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Speaker 1: Well, hello Chip, Hello, Happy New Year.

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Speaker 2: Happy twenty twenty six. We're in our whole year. Do

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Speaker 2: you feel like we're in a different year.

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Speaker 1: I do, and in a good way. I hope that.

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Speaker 1: I mean, it's you know, sometimes like you enter a

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Speaker 1: new year and you're like, uh, you know, sometimes moving

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Speaker 1: forward is hard, but you know, our industry shuts down,

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Speaker 1: so it's like we get a real break, and I

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Speaker 1: mean you're able to sort of put a button on

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Speaker 1: one year and like turn the page, which is really nice.

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Speaker 2: I mean, speak for yourself on that. I don't feel like.

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Speaker 1: I got it at all. You're like, I'm deep in

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Speaker 1: the middle of the book of last year.

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Speaker 2: Yeah. No, I mean I don't feel like I'm a

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Speaker 2: deep in the book of last year. I feel and

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Speaker 2: if this makes sense astrologically after talking to Marv earlier

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Speaker 2: this week, but we talked a lot about how twenty

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Speaker 2: twenty six there's a lot moving into aries and so

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Speaker 2: we're going to feel this more fast paced. And I

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Speaker 2: think you and I talked yesterday and like you're already

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Speaker 2: feeling that we're not quite to it yet, but this

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Speaker 2: year is going to be where last year and the

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Speaker 2: year before, we're more of these like years of closing

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Speaker 2: things out ending things that didn't you know, like stopping

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Speaker 2: things that didn't serve us and letting them go, releasing

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Speaker 2: all of that stuff. This year is way more action

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Speaker 2: oriented energetically, and so like I think we're feeling that already,

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Speaker 2: or I know I am. Like January came out of

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Speaker 2: the gate, and when I talked to you yesterday, it

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Speaker 2: the downtime or the shutdown or whatever. I got the

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Speaker 2: flu over the holidays, and it was brutal, like brutal

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Speaker 2: everyone's had.

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Speaker 1: I mean, I just read a headline today that said

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Speaker 1: the flu cases are at the highest they've been yeah,

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Speaker 1: ever in the US.

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Speaker 2: I believe that right well, And like, I think what

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Speaker 2: was so difficult is obviously so many of us traveling

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Speaker 2: I was at like on the plane, even in the

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Speaker 2: I'm not getting sick after traveling. Yeah, because it's just

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Speaker 2: everywhere it felt like so and it hit me really hard.

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Speaker 2: And I had like a massive shoot Monday of this week,

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Speaker 2: and so like I did a fitting the day before,

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Speaker 2: like I just came out of the gate in January. Yes,

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Speaker 2: which I'm so great.

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Speaker 1: You're like, this is just like twenty twenty five Part B,

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Speaker 1: you know, like Dot Too Squared.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, But so anyway, it's like, again we always talk

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Speaker 2: about this on the podcast. I never want to complain

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Speaker 2: about work as a freelancer. I'm so grateful. That's not

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Speaker 2: at all what I'm trying to say. I just feel

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Speaker 1: It made me think of something that I read what

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Speaker 1: I want to share this with the listeners because I

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Speaker 1: saw someone post it. A friend of mine posted, and

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Speaker 1: I screenshoted it because it was exactly what I needed

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Speaker 1: to see on Monday morning coming back into work. And

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Speaker 1: you know, our jobs are as fun as they sound,

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Speaker 1: they are, they can be very stressful. It's high paced,

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Speaker 1: I read this and I was like, wow, this is

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Speaker 1: the universe is fucking weird, you know. So it says,

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Speaker 1: what a privilege to be tired from the work he

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Speaker 1: once begged the universe for? What a privilege to feel

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Speaker 1: overwhelmed by growth you used to dream about? What a

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Speaker 1: privilege to be challenged by life you created on purpose?

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Speaker 1: What a privileged to outgrowth things you used to settle for? Absolutely,

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Speaker 1: I was like, that is the that is the vibe

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Speaker 2: It's like that there's another quote and I can't I'm

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Speaker 2: not gonna butcher it, so don't hold me to these

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Speaker 2: Like I remember vividly moving to Nashville, wanting to do

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Speaker 2: I was working for free. I was waiting tables at

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Speaker 1: My god, I wish I knew so I could get it.

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Speaker 2: Tie and everything. Oh, I know I used to give

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Speaker 2: And I remember even being paid like a super low

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Speaker 2: I do try to keep that perspective always. I think

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Speaker 2: think there's space to be like yeah, and I'm tired,

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Speaker 1: Yeah, I mean, rather than complain in those moments, you

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Speaker 1: it's funny too, because all of this hearing you say,

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Speaker 1: of course, there's like always the negative to everything too,

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Speaker 1: You know, that's for cynics. Fuck those people.

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Speaker 2: I mean, still, yeah, I was still this is a

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Speaker 2: dream job for me. It's different than you think. I think.

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Speaker 2: I think what you were saying earlier, like there's a

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Speaker 2: there of like everyone thinks my job is just like

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Speaker 1: Worst part of it is the shopping and the returning.

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Speaker 2: Well, it's just there's so it's so much more complex

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Speaker 2: too when I was younger, is like I would love

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Speaker 1: If anyone out there is dreaming of being a stylist

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Speaker 2: About it, behave math, because that's like that is for

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Speaker 2: sure my hardest.

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Speaker 1: It's the worst part. It's the worst part.

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Speaker 1: You're you're a creative, so you love you leaned into

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Speaker 2: I don't even know how we got on this tangle.

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Speaker 1: I don't know either, but I'm happy that it's twenty

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Speaker 1: twenty six and I'm looking forward to the year and

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Speaker 1: I'm going in recognizing the fact that I'm privileged to

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Speaker 2: Yes, I want to. I like the recognizing we're privileged.

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Speaker 2: I'm very sick on social media of just like not

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Speaker 2: That is more than most people make in a year.

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Speaker 2: How have we lost so much perspective, it's more.

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Speaker 2: what our intentions are for the year though, and kind

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Speaker 1: Well, I mean, I believe in the power of prayer

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Speaker 2: Know, I think you looked it up. My word was

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Speaker 2: just instead of walking away when I knew things weren't right,

435
00:21:31,400 --> 00:21:33,800
Speaker 2: trying to make things work, and I stopped doing that,

436
00:21:34,480 --> 00:21:36,800
Speaker 2: And it was amazing the freedom that that gave me

437
00:21:36,920 --> 00:21:39,960
Speaker 2: to just trust. I was super uncomfortable in certain times.

438
00:21:40,000 --> 00:21:42,679
Speaker 2: It's not like it's just all the time easy. But

439
00:21:42,760 --> 00:21:44,360
Speaker 2: I think the reason you probably didn't see me cry

440
00:21:44,440 --> 00:21:47,639
Speaker 2: as much is I wasn't melting down at the things

441
00:21:47,640 --> 00:21:51,680
Speaker 2: happening as much. I was just kind of like huh okay,

442
00:21:52,200 --> 00:21:54,760
Speaker 2: and just really reacting. Right.

443
00:21:55,160 --> 00:21:57,600
Speaker 1: You weren't reactive, is yeah, And.

444
00:21:57,520 --> 00:22:00,000
Speaker 2: I used to be very That used to be really

445
00:22:00,119 --> 00:22:02,200
Speaker 2: hard for me not to be that because I feel

446
00:22:02,240 --> 00:22:06,600
Speaker 2: things so deeply. Yeah, So until I, like or just

447
00:22:06,680 --> 00:22:09,040
Speaker 2: growing up, even I was I had such a hard

448
00:22:09,040 --> 00:22:12,040
Speaker 2: time not letting it be all consuming because that's how

449
00:22:12,080 --> 00:22:15,359
Speaker 2: it feels in my body because the emotions are so big.

450
00:22:16,040 --> 00:22:18,000
Speaker 2: So yeah, I don't know. I do feel like I

451
00:22:18,080 --> 00:22:21,960
Speaker 2: really lived by that word when things got tough, And

452
00:22:22,600 --> 00:22:25,680
Speaker 2: the other part was like there's been a portion of

453
00:22:25,680 --> 00:22:29,160
Speaker 2: my life that I've felt stuck, and astrologically, it all

454
00:22:29,200 --> 00:22:31,359
Speaker 2: makes so much sense if you know anything about astrology.

455
00:22:31,400 --> 00:22:34,439
Speaker 2: Like I've had Saturn on my moon for two years.

456
00:22:34,480 --> 00:22:37,760
Speaker 2: I've also had Uranus on my ascendant and my chirin.

457
00:22:37,840 --> 00:22:39,959
Speaker 2: So it's like all the stuff is coming up and

458
00:22:40,000 --> 00:22:42,560
Speaker 2: it's kind of I want to move out of it,

459
00:22:42,680 --> 00:22:45,800
Speaker 2: and the energy of the two placements that I just

460
00:22:45,800 --> 00:22:48,080
Speaker 2: said is like no, no, no, We're gonna sit in

461
00:22:48,119 --> 00:22:52,600
Speaker 2: this and feel it and process and whatever. And I

462
00:22:52,640 --> 00:22:55,840
Speaker 2: also just wait, like it just wasn't time yet to move.

463
00:22:55,880 --> 00:22:59,320
Speaker 2: And I've been so ready to just fucking move, but

464
00:22:59,359 --> 00:23:01,480
Speaker 2: I that every time I try to move, I would

465
00:23:01,600 --> 00:23:04,520
Speaker 2: have like ten steps back or something like for the

466
00:23:04,560 --> 00:23:07,159
Speaker 2: two steps forward I would take. So there was a

467
00:23:07,160 --> 00:23:09,840
Speaker 2: big lesson of surrender in that for me, and that

468
00:23:09,920 --> 00:23:13,080
Speaker 2: took a lot of trust too, of just like trusting

469
00:23:13,119 --> 00:23:16,240
Speaker 2: the timing of things and that like, yeah, I want

470
00:23:16,280 --> 00:23:18,960
Speaker 2: everything wrapped up in this nice little package, and I

471
00:23:19,000 --> 00:23:22,720
Speaker 2: want the things of my past to have you know,

472
00:23:22,800 --> 00:23:25,080
Speaker 2: this is why that happened, and look how much better

473
00:23:25,119 --> 00:23:26,879
Speaker 2: that made you and blah blah blah. And there's a

474
00:23:26,880 --> 00:23:28,760
Speaker 2: couple of things. I don't have that yet, and I'm

475
00:23:28,760 --> 00:23:32,480
Speaker 2: really frustrated by that. I love the like phoenix rising

476
00:23:32,520 --> 00:23:34,840
Speaker 2: from the ashes energy of like taking your pain and

477
00:23:34,880 --> 00:23:37,040
Speaker 2: turning it into purpose and all of those things, and

478
00:23:37,119 --> 00:23:41,680
Speaker 2: I don't have that resolve with some things. And so yeah,

479
00:23:42,240 --> 00:23:44,520
Speaker 2: there's a huge element of trust. And I had to

480
00:23:44,760 --> 00:23:47,800
Speaker 2: really bring myself back to that one a couple times

481
00:23:48,480 --> 00:23:51,679
Speaker 2: of just sitting and then being where I am and

482
00:23:51,720 --> 00:23:54,200
Speaker 2: not trying to be anywhere else, and like, fuck, that's

483
00:23:54,200 --> 00:23:55,080
Speaker 2: hard sometimes.

484
00:23:55,440 --> 00:23:59,520
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, I mean it's like there's a calm about

485
00:23:59,520 --> 00:24:04,439
Speaker 1: you that's freshing over the last year. You know. I

486
00:24:04,440 --> 00:24:07,720
Speaker 1: think it helps you're in a healthy relationship, and sure

487
00:24:07,960 --> 00:24:10,800
Speaker 1: that takes a lot of trust, especially because it's long distance.

488
00:24:11,119 --> 00:24:15,199
Speaker 1: Yeah yeah, you know, I saw that You're like on

489
00:24:15,280 --> 00:24:17,520
Speaker 1: the business side of things, you had some crazy things

490
00:24:17,560 --> 00:24:21,199
Speaker 1: go on where like agency changes and oh yeah, like

491
00:24:21,280 --> 00:24:23,280
Speaker 1: big stuff that you just like you literally had no

492
00:24:23,320 --> 00:24:25,159
Speaker 1: control over it. You had to lean back and trust

493
00:24:25,200 --> 00:24:27,640
Speaker 1: and you were never freaking out in those moments.

494
00:24:27,720 --> 00:24:30,920
Speaker 2: Yeah, I think it's like I would like I said

495
00:24:30,920 --> 00:24:32,600
Speaker 2: I would have in the past, But then I started

496
00:24:32,640 --> 00:24:34,800
Speaker 2: to think about it in a different way the last

497
00:24:34,840 --> 00:24:37,800
Speaker 2: couple of years, and I'm like, what is freaking out

498
00:24:37,840 --> 00:24:41,760
Speaker 2: going to even do? It's happening like it's happening. Yeah,

499
00:24:41,800 --> 00:24:44,760
Speaker 2: And that took going through so many things. I mean

500
00:24:45,440 --> 00:24:49,639
Speaker 2: as hard as the like twenty twenty era was for me,

501
00:24:49,760 --> 00:24:53,320
Speaker 2: like twenty twenty probably up until like twenty twenty three

502
00:24:53,480 --> 00:24:58,000
Speaker 2: of just like shit happening over like one thing after another.

503
00:24:58,880 --> 00:25:01,719
Speaker 2: I had no choice but to surrender in those times

504
00:25:01,760 --> 00:25:04,240
Speaker 2: because it was like no matter there was nothing I

505
00:25:04,280 --> 00:25:07,159
Speaker 2: could do about so many things happening, including the pandemic,

506
00:25:07,320 --> 00:25:09,600
Speaker 2: Like what was I going to do fix that for

507
00:25:09,680 --> 00:25:12,800
Speaker 2: the world? No, but that is the energy I used

508
00:25:12,840 --> 00:25:14,760
Speaker 2: to have. It's like, Okay, I'm gonna do the work

509
00:25:14,960 --> 00:25:18,239
Speaker 2: harder to fix everything for everybody. In like then I

510
00:25:18,280 --> 00:25:20,840
Speaker 2: had the infertility stuff, Like there were all these things

511
00:25:20,880 --> 00:25:25,480
Speaker 2: that kept happening where I was truly rendered incapable of

512
00:25:26,040 --> 00:25:29,200
Speaker 2: doing anything, like I was powerless. So I've really had

513
00:25:29,200 --> 00:25:31,200
Speaker 2: to just like lean into that and I think when

514
00:25:31,240 --> 00:25:34,200
Speaker 2: you saw the things happening this year, I just applied

515
00:25:34,200 --> 00:25:37,320
Speaker 2: those principles of like I could give this energy and

516
00:25:37,359 --> 00:25:39,480
Speaker 2: freak the fuck out, but like it's not gonna change

517
00:25:39,480 --> 00:25:43,920
Speaker 2: that it's happening. So like, okay, just write it out.

518
00:25:44,119 --> 00:25:46,320
Speaker 2: Everything that goes up comes down, and everything that's down

519
00:25:46,359 --> 00:25:47,000
Speaker 2: goes back up.

520
00:25:47,119 --> 00:25:52,800
Speaker 1: So yeah, Also, I mean when you're allowing stress to

521
00:25:53,520 --> 00:25:57,399
Speaker 1: sort of take control of things, it's just really unhealthy.

522
00:25:57,960 --> 00:26:00,560
Speaker 1: It's bad on you. It's it makes that s whatever's

523
00:26:00,600 --> 00:26:06,119
Speaker 1: happening externally then starts to manifest itself internally and from

524
00:26:06,160 --> 00:26:06,680
Speaker 1: inside out.

525
00:26:06,760 --> 00:26:08,520
Speaker 2: Yeah, it ties into my word for this year.

526
00:26:08,920 --> 00:26:11,479
Speaker 1: So well, do you want to go first? Oh?

527
00:26:11,480 --> 00:26:13,760
Speaker 2: You want me to go now? Okay? Yeah, So what

528
00:26:13,800 --> 00:26:16,359
Speaker 2: you just said is actually very very true for me

529
00:26:16,640 --> 00:26:19,879
Speaker 2: and all of the years that I've talked about prior

530
00:26:19,960 --> 00:26:23,880
Speaker 2: to this last year of the struggle and the hardships

531
00:26:24,080 --> 00:26:28,159
Speaker 2: and the toxic relationships, it's really started to impact my

532
00:26:28,200 --> 00:26:32,719
Speaker 2: body and my health like I have not I've just

533
00:26:32,760 --> 00:26:35,960
Speaker 2: not felt like myself physically in a really long time.

534
00:26:36,560 --> 00:26:38,439
Speaker 2: And so I went and got blood work done and

535
00:26:38,480 --> 00:26:41,399
Speaker 2: I had all of these like autoimmune markers off and

536
00:26:41,480 --> 00:26:44,040
Speaker 2: like some heart stuff and I was like, oh this,

537
00:26:44,320 --> 00:26:46,720
Speaker 2: And you know, I think most of my friends would

538
00:26:46,760 --> 00:26:50,680
Speaker 2: think about me as like a health person, like I

539
00:26:50,840 --> 00:26:54,320
Speaker 2: eat healthy, you know, I like to exercise things like that,

540
00:26:54,960 --> 00:26:59,439
Speaker 2: and it's just the amount of stress over time and

541
00:27:00,359 --> 00:27:03,720
Speaker 2: that really impacts my sleep. I'm also in my forties,

542
00:27:03,760 --> 00:27:05,480
Speaker 2: so as a woman, we start to change a lot

543
00:27:05,480 --> 00:27:08,600
Speaker 2: hormonally and stuff like that. And I just really hit

544
00:27:08,680 --> 00:27:11,000
Speaker 2: a wall with my health and I haven't been able

545
00:27:11,040 --> 00:27:13,160
Speaker 2: to be as active as I've wanted to be because

546
00:27:13,200 --> 00:27:15,320
Speaker 2: of that, Like my energy levels have been so off,

547
00:27:15,920 --> 00:27:19,520
Speaker 2: and so I've really I just can't believe. I think

548
00:27:19,600 --> 00:27:21,760
Speaker 2: because I felt like a person that takes care of

549
00:27:21,760 --> 00:27:23,480
Speaker 2: their health, I kind of couldn't believe some of the

550
00:27:23,560 --> 00:27:27,560
Speaker 2: things that were showing. And so it's just like rocked

551
00:27:27,560 --> 00:27:29,399
Speaker 2: me in this way of like, no, this needs to

552
00:27:29,440 --> 00:27:32,440
Speaker 2: be a priority for me. Like the stress of my job,

553
00:27:32,640 --> 00:27:35,840
Speaker 2: the running around, the traveling, whatever, like that's not going

554
00:27:35,920 --> 00:27:39,760
Speaker 2: to change. But if I don't make myself a priority physically,

555
00:27:39,880 --> 00:27:42,840
Speaker 2: like it is not just going to catch up with

556
00:27:42,880 --> 00:27:46,680
Speaker 2: me eventually, it's starting to. So health is my word

557
00:27:46,720 --> 00:27:49,919
Speaker 2: for this year, and that can be mental health that

558
00:27:50,240 --> 00:27:54,000
Speaker 2: is like obviously very much focused on physical health, Like

559
00:27:54,040 --> 00:27:56,760
Speaker 2: I just I really the thing I want is I

560
00:27:56,840 --> 00:27:59,080
Speaker 2: just want to feel like myself, you know, And so

561
00:28:00,000 --> 00:28:02,960
Speaker 2: there's things I'm starting to look into with that. And

562
00:28:03,080 --> 00:28:05,240
Speaker 2: once I finish this blood work, like I'm gonna have

563
00:28:05,280 --> 00:28:08,280
Speaker 2: all the different food answers I need, and just really

564
00:28:08,320 --> 00:28:12,240
Speaker 2: starting to prioritize that, especially as I start to get older.

565
00:28:12,280 --> 00:28:14,719
Speaker 2: Like we were talking about our parents' aging, but like

566
00:28:14,880 --> 00:28:17,879
Speaker 2: we are too, Like we're really starting to hit the

567
00:28:17,920 --> 00:28:21,200
Speaker 2: part of our life where there is not the thing

568
00:28:21,200 --> 00:28:23,440
Speaker 2: of like I'll sleep when I'm dead and it doesn't

569
00:28:23,480 --> 00:28:25,800
Speaker 2: impact you. Like if I don't get my sleep, it

570
00:28:25,920 --> 00:28:29,760
Speaker 2: impacts me deeply and it feel it now, you know,

571
00:28:29,880 --> 00:28:32,040
Speaker 2: Like or if I have these really long days on

572
00:28:32,160 --> 00:28:34,760
Speaker 2: set or I'm traveling, like I wake up the day

573
00:28:34,800 --> 00:28:36,800
Speaker 2: after and I feel like I got hit by a bus,

574
00:28:36,800 --> 00:28:38,920
Speaker 2: and so like I don't want to feel like that.

575
00:28:39,080 --> 00:28:40,920
Speaker 2: So how do I manage it better? How do I

576
00:28:40,960 --> 00:28:43,640
Speaker 2: manage my stress levels better? I don't want to get

577
00:28:43,640 --> 00:28:46,960
Speaker 2: so far gone that I'm in full blown autoimmune disease

578
00:28:47,280 --> 00:28:50,120
Speaker 2: or get cancer or something like that, you know, just

579
00:28:50,160 --> 00:28:54,080
Speaker 2: being more proactive and really focusing on the health in

580
00:28:54,120 --> 00:28:57,600
Speaker 2: a preventative way to not get so far gone that

581
00:28:58,280 --> 00:29:00,360
Speaker 2: I end up in a really bad place when I'm

582
00:29:00,400 --> 00:29:03,720
Speaker 2: seventy or something, you know. So, yeah, that's my prog.

583
00:29:03,680 --> 00:29:07,160
Speaker 1: When they say, like a bad sleep you never recover from,

584
00:29:07,360 --> 00:29:11,239
Speaker 1: Like if you lose sleep, it's you don't get like

585
00:29:11,360 --> 00:29:13,600
Speaker 1: it's not like a fuel tank where you're like, right,

586
00:29:13,720 --> 00:29:15,560
Speaker 1: you know, I've been sleeping really bad. I'm going to

587
00:29:15,680 --> 00:29:18,400
Speaker 1: sleep all weekend and fill my fuel tank back up. No,

588
00:29:18,640 --> 00:29:22,720
Speaker 1: it's like a snowball effect, right, So it doesn't matter

589
00:29:22,760 --> 00:29:26,320
Speaker 1: if you're young or old. Sleep is literally how your

590
00:29:26,360 --> 00:29:30,560
Speaker 1: body heals. So it's the best thing that you can do.

591
00:29:30,520 --> 00:29:33,440
Speaker 2: For yourself well in stress is just so bad on

592
00:29:33,480 --> 00:29:36,480
Speaker 2: your body. And I think anyone that has been in

593
00:29:36,520 --> 00:29:41,560
Speaker 2: a dysfunctional relationship or work situation or whatever, like we

594
00:29:41,640 --> 00:29:45,520
Speaker 2: don't always realize the impact as it's happening. It comes

595
00:29:45,560 --> 00:29:47,960
Speaker 2: in like after and so like I was feeling like

596
00:29:48,040 --> 00:29:51,200
Speaker 2: am I crazy? And I did so much research just

597
00:29:51,280 --> 00:29:54,840
Speaker 2: about the impact of things on your body. And there's

598
00:29:54,880 --> 00:29:57,960
Speaker 2: so many people I've met via like therapy or twelve

599
00:29:57,960 --> 00:30:00,760
Speaker 2: step groups that I've done, and there's so much like

600
00:30:00,840 --> 00:30:07,239
Speaker 2: autoimmune in those groups and so much just physical manifestations

601
00:30:07,280 --> 00:30:10,160
Speaker 2: of carrying the weight of all of that energy and

602
00:30:10,240 --> 00:30:12,680
Speaker 2: stress for so long, and I just don't want to

603
00:30:12,680 --> 00:30:15,160
Speaker 2: do that to myself anymore. Like I really want to

604
00:30:15,240 --> 00:30:19,720
Speaker 2: heal those parts of myself and move into my later

605
00:30:19,880 --> 00:30:23,479
Speaker 2: years from a different place and just not like this

606
00:30:23,640 --> 00:30:27,680
Speaker 2: bottled up stress ball of energy all the time. So yeah,

607
00:30:27,720 --> 00:30:29,120
Speaker 2: so health is it for me. I want to get

608
00:30:29,160 --> 00:30:32,280
Speaker 2: on peptides, like I want to get back into I

609
00:30:32,320 --> 00:30:34,640
Speaker 2: really want to focus on steps, like I'm getting kind

610
00:30:34,640 --> 00:30:37,480
Speaker 2: of obsessed with like monitoring my step into I mean,

611
00:30:37,680 --> 00:30:40,760
Speaker 2: I'm so much more sedentary than I thought, because so

612
00:30:40,880 --> 00:30:44,120
Speaker 2: much of my job is like sitting and working on

613
00:30:44,160 --> 00:30:47,120
Speaker 2: a computer or like we're doing this right now and

614
00:30:47,320 --> 00:30:50,160
Speaker 2: you think that you're running around because it feels like that,

615
00:30:50,360 --> 00:30:52,560
Speaker 2: and like when I'm prepping jobs, I really feel like that,

616
00:30:53,120 --> 00:30:55,800
Speaker 2: but it's not as much as I thought, So right,

617
00:30:56,040 --> 00:30:59,800
Speaker 2: just being more conscious of stuff like that and getting

618
00:30:59,800 --> 00:31:02,240
Speaker 2: back into a shape where I feel good about my body,

619
00:31:02,520 --> 00:31:05,520
Speaker 2: and yeah, I just haven't felt that way. And it's

620
00:31:05,600 --> 00:31:07,560
Speaker 2: just I always talk about like beauty is such a

621
00:31:07,640 --> 00:31:10,400
Speaker 2: bigger piece of a puzzle than just like your exterior.

622
00:31:11,160 --> 00:31:13,320
Speaker 2: It comes from the inside, and that is true, Like

623
00:31:13,680 --> 00:31:16,760
Speaker 2: being at peace with yourself emotionally, but like it's also

624
00:31:16,920 --> 00:31:21,560
Speaker 2: being at peace with yourself physically. And I again just

625
00:31:21,600 --> 00:31:23,840
Speaker 2: want to feel like myself. Like I'm not trying to

626
00:31:23,880 --> 00:31:26,040
Speaker 2: be some supermodel, but i just want to feel good

627
00:31:26,200 --> 00:31:28,600
Speaker 2: about the clothes that I put on and things like that.

628
00:31:28,720 --> 00:31:30,640
Speaker 2: So and I haven't felt that way in the past

629
00:31:30,680 --> 00:31:41,000
Speaker 2: couple of years. What's your worth?

630
00:31:41,240 --> 00:31:43,360
Speaker 1: I have a suggestion you should get a dog. I

631
00:31:43,400 --> 00:31:48,400
Speaker 1: read that people that have a dog I know. I mean,

632
00:31:48,440 --> 00:31:50,000
Speaker 1: you can walk a cat too well.

633
00:31:50,040 --> 00:31:53,920
Speaker 2: I just ordered this like walking plate for my house

634
00:31:54,200 --> 00:31:57,320
Speaker 2: because I've noticed in the winter it becomes so much

635
00:31:57,320 --> 00:31:59,200
Speaker 2: harder for me to go outside because I'm working in

636
00:31:59,240 --> 00:32:01,640
Speaker 2: a day it gets dark in Nashville at like four

637
00:32:01,760 --> 00:32:05,080
Speaker 2: twenty or something like ridiculous, And so I'm just like

638
00:32:05,800 --> 00:32:08,320
Speaker 2: at night when I'm wanting to wind down and I'm

639
00:32:08,320 --> 00:32:10,640
Speaker 2: watching a show, like why not just get my steps

640
00:32:10,640 --> 00:32:13,200
Speaker 2: that way? It was I mean, it really wasn't expensive

641
00:32:13,240 --> 00:32:15,880
Speaker 2: and I got like on Amazon or something, but just

642
00:32:15,960 --> 00:32:19,680
Speaker 2: having that option, or when it's really cold or rainy,

643
00:32:19,920 --> 00:32:22,880
Speaker 2: like I can't be waiting on weather in Nashville. That's

644
00:32:22,960 --> 00:32:25,480
Speaker 2: just not a smart way to do it. So and

645
00:32:25,520 --> 00:32:27,239
Speaker 2: I can't always make it to the gym. So I

646
00:32:27,280 --> 00:32:28,960
Speaker 2: just want to have the option of doing stuff like

647
00:32:28,960 --> 00:32:29,720
Speaker 2: that in my house.

648
00:32:31,160 --> 00:32:35,000
Speaker 1: That's fun. A little working walking station. You can do

649
00:32:35,440 --> 00:32:36,440
Speaker 1: phone calls on.

650
00:32:36,360 --> 00:32:39,480
Speaker 2: It exactly like there's a vibration plate on it, so

651
00:32:39,680 --> 00:32:43,320
Speaker 2: just like getting my chee moving. Yeah, so these are

652
00:32:43,360 --> 00:32:45,480
Speaker 2: these are things I'm doing good for you.

653
00:32:45,720 --> 00:32:51,920
Speaker 1: That's just my word is connected or connect maybe. And

654
00:32:52,520 --> 00:32:55,240
Speaker 1: you know, I've been thinking about like the time that

655
00:32:55,240 --> 00:32:57,400
Speaker 1: I spent with my dad, like it was like we

656
00:32:57,520 --> 00:33:01,000
Speaker 1: formed like a real connection that like should have always

657
00:33:01,040 --> 00:33:04,720
Speaker 1: been there. And I know that I only have so

658
00:33:04,800 --> 00:33:08,080
Speaker 1: much time left with my parents, so I want to

659
00:33:08,200 --> 00:33:11,400
Speaker 1: stay It's it's really easy for me to disconnect from

660
00:33:11,400 --> 00:33:14,640
Speaker 1: my family because they're far away and I don't have kids.

661
00:33:14,640 --> 00:33:17,000
Speaker 1: So it's not like my sister talks to my mom

662
00:33:17,080 --> 00:33:19,840
Speaker 1: a million times a day because she's always calling for

663
00:33:19,880 --> 00:33:22,440
Speaker 1: advice or telling about the kids. And she has a

664
00:33:22,480 --> 00:33:25,800
Speaker 1: pattern too, like she always calls when she's driving home

665
00:33:25,840 --> 00:33:28,440
Speaker 1: from work, so there is like she has a system

666
00:33:28,480 --> 00:33:31,720
Speaker 1: where she's staying really connected, and I have like there

667
00:33:31,800 --> 00:33:33,040
Speaker 1: days will go by and I'll be like, God, I

668
00:33:33,080 --> 00:33:36,040
Speaker 1: haven't spoken to my mom in days. So I want

669
00:33:36,080 --> 00:33:40,160
Speaker 1: to be like more intentional about that, And you know,

670
00:33:40,200 --> 00:33:42,560
Speaker 1: I think because I spent the last month with my parents,

671
00:33:42,600 --> 00:33:44,560
Speaker 1: it's been a lot easier. I'm in a flow with

672
00:33:44,720 --> 00:33:47,680
Speaker 1: talking to them. But it's not just personal connection. I

673
00:33:47,680 --> 00:33:50,120
Speaker 1: want to make sure that like the things that I'm

674
00:33:50,160 --> 00:33:53,000
Speaker 1: working on, all the things that I'm like doing. And

675
00:33:53,000 --> 00:33:55,120
Speaker 1: this maybe plays into the no no a little bit too,

676
00:33:55,200 --> 00:33:58,280
Speaker 1: but like I want to like ask myself, like, do

677
00:33:58,320 --> 00:34:01,560
Speaker 1: I connect with this that when I am doing the work,

678
00:34:02,120 --> 00:34:06,360
Speaker 1: it feels connected and it feels purpose driven. And I

679
00:34:06,400 --> 00:34:08,279
Speaker 1: don't mean that in like a wu wu way. It's

680
00:34:08,320 --> 00:34:11,280
Speaker 1: just like I don't want to just work for money.

681
00:34:11,360 --> 00:34:13,120
Speaker 1: I want to do it because I believe in it

682
00:34:13,160 --> 00:34:16,479
Speaker 1: and I feel connected to it. And you know, there's

683
00:34:16,520 --> 00:34:19,840
Speaker 1: also other things like that I've fallen out of connection with,

684
00:34:20,560 --> 00:34:24,520
Speaker 1: like just being a fan of music. I feel like

685
00:34:24,600 --> 00:34:27,680
Speaker 1: has diminished in my life the more I've worked in music,

686
00:34:27,880 --> 00:34:31,000
Speaker 1: because I spend so much time listening to the things

687
00:34:31,040 --> 00:34:33,799
Speaker 1: that my artists are working on or just going back

688
00:34:33,840 --> 00:34:37,960
Speaker 1: to old things that I like, I haven't been digging

689
00:34:38,080 --> 00:34:39,920
Speaker 1: like the fan that I used to be. And I

690
00:34:39,960 --> 00:34:42,400
Speaker 1: know a little bit of that is coming from the

691
00:34:42,480 --> 00:34:45,600
Speaker 1: overwhelming nature of just how much music comes out now

692
00:34:45,640 --> 00:34:49,759
Speaker 1: like it used to be record labels and now it's

693
00:34:49,760 --> 00:34:52,120
Speaker 1: like one hundred thousand songs a day are uploaded to Spotify.

694
00:34:52,160 --> 00:34:55,040
Speaker 1: There is literally no way to stay connected the way

695
00:34:55,040 --> 00:34:57,880
Speaker 1: that I used to. But I'm mad that I allowed

696
00:34:58,040 --> 00:35:04,000
Speaker 1: that to influence me in any way, from disconnecting with

697
00:35:04,120 --> 00:35:06,960
Speaker 1: being a fan of discovering new music. So like that

698
00:35:07,120 --> 00:35:09,279
Speaker 1: was something that you know, is at the top of

699
00:35:09,320 --> 00:35:12,279
Speaker 1: my list to reconnect with. And you know, I think too,

700
00:35:12,320 --> 00:35:16,560
Speaker 1: it's like watching my parents' age. And you know, I've

701
00:35:16,600 --> 00:35:19,000
Speaker 1: said this a million times on the podcast. I feel like,

702
00:35:19,040 --> 00:35:21,360
Speaker 1: but like I am at the age where I really

703
00:35:21,440 --> 00:35:24,720
Speaker 1: remember my parents at this age because I was starting

704
00:35:24,719 --> 00:35:27,920
Speaker 1: to become I was eighteen nineteen years old, like becoming

705
00:35:27,920 --> 00:35:31,200
Speaker 1: a young adult, and I thought they were old and

706
00:35:31,560 --> 00:35:34,040
Speaker 1: they weren't. I mean, at least I don't feel old.

707
00:35:34,120 --> 00:35:37,040
Speaker 1: I feel older, but I don't feel old, And so

708
00:35:37,120 --> 00:35:39,480
Speaker 1: I want to reconnect with the young version of me

709
00:35:39,719 --> 00:35:43,160
Speaker 1: so that I stay like I want to keep this

710
00:35:43,400 --> 00:35:48,719
Speaker 1: energy and remind myself that like there are the kid

711
00:35:48,760 --> 00:35:51,399
Speaker 1: that was in me is still there, and I want

712
00:35:51,400 --> 00:35:54,919
Speaker 1: to reconnect with him so that like I don't let

713
00:35:55,160 --> 00:35:58,520
Speaker 1: all these real world adult problems become what are the

714
00:35:58,520 --> 00:36:02,000
Speaker 1: priority of my life. And obviously you have to prioritize

715
00:36:02,000 --> 00:36:04,040
Speaker 1: issues in your life so that you can overcome them,

716
00:36:04,080 --> 00:36:06,680
Speaker 1: but I don't want to focus on them and make

717
00:36:06,719 --> 00:36:07,960
Speaker 1: them what my life is about.

718
00:36:08,040 --> 00:36:11,640
Speaker 2: So I feel like, also some of what I'm hearing

719
00:36:12,200 --> 00:36:15,239
Speaker 2: is that when you spend this time with your parents,

720
00:36:15,800 --> 00:36:18,319
Speaker 2: I think you're realizing, Okay, like time is going, time

721
00:36:18,400 --> 00:36:21,080
Speaker 2: is moving by, like life is going to keep happening,

722
00:36:21,480 --> 00:36:23,720
Speaker 2: and you don't want to just show up for something

723
00:36:24,600 --> 00:36:27,200
Speaker 2: and like look back and be like, God, what did

724
00:36:27,200 --> 00:36:29,279
Speaker 2: I do with my time and my life? Like I

725
00:36:29,280 --> 00:36:31,200
Speaker 2: think you really want to be present for the things

726
00:36:31,239 --> 00:36:33,960
Speaker 2: that you're doing and be connected to them in a

727
00:36:34,000 --> 00:36:36,279
Speaker 2: deeper way. And I feel like a lot of us

728
00:36:36,360 --> 00:36:38,080
Speaker 2: are feeling that you and I talk about that with

729
00:36:38,120 --> 00:36:42,080
Speaker 2: the podcast, Like sometimes it feels like because you know,

730
00:36:42,120 --> 00:36:44,840
Speaker 2: we release two podcasts a week here or whatever, and

731
00:36:44,880 --> 00:36:47,279
Speaker 2: it's just like it can become the thing that you're

732
00:36:47,320 --> 00:36:50,680
Speaker 2: scheduling away. And this podcast specifically, I really want it

733
00:36:50,760 --> 00:36:53,359
Speaker 2: to be a place of heart connection or that you

734
00:36:53,440 --> 00:36:56,960
Speaker 2: and I are talking to each other and truly here present,

735
00:36:57,040 --> 00:37:00,480
Speaker 2: connecting with each other and with the listener, you know,

736
00:37:00,600 --> 00:37:03,279
Speaker 2: And so I think it but you have to be

737
00:37:03,360 --> 00:37:06,920
Speaker 2: intentional about that, because when life starts moving and schedules

738
00:37:06,920 --> 00:37:12,560
Speaker 2: start happening, and like you feel like an obligatory timeline

739
00:37:12,680 --> 00:37:15,520
Speaker 2: or something like, it is hard not to get lost

740
00:37:15,560 --> 00:37:18,480
Speaker 2: into that and lose the connection piece of it. That's

741
00:37:18,480 --> 00:37:20,279
Speaker 2: the first thing to go, I think for most of

742
00:37:20,360 --> 00:37:22,440
Speaker 2: us is just to get stuck on the schedules and

743
00:37:22,520 --> 00:37:24,200
Speaker 2: the obligation of things.

744
00:37:24,400 --> 00:37:26,960
Speaker 1: And just checking things off, like yeah, and just checking

745
00:37:26,960 --> 00:37:29,440
Speaker 1: these off going through the most you're like where did

746
00:37:29,440 --> 00:37:30,080
Speaker 1: that year go?

747
00:37:30,360 --> 00:37:32,000
Speaker 2: We say that all the time, We're like where did

748
00:37:32,080 --> 00:37:34,720
Speaker 2: this month go? Where did? And I so like relate

749
00:37:34,760 --> 00:37:36,319
Speaker 2: with that. I don't want to feel like that either.

750
00:37:36,360 --> 00:37:38,160
Speaker 2: I think maybe that's a part of getting older too,

751
00:37:38,160 --> 00:37:40,440
Speaker 2: as you start to realize how fast time is moving

752
00:37:41,280 --> 00:37:43,680
Speaker 2: and you just don't want it to fly by and

753
00:37:43,719 --> 00:37:45,080
Speaker 2: you missed it all right, you know?

754
00:37:45,480 --> 00:37:51,200
Speaker 1: Yeah? Well, And honestly, like I feel like if you're

755
00:37:51,320 --> 00:37:55,719
Speaker 1: truly connected to what you're doing, it will in some

756
00:37:55,760 --> 00:37:59,080
Speaker 1: ways make it feel like time is slowing down. Maybe

757
00:37:59,120 --> 00:38:02,919
Speaker 1: because when you if you're not connected throughout the day,

758
00:38:03,920 --> 00:38:05,560
Speaker 1: the day ends and you're like, where'd my day go?

759
00:38:06,200 --> 00:38:07,279
Speaker 1: Don't remember anything I did?

760
00:38:07,719 --> 00:38:08,160
Speaker 2: Like a blow?

761
00:38:08,239 --> 00:38:12,560
Speaker 1: And so I feel like staying connected will make days

762
00:38:12,640 --> 00:38:15,560
Speaker 1: feel more real to me. And I know it's going

763
00:38:15,640 --> 00:38:19,640
Speaker 1: to be challenging because you know, I get I get

764
00:38:19,680 --> 00:38:24,520
Speaker 1: pained from all different things, and but it in the morning,

765
00:38:24,560 --> 00:38:26,960
Speaker 1: I'm trying to wake myself up and remind myself to

766
00:38:27,000 --> 00:38:29,120
Speaker 1: stay connected, and you know I'll fail some days.

767
00:38:29,320 --> 00:38:31,879
Speaker 2: Well, and that's hard. Like you're like an ad D brain,

768
00:38:32,239 --> 00:38:34,719
Speaker 2: So it's yeah, like it takes a lot of focus

769
00:38:34,840 --> 00:38:37,400
Speaker 2: to be connected and not be off up in the

770
00:38:37,440 --> 00:38:40,839
Speaker 2: clouds like floating around or whatever, or just going through

771
00:38:40,880 --> 00:38:43,760
Speaker 2: the motions. So I think it's like that you said,

772
00:38:43,760 --> 00:38:45,920
Speaker 2: like it's going to be hard. I'm like, yeah, but

773
00:38:45,960 --> 00:38:48,000
Speaker 2: I think you're up for the challenge. Like I think back,

774
00:38:48,080 --> 00:38:50,120
Speaker 2: I am. I'm like, what we're doing right now.

775
00:38:50,640 --> 00:38:53,680
Speaker 1: This close to deleting Instagram, Like I'm kind of.

776
00:38:53,640 --> 00:38:56,680
Speaker 2: Like I would love too. I'm so envious, I know.

777
00:38:56,840 --> 00:38:58,880
Speaker 1: I mean, I just don't think I can because like

778
00:38:58,920 --> 00:39:00,880
Speaker 1: I have to pay attention for a while. But I

779
00:39:00,920 --> 00:39:03,560
Speaker 1: have been going through and getting rich, like trying to

780
00:39:03,600 --> 00:39:06,799
Speaker 1: delete things that like really just don't serve me. Like

781
00:39:07,600 --> 00:39:09,560
Speaker 1: I follow people and I'm like, why don't care about

782
00:39:09,560 --> 00:39:10,000
Speaker 1: their life?

783
00:39:10,960 --> 00:39:16,279
Speaker 2: I'm so curious, so to go back to astrology a

784
00:39:16,280 --> 00:39:18,880
Speaker 2: little bit, because this is typically our astrology week. But

785
00:39:19,040 --> 00:39:21,040
Speaker 2: this has nothing to do with anything Marvin I said.

786
00:39:21,040 --> 00:39:24,359
Speaker 2: But Rannest is moving into gem Andi this next I

787
00:39:24,400 --> 00:39:26,719
Speaker 2: think it's this next year. Don't quit me on that either.

788
00:39:26,840 --> 00:39:30,320
Speaker 2: But everyone keeps saying we're going to see a massive

789
00:39:30,360 --> 00:39:34,160
Speaker 2: shift in technology and specifically social media when that happens,

790
00:39:34,880 --> 00:39:38,200
Speaker 2: and I'm fucking ready, Like, I think where we have

791
00:39:38,280 --> 00:39:42,200
Speaker 2: gotten with social media is so depressing. I'm so depressed

792
00:39:42,200 --> 00:39:44,359
Speaker 2: by it most of the time. Yet I sit on

793
00:39:44,400 --> 00:39:46,640
Speaker 2: it and I scroll, but I really have a hard

794
00:39:46,640 --> 00:39:48,759
Speaker 2: time posting. And I thought that was personal to me

795
00:39:48,920 --> 00:39:51,120
Speaker 2: because of some things I went through, And I really

796
00:39:51,120 --> 00:39:53,279
Speaker 2: don't know that it is anymore. I think there's been

797
00:39:53,320 --> 00:39:57,680
Speaker 2: a massive shift in what it is. Like I was thinking,

798
00:39:57,719 --> 00:39:59,759
Speaker 2: I was actually writing in my journal about this this.

799
00:40:00,880 --> 00:40:03,600
Speaker 2: It used to be that we gave people a peek

800
00:40:03,640 --> 00:40:05,680
Speaker 2: into our lives and that was the thing, and that

801
00:40:05,840 --> 00:40:07,839
Speaker 2: was like and you could be creative with it and

802
00:40:07,960 --> 00:40:10,800
Speaker 2: fun or it was just for fun that you were posting.

803
00:40:11,480 --> 00:40:14,799
Speaker 2: Now everything I see is like, okay, if you want

804
00:40:14,800 --> 00:40:17,000
Speaker 2: to get the most views and blah blah blah. It's

805
00:40:17,040 --> 00:40:20,359
Speaker 2: like all strategy and work related, and it's so it's

806
00:40:20,400 --> 00:40:24,200
Speaker 2: become it's a full business now, like it's always been

807
00:40:24,200 --> 00:40:27,239
Speaker 2: a business for me, but like I just enjoyed it

808
00:40:27,320 --> 00:40:29,919
Speaker 2: so much more in the past, and I don't even

809
00:40:30,000 --> 00:40:33,480
Speaker 2: want to participate anymore because it's just like there's so

810
00:40:34,080 --> 00:40:36,560
Speaker 2: much all the time. That's the feeling I get is

811
00:40:36,600 --> 00:40:38,520
Speaker 2: like I'm putting my hands up, like I just want

812
00:40:38,520 --> 00:40:41,239
Speaker 2: to do an X, like oh just stop. You know,

813
00:40:41,280 --> 00:40:44,920
Speaker 2: it's like everyone has an opinion, there's voices saying everything.

814
00:40:45,000 --> 00:40:48,040
Speaker 2: What do you even believe anymore? How do you get

815
00:40:48,160 --> 00:40:51,520
Speaker 2: views and go viral? And it's just like exhausting to.

816
00:40:51,440 --> 00:40:55,719
Speaker 1: Me, it's exhausting. And now with AI, it's like you

817
00:40:55,760 --> 00:40:56,200
Speaker 1: don't even know.

818
00:40:56,239 --> 00:40:59,959
Speaker 2: It's really exactly. And then it's like who's actually telling

819
00:41:00,080 --> 00:41:01,800
Speaker 2: the truth or who's trying to get you to buy

820
00:41:01,880 --> 00:41:04,880
Speaker 2: something or who's trying to get you to believe some

821
00:41:05,080 --> 00:41:07,839
Speaker 2: narrative or some conspiracy theory. And this is coming from

822
00:41:07,880 --> 00:41:11,080
Speaker 2: a former influencer like I participate in that. So I'm

823
00:41:11,080 --> 00:41:13,520
Speaker 2: not like sitting here trying to be like, oh you

824
00:41:13,560 --> 00:41:16,520
Speaker 2: guys suck. I'm just like it's become too much. So

825
00:41:16,600 --> 00:41:20,040
Speaker 2: how do we like, where do we find ourselves again

826
00:41:20,160 --> 00:41:23,440
Speaker 2: amongst all of this, like there's got to be something

827
00:41:23,520 --> 00:41:26,239
Speaker 2: better because I don't want to anyone saying they love

828
00:41:26,280 --> 00:41:26,880
Speaker 2: it anymore.

829
00:41:27,040 --> 00:41:30,799
Speaker 1: I I you know, it's like, I'm not anti the

830
00:41:30,840 --> 00:41:34,120
Speaker 1: idea of social media and anti the idea of sharing.

831
00:41:34,239 --> 00:41:36,480
Speaker 2: Well, it's brought us so much positivity too.

832
00:41:36,760 --> 00:41:40,959
Speaker 1: The authenticity is lacking now, so it's like, I don't

833
00:41:40,960 --> 00:41:43,600
Speaker 1: want you to share unless it's something that you really

834
00:41:43,640 --> 00:41:46,680
Speaker 1: care about sharing, like you know, like I just don't.

835
00:41:47,239 --> 00:41:47,560
Speaker 1: I don't.

836
00:41:47,680 --> 00:41:50,880
Speaker 2: Well, that's I struggle because I'm like, why, yeah, why

837
00:41:51,239 --> 00:41:54,160
Speaker 2: would anyone care what I'm saying? And we have a

838
00:41:54,200 --> 00:41:58,000
Speaker 2: podcast and I'm still feeling that. I'm like, God, everyone

839
00:41:58,120 --> 00:42:00,920
Speaker 2: has a fucking podcast now, and there's so many voices

840
00:42:00,960 --> 00:42:04,520
Speaker 2: that like why would people care? Like I struggle with that.

841
00:42:04,520 --> 00:42:07,279
Speaker 2: That's something I've been kind of debating about. Is so

842
00:42:07,320 --> 00:42:09,719
Speaker 2: I want to find the reason. And for me, it's

843
00:42:09,840 --> 00:42:12,200
Speaker 2: always been connection, and so I need I want to

844
00:42:12,239 --> 00:42:14,239
Speaker 2: find a way to do that better with our listeners

845
00:42:14,640 --> 00:42:17,120
Speaker 2: and actually connect because I feel like sometimes we feel

846
00:42:17,120 --> 00:42:19,960
Speaker 2: like we're talking into a silo even but a lot

847
00:42:20,000 --> 00:42:21,840
Speaker 2: of it goes with too, like I don't know that

848
00:42:21,840 --> 00:42:24,640
Speaker 2: I've set myself up right now to connect in the

849
00:42:24,680 --> 00:42:26,839
Speaker 2: ways that I really want to. So figuring that out,

850
00:42:26,880 --> 00:42:30,320
Speaker 2: But like that's the only benefit to me is connecting

851
00:42:30,320 --> 00:42:32,920
Speaker 2: with people I would have never gotten to connect with

852
00:42:33,560 --> 00:42:36,600
Speaker 2: across the world, like or even some of the guests,

853
00:42:36,640 --> 00:42:39,200
Speaker 2: like I think about, I would have never been able

854
00:42:39,239 --> 00:42:42,000
Speaker 2: to find connection with people like John Edward, the psychic

855
00:42:42,040 --> 00:42:44,120
Speaker 2: that I was like so geeking out to have on

856
00:42:44,960 --> 00:42:48,520
Speaker 2: if it wasn't for social media, and like other connections

857
00:42:48,520 --> 00:42:50,239
Speaker 2: I had made there or this podcast, you know. So

858
00:42:50,320 --> 00:42:53,279
Speaker 2: there's so much benefit to it. I just think that,

859
00:42:53,440 --> 00:42:57,400
Speaker 2: like there's also so much overwhelmed. So finding finding a

860
00:42:57,400 --> 00:43:01,239
Speaker 2: better way is yeah, another goal of mine. So it

861
00:43:01,239 --> 00:43:04,560
Speaker 2: has into both of our words, actually health and connect

862
00:43:04,640 --> 00:43:05,319
Speaker 2: one hundred percent.

863
00:43:05,560 --> 00:43:08,480
Speaker 1: And it's like the whole idea of getting rid of

864
00:43:08,719 --> 00:43:11,480
Speaker 1: people who I don't have a real connection with on

865
00:43:11,520 --> 00:43:15,480
Speaker 1: social Yeah, like celebrities, Like why am I following them?

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Speaker 1: It doesn't matter, Like I'm going to get that news

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Speaker 1: anyway from another source. So I wanted to. I want to.

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Speaker 1: I'm trying to pare it down to like people I

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Speaker 1: actually know and love and want to stay connected to.

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Speaker 1: So I wonder if give.

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Speaker 2: Out any benefits, Yeah, I wonder if we're going to

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Speaker 2: move into like having our smaller core groups again versus

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Speaker 2: we've got we went so far out, we cast the

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Speaker 2: net so far out. That's like it feels like, you know,

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Speaker 2: every person in the world kind of thing, and or

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Speaker 2: we're trying to and that's why we have so many

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Speaker 2: like differing opinions and arguments because like, obviously people across

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Speaker 2: the world are going to have completely different thoughts and feelings,

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Speaker 2: so maybe we are going to dial it back and

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Speaker 2: want I just also want things to feel special again.

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Speaker 2: Nothing feels special anymore. Nothing like like you said, there's

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Speaker 2: one hundred thousand songs released a day, so what makes

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Speaker 2: anything special? You're right right, Like we've lost that. Like

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Speaker 2: I want something to feel fucking special. Yeah, I don't

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Speaker 2: know anyway. Okay, that was another rant. We went to.

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Speaker 1: Twenty six, by the way, is my lucky number, so.

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Speaker 2: It is, so yeay, okay, all right, Well, if you

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Speaker 2: guys do words, please email us at the Edge at

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Speaker 2: velvet edge dot com. I love hearing about what other

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Speaker 2: people choose as their word. You can also hit me

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Speaker 2: up on Instagram I'm at Velvet's Edge Chip.

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Speaker 1: I'm at chip Doors its chip d o r scch.

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Speaker 2: Wait if you get rid of Instagram, how are we

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Speaker 2: going to end this?

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Speaker 1: Pat? Oh my gosh, I'll have to give them my

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Speaker 1: email address.

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Speaker 2: It's Chip that meet your email address. You can also

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Speaker 2: contact us on our Instagram for the podcast at Velvet

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Speaker 2: Edge Podcast. I haven't been that active on social media lately,

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Speaker 2: but I'm back to it, so we will be there.

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Speaker 2: And I love to hear about what you guys choose.

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Speaker 2: If you're doing it to let's connect, let's do it

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Speaker 2: this year.

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Speaker 1: This is going to be the year healthy. Let's connect healthily.

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Speaker 2: Oh okay, I love it combined, both of our words. Okay. Anyway,

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Speaker 2: as you guys go into the weekend and you're living

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Speaker 2: on the edge, I hope you always remember.

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Speaker 1: To act catule.

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Speaker 2: I guess we can really change our ending. This is

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Speaker 2: coming with us into twenty twenty six. They are all right, y'all.

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Speaker 2: Bye bye,