WEBVTT - This Is Your Wake Up Call 0:00:20.320 --> 0:00:22.080 Welcome back to Good Mom's Bad Choices. 0:00:22.239 --> 0:00:28.280 I'm Erica and I'm Mila. Happy Wednesday, Happy Wednesday, Witches. 0:00:28.440 --> 0:00:34.360 It's top day, bitches. How you do Onceitches? I'm about 0:00:34.400 --> 0:00:37.440 to drop some fourth because my name is Erica and 0:00:37.479 --> 0:00:39.680 I could drive four Wow. 0:00:39.720 --> 0:00:40.640 That was beautiful. 0:00:41.200 --> 0:00:42.920 That's as far as it goes my mind. I'm high. 0:00:42.960 --> 0:00:44.000 So that's that's it. 0:00:44.040 --> 0:00:47.400 Guys, Welcome back to the show. 0:00:47.760 --> 0:00:49.080 Oh you know what, you know what? Sorry, I just 0:00:49.080 --> 0:00:51.760 remembered I've have been writing poetry again, so I think 0:00:51.800 --> 0:00:53.960 that maybe at some point I do need to bring 0:00:54.040 --> 0:00:57.200 back like my my wraps and my readings for my journal. 0:00:57.280 --> 0:00:59.200 Do we need to do like a poetry Slam episode? 0:00:59.200 --> 0:01:01.560 Because I have some very very emo poetry that I 0:01:01.560 --> 0:01:03.760 can dig up from my seventeen thousand journals that I 0:01:03.760 --> 0:01:04.440 have in my apartment. 0:01:04.440 --> 0:01:06.840 Should we? I think we should? Okay, Okay, I like that. 0:01:06.920 --> 0:01:09.600 Oh my god, right, yeah. 0:01:09.040 --> 0:01:10.120 Good Mom's Poetry Slam. 0:01:10.240 --> 0:01:12.720 Yes, Oh my god, it's so good. We could like 0:01:12.760 --> 0:01:19.839 put like snaps in the back. My name is jam. 0:01:20.000 --> 0:01:25.679 I didn't have a little lamb. Her fleece was not 0:01:25.760 --> 0:01:29.800 white as snow. She always wanted more. 0:01:31.440 --> 0:01:32.240 And I gotta work on it. 0:01:32.280 --> 0:01:37.200 But you know, yeah, ho ho ho ho ho ho ho. 0:01:37.480 --> 0:01:43.800 But it ain't Christmas, Oh nope, it's August. 0:01:44.520 --> 0:01:48.040 You know, I was a deep fucking poetry writer all 0:01:48.160 --> 0:01:51.240 throughout my teenage years, like deep as hell. I had, 0:01:51.360 --> 0:01:55.160 Like yeah, I had deep poetry aspirations. And I'm so 0:01:55.240 --> 0:01:57.360 glad that we've created a platform or we could do 0:01:57.400 --> 0:02:00.960 whatever the fuck we want, including bringing back our teenage. 0:02:01.040 --> 0:02:02.880 I knew that one day these would see the light 0:02:02.920 --> 0:02:03.200 of day. 0:02:03.240 --> 0:02:04.840 Do we need to have like a poetry show? 0:02:05.480 --> 0:02:08.359 Maybe maybe it's like a poetry after hours with good moms. 0:02:08.520 --> 0:02:14.120 Yeah, Lisa, I'm looking forward to this. 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This is business, cowgirl business, cowgirls, 0:05:12.240 --> 0:05:14.200 poci space hippie. Yes. 0:05:16.839 --> 0:05:17.039 Yeah. 0:05:17.080 --> 0:05:18.920 If you guys haven't checked out on YouTube, now is 0:05:18.960 --> 0:05:20.800 the time, because we'd be looking the fuck it. 0:05:21.279 --> 0:05:22.800 We may be like rest enough for y'all. 0:05:22.839 --> 0:05:25.039 We'd be having different hairstyles, be doing our makeup and 0:05:25.080 --> 0:05:28.240 sheet and we figured like, yeah, come see us, don't 0:05:28.279 --> 0:05:29.799 be talking shit, just say nice things. 0:05:30.040 --> 0:05:31.560 Yeah, because it's some weirdos on YouTube. 0:05:34.760 --> 0:05:38.440 So lovely, what's going on? How are you this hump day? 0:05:38.480 --> 0:05:39.960 This fun, lovely hump day? 0:05:41.880 --> 0:05:49.839 This hump day is good. I am feeling excited because 0:05:51.120 --> 0:05:54.080 I just feel like I'm in a new season of 0:05:54.120 --> 0:05:57.719 my life, that the doors have opened and I'm walking 0:05:57.760 --> 0:06:03.719 through them and I'm grateful, and I've just been called 0:06:03.760 --> 0:06:05.919 to just really recognize how grateful i am. More and 0:06:05.960 --> 0:06:09.760 more often. This week, I've been writing in my journal more, 0:06:09.800 --> 0:06:12.520 which has been nice. I don't know. I know that 0:06:12.520 --> 0:06:14.440 I'm supposed to write in my journal, Like this is 0:06:14.480 --> 0:06:16.800 literally like the thing that I'm told all the time 0:06:16.880 --> 0:06:22.360 by like every person that's ever read me, any therapist, 0:06:22.520 --> 0:06:24.040 all of them. But I don't know why. In my 0:06:24.080 --> 0:06:29.160 adulthood I avoid writing in my journal in my free time. 0:06:29.920 --> 0:06:31.480 So I've gotten in the habit of the first thing 0:06:31.520 --> 0:06:33.560 I do when I wake up is just like write it, 0:06:33.800 --> 0:06:36.640 which is like pretty standard. I think that's like everyone's 0:06:36.640 --> 0:06:38.880 tip to writing, but it really helps me, Like I 0:06:38.920 --> 0:06:40.880 don't even know half the should I write. And then 0:06:40.920 --> 0:06:43.080 I went back and started reading other stuff. I actually 0:06:43.080 --> 0:06:47.040 went back and I went back and I read my 0:06:47.560 --> 0:06:54.320 twenty nineteen Life Partner Manifestation. Actually I have a picture 0:06:54.320 --> 0:06:56.360 of it here. I just read a few things, but 0:06:56.600 --> 0:07:00.919 I need to revisit that. It's so it's so interesting 0:07:01.839 --> 0:07:07.359 because the person that I'm seeing right now seems to 0:07:07.440 --> 0:07:13.840 encompass many of these things, and they're pretty specific. Life 0:07:13.880 --> 0:07:20.440 Partner Web Funny Gentle helps me grow. I can understand 0:07:20.480 --> 0:07:22.640 or listen to my needs and not take everything personal. 0:07:23.520 --> 0:07:32.880 Hastyle loves me boldly and loudly. Protect Or Provider plays 0:07:32.880 --> 0:07:33.760 golf with my dad. 0:07:35.200 --> 0:07:37.080 Beautiful so specific. 0:07:36.680 --> 0:07:40.240 Golf with my dad. What else apple of his eye, 0:07:40.360 --> 0:07:44.160 loves to dance, willing to explore sexually, which is why 0:07:44.240 --> 0:07:47.600 the vitamins are very important in my lifestyle right now. 0:07:48.440 --> 0:07:52.320 Your sexual exploration lifestyle, it's heavy on the sex. I 0:07:52.360 --> 0:07:53.040 was trying to see. 0:07:52.880 --> 0:07:54.320 If I can find my on my phone because you know, 0:07:54.360 --> 0:07:56.960 if you put any keywords in your fucking robot find it. 0:07:56.960 --> 0:07:57.600 It's so weird. 0:07:57.640 --> 0:08:00.520 If you put any words in your robot phone writing, 0:08:01.360 --> 0:08:04.000 it will be there, which is fucking scary as shit. 0:08:04.880 --> 0:08:07.960 The government is fucking watching against you, guys. Get your 0:08:08.000 --> 0:08:09.720 fucking farm and get the fuck off the grid. 0:08:10.280 --> 0:08:16.160 But yeah, So I've just been trying to let things 0:08:16.360 --> 0:08:20.040 flow out of me in the morning easily, and it 0:08:20.080 --> 0:08:23.520 feels good. So that's when I've that's what's up with me. 0:08:24.120 --> 0:08:26.600 Do you feel like that helps with your communication and 0:08:26.680 --> 0:08:29.520 like trying to just like express things immediately how they like, 0:08:29.560 --> 0:08:32.080 how they come, instead of trying to. 0:08:33.559 --> 0:08:35.360 Hold them in like just writing. 0:08:36.520 --> 0:08:39.120 Yes, because I feel like I'm actually not that great 0:08:39.120 --> 0:08:41.000 off the cuff type of person, even though my whole 0:08:41.000 --> 0:08:43.320 show is podcasting. I feel like when I'm when I 0:08:43.360 --> 0:08:46.440 feel like I need to communicate feelings sometimes I feel 0:08:46.440 --> 0:08:48.640 like I need time to like organize how I'm going 0:08:48.720 --> 0:08:50.360 to say it, but then it ends up not coming 0:08:50.360 --> 0:08:53.840 out well because it feels contrived. So I think writing 0:08:53.920 --> 0:09:01.040 helps it kind of just easily flow. And I've been 0:09:01.080 --> 0:09:04.600 told that, like in other readings, like communication because I 0:09:04.640 --> 0:09:07.280 was born on a retrograde is always difficult for me. 0:09:08.240 --> 0:09:10.839 Even though I communicate a lot, it doesn't always feel 0:09:10.880 --> 0:09:14.000 like I'm being understood a lot, or like the message 0:09:14.000 --> 0:09:18.160 is misunderstood. So one of the reasons why i'ven't always 0:09:18.200 --> 0:09:20.400 been told to write is because it's to help kind 0:09:20.400 --> 0:09:23.200 of like clear that space. And so it feels it 0:09:23.200 --> 0:09:27.120 feels like it is. And I was like going back 0:09:27.160 --> 0:09:29.960 and reading how I write as like an early twenty 0:09:30.040 --> 0:09:32.160 year old to like how I write as a thirty 0:09:32.200 --> 0:09:35.040 four year old. It's the same, I. 0:09:34.960 --> 0:09:37.160 Was gonna say, it's so much difference your experience. 0:09:37.200 --> 0:09:40.080 It's the same. It's the same. It's the same. It's messy, 0:09:40.280 --> 0:09:41.800 I used to I don't even know, like it's just 0:09:41.840 --> 0:09:43.880 it's rambles. I was like reading so much and I'm like, 0:09:43.880 --> 0:09:44.959 what am I talking about. I was like, oh, yeah, 0:09:44.960 --> 0:09:47.120 I remember that, and that makes sense. Oh yeah, Actually, 0:09:47.360 --> 0:09:48.800 like no one else knows what that means, but I. 0:09:48.760 --> 0:09:54.080 Do, right, Yeah, I need to be better at keeping 0:09:54.160 --> 0:09:57.319 a journal more often. I feel like I used to 0:09:57.400 --> 0:10:00.040 do it a lot in my deep poetry days and 0:10:00.240 --> 0:10:03.720 I've stopped. So I think, thank you, friend, I'm going 0:10:03.840 --> 0:10:06.920 to implement that and try to. 0:10:07.600 --> 0:10:09.679 I feel like we talk so fucking much. 0:10:09.960 --> 0:10:11.400 I did, But you know what, it doesn't have to 0:10:11.440 --> 0:10:14.559 be like long, because sometimes it's literally half a page 0:10:14.640 --> 0:10:16.400 that's all I got. Yeah, Yeah, I woke up and 0:10:16.440 --> 0:10:18.720 I'm like, I wrote five sentences. 0:10:19.000 --> 0:10:20.560 I am alive and happy and well. 0:10:20.720 --> 0:10:22.319 Yeah, And I think that's kind of like, I think 0:10:22.360 --> 0:10:25.760 that's kind of like the overall misconception of wellness in 0:10:25.800 --> 0:10:27.480 general is that you have to like take the whole 0:10:27.520 --> 0:10:30.240 bite or just don't take any at all, and so 0:10:30.679 --> 0:10:34.839 like you don't you know, like I've done that too, though, 0:10:34.840 --> 0:10:36.520 I'm like, I don't want to write because that means 0:10:36.520 --> 0:10:38.000 I have I have so much to say right now 0:10:38.080 --> 0:10:39.880 and my hand is gonna hurt, and I don't want 0:10:39.880 --> 0:10:42.280 to write four pages. I'm like, then, don't say at all. 0:10:43.400 --> 0:10:47.360 Just do what you can cliff notes true. So yeah, 0:10:47.360 --> 0:10:49.920 when I wake up, sometimes I'll write three pages. Sometimes 0:10:49.920 --> 0:10:54.720 I'll write half a page. Sometimes I'll just write two words, 0:10:55.200 --> 0:10:57.280 you know, like this is how I feel. You know, 0:10:58.000 --> 0:11:01.480 so do it? Will you feel good about it? I will? 0:11:01.520 --> 0:11:05.400 I will, And I'll read more too. I think reading 0:11:05.440 --> 0:11:07.199 makes me want to write more. See reading is hard 0:11:07.240 --> 0:11:07.440 for me. 0:11:08.120 --> 0:11:08.800 I fall asleep. 0:11:08.840 --> 0:11:10.760 Yeah, me too, Like I don't know. 0:11:11.440 --> 0:11:14.480 I go through like phases. There's times where I can 0:11:14.520 --> 0:11:17.520 read a lot, Like I remember I read the Miles 0:11:17.600 --> 0:11:24.320 Davis autobiography and or was it his biography? Biography? And 0:11:24.320 --> 0:11:27.120 that shit was long as fuck and I couldn't believe how. 0:11:27.160 --> 0:11:30.319 I just like it was so so interesting how I 0:11:30.440 --> 0:11:32.520 just ran through it In other books too. And then 0:11:32.520 --> 0:11:34.680 there's some books where I'm like, I know, I'm supposed 0:11:34.679 --> 0:11:36.600 to read this book because everyone says this book is 0:11:36.720 --> 0:11:39.559 very important, And then I open it and I buy it, 0:11:39.600 --> 0:11:41.240 and I'm like, Okay, I'm going to read it. It's 0:11:41.320 --> 0:11:44.160 only one hundred and twenty two pages. I can do this. 0:11:44.240 --> 0:11:46.320 And then like, I've literally been reading this book for 0:11:46.360 --> 0:11:46.960 like four years. 0:11:46.960 --> 0:11:48.240 I've been reading books for four years. 0:11:48.440 --> 0:11:50.200 But you know what, I just realized when you said that, 0:11:50.280 --> 0:11:54.160 I think it's actually easier for me to read books 0:11:54.200 --> 0:11:56.920 that have a storyline, you know, like I can follow 0:11:56.920 --> 0:11:59.360 in a storyline, which is crazy because like in movies, 0:11:59.400 --> 0:12:02.200 I don't really like nonfiction, but like in a storyline, 0:12:02.320 --> 0:12:05.760 I can be engaged. But like it's more difficult for 0:12:05.800 --> 0:12:08.400 me to like read prescriptive books. It's just kind of 0:12:08.400 --> 0:12:10.840 good that we've realizing this right now as we're writing 0:12:10.880 --> 0:12:14.959 a book, because you know, it's very memoir, but there 0:12:15.000 --> 0:12:15.600 is prescriptive. 0:12:15.600 --> 0:12:16.640 But that's why I kind of feel. 0:12:16.440 --> 0:12:19.240 Like it needs to keep that component alive and well, 0:12:19.320 --> 0:12:20.840 because people like to read stories. 0:12:20.880 --> 0:12:22.400 It's like reading Netflix. 0:12:22.880 --> 0:12:24.960 I mean that's the reason why I because when I 0:12:25.000 --> 0:12:26.959 was younger, I did enjoy reading. I mean I read 0:12:27.080 --> 0:12:29.199 like you know, teenage Soup to the what is it, 0:12:29.280 --> 0:12:32.520 teenage Chicken Soups to the teenage Soul, and like I 0:12:32.559 --> 0:12:34.840 was really into Like I was even in like during 0:12:34.840 --> 0:12:36.440 school and we'd had to read certain books, like I 0:12:36.520 --> 0:12:37.040 enjoyed it. 0:12:37.240 --> 0:12:41.440 I wasn't fucking avid like Coldest Bungeterever true to the 0:12:41.520 --> 0:12:44.600 game Milk in my Coffee waiting to Exhale. I read 0:12:44.600 --> 0:12:48.040 a lot of black ghetto books about like the life, 0:12:49.120 --> 0:12:54.080 even some books about like the down Low. I did 0:12:54.400 --> 0:12:56.440 what it's a book called, It's like a famous book 0:12:56.760 --> 0:13:00.360 not that not there. There's a famous black book about 0:13:00.400 --> 0:13:02.200 a down low man in DC. 0:13:02.400 --> 0:13:04.640 There were football players. I was really into that book. 0:13:04.760 --> 0:13:09.480 Huh makes sense. Makes sense to my bisexual porn categories. 0:13:09.520 --> 0:13:11.560 In my adult life, I've read a lot. 0:13:11.480 --> 0:13:14.800 Of books that have like then become film adaptations. So yeah, 0:13:14.840 --> 0:13:19.280 I like the storyline element as well. I've read there's 0:13:19.320 --> 0:13:21.120 like some like people you have to read this stelf 0:13:21.120 --> 0:13:22.280 help book, and I'm like, I read it. 0:13:22.360 --> 0:13:25.280 I'm like, I'm like, I'm highlighting, but it feels like school, 0:13:25.360 --> 0:13:26.439 feels very schoolish. 0:13:26.640 --> 0:13:30.600 But I will even highlight. There's been books where I've 0:13:30.720 --> 0:13:35.840 read that are I guess fiction or even nonfiction that 0:13:35.840 --> 0:13:37.640 I've like, I'll highlight stuff too. I'm like, I need 0:13:37.679 --> 0:13:39.760 to know this quote for life, Like I need to 0:13:39.800 --> 0:13:40.200 be able. 0:13:40.080 --> 0:13:41.720 To say this out loud at some point, but I 0:13:41.800 --> 0:13:44.720 like to I like to be a lesson within the storyline. 0:13:44.760 --> 0:13:47.240 I don't need to like read a whole prescriptive book 0:13:47.720 --> 0:13:51.600 to get that, you know, So you know I agree. Damn, 0:13:51.640 --> 0:13:53.240 I haven't read as many books I've read in high 0:13:53.240 --> 0:13:54.520 school on a long motherfucking time. 0:13:54.559 --> 0:13:55.640 I need to do another book club. 0:13:56.000 --> 0:13:57.000 We do we do? 0:13:57.280 --> 0:14:00.160 Really, I really want to do women that run with wool, 0:14:00.360 --> 0:14:06.120 but it's it's not there's stories, but they're like like 0:14:06.120 --> 0:14:09.640 like fables that they like compare to recent things, so 0:14:09.679 --> 0:14:10.800 it's kind of difficult to read. 0:14:10.800 --> 0:14:14.600 They're not easy stories. Does someone need. 0:14:14.480 --> 0:14:16.800 To ReadWrite women who write with the wolves and like 0:14:16.880 --> 0:14:20.720 the Black Urban Route could be me? 0:14:21.760 --> 0:14:22.320 Could that be me? 0:14:24.920 --> 0:14:28.480 But yeah, I just it's so hard to find the 0:14:28.520 --> 0:14:31.400 time to sit and get lost in a book like 0:14:31.440 --> 0:14:32.640 you did in high school. 0:14:33.120 --> 0:14:33.480 Damn. 0:14:33.600 --> 0:14:35.680 Well, now that's why they have Audible. But I don't. 0:14:35.680 --> 0:14:36.480 I don't. I can't read. 0:14:36.920 --> 0:14:38.560 Someone gave me a free year of Audible. I don't 0:14:38.880 --> 0:14:41.680 never fucking download. It's the books I want, and I 0:14:41.680 --> 0:14:44.040 don't feel the same like I'm receiving the message. I'm 0:14:44.080 --> 0:14:46.840 so fucking add I will think about something the whole 0:14:46.840 --> 0:14:47.560 time you're talking to me. 0:14:47.640 --> 0:14:48.760 I don't know. I feel like I could do it 0:14:48.760 --> 0:14:52.280 in my car because I don't like sometimes I don't want. 0:14:52.480 --> 0:14:54.920 I mean sometimes I listen to podcasts. Mostly I'm always 0:14:54.920 --> 0:14:57.360 listening to music, but I feel like I could listen 0:14:57.400 --> 0:14:59.680 to a book in audible form. I need to made 0:14:59.680 --> 0:15:01.360 my dad actually put out a book. I need to 0:15:01.400 --> 0:15:02.920 listen to his book in audible. 0:15:03.200 --> 0:15:05.920 Is he is he he's narrating. 0:15:06.080 --> 0:15:09.360 He's narrating it, and apparently he talks about me, of course, 0:15:09.800 --> 0:15:11.280 and I'm interested to know what he said. 0:15:11.520 --> 0:15:15.920 Oh wow, that's interesting. I can't wait to do our 0:15:15.960 --> 0:15:17.240 book on audible. 0:15:17.000 --> 0:15:18.760 I know, and our parents to listen to our book 0:15:18.800 --> 0:15:19.200 on audible. 0:15:19.240 --> 0:15:23.200 Hopefully, hopefully they'll just put like let us sign in, 0:15:23.480 --> 0:15:26.400 like put it in their house. I wasn't thinking they're 0:15:26.400 --> 0:15:30.600 going to read it. We're gonna have time and them 0:15:30.600 --> 0:15:33.080 not to read it. Now because they're going to read it, 0:15:33.600 --> 0:15:34.440 we got to just give it. 0:15:34.360 --> 0:15:38.560 To them, Okay, so we have to. I don't know 0:15:42.760 --> 0:15:44.560 what else do anything happening with you? 0:15:44.680 --> 0:15:51.200 Niw new things? 0:15:53.200 --> 0:15:55.080 You know recently, not so recently. 0:15:55.120 --> 0:15:58.360 A couple of months ago, I had a really really 0:15:58.400 --> 0:15:59.640 really this is totally good. 0:15:59.720 --> 0:16:00.960 We don't really have a route anyway. 0:16:01.000 --> 0:16:06.480 So I had a really scary experience with my brother 0:16:07.000 --> 0:16:10.160 and he got really really sick and I want to 0:16:10.200 --> 0:16:12.560 go see him, and I was like, WHOA, I was 0:16:12.880 --> 0:16:16.360 really scared and I haven't been like like, I guess 0:16:16.560 --> 0:16:18.880 face was something that was completely out of my hands 0:16:18.920 --> 0:16:21.520 in a really long time. I mean, everything's out of 0:16:21.560 --> 0:16:26.360 my hands, but I was just kind of grounded very 0:16:26.440 --> 0:16:29.520 quickly about like time management. 0:16:29.360 --> 0:16:31.480 And care for people that I love. 0:16:31.960 --> 0:16:34.920 And it's when over there, I looked at him. He 0:16:34.920 --> 0:16:38.440 looks so sick. I've never seen him look like this before. 0:16:38.480 --> 0:16:40.160 And you know, I haven't been spending as much time 0:16:40.200 --> 0:16:42.760 with him as I feel like I should, because like 0:16:42.800 --> 0:16:45.200 we're always in this fucking rat race of just like 0:16:45.440 --> 0:16:48.960 working and like you know, hitting goals, achieving our goals 0:16:49.000 --> 0:16:50.680 because you know, of course we love what we do, 0:16:51.360 --> 0:16:54.320 but just like we have the balance our motherhood. I'm like, damn, 0:16:54.360 --> 0:16:56.960 I have the balance being a big sister, being a daughter, 0:16:57.080 --> 0:16:57.760 being a friend. 0:16:58.400 --> 0:17:01.160 And I was so scared. 0:17:01.200 --> 0:17:04.280 And the first person I called was my friend, my wife, 0:17:04.800 --> 0:17:06.480 and I was like, I'm so scared. 0:17:06.640 --> 0:17:08.680 I'm so scared, Like I don't know what to do. 0:17:08.760 --> 0:17:10.280 I'm and she was just like, it's okay, do you 0:17:10.320 --> 0:17:11.760 want me to do you want me to get out 0:17:11.800 --> 0:17:13.560 of therapy to come over here. 0:17:13.640 --> 0:17:14.800 I was like, I think I'm gonna just come over there. 0:17:14.760 --> 0:17:17.159 And bring him over there, and like she immediately like 0:17:17.320 --> 0:17:21.560 dropped everything and like supported me and supported my brother, 0:17:21.720 --> 0:17:24.879 and like it was very scariest, the scariest thing that 0:17:24.920 --> 0:17:27.480 I've dealt with in a really long time, and I 0:17:27.520 --> 0:17:29.480 just want to say I appreciate you and I thank you. 0:17:29.840 --> 0:17:32.439 Of course I love you, and I was scared. I 0:17:32.480 --> 0:17:36.840 was scared too, because I know how you can be 0:17:36.960 --> 0:17:40.399 like it's cool and you were like, something's wrong. And 0:17:40.440 --> 0:17:42.280 so when you tell me something's wrong, I know something 0:17:42.320 --> 0:17:44.639 it's a fuck wrong. And I was like, what do 0:17:44.640 --> 0:17:45.160 we have to do? 0:17:45.480 --> 0:17:48.480 You know? Yeah, and I'm just so glad that Mazie's 0:17:48.520 --> 0:17:53.320 better and then you know he's on the mend, and yeah, 0:17:53.359 --> 0:17:55.480 I mean sometimes we need those wake up calls everyone, 0:17:55.800 --> 0:17:57.760 you know, Like that was a wake up call to 0:17:57.800 --> 0:17:59.119 me too. I was like, oh my god, like I 0:17:59.160 --> 0:18:02.000 needed to have I checked in, you know. 0:18:02.080 --> 0:18:04.200 With people right, like you have no idea what's going 0:18:04.240 --> 0:18:07.200 on in other people's worlds or you know, it would 0:18:07.200 --> 0:18:09.000 just be get so stuck in our lanes as adults. 0:18:09.240 --> 0:18:12.800 And my brother has down syndrome, so he's not verbal really, 0:18:13.320 --> 0:18:14.960 so it just dawned on me like how much and 0:18:15.000 --> 0:18:17.560 he's also a cancer, and how much he's probably holding 0:18:17.600 --> 0:18:23.560 in not communicating and not not you know, just not 0:18:23.600 --> 0:18:26.000 being interacting with people because he's used to just being 0:18:26.000 --> 0:18:28.720 in the house. And my mom's working and I'm working 0:18:28.760 --> 0:18:31.280 and everybody's just moving around quickly and he's just you know, 0:18:31.920 --> 0:18:32.640 doing his thing. 0:18:32.720 --> 0:18:34.399 But is he and how much? 0:18:34.720 --> 0:18:38.240 I just felt like maybe him not being nonverbal is 0:18:38.440 --> 0:18:41.600 what's making him sick, because if you're not being able 0:18:41.640 --> 0:18:44.679 to release your feelings or you're talking, like, imagine how 0:18:44.760 --> 0:18:49.000 much energy gets stored inside? How much pain and like 0:18:50.080 --> 0:18:51.560 I know, I already know. I used to live in 0:18:51.560 --> 0:18:53.520 that house, you know, with my parents and shit, and 0:18:53.560 --> 0:18:58.960 I fucking ran. So I just was super triggered and 0:18:59.040 --> 0:19:02.639 super like sat the fuck down because I was like, 0:19:02.640 --> 0:19:05.000 oh my god, if something happened to my brother, like 0:19:05.359 --> 0:19:10.440 I wouldn't never forgive myself for just being not present enough. 0:19:12.240 --> 0:19:15.159 And it's just yeah, I'm just like thankful I have 0:19:15.160 --> 0:19:17.240 a friend like you that I was like, oh my god. 0:19:17.280 --> 0:19:20.280 I called my retreat sister and I was like in 0:19:20.280 --> 0:19:22.920 the backyard moaning, no for real. 0:19:22.960 --> 0:19:24.919 I just he needed that, he needs more of that. 0:19:25.000 --> 0:19:25.640 And I was like. 0:19:27.280 --> 0:19:29.600 I started to breathe with him and just release sound 0:19:29.640 --> 0:19:32.719 because that's the tools that I have. And something told 0:19:32.760 --> 0:19:35.320 me man intuition was like he needs to release and 0:19:35.359 --> 0:19:36.399 he's like I feel better. 0:19:37.119 --> 0:19:38.200 But I was just like. 0:19:38.119 --> 0:19:40.399 We're just doing some retreat shit in the backyard, like 0:19:40.480 --> 0:19:44.080 literally like yelling and screaming together all three of us. 0:19:45.160 --> 0:19:47.280 Brian shout out to Brian the landlord who was there, 0:19:48.040 --> 0:19:49.560 But his wife's a witch, so I'm sure. 0:19:49.400 --> 0:19:50.880 He gets it. Yeah, but. 0:19:52.800 --> 0:19:53.560 Yeah, I just. 0:19:56.359 --> 0:20:01.199 We give so much to our business and and to 0:20:01.280 --> 0:20:04.439 our community that I just don't want to forget to 0:20:04.760 --> 0:20:06.879 like serve the people closest to us with like the 0:20:06.920 --> 0:20:10.600 tools that we've discovered in this journey. And I'm just 0:20:10.720 --> 0:20:14.000 like thankful that I can like reach out to you 0:20:14.040 --> 0:20:17.000 on real levels on everyday life and just. 0:20:16.920 --> 0:20:17.280 Be like. 0:20:18.720 --> 0:20:21.159 I didn't think I was gonna cry like the home pain. 0:20:25.480 --> 0:20:28.480 You know, like have a sister friend that for real 0:20:28.560 --> 0:20:32.000 like has my back and you know, as my support 0:20:32.040 --> 0:20:35.199 system on all different levels, because I really was scared 0:20:35.240 --> 0:20:37.040 and I was like texting all the people like no, 0:20:37.119 --> 0:20:41.800 we're not coming. But yeah, that was just something that 0:20:41.840 --> 0:20:44.520 happened to me recently that I think I'm still processing 0:20:44.640 --> 0:20:50.679 and still just trying to be better all around. And 0:20:51.119 --> 0:20:53.480 it's just making me realize, like we can work so 0:20:53.520 --> 0:20:56.119 hard on all of these things, but if we're not 0:20:56.200 --> 0:21:01.000 working on ourselves and like being better all you know 0:21:01.280 --> 0:21:04.720 people all around then does it even really matter? 0:21:04.960 --> 0:21:07.600 No, it doesn't. And that's like it doesn't matter, It 0:21:07.640 --> 0:21:09.919 really doesn't. None of this should actually matters. It's just 0:21:10.200 --> 0:21:13.040 it's just like the add ons and pluses of life. 0:21:13.800 --> 0:21:16.960 What really matters is, yeah, our family, our tribe and 0:21:17.280 --> 0:21:22.879 those things. And I think I'm just grateful that I 0:21:22.920 --> 0:21:26.000 could be there for you, you know, and that and that 0:21:26.119 --> 0:21:31.760 we have honed these these specific tools to kind of 0:21:31.880 --> 0:21:35.359 like help and it did help, you know, obviously Mazi 0:21:35.440 --> 0:21:36.800 has you know, he had other stuff that he had 0:21:36.840 --> 0:21:40.879 to handle. But I think that when it comes to 0:21:42.840 --> 0:21:47.280 what matters, it's just overall that everyone's happy and taken 0:21:47.320 --> 0:21:49.280 care of and that we're checking in with the people 0:21:49.320 --> 0:21:51.920 and that we're trying to balance because life can get 0:21:51.960 --> 0:21:55.440 crazy and it can take us away and almost forget 0:21:55.520 --> 0:21:57.879 some of the most important people. We get like trapped 0:21:57.880 --> 0:21:59.440 in this bubble and it's just like our life is 0:21:59.480 --> 0:22:01.639 the most import and thing happening. Everything that's right in 0:22:01.680 --> 0:22:06.720 front of you is like what's happening. And also it's 0:22:06.800 --> 0:22:10.840 kind of easier to do that. It's kind of easier 0:22:10.880 --> 0:22:13.640 to be like a I don't feel like it right now, 0:22:14.200 --> 0:22:15.359 I don't feel like it. I'll get to it. I'll 0:22:15.359 --> 0:22:16.399 get to it. We'll get to it. I'll get to 0:22:16.440 --> 0:22:19.879 it until you can't get to it anymore, you know, 0:22:20.640 --> 0:22:23.200 And I don't. I don't want to ever feel that way. 0:22:23.280 --> 0:22:26.199 I know that life is inevitable, but if you can 0:22:26.280 --> 0:22:28.879 help it, and you know, like it, and even just 0:22:29.240 --> 0:22:32.080 setting boundaries, like if I can help, if I if 0:22:32.119 --> 0:22:34.800 I can help you set boundaries like today you said 0:22:34.800 --> 0:22:36.359 you need to leave at this time, Like, Okay, that's 0:22:36.400 --> 0:22:37.840 what's going to happen. We need to do that, like 0:22:37.880 --> 0:22:39.400 because I know that you'll be like okay, it's okay, 0:22:39.440 --> 0:22:41.359 Like we can be flexible. No, let's not be flexible. 0:22:41.800 --> 0:22:45.200 Let's not be flexible. Let's like really set the boundary 0:22:45.240 --> 0:22:47.400 that this is what needs to happen, because honestly, that's 0:22:47.400 --> 0:22:50.240 the only way it will happen. True, you know, and 0:22:50.400 --> 0:22:52.520 like and I know, and I hope that like I know, 0:22:52.680 --> 0:22:54.440 and I hope that you'll always hold those boundaries for 0:22:54.520 --> 0:22:56.199 me because I want to do that for you to 0:22:56.280 --> 0:22:58.480 make sure because I know that we get focused on 0:22:58.480 --> 0:23:00.200 the goal and I know that we have like things 0:23:00.200 --> 0:23:01.719 that we're trying to do and that we love what 0:23:01.760 --> 0:23:05.879 we do. You know, but yeah, it's like having the 0:23:05.880 --> 0:23:09.080 boundaries that we have for this also having those boundaries 0:23:09.119 --> 0:23:10.960 for everything and everyone else that we love. 0:23:10.880 --> 0:23:13.320 Too, I know, And there's like this like for me, 0:23:13.400 --> 0:23:15.720 I feel like, oh, I'm gonna when I reach this goal, 0:23:15.800 --> 0:23:17.399 then I'm gonna have time to do this and this 0:23:17.440 --> 0:23:19.399 and that. When I have when I reach this, School'm 0:23:19.400 --> 0:23:20.840 gonna have money to do this and this and that, 0:23:20.920 --> 0:23:22.480 and then you can come do this and I can 0:23:22.560 --> 0:23:24.320 pay for this, and then everything's going to be like 0:23:24.320 --> 0:23:28.280 this happy, like fucking fairy tale. But like you know, 0:23:28.840 --> 0:23:31.040 we're always trying to get to a goal, and we're 0:23:31.040 --> 0:23:32.800 always trying to have more money, and we're always trying 0:23:32.840 --> 0:23:35.680 to have more things. And like in the meantime though, 0:23:35.720 --> 0:23:38.000 in the process, what are you doing, you know, for 0:23:38.080 --> 0:23:40.560 the people that you love and that are important to you. 0:23:40.920 --> 0:23:48.640 And yeah, that was like seriously shifting for me. And yeah, 0:23:48.640 --> 0:23:50.399 I don't want to get lost in that all over again, 0:23:50.480 --> 0:23:52.879 just because like he's better and things are fine, you 0:23:52.880 --> 0:23:56.320 know what I mean, But just not being so self 0:23:56.359 --> 0:24:01.280 absorbed that I'm not just paying attention, you know, even 0:24:01.320 --> 0:24:04.119 to Luna, even to my mom, even to and some 0:24:04.160 --> 0:24:06.959 things I can't deal with you know, but some things 0:24:08.280 --> 0:24:10.760 I can be more patient. I can I can slow down, 0:24:10.800 --> 0:24:13.920 I can put my phone away to spend. 0:24:13.600 --> 0:24:15.879 Time with the people like this. We only get one life. 0:24:16.280 --> 0:24:18.760 We only get one motherfucking life, you know, And the 0:24:18.800 --> 0:24:23.320 truth is we never know when the end of that is. 0:24:23.560 --> 0:24:25.720 And life is beautiful and it should be. It's to 0:24:25.760 --> 0:24:27.480 be lived, but it's also to be spent and live 0:24:27.520 --> 0:24:30.760 with people that matter, you know. I think we spend 0:24:30.760 --> 0:24:32.800 a lot of time just like pleasing people that don't 0:24:32.800 --> 0:24:36.399 fucking matter. You don't know that, you won't know for 0:24:36.440 --> 0:24:38.760 a long time. Niggas that you met, niggas that you 0:24:38.760 --> 0:24:40.800 think are cute, but when you look at them deeper, 0:24:40.840 --> 0:24:42.080 they're not cute at all. 0:24:42.240 --> 0:24:42.439 You know. 0:24:42.480 --> 0:24:43.200 There's just so. 0:24:43.600 --> 0:24:49.439 Much noise essentially, and it's I think the older I've gotten, 0:24:49.960 --> 0:24:53.840 the more clear it is that some relationships, most of them, 0:24:53.880 --> 0:24:56.840 are just noise and don't need to be. 0:24:58.200 --> 0:25:00.320 Delved in very deeply. You know. 0:25:00.520 --> 0:25:05.600 I'm just like essentially learning boundaries, and I think it's difficult. 0:25:05.600 --> 0:25:08.160 I'm a people person. I respond to all my dms. 0:25:09.480 --> 0:25:13.280 Honestly, this is not an invitation, guys, No, I signed 0:25:13.320 --> 0:25:15.480 up like I'll answer all the jail calls, you know, 0:25:15.680 --> 0:25:19.800 like friends, I'm don for fucking fifteen years. I'm like, well, 0:25:19.920 --> 0:25:22.440 you know, I gotta write the letter, to send the pictures, 0:25:22.520 --> 0:25:25.240 like just all these things. But it's like this expectation 0:25:25.720 --> 0:25:27.920 that I don't even know where I've gotten this from, 0:25:27.960 --> 0:25:32.919 like the people pleasing or what, but just no, you know, 0:25:33.119 --> 0:25:35.399 and that and not feeling guilty about it, because that's 0:25:35.400 --> 0:25:37.480 another thing that I'll feel bad, and it's just like 0:25:37.520 --> 0:25:40.160 bad about what, you know. It's just like really being 0:25:40.200 --> 0:25:43.720 intentional with my time because I'm realizing because we're getting 0:25:43.720 --> 0:25:46.879 so busy that we don't have a lot of time, 0:25:47.560 --> 0:25:49.719 like the things I want to plan, I'm like, my god, 0:25:49.720 --> 0:25:51.200 I'm not gonna be able to do that till November. 0:25:52.359 --> 0:25:53.879 Erica asked me that, like the other day, when are 0:25:53.920 --> 0:25:55.199 we gonna be able to take a break, and I 0:25:55.240 --> 0:26:02.320 told her a strong twenty twenty four, it's looking more 0:26:02.359 --> 0:26:03.520 like early twenty twenty five. 0:26:04.240 --> 0:26:06.080 Don't say that, no, I'm just kidding. 0:26:06.080 --> 0:26:06.720 Twenty twenty four. 0:26:06.880 --> 0:26:10.560 Yeah, it's twenty twenty four. My psychic said that thirty five, 0:26:10.720 --> 0:26:13.920 I'll by thirty six, I'll be making things for fun. 0:26:15.119 --> 0:26:17.560 Okay, that means I'll be thirty five, which means one year. 0:26:18.600 --> 0:26:20.480 So it's we're closer than we think. 0:26:20.840 --> 0:26:22.760 Literally, when Erica has a reading, I'm like, oh, even 0:26:22.760 --> 0:26:23.639 need to get one? 0:26:24.520 --> 0:26:25.160 What'd she say? 0:26:25.880 --> 0:26:28.720 This specific psychic will not email me back. I have 0:26:28.800 --> 0:26:30.800 been I missed one appointment and she's done with me. 0:26:30.920 --> 0:26:32.800 I don't know that's the same one. Yes, Oh, give 0:26:32.800 --> 0:26:33.840 me your nab. I'm gonna try. 0:26:34.320 --> 0:26:37.679 Okay, I think I did give her in. I'll give 0:26:37.680 --> 0:26:40.720 it to you again. Yeah, you know, be forgetting, but yes, 0:26:40.800 --> 0:26:47.040 it is. It's yeah, it's like but even with knowing that, like, 0:26:47.080 --> 0:26:49.200 I feel like we have to remove the anxiety from 0:26:49.200 --> 0:26:53.520 that because there's so much greatness in that time and 0:26:53.640 --> 0:26:55.760 there's so many lessons in that time, and the biggest 0:26:55.760 --> 0:26:58.439 one is balance and how do we actually do it 0:26:58.480 --> 0:27:01.720 so that by the time twenty twenty twenty four twenty 0:27:01.800 --> 0:27:04.320 twenty four hits we don't hate what we do. Like, 0:27:04.359 --> 0:27:06.040 I want to always love what I do and if 0:27:06.080 --> 0:27:07.960 it feels stressful, which it does all the time, but 0:27:08.000 --> 0:27:09.959 I still do it because I love it. Like, at 0:27:10.000 --> 0:27:13.120 what point does that stress become resentment towards what I want? 0:27:13.240 --> 0:27:15.119 What I'm doing? You know? I want to keep the 0:27:15.240 --> 0:27:18.040 joy in what I do at all times. And so 0:27:18.119 --> 0:27:25.120 I think balance, boundaries, work, boundaries, motherhood, boundaries, love life, 0:27:25.280 --> 0:27:28.760 like all those things, and like they have to exist 0:27:28.920 --> 0:27:31.920 and it doesn't. And boundaries sometimes can sound like a negative, 0:27:32.359 --> 0:27:34.679 like you're like really structured, which I know, like you 0:27:34.680 --> 0:27:37.439 don't thrive and structure, and really neither do I Like, 0:27:37.480 --> 0:27:39.480 there's elements of structure that I need, but I don't 0:27:39.520 --> 0:27:44.240 really like to be married to time because I'm late everywhere, 0:27:45.760 --> 0:27:47.680 but which I'm also trying to work on too, because 0:27:47.720 --> 0:27:50.040 that's a source of I think my anxiousness is me 0:27:50.119 --> 0:27:52.200 always being late places. I'm like, oh my god, people 0:27:52.240 --> 0:27:53.639 are waiting on me. Oh my god, I'm rude, Oh 0:27:53.640 --> 0:27:55.720 my god. Like you know, but these are all things 0:27:55.720 --> 0:27:59.280 that we can control, and the boundaries we set are 0:27:59.320 --> 0:28:02.080 all things that are possible, you know. So it's just 0:28:02.119 --> 0:28:05.960 a matter of like shifting the mindset and knowing that 0:28:06.000 --> 0:28:11.960 like by twenty twenty four, mark our words, it's gonna 0:28:12.000 --> 0:28:13.720 be explosion's gonna be so crazy. 0:28:13.520 --> 0:28:14.679 Gonna be balanced, bitches. 0:28:14.720 --> 0:28:17.879 By then, balanced, we're gonna be fucking levitating off the ground. 0:28:17.920 --> 0:28:20.560 Okay, we're gonna be just doing the podcast. 0:28:20.200 --> 0:28:21.960 Like literally're gonna walk into rooms. We're gonna be not 0:28:22.040 --> 0:28:23.400 if our toes don't even touch the floor. 0:28:23.600 --> 0:28:24.320 Hello, let's ask. 0:28:24.320 --> 0:28:29.200 We've come with a great balance and mastership fullness. 0:28:29.200 --> 0:28:29.960 Twenty twenty four. 0:28:29.960 --> 0:28:34.160 I told you bitches, I'd to be gliding on you host. 0:28:33.960 --> 0:28:36.000 Be gliding and swiping in on your hose. 0:28:38.760 --> 0:28:40.000 Twenty twenty four. We're gonna read. 0:28:40.040 --> 0:28:41.120 But also your host can come. 0:28:41.960 --> 0:28:45.880 I can see you how to levitate too. Just come 0:28:45.880 --> 0:28:51.000 to Costamika. You even need a flight home, Just levitate home, 0:28:51.120 --> 0:28:52.040 unlock the magic. 0:28:54.440 --> 0:28:55.680 Oh my god, we need to smoke. 0:28:56.440 --> 0:28:57.760 Okay, I have something rolled. 0:28:58.520 --> 0:28:59.480 Wait what is that? 0:29:00.240 --> 0:29:04.120 Oh girl, this is my blunt. I recently started smoking Backwoods. 0:29:05.240 --> 0:29:05.480 Yeah. 0:29:05.520 --> 0:29:07.480 I got the honey flavor and I kind of love it. 0:29:07.800 --> 0:29:09.719 You know what. My old nigga used to smoke honey 0:29:10.000 --> 0:29:11.000 and he used to love that shit. 0:29:11.240 --> 0:29:14.240 I love it, and you know, out here and try it. 0:29:14.520 --> 0:29:16.320 Hmmm. Right. 0:29:16.360 --> 0:29:19.600 I add a little lavender for a little extra relaxation. 0:29:19.840 --> 0:29:21.000 Oh I taste that lavender. 0:29:21.880 --> 0:29:25.120 Honey and the lavender and my wonderful weed. It really 0:29:25.240 --> 0:29:27.400 is my it's a game changer. It's my new favorite 0:29:27.400 --> 0:29:28.320 go to for blunts. 0:29:28.320 --> 0:29:30.400 Oh my god, this is actually like surprisingly smooth. 0:29:31.520 --> 0:29:32.640 Right, you're welcome. 0:29:34.400 --> 0:29:37.280 Oh my god, but it's true. 0:29:37.360 --> 0:29:38.200 I was listening to. 0:29:39.800 --> 0:29:42.880 I was listening to our first mom Tilla episode, and 0:29:43.400 --> 0:29:49.239 it was about us like manifesting like little shit like 0:29:49.640 --> 0:29:52.160 Natalie from Fashion Mamas on the show, Like we really 0:29:52.200 --> 0:29:54.280 wanted to meet Natalie, and she like just popped up 0:29:54.320 --> 0:29:56.880 and appeared and like all these little things and we 0:29:57.080 --> 0:29:58.800 kind of just started to realize. 0:29:58.360 --> 0:30:01.120 Like, oh my god, like, huh, I think we could 0:30:01.120 --> 0:30:01.840 do whatever we want. 0:30:02.520 --> 0:30:06.400 And I'm like it was so silly things like manifesting 0:30:06.440 --> 0:30:09.360 listening to Florence in the Machine that the Fashion Mama's 0:30:09.720 --> 0:30:12.080 fucking poll party and it's be sitting there and the 0:30:12.160 --> 0:30:15.440 fucking Florence and the machine comes on. But as I 0:30:15.480 --> 0:30:17.480 was listening to that from some fucking two years ago, 0:30:17.600 --> 0:30:20.800 three years ago, I was like, Wow, we've really mastered 0:30:20.840 --> 0:30:24.720 this motherfucking magic. And we've gotten a book deal, we've 0:30:24.720 --> 0:30:28.880 gotten a retreat with an s We've gotten you know, 0:30:29.000 --> 0:30:31.400 like all the things that we've gotten. You know, we've 0:30:31.960 --> 0:30:37.520 found our people. But that's just like from intentionally speaking 0:30:37.560 --> 0:30:39.760 it and that's why I've really started to try to 0:30:39.800 --> 0:30:42.920 apply the same manifestation to like my relationships. You know, 0:30:42.960 --> 0:30:45.560 please give me more time, give me my I'm gonna 0:30:45.560 --> 0:30:47.080 have more time to spend with my mom and be 0:30:47.160 --> 0:30:49.560 more patient with my mom. I'm gonna work better on 0:30:49.560 --> 0:30:52.320 our relationship. We're gonna be closer. Same with my brother. Now, 0:30:52.360 --> 0:30:53.960 I'm like, let me, let me. I'm gonna have time. 0:30:54.000 --> 0:30:55.680 We're gonna have a lot of moments together. I'm gonna 0:30:55.680 --> 0:30:59.400 be really present because just like you can manifest financial 0:30:59.560 --> 0:31:01.520 and busin and this success and all those other things 0:31:01.520 --> 0:31:03.640 that are the first things on our list to ask for, 0:31:04.080 --> 0:31:08.520 you can also manifest protection and clarity and being present 0:31:08.600 --> 0:31:11.800 and time and the opposite of anxiousness, which I don't 0:31:11.800 --> 0:31:12.600 even know what the word is. 0:31:13.520 --> 0:31:16.760 Peace, peace, fucking peace. 0:31:17.760 --> 0:31:21.800 You know. Also because I you know, I think that 0:31:23.040 --> 0:31:26.160 we believe, like there were things that we just believed 0:31:26.160 --> 0:31:30.240 innately with each other that maybe individually we might have 0:31:30.280 --> 0:31:34.800 not believed on our own. And I think that it's 0:31:34.840 --> 0:31:37.080 a matter too like when you're putting those manifestations, because 0:31:37.080 --> 0:31:39.640 I think a lot of times people they're like, I've 0:31:39.640 --> 0:31:42.080 been manifesting and nothing's happening for me, Like why is 0:31:42.120 --> 0:31:45.880 it happening? And it's because you have to put intention 0:31:46.040 --> 0:31:48.800 behind it. You actually have to like do the thing Also, 0:31:49.240 --> 0:31:51.400 it doesn't just show up, Like boundaries aren't just going 0:31:51.440 --> 0:31:53.320 to show up. You actually have to put them in practice. 0:31:53.360 --> 0:31:55.520 You have to you have to know that you're going 0:31:55.600 --> 0:31:58.400 to feel bad, and you have to just keep say no, 0:31:58.760 --> 0:32:01.480 feel bad and still say no, you know what I mean, 0:32:01.800 --> 0:32:04.360 Like you have to like I have to say, Okay, 0:32:04.480 --> 0:32:06.959 I'm going to spend every Sunday, I'm turning my computer 0:32:07.040 --> 0:32:09.800 off not working, and I'm going to pay attention like 0:32:10.000 --> 0:32:13.400 undivided attention with Iri. That's it. Like if I say 0:32:13.400 --> 0:32:15.720 that I want more time and more peace with Iri, 0:32:16.320 --> 0:32:18.920 like what are the things that I'm putting behind that 0:32:19.080 --> 0:32:21.520 to actually make that happen? Or that it just feels 0:32:21.520 --> 0:32:25.240 like flow because I think manifesting is things you already have, 0:32:25.640 --> 0:32:28.360 Like it's just kind of like building upon me things 0:32:28.360 --> 0:32:31.720 you already have, the ideas you already have. Like so 0:32:32.360 --> 0:32:34.480 I just I feel like sometimes people like there's people 0:32:34.480 --> 0:32:36.640 that have said to me, like I don't know, like 0:32:36.640 --> 0:32:39.440 that manifesting shit doesn't work, Like I've done it and 0:32:39.520 --> 0:32:42.560 it shit, I don't know, it's not working. And I'm like, well, 0:32:42.960 --> 0:32:45.000 are you just landing candles on the full moon or 0:32:45.120 --> 0:32:48.680 like or like are you actually believing it with someone. 0:32:48.720 --> 0:32:50.760 Are you speaking it to somebody, are you telling your 0:32:50.760 --> 0:32:53.320 friends that this is what's going to happen. Because even 0:32:53.320 --> 0:32:55.600 the other day, we rented this house and it was beautiful. 0:32:55.600 --> 0:32:57.600 We rented it with our friend, and I was so 0:32:57.680 --> 0:32:59.520 grateful that we were able to do that with her, 0:32:59.560 --> 0:33:01.800 because this is our like rich friend who like always 0:33:01.840 --> 0:33:04.719 is like taking care of shit for us. And I 0:33:04.800 --> 0:33:07.080 was like, no, no, we got we got it too, girl, 0:33:07.160 --> 0:33:08.600 like hold on, I let me put some money on 0:33:08.640 --> 0:33:11.880 this house for you, real quick, bitch. And it felt 0:33:11.920 --> 0:33:14.160 good to do that. And when I was in that house, 0:33:14.960 --> 0:33:17.480 my lover called me and he was like, oh, you're 0:33:17.480 --> 0:33:20.080 not home. I said, no, I'm home and he was like, no, 0:33:20.120 --> 0:33:21.560 you're not at your house. I was like, no, I'm 0:33:21.600 --> 0:33:22.120 at my house. 0:33:22.320 --> 0:33:23.120 No, I'm here, and. 0:33:23.080 --> 0:33:24.680 He's like you know what I mean. I was like, no, 0:33:24.720 --> 0:33:27.840 I don't. I was like, this is my house. I 0:33:27.880 --> 0:33:29.560 was like, this is the way I live. This is 0:33:29.600 --> 0:33:31.520 the way I want to live with anyone who's in 0:33:31.600 --> 0:33:34.560 my space. This is it. Like there's no like bar 0:33:34.720 --> 0:33:37.320 below this and we only go up and he's like, okay, 0:33:37.320 --> 0:33:41.320 I got it, and I was like yeah, yeah. 0:33:40.400 --> 0:33:41.920 No, for sure. For sure. 0:33:42.120 --> 0:33:44.840 When we made that agreement, we were like, oh, yeah, 0:33:45.000 --> 0:33:45.800 this is our house. 0:33:46.840 --> 0:33:47.440 I believe that. 0:33:47.520 --> 0:33:50.280 I'm like, oh, this is like not far out of reach, 0:33:50.440 --> 0:33:53.680 and it is not. This is like God aligning. We're 0:33:53.680 --> 0:33:56.160 aligning with this, like the systems that we already know 0:33:56.200 --> 0:33:57.840 are going to happen by renting the house. 0:34:00.560 --> 0:34:01.960 We refuse to get out of the house. 0:34:02.400 --> 0:34:04.200 Literally, they like had to kick us out the house 0:34:05.040 --> 0:34:09.279 with my big ass combat stripper boots. They're cleaning, people 0:34:09.320 --> 0:34:11.960 were coming in the kids with the king, like what 0:34:12.120 --> 0:34:12.640 happened here? 0:34:14.120 --> 0:34:17.799 But for the belief believing it for sure, for sure, 0:34:18.400 --> 0:34:21.160 even like the things that are ours that are happening 0:34:21.160 --> 0:34:23.400 that you know, sometimes you have business deals in the 0:34:23.800 --> 0:34:25.680 works and you don't speak on them too soon. 0:34:25.719 --> 0:34:26.759 I'm like, oh no, this is what I have. 0:34:29.920 --> 0:34:33.839 So I people do miss out on the manifestation because 0:34:33.880 --> 0:34:36.400 they don't really believe it and also visualizing it. And 0:34:36.440 --> 0:34:38.279 I feel like being in the house, living in the 0:34:38.280 --> 0:34:41.319 house for the weekend is the visualizing it. 0:34:41.680 --> 0:34:44.160 And that's in too, like I get it, like some 0:34:44.160 --> 0:34:46.600 people are like the rebuttal to that is like I 0:34:46.640 --> 0:34:49.000 can't visualize it because look where I'm at right now, 0:34:49.480 --> 0:34:50.719 And it's like well, that's why you have to put 0:34:50.760 --> 0:34:52.960 all these things in practice all the time, the speaking 0:34:53.040 --> 0:34:55.319 it out loud, the visualizing it until you do believe it, 0:34:55.760 --> 0:34:58.480 Like you have to keep trying until you do believe it, 0:34:58.520 --> 0:35:01.200 Like it doesn't just happen. Been like when I there 0:35:01.200 --> 0:35:03.200 were things with me and Mila where I'm like, I 0:35:03.200 --> 0:35:05.440 can't imagine, like there was not I don't want to 0:35:05.480 --> 0:35:07.520 say I can't because I can't. Actually is something that 0:35:08.120 --> 0:35:11.000 never really has come up here. I don't know why, 0:35:11.080 --> 0:35:15.080 which is weird. No, but there were moments where I 0:35:15.120 --> 0:35:19.480 was like will it like how when you know, like damn, 0:35:19.600 --> 0:35:22.200 like look at them like they they've already they got what. 0:35:22.200 --> 0:35:24.320 I want, like right, like how the fuck? 0:35:24.520 --> 0:35:28.400 You know? And just having to kind of talk yourself 0:35:28.480 --> 0:35:31.600 off of those ledges, and also kind of like that 0:35:32.080 --> 0:35:35.600 victimhood of like why not me? Why me? Why is 0:35:35.600 --> 0:35:39.239 all this happening to me? And not to diminish anyone's experience, 0:35:39.280 --> 0:35:42.640 because yeah, it should be happening, but like, okay, so 0:35:42.760 --> 0:35:43.160 now what. 0:35:43.239 --> 0:35:46.560 Though I know I was looking at my you know, 0:35:46.600 --> 0:35:49.680 my favorite couple from the internet, the witch the Witchy couple. 0:35:50.880 --> 0:35:54.080 They recently they moved somewhere. Yeah, you saw I saw, Yeah, 0:35:54.080 --> 0:35:55.400 I saw something happening where they go. 0:35:55.480 --> 0:35:59.680 They got a farm where it's still in Louisiana. 0:36:00.120 --> 0:36:01.200 Why do I know their life? 0:36:01.840 --> 0:36:04.160 It's four hours from New Orleans and they finally got 0:36:04.200 --> 0:36:06.799 their farm and they manifested it together and it's so 0:36:07.080 --> 0:36:09.520 fucking cute and they have chickens, and I was like, 0:36:09.520 --> 0:36:10.719 oh my god, do I need a farm. I didn't 0:36:10.719 --> 0:36:12.840 manifest a farm with chickens. I'm like with my fucking 0:36:13.520 --> 0:36:16.200 warrior man fucking carrying the furniture inside. 0:36:16.280 --> 0:36:20.919 I was on their stories last night, but uh fuck 0:36:20.960 --> 0:36:21.960 were we talking about. 0:36:23.239 --> 0:36:24.279 Believing it? Oh? 0:36:24.320 --> 0:36:26.200 Oh believing it? Oh oh? 0:36:26.400 --> 0:36:28.200 So for the like not for the first time, but 0:36:28.239 --> 0:36:30.480 I was like when I saw it, I was like, damn, 0:36:30.480 --> 0:36:32.719 I'm like kind of jealous, but also oh I could 0:36:32.800 --> 0:36:36.319 have this too. Oh they manifest this, manifested this, and 0:36:36.360 --> 0:36:37.920 I can have that too. And now my thought is 0:36:38.360 --> 0:36:40.080 you need to manifest to really. I was thinking of this, like, 0:36:40.120 --> 0:36:42.120 you need to manifest really specifically, because do you want 0:36:42.120 --> 0:36:44.080 the farm or do you want the fucking four million house? 0:36:44.400 --> 0:36:45.000 Both both? 0:36:45.040 --> 0:36:46.520 And that's what I was thinking, like, I want both, 0:36:47.040 --> 0:36:47.359 you know what? 0:36:47.400 --> 0:36:50.000 It? Also, I think I battle this all the time. 0:36:50.040 --> 0:36:52.319 I think, especially as we go to Costa Rica more 0:36:52.360 --> 0:36:58.080 and more like the the polarity were, like, I guess 0:36:58.120 --> 0:37:01.000 like not the polarity is what I'm the lifestyles in 0:37:01.040 --> 0:37:03.880 which I feel like I have to choose, like you 0:37:03.880 --> 0:37:06.120 know and like and a lot of that is it's 0:37:06.160 --> 0:37:08.680 all in my head, like of like, oh, I can't. 0:37:09.200 --> 0:37:12.040 I couldn't leave all this behind and then give up 0:37:12.080 --> 0:37:15.239 my life and go raise a farm, go go like 0:37:15.320 --> 0:37:16.839 live a simple life with my man on the farm. 0:37:16.880 --> 0:37:19.759 No I could. I could. It's just like either I 0:37:19.760 --> 0:37:22.040 don't want to right now or I'm just not quite there. 0:37:22.360 --> 0:37:24.920 But I do battle between like feeling like I want 0:37:24.920 --> 0:37:26.680 to escape it all. And I've talked about this a 0:37:26.680 --> 0:37:28.480 lot on the show. Is like wanting to escape it all, 0:37:28.520 --> 0:37:32.640 but then also like wanting to like maximize my potential. 0:37:32.719 --> 0:37:35.000 Also, I think, I think the beautiful thing about us 0:37:35.600 --> 0:37:38.960 designing our life is that we know that we can 0:37:39.000 --> 0:37:41.640 have both, and we know we probably need both because 0:37:41.680 --> 0:37:45.400 we're like some hippie las bitches. You know, I need 0:37:45.400 --> 0:37:47.440 a little luxury. I need to go to the luxury 0:37:47.440 --> 0:37:52.800 in the jungle all luxury though, or the farm. 0:37:52.840 --> 0:37:53.920 But I do. 0:37:54.000 --> 0:37:56.480 I think it's I think It's just really beautiful and 0:37:56.560 --> 0:38:00.360 cool to be in this place where I really understand 0:38:00.400 --> 0:38:02.640 that I can design my life and I literally can 0:38:02.719 --> 0:38:06.719 have this and that and I will, you know, and 0:38:06.840 --> 0:38:08.719 I can spend a year there and six months there 0:38:08.760 --> 0:38:11.920 and I'll have the space and time to do so. 0:38:12.000 --> 0:38:15.759 And the choice, the choice, which is so beautiful because 0:38:15.800 --> 0:38:17.960 she was like, she was like as she was talking 0:38:17.960 --> 0:38:22.000 to me, the new house is four hours from the city, 0:38:22.400 --> 0:38:24.480 And I was like, God, can I live four hours 0:38:24.520 --> 0:38:26.600 from a city? And I was like, yes, you could, 0:38:27.239 --> 0:38:30.480 you sure could, you know, And like just the piece 0:38:30.520 --> 0:38:32.640 that she's probably feeling with her little family, she's a 0:38:32.680 --> 0:38:33.280 new baby. 0:38:33.560 --> 0:38:35.240 While you would think this bitch is my best friend, 0:38:37.440 --> 0:38:37.919 it's less. 0:38:38.040 --> 0:38:40.480 It comes from a place of less like jealousy, like 0:38:40.520 --> 0:38:43.080 you know how you get on social like fuck them, 0:38:43.160 --> 0:38:45.480 and like, huh, I can have that, and that's beautiful 0:38:45.520 --> 0:38:45.839 for them. 0:38:46.640 --> 0:38:48.680 It's that, but it's also like, Wow, you've already reached 0:38:48.680 --> 0:38:54.720 that part of your like you've released that part of 0:38:54.920 --> 0:38:58.759 this like desire to have things and that she doesn't 0:38:58.760 --> 0:39:00.360 have things, because I'm sure she has plenty things and 0:39:00.400 --> 0:39:02.640 she's she's probably got she'd be killing on Patreon. I'm 0:39:02.680 --> 0:39:04.920 sure over there with all her witchy spells and her 0:39:04.920 --> 0:39:07.799 fine man doing weird things on the internet so fun. 0:39:07.800 --> 0:39:08.759 I might need to subscribe. 0:39:09.320 --> 0:39:10.840 Can we please subscribe? 0:39:10.920 --> 0:39:12.880 I think I need to too, but that she's kind of 0:39:12.920 --> 0:39:15.600 like said fuck it, but like not really though, because 0:39:15.600 --> 0:39:19.279 shes still tapped in. Yeah, you know, and it's really 0:39:19.320 --> 0:39:22.400 it is like a mind shift and a mindset shifts 0:39:22.640 --> 0:39:27.000 of like what it is that is important, what you desire. Also, 0:39:27.040 --> 0:39:30.840 I think, you know, even like what your partner desires, 0:39:30.880 --> 0:39:34.120 and like how you I'm sure they've influenced each other, 0:39:34.480 --> 0:39:36.759 you know. And I often think like could I go 0:39:36.800 --> 0:39:38.520 live on a farm by myself with my daughter or 0:39:38.520 --> 0:39:41.600 do I need to have a man like kind of 0:39:42.000 --> 0:39:42.759 want to do it with me? 0:39:42.920 --> 0:39:46.760 I would like a man to come with me. I need. 0:39:47.080 --> 0:39:52.480 I like partnership and doing things. I welcome a man 0:39:52.880 --> 0:39:57.839 that is healthy and wants to lay eggs honestly pick 0:39:57.920 --> 0:40:02.279 up the chickens like the candles, you know, like I do. 0:40:02.360 --> 0:40:05.720 I like the I like the partnership aspect. And also 0:40:05.760 --> 0:40:08.000 if I don't, if like that doesn't manifest that way. 0:40:07.840 --> 0:40:08.440 I'll still do it. 0:40:08.520 --> 0:40:09.399 Yeah, I'm still I'm here. 0:40:09.400 --> 0:40:13.040 Now I'll just hire some farmers to like learn how 0:40:13.040 --> 0:40:15.680 to plow myself or maybe not. 0:40:17.440 --> 0:40:22.520 Yeah, well, the moral of the story is do whatever 0:40:22.520 --> 0:40:25.120 you want, manifest what you want, design your life, design 0:40:25.200 --> 0:40:27.600 your life, remember the people. Don't forget the people you love. 0:40:27.680 --> 0:40:30.040 Check in with the people that you love. 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You will 0:43:50.320 --> 0:43:53.600 be pleasantly surprised, be ready to dream the impossible dream 0:43:54.239 --> 0:43:57.759 and explore the magic of your fullest potential, even if 0:43:57.760 --> 0:44:00.200 it seems out of reach. The page of cup is 0:44:00.239 --> 0:44:02.279 asking you to embrace the inner child and believe that 0:44:02.360 --> 0:44:05.799 anything is possible. Did I not just fucking say that 0:44:05.800 --> 0:44:06.920 I could have everything? 0:44:07.719 --> 0:44:08.000 You have? 0:44:08.080 --> 0:44:08.360 Both? 0:44:09.360 --> 0:44:09.840 You did? 0:44:11.920 --> 0:44:14.600 The page of the Each page asked you to explore 0:44:14.640 --> 0:44:16.560 a new facet of yourself. The page of cups is 0:44:16.600 --> 0:44:19.399 asking you to explore your creative, emotional self. You may 0:44:19.400 --> 0:44:21.880 start a new art class, read books about how to 0:44:21.920 --> 0:44:25.799 express your feelings, or learn more about developing your psychic abilities. 0:44:25.800 --> 0:44:29.560 We need to get the Patreon dreamy aspirations race through 0:44:29.560 --> 0:44:32.360 your mind, and you may find yourself moved by simple things. 0:44:32.400 --> 0:44:34.359 Don't be afraid to let your feelings show and wear 0:44:34.400 --> 0:44:35.440 your heart on your sleeve. 0:44:36.239 --> 0:44:39.480 You may be moved by simple things. We're just saying, 0:44:39.880 --> 0:44:44.200 just how like the simplicities of life are often like 0:44:45.120 --> 0:44:49.360 the most appealing? Yeah yeah, And that you want to 0:44:49.360 --> 0:44:50.840 read more books? I do. 0:44:51.640 --> 0:44:52.239 I'm going to. 0:44:56.480 --> 0:44:56.640 Um. 0:44:57.040 --> 0:45:03.839 And then Erica pulled the Queen of pentacles. Pentacles are 0:45:03.880 --> 0:45:10.360 usually finances. She's looking luxury and lavish, so I'm betting 0:45:10.440 --> 0:45:18.840 on the riches the Queen of Pentacles is the nurturing 0:45:18.880 --> 0:45:21.400 mother of the material world. At home, she shows her 0:45:21.440 --> 0:45:24.840 love for others by cooking nutritious meals, maintaining a clean 0:45:24.880 --> 0:45:27.480 and inviting home, and giving warm cuddles to those who 0:45:27.560 --> 0:45:30.000 needed most. She is also able to work a full 0:45:30.000 --> 0:45:32.520 time job and make a financial contribution to the household, 0:45:32.719 --> 0:45:35.920 often as the primary breadwinner. She is masterful at taking 0:45:35.960 --> 0:45:38.320 care of the practical needs of work, home, and family, 0:45:38.520 --> 0:45:40.480 while also giving her love and support to those she 0:45:40.520 --> 0:45:44.480 cares about. Sounds balanced When the Queen of Pentacles appears 0:45:44.520 --> 0:45:47.640 in a tarot reading, you are embodying the ultimate working 0:45:47.760 --> 0:45:51.960 parent archetype. You care for your family and domestic responsibilities 0:45:52.080 --> 0:45:55.759 while also making a living for yourself and creating financial abundance. 0:45:56.160 --> 0:45:58.880 You can maintain a healthy balance between home and work 0:45:59.160 --> 0:46:01.759 by in creating the two and finding your place of 0:46:01.920 --> 0:46:04.719 flow in alignment. You strive to create a warm and 0:46:04.760 --> 0:46:07.560 secure environment for your family and loved ones while giving 0:46:07.840 --> 0:46:09.280 your love and support freely. 0:46:10.000 --> 0:46:11.759 Hmmm, I love that. 0:46:12.200 --> 0:46:13.040 I love that for you. 0:46:13.239 --> 0:46:14.160 Thanks. 0:46:16.120 --> 0:46:19.879 Okay, y'all, you have affirmation? Do I have an affirmation? 0:46:32.000 --> 0:46:38.240 I am easily accessible to those who prioritize my joy 0:46:38.280 --> 0:46:39.040 and their joy. 0:46:39.760 --> 0:46:44.400 I am easily accessible to those who prioritize my joy 0:46:44.600 --> 0:46:46.359 and their joy. 0:46:46.560 --> 0:46:46.920 Amen. 0:46:47.200 --> 0:46:51.520 Amen, Thank you guys so much for joining us today 0:46:51.760 --> 0:46:55.760 on another episode of Good Mom's Bad Choices. Please please 0:46:55.800 --> 0:46:58.480 make sure you rate and review this episode. Make sure 0:46:58.480 --> 0:47:02.480 you follow us on Patreon. More exclusive content at patreon 0:47:02.560 --> 0:47:05.720 dot com, backslash Good Mom's Bad Choices. 0:47:06.520 --> 0:47:09.520 Check out our merch store. Rate you said, rate and review. 0:47:09.880 --> 0:47:10.319 That's it. 0:47:10.600 --> 0:47:14.280 That's it. 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