Speaker 1: This is let's be clear with Shannon Dhorney.
Speaker 2: Hello, let's be clear friends. I want to thank you
Speaker 2: all for all the support, outpoint of love and support
Speaker 2: that you've given Shannon over the years and now for
Speaker 2: her family. We appreciate it so very much and appreciate
Speaker 2: all of you for all the years that you've followed
Speaker 2: her and loved her. I'm sure that many of you
Speaker 2: recognize me from a couple of previous podcasts that Shannon
Speaker 2: had talked me into doing, and.
Speaker 3: All the Instagram posts over the years, and all the
Speaker 3: funny thing.
Speaker 2: And this this podcast meant so much to Shannon because
Speaker 2: it allowed her to tell her story and tell her
Speaker 2: truth and over the years there's been so many stories
Speaker 2: and untruths and things mixed up that it was just fun.
Speaker 2: She says, I want to do this and I have
Speaker 2: so many people that have followed me over the years
Speaker 2: and have supported me, and I just want to give
Speaker 2: them the opportunity to hear what my life really is.
Speaker 2: And that's was part of the reason for this podcast.
Speaker 2: And it meant so much to me because I got
Speaker 2: to watch her do this when it was so special
Speaker 2: for her and needed it helped her so much and
Speaker 2: everything that she was going through, and to hear back
Speaker 2: from all of you and the questions that you presented
Speaker 2: to her in the podcast when she was answering questions
Speaker 2: that was important. I just want to say thank you
Speaker 2: to everybody, and I am now going to be doing
Speaker 2: my best to try to continue this for her because
Speaker 2: that's what we discussed that she wanted me to do.
Speaker 2: And of course I'm not her. I could never be her.
Speaker 2: I'm not I'm not as well spoken as she was,
Speaker 2: but I'm here for all of you, and I hope
Speaker 2: you're all here for me. And today I asked somebody
Speaker 2: very special to do this with me my first time out,
Speaker 2: because she means so much to me, and she means
Speaker 2: so much to Shannon. They're like sisters, and she this,
Speaker 2: this beautiful person is part of our family. And I'm
Speaker 2: sure you will all recognize her at some point because
Speaker 2: she was also on one of the podcasts with Shannon,
Speaker 2: and so I'd like to introduce you now to someone
Speaker 2: very special. Also. Her family is very special as well.
Speaker 2: This is Anne Marie.
Speaker 3: Thank you mama. She was said the Ricker Strata who
Speaker 3: named you mama Rossa.
Speaker 2: That's awesome. I forgot that I was going to tell
Speaker 2: everybody this was who named me Mama Rosa. She started
Speaker 2: the whole thing.
Speaker 3: It becomes such a big thing over the years that
Speaker 3: everybody called you Mama Rosa. And you know, I kind
Speaker 3: of got over at one point, but I was like,
Speaker 3: excuse me. I started that, should we tell this story
Speaker 3: how we started that? Yeah, it was kind of funny.
Speaker 1: Yeah, tell so.
Speaker 3: Many many many years ago. Actually almost twenty years ago.
Speaker 3: I realized not a week after Shannon had passed that
Speaker 3: we would have had our twentieth anniversary of our friendship.
Speaker 3: And it was really one of a kind. She was
Speaker 3: one of a kind. And long story short, I came
Speaker 3: to visit Shannon in Malibu. I was shooting, and I
Speaker 3: remember Mama Rousa and Channon came to pick me up
Speaker 3: from the set and I came to stay with her.
Speaker 3: I remember vividly, and I loved to organize very much,
Speaker 3: and I'm sure you guys have seen me throughout the
Speaker 3: years try to like not just organize, but make Shannon
Speaker 3: do funny things like drink green juices and work out
Speaker 3: when she didn't want to on all that kind of
Speaker 3: fun stuff. So I decided I was going to reorganize
Speaker 3: Shannon's whole closet. In the process, we started trying things
Speaker 3: on that we're in her closs a from like shows
Speaker 3: and past like events and red carpets, and next thing
Speaker 3: you know, I'm like fully wearing.
Speaker 2: The world.
Speaker 1: And I was so embarrassed because there comes Rosa.
Speaker 3: She's turning right and I'm like, oh, hi, Mama Rosa,
Speaker 3: fully butt naked. And that is how Memorosa's.
Speaker 1: Work, literally, because I was like, what else do I do?
Speaker 3: But hi, Mama Rosa, and I'm sorry and I'm not
Speaker 3: really sorry, and that's how we kind of fell in
Speaker 3: love and ever since then, you know, she's like a
Speaker 3: second mom to me. When I moved here to La,
Speaker 3: she used to take care of my little baby who's
Speaker 3: now sixteen. So we truly have grown together as a family.
Speaker 3: Is so much more than friends. So, like she said,
Speaker 3: I'm so so grateful. We're both so grateful for all
Speaker 3: of the beautiful messages, all of the beautiful little videos
Speaker 3: that the fans make on Instagram. Like I have yet
Speaker 3: to really cry. We both have really held it together
Speaker 3: because we being together taking care of each other, and well.
Speaker 2: I tell people when somebody sees me out and you know,
Speaker 2: they're being very kind and they want to come up
Speaker 2: and hug me, and I'm like, the first thing I
Speaker 2: do is I look at them and I'm like, you
Speaker 2: can hug me, but you cannot cry. Just don't cry
Speaker 2: because if you cry, I'll start crying and I can't stop,
Speaker 2: I know.
Speaker 1: And she I almost cried the other day.
Speaker 3: She was over at my house and we made it
Speaker 3: almost an hour and a half and when she was
Speaker 3: walking out, I hugged her and she goes, You're not crying.
Speaker 3: I was like nope, and like I'm literally swallowing her
Speaker 3: back up. So I think because the love and the
Speaker 3: relationship that we have been able to cultivate over the
Speaker 3: last twenty years, we just kind of been there for
Speaker 3: each other. And you know, this is what I said.
Speaker 3: I remember the day after I said to my husband
Speaker 3: and I'm like, I have one job right now. I
Speaker 3: know what Shannon would have wanted me to do, and
Speaker 3: people would have thought many things, but the one thing
Speaker 3: that I knew was my job till the day I
Speaker 3: die is to make sure that I call my Marosa
Speaker 3: every morning and just find out what she's doing, and
Speaker 3: she does, are you fitting the docks? I'm very annoying.
Speaker 3: I'm like, what are you doing? What do you want
Speaker 3: to talk about? And she's like, She's like, didn't you
Speaker 3: just wake up? Did you have coffee already? She's like,
Speaker 3: why are you so lively? And I'm like, what's up?
Speaker 3: So I just wanted to make sure that she never
Speaker 3: misses what she had with Channon, where you know, they
Speaker 3: were so very close, one of the most beautiful momy
Speaker 3: daughter relationships I've ever witnessed. So I will never be
Speaker 3: able to replace her, but I will make sure that
Speaker 3: she never feels alone as long as I can help it.
Speaker 3: No wonder where I am in the world, I'm going
Speaker 3: to figure it out to make sure I called her
Speaker 3: in the morning and just say good morning.
Speaker 2: So she called me every morning from Puerto Rico recently,
Speaker 2: I did, I did so.
Speaker 3: Anyways, thank you guys. I think that we have a
Speaker 3: bunch of questions that were sent. What do you think
Speaker 3: she would want you to do to keep her legacy alive?
Speaker 3: I think that's a good one for you. Let's throw
Speaker 3: it right in there.
Speaker 2: Well, I think we've got a good start on it
Speaker 2: right now with all the people that are listening to
Speaker 2: the podcast, and I hope that we can keep the
Speaker 2: podcast going, and that depends on everybody and me as well,
Speaker 2: and I promise to do better as I get along
Speaker 2: with this. I'm still you're doing amazing.
Speaker 3: What are you talking about?
Speaker 2: I'm still alone, You're doing great, hy with it? But
Speaker 2: and it's different. I'm sitting here with am Marie, and
Speaker 2: I chose A Marie because I knew I would have
Speaker 2: a different comfort zone. But when I did it before,
Speaker 2: I was sitting across from Shannon, So it's kind of
Speaker 2: right now. It's a little overwhelming for me in that respect.
Speaker 2: But as I get along down the road, it'll get better,
Speaker 2: I know, get better.
Speaker 3: I hope it can be just a little bit.
Speaker 2: And her legacy will be the love that she gave
Speaker 2: to everybody that she knew, and the love that she
Speaker 2: gave to people that she didn't know. I went to
Speaker 2: a lot of conventions with her, and I watched her
Speaker 2: hug these people and tears come into her eyes for
Speaker 2: the people and the stories that they were telling her.
Speaker 2: And she felt it very important that she takes the
Speaker 2: time with people and people who needed a hug. And
Speaker 2: I think that's her legacy that people actually and even
Speaker 2: more so now they're realizing what a wonderful, kind and
Speaker 2: warm human being she was.
Speaker 3: Yeah, and those who really knew her and those who
Speaker 3: were like in her inner circle always knew that she
Speaker 3: truly was the warmant, the kindest, you know friend there was.
Speaker 3: I think a very important thing for me that I
Speaker 3: have been able to get out of all of the
Speaker 3: messages is that I knew how important it was. And
Speaker 3: you guys have heard on the podcast, on the episode
Speaker 3: that she and I did together. You know, the moment
Speaker 3: that she shaved her head and she went public with
Speaker 3: her cancer was a big, big, big moment for her,
Speaker 3: for you, for me, for all of those around her.
Speaker 3: But I don't think I ever realized the mass manitude
Speaker 3: of the the way was received by people that were
Speaker 3: going through what she was going through. I people loved her,
Speaker 3: admired her, and to see the strength to go out
Speaker 3: there in a world where it's so superficial, right this world,
Speaker 3: the social media and all the things, where everyone is
Speaker 3: just basically like putting this persona out there, and she
Speaker 3: just went out there raw. I remember, like we were
Speaker 3: shaving the head. It was you and me, and I
Speaker 3: was like, I had no idea what I was doing
Speaker 3: I kept looking at her.
Speaker 2: I called you because she she called me. She I
Speaker 2: was there with her, and she's like, okay, mom, I
Speaker 2: want you to cut my hair. I'm like what because
Speaker 2: at the time she she was losing some hair, but
Speaker 2: she still had a full head of hair. And she said, no,
Speaker 2: come with me, and she took me into the bathroom
Speaker 2: and she put her hair in a ponytail and she said,
Speaker 2: cut this ponytail off now. And I did cut the ponytail,
Speaker 2: and then we're looking at each other like what are
Speaker 2: we going to.
Speaker 1: Do now with the rest?
Speaker 2: So she and she says, I think we just need
Speaker 2: to go ahead and do it all now. Just I'm like,
Speaker 2: are you sure. I'm like really she said yeah. I'm like, well,
Speaker 2: we don't have a shaver. She said, let's call that Marie.
Speaker 2: So we didn't the red Rocket Marie.
Speaker 4: Yeah.
Speaker 3: I mean, it's usually kind of how our stories end.
Speaker 3: It's always like you guys start something and you're like, oh, crap,
Speaker 3: we need somebody to finish it up. So anyways, next
Speaker 3: thing I know, I'm on my way, I pull up
Speaker 3: the routes, I grab a couple of different ones, and
Speaker 3: then you know, we just kind of figure it out,
Speaker 3: and it was not easy. I mean, for those of
Speaker 3: you who are going through this, you will know that
Speaker 3: it is not as easy as it looks. You actually
Speaker 3: need some training. So I got some training real quickly.
Speaker 3: But you know what, in all seriousness, it was a
Speaker 3: big moment. I didn't realize it till later on, Like
Speaker 3: how brave she was, Like how truly brave she was
Speaker 3: to just bear it all and share it with you guys,
Speaker 3: and you know the outpouring of love after that post.
Speaker 3: I remember, we talked about it and we kept saying, impressed,
Speaker 3: do we say it? Do we not do it? Do
Speaker 3: we do it in black and white? I mean, we
Speaker 3: went back and forth, and then finally when we saw
Speaker 3: the response, we were like, this is the right thing
Speaker 3: because there's so many people out there going through this alone. Right,
Speaker 3: they don't have the support that you have in a
Speaker 3: mom like Rosa or a friend like me or Chris
Speaker 3: or all the people around her that truly we're here
Speaker 3: to support her no matter what. And she truly gave
Speaker 3: them the courage to just like go for it and
Speaker 3: go out there and talk about it and also create
Speaker 3: all the awareness she truly on her own created so
Speaker 3: much breast cancer awareness. She did so much work on
Speaker 3: her own and I hear that every day every time
Speaker 3: I look through messages, they're like, because of her, I
Speaker 3: went and got tested, and I did this, and I
Speaker 3: found that at this stage or that stage. So we
Speaker 3: will forever be so grateful that she did that, and
Speaker 3: I feel honored that she allowed me to be part
Speaker 3: of that in helping some of these people get through it.
Speaker 3: You know, together with us, it was like one big
Speaker 3: big we were just like it.
Speaker 5: Was turned into a head shaving party and so much
Speaker 5: more right because then people who are willing to talk
Speaker 5: about not just the loss of the hair, but like
Speaker 5: having a misectomy, having.
Speaker 3: To go through chemo, the radiation, Do I do it?
Speaker 3: Do I not do it? What am I going to
Speaker 3: feel like? And she truly was so raw and share it,
Speaker 3: and I think that, you know, it's a very hard
Speaker 3: thing to do. And she truly gave a platform for
Speaker 3: women and for men and for many that didn't exist before.
Speaker 3: She has the most amazing fans.
Speaker 2: She really does, she really not.
Speaker 3: I still remember our first trip to New York. I
Speaker 3: remember I never really experienced the paparazzi that yeah, And
Speaker 3: I remember we were just like I never cared. I
Speaker 3: was just like I would put on whatever. And we
Speaker 3: were walking down Soha and all of a sudden, she goes,
Speaker 3: don't look, and of course you're going I look.
Speaker 1: I'm like hey, and next.
Speaker 3: Thing, you know, we have like fifteen people. This is
Speaker 3: like back in two thousand and one. This is a
Speaker 3: long time ago. And I remember we were just shopping
Speaker 3: and I'm like, I don't understand. I'm like, we're just shopping.
Speaker 2: She goes.
Speaker 3: I know, she goes, but you gotta look pretty while
Speaker 3: we're shopping, you know. And it was so funny because
Speaker 3: it was like I never really care, and it was
Speaker 3: just kind of like part of like our relationship. I
Speaker 3: think that's why we were so close, because like, I
Speaker 3: just never really care. I would try to walk on
Speaker 3: the other side of the street and she'd be like,
Speaker 3: where are you going.
Speaker 1: I'm like, I'll see you over here.
Speaker 3: You let them follow you. And you know, my husband's
Speaker 3: a very very private, quiet person. As most of you think,
Speaker 3: I'm not even married, but I've been married twenty three
Speaker 3: years and i have a sixteen year old and you know,
Speaker 3: Shannon and my husband were very, very very close.
Speaker 2: She adored Scott, and she in him and trusted his
Speaker 2: knowledge of things.
Speaker 3: Yeah, he knows a lot.
Speaker 2: He knows a lot of a lot, a lot a lot.
Speaker 3: So yeah, I know, it's you know, we really do
Speaker 3: have I have spent People keep asking me, how are
Speaker 3: you doing, and I'm like, you know how I'm doing.
Speaker 3: I'm just going down memory lane, truly enjoying all of
Speaker 3: the beautiful, beautiful memories that I created with her. And
Speaker 3: let me tell you, I forgot how many things we did.
Speaker 3: We lived, we lived hard, and lived like we truly
Speaker 3: did live like. We had some fun trips. We had
Speaker 3: some that were like, eh, yeah, whatever, you know, Okay,
Speaker 3: I mean, I remember we went to Miami on a
Speaker 3: girl's trip. I wanted a girl strip. So she's like,
Speaker 3: I'm coming and I think there's a bunch of pictures
Speaker 3: of I was like sitting on the plane with ar Mimosas.
Speaker 3: And then it was the beginning of snapchat, do you remember,
Speaker 3: And yeah, my god, that whole night we just sat
Speaker 3: in the hotel room doing Snapchat videos. So I was
Speaker 3: like pretending to cry. Next thing, you know, we're taking
Speaker 3: walks on the beach, and you know, I feel one
Speaker 3: of the things I've learned, you know, over the past
Speaker 3: month or so, is that I want to really enjoy
Speaker 3: the moment. I really want to like just connect, like
Speaker 3: when Rosa and I are together now and we speak
Speaker 3: every day and I see her multiple times a week,
Speaker 3: and we got her favorite lunch plates and we do
Speaker 3: our stuff, like I just want to be present. And
Speaker 3: that's the one thing I have to say. Be present
Speaker 3: with your family, with your friends, with the ones you care,
Speaker 3: with the ones you love. Don't be looking at your phone.
Speaker 3: Just like enjoy it, because that was the That's one
Speaker 3: of the gifts that Shannon and I had in our relationship.
Speaker 3: There was none of this when she and I met.
Speaker 3: There was none of it. It was just her and
Speaker 3: I making the fun. We started the phone. We didn't
Speaker 3: have a phone taping recording what was happening. We lived
Speaker 3: the moment. And I say that to my daughter all
Speaker 3: the time. That's one of the most precious things that
Speaker 3: I like remember in our relationship.
Speaker 2: You know, that's well in Shannon and I had like
Speaker 2: such a phenomenal mother daughter relationship, and I always said
Speaker 2: to her, like you are my heart, and she is
Speaker 2: she's my heart, and I just we just it's so
Speaker 2: much together, and I would I have my own place,
Speaker 2: and I would go to I would get ready to
Speaker 2: go to my own place, and she'd said, where are
Speaker 2: you going. I remember, well, I'll be back on Monday.
Speaker 2: Or I said no, no, no, why don't you just
Speaker 2: spend the night and then in the morning we'll do
Speaker 2: so and so, no shopping, or we'll do this. And
Speaker 2: I'm like, well, but I really need to get back
Speaker 2: and check on things at my place. And she said
Speaker 2: it's okay, you can do that in the morning. And
Speaker 2: when the morning came, so finally I'm like, I do
Speaker 2: have her place, but my place has been with her
Speaker 2: for a long time now. It was like, you gotta
Speaker 2: go home, mom. You can't go back to your place.
Speaker 2: This is home.
Speaker 3: Your relationship was truly special, you know, like I it's
Speaker 3: it's one of a kind and they'll be they'll never
Speaker 3: be one like it. And you're very blessed in a way,
Speaker 3: like you spend more time with your daughter the most
Speaker 3: mother spends in a lifetime.
Speaker 2: Well, and everybody, what's so dear to me? People that
Speaker 2: I don't even know that maybe she's seen out somewhere
Speaker 2: at the convention or whatever, and I know with all
Speaker 2: our friends. She really goes into it. But it's always
Speaker 2: they say, Shannon loves you so much. She told us
Speaker 2: all about you and she loves you so much. And
Speaker 2: then all my friends, I mean even now, it's like,
Speaker 2: you know, Shannon told us we have to take care
Speaker 2: of you and to watch out for you, and.
Speaker 3: She loved you so much, and that was the only
Speaker 3: thing she cared about. She cared that you had company
Speaker 3: that you were taking care of. And guess what, she
Speaker 3: has the closest people to her. That's what we're doing.
Speaker 3: We are Her orders are our commands, and we're on
Speaker 3: it and we will be here until you get sick
Speaker 3: of us.
Speaker 2: Every time I talk about maybe, well maybe I'll like
Speaker 2: move to Italy or maybe I'll go somewhere, and I
Speaker 2: mentioned moving to Italy and our friend Chris is like, well, yes,
Speaker 2: we can do that.
Speaker 1: We're going together. It's a whole, full pack, a.
Speaker 2: Whole it's a whole packagees. We have our little group
Speaker 2: here and we just stick together. And that's all because
Speaker 2: of Shannon. Shannon included me. She always in always with
Speaker 2: her friends from the beginning, even when she was young.
Speaker 2: I mean I remember when she was even when she
Speaker 2: was like eighteen. There would be a group of them
Speaker 2: that they would go to Jerry's Deli on the sun
Speaker 2: special night it was midnight bowling and Tom and I
Speaker 2: would be in bed very you know, sleep. It would
Speaker 2: be two one or two in the morning. And it
Speaker 2: wouldn't be Shannon calling always. It would be at the
Speaker 2: time Deborah who we lost Deborah to cancer and that
Speaker 2: was a close friend as well, but it would be Deborah,
Speaker 2: could be well, anybody, any of the friends. They say, hey, Mom,
Speaker 2: we're bowling. Where are you? And Dad, I'm like, we're
Speaker 2: in bed, get up and come on, let's go. We
Speaker 2: would get up and we would get dressed and we
Speaker 2: would go. And because of that, they always knew that
Speaker 2: we were their ride or die.
Speaker 3: Yeah.
Speaker 2: If even now, if anybody's like, just call me, I'm there,
Speaker 2: and that's like a Marie does the same thing because
Speaker 2: now her daughters, our beautiful lives sixteen years old, and
Speaker 2: so she's experiencing it with living her friends.
Speaker 3: Exactly and then honestly, there's nothing more beautiful, you know,
Speaker 3: That's the whole point. I always say, what's the point
Speaker 3: of having kids if you don't want to be with them?
Speaker 3: Twenty for seven exactly, and.
Speaker 2: When they include you with their friends, but.
Speaker 3: That means you raise them. Right, Let's just talk about it,
Speaker 3: because if they want to be with you and they
Speaker 3: want to share all of their memories with you, as
Speaker 3: you know, I just had a house full of guests, yes,
Speaker 3: and you know that's special. That means you did something right,
Speaker 3: you know. So and Shannon, you know, she really did
Speaker 3: have a beautiful group of friends. You know, she really
Speaker 3: truly did. And they were her rider died. It didn't
Speaker 3: matter what time of the day it was. We all
Speaker 3: showed up for her because she did that for us.
Speaker 3: I remember, not that long ago, I haven't been feeling well.
Speaker 3: I had like call it lung covid. We don't know
Speaker 3: what it was, but whatever, let's not get into that.
Speaker 3: And I remember I wasn't feeling one hundred percent for
Speaker 3: a while. And it's not like me, like I like
Speaker 3: to work out, I'm super healthy. I take care of myself.
Speaker 3: And you know, I remember she called me one day
Speaker 3: and she's like, where're you been? And I was like
Speaker 3: I'm here and she's like, no, no, no, where've you been?
Speaker 3: And then I was like, why are you being mean
Speaker 3: to me? And she's like, well, you don't called me,
Speaker 3: you haven't bothered me, you haven't showed up at my house,
Speaker 3: you haven't made me work out. She has something's wrong
Speaker 3: with you. And I was like, well, I don't feel
Speaker 3: so good. She's like, what do you mean you don't
Speaker 3: feel good? Yeah, and then I realized in that moment.
Speaker 3: She was like why didn't you tell me you don't
Speaker 3: feel good? She's like, did you talk to Pierre And
Speaker 3: I'm like, yes, I talked to Pierra and that's her doctor.
Speaker 3: And she's like what do you say? And I'm like, well,
Speaker 3: no one really knows what's up. And she's like, well,
Speaker 3: let's figure it out. She goes, I have this doctor. Doctor.
Speaker 3: She's like, I'm on my way, mom, we gotta go
Speaker 3: take care of memory. And I'm like no. I was like,
Speaker 3: you just had chemo when you're throwing up and you're sick,
Speaker 3: and she goes and she literally part of my world.
Speaker 3: She's like, shut the f up. She goes, just because
Speaker 3: I'm sick, it doesn't mean you're not allowed to be
Speaker 3: sick with me, and I remember it hit me and
Speaker 3: it made me cry because I used to shelter her
Speaker 3: from the things that were going on with me, and
Speaker 3: she's like, we're not friends if you can't tell me
Speaker 3: when you don't feel good. She goes, I don't care
Speaker 3: if it's a headache. I don't care if it's a toe.
Speaker 3: She goes, I'm your friend. This is a both goes
Speaker 3: both directions. And that's the kind of person that she was.
Speaker 3: It didn't matter. She's just finishing the toilet. She would
Speaker 3: be like one second and she's like, wait, back to you.
Speaker 1: What hurts?
Speaker 3: She goes, let me put that on Google. She would
Speaker 3: diagnose me. So that's truly the kind of friend. And honestly,
Speaker 3: like talking right now, it's like I miss her, Like
Speaker 3: I miss her so much. God, yeah, Like it's just
Speaker 3: not real, you know, it's I keep going and I
Speaker 3: keep getting myself. I have reorganized my freaking house so
Speaker 3: many times. On my drawers, I'm pulling everything in her house.
Speaker 3: I made Claudia, who's our housekeeper, I made Claudia go
Speaker 3: with me to the into the pantry. I'm like, everything
Speaker 3: in here has got to be taken out. And when
Speaker 3: you started laughing, because the last time that happened is
Speaker 3: when Shannon did it. So the apple doesn't fall far
Speaker 3: from thee in that respect. But I think that's what
Speaker 3: you and I do. We just like we kind of
Speaker 3: keep going instead of sitting, and like, I know at
Speaker 3: some point we have to sit and feel the feelings.
Speaker 3: But for now, I'm just keeping busy, Like I just
Speaker 3: I keep picking up the phone, and I keep wanting
Speaker 3: to tell her something funny that happened that only she
Speaker 3: would think it's funny. And that's the thing, like, you know,
Speaker 3: you have all different I have. I'm very blessed, I
Speaker 3: have great friends, I have a beautiful family, my family,
Speaker 3: my mom, my dad. But there's just shit. I would
Speaker 3: tell her that just only she would get yeah, And
Speaker 3: like I keep thinking to myself, is she punking me?
Speaker 3: She kind of come out like I swear it on
Speaker 3: my way here, and I'm like, maybe this is all Joe.
Speaker 3: Maybe she'll come out and be like, ah, I got
Speaker 3: you all. You know. So it's like it really makes
Speaker 3: me sad, and like I have gone through the process
Speaker 3: of I get sad and I cry and I get angry.
Speaker 3: I haven't had a full cry yet. I don't know when.
Speaker 3: I'm sure it'll come at some point when I truly
Speaker 3: realize it. And as you guys, know eventually in some
Speaker 3: near future we're going to do a celebration. Yes, right,
Speaker 3: I know that that's been asked a lot. We're working
Speaker 3: on it, Roses. This is on Ross's terms. When she's ready,
Speaker 3: we'll let you guys know. Just some lot involved right
Speaker 3: now that we have to take care first. It's funny
Speaker 3: talking about her thinking that she's going to be here.
Speaker 2: It's like just a week ago. I was in my car,
Speaker 2: which I call the Beast, and it's new. It was
Speaker 2: Shannon wanted to be sure that I had a car
Speaker 2: that was new and that was really big and heavy
Speaker 2: so that I was really safe. I loved my car
Speaker 2: that I had, and one day I came in it
Speaker 2: had disappeared. She said there was something wrong, and I
Speaker 2: had triple A take it to the shop, but used
Speaker 2: mine while you're waiting for years, and then one day
Speaker 2: that the car came so it long story short. I
Speaker 2: had to go to Beverly Hills to drop something off,
Speaker 2: and I had a friend with me and we were
Speaker 2: coming back and I left Beverly Hills. I got in
Speaker 2: front of the Mormon Temple and Santa Monica Boulevard and
Speaker 2: the car started wanting to do things on its own. Well,
Speaker 2: I was resistant and I both hands on the steering wheel.
Speaker 2: I'm like, no, no, no, I refuse to get on the
Speaker 2: but I drove all the way from Beverly Hills in
Speaker 2: major daytime traffic to Malibu part the car, and I'm like, okay,
Speaker 2: I'll use Shannon's car from now on. So Anne Marie
Speaker 2: heard my troubled story and she says, we got to
Speaker 2: fix that. We got to fix that. And she actually
Speaker 2: came over and we sat in the car together, and
Speaker 2: she had a friend who had a similar experience with
Speaker 2: a car like mine, so she kind of knew where
Speaker 2: to start. But so then when she got it all fixed,
Speaker 2: we went to lunch and she said, I'm just going
Speaker 2: to follow you and then I'll go on to my
Speaker 2: house afterwards, but we will know that your car is okay.
Speaker 2: I was so excited by the time I got back
Speaker 2: and I felt so good. A Marie and I had lunch,
Speaker 2: the car was fixed, everything up. I opened the door,
Speaker 2: I went running in the house and I'm like, Shannon,
Speaker 2: guess what. A Marie fixed my car? And then I
Speaker 2: was like and then the tears came. Yeah, I'm like
Speaker 2: she's not here.
Speaker 3: Now you know it did.
Speaker 2: She did leave me with this car that this girl
Speaker 2: has a mine of its own.
Speaker 1: It really was in a mind of its own.
Speaker 3: It just had the assist at lane driving that Rosa
Speaker 3: was not used to because I know it was on there.
Speaker 3: So basically, anytime she would get off a little bit
Speaker 3: of the lane, it would push her back into the lane,
Speaker 3: which is kind of like an amazing feature if you
Speaker 3: know about it. But when you have these beasts that
Speaker 3: you call her, you know, pushing you to one side,
Speaker 3: it's a little scary. So we fixed it. Her business
Speaker 3: fully operational. She will take on the roads and the canyons,
Speaker 3: and she calls me and I make sure she texts
Speaker 3: me every time she gets off the canyon. I'm like,
Speaker 3: are you home? Are you inside? Did we lock the doors?
Speaker 3: I mean, I've become I've become Chandon's. She says, where
Speaker 3: are you? I don't know where I was because she
Speaker 3: had a tracker on me. Oh I'm gonna we're doing that,
Speaker 3: but we're where are you?
Speaker 1: Because I can hear her on the road and it
Speaker 1: was late in Calabasas.
Speaker 2: What are you doing there?
Speaker 6: Yeah?
Speaker 3: I'm like, you're like twenty five minutes away from the house.
Speaker 1: I was like, get over the canyon already.
Speaker 2: I'm like, I'm coming over out of the canyon. I'm good,
Speaker 2: and I'm all good. She's what minute you get in
Speaker 2: you let me know? Yeah, I need to know.
Speaker 3: I need to know where the important people in my
Speaker 3: life are at all times before I close my eyes.
Speaker 3: You know, it's just how it is. It's the Puerto
Speaker 3: Rican in me. It's that you know, protector. So you know,
Speaker 3: I do have those moments for sure that I just
Speaker 3: keep wanting to dial the phone. And I have a
Speaker 3: couple of She never used to lead boys notes, but
Speaker 3: I have a couple of voice messages and I listened
Speaker 3: to me. Yeah.
Speaker 2: She would just call and hang up. Yeah, just like
Speaker 2: it's like, oh, Shannon called, What did she want? When
Speaker 2: you call her?
Speaker 3: I hear her the way she used to call Scott. Yeah, time,
Speaker 3: you know what she used to call him. I'm not
Speaker 3: going to say it, but I hear it all the time.
Speaker 3: She's like, hey, what's up? And I'm like, oh my god,
Speaker 3: I'm not going to hear that again. Yeah, but you
Speaker 3: know what, we truly are last. We have amazing memories.
Speaker 3: She fought the fight like no one I've ever seen.
Speaker 2: She and she didn't show it.
Speaker 3: She really did it.
Speaker 2: She didn't show it. She did not. We would go out,
Speaker 2: we would go to dinner or whatever.
Speaker 1: And grocery store.
Speaker 3: She loves you too, love the grocery store. There's more
Speaker 3: paparazzi pictures of vintage browsers and any other stores.
Speaker 2: The grocery store. But whenever I would go by myself
Speaker 2: or like I was, I have a little job that
Speaker 2: I do and when I would leave work, and I
Speaker 2: would always text her and call her and say, hey,
Speaker 2: I'm leaving work. Didn't need anything and want me to
Speaker 2: pick up something for dinner or I can order something
Speaker 2: for dinner, and uh, she said, We'll go to the
Speaker 2: grocery store and pick up maybe five items. I'm that
Speaker 2: person when I go to the grocery store. It's very
Speaker 2: relaxing to me. And some grocery stores have great music.
Speaker 2: You could probably do a date night there at midnight,
Speaker 2: and they have everything you'd need. But it would be
Speaker 2: like the phone, I'm in the grocery store. Where are you?
Speaker 2: What are you? I'm like, I'm in the grocery store.
Speaker 1: She just send me for five or five things.
Speaker 2: I go up and down in every aisle. Yeah, I know,
Speaker 2: I just do it.
Speaker 3: It's they're a predict.
Speaker 6: Yeah. I love the grocery store. It's the same way
Speaker 6: that you like to go out eat. I do nice
Speaker 6: drive just to like drive out, I have to get
Speaker 6: out and just change the scenery for a little exactly.
Speaker 6: And by the way, for everyone asking, Bowie's doing just great, yes,
Speaker 6: always thriving. I just took her on a little walk
Speaker 6: and she got so excited. She was like ready to
Speaker 6: play for the it's so pretty.
Speaker 3: She gave me a full smile, and.
Speaker 2: She's kind of smiled at her times when she We
Speaker 2: kind of like to set the times because I also
Speaker 2: have a little dog, Indy, and Bowie doesn't like other dogs,
Speaker 2: so we have to keep them, keep them statement. The
Speaker 2: boy knows what time is her bedtime, and when it's bedtime,
Speaker 2: she she lets me know. She's standing there waiting at
Speaker 2: the door. I don't take her up and downstairs anymore
Speaker 2: because she has a little arthritis in her back in
Speaker 2: but so we have to come outside and all the
Speaker 2: way around and then downstairs, and she goes in and
Speaker 2: she's down for the night, and she will not get
Speaker 2: out of her bed until I go in and get
Speaker 2: her up in the morning.
Speaker 3: She's Grandma got her. Yeah. She truly was Shannon's best friend.
Speaker 3: She was there with her through every single step, and
Speaker 3: she loved her and cared for her. And she's doing.
Speaker 4: Really, really good. We were so worried about her, I know,
Speaker 4: so we really were. And Shannon has said to me,
Speaker 4: she said, because Shannon got to where we used to
Speaker 4: walk her out together and then sometimes we'd walk out
Speaker 4: the front door and Shannon would sit on the bench
Speaker 4: and she said, I'm just going to sit here for
Speaker 4: a Whileie, you and boy go on and I'll wait
Speaker 4: right here for you.
Speaker 2: And she was getting boy used to just being with me. Yeah,
Speaker 2: she would say, go to grand go with Grammy. Now
Speaker 2: you're going to go with Grammy. And so we were
Speaker 2: transitioning Bowie.
Speaker 3: And she's doing good.
Speaker 2: She's done very well. Everybody that's seen her has been
Speaker 2: amazed at how well she's doing.
Speaker 3: She's a good one. She's a good soul, very good girl.
Speaker 3: So anyways, I don't know, I think what.
Speaker 2: I think we've probably covered more than enough. And I'm
Speaker 2: sorry for me in the beginning because I was.
Speaker 7: Really it was really like a little trepidacious for me
Speaker 7: today because it's you know, it's one thing having sat
Speaker 7: down with Shannon to do it and and then to
Speaker 7: know that, Okay.
Speaker 2: I'm I want to do this. I want to keep
Speaker 2: this going for her. So the nerves were really in
Speaker 2: because I really want to keep up with you guys,
Speaker 2: and for you guys to keep up with us and
Speaker 2: know what's going on and continue to love and bring
Speaker 2: some of our.
Speaker 3: Friends so she loved and some of the people that
Speaker 3: she already had, bring them back and test we're going
Speaker 3: about her and you know, just reminisce and just like
Speaker 3: keep her life going and keep all the work and
Speaker 3: all the awareness that she put out there. Continue to
Speaker 3: do that.
Speaker 8: And I'm going to force a Marie to come back
Speaker 8: in some wild I think it'll be very good and
Speaker 8: very healing for you. Ultimately, that's the reason we're all here.
Speaker 8: We're all here for Mamrosa. We're all here to make
Speaker 8: sure that you're good, that you have.
Speaker 3: Company, that you have all the love Shannel used to
Speaker 3: give you, and that you never ever feel like ever
Speaker 3: you know so.
Speaker 2: And we want you to understand that we all want to.
Speaker 1: Let's be clear, So stay tuned.
Speaker 2: Bye