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Speaker 1: when did you find out that you were pregnant? When

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Speaker 1: I was thirteen years old, I was um. Well, we

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Speaker 1: went to my dad, my step mom and step sisters.

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Speaker 1: We all went to a trip to Jolliet, Illinois to

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Speaker 1: the church convention, and I was sleeping a lot. I

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Speaker 1: was very hungry on the bus, but I was afraid

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Speaker 1: to get something to eat because I was shocked and

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Speaker 1: so um. I was fall asleep in the church and

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Speaker 1: when we made it back, I would fall asleep, be

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Speaker 1: sleeping out of time. And my dad said he asked

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Speaker 1: me without pregnant. I said no because I didn't know

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Speaker 1: I was pregnant. UM, So him and my stepmam they

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Speaker 1: took me to the head department and testing me, had

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Speaker 1: me tested to see if I was pregnant. The test

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Speaker 1: came back positive that I was pregnant, and I did

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Speaker 1: not know. I did not know I was pregnant. And

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Speaker 1: so that's when I found out when I was thirteen

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Speaker 1: and taken to the head department and they confirmed it

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Speaker 1: that I was pregnant at thirteen. And nobody ever talked

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Speaker 1: to you about sex. No, nobody ever talked to me

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Speaker 1: about six. I don't recall being talked to about six

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Speaker 1: because I'm pretty sure if you would have known the

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Speaker 1: probably been just a little a little bit more proactive

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Speaker 1: with like trying to protect yourself. But nobody ever, like,

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Speaker 1: how are you supposed to know? You're a kid? Right?

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Speaker 1: And nobody's not saying anything to me. Nobody aboudy said anything.

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Speaker 1: I didn't even know what an abortion was, right, do

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Speaker 1: you think is when I was reading that part in

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Speaker 1: the book, do you think that if you would have

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Speaker 1: known what it was, and if it would have been

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Speaker 1: explained differently to you, that you would have consider it? No,

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Speaker 1: Because when they told me I would, I would be

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Speaker 1: killing I don't want to kill my baby, no matter what,

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Speaker 1: No matter with me being a kid or what I

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Speaker 1: didn't want to be killing a baby mm hmm. And

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Speaker 1: so I just you know, wrote it out, fought it out.

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Speaker 1: And there was the only kid in school pregnant in

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Speaker 1: sixth grade. The seventh grade, yeah, sixth grade had her

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Speaker 1: when I was in seventh grade. Yeah, and this is

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Speaker 1: your cousin's husband child. Yes, he was married to my cousin,

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Speaker 1: and so he's got kids by her, and he would

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Speaker 1: always come to my aunt house, of course, because he's

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Speaker 1: me and and just six and I was like, damn,

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Speaker 1: that had to be like a very like it just

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Speaker 1: had to be a very like overwhelming conversation between you

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Speaker 1: she was joking like saying that how your door to

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Speaker 1: I just started crying because just started crying like that

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Speaker 1: I said, she was just joking like, is this you know,

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Speaker 1: I don't know who's the baby that it was. Because

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Speaker 1: and everything and bow legged and so yes, is she

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Speaker 1: still married to him? She's the sea. She passed away,

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Speaker 1: my daughter's dad. So she lost her two kids who

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Speaker 1: a tragic accident. Uh damn, God bless him. And a

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Speaker 1: DNA test was done to prove that he's the father

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Speaker 1: of your child. And still nothing was done because he

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Speaker 1: was thirteen and he was in his thirties. Yes, and

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Speaker 1: I had her when I was fourteen, and a DNA

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Speaker 1: test was done when I was stipteen because by the

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Speaker 1: time she was worn in walking, so she started looking

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Speaker 1: like him. And so they suggested that a DNA tests

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Speaker 1: get done to see if he was the dad, and

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Speaker 1: there was he was proven to me the dad I

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Speaker 1: didn't even know. I don't read the DNA test. I mean,

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Speaker 1: you know, I'm a kid. I should know that. I

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Speaker 1: shouldn't have to know how to do all this stuff,

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Speaker 1: you know when I'm threw in the book. And obviously

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Speaker 1: I'm not gonna talk bad about your dad, but I

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Speaker 1: was just disappointed because I felt like he could have

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Speaker 1: did more, because I feel like the way how he

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Speaker 1: handled the situation when he felt out you was pregnant

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Speaker 1: was like, I don't know, I just didn't like that.

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Speaker 1: Do you wish she would have handled it differently? I

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Speaker 1: do wish you would have handled it different I wish

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Speaker 1: would have, you know, had something done. It's like he

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Speaker 1: just threw you back to the wolf, yes, And I

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Speaker 1: feel like, yes, he did throw me back to the

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Speaker 1: wolves because there's that's where happening. You know, everything happened there,

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Speaker 1: So he just threw me. He just get That's why

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Speaker 1: I say I felt like my dad gave up on

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Speaker 1: me because no abusely ever happened while I was in

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Speaker 1: you know, safe in love there you know, but I

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Speaker 1: like he gave up on me because these apologizing He said,

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Speaker 1: the only reason why he did it because he wanted

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Speaker 1: me to be with my siblings, with my family. But

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Speaker 1: it's crazy because I was still being with my family,

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Speaker 1: um before I got pregnant, So what makes a pregnant

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Speaker 1: that you sent me to live with my aunt full time?

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Speaker 1: So it ain't up right. They don't make a liquor

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Speaker 1: sense at all. So mm hmm. And at the age

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Speaker 1: of fourteen, began dating this three year old three year

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Speaker 1: old and he started becoming physical abusive towards you. Yes,

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Speaker 1: because I don't say I was in a relationship, That's

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Speaker 1: what that was. Because I was fourteen and he was

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Speaker 1: twenty three years old. He could horse me, manipulated me,

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Speaker 1: or whatever he did. I didn't want to be there,

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Speaker 1: but I lust my voice my annivals at five, and

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Speaker 1: I didn't know how to say no. Some people say

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Speaker 1: just say no, but it's not easy to just say no.

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Speaker 1: And also at this point, you're just mentally tired. Oh

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Speaker 1: my goodness, yes, you know what I'm saying. Like I

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Speaker 1: can only imagine like a fourteen year old with a baby.

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Speaker 1: I think you had two babies or you're the only

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Speaker 1: your way to having a second baby, and you're going

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Speaker 1: through all this stuff and you don't have a voice

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Speaker 1: like that's exhausting. Yes, that's traumatizing, Y very traumatizing. People

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Speaker 1: thought I was stuckled. They said I always had a

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Speaker 1: mean mug on my face and food that. But that

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Speaker 1: was a reason for everything, all the things that I

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Speaker 1: was going through, the abuse, the the rate, the most insists,

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Speaker 1: but just everything being you know, the domestic violence, being jumped, yeah,

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Speaker 1: at fourteen and seven. Things didn't know what I was doing.

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Speaker 1: I had them. Another story that broke my heart when

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Speaker 1: you was talking about your brother. What do you think

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Speaker 1: we're some factors that put a strain on your relationship? Oh,

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Speaker 1: me and my brother, that the one that we live,

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Speaker 1: and just I just really don't I don't know. I

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Speaker 1: the one that passed away. Yes, yes, yes him. Um,

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Speaker 1: you and it's two sisters. Well, I have a sister

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Speaker 1: his grandmother adopted him. Yeah, and I just feel like,

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Speaker 1: didn't you know, we already didn't know each other really

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Speaker 1: because we never grew up together. So and when we

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Speaker 1: just vulnerable and we were manipulated. H and um, it

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Speaker 1: just it changed things with me and my brother, and

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Speaker 1: I really hate that I allowed, you know, his so

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Speaker 1: I felt like I still should have you know, pushed

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Speaker 1: day he died, I just I felt I blame myself

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Speaker 1: And I feel like, if I understand, so was he

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Speaker 1: teaching training, educating others on the importance of you know,

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Speaker 1: raising awareness and advocating on sexual assault, domestic violence, trauma

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Speaker 1: period and to know self care, to love yourself. Mm hmm. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: I just self character you look like because I thought

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Speaker 1: you probably have to, like, you know, re learn yourself

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Speaker 1: and like figure out things or did you have to

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Speaker 1: figure out things that you like and like things that

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Speaker 1: you like? What do I want to do? Yes? And

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Speaker 1: I'm actecting it out now. I am actually figuring that

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Speaker 1: out now. And because I tend to do things for

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Speaker 1: everybody else, but don't take our time for myself. I

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Speaker 1: mean you, that's how you was pretty much raised, right,

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Speaker 1: and you have kids, So like, what are some things

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Speaker 1: I like to go get a pedicure, manicure and those

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Speaker 1: the spa. Yeah, you have to go on together, yes,

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Speaker 1: especially if it's free child That's right, That's right. So

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Speaker 1: those are simple things I like to do, you know,

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Speaker 1: just like singing. Oh yeah right, I ain't gonna say

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Speaker 1: I can say what I like to don't do it.

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Speaker 1: So yeah, well I definitely have a few things in store,

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Speaker 1: and you would definitely be one of those guests that

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Speaker 1: I will be reaching back to because you know, your

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Speaker 1: story was just and it was just why it really

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Speaker 1: made me, just made me want to do more for

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Speaker 1: her little brownies. Out there do more than what I

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Speaker 1: already do. So I really do appreciate you. You're welcome me,

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Speaker 1: and yes, so it's there. It is so important, and

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Speaker 1: it's time for us to speak up and to speak

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Speaker 1: out and be the voice. Yes, that's a fact. That's

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Speaker 1: one of the main reasons why I create the podcast

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Speaker 1: because I'm like, there's just so many, so much stuff

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Speaker 1: that we go through as women, especially black women or

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Speaker 1: women of color, and you know, I like it needed

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Speaker 1: to be a platform what women can just get their

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Speaker 1: ship off and just beat beat their truth right, speak

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Speaker 1: your truth, let this stuff out, let it out, let

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Speaker 1: it out. So and I was gonna saying, who cares

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Speaker 1: if they get mad, the naysayers, the family members, that's

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Speaker 1: something they have to deal with. We dealt with this

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Speaker 1: stuff for too long or you ain't never lie about

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Speaker 1: that's us. Well, if y'all have any questions, comments, or

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Speaker 1: concerns from my guests or you want to say hey girl, hey,

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Speaker 1: please make sure to email me at hello at the

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Speaker 1: PhD podcast dot com. To my guests, thank you so much.

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Speaker 1: I really do appreciate you and we would definitely be

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Speaker 1: in touch and until next time, everyone later, Thank you

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Speaker 1: you kin't gonna say bye bye. Yeah, I have a

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Speaker 1: good day. Thank you so much, Yes, thank you