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Speaker 1: I think they took the word clean, which means they

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Speaker 1: want you to be pure, which you mean nobody is puire,

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Speaker 1: but you want to be as perid as you can

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Speaker 1: when you step towards my brother.

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Speaker 2: You got to be righteous too.

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Speaker 3: You got to be righteous. You got to be righteous.

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Speaker 2: Part of the clean right. You're gonna practice being clean.

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Speaker 4: Now you're gonna rely your false food every day.

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Speaker 3: What you got right here, Oh Theesus, this is gonna

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Speaker 3: be for y'all. This is the book that's gonna be yours.

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Speaker 3: That's gonna be yours, Johnny, that's gonna be yours. Everybody

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Speaker 3: get a copy. Just whenever Runner can get to it.

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Speaker 3: You may get to it, but no matter what, definitely

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Speaker 2: I appreciate it.

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Speaker 3: Fam were ready you ready? DC?

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Speaker 2: Yeah, We're ready.

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Speaker 3: Hey man, welcome back to any famam Hey you? Oh yeah,

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Speaker 3: I got a little literature, man. They see who we

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Speaker 3: got in here with us today?

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Speaker 2: Man, Man, we got some soul for brothers. You dig

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Speaker 2: what I'm saying.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, some real down the earth artists.

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Speaker 5: Legends, especially when you're talking about you know what I'm saying.

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Speaker 6: Sacramento coming out of California.

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Speaker 2: If you dig what I'm saying, we got emmy. We

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Speaker 2: ain't just talking about artists just being in the studio

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Speaker 2: rapping ship. You know, niggas got.

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Speaker 7: Ship like that.

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Speaker 2: Dig what I'm saying. You gotta be tapped in music.

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Speaker 7: Just ain't music just because you ain't heard. I'm gonna

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Speaker 7: say that again. Music ain't music just because you ain't heard.

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Speaker 7: Feel what I'm saying. It's so much classical music that

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Speaker 7: you got to tap into.

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Speaker 2: And then I think that's why we this is a

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Speaker 5: Because we got all these different DSPs and we could

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Speaker 2: Search as much music as we can.

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Speaker 3: Absolutely, and.

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Speaker 7: These group of individuals is every time they piece or

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Speaker 7: put anything together, they compose anything.

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Speaker 2: Man, just be classic. You dig know what I'm saying.

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Speaker 7: We got a Korean You dig what I'm saying, big

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Speaker 7: time producing Jenny cool.

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Speaker 2: Man.

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Speaker 3: He man would appreciate y'all stopping through that. Come on,

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Speaker 3: That's why. That's that's why I feel so good.

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Speaker 8: Others bad. Real, No, it's it's love to even be

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Speaker 8: here with y'all. And you know what I mean, just

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Speaker 8: be able to do this, you know what I mean?

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Speaker 5: So we really appreciate that talk Johnny is behind a

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Speaker 5: lot of shit that's already like no, and shit like

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Speaker 5: he pieced to beat up?

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Speaker 2: Like no, he who pieced to beat up? Maybe somebody

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Speaker 8: But yeah, I mean it goes like that, just just

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Speaker 8: it was a learning process for me getting into the

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Speaker 8: like my first placement with was it Genuine at the time, Yeah, I.

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Speaker 3: Think it was what what what? What song was it came?

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Speaker 8: I don't even remember the name of the record they

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Speaker 8: these beats, you know what I mean. And then that

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Speaker 8: with just work with artists. I didn't know nothing about

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Speaker 8: All I knew is I got these beats and I

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Speaker 8: So along the way, you know what I'm saying, I

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Speaker 8: to you know, just how everything broke down. And uh,

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Speaker 8: And but now it's a new day. You know what

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Speaker 3: So, yeah, that's dope. That's dope. I think about like

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Speaker 3: found and he's also want them, you know, one of

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Speaker 3: I've seen him touch a lot of records that wasn't

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Speaker 3: and in fact he did right, So shout out to

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Speaker 3: to you go behind twenty four y'all. Oh yeah, yeah

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Speaker 3: he had twenty four hours. Man. You know what I'm saying.

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Speaker 8: Me and my brother, we was able to Yeah, man,

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Speaker 3: You know what I'm saying.

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Speaker 8: My boys, Spencer, you know what I mean?

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Speaker 2: He did? Yeah, yeah, See, I love this ship, you

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Speaker 2: know what I'm saying. Like I even met I met

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Speaker 2: Johnny doing them What the hell? I was doing a

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Speaker 8: It was a hip hop magazine magazine interview.

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Speaker 2: He downstairs in the studio. Yes, sir, he just don't

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Speaker 2: have enough. He'll pro said, hey, what's up.

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Speaker 3: I'm like shit, hold so he'd be like, you know

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Speaker 2: Know, you do music whatever we like, but you're up

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Speaker 2: holding it down through the dude. But we hear this

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Speaker 3: I'm like, I got his I got to hear song

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Speaker 2: I'm like, all right, I go in this studio. I'm like,

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Speaker 2: let me see what's saying. He plays some I'm like,

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Speaker 2: like you record it an hill. He like, yeah, nigga,

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Speaker 2: I know how to engineer it. That one thing with artists, bro,

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Speaker 5: Cause it's like buying weed from a new personal. You

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Speaker 2: Don't worry about me, poor, I'm gonna show you boom

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Speaker 2: boom boom boom boom boom boom boom boo. Oh that nigga.

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Speaker 2: Ain't cat Oh.

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Speaker 3: Say no more.

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Speaker 2: We're locked in, been locked in ever since.

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Speaker 3: Sure, he said on the time cook Kitchen Fast, right,

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Speaker 3: John really got experienced cooking. I remember, like it's start

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Speaker 3: way back from him and me, start back in like

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Speaker 3: ninety five. John used to sneak out the house with

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Speaker 3: She wasn't going for it na studio.

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Speaker 2: No, no those hours, but you go where you ain't.

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Speaker 3: Going to the studio. But my brothers was into the

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Speaker 3: everything so we can figure out how to get these

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Speaker 3: So that was one of the earliest ways he was

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Speaker 3: It's about to say require the same thing. And we

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Speaker 2: Yeah, it's all that's hall y'all fifteen ninety five.

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Speaker 8: But y'all, no, no, no, Now, we've been friends since

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Speaker 3: We make friends, uh, you know, racing in school and Ben.

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Speaker 9: Don't let that nigga try to shame you many, brother.

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Speaker 3: That's one of my favorites.

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Speaker 8: And you know what's funny about that that first studio though,

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Speaker 8: we had our one brother, Drew Scott, who was cold

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Speaker 8: He was like one of them catch that player at

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Speaker 3: So he was like that.

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Speaker 8: But he was young too, we're the same age. So

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Speaker 8: She was like, Hey, I think I want to sing.

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Speaker 8: We were like, all right, come on, we're gonna show

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Speaker 3: Ru you know what I'm saying.

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Speaker 2: Then you know, he called he got that. I don't

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Speaker 2: want to interrupt, Walt, bring your ass on. He like, man,

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Speaker 2: I just I just got to walk your hands.

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Speaker 3: Damn she cold too.

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Speaker 2: Yeah.

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Speaker 3: What she went on to do, it's amazing.

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Speaker 8: So it's it's some it's some real talents come up

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Speaker 8: by the Sacramento man.

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Speaker 3: In fact, but show for sure.

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Speaker 9: Oh look so he get you right, we'll be Yeah,

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Speaker 9: we can't officially start to show to somebody might go out.

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Speaker 3: It's like a good look, let me get let me

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Speaker 3: get your back, No canna get your bright back.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, just having all the time, get your.

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Speaker 3: Let me get that. Let me go you you you're

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Speaker 2: Lot uh the world bus ride.

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Speaker 3: Put her head around. Yeah. Yeah, that nigga was creeping

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Speaker 3: up coming to the city. What he was sitting on

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Speaker 3: the couch she came behind that ship was funny back.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, we beg were running.

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Speaker 5: All right, being from a situation like understand, like how

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Speaker 5: does she go like explain when emy and I and

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Speaker 3: Explain that that that's a crazy entry point. It's a

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Speaker 3: never would you never wanted life to take you in

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Speaker 3: See, the craziest part is like that the whole the

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Speaker 3: and you learn to acknowledge it. You learn to figure

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Speaker 3: out what's coming to tell me, and you learn how

439
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Speaker 3: to keep navigating the responsibility of one foot in front

440
00:23:17,160 --> 00:23:19,320
Speaker 3: of the other. I feel I feel like it's like

441
00:23:19,560 --> 00:23:21,400
Speaker 3: like a spiritual war. Look at it, how like being

442
00:23:21,440 --> 00:23:21,840
Speaker 3: in the war.

443
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Speaker 2: Right, No matter how fraid.

444
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Speaker 5: Or how frustrated they might be, they have to they

445
00:23:26,359 --> 00:23:29,239
Speaker 5: have to keep a certain composure in order for them

446
00:23:29,320 --> 00:23:30,800
Speaker 5: to get to the next destination.

447
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Speaker 3: M hm.

448
00:23:32,240 --> 00:23:35,480
Speaker 2: So you in the battlefield and this blood a lot

449
00:23:35,520 --> 00:23:38,520
Speaker 2: of shit they help going like that, you like.

450
00:23:40,200 --> 00:23:44,080
Speaker 3: Times out, Yeah, total chaosity. But then you have to

451
00:23:44,160 --> 00:23:45,240
Speaker 3: rely on your training.

452
00:23:45,359 --> 00:23:47,119
Speaker 2: You got to rely on your training.

453
00:23:47,160 --> 00:23:50,680
Speaker 5: And what is that training that you've been you've been

454
00:23:50,720 --> 00:23:52,399
Speaker 5: so purposefully training on.

455
00:23:52,760 --> 00:23:54,840
Speaker 2: Wow, this is when he kicks head.

456
00:23:55,000 --> 00:23:57,760
Speaker 3: Hey, let me tell you some training. So this is

457
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Speaker 3: my this is my brother right here.

458
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Speaker 2: Man.

459
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Speaker 8: So I've seen him go through loss after loss but

460
00:24:04,840 --> 00:24:08,959
Speaker 8: having resilience and also seeing him stand in the space

461
00:24:09,320 --> 00:24:12,200
Speaker 8: for students, for relatives and friends.

462
00:24:13,560 --> 00:24:14,679
Speaker 3: But now when he's in the.

463
00:24:14,720 --> 00:24:17,960
Speaker 8: Space where he needs that support, it's like, man, it's

464
00:24:18,040 --> 00:24:21,120
Speaker 8: kind of hard to find. So he had this book,

465
00:24:22,040 --> 00:24:24,280
Speaker 8: he had this book written and it wasn't even a

466
00:24:24,280 --> 00:24:28,360
Speaker 8: book at the point, it was him just getting into

467
00:24:28,440 --> 00:24:31,680
Speaker 8: a practice of, you know, let's just write some affirmation

468
00:24:31,960 --> 00:24:33,639
Speaker 8: what I'm saying. Let's just make this a healthy practice

469
00:24:33,640 --> 00:24:39,040
Speaker 8: of writing informations. And he had he had the composition

470
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Speaker 8: of affirmations done. And I remember we were sitting at

471
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Speaker 8: his kitchen table after the loss of Camayu Sou and

472
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Speaker 8: he was like, Bro, I just don't got the answers.

473
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Speaker 3: I just don't know what. I just I can't.

474
00:24:55,920 --> 00:24:59,480
Speaker 8: I don't want to hear nothing. And I said, you

475
00:24:59,560 --> 00:25:01,160
Speaker 8: might not want to hear this, bro, but you already

476
00:25:01,200 --> 00:25:08,120
Speaker 8: did the work. It's in that book. And I damn

477
00:25:08,119 --> 00:25:09,080
Speaker 8: sure wasn't trying to hear it.

478
00:25:09,119 --> 00:25:12,040
Speaker 3: I've remember, and I remember because it's coming from my

479
00:25:12,119 --> 00:25:14,080
Speaker 3: dog too, right, So it's like you ain't trying to

480
00:25:14,119 --> 00:25:15,520
Speaker 3: bark on a nigga. But it's the only place I

481
00:25:15,560 --> 00:25:17,840
Speaker 3: can really tell you how I feel. I don't feel

482
00:25:17,840 --> 00:25:20,359
Speaker 3: like hearing none of that, right, none of it. I

483
00:25:20,400 --> 00:25:24,600
Speaker 3: don't care what's in there. But it's just it mattered

484
00:25:24,600 --> 00:25:26,920
Speaker 3: when you have solid people beside you. You did what

485
00:25:27,000 --> 00:25:31,280
Speaker 3: I'm saying. And when I realized that, like my own

486
00:25:31,400 --> 00:25:37,040
Speaker 3: experiences were not just my own experiences. First things first, like, yes,

487
00:25:37,160 --> 00:25:41,320
Speaker 3: it feels like it's just you, but it's never just you,

488
00:25:42,200 --> 00:25:44,720
Speaker 3: Like none of us is just us. So when I

489
00:25:44,840 --> 00:25:47,880
Speaker 3: realized that other people haven't experiences similar to my lived experiences,

490
00:25:48,480 --> 00:25:51,800
Speaker 3: I realized that reference is what we need. We need more.

491
00:25:51,960 --> 00:25:55,040
Speaker 3: We need more, We need more reference, We need more stories.

492
00:25:55,520 --> 00:25:58,600
Speaker 3: We need our voice, right, we need black men's voice

493
00:25:59,160 --> 00:26:01,960
Speaker 3: included in there in conversation, including in how we're doing,

494
00:26:02,080 --> 00:26:04,480
Speaker 3: including with how we checking on each other, Like, we

495
00:26:04,560 --> 00:26:09,160
Speaker 3: need our own voice because if you it's very easy

496
00:26:09,320 --> 00:26:13,120
Speaker 3: for them and the general public to assume we don't

497
00:26:13,160 --> 00:26:16,320
Speaker 3: feel It's very easy for them to assume that we

498
00:26:16,440 --> 00:26:17,320
Speaker 3: don't have feelings.

499
00:26:18,160 --> 00:26:18,320
Speaker 2: Uh.

500
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Speaker 3: And this isn't just like modern this is a historical practice.

501
00:26:22,880 --> 00:26:24,800
Speaker 3: We're not as humans, so we don't have all the

502
00:26:24,920 --> 00:26:27,440
Speaker 3: human emotion, but we do got full range of emotion.

503
00:26:29,200 --> 00:26:31,320
Speaker 3: So I just realized that bro, like I needed to

504
00:26:31,800 --> 00:26:36,240
Speaker 3: leave my leave reference along the journey from my experiences

505
00:26:36,280 --> 00:26:39,239
Speaker 3: in case somebody else has an experience. They they got

506
00:26:39,240 --> 00:26:41,000
Speaker 3: something they could rely Yeah, Bro, they got they got

507
00:26:41,040 --> 00:26:42,760
Speaker 3: some They got a place they can start from Andy,

508
00:26:42,920 --> 00:26:45,040
Speaker 3: not starting from scratch, because we have a grief for

509
00:26:45,119 --> 00:26:48,120
Speaker 3: literate society, so a lot of people.

510
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Speaker 5: Don't know how to deal with it. But I'm so

511
00:26:50,000 --> 00:26:53,680
Speaker 5: thankful that I was brought up in the church. But

512
00:26:54,240 --> 00:26:56,320
Speaker 5: God got his hands on me, and I know that

513
00:26:56,920 --> 00:27:00,320
Speaker 5: has my only best friend. And that's that's I know

514
00:27:00,440 --> 00:27:02,760
Speaker 5: who got the answers. It's just like how you said,

515
00:27:02,880 --> 00:27:04,679
Speaker 5: Like you might not say I don't want to hear

516
00:27:04,760 --> 00:27:08,679
Speaker 5: right now, but you know how many times some nigga

517
00:27:08,760 --> 00:27:10,679
Speaker 5: might be like I don't want to hear, but at

518
00:27:10,720 --> 00:27:11,480
Speaker 5: the end of the day.

519
00:27:11,400 --> 00:27:12,439
Speaker 2: I know I got to hear.

520
00:27:14,080 --> 00:27:14,119
Speaker 7: That.

521
00:27:14,600 --> 00:27:17,280
Speaker 2: Yeah, somebody got to say it.

522
00:27:17,680 --> 00:27:22,440
Speaker 5: So it's it's more so like I already liked them

523
00:27:22,480 --> 00:27:29,320
Speaker 5: being conditioned to know that there's this way of feeling

524
00:27:29,400 --> 00:27:30,960
Speaker 5: and thinking and then there's this way that I.

525
00:27:31,040 --> 00:27:31,520
Speaker 2: Have to move.

526
00:27:33,760 --> 00:27:36,399
Speaker 3: Even when you feel like this, you know you got

527
00:27:36,520 --> 00:27:37,000
Speaker 3: to move like this.

528
00:27:37,280 --> 00:27:42,280
Speaker 1: But this it always shows you the separate, separate too

529
00:27:42,400 --> 00:27:44,080
Speaker 1: of why this.

530
00:27:44,119 --> 00:27:45,560
Speaker 2: Is gonna always be the best route.

531
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Speaker 3: Yeah, you will never not had these feelings because you're human. Yeah,

532
00:27:50,880 --> 00:27:51,600
Speaker 3: it's spiritual.

533
00:27:51,680 --> 00:27:53,840
Speaker 5: You have to be strugg enough to always choose this side.

534
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Speaker 2: You see what I'm saying.

535
00:27:56,440 --> 00:27:58,879
Speaker 3: Yes, I agree, and I believe that happens through practice

536
00:27:58,920 --> 00:28:02,159
Speaker 3: and repetition, right, that is what that is what the

537
00:28:02,240 --> 00:28:06,120
Speaker 3: faith is is practice and repetition. Right, And like you said,

538
00:28:06,160 --> 00:28:07,800
Speaker 3: we've partner, so I really know how it get down

539
00:28:08,119 --> 00:28:10,760
Speaker 3: that I ain't seen you step to no stage ever, ever,

540
00:28:11,320 --> 00:28:14,120
Speaker 3: no matter how many tour dates, no matter how many tired,

541
00:28:14,320 --> 00:28:15,840
Speaker 3: how tired you are, no matter how much time you

542
00:28:15,880 --> 00:28:18,000
Speaker 3: got between, I ain't never seen you step to stage

543
00:28:18,040 --> 00:28:20,479
Speaker 3: without sitting inside you can't give you your thanks, right.

544
00:28:20,560 --> 00:28:23,080
Speaker 3: So it's like the repetition. But I realized that we

545
00:28:23,200 --> 00:28:27,959
Speaker 3: all need practice with repetition, and how we train our

546
00:28:28,040 --> 00:28:29,280
Speaker 3: minds is going to have a whole lot to do

547
00:28:29,359 --> 00:28:31,800
Speaker 3: with how we respond in time of need, ain when

548
00:28:31,880 --> 00:28:35,000
Speaker 3: time is easy. So the affirmations is like creating the

549
00:28:35,040 --> 00:28:38,720
Speaker 3: conditions for us to rehearse the knowings so that we

550
00:28:38,840 --> 00:28:41,040
Speaker 3: know what so we know how to move in case

551
00:28:41,120 --> 00:28:43,480
Speaker 3: whatever the day is, but whatever it brings itself. But

552
00:28:43,560 --> 00:28:46,160
Speaker 3: in terms of like the faith, I'll just tell you,

553
00:28:46,320 --> 00:28:52,240
Speaker 3: like this, bro, there's absolutely no way, there's absolutely no

554
00:28:52,360 --> 00:28:55,920
Speaker 3: way I could have made it to today without the

555
00:28:56,000 --> 00:28:59,440
Speaker 3: faith that I hold true, there was no tomorrow. You

556
00:28:59,520 --> 00:29:04,280
Speaker 3: did what I'm saying. I remember. I just remember telling

557
00:29:04,280 --> 00:29:06,640
Speaker 3: the enemy, look, look you get nothing. I said that

558
00:29:06,720 --> 00:29:08,600
Speaker 3: out loud, I declared it out loud because I just

559
00:29:08,680 --> 00:29:11,120
Speaker 3: knew that, Like I already knew what happened when I

560
00:29:11,120 --> 00:29:14,080
Speaker 3: lost my brother. I remember how I remember what revenge

561
00:29:14,080 --> 00:29:16,320
Speaker 3: feel like. I remember how creep into your brain and

562
00:29:16,520 --> 00:29:19,520
Speaker 3: become your best friend, and all these ideas becoming shit

563
00:29:19,560 --> 00:29:21,920
Speaker 3: that you can't like, you are not necessarily obsess over,

564
00:29:22,000 --> 00:29:23,760
Speaker 3: but you can't get rid of the feeling, get rid

565
00:29:23,760 --> 00:29:26,760
Speaker 3: of the idea. So I knew early and on like, look, bro,

566
00:29:26,880 --> 00:29:29,360
Speaker 3: you getting nothing on this one. No matter how hard

567
00:29:29,400 --> 00:29:31,960
Speaker 3: I fall, no matter how what it feels like, it's

568
00:29:32,000 --> 00:29:33,600
Speaker 3: gonna be me and God at the beginning and the

569
00:29:33,720 --> 00:29:37,200
Speaker 3: end of this. And here we are. He's still getting glory,

570
00:29:37,520 --> 00:29:40,520
Speaker 3: he's still using Yes, he's still mobbing. He still put

571
00:29:40,560 --> 00:29:42,400
Speaker 3: one foot in front the other. So it's like, it's

572
00:29:42,720 --> 00:29:44,960
Speaker 3: all those things. It ain't no fast forward, but it's

573
00:29:45,000 --> 00:29:47,720
Speaker 3: just all those things. It's is who creates who's on

574
00:29:47,760 --> 00:29:51,240
Speaker 3: the couch today, right, and we still evolving. It creates

575
00:29:51,560 --> 00:29:53,760
Speaker 3: while we're on eighty five South today. It's like for

576
00:29:53,880 --> 00:29:56,360
Speaker 3: me fro you knoww many times I come to the show,

577
00:29:57,240 --> 00:30:00,600
Speaker 3: I remember coming to the show hight of some of

578
00:30:00,680 --> 00:30:03,240
Speaker 3: my pain, and John was like, hey, I need you

579
00:30:03,320 --> 00:30:05,520
Speaker 3: a fee to come out and laugh. That's crazy. I'm

580
00:30:05,600 --> 00:30:06,280
Speaker 3: telling you the truth.

581
00:30:06,400 --> 00:30:09,200
Speaker 8: Oh yeah, the first Oakland show, Yeah, where you had the.

582
00:30:11,720 --> 00:30:15,280
Speaker 3: Yeah, hey listen, brother, I'm telling you on the real

583
00:30:15,840 --> 00:30:18,160
Speaker 3: what We didn't just go to to go and pop out.

584
00:30:18,360 --> 00:30:20,720
Speaker 3: We came because it was it was a real place

585
00:30:20,800 --> 00:30:23,320
Speaker 3: we needed. We needed the laughter, we needed, we needed

586
00:30:23,360 --> 00:30:27,120
Speaker 3: the stories, we needed the layers. And you know, y'all

587
00:30:27,160 --> 00:30:29,840
Speaker 3: took good care of us. So my wife felt safe

588
00:30:30,080 --> 00:30:32,480
Speaker 3: because she didn't necessarily be out right, but we needed

589
00:30:32,520 --> 00:30:34,800
Speaker 3: to be out We need to change. Solid brothers in

590
00:30:34,880 --> 00:30:36,880
Speaker 3: your corner to throw you a player, and they say, hey, man,

591
00:30:37,160 --> 00:30:40,760
Speaker 3: this just change is frequency up real quick. So for me,

592
00:30:40,840 --> 00:30:46,440
Speaker 3: it's just a real, uh, real profound, fuller circle that

593
00:30:46,560 --> 00:30:48,640
Speaker 3: I'm here kicking it with y'all.

594
00:30:50,960 --> 00:30:52,440
Speaker 2: You know what I'm saying. You know.

595
00:30:54,600 --> 00:30:57,840
Speaker 3: That capital that's the part that means a lot to everybody.

596
00:30:58,480 --> 00:31:01,120
Speaker 3: It ain't just being here. It's about man, Look where

597
00:31:01,120 --> 00:31:03,000
Speaker 3: the niggas had to keep mobbing. Look how they had

598
00:31:03,040 --> 00:31:05,320
Speaker 3: to keep going, and look how they treated each other

599
00:31:05,400 --> 00:31:07,840
Speaker 3: on the way, right, Look how they evolved on the way.

600
00:31:08,160 --> 00:31:10,400
Speaker 3: Look how you treat this family on the way like

601
00:31:10,600 --> 00:31:13,960
Speaker 3: I'm living by those virtues it's still putting one foot

602
00:31:14,000 --> 00:31:18,120
Speaker 3: from the other, still creating meaningful art, still making sure

603
00:31:18,240 --> 00:31:21,440
Speaker 3: my brothers like I need, brothers deserve to be well.

604
00:31:22,720 --> 00:31:26,880
Speaker 3: We privileged the name of the next book, brothers deserve

605
00:31:26,960 --> 00:31:31,680
Speaker 3: to be well? On hey, put that down, you want it.

606
00:31:31,920 --> 00:31:34,840
Speaker 3: I don't deserve to be well. Real talk, And like

607
00:31:35,040 --> 00:31:37,480
Speaker 3: you and I may be privileged because we have as

608
00:31:37,520 --> 00:31:41,640
Speaker 3: heavy as a cross. It is privileged to have good sys,

609
00:31:41,720 --> 00:31:45,040
Speaker 3: privileged to have faith, privileged to have people who are

610
00:31:45,080 --> 00:31:46,720
Speaker 3: willing to play a role to make sure every all

611
00:31:46,800 --> 00:31:50,840
Speaker 3: the needs are meant right. Not every brother got that right,

612
00:31:51,200 --> 00:31:54,400
Speaker 3: Not everybody got somebody solid in their corner like you

613
00:31:54,480 --> 00:31:57,960
Speaker 3: got it, like I got So if we don't create

614
00:31:58,000 --> 00:32:11,480
Speaker 3: the conditions for our brothers, but on a real door, right,

615
00:32:11,560 --> 00:32:13,800
Speaker 3: So like if we if we recognize that we had

616
00:32:13,840 --> 00:32:18,880
Speaker 3: these privileges by design or whatever, we got to make

617
00:32:18,920 --> 00:32:21,360
Speaker 3: sure we put game on the table, create the conditions

618
00:32:21,520 --> 00:32:23,560
Speaker 3: and put the resources out there for all of our

619
00:32:23,600 --> 00:32:26,040
Speaker 3: brothers to be well no matter where they fall on.

620
00:32:26,400 --> 00:32:27,560
Speaker 3: Where can they get this book?

621
00:32:28,040 --> 00:32:28,200
Speaker 2: Man?

622
00:32:28,280 --> 00:32:33,160
Speaker 3: That book is available everywhere that Soul Affirmations you can

623
00:32:33,240 --> 00:32:36,520
Speaker 3: find it. So all my mute, all my my merch

624
00:32:36,640 --> 00:32:40,000
Speaker 3: is sold under the music. It's actually under their because

625
00:32:40,000 --> 00:32:42,280
Speaker 3: of music first, but that's gonna be on bad Camp.

626
00:32:42,480 --> 00:32:44,840
Speaker 3: Go to Soul Affirmations ig is in the link in

627
00:32:44,880 --> 00:32:47,080
Speaker 3: the bio. Go to my ig Cariger Bailey. It's in

628
00:32:47,120 --> 00:32:50,240
Speaker 3: the link in the bio. It's available everywhere and check

629
00:32:50,280 --> 00:32:53,680
Speaker 3: it out. Thought just because it's a book, right, but like,

630
00:32:53,800 --> 00:32:56,560
Speaker 3: not everybody got privileged to have time to sit down.

631
00:32:57,160 --> 00:32:59,280
Speaker 3: Some people's commuting, some people putting kids to bed, some

632
00:32:59,360 --> 00:33:01,440
Speaker 3: people just trying to make it work. So we created

633
00:33:01,480 --> 00:33:03,720
Speaker 3: an album out of this as well. Right, So it's

634
00:33:03,800 --> 00:33:06,240
Speaker 3: not just a book. Uh, and it's not an audiobook,

635
00:33:06,240 --> 00:33:11,120
Speaker 3: it's an actual album. That what it is. Okay, get

636
00:33:11,160 --> 00:33:15,080
Speaker 3: this book saying oh yeah, oh yeah, so the book

637
00:33:15,200 --> 00:33:17,600
Speaker 3: is is? It became an album. I'm signed up for you.

638
00:33:18,480 --> 00:33:21,840
Speaker 3: It became an award winning podcast with my wife and

639
00:33:21,880 --> 00:33:26,000
Speaker 3: I sol Affirmations with Career and Felicia. My wife wrote

640
00:33:26,000 --> 00:33:29,120
Speaker 3: another one, Sole Affirmations, a toolkit from mothers who are

641
00:33:29,160 --> 00:33:32,080
Speaker 3: investigating briefs process. So I told you we sat down

642
00:33:32,120 --> 00:33:35,000
Speaker 3: with mothers who lost children, right, And I'm gonna tell

643
00:33:35,000 --> 00:33:38,080
Speaker 3: you like this too. Bro, there's a whole lot of

644
00:33:39,240 --> 00:33:44,000
Speaker 3: things they think gangsters do and and people like there's

645
00:33:44,000 --> 00:33:46,680
Speaker 3: a lot of fantasies in the hood about like how

646
00:33:46,760 --> 00:33:50,760
Speaker 3: we the money and what people got not Bro, it's

647
00:33:50,800 --> 00:33:53,959
Speaker 3: so seldom that the hood come up and pull up

648
00:33:54,040 --> 00:33:58,480
Speaker 3: and sit with the mama. Like it's seldom, and because

649
00:33:58,520 --> 00:34:00,800
Speaker 3: they don't know how to sit with her, that feeling

650
00:34:00,960 --> 00:34:04,040
Speaker 3: is too it's too overwhelming. But sometimes she's not looking

651
00:34:04,080 --> 00:34:05,600
Speaker 3: for you for answers, Bro, she looking at me. Just

652
00:34:05,720 --> 00:34:08,920
Speaker 3: check for her. She know you don't got answers. You

653
00:34:09,120 --> 00:34:11,279
Speaker 3: not God. You know what I'm saying. The way that

654
00:34:11,320 --> 00:34:13,319
Speaker 3: woman missed her baby, you can't bring it back. She's

655
00:34:13,320 --> 00:34:15,360
Speaker 3: not looking for you for answers. But we get so

656
00:34:15,520 --> 00:34:17,719
Speaker 3: caught up in like think we gotta have answers for

657
00:34:17,840 --> 00:34:20,880
Speaker 3: something that we be staying away from these mamas. So

658
00:34:21,000 --> 00:34:22,400
Speaker 3: I'm like the hood really needed to, you know, go

659
00:34:22,480 --> 00:34:24,640
Speaker 3: check on the mama. Go check on your potnam mama,

660
00:34:24,680 --> 00:34:26,239
Speaker 3: Go pull up on her. Just see how she's doing.

661
00:34:26,719 --> 00:34:28,680
Speaker 3: You don't gotta have no answers, You don't gotta have

662
00:34:28,760 --> 00:34:31,920
Speaker 3: no nothing. Just go see about her. Like That's one

663
00:34:31,960 --> 00:34:34,839
Speaker 3: of the things I realized one that the momss are

664
00:34:35,719 --> 00:34:37,600
Speaker 3: So I just gotta put that out there. Man, go

665
00:34:37,760 --> 00:34:40,239
Speaker 3: check on your potnam Mama. You know what I'm saying.

666
00:34:40,400 --> 00:34:42,920
Speaker 3: If you can, if it's in resource, if it's in reach,

667
00:34:43,120 --> 00:34:44,040
Speaker 3: let's go pull up on her.

668
00:34:44,560 --> 00:34:45,360
Speaker 2: Let's go pull up on her.

669
00:34:45,400 --> 00:34:47,600
Speaker 3: It don't got to be the Sun's birthday. She's not

670
00:34:47,680 --> 00:34:49,719
Speaker 3: gonna get their emoji hands on social media. She's not

671
00:34:49,800 --> 00:34:51,759
Speaker 3: on social media like that. So when you post that

672
00:34:51,920 --> 00:34:54,719
Speaker 3: on an anniversaries, those don't go on to her. You

673
00:34:54,719 --> 00:34:55,960
Speaker 3: feel what I'm saying. So we got to go pull

674
00:34:56,000 --> 00:34:57,520
Speaker 3: up on our elders. But I'll just try that out

675
00:34:57,520 --> 00:34:59,560
Speaker 3: of there because that's what I want us to do.

676
00:34:59,760 --> 00:35:02,799
Speaker 3: But yeah, bro, great, the conditions us to be well,

677
00:35:03,280 --> 00:35:06,759
Speaker 3: it's the resources, the music. Uh, I'm gonna sign your book.

678
00:35:06,760 --> 00:35:08,920
Speaker 3: I make sure I sign your book. John we got

679
00:35:08,960 --> 00:35:12,799
Speaker 3: another uh the album on the way, Wings.

680
00:35:12,480 --> 00:35:18,120
Speaker 8: Over Waves Drop. Uh, it's gonna drop in May. It's

681
00:35:18,200 --> 00:35:18,879
Speaker 8: dropping in May.

682
00:35:19,040 --> 00:35:22,399
Speaker 2: A lot of May stuff dropping. I got Drop.

683
00:35:23,440 --> 00:35:26,160
Speaker 9: I got my producer friends and you know up and

684
00:35:26,239 --> 00:35:30,520
Speaker 9: coming second, third, fourth generations. Man, say you cold with it, Johnny,

685
00:35:30,560 --> 00:35:32,759
Speaker 9: go what's going on? Drop some game on the up

686
00:35:32,840 --> 00:35:33,840
Speaker 9: and coming producers?

687
00:35:33,920 --> 00:35:39,400
Speaker 8: Manus for the up and coming producers.

688
00:35:40,080 --> 00:35:43,560
Speaker 3: Make beats every day number one like beats every Day.

689
00:35:45,960 --> 00:35:47,160
Speaker 3: Just just get your beat.

690
00:35:47,040 --> 00:35:50,000
Speaker 8: Catalog up so that way when it's time to press play,

691
00:35:50,120 --> 00:35:51,800
Speaker 8: when you when you when you're in the studio and

692
00:35:51,840 --> 00:35:55,319
Speaker 8: it's signed the press play, you got stuff to go through,

693
00:35:55,360 --> 00:35:55,879
Speaker 8: you know what I mean?

694
00:35:56,200 --> 00:36:00,440
Speaker 3: So have have rapid fire number one. Number two.

695
00:36:02,520 --> 00:36:09,040
Speaker 8: Learn about publishing. Learn about intellectual property. Learn learn about

696
00:36:09,719 --> 00:36:10,320
Speaker 8: your rights.

697
00:36:10,840 --> 00:36:11,359
Speaker 3: You know what I mean?

698
00:36:13,360 --> 00:36:16,200
Speaker 8: What just just learn how to collect all your money

699
00:36:17,120 --> 00:36:18,560
Speaker 8: as a as a as a producer.

700
00:36:19,480 --> 00:36:23,880
Speaker 2: That's a nigga. Don't give you what what.

701
00:36:28,280 --> 00:36:28,320
Speaker 8: What?

702
00:36:29,480 --> 00:36:30,160
Speaker 2: You know what I mean?

703
00:36:30,360 --> 00:36:34,759
Speaker 3: He said, what first? Been waiting on this piece for hour?

704
00:36:35,120 --> 00:36:37,399
Speaker 9: Yet the first light DN game.

705
00:36:39,440 --> 00:36:42,359
Speaker 2: I'm a nigga that no lot that not overstate he will.

706
00:36:43,120 --> 00:36:44,600
Speaker 2: Now you get the first piece. I don't want you

707
00:36:44,680 --> 00:36:46,480
Speaker 2: to be telling nobody I got the first.

708
00:36:51,840 --> 00:36:55,040
Speaker 3: Know why I got two of them?

709
00:36:55,800 --> 00:37:00,600
Speaker 2: The third piece, No budd Frosco. I try to get

710
00:37:00,600 --> 00:37:02,120
Speaker 2: some doumble nose out of steak. I told them make

711
00:37:02,160 --> 00:37:03,200
Speaker 2: it j like this. They did not.

712
00:37:04,840 --> 00:37:07,080
Speaker 3: You gott you gotta have to connect. They did not.

713
00:37:07,560 --> 00:37:08,600
Speaker 3: What's special about that one?

714
00:37:09,560 --> 00:37:09,959
Speaker 2: You see?

715
00:37:10,360 --> 00:37:13,400
Speaker 3: Okay? Okay, never like this?

716
00:37:14,360 --> 00:37:19,480
Speaker 2: They little with somebody black little somebody said you got

717
00:37:21,239 --> 00:37:23,279
Speaker 2: all that thing and that stuff? Don't many want to

718
00:37:23,280 --> 00:37:24,400
Speaker 2: eat bread all day.

719
00:37:25,400 --> 00:37:28,600
Speaker 3: Puffing that up, puffing it up. One thing about that.

720
00:37:29,360 --> 00:37:32,120
Speaker 3: So we're gonna eat, they gonna have something to eat.

721
00:37:32,640 --> 00:37:33,440
Speaker 3: Gotta hands down.

722
00:37:34,120 --> 00:37:35,759
Speaker 2: We're supposed to weed, not to have no.

723
00:37:37,280 --> 00:37:39,560
Speaker 3: Gotta bust down, y'all. You know, I don't know what

724
00:37:40,200 --> 00:37:42,759
Speaker 3: appreciate it. I might get involved. You might as well.

725
00:37:43,760 --> 00:37:46,200
Speaker 3: We just had a look, just a little pizza party.

726
00:37:46,360 --> 00:37:48,520
Speaker 3: Little ain't nothing but the pizza.

727
00:37:49,680 --> 00:37:52,000
Speaker 2: If you have no part, okay, want ship.

728
00:37:52,360 --> 00:37:54,600
Speaker 3: You're glad to be the ultimate reward? Oh yeah, went

729
00:37:54,680 --> 00:37:54,840
Speaker 3: on that?

730
00:37:56,040 --> 00:37:57,239
Speaker 2: What but.

731
00:38:00,080 --> 00:38:02,480
Speaker 3: School up into the last day.

732
00:38:02,520 --> 00:38:03,680
Speaker 2: I talked this the same.

733
00:38:03,560 --> 00:38:05,640
Speaker 3: Bullshit I was just I was just talking about and

734
00:38:05,680 --> 00:38:07,560
Speaker 3: I never forget. I got sick at one of end

735
00:38:07,600 --> 00:38:10,760
Speaker 3: of years. I did. I did everything I was supposed

736
00:38:10,800 --> 00:38:12,399
Speaker 3: to do this part.

737
00:38:12,880 --> 00:38:14,160
Speaker 2: Man, you man.

738
00:38:14,560 --> 00:38:16,200
Speaker 3: I tried to stick out the house. My mom came

739
00:38:16,239 --> 00:38:18,040
Speaker 3: and got me from that bus. Stop talking about you sick.

740
00:38:18,120 --> 00:38:18,480
Speaker 2: You can't go.

741
00:38:18,600 --> 00:38:21,680
Speaker 3: I'm like, no, I heard this shot this pizza.

742
00:38:21,840 --> 00:38:22,720
Speaker 2: I need this pizza.

743
00:38:22,840 --> 00:38:24,800
Speaker 3: And if I don't go, John gonna get the pizza ed.

744
00:38:24,920 --> 00:38:26,719
Speaker 3: He goes a couple of skates and I'm gonna tell

745
00:38:26,719 --> 00:38:28,640
Speaker 3: you that he's gonna take the girl. You gonna couple

746
00:38:28,719 --> 00:38:30,400
Speaker 3: skate that's the bet.

747
00:38:31,120 --> 00:38:32,239
Speaker 8: The girl a couple skate with.

748
00:38:32,960 --> 00:38:34,160
Speaker 3: I gotta go, I gotta go a couple of skate

749
00:38:34,200 --> 00:38:34,719
Speaker 3: aad his pizza.

750
00:38:34,760 --> 00:38:35,360
Speaker 2: You don'tunderstand.

751
00:38:35,640 --> 00:38:38,480
Speaker 3: I would wait all year for this. Damn pizza parties

752
00:38:38,560 --> 00:38:42,520
Speaker 3: used to go up. Absolutely, that's crazy. What type of

753
00:38:42,600 --> 00:38:44,759
Speaker 3: dead incentive they dangled over kids heads?

754
00:38:44,760 --> 00:38:48,600
Speaker 9: Because pieces used to be a luxury, real talk, not

755
00:38:48,760 --> 00:38:52,719
Speaker 9: knowing get a pizza on a Friday night and it

756
00:38:52,880 --> 00:38:55,160
Speaker 9: be her best weekend for sure.

757
00:38:55,480 --> 00:38:57,799
Speaker 3: Remember when it was enough pieza to have left over?

758
00:38:58,719 --> 00:39:04,480
Speaker 9: Yeah, ain't the splices and ship and there was still

759
00:39:04,600 --> 00:39:05,640
Speaker 9: six slashes left.

760
00:39:05,800 --> 00:39:09,239
Speaker 3: That's the best. That's the best. That is the best.

761
00:39:09,360 --> 00:39:11,239
Speaker 8: But with that one left in there, you know what

762
00:39:11,239 --> 00:39:13,239
Speaker 8: I'm saying, even left in there three days turned up.

763
00:39:13,239 --> 00:39:15,719
Speaker 3: Ain't nobody gonna touch it though? No, he just started

764
00:39:15,760 --> 00:39:16,160
Speaker 3: curling up.

765
00:39:16,640 --> 00:39:20,640
Speaker 8: One of your fathers work with you got somebody with you,

766
00:39:20,880 --> 00:39:23,440
Speaker 8: just start curling up like this, definite work.

767
00:39:23,520 --> 00:39:31,680
Speaker 3: That's the work. This was or fresh. He took two

768
00:39:31,719 --> 00:39:33,080
Speaker 3: of the last flashes to work.

769
00:39:33,880 --> 00:39:35,680
Speaker 2: The cheese was transparent on them.

770
00:39:37,040 --> 00:39:38,520
Speaker 3: He didn't even eat him up. He's just left him

771
00:39:38,520 --> 00:39:39,240
Speaker 3: in his truck.

772
00:39:39,040 --> 00:39:39,480
Speaker 2: On the head.

773
00:39:41,480 --> 00:39:47,439
Speaker 3: That's sad. He didn't lie. That's somebody, that's somebody working

774
00:39:47,520 --> 00:39:56,919
Speaker 3: daddy right now, right right now, technical glid was Saturday morning.

775
00:39:57,000 --> 00:39:58,719
Speaker 2: It was Saturday morning, so he ain't lying.

776
00:39:59,080 --> 00:40:05,680
Speaker 3: You stupid. But you know it's crazy when you think

777
00:40:05,680 --> 00:40:09,680
Speaker 3: about it, like just the nature what we're talking about,

778
00:40:09,719 --> 00:40:13,160
Speaker 3: the whole pizza, the leftovers. It's just he said, the

779
00:40:13,200 --> 00:40:16,080
Speaker 3: daddy gonna take that one to work. Hey, we really

780
00:40:16,120 --> 00:40:17,680
Speaker 3: make a whole lot of work out of leftovers.

781
00:40:17,719 --> 00:40:20,959
Speaker 2: Bro I would have left over, man, you wouldn't.

782
00:40:23,280 --> 00:40:26,640
Speaker 9: Just so we can have the leftovers like leftovers forget

783
00:40:26,719 --> 00:40:28,919
Speaker 9: it hits so hard on about day two, day three,

784
00:40:29,120 --> 00:40:30,759
Speaker 9: what after everything done settled.

785
00:40:30,480 --> 00:40:34,640
Speaker 5: In season, this particular food, if it were left over,

786
00:40:34,680 --> 00:40:35,360
Speaker 5: it was ours.

787
00:40:40,920 --> 00:40:45,360
Speaker 8: Anything that go in and Priderator is done anything anything.

788
00:40:45,000 --> 00:40:46,839
Speaker 6: That goes in and you gotta take it back out

789
00:40:46,880 --> 00:40:49,760
Speaker 6: and read man in this household?

790
00:40:50,960 --> 00:40:52,840
Speaker 3: All right, that's crazy.

791
00:40:53,480 --> 00:40:56,080
Speaker 2: You better. First of all, I might be a road

792
00:40:56,120 --> 00:40:57,560
Speaker 2: to that part ain't looking.

793
00:41:08,160 --> 00:41:08,640
Speaker 7: They get.

794
00:41:10,920 --> 00:41:16,240
Speaker 2: Cover that food up. It's won't be saving there. Niggas.

795
00:41:18,080 --> 00:41:21,440
Speaker 2: Nigga wasn't stunning wrong cause I was stuffing broke. I

796
00:41:21,520 --> 00:41:22,360
Speaker 2: was stuffing roach you.

797
00:41:22,440 --> 00:41:24,719
Speaker 3: But I'm telling you, but no leftover was in my house.

798
00:41:26,960 --> 00:41:32,480
Speaker 3: Sorry feel piece that was a luxury, A piece of

799
00:41:32,520 --> 00:41:34,880
Speaker 3: absolutely luxury, absolute luxury.

800
00:41:35,600 --> 00:41:37,520
Speaker 2: Man, I remember school lunch used to be here, man,

801
00:41:37,560 --> 00:41:41,200
Speaker 2: that's what piece used to be. Boom bit that square joint,

802
00:41:41,320 --> 00:41:43,520
Speaker 2: especially when she get that fresh slice. You see her,

803
00:41:43,560 --> 00:41:45,320
Speaker 2: she pulled that rack out of the whole pen. She

804
00:41:45,360 --> 00:41:49,600
Speaker 2: pulled them over and she spent. It's like that she

805
00:41:49,760 --> 00:41:52,200
Speaker 2: spent that motherfucker. She's like, I'm I'm a pick which

806
00:41:52,320 --> 00:41:54,520
Speaker 2: cone I want to cut first? You gotta picked that one, men,

807
00:41:54,800 --> 00:41:57,480
Speaker 2: miss Tew, you picked that cone. She cut that motherfucker

808
00:41:57,760 --> 00:42:00,440
Speaker 2: did that. When I was a pork ship, they have

809
00:42:00,560 --> 00:42:02,160
Speaker 2: a saft one, a little squim.

810
00:42:02,600 --> 00:42:06,120
Speaker 10: Yeah, a little und little sausages in it. We used

811
00:42:06,160 --> 00:42:08,480
Speaker 10: to have a squat piece that take up the whole

812
00:42:08,520 --> 00:42:11,560
Speaker 10: middle of the trade. Bro yep, quick around. I was

813
00:42:11,640 --> 00:42:13,479
Speaker 10: buying me extra slice for a dollar.

814
00:42:13,760 --> 00:42:14,560
Speaker 2: It was a dollar A.

815
00:42:16,040 --> 00:42:18,120
Speaker 9: Yeah, that's when like the pizzas of the slices used

816
00:42:18,160 --> 00:42:21,160
Speaker 9: to be a dollar. Yeah, that's what extra pision. It

817
00:42:21,239 --> 00:42:22,840
Speaker 9: was the plex to be a line and tell the

818
00:42:22,920 --> 00:42:25,120
Speaker 9: lunch that I'm buying another.

819
00:42:26,200 --> 00:42:28,680
Speaker 11: Like it's a second, get another, like it's a section.

820
00:42:29,120 --> 00:42:39,239
Speaker 11: Who a, yeah, she don't want to cut big bank.

821
00:42:39,280 --> 00:42:40,880
Speaker 11: You putting out big bank for that pizza.

822
00:42:41,200 --> 00:42:43,320
Speaker 9: Then you get out to that, you get to the

823
00:42:43,440 --> 00:42:44,799
Speaker 9: end of the line where you got to give them

824
00:42:44,800 --> 00:42:45,479
Speaker 9: your lunch number.

825
00:42:45,480 --> 00:42:47,000
Speaker 3: The lady got a check to make sure you ain't

826
00:42:47,360 --> 00:42:50,839
Speaker 3: hold on how many of you got you ain't worried. Man,

827
00:42:50,920 --> 00:42:53,560
Speaker 3: I got a dollar with the token. I got a dollar.

828
00:42:53,560 --> 00:42:56,080
Speaker 3: I'm paying for this one to pay for lunch.

829
00:42:56,120 --> 00:42:58,400
Speaker 6: Bro I put around and put in a number and

830
00:42:58,560 --> 00:43:00,800
Speaker 6: it went through, and just are using that and I

831
00:43:00,960 --> 00:43:04,200
Speaker 6: just start using that bit that be at worked for.

832
00:43:04,320 --> 00:43:07,000
Speaker 2: Like five years streat man.

833
00:43:07,600 --> 00:43:10,839
Speaker 6: I was like, bag, I'm talking about nigga. I paid

834
00:43:10,880 --> 00:43:13,799
Speaker 6: for luck every year until like ninth grade.

835
00:43:14,360 --> 00:43:16,239
Speaker 2: I just put in some ship. I think it was

836
00:43:16,320 --> 00:43:18,600
Speaker 2: just a one mile with like two It was like

837
00:43:18,680 --> 00:43:22,640
Speaker 2: three nine four eight some zero. She was like two fifty,

838
00:43:22,680 --> 00:43:26,399
Speaker 2: mister Midfield. I'm like, go put it three nine four

839
00:43:26,520 --> 00:43:32,840
Speaker 2: eight two one one. She was like, all right, all right, I'm.

840
00:43:32,719 --> 00:43:35,279
Speaker 3: Like, hold on, hold on, I'm gonna hold onto that.

841
00:43:35,400 --> 00:43:35,640
Speaker 3: Hold on.

842
00:43:36,200 --> 00:43:38,160
Speaker 2: I ain't no man about that. She's like, man, nobody

843
00:43:38,160 --> 00:43:38,680
Speaker 2: your accounts.

844
00:43:38,719 --> 00:43:40,120
Speaker 3: Look at the man money on count.

845
00:43:40,400 --> 00:43:44,960
Speaker 2: Love all right, every day fifty.

846
00:43:47,600 --> 00:43:50,839
Speaker 5: Four getting ten dollars, hold on two fifty for lunch

847
00:43:50,840 --> 00:43:51,759
Speaker 5: and bitty for bro.

848
00:43:52,239 --> 00:43:55,479
Speaker 3: You should have got that ship reduced reduced lunch.

849
00:43:55,560 --> 00:43:55,840
Speaker 7: Be like.

850
00:43:57,960 --> 00:43:58,480
Speaker 3: You to be there.

851
00:43:58,600 --> 00:44:04,759
Speaker 9: That's make a count all that taxes on the school lunch.

852
00:44:06,400 --> 00:44:08,359
Speaker 3: What he saying on the free lunch? Come on, bro, brother,

853
00:44:08,600 --> 00:44:09,680
Speaker 3: be like fifteen cent.

854
00:44:10,160 --> 00:44:11,279
Speaker 2: But they just hate this ship.

855
00:44:11,400 --> 00:44:13,279
Speaker 6: Sometimes that would be the only time I would see

856
00:44:13,320 --> 00:44:14,520
Speaker 6: my dad when he would come up there.

857
00:44:14,480 --> 00:44:16,680
Speaker 9: And pay for my little teaching kids the hard way

858
00:44:16,719 --> 00:44:17,400
Speaker 9: about credit.

859
00:44:18,080 --> 00:44:19,719
Speaker 3: No, you can't have no breakfast.

860
00:44:21,000 --> 00:44:25,600
Speaker 8: You all in school two dollars and fifty cents.

861
00:44:24,719 --> 00:44:25,880
Speaker 2: To spend your account.

862
00:44:27,120 --> 00:44:29,840
Speaker 3: Your mother has to send five dollars up here for you.

863
00:44:30,960 --> 00:44:32,960
Speaker 2: This child food for five dollars.

864
00:44:33,200 --> 00:44:37,800
Speaker 3: Man, They send the letter home. Get you cussed out, Yeah.

865
00:44:37,960 --> 00:44:40,239
Speaker 8: Talking about why you got these people in my business.

866
00:44:40,239 --> 00:44:43,040
Speaker 2: Denied their child food for mama.

867
00:44:43,080 --> 00:44:45,000
Speaker 3: Man, she ain't got the money. She just talking ship

868
00:44:45,080 --> 00:44:45,880
Speaker 3: back to the people.

869
00:44:46,600 --> 00:44:48,399
Speaker 2: When you get to that school, you tell them, folks,

870
00:44:48,400 --> 00:44:52,480
Speaker 2: I don't got no damn money. I don't eat.

871
00:44:53,920 --> 00:44:58,200
Speaker 3: Take you up and down or something. Ain't nothing like

872
00:44:58,280 --> 00:44:58,600
Speaker 3: taking that.

873
00:44:58,760 --> 00:45:01,000
Speaker 2: You got school program? Read at school program?

874
00:45:01,320 --> 00:45:05,520
Speaker 9: Yeah, but that my mother a school program. Ain't no

875
00:45:05,640 --> 00:45:07,680
Speaker 9: after school program. We live in the country.

876
00:45:08,080 --> 00:45:10,719
Speaker 2: Oh yes, take y'all at home.

877
00:45:10,960 --> 00:45:12,920
Speaker 3: Boy, huh, no after school.

878
00:45:12,719 --> 00:45:14,799
Speaker 2: Program, but take your ad and on what I'll see

879
00:45:14,840 --> 00:45:19,319
Speaker 2: you tomorrow. You can walk, but you closer though the walk.

880
00:45:20,239 --> 00:45:22,200
Speaker 2: That's crazy telling you in the kindergarl. I give a

881
00:45:22,200 --> 00:45:26,000
Speaker 2: fuck man in that room.

882
00:45:28,719 --> 00:45:34,200
Speaker 3: This is crazy. Now we'd have been done without after

883
00:45:34,239 --> 00:45:36,560
Speaker 3: school program, Yeah, for sure, we'd have been done without it.

884
00:45:36,800 --> 00:45:40,719
Speaker 6: Yeah, I need Yeah, I'm glad I could not have

885
00:45:40,840 --> 00:45:42,239
Speaker 6: been in my neighborhood.

886
00:45:41,800 --> 00:45:43,440
Speaker 2: During the days of me being in school and after

887
00:45:43,480 --> 00:45:45,160
Speaker 2: school program more cause the.

888
00:45:45,200 --> 00:45:48,080
Speaker 6: Days that I was when I didn't, I got turned.

889
00:45:49,080 --> 00:45:52,759
Speaker 6: So imagine this ship. I see why once I got

890
00:45:52,840 --> 00:45:54,720
Speaker 6: like eighth, ninth till I'm live.

891
00:45:57,080 --> 00:46:00,040
Speaker 2: Everything I saw because I want to see. Yeah, you

892
00:46:00,040 --> 00:46:01,720
Speaker 2: see what I'm saying. Even though it was right outside

893
00:46:01,800 --> 00:46:03,400
Speaker 2: my door. Stuff, it was like I saw that.

894
00:46:03,680 --> 00:46:05,680
Speaker 7: I'm like, oh, that's why my mom ain't want me

895
00:46:06,520 --> 00:46:09,839
Speaker 7: from this time, from this time, because this was going

896
00:46:10,719 --> 00:46:11,880
Speaker 7: this what's going on?

897
00:46:12,040 --> 00:46:13,600
Speaker 2: But I'm in the seventh grade now I know what's

898
00:46:13,640 --> 00:46:15,719
Speaker 2: going on. But I realized why you didn't want me

899
00:46:15,800 --> 00:46:18,600
Speaker 2: home early. You killed me over here. You killed me

900
00:46:18,680 --> 00:46:21,520
Speaker 2: over here like superhids. I don't want them kids. Somebody

901
00:46:21,560 --> 00:46:26,200
Speaker 2: always had to watch me. Yeah, got to watch me.

902
00:46:27,080 --> 00:46:29,320
Speaker 2: We're gonna watch your June by somebody. Somebody need to

903
00:46:29,360 --> 00:46:30,239
Speaker 2: hear the fuck.

904
00:46:32,840 --> 00:46:33,480
Speaker 3: I don't want to do.

905
00:46:35,480 --> 00:46:36,360
Speaker 2: I need chaperone.

906
00:46:37,040 --> 00:46:40,080
Speaker 3: I came from the house key generation. Oh yeah, better

907
00:46:40,120 --> 00:46:43,960
Speaker 3: not lose that mother fucker. You moved your house key.

908
00:46:44,520 --> 00:46:47,840
Speaker 3: That was the worst day. So now you just outside.

909
00:46:49,280 --> 00:46:53,000
Speaker 2: Yeah, you go get your ad wards for sure, because

910
00:46:53,080 --> 00:46:56,200
Speaker 2: now they scared. They think a burglar go called because

911
00:46:56,200 --> 00:47:00,320
Speaker 2: they key out there in the world and they know exactly.

912
00:47:04,600 --> 00:47:09,400
Speaker 3: That's the craziest part. That's the craziest part. Somebody got

913
00:47:09,480 --> 00:47:11,200
Speaker 3: a kid this house. They don't know what house this is.

914
00:47:11,239 --> 00:47:13,319
Speaker 3: I'm just trying to Can we just cut me another key? Please?

915
00:47:13,400 --> 00:47:14,360
Speaker 3: Like no, I don't want to do the election.

916
00:47:14,880 --> 00:47:16,759
Speaker 2: I can't see. It wasn't that. It wasn't that.

917
00:47:16,880 --> 00:47:20,160
Speaker 6: You also gotta understand, this is our room. This is

918
00:47:20,239 --> 00:47:22,960
Speaker 6: our responsibility as a child. We don't know, I know,

919
00:47:23,040 --> 00:47:26,120
Speaker 6: damn responsive don't put the big world on that. We

920
00:47:26,200 --> 00:47:29,840
Speaker 6: don't have a responsibility. We need and worry about not

921
00:47:29,960 --> 00:47:30,920
Speaker 6: shot on ourselves.

922
00:47:31,000 --> 00:47:33,680
Speaker 2: That's the only thing we gotta about.

923
00:47:33,719 --> 00:47:35,400
Speaker 8: And you got me walking around with a house key

924
00:47:35,560 --> 00:47:37,279
Speaker 8: on a shoe string around my neck.

925
00:47:39,640 --> 00:47:42,480
Speaker 2: You ain't even died right, think about it.

926
00:47:42,640 --> 00:47:46,520
Speaker 3: We gave Versus way too much credit. We ain't Burglars.

927
00:47:46,880 --> 00:47:49,800
Speaker 9: We gave Burglars way too much credit. I said, like,

928
00:47:49,920 --> 00:47:57,200
Speaker 9: they just gonna find the house. Kids, Miss Justin got

929
00:47:57,360 --> 00:47:57,920
Speaker 9: us fucked.

930
00:47:58,840 --> 00:47:59,239
Speaker 2: You know that?

931
00:48:03,760 --> 00:48:05,480
Speaker 3: Well thirty five cheer.

932
00:48:08,920 --> 00:48:09,560
Speaker 9: Everything on the.

933
00:48:11,280 --> 00:48:17,040
Speaker 3: Ridge, ridge getting points, getting points. I know that I

934
00:48:17,160 --> 00:48:20,640
Speaker 3: know that. Anyway, Well, this is crazy, bro, this is

935
00:48:20,680 --> 00:48:22,719
Speaker 3: absolutely crazy that we had to worry about this as

936
00:48:22,760 --> 00:48:24,879
Speaker 3: a as a kids kids.

937
00:48:24,920 --> 00:48:26,759
Speaker 5: I had a kid in the fifth grade, but I

938
00:48:26,800 --> 00:48:29,040
Speaker 5: can only go home with my nephew, like I couldn't

939
00:48:29,040 --> 00:48:30,120
Speaker 5: be Like my mama knew me.

940
00:48:31,800 --> 00:48:34,600
Speaker 2: She knew like if he did by himself, or he

941
00:48:34,760 --> 00:48:40,279
Speaker 2: anywhere by himself, he ain't got nobody he gonna do it.

942
00:48:40,760 --> 00:48:44,799
Speaker 3: Absolutely ain't gonna tell me the start I was, I'm

943
00:48:44,880 --> 00:48:47,839
Speaker 3: trigging him, trick, I was triggering him.

944
00:48:47,880 --> 00:48:49,920
Speaker 5: Like them, I'm gonna believe anything guys say when I

945
00:48:50,000 --> 00:48:51,520
Speaker 5: came home from school, Hey, boy, now.

946
00:48:51,520 --> 00:48:53,799
Speaker 2: Why ain't gonna believe it? They're like what I'm like, boy,

947
00:48:54,239 --> 00:48:56,560
Speaker 2: is that I got into him with the principal. They like,

948
00:48:56,600 --> 00:48:59,719
Speaker 2: for real, I'm just lying the whole time. I'll get

949
00:48:59,760 --> 00:49:01,799
Speaker 2: all to the like I was just bush and they

950
00:49:01,920 --> 00:49:04,759
Speaker 2: like man a lot of kid Man. I'm like, why

951
00:49:04,800 --> 00:49:06,320
Speaker 2: do y'all keep believing.

952
00:49:08,040 --> 00:49:14,280
Speaker 3: It's like the thirtieth story. They don't. They always believe

953
00:49:14,400 --> 00:49:18,319
Speaker 3: me bro, and they should have just known at this point.

954
00:49:18,800 --> 00:49:20,000
Speaker 3: I think they just love the stories.

955
00:49:20,440 --> 00:49:22,880
Speaker 2: But but I felt like that was my first audience.

956
00:49:22,920 --> 00:49:25,120
Speaker 6: I was performing it for a little because I was

957
00:49:25,160 --> 00:49:27,280
Speaker 6: trying to f I was trying to outdo each story.

958
00:49:28,480 --> 00:49:29,960
Speaker 2: I remember, I think one time I had nothing told me,

959
00:49:30,040 --> 00:49:32,800
Speaker 2: I started a food fight. I like Nigga. We was.

960
00:49:33,040 --> 00:49:35,080
Speaker 2: We was in the cafe tier I was when I

961
00:49:35,160 --> 00:49:38,440
Speaker 2: came home. I was like, hey, y'all, nigga, go downstairs.

962
00:49:38,440 --> 00:49:40,399
Speaker 2: I got something. Tell y'all. They like what. I ain't

963
00:49:40,400 --> 00:49:42,960
Speaker 2: gonna believe what happened to day? They like, what but

964
00:49:43,080 --> 00:49:48,920
Speaker 2: your uncle boy? Oh plate playing all? I got all

965
00:49:48,960 --> 00:49:53,360
Speaker 2: three old plate, old plate, and like what happened? Like

966
00:49:53,400 --> 00:49:55,600
Speaker 2: little Nigga, he was in the caf Tiers.

967
00:49:55,680 --> 00:49:58,600
Speaker 5: We was all chilling. Everybody was in there being chilling.

968
00:49:59,040 --> 00:50:02,480
Speaker 5: I'm in the principal walk through the quiet. Everybody act

969
00:50:02,560 --> 00:50:03,720
Speaker 5: like they want to eat their food.

970
00:50:05,400 --> 00:50:08,440
Speaker 3: You know, I don't fuck with pepperoni. Get what I do?

971
00:50:09,520 --> 00:50:14,719
Speaker 2: I just tossed that pitch. They're like, where go You

972
00:50:14,719 --> 00:50:18,400
Speaker 2: ain't gonna believe it? Hit the principal dead in the

973
00:50:21,400 --> 00:50:27,239
Speaker 2: he little look piece all over he everybody they looking,

974
00:50:27,320 --> 00:50:30,120
Speaker 2: they looking. I'm just sitting there. I got a little

975
00:50:30,200 --> 00:50:38,200
Speaker 2: piece o that one nigga hit the sense of prom live.

976
00:50:38,280 --> 00:50:43,040
Speaker 2: They're like what I'm like, everybody just start throwing fool nigga. Shit,

977
00:50:43,120 --> 00:50:45,520
Speaker 2: were crazy, Nigga, My mama had to I ain't wear

978
00:50:45,560 --> 00:50:45,879
Speaker 2: this today.

979
00:50:47,719 --> 00:50:48,720
Speaker 8: I ain't wear this, nigga.

980
00:50:48,760 --> 00:50:49,799
Speaker 2: I close.

981
00:50:49,800 --> 00:50:52,600
Speaker 3: I got yeah, Bro, I'm like, yeah, nigga.

982
00:50:52,920 --> 00:50:54,560
Speaker 2: Get down to the head because couldn't think of no more.

983
00:50:54,800 --> 00:50:59,560
Speaker 2: I was like, why y'all keep believing me?

984
00:50:59,680 --> 00:51:02,560
Speaker 3: Bro? The craziest part is you went from telling the

985
00:51:02,600 --> 00:51:05,520
Speaker 3: story about telling the story to your nephews and telling

986
00:51:05,600 --> 00:51:07,359
Speaker 3: me so you put me in the audience just now, nigga.

987
00:51:07,400 --> 00:51:09,120
Speaker 3: When you said guess what happened next? I almost asked

988
00:51:09,160 --> 00:51:09,279
Speaker 3: like what?

989
00:51:10,840 --> 00:51:13,040
Speaker 2: I was like, you do?

990
00:51:15,280 --> 00:51:16,000
Speaker 8: Like, what what happened?

991
00:51:19,160 --> 00:51:25,879
Speaker 2: I was not throw How you think you think I'm great?

992
00:51:27,840 --> 00:51:35,439
Speaker 3: Yeah, brothers deserted to laugh. What's your social media?

993
00:51:35,560 --> 00:51:35,680
Speaker 2: Man?

994
00:51:35,760 --> 00:51:37,120
Speaker 8: Let them know how they can get in touch with

995
00:51:37,200 --> 00:51:40,400
Speaker 8: Johnny n n Y G O L D.

996
00:51:40,560 --> 00:51:44,040
Speaker 3: Johnny Gold Yep, very like that at coreger Bailey k

997
00:51:44,280 --> 00:51:47,080
Speaker 3: A R E G A B A I L E Y.

998
00:51:47,640 --> 00:51:53,239
Speaker 3: And if you find yourself in Oakland on on last

999
00:51:53,320 --> 00:51:55,560
Speaker 3: Tuesday of the month or Sacramento last Monday of the

1000
00:51:55,600 --> 00:51:59,279
Speaker 3: month at the Men's Wellness Fellowship. So that's the that's

1001
00:51:59,320 --> 00:52:02,360
Speaker 3: the group that I co founder, man, and we do

1002
00:52:02,560 --> 00:52:05,160
Speaker 3: we do. We do something just like this, but picture

1003
00:52:05,200 --> 00:52:06,960
Speaker 3: like a hundred and something prins buthers in the building

1004
00:52:07,120 --> 00:52:09,759
Speaker 3: and we got a DJ, we got cater food, and

1005
00:52:09,840 --> 00:52:12,960
Speaker 3: we got conversations that like just help us leave better

1006
00:52:13,000 --> 00:52:15,439
Speaker 3: than we came. He did what I'm saying, whether that's game,

1007
00:52:15,480 --> 00:52:17,640
Speaker 3: whether you looking for advice, what you looking for you

1008
00:52:17,719 --> 00:52:20,080
Speaker 3: have an idea that you wanna bring to life, whether

1009
00:52:20,200 --> 00:52:22,040
Speaker 3: nigga life is just going in the direction. You just

1010
00:52:22,120 --> 00:52:24,440
Speaker 3: need a good word. Right. We've been doing this for

1011
00:52:24,520 --> 00:52:26,880
Speaker 3: three years now, so shout out to the Men's Wanting Spellowship.

1012
00:52:28,560 --> 00:52:31,040
Speaker 3: So yeah, man taping. Men just need to get together

1013
00:52:31,080 --> 00:52:35,040
Speaker 3: and a lie that ship is healing, show a.

1014
00:52:35,160 --> 00:52:36,040
Speaker 2: Good boy a start.

1015
00:52:36,640 --> 00:52:38,800
Speaker 9: All you ever knowed what old niggas get together, just

1016
00:52:39,120 --> 00:52:40,480
Speaker 9: you can tell them best line.

1017
00:52:43,040 --> 00:52:45,120
Speaker 3: Eighteen wes gat been. Last week.

1018
00:52:54,480 --> 00:52:58,319
Speaker 2: I had piece let out, I went home in eighty five.

1019
00:52:59,280 --> 00:53:02,239
Speaker 2: That night my father had mad up.

1020
00:53:02,880 --> 00:53:08,360
Speaker 3: I ain't another I ain't even tell you about shut up.

1021
00:53:16,000 --> 00:53:18,920
Speaker 3: Just exactly real, ship, I know, you know, on the real.

1022
00:53:18,960 --> 00:53:22,400
Speaker 3: Don't look I got this crazy idea. I know.

1023
00:53:22,600 --> 00:53:22,759
Speaker 2: I know.

1024
00:53:22,840 --> 00:53:24,640
Speaker 3: Y'all be working, y'all, be on the road, y'all, be on,

1025
00:53:24,880 --> 00:53:27,440
Speaker 3: y'all go. We got to align it, man, and really

1026
00:53:27,440 --> 00:53:29,759
Speaker 3: get you to pull up any one of you whoever

1027
00:53:29,800 --> 00:53:32,200
Speaker 3: schedule pup to the men's wellness Fellowship. Here's the thing

1028
00:53:32,280 --> 00:53:34,280
Speaker 3: we did a lot, Bro, we don't have medical doctors.

1029
00:53:39,719 --> 00:53:45,319
Speaker 3: I want this nigga to come to this book, That's

1030
00:53:45,360 --> 00:53:48,200
Speaker 3: what I want to him. No, because look, bro, we

1031
00:53:48,239 --> 00:53:51,920
Speaker 3: don't have we don't have we don't have medical doctors. Right,

1032
00:53:52,000 --> 00:53:56,120
Speaker 3: we don't have artists shout out to d Smoke pulled

1033
00:53:56,200 --> 00:53:58,279
Speaker 3: up on us to looks like Roger pulled up on us.

1034
00:53:59,239 --> 00:54:02,360
Speaker 3: I think the next part of this wellness exploration that

1035
00:54:02,440 --> 00:54:05,439
Speaker 3: I'm just exploring his brother's like the need for joy,

1036
00:54:06,200 --> 00:54:10,680
Speaker 3: the need for laughter, right, the need for Yeah, just

1037
00:54:10,760 --> 00:54:13,360
Speaker 3: that joy and laughter part gotta be sustainable, you know

1038
00:54:13,360 --> 00:54:26,040
Speaker 3: what I'm saying. Because coaches a week, George Different, you gotta.

1039
00:54:27,840 --> 00:54:31,719
Speaker 2: That's great, don't worry. I'm meaning.

1040
00:54:35,360 --> 00:54:37,240
Speaker 3: Plural plural.

1041
00:54:38,040 --> 00:54:41,040
Speaker 9: Now gonna tell you about the highlight of his life.

1042
00:54:41,080 --> 00:54:42,680
Speaker 9: It sounds like some ship there to be on, like

1043
00:54:43,239 --> 00:54:46,080
Speaker 9: some TV one, like behind the music ship.

1044
00:54:47,520 --> 00:54:49,239
Speaker 3: This point, I mean I.

1045
00:54:49,360 --> 00:54:49,840
Speaker 2: Was even.

1046
00:54:55,960 --> 00:54:58,480
Speaker 3: At this point. It was real bad. I mean.

1047
00:55:00,160 --> 00:55:00,600
Speaker 4: So cool.

1048
00:55:01,800 --> 00:55:05,200
Speaker 3: It's going crazy, wallowing, out of control, just out of control.

1049
00:55:06,200 --> 00:55:08,400
Speaker 3: That's why, that's why I started.

1050
00:55:11,920 --> 00:55:17,920
Speaker 8: I wouldn't consider myself a freak, but I said, I'm

1051
00:55:17,960 --> 00:55:18,480
Speaker 8: gonna heat them.

1052
00:55:18,520 --> 00:55:27,880
Speaker 2: Coach, give me here.

1053
00:55:31,719 --> 00:55:36,640
Speaker 3: Get that's great, that's great, that's great. Men, get here.

1054
00:55:36,760 --> 00:55:56,440
Speaker 12: You see see see.

1055
00:55:53,600 --> 00:55:55,040
Speaker 2: This is see see.

1056
00:55:57,440 --> 00:56:02,560
Speaker 3: Oh no, no, all all ship. But at my lowest,

1057
00:56:04,160 --> 00:56:04,800
Speaker 3: I was even.

1058
00:56:07,120 --> 00:56:12,560
Speaker 2: The day a week, focus a week, slow down, then.

1059
00:56:14,960 --> 00:56:17,600
Speaker 3: The money, then.

1060
00:56:23,920 --> 00:56:26,799
Speaker 2: The floor over drive the plan.

1061
00:56:26,960 --> 00:56:27,640
Speaker 3: He just picks them up.

1062
00:56:29,760 --> 00:56:31,839
Speaker 9: Man will be ordered to go ship a name. Man,

1063
00:56:32,480 --> 00:56:35,200
Speaker 9: y'all know exactly where we're at. Man, y'all just be

1064
00:56:35,280 --> 00:56:38,040
Speaker 9: the last time y'all stopped through the eighty fist and

1065
00:56:38,200 --> 00:56:41,319
Speaker 9: now pull enough for real man. Eighty mins so all

1066
00:56:41,400 --> 00:56:43,799
Speaker 9: were talking to is ghetto legs man, stay tuned, were

1067
00:56:43,800 --> 00:56:44,239
Speaker 9: out of here.