WEBVTT - Jenicka: New Year, New Podcast, New Revelation 0:00:03.279 --> 0:00:05.160 This is something that was huge in our family and 0:00:05.320 --> 0:00:06.760 it was a big shock, and it was a big 0:00:06.760 --> 0:00:09.760 shock for Jessica. Obviously you first handle like what it 0:00:09.800 --> 0:00:11.920 did to me, like the damage and the healing that 0:00:11.960 --> 0:00:14.159 I had to go through. You know, a lot of 0:00:14.200 --> 0:00:16.920 people are also asking me if I knew about this 0:00:16.960 --> 0:00:19.480 whole thing, And I'll be honest with you, guys. I mean, 0:00:19.600 --> 0:00:22.120 I'm want to be very transparent and yeah I did. 0:00:22.320 --> 0:00:25.160 I did know. I want to talk to you about 0:00:25.239 --> 0:00:28.200 your fitness journey. I still have my little moments. I'm 0:00:28.280 --> 0:00:30.360 just like trying to maintain my body and really just 0:00:30.400 --> 0:00:32.800 take care of myself and make sure that my money 0:00:32.840 --> 0:00:41.240 is a wasted Hello everyone, and welcome to Cheeks and Chill. 0:00:41.479 --> 0:00:43.440 If this is your first time tuning in, my name 0:00:43.520 --> 0:00:47.320 is Cheek Ease. I'm a singer, songwriter, author and entrepreneur. 0:00:47.880 --> 0:00:50.960 But on this podcast, I'm speaking to you as a woman. 0:00:51.640 --> 0:00:53.680 This is a space where I can be really honest 0:00:53.760 --> 0:00:56.600 and vulnerable with you about topics I've never really opened 0:00:56.680 --> 0:00:58.800 up about before and I'm really happy you're here, so 0:00:58.880 --> 0:01:02.080 thank you for joining me. On today's episode, We're going 0:01:02.120 --> 0:01:04.360 to be speaking with one of my favorite people in 0:01:04.400 --> 0:01:08.559 the entire world, my sister Jennica. So, without further ado, 0:01:08.760 --> 0:01:12.119 let's get into today's episode. This is Checks and Chill. 0:01:16.920 --> 0:01:18.919 So I have my sister JENNICKI here with me today 0:01:19.000 --> 0:01:21.200 and we're going to be talking about a few topics 0:01:21.240 --> 0:01:25.280 she's opened up about on her new podcast. It's called Overcomfort. 0:01:25.400 --> 0:01:30.280 Welcome Jenny, welcome back, Actually, thank you, thank you, loving here. 0:01:30.880 --> 0:01:33.200 I call her Jenny, I call her Penny, I call 0:01:33.240 --> 0:01:35.880 her so many different things. Um, but yes, you have 0:01:35.959 --> 0:01:37.720 been on here a few times. Are you really do 0:01:37.760 --> 0:01:40.680 you really like being on Chickens and Chill Jenna, be honest, Yeah, 0:01:40.760 --> 0:01:44.040 it's all It's nice. It's chill. It's chill. She said, 0:01:44.840 --> 0:01:47.320 that makes you happy. People love to hear from you, 0:01:47.360 --> 0:01:50.160 and now that you have a podcast, like I'm loving it, Jennica. 0:01:50.240 --> 0:01:51.840 You're getting a lot of love and support. I think 0:01:51.840 --> 0:01:54.800 it's freaking awesome. You told me when you started your 0:01:54.800 --> 0:01:58.760 podcast that you wanted to do it for like, to 0:01:58.880 --> 0:02:00.960 for self heal and to help other people. Is this 0:02:01.160 --> 0:02:04.559 this correct? Can we elaborate a little bit on this? Yes, 0:02:05.200 --> 0:02:10.480 I definitely want to just bring some type of like awareness, 0:02:10.560 --> 0:02:15.000 awareness to just topics that I guess can be taboo 0:02:15.160 --> 0:02:19.400 or that are really just not talked about, especially like 0:02:19.560 --> 0:02:22.880 my generation, people that like my age, that are struggling 0:02:23.000 --> 0:02:26.280 and just never really talked about or just have anyone 0:02:26.320 --> 0:02:29.760 to connect with. And I feel like that's why you know, 0:02:29.840 --> 0:02:32.320 we are We have the position that we are in 0:02:32.520 --> 0:02:36.279 like our family, and you know, we have the influence 0:02:36.320 --> 0:02:38.760 to be able to help people, and I just ultimately 0:02:38.760 --> 0:02:41.920 want to do that and guide people. I mean, my 0:02:42.040 --> 0:02:44.600 life is perfect, but I still want to be able 0:02:44.639 --> 0:02:48.000 to just give advice on how I've overcame certain things. 0:02:48.480 --> 0:02:52.359 And I think that's freaking amazing coming from a young 0:02:52.480 --> 0:02:57.440 lady that was so shy and wanted to hide from 0:02:57.480 --> 0:02:59.639 the cameras and stuff like that, and just to see 0:02:59.680 --> 0:03:02.840 you come into your own and really just own that 0:03:03.840 --> 0:03:07.560 and now doing this, and I think a lot of people. 0:03:07.560 --> 0:03:11.440 I get so many messages that they love your podcast, 0:03:11.520 --> 0:03:13.760 that you've really helped them, and that just makes me 0:03:13.880 --> 0:03:17.680 very proud as a sister slash mom, you know. And 0:03:18.320 --> 0:03:22.200 and your first episode, Jennica was was I mean a bombshell. 0:03:22.840 --> 0:03:26.240 It so for those of you that are listening and 0:03:26.680 --> 0:03:31.520 haven't heard Jennica's podcast, Overcomforts her first episode and in 0:03:31.560 --> 0:03:34.920 her first episode, she's telling everyone that when she was 0:03:34.960 --> 0:03:37.920 twenty three, she found out that the father that she 0:03:38.000 --> 0:03:41.480 thought was her father for all of her life wasn't. 0:03:42.840 --> 0:03:48.480 So there's a biological sperm donor that she has, and 0:03:48.520 --> 0:03:52.000 then she has the dad, Juan Lopez, who basically raised her, 0:03:52.080 --> 0:03:55.120 and I think that's what she considers her dad without 0:03:55.160 --> 0:03:58.760 any disrespect to her biological father. So, um, this is 0:03:58.800 --> 0:04:00.800 something that was huge in our family and it was 0:04:00.840 --> 0:04:02.760 a big shock, and it was a big shock for Jessica. 0:04:03.360 --> 0:04:05.320 Why did you feel that it was important for you 0:04:05.400 --> 0:04:10.800 to to start this journey with with that topic. Well, 0:04:10.800 --> 0:04:13.920 like I mentioned in the podcast, I felt like, you know, 0:04:14.240 --> 0:04:17.160 it gave me the space to be open. I want 0:04:17.200 --> 0:04:19.159 to be able to be as open and vulnerable with 0:04:19.240 --> 0:04:21.760 people as possible, like and for guests to come and 0:04:21.760 --> 0:04:25.400 feel welcome to feel the same way. Like obviously you 0:04:25.520 --> 0:04:28.359 first handle like what it did to me, like the 0:04:28.440 --> 0:04:30.520 damage and the healing that I had to go through 0:04:31.000 --> 0:04:34.880 when I had that experience. So I just felt like, 0:04:34.920 --> 0:04:36.599 you know what, I'm just gonna release it. And it 0:04:36.640 --> 0:04:38.600 was at the end of the year when I filmed that, 0:04:39.080 --> 0:04:41.120 when I recorded that episode, I was just like, you 0:04:41.120 --> 0:04:43.960 know what, I'm gonna leave it in two, like it's 0:04:44.000 --> 0:04:47.080 just time to just let it go, like stop holding 0:04:47.120 --> 0:04:51.560 this secret or burden on me, and then I could 0:04:51.600 --> 0:04:55.960 just like start fresh, right, Yeah, because it was something 0:04:56.160 --> 0:04:58.559 I mean, this is something we talked about, like about 0:04:58.600 --> 0:05:00.720 on your podcast. I was a guest on your podcast, 0:05:00.760 --> 0:05:03.760 and you know, I almost lost my little sister, you guys, 0:05:03.920 --> 0:05:07.920 because of it wasn't just this situation that she had 0:05:08.240 --> 0:05:10.680 was keeping in for like a year and a half, 0:05:10.680 --> 0:05:13.400 but other things were happening, but I almost I almost 0:05:13.440 --> 0:05:15.760 lost her, and it was very scary for me. So 0:05:16.240 --> 0:05:20.000 I'm very grateful for your podcast over Comfort, because this 0:05:20.120 --> 0:05:23.280 is a wave even holding yourself accountable, you know what 0:05:23.320 --> 0:05:25.760 I mean, because now you're a voice for other people, 0:05:25.960 --> 0:05:28.960 you know what I mean. And this was a very 0:05:28.960 --> 0:05:31.719 heavy topic. And I saw, you know, we want I 0:05:31.760 --> 0:05:34.039 Want on a live the other day, you guys. Um 0:05:34.080 --> 0:05:36.000 I think I don't know, like a couple of weeks ago, 0:05:36.120 --> 0:05:38.200 and I just went on there and I was just being, 0:05:38.279 --> 0:05:40.200 you know, act in the full because I had seen 0:05:40.279 --> 0:05:43.600 some stuff that really pissed me off. Someone that's ridiculous, 0:05:43.680 --> 0:05:47.640 and was commenting on Jennica's podcast and what she spoke 0:05:47.680 --> 0:05:50.520 about and thought that she shouldn't that she shouldn't talk 0:05:50.560 --> 0:05:53.880 about this because my mom is not here to defend herself. Anyways, 0:05:54.320 --> 0:05:57.800 I really just really really made me upset. You know 0:05:57.839 --> 0:05:59.720 a lot of people are also asking me if I 0:06:00.000 --> 0:06:02.919 you about this whole thing, and I'll be honest with you, guys. 0:06:03.120 --> 0:06:05.600 I mean, I'm one to be very transparent, and yeah, 0:06:05.640 --> 0:06:07.640 I did. I did know for a long time. I 0:06:07.680 --> 0:06:09.600 had heard things here and there. I had had some 0:06:09.640 --> 0:06:11.560 conversations with my mom that I don't really want to 0:06:12.000 --> 0:06:14.880 get into right now or or get into detail, but 0:06:15.480 --> 0:06:17.160 my mom did kind of open it up to me. 0:06:17.240 --> 0:06:19.400 And I know my mother would have told Jennica when 0:06:19.440 --> 0:06:21.080 the time was right. But you guys have to remember 0:06:21.560 --> 0:06:25.359 that Jennica was fifteen when my mom passed, and she 0:06:25.520 --> 0:06:27.760 was too young. I think I think if my mom 0:06:27.760 --> 0:06:29.560 would have been here now, she would have been right 0:06:29.560 --> 0:06:32.640 there with Jennica on her podcast talking to everyone about it. 0:06:32.680 --> 0:06:37.279 Because my mom was went to face her. I don't 0:06:37.279 --> 0:06:39.240 want to say mistakes, because I don't feel that it 0:06:39.279 --> 0:06:41.360 was a mistake, but like she was, she the one 0:06:41.440 --> 0:06:45.720 to face what's the good word for it, true exactly 0:06:45.760 --> 0:06:48.880 the facts and anyways, I mean I It wasn't necessarily 0:06:48.920 --> 0:06:51.240 a secret. It wasn't like something I was planning on 0:06:51.320 --> 0:06:53.440 keeping from Jenica. But if she ever asked me, if 0:06:53.480 --> 0:06:55.359 it ever came up the way it did, then I 0:06:55.360 --> 0:06:56.880 said I was going to be honest. I'm not gonna 0:06:56.880 --> 0:06:58.839 lie to her. And that's how it happened. I mean, 0:06:59.440 --> 0:07:03.640 what respond did you get? Like on the comments, Surprisingly, 0:07:03.640 --> 0:07:06.480 it's a lot normal than I thought it would be, 0:07:07.040 --> 0:07:10.800 and like people didn't feel alone, but like little do 0:07:10.920 --> 0:07:13.960 they know, Like I didn't feel alone anymore where. It's like, 0:07:14.280 --> 0:07:16.720 you know it's been happening. It's like, oh wow, like 0:07:17.200 --> 0:07:21.360 it's normal. Apparently happens a lot. It happens a lot. 0:07:21.440 --> 0:07:24.280 It happens a lot, and which is okay. People you know, 0:07:24.400 --> 0:07:27.560 have their moments and things happen, and you know, I'm 0:07:27.560 --> 0:07:30.720 really grateful I did get, you know, all the bad comments. 0:07:30.760 --> 0:07:32.560 But it's kind of like at the I knew it 0:07:32.640 --> 0:07:34.040 was coming. I knew at the end of day that 0:07:34.120 --> 0:07:35.600 it was coming and what they were going to say, 0:07:35.600 --> 0:07:38.480 and it's like already prepared myself. It wasn't like it 0:07:38.600 --> 0:07:41.040 hurt me this this and that. It's like it is 0:07:41.080 --> 0:07:42.600 what it is like and at the end of the day, 0:07:42.600 --> 0:07:46.440 it's my truth and and what I feel. And as 0:07:46.520 --> 0:07:50.240 long as I got your guys support and your support, like, 0:07:51.000 --> 0:07:53.840 it felt fine for me. Yeah, because your siblings, all 0:07:53.880 --> 0:07:57.920 of us definitely supported. Yeah for sure. What do you 0:07:58.360 --> 0:08:01.880 feel about your mother's extended family or the extended family, 0:08:02.240 --> 0:08:06.640 because I did see your mother's mother some things that 0:08:06.720 --> 0:08:09.240 she said, and I you know what, and I some 0:08:09.320 --> 0:08:11.160 people might talk shit and say, oh my gosh, like 0:08:11.400 --> 0:08:16.679 how disrespectful, but she really, like she calls us Jenny's kids, 0:08:16.920 --> 0:08:20.280 So why can't she be Jenny's mother, my mother's mother. 0:08:20.440 --> 0:08:25.640 So what do you feel about that? You know? Um, 0:08:25.680 --> 0:08:30.000 I think that's just been so disconnected from that side 0:08:30.040 --> 0:08:35.679 that it's just it really doesn't phaze me anymore. And like, respectfully, 0:08:35.760 --> 0:08:39.600 it's an older generation, and you know, they don't know 0:08:39.640 --> 0:08:43.319 a lot of things that mom did that we know 0:08:43.640 --> 0:08:46.400 or things that you know she went through, and it's 0:08:46.440 --> 0:08:48.400 for us, it's different and it's not gonna get to 0:08:48.440 --> 0:08:50.679 me because at the end of the day, like they 0:08:50.720 --> 0:08:53.200 didn't go through it, I did, exactly. I'm very proud 0:08:53.200 --> 0:08:54.840 of you for that, I mean, and for those of 0:08:54.880 --> 0:08:56.560 you that may not know, and I'm not trying to 0:08:56.559 --> 0:09:00.280 bring shut up. But it is something that to me 0:09:00.280 --> 0:09:03.559 a little bit, but she was just I guess they 0:09:03.559 --> 0:09:07.240 asked her my mother's mother. They asked her in an interview, 0:09:07.600 --> 0:09:09.800 what do you think about Jensica talking about it? And 0:09:10.040 --> 0:09:11.760 I guess she said, you know, there's something that I 0:09:11.760 --> 0:09:14.560 would have taken to my grave. But you know what, 0:09:14.920 --> 0:09:17.640 I this is why it's so important for me and 0:09:17.720 --> 0:09:20.000 I and I and I think that my mom would 0:09:20.000 --> 0:09:22.280 have expected me to have my sister's back. That's what 0:09:22.400 --> 0:09:25.520 she taught us is to have each other's back. And 0:09:26.160 --> 0:09:30.840 my mom is no longer here unfortunately physically, so my 0:09:30.960 --> 0:09:34.199 responsibility as an older sister is to be there for 0:09:34.440 --> 0:09:36.240 my sister who is here. And if this is going 0:09:36.320 --> 0:09:38.800 to help her heal, and through her healing, heal other 0:09:38.840 --> 0:09:42.560 people and help other people, then f what anyone else 0:09:42.600 --> 0:09:45.880 has to say, even if it's my mom's family. Like, 0:09:46.040 --> 0:09:47.439 I don't care what they have to say, because, like 0:09:47.520 --> 0:09:49.600 Jenica just said, she's the one that went through it. 0:09:49.760 --> 0:09:53.000 We went through it with her, and never did they 0:09:53.040 --> 0:09:57.080 come and ask, how are you do you need anything? 0:09:57.800 --> 0:10:00.640 You know what I mean? Like it's just so it's 0:10:00.640 --> 0:10:03.200 like you have no room to say anything. So respectfully, 0:10:04.280 --> 0:10:06.120 anyone that has anything that I could say, suck it. 0:10:12.880 --> 0:10:18.000 Do you wish that you would have known sooner? Um? No, 0:10:18.200 --> 0:10:20.760 I think things happened at the time that I have, 0:10:21.080 --> 0:10:24.600 like for a reason, like maybe when that when I 0:10:24.640 --> 0:10:27.120 first found out. Yeah, but I think now that I've 0:10:27.440 --> 0:10:29.440 found out what I need to find out, Like, I 0:10:29.440 --> 0:10:31.320 think it happened at the perfect time when I knew too. 0:10:31.400 --> 0:10:33.160 How old were you? This is like a two years 0:10:33.200 --> 0:10:35.240 ago almost right, So you're at twenty three when you 0:10:35.240 --> 0:10:40.000 found out. So talking about that, we call Jennica Bodiqa. 0:10:40.640 --> 0:10:44.640 She's a vote because her biological father is Puerto Rican. 0:10:45.679 --> 0:10:48.920 So Jessica, how do you feel about that? Honestly? Like, 0:10:48.960 --> 0:10:51.520 how do you feel about being Puerto Rican? Like half 0:10:51.559 --> 0:10:55.200 Puerto Rican? It's cool, Yeah, it's just what it is. 0:10:55.240 --> 0:10:57.880 I don't I don't feel it. So it's kind of 0:10:57.920 --> 0:11:00.959 just there. But do you feel closer to like bad 0:11:00.960 --> 0:11:05.439 Bunny now because he's yeah, right, yeah, look at it. 0:11:05.679 --> 0:11:08.080 I wish you to see he's like a huge bad 0:11:08.080 --> 0:11:12.120 bunny fast I love him. No, but you know I 0:11:12.160 --> 0:11:14.480 would I would like to tap into that and see, 0:11:14.600 --> 0:11:17.640 you know, culture wise, like what there is and I 0:11:17.679 --> 0:11:20.319 don't know it's something I'm interested in, but I'm not like, 0:11:20.640 --> 0:11:23.560 I'm not gonna change who I am currently, you know 0:11:23.559 --> 0:11:27.000 what I mean. Yeah, but one thing I will like. 0:11:27.480 --> 0:11:30.720 Jennica has like a really like beautiful skin tone like 0:11:30.720 --> 0:11:33.000 all of us like. And I think that definitely comes 0:11:33.000 --> 0:11:35.520 from her Puerto Rican side, like she danns so nicely 0:11:35.559 --> 0:11:37.960 since she was little. So it's like, I feel like 0:11:38.040 --> 0:11:40.599 that's kind of cool, Like I want to like be Colombian, 0:11:41.120 --> 0:11:42.959 you know what I mean, Colombian or like I love 0:11:43.000 --> 0:11:47.719 you mean you look Columbia. You're like you have a 0:11:47.840 --> 0:11:52.479 toxic Oh my god, thank you, thank you so much, Shakida, 0:11:52.600 --> 0:11:55.480 Carol g. You know, maybe in my next life I'll 0:11:55.520 --> 0:11:57.880 we have Mexican, have Colombian because I love being Mexican, 0:11:57.920 --> 0:11:59.680 don't get me wrong. But I feel like, you know, 0:11:59.760 --> 0:12:02.040 like God and you have the ask for it too. 0:12:04.400 --> 0:12:06.959 But I mean she does. Jennica since she was little 0:12:07.200 --> 0:12:09.559 has always or younger should I say, Because when she 0:12:09.600 --> 0:12:11.800 was little with her dad Juan, she would listen to 0:12:11.800 --> 0:12:13.920 like a bunch of like you know what I called 0:12:13.920 --> 0:12:17.000 by some music you know um what I sing? You 0:12:17.000 --> 0:12:18.960 know um. She would listen to a lot of banda 0:12:18.960 --> 0:12:22.360 and stuff, but now like you've always been into like 0:12:22.400 --> 0:12:27.679 Regaton and stuff, like for Christmas, she made coquito, you guys, right, cokito, 0:12:27.720 --> 0:12:30.880 which is a Puerto Rican alcoholic drink. Dude, she killed it. 0:12:30.880 --> 0:12:34.160 It was so barm So I don't know. I want 0:12:34.160 --> 0:12:35.720 to I want you to cook more Puerto Rican food 0:12:35.720 --> 0:12:37.960 for us. Okay, And we gotta go to Puerto Rico soon, Jenica, 0:12:38.040 --> 0:12:42.120 I think that was on my Christmas list. I'm like, you, guys, 0:12:42.200 --> 0:12:44.480 just give me money to go on a trip. I 0:12:44.520 --> 0:12:46.360 want to go travel. Okay, I'll take you to Puerto 0:12:46.440 --> 0:12:48.240 Rico this year towards the end of the year. No, 0:12:48.320 --> 0:12:50.160 for real, we gotta go. We gotta go to Puerto Rico. 0:12:50.240 --> 0:12:57.560 I loved it when I went for my honeymoon. Anyway, Okay, So, Jenny, 0:12:57.679 --> 0:13:00.120 I know you talked about this on your podcast, but 0:13:00.160 --> 0:13:03.800 do you have like advice for my listeners that are 0:13:03.800 --> 0:13:06.280 probably going through a similar situation. What's your advice to 0:13:06.280 --> 0:13:09.600 to the daughter and to the mother. I definitely think 0:13:09.720 --> 0:13:13.680 that overall, if any anybody could take anything from this, 0:13:13.800 --> 0:13:16.080 I think it's like for like the mothers, like you 0:13:16.160 --> 0:13:19.280 could you could wait, but don't wait too long because 0:13:19.280 --> 0:13:24.319 then comfort that comes anger and those mistakes and it's 0:13:24.320 --> 0:13:27.559 okay to make mistakes or to like have a history 0:13:27.640 --> 0:13:30.640 or have a past like that. That's totally fine. It's 0:13:30.800 --> 0:13:34.400 better to know now rather than later. And for the 0:13:34.800 --> 0:13:38.120 you know, the kids, the sons, the daughters, like, it's 0:13:38.120 --> 0:13:41.800 gonna be okay, like as confusing as it is, like, 0:13:42.000 --> 0:13:44.680 don't let it change who you are as a person 0:13:44.720 --> 0:13:48.400 who raised you, and don't come in with expectations of 0:13:48.520 --> 0:13:52.800 like these people. It's kind of just you're surrounded with 0:13:52.840 --> 0:13:56.000 great people already, I know people that have been in 0:13:56.000 --> 0:13:58.400 the same situation, and you're surrounded with great people that 0:13:58.520 --> 0:14:00.880 love and care for you, and you're going to be 0:14:00.920 --> 0:14:05.000 just fine. Trying to you guys, I'm okay, I'm not 0:14:05.000 --> 0:14:06.640 gonna get because she hates it when I get like 0:14:06.720 --> 0:14:09.040 so like, you know, but I'm proud of her. I'm 0:14:09.080 --> 0:14:11.880 so fucking proud of you. I think that you've come 0:14:12.559 --> 0:14:14.640 so so far and just to hear you speak and 0:14:14.679 --> 0:14:16.840 how much here you are. You've always been very mature. 0:14:17.720 --> 0:14:20.359 But yeah, this, I know is a very tough situation 0:14:20.400 --> 0:14:22.440 and I think that you came out on the other 0:14:22.480 --> 0:14:25.120 side of it like even better, like to the point 0:14:25.120 --> 0:14:27.760 where now you know you can. You have this space 0:14:27.840 --> 0:14:31.440 to share these thoughts and this advice with people. So anyways, 0:14:31.440 --> 0:14:33.800 I'm not going to get all mushy and stuff. But okay, 0:14:33.840 --> 0:14:36.200 So another thing you opened up about on your podcast 0:14:36.320 --> 0:14:39.080 is the fact that you attempted suicide, which is something 0:14:39.360 --> 0:14:45.000 you and I have both attempted. Actually, I attempted suicide 0:14:45.040 --> 0:14:47.400 once and I thought about it a lot of times. 0:14:47.440 --> 0:14:50.480 I've been through it a lot and which is really 0:14:50.480 --> 0:14:53.760 scary you guys, um And unfortunately it's more it's more 0:14:53.800 --> 0:14:56.400 common than you think. According to the c d C 0:14:56.680 --> 0:14:59.960 in there were one point two million people that attempted SUSI, 0:15:00.360 --> 0:15:02.400 So it happens a lot. And I think that God 0:15:02.440 --> 0:15:04.600 has given us this platform to talk to you guys, 0:15:04.680 --> 0:15:07.360 to help you guys, to tell you guys, hey, yes 0:15:07.400 --> 0:15:09.480 we come out on TV. Yes we're saying yes we 0:15:09.560 --> 0:15:11.720 do this yet, but at the end of the day, 0:15:11.920 --> 0:15:14.320 we also are human and we go through these feelings 0:15:14.320 --> 0:15:16.480 and we know what you guys are going through. So 0:15:16.960 --> 0:15:19.800 I just wanna know how you're feeling now, Jessica, Like, 0:15:19.880 --> 0:15:22.840 how how are you doing now now that you've talked 0:15:22.840 --> 0:15:27.440 about it, and yeah, have you have you accepted it completely? Like, 0:15:27.520 --> 0:15:30.080 are you feeling better mentally? Are you still like struggling 0:15:30.080 --> 0:15:34.960 with the anxiety and like depression, how is that going? Um? 0:15:35.000 --> 0:15:38.520 I definitely struggle with anxiety. The oppression has definitely like 0:15:39.400 --> 0:15:43.000 slowly gone away, and it's it comes like in waves, 0:15:43.080 --> 0:15:47.960 and I've just learned to accept it and it be there, 0:15:47.960 --> 0:15:51.600 but not really fully let it overcome my life. And 0:15:51.640 --> 0:15:53.280 I think that's the mistake a lot of people do, 0:15:53.360 --> 0:15:57.920 is like when people are having these symptoms or feelings, 0:15:57.920 --> 0:16:00.680 like you get too much in your head about it, 0:16:01.080 --> 0:16:04.040 and that's when you start feeling like there's no other way. 0:16:04.040 --> 0:16:06.600 There's not like there's how is this ever going to 0:16:06.720 --> 0:16:09.280 get better? And I think, you know, thank God for 0:16:09.360 --> 0:16:14.240 therapy and honestly having open conversations with people, letting you, 0:16:14.480 --> 0:16:16.440 letting them know like, look, I'm going through this is 0:16:16.520 --> 0:16:18.960 what I'm feeling, Like I want you to know so 0:16:19.000 --> 0:16:23.280 that you're aware and um, that way you don't feel 0:16:23.320 --> 0:16:25.280 alone in it. And it doesn't mean that that person 0:16:25.320 --> 0:16:27.360 has to have like the best advice to tell you. 0:16:27.400 --> 0:16:30.280 They could just listen. And I think that's what people need, 0:16:30.280 --> 0:16:35.000 is that people need you to listen instead of talking 0:16:35.040 --> 0:16:37.040 back or giving advice. It's kind of like, I just 0:16:37.080 --> 0:16:39.080 need you to know that I'm going through this and 0:16:39.520 --> 0:16:41.200 it hasn't been easy, but I want to let you 0:16:41.240 --> 0:16:43.720 know and be accountable with you so that way you 0:16:43.760 --> 0:16:48.720 can see and maybe help me or just I just 0:16:48.760 --> 0:16:51.680 want to feel like I'm not alone. But ultimately, I 0:16:51.760 --> 0:16:56.000 like I think God, like I'm okay, Like I've I've understood, 0:16:56.040 --> 0:17:00.640 I've processed that, and you know, it's badly it is. 0:17:00.840 --> 0:17:06.439 It is becoming happens all the time, and social media 0:17:06.520 --> 0:17:10.600 is like a facade and people don't really understand it 0:17:10.800 --> 0:17:14.639 and like they don't understand people aside from behind the phone. 0:17:14.920 --> 0:17:17.359 So I think it's just having compassion and being kind 0:17:17.400 --> 0:17:22.800 to everybody and really just know that not everyone's healing 0:17:22.920 --> 0:17:26.560 is the same or people grow in different ways in 0:17:26.640 --> 0:17:30.080 different paths and slower than others, and and that's okay. 0:17:30.080 --> 0:17:32.960 It's just being compassionate with people and really just understanding 0:17:33.000 --> 0:17:35.480 that not everyone has the same path as you, and 0:17:36.720 --> 0:17:39.760 just being a listener. I think sometimes it just helps 0:17:39.800 --> 0:17:42.480 to like this, how got it there? And just talk 0:17:42.560 --> 0:17:44.680 to someone, you know what I mean, I mean talking 0:17:44.720 --> 0:17:47.840 about that. Are you still in therapy? Mm hmm, yeah, 0:17:48.240 --> 0:17:50.320 that's good. I think it's you know, I go on 0:17:50.400 --> 0:17:52.000 and off on it, Like there's months that I take 0:17:52.040 --> 0:17:53.520 a break and then I go back on, and I 0:17:53.560 --> 0:17:55.520 just think, you know, you guys know I always say this. 0:17:55.600 --> 0:17:58.800 I'm a huge advocate for you know, a therapy and 0:17:58.920 --> 0:18:01.560 and just speaking to someone like Jennica said, and just 0:18:01.640 --> 0:18:03.840 letting your feelings out and letting someone know. And I 0:18:03.880 --> 0:18:06.159 saw this quote the other day, and I don't remember 0:18:06.160 --> 0:18:09.720 it word for word, but it was something like, be compassionate, 0:18:09.720 --> 0:18:12.199 be gentle with other people because you never know what 0:18:12.200 --> 0:18:14.240 they're going through, you know what I mean. It's kind 0:18:14.240 --> 0:18:17.000 of like like you just gotta see it that way, 0:18:17.040 --> 0:18:19.520 Like if someone doesn't smile, someone's route, it's just instead 0:18:19.560 --> 0:18:20.960 of like cussing them out, it's kind of like, you 0:18:21.000 --> 0:18:22.879 know what, I'm gonna bless them because I don't know 0:18:22.920 --> 0:18:24.240 what they're going through, you know what I mean. So 0:18:24.240 --> 0:18:27.960 it's just about being compassionate. And you know, if you 0:18:28.000 --> 0:18:31.199 guys need help, UM the suicide hotline, you guys, if 0:18:31.240 --> 0:18:34.000 anyone has those thoughts, if anyone has if you're thinking, 0:18:34.080 --> 0:18:36.760 like I'm telling you I've thought about it, The hotline 0:18:36.840 --> 0:18:40.439 number you guys is eight. You can call or text 0:18:40.520 --> 0:18:43.200 that number. Just putting that out there, you know, because 0:18:43.240 --> 0:18:46.320 I know, um, you know, life isn't oh, it's it's 0:18:46.359 --> 0:18:49.240 not easy, you know what I mean. So you're not alone, 0:18:49.280 --> 0:18:59.199 Like Jennica said, You're definitely not alone. Let's go ahead 0:18:59.320 --> 0:19:01.680 and shift gear a little bit. I want to talk 0:19:01.760 --> 0:19:04.560 to you about your fitness journey. I saw Jessica. You 0:19:04.600 --> 0:19:07.600 guys in the gym this morning. You're on it. You've 0:19:07.600 --> 0:19:11.400 been waking up at five in the morning. Try. Yeah, 0:19:11.480 --> 0:19:13.240 today I woke up at six, but it's still early. 0:19:13.800 --> 0:19:16.399 Have to give myself the time to like meditate and 0:19:16.440 --> 0:19:20.600 pray before and then okay, because your body is definitely 0:19:20.600 --> 0:19:22.440 you look great like I saw her today, you guys, 0:19:22.560 --> 0:19:24.439 I was there. I woke up really early. I woke 0:19:24.520 --> 0:19:26.280 up at five and then I was at the gym 0:19:26.320 --> 0:19:29.360 by like six thirty, a little late because of the rain. 0:19:29.560 --> 0:19:33.560 But that's that's something that my mom really like instilled 0:19:33.560 --> 0:19:35.440 in us in a good and bad way, like taking 0:19:35.480 --> 0:19:37.719 care of us or taking care of our bodies and 0:19:37.760 --> 0:19:40.960 like our nutrition and everything. And I think my mom 0:19:41.000 --> 0:19:43.359 for that. Sometimes it affected me in a more negative way, 0:19:43.359 --> 0:19:44.480 and I think we talked about it a little bit 0:19:44.520 --> 0:19:46.880 on one of the other partcasts we were on. But anyways, 0:19:47.240 --> 0:19:49.159 um so tell me, how is that going. You got 0:19:49.200 --> 0:19:51.800 your tummy tuck last year, right, it's gonna be a 0:19:51.880 --> 0:19:55.920 year in April. Yeah, I'm very happy. I'm very happy. 0:19:55.960 --> 0:19:59.080 I feel lighter. I feel like there was like an 0:19:59.160 --> 0:20:02.720 energy that I need to just let go of because 0:20:02.720 --> 0:20:06.680 I work so hard to like to get it off. 0:20:06.800 --> 0:20:10.119 I'm just like I could breathe and I feel I 0:20:10.160 --> 0:20:12.480 feel better and even then, like I still have my 0:20:12.520 --> 0:20:14.960 little moments. I'm just like trying to maintain my body 0:20:15.000 --> 0:20:17.440 and really just take care of myself and make sure 0:20:17.480 --> 0:20:21.600 that um my money isn't wasted. Yeah, I know, I 0:20:21.640 --> 0:20:23.439 know what you mean, because I'm not gonna lie like 0:20:23.480 --> 0:20:25.800 I've gotten light bulb like in my life, you know, 0:20:25.920 --> 0:20:28.199 like a couple of times and anyways, and then you 0:20:28.200 --> 0:20:30.840 don't take care of yourself. And that's what I love 0:20:30.880 --> 0:20:32.480 that you're doing. Like you're still on it, you know 0:20:32.520 --> 0:20:34.920 what I mean. I think that's important because people think, oh, 0:20:34.920 --> 0:20:36.399 it's just an easy fix, and I could just go 0:20:36.440 --> 0:20:38.680 and start eating shit again or like eating like ship. 0:20:38.720 --> 0:20:41.840 But no, like you have to even sometimes work out 0:20:41.920 --> 0:20:44.560 harder and take care of yourself more after getting plastic surgery. 0:20:44.640 --> 0:20:47.320 I'm a huge I love surgery. I I think plastic 0:20:47.359 --> 0:20:50.000