaker 2: call one of these lawyers. There's a billion of them,
Speaker 2: workmen's comp lawyers, low apart. Yeah go, I hope you
Speaker 2: do this, man, I I I I It would make
Speaker 2: me so happy if you took my advice and called
Speaker 2: I called a lawyer instead of just like letting your
Speaker 2: boss fuck you like this.
Speaker 1: M hm.
Speaker 2: What's your family? Do you talk to your family about this? Ship?
Speaker 4: Yeah?
Speaker 3: Do?
Speaker 1: But uh, I feel like that don't really understand a
Speaker 1: lot of what oursers, so I'll just truck it to
Speaker 1: myself a lot of the time.
Speaker 2: Mm hmmm mm hmm, Bro, call a lawyer? Has anyone
Speaker 2: else you talk to your friends about this?
Speaker 1: Yeah?
Speaker 2: And what did they say? Did they tell you to
Speaker 2: call lawyer?
Speaker 1: That never said call a lawyer? But I just think
Speaker 1: it's sucked up.
Speaker 2: Yeah, Well, are you gonna call lawyer today?
Speaker 1: I'm gonna call on today.
Speaker 2: Are you gonna call lawyer today?
Speaker 1: Because you have told me too? Yeah?
Speaker 2: Okay, thank god? Good? Please please please and be and
Speaker 2: tell them everything, tell them like, because because I don't know,
Speaker 2: I can't quell your fears because I'm a gecko and
Speaker 2: I'm I'm a I'm a gecko ten thousand miles away
Speaker 2: from you call call a lawyer. Okay. I feel it
Speaker 2: would make it genuinely if you call a lawyer. If
Speaker 2: you call a lawyer and then you d emmulate and
Speaker 2: you're like I called lawyer and he told me all
Speaker 2: the stuff and it made me feel better. That would
Speaker 2: make me very happy. So I hope you do that.
Speaker 2: Marcus Marcus, Marcus, Marcus Marcus Marcus. Mmmm well, all right, man,
Speaker 2: I'm gonna I'm gonna end. I'm gonna end this so
Speaker 2: that you can go call a lawyer. If because I
Speaker 2: because you're probably in your head. If I've convinced you
Speaker 2: to do it, I'm gonna let you do it right now,
Speaker 2: and I'm not gonna break it.
Speaker 1: Any lawyers are off at six, I m uh.
Speaker 2: No, you should go back to bed. Maybe nine. Let's
Speaker 2: go back to bed. Uh Marcus, is there anything else
Speaker 2: you want to say to the people of the computer
Speaker 2: before we go?
Speaker 1: I didn't think about that one. It's fun if I
Speaker 1: don't have anything to say.
Speaker 2: Of course it's fine. Yeah, it's fine. Of course it's fine.
Speaker 2: You don't have to have anything to say. Okay, just
Speaker 2: go call a lawyer. I somebody give me account of
Speaker 2: how many times I said that over the course of
Speaker 2: this uh phone call. Okay, good good luck, Marcus.
Speaker 1: Thanks, I appreciate it, all right, take care of him.
Speaker 2: Man. I don't know what that is. I don't know
Speaker 2: what that is. Is that like a low is it
Speaker 2: like a low self esteem thing?
Speaker 4: Like?
Speaker 2: What is I like, what is it that is preventing
Speaker 2: this gentleman from calling a lawyer? Shit, dude, That's what
Speaker 2: I would do if I was in a situation like that.
Speaker 2: I mean, I mean damn, because he's just yeah, all this,
Speaker 2: all this stuff that he's talking about. You know, it's
Speaker 2: so funny that there's an entire like this is so dumb.
Speaker 2: But it's crazy to me that there's a whole continent
Speaker 2: of other of people who have that accent, like the
Speaker 2: law Like, if he calls a lawyer, the lawyer is
Speaker 2: gonna like be like an Australia and he's gonna talk,
Speaker 2: He's gonna have that accent. The boss who's fucking them
Speaker 2: over has an accent. The guy the person who gave that.
Speaker 2: All the doctors they have that accent. That's kind of
Speaker 2: crazy to me. Hello, Hey, what's up? What's your name?
Speaker 2: My name is May May. What's up?
Speaker 1: May?
Speaker 2: How's life.
Speaker 4: Crazy? Just finished my finals? So next pustential crisis?
Speaker 2: Why Why is finishing your finals giving you an existential crisis?
Speaker 4: Well, honestly, I'm just scared of the adult world. Like
Speaker 4: it's just the main reason. Like I just finished neuroscience,
Speaker 4: but now I don't have a job because the job
Speaker 4: applications I applied to just no funding and I just
Speaker 4: got fired.
Speaker 2: Well we oh no, what were you doing before you
Speaker 2: were fired?
Speaker 4: So like a college student but like it's technically not
Speaker 4: a fire, but just got let go after they said like,
Speaker 4: oh yeah, we can't hire you anymore, so we got
Speaker 4: to let you go. And I'm like, but you didn't
Speaker 4: even hire me.
Speaker 2: And what this is? Uh, this is a neuros You
Speaker 2: got a neuroscience degree, yep.
Speaker 4: And and I was looking into like maybe I want
Speaker 4: to do research, but now like honestly yeah, and also
Speaker 4: like a lot of like things happened around me, Like
Speaker 4: neuroscience research is wild. All the research I've been into
Speaker 4: is like the only normal thing I got into children research.
Speaker 4: Every other thing is wild.
Speaker 2: What what tell me about? Tell me about the wild things?
Speaker 4: So like when I when people ask me of like, okay,
Speaker 4: so what are you studying right now? I'm like it's
Speaker 4: kind of like awkward to like explain to them that,
Speaker 4: like it's basically lebotomizing like raps.
Speaker 2: We all know that we no, no, no, look listen, listen, listen.
Speaker 2: May you can, may you can be all KOI on
Speaker 2: this phone call. But we know you guys are sucking
Speaker 2: up some rats. We look, we look, we get we
Speaker 2: get it. We we have all, we have all collectively
Speaker 2: as a society, decided that we can fuck up an
Speaker 2: infinite amount of rats in pursuit of our own in
Speaker 2: pursuit of the furtherance of our own of our own species.
Speaker 4: And we're okay with that degree, Like the degree of
Speaker 4: like fucking up rats. I just thought like, oh, probably
Speaker 4: just animal testing degree, right, Yeah, But I didn't. I
Speaker 4: didn't find not to like shoot up cocaine interrats.
Speaker 2: It's funny because I actually I feel bad for you,
Speaker 2: maybe because we are we're all like I'm sure that
Speaker 2: my daily I'm sure that there are so many aspects
Speaker 2: of my daily life that are the way they are
Speaker 2: because of lots of people killing lots of rats. But
Speaker 2: I'm what, I'm lucky because I don't have to. I'm
Speaker 2: not the one who has to kill the rats and
Speaker 2: you're the one who has.
Speaker 4: Yeah, so like like one good like I think, like
Speaker 4: one good thing like that probably like I was like, yeah,
Speaker 4: I didn't like it was my calling to end up here?
Speaker 4: Is like sure, I don't like like animost like I
Speaker 4: find man was cute. It's just like I don't every
Speaker 4: single time when someone's like, oh, a dog, it's kind
Speaker 4: of like, okay, yeah it's a dog, but like I
Speaker 4: still kind of feel bad. So it's kind of like
Speaker 4: a lot of people are like yeah, we like even
Speaker 4: my mom like and my brother, they're like, yeah, if
Speaker 4: you didn't get a degree and something weird, like we
Speaker 4: expected you to go into the military or some kind
Speaker 4: of like or like she just she literally just like
Speaker 4: told me like, if you don't end up a serial killer,
Speaker 4: like I'm just happy for you, preferably a doctor.
Speaker 2: Okay, so you've been lobotomizing rats for.
Speaker 4: Four years, Like I just dipped because like levant like
Speaker 4: the lab, They're like they're sure, like they just do
Speaker 4: weird things, but there's snobby about it. So like I
Speaker 4: ended up in like children research, which but what I
Speaker 4: still do is kind of weird because I just put
Speaker 4: electrodes on kids' heads, like and I call parents saying like, hey,
Speaker 4: can we have your child please? And like at first,
Speaker 4: like I was questioning like why they chose me until
Speaker 4: they got into recruitment process and I'm like, oh yeah,
Speaker 4: like with them for the first four minutes, I need
Speaker 4: to like explain to them what I'm why I'm calling
Speaker 4: for their children. Like I just go down and email
Speaker 4: list and like phone list and I just call every
Speaker 4: parent and I'm like, okay, yeah, they're they're not going
Speaker 4: to like find like a young girl or like young
Speaker 4: college students suspicious there, So why uh not?
Speaker 2: Why what what if you could like do anything with
Speaker 2: this degree, what would you do?
Speaker 1: Well?
Speaker 4: Like recently I figured out like I really like machines
Speaker 4: and working with animals, Like not like I like animals,
Speaker 4: but it's kind of like I don't like talking to
Speaker 4: people honestly, Like kids, I can deal because like, well
Speaker 4: they're not as complicated as adults, but like a lot
Speaker 4: of things happened in my life that I just want like, yeah,
Speaker 4: no humanity stocks. Like the reason oh yeah, I remember.
Speaker 4: The reason why I called you is because, yeah, what
Speaker 4: is happening to the guys around me are like at
Speaker 4: least like men in the society, because like I'm not
Speaker 4: going to sound like Missandress, but come on, like like
Speaker 4: like my guy friend of like eight years, like when
Speaker 4: I was like talking about like, hey, I don't have
Speaker 4: a job, like but I still don't really want to
Speaker 4: go into the military yet. And I was like, well,
Speaker 4: like as a half joke, I said, like, I mean
Speaker 4: like Instagram is like either like pushing me towards the
Speaker 4: sugar baby or like the military, which I was the
Speaker 4: same thing. And like after we like we just talked
Speaker 4: for like two hours, and we like I just had
Speaker 4: a beer and I was like, well, I'm not going
Speaker 4: to get drunk, so like, oh screw that. So I
Speaker 4: talked to him and like at the end of the conversation,
Speaker 4: the two hour conversation, he wasn't acting weird. He suddenly
Speaker 4: goes into his room and said, like wait here, and
Speaker 4: he pulls out a wat of cash and said like here,
Speaker 4: and I'm like I was in denial, but turns out
Speaker 4: I was solicited and I was like, yeah, no, fuck that.
Speaker 2: We he pulled out a lot of cash to like.
Speaker 4: Yeah before that, before that, like I was on the
Speaker 4: phone call with him and I was like, hey, you're
Speaker 4: doing okay, Like you had a rough patch with your
Speaker 4: girlfriend and like he had a toxic relationship and I
Speaker 4: was like, yeah, no, that's fucking toxic, Like you really
Speaker 4: want to go down this road. And I was like,
Speaker 4: I didn't say leave her, but it's kind of like
Speaker 4: it was even obvious to me that I was like, yeah,
Speaker 4: that's not good. And I don't know what an infinitus
Speaker 4: with him just decided to like he said like, yeah,
Speaker 4: I just found like cash in my room, and I
Speaker 4: was like he was talking about getting something nice and
Speaker 4: I'm like no, So I ended up cutting contest.
Speaker 2: Well, how you said you knew this guy for like
Speaker 2: eight years.
Speaker 4: Yeah, since like I don't know, like high school, like
Speaker 4: I actually come from like like I went to school
Speaker 4: in Japan for and like since my both of my
Speaker 4: parents were military, we moved around so like when I
Speaker 4: first got here, he was one of the first few
Speaker 4: friends I made. So they kind of stink.
Speaker 2: Mm hmm.
Speaker 4: So, but like, strangely enough, I don't feel sad, like
Speaker 4: it's kind of like, well, it's just probably the people
Speaker 4: I knew throughout my life, because like, yeah, like I've
Speaker 4: been robbed by like close people, almost got like a
Speaker 4: murder attempt on my life while getting my degree, and
Speaker 4: like I did work at like a dental office where
Speaker 4: I'm like a random guy walks in and said like, yeah,
Speaker 4: I just got stabbed the other day. I'm like, oh, yeah, sure,
Speaker 4: should I just pull the back like see a little
Speaker 4: bit back slower and I'm not crazy things happened, and
Speaker 4: I'm like, well, should have soon that coming.
Speaker 2: Hm hmm.
Speaker 4: Yeah. So like I don't want to think that like
Speaker 4: like or like, oh you're crazy, but I'm like, okay, yeah,
Speaker 4: but you guys have problems too, So at least I'm
Speaker 4: upfront about mine.
Speaker 2: Why who's telling you that you're crazy? And why why
Speaker 2: are they saying you're crazy? Well?
Speaker 4: My brother, but my brother is he like I just
Speaker 4: like I usually joke about it, but like, yeah, sure,
Speaker 4: like we went through the same ship because like, honestly,
Speaker 4: my both of our like our parents were like did
Speaker 4: not have a good time a lot. So he looks
Speaker 4: at me and looking at me like I'm like nonchalant
Speaker 4: about it, and he's like, yeah, so, uh, probably it's
Speaker 4: just the shenanigans I get into. So yes, like the
Speaker 4: moment I told him like, so another thing is like
Speaker 4: actually like probably like the first time I was deciding
Speaker 4: like I wanted to call you, was like I think
Speaker 4: last year fall, but I'm just going to bring up
Speaker 4: this now. But so I was on a research lab
Speaker 4: and I was like, hey, this is actually kind of fun.
Speaker 4: But turns out I don't know why my supervisor hated me.
Speaker 4: So I got fired. But like I thought, I made
Speaker 4: a friend. Then that friend went off to the deep
Speaker 4: end because like she was on some substances and like
Speaker 4: tried to run a sixty in the middle of the
Speaker 4: mountains and I was like, oh.
Speaker 2: Try to try to run. Try to run a what.
Speaker 4: Like a sixty like sixty miles per hour on like
Speaker 4: a mountain, like a dirt road, and I was just
Speaker 4: sitting there of like yeah, shee you and she just
Speaker 4: yelled at me to get off. So like yes, I
Speaker 4: call the counseling services and say like, hey, this girl's
Speaker 4: going off to deep and get her to my school
Speaker 4: because we went to the same school, so I was like, yeah,
Speaker 4: like getting my degree is I'm not cost my wife,
Speaker 4: but hey, something happens. I guess.
Speaker 2: How old are you?
Speaker 4: May twenty three?
Speaker 2: Okay, and you're just you're graduating. Well yeah, okay, it's
Speaker 2: it's it's May, so you're graduating.
Speaker 4: Yeah yeah, okay. So but at least on the bright side,
Speaker 4: I got a good GPA and graduating.
Speaker 2: So for me, hooray for fucking sure. Are you do
Speaker 2: you have like a I mean, like, do you have
Speaker 2: like a guidance counselor at the school who's like, Yo,
Speaker 2: here's how we're gonna help you get a job.
Speaker 4: Oh no, they see me, like they see me so
Speaker 4: many times, like they like, actually, like the guidance councilor
Speaker 4: I need to like contact all the science major kids
Speaker 4: because my school is a small school, so they and
Speaker 4: like actually like a private so they want everybody to
Speaker 4: like especially like get out with a job or at
Speaker 4: least with a job. So like they're like trying to
Speaker 4: get everybody to a program. But they're like, well you
Speaker 4: can gut you guys can contact me for the next
Speaker 4: five years. So like even they're panicking.
Speaker 2: I'm sorry they say. They say, they said, if what
Speaker 2: do you can't contact them for the past five years?
Speaker 4: Uh no, like the next five years, like I still
Speaker 4: can use their resources. So they're like, well contact does
Speaker 4: and my current like supervisor who's like on the research
Speaker 4: are like saying, hey apply here, hey apply there, and
Speaker 4: even like I took a gap year. So my friends
Speaker 4: are trying to like get me into jobs. But I'm like, well,
Speaker 4: it's just like when things get so bad, it just
Speaker 4: gets gets absurdly bad, and I'm like, well, I'm actually
Speaker 4: entertained for.
Speaker 2: What does he say that one more time?
Speaker 4: Like when things get so bad, like it just becomes
Speaker 4: like entertaining at some point, I guess.
Speaker 2: Mm hmmm mmmm. You have friends who are helping you
Speaker 2: try to get into jobs. Yeah, who are these friends?
Speaker 4: Like friends who like graduated like biology and like microbiology,
Speaker 4: and I feel like the like school friends like I
Speaker 4: went to school because and alumni, and then there's friends
Speaker 4: from the high school that I still have contact with.
Speaker 5: So yeah, that's a yeah, yeah.
Speaker 2: All all these all these I think all these these
Speaker 2: are all legitimate yea's, these are all legitimate yea's. Yeah.
Speaker 4: So it's not like I think like I'm not calling
Speaker 4: depressed or like calling to cry about something because I
Speaker 4: legit wanted to cry about something a few months ago,
Speaker 4: but like now it passed. I'm like, well, yeah, why
Speaker 4: did that happen? I'm prompted because like people are like
Speaker 4: people are like I did get asked like, so did
Speaker 4: you do anything? Like later down the road, like recently,
Speaker 4: They're They're like, so you did anything, And I'm like, no,
Speaker 4: I hate touching people, like and giving compliments like I
Speaker 4: don't know why that happened to me.
Speaker 2: I'm saying you did anything?
Speaker 4: Ah yeah, like getting in this much trouble. Like people
Speaker 4: are like, so you're leading someone on, and I'm like, no,
Speaker 4: I hate people. I don't mind touching.
Speaker 1: Mm hmm.
Speaker 2: Hmmm.
Speaker 4: So yeah, Like and when I was like shadowing like
Speaker 4: the only like bright side, like the bright side of
Speaker 4: like all this like weirdness because I have a lot
Speaker 4: of weird guy stories, but at least of all the
Speaker 4: men who hit me, like I did hit way above
Speaker 4: my tax bracket. So I'm like, hey, like I did
Speaker 4: pull auseholds, but I did not pull a bum. It's
Speaker 4: like I joke about people, but I'm like I'm still
Speaker 4: not dating.
Speaker 2: You said you said, up, you said you hit above
Speaker 2: your tax bracket.
Speaker 4: Yeah, it's all the people who were kind of weird
Speaker 4: towards me or like there were assholes, but like legitimately
Speaker 4: but at least, well they made more money than me.
Speaker 4: So I'm like, hey, at least I pulled someone above
Speaker 4: my tax brackets. So I'm like.
Speaker 2: A win, sure, sure, sure, sure anywhen.
Speaker 4: So it's like, I mean, it's a weird way to
Speaker 4: like try to find a bright side, but like there
Speaker 4: is no bright side that like it's just absurd to
Speaker 4: find like a one. So mm hmm.
Speaker 2: Yeah, ah man, you know, uh.
Speaker 4: I like I'm not even in the dating scene, but
Speaker 4: like people in the dating scene, I just get a
Speaker 4: little bit worried because if there's there's these weird guys
Speaker 4: that people find attractive, is kind of like, so why
Speaker 4: you want to say.
Speaker 2: I mean, is this something? Is that something that you like?
Speaker 2: Like I mean the way you're talking about it, I mean,
Speaker 2: that's is that something that you want is like to
Speaker 2: be dating? Nope?
Speaker 4: Nope. Like halfway through college I come from like I
Speaker 4: figured like I was completely as oh okay, like I
Speaker 4: dipped out.
Speaker 2: Like well, I mean that's I will say that is
Speaker 2: one stressful part of life that I guess you don't
Speaker 2: have to participate in do you? I mean, how do
Speaker 2: you How do you feel about that? Do you feel like?
Speaker 2: Do you do?
Speaker 1: You?
Speaker 2: Are you?
Speaker 1: Like?
Speaker 2: Is it like a source of internal is maybe kind
Speaker 2: of personal but like and you don't have to talk
Speaker 2: about anything you don't want to talk about. But is
Speaker 2: it like is it like a source of internal conflict
Speaker 2: for you?
Speaker 4: M No, Like I still have a fun time like
Speaker 4: talking to people who are like generally fine, like interesting
Speaker 4: to talk to and honestly, like I'm thinking, like, is
Speaker 4: there anything besides in life then alcohol and research, because
Speaker 4: I guess those things actually bringing joy. I guess we love.
Speaker 4: I still love talking to people so like, but it's
Speaker 4: not like this source of stress. Probably the only stress
Speaker 4: is like a mom's like Japanese, so like every single
Speaker 4: time I meet her side of the family, they're like, wow,
Speaker 4: you're so pretty, Like why don't you like get married?
Speaker 4: And I'm like, yeah, can you can? I can you
Speaker 4: just send me back to the lab? I don't want
Speaker 4: to talk to anymore.
Speaker 2: Mm hmm. May I hope that, uh well, first of all, listen,
Speaker 2: may I hope was like helpful to or I hope
Speaker 2: you I hope it was remotely helpful on the phone.
Speaker 2: I mean, but I also want to say I hope
Speaker 2: I mean.
Speaker 4: Like probably like I would want an advice, but like
Speaker 4: at the same time, like I do know for advice, I'm.
Speaker 2: Not a sorry, go ahead, you sorry, go aheading just
Speaker 2: a rupting you what were you saying?
Speaker 4: It's just like probably half advice, like half question of
Speaker 4: like why are people so weird like this? Like I mean,
Speaker 4: like they get weird A doubt that, like like I
Speaker 4: like the things I do for my like what I
Speaker 4: want to do for a job, but then they like
Speaker 4: get weird, and I'm like, so, why you guys weird?
Speaker 2: I nobody has any fucking answers as to why anyone
Speaker 2: is the way they are. I mean maybe they do,
Speaker 2: but yeah, look, I I'll just say this, I hope. Look,
Speaker 2: it's no fucking secret that you know. I'm uh, have
Speaker 2: have struggled myself with like negative perceptions of of the
Speaker 2: world and whatnot, and I'm no, I'm no expert in
Speaker 2: fixing those things. I don't have any I wish I
Speaker 2: had anything like inspiring necessarily, but I mean I don't know, Man,
Speaker 2: do you talk to a therapist.
Speaker 4: Well I did, but now I'm graduating because I'm going
Speaker 4: to lose that privilege. Yeah, well, like I still like
Speaker 4: have people who I can talk to. I guess, so
Speaker 4: it's not much of a big deal for me or
Speaker 4: like it's not like oh I'm alone or like I'm
Speaker 4: going to be sad. But it's still just kind of
Speaker 4: like the thing that I just accepted I need to
Speaker 4: deal and why are you I kN.
Speaker 3: Mhm.
Speaker 4: But still I'm like like it's kind of like, yeah,
Speaker 4: I feel it's like I'm kind of uncalled for.
Speaker 2: I guess what's what's uncalled for therapy?
Speaker 4: I don't know, like people just I mean my genuine
Speaker 4: question like after like I didn't think I was going
Speaker 4: to graduate with the question like why are people so weird?
Speaker 4: Like sure, like in neuroscience, like you learn about behavior,
Speaker 4: so and what I figured out was like, yeah, people
Speaker 4: are weird. And then I learned about like in the
Speaker 4: field like in neurosense of psychology, everybody's like drugged up,
Speaker 4: like like like all.
Speaker 2: The other all the other researchers are like taking a
Speaker 2: bunch of drugs.
Speaker 4: Yeah, like that really like one researcher like who I
Speaker 4: was like working with it. She was like right after
Speaker 4: a conference, she just like went straight to dispensary and
Speaker 4: like got gout, like got some weed. And I was like, well,
Speaker 4: I don't do weeds, but I'm an alcoholic, so I
Speaker 4: don't do weat And it's just like okay, sure.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I mean yeah yeah. Self medicating is definitely, it's
Speaker 2: definitely a thing. Definitely thing I always I always have.
Speaker 2: I have to imagine. I have to imagine it's kind
Speaker 2: of interesting like being in the field like neuroscience, where
Speaker 2: you I assume you have your studying all these things
Speaker 2: about like fucking like dopamine and serotonin and noah, per
Speaker 2: nephrine all this, all these like brain chemicals and so
Speaker 2: you have like a it must be kind of like
Speaker 2: it must be a psychedelic, bizarre contradict. You no look
Speaker 2: like like like I've always I've always.
Speaker 4: People like the old tenures or like the old people
Speaker 4: who are like have white hair in the field. They're
Speaker 4: like you think they're going to be the smartest, but
Speaker 4: like they're the people who were doing it from the nineties,
Speaker 4: And I'm like, okay, you're worse than us.
Speaker 2: But I was gonna say it must be kind of
Speaker 2: weird to like have this logical understanding of how the
Speaker 2: brain works from like a very very empirical point of
Speaker 2: view and then still be a fucking slave to it,
Speaker 2: you know, And then still you do do all this research,
Speaker 2: you learn about, all the chemicals you learn, and you're
Speaker 2: still a fucking slave to the thing.
Speaker 5: It's insane, No, it's it's wild, like at least like
Speaker 5: like actually, like I got like a work like when
Speaker 5: I was taking psychopharmacology, which is like basically gay drugs.
Speaker 4: Like it's a study about drugs. So we had always
Speaker 4: had like this homework of like where we read like
Speaker 4: a case study or a prompt about like this person
Speaker 4: going through something like it could be medical. But like
Speaker 4: one of the papers where they were like, so this
Speaker 4: guy decided to make compound during his chemistry class and
Speaker 4: decided to use it. Then suddenly his arms and legs
Speaker 4: won't move. What happened? And I'm like, oh, he's a
Speaker 4: fucking boy. So I'm like, why did you do that? Guy? So,
Speaker 4: but like we need to explain like how the dopamine
Speaker 4: pathway works. And I was like, well, like yeah, may
Speaker 4: everybody is at last everybody like I can just say
Speaker 4: it from like a star here, but like looking at people,
Speaker 4: even like people at regular fields, it's kind of like
Speaker 4: you're a slave to something. At least make it interesting.
Speaker 2: You're a You're always going to be a slave to something.
Speaker 2: At least make it interesting.
Speaker 4: Yeah, I.
Speaker 2: Guess that's I guess you are always going to be
Speaker 2: a slave to some I mean everyone is a slave
Speaker 2: to like I mean, everyone's a slave to like their
Speaker 2: own mortality at the end of the day. I mean, actually,
Speaker 2: maybe that's not true. Maybe you're not a slave to
Speaker 2: it if you don't fear it or you don't think
Speaker 2: about it.
Speaker 4: Yeah, And like I'll be the first to admit, like
Speaker 4: I like I do take stressful jobs, like the whole thing.
Speaker 4: Like even during college, I took stressful jobs because I think,
Speaker 4: like the moment you're about like you feel like you're
Speaker 4: about to fail, and like you don't, it's like the
Speaker 4: biggest high I will ever get. It's kind of like, yes,
Speaker 4: I'm better than It's like so rewarding to me that,
Speaker 4: Like people are like, so why do you torture yourself?
Speaker 4: And I'm like, well it makes me feel better about myself. Hmm,
Speaker 4: Well I find joy in it. So I'm like, and
Speaker 4: I was like, Hey, I'm actually finding joy and helping people.
Speaker 2: Good, good, dear God good. Uh. I'm gonna go ahead
Speaker 2: and be optimistic that you and uh for whatever, for
Speaker 2: whatever this word fucking means, uh manifest I don't know.
Speaker 2: I I I predict you'll be able to find some
Speaker 2: job or or thing or role or whatever the fuck
Speaker 2: in the world where you can help where you where
Speaker 2: you feel like you can help somebody.
Speaker 4: YEP, I hope so too.
Speaker 2: Who knows, maybe you helped somebody by talking on this
Speaker 2: show and they're like, oh, okay, I understand. I have
Speaker 2: or thoughts and at least I'm not alone in my
Speaker 2: crazy photo thoughts.
Speaker 4: I mean, like I like pop like pop into like
Speaker 4: watch your show's time to time, and like people like
Speaker 4: there are some episodes some like people feel guilt over it,
Speaker 4: and I'm I'm like, hey, the smartest people in the
Speaker 4: world actually have the same problems with you, at least,
Speaker 4: like they're high functioning. Don't feel bad about it.
Speaker 2: May is there anything else you want to say to
Speaker 2: the people of the computer before we go, Like, I
Speaker 2: I like.
Speaker 4: There's weird jobs around there. I guess probably, Like I
Speaker 4: just wanted to like ask everybody like, how do you
Speaker 4: become a decent human being? Because I don't know either.
Speaker 2: How do you become a decent human being? Well, well,
Speaker 2: there's no objective, Uh, there is no objective measure of
Speaker 2: what is a decent human being. I mean there's a
Speaker 2: there's there's a lot of general consensuses. Humans generally reach
Speaker 2: the consensus that murdering people is bad, but there is
Speaker 2: no like, I mean, if it's all chaos, there's no
Speaker 2: real Well, how do you become a decent human being?
Speaker 2: I mean, I guess you you in your brain, I
Speaker 2: guess I guess. I guess you, as an individual, come
Speaker 2: up with your own definition of what it means to
Speaker 2: be a decent human being, and then you try as
Speaker 2: hard as you can within your own primal human limitations
Speaker 2: to you know, do that. I guess. I guess you
Speaker 2: kind of form your own fucking thing. And then and
Speaker 2: the great news is is that if you fuck up,
Speaker 2: you can just lower your own bar.
Speaker 4: That's what I think. Yeah, I did not think about that.
Speaker 2: Well, I don't know, try the best you can.
Speaker 5: May, Yeah, thank you, man, what a crazy podcast that
Speaker 5: I'm doing here.
Speaker 2: That was May, and that was Collette and that was fuck.
Speaker 2: What was the name of the Australian guy who's gonna
Speaker 2: who better fucking call a lawyer? He better called they?
Speaker 2: Was his name? Maverick Josh something like that. Okay, this
Speaker 2: has been the Therapy getto podcast. Uh, this was a fun,
Speaker 2: fun This was an engaging episode. I felt very engaged
Speaker 2: for all these conversations. I hope you enjoyed it as
Speaker 2: a listener. This was a good so yeah, man, this
Speaker 2: was a good episode. This was cool. A lot of
Speaker 2: the time. Man, A lot of the times I sit
Speaker 2: down to do this and I'm sit down to like
Speaker 2: do a stream and I'm like, I don't know if
Speaker 2: I can do this, And then sometimes, you know, shut
Speaker 2: the laptop off and I'm like, wow, that was actually
Speaker 2: that was a good episode. Those were some Those were
Speaker 2: some engaging conversations. Uh, this is one of them. Thanks
Speaker 2: for being along on the journey. Crazy Planet. We're living
Speaker 2: on crazy planet. I don't have anything else to say.
Speaker 2: The vivance hasn't hasn't worn off yet, so I'm gonna
Speaker 2: go I don't want to do a push up or something,
Speaker 2: and that's it. I don't have anything else to say.
Speaker 2: Do I have anything else to say, I don't know.
Speaker 2: I want to make more YouTube video that YouTube video
Speaker 2: that I posted on Sunday, which you can find on
Speaker 2: my YouTube channel YouTube dot com slash Lyle Forever. I
Speaker 2: want to make more stuff like that. I want to
Speaker 2: make more stuff. I want to do more things. I
Speaker 2: want to be alive. I wanna I want to continue
Speaker 2: to want. I wanna continue to feel and think and
Speaker 2: not you know, be okay, just be okay, enjoy life,
Speaker 2: look at stuff, eat things. We're okay, everything's all right, okay.
Speaker 2: End of podcast goes on the line taking your phone
Speaker 2: calls every night.
Speaker 1: The beacon goes to it and ride.
Speaker 2: You're just teaching you a loud.
Speaker 4: In the of your life.
Speaker 2: But he's not read me an expert