WEBVTT - Reporting Live from the Bronx

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<v Speaker 1>Welcome to Carefully Reckless. The production of Our Heart Radio

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<v Speaker 1>and the Black Effect Oh Ship were back on the air.

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<v Speaker 1>Welcome back to yet another Carefully Reckless episode. What's Your Girl?

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<v Speaker 1>Just hilarious? Now? If y'all hair and a c unit,

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<v Speaker 1>it's because I'm in this fucking shoe box of a

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<v Speaker 1>house in Bronx, New York. Now, not coming at the Bronx,

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<v Speaker 1>not coming at any type of establishment or home or

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<v Speaker 1>residency in New York. But y'all know, they try to

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<v Speaker 1>fit as many fucking people in the city as they can,

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<v Speaker 1>so they build all these low ass houses put together

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<v Speaker 1>like this, and it's like a fucking like a raw

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<v Speaker 1>dominoes and ship but Bronx whatever. So we're gonna jump

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<v Speaker 1>straight into it again. I'm fixing people's mask. Now. We

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<v Speaker 1>had a couple of updates. I'm not going to play

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<v Speaker 1>the updates this week. I'm gonna save that for next

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<v Speaker 1>week because we had some pretty rough stories I was reading. Again,

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<v Speaker 1>everyone stays anonymous, and we're gonna jump straight in. Hi,

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<v Speaker 1>just I need your help. I am twenty seven years old,

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<v Speaker 1>and I am in a very rough and convolated place

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<v Speaker 1>in my life. That's the first time I've heard of that.

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<v Speaker 1>I lost my mother to stage four breast cancer last year.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm so sorry, only after a week of finding out

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<v Speaker 1>that she was even sick. She along with my father,

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<v Speaker 1>were preachers. Since then, I've really been hurting emotionally and

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<v Speaker 1>really seeking some reprieve in the form of a man

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<v Speaker 1>for contacts. I am a gay black man, and I

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<v Speaker 1>have never ever been in a relationship. I tried to

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<v Speaker 1>approach men in person through d m S, dating apps,

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<v Speaker 1>et cetera. I find that I am usually met with

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<v Speaker 1>the same responses, which are either you're nice, but you

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<v Speaker 1>aren't what I'm looking for, absolutely no response at all,

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<v Speaker 1>even in person, or I'm immediately blocked on their social

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<v Speaker 1>media at the top of the conversation. Damn, what's what

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<v Speaker 1>are you being weird? What the fund is going on?

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<v Speaker 1>Because I'm kind of your profile and you were very handsome,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, and gorgeous at the same time, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>when you slept a makeup on. I know that I

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<v Speaker 1>am not the ideal beauty for gay men, but it

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<v Speaker 1>is hard to gauge why this has happened my entire life.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm an independent person with his own loft car job,

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<v Speaker 1>et cetera. But no one seems like they care about

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<v Speaker 1>those things. What advice can you give me to help

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<v Speaker 1>gain clarity on my situation? And it is my desire

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<v Speaker 1>for experiencing romance something that I should just pray away

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<v Speaker 1>because it isn't in the cards for me. Any guidance

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<v Speaker 1>will be greatly appreciated. Just thank you in advance, first

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<v Speaker 1>of all, babes, because I'm not gonna see your name,

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<v Speaker 1>although I want to, because that's how mad I am

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<v Speaker 1>with you. It seems like you have low self esteem.

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<v Speaker 1>That's the first thing I noticed just off the rip

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<v Speaker 1>with you talking. I also want to say I do

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<v Speaker 1>feel for you, and my heart goes out to you

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<v Speaker 1>for losing your mom and um you said your dad

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<v Speaker 1>as well. You use the tents of past because you

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<v Speaker 1>said they were preachers. I don't know if your father

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<v Speaker 1>is deceased, but I do give you my condolence for that. Now. Yes,

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<v Speaker 1>I do see that you seem like you don't have

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<v Speaker 1>the least bit of confidence to say something like that,

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<v Speaker 1>and then you think that you should give up. Baby,

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<v Speaker 1>You're only twenty seven years old. Okay, you may be

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<v Speaker 1>in a rough place right now, and maybe that actually

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<v Speaker 1>it's causing a lot of insecurity as well. Maybe you

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<v Speaker 1>feel flawed. I don't know exactly why. I also noticed

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<v Speaker 1>in your Instagram pictures you are a lot of makeup,

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<v Speaker 1>so you kick it up on you now, listen, I've

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<v Speaker 1>seen drag queens do that, but you're not a drag queen.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, if I'm right, you're just a gay man

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<v Speaker 1>who loves to wear makeup, but you put a lot

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<v Speaker 1>of it on. You also don't have any pictures of

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<v Speaker 1>you without makeup. That's also a sign that you don't

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<v Speaker 1>have hot self esteem. You don't think that the natural

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<v Speaker 1>you was beautiful and is handsome and pretty, so you're

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<v Speaker 1>covering up yourself a lot. I see that. You also

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<v Speaker 1>say you've never been in a relationship. Have you been

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<v Speaker 1>gay all your life? Have you ever experienced a woman

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<v Speaker 1>being with a woman or being attracted to them? Why

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<v Speaker 1>haven't you ever been in a relationship? Has this always

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<v Speaker 1>been a problem for you? Know you said this has

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<v Speaker 1>been happening your whole entire life. But you know how

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<v Speaker 1>you have puppy love where you're like middle school. I

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<v Speaker 1>wonder if you ever had like a playboyfriend or play

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<v Speaker 1>girlfriend or somebody that that you liked, like your first

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<v Speaker 1>little crush in school and those grade school years, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>because that are also tell me a lot about you

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<v Speaker 1>as well. Now you've tried approaching men in person through

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<v Speaker 1>d m s and dating apps, and you're met with

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<v Speaker 1>the same responses. Usually when people say you're nice, but

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<v Speaker 1>you aren't what I'm looking for, you're either trying to

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<v Speaker 1>buy them, You're very clingy, you're overbearing. Now, these are

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<v Speaker 1>not what I'm deeming you. This is not what I'm

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<v Speaker 1>calling you. I'm just saying that's what people with those

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<v Speaker 1>responses are kind of thinking. You probably come on very strong,

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<v Speaker 1>and you probably are extremely likable, but you probably overdo

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<v Speaker 1>it in those settings because you are looking for love.

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<v Speaker 1>But that's the problem. You're looking for it and you're

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<v Speaker 1>really really on the prow and that's why it's not coming.

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<v Speaker 1>Just be yourself. But it's kind of seems like you

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<v Speaker 1>don't know who you are yet. You don't know exactly

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<v Speaker 1>who you are, and that has nothing to do with

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<v Speaker 1>your sexuality. You probably still don't know what you want

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<v Speaker 1>and a man, because not Canna you even know what

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<v Speaker 1>do you want? If you've never been in a relationship,

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<v Speaker 1>you know you want to be happy. But getting down

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<v Speaker 1>to the nitty gritty and the specifics. With specifics, you

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<v Speaker 1>really don't know what you're looking for. What are you

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<v Speaker 1>looking for? Do you have a type? Do you know

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<v Speaker 1>what you want from a man when you finally get one,

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<v Speaker 1>Like do you have a list of deal breakers? It's

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<v Speaker 1>in a list of demands? Do you know your love languages?

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<v Speaker 1>Do you know how you may come off to people sometimes?

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<v Speaker 1>Do you know how to be laid back and chill?

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<v Speaker 1>Have you ever asked yourself all these you have to

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<v Speaker 1>self assess, like, you have to test yourself and really

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<v Speaker 1>get to know yourself. It doesn't seem like you know

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<v Speaker 1>yourself enough to even know why you're having this issue

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<v Speaker 1>with dating. So that's the first thing you have to do,

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<v Speaker 1>get to know yourself before you try to jump in

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<v Speaker 1>a relationship after not having one your whole entire life.

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<v Speaker 1>Because when you find out who you are, then you

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<v Speaker 1>can be yourself and then that's what just attracts people.

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<v Speaker 1>A confident person who is sure of themselves, who can

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<v Speaker 1>adapt in any social setting. That's how you attract people.

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<v Speaker 1>And that seems hard, It probably seems easier said than done,

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<v Speaker 1>but that's what you have to do. Now, what's going

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<v Speaker 1>on with people immediately blocking you on social media? And

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<v Speaker 1>when you try to come and then what are you

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<v Speaker 1>saw you sending dick pics or what are you saying

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<v Speaker 1>some ship like you know, how are you running these

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<v Speaker 1>people away? Because then nobody is going to immediately block

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<v Speaker 1>your ass and keep it moving. There has to be

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<v Speaker 1>something that you're doing and nobody playing with you. Now

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<v Speaker 1>you gotta tell me what do you be doing that

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<v Speaker 1>sounds like you'd be just jumping in niggas dms like yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm trying to suck a dick from the back or

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<v Speaker 1>hey you have eight is before you know what I'm saying?

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<v Speaker 1>Come on now, just what are you saying? You want

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<v Speaker 1>to sneak dick after so? Well? Like what's going on?

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<v Speaker 1>You're trying to swim through these chocolate alletes? Are you

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<v Speaker 1>saying these kind of things? Because yes, I would block

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<v Speaker 1>you too. You gotta check yourself sometimes, ain't nobody just

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<v Speaker 1>block you for no reason? And then you said sometimes

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<v Speaker 1>you get absolutely no response? Who are you going at? Like?

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<v Speaker 1>Who have you hollered at? It also depends on the

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<v Speaker 1>status as well, like are you jumping in celebrities d

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<v Speaker 1>M s? Are you like what who are you? Are

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<v Speaker 1>you dating on your level? Are you trying to do

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<v Speaker 1>it on your level? And when I say on your level,

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<v Speaker 1>I mean people that you can actually see, uh, somebody

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<v Speaker 1>that you that you just don't see on the internet,

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<v Speaker 1>people that you can actually meet up with and go

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<v Speaker 1>on dates and actually, you know, like people in your

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<v Speaker 1>own city and people who work in the same profession

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<v Speaker 1>as you and things like that. That's what I mean

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<v Speaker 1>when I say on your level. It has nothing to

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<v Speaker 1>do with money, has nothing to do with popularity, just

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<v Speaker 1>someone that can compare to you, like your companion and

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<v Speaker 1>congratulations on an independent I'm glad. I'm glad that you

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<v Speaker 1>are a young, successful black man who has its own

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<v Speaker 1>loft car job. All of that sounds good, But you

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<v Speaker 1>also said it seems like no one cares about these things.

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<v Speaker 1>I can see why that's defeating a little bit. But

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<v Speaker 1>a part of you better be glad that people don't

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<v Speaker 1>care about those things, because then people would take advantage

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<v Speaker 1>of you for the things you do have. You know,

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<v Speaker 1>just because of the things you do have. You have

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<v Speaker 1>a good job. Oh yeah, people see that, they see

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<v Speaker 1>dollar signs. Got his own car. Okay, he might take

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<v Speaker 1>me anywhere I want to go, or you can pick

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<v Speaker 1>me up and drive me around. He works, okay, so

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<v Speaker 1>I don't have to work. No people will take advantage

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<v Speaker 1>of people like you, So you actually should be glad

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<v Speaker 1>that not a lot of people care about those things

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<v Speaker 1>and you're being independent and having your own that's my

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<v Speaker 1>advice for you. Look inside of yourself and try to

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<v Speaker 1>work on your your self esteem and your confidence and

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<v Speaker 1>learning to live with who you are instead of trying

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<v Speaker 1>to cover it up. Okay, that's what you need to do,

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<v Speaker 1>because as soon as you learn to be yourself, you'll

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<v Speaker 1>be yourself and be you with the fullest, most bubbliest

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<v Speaker 1>personality being you most efficiently, the people will come to you,

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<v Speaker 1>and before you know it, you're gonna be struggling with

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<v Speaker 1>picking motherfucker's you like. Hold Up, I know, I asked

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<v Speaker 1>you know, I asked for this advice, and I know

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<v Speaker 1>I said what nobody trying to pay me no mind?

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<v Speaker 1>But now it's too many niggas for me to focus.

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<v Speaker 1>Wait a minute, So that's what you need to work on.

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<v Speaker 1>Hold up, Hold up, I know the ship getting good,

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<v Speaker 1>but listen to just a couple of seconds of a commercial.

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<v Speaker 1>If you love me, you'll listen. Moving on, I'm finding

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<v Speaker 1>it nearly impossible to not drink water whenever I get

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<v Speaker 1>the chance, I don't, and I have never let it

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<v Speaker 1>interfere with my work or functionality. I still work full

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<v Speaker 1>time and maintain relationships and stuff like that. However, I

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<v Speaker 1>simply cannot resist drinking and high volume whenever the opportunity

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<v Speaker 1>presents itself, mainly at my home on my own, and

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<v Speaker 1>I feel like it's ultimately getting in the way of

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<v Speaker 1>my intellectual and spiritual growth. It's like I have an

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<v Speaker 1>appetite for fun and good times that I simply can't

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<v Speaker 1>satisfy no matter how many bottles are empty. I understand

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<v Speaker 1>it's not necessarily as bad as smoking meth or crack

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<v Speaker 1>every night, but it's still effectively similar in principle. So, girl,

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<v Speaker 1>I need some advice on how to lower my intake

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<v Speaker 1>and learn how to appreciate a sober night at home.

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<v Speaker 1>Love and respect from the United Kingdom. Hey, baby girl, listen,

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<v Speaker 1>I literally just had the same problem. I just, I'm

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<v Speaker 1>gonna say, suffer because I have al serrative colitis and

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<v Speaker 1>drinking flares that up. It's when you have alcers on

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<v Speaker 1>your colon and it gets inflamed with your diet. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>not supposed to eat a lot of fried foods, a

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<v Speaker 1>lot of spicy ship, a lot of liquor. So when

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<v Speaker 1>I was diagnosed with all serative colitis and they told

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<v Speaker 1>me that, you know, I couldn't drink heavy liquor like consistently,

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<v Speaker 1>and I couldn't do it or it would get worse

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<v Speaker 1>in it ultimately damages your liver, and then other things

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<v Speaker 1>get sucked up, and then everything else gets sucked up,

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<v Speaker 1>and then you know it's just an ongoing health issue.

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<v Speaker 1>I took breaks. Now you don't have to stop drinking.

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<v Speaker 1>That would be nice as well, that would be greater

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<v Speaker 1>than anything. However, you don't always have to because you

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<v Speaker 1>drink so much. It would be wiser and easier for

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<v Speaker 1>you to win yourself off this way. If you drink

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<v Speaker 1>every day, drink every other day, put yourself on the schedule,

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<v Speaker 1>and so you wan yourself completely down to where you

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<v Speaker 1>think you'll be fine. If you drink every day, put

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<v Speaker 1>yourself on a schedule Monday, Wednesday, Friday, Sunday, and then

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<v Speaker 1>go back to Monday. So to those days you are

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<v Speaker 1>drinking back to back. But that's how you wan yourself,

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<v Speaker 1>if you're not going to go to a a if

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<v Speaker 1>you're not going to seek professional help. If you're not

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<v Speaker 1>going to do that, these are some home remedies you

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<v Speaker 1>can do. Drink every other day for two weeks, then

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<v Speaker 1>for the following two weeks, drink every two days. Do

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<v Speaker 1>that for two weeks, and then for the following two

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<v Speaker 1>weeks drink every three days. Into your drinking minimalizes so

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<v Speaker 1>much where you're only doing it on the weekends now,

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<v Speaker 1>or you're only doing it in the middle of the

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<v Speaker 1>week or two three times a week. Now, you have

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<v Speaker 1>to do that. You and you have to be strong

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<v Speaker 1>willed enough, which you admit to me that you are not.

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<v Speaker 1>So it does saying like if you can't do this

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<v Speaker 1>slowly but surely minimalizing your intake, you just may need

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<v Speaker 1>to seek alcohol therapy. You may need to seek professional

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<v Speaker 1>help that I can't give you. I can just tell

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<v Speaker 1>you what's not good for you. And drinking every day,

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<v Speaker 1>whether you're functional or not, it's not good because you

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<v Speaker 1>even admit it, it's starting to funk with your intellectual

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<v Speaker 1>and spiritual growth. Spiritual growth is one thing that I

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<v Speaker 1>have delayed in my life time and time again. So

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<v Speaker 1>I know exactly how you feel. That's why you have

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<v Speaker 1>to put your spirit first. Your spirit is loud, and

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<v Speaker 1>it's like a mosquito. It keeps following you, it keeps

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<v Speaker 1>biting you, it keeps poking you. And for your spirit

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<v Speaker 1>is loud, you just have to listen to it. And

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<v Speaker 1>you have to be serious about this problem that you're

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<v Speaker 1>telling me you have. And I know that you know

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<v Speaker 1>you have it, because you wouldn't be telling me you

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<v Speaker 1>got the damn problem. So just pace yourself. Try to

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<v Speaker 1>pace yourself. Remember every other day for two weeks, then

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<v Speaker 1>every two days for two weeks, then every three days

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<v Speaker 1>for two weeks, all the way until you get to

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<v Speaker 1>drinking two days a week, which can be on the

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<v Speaker 1>days where you don't work. Try to check back in

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<v Speaker 1>with me, all right, and thank you for sending in

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<v Speaker 1>your mess all the way from the UK. Baby, I

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<v Speaker 1>shall be there soon. She try next you come here,

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<v Speaker 1>I need you to fix my mess. I'm a drunk

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<v Speaker 1>h all right. Last, but not least, Hey, Jess, I'm

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<v Speaker 1>in desperate need of some advice. So a couple of

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<v Speaker 1>months ago, my boyfriend threw a part and did not

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<v Speaker 1>invite me. I played it cool, until the day of

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<v Speaker 1>the party, got fine as fuck and popped up with

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<v Speaker 1>some of my home girls. Parties aren't my things, so

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<v Speaker 1>he was completely surprised. At the party, I was confronted

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<v Speaker 1>by a female who admitted to having a sexual relationship

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<v Speaker 1>with my man. As devastated as I was, I played

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<v Speaker 1>it cool because I'm not giving no bitch the power

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<v Speaker 1>to see me cry as you shouldn't. She showed me

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<v Speaker 1>text messages, videos, pictures, and cash apps everything. She was

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<v Speaker 1>playing it like she was the other woman and my

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<v Speaker 1>BF was two times in the both of us whole time.

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<v Speaker 1>She knew about me and had been stalking me for months.

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<v Speaker 1>During the whole encounter, my boyfriend was nowhere to be found.

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<v Speaker 1>The next day, he was bagging for my forgiveness, even

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<v Speaker 1>asked me to marry him. Fast forward to today, although

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<v Speaker 1>we aren't together, he's still been trying as hardest to

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<v Speaker 1>prove to me that he's changed and wants me to

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<v Speaker 1>take him back. So my question to you is it's

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<v Speaker 1>wants a cheater, always a cheater, or do you think

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<v Speaker 1>it was just a mistake that helped him grow up

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<v Speaker 1>and realize what he wants? All right? So that was

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<v Speaker 1>very detailed, honey Bunn. Okay, so this was just a

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<v Speaker 1>couple of months ago, all right. I'm not saying it's

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<v Speaker 1>impossible to grow up in a couple of months. But

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<v Speaker 1>what I'm saying is it hasn't been that much time.

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<v Speaker 1>Because this was a couple of months, It hasn't been

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<v Speaker 1>that much time since this should happened. And I just

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<v Speaker 1>don't want you to jump back in because you are

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<v Speaker 1>young and you do love your boyfriend, I mean your

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<v Speaker 1>ex boyfriend. You know you're now ex boyfriend. I just

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<v Speaker 1>don't want you to jump back in it and then

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<v Speaker 1>be disappointed again. I think you should give him more time.

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<v Speaker 1>He needs to fill that ship for a little bit

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<v Speaker 1>more than a couple of months, because apparently he was

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<v Speaker 1>lying to y'all, both of y'all for a long time. Now,

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<v Speaker 1>although she knew about you, she still owes you nothing,

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<v Speaker 1>and this ship would have still been going on if

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<v Speaker 1>she would have never approached you at that party, if

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<v Speaker 1>you would have never decided to go to the party

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<v Speaker 1>that he didn't invite you to. Now that says a

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<v Speaker 1>lot because he's your boyfriend. He had a party, his

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<v Speaker 1>girlfriend wasn't invited, but the side which was in at

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<v Speaker 1>it because she was there, and how the hell he

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<v Speaker 1>was nowhere to be found if it was his party

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<v Speaker 1>and you and the side bitch then had a whole

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<v Speaker 1>goddamn sha boinga Shenanigan talk and he ain't nowhere to

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<v Speaker 1>be found. Where did he leave the party? Because if

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<v Speaker 1>that's the case, you know why the hell he wasn't

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<v Speaker 1>nowhere to be found because now both of his girls

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<v Speaker 1>are at the same party. Okay, it's given the boy

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<v Speaker 1>his mind, That's what it's given. It's given the boy

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<v Speaker 1>his mind. Music video with mcai Kaife for Brandy and

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<v Speaker 1>monniccause that's what it's given. If you don't know what

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<v Speaker 1>I'm talking about, cause you're so damn young, you ain't

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<v Speaker 1>nothing but the Lord whipper Snapper, then go and search

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<v Speaker 1>that video on YouTube. It's a very good music video

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<v Speaker 1>at the end, both of them. But well, look, I

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<v Speaker 1>ain't gonna ruin it for you. Back to your story. Yes,

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<v Speaker 1>so I would give him a lot more months. That girl,

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<v Speaker 1>whether she knew about your ass or not. He cheated.

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<v Speaker 1>He's been lying to both of y'all, and this's been

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<v Speaker 1>going on for quite some time, and that's why it

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<v Speaker 1>was so good. That's why he was having his kick

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<v Speaker 1>and eating it too. It was played very well because

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<v Speaker 1>one girl knew, one girl actually knew. See, it's hard

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<v Speaker 1>when both of y'all don't know. It's hard when a

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<v Speaker 1>guy it's too time and two women who don't know

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<v Speaker 1>about each other. It's a little easier to move when

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<v Speaker 1>one of the bitches know about the other one, because

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<v Speaker 1>now you only got one to hide everything from, and

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<v Speaker 1>that's the actual girlfriend. Now, if he's begging you to

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<v Speaker 1>come back, that's exactly what the funk he should be doing. Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>And I'm not saying he doesn't mean it. I'm not

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<v Speaker 1>saying that he hasn't come to a census. But you

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<v Speaker 1>ain't over that ship. I know you're not over it.

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<v Speaker 1>I can tell by the way you type the story

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<v Speaker 1>to me. I know you're not over it, but you

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<v Speaker 1>do love him, So I would say give it to

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<v Speaker 1>the end of the year. We in August. See what

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<v Speaker 1>how you feeling around Christmas. If that's too long, go

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<v Speaker 1>ahead and try it, but don't be fucking crawling back

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<v Speaker 1>in my fucking DM telling me that he did some

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<v Speaker 1>more ship by Christmas. If you get back with him

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<v Speaker 1>before Christmas, all right, now, check back in with me.

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<v Speaker 1>I love y'all, And just like that we've come to

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<v Speaker 1>the end of another Carefully Reckless a soul. What's your girl?

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<v Speaker 1>Just hilarious and I'll be fixing mess to the end

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<v Speaker 1>of the year, y'all. Make sure you submit all your

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<v Speaker 1>mess whether you type it, give me a voice note

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<v Speaker 1>however you send it, send it and I will fix it.

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<v Speaker 1>And then my deepest pan voice peace, yeah h. Carefully

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