Speaker 1: Hey guys, welcome, Welcome. Your ringo was good. It is
Speaker 1: exactly a Mada and this is your girl A Mada.
Speaker 1: Thank you so much for joining me every Thursday. You
Speaker 1: already know to do. I want to do a little
Speaker 1: something different because I wanted to bring a special guest.
Speaker 1: Um knowing that you know, we are somewhat we're somewhat
Speaker 1: like loving hip hop family without being loving hip hop
Speaker 1: family because we're on different franchises. Today I'm talking to
Speaker 1: someone who is part of loving hip hop. Hey, Johnny,
Speaker 1: how are you doing? You look beautiful? And forgive me
Speaker 1: because I look a little crunchy today. I wish that
Speaker 1: I was more familous. Tell me where are you located
Speaker 1: right now? I'm in between l A and Atlanta. WI.
Speaker 1: Do you like more l A because it's more R
Speaker 1: and B. I feel like R and B is more
Speaker 1: out in Atlanta for me, and then also like it's
Speaker 1: just love at like the buildings and the scenery is
Speaker 1: really really dope. Well, for those that may not know
Speaker 1: of you, I hate when people ask me this, But
Speaker 1: for those that is the first time that they're hearing you, Um,
Speaker 1: can you, you know, let them in a little bit
Speaker 1: on who Johnny is okay, So my name is Johnny. Um.
Speaker 1: I am German and Black descent. I was born on
Speaker 1: Moody Air Force days, but also Georgia, so I'm a
Speaker 1: Georgia baby. Um. I play six instruments, I sing, I write, produce. UM.
Speaker 1: I've done love in hip hop, growing up in hip hop,
Speaker 1: and now I'm past the reality TV and I'm working
Speaker 1: on two movies and also a show UM that's on Stars.
Speaker 1: So I'm just uh, just re revance my whole look awesome.
Speaker 1: My bird wants to interview too. It's okay, no worries,
Speaker 1: no worries, you know what. This is part of our
Speaker 1: new lifestyle or new norms. You know, it's okay. We
Speaker 1: were actually even more personal into your life. So it's
Speaker 1: all good. Out of all the things that you do,
Speaker 1: which one do you feel that you enjoy the most.
Speaker 1: Music is more of my thing, Like it's just I
Speaker 1: don't know. I get up, I want to record, I
Speaker 1: want to perform, I want to do features, I want
Speaker 1: to do It's just a love for a passion. I've
Speaker 1: been doing classical piano since I was like six, so
Speaker 1: it's like it's kind of a thing for me. It's
Speaker 1: not even a job. It's just a thing. It's my thing.
Speaker 1: So why Johnny Blaze? But now with this whole new
Speaker 1: revamp is just Johnny um, Johnny Blaze. I got tired
Speaker 1: of people that didn't know that I can really really sing.
Speaker 1: They were like, so wrap something for me and I'm like, huh,
Speaker 1: I'm like, okay, let me just well my label. Actually
Speaker 1: Green Team was like, you know, maybe you should delete
Speaker 1: the Blaze. So now they're working on like my social
Speaker 1: media handles, like changing them and it does sound much better.
Speaker 1: It's like, you know, Johnny, like that's more r and
Speaker 1: b isshue for me. And then Blaze is like my
Speaker 1: past I feel and I've grown so much. So it's
Speaker 1: just like multiple reasons. Why. So if you have to
Speaker 1: describe herselfing three, what would you say? I would say misunderstood,
Speaker 1: but I don't give a damn um kind and determined. Um.
Speaker 1: I feel like a lot of people they tend to.
Speaker 1: Why I say determined is because people, Um, you'll have
Speaker 1: a talent or something that you're really great at, and
Speaker 1: people will tear you down to the point that you
Speaker 1: won't even believe in yourself. And it's like I have
Speaker 1: a determination to win for myself, but also just like
Speaker 1: it's that more of a like how I told you so,
Speaker 1: like I knew, no, it wasn't gonna be my last answer. Um,
Speaker 1: kind is just I'm just a sweet person. And I
Speaker 1: don't think nobody knows that. Like, I'm really non confrontational now,
Speaker 1: like I'm not. I will care in your ass. I
Speaker 1: will seriously call the police, and I don't feel bad
Speaker 1: about it. I will lower up. I'm gonna suiting you
Speaker 1: for defamation. Like I don't deal with drama or violence.
Speaker 1: You know. So I'm really kind, so um, some people
Speaker 1: tend to take that for a weakness. So that and then, um,
Speaker 1: the talented thing is just I'm just I'm gifted. Um,
Speaker 1: I'm misunderstanding gifted and just really really a sweet person.
Speaker 1: What about if you had to describe yourself as an artist?
Speaker 1: Oh that bitch. Okay, the ugly they call each chunky,
Speaker 1: they call me whatever. They But what you back gonna
Speaker 1: take from me. And that's what people tend to want
Speaker 1: to take from you, your energy and your faith in yourself.
Speaker 1: It is telling you that you're not something. And you're
Speaker 1: just not going to tell me that I'm not gifted,
Speaker 1: that I'm not talented. So yeah, okay, well she's that bitch. Um.
Speaker 1: But you know, even though that we say, you know
Speaker 1: I'm that bitch deep down inside. Have you ever had
Speaker 1: those moments where some of those comments may have actually
Speaker 1: gotten to you because me, like, I'm a boss, bitch,
Speaker 1: I'm I'm all these things. I'm in the spotlight, people
Speaker 1: always looking at me, and I get all those things right,
Speaker 1: that's great, But as on that they try to be
Speaker 1: there are moments where it could just be that day,
Speaker 1: like today, I woke up that I'm not with it
Speaker 1: and one person's comment, I will say, we'll kill my
Speaker 1: whole day, but it will it will make me feel
Speaker 1: like I'm not necessarily that bit for like for like seconds. Yeah,
Speaker 1: So so are there those moments for you? Um, it's
Speaker 1: always those moments. It's it's more of it. It's not
Speaker 1: from strangers. Sometimes it's from people that you think that's
Speaker 1: close to you. Um, it comes from them more than
Speaker 1: because I really don't care about the comments, like it's
Speaker 1: more of a family member or a friend affecting me
Speaker 1: with what they say. And then then no longer my friend,
Speaker 1: I'm not as close to the family member, So it
Speaker 1: does it does affect me, but I've become so spiritual
Speaker 1: since like October fourteen of two thousand twenty one, where
Speaker 1: I just like read the Bible every day like a scripture,
Speaker 1: and I'm more into myself to the point the confidence
Speaker 1: level has went up, and I just ignore, you know
Speaker 1: what people say. But it does it does bother me.
Speaker 1: It does affect me. Um, I do cry because it
Speaker 1: hurts more when it's somebody that's your friend or family
Speaker 1: rather than a random person. And it's just like difficult.
Speaker 1: But I've I've grown to ignore it and just move
Speaker 1: forward and kind of distance myself from stuff like that.
Speaker 1: Like I'm very big on energy, but like meditation, like
Speaker 1: I don't like to go outside and feel that my
Speaker 1: energy I need to put some bad energy into somebody.
Speaker 1: Like my hopes is to just give energy to somebody.
Speaker 1: Somebody might be on their last limb, and because I smile,
Speaker 1: they'll ask them how are they? How are they doing? Um,
Speaker 1: it affected them in a good way. So yes, it
Speaker 1: does affect me, but I tend to find other things.
Speaker 1: Me making other people happy actually gets me out of
Speaker 1: that space when people are negative in me. So now
Speaker 1: this is completely random, but I had seen you on
Speaker 1: social media. I hadn't really gotten to know you as
Speaker 1: a person per se. This is like the furthest we've
Speaker 1: actually going into talking. Do you feel and judgment free zone?
Speaker 1: But do you feel that people sometimes may misjudge you
Speaker 1: based off your looks, based off your social media? From
Speaker 1: the woman that I'm talking to right now this scene,
Speaker 1: you know, you sound very sweet, you sound very genuine,
Speaker 1: you sound very polite, very kind of all those things.
Speaker 1: But when I see you at first, right, the first
Speaker 1: thing I'm getting is based off your social media alone, right,
Speaker 1: or just the wather you're naturally you know, set up physically.
Speaker 1: Do you feel that people judge you and there's like
Speaker 1: a misguidance there? Um? Okay, So with me, I feel
Speaker 1: like this guy puts you on earth even though you
Speaker 1: came out of your mom and your daddy. You feel me,
Speaker 1: I'm so country you want to put on this earth
Speaker 1: for everybody to like you or to understand you. Like
Speaker 1: Nobody knows how this big change happened for me. Five
Speaker 1: months ago, I just really started just being focused on
Speaker 1: myself and showing people what I want to and I
Speaker 1: feel that people um to get that social media. It's
Speaker 1: like whatever you post out there, whatever you put it's
Speaker 1: your fault you put it out there. So if you
Speaker 1: want the narrative to change, change it. So I started
Speaker 1: showing more of my personality and skits, start showing people
Speaker 1: like this goopy sac because this is me all day.
Speaker 1: I'm very clumsy, and people are either gonna gravitate to
Speaker 1: the person that you're becoming for the better you or
Speaker 1: they're not. And I do think that even though I'm
Speaker 1: a much happier person if you see it on my
Speaker 1: social media now, I think people look at my body
Speaker 1: and just like, oh, she has to be a bit
Speaker 1: she has. Okay, and let me break it down for
Speaker 1: those that obviously can't see you. Right, So she is
Speaker 1: very curvy. She is you know, she let me just
Speaker 1: bring it down. She got them fastest this, she got
Speaker 1: the booty, she got small waists, and well, shoot, I
Speaker 1: want TV. I was like, yo, where'd y'all find that
Speaker 1: person from? Like okay, so but okay, but then you know,
Speaker 1: then I went through a whole body transformation and good, yes, yes,
Speaker 1: and and I love my body now. But but she's very,
Speaker 1: very curvy, and obviously on social media, she does, you know,
Speaker 1: accentuate the fact that you know, she embraces her body
Speaker 1: and she wears, you know, a lot of sexy stuff
Speaker 1: or whatever, and automatically, just based off seeing it, I wouldn't.
Speaker 1: I would sometimes we can be very judgmental as a society,
Speaker 1: and you know, I would think something else. But then
Speaker 1: now talking to you, I'm like, oh my gosh, she's
Speaker 1: so sweet, she's so nice. I would never match. Let
Speaker 1: me tell yourself, I'm like the most. If you see
Speaker 1: me in person, you're going to crack a left. And
Speaker 1: first of all, people think I'm six feet. I am
Speaker 1: five one. Okay, Okay, I'm lying. I just put the
Speaker 1: one so I don't. I don't feel so bad. I'm
Speaker 1: five feet, but the point is five feet. I look,
Speaker 1: look this interview. I'm gonna keep you so real. Look
Speaker 1: the other side of me. I don't nightclothes. Okay, y'all
Speaker 1: just seeing this, I'm being a professional, but really I'm
Speaker 1: like this okay, And I'm just I've got to a point.
Speaker 1: You know, my grandmother had passed away. I've been through
Speaker 1: human trafficking. People don't know why I had that guard
Speaker 1: up of being the mean girl and wanting to fight
Speaker 1: because I was protecting how I am now. So I
Speaker 1: had to get my mental in my space, in a
Speaker 1: right space for not just me, but for my music,
Speaker 1: my career. And now people when they see me, they're like, Okay,
Speaker 1: I see it, but it's it's it's going faster than
Speaker 1: what I thought. Because now when people see they're like, yo,
Speaker 1: she's super cool, and I do get it does hurt
Speaker 1: my feelings a little bit that people think I'm just
Speaker 1: like this baby grinch and I'm like, I'm friendly. Hugged me.
Speaker 1: I must see you just heard something that was very sensitive.
Speaker 1: I don't know you if you would be willing to
Speaker 1: talk a little bit more into that and how, um,
Speaker 1: how that affected your you know what, what exactly happened
Speaker 1: when you said human traffic? Yeah, I I from my
Speaker 1: mother sent me away when I was fourteen, um um,
Speaker 1: and I ended up in New York, and I took
Speaker 1: an ad on a computer, um, and I thought it
Speaker 1: was for kids, you know, I was fourteen, about to
Speaker 1: be fifteen. I took at that thought it was for photos,
Speaker 1: you know. And I went to this house and I'm
Speaker 1: Philly and it wasn't that. Um. I didn't have barely
Speaker 1: no money to even go back. So it was basically
Speaker 1: like a house for underage um kids to prostitute and
Speaker 1: and and sell yourself and you really can't leave. So
Speaker 1: the girl that was with me felt extra extra um
Speaker 1: bad for me. I gave me a drink um. It
Speaker 1: definitely wasn't a normal liquor because I became like very
Speaker 1: just energetic, very hyper. I couldn't even tell you what
Speaker 1: was in the cup. And I just stayed and it
Speaker 1: just I kind of I was into it, like I
Speaker 1: got into it because the guy that was over that home,
Speaker 1: he was like, you know, y'a, I gotta make some money.
Speaker 1: Like it's kind of like um Players Club but for kids,
Speaker 1: which is so sickening to say, but it's like you
Speaker 1: got to make the money. And I just kind of
Speaker 1: fell into the drugs and the drinking at a young
Speaker 1: age because I was rebellious. My mother sent me away
Speaker 1: because I was molested when I was fourteen by my stepfather.
Speaker 1: So I was already having a disconnect of if if
Speaker 1: that can happen, then it's like nobody really like cares,
Speaker 1: nobody um loves me or supports me. I was just
Speaker 1: like becoming a rebel because I was so angry, like
Speaker 1: why is this happening to me, So I wanted to
Speaker 1: make some money. I'm like, okay, I'm young. I could
Speaker 1: get some pictures, but it was not that. I went
Speaker 1: from about fifteen to seventeen in that for years, and
Speaker 1: then I was actually lacking in school and UM had
Speaker 1: to go to summer school to graduate because my dad
Speaker 1: wasn't having it. He wasn't like trying to figure me
Speaker 1: out because I wouldn't let him in. Um, and it
Speaker 1: just I got out only because I was always the
Speaker 1: singing girl. I was always the girl that sung, and UM,
Speaker 1: he was like, you don't even belong here, like at
Speaker 1: least go to the strip club. And that's kind of
Speaker 1: how I got introduced to the strip club. Somebody actually
Speaker 1: we brought me there and they were more popular in Philly.
Speaker 1: To let the person that have me at the house,
Speaker 1: let them know, like don't don't bother her no more
Speaker 1: like she's here now. So I ended up and I
Speaker 1: ended up stripping at the age of eighteen. So, um,
Speaker 1: it was it was a lot for me because I
Speaker 1: don't think people know and people are like, you're easy
Speaker 1: to talk about the story, like it's just so normal,
Speaker 1: and it's not that it's normal. It's just I don't
Speaker 1: want to be a sad story. I want to tell
Speaker 1: people my life and hopefully it changes or helps them
Speaker 1: somewhere somewhere or somehow, you know. And I never want
Speaker 1: to be looked at as something that's like, oh poor baby,
Speaker 1: Like no, like look at me now on bossed up.
Speaker 1: I didn't let it affect me, And yeah it was
Speaker 1: I've been through some stuff and to see how I
Speaker 1: am now, and then how people first time even talking
Speaker 1: to me and I get this a lot, They're like,
Speaker 1: you're very happy. And that's why I think that sometimes
Speaker 1: people can be very judgmental. That's why I was getting
Speaker 1: into that space of like, um, we can judge someone
Speaker 1: without really getting to know the story. Or I had
Speaker 1: no idea that you had gone through those things. Um,
Speaker 1: I didn't know that you know that you got you
Speaker 1: were an exotic right exotic dancer at one point. Um.
Speaker 1: But at the same time, we don't really know. And
Speaker 1: a lot of people we go to these clubs, we
Speaker 1: go to these environments just judging like, oh, she wants this,
Speaker 1: this is the life that she chose, the da da
Speaker 1: da or whatever, without truly knowing what may have cost,
Speaker 1: what's the background. What's the true story behind every single
Speaker 1: girl that's up there dancing? For those people that are
Speaker 1: judgmental towards them, you know you were there, Um, what
Speaker 1: would you say to those people that go to these
Speaker 1: places judge these girls without really knowing the backstory. I
Speaker 1: actually feel bad for them, not for us that the
Speaker 1: women that have went through it or girls that have
Speaker 1: went through it. I feel bad for them because I
Speaker 1: know for a fact, everybody on earth, because sin is real. Um,
Speaker 1: everybody has done something or secretly done something, and they'll
Speaker 1: take to their great that they've not they're not proud
Speaker 1: of or either did a mistake or something. So it's like,
Speaker 1: you judge this person or me, but what have you done?
Speaker 1: I would never judge you, like I don't think. I
Speaker 1: don't think I ever really judged somebody because it's like
Speaker 1: I don't have a really position to do that. Um.
Speaker 1: I think it's pretty sad because you can meet some
Speaker 1: pretty great people, even if they used to be exotic dancers,
Speaker 1: if they, you know, UM, went through something that people
Speaker 1: might not look look down on supposedly. Um, some of
Speaker 1: these people are amazing people. You know what I'm saying.
Speaker 1: I have a friend that's been through way worse than me,
Speaker 1: got our own businesses car wash and nurse and got kids,
Speaker 1: a husband, And I'm just like, people don't believe in
Speaker 1: people changing. People don't believe in uh people growing and
Speaker 1: uh being successful throughout whatever they've been through. And I
Speaker 1: think that's more of a jealousy thing people have towards
Speaker 1: people that do come from that, and they do succeed,
Speaker 1: so majority succeeds, but some are not successful and they
Speaker 1: end up still dancing and stuff, and so those are
Speaker 1: looked bad upon and it's like it makes everything look
Speaker 1: bad and I'm like, no, they're the same as the
Speaker 1: person that came from that that's successful, it just might
Speaker 1: take them a little bit more time. So I think
Speaker 1: it's a judging thing and people not understand. I think
Speaker 1: it's kind of sad because it's like, why would you judge?
Speaker 1: You're not God. So it's like, and then how was
Speaker 1: that transition for you, Like, after all those things that
Speaker 1: you had been through and then from there go to
Speaker 1: being on one of the most watched reality shows like
Speaker 1: Love and Hip Hop. I ended up being on TV
Speaker 1: because of that. I was the girl that I'm not
Speaker 1: trying to date nobody just because they're popular. I'm not
Speaker 1: trying to click it with girls just because and then
Speaker 1: the next week we're fighting about we wore the same
Speaker 1: hair or the same outfit. Like I was never that girl.
Speaker 1: I was just me and me being me. I was
Speaker 1: like the hood, I guess celebrity, like I'm in Walmart,
Speaker 1: I'm getting tampons, which you're getting something too, Okay, you're
Speaker 1: in the week aligned me too? Like I was. I
Speaker 1: made people feel comfortable and it got to the point
Speaker 1: where love and hip hop was like who is that?
Speaker 1: Because around that time when I was dancing, it was
Speaker 1: like popular for the strippers of the exotic dancers to
Speaker 1: be dating somebody or they're just popping. So I was
Speaker 1: one of the popping girls coming from Houston as a dancer,
Speaker 1: and they were like okay, well, and I used to
Speaker 1: live in New York and they're like the springer on there.
Speaker 1: So it was really just a shocker. I didn't know
Speaker 1: how what I was doing. I didn't know I didn't
Speaker 1: read scripts. I didn't listen to scripts if it was
Speaker 1: given to me. I was just TV material basically for them.
Speaker 1: Did you feel like there was one because there's a
Speaker 1: difference in between once you were, um, being out of
Speaker 1: the TV world, Um, then being in the exotic entertainment world,
Speaker 1: and then from there you are in reality TV. Do
Speaker 1: you feel that there was any state that you feel
Speaker 1: like you meant really weren't you know? Uh, healed, prepared,
Speaker 1: bounds out to be able to deal with all the
Speaker 1: drama the TV brings because people people don't really understand
Speaker 1: that part as well. All the drama that happens on
Speaker 1: these reality shows are very much so real for most
Speaker 1: of us. Some people I've heard that you know, they
Speaker 1: come up, they you know, they finessed the fund. But
Speaker 1: for those like myself that the drama has been very real. Um,
Speaker 1: did it ever really affect your mental your mental health,
Speaker 1: your mental state. I came in there mentally just kind
Speaker 1: of out of the earth, So it wasn't like it
Speaker 1: was just like, um, you know, it was so much
Speaker 1: like it. I didn't know people was doing stuff behind
Speaker 1: my back. First of all, I never got paid, and
Speaker 1: that would be the last time somebody and never not
Speaker 1: paid me and I give them them type of ratings
Speaker 1: that I gave them and wasn't a cast member, never
Speaker 1: got paid. Uh uh that's crazy. Um. And then it
Speaker 1: was just the drinking, the not my boyfriend hold on,
Speaker 1: even though you didn't get paid, Do you think this
Speaker 1: was a good opportunity, a good platform to be seen.
Speaker 1: Did your life change somewhat after that? No? No, I'm
Speaker 1: not trying to send cocky nothing. But I've always been
Speaker 1: that girl like I've always been. When I say that girl,
Speaker 1: that's like for anybody to feel like that, I've always
Speaker 1: been that girl. I've always I was already popular, like extremely,
Speaker 1: like I was just the the Houston was the place
Speaker 1: where all the popping dancers were, and it was that
Speaker 1: error where I was in just so happened to be in.
Speaker 1: So I was already No, I didn't care if I
Speaker 1: was on TV or off TV. I was drinking, doing
Speaker 1: all types of stuff where I just didn't care. It
Speaker 1: was what it was. They was like, you want to
Speaker 1: do it short? Where's my checks that still waiting for?
Speaker 1: That never got checked. So it was just like this
Speaker 1: is just like stripping, you going to club, all eyes
Speaker 1: on you. It's like a TV and from different countries
Speaker 1: and different cities people coming, they're watching everything that you do.
Speaker 1: So I didn't think I benefited from it because people
Speaker 1: would always say like I don't think love and hip
Speaker 1: Hop helped you. The only thing it probably helped is
Speaker 1: what a couple more million people that was already gonna
Speaker 1: eventually see me because I'm talented and have been. If
Speaker 1: you don't get your stuff right, you failed yourself. So
Speaker 1: I knew I was gonna get my stuff right. I
Speaker 1: just didn't know when you know so. And I'm not
Speaker 1: trying to discredit love and hip hop. It's just I
Speaker 1: you couldn't give me twenty million dollars to go back
Speaker 1: because it's like, so you wouldn't consider loving hip hop
Speaker 1: to have been a good experience for you. Maybe, girl,
Speaker 1: I think I think you the first person I told baby,
Speaker 1: I'm on P Valley. I got two movies under my
Speaker 1: belt P Valley, and I'm getting my own show. So
Speaker 1: it's like on God's time. You know what I'm saying,
Speaker 1: on God's time is when it's not on loving hip
Speaker 1: hop time. So no, they could not pay me, and
Speaker 1: it's no disrespect. I love them that I think they're cool.
Speaker 1: They're cool for somebody else, not for me, because I'm
Speaker 1: not about You're not about to play. When you let
Speaker 1: people control or feel they can control you and control
Speaker 1: your narrative of your life. That's when it fails. And
Speaker 1: I felt like I let them control. You know, you
Speaker 1: have drinks out on the table and thinking that you know,
Speaker 1: go ahead and spike up her attitude with this drink.
Speaker 1: I know this is gonna make her. Man. You don't
Speaker 1: do that when you see people have talent, especially in
Speaker 1: the black community, if you know somebody has a gift
Speaker 1: at least, and you see they're not being guided. Right,
Speaker 1: there's not a lot of people that guide people the
Speaker 1: right way. And I wasn't guided the right way. You
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. You like, it's like they knew.
Speaker 1: And I don't blame other people. It's more of just
Speaker 1: it's both. It's me and them. I blame both. So no,
Speaker 1: they couldn't pay me to come back to that, honey.
Speaker 1: So you pay five instruments. And when did you start?
Speaker 1: Because you know, thinking about like the past and and
Speaker 1: now the negative you know which which all the negative
Speaker 1: things that you went through build and made the woman
Speaker 1: that you are today. And thanks to somewhat those things,
Speaker 1: you are you know, in a in a happier place. Now.
Speaker 1: If you don't know the bad, you'll never know the good.
Speaker 1: So so now you know how it feels to be
Speaker 1: in this happy place. But part of that is, um
Speaker 1: going back into your music, going back into what you love.
Speaker 1: And part of that as well is the fact that
Speaker 1: you play all these instruments. How did you start? What
Speaker 1: motivated you? Which is your favorite? Do you do it
Speaker 1: is a hobby or do you actually really be at
Speaker 1: the crib plane? You know, I get only people nerves, Honey,
Speaker 1: I get on the nerves. Well, no, I don't get
Speaker 1: on there because that they just be like, now we
Speaker 1: know who you are because I've been there, Like it's
Speaker 1: your name Johnny. I'm like, no, my name is Jappelle
Speaker 1: because that's my real name, Jappelle von Krishna. And they
Speaker 1: were like all right. So then all of a sudden
Speaker 1: they kept coming back. I'm like, my name is Johnny.
Speaker 1: So my next time, neighbors know who I am. They
Speaker 1: know I played piano, but I've been playing this since
Speaker 1: I was six, the violin, acoustic guitar, electric drums, piano. Um,
Speaker 1: it's just a passion. I don't know everything that I
Speaker 1: was telling you that I've been through. I just put
Speaker 1: it into my music, the anger, the pain, and then
Speaker 1: I realized that r and B is really for me.
Speaker 1: I was trying to figure out my genre, and I
Speaker 1: could do every genre. It's just more of That's where
Speaker 1: it um. People see or understand my pain the most.
Speaker 1: So this is like my lifeline. Every time I went
Speaker 1: through something, I was always known as whatever. I was
Speaker 1: that girl that does that, but she sings, And then
Speaker 1: it got better the more I healed. It was the
Speaker 1: upper that could sing with the bad attitude that likes
Speaker 1: to fight, the she's not a stripper no more, with
Speaker 1: the attitude that likes to fight. Oh she doesn't fight
Speaker 1: no more. Now, No, she just has a bad attitude,
Speaker 1: the attitude with the mental problem. Now the mental problem
Speaker 1: with the singing. Now it's just now she sings like
Speaker 1: that's her own look. She's sings, so it's like levels.
Speaker 1: So it's my passion, you know. I just had to
Speaker 1: grow into myself. I was in my own way. I
Speaker 1: was letting other people control what my destiny is. And
Speaker 1: I didn't like that, you know, right, And the same
Speaker 1: thing goes for your songwriting. When you write, Um, when
Speaker 1: you write these songs, do you mainly write about the
Speaker 1: hurt and the bad and and and that's just the
Speaker 1: bad because whatever like, we've seen a lot of artists
Speaker 1: have made, you know, lots of money and and have
Speaker 1: won many awards, all talking about their own personal experiences.
Speaker 1: But what do you mainly write about? What truly inspires you?
Speaker 1: When it comes to songwriting, people myself and people I know.
Speaker 1: I have good people around me, but they go through
Speaker 1: some ship and they're all like, for example, I have
Speaker 1: a person that's in computers and Microsoft. I have a
Speaker 1: person it's a lawyer, but she's going through I'm like, what,
Speaker 1: how do you even have time to go through? So
Speaker 1: I'm writing from other people's experiences and um, writing what
Speaker 1: I know the world. Probably there's people that's going through that.
Speaker 1: I don't want it to just be about me. So
Speaker 1: sometimes I have to step outside of myself and have
Speaker 1: writers come in, like what do people go through? Or
Speaker 1: what do people think about? And I write it because
Speaker 1: you just don't want it to be about yourself. Those
Speaker 1: can touch people too, but I also want songs that
Speaker 1: other people can relate to. Two psycho Off of that,
Speaker 1: I'm an analyzer. I'll analyze people. I'll listen to conversations
Speaker 1: and I'm like, hmmm, so this person slept with your sister.
Speaker 1: But you're okay with it now y'all live together and
Speaker 1: your kids is cool with that, and like this is
Speaker 1: the type of ship that I'd be hearing. Let me
Speaker 1: write that down, okay, yeah, or like let me go,
Speaker 1: or like those crazy books that people write and they
Speaker 1: sell out like number one sellers where it's like the
Speaker 1: pastor is talking to So I look at this and
Speaker 1: I'm like, maybe that's why we have the Isasy Brothers
Speaker 1: and these people that write stories in their in their songs,
Speaker 1: and I'm like, okay, time to be creative. So it
Speaker 1: really comes from just people in myself. It has to,
Speaker 1: you know what. I honestly love the fact that today
Speaker 1: I was given an opportunity to get to know a
Speaker 1: different Johnny, not the one that you just see on
Speaker 1: social media, but also just getting to know you the person.
Speaker 1: Um I I want to give you, you know, your
Speaker 1: your flowers for being a strong woman because you went
Speaker 1: through so you went through so much. Like I said before,
Speaker 1: a lot of us, UM didn't know, a lot of
Speaker 1: people may not know. And if you are this flower
Speaker 1: and bubbly and happy person is because you've come into
Speaker 1: a space that you are healed somewhat right, Because I don't.
Speaker 1: I don't know if you completely heal a percent neede,
Speaker 1: but but but just that seventy pcent that you did
Speaker 1: heal um was very important for you to be the
Speaker 1: woman that you that you are today. And that's why
Speaker 1: I want people to follow you work and they go
Speaker 1: follow you on social media. On your social media platforms
Speaker 1: Johnny Blaze. Johnny Blaze does gonna change soon, but for
Speaker 1: now is Johnny Blaze, j H O N N I
Speaker 1: B L A z E d U H and then
Speaker 1: everything else you just put Johnny Blaze you can find.
Speaker 1: And then also I got a couple of singles out
Speaker 1: which is Somebody that you just interviewed featuring Trina So
Speaker 1: into you Um, then Toxic Feature and in Eli Chopper,
Speaker 1: and then my newest single is all Right. I'm so
Speaker 1: grateful to have you on Exactly a Mata. Thank you
Speaker 1: so much Johnny for coming in today, and guys you
Speaker 1: already know, thank you for joining me every Thursday on
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