WEBVTT - Alicia Keys: Uncensored

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<v Speaker 1>Hey, fam I'm Jada Pinkett Smith and this is the

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<v Speaker 1>on Apple Podcasts. On this Red Piano a super special

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<v Speaker 1>episode with my sister Alicia Keys. What's the biggest misconception

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<v Speaker 1>that you think people have about you? Probably that I'm

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<v Speaker 1>very happy or that I'm very strong. Well, really, I

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<v Speaker 1>don't even know how to get mad Dusty. She's sharing

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<v Speaker 1>her truths, her fears, and her secret passions. Oh, here

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<v Speaker 1>we go. Our t t is on fire. This girl,

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<v Speaker 1>this girl. All right, Alicia's here today we can do

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<v Speaker 1>something special for Okay, So are you super good? Welcome

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<v Speaker 1>to the Red Piano. Who we got a red piano

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<v Speaker 1>piano talk today? How neat? Is that right? You know,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm so excited to have you me too. I'm honored,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm so proud of you and excited I have the

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<v Speaker 1>red nails for the Red Piano. Well, first of all,

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<v Speaker 1>I was trying to remember. I was like, how did

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<v Speaker 1>we meet? Was Superwoman? I think it was a video

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<v Speaker 1>it was a Superwoman. That's crazy good. I think so unleash.

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<v Speaker 1>That was the first that you called, and you were like, hey,

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<v Speaker 1>I really want you to be in the video. That

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<v Speaker 1>has to be it. But the crazy thing is, I

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<v Speaker 1>feel like I've known you since the day something about you.

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<v Speaker 1>You're so kindered to me. I feel like I've never

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<v Speaker 1>not known you. It was like, hey, that's what we

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<v Speaker 1>were doing with me? Man, where did that come from?

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<v Speaker 1>It's been so interesting that I've become known for songs

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<v Speaker 1>that are very empowering for women. I realized now that

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<v Speaker 1>the times that I've written those songs are the times

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<v Speaker 1>that I've needed those songs. Yeah, that makes total sense.

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<v Speaker 1>It was usually at times where I felt so unstrong,

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<v Speaker 1>so unsuperwomanly, so weak or confused and feeling misunderstood that

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<v Speaker 1>the only way that I knew how to get through

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<v Speaker 1>that was to write what I was hoping for. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>That's really powerful, though, because it's almost like medicine, not

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<v Speaker 1>only medicine for you, but medicine for other people. Know,

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<v Speaker 1>even one on my mess still up. Yeah, yeah, but

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<v Speaker 1>that's the thing we are. I didn't realize that ever.

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<v Speaker 1>When did you realize it? Like yesterday when you say

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<v Speaker 1>you're a mess, Like, what are the things that I

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<v Speaker 1>have been doing this thing for many years where I

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<v Speaker 1>have been down playing or whatever it is that I

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<v Speaker 1>need because I never want to come off to demanding.

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<v Speaker 1>I just need that little bit. I don't need a lie.

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<v Speaker 1>And I've always thought that that was actually a very righteous,

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<v Speaker 1>beautiful way to be. I realized that, in fact, what

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<v Speaker 1>I've been doing to myself and what I've been actually

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<v Speaker 1>asking the universe to give me is only a little bit.

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<v Speaker 1>I've been battling, potentially some self worth issues because for

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<v Speaker 1>whatever reason, I'm feeling like I'm not deserving of greatness,

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<v Speaker 1>You're not good enough, and I've been smushing it down

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<v Speaker 1>for so long that if it's become a habit, a

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<v Speaker 1>bad habit, I have some clarity as to how that happened.

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<v Speaker 1>I think at the time that when I first started,

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<v Speaker 1>I was so young. I mean I was fourteen, and

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<v Speaker 1>when actually everything exploded, I was eighteen, and so I

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<v Speaker 1>was a baby just trying to I was like, I

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<v Speaker 1>can do it, I'll do it, put it out. Here's

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<v Speaker 1>what I do. Tell her, And do you know what

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<v Speaker 1>I was doing? None of it, none of us like,

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<v Speaker 1>but I don't know what to do exactly. They had

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<v Speaker 1>such strong ideas about what they wanted for me, and

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<v Speaker 1>there was a certain sense of desire for me to

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<v Speaker 1>be inaccessible. Yeah, And I think the reason why I

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<v Speaker 1>was mostly protection because I was so young. I was

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<v Speaker 1>a girl like everybody can't get to her, and so

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<v Speaker 1>that happened and suddenly didn't access myself either because I

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<v Speaker 1>was so young, and I was just trying to kind

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<v Speaker 1>of hang on and make it all makes sense and

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<v Speaker 1>might not fall on my face, and so I was

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<v Speaker 1>trying to keep everything together like I think I have

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<v Speaker 1>it and this is how I do it. Yeah, Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>and then I just kept on and that was just it.

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<v Speaker 1>So it just kind of ended up being that way. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>I understand the pain of and the pressure and how

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<v Speaker 1>it exhausts one to have to live up to and

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<v Speaker 1>unwrap ivel the smile because we always see smiling, especially

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<v Speaker 1>when there's some pain going on. He's a song. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>like to smile to the gravel a smile. It's so good.

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<v Speaker 1>M h. I realized that that, like here we go,

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<v Speaker 1>like that brought tears to my eyes just to feel

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<v Speaker 1>so have you been able to identify the fears within you?

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<v Speaker 1>Fair face? Thank you? Because I need song, my fears.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't even know how to get mad. Really, that's deep.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't even know what it's like to just lose

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<v Speaker 1>my mind on somebody and just totally lose it. My mother,

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<v Speaker 1>on another hand, has been very good at being angry

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<v Speaker 1>and kind of sharing her true feelings, which I actually

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<v Speaker 1>admired deeply about her. I almost wish So many times

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<v Speaker 1>I looked at her like I wish I could do that,

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<v Speaker 1>which would be so free. But I think because she

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<v Speaker 1>raised me and it was her and I, there was

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<v Speaker 1>a certain balance that I had to naturally take in

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<v Speaker 1>order for the relationship to work. We couldn't both kind

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<v Speaker 1>of yeah, like somebody had to be So I think

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<v Speaker 1>I became that person, and then I kind of took

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<v Speaker 1>that with me everywhere. So I became that person with everybody.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh I was going to be the figure I would

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<v Speaker 1>or I was gonna be the one that kind of

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<v Speaker 1>made everything. Oh no, that's what I learned to be.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm going to be the one with the piano, with

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<v Speaker 1>the thing and the thing that the knights on, the

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<v Speaker 1>feel of the sweet and the smiling thing and the peacemaker.

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<v Speaker 1>That that's who I am. But that's not how I

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<v Speaker 1>am so in thinking about that. How did it make

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<v Speaker 1>you feel when people would be angry at you? Would

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<v Speaker 1>you get into a people pleasing molde constantly like how

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<v Speaker 1>can I make this right? How can I make this right?

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<v Speaker 1>I'm the one who had to put the bowl with

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<v Speaker 1>the ribbon and the sparkly paper over everything. Like if

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<v Speaker 1>if everything wasn't wrapped up with a bowl by the

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<v Speaker 1>time I was finished with it, I was not comfortable. Right,

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<v Speaker 1>It's so sick of me. I'm so annoying. I want

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<v Speaker 1>to vomit at my own self because it's just like, honestly,

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<v Speaker 1>seriously and recently, I have to pull myself back from

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<v Speaker 1>the collar around my jacket and I say, don't fix that. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>I feel you on that one. Oh my god, I

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<v Speaker 1>feel you, oh my, And it hurt and it's hard. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>What was the best piece of advice you've ever gotten?

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<v Speaker 1>Probably from my amazing grandmother. This is one of my

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<v Speaker 1>favorite songs. And you remind me my grandmother. Does anybody

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<v Speaker 1>tell you that? I feel like you might remind a

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<v Speaker 1>lot of people. Um. When she was dying, she lived

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<v Speaker 1>with me. Wow, and it was amazing because all my

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<v Speaker 1>life she had to take care of me, and she

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<v Speaker 1>was so elegant and strong and fear and sincere, and

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<v Speaker 1>there was in a car that she didn't write for

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<v Speaker 1>a person's birthday or celebration or graduation or she was

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<v Speaker 1>that one right And and I knew I wasn't gonna

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<v Speaker 1>have her much longer. And I started thinking about mortality

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<v Speaker 1>a lot. And I remember when I wrote this song,

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<v Speaker 1>a lot of people thought that, uh, it's about a

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<v Speaker 1>love of you know, a boyfriend, right, But this was

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<v Speaker 1>really about my love for her. And so she taught

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<v Speaker 1>me to cherish the moments. And she also taught me

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<v Speaker 1>that if, um, if things weren't happening in the way

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<v Speaker 1>that you thought they were supposed to happen, that was okay. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>that was okay. I was like, what that's not okay?

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<v Speaker 1>It is okay, Yeah, you gotta let things be. And

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<v Speaker 1>so if I had no the time and my time

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<v Speaker 1>not to be here with your chair, wish won't be had?

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<v Speaker 1>Was I god that you were looking for? If I

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<v Speaker 1>count it, feel your touch and a long way with me,

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<v Speaker 1>I'd be with shoun. You're here to be every thing

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<v Speaker 1>that I've been looking for. I don't want to forget.

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<v Speaker 1>The present is again and I don't wanna take for

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<v Speaker 1>credit that time you may have hearing me, because Lord

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<v Speaker 1>only knows I not. The day is not really guaranteed.

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<v Speaker 1>So every time you hold me, oh me like that's

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<v Speaker 1>at the lastst time. Yes, every time your kiss me,

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<v Speaker 1>kiss me like you'll love see me again. Every time

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<v Speaker 1>it touch me, touch me like that's at the last time,

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<v Speaker 1>promise that you love me, love me. I can sit

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<v Speaker 1>me again. I remember that song. It was like one

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<v Speaker 1>of my favorites too. Yeah, I did not know it

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<v Speaker 1>was about your grandmother though. Yeah, it has such a

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<v Speaker 1>different meaning. Yeah, that's so beautiful. It has such a

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<v Speaker 1>wow it's powerful. She is we are Yeah, thank you? Yeah, wow,

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<v Speaker 1>thank you. This is really a gift. What's the biggest

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<v Speaker 1>misconception that you think people have about you? Probably that

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<v Speaker 1>I'm very happy or that I'm very strong. Yeah, m

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<v Speaker 1>but I get the sense that people expect me. They're like,

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<v Speaker 1>what do you mean you feel bad? Oh? My favorite

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<v Speaker 1>one that that they don't think I cursed. I'm like,

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<v Speaker 1>what the what make you think? I don't? H watch

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<v Speaker 1>watch watch would you air it at it? Oh? Sh yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>And it wasn't until recently I realized the whole pedestal

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<v Speaker 1>ideas like, please kick the pedestal down. I'm good, I'm

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<v Speaker 1>gonna be on the floor, right. I want to be

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<v Speaker 1>right good, Right, we all right here together, We are good. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>I could just be me. I can be all my flawed,

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<v Speaker 1>beautiful self. You can be your flawed beautiful self. We

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<v Speaker 1>can just hang out and talk and work through it

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<v Speaker 1>and sorted out. That's where I want to be anywhere else.

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<v Speaker 1>That's what I've been using this red table to strip

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<v Speaker 1>it down. Is that where the no makeup came from, too,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, the no makeup thing came I was definitely

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<v Speaker 1>frustrated with just a lot of things in the world.

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<v Speaker 1>I had like a paper that I wrote down all

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<v Speaker 1>the things that piste me off. I'm piste off about

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<v Speaker 1>the way that if my son wants to paint his nails,

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<v Speaker 1>it's a big freaking deal. I'm piste off. I'm piste

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<v Speaker 1>off that if I'm not so put together. And I

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<v Speaker 1>walked out theside, someone says to me, you look tired.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm not tired. This is just my face. My yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>but I didn't even know that because I didn't even

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<v Speaker 1>know my face. I didn't even know my own face.

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<v Speaker 1>And when I took off all the stuff and I

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<v Speaker 1>looked into the mirror, I didn't know that person. I

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<v Speaker 1>was like, I would walk by the mir and like

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<v Speaker 1>I didn't know who that was. Wow, it was that drastic.

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<v Speaker 1>I looked back today at pictures today and I'm like, jeez,

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<v Speaker 1>Alicia really didn't really have to read that. There was

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<v Speaker 1>just so much I was realizing I don't want to

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<v Speaker 1>know myself more. Then I started getting his head trip

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<v Speaker 1>about like, oh my gosh, I've done that because I've

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<v Speaker 1>been told to do that, succumbing to whatever people's expectations

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<v Speaker 1>of me are, which is mostly pretty much my whole life. Like,

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<v Speaker 1>what do you expect for me? Oh? Let me do it? Wow?

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<v Speaker 1>What would you say the time in your life that

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<v Speaker 1>has been most challenging. I would say finding the strength

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<v Speaker 1>to let go of the people that weren't serving me. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>when they were so integral and everything that I had known, Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>and I felt almost so dependent on them. I felt

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<v Speaker 1>in my mind I thought that without them I wouldn't

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<v Speaker 1>be me. And that took a long time to come

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<v Speaker 1>to terms with that. People definitely assist you in your journey,

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<v Speaker 1>for sure, but they don't make you. Nobody makes you.

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<v Speaker 1>I make me. But it takes you a minute to

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<v Speaker 1>get to that space when you realize just yesterday to

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<v Speaker 1>this day, I'm like, I make me. I know what

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<v Speaker 1>I need, Alicia, what do you need? Stop? Stop going?

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<v Speaker 1>Do you think that I need to know? Yeah, it's

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<v Speaker 1>like we do this weird thing, me especially, and I

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<v Speaker 1>want to ask everybody and a mother to tell me

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<v Speaker 1>what right for some reason, like I don't trust myself,

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<v Speaker 1>so like no, if it's like the best it could

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<v Speaker 1>possibly be. And you know what, I realized about that

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<v Speaker 1>just in my own journey, there have been things in

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<v Speaker 1>my life that I've done that would sit totally outside

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<v Speaker 1>of what people think I am right, So that you

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<v Speaker 1>have this guilt and you have this shame. So then

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<v Speaker 1>you lose the trust in yourself, right because you're like

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<v Speaker 1>I did this, I did that. Those weren't really great decisions.

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<v Speaker 1>So maybe I don't really know anybody else needs to

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<v Speaker 1>be telling well, maybe I need to be on this

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<v Speaker 1>person's journey, right, And so I had to really take

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<v Speaker 1>a moment and look at my life and go all

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<v Speaker 1>of it, every bit of it has been to get

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<v Speaker 1>you to where you are today, to get you to

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<v Speaker 1>your freedom. You had to go through those, You had

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<v Speaker 1>to live who you weren't to know who you are.

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<v Speaker 1>There is so much tenderness that I'm learning to have

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<v Speaker 1>with myself, and so much more empathy that I'm learning

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<v Speaker 1>to have with myself, and just being able to, like,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm so empathetic about everybody else. I can sit there

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<v Speaker 1>and come up with every reason as to why whatever.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't worry. It's just because they're a little frustrated.

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<v Speaker 1>There's a lot going on, and you can understand how

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<v Speaker 1>that could, but I don't have that same tenderness in myself.

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<v Speaker 1>I just want to talk a little bit about your

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<v Speaker 1>relationship with Swissit. So you guys have been married for

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<v Speaker 1>nine years now, how's that going. It's always been so

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<v Speaker 1>easy for us, easy in the sense of nothing is

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<v Speaker 1>just easy. There are challenges with everything, but there's a

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<v Speaker 1>que between you. Yeah, my husband's like such a free spirit.

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<v Speaker 1>Swisses like in the sky, yeah, the way he thinks.

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<v Speaker 1>He's just like he's just in the sky and everything's

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<v Speaker 1>just all up there. And I'm like, I got Grabma's

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<v Speaker 1>foot and I'm like here we go, Okay, two seconds.

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<v Speaker 1>I got you for two seconds he got it, Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>all right, go and that's like into face and we

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<v Speaker 1>get along really well like that because we balanced each other.

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<v Speaker 1>Like he helps me dreams, Yes, help me dream. I've

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<v Speaker 1>never dreamed like how I did before I met it, right,

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<v Speaker 1>because the way he dreamed. I'm like, jeez, you get

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<v Speaker 1>all those thoughts together, you know. And I've been jealous

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<v Speaker 1>of him before. I'm like, yep, you got bigger dreams

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<v Speaker 1>than me. I understand that will dreams huge and we'll

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<v Speaker 1>have bigger dreams for us that we could even imagine

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<v Speaker 1>for ourselves. So what has motherhood taught you? Gosh? So

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<v Speaker 1>the kids, what have they taught me? Yes, they've taught

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<v Speaker 1>me so much. They've taught me to appreciate the vibe,

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<v Speaker 1>to appreciate the magic, and to know when it's not there.

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<v Speaker 1>Because there's moments when something is actually magic and you're like,

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<v Speaker 1>you know what, I'm gonna go ahead and stay here

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<v Speaker 1>and I might be really late tonight, but the magic

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<v Speaker 1>is here and it's worth it. And then there's other

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<v Speaker 1>moments where I'm like, there's no magic, and it's taught

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<v Speaker 1>me I don't have to try to conjure up the magic,

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<v Speaker 1>make the thing. No, it's not happening the day. Go

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<v Speaker 1>go make sure you're where you need to be. You know.

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<v Speaker 1>So that's been cool because I used to just beat

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<v Speaker 1>things to death. If I wasn't working nineteen hours a day,

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<v Speaker 1>I wasn't actually work working. Yeah, stupid. Well, before we go,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna bring out the fishbowl, Alicia, how do you

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<v Speaker 1>not lose yourself in a relationship when you are with

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<v Speaker 1>a successful man? Oh? Okay, question question. Ever since the

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<v Speaker 1>beginning of our relationship, we always had something that was

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<v Speaker 1>called keep it Real, whatever the day was. So if

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<v Speaker 1>it was Wednesday, you're like, keep it real Wednesday, and

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<v Speaker 1>I would kind of be our signal that there was

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<v Speaker 1>something we needed to discuss that might be a little tricky.

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<v Speaker 1>You know. For me, I've had a history of excusing

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<v Speaker 1>things that I felt, making excuses for them. Oh well,

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<v Speaker 1>he didn't mean that. What he really was probably trying

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<v Speaker 1>to say, you know, but I knew it bothered me,

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<v Speaker 1>and I pushed it down and I've shoved it in

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<v Speaker 1>there and I kept it instead of just like, hey

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<v Speaker 1>really bothered me. The way you said that made me

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<v Speaker 1>it feel made me feel like diminished or like you

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<v Speaker 1>didn't really respect what I had to say, and that

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<v Speaker 1>made me feel uncomfortable. I only lose myself when I

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<v Speaker 1>can't speak from you. Don't express yourself, So that that's good.

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<v Speaker 1>Another one, Yeah, it's all for you. What's your secret passion? Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>my secret passion. I truly want to be a party planner.

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<v Speaker 1>I truly I was waiting for like true, I really

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<v Speaker 1>like molecular Yeah, I always wanted to work in a

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<v Speaker 1>bridle shot. That's a good one. I can see that.

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<v Speaker 1>I can say that I truly yes to the happy,

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<v Speaker 1>like putting an environment that makes people happy and taking

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<v Speaker 1>their unique whatever and making it a moment that they'll

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<v Speaker 1>never forget. I just enjoy it so much. I love surprises.

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<v Speaker 1>I love surprising people. I didn't know that I like

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<v Speaker 1>this before because I didn't ever like to be surprised myself.

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<v Speaker 1>I just don't surprise me, don't something. My birthday was

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<v Speaker 1>all tight. I was so tight. That was the problem.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm so tight. Mosten up, relax and so that's my

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<v Speaker 1>secret passion. I've considered starting the side business. But you know,

0:22:45.680 --> 0:22:49.159
<v Speaker 1>party planning dreams. How many supposed to do that? You

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<v Speaker 1>could do as you want? Is there? Artists? You haven't

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<v Speaker 1>collaborated that you'd love to do something together. Well, my

0:23:02.400 --> 0:23:07.040
<v Speaker 1>lifelong dream is to collaborate with Lauren Hill. That's like

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<v Speaker 1>a yes, that's like that would be amazing, so iconic.

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<v Speaker 1>That's gonna be like we're gonna say, that's happy. It

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<v Speaker 1>hasn't happened yet, but it's going to happen. Big love

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<v Speaker 1>to her, she's amazing. Thanks for my fishball fishball love.

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<v Speaker 1>That's it. But before we leave, can you play girl

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<v Speaker 1>on fire on our way? If you're saying it real loud, Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>real crazy with Alicia all r. Right, we get to

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<v Speaker 1>the courts, okay, just playing out because we girls don't

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<v Speaker 1>find We're just gonna kill it. Okay, don't matter. We

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<v Speaker 1>could be off, we could be all, we could be

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<v Speaker 1>flat with sharp, that's the point. Right. She's just a

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<v Speaker 1>girl and she's on fire. How do than a fantasy

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<v Speaker 1>only like a highway. She's living in a whirland. It's

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<v Speaker 1>on fire, feel wi catastrophe, but she knows she can

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<v Speaker 1>fly away. She got huff beat on the crown and

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<v Speaker 1>she's burning it down. Got a head in the cloud

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<v Speaker 1>and she's not making down. This girl is on fire.

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<v Speaker 1>This girl is on fire. She's walking on fire. This

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<v Speaker 1>girl is on fire. Yeah, how you did it. It's

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<v Speaker 1>just been awesome. Thank you so much for having me.

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<v Speaker 1>Thank you so much for doing this, and for conceptualizing

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<v Speaker 1>this and being brave enough to be together like this

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<v Speaker 1>and breaking down barriers and opening us all up to talking.

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<v Speaker 1>It's a blessing. I love to hear that. Seriously. Hey,

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<v Speaker 1>play around with our theme song, and this is what happened.

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<v Speaker 1>H m hm m m hmmm. You know it's given

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<v Speaker 1>me one night. Just keep clearing. It's just instrumental. It's

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<v Speaker 1>just instrumental. I wish I can listen to song play it.

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<v Speaker 1>Don't be all. I just want to be myself. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>gonna be. I just want to Okay, I just want

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<v Speaker 1>to be myself. I don't want to be, I just

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<v Speaker 1>want to be. I like that. Keep going, however, Alkay,

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<v Speaker 1>so what's the first word the first one? I don't

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<v Speaker 1>want to be? It was I just want to be myself.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't want to be said, Okay, I don't want

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<v Speaker 1>to be anyone anyone. I don't want to be anyone.

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<v Speaker 1>I just want to be myself. I don't want to

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<v Speaker 1>be anyone. I just want to be exactly. I got it,

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<v Speaker 1>I want we got it anything. I just want to

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<v Speaker 1>be anyone. Oh, I just want to be myself. I

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<v Speaker 1>don't want to be anyone. Yeah, I just wanted to

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<v Speaker 1>be myself. I don't want to be anyone. I just

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<v Speaker 1>want to be myself. I just want to be. I

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<v Speaker 1>want to be myself. I don't want to be anyone else. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>I just want to be myself. I just want to be.

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<v Speaker 1>I just want to be myself all the wait, wait, wait, wait,

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<v Speaker 1>we gotta get this one. Ti'm real good, a little

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<v Speaker 1>harmy too ready, And I just want to be myself.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't want to be anyone else. I just want

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<v Speaker 1>to be myself. I just want to be. I just

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<v Speaker 1>want to be myself. I don't want to bear anyone else.

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<v Speaker 1>I just want to be myself. Up. I just want

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<v Speaker 1>to be. Yeah, Oh my god, so beautiful your theme song.

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