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Speaker 1: I'm excited to welcome back our special guest to the show.

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Speaker 1: In a previous episode, episode, our guests openly discuss her

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Speaker 1: experiences as a virgin. Today, she joins us again to

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Speaker 1: share an exciting update on her recent journey of losing

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Speaker 1: her virginity. So, before I begin, how are you doing?

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Speaker 1: How are you feeling good?

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Speaker 2: I'm doing great?

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Speaker 1: You sure I'm great?

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Speaker 2: Am I supposed to like say like, oh, I feel

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Speaker 2: like a new woman? Or is that what you're asking for?

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Speaker 1: Like asking you how you're doing this?

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Speaker 2: Oh? I did good?

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Speaker 1: Okay, So before we began, Keiki and child, have you

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Speaker 1: shared your experiences or your experience with any of your

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Speaker 1: friends and if so, how did they react or respond?

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Speaker 3: Oh?

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Speaker 2: That was I feel like everyone responded somewhat the same.

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Speaker 2: It was always just like what like some people were

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Speaker 2: some of my friends. I was away, I was like

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Speaker 2: on a trip, so I kind of just either facetimed

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Speaker 2: or texted, and it always was kind of more or

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Speaker 2: less the same. It was just like shock or one

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Speaker 2: of my friends. It was really funny, I because I

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Speaker 2: didn't tell everybody that I met this person. So when

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Speaker 2: I told one of my friends, she was like, you liar.

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Speaker 2: I was like, I'm not lying.

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Speaker 1: Are excited for you?

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Speaker 2: No? They were. It's just that I didn't tell them

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Speaker 2: that I was talking to someone at the time, because

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Speaker 2: it happened pretty fast. So when I was just like, oh, yeah,

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Speaker 2: I came to the city and I met someone and

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Speaker 2: we had sex, and she was like what. She's like,

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Speaker 2: stop it. She's like, you're such a liar. And I

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Speaker 2: was like, I'm telling you the truth.

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Speaker 1: Why didn't you tell anybody you were Why do you

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Speaker 1: tell anybody you met someone?

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Speaker 2: Oh, I mean it was only I only knew him

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Speaker 2: by the time it happened. It was only a weekend.

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Speaker 2: So it's not like I it's not like I was

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Speaker 2: going around being like, oh as soon as we met

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Speaker 2: the first day, I wasn't going around telling that many

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Speaker 2: And it was a whirlwind that it was just so

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Speaker 2: it was so quick. By the time I looked around,

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Speaker 2: I had sex with him, and I was like, oh,

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Speaker 2: I was like, I'm with somebody. I started talking to

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Speaker 2: this person. It just happened. It happened so quickly. Why

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Speaker 2: some people just didn't know, Like a lot of people

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Speaker 2: didn't know that I was talking to anybody, because I

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Speaker 1: Okay, yeah, so let's talk about the events leading up

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Speaker 1: to you meet this person who took your v car.

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Speaker 1: So how did you meet?

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Speaker 2: We met? I went to London on a trip. It

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Speaker 2: was like I E prey love the trip. I was

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Speaker 2: working at the same time, and it was always like

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Speaker 2: a dream of mine to live in London. So I

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Speaker 2: just wanted to take a baby step and lived there

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Speaker 2: for a month. And I went there and I took

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Speaker 2: a bunch of like different activities, different to keep myself busy,

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Speaker 2: to meet new people. And I went to an improv

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Speaker 2: like jam. If people are not familiar with improv, like,

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Speaker 2: people and it's not like a show you like performing

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Speaker 2: for the other improvisers. Basically it's a social gathering. So

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Speaker 2: I went to that and where I met him. I

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Speaker 2: met this guy and he was very It was kind

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Speaker 2: of just like it happened pretty It's pretty easy, Like

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Speaker 2: there was nothing really drawn out. We just kind of,

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Speaker 1: Okay, and did you know often.

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Speaker 2: Did I know if the bath I went to have

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Speaker 2: sex with him? Or yeah, did I not off the

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Speaker 2: bat that? Uh? No, I didn't know. I think I

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Speaker 2: was gonna have sex with him. The first time I

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Speaker 2: like he's really cute, like we're having fun together. We

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Speaker 2: But I didn't think like, Okay, this person is the

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Speaker 2: person I'm gonna have sex with. It was more so

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Speaker 1: I'm assuming y'all hung out more than once y'all went

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Speaker 2: Yeah, we went on additional days before we had sex,

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Speaker 2: not that many. It was only I met him. It

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Speaker 2: happened very quickly. It wasn't I didn't really It was

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Speaker 1: When you don't put too much do into shit, I

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Speaker 2: Honestly, I wasn't like I knew the day when the

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Speaker 2: night that we didn't have sex. I knew that I

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Speaker 2: prior to that. It's not like it was just something

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Speaker 2: did have sex, like, it was very easy and he

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Speaker 2: was very sweet and patient. I didn't tell him.

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Speaker 1: Down low down.

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Speaker 2: Sorry, I don't fast.

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Speaker 1: So tell us about the night, tell us about leading

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Speaker 1: up to it. And also because I listened to your

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Speaker 1: your first episode you did and you mentioned how every

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Speaker 1: time you tried to have sex that you on your period.

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Speaker 2: Yes, yes, yeah, I was not on my period that night.

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Speaker 2: I just I guess it was aligned with the universe.

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Speaker 2: But yeah, so.

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Speaker 2: I'm all about manifesting. I mean that's why I met

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Speaker 2: this man. But yeah, so that night we were just

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Speaker 2: another improv thing and you know, we're just hanging out talking,

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Speaker 2: and then we ended up going back to his place

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Speaker 2: I just like I knew that it was going to happen.

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Speaker 2: And yeah, so I just like we went back to

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Speaker 2: And he was very I don't know how much you

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Speaker 1: Go, But how are you feeling? Like were you nervous

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Speaker 1: leading up to that moment? Because I do will agree.

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Speaker 1: I feel like a lot of women know when they're

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Speaker 1: gonna end up having sex with a nigga when ye

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Speaker 1: a colonizer.

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Speaker 2: Well, I mean, well I'm more so colonizing his area

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Speaker 2: so technically, yes, he is quote unquote a colonizer, But

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Speaker 2: what was I gonna say?

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Speaker 1: Yeah, no, I'm nervous.

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Speaker 2: Were you like I was nervous. I mean I wasn't nervous. Actually,

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Speaker 2: surprisingly I wasn't. I mean, it just felt like the

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Speaker 1: For so long.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, I'm a late bloomer, so like I was

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Speaker 2: just kind of like, Okay, well, he just felt like

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Speaker 2: I am very happy that I didn't have it with him.

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Speaker 2: I wasn't nervous and I and he had No, he

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Speaker 2: like a split second like of him just putting his

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Speaker 2: but I think I was more just excited to get

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Speaker 1: So I was just like, because.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, he made me feel comfortable. Even though I didn't

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Speaker 2: happy it was with someone that I was really attracted to.

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Speaker 2: When I was having a good time with.

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Speaker 1: Uh huh you heard me, that thing was wet, it

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Speaker 2: Oh god, well it was it was. It was just

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Speaker 2: it was nice, I had a good time. Like, I

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Speaker 2: and I'm assuming he also had a strong connection to me.

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Speaker 1: But yeah, so why you didn't tell him that she

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Speaker 2: Oh, because I just didn't. I don't need all of that.

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Speaker 2: Plus he was I've like told the other guys in

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Speaker 2: we didn't all come out of the womb as a virgin.

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Speaker 2: So it was just kind of like a lot, and

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Speaker 1: Was probably made it a little even more uncomfortable.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, it would have made it so uncomfortable. And like

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Speaker 2: I feel I know that he probably figured that I

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Speaker 1: But like, how do you feel? How do you think that?

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Speaker 1: Like how do you know?

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Speaker 2: Because like I feel towards like I mean, we had

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Speaker 2: I took I mean I mean we had I don't know.

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Speaker 2: I guess for the first time he had sex like

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Speaker 2: maybe three four times, okay, and then the second time

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Speaker 1: I would say, you make enough a lot of time.

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Speaker 2: I mean, yeah, I guess, but it was nice even

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Speaker 2: he was very just like into it and he was

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Speaker 2: making I felt good. He felt good. Yeah, we had

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Speaker 2: a we had a connection. But what what were you

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Speaker 2: saying before It's gonna say something and that I play.

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Speaker 1: About him about you not telling him that you were

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Speaker 1: a version.

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Speaker 2: Oh yeah he knew, I know, he I justn't I

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Speaker 2: feel like he knew. Like it was just one of

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Speaker 2: the time he was just kind of like, is this okay?

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Speaker 2: Is this all right? Like I feel like I don't

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Speaker 2: I'm baking on name?

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Speaker 1: How Yeah? May I answer?

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Speaker 2: You know what I'm talking about?

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Speaker 2: It's I may destroy you.

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Speaker 1: Where the hell did I get may I call you from?

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Speaker 2: It happens all the time, and it's considered to be

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Speaker 1: A little Coochie was probably so siressed out, your coach.

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Speaker 1: But Christopher Columbus, he's a random name. It was okay,

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Speaker 2: Yeah, I think it's called bat vaginiesis veg.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, it's something like that. So you have to go

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Speaker 2: It's more so like you have to flex the vaginal muscle.

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Speaker 1: But once you get in there, it starts to feel good.

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Speaker 2: It felt better along the I think that has needed

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Speaker 2: it's just been one of those things where that would

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Speaker 2: I wanted to and I was like no, no, and

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Speaker 2: to see him, so I was like, you know, let

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00:21:42,840 --> 00:21:45,520
Speaker 2: me just do it, because like I'm not going to

438
00:21:45,560 --> 00:21:46,000
Speaker 2: see him.

439
00:21:47,160 --> 00:21:50,920
Speaker 1: I don't know, all right, And I'm assuming that you gave.

440
00:21:50,840 --> 00:21:58,640
Speaker 2: Him I did once. I need to work on that.

441
00:21:59,000 --> 00:22:02,440
Speaker 1: But uh, what happens, especially if you're not used to.

442
00:22:02,480 --> 00:22:07,120
Speaker 2: Like, yeah, yeah it was, it was. It was interesting,

443
00:22:08,040 --> 00:22:11,320
Speaker 2: yeahs interesting. I didn't I didn't hate it. It was

444
00:22:11,359 --> 00:22:13,000
Speaker 2: just one of those things where you know, I'm still

445
00:22:13,000 --> 00:22:14,720
Speaker 2: getting used to it, and I wasn't sure if I

446
00:22:14,760 --> 00:22:15,600
Speaker 2: was doing it the right.

447
00:22:15,440 --> 00:22:18,720
Speaker 1: Way was telling you, because I feel like he's very

448
00:22:18,720 --> 00:22:20,560
Speaker 1: big on communicating, which is a good thing.

449
00:22:21,240 --> 00:22:24,000
Speaker 2: Yeah No, I mean he you know, I think he

450
00:22:24,119 --> 00:22:26,639
Speaker 2: really was. It wasn't like he didn't like it. It

451
00:22:26,680 --> 00:22:28,439
Speaker 2: was more so like I did it. I think I

452
00:22:28,480 --> 00:22:30,600
Speaker 2: just I did it. I realized I have a gag,

453
00:22:30,640 --> 00:22:34,000
Speaker 2: a pretty bad gagging fucks in general, and I went

454
00:22:34,000 --> 00:22:36,119
Speaker 2: back a little too far and I just kept choking.

455
00:22:36,400 --> 00:22:38,560
Speaker 2: So I was like, oh no, I was like, I can't.

456
00:22:39,080 --> 00:22:40,879
Speaker 2: So then he was like, no, no, it's okay, it's okay,

457
00:22:40,960 --> 00:22:43,399
Speaker 2: like he obviously yes, some guys like it, but he

458
00:22:43,480 --> 00:22:45,040
Speaker 2: was very like nice about it. And he was like,

459
00:22:45,080 --> 00:22:47,199
Speaker 2: it's if you're it's okay if it's too much, and

460
00:22:47,240 --> 00:22:50,879
Speaker 2: I was like, okay, he was big. I mean he

461
00:22:51,000 --> 00:22:54,200
Speaker 2: was average. I mean he was.

462
00:23:09,520 --> 00:23:12,120
Speaker 1: When I was in college because I lost my virginity

463
00:23:12,480 --> 00:23:14,840
Speaker 1: my freshman year. That's when I met my first love.

464
00:23:15,520 --> 00:23:18,240
Speaker 1: And I don't know who taught us this dumb ass trick,

465
00:23:18,280 --> 00:23:21,600
Speaker 1: but it look key. No, it high key work. So

466
00:23:21,680 --> 00:23:23,680
Speaker 1: I give I sure tip. Put you in the listeners.

467
00:23:24,119 --> 00:23:26,159
Speaker 1: So they say, I mean, I don't have to use

468
00:23:26,200 --> 00:23:30,480
Speaker 1: it now because you know, but you're supposed to use

469
00:23:30,520 --> 00:23:36,080
Speaker 1: some chloroseeptic sowred throat spray. Yeah, you spray it in

470
00:23:36,119 --> 00:23:39,479
Speaker 1: your throat. So when you spray it a couple of

471
00:23:39,520 --> 00:23:46,000
Speaker 1: times throat, yeah, so it helps you get comfortable with

472
00:23:46,200 --> 00:23:48,560
Speaker 1: pushing it back while you're sucking dick.

473
00:23:49,240 --> 00:23:54,920
Speaker 2: Okay, on standpire, I clean that my purse girl.

474
00:23:54,960 --> 00:24:00,879
Speaker 1: Niggas don't care. They just want to get the job done. Baby.

475
00:24:01,240 --> 00:24:03,840
Speaker 1: I mean, are you in practice with like use a

476
00:24:03,840 --> 00:24:06,760
Speaker 1: banana or cue cobus shit and see how far you

477
00:24:06,760 --> 00:24:12,679
Speaker 1: can go. I'm serious, it works. It really didn't work.

478
00:24:14,680 --> 00:24:17,440
Speaker 1: So I feel like this experience met your expectations.

479
00:24:18,320 --> 00:24:22,920
Speaker 2: It did. Yeah, I'm I you know, I'm not saying

480
00:24:22,960 --> 00:24:26,360
Speaker 2: that like I don't know. I mean, you know, life

481
00:24:26,440 --> 00:24:28,400
Speaker 2: is funny that way. I'm just like I've always wanted

482
00:24:28,440 --> 00:24:29,879
Speaker 2: to you know, I always wanted to have sex.

483
00:24:30,440 --> 00:24:31,719
Speaker 1: You always want to be in London.

484
00:24:32,480 --> 00:24:35,000
Speaker 2: I was going to be in London, and then it

485
00:24:35,080 --> 00:24:38,399
Speaker 2: kind of just like worked out. Like I am happy that.

486
00:24:38,440 --> 00:24:41,200
Speaker 2: I'm honestly happy that it was him. Obviously I'm not

487
00:24:41,320 --> 00:24:43,560
Speaker 2: with the person, but I'm very happy that it was him.

488
00:24:43,600 --> 00:24:45,280
Speaker 2: I Mean, most people who they had their first time with,

489
00:24:45,320 --> 00:24:49,199
Speaker 2: they're not even with the person anymore. So, it's just

490
00:24:49,200 --> 00:24:50,640
Speaker 2: one of those things. I'm like, I am happy. I'm

491
00:24:50,720 --> 00:24:53,639
Speaker 2: very happy that it was him. I don't regret it

492
00:24:53,680 --> 00:24:58,720
Speaker 2: for a second, Like everything pretty much is good.

493
00:24:59,040 --> 00:25:02,199
Speaker 1: So I remember the last time we had a conversation

494
00:25:02,640 --> 00:25:05,560
Speaker 1: on the show and you mentioned how you was interested

495
00:25:05,600 --> 00:25:08,320
Speaker 1: in this guy who was in an open relationship, and

496
00:25:08,359 --> 00:25:11,000
Speaker 1: I was like, please don't have sex with this nigga.

497
00:25:12,200 --> 00:25:14,520
Speaker 2: Oh you mean the oh yeah that guy.

498
00:25:15,119 --> 00:25:16,440
Speaker 1: Whatever happened to that situation.

499
00:25:17,680 --> 00:25:20,400
Speaker 2: Oh, he's like he married, he's proposed to his girlfriend.

500
00:25:20,880 --> 00:25:24,760
Speaker 2: There because we still we still in not interrupting each

501
00:25:24,760 --> 00:25:26,159
Speaker 2: on social media, but we do follow each other on

502
00:25:26,160 --> 00:25:30,320
Speaker 2: social media, so I've seen this. He like looks at

503
00:25:30,359 --> 00:25:32,760
Speaker 2: my stories, I look at he likes posts, like he's

504
00:25:32,840 --> 00:25:35,360
Speaker 2: very he's very I'm very happy for him, like he's

505
00:25:35,400 --> 00:25:38,000
Speaker 2: getting married to the love of his life, like what

506
00:25:38,040 --> 00:25:42,600
Speaker 2: he says, his love of his life. So I mean,

507
00:25:43,240 --> 00:25:46,760
Speaker 2: I'm I mean, I I don't think if I had

508
00:25:46,760 --> 00:25:50,520
Speaker 2: sex with him, I would have been like upset about it,

509
00:25:51,320 --> 00:25:53,800
Speaker 2: but I am how it ended up. Like I'm happy

510
00:25:53,840 --> 00:25:55,520
Speaker 2: that I ended up having sex with this guy in

511
00:25:55,520 --> 00:25:56,440
Speaker 2: London because I.

512
00:25:56,400 --> 00:25:58,560
Speaker 1: Do feel like this this guy took into your took

513
00:25:58,560 --> 00:25:59,960
Speaker 1: your fell listen to consideration.

514
00:26:00,440 --> 00:26:03,679
Speaker 2: Yeah, Like I felt like he was very emotionally invested

515
00:26:04,800 --> 00:26:07,119
Speaker 2: in fully connecting with me. And I felt like if

516
00:26:07,160 --> 00:26:09,399
Speaker 2: it was with the guy in the open relationship, it

517
00:26:09,400 --> 00:26:12,119
Speaker 2: wouldn't have been the same way. I felt like it.

518
00:26:12,240 --> 00:26:14,639
Speaker 2: He would have been pretty like I feel like with

519
00:26:14,720 --> 00:26:16,720
Speaker 2: the guy that in the open relation I'm sorry the

520
00:26:16,800 --> 00:26:20,200
Speaker 2: guy that I had s's within London. It was very intimate, yes,

521
00:26:21,200 --> 00:26:24,480
Speaker 2: and not saying that like the guy in the relationship

522
00:26:24,760 --> 00:26:26,480
Speaker 2: wasn't intimate, but I feel like it was. It was

523
00:26:26,480 --> 00:26:30,800
Speaker 2: just different. It was very different, and I felt like

524
00:26:30,840 --> 00:26:32,359
Speaker 2: there was a lot of moments where he was holding

525
00:26:32,400 --> 00:26:34,080
Speaker 2: back and like, wasn't sharing a lot of things with me.

526
00:26:34,160 --> 00:26:35,879
Speaker 2: So I was like, okay, I only could know so

527
00:26:36,000 --> 00:26:39,240
Speaker 2: much of you. But the guy in London, I felt like,

528
00:26:39,280 --> 00:26:42,040
Speaker 2: I pretty much you know, he was very open to

529
00:26:43,080 --> 00:26:46,240
Speaker 2: having those conversations with me and being vulnerable, which was nice.

530
00:26:46,640 --> 00:26:48,480
Speaker 1: I ain't gonna lie now that I'm looking at you,

531
00:26:48,560 --> 00:26:49,840
Speaker 1: I do feel a little glow on you.

532
00:26:54,520 --> 00:26:57,080
Speaker 2: You're you know, I could not see a glow on

533
00:26:57,119 --> 00:26:57,880
Speaker 2: me if.

534
00:26:58,040 --> 00:26:59,800
Speaker 1: The sunlight hitting him from the window.

535
00:27:00,119 --> 00:27:03,840
Speaker 2: What, Yes, I'm so in love. I'm in lod Oh

536
00:27:03,880 --> 00:27:04,520
Speaker 2: my god.

537
00:27:04,880 --> 00:27:06,639
Speaker 1: So is there anything that you wanted to do but

538
00:27:06,680 --> 00:27:15,080
Speaker 1: didn't get a chance to do. I know, yeah.

539
00:27:13,960 --> 00:27:16,760
Speaker 2: No, I'm not doing anal. I have no desire to you.

540
00:27:17,000 --> 00:27:18,520
Speaker 2: Let me get the I have to get the trading

541
00:27:18,600 --> 00:27:21,199
Speaker 2: rules off first. Before I even know that, I'm like,

542
00:27:21,200 --> 00:27:23,040
Speaker 2: I'm not going to jump to anal all of a sudden.

543
00:27:23,600 --> 00:27:25,200
Speaker 1: I think he was gonna jump the war either.

544
00:27:27,920 --> 00:27:30,040
Speaker 2: Well, I was like, it's I mean, it's there and

545
00:27:30,080 --> 00:27:34,639
Speaker 2: I like him, so I'll just do it. I mean,

546
00:27:34,640 --> 00:27:36,520
Speaker 2: we were he had sex, so it's like we already

547
00:27:36,520 --> 00:27:40,760
Speaker 2: did the most intimate thing together. What was I gonna say?

548
00:27:41,520 --> 00:27:48,120
Speaker 2: I mean, not really like I wish we could spend

549
00:27:48,160 --> 00:27:50,760
Speaker 2: more time together, but that was that's not really much

550
00:27:51,119 --> 00:27:54,760
Speaker 2: of a sexual thing. It's more of like a preference,

551
00:27:54,840 --> 00:27:55,240
Speaker 2: I guess.

552
00:27:55,480 --> 00:27:57,600
Speaker 1: So what's the situation with you're and the guy? Now?

553
00:27:58,640 --> 00:28:05,159
Speaker 2: Oh, we don't talk anymore because well, I mean, you know,

554
00:28:05,440 --> 00:28:09,040
Speaker 2: towards the end, it was very much like he is

555
00:28:10,920 --> 00:28:13,520
Speaker 2: he already did a long distance relationship. I think he

556
00:28:13,560 --> 00:28:15,240
Speaker 2: just has a lot of things to work out personally

557
00:28:15,280 --> 00:28:19,280
Speaker 2: and internally. And I don't blame him. I mean, I

558
00:28:19,320 --> 00:28:21,720
Speaker 2: don't want to do a long distance relationship either. If

559
00:28:21,760 --> 00:28:23,600
Speaker 2: he asked me. I would have been like, yeah, sure,

560
00:28:23,640 --> 00:28:26,840
Speaker 2: like let's keep talking. I wouldn't be like, let's be

561
00:28:26,880 --> 00:28:29,320
Speaker 2: in a relationship, but it would have been nice to

562
00:28:29,320 --> 00:28:32,480
Speaker 2: be like, yeah, we can keep talking and stuff. But

563
00:28:32,560 --> 00:28:35,080
Speaker 2: he didn't want to like, you know, lead string me

564
00:28:35,119 --> 00:28:37,880
Speaker 2: along or lead me on or anything, being like let's

565
00:28:38,000 --> 00:28:41,080
Speaker 2: keep talking and then what if he disappears because of

566
00:28:41,400 --> 00:28:44,640
Speaker 2: life or like he just meets somebody new, which is fair.

567
00:28:44,760 --> 00:28:46,760
Speaker 2: I can't blame him because I would be kind of

568
00:28:46,840 --> 00:28:48,840
Speaker 2: hurt if he did that. I would be hurt if

569
00:28:48,880 --> 00:28:50,520
Speaker 2: we were talking and then all of a sudden he disappeared.

570
00:28:50,920 --> 00:28:54,160
Speaker 2: So so it was one of those things where he

571
00:28:54,200 --> 00:28:55,600
Speaker 2: was like, I just want to be upfront with you

572
00:28:55,800 --> 00:28:59,040
Speaker 2: and like, you know, like I like you and everything.

573
00:28:59,120 --> 00:29:02,560
Speaker 2: I just you know, it's probably better if we just

574
00:29:02,680 --> 00:29:04,560
Speaker 2: end things here, and he's like, I'm not saying that

575
00:29:04,600 --> 00:29:05,800
Speaker 2: I never want to talk to you and never want

576
00:29:05,800 --> 00:29:07,760
Speaker 2: to see you again, but like it's just one of

577
00:29:07,760 --> 00:29:10,800
Speaker 2: those things where it's like if I ever wanted to

578
00:29:10,800 --> 00:29:13,160
Speaker 2: reach out to him, I could. I don't have a

579
00:29:13,560 --> 00:29:16,520
Speaker 2: desire to reach out to him like that, but if

580
00:29:16,520 --> 00:29:19,000
Speaker 2: I went back to London, possibly I would reach out

581
00:29:19,000 --> 00:29:23,720
Speaker 2: to him. But you know, life, you know, people change

582
00:29:23,760 --> 00:29:25,560
Speaker 2: and stuff like that, So who knows.

583
00:29:25,960 --> 00:29:27,760
Speaker 1: Do you wish she would have told you this before

584
00:29:27,880 --> 00:29:31,800
Speaker 1: y'all had sex or doesn't matter, No, it didn't really matter.

585
00:29:31,920 --> 00:29:34,040
Speaker 2: I think it was very much Again, it was very

586
00:29:34,080 --> 00:29:37,000
Speaker 2: much like a whirlwind. I wasn't really thinking about that.

587
00:29:37,360 --> 00:29:39,720
Speaker 2: I just oh, I'm in London. I just want to

588
00:29:39,760 --> 00:29:43,080
Speaker 2: have fun, And like all I thought was really gonna

589
00:29:43,080 --> 00:29:44,840
Speaker 2: happen was I was going to meet some guy. I

590
00:29:44,840 --> 00:29:46,880
Speaker 2: thought I was gonna go on bumble apps. I mean

591
00:29:46,920 --> 00:29:48,600
Speaker 2: bumble apps. I'll go on the bumble app and.

592
00:29:48,560 --> 00:29:51,040
Speaker 1: Like you app, baby, I.

593
00:29:51,000 --> 00:29:52,680
Speaker 2: Don't love an app, but like it was one of

594
00:29:52,680 --> 00:29:55,040
Speaker 2: those things where I'm in a new city and like

595
00:29:55,440 --> 00:29:57,480
Speaker 2: you want to meet people. I want to meet people.

596
00:29:57,520 --> 00:29:59,680
Speaker 2: So it was like an option. But that's why I

597
00:29:59,680 --> 00:30:02,200
Speaker 2: also did activities outside of that. I wasn't just like

598
00:30:02,280 --> 00:30:04,720
Speaker 2: relying on the app. But then I met this guy

599
00:30:04,760 --> 00:30:08,040
Speaker 2: and I didn't expect to meet this person. So I

600
00:30:08,160 --> 00:30:10,640
Speaker 2: was just kind of like, okay, like I wasn't expecting

601
00:30:10,680 --> 00:30:12,400
Speaker 2: to meet this person. I didn't have a plan that

602
00:30:12,440 --> 00:30:14,760
Speaker 2: I was going to lose my virginity. But you know,

603
00:30:14,880 --> 00:30:17,400
Speaker 2: as time went on and we were getting so uh

604
00:30:17,640 --> 00:30:21,040
Speaker 2: in you know this, because right, it just kind of

605
00:30:21,360 --> 00:30:24,240
Speaker 2: was very easy. So from that I was kind of

606
00:30:24,240 --> 00:30:26,400
Speaker 2: just like, you know what, like I guess this is happening.

607
00:30:26,880 --> 00:30:29,200
Speaker 2: And then like I'm sure. I mean, it wasn't in

608
00:30:29,240 --> 00:30:31,480
Speaker 2: his cards either. It's not like he was just going

609
00:30:31,520 --> 00:30:34,000
Speaker 2: around like having sex with people. I mean, I don't

610
00:30:34,000 --> 00:30:36,280
Speaker 2: know his life, but I would say that like, it wasn't.

611
00:30:36,680 --> 00:30:38,440
Speaker 2: He didn't give me that impression. It was very much

612
00:30:38,480 --> 00:30:42,240
Speaker 2: like we just ended up being in the situation that connecting.

613
00:30:42,360 --> 00:30:46,480
Speaker 2: So yeah, so it was just I don't know, I

614
00:30:47,280 --> 00:30:49,280
Speaker 2: wasn't expecting it and it just kind of happened.

615
00:30:49,320 --> 00:30:54,000
Speaker 1: And yeah, So how did this experience affect your perception

616
00:30:54,160 --> 00:30:58,240
Speaker 1: of yourself and your sexuality? Do you feel more confident?

617
00:30:58,320 --> 00:31:01,480
Speaker 1: Do you look at yourself differently? Because I know in

618
00:31:01,480 --> 00:31:03,840
Speaker 1: the last conversation we had, we spoke a lot about

619
00:31:04,480 --> 00:31:07,560
Speaker 1: confidence and like, you know, insecurities and stuff. So has

620
00:31:07,600 --> 00:31:08,640
Speaker 1: that changed or.

621
00:31:11,120 --> 00:31:14,360
Speaker 2: I mean, I don't I still feel the same way

622
00:31:14,360 --> 00:31:17,040
Speaker 2: about sex. I don't. I'm not. I'm not, you know,

623
00:31:17,120 --> 00:31:21,959
Speaker 2: after so long I'm not having sex. I'm not. I'm

624
00:31:22,000 --> 00:31:24,160
Speaker 2: still going to be the same person. It's not like, Okay,

625
00:31:24,200 --> 00:31:25,880
Speaker 2: all of a sudden I had sex once, it means

626
00:31:25,880 --> 00:31:27,640
Speaker 2: I'm just gonna drop my paintings for any man that's

627
00:31:27,640 --> 00:31:30,160
Speaker 2: is slow to me, Like, it's still gonna be the

628
00:31:30,200 --> 00:31:35,160
Speaker 2: same situation where I'm like still vetting making sure because

629
00:31:35,160 --> 00:31:36,920
Speaker 2: like I just know myself, like I need to be

630
00:31:37,000 --> 00:31:39,240
Speaker 2: connected to the person. I need to be like okay,

631
00:31:39,320 --> 00:31:43,720
Speaker 2: like there's a promise of something or like I feel

632
00:31:43,720 --> 00:31:47,680
Speaker 2: like we're connected or stuff like that. Just couldn't. It's

633
00:31:47,680 --> 00:31:50,240
Speaker 2: just not in me to dec have sex with whomever.

634
00:31:53,280 --> 00:31:55,160
Speaker 2: I mean, maybe it would be easier if it was,

635
00:31:55,200 --> 00:31:56,880
Speaker 2: but honestly, this is not who I am. I just

636
00:31:56,920 --> 00:32:01,560
Speaker 2: know what I am. No, I just think people like

637
00:32:01,920 --> 00:32:03,840
Speaker 2: I'm not saying that you but I'm saying that. You know,

638
00:32:03,880 --> 00:32:06,080
Speaker 2: people will ask me. I'd have this question asked like, oh,

639
00:32:06,200 --> 00:32:07,600
Speaker 2: like do you think now you're going to have sex

640
00:32:07,640 --> 00:32:07,840
Speaker 2: a lot?

641
00:32:07,880 --> 00:32:09,800
Speaker 1: And I'm like, no, well, no, I ask you about

642
00:32:09,800 --> 00:32:12,680
Speaker 1: your confidence, like do you feel more confident in yourself? Like,

643
00:32:12,680 --> 00:32:14,920
Speaker 1: because I know in the past it's been situations when

644
00:32:14,920 --> 00:32:18,080
Speaker 1: you really like someone or you like several people and

645
00:32:18,960 --> 00:32:21,560
Speaker 1: you know a lot of people just treated you wrong

646
00:32:21,600 --> 00:32:24,320
Speaker 1: and your feelings got hurt. So have this situation like

647
00:32:24,480 --> 00:32:26,680
Speaker 1: because I feel like this was a really great experience

648
00:32:27,080 --> 00:32:30,560
Speaker 1: regardless of how an outcome happened, because I feel like

649
00:32:30,640 --> 00:32:32,480
Speaker 1: if you would have been in London, y'all would have

650
00:32:32,480 --> 00:32:33,560
Speaker 1: still been kicking it.

651
00:32:34,320 --> 00:32:36,680
Speaker 2: Okay, I mean, I see what you're saying. I would

652
00:32:36,800 --> 00:32:41,480
Speaker 2: how to answer this question. I would say that when

653
00:32:41,560 --> 00:32:44,200
Speaker 2: I after I I would say, after I had sex

654
00:32:44,240 --> 00:32:47,400
Speaker 2: with this person, and like you know, I came back home.

655
00:32:47,520 --> 00:32:50,680
Speaker 2: I was kind of just like, hmm, I don't feel

656
00:32:50,720 --> 00:32:54,600
Speaker 2: like there's like this pressure to put on myself to

657
00:32:54,760 --> 00:32:59,760
Speaker 2: like meet this like by by person, by tomorrow. I

658
00:32:59,760 --> 00:33:03,960
Speaker 2: think my issue from not having wanting to have sex.

659
00:33:04,000 --> 00:33:06,040
Speaker 2: I was like, oh, there's no one that wants to

660
00:33:06,040 --> 00:33:08,360
Speaker 2: have sex with me, and like all these I used

661
00:33:08,360 --> 00:33:10,240
Speaker 2: to feel really negative. This is like way in the past,

662
00:33:10,440 --> 00:33:12,920
Speaker 2: like before I really properly started loving myself, which is

663
00:33:12,920 --> 00:33:14,040
Speaker 2: something I'm always working on.

664
00:33:14,120 --> 00:33:17,040
Speaker 1: But like we all are even Yeah, I know you

665
00:33:17,080 --> 00:33:22,560
Speaker 1: think I'm Beyonce, but I have insecurity systems Okay, but no, no,

666
00:33:22,600 --> 00:33:24,800
Speaker 1: it's really true, like we all are working on ourselves

667
00:33:24,840 --> 00:33:27,120
Speaker 1: and like just on the journey of self love, like

668
00:33:27,160 --> 00:33:27,920
Speaker 1: it's never ending.

669
00:33:28,440 --> 00:33:30,600
Speaker 2: It's never ending. And I think in the past, like

670
00:33:30,720 --> 00:33:33,440
Speaker 2: you know, when I was like twenty six, twenty seven,

671
00:33:33,520 --> 00:33:35,600
Speaker 2: and like, especially during the pandemic, I was like, what

672
00:33:35,840 --> 00:33:37,760
Speaker 2: is me? No one's going to love me, Like I

673
00:33:37,800 --> 00:33:39,320
Speaker 2: don't know if I'm ever going to meet that person

674
00:33:39,360 --> 00:33:42,200
Speaker 2: because you know, sex is so much, it's so porelated

675
00:33:42,240 --> 00:33:44,960
Speaker 2: in a romantic relationship and like, yeah, self work.

676
00:33:45,240 --> 00:33:48,360
Speaker 1: Like you have to have a brand to be considered desirable.

677
00:33:48,440 --> 00:33:50,960
Speaker 2: Yeah yeah, And it's like I never had that. I

678
00:33:51,080 --> 00:33:53,239
Speaker 2: never I never had that full connection. I thought there

679
00:33:53,280 --> 00:33:56,400
Speaker 2: was always something wrong with me, right, And I felt

680
00:33:56,440 --> 00:33:59,560
Speaker 2: like when I met this person, he just I mean

681
00:34:00,280 --> 00:34:04,880
Speaker 2: I think when i'm I think I built the confidence

682
00:34:05,040 --> 00:34:10,880
Speaker 2: level and like the just like the positiveness, positiveness in

683
00:34:10,920 --> 00:34:14,000
Speaker 2: myself and all the self love that I gathered over

684
00:34:14,040 --> 00:34:16,200
Speaker 2: the years. Like it wasn't just about the sex that

685
00:34:16,200 --> 00:34:20,120
Speaker 2: gave me the confidence. It was about how I be self.

686
00:34:20,320 --> 00:34:22,120
Speaker 2: I had so much self love for myself and appreciate

687
00:34:22,200 --> 00:34:24,279
Speaker 2: for myself. That's one reason why that it worked the

688
00:34:24,280 --> 00:34:25,000
Speaker 2: way that it did.

689
00:34:25,560 --> 00:34:28,920
Speaker 1: Like that made me happy. I'm so happy because if

690
00:34:28,920 --> 00:34:32,319
Speaker 1: you listen to the last episode, you really like you

691
00:34:32,400 --> 00:34:35,080
Speaker 1: can tell like you can hear a difference, but I

692
00:34:35,080 --> 00:34:38,279
Speaker 1: can see a difference. Like so that's really dope because

693
00:34:38,280 --> 00:34:40,440
Speaker 1: I really didn't want you having sex with these colonizes

694
00:34:40,560 --> 00:34:44,960
Speaker 1: shall and they in open relationships, and like because your

695
00:34:45,040 --> 00:34:47,560
Speaker 1: first time, like even though you did it on your terms,

696
00:34:47,600 --> 00:34:49,359
Speaker 1: like I would ratter you lose your or I would

697
00:34:49,360 --> 00:34:52,440
Speaker 1: write anybody lose their virginy to somebody that makes them comfortable,

698
00:34:52,480 --> 00:34:55,280
Speaker 1: that makes them feel seen, even if it's for a minute,

699
00:34:55,320 --> 00:34:57,920
Speaker 1: Like you just always want to be protected in such

700
00:34:57,920 --> 00:34:58,920
Speaker 1: an intimate space.

701
00:34:59,480 --> 00:35:01,319
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, but I mean the only again, the only

702
00:35:01,320 --> 00:35:04,720
Speaker 2: reason I worked out is because, like I I literally

703
00:35:04,800 --> 00:35:07,560
Speaker 2: was like, you never know how I when we first

704
00:35:07,560 --> 00:35:09,640
Speaker 2: started talking, I was like, damn, he's cute. Like I

705
00:35:09,719 --> 00:35:10,480
Speaker 2: was like, I don't know that.

706
00:35:10,520 --> 00:35:10,840
Speaker 1: I don't know.

707
00:35:10,880 --> 00:35:13,840
Speaker 2: You probably is dating somebody. And then the more we

708
00:35:13,920 --> 00:35:16,200
Speaker 2: spent time talking together each other, I was like, you

709
00:35:16,200 --> 00:35:17,880
Speaker 2: know what, like let me put that in the patht

710
00:35:17,920 --> 00:35:19,799
Speaker 2: like I'm not gonna think too much about this. We're

711
00:35:19,840 --> 00:35:22,600
Speaker 2: just having a conversation, like I know what I'm worth,

712
00:35:22,719 --> 00:35:24,600
Speaker 2: Like I'm here on a trip. I'm just gonna have fun.

713
00:35:24,640 --> 00:35:27,440
Speaker 2: Like I wasn't, I wasn't being so down at myself.

714
00:35:27,480 --> 00:35:29,719
Speaker 2: I was just really just coming in with positivity and

715
00:35:29,719 --> 00:35:32,880
Speaker 2: that self love that I've gathered for the past years.

716
00:35:33,280 --> 00:35:34,960
Speaker 2: I was like, you know what, let's just go with

717
00:35:35,000 --> 00:35:38,040
Speaker 2: the flow. And then from that that confidence of making

718
00:35:38,080 --> 00:35:40,239
Speaker 2: conversation with him and like really much like oh, what

719
00:35:40,280 --> 00:35:42,480
Speaker 2: do you do for work? Like what's this? Like da

720
00:35:42,600 --> 00:35:44,600
Speaker 2: da da da, like having all these conversations with him.

721
00:35:44,680 --> 00:35:47,440
Speaker 2: That's the only reason why we ended up like hanging

722
00:35:47,440 --> 00:35:49,560
Speaker 2: out and doing all these things, because I think he

723
00:35:49,680 --> 00:35:51,800
Speaker 2: just felt that energy of me just being like, I

724
00:35:51,840 --> 00:35:54,160
Speaker 2: don't We're just having fun, Like it's not a big deal,

725
00:35:54,200 --> 00:35:57,479
Speaker 2: We're just having conversation. And I don't think that would

726
00:35:57,480 --> 00:36:01,960
Speaker 2: have happened if I just like was so negative and like, oh,

727
00:36:02,000 --> 00:36:03,440
Speaker 2: I don't know, I don't know if he likes me,

728
00:36:03,640 --> 00:36:06,120
Speaker 2: like stuff like that ever would have happened if it

729
00:36:06,200 --> 00:36:12,240
Speaker 2: was like that. Yeah, exactly, So I definitely, I definitely

730
00:36:12,280 --> 00:36:17,560
Speaker 2: it wasn't. Yeah. The sex really, it definitely. It definitely

731
00:36:17,600 --> 00:36:20,360
Speaker 2: showed me something afterwards where I was just kind of like, Okay,

732
00:36:20,880 --> 00:36:23,200
Speaker 2: after all these years of not having sex and I

733
00:36:23,239 --> 00:36:27,319
Speaker 2: finally met this person and then had sex and it

734
00:36:27,360 --> 00:36:29,200
Speaker 2: was it was It was great. It was like a

735
00:36:29,239 --> 00:36:33,239
Speaker 2: beautiful like thing. I don't every moment of it. I

736
00:36:33,239 --> 00:36:36,359
Speaker 2: still remember it was perfect, Like even the day after

737
00:36:36,440 --> 00:36:39,960
Speaker 2: it was really nice. I don't know everything that I

738
00:36:40,000 --> 00:36:41,839
Speaker 2: would have wanted for a first time. He really did

739
00:36:41,880 --> 00:36:47,160
Speaker 2: give me and more than I thought. And after that,

740
00:36:47,239 --> 00:36:49,080
Speaker 2: I was like, you know what, I know what I'm worth.

741
00:36:49,760 --> 00:36:52,759
Speaker 2: And I literally attracted this person who gave me all

742
00:36:52,800 --> 00:36:55,279
Speaker 2: these things that I would like in a relationship and

743
00:36:55,320 --> 00:36:57,560
Speaker 2: I'm just or just in like a sexual situation that

744
00:36:57,600 --> 00:37:00,400
Speaker 2: I'm like, I don't want less than this, and I

745
00:37:01,320 --> 00:37:04,000
Speaker 2: think like I was like, oh, like if I never

746
00:37:04,080 --> 00:37:06,440
Speaker 2: had before, I was like, oh, if I don't have sex,

747
00:37:06,520 --> 00:37:09,640
Speaker 2: like if I ever gonna find somebody that wants to

748
00:37:09,680 --> 00:37:11,319
Speaker 2: be with me, like and stuff like that. But now

749
00:37:11,320 --> 00:37:13,440
Speaker 2: that I had sex, I'm just kind of like, oh, well,

750
00:37:13,480 --> 00:37:15,600
Speaker 2: now I know I can be I'm I'm gonna be

751
00:37:16,000 --> 00:37:19,120
Speaker 2: more selective of knowing what I want. It definitely helps

752
00:37:19,280 --> 00:37:23,000
Speaker 2: with that mindset being like okay, like I don't need

753
00:37:23,040 --> 00:37:26,520
Speaker 2: this person like I already had sex, like right, but

754
00:37:26,719 --> 00:37:29,200
Speaker 2: forcing myself, I could be like, oh I like this

755
00:37:29,239 --> 00:37:31,040
Speaker 2: person because so and so, like I don't have to

756
00:37:31,080 --> 00:37:33,040
Speaker 2: think so much about the sex aspect. And I think

757
00:37:33,040 --> 00:37:34,840
Speaker 2: that was such a woombing presence.

758
00:37:34,480 --> 00:37:36,520
Speaker 1: Over so much pressure on you.

759
00:37:37,160 --> 00:37:38,719
Speaker 2: It puts so much pressure I would be going on

760
00:37:38,800 --> 00:37:40,640
Speaker 2: dates and I'm like, oh, the sex thing is gonna

761
00:37:40,680 --> 00:37:42,160
Speaker 2: come up. It's gonna come up at some point. I'm like,

762
00:37:42,160 --> 00:37:43,600
Speaker 2: do I really want to have sex with this person?

763
00:37:43,640 --> 00:37:46,440
Speaker 2: I'm like cool, but like I don't have that like

764
00:37:46,560 --> 00:37:51,360
Speaker 2: big spark with him. And that's basically most of my

765
00:37:51,440 --> 00:37:54,640
Speaker 2: situations I felt like in the past ended up being.

766
00:37:55,840 --> 00:37:59,240
Speaker 1: But yeah, yeah, So have your attitudes or feelings towards

767
00:37:59,280 --> 00:38:03,479
Speaker 1: sex and timacy involved or is it pretty much the same?

768
00:38:04,760 --> 00:38:08,040
Speaker 2: That's the same. I think I've mentioned this before. I

769
00:38:08,080 --> 00:38:11,800
Speaker 2: would say that, like, I don't know, I feel pretty

770
00:38:11,840 --> 00:38:14,920
Speaker 2: much the same about sex. Like I'm I'm still like

771
00:38:17,719 --> 00:38:20,719
Speaker 2: i am not like wary or anything, but I'm just

772
00:38:20,800 --> 00:38:22,319
Speaker 2: selective about who I have sex with.

773
00:38:22,719 --> 00:38:26,840
Speaker 1: Yeah, as you should, because yeah.

774
00:38:25,800 --> 00:38:29,200
Speaker 2: I just know some people, you know, like they you know,

775
00:38:29,400 --> 00:38:31,919
Speaker 2: trying to open up their sexual awakening and like they're

776
00:38:31,920 --> 00:38:34,920
Speaker 2: doing all these different new things and that's fine. I

777
00:38:35,000 --> 00:38:37,560
Speaker 2: just don't have the mental capacity to have I just

778
00:38:37,600 --> 00:38:40,239
Speaker 2: need I know from my person I know for me,

779
00:38:40,520 --> 00:38:42,640
Speaker 2: like I'm pretty much like, I just know, I've always

780
00:38:42,719 --> 00:38:45,480
Speaker 2: known how I am as a person from like dable ones.

781
00:38:45,600 --> 00:38:49,680
Speaker 1: I mean, you're an aquarius, so ye me, some you

782
00:38:50,360 --> 00:38:54,760
Speaker 1: aquarian women like I don't care how much we try,

783
00:38:54,920 --> 00:38:57,520
Speaker 1: like because I dated and I did my thing. But

784
00:38:58,360 --> 00:39:02,080
Speaker 1: every Aquarium woman that I know is a relationship type

785
00:39:02,080 --> 00:39:04,960
Speaker 1: of girl. She is a lover girl. She want to

786
00:39:04,960 --> 00:39:09,440
Speaker 1: be kept like, she want to get right beside her. Like, listen,

787
00:39:09,719 --> 00:39:14,080
Speaker 1: we got some celebrities that are Aquarius, and I just

788
00:39:14,120 --> 00:39:16,799
Speaker 1: be like, yo, I know it's all camp because all

789
00:39:16,880 --> 00:39:20,879
Speaker 1: Aquarian women, especially February Aquarius, we're all the same.

790
00:39:21,719 --> 00:39:25,520
Speaker 2: Yeah, that's just what a relationship just. I just can't.

791
00:39:25,760 --> 00:39:28,839
Speaker 2: I can't do the whole like being with different type

792
00:39:28,880 --> 00:39:31,000
Speaker 2: of people. It's just too much for me. I'm just like,

793
00:39:31,040 --> 00:39:32,719
Speaker 2: I just need the one person and I'm good. I

794
00:39:32,719 --> 00:39:37,839
Speaker 2: don't need multiple I'm fine. So yeah, that that never

795
00:39:37,880 --> 00:39:40,200
Speaker 2: really changed that after the whole sex thing, it didn't

796
00:39:40,200 --> 00:39:40,880
Speaker 2: really change for me.

797
00:39:42,560 --> 00:39:45,000
Speaker 1: But I will say that definitely date and get to

798
00:39:45,120 --> 00:39:48,520
Speaker 1: know different types of people, because I think that's the

799
00:39:48,560 --> 00:39:51,400
Speaker 1: best way that you can get to know yourself both

800
00:39:51,520 --> 00:39:56,640
Speaker 1: you know, sexually, mentally, Like different people bring out different things.

801
00:39:56,640 --> 00:39:59,040
Speaker 1: So as long as you have safe I would say,

802
00:39:59,040 --> 00:39:59,480
Speaker 1: have fun.

803
00:40:00,400 --> 00:40:04,319
Speaker 2: Yeah, No, for sure, for sure. I I'm definitely learning that,

804
00:40:05,520 --> 00:40:12,280
Speaker 2: especially you know dating that dating new people now, Okay, people.

805
00:40:15,760 --> 00:40:18,360
Speaker 1: Okay, are you looking for your next prospect?

806
00:40:20,280 --> 00:40:25,879
Speaker 2: Okay, that is that the same your new CrossFit presp Oh,

807
00:40:25,920 --> 00:40:31,520
Speaker 2: I need to CrossFit, like I like go workout. I

808
00:40:31,560 --> 00:40:36,120
Speaker 2: mean there there is one person and he's.

809
00:40:35,960 --> 00:40:38,120
Speaker 1: Cool with the twin bit.

810
00:40:40,480 --> 00:40:46,719
Speaker 2: Wow, he is good. He is nice, and he's good

811
00:40:46,719 --> 00:40:49,360
Speaker 2: to me, and he cheats with the respect that I deserve.

812
00:40:49,480 --> 00:40:53,360
Speaker 2: And that's the only thing I could ask for him.

813
00:40:53,640 --> 00:40:54,319
Speaker 2: I don't like him.

814
00:40:54,400 --> 00:40:57,880
Speaker 1: I like him, but okay I do.

815
00:40:58,000 --> 00:41:00,960
Speaker 2: This is a whole different conversation. I know, I know

816
00:41:01,040 --> 00:41:04,480
Speaker 2: what I like, and I know that he's giving me

817
00:41:04,520 --> 00:41:07,600
Speaker 2: the things that I would like, and I I very

818
00:41:07,680 --> 00:41:14,279
Speaker 2: much like realize that like me putting this other guy

819
00:41:14,360 --> 00:41:18,160
Speaker 2: on a pedestal, this London guy, someone that I really know.

820
00:41:18,760 --> 00:41:21,879
Speaker 2: It was very much like clouding, like how I see

821
00:41:21,880 --> 00:41:23,759
Speaker 2: this person that I'm with now and I'm just like,

822
00:41:23,800 --> 00:41:26,239
Speaker 2: I'm comparing them so much and it's not fair to

823
00:41:26,280 --> 00:41:28,960
Speaker 2: compare because no man is the same. And also I'm

824
00:41:28,960 --> 00:41:30,920
Speaker 2: comparing him to someone I had my first time with,

825
00:41:31,239 --> 00:41:33,719
Speaker 2: someone that was like so special to me that it's

826
00:41:33,760 --> 00:41:36,279
Speaker 2: like it was very much like, oh do I like

827
00:41:36,320 --> 00:41:38,200
Speaker 2: this person? I was like, I kept going back and

828
00:41:38,239 --> 00:41:40,080
Speaker 2: forth and I'm like I can't keep going back and

829
00:41:40,080 --> 00:41:41,520
Speaker 2: forth about someone if I like them, I.

830
00:41:41,560 --> 00:41:44,919
Speaker 1: Like them, right, I mean, but that's also natural too though,

831
00:41:44,960 --> 00:41:47,440
Speaker 1: because that's just the only person you can compare him to.

832
00:41:47,560 --> 00:41:49,920
Speaker 1: So I think that in life, when it comes to

833
00:41:50,000 --> 00:41:52,200
Speaker 1: sexual partners, you're going to be like, oh, I wish

834
00:41:52,239 --> 00:41:54,440
Speaker 1: he didn't like this person or I wish he had that.

835
00:41:54,719 --> 00:41:57,560
Speaker 2: Yeah, and that's another new thing that I'm learning with like,

836
00:41:57,719 --> 00:42:00,479
Speaker 2: you know, going meaning different partners like this the first

837
00:42:00,480 --> 00:42:03,120
Speaker 2: person I met after having sex for the first time.

838
00:42:03,480 --> 00:42:07,240
Speaker 2: So I'm always going to be comparing like this person

839
00:42:07,320 --> 00:42:10,000
Speaker 2: to the person I had sex with previously, because like

840
00:42:10,120 --> 00:42:12,480
Speaker 2: that was what I that's what I'm accustomed to, that's

841
00:42:12,520 --> 00:42:15,239
Speaker 2: what you know, that's what I know. So, like that's

842
00:42:15,239 --> 00:42:17,080
Speaker 2: the whole thing you were just saying, like you should

843
00:42:17,200 --> 00:42:19,960
Speaker 2: find out, you know, date other people to see what

844
00:42:19,960 --> 00:42:25,200
Speaker 2: you like. And currently that's what I'm doing. And it's

845
00:42:25,200 --> 00:42:28,600
Speaker 2: been it's nice to like have this other way I

846
00:42:28,640 --> 00:42:31,560
Speaker 2: think other person to be like, Okay, like I like

847
00:42:31,640 --> 00:42:33,279
Speaker 2: this or I don't like this, and I can say,

848
00:42:33,320 --> 00:42:35,120
Speaker 2: like what I like to this person because you know,

849
00:42:35,280 --> 00:42:39,839
Speaker 2: I was with the other person previously. So yeah, it's

850
00:42:39,840 --> 00:42:42,400
Speaker 2: been it's been good.

851
00:42:43,120 --> 00:42:45,200
Speaker 1: Yeah, I can't wait for you to have sex with

852
00:42:45,239 --> 00:42:49,560
Speaker 1: a black man. Oh, with a black man.

853
00:42:52,200 --> 00:43:17,799
Speaker 3: I'm just saying, I'm just I'm just saying a well

854
00:43:17,920 --> 00:43:20,120
Speaker 3: in doubt black man, like.

855
00:43:22,280 --> 00:43:27,280
Speaker 1: I can't wait to hear that stuff.

856
00:43:27,400 --> 00:43:29,759
Speaker 2: I don't know I mean that, guess. Yeah.

857
00:43:29,840 --> 00:43:33,279
Speaker 1: Sure, Well I'm super happy for you. I'm so like

858
00:43:33,320 --> 00:43:35,560
Speaker 1: I said, I can besides the whole sex part and

859
00:43:35,600 --> 00:43:38,600
Speaker 1: you losing your virginity on your own terms, I really

860
00:43:38,640 --> 00:43:41,960
Speaker 1: do see a difference with how you like treat yourself,

861
00:43:41,960 --> 00:43:45,440
Speaker 1: how you speak over yourself, and I'm happy that you

862
00:43:45,480 --> 00:43:47,960
Speaker 1: are in a great space when it comes to yourself love.

863
00:43:48,280 --> 00:43:49,560
Speaker 1: So kudos to you. Sis.

864
00:43:50,680 --> 00:43:54,640
Speaker 2: Yeah I did it without therapy, which I missed therapy,

865
00:43:54,719 --> 00:43:56,440
Speaker 2: but it was a struggle to get here.

866
00:43:57,040 --> 00:44:00,000
Speaker 1: Yeah yeah, yeah, I mean I'm pretty sure you guys

867
00:44:00,120 --> 00:44:04,440
Speaker 1: some type of tools from therapy that helped you or

868
00:44:04,480 --> 00:44:06,080
Speaker 1: did you not you didn't like your therapist?

869
00:44:06,520 --> 00:44:08,480
Speaker 2: No, I loved my therapist. I miss her. I wish

870
00:44:08,560 --> 00:44:11,320
Speaker 2: she could still be in my life, but I wouldn't

871
00:44:11,360 --> 00:44:14,040
Speaker 2: say I didn't. I feel like with therapy and not

872
00:44:14,040 --> 00:44:16,240
Speaker 2: saying therapy is a bad thing, Like, I do appreciate

873
00:44:16,239 --> 00:44:19,719
Speaker 2: that that were getting to a therapy conversation. But I

874
00:44:19,719 --> 00:44:23,840
Speaker 2: would say like with therapy, especially with my therapist, I

875
00:44:23,840 --> 00:44:25,600
Speaker 2: felt like I was which I think this is what

876
00:44:25,640 --> 00:44:27,800
Speaker 2: their purpose is. I felt like I was just mirroring

877
00:44:27,840 --> 00:44:30,359
Speaker 2: myself or at the end of the day, I would

878
00:44:30,360 --> 00:44:32,640
Speaker 2: just be talking and talking and talking, and then I

879
00:44:32,800 --> 00:44:36,040
Speaker 2: was solving my own problems because at the end of

880
00:44:36,080 --> 00:44:40,000
Speaker 2: the day, we all know what we're supposed to be

881
00:44:40,040 --> 00:44:43,200
Speaker 2: doing and we're gonna do it anyway. The therapist is

882
00:44:43,200 --> 00:44:45,839
Speaker 2: there just to like try to guide you to it,

883
00:44:46,160 --> 00:44:48,080
Speaker 2: guide you to it, but also.

884
00:44:47,920 --> 00:44:50,080
Speaker 1: The vie tools and resources to help you.

885
00:44:50,160 --> 00:44:52,920
Speaker 2: Along that journey. I am not a doing therapy at all.

886
00:44:53,000 --> 00:44:55,160
Speaker 2: I just think that I was doing most of that.

887
00:44:55,600 --> 00:44:58,640
Speaker 2: And I felt like not saying that I don't need therapy,

888
00:44:58,760 --> 00:45:01,560
Speaker 2: because everybody needs therapy, aways need somebody. But I felt

889
00:45:01,560 --> 00:45:07,520
Speaker 2: like I've been using the tools of like a positive

890
00:45:07,520 --> 00:45:11,200
Speaker 2: mindset and like guiding myself because of the tools, Like

891
00:45:11,320 --> 00:45:16,960
Speaker 2: you know, I feel like not saying I felt like

892
00:45:17,000 --> 00:45:21,279
Speaker 2: I was doing most of the labor, that most of

893
00:45:21,280 --> 00:45:21,680
Speaker 2: the work.

894
00:45:21,800 --> 00:45:23,400
Speaker 1: So in other words, why to hell, I'm paying you

895
00:45:23,440 --> 00:45:24,839
Speaker 1: and I'm doing most of the work.

896
00:45:24,920 --> 00:45:27,120
Speaker 2: Yeah, I felt like I was doing Like I felt

897
00:45:27,120 --> 00:45:29,560
Speaker 2: like you know she was very helpful, so sweet, but

898
00:45:29,640 --> 00:45:31,239
Speaker 2: I felt like at the end of the day, she

899
00:45:31,280 --> 00:45:34,680
Speaker 2: wasn't They can't tell you what to do. You have

900
00:45:34,760 --> 00:45:37,879
Speaker 2: to Oh, now I'm talking myself and I'm overthinker by trade,

901
00:45:37,920 --> 00:45:40,960
Speaker 2: so like I'm talking myself, giving myself every single scenario

902
00:45:41,239 --> 00:45:42,759
Speaker 2: and by the time I'm talking to her, she's like,

903
00:45:43,239 --> 00:45:45,719
Speaker 2: that's right, and I'm like, so what the hell I'm

904
00:45:45,760 --> 00:45:47,040
Speaker 2: I'm literally doing all this.

905
00:45:47,000 --> 00:45:51,400
Speaker 1: Work now that I think about it, I also feel like,

906
00:45:52,760 --> 00:45:55,560
Speaker 1: but I don't know my therapist. She's fucking amazing, Like

907
00:45:55,560 --> 00:45:57,799
Speaker 1: I haven't into her in a while, because I mean

908
00:45:57,880 --> 00:45:59,919
Speaker 1: I used to go to her like every other week

909
00:46:00,160 --> 00:46:02,560
Speaker 1: and I've been going to herd for like over five years.

910
00:46:02,719 --> 00:46:04,919
Speaker 1: So I did the work. But I used to feel

911
00:46:04,960 --> 00:46:07,040
Speaker 1: like that too, Like she used to definitely like guide me.

912
00:46:07,040 --> 00:46:08,640
Speaker 1: But I also feel like she was like an older

913
00:46:08,640 --> 00:46:10,680
Speaker 1: big because she's an older woman, so she'd be like

914
00:46:10,680 --> 00:46:13,279
Speaker 1: a big sister me and girl. She used to tell

915
00:46:13,320 --> 00:46:14,840
Speaker 1: me like how she tell me how it is, like

916
00:46:14,880 --> 00:46:16,040
Speaker 1: she's talking to me crazy.

917
00:46:16,440 --> 00:46:19,040
Speaker 2: I used to be like, I feel like I did

918
00:46:19,200 --> 00:46:21,319
Speaker 2: I want someone like that, But I guess, like, you know,

919
00:46:21,600 --> 00:46:23,759
Speaker 2: I get the point of therapy. You're not supposed to

920
00:46:23,840 --> 00:46:25,400
Speaker 2: tell you what to do because you're supposed to make

921
00:46:25,480 --> 00:46:27,480
Speaker 2: up your own mind yourself, Like, no one can change

922
00:46:27,800 --> 00:46:32,399
Speaker 2: your perspective besides you. But anyway, she was great. I'm

923
00:46:32,400 --> 00:46:34,800
Speaker 2: just saying at the end of the day, like I

924
00:46:34,920 --> 00:46:38,640
Speaker 2: very much, uh walked myself through a lot of different

925
00:46:38,640 --> 00:46:44,480
Speaker 2: scenarios and that's how I got here. Yeah, but yeah,

926
00:46:44,520 --> 00:46:46,920
Speaker 2: do you have any other if you questions for me?

927
00:46:47,280 --> 00:46:49,440
Speaker 1: No, that's pretty good. I mean you got you got

928
00:46:49,440 --> 00:46:54,640
Speaker 1: somewhere to go. Wait, did you play your mom?

929
00:46:54,920 --> 00:46:55,319
Speaker 2: I did?

930
00:46:55,440 --> 00:46:59,399
Speaker 1: I did? What did your mom say?

931
00:46:59,640 --> 00:47:02,760
Speaker 2: She's I literally was like I just told your at random.

932
00:47:02,800 --> 00:47:04,319
Speaker 2: I was like, oh, I didn't I told you that

933
00:47:04,360 --> 00:47:06,279
Speaker 2: I lost my virginity, right, And then she was like.

934
00:47:06,560 --> 00:47:13,000
Speaker 1: No, you didn't tell her. Yea, kids, I can't wait

935
00:47:13,040 --> 00:47:14,359
Speaker 1: to have a cap like you know, you didn't fucking

936
00:47:14,360 --> 00:47:16,160
Speaker 1: tell me that you lost your virginity to stop playing?

937
00:47:18,080 --> 00:47:18,600
Speaker 1: Like no.

938
00:47:19,080 --> 00:47:21,480
Speaker 2: And then because I because we kept talking about the guy.

939
00:47:21,600 --> 00:47:24,120
Speaker 2: She knew about the guy because as soon as I

940
00:47:24,160 --> 00:47:26,120
Speaker 2: got to London, She's like, oh, yeah, yourself a little

941
00:47:26,160 --> 00:47:29,719
Speaker 2: white boy, Like oh my god. I was like I

942
00:47:29,760 --> 00:47:32,600
Speaker 2: was like, I mean I just saw him, like whatever.

943
00:47:33,040 --> 00:47:36,440
Speaker 2: And then three moments that they'll try to call me,

944
00:47:36,520 --> 00:47:38,560
Speaker 2: but I was like out with him or whatnot, So

945
00:47:38,640 --> 00:47:40,759
Speaker 2: they knew about him. And then when I got home,

946
00:47:40,800 --> 00:47:42,759
Speaker 2: they were like, so, so what's going on. You're gonna

947
00:47:42,760 --> 00:47:44,000
Speaker 2: be with him? And I was like no. So then

948
00:47:44,040 --> 00:47:47,360
Speaker 2: eventually I was like, oh, so I told you, and

949
00:47:47,400 --> 00:47:49,640
Speaker 2: then she's like, no, you didn't. And then I was

950
00:47:49,680 --> 00:47:51,320
Speaker 2: like yep, and then I was like and I literally

951
00:47:51,320 --> 00:47:53,440
Speaker 2: looked at her. I literally said to her, I was like, mommy,

952
00:47:53,520 --> 00:47:56,080
Speaker 2: I'm twenty nine years old, Like do you swept me

953
00:47:56,160 --> 00:47:59,000
Speaker 2: to You're the one that wants me to get married

954
00:47:59,040 --> 00:48:00,800
Speaker 2: to a nice man one day? How do you expect

955
00:48:00,840 --> 00:48:04,160
Speaker 2: me to do all these things? I was like, I

956
00:48:04,719 --> 00:48:07,560
Speaker 2: don't understand what you expected to just come by a stork?

957
00:48:07,600 --> 00:48:09,000
Speaker 2: You know that's not true, Like, you know, I have

958
00:48:09,000 --> 00:48:11,120
Speaker 2: to have sex, you have two children, you know how

959
00:48:11,200 --> 00:48:13,560
Speaker 2: it works. So like I'm just like, I don't know what.

960
00:48:13,640 --> 00:48:16,600
Speaker 2: She was like, okay, okay, so how was it? And

961
00:48:16,640 --> 00:48:18,319
Speaker 2: I was like it was good. I was like he

962
00:48:18,400 --> 00:48:21,160
Speaker 2: was very nice, respectful, and she's like okay, okay, and

963
00:48:21,280 --> 00:48:23,719
Speaker 2: I was like, already got tested. That was another thing

964
00:48:23,719 --> 00:48:25,560
Speaker 2: that was what was it?

965
00:48:27,640 --> 00:48:30,680
Speaker 1: No, it's good. Listen get tested. No for sure, Like

966
00:48:31,880 --> 00:48:34,520
Speaker 1: I just I just made that laugh because I know

967
00:48:34,600 --> 00:48:37,239
Speaker 1: you overthink, because that's what Quarius do.

968
00:48:39,960 --> 00:48:42,640
Speaker 2: No, because when I got back, I got I I

969
00:48:42,680 --> 00:48:44,680
Speaker 2: thought I had an s CD. It was a yeast infection.

970
00:48:45,480 --> 00:48:46,759
Speaker 1: But did you pee after you came?

971
00:48:47,680 --> 00:48:47,759
Speaker 3: No?

972
00:48:47,840 --> 00:48:48,160
Speaker 1: I did.

973
00:48:48,280 --> 00:48:50,520
Speaker 2: No. I always made sure because I was told to

974
00:48:50,560 --> 00:48:53,000
Speaker 2: do that, like that made sure you're pee after you

975
00:48:53,080 --> 00:48:55,759
Speaker 2: have to pee. So I did. And then it was

976
00:48:55,800 --> 00:48:58,640
Speaker 2: more so the friction that it wasn't like the peeing.

977
00:48:58,680 --> 00:49:03,879
Speaker 2: It was the friction I think because when I had

978
00:49:04,040 --> 00:49:05,880
Speaker 2: period sex, we didn't use it.

979
00:49:05,960 --> 00:49:08,880
Speaker 1: Don't have listen, have period six with your man? Like,

980
00:49:10,239 --> 00:49:15,600
Speaker 1: come on, now, what we have? I periods six for everybody?

981
00:49:15,840 --> 00:49:19,080
Speaker 1: What do you mean don't have periods X for everybody?

982
00:49:19,360 --> 00:49:22,160
Speaker 2: No, I'm not. I'm saying that we didn't have. But

983
00:49:22,280 --> 00:49:23,680
Speaker 2: we didn't use lubricant for that one.

984
00:49:23,719 --> 00:49:25,640
Speaker 1: So I can irritate you.

985
00:49:25,680 --> 00:49:30,080
Speaker 2: No, it's very ny. It's very much irritated me. When

986
00:49:30,080 --> 00:49:32,480
Speaker 2: I got back, I thought something was wrong, so I

987
00:49:32,520 --> 00:49:33,640
Speaker 2: was like, oh God, oh God. I was like, I

988
00:49:33,640 --> 00:49:35,560
Speaker 2: hope nothing happened. And then I got tested and it

989
00:49:35,600 --> 00:49:36,720
Speaker 2: turned out to be a YaST infection.

990
00:49:37,000 --> 00:49:38,759
Speaker 1: It's supposed to come out, not in and out.

991
00:49:41,280 --> 00:49:43,440
Speaker 2: It was bad. I thought something that because I've never

992
00:49:43,480 --> 00:49:45,279
Speaker 2: had that before. So I was like, I was like,

993
00:49:45,280 --> 00:49:48,279
Speaker 2: oh god, oh god, right, and then it just ended

994
00:49:48,360 --> 00:49:52,400
Speaker 2: up being a used infection. So yeah, but anyway, that

995
00:49:52,400 --> 00:49:55,520
Speaker 2: that's why I got tested. Anyway, that's the reason why

996
00:49:55,520 --> 00:49:58,040
Speaker 2: I got tested. But it turns out I need to

997
00:49:58,040 --> 00:49:59,680
Speaker 2: figure out a better way to get tested because I

998
00:49:59,719 --> 00:50:01,880
Speaker 2: ended up spending like almost close to two hundred dollars

999
00:50:01,880 --> 00:50:02,600
Speaker 2: for my doctor.

1000
00:50:03,360 --> 00:50:06,000
Speaker 1: You ain't gotta share it, I no, I do.

1001
00:50:06,320 --> 00:50:07,719
Speaker 2: That's why I was like, what the hell? I was like,

1002
00:50:07,719 --> 00:50:09,840
Speaker 2: why would I get I don't know why I was

1003
00:50:09,960 --> 00:50:14,080
Speaker 2: charged that amount, to be honest, but getting tested no cost,

1004
00:50:14,320 --> 00:50:17,840
Speaker 2: don't cost nothing. Really, I don't know why they charged

1005
00:50:17,880 --> 00:50:19,520
Speaker 2: me that much. I'm gonna have to look into my

1006
00:50:19,600 --> 00:50:23,200
Speaker 2: insurance at some point. But it was very confusing. I

1007
00:50:23,239 --> 00:50:25,360
Speaker 2: was like, why did I get charged in amount?

1008
00:50:25,560 --> 00:50:26,480
Speaker 1: And what they test you for?

1009
00:50:26,640 --> 00:50:29,719
Speaker 2: Like all the disease they test me for, like the

1010
00:50:29,800 --> 00:50:36,640
Speaker 2: main STDs HPV I think was also included. And then yeah, and.

1011
00:50:36,640 --> 00:50:39,879
Speaker 1: Here's a little fun fact. When it comes to herpes,

1012
00:50:40,040 --> 00:50:43,080
Speaker 1: you have to request to get tested for it because

1013
00:50:43,200 --> 00:50:47,160
Speaker 1: herpes is no longer considered an STD is considered a

1014
00:50:47,200 --> 00:50:52,440
Speaker 1: skin infection, so that's why they don't test it. I mean, listen, infection.

1015
00:50:53,239 --> 00:50:57,600
Speaker 1: I mean because technically everybody has herpes. There's different types

1016
00:50:57,640 --> 00:51:00,440
Speaker 1: of herpees exactly. So some people have this string that

1017
00:51:00,640 --> 00:51:04,000
Speaker 1: just causes colde source and that some people have the

1018
00:51:04,560 --> 00:51:08,839
Speaker 1: string that causes the STD. So you have to get

1019
00:51:08,880 --> 00:51:11,200
Speaker 1: tested for that, but you have to ask for that because,

1020
00:51:11,239 --> 00:51:16,160
Speaker 1: like I said, yeah, they consider their skin infection interesting.

1021
00:51:16,640 --> 00:51:18,880
Speaker 2: Yeah, I mean I feel like most people have it.

1022
00:51:18,920 --> 00:51:21,400
Speaker 2: I just think some people it doesn't activate in others,

1023
00:51:22,200 --> 00:51:25,960
Speaker 2: right as people, right, because I'm like, at this point,

1024
00:51:26,000 --> 00:51:27,719
Speaker 2: it could be from skin to skin contact. I'm sure,

1025
00:51:27,719 --> 00:51:28,520
Speaker 2: and most people have that.

1026
00:51:28,440 --> 00:51:33,320
Speaker 1: At this point, right, No, seriously, Like it's like a

1027
00:51:33,360 --> 00:51:34,480
Speaker 1: lot of people don't know that. Like a lot of

1028
00:51:34,480 --> 00:51:36,680
Speaker 1: people think that they get tested for everything, and you

1029
00:51:36,719 --> 00:51:38,400
Speaker 1: get tested for everything except for that.

1030
00:51:38,480 --> 00:51:41,200
Speaker 2: So it's wild. I don't even think they tested you

1031
00:51:41,239 --> 00:51:41,680
Speaker 2: for HIV.

1032
00:51:43,080 --> 00:51:45,040
Speaker 1: No, I think they. I think they do. I think

1033
00:51:45,040 --> 00:51:46,400
Speaker 1: they asked you for it. But I also feel like

1034
00:51:46,480 --> 00:51:51,520
Speaker 1: HIV is so common now, so like yeah, compared to

1035
00:51:51,560 --> 00:51:52,920
Speaker 1: how it used to be back in the day, Like

1036
00:51:53,120 --> 00:51:55,799
Speaker 1: HIV used to be very taboo, very like oh my god,

1037
00:51:55,880 --> 00:51:58,000
Speaker 1: but I think now, I mean, and also people were

1038
00:51:58,080 --> 00:52:00,439
Speaker 1: dying off of it because they didn't have a cure

1039
00:52:00,520 --> 00:52:02,759
Speaker 1: and they didn't know what it was. And people also

1040
00:52:02,800 --> 00:52:05,480
Speaker 1: thought that it was a gay disease. But anybody can

1041
00:52:05,520 --> 00:52:08,200
Speaker 1: have HIV and if you take your medicine, you good

1042
00:52:08,239 --> 00:52:08,440
Speaker 1: to go.

1043
00:52:09,480 --> 00:52:11,000
Speaker 2: Yeah.

1044
00:52:11,080 --> 00:52:14,840
Speaker 1: So, but I think this wasn't amazing, not us educating

1045
00:52:14,840 --> 00:52:23,160
Speaker 1: telling my STDs right after therapy child like who are we?

1046
00:52:23,360 --> 00:52:28,640
Speaker 1: We are not not the faulcy. Okay, I did not

1047
00:52:28,760 --> 00:52:32,239
Speaker 1: know that at all? Right, Okay, do you have any

1048
00:52:32,320 --> 00:52:34,839
Speaker 1: questions for me before we leave?

1049
00:52:35,280 --> 00:52:38,279
Speaker 2: Yes, I was gonna ask you for you, like, when

1050
00:52:38,280 --> 00:52:41,959
Speaker 2: you're sucking, if you were to suck dick, do you feel.

1051
00:52:44,840 --> 00:52:48,360
Speaker 1: Well if you were trying to be all politically correct

1052
00:52:48,440 --> 00:52:50,239
Speaker 1: if you work, No, bitch, I suck dick. We all

1053
00:52:50,280 --> 00:52:50,719
Speaker 1: suck dick.

1054
00:52:50,840 --> 00:52:56,680
Speaker 2: Ship it. Okay, I'm saying, are you really afraid of

1055
00:52:56,760 --> 00:53:00,120
Speaker 2: like getting an STD from doing it?

1056
00:52:59,880 --> 00:53:03,359
Speaker 1: I mean, I think that as you get comfortable with

1057
00:53:03,800 --> 00:53:06,239
Speaker 1: having sex, because you're just starting, because I remember when

1058
00:53:06,239 --> 00:53:08,399
Speaker 1: I first had sex, I was very like, oh my God,

1059
00:53:08,480 --> 00:53:10,520
Speaker 1: like this and that because he was the only one

1060
00:53:10,520 --> 00:53:12,120
Speaker 1: that I was having sex with, and even though he

1061
00:53:12,200 --> 00:53:14,600
Speaker 1: was my boyfriend, I later found out that he was

1062
00:53:14,680 --> 00:53:17,440
Speaker 1: cheating on me, so I think that I mean, yeah,

1063
00:53:17,480 --> 00:53:19,439
Speaker 1: but it was kids, Like I mean.

1064
00:53:19,360 --> 00:53:22,239
Speaker 2: My friend, right, it was your first love.

1065
00:53:22,280 --> 00:53:24,520
Speaker 1: I know he was my first love for sure. Like

1066
00:53:24,560 --> 00:53:26,840
Speaker 1: I look like I have no regrets, like when I

1067
00:53:26,880 --> 00:53:30,759
Speaker 1: tell you it was like a movie, like it was perfect.

1068
00:53:31,239 --> 00:53:33,520
Speaker 1: But I don't really get I don't really have any

1069
00:53:33,520 --> 00:53:35,920
Speaker 1: concerns or anything, because I just don't suck everybody dick.

1070
00:53:35,960 --> 00:53:38,200
Speaker 1: I don't think that everybody should be able. I don't

1071
00:53:38,200 --> 00:53:40,279
Speaker 1: think that you should give that to everybody. And if

1072
00:53:40,320 --> 00:53:43,360
Speaker 1: you do right, and if you do, that's completely fine,

1073
00:53:43,400 --> 00:53:45,960
Speaker 1: that's not my back. Like I just feel like, you know,

1074
00:53:46,080 --> 00:53:47,680
Speaker 1: sucking dick is very intimate for me.

1075
00:53:48,160 --> 00:53:50,200
Speaker 2: So then he said that to people, I'm like, that's

1076
00:53:50,200 --> 00:53:52,279
Speaker 2: such a vulnerable thing to do, Like I don't know

1077
00:53:52,320 --> 00:53:56,520
Speaker 2: how clean you are right for me, I just don't know, like,

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Speaker 2: you know, I just feel like it is I'm putting

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Speaker 2: my mind.

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Speaker 1: But I also feel like that's a and not to

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00:54:02,760 --> 00:54:04,400
Speaker 1: no shade, no tea, Like if that's what you do

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Speaker 1: on the record, and that's completely fine, But I just

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Speaker 1: feel like for me, like, but I'm also a relationship

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Speaker 1: type of girl. So if I'm sucking dick. You my man,

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Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying, because I'm not self condom dick,

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Speaker 1: so I need skin dick. So I definitely feel like

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Speaker 1: as you no, cause you know, I'm pretty sure you

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Speaker 1: in your the beginning you suck. You did condom dick,

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Speaker 1: which is completely fine. But I think that right, I

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Speaker 1: think that once you build that trust with somebody and

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00:54:32,160 --> 00:54:34,279
Speaker 1: then like I'm really big on getting tested because once

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00:54:34,320 --> 00:54:36,560
Speaker 1: I'm in a relationship and it's me and you and

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00:54:36,640 --> 00:54:40,120
Speaker 1: we get tested, like I want to feel you. So

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Speaker 1: I think that over time, you'll get more comfortable with that.

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Speaker 1: But I don't think there's anything wrong with that, Like

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Speaker 1: everybody shouldn't get that. That's something that's like an added

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00:54:49,000 --> 00:54:50,560
Speaker 1: bonus exactly.

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Speaker 2: It's supposed to be a treat, like I've given you

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Speaker 2: an extra treat.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, Like my pussy is enough, nigga, make it work.

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Speaker 2: I literally told the person i'm with now, I was

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Speaker 2: like listen. I was like, I'm not going it's not

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Speaker 2: like I'm never going to do this, but like it's

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Speaker 2: just one of those things that I'm not doing to you.

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Speaker 1: But don't be boring.

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Speaker 2: Now I'm boring. I am. I am nothing but boring.

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Speaker 2: He is well satisfied.

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Speaker 1: Oh yeah, I had sex. No, whoa, this is already

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00:55:27,480 --> 00:55:31,640
Speaker 1: on two? Come on, I said, no, okay, I feel

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Speaker 1: like you're lying.

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Speaker 2: I didn't have texted them. I we he's he is

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Speaker 2: fine with the things I have done.

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Speaker 1: So what you do if you have sex and you

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Speaker 1: ain't sucking dick?

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Speaker 2: He is? He's okay, you the guy. Okay, so I'm

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Speaker 2: not sucking and I'm also not having text to them,

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Speaker 2: So you immedately say that.

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Speaker 1: I mean, it's only so much you gonna do with

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Speaker 1: a man like you checking him off at this age.

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Speaker 2: Okay, but no, what are you?

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00:56:12,800 --> 00:56:15,359
Speaker 1: I'm really curious? What are you doing?

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00:56:16,400 --> 00:56:17,520
Speaker 2: Stop for the podcast?

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Speaker 1: All right, she's gonna tell me off there, and I'm

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00:56:20,440 --> 00:56:22,440
Speaker 1: gonna come back y'all and tell y'all what she doing.

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Speaker 1: Let me keep my listeners out of the tea. Do

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Speaker 1: you have any more questions or anything? Oh my Joe, Okay,

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00:56:35,120 --> 00:56:37,440
Speaker 1: you know, maybe you can watch some porn from inspiration,

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Speaker 1: but also you have to be mindful when it comes

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Speaker 1: to porn. Porn is porn.

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Speaker 2: It's not real, and most of them get all of

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Speaker 2: them have to be tested.

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00:56:47,800 --> 00:56:49,880
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, I mean yeah, that's a job, of course.

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Speaker 1: But yeah, porn is not real for sure. I mean

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Speaker 1: some porn is real, but for the most part. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: but I think this was an amazing conversation. I think

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Speaker 1: that one thing that we can take for this is

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Speaker 1: just make sure you do things on your own terms.

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Speaker 1: So I am super happy for you and to the listeners.

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Speaker 1: If you have any questions, comments of concerns, please make

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Speaker 1: sure to email me at Hello at thepgpodcast dot com.

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Speaker 1: Please make sure to follow me on Instagram and at

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Speaker 1: YouTube at the Professional Homegirl. And last but not least,

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Speaker 1: please don't forget to read my love letters at dayalldone

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Speaker 1: dot com. Until next time, everyone later, say bye, oh bye.

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