WEBVTT - Microdosing Mommies w/ Michael Pollan

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<v Speaker 1>Welcome to Go, ask Alli, a production of Shonda Land

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<v Speaker 1>know you do too, And so first up this season,

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<v Speaker 1>you know I've been hearing more and more about psychedelics.

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<v Speaker 1>Stephen Wright once said, I used to have an open mind,

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<v Speaker 1>but my brains kept falling out, which is very aproposed

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<v Speaker 1>to today's episode. So I have a few friends that

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<v Speaker 1>have been micro dosing, and they swear by it. It's

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<v Speaker 1>basically taking very small doses of some popular psychedelic lucinogens.

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<v Speaker 1>So I've been a little fascinated by it because I

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<v Speaker 1>know that it helps with PTSD and trauma. But would

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<v Speaker 1>a little nibble here and there help just the everyday stress?

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, we're living in a world right now where

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<v Speaker 1>everything is terrifying. There's so much anxiety. Maybe maybe a

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<v Speaker 1>little micro dosing might help it. And it occurred to

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<v Speaker 1>me that maybe micro doosing might make us better mothers, wives, friends, humans,

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<v Speaker 1>And there's no better guests than Michael Pollen to answer

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<v Speaker 1>these questions. So. Michael Pollen is a writer, teacher, and activist.

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<v Speaker 1>His most recent book, This Is Your Mind on Plants,

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<v Speaker 1>is a follow up to his highly acclaimed How to

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<v Speaker 1>Change Your Mind With The New Science of Psychedelics, teaches

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<v Speaker 1>us about consciousness, dying, addiction, depression, and transcendence. He's the

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<v Speaker 1>author of seven previous books, all of which were New

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<v Speaker 1>York Times bestsellers. The Omnivores Dilemma was named one of

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<v Speaker 1>the ten Best books of two thousand and seven both

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<v Speaker 1>by The New York Times and The Washington Post. Several

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<v Speaker 1>of his books have been adapted for television, including How

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<v Speaker 1>to Change Your Mind now streaming on Netflix, which you

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<v Speaker 1>should definitely watch. Pollen teaches writing at Harvard and at

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<v Speaker 1>You See Berkeley's Graduate School of Journalism. In two thousand ten,

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<v Speaker 1>Time magazine named Pollen one of the one hundred most

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<v Speaker 1>Influential people in the World. And stay with us afterwards

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<v Speaker 1>for a short conversation with a mom about her personal

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<v Speaker 1>experience micro dosing. Hello, Michael Pollen, Hello, good to be here. Ali.

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<v Speaker 1>So I know you've been doing this grand book tour

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<v Speaker 1>and I want to talk to you about something and

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<v Speaker 1>I'm going to make it a little more specific if

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<v Speaker 1>you don't mind, Okay, great. My question to you is

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<v Speaker 1>does micro dosing make you a better parent? And the

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<v Speaker 1>reason I ask is because I don't know if it's

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<v Speaker 1>because of you. I don't know if it's happening in

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<v Speaker 1>the medical world, but I have noticed more and more

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<v Speaker 1>I have friends who are a mom or a dad

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<v Speaker 1>who are micro dosing. And when I first heard about it,

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<v Speaker 1>of course, my very waspy roots was taken aback and

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<v Speaker 1>I clutched my pearls and I thought, oh my god,

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<v Speaker 1>you're tripping on acid while you're parenting children. This is crazy.

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<v Speaker 1>Since I've read your book, I am a lot more

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<v Speaker 1>educated about it. So first of all, let's just put

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<v Speaker 1>a toe in the pool and let me just ask

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<v Speaker 1>you to explain micro dosing for those who don't know. Sure, so,

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<v Speaker 1>micro dosing is the practice of taking a very small

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<v Speaker 1>sub perceptual in other words, a dose so small you

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<v Speaker 1>don't feel any psychedelic effects of LSD or psilocybin. Psilocybin

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<v Speaker 1>is the chemical and magic mushrooms. People take basically a

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<v Speaker 1>tenth of what would be an active dose, and they

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<v Speaker 1>do it on some sort of schedule like one day

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<v Speaker 1>on two days off, one day on two days off.

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<v Speaker 1>You can't take it every day because you build up

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<v Speaker 1>tolerance to and it doesn't work anymore. Many people report

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<v Speaker 1>beneficial changes to their mood and their outlook and their

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<v Speaker 1>productivity and their creativity. Whether these changes are real or

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<v Speaker 1>a placebo effect is still up in the air. I

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<v Speaker 1>haven't seen any research that suggests that micro dosing actually

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<v Speaker 1>does anything, although people report that it does, and that's

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<v Speaker 1>in a way the only thing that matters. There's nothing

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<v Speaker 1>wrong with the placebo. Placebos are incredibly powerful. And when

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<v Speaker 1>you think about it, I mean, even if if I

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<v Speaker 1>gave you a sugar pill and I said this is

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<v Speaker 1>going to make you a better parent or a more

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<v Speaker 1>patient parent, let's say it probably would have some effect.

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<v Speaker 1>That's how powerful the placebo is. But if you combine

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<v Speaker 1>it and say this is a little bit of LSD,

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<v Speaker 1>that amplifies the placebo effect because there's so much magic

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<v Speaker 1>we attribute to that molecule, so that it may be

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<v Speaker 1>a very powerful placebo effect is going on until we

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<v Speaker 1>really do the kind of controlled double blind studies where

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<v Speaker 1>people don't know what they're getting, uh, they get a

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<v Speaker 1>real placebo where they get the small dose of LSD.

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<v Speaker 1>We won't know that it's doing anything. If what people

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<v Speaker 1>report is true, Yeah, it's conceivable it would make them

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<v Speaker 1>better parents if they're you know, less depressed or anxious.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, that should make them better parents. But um,

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<v Speaker 1>it is illegal. I think it's important for people to know,

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<v Speaker 1>even if it's a small dose. Haven't I read recently

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<v Speaker 1>that it's it's sort of the lowest in terms of

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<v Speaker 1>the criminal chain of offenses. Well, it depends where you live.

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<v Speaker 1>There are many jurisdictions around the country, including Washington, d C. Oakland, California,

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<v Speaker 1>and Arbor, Denver, Colorado, and a bunch of others, and

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<v Speaker 1>there will be a lot more that have decriminalized psilocybin,

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<v Speaker 1>for example. But decriminalized doesn't make it legal. It's still

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<v Speaker 1>illegal at the federal level. And yes, and all it

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<v Speaker 1>does really it doesn't change the legal status of the drug.

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<v Speaker 1>It basically just tells the law enforcement this should be

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<v Speaker 1>your lowest priority. So it's probably hard to get busted

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<v Speaker 1>in those places for possession, but but certainly sale would

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<v Speaker 1>get you in trouble. But it has opened the door

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<v Speaker 1>I mean here in I live in Berkeley, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>one town over from Oakland, and a friend of mine

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<v Speaker 1>was just at a farmer's market or flea market and

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<v Speaker 1>they were selling psilocybin chocolates openly with with labels saying

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<v Speaker 1>what it was. So things are changing. Yeah, it feels

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<v Speaker 1>like it. And by the way, it's five to is

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<v Speaker 1>how much you use when you're micro dosing. Right, what

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<v Speaker 1>would be a full dose of LSD of a psychedelic

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<v Speaker 1>if you wanted to really trip um, it would be

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<v Speaker 1>about a hundred micrograms, So it's very small. Yeah, LSD

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<v Speaker 1>is a very what's kind of incredible about l s

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<v Speaker 1>D is it's such a I mean, micrograms are millions

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<v Speaker 1>of a gram. This is a very tiny amount of

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<v Speaker 1>a substance, and that wouldn't be a big dose, but

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<v Speaker 1>that would be a dose you'd really feel. So I'm

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<v Speaker 1>looking back at history, particularly with with moms, and certainly

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<v Speaker 1>in the fifties and sixties there was valium housewife. You know,

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<v Speaker 1>women were medicating for various reasons and helper mother's little helper,

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<v Speaker 1>and so right now, and I could just be because

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<v Speaker 1>of the people I know, but I'm sort of seeing

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<v Speaker 1>a trend that micro dosing is actually helping people. And

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<v Speaker 1>I certainly look at the world as we all do

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<v Speaker 1>right now with everything that's going on politically, climate crisis, everything,

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<v Speaker 1>and I go, well, why are we all micro dosing?

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, it does everything I've read in your book

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<v Speaker 1>and every research I've read. It does boost morale, it

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<v Speaker 1>does give you more energy, it does sort of take

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<v Speaker 1>the edge off anxiety. It's all a plus to me.

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<v Speaker 1>Besides the fact that it's illegal. Yeah, I think that's

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<v Speaker 1>the biggest negative about micro dosing is that it is illegal.

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<v Speaker 1>There's not a lot of risk in micro dosing at

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<v Speaker 1>those doses. You know, you're perfectly functional, you can do

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<v Speaker 1>what you need. I think the biggest risk is and

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<v Speaker 1>I hear this a lot. People describe micro dozing and

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<v Speaker 1>then talk about feeling different and feeling a psychedelic effect.

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<v Speaker 1>That means they weren't micro dozing, they took too much.

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<v Speaker 1>And it's particularly difficult with psilocybin mushrooms because any two

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<v Speaker 1>mushrooms can differ in intensity by a factor of ten.

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<v Speaker 1>So you what was just a kind of a micro dose,

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<v Speaker 1>little nibble of a mushroom, when you did the same

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<v Speaker 1>thing with another mushroom, you Mike go WHOA, I can't drive,

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<v Speaker 1>and you're usually managing your medication yourself when you're micro dozing. Correct. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>people are not guided with micro dosing. I mean, this

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<v Speaker 1>is something you can do on your own. You don't

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<v Speaker 1>really need a guide. There's no experience to talk you through.

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<v Speaker 1>It's it's more like a brain vitamin. I think that's

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<v Speaker 1>kind of how people how people treat it. But as

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<v Speaker 1>I say, you know, I think the jury is open

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<v Speaker 1>on whether it's actually doing anything at a pharmacological level. Um,

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<v Speaker 1>And I think we have to do that research. I

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<v Speaker 1>think it's really important search. Yeah. I heard a story

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<v Speaker 1>the other day from a good friend of mine and

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<v Speaker 1>she was away on working and her husband was at

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<v Speaker 1>home with their kids, and he called her up and

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<v Speaker 1>he said, UM, is there something you want to tell

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<v Speaker 1>me about this chocolate bar that you have hidden in

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<v Speaker 1>the drawer of your desk. And my friend said, what

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<v Speaker 1>do you mean? And he said, well, I just ate

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<v Speaker 1>half of it and I am seeing colors. And she said, well, yes,

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<v Speaker 1>that is a candy bar that has mushrooms in it

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<v Speaker 1>for micro dosing, and you just ate half of it,

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<v Speaker 1>so you are in fact tripping. So she had to

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<v Speaker 1>call her children and put them on speaker and say,

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<v Speaker 1>listen to me very carefully. Your father is tripping. I

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<v Speaker 1>need you to make him a big thing of spaghetti

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<v Speaker 1>because he's really hungry and you can't raise your voice

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<v Speaker 1>or do anything that's going to make him feel disoriented

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<v Speaker 1>or anxious. And the kids were like, what this is

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<v Speaker 1>not This is not a family where the parents like

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<v Speaker 1>talk about drugs openly. So she said she had to

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<v Speaker 1>beg her children to kind of take care of him,

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<v Speaker 1>to manage it. Yeah, to be his guide. I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, if you have these substances around the house,

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<v Speaker 1>somebody may take them, and uh, people should realize these

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<v Speaker 1>are powerful substances and they shouldn't be casual about it.

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<v Speaker 1>And it's one of the reasons that I emphasized the

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<v Speaker 1>importance of working with a guide if you're going to

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<v Speaker 1>take a substantial dose of a psychedelic and that you

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<v Speaker 1>mitigate a lot of the risks. And but there are risks,

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<v Speaker 1>their psychological risks, and people do end up in the

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<v Speaker 1>emergency room because they have such a horrifying experience or

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<v Speaker 1>or can't get out of it. But a good guide

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<v Speaker 1>can help you get out of it and actually turn

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<v Speaker 1>that bad experience into a positive experience because whatever is

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<v Speaker 1>coming up, whatever terrifying things you're seeing or feeling, this

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<v Speaker 1>isn't a product of the molecule. The molecule is just

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<v Speaker 1>a catalyst. This is something that your brain, your mind

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<v Speaker 1>is producing and therefore has some meaning, and with the

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<v Speaker 1>help of a good guide, you can interpret it and

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<v Speaker 1>and actually get something valuable. I noticed the researchers and

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<v Speaker 1>the guides um that I've talked to, you don't use

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<v Speaker 1>the term bad trip. They talk about a challenging trip.

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<v Speaker 1>And that's because it has valuable material. It shouldn't it

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<v Speaker 1>shouldn't just be ignored. Let's take it a step further,

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<v Speaker 1>because if you feel you can manage your micro dosing

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<v Speaker 1>as an anxious mom living in a world that seems

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<v Speaker 1>to be on fire, you know, it could be placebo,

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<v Speaker 1>it could be the actual mushrooms, but it seems to

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<v Speaker 1>be helping people, yes, in a larger scale. So if

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<v Speaker 1>we're starting to talk about m D m A and

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<v Speaker 1>I have I have friends that have done that as well,

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<v Speaker 1>where they're guided through a trip which is significantly more

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<v Speaker 1>of the LSD, and it has been life changing for

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<v Speaker 1>people that have experienced trauma. I watched the Netflix series

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<v Speaker 1>you did with isolet Waldman, and she talked about being,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, just chronically depressed and how much it helped her.

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<v Speaker 1>So for me, I think, well, why isn't this being

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<v Speaker 1>researched even more? I mean, we have a huge problem

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<v Speaker 1>with depression, huge mental health crisis, especially with this younger

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<v Speaker 1>generation with anxiety. So what why isn't this on the

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<v Speaker 1>front burner of medical research. Well, it's getting there. Um,

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<v Speaker 1>there is a lot of research going on right now.

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<v Speaker 1>Part of the reason that there isn't more is, first

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<v Speaker 1>of all, it was impossible to do the research until

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<v Speaker 1>about twenty years ago. The government made it very difficult.

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<v Speaker 1>There was such a backlash against psychedelics from the sixties.

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<v Speaker 1>The NIH National Institute of Health, which funds most medical research,

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<v Speaker 1>was allergic to psychedelics for many years. They felt it

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<v Speaker 1>was too controversial. But just in the last year they've

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<v Speaker 1>given their first two grants for psychedelic research to a

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<v Speaker 1>to a really promising research program at Yale that's looking

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<v Speaker 1>at obsessive compulsive disorder. Uh. And if you saw the

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<v Speaker 1>Netflix series, one of the patients in that trial, Ben

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<v Speaker 1>in the psilocybin episode, has an amazing story of transformation

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<v Speaker 1>of Actually, he's like thirty years old, he's just had

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<v Speaker 1>his first kid. He has been hobbled by o c

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<v Speaker 1>D since he was ten, and it was like this

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<v Speaker 1>this ball and chain he was dragging around, and in

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<v Speaker 1>the course of one afternoon, he just he dropped the chain.

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<v Speaker 1>He just didn't need it anymore, and his symptoms one

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<v Speaker 1>by one disappeared. It was quite remarkable, incredible. So the

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<v Speaker 1>government is funding that research and also a program in

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<v Speaker 1>smoking cessation at Johns Hopkins. They've given a grant for that.

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<v Speaker 1>By the way, is Harvard doing any research? I know

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<v Speaker 1>Timothy Leary was there for a long time. Yes, they

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<v Speaker 1>have reignited. It's the last place I thought would do it.

0:14:47.000 --> 0:14:50.880
<v Speaker 1>Mass General, which is part of Harvard, has launched a

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<v Speaker 1>psychedelic research center and they're working specifically on rumination as

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<v Speaker 1>the common denominator of a lot of these rigid thinking disorders.

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<v Speaker 1>I think it's a really interesting study. So the stigma

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<v Speaker 1>is lifting. The research is happening right now. I could

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<v Speaker 1>point to a dozen trials underway for everything from addiction

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<v Speaker 1>for alcoholism, cocaine and cigarettes, to o c D to

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<v Speaker 1>depression rumination. But right now, the thinking is that it's

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<v Speaker 1>most effective on those forms of mental illness or mental

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<v Speaker 1>distress that are characterized by brains that are too tightly wound,

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<v Speaker 1>too too rigid in their thinking. And that's all at

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<v Speaker 1>one end of the spectrum, and that is depression, anxiety, rumination,

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<v Speaker 1>addiction O c D. These are all the products of

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<v Speaker 1>minds stuck in loops that they can't get out of,

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<v Speaker 1>or destructive narratives. You know, I'm unworthy of love, or

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<v Speaker 1>my work is ship, you know whatever. So m D

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<v Speaker 1>m A is a very interesting substance and very useful

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<v Speaker 1>in the therapeutic relationship. It deactivate the amygdala, which is

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<v Speaker 1>the fear and anxiety center in your brain, the fight

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<v Speaker 1>or flight response, and this allows people to take out

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<v Speaker 1>very painful memories and look at them and talk about

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<v Speaker 1>them without the accompanying charge of anxiety or fear and

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<v Speaker 1>for people with PTS, so you're not reliving them while

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<v Speaker 1>you were living them without emotion, and and that allows

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<v Speaker 1>you to process them in a way you can't normally,

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<v Speaker 1>and instead of just being tormented by these memories, you

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<v Speaker 1>can like take it out and deal with it and

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<v Speaker 1>talk to a therapist about it. The value of this

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<v Speaker 1>research has been demonstrated. I mean a Phase three study,

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<v Speaker 1>which is the last phase before approval, was released last

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<v Speaker 1>year and I think it was two thirds of the

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<v Speaker 1>people with PTSD no longer qualified for that diagnosis after

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<v Speaker 1>their treatment, so they were no they no longer had

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<v Speaker 1>PTSD by the normal scale the CAP score and UM.

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<v Speaker 1>So it will be approved for that, but I think

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<v Speaker 1>it will be used for other things as Well's it

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<v Speaker 1>is incredible. I think m D m A is an

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<v Speaker 1>amazing substance from my own experience, I think it's going

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<v Speaker 1>to be great for couples therapy because it allows two

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<v Speaker 1>people to UM to talk about the most difficult topics

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<v Speaker 1>without getting antagonistic, without getting defensive. Um, it's just kind

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<v Speaker 1>of remarkable the kind of conversation you can have. And UM,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm just scarious, Michael. What would be in a couple

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<v Speaker 1>therapy situation? What would be an example of something that

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<v Speaker 1>you could work on in this setting that maybe it

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<v Speaker 1>wouldn't be as effective in regular therapy. UM, it needn't

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<v Speaker 1>be trauma. I mean, it just could be the frictions

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<v Speaker 1>of everyday life. It just could be that your partner

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<v Speaker 1>is driving you crazy. You know something about his personality,

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<v Speaker 1>or his habits or his you know, behavior, or the

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<v Speaker 1>way he deals with the kids or whatever it is.

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<v Speaker 1>You could have that conversation without it going to def

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<v Speaker 1>conn and like instantly, which often happens in relationships and

0:18:03.000 --> 0:18:07.600
<v Speaker 1>people fall into these patterns of defensive response. It disarms

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<v Speaker 1>all that and you can you can talk about these

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<v Speaker 1>things in a very cool and helpful way and and

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<v Speaker 1>also feel the strong bond At the same time. It

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<v Speaker 1>has more risks than other psychedelics, physical risks and raises

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<v Speaker 1>your heart rate and things like that. It is an emphetamine,

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<v Speaker 1>but I think it's going to have great value. And

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<v Speaker 1>what do you think about trying micro docing m d

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<v Speaker 1>m A with teenagers because you know, their frontal lobe

0:18:35.320 --> 0:18:39.960
<v Speaker 1>hasn't completely developed and the brain is still growing. Is

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<v Speaker 1>there any research on that? No? Um, It's interesting though,

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<v Speaker 1>MAPS the organization that has done most of the m

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<v Speaker 1>d m A research. It stands for the Multidisciplinary Association

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<v Speaker 1>of Psychedelic Studies. Once they get f d A approval

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<v Speaker 1>for m d m A, which they will get probably

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<v Speaker 1>in the next two years, at the outside, they have

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<v Speaker 1>to one more study that the FDA has asked for.

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<v Speaker 1>They have been asked to test it on adolescence. That's

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<v Speaker 1>kind of FDA requirement because if it has some benefit

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<v Speaker 1>for young people, you want to know it. Yet they

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<v Speaker 1>may need a different dose, so they will be studying

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<v Speaker 1>it in adolescence. And I mean there are many adolescents

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<v Speaker 1>who suffer trauma um in terms of psilocybin treatment and

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<v Speaker 1>young people. You know, I say in my book How

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<v Speaker 1>to Change Your Mind, there's kind of a throwaway line

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<v Speaker 1>that I think psychedelics are wasted on the young, and

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<v Speaker 1>that they have particular value as you get older. And

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<v Speaker 1>the reason for that is as you get older, you

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<v Speaker 1>are locked into ways of looking at the world, looking

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<v Speaker 1>at yourself. You you do have these narratives of who

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<v Speaker 1>you are that are kind of limiting, and you're a

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<v Speaker 1>creature of habit increasingly, and habit kind of dules us

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<v Speaker 1>to the world into reality because we see things in

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<v Speaker 1>a conventionalized way, even if it's our own personal conventions.

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<v Speaker 1>And psychedelic melt all that and allow you to form

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<v Speaker 1>new habits and get out of old habits and get

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<v Speaker 1>a perspective on them. And I think that's all really valuable,

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<v Speaker 1>but especially valuable as we get older. One of the

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<v Speaker 1>things that happens on the classic psychedelics on a macro

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<v Speaker 1>dose is something called ego dissolution or mystical experience. This

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<v Speaker 1>is an experience where your sense of self completely dissolves,

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<v Speaker 1>and when that happens, it can be terrifying or wonderful,

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<v Speaker 1>depending on the context you're in. I mean, if you're

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<v Speaker 1>in a safe place with the guide you trust, it's

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<v Speaker 1>a wonderful experience because when the walls of the ego

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<v Speaker 1>come down, you merge with whatever else is out there,

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<v Speaker 1>and it could be the divine. If you're a religiously

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<v Speaker 1>inclined person, it could be nature, it could be For me,

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<v Speaker 1>it was a piece of music that I completely merged with.

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<v Speaker 1>It was this remarkable experience of of um, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>there was no subject object duality. It wasn't me listening

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<v Speaker 1>to it. It was like I was it. So I

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<v Speaker 1>wonder about ego dissolution to someone who hasn't fully formed

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<v Speaker 1>their ego yet, and is that a good time to

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<v Speaker 1>experiment with that kind of radical self transcendence. I don't know. Um,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, I know lots of people who had good

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<v Speaker 1>psychedelic experiences in their youth. Young people sometimes they're a

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<v Speaker 1>little careless about when and where they take it. You know,

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<v Speaker 1>they don't pay enough attention to set and setting. I

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<v Speaker 1>wonder about addiction to not there's no real addictive element

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<v Speaker 1>to this. No, there's no addiction risk. Two very interesting

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<v Speaker 1>things about classic psychedelics again I'm not talking about m

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<v Speaker 1>D M a UM, is that they're not habit forming.

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<v Speaker 1>The classic experiment to prove addictiveness where you have a

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<v Speaker 1>rat in a cage and they have two levers, and

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<v Speaker 1>one lever administers heroin or or cocaine to their bloodstream,

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<v Speaker 1>and the other lever, you know, sugar water. Uh, and

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<v Speaker 1>the rats will pick the lever with the drug over

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<v Speaker 1>and over again until they're addicted or dead. It's just irresistible.

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<v Speaker 1>If you put LSD in that set up, they'll try

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<v Speaker 1>it once and then never again. There. They don't like

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<v Speaker 1>to trip. I mean, it's too weird. It's like, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>it's it doesn't it doesn't have it doesn't give the

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<v Speaker 1>kind of reward and animal wants. I mean, we don't

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<v Speaker 1>know how animals trip, obviously, but they do and they

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<v Speaker 1>don't like it. UM. So it's not habit forming by

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<v Speaker 1>any kind of standard, And and that intuitively sounds right

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<v Speaker 1>after a big psychedelic experience which is all consuming for

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<v Speaker 1>a day, your first thought is not when can I

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<v Speaker 1>do this again? It's like, do I ever have to

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<v Speaker 1>do this again? Because it's it's really hard work. It's

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<v Speaker 1>really hard work. Even if there are moments of incredible euphoria,

0:22:39.800 --> 0:22:42.080
<v Speaker 1>you feel like you've run a marathon or something. Afterwards,

0:22:45.119 --> 0:22:47.359
<v Speaker 1>there's a lot more to come after this short break

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<v Speaker 1>and we're back. Just walk me through it for my

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<v Speaker 1>own curiosity. If I were if I met with a

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<v Speaker 1>guide I felt safe with, I would probably go to

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<v Speaker 1>their place. Usually sometimes they'll come to your place. It's

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<v Speaker 1>I think it's better to go to a place where,

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<v Speaker 1>like your neighbors are not gonna, you know, knock on

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<v Speaker 1>the door for a for a cup of sugar, or

0:23:19.480 --> 0:23:21.400
<v Speaker 1>the FedEx guy's not going to show up. I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>you just don't want to worry about your body, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>you just want to be in a safe place. Someone

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<v Speaker 1>else is looking after you. It's their environment, they control

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<v Speaker 1>it and it's safe. That's ideally what you want. And

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<v Speaker 1>how long would this go? Well, I'll walk you through

0:23:36.800 --> 0:23:40.479
<v Speaker 1>a psilocybin session, okay, which is shorter than an LSD session,

0:23:40.480 --> 0:23:43.439
<v Speaker 1>but psilocybin is being used in research LSD not so

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<v Speaker 1>much in this country, not because it doesn't work, but

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<v Speaker 1>because it takes a long time and you have to

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<v Speaker 1>pay your guides over time, because it's like eight hours. Now,

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<v Speaker 1>we're not talking about microdocing. Now, we should really make

0:23:55.800 --> 0:23:59.280
<v Speaker 1>clear the distinction. We're talking about macrodocin with a guide,

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<v Speaker 1>which is a combination of talk therapy and a drug

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<v Speaker 1>that involves uh several hours of preparation by your guides,

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<v Speaker 1>and they're usually two of them, a man and a woman.

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<v Speaker 1>So anyway, first of all, before the day of your experience,

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<v Speaker 1>you will have already met with that guide and had

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<v Speaker 1>a pretty extensive conversation where they might take your medical history.

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<v Speaker 1>Any responsible guide should know any medical issues you might have,

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<v Speaker 1>and they may, based on that disqualify you. You know,

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<v Speaker 1>if you have a second order relative who has schizophrenia,

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<v Speaker 1>they probably won't want to work with you. So they

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<v Speaker 1>take your medical history, but also your psychological history, like

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<v Speaker 1>what do you want to work on? What's your intention

0:24:39.320 --> 0:24:42.280
<v Speaker 1>in doing this? Why have you sought this therapy? You know,

0:24:42.359 --> 0:24:45.800
<v Speaker 1>you could say, well, I want to develop my spiritual

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<v Speaker 1>side or I want to learn something about my mind.

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<v Speaker 1>It doesn't have to be I want to solve my

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<v Speaker 1>obsessive compulsive disorder, whatever it is. But it's it's really

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<v Speaker 1>useful to frame an intention for the experience. It may

0:24:57.359 --> 0:25:00.800
<v Speaker 1>or may not become the center of the experience. Your

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<v Speaker 1>experience may take you somewhere very different and unexpected, but

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<v Speaker 1>it's it's useful to have an intention. I've gone into

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<v Speaker 1>an intention thinking, I mean, as you know, my dad

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<v Speaker 1>died a few years ago, that I really wanted to

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<v Speaker 1>like be with him and have him appeared to me

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<v Speaker 1>in some sense and and have a conversation with him.

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<v Speaker 1>And I went into it with that in mind. Experience

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<v Speaker 1>ended up being all about my mom. And it was like, you, idiot,

0:25:23.320 --> 0:25:26.640
<v Speaker 1>she's a lot. He's here. You should be taking care

0:25:26.680 --> 0:25:30.119
<v Speaker 1>of her, not your memory of your father. And I

0:25:30.200 --> 0:25:33.040
<v Speaker 1>was like, but that was very valuable, and that I

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<v Speaker 1>remember that very day. I was planning not to come

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<v Speaker 1>to Russia Shaun a dinner, and I had this experience

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<v Speaker 1>the day before in another city, and I came out

0:25:43.720 --> 0:25:46.200
<v Speaker 1>of it saying, I've got to go to Russia shawn

0:25:46.240 --> 0:25:49.280
<v Speaker 1>a dinner, and we changed our plans and we flew

0:25:49.280 --> 0:25:52.679
<v Speaker 1>to New York. That's incredible. So yeah, I mean it

0:25:52.760 --> 0:25:55.239
<v Speaker 1>was kind of a banal insight, like be with your

0:25:55.280 --> 0:25:57.800
<v Speaker 1>mom as long as you can. But but your point

0:25:57.960 --> 0:26:00.280
<v Speaker 1>is you go in maybe with one intention and but

0:26:00.480 --> 0:26:03.080
<v Speaker 1>something else completely and you come out with another. Yeah,

0:26:03.080 --> 0:26:05.639
<v Speaker 1>which is very interesting, and you should pay attention to

0:26:05.680 --> 0:26:08.040
<v Speaker 1>what comes up. There's a reason it comes up. So

0:26:08.440 --> 0:26:13.680
<v Speaker 1>hopefully by the time she or he administers the psychedelic,

0:26:13.960 --> 0:26:16.840
<v Speaker 1>they know about you. They know like what's on your mind,

0:26:16.960 --> 0:26:20.800
<v Speaker 1>they know your history, um, and you have developed some

0:26:20.920 --> 0:26:24.879
<v Speaker 1>trust some confidence in them. I did interview some guides

0:26:25.000 --> 0:26:27.199
<v Speaker 1>that I did not trust and I didn't want to

0:26:27.240 --> 0:26:29.800
<v Speaker 1>work with, and you should be alert to that. It's

0:26:29.840 --> 0:26:34.320
<v Speaker 1>like choosing a therapist. Yeah, so it's it's intuitive basically, Yeah,

0:26:34.359 --> 0:26:36.800
<v Speaker 1>it is. It's it's intuitive, you know, you know if

0:26:36.840 --> 0:26:39.640
<v Speaker 1>some if you trust somebody or not. And it's it's

0:26:39.680 --> 0:26:41.840
<v Speaker 1>style too. Someone could be a little too new ag

0:26:42.560 --> 0:26:44.600
<v Speaker 1>or too casual about what to me is going to

0:26:44.680 --> 0:26:47.679
<v Speaker 1>be a big frightening experience. How much time do you

0:26:47.720 --> 0:26:50.800
<v Speaker 1>put aside to do this? Do they say, like you

0:26:50.880 --> 0:26:55.000
<v Speaker 1>have a free day, you should have a free day.

0:26:55.080 --> 0:26:57.200
<v Speaker 1>You may not need a free day. I mean, different

0:26:57.240 --> 0:27:01.119
<v Speaker 1>people metabolize the substances differently. You should expect four to

0:27:01.200 --> 0:27:05.080
<v Speaker 1>six hours on a psilocybin experience. They give you the drug,

0:27:05.119 --> 0:27:07.879
<v Speaker 1>it takes about a half hour to come on. Typically

0:27:07.920 --> 0:27:11.840
<v Speaker 1>they give you headphones or play music, and they usually

0:27:11.880 --> 0:27:15.240
<v Speaker 1>have their own playlist, and you shouldn't choose the playlist

0:27:15.280 --> 0:27:18.720
<v Speaker 1>yourself because you'll have all these associations and um, so

0:27:18.760 --> 0:27:22.280
<v Speaker 1>they have a playlist that it is incredibly important to

0:27:22.320 --> 0:27:27.080
<v Speaker 1>the experience. Um. Music takes on enormous meaning and and

0:27:27.240 --> 0:27:31.440
<v Speaker 1>kind of drives the experience. There's something called synesthesia where

0:27:31.680 --> 0:27:34.320
<v Speaker 1>your different senses get kind of cross wired and you

0:27:34.359 --> 0:27:37.639
<v Speaker 1>can actually see music sometimes or taste it or smell it,

0:27:38.160 --> 0:27:41.560
<v Speaker 1>and it's the most wonderful thing. Um. You don't want

0:27:41.640 --> 0:27:44.000
<v Speaker 1>music with lyrics though, you don't want to be, you know,

0:27:44.600 --> 0:27:47.680
<v Speaker 1>trying to make out the words. But um, but many

0:27:47.720 --> 0:27:51.400
<v Speaker 1>styles of music work. Okay. So it starts to come on.

0:27:51.880 --> 0:27:54.680
<v Speaker 1>You start to realize that, oh my god, things sound

0:27:54.720 --> 0:27:57.480
<v Speaker 1>a little different. Maybe you have some visuals, maybe the

0:27:57.520 --> 0:28:01.240
<v Speaker 1>walls are starting to pulsate a little bit. Um, but

0:28:01.359 --> 0:28:04.720
<v Speaker 1>you you you realize you're altered. Here's another thing that

0:28:04.800 --> 0:28:08.119
<v Speaker 1>might surprise you. You're wearing eye shades and the reason

0:28:08.200 --> 0:28:11.040
<v Speaker 1>for that is you could get really hung up on

0:28:11.080 --> 0:28:14.119
<v Speaker 1>all the sensory things going on around you, which is

0:28:14.119 --> 0:28:17.480
<v Speaker 1>all fascinating, but you want to have an internal trip.

0:28:17.520 --> 0:28:19.960
<v Speaker 1>You're doing this for therapeutic reasons. You want to learn

0:28:20.000 --> 0:28:23.280
<v Speaker 1>something about your mind. And if your eyes are closed,

0:28:23.720 --> 0:28:26.760
<v Speaker 1>you will go deeper. And um, so very often you

0:28:26.800 --> 0:28:29.840
<v Speaker 1>have the eye shades on and the music and this

0:28:29.960 --> 0:28:32.359
<v Speaker 1>takes you out of the room you're in and you

0:28:32.800 --> 0:28:35.879
<v Speaker 1>and you travel, you venture and uh, there is a

0:28:35.960 --> 0:28:40.800
<v Speaker 1>succession of different many different things happen. Um. People talk

0:28:40.800 --> 0:28:44.760
<v Speaker 1>about hallucination, and I think that that word gives the

0:28:44.800 --> 0:28:48.040
<v Speaker 1>wrong idea. It's sort of like you're having waking dreams.

0:28:48.160 --> 0:28:51.280
<v Speaker 1>I mean, you're perfectly awake, you know that this isn't

0:28:51.320 --> 0:28:54.520
<v Speaker 1>really happening to you, but you kind of allow it to.

0:28:55.200 --> 0:28:58.200
<v Speaker 1>So there may be a period at the peak, which

0:28:58.240 --> 0:29:03.480
<v Speaker 1>comes after a hour to where you cannot exert any

0:29:03.480 --> 0:29:07.240
<v Speaker 1>control over your mind where you it is just taking

0:29:07.280 --> 0:29:10.000
<v Speaker 1>you and you're following. And this can be, you know,

0:29:10.080 --> 0:29:14.440
<v Speaker 1>a wonderful experience. You could travel to really interesting places,

0:29:14.880 --> 0:29:17.000
<v Speaker 1>or it can be frightening. I mean, and and and

0:29:17.360 --> 0:29:19.840
<v Speaker 1>part of the preparation is telling you what to do

0:29:20.000 --> 0:29:23.040
<v Speaker 1>when you have a frightening experience, and they'll tell you

0:29:23.120 --> 0:29:26.400
<v Speaker 1>if you see a monster, don't try to run away,

0:29:26.640 --> 0:29:28.680
<v Speaker 1>step right up to it and say, what do you

0:29:28.680 --> 0:29:30.720
<v Speaker 1>have to teach me? Why are you in my mind?

0:29:31.360 --> 0:29:33.760
<v Speaker 1>They'll tell you if you see a door, open it,

0:29:33.840 --> 0:29:38.479
<v Speaker 1>if you see a staircase climate. Basically, the advice is

0:29:38.560 --> 0:29:42.320
<v Speaker 1>to surrender to whatever is happening, which is really I

0:29:42.360 --> 0:29:45.360
<v Speaker 1>think the key piece of advice in a psychedelic experience,

0:29:45.400 --> 0:29:48.040
<v Speaker 1>because it is when you fight it. It is when

0:29:48.080 --> 0:29:51.840
<v Speaker 1>you try to resist what's happening as your ego gradually

0:29:51.880 --> 0:29:55.240
<v Speaker 1>softens and melts or whatever it is, and you try

0:29:55.280 --> 0:29:58.040
<v Speaker 1>to hold on for dear life, that you get very

0:29:58.080 --> 0:30:01.960
<v Speaker 1>anxious and paranoid. I thought, as someone who I think

0:30:01.960 --> 0:30:04.200
<v Speaker 1>of myself as kind of a control freak in in

0:30:04.320 --> 0:30:06.800
<v Speaker 1>normal life, I thought I would have trouble letting go.

0:30:07.440 --> 0:30:10.280
<v Speaker 1>But I found that working with a guide that I trusted,

0:30:10.640 --> 0:30:13.080
<v Speaker 1>as soon as I ingested the substance, I was like,

0:30:13.520 --> 0:30:16.600
<v Speaker 1>all right, here we go, you know, and I was

0:30:16.640 --> 0:30:20.600
<v Speaker 1>able to surrender and and therefore had an experience of

0:30:20.600 --> 0:30:24.360
<v Speaker 1>of of complete ego dissolution. That that was, you know,

0:30:24.400 --> 0:30:27.360
<v Speaker 1>a wonderful thing, but it's unpredictable. One of the interesting

0:30:27.400 --> 0:30:32.120
<v Speaker 1>things about psychedelics compared to most other drugs, since it

0:30:32.280 --> 0:30:36.680
<v Speaker 1>is really your mind that's producing what happens with this catalyst,

0:30:37.080 --> 0:30:39.520
<v Speaker 1>experiences are as different as people are. I mean, there

0:30:39.560 --> 0:30:43.080
<v Speaker 1>are some common denominators, but different people go different places.

0:30:43.120 --> 0:30:46.240
<v Speaker 1>Some people recover traumatic memories and that can be difficult

0:30:46.240 --> 0:30:49.760
<v Speaker 1>to deal with. Other people, you know, have kind of

0:30:49.840 --> 0:30:53.160
<v Speaker 1>uncomplicated trips that are just kind of adventures taking them

0:30:53.200 --> 0:30:57.240
<v Speaker 1>to interesting places. I've had many experiences where all the

0:30:57.280 --> 0:31:00.600
<v Speaker 1>people in my life appear to me and I feel

0:31:00.680 --> 0:31:03.520
<v Speaker 1>like I'm in conversation with my sisters or my parents,

0:31:03.680 --> 0:31:06.480
<v Speaker 1>or my wife or my son, and I think about

0:31:06.520 --> 0:31:10.440
<v Speaker 1>those relationships and I come out of it invariably with

0:31:10.520 --> 0:31:14.920
<v Speaker 1>this powerful feeling of gratitude to all to all these people. Um,

0:31:14.960 --> 0:31:19.239
<v Speaker 1>that's you know, I just get very emotional. Imagine if

0:31:19.280 --> 0:31:21.240
<v Speaker 1>we could put it in the in the water in

0:31:21.320 --> 0:31:25.600
<v Speaker 1>Congress and the House of Representatives. Well, you know, that's

0:31:25.640 --> 0:31:28.360
<v Speaker 1>a It's a common kind of trope in the psychedelic

0:31:28.400 --> 0:31:32.880
<v Speaker 1>community that it would be great to give certain people psychedelics. Um,

0:31:32.920 --> 0:31:35.600
<v Speaker 1>but I think we should do more research before we

0:31:35.680 --> 0:31:39.240
<v Speaker 1>take that risk, because it may just push people to

0:31:39.360 --> 0:31:42.560
<v Speaker 1>be more of what they already are. Yes, well that

0:31:42.600 --> 0:31:47.120
<v Speaker 1>would be terrifying. Yes, yeah, there's this cool research that

0:31:47.200 --> 0:31:53.440
<v Speaker 1>shows that after a psilocybin trip, uh, people's nature connectedness

0:31:53.520 --> 0:31:56.840
<v Speaker 1>scores go up, in other words, the extent to which

0:31:56.880 --> 0:32:00.000
<v Speaker 1>they feel they're part of nature and not standing up

0:32:00.040 --> 0:32:03.280
<v Speaker 1>heart from it. And so that seems like really good news.

0:32:03.320 --> 0:32:05.720
<v Speaker 1>We need more of this to solve the environmental crisis.

0:32:05.800 --> 0:32:08.880
<v Speaker 1>But I think the people who volunteer for a psychedelic

0:32:09.120 --> 0:32:13.560
<v Speaker 1>experiment or take psychedelic aready there. Yeah, I think I

0:32:13.600 --> 0:32:16.800
<v Speaker 1>think it's intensifying a feeling they already have until we

0:32:16.840 --> 0:32:20.160
<v Speaker 1>give it to the Koch Brothers and you know, people

0:32:20.240 --> 0:32:23.000
<v Speaker 1>like that, people who are not environmentalists. You know, then

0:32:23.040 --> 0:32:25.960
<v Speaker 1>we can safely make that conclusion. But that's research that

0:32:26.000 --> 0:32:27.760
<v Speaker 1>needs to be done, and in fact will be done.

0:32:27.840 --> 0:32:30.160
<v Speaker 1>Maybe if we start with ecstasy with those people and

0:32:30.200 --> 0:32:33.360
<v Speaker 1>then we can work our way, that might be smart. Yeah,

0:32:33.480 --> 0:32:35.880
<v Speaker 1>that's a good idea good plan. When you come out

0:32:35.880 --> 0:32:39.720
<v Speaker 1>of the trip, though, are you tired? Are you thirsty?

0:32:39.880 --> 0:32:43.040
<v Speaker 1>Does it? Everything starts to get very lucid and then

0:32:43.080 --> 0:32:46.640
<v Speaker 1>you realize, oh, I'm back. It's not that sudden. So

0:32:46.720 --> 0:32:49.640
<v Speaker 1>after the peak of the experience, this period where your

0:32:49.640 --> 0:32:51.479
<v Speaker 1>mind is going to take you where it's going to go.

0:32:52.360 --> 0:32:55.960
<v Speaker 1>You enter this long danument. This this period that can

0:32:56.080 --> 0:32:58.840
<v Speaker 1>last a couple of hours. That is I think, really

0:32:58.880 --> 0:33:01.120
<v Speaker 1>a wonderful part of the experience that doesn't get talked

0:33:01.120 --> 0:33:04.640
<v Speaker 1>about nearly enough. And it's a meditative frame of mind.

0:33:04.920 --> 0:33:08.360
<v Speaker 1>You've regained the ability to think about what you want

0:33:08.400 --> 0:33:12.800
<v Speaker 1>to think about, yet you're utterly absorbed and not distracted,

0:33:12.960 --> 0:33:16.160
<v Speaker 1>so you can It's really where I learned how to meditate.

0:33:16.200 --> 0:33:20.640
<v Speaker 1>Actually it was in that period and I had amazing focus.

0:33:20.840 --> 0:33:24.840
<v Speaker 1>I was undistractable and did a lot of thinking. And

0:33:24.880 --> 0:33:27.280
<v Speaker 1>that goes on for a couple of hours, and then

0:33:27.320 --> 0:33:30.200
<v Speaker 1>gradually your guide probably wants to go home, and you know,

0:33:30.280 --> 0:33:34.000
<v Speaker 1>gradually starts taking you out of the experience, and um,

0:33:34.160 --> 0:33:36.720
<v Speaker 1>you don't say very much at that point about what

0:33:36.800 --> 0:33:40.480
<v Speaker 1>happened to you. They really leave that for the integration session,

0:33:40.800 --> 0:33:45.680
<v Speaker 1>and and there is this process of making sense of it.

0:33:45.800 --> 0:33:48.479
<v Speaker 1>And for me, it was talking to Judith, my wife

0:33:49.640 --> 0:33:52.680
<v Speaker 1>at dinner when I got home, and she would kind

0:33:52.680 --> 0:33:54.880
<v Speaker 1>of debrief me. And it's a it can be a

0:33:54.960 --> 0:33:57.480
<v Speaker 1>very confusing experience and you have to turn it into

0:33:57.480 --> 0:34:00.600
<v Speaker 1>a narrative, and and by telling the story to somebody

0:34:00.600 --> 0:34:04.720
<v Speaker 1>who understands you, you start to see, Oh, yeah, that's

0:34:04.760 --> 0:34:07.040
<v Speaker 1>what was going on here, this is the theme of

0:34:07.040 --> 0:34:09.400
<v Speaker 1>the trip. And she would help me connect the dots

0:34:09.400 --> 0:34:12.680
<v Speaker 1>in various ways. So I got more out of integrating

0:34:12.680 --> 0:34:15.239
<v Speaker 1>with her, frankly, than I did from most of the

0:34:15.280 --> 0:34:17.879
<v Speaker 1>guides I work with. I wanted to ask you, when

0:34:17.880 --> 0:34:19.680
<v Speaker 1>you're in this guid to trip, can you tell me

0:34:19.719 --> 0:34:24.200
<v Speaker 1>the difference between spotlight consciousness and lantern consciousness? Yeah. So

0:34:24.320 --> 0:34:26.920
<v Speaker 1>this was a term I learned from a psychologist at

0:34:26.960 --> 0:34:29.680
<v Speaker 1>Berkeley I was interviewing and she was arguing that there

0:34:29.680 --> 0:34:32.680
<v Speaker 1>are two kinds of consciousness. Actually, there are many kinds

0:34:32.680 --> 0:34:35.600
<v Speaker 1>of consciousness, but this is a very important distinction. Um.

0:34:35.880 --> 0:34:41.000
<v Speaker 1>Spotlight consciousness is characteristic of adults, especially adults who do

0:34:41.200 --> 0:34:44.600
<v Speaker 1>thinking work, and it is what allows you to block

0:34:44.640 --> 0:34:47.000
<v Speaker 1>out everything and focus on one thing. The way we

0:34:47.040 --> 0:34:49.560
<v Speaker 1>are now focused on one thing, and we're ignoring a

0:34:49.560 --> 0:34:52.359
<v Speaker 1>lot of things going on around us, right, and uh,

0:34:52.360 --> 0:34:54.239
<v Speaker 1>and a lot of things coming up internally. We're just

0:34:54.360 --> 0:34:57.760
<v Speaker 1>kind of doing this. This is a very important adult skill.

0:34:58.840 --> 0:35:02.000
<v Speaker 1>Children have a different kind of consciousness. I'm talking about

0:35:02.040 --> 0:35:04.920
<v Speaker 1>like you know, younger than five or six, say, before

0:35:04.920 --> 0:35:07.840
<v Speaker 1>they go to school, they have what she calls, or

0:35:08.400 --> 0:35:12.480
<v Speaker 1>several psychologists called lantern consciousness, where instead of focusing on

0:35:12.520 --> 0:35:16.160
<v Speaker 1>that one point, they're taking in information from all sides.

0:35:16.640 --> 0:35:21.360
<v Speaker 1>They're very sticky, they're they have trouble focusing. They you know,

0:35:21.400 --> 0:35:24.880
<v Speaker 1>the trade off is they're getting all this wonderful sensory information.

0:35:24.920 --> 0:35:27.439
<v Speaker 1>You're getting all these you know, the hilarious things kids

0:35:27.480 --> 0:35:30.440
<v Speaker 1>say to us about how the world works. And it's

0:35:30.480 --> 0:35:34.120
<v Speaker 1>because they have this three sixty degree aperture to take

0:35:34.160 --> 0:35:39.000
<v Speaker 1>in information from the world. Her theory and we need

0:35:39.040 --> 0:35:43.480
<v Speaker 1>to test it is that um psychedelics gives you a

0:35:43.520 --> 0:35:48.560
<v Speaker 1>taste of lantern consciousness, that you are suddenly much more

0:35:48.640 --> 0:35:52.600
<v Speaker 1>open to sensory information coming in. You can hear things

0:35:52.600 --> 0:35:56.040
<v Speaker 1>in the music you've never heard before. Whatever kind of

0:35:56.080 --> 0:36:00.920
<v Speaker 1>algorithms you run to have an experience base don having

0:36:00.960 --> 0:36:03.960
<v Speaker 1>had that experience before is out the window. So everything

0:36:04.040 --> 0:36:07.600
<v Speaker 1>is incredibly fresh, and that, you know, she believes that

0:36:07.800 --> 0:36:10.520
<v Speaker 1>young kids are essentially tripping all the time, and that

0:36:10.719 --> 0:36:15.080
<v Speaker 1>our access to that consciousness comes through these substances. It's

0:36:15.120 --> 0:36:17.560
<v Speaker 1>a very intriguing theory, but it is a taste. I

0:36:17.600 --> 0:36:19.960
<v Speaker 1>think of how young children go through the world, and

0:36:20.040 --> 0:36:23.399
<v Speaker 1>for that alone, it's it's fascinating and valuable. I think

0:36:23.840 --> 0:36:28.120
<v Speaker 1>so fascinating. Well, Michael, this was very helpful. Micro Dosing

0:36:28.560 --> 0:36:31.000
<v Speaker 1>seems to be getting a lot more popular. Yeah, And

0:36:31.040 --> 0:36:33.640
<v Speaker 1>if you want more information, there's a website. There's a

0:36:33.640 --> 0:36:38.000
<v Speaker 1>psychologist named James Fatiman who started a website for people

0:36:38.040 --> 0:36:41.440
<v Speaker 1>interested in micro dosing, and he offers online the He

0:36:41.480 --> 0:36:44.719
<v Speaker 1>doesn't sell substance, obviously, but he he tells you the protocol,

0:36:45.120 --> 0:36:47.759
<v Speaker 1>how much to do, how often to do it, and

0:36:47.880 --> 0:36:50.719
<v Speaker 1>he's collecting a lot of data from people based on

0:36:50.760 --> 0:36:53.720
<v Speaker 1>their experiences. So it's it's so if you search James

0:36:53.719 --> 0:36:55.960
<v Speaker 1>Fatiman micro docing, you'll find it and that will tell

0:36:56.000 --> 0:36:58.600
<v Speaker 1>you all you need to know about the practice. Great,

0:36:58.719 --> 0:37:01.000
<v Speaker 1>and don't don't hide chuck of oars in your desk,

0:37:01.320 --> 0:37:07.520
<v Speaker 1>not once with psilocybin in them yet though. And now,

0:37:07.760 --> 0:37:11.280
<v Speaker 1>before I let you go off and trip or whatever

0:37:11.280 --> 0:37:14.040
<v Speaker 1>it is you do over there at Berkeley, UM, you

0:37:14.120 --> 0:37:17.480
<v Speaker 1>get to ask me a question, and you can ask

0:37:17.520 --> 0:37:20.840
<v Speaker 1>me anything. Well, it's interesting you've talked a lot about

0:37:20.960 --> 0:37:25.359
<v Speaker 1>your friends and their experiences with psychedelics, UM, but I'd

0:37:25.360 --> 0:37:28.879
<v Speaker 1>be curious to know about your own experiences with psychedelics,

0:37:28.880 --> 0:37:30.680
<v Speaker 1>if you'd be willing to share that, I'd be happy

0:37:30.719 --> 0:37:34.080
<v Speaker 1>to share. I have never taken mushrooms. I've never taken

0:37:34.080 --> 0:37:40.719
<v Speaker 1>a psychedelic before. I smoked pot um when I was

0:37:40.760 --> 0:37:43.160
<v Speaker 1>in college. My boyfriend was at Harvard. I went to

0:37:43.200 --> 0:37:48.080
<v Speaker 1>meet him and had to go to a Crimson Club event,

0:37:48.920 --> 0:37:52.680
<v Speaker 1>and the pot I smoked I believed was laced with something.

0:37:52.719 --> 0:37:54.799
<v Speaker 1>I don't know if it was PCP or something, but

0:37:55.560 --> 0:37:58.719
<v Speaker 1>we were sitting at his Dean's dinner and there was

0:37:58.760 --> 0:38:01.960
<v Speaker 1>a fish on the platter, and I believed the fish

0:38:02.040 --> 0:38:05.520
<v Speaker 1>was alive and kept asking me to save it. Yes,

0:38:05.719 --> 0:38:08.600
<v Speaker 1>And I kept turning to my boyfriend Jake and saying

0:38:08.880 --> 0:38:11.640
<v Speaker 1>I've got to get this fish back into the ocean,

0:38:11.760 --> 0:38:14.799
<v Speaker 1>to which he knew that I obviously smoked something that

0:38:15.000 --> 0:38:19.360
<v Speaker 1>wasn't just normal marijuana. So that's really the only time

0:38:19.680 --> 0:38:23.799
<v Speaker 1>I've had any kind of altered state. But as a teenager,

0:38:23.840 --> 0:38:27.359
<v Speaker 1>I was terrified. I never, you know, wanted to not

0:38:27.440 --> 0:38:29.920
<v Speaker 1>be completely lucid, And even as an adult, you know,

0:38:29.920 --> 0:38:32.920
<v Speaker 1>I don't drink just because I don't like the feeling

0:38:32.960 --> 0:38:36.399
<v Speaker 1>of being drunk or buzzed. But the more research I've done,

0:38:36.440 --> 0:38:39.960
<v Speaker 1>and after reading your book, I am kind of fascinated

0:38:40.000 --> 0:38:42.560
<v Speaker 1>with it because I sort of feel the way you felt,

0:38:43.080 --> 0:38:44.920
<v Speaker 1>certainly the way you spoke at the beginning of the

0:38:44.960 --> 0:38:49.239
<v Speaker 1>Netflix um series, which is, you know, I I feel

0:38:49.280 --> 0:38:51.960
<v Speaker 1>like our life doesn't change that much from here on in.

0:38:52.160 --> 0:38:54.720
<v Speaker 1>You know, this is who I am, These are my kids,

0:38:54.760 --> 0:38:59.600
<v Speaker 1>this is my husband. I don't see anything imploding anytime soon. Um.

0:38:59.640 --> 0:39:01.440
<v Speaker 1>I re the books I read, I have, the friends

0:39:01.440 --> 0:39:03.640
<v Speaker 1>I have. You know, I'm sort of feeling like I

0:39:03.680 --> 0:39:06.880
<v Speaker 1>need to expand and maybe next year when I'm an

0:39:06.880 --> 0:39:09.719
<v Speaker 1>empty nester and you know, there there's going to come

0:39:09.760 --> 0:39:12.239
<v Speaker 1>a time where I'm like, Okay, let's open up the

0:39:12.320 --> 0:39:15.960
<v Speaker 1>universe a little bit. So I think it's on the horizon.

0:39:16.800 --> 0:39:20.160
<v Speaker 1>That's a classic situation. I think it's very hard to

0:39:20.200 --> 0:39:23.200
<v Speaker 1>deal with these experiences or drugs while you still have

0:39:23.280 --> 0:39:26.319
<v Speaker 1>kids at home. Yeah. I've noticed that the people most

0:39:26.400 --> 0:39:29.520
<v Speaker 1>interested in in what's going on with psychedelics and the

0:39:29.640 --> 0:39:33.359
<v Speaker 1>and the potential of psychedelics are either on the young end,

0:39:33.560 --> 0:39:37.359
<v Speaker 1>people in their twenties or people in their fifties, and

0:39:37.400 --> 0:39:40.800
<v Speaker 1>the kids have left home. Um, And that's kind of

0:39:40.880 --> 0:39:46.120
<v Speaker 1>where the curiosity comes in and the opportunity, because frankly,

0:39:46.120 --> 0:39:48.880
<v Speaker 1>it's a hard conversation if you're having these experiences with

0:39:48.960 --> 0:39:51.319
<v Speaker 1>your kids, if they're young. I mean, by the time

0:39:51.360 --> 0:39:54.919
<v Speaker 1>I was involved, Isaac was already in college or maybe

0:39:55.000 --> 0:39:57.360
<v Speaker 1>out of college, and so we could talk about it

0:39:57.400 --> 0:40:00.520
<v Speaker 1>and he shared his experiences. I shared my experience. But

0:40:00.760 --> 0:40:02.680
<v Speaker 1>I'm not sure how to talk to a fifteen year

0:40:02.719 --> 0:40:05.279
<v Speaker 1>old about this, frankly, and uh, and I'm glad I

0:40:05.320 --> 0:40:07.399
<v Speaker 1>don't have to. Yeah, I don't think I could either.

0:40:07.480 --> 0:40:10.160
<v Speaker 1>I think it I think it would give mixed messages

0:40:10.960 --> 0:40:13.879
<v Speaker 1>about all kinds of stuff. Anyway, thank you so much

0:40:13.920 --> 0:40:16.719
<v Speaker 1>for talking to me today. I really really enjoyed it.

0:40:16.880 --> 0:40:20.680
<v Speaker 1>And um, everybody must I read all your books and

0:40:20.719 --> 0:40:25.520
<v Speaker 1>watch this Netflix series which is incredibly enlightening. Thank you. Yeah,

0:40:25.560 --> 0:40:27.800
<v Speaker 1>how to change your mind? I really appreciate it. Was

0:40:27.840 --> 0:40:30.120
<v Speaker 1>great talking to you. Ali. All right, Michael, talk to

0:40:30.120 --> 0:40:33.840
<v Speaker 1>you soon. Take care. Coming up after the break, a

0:40:33.960 --> 0:40:36.520
<v Speaker 1>mom is going to tell me all about micro docing.

0:40:45.080 --> 0:40:47.320
<v Speaker 1>Welcome back to go ask Ali. Now we're going to

0:40:47.440 --> 0:40:50.160
<v Speaker 1>hear from a mom who micro doces, and remember this

0:40:50.280 --> 0:40:56.960
<v Speaker 1>is just one person's experience. Okay, I'm fascinated by micro docing.

0:40:57.960 --> 0:41:00.640
<v Speaker 1>I spoke to Michael Pollen all of out it, but

0:41:00.760 --> 0:41:04.040
<v Speaker 1>also I have more and more friends that are starting

0:41:04.080 --> 0:41:07.360
<v Speaker 1>to do it. Tell me about when you first micro

0:41:07.440 --> 0:41:11.240
<v Speaker 1>doced and why, Uh, my gosh, it's been probably about

0:41:12.480 --> 0:41:17.240
<v Speaker 1>five or six months. Um. You know, my the last

0:41:17.280 --> 0:41:20.520
<v Speaker 1>few years, my anxiety has been off the charts and

0:41:20.560 --> 0:41:24.040
<v Speaker 1>I'm normally very able to regulate myself, and you know,

0:41:24.120 --> 0:41:28.200
<v Speaker 1>with just normal therapy and everything. UM. I've gone the

0:41:28.280 --> 0:41:33.080
<v Speaker 1>route of antidepressants and anti anxiety medications before. UM, but

0:41:33.160 --> 0:41:36.760
<v Speaker 1>I don't like I don't like not feeling in control

0:41:36.800 --> 0:41:39.560
<v Speaker 1>of myself. I don't like the feeling of being being

0:41:39.560 --> 0:41:44.960
<v Speaker 1>on something, whether it's whether it's pain killers or you know, medications. UM.

0:41:45.040 --> 0:41:47.120
<v Speaker 1>So when it came to micro docing, I was I

0:41:47.160 --> 0:41:50.040
<v Speaker 1>was apprehensive because you know, you think of mushrooms and

0:41:50.080 --> 0:41:51.719
<v Speaker 1>micro docing and you think that you're going to be

0:41:51.800 --> 0:41:57.359
<v Speaker 1>tripping and then um, it's it's it's remarkably not like that.

0:41:57.520 --> 0:42:03.040
<v Speaker 1>So it was anxiety that initially brought me to this path.

0:42:03.640 --> 0:42:08.319
<v Speaker 1>I honestly, I saw the information through a friend of

0:42:08.360 --> 0:42:11.440
<v Speaker 1>mine who's a PhD and a therapist on micro docing

0:42:11.520 --> 0:42:15.080
<v Speaker 1>on her Instagram page, and I was like, Okay, this

0:42:15.160 --> 0:42:18.560
<v Speaker 1>is intriguing. And I started kind of, you know, I started,

0:42:19.120 --> 0:42:20.920
<v Speaker 1>I started looking into a little more. And around that

0:42:20.960 --> 0:42:23.120
<v Speaker 1>same time, my mother, of all people, brought me a

0:42:23.160 --> 0:42:26.120
<v Speaker 1>newsweek with you know, the mushrooms on the front of it,

0:42:26.840 --> 0:42:28.600
<v Speaker 1>UM and she said, honey, you should you should look

0:42:28.600 --> 0:42:31.040
<v Speaker 1>at this. And she's always been a very homeopathic type

0:42:31.040 --> 0:42:33.480
<v Speaker 1>of person. And I remember distinctly, I was working in

0:42:33.600 --> 0:42:36.480
<v Speaker 1>my corporate job and I said, Mom, this isn't some

0:42:36.600 --> 0:42:40.520
<v Speaker 1>hocus pocus hippie dippie crap that like you that won't

0:42:40.560 --> 0:42:42.479
<v Speaker 1>fix it. And she said, honey, you just need to look.

0:42:42.680 --> 0:42:46.840
<v Speaker 1>And I did at the time, and UM, I just

0:42:46.960 --> 0:42:49.560
<v Speaker 1>kind of got into it. I filled out the questionnaire

0:42:49.680 --> 0:42:53.399
<v Speaker 1>that is on the website that that I saw, which

0:42:53.440 --> 0:42:56.480
<v Speaker 1>is my collegy Psychology. UM. I filled out the questionnaire.

0:42:56.600 --> 0:43:00.640
<v Speaker 1>I was contacted by one of their intakes specialists. They

0:43:00.680 --> 0:43:05.480
<v Speaker 1>have therapeutic practitioners there and UM. I chatted with her

0:43:05.600 --> 0:43:08.560
<v Speaker 1>for half an hour or forty five minutes UM and

0:43:08.560 --> 0:43:11.440
<v Speaker 1>then she recommended a blend to put me on to

0:43:11.520 --> 0:43:16.000
<v Speaker 1>start out UM and that was it. I ordered it.

0:43:16.160 --> 0:43:19.879
<v Speaker 1>I got it two days later and I started it

0:43:20.040 --> 0:43:23.120
<v Speaker 1>I expected it to be something that made me feel

0:43:23.360 --> 0:43:28.120
<v Speaker 1>loopy and weird, and um, it surprisingly wasn't. So the

0:43:28.239 --> 0:43:31.399
<v Speaker 1>more that the more that I take it, the more

0:43:31.440 --> 0:43:35.000
<v Speaker 1>I realized that I don't feel I don't feel any different.

0:43:35.200 --> 0:43:40.040
<v Speaker 1>I just feel better. It's very, very hard to explain.

0:43:40.120 --> 0:43:42.280
<v Speaker 1>It's hard to say, well, no, you don't feel anything.

0:43:42.280 --> 0:43:45.320
<v Speaker 1>You just feel better, because no medication just makes you

0:43:45.360 --> 0:43:48.759
<v Speaker 1>feel better. It always has some kind of cloudy side

0:43:48.760 --> 0:43:51.920
<v Speaker 1>effect that makes you, you know, not not be able

0:43:51.960 --> 0:43:54.359
<v Speaker 1>to function in one way or another. And it's just

0:43:55.400 --> 0:43:59.160
<v Speaker 1>it's just a different clarity and a different joy. It's um,

0:43:59.400 --> 0:44:02.400
<v Speaker 1>you know, it's It's allowed me. It allows me to

0:44:02.440 --> 0:44:05.360
<v Speaker 1>focus more on my work when I'm working. It's allowed

0:44:05.360 --> 0:44:08.840
<v Speaker 1>me to get more creative and just completely immerse myself

0:44:08.840 --> 0:44:11.960
<v Speaker 1>and what I'm doing and enjoy every single second of

0:44:12.000 --> 0:44:14.799
<v Speaker 1>it rather than be bogged down by I have to

0:44:14.840 --> 0:44:18.080
<v Speaker 1>do all of these things. I'm just like I do them,

0:44:18.120 --> 0:44:21.000
<v Speaker 1>and I moved to the next one, and it's it's

0:44:21.040 --> 0:44:27.640
<v Speaker 1>just this different state of being rather than worrying about being. Okay,

0:44:27.680 --> 0:44:29.759
<v Speaker 1>so you have to walk me through this because I've

0:44:29.760 --> 0:44:31.959
<v Speaker 1>never done it. Okay, what do you get in the mail?

0:44:32.120 --> 0:44:35.400
<v Speaker 1>Just like dried mushrooms or you know, what does it

0:44:35.440 --> 0:44:37.520
<v Speaker 1>look like? Oh, and that's that's one of the reasons

0:44:37.520 --> 0:44:40.600
<v Speaker 1>I was apprehensive to even do something like this, because

0:44:40.640 --> 0:44:42.200
<v Speaker 1>I'm not the kind of person who can be like,

0:44:42.239 --> 0:44:44.920
<v Speaker 1>well then I eat this cap of a mushroom and

0:44:45.040 --> 0:44:48.640
<v Speaker 1>feel better. I That weirds me out, honestly, because again,

0:44:48.840 --> 0:44:52.560
<v Speaker 1>I don't like feeling like I'm high. I have kids,

0:44:52.600 --> 0:44:55.200
<v Speaker 1>I'm you know, I'm self employed. I have to be

0:44:55.239 --> 0:44:57.880
<v Speaker 1>on top of things. Um So what you've got. What

0:44:57.920 --> 0:45:01.000
<v Speaker 1>I got is literally a bottle with thirty capsules in it.

0:45:01.120 --> 0:45:03.840
<v Speaker 1>And I just take a pill every morning, okay, And

0:45:03.920 --> 0:45:06.040
<v Speaker 1>you take one every morning like you would a vit

0:45:06.080 --> 0:45:09.240
<v Speaker 1>him and see, I do five days on two days off. Okay,

0:45:09.320 --> 0:45:11.240
<v Speaker 1>So I take them Monday through Friday, and then Saturday

0:45:11.280 --> 0:45:14.799
<v Speaker 1>and Sunday. I don't take them. Why, It's just to

0:45:14.800 --> 0:45:17.080
<v Speaker 1>give your body a chance, in your in your mind,

0:45:17.080 --> 0:45:19.000
<v Speaker 1>a chance to just not have it in your system

0:45:19.040 --> 0:45:21.799
<v Speaker 1>and kind of like reset a little bit. Okay, So

0:45:21.880 --> 0:45:24.600
<v Speaker 1>you take the pill first thing in the morning, and

0:45:24.680 --> 0:45:27.839
<v Speaker 1>so can you kind of walk me through how you

0:45:27.880 --> 0:45:32.080
<v Speaker 1>feel physically and mentally? Yeah, so, um my, I do

0:45:32.239 --> 0:45:35.239
<v Speaker 1>have a pretty stringent morning routine. And think that's what

0:45:35.360 --> 0:45:38.840
<v Speaker 1>works for me. UM. In the morning, I wake up

0:45:38.920 --> 0:45:42.279
<v Speaker 1>very early, I take my pill, I go for a run.

0:45:42.360 --> 0:45:43.839
<v Speaker 1>I might be out for about a half an hour

0:45:43.960 --> 0:45:46.480
<v Speaker 1>forty five minutes. UM. If it's one of the four

0:45:46.560 --> 0:45:48.839
<v Speaker 1>days of the week the work week that my son

0:45:48.960 --> 0:45:52.520
<v Speaker 1>is with me, then UM get him up and going

0:45:52.600 --> 0:45:56.279
<v Speaker 1>and ready for school and everything. And it's not the

0:45:56.360 --> 0:45:59.200
<v Speaker 1>kind of thing where, at least for me, and I

0:45:59.239 --> 0:46:04.080
<v Speaker 1>know everybody is, experience is vastly different with this. UM.

0:46:04.120 --> 0:46:10.480
<v Speaker 1>I I don't feel an actual hi or any anything

0:46:10.600 --> 0:46:13.320
<v Speaker 1>for that matter. And that's what's so kind of weirds

0:46:13.400 --> 0:46:15.799
<v Speaker 1>me out is I thought that I would feel like,

0:46:15.800 --> 0:46:19.640
<v Speaker 1>like you said, like rainbows, and UM it's not like that.

0:46:19.800 --> 0:46:26.399
<v Speaker 1>It's just I feel calm and I it's so hard

0:46:26.440 --> 0:46:28.680
<v Speaker 1>to explain it. UM, it's not like when you take

0:46:28.719 --> 0:46:32.360
<v Speaker 1>an antidepressant and it's kind of this. UM. For me,

0:46:32.400 --> 0:46:34.719
<v Speaker 1>at least, that was like a numbing or a blanketing

0:46:34.920 --> 0:46:36.960
<v Speaker 1>of like putting a band aid on something and saying, there,

0:46:37.000 --> 0:46:42.440
<v Speaker 1>don't feel anything. It's not like that. UM. It's I'm

0:46:42.640 --> 0:46:48.719
<v Speaker 1>more focused on my work, UM, and just instead of

0:46:48.840 --> 0:46:52.719
<v Speaker 1>dwelling on the things that are bogging me down and

0:46:52.800 --> 0:46:56.000
<v Speaker 1>causing that anxiety that I can't get out of my head.

0:46:56.040 --> 0:46:58.200
<v Speaker 1>Like if you're a chronic overthinker, which I am, I

0:46:58.239 --> 0:47:00.600
<v Speaker 1>have a zillion things going through I had at any

0:47:00.600 --> 0:47:03.880
<v Speaker 1>given moment, and a lot of them, you know, especially

0:47:03.920 --> 0:47:06.400
<v Speaker 1>given today's climate. Sometimes they're just not good and they

0:47:06.400 --> 0:47:11.160
<v Speaker 1>can be overwhelming. Um, and it just stopped that. It's

0:47:11.200 --> 0:47:14.120
<v Speaker 1>just it doesn't make me not think. It makes me

0:47:14.200 --> 0:47:18.080
<v Speaker 1>realize that not everything so bad and that there are

0:47:18.080 --> 0:47:21.640
<v Speaker 1>beautiful things. So would you say, you know a lot

0:47:21.719 --> 0:47:25.439
<v Speaker 1>of a lot of people with anxiety have something where

0:47:25.560 --> 0:47:31.000
<v Speaker 1>let's say you got fired off a project and you

0:47:31.480 --> 0:47:33.000
<v Speaker 1>it's almost like if you have a clip in your

0:47:33.040 --> 0:47:34.879
<v Speaker 1>head that says, oh my god, I'm never gonna work again,

0:47:34.920 --> 0:47:36.239
<v Speaker 1>I'm not gonna be able to pay the bills, I'm

0:47:36.239 --> 0:47:37.839
<v Speaker 1>never going to work again, and it just goes on

0:47:37.880 --> 0:47:41.239
<v Speaker 1>a loop over and over over in your head. Does

0:47:41.320 --> 0:47:46.160
<v Speaker 1>micro dosing kind of make it disappear or does it

0:47:46.239 --> 0:47:49.080
<v Speaker 1>just calm it down? Are you able to kind of

0:47:49.239 --> 0:47:55.640
<v Speaker 1>stand back and deal with your anxiety like from a distance. Um,

0:47:55.680 --> 0:47:59.600
<v Speaker 1>it's allowed me to more reasonably and calmly evaluate whatever

0:47:59.640 --> 0:48:03.120
<v Speaker 1>such a nation is causing the stress and realistically just

0:48:03.200 --> 0:48:05.760
<v Speaker 1>be like, is this really the end of the world?

0:48:06.120 --> 0:48:07.759
<v Speaker 1>Are there are steps out of it? What are the

0:48:07.800 --> 0:48:11.200
<v Speaker 1>steps out of it? Instead of being this conglomeration of

0:48:11.520 --> 0:48:13.680
<v Speaker 1>this of a mess inside your head that's you know,

0:48:13.920 --> 0:48:16.960
<v Speaker 1>swirling around, it stops all of those things for me

0:48:17.040 --> 0:48:19.800
<v Speaker 1>and makes me go, king Number one, I'm going to

0:48:19.880 --> 0:48:21.920
<v Speaker 1>take care of this. Number two, I'm going to take

0:48:21.920 --> 0:48:24.400
<v Speaker 1>care of this. And it it just allows me to

0:48:25.160 --> 0:48:30.320
<v Speaker 1>um more easily handle things, one thing at a time

0:48:30.480 --> 0:48:34.279
<v Speaker 1>rather than just a mess of my life is over right?

0:48:34.600 --> 0:48:37.600
<v Speaker 1>And how how quickly does it take effect? First of

0:48:37.640 --> 0:48:39.560
<v Speaker 1>all when you first started doing it, because you know,

0:48:39.560 --> 0:48:43.879
<v Speaker 1>antidepressants take like three weeks. And second of all, can

0:48:43.920 --> 0:48:46.720
<v Speaker 1>you tell if it's taken effect? Um? I was telling

0:48:46.719 --> 0:48:48.319
<v Speaker 1>my girlfriend that I would go from my run and

0:48:48.320 --> 0:48:50.560
<v Speaker 1>I would have this moment of just like a like

0:48:50.680 --> 0:48:53.239
<v Speaker 1>a deep breath and like a kind of letting go,

0:48:53.800 --> 0:48:56.239
<v Speaker 1>and um, it's just kind of like they're all of

0:48:56.280 --> 0:49:00.600
<v Speaker 1>a sudden, it's just a piece. So it's so hard

0:49:00.600 --> 0:49:03.279
<v Speaker 1>to explain because I relate that to being you know,

0:49:03.360 --> 0:49:05.680
<v Speaker 1>like if you're stressed out and you have a glass

0:49:05.680 --> 0:49:07.719
<v Speaker 1>of wine. When we start feeling that like glass of

0:49:07.719 --> 0:49:10.880
<v Speaker 1>wine and then you're calm a little bit. It's not

0:49:10.960 --> 0:49:16.040
<v Speaker 1>like that, it's just clarity. Does it feel like what

0:49:16.120 --> 0:49:20.160
<v Speaker 1>you wanted antidepressants to feel like? It feels like in

0:49:20.160 --> 0:49:23.360
<v Speaker 1>a perfect world, that is what an antidepressant would feel like,

0:49:23.440 --> 0:49:27.120
<v Speaker 1>but that is not, in fact, what actual antidepressants feel like.

0:49:28.200 --> 0:49:30.719
<v Speaker 1>And how are you feeling on Saturday and Sunday when

0:49:30.719 --> 0:49:34.320
<v Speaker 1>you don't take the capsule? For me, there's no difference.

0:49:34.360 --> 0:49:38.680
<v Speaker 1>There's no difference. And can you micro dose whenever you

0:49:38.760 --> 0:49:42.839
<v Speaker 1>want and stop whenever you want? Oh yeah, it's absolutely

0:49:43.080 --> 0:49:45.240
<v Speaker 1>non addictive. It's not you know, there have been times

0:49:45.239 --> 0:49:48.960
<v Speaker 1>where I've I was really I was really busy and

0:49:49.000 --> 0:49:51.280
<v Speaker 1>totally last track of the fact that I was running

0:49:51.280 --> 0:49:54.160
<v Speaker 1>out of them, and then I've yeah, I forgot and

0:49:54.200 --> 0:49:56.640
<v Speaker 1>maybe I'd go like a week where there there have

0:49:56.640 --> 0:49:59.760
<v Speaker 1>been times where I've felt just fine and I didn't

0:50:00.000 --> 0:50:01.680
<v Speaker 1>need them, and I was like, all right, well, I'm

0:50:01.680 --> 0:50:04.200
<v Speaker 1>just not going to take them for right now. There's

0:50:04.360 --> 0:50:06.719
<v Speaker 1>never once spent a moment where I was where I

0:50:06.760 --> 0:50:08.799
<v Speaker 1>felt like I had to have them. And as a

0:50:08.800 --> 0:50:12.760
<v Speaker 1>matter of fact, I've actually stopped drinking since I started

0:50:12.800 --> 0:50:17.479
<v Speaker 1>taking them. Wow, I'm so fascinated. Is there are there

0:50:17.480 --> 0:50:20.920
<v Speaker 1>things about it that you that would surprise me, besides,

0:50:21.120 --> 0:50:25.080
<v Speaker 1>of course the feeling of calmness or that surprised you

0:50:25.160 --> 0:50:29.640
<v Speaker 1>when you first started micro docing. Yeah, I found that

0:50:29.719 --> 0:50:34.200
<v Speaker 1>I am more calm about literally every aspect of my life.

0:50:34.560 --> 0:50:38.839
<v Speaker 1>And I've always been a very very busy and very

0:50:38.880 --> 0:50:41.000
<v Speaker 1>go go go go, Like I have a schedule. We

0:50:41.040 --> 0:50:44.120
<v Speaker 1>have to adhere to it, you know, kids get on board,

0:50:44.160 --> 0:50:46.160
<v Speaker 1>you have to go like it. And this is definitely

0:50:48.080 --> 0:50:51.320
<v Speaker 1>just made me chill more. For lack of better words,

0:50:51.520 --> 0:50:55.680
<v Speaker 1>I'm I'm nicer. Would you say you're a better mother

0:50:55.800 --> 0:50:59.480
<v Speaker 1>for it? I I absolutely would. And I will also

0:50:59.520 --> 0:51:02.960
<v Speaker 1>say that kids are are definitely they're older now. M

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<v Speaker 1>I wish that I would have had this tool when

0:51:06.760 --> 0:51:12.600
<v Speaker 1>they were younger. Um. I think it's easy to, like

0:51:12.640 --> 0:51:15.319
<v Speaker 1>I said, get get busy, busy, busy and go go go,

0:51:15.640 --> 0:51:18.640
<v Speaker 1>um and especially in today's world, and I think it

0:51:18.680 --> 0:51:20.439
<v Speaker 1>would have made me stop and just kind of smell

0:51:20.520 --> 0:51:23.920
<v Speaker 1>the roses a little bit more, you know. I. Um,

0:51:24.040 --> 0:51:26.920
<v Speaker 1>my youngest is is actually a sophomore in high school

0:51:26.920 --> 0:51:30.759
<v Speaker 1>and he's in baseball and hardcore like and I would

0:51:30.760 --> 0:51:33.040
<v Speaker 1>sit as baseball games and stress out about all the

0:51:33.080 --> 0:51:34.719
<v Speaker 1>things that I needed to be doing while I was

0:51:34.760 --> 0:51:37.200
<v Speaker 1>sitting there watching his baseball game. It's like just taking that,

0:51:37.280 --> 0:51:39.319
<v Speaker 1>you know, a couple hours or a few hours to

0:51:39.400 --> 0:51:41.759
<v Speaker 1>do that was something that was just it was hard.

0:51:41.880 --> 0:51:44.160
<v Speaker 1>I would do it, but I would always be thinking,

0:51:44.360 --> 0:51:46.560
<v Speaker 1>I need to be doing this, this isn't this. And

0:51:46.600 --> 0:51:49.200
<v Speaker 1>I go now and I sit with him, and I

0:51:49.320 --> 0:51:53.480
<v Speaker 1>just enjoy it. I enjoy our conversations more. And not

0:51:53.520 --> 0:51:56.120
<v Speaker 1>to say that I didn't before, but I just I

0:51:56.160 --> 0:51:59.600
<v Speaker 1>see a different side of them. Um. We laugh or

0:51:59.640 --> 0:52:04.319
<v Speaker 1>I out myself to laugh more, and not because I'm high. Yeah,

0:52:04.400 --> 0:52:08.879
<v Speaker 1>if you had a anxious child, would you introduce micro

0:52:08.960 --> 0:52:13.799
<v Speaker 1>dosing to them? I'm my oldest, well, and I know,

0:52:13.920 --> 0:52:16.719
<v Speaker 1>I know the world child is kind of He's not

0:52:16.760 --> 0:52:21.239
<v Speaker 1>a child, he's my child. Um my son was twenty one,

0:52:21.600 --> 0:52:25.080
<v Speaker 1>my oldest, and I did recommend as to him as

0:52:25.120 --> 0:52:28.160
<v Speaker 1>an antidepressant and he started doing it before I even

0:52:28.239 --> 0:52:31.040
<v Speaker 1>touched it. And how did that work for him? It

0:52:31.040 --> 0:52:37.640
<v Speaker 1>worked well for him. He's always been a very he

0:52:37.800 --> 0:52:40.360
<v Speaker 1>had a learning disability growing up that he still has

0:52:40.640 --> 0:52:46.120
<v Speaker 1>um and he's never been really comfortable with with the

0:52:46.120 --> 0:52:49.160
<v Speaker 1>pharmaceutical company because he was on so many medications when

0:52:49.200 --> 0:52:50.799
<v Speaker 1>he was younger, and it got to the point where

0:52:50.920 --> 0:52:53.759
<v Speaker 1>when he was in high school, even he um he

0:52:53.840 --> 0:52:56.960
<v Speaker 1>got a prescription for an antidepressant because the medication that

0:52:57.000 --> 0:53:01.080
<v Speaker 1>he was on causes side effect of being oppressed. And

0:53:01.360 --> 0:53:04.800
<v Speaker 1>his doctor said, if this antidepressant causes some other side effects,

0:53:04.800 --> 0:53:06.799
<v Speaker 1>then we'll go ahead and put you on something else.

0:53:06.840 --> 0:53:09.160
<v Speaker 1>And I remember we walked out of that appointment and

0:53:09.239 --> 0:53:11.600
<v Speaker 1>he crumpled all of his prescriptions up and he threw

0:53:11.640 --> 0:53:13.239
<v Speaker 1>him on the foreboard of the car, and I said,

0:53:13.239 --> 0:53:16.480
<v Speaker 1>what are you doing? And he said when does it stop? Wow?

0:53:16.640 --> 0:53:18.560
<v Speaker 1>And he was like, when does it? This causes another

0:53:18.600 --> 0:53:21.360
<v Speaker 1>side effect, that causes another side effect, that causes another

0:53:21.400 --> 0:53:24.600
<v Speaker 1>side effect. So he's always been interested in finding out

0:53:24.760 --> 0:53:30.359
<v Speaker 1>different routes two handle mental afflictions or whatever the case

0:53:30.440 --> 0:53:35.160
<v Speaker 1>may be. Was very brutal on him, as it was

0:53:35.239 --> 0:53:39.040
<v Speaker 1>for a lot of us UM and he was severely depressed,

0:53:39.080 --> 0:53:42.480
<v Speaker 1>and it was it was something that I brought up

0:53:42.520 --> 0:53:46.760
<v Speaker 1>to him, just saying, hey, you're over eighteen, like maybe

0:53:46.760 --> 0:53:49.279
<v Speaker 1>this is something that you should look into, and he

0:53:49.400 --> 0:53:53.640
<v Speaker 1>jumped on it right away and it changed him right um,

0:53:53.680 --> 0:53:57.959
<v Speaker 1>seeing the change in him. He's always been a very

0:53:58.320 --> 0:54:03.640
<v Speaker 1>goofy and light heart it and just beautiful, so human.

0:54:04.280 --> 0:54:07.600
<v Speaker 1>And I saw him go so deep and dark and

0:54:07.640 --> 0:54:10.000
<v Speaker 1>depressed for so long. I mean, he couldn't get out

0:54:10.000 --> 0:54:13.560
<v Speaker 1>of bed. It was it was I didn't know what

0:54:13.600 --> 0:54:16.520
<v Speaker 1>to do. I legitimately was worried about him for a

0:54:16.640 --> 0:54:20.120
<v Speaker 1>very long time. And um, he's a musician. He started

0:54:20.120 --> 0:54:24.040
<v Speaker 1>playing music, he started writing music. He started immersing himself

0:54:24.040 --> 0:54:26.319
<v Speaker 1>in that again. And you see he was getting up

0:54:26.320 --> 0:54:28.600
<v Speaker 1>and he was showering, and he was making chokes and

0:54:28.640 --> 0:54:30.959
<v Speaker 1>we were laughing and he would say, hey, mom, let's

0:54:30.960 --> 0:54:32.600
<v Speaker 1>go for a run and we get out. Like he

0:54:33.320 --> 0:54:37.359
<v Speaker 1>it brought him back to who who he was. I

0:54:37.400 --> 0:54:40.680
<v Speaker 1>recognized him again. It happened. How fast did that happen?

0:54:41.680 --> 0:54:44.440
<v Speaker 1>Like he He didn't happen like the first day he

0:54:44.800 --> 0:54:49.680
<v Speaker 1>micro dosed, right. It was very fast, though, it was

0:54:49.800 --> 0:54:53.360
<v Speaker 1>very fast for him. It was. I remember I was

0:54:53.400 --> 0:54:57.880
<v Speaker 1>in my room and I hadn't heard music in my

0:54:58.000 --> 0:55:02.040
<v Speaker 1>house in months, you know, I hadn't heard him, And

0:55:02.080 --> 0:55:03.560
<v Speaker 1>all of a sudden I heard one of his amps.

0:55:03.600 --> 0:55:06.040
<v Speaker 1>He plays electric guitar and bass, and he's brilliant and

0:55:06.280 --> 0:55:07.799
<v Speaker 1>so good at it. And I heard one of his

0:55:07.840 --> 0:55:12.040
<v Speaker 1>amps turn on, and I went wow, and then and

0:55:12.080 --> 0:55:14.520
<v Speaker 1>then I heard him start playing and he was playing

0:55:14.800 --> 0:55:18.080
<v Speaker 1>jazz and he was he he was just he was

0:55:18.160 --> 0:55:20.600
<v Speaker 1>going crazy on his front boards and his little fingers

0:55:20.600 --> 0:55:21.880
<v Speaker 1>were going all over the place. And I went and

0:55:21.920 --> 0:55:24.520
<v Speaker 1>I walked and I stood in his doorway and he

0:55:24.560 --> 0:55:26.200
<v Speaker 1>was sitting there and he was in his pajamas and

0:55:26.239 --> 0:55:30.359
<v Speaker 1>I went hi, and he was like hey, mom, and

0:55:30.400 --> 0:55:33.000
<v Speaker 1>he it was just like he was never in bed,

0:55:33.040 --> 0:55:36.080
<v Speaker 1>he was never depressed. It was just this. It was tremendous.

0:55:36.800 --> 0:55:39.239
<v Speaker 1>It's amazing for him. And like I said, I can't

0:55:39.239 --> 0:55:42.680
<v Speaker 1>stress enough that that every single person is different. Every

0:55:42.760 --> 0:55:47.000
<v Speaker 1>single person's physiology and makeup and everything um react to

0:55:47.000 --> 0:55:50.359
<v Speaker 1>different ways. But that's again the beautiful thing about it

0:55:50.400 --> 0:55:53.879
<v Speaker 1>is that if one thing doesn't work, try another one.

0:55:54.040 --> 0:55:56.760
<v Speaker 1>You know, if that chocolate bar didn't work, try taking

0:55:56.840 --> 0:55:58.320
<v Speaker 1>the pill. If you take one of the pills and

0:55:58.400 --> 0:56:00.520
<v Speaker 1>that doesn't work, let him know and they'll be like,

0:56:00.600 --> 0:56:02.480
<v Speaker 1>let's switch this up and try a different things. Like

0:56:03.000 --> 0:56:07.279
<v Speaker 1>there's no harm in trying it different ways. And that,

0:56:07.400 --> 0:56:10.719
<v Speaker 1>I think for me, was like that was the hugest thing.

0:56:10.800 --> 0:56:13.200
<v Speaker 1>It's you don't get addicted to it. When he stopped,

0:56:13.239 --> 0:56:17.239
<v Speaker 1>When my son stopped he Um. I remember because we

0:56:17.239 --> 0:56:19.239
<v Speaker 1>were ordering. I was ordering him another bottle and I

0:56:19.280 --> 0:56:21.040
<v Speaker 1>said to you, how are you doing on your pills?

0:56:21.080 --> 0:56:23.400
<v Speaker 1>And he said, I don't. I think I'm fine, mom.

0:56:23.440 --> 0:56:26.200
<v Speaker 1>And I was like, are you sure, like you know,

0:56:26.440 --> 0:56:27.839
<v Speaker 1>and he was like, no, I think I'm gonna try

0:56:27.840 --> 0:56:29.960
<v Speaker 1>it without And so it kind of gave him that

0:56:30.040 --> 0:56:32.960
<v Speaker 1>step to be okay on his own without needing anything.

0:56:33.160 --> 0:56:37.000
<v Speaker 1>So he's not reliant on them at all. It's incredible. Oh,

0:56:37.040 --> 0:56:40.200
<v Speaker 1>it's remarkable, Um. But they definitely did help him through

0:56:40.239 --> 0:56:42.720
<v Speaker 1>a very very dark time. And it was the change

0:56:42.719 --> 0:56:44.920
<v Speaker 1>that I saw on him also that I kind of

0:56:44.920 --> 0:56:48.640
<v Speaker 1>sat back and went, wow, this is kind of crazy.

0:56:49.520 --> 0:56:51.200
<v Speaker 1>And it's I think one of the reasons that I

0:56:51.239 --> 0:56:54.800
<v Speaker 1>allowed myself to step into it also. And I'm curious,

0:56:55.000 --> 0:56:57.920
<v Speaker 1>do you have to be careful about the amount? Only

0:56:57.960 --> 0:57:01.200
<v Speaker 1>because one of the one of my friends, uh date

0:57:01.239 --> 0:57:04.239
<v Speaker 1>too much of a chocolate part and had mushrooms in it. Well,

0:57:04.280 --> 0:57:06.120
<v Speaker 1>I mean you'll just I mean, if you if you

0:57:06.280 --> 0:57:08.360
<v Speaker 1>eat a lot of it, you'll you know, probably have

0:57:08.520 --> 0:57:12.719
<v Speaker 1>some trip right, Yeah, you'll have some holiocinergenic effects. But

0:57:12.760 --> 0:57:18.040
<v Speaker 1>the thing that for for me, um, I had to

0:57:18.080 --> 0:57:23.480
<v Speaker 1>have some kind of um structured or like a regulated

0:57:23.720 --> 0:57:26.120
<v Speaker 1>way of doing this. I guess I'm not much of

0:57:26.120 --> 0:57:29.200
<v Speaker 1>a control freak that I have to know that I'm

0:57:29.240 --> 0:57:32.880
<v Speaker 1>getting the same amount every time. UM, but I know

0:57:33.120 --> 0:57:36.680
<v Speaker 1>that that what I'm taking right now is a very

0:57:37.480 --> 0:57:40.760
<v Speaker 1>calculated and measured dosage. So I would have to consciously

0:57:40.760 --> 0:57:42.520
<v Speaker 1>take an extra pill in order for it to be

0:57:42.560 --> 0:57:47.240
<v Speaker 1>too much. Right, It's amazing, amazing, It's pretty good. It's

0:57:47.640 --> 0:57:50.040
<v Speaker 1>I had one person the other day, one of my friends.

0:57:50.040 --> 0:57:52.120
<v Speaker 1>She was like, are you like a spokesperson? Are you

0:57:52.160 --> 0:57:54.520
<v Speaker 1>getting like kicked? And I was like, no, I get

0:57:54.560 --> 0:57:57.120
<v Speaker 1>I get zero. I just it's it's done that much

0:57:57.160 --> 0:58:01.080
<v Speaker 1>for me that I and no matter whether it's through

0:58:01.200 --> 0:58:03.480
<v Speaker 1>this channel that I'm going through or I have I

0:58:03.560 --> 0:58:06.960
<v Speaker 1>have a friend who does get to chocolate bars and

0:58:07.040 --> 0:58:10.440
<v Speaker 1>for her that works. You know, it's it's you have

0:58:10.520 --> 0:58:12.919
<v Speaker 1>to kind of find your your groove and go with that.

0:58:13.360 --> 0:58:16.400
<v Speaker 1>And everybody's different. Can you imagine all of us mothers

0:58:16.400 --> 0:58:20.439
<v Speaker 1>started micro dosing. The pharmaceuticals would lose their minds. Oh

0:58:20.480 --> 0:58:23.160
<v Speaker 1>my god, we all got off the anti depressants in Zanna.

0:58:24.000 --> 0:58:27.120
<v Speaker 1>I mean they come and kill us. That in the

0:58:27.120 --> 0:58:31.520
<v Speaker 1>wine industry would just take exactly. Um, thank you so

0:58:31.600 --> 0:58:35.320
<v Speaker 1>much for talking to me. This was really really insightful

0:58:35.560 --> 0:58:37.960
<v Speaker 1>and it's it's so nice to talk to somebody that

0:58:38.040 --> 0:58:42.600
<v Speaker 1>actually is taking them and has given me sort of

0:58:42.840 --> 0:58:46.440
<v Speaker 1>an idea of what would be like to start micro dosing,

0:58:46.800 --> 0:58:49.760
<v Speaker 1>which I kind of want to do. I mean, honestly,

0:58:50.840 --> 0:58:52.720
<v Speaker 1>try it. If you don't like it, you don't have

0:58:52.760 --> 0:58:55.680
<v Speaker 1>to do it again. That's what's wonderful about it. It's amazing.

0:58:56.120 --> 0:59:01.520
<v Speaker 1>Thank you, thank you, thank you for listening to Go

0:59:01.560 --> 0:59:03.960
<v Speaker 1>ask Alli, and a very special thanks to my new

0:59:04.040 --> 0:59:07.360
<v Speaker 1>micro dosing mom friend for sharing her insight on micro

0:59:07.440 --> 0:59:09.400
<v Speaker 1>dosing with all of us. And just to be clear,

0:59:09.720 --> 0:59:12.800
<v Speaker 1>I'm not suggesting condoning or in any way trying to

0:59:12.840 --> 0:59:17.120
<v Speaker 1>convince anyone to try psychedelics or even micro dosing, and

0:59:17.160 --> 0:59:19.560
<v Speaker 1>it is still illegal to buy the stuff, at least

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