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Speaker 1: This is let's be clear with Shannon Dhorney.

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Speaker 2: Hello, let's be clear friends. I want to thank you

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Speaker 2: all for all the support, outpoint of love and support

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Speaker 2: that you've given Shannon over the years and now for

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Speaker 2: her family. We appreciate it so very much and appreciate

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Speaker 2: all of you for all the years that you've followed

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Speaker 2: her and loved her. I'm sure that many of you

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Speaker 2: recognize me from a couple of previous podcasts that Shannon

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Speaker 2: had talked me into doing, and.

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Speaker 3: All the Instagram posts over the years, and all the

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Speaker 3: funny thing.

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Speaker 2: And this this podcast meant so much to Shannon because

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Speaker 2: it allowed her to tell her story and tell her

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Speaker 2: truth and over the years there's been so many stories

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Speaker 2: and untruths and things mixed up that it was just fun.

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Speaker 2: She says, I want to do this and I have

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Speaker 2: so many people that have followed me over the years

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Speaker 2: and have supported me, and I just want to give

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Speaker 2: them the opportunity to hear what my life really is.

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Speaker 2: And that's was part of the reason for this podcast.

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Speaker 2: And it meant so much to me because I got

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Speaker 2: to watch her do this when it was so special

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Speaker 2: for her and needed it helped her so much and

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Speaker 2: everything that she was going through, and to hear back

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Speaker 2: from all of you and the questions that you presented

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Speaker 2: to her in the podcast when she was answering questions

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Speaker 2: that was important. I just want to say thank you

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Speaker 2: to everybody, and I am now going to be doing

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Speaker 2: my best to try to continue this for her because

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Speaker 2: that's what we discussed that she wanted me to do.

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Speaker 2: And of course I'm not her. I could never be her.

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Speaker 2: I'm not I'm not as well spoken as she was,

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Speaker 2: but I'm here for all of you, and I hope

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Speaker 2: you're all here for me. And today I asked somebody

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Speaker 2: very special to do this with me my first time out,

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Speaker 2: because she means so much to me, and she means

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Speaker 2: so much to Shannon. They're like sisters, and she this,

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Speaker 2: this beautiful person is part of our family. And I'm

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Speaker 2: sure you will all recognize her at some point because

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Speaker 2: she was also on one of the podcasts with Shannon,

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Speaker 2: and so I'd like to introduce you now to someone

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Speaker 2: very special. Also. Her family is very special as well.

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Speaker 2: This is Anne Marie.

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Speaker 3: Thank you mama. She was said the Ricker Strata who

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Speaker 3: named you mama Rossa.

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Speaker 2: That's awesome. I forgot that I was going to tell

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Speaker 2: everybody this was who named me Mama Rosa. She started

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Speaker 2: the whole thing.

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Speaker 3: It becomes such a big thing over the years that

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Speaker 3: everybody called you Mama Rosa. And you know, I kind

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Speaker 3: of got over at one point, but I was like,

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Speaker 3: excuse me. I started that, should we tell this story

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Speaker 3: how we started that? Yeah, it was kind of funny.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, tell so.

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Speaker 3: Many many many years ago. Actually almost twenty years ago.

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Speaker 3: I realized not a week after Shannon had passed that

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Speaker 3: we would have had our twentieth anniversary of our friendship.

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Speaker 3: And it was really one of a kind. She was

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Speaker 3: one of a kind. And long story short, I came

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Speaker 3: to visit Shannon in Malibu. I was shooting, and I

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Speaker 3: remember Mama Rousa and Channon came to pick me up

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Speaker 3: from the set and I came to stay with her.

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Speaker 3: I remember vividly, and I loved to organize very much,

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Speaker 3: and I'm sure you guys have seen me throughout the

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Speaker 3: years try to like not just organize, but make Shannon

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Speaker 3: do funny things like drink green juices and work out

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Speaker 3: when she didn't want to on all that kind of

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Speaker 3: fun stuff. So I decided I was going to reorganize

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Speaker 3: Shannon's whole closet. In the process, we started trying things

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Speaker 3: on that we're in her closs a from like shows

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Speaker 3: and past like events and red carpets, and next thing

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Speaker 3: you know, I'm like fully wearing.

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Speaker 2: The world.

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Speaker 1: And I was so embarrassed because there comes Rosa.

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Speaker 3: She's turning right and I'm like, oh, hi, Mama Rosa,

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Speaker 3: fully butt naked. And that is how Memorosa's.

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Speaker 1: Work, literally, because I was like, what else do I do?

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Speaker 3: But hi, Mama Rosa, and I'm sorry and I'm not

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Speaker 3: love and ever since then, you know, she's like a

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Speaker 3: second mom to me. When I moved here to La,

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Speaker 3: Is so much more than friends. So, like she said,

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Speaker 3: I'm so so grateful. We're both so grateful for all

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Speaker 3: to really cry. We both have really held it together

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Speaker 3: because we being together taking care of each other, and well.

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Speaker 2: I tell people when somebody sees me out and you know,

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Speaker 2: they're being very kind and they want to come up

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Speaker 2: do is I look at them and I'm like, you

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Speaker 2: because if you cry, I'll start crying and I can't stop,

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Speaker 2: I know.

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Speaker 1: And she I almost cried the other day.

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Speaker 3: She was over at my house and we made it

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Speaker 3: almost an hour and a half and when she was

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Speaker 3: walking out, I hugged her and she goes, You're not crying.

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Speaker 3: I was like nope, and like I'm literally swallowing her

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Speaker 3: back up. So I think because the love and the

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Speaker 3: relationship that we have been able to cultivate over the

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Speaker 3: last twenty years, we just kind of been there for

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Speaker 3: each other. And you know, this is what I said.

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Speaker 3: I remember the day after I said to my husband

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Speaker 3: know what Shannon would have wanted me to do, and

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Speaker 3: people would have thought many things, but the one thing

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Speaker 3: die is to make sure that I call my Marosa

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Speaker 3: every morning and just find out what she's doing, and

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Speaker 3: she does, are you fitting the docks? I'm very annoying.

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Speaker 3: I'm like, what are you doing? What do you want

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Speaker 3: So I just wanted to make sure that she never

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Speaker 3: misses what she had with Channon, where you know, they

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Speaker 3: were so very close, one of the most beautiful momy

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Speaker 3: able to replace her, but I will make sure that

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Speaker 3: No wonder where I am in the world, I'm going

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Speaker 3: to figure it out to make sure I called her

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Speaker 2: So she called me every morning from Puerto Rico recently,

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Speaker 2: I did, I did so.

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Speaker 3: Anyways, thank you guys. I think that we have a

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Speaker 3: she would want you to do to keep her legacy alive?

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Speaker 3: I think that's a good one for you. Let's throw

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Speaker 2: Well, I think we've got a good start on it

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Speaker 2: right now with all the people that are listening to

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Speaker 2: and I promise to do better as I get along

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Speaker 2: with this. I'm still you're doing amazing.

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Speaker 3: What are you talking about?

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Speaker 2: I'm still alone, You're doing great, hy with it? But

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Speaker 2: and it's different. I'm sitting here with am Marie, and

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Speaker 2: I chose A Marie because I knew I would have

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Speaker 2: a different comfort zone. But when I did it before,

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Speaker 2: right now. It's a little overwhelming for me in that respect.

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Speaker 2: But as I get along down the road, it'll get better,

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Speaker 2: I know, get better.

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Speaker 3: I hope it can be just a little bit.

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Speaker 2: And her legacy will be the love that she gave

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Speaker 2: gave to people that she didn't know. I went to

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Speaker 2: And she felt it very important that she takes the

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Speaker 2: time with people and people who needed a hug. And

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Speaker 2: I think that's her legacy that people actually and even

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Speaker 2: more so now they're realizing what a wonderful, kind and

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Speaker 3: Yeah, and those who really knew her and those who

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Speaker 3: were like in her inner circle always knew that she

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Speaker 3: I think a very important thing for me that I

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Speaker 3: you guys have heard on the podcast, on the episode

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Speaker 3: that she and I did together. You know, the moment

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Speaker 3: her cancer was a big, big, big moment for her,

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Speaker 3: for you, for me, for all of those around her.

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Speaker 3: But I don't think I ever realized the mass manitude

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Speaker 2: I called you because she she called me. She I

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Speaker 2: So she and she says, I think we just need

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Speaker 2: are you sure. I'm like really she said yeah. I'm like, well,

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Speaker 3: I mean, it's usually kind of how our stories end.

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Speaker 3: It's always like you guys start something and you're like, oh, crap,

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Speaker 3: we need somebody to finish it up. So anyways, next

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Speaker 3: then you know, we just kind of figure it out,

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Speaker 3: need some training. So I got some training real quickly.

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Speaker 3: But you know what, in all seriousness, it was a

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Speaker 3: to just bear it all and share it with you guys,

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Speaker 3: and you know the outpouring of love after that post.

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Speaker 3: I remember, we talked about it and we kept saying, impressed,

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Speaker 2: This is home.

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Speaker 3: Your relationship was truly special, you know, like I it's

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Speaker 3: if it's a headache. I don't care if it's a toe.

435
00:21:28,200 --> 00:21:30,920
Speaker 3: She goes, I'm your friend. This is a both goes

436
00:21:30,960 --> 00:21:33,480
Speaker 3: both directions. And that's the kind of person that she was.

437
00:21:33,600 --> 00:21:37,440
Speaker 3: It didn't matter. She's just finishing the toilet. She would

438
00:21:37,480 --> 00:21:39,840
Speaker 3: be like one second and she's like, wait, back to you.

439
00:21:39,920 --> 00:21:40,520
Speaker 1: What hurts?

440
00:21:40,760 --> 00:21:44,400
Speaker 3: She goes, let me put that on Google. She would

441
00:21:44,480 --> 00:21:48,040
Speaker 3: diagnose me. So that's truly the kind of friend. And honestly,

442
00:21:48,119 --> 00:21:51,639
Speaker 3: like talking right now, it's like I miss her, Like

443
00:21:51,680 --> 00:21:55,480
Speaker 3: I miss her so much. God, yeah, Like it's just

444
00:21:55,600 --> 00:21:59,200
Speaker 3: not real, you know, it's I keep going and I

445
00:21:59,280 --> 00:22:02,560
Speaker 3: keep getting myself. I have reorganized my freaking house so

446
00:22:02,640 --> 00:22:06,639
Speaker 3: many times. On my drawers, I'm pulling everything in her house.

447
00:22:07,320 --> 00:22:12,520
Speaker 3: I made Claudia, who's our housekeeper, I made Claudia go

448
00:22:12,600 --> 00:22:15,960
Speaker 3: with me to the into the pantry. I'm like, everything

449
00:22:16,000 --> 00:22:18,080
Speaker 3: in here has got to be taken out. And when

450
00:22:18,119 --> 00:22:21,639
Speaker 3: you started laughing, because the last time that happened is

451
00:22:21,680 --> 00:22:24,160
Speaker 3: when Shannon did it. So the apple doesn't fall far

452
00:22:24,160 --> 00:22:26,199
Speaker 3: from thee in that respect. But I think that's what

453
00:22:26,320 --> 00:22:28,720
Speaker 3: you and I do. We just like we kind of

454
00:22:28,800 --> 00:22:31,840
Speaker 3: keep going instead of sitting, and like, I know at

455
00:22:31,840 --> 00:22:34,560
Speaker 3: some point we have to sit and feel the feelings.

456
00:22:35,119 --> 00:22:38,560
Speaker 3: But for now, I'm just keeping busy, Like I just

457
00:22:38,680 --> 00:22:42,000
Speaker 3: I keep picking up the phone, and I keep wanting

458
00:22:42,000 --> 00:22:44,359
Speaker 3: to tell her something funny that happened that only she

459
00:22:44,440 --> 00:22:47,359
Speaker 3: would think it's funny. And that's the thing, like, you know,

460
00:22:47,480 --> 00:22:49,560
Speaker 3: you have all different I have. I'm very blessed, I

461
00:22:49,560 --> 00:22:52,639
Speaker 3: have great friends, I have a beautiful family, my family,

462
00:22:52,720 --> 00:22:55,280
Speaker 3: my mom, my dad. But there's just shit. I would

463
00:22:55,280 --> 00:22:58,040
Speaker 3: tell her that just only she would get yeah, And

464
00:22:58,119 --> 00:23:01,240
Speaker 3: like I keep thinking to myself, is she punking me?

465
00:23:01,480 --> 00:23:03,399
Speaker 3: She kind of come out like I swear it on

466
00:23:03,480 --> 00:23:06,200
Speaker 3: my way here, and I'm like, maybe this is all Joe.

467
00:23:06,359 --> 00:23:08,680
Speaker 3: Maybe she'll come out and be like, ah, I got

468
00:23:08,720 --> 00:23:11,639
Speaker 3: you all. You know. So it's like it really makes

469
00:23:11,680 --> 00:23:14,360
Speaker 3: me sad, and like I have gone through the process

470
00:23:14,520 --> 00:23:17,879
Speaker 3: of I get sad and I cry and I get angry.

471
00:23:17,920 --> 00:23:20,680
Speaker 3: I haven't had a full cry yet. I don't know when.

472
00:23:20,760 --> 00:23:24,119
Speaker 3: I'm sure it'll come at some point when I truly

473
00:23:24,240 --> 00:23:28,320
Speaker 3: realize it. And as you guys, know eventually in some

474
00:23:28,600 --> 00:23:31,800
Speaker 3: near future we're going to do a celebration. Yes, right,

475
00:23:32,040 --> 00:23:35,000
Speaker 3: I know that that's been asked a lot. We're working

476
00:23:35,040 --> 00:23:39,159
Speaker 3: on it, Roses. This is on Ross's terms. When she's ready,

477
00:23:39,200 --> 00:23:41,600
Speaker 3: we'll let you guys know. Just some lot involved right

478
00:23:41,640 --> 00:23:57,840
Speaker 3: now that we have to take care first. It's funny

479
00:23:57,880 --> 00:24:01,040
Speaker 3: talking about her thinking that she's going to be here.

480
00:24:01,320 --> 00:24:07,240
Speaker 2: It's like just a week ago. I was in my car,

481
00:24:07,760 --> 00:24:13,560
Speaker 2: which I call the Beast, and it's new. It was

482
00:24:14,400 --> 00:24:17,720
Speaker 2: Shannon wanted to be sure that I had a car

483
00:24:17,800 --> 00:24:20,359
Speaker 2: that was new and that was really big and heavy

484
00:24:20,640 --> 00:24:23,600
Speaker 2: so that I was really safe. I loved my car

485
00:24:23,680 --> 00:24:26,560
Speaker 2: that I had, and one day I came in it

486
00:24:26,560 --> 00:24:28,879
Speaker 2: had disappeared. She said there was something wrong, and I

487
00:24:28,920 --> 00:24:31,160
Speaker 2: had triple A take it to the shop, but used

488
00:24:31,280 --> 00:24:33,640
Speaker 2: mine while you're waiting for years, and then one day

489
00:24:33,680 --> 00:24:37,800
Speaker 2: that the car came so it long story short. I

490
00:24:37,880 --> 00:24:40,720
Speaker 2: had to go to Beverly Hills to drop something off,

491
00:24:41,640 --> 00:24:44,240
Speaker 2: and I had a friend with me and we were

492
00:24:44,280 --> 00:24:46,840
Speaker 2: coming back and I left Beverly Hills. I got in

493
00:24:46,880 --> 00:24:50,840
Speaker 2: front of the Mormon Temple and Santa Monica Boulevard and

494
00:24:50,880 --> 00:24:54,720
Speaker 2: the car started wanting to do things on its own. Well,

495
00:24:54,760 --> 00:24:57,960
Speaker 2: I was resistant and I both hands on the steering wheel.

496
00:24:58,000 --> 00:24:59,800
Speaker 2: I'm like, no, no, no, I refuse to get on the

497
00:25:00,640 --> 00:25:03,639
Speaker 2: but I drove all the way from Beverly Hills in

498
00:25:03,800 --> 00:25:08,960
Speaker 2: major daytime traffic to Malibu part the car, and I'm like, okay,

499
00:25:09,880 --> 00:25:13,959
Speaker 2: I'll use Shannon's car from now on. So Anne Marie

500
00:25:14,119 --> 00:25:18,240
Speaker 2: heard my troubled story and she says, we got to

501
00:25:18,240 --> 00:25:21,760
Speaker 2: fix that. We got to fix that. And she actually

502
00:25:21,800 --> 00:25:24,199
Speaker 2: came over and we sat in the car together, and

503
00:25:24,240 --> 00:25:26,520
Speaker 2: she had a friend who had a similar experience with

504
00:25:26,600 --> 00:25:29,040
Speaker 2: a car like mine, so she kind of knew where

505
00:25:29,040 --> 00:25:33,200
Speaker 2: to start. But so then when she got it all fixed,

506
00:25:33,640 --> 00:25:35,399
Speaker 2: we went to lunch and she said, I'm just going

507
00:25:35,440 --> 00:25:37,159
Speaker 2: to follow you and then I'll go on to my

508
00:25:37,280 --> 00:25:39,919
Speaker 2: house afterwards, but we will know that your car is okay.

509
00:25:40,440 --> 00:25:42,440
Speaker 2: I was so excited by the time I got back

510
00:25:42,480 --> 00:25:44,560
Speaker 2: and I felt so good. A Marie and I had lunch,

511
00:25:44,680 --> 00:25:47,520
Speaker 2: the car was fixed, everything up. I opened the door,

512
00:25:47,520 --> 00:25:51,720
Speaker 2: I went running in the house and I'm like, Shannon,

513
00:25:52,119 --> 00:25:56,119
Speaker 2: guess what. A Marie fixed my car? And then I

514
00:25:56,240 --> 00:26:00,080
Speaker 2: was like and then the tears came. Yeah, I'm like

515
00:26:00,160 --> 00:26:00,760
Speaker 2: she's not here.

516
00:26:00,880 --> 00:26:01,960
Speaker 3: Now you know it did.

517
00:26:02,240 --> 00:26:05,600
Speaker 2: She did leave me with this car that this girl

518
00:26:05,720 --> 00:26:06,800
Speaker 2: has a mine of its own.

519
00:26:07,280 --> 00:26:08,960
Speaker 1: It really was in a mind of its own.

520
00:26:09,080 --> 00:26:12,520
Speaker 3: It just had the assist at lane driving that Rosa

521
00:26:12,680 --> 00:26:16,240
Speaker 3: was not used to because I know it was on there.

522
00:26:16,600 --> 00:26:19,360
Speaker 3: So basically, anytime she would get off a little bit

523
00:26:19,400 --> 00:26:23,160
Speaker 3: of the lane, it would push her back into the lane,

524
00:26:23,160 --> 00:26:26,720
Speaker 3: which is kind of like an amazing feature if you

525
00:26:26,840 --> 00:26:29,159
Speaker 3: know about it. But when you have these beasts that

526
00:26:29,240 --> 00:26:31,840
Speaker 3: you call her, you know, pushing you to one side,

527
00:26:31,880 --> 00:26:34,439
Speaker 3: it's a little scary. So we fixed it. Her business

528
00:26:34,520 --> 00:26:38,080
Speaker 3: fully operational. She will take on the roads and the canyons,

529
00:26:38,440 --> 00:26:40,359
Speaker 3: and she calls me and I make sure she texts

530
00:26:40,359 --> 00:26:42,000
Speaker 3: me every time she gets off the canyon. I'm like,

531
00:26:42,040 --> 00:26:45,080
Speaker 3: are you home? Are you inside? Did we lock the doors?

532
00:26:45,400 --> 00:26:49,040
Speaker 3: I mean, I've become I've become Chandon's. She says, where

533
00:26:49,080 --> 00:26:51,840
Speaker 3: are you? I don't know where I was because she

534
00:26:51,960 --> 00:26:55,200
Speaker 3: had a tracker on me. Oh I'm gonna we're doing that,

535
00:26:57,640 --> 00:26:59,400
Speaker 3: but we're where are you?

536
00:27:00,040 --> 00:27:01,679
Speaker 1: Because I can hear her on the road and it

537
00:27:01,760 --> 00:27:03,800
Speaker 1: was late in Calabasas.

538
00:27:03,800 --> 00:27:04,560
Speaker 2: What are you doing there?

539
00:27:04,640 --> 00:27:04,840
Speaker 6: Yeah?

540
00:27:04,840 --> 00:27:06,760
Speaker 3: I'm like, you're like twenty five minutes away from the house.

541
00:27:06,800 --> 00:27:09,040
Speaker 1: I was like, get over the canyon already.

542
00:27:09,080 --> 00:27:11,600
Speaker 2: I'm like, I'm coming over out of the canyon. I'm good,

543
00:27:11,640 --> 00:27:14,199
Speaker 2: and I'm all good. She's what minute you get in

544
00:27:14,280 --> 00:27:16,120
Speaker 2: you let me know? Yeah, I need to know.

545
00:27:16,320 --> 00:27:17,840
Speaker 3: I need to know where the important people in my

546
00:27:17,880 --> 00:27:20,359
Speaker 3: life are at all times before I close my eyes.

547
00:27:20,680 --> 00:27:23,120
Speaker 3: You know, it's just how it is. It's the Puerto

548
00:27:23,240 --> 00:27:27,399
Speaker 3: Rican in me. It's that you know, protector. So you know,

549
00:27:27,600 --> 00:27:30,600
Speaker 3: I do have those moments for sure that I just

550
00:27:30,800 --> 00:27:33,000
Speaker 3: keep wanting to dial the phone. And I have a

551
00:27:33,160 --> 00:27:35,359
Speaker 3: couple of She never used to lead boys notes, but

552
00:27:35,400 --> 00:27:37,639
Speaker 3: I have a couple of voice messages and I listened

553
00:27:37,680 --> 00:27:38,080
Speaker 3: to me. Yeah.

554
00:27:38,520 --> 00:27:41,280
Speaker 2: She would just call and hang up. Yeah, just like

555
00:27:41,880 --> 00:27:44,239
Speaker 2: it's like, oh, Shannon called, What did she want? When

556
00:27:44,280 --> 00:27:45,000
Speaker 2: you call her?

557
00:27:45,160 --> 00:27:47,840
Speaker 3: I hear her the way she used to call Scott. Yeah, time,

558
00:27:47,880 --> 00:27:49,280
Speaker 3: you know what she used to call him. I'm not

559
00:27:49,320 --> 00:27:51,320
Speaker 3: going to say it, but I hear it all the time.

560
00:27:51,400 --> 00:27:54,760
Speaker 3: She's like, hey, what's up? And I'm like, oh my god,

561
00:27:54,800 --> 00:27:57,000
Speaker 3: I'm not going to hear that again. Yeah, but you

562
00:27:57,040 --> 00:28:01,159
Speaker 3: know what, we truly are last. We have amazing memories.

563
00:28:01,240 --> 00:28:05,320
Speaker 3: She fought the fight like no one I've ever seen.

564
00:28:05,240 --> 00:28:07,280
Speaker 2: She and she didn't show it.

565
00:28:08,080 --> 00:28:08,720
Speaker 3: She really did it.

566
00:28:08,880 --> 00:28:10,960
Speaker 2: She didn't show it. She did not. We would go out,

567
00:28:11,000 --> 00:28:12,640
Speaker 2: we would go to dinner or whatever.

568
00:28:12,359 --> 00:28:13,320
Speaker 1: And grocery store.

569
00:28:13,359 --> 00:28:15,879
Speaker 3: She loves you too, love the grocery store. There's more

570
00:28:15,920 --> 00:28:19,560
Speaker 3: paparazzi pictures of vintage browsers and any other stores.

571
00:28:19,280 --> 00:28:22,400
Speaker 2: The grocery store. But whenever I would go by myself

572
00:28:22,520 --> 00:28:24,080
Speaker 2: or like I was, I have a little job that

573
00:28:24,160 --> 00:28:26,680
Speaker 2: I do and when I would leave work, and I

574
00:28:26,680 --> 00:28:28,760
Speaker 2: would always text her and call her and say, hey,

575
00:28:28,800 --> 00:28:30,760
Speaker 2: I'm leaving work. Didn't need anything and want me to

576
00:28:30,920 --> 00:28:33,160
Speaker 2: pick up something for dinner or I can order something

577
00:28:33,200 --> 00:28:35,679
Speaker 2: for dinner, and uh, she said, We'll go to the

578
00:28:35,680 --> 00:28:39,440
Speaker 2: grocery store and pick up maybe five items. I'm that

579
00:28:39,520 --> 00:28:42,280
Speaker 2: person when I go to the grocery store. It's very

580
00:28:42,320 --> 00:28:45,200
Speaker 2: relaxing to me. And some grocery stores have great music.

581
00:28:45,240 --> 00:28:47,760
Speaker 2: You could probably do a date night there at midnight,

582
00:28:47,880 --> 00:28:51,280
Speaker 2: and they have everything you'd need. But it would be

583
00:28:51,360 --> 00:28:55,000
Speaker 2: like the phone, I'm in the grocery store. Where are you?

584
00:28:55,240 --> 00:28:57,120
Speaker 2: What are you? I'm like, I'm in the grocery store.

585
00:28:57,160 --> 00:28:59,640
Speaker 1: She just send me for five or five things.

586
00:29:00,240 --> 00:29:03,160
Speaker 2: I go up and down in every aisle. Yeah, I know,

587
00:29:03,600 --> 00:29:04,280
Speaker 2: I just do it.

588
00:29:04,280 --> 00:29:05,120
Speaker 3: It's they're a predict.

589
00:29:05,320 --> 00:29:07,360
Speaker 6: Yeah. I love the grocery store. It's the same way

590
00:29:07,400 --> 00:29:10,120
Speaker 6: that you like to go out eat. I do nice

591
00:29:10,200 --> 00:29:13,120
Speaker 6: drive just to like drive out, I have to get

592
00:29:13,200 --> 00:29:16,120
Speaker 6: out and just change the scenery for a little exactly.

593
00:29:16,360 --> 00:29:21,200
Speaker 6: And by the way, for everyone asking, Bowie's doing just great, yes,

594
00:29:21,640 --> 00:29:24,520
Speaker 6: always thriving. I just took her on a little walk

595
00:29:25,440 --> 00:29:28,440
Speaker 6: and she got so excited. She was like ready to

596
00:29:28,480 --> 00:29:30,640
Speaker 6: play for the it's so pretty.

597
00:29:30,880 --> 00:29:33,680
Speaker 3: She gave me a full smile, and.

598
00:29:33,600 --> 00:29:36,520
Speaker 2: She's kind of smiled at her times when she We

599
00:29:36,640 --> 00:29:39,000
Speaker 2: kind of like to set the times because I also

600
00:29:39,120 --> 00:29:43,920
Speaker 2: have a little dog, Indy, and Bowie doesn't like other dogs,

601
00:29:44,360 --> 00:29:47,960
Speaker 2: so we have to keep them, keep them statement. The

602
00:29:48,040 --> 00:29:52,560
Speaker 2: boy knows what time is her bedtime, and when it's bedtime,

603
00:29:53,200 --> 00:29:55,760
Speaker 2: she she lets me know. She's standing there waiting at

604
00:29:55,800 --> 00:29:57,920
Speaker 2: the door. I don't take her up and downstairs anymore

605
00:29:57,960 --> 00:30:00,160
Speaker 2: because she has a little arthritis in her back in

606
00:30:00,240 --> 00:30:02,800
Speaker 2: but so we have to come outside and all the

607
00:30:02,800 --> 00:30:05,920
Speaker 2: way around and then downstairs, and she goes in and

608
00:30:05,960 --> 00:30:08,840
Speaker 2: she's down for the night, and she will not get

609
00:30:08,880 --> 00:30:10,680
Speaker 2: out of her bed until I go in and get

610
00:30:10,680 --> 00:30:11,440
Speaker 2: her up in the morning.

611
00:30:12,320 --> 00:30:17,600
Speaker 3: She's Grandma got her. Yeah. She truly was Shannon's best friend.

612
00:30:17,720 --> 00:30:21,479
Speaker 3: She was there with her through every single step, and

613
00:30:21,520 --> 00:30:25,680
Speaker 3: she loved her and cared for her. And she's doing.

614
00:30:25,520 --> 00:30:27,959
Speaker 4: Really, really good. We were so worried about her, I know,

615
00:30:28,040 --> 00:30:30,640
Speaker 4: so we really were. And Shannon has said to me,

616
00:30:30,880 --> 00:30:33,640
Speaker 4: she said, because Shannon got to where we used to

617
00:30:33,640 --> 00:30:37,560
Speaker 4: walk her out together and then sometimes we'd walk out

618
00:30:37,560 --> 00:30:39,200
Speaker 4: the front door and Shannon would sit on the bench

619
00:30:39,240 --> 00:30:40,600
Speaker 4: and she said, I'm just going to sit here for

620
00:30:40,640 --> 00:30:42,760
Speaker 4: a Whileie, you and boy go on and I'll wait

621
00:30:42,880 --> 00:30:43,520
Speaker 4: right here for you.

622
00:30:44,160 --> 00:30:49,200
Speaker 2: And she was getting boy used to just being with me. Yeah,

623
00:30:49,320 --> 00:30:51,160
Speaker 2: she would say, go to grand go with Grammy. Now

624
00:30:51,200 --> 00:30:53,880
Speaker 2: you're going to go with Grammy. And so we were

625
00:30:53,920 --> 00:30:55,360
Speaker 2: transitioning Bowie.

626
00:30:55,480 --> 00:30:56,440
Speaker 3: And she's doing good.

627
00:30:56,880 --> 00:31:00,840
Speaker 2: She's done very well. Everybody that's seen her has been

628
00:31:00,920 --> 00:31:02,720
Speaker 2: amazed at how well she's doing.

629
00:31:03,240 --> 00:31:06,400
Speaker 3: She's a good one. She's a good soul, very good girl.

630
00:31:06,800 --> 00:31:11,840
Speaker 3: So anyways, I don't know, I think what.

631
00:31:11,800 --> 00:31:14,200
Speaker 2: I think we've probably covered more than enough. And I'm

632
00:31:14,280 --> 00:31:17,080
Speaker 2: sorry for me in the beginning because I was.

633
00:31:17,040 --> 00:31:22,040
Speaker 7: Really it was really like a little trepidacious for me

634
00:31:22,080 --> 00:31:24,680
Speaker 7: today because it's you know, it's one thing having sat

635
00:31:24,720 --> 00:31:28,240
Speaker 7: down with Shannon to do it and and then to

636
00:31:28,320 --> 00:31:29,280
Speaker 7: know that, Okay.

637
00:31:29,040 --> 00:31:31,360
Speaker 2: I'm I want to do this. I want to keep

638
00:31:31,360 --> 00:31:34,720
Speaker 2: this going for her. So the nerves were really in

639
00:31:34,880 --> 00:31:38,640
Speaker 2: because I really want to keep up with you guys,

640
00:31:38,760 --> 00:31:41,520
Speaker 2: and for you guys to keep up with us and

641
00:31:41,800 --> 00:31:44,960
Speaker 2: know what's going on and continue to love and bring

642
00:31:45,000 --> 00:31:45,520
Speaker 2: some of our.

643
00:31:45,480 --> 00:31:47,440
Speaker 3: Friends so she loved and some of the people that

644
00:31:47,560 --> 00:31:50,160
Speaker 3: she already had, bring them back and test we're going

645
00:31:50,640 --> 00:31:53,840
Speaker 3: about her and you know, just reminisce and just like

646
00:31:53,960 --> 00:31:57,280
Speaker 3: keep her life going and keep all the work and

647
00:31:57,320 --> 00:32:00,760
Speaker 3: all the awareness that she put out there. Continue to

648
00:32:00,840 --> 00:32:01,120
Speaker 3: do that.

649
00:32:01,400 --> 00:32:03,400
Speaker 8: And I'm going to force a Marie to come back

650
00:32:03,480 --> 00:32:05,960
Speaker 8: in some wild I think it'll be very good and

651
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Speaker 8: very healing for you. Ultimately, that's the reason we're all here.

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Speaker 8: We're all here for Mamrosa. We're all here to make

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Speaker 8: sure that you're good, that you have.

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Speaker 3: Company, that you have all the love Shannel used to

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Speaker 3: give you, and that you never ever feel like ever

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Speaker 3: you know so.

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Speaker 2: And we want you to understand that we all want to.

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Speaker 1: Let's be clear, So stay tuned.

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Speaker 2: Bye