WEBVTT - Rooms Of Experience - Act 3 

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<v Speaker 1>As the case bills momentum, so do Dana's doubts. Every

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<v Speaker 1>piece of evidence paints a different picture than the one

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<v Speaker 1>in her file, a mother who gave everything, who could

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<v Speaker 1>have hidden her crime but didn't, who spent decades trying

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<v Speaker 1>to protect her son from a system that repeatedly failed

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<v Speaker 1>families like hers. Dana speaks with witnesses who've lived the

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<v Speaker 1>same story, caregivers of disabled family members, experts who've seen

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<v Speaker 1>institutional abuse firsthand. These aren't just character witnesses for Ada.

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<v Speaker 1>They're witnesses to a broken system, a kind of system

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<v Speaker 1>Ada feared would swallow her son the moment she was gone.

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<v Speaker 1>Act three, Interior courtroom, Day Corta's in session. Ada on

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<v Speaker 1>the stand to resume her testimony.

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<v Speaker 2>Ada, in your own words, can you tell us what

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<v Speaker 2>happened the night of April twenty fourth of this year.

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<v Speaker 3>It had been a good day, as close to perfect

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<v Speaker 3>a day as could get for us, no miltdowns, no outbursts.

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<v Speaker 3>The rain had held off till evening, so Teddy was

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<v Speaker 3>able to lie in the garden, feel the sun on

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<v Speaker 3>his face.

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<v Speaker 1>Insert flashback montage. Teddy lies on his back in the garden.

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<v Speaker 1>Ada watches him from the doorway. Ada runs a bath

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<v Speaker 1>for Teddy hours bubble bath into the tub. Teddy enters

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<v Speaker 1>the bathroom. He wears a robe. Ada brings Teddy a

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<v Speaker 1>dish of ice cream. Teddy gets into bed, Ada tucks

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<v Speaker 1>him in, sits next to him, checks her watch. Ada

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<v Speaker 1>picks up a cloth hood from the nightstand. Ada connects

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<v Speaker 1>a tube to the helium tank, turns a valve on

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<v Speaker 1>the tank. Ada sits on the bed with Teddy, holds

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<v Speaker 1>his hand. Ada checks Teddy's pulse, strokes his hair, and

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<v Speaker 1>kisses his cheek. Then lays her head on his chest

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<v Speaker 1>and sobs. Ada removes the yellow balloon from a package

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<v Speaker 1>and uses the tank to fill it. Back to scene.

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<v Speaker 2>Ada, by your own admission, you're telling us you took

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<v Speaker 2>your son's life.

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<v Speaker 4>Why did you do it?

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<v Speaker 3>About a year ago, I read an article about a

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<v Speaker 3>woman who lived with her eighty four year old mother,

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<v Speaker 3>just the two of them. The woman was deaf, blind,

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<v Speaker 3>and mentally disabled. Her mother had taken care of her

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<v Speaker 3>for so many years, just like Teddy and me. When

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<v Speaker 3>the mother died at home, the woman crawled around on

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<v Speaker 3>the floor over her mother's dead body, looking.

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<v Speaker 4>For food and water.

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<v Speaker 3>Before before she was finally found a week later. She

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<v Speaker 3>was so traumatized they had to put her into the hospital.

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<v Speaker 3>All I could think was that was that that could

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<v Speaker 3>have been Teddy, all alone, unable to even walk out

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<v Speaker 3>the front door for help.

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<v Speaker 2>But Ada, there are State Hospital's residential living facilities. Why

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<v Speaker 2>didn't you just find somewhere else for him to go?

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<v Speaker 3>Sixty five years Teddy lived in that house with me.

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<v Speaker 3>He knew every spot where the floor creaked, exactly how

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<v Speaker 3>long it took the toaster to pop up when it

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<v Speaker 3>was time to plant the strawberries. That was his home,

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<v Speaker 3>his sanctuary. It was where he belonged, where he felt secure,

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<v Speaker 3>even happy. How could I take all that away from him?

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<v Speaker 1>Her voice breaks, but she keeps going.

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<v Speaker 3>Where else in the world would they let him play

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<v Speaker 3>piano at two o'clock in the morning if he woke

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<v Speaker 3>up from a bad dream. Where would they let him

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<v Speaker 3>lie in the dirt and take comfort from the earth.

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<v Speaker 4>Where would they.

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<v Speaker 3>Hold him and stroke his hair and tell him how

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<v Speaker 3>beautiful he was, how truly beautiful?

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<v Speaker 4>Where would he be safe?

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<v Speaker 3>Where?

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<v Speaker 1>Just where is that place? A jerror fumbles for a tissue.

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<v Speaker 1>Alexis waits a moment before continuing.

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<v Speaker 2>Ada, did you also plan to take your own life

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<v Speaker 2>that day?

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<v Speaker 3>I did.

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<v Speaker 1>What stopped you.

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<v Speaker 3>I had to tell our story.

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<v Speaker 5>I couldn't bear.

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<v Speaker 3>Anyone thinking I took my son's life because I didn't

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<v Speaker 3>love him, or because I thought he was a burden,

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<v Speaker 3>or I was tired of taking care of him, even

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<v Speaker 3>when I was exhausted and sad and I couldn't understand

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<v Speaker 3>what Teddy needed. Never, for a moment did I ever

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<v Speaker 3>wish he wasn't my son.

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<v Speaker 1>Tears fall freely down her face.

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<v Speaker 3>I'm not saying I never wished he didn't have autism.

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<v Speaker 3>I wish that a lot, especially when he was young.

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<v Speaker 3>It's only human to feel that way. You never expect

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<v Speaker 3>you to have a child with a disability. It catches

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<v Speaker 3>you completely off guard, changes the way you think about everything.

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<v Speaker 1>I hated watching Teddy's struggle.

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<v Speaker 3>He had so much to offer the world and would

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<v Speaker 3>never get the chance.

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<v Speaker 4>It made me so angry.

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<v Speaker 3>It was so unfair. But having Teddy in my life,

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<v Speaker 3>even with autism, it's always what I would choose over

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<v Speaker 3>never having had him at all. How empty my life

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<v Speaker 3>would have been without him.

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<v Speaker 1>Ada looks out into the gallery. In the front row,

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<v Speaker 1>she sees her twenty four year old self with infant

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<v Speaker 1>Teddy in her arms as she coos to him and

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<v Speaker 1>lulls him to sleep and brings him to her chest,

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<v Speaker 1>kisses the top of his head, breathes deep in contentment.

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<v Speaker 1>Alexa steps closer to Ada, puts her hand on the

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<v Speaker 1>rail of the witness box.

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<v Speaker 2>Ada, On the day you took your son's life, did

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<v Speaker 2>you believe at that moment what you were doing was wrong?

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<v Speaker 6>No?

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<v Speaker 1>Thank you, Ada, No more questions, your witness. She walks

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<v Speaker 1>back to her seat. Dana stands, straightened her jacket, steps

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<v Speaker 1>around to the front of the prosecution table.

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<v Speaker 7>Just so we're perfectly clear, missus Wells, did you kill

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<v Speaker 7>your son?

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<v Speaker 3>Yes?

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<v Speaker 5>And do you believe killing a person is wrong.

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<v Speaker 3>Under most circumstances, Yes.

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<v Speaker 7>But not in your circumstance because you didn't think your

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<v Speaker 7>son could adapt to living anywhere else, a theory which you.

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<v Speaker 5>Could have easily tested while he was still.

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<v Speaker 7>Alive, but you chose not to without exploring any other options.

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<v Speaker 7>You planned and carried out the manner of your son's death.

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<v Speaker 7>You murdered your son because you alone decided that your

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<v Speaker 7>son's life would be worthless without She.

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<v Speaker 1>Exterior at his house day flashback nineteen ninety, Ada in

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<v Speaker 1>her mid fifties, stands on the front porch, the door

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<v Speaker 1>wide open in the early morning. The air is still,

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<v Speaker 1>the street quiet. She motions with her hand, Oh.

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<v Speaker 3>Come, come, look, Teddy, it's so beautiful after the rain.

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<v Speaker 1>No movement from inside.

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<v Speaker 3>Please, Teddy, I promise nothing bad will happen.

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<v Speaker 4>You're all grown up now you can do it.

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<v Speaker 1>Teddy, around thirty years old, appears in the doorframe.

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<v Speaker 5>That's it.

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<v Speaker 3>Come see the red bud tree. It's bursting with flowers.

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<v Speaker 1>She points towards the front yard. Teddy peers out in curiosity,

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<v Speaker 1>but does not step outside.

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<v Speaker 3>Please Teddy, just one step. I promise you'll be safe.

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<v Speaker 3>I'll be right here with you always.

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<v Speaker 1>Teddy hesitates, slides one foot a few inches forward. Suddenly

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<v Speaker 1>the stillness is broken by the thudt out of a

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<v Speaker 1>newspaper against the wooden port railing. A boy on a

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<v Speaker 1>bicycle whizzes down the sidewalk. A second later, an avalanche

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<v Speaker 1>of sounds of irregular day, the wail of a siren,

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<v Speaker 1>a barking dog, a door slams, a baby cries. Teddy

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<v Speaker 1>lets a cry of distress, claps his hands over his ears.

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<v Speaker 1>He sinks to the floor, rocks back and forth. Ada

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<v Speaker 1>rushes inside interior Ada's front hallway continuous. Ada quickly but

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<v Speaker 1>softly closes the door behind her. Teddy, still on the floor,

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<v Speaker 1>hits the back of his head against the wall. His

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<v Speaker 1>cries of distress continue. Ada, in tears, runs past him,

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<v Speaker 1>returns a second later with a well worn but soft

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<v Speaker 1>plush blanket. She slides down next to Teddy, rubs the

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<v Speaker 1>blanket on his arm and cheek.

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<v Speaker 3>I am so sorry. I'm so sorry.

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<v Speaker 4>I won't ever ask.

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<v Speaker 3>You that again. I'm so sorry, Teddy, I should have

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<v Speaker 3>known better. Please forgive me. I'm sorry.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh, I'm so sorry. She rocks with him as she

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<v Speaker 1>soothes him with a blanket. Interior courtroom, day Ada looks out,

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<v Speaker 1>lost in thought and turns directly to Dana.

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<v Speaker 3>All I can say to you, who is Everything I've

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<v Speaker 3>done in the past sixty five years was what I

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<v Speaker 3>believed to be in the best interest of my son

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<v Speaker 3>for our situation.

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<v Speaker 4>No one in this room can truly know what that was.

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<v Speaker 3>I realize, though, that you still have to judge me

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<v Speaker 3>from a place of law or maybe your own personal feelings,

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<v Speaker 3>because that's what keeps order and helps you make sense

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<v Speaker 3>of something like this. I never thought Teddy's life had

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<v Speaker 3>any less worth, any less meaning, because he had autism.

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<v Speaker 3>What I it wounded me in a way I could

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<v Speaker 3>never make you understand, but I wouldn't change it.

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<v Speaker 4>It's all right.

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<v Speaker 3>You do what you need to do. It doesn't matter

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<v Speaker 3>what happens to me. I just want you to see

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<v Speaker 3>we all have our own peace to make in this world,

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<v Speaker 3>however we may find it.

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<v Speaker 1>Dana is silent.

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<v Speaker 5>Counselor no further questions.

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<v Speaker 4>The defense rests, your honor.

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<v Speaker 8>Does the prosecution wish to call any rebuttal witnesses, Yes,

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<v Speaker 8>your honor.

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<v Speaker 1>Then we'll resume after lunch. Dismissed. Raps are gavel.

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<v Speaker 5>By the way I think.

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<v Speaker 8>Them.

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<v Speaker 9>When you're ready.

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<v Speaker 3>I just didn't want to be discussing, okay.

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<v Speaker 1>Interior Courthouse, Attorney conference room day. Gina opens a bag,

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<v Speaker 1>takes out food. Alexa sits at the table, reviews notes.

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<v Speaker 1>Ada stands at the window, looks down on the crowd

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<v Speaker 1>of demonstrators below.

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<v Speaker 3>All those years, barely anyone knew I even existed.

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<v Speaker 4>Now, look at all the fuss you made people think, Ada,

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<v Speaker 4>that's never a bad thing.

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<v Speaker 3>Did I ever tell you about Teddy's art.

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<v Speaker 4>The drawings in his room.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh, to most people, they probably look like nonsense, but

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<v Speaker 3>they were his way of expressing himself. They represent how

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<v Speaker 3>he saw the world and how he saw himself in it.

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<v Speaker 3>I understood that every time something upset him, he would draw.

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<v Speaker 3>It's how he worked through it.

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<v Speaker 1>The chance of the protests wafted up. Ada gazes out

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<v Speaker 1>squints against the bright sun.

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<v Speaker 3>But no amount of drawing could ever make the world

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<v Speaker 3>a safe place for him. I did try, but I

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<v Speaker 3>couldn't make it safe for him either. So making our

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<v Speaker 3>home his sanctuary was all I could think to do.

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<v Speaker 1>She coughs, gets louder and more insistent. Gina and Alexis

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<v Speaker 1>exchange glances. Gina brings Ada a box of tissue.

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<v Speaker 4>Here, Ada, why don't you come sit down, have something

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<v Speaker 4>cold to drink.

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<v Speaker 1>She ushers Ada over to the table in the courtroom.

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<v Speaker 1>Day court is back in session.

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<v Speaker 5>The state calls doctor Monique Ogden.

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<v Speaker 1>Doctor Ogden late forties, stylish appearance, walks with authority, enters

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<v Speaker 1>the courtroom, sits in the witness box. The bailiff approaches,

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<v Speaker 1>Please raise your right hand, do you square refirm to

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<v Speaker 1>tell the truth?

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<v Speaker 4>The whole truth and nothing but the truth.

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<v Speaker 7>I do your honor, Doctor Ogden is testifying.

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<v Speaker 5>As an expert in the field of autism.

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<v Speaker 8>Please state your qualifications, Doctor Ogden.

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<v Speaker 5>Certainly your honor.

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<v Speaker 6>I hold a PhD in childhood development with a postgraduate

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<v Speaker 6>work at Harvard School of Medicine. My educational expertise is

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<v Speaker 6>in the areas of developmental psychology and developmental psychopathology. I

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<v Speaker 6>am the director of the Autism Clinic at the University

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<v Speaker 6>of California, Santa Barbara and former co director of the

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<v Speaker 6>Marcus Autism Neurodevelopment Center in Atlanta. Additionally, I am a

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<v Speaker 6>professor of child in adolescent Psychiatry. I have worked with

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<v Speaker 6>children with autism and their families for almost thirty years.

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<v Speaker 8>The court is satisfied, doctor Ogden, has I've met the

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<v Speaker 8>requirements of Rule seven two. Any objections from the defense, No,

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<v Speaker 8>your honor, You may proceed.

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<v Speaker 5>Doctor Ogden.

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<v Speaker 7>Kid a person with severe autism, such as Theodore Wells,

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<v Speaker 7>learn to adapt to a new environment after spending his

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<v Speaker 7>entire life in the same house with the same caretaker.

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<v Speaker 6>Yes he could, It would take some special consideration. Someone

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<v Speaker 6>to get to know him and how he communicates. Before

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<v Speaker 6>his mother was gone, along with recreating a similar environment

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<v Speaker 6>and routine in his new living space. But it most

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<v Speaker 6>certainly could be done. People with low functioning autism navigate

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<v Speaker 6>their world almost like a movie with no sound trick.

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<v Speaker 6>They don't want their routine broken because they are unsure

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<v Speaker 6>how to restore the track. It would take some time,

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<v Speaker 6>but with intense therapy, I'm sure it would not only

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<v Speaker 6>be possible, but a highly successful transition in which he

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<v Speaker 6>could thrive.

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<v Speaker 5>Just so I have it straight.

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<v Speaker 7>In your expert opinion as it relates to this case,

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<v Speaker 7>Theodore Wells could have adjusted to living in a new

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<v Speaker 7>home without his mother as this caretaker and lived in

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<v Speaker 7>equally fulfilling.

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<v Speaker 6>Life in my expert opinion, yes, thank you, doctor Ogden,

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<v Speaker 6>your witness.

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<v Speaker 1>Alexis smiles in anticipation. Dana returns to her table while

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<v Speaker 1>Alexis remains seated.

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<v Speaker 2>Doctor Ogden, do you work with many older autism patients?

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<v Speaker 5>I have worked with them.

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<v Speaker 2>Yes, the keyword there was many. Almost all of your

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<v Speaker 2>work is with children, isn't that correct?

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<v Speaker 5>Children and teenagers.

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<v Speaker 4>Yes, you don't have a child with autism, do you?

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<v Speaker 10>No?

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<v Speaker 2>I do not have you personally as an autism expert. Ever,

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<v Speaker 2>come across a case such as this, a man with

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<v Speaker 2>severe autism being removed from his only home, his only

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<v Speaker 2>family member, after six and a half decades and continuing

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<v Speaker 2>to thrive.

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<v Speaker 6>I don't have any personal experience with the case exactly

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<v Speaker 6>like this.

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<v Speaker 4>Have any of your colleagues, I'm not certain. I would

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<v Speaker 4>have to check convenient.

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<v Speaker 2>How about any case studies read any of those sixty

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<v Speaker 2>five years, same home, same caretaker, moved him and he

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<v Speaker 2>was fine, anything like that.

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<v Speaker 6>There have been some similar situations.

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<v Speaker 4>Really similar.

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<v Speaker 6>How I've worked with adults with autism after they were

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<v Speaker 6>removed from their family homes.

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<v Speaker 4>You have how old were these adults?

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<v Speaker 6>To my recollection, the oldest was twenty three.

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<v Speaker 1>Dana bites the inside of her lip. A low murmur

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<v Speaker 1>is heard through the courtroom.

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<v Speaker 4>Twenty three. That's not quite sixty five, is it?

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<v Speaker 2>Did these patients of yours still have living family members, parents, siblings,

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<v Speaker 2>loved ones to visit, monitor their care, take them home

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<v Speaker 2>for visits and holidays.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm not sure.

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<v Speaker 4>You're not sure. Weren't these your patients?

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<v Speaker 5>Doctor objection asked and answered.

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<v Speaker 4>I'll allow it.

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<v Speaker 6>Please answer the question, doctor, reflecting back, Yes, they had

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<v Speaker 6>family who visited, so.

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<v Speaker 2>Even with all your expertise, you can't say with any

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<v Speaker 2>degree of certainty that Teddy Wells would have been just fine.

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<v Speaker 2>You can't say that he wouldn't have been utterly traumatized

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<v Speaker 2>by the sudden upheaval in his life, unable to respond

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<v Speaker 2>or communicate.

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<v Speaker 4>In any meaningful way.

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<v Speaker 2>You don't know, because you've never come across a single

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<v Speaker 2>case study even remotely like Teddy's.

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<v Speaker 4>Have you?

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<v Speaker 6>I can't say definitively, but based.

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<v Speaker 1>On Alexa stands, leans across the table and interrupts the

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<v Speaker 1>doctor with force.

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<v Speaker 4>Just answer the question yes or no?

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<v Speaker 2>Doctor, do you have any actual experience with the case

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<v Speaker 2>as extreme as this?

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<v Speaker 1>No, Alexis gives a dismissive wave of her hand sits

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<v Speaker 1>back in her seat.

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<v Speaker 4>That's what I thought. I'm through with this witness redirect.

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<v Speaker 8>No, your honor, you may step down, doctor Argudon.

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<v Speaker 1>She quickly leaves the courtroom. Dana does not look at her.

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<v Speaker 8>Does the State wish to call any further witnesses?

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<v Speaker 5>The State rests, your honor.

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<v Speaker 8>Courts journed. We will reconvene at nine am tomorrow for

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<v Speaker 8>closing arguments.

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<v Speaker 1>The judge wraps her gavel. People gather their belongings and

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<v Speaker 1>file out. The noise level rises. Dana stays seated. Carter

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<v Speaker 1>speaks to her, but she isn't listening. She notices Ada

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<v Speaker 1>looking at her and holds her gaze and turns away

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<v Speaker 1>when she realizes Carter is talking. Exterior Dana's car moving night.

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<v Speaker 1>Dana drives slowly down a residential street. She stops in

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<v Speaker 1>front of Ada's house turns off her lights. Interior Dana's

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<v Speaker 1>car night. Dana stares at Ada's house. Light shines from

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<v Speaker 1>a front window. Ada appears at the window, looks out

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<v Speaker 1>into the night. The house goes dark. Dana sits for

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<v Speaker 1>a moment and drives away. Interior cor day. The room

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<v Speaker 1>is packed, everyone in position except the judge. People fan themselves.

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<v Speaker 1>Dana dabs discreetly at her forehead and upper lip with

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<v Speaker 1>a tissue. Ada does not look well. The judge enters

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<v Speaker 1>takes her seat.

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<v Speaker 4>All rise, the cord is noun such.

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<v Speaker 1>Everyone rises.

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<v Speaker 8>Good morning, he settled. As there are no more witnesses,

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<v Speaker 8>we will proceed to closing statements, beginning with the prosecution.

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<v Speaker 8>Are you ready to begin, missus jeffries.

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<v Speaker 1>Dana remains standing as the rest of the room sits.

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<v Speaker 5>Yes, Your honor.

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<v Speaker 1>Dana turns to address the jury.

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<v Speaker 7>Ada Wells committed murder. She told you so, right here

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<v Speaker 7>in this very courtroom. She searched the internet, gathered the

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<v Speaker 7>equipment she needed, selected the day, and killed her son.

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<v Speaker 7>And no matter what the reasoning was behind it, no

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<v Speaker 7>matter how sorry you may feel for her and what

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<v Speaker 7>she has been through in her life, remember that she

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<v Speaker 7>had a choice, and that choice was murder her. When

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<v Speaker 7>you cut through all the emotion, all the heartbreak, you're

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<v Speaker 7>still left with murder, plain and simple, and that is

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<v Speaker 7>what you must find Ada Wells guilty of. Thank you.

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<v Speaker 1>She steps back as Alexis comes around the defense table.

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<v Speaker 2>Some Buddhist teachings justify taking human life on the grounds

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<v Speaker 2>of compassion in dire circumstance. One text says taking life

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<v Speaker 2>is unreprehensible when it develops from a virtuous thought.

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<v Speaker 4>Ada's only thought was.

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<v Speaker 2>That her son should die at peace, in the only

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<v Speaker 2>place and what the only person he'd ever known, comforted

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<v Speaker 2>and secured in her love, rather than lost and confused

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<v Speaker 2>alone amongst strangers. There was no malice, no deceit, no

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<v Speaker 2>attempt to cover up what she had done, because there

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<v Speaker 2>was no crime committed on the day Ada took Teddy's life,

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<v Speaker 2>she believed fully and completely that what she was doing

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<v Speaker 2>was not wrong. In her mind, she was taking care

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<v Speaker 2>of her son, just as she always had. John Steinbeck wrote,

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<v Speaker 2>there are those among us who live in rooms of

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<v Speaker 2>experience that you and I can never enter.

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<v Speaker 4>Ada Wells lived with her son in such.

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<v Speaker 2>A room, a room where none of us have ever been,

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<v Speaker 2>for sixty five years, not because she had to, not

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<v Speaker 2>out of obligation, but out of love. And her final

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<v Speaker 2>act for her son was out of love too.

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<v Speaker 1>She takes a moment to let that connect, returns to

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<v Speaker 1>her seat.

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<v Speaker 5>Ever rebuttal your honor, the.

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<v Speaker 1>Judge nod Stana Stands steps right up to the journey.

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<v Speaker 7>I don't think anyone here doubts that Ada Wells loved

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<v Speaker 7>her son.

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<v Speaker 5>That's not in question.

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<v Speaker 7>But Ada Wells isn't on trial for loving her son.

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<v Speaker 7>She is on trial for killing him. Ado Wells thought

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<v Speaker 7>her son would be better off dead if she were

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<v Speaker 7>not around to take care of him.

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<v Speaker 5>But that was not her decision to make.

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<v Speaker 1>Sorry, Ada Wells is on trial for not loving.

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<v Speaker 7>For great I don't think anyone here doubts that Aida

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<v Speaker 7>Wells loved her son.

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<v Speaker 5>That is not in question.

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<v Speaker 7>But Ada Wells isn't on trial for not loving her son.

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<v Speaker 7>She's on trial.

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<v Speaker 5>For killing him.

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<v Speaker 7>Adowell thought her son would be better off dead if

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<v Speaker 7>she were not around to take care of him, but

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<v Speaker 7>that was not her decision to make. Missus Wells had

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<v Speaker 7>cared for her son all by herself, and maybe that

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<v Speaker 7>was part.

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<v Speaker 5>Of the problem.

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<v Speaker 7>Maybe by not seeking out others to share her burden,

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<v Speaker 7>she in fact created the very situation she felt she

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<v Speaker 7>only had one solution, killing her own son. Missus Wells

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<v Speaker 7>told us that there was no one else, no family,

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<v Speaker 7>no one who would care for Teddy as she did.

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<v Speaker 7>And you know, and maybe in the first few years

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<v Speaker 7>of Teddy's life that was true, But now there are

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<v Speaker 7>numerous organizations, agencies, schools, therapy centers, assisted living facilities. Any

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<v Speaker 7>number of these places would have taken Teddy in, given

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<v Speaker 7>him the care and attention he needed, and even given

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<v Speaker 7>her some of her life back in the process. Sadly,

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<v Speaker 7>Ada Wells had no trust, no faith in these systems

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<v Speaker 7>based on what her intuition.

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<v Speaker 1>Sweeps her arm in AIDA's direction.

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<v Speaker 7>And that gave her the right to decide her own

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<v Speaker 7>child would be better off dead and perhaps if she

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<v Speaker 7>had just let go of struggling alone and simply asked

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<v Speaker 7>for help, none of us would.

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<v Speaker 5>Be here today.

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<v Speaker 7>I have no doubt it was frightening for missus Wells

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<v Speaker 7>to think of leaving her son to the care of strangers.

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<v Speaker 5>But where then, do we draw the line?

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<v Speaker 7>At what point do we make the distinction of whether

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<v Speaker 7>or not a life is worth living?

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<v Speaker 5>Worth continuing?

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<v Speaker 1>Takes a quick breath, keeps going.

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<v Speaker 7>We talk about quality of life as though it takes

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<v Speaker 7>a certain amount of it for life to be justified.

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<v Speaker 7>Teddy Wells had music, he had art, he had his garden,

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<v Speaker 7>and by AIDA's own account.

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<v Speaker 5>He was happy.

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<v Speaker 7>This is a life that had value. Don't you think

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<v Speaker 7>if Teddy could have spoken, he would have said the same?

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<v Speaker 5>Be his voice and return with the verdict of guilty.

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<v Speaker 1>She sits down the judge's instructions to the jury. Drone

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<v Speaker 1>in the background. Exterior Dana's office.

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<v Speaker 4>Day.

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<v Speaker 1>Dana stands on the doorway, glances around at her books,

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<v Speaker 1>her degree, her pictures. She walks to her desk, opens

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<v Speaker 1>a bottom drawer, sifts her hand through the collection of

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<v Speaker 1>unopened letters. Interior Dana's home office.

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<v Speaker 3>Night.

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<v Speaker 1>Dana sits at her desk in near darkness, still in

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<v Speaker 1>work clothes, but for once they are wrinkled and in disarray.

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<v Speaker 1>A spot of light from a lamp illuminates one of

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<v Speaker 1>the colored envelopes, open with a letter and small picture

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<v Speaker 1>next to it. Ethan pokes his head in. It's late.

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<v Speaker 1>Dana gathers up the letter and the picture. Yeah, I'll

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<v Speaker 1>be there in a little bit.

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<v Speaker 9>Okay, Dana, Yes, you could talk to me. There isn't

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<v Speaker 9>anything you could tell me that will make me love

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<v Speaker 9>you less. You're safe with me, you know that, right,

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<v Speaker 9>Sometimes you just have to let go and trust someone.

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<v Speaker 1>She does not respond. He waits, gives a small sigh,

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<v Speaker 1>walks away. She lifts her hand off the picture, looks

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<v Speaker 1>down at it. Interior Dana's home office day. Dana sits

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<v Speaker 1>in the same spot as the sun comes up. Interior

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<v Speaker 1>Ata's house, front hallway. A knock on the front door.

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<v Speaker 1>Ada enters from the kitchen, her movements labored. She opens

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<v Speaker 1>the door to find Dana on the porch, dressed us earlier.

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<v Speaker 5>You don't have to speak with me.

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<v Speaker 7>In fact, I shouldn't be here, and this will probably

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<v Speaker 7>so likely get.

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<v Speaker 4>Me dispar.

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<v Speaker 3>Is the verdict in.

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<v Speaker 5>No, this isn't about the case.

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<v Speaker 4>Oh, come in.

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<v Speaker 1>Ada unlocks the screen door, pushes it open. Interior Ada's

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<v Speaker 1>kitchen day. Dana sits at the table. Ada pulls a

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<v Speaker 1>whistling kettle off the stove, crosses to the table, and

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<v Speaker 1>pours water for tea. Her hand shakes noticeably.

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<v Speaker 3>You know, for years the medical community said I didn't

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<v Speaker 3>love my son enough, and that's what caused his autism.

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<v Speaker 3>You're the first person who ever accused me of loving

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<v Speaker 3>him too much. I am. You may have been right

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<v Speaker 3>in a way. I had held on for so long.

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<v Speaker 3>I didn't know how to let go. Doctors always talked

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<v Speaker 3>about Teddy like he was broken and needed to be fixed.

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<v Speaker 3>I was afraid of what that meant. I really did

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<v Speaker 3>believe I was the only one who could ever truly

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<v Speaker 3>care for him and know what he needed.

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<v Speaker 5>And so you just accepted it. It was it was

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<v Speaker 5>just that easy.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh No, it was never easy. I was depressed. I

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<v Speaker 3>was angry. Sometimes, after Teddy would finally fall asleep, I

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<v Speaker 3>would scream into a pillow until I had nothing left.

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<v Speaker 3>I was angry at my husband for not even trying

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<v Speaker 3>to understand, angry at my family for not being there

0:28:49.600 --> 0:28:55.320
<v Speaker 3>for me. I wondered what I had done to deserve it.

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<v Speaker 3>Then I used to feel guilty until I realized none

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<v Speaker 3>if it was a reflection on who I was as

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<v Speaker 3>a person or my ability to be a good mother.

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<v Speaker 7>Did you ever have any doubts about your feelings for Teddy?

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<v Speaker 3>My sister asked me once if I found it difficult

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<v Speaker 3>to love Teddy. I told her, it's only the disability

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<v Speaker 3>you struggle to embrace, not the child.

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<v Speaker 1>Dana removes the colored envelope from her purse, opens it.

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<v Speaker 7>I asked my parents never to send anything after I left,

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<v Speaker 7>but they did frequently all these years.

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<v Speaker 5>I never opened any of them, though I don't know why.

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<v Speaker 3>I didn't know.

0:29:42.760 --> 0:29:44.880
<v Speaker 1>Dana takes the picture out of the envelope.

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<v Speaker 7>I told them after I left, I never wanted to

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<v Speaker 7>talk about it.

0:29:48.760 --> 0:29:51.800
<v Speaker 1>She pushes the picture across the table to Ada, picks

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<v Speaker 1>it up close on a school picture of a little girl.

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<v Speaker 1>She's about eight years old and has Down syndrome. Ada

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<v Speaker 1>studies the picture, then looks at Dana, this is your child.

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<v Speaker 7>I mean, I haven't seen her in almost eight years,

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<v Speaker 7>since she was five months old. She was born with

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<v Speaker 7>a hole in her heart. Was coming for babies with

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<v Speaker 7>Down syndrome. The pregnancy wasn't planned. I was twenty nine

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<v Speaker 7>and my fiancee, Chris had started his career, and I

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<v Speaker 7>was just about done with law school.

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<v Speaker 5>Those first few months were.

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<v Speaker 7>Just a blur doctor's appointments and tests and people constantly

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<v Speaker 7>in and out. I was still trying to study in

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<v Speaker 7>the midst of all of it so I could graduate,

0:30:38.040 --> 0:30:40.719
<v Speaker 7>pretending I could keep it all together and that was

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<v Speaker 7>and that everything was just perfect.

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<v Speaker 1>Danna takes a sip of tea.

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<v Speaker 7>Chris was so thrilled to be a dad. He was

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<v Speaker 7>an only child, adopted and a family was everything to him.

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<v Speaker 7>He didn't seem at all concerned about her disability. She

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<v Speaker 7>was just his beautiful little girl, and it made me

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<v Speaker 7>feel like something was wrong with me for feeling so cheated.

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<v Speaker 1>Insert hospital room flashback. Dana stands in a back corner

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<v Speaker 1>of the room. Her fiancee, Chris early thirties, bends over

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<v Speaker 1>the bed strokes the hair of a baby girl as

0:31:19.400 --> 0:31:23.040
<v Speaker 1>a nurse removes wires and tubes from her. A doctor

0:31:23.080 --> 0:31:25.960
<v Speaker 1>speaks to Dana and Chris. Chris nods at the doctor.

0:31:26.200 --> 0:31:29.960
<v Speaker 1>Dana stares off into space. Choose a nail. The nurse

0:31:29.960 --> 0:31:32.720
<v Speaker 1>smiles at Chris and wheels the baby out of the room.

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<v Speaker 1>Chris and the doctor follow. Dana remains rooted. She looks

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<v Speaker 1>around the room at all the cards, flowers, and stuffed animals.

0:31:39.880 --> 0:31:42.840
<v Speaker 1>Her gaze lifts to a floating bouquet of get well balloons.

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<v Speaker 1>Dana crosses over to the window, takes a small stuffed cat,

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<v Speaker 1>and walks out back to scene. Dana stares into her cup.

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<v Speaker 7>I sat there in the waiting room while she was

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<v Speaker 7>having surgery and thought, maybe she'll die, Maybe she'd be

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<v Speaker 7>better off, maybe I'd be better off. Like what kind

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<v Speaker 7>of person has those thoughts about their own baby. I

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<v Speaker 7>wasn't worthy of being a mother, and I felt guilty

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<v Speaker 7>and ashamed and lost. I was angry at myself and

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<v Speaker 7>angry at Chris because he seems so unaffected by it all,

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<v Speaker 7>and I really needed someone to talk to, like someone

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<v Speaker 7>it would tell me it was okay to feel this way, someone.

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<v Speaker 5>Who went and judge me for wanting back the life

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<v Speaker 5>i'd lost.

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<v Speaker 1>Daniel looks up at Ada, but.

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<v Speaker 5>I didn't have that, so I just walked out.

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<v Speaker 7>I walked out of that hospital, and I never went back,

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<v Speaker 7>not to see if my daughter survived, not even to

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<v Speaker 7>see my parents again.

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<v Speaker 5>I couldn't I couldn't face anyone.

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<v Speaker 7>I was a coward of failure as a mother, and

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<v Speaker 7>as far from perfect as I could possibly get. I

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<v Speaker 7>didn't know how to love my own daughter. And here

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<v Speaker 7>I've been in court trying to judge you. I'm so sorry, Ada,

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<v Speaker 7>I don't know why I put you through this. I

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<v Speaker 7>think I want it so desperately to prove leaving your

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<v Speaker 7>child to someone else was the right thing to do,

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<v Speaker 7>because because it meant that I made the right choice too.

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<v Speaker 1>Ada closes her eyes. Insert continuous. Ada sees herself standing

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<v Speaker 1>side by side with adult Teddy as he lets a

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<v Speaker 1>yellow balloon drift up towards the shining sun. Back to scene,

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<v Speaker 1>Ada opens her eyes looks closely at Dana.

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<v Speaker 3>There is an enormous sense of loss that comes with

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<v Speaker 3>being the parent of a child with a disability. It

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<v Speaker 3>never fades, but in time you learn to live with it.

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<v Speaker 3>Life grows in and up and around it, even though

0:33:54.760 --> 0:33:59.000
<v Speaker 3>it waits below the surface and bubbles up just when

0:33:59.040 --> 0:34:03.240
<v Speaker 3>you thank you for gotten it. But that part of

0:34:03.320 --> 0:34:09.880
<v Speaker 3>you that feels that pain or confusion or resentment, that's

0:34:10.120 --> 0:34:17.319
<v Speaker 3>the same part of you that feels love and tenderness

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<v Speaker 3>and care.

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<v Speaker 1>She picks up the picture, looks at it, and puts

0:34:22.440 --> 0:34:24.440
<v Speaker 1>it back on the table and slides it over to Dana.

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<v Speaker 3>Not all choices are permanent.

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<v Speaker 1>She removes her hand from the picture and places it

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<v Speaker 1>on top of one of Dana's.

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<v Speaker 3>Do you realize in telling me your story? Not once

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<v Speaker 3>did you ever speak your daughter's name.

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<v Speaker 1>Dana looks at the picture.

0:34:43.040 --> 0:34:43.400
<v Speaker 3>Maddie.

0:34:44.440 --> 0:34:45.399
<v Speaker 1>Dana looks up at her.

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<v Speaker 5>Her name is Mattie.

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<v Speaker 1>Her eyes well with tears. Interior Dana's office Day. Dana

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<v Speaker 1>reads at her desk. She is dressed in court attire.

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<v Speaker 1>The desk phone rings. She picks it up, listens, I'm

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<v Speaker 1>on my way down. She hangs up, grabs her briefcase,

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<v Speaker 1>yells as she hurries out.

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<v Speaker 5>Carter verdicts in.

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<v Speaker 1>Her door slam shut. Exterior Ada's backyard Day. The sliding

0:35:11.560 --> 0:35:14.560
<v Speaker 1>glass door opens from inside. Ada steps out into the

0:35:14.600 --> 0:35:19.720
<v Speaker 1>brilliant sunshine. Teddy beckons to her from the garden. Interior

0:35:19.760 --> 0:35:23.400
<v Speaker 1>courtroom day. Everyone is present except for Alexis and Ada.

0:35:24.080 --> 0:35:26.359
<v Speaker 1>Dana glances over at the empty defence table and checks

0:35:26.400 --> 0:35:30.200
<v Speaker 1>her watch. Alexis enters the courtroom, walks to the front.

0:35:30.719 --> 0:35:32.120
<v Speaker 1>Her usual energy is missing.

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<v Speaker 4>Permission to approach your honor, counselor's approach.

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<v Speaker 1>Dana joins Alexis in front of the bench. Alexis speaks

0:35:42.840 --> 0:35:45.920
<v Speaker 1>in a low voice. The judge nods. Dana and Alexis

0:35:45.920 --> 0:35:49.000
<v Speaker 1>return to their seats. Ladies and gentlemen of the jury,

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<v Speaker 1>thank you for your service. This case has been dismissed,

0:35:53.320 --> 0:35:56.240
<v Speaker 1>and you are hereby released from duty. There's a murmur

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<v Speaker 1>about the courtroom. The jurors look at one another, confused,

0:35:59.480 --> 0:36:02.920
<v Speaker 1>gather themsels to leave. Dana approaches Alexis.

0:36:03.520 --> 0:36:06.200
<v Speaker 4>When did she die sometime last night?

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<v Speaker 2>An autopsy's pending, but she'd probably been built for several months.

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<v Speaker 4>She knew it was her time.

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<v Speaker 1>Was she alone?

0:36:14.960 --> 0:36:17.840
<v Speaker 4>Not completely? She was in the garden.

0:36:18.200 --> 0:36:19.960
<v Speaker 2>I'm glad she had just laid down and went to

0:36:20.000 --> 0:36:23.279
<v Speaker 2>sleep in a big, hollowed out spot, a little bigger

0:36:23.320 --> 0:36:25.799
<v Speaker 2>than she was where Teddy used to lay.

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<v Speaker 1>I just saw her. Alexis gives her a questioning look.

0:36:30.680 --> 0:36:32.359
<v Speaker 5>I'm sorry I didn't know for you a deal.

0:36:33.480 --> 0:36:36.760
<v Speaker 1>Alexis nods and walks away. The last jury member steps

0:36:36.800 --> 0:36:39.120
<v Speaker 1>down from the jury box. Dana calls out, oh wait,

0:36:39.600 --> 0:36:45.319
<v Speaker 1>She rushes over what was the verdict? Exterior Adi's backyard Day,

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<v Speaker 1>Ada and Teddy lie side by side in the dirt,

0:36:48.760 --> 0:36:51.840
<v Speaker 1>hold hands. They watch a yellow balloon lift higher and

0:36:51.880 --> 0:36:58.320
<v Speaker 1>higher into the blue sky. Exterior Cemetery Day, Alexis and

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<v Speaker 1>Gina stand by Ada's graveside. A reverend reads from the Bible.

0:37:02.640 --> 0:37:06.120
<v Speaker 1>Dana approaches, but keeps her distance, stands off to one side.

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<v Speaker 1>The reverend finishes, the casket lowers into the ground. Alexis

0:37:11.360 --> 0:37:15.560
<v Speaker 1>and Gina hug. Alexis notices Dana says something to Gina

0:37:15.600 --> 0:37:19.120
<v Speaker 1>and breaks away. Dana watches as Alexis walks toward her.

0:37:19.560 --> 0:37:22.360
<v Speaker 1>I was hoping you'd be here. She pulls an envelope

0:37:22.360 --> 0:37:26.320
<v Speaker 1>out of her purse. She left this for you. Dana

0:37:26.360 --> 0:37:31.320
<v Speaker 1>takes the envelope from her. Their eyes meet, Take care, Dana,

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<v Speaker 1>Alexis rejoins Gina. They walk towards a waiting town car.

0:37:36.080 --> 0:37:38.480
<v Speaker 1>Dana walks over to Ada's grave, takes a flower from

0:37:38.480 --> 0:37:38.840
<v Speaker 1>a wreath.

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<v Speaker 5>Best in Peace, Ada.

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<v Speaker 1>She places the flower atop the casket. Interior Dana's car Day.

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<v Speaker 1>Dana sits parked in front of Ada's house. There's a

0:37:49.640 --> 0:37:52.319
<v Speaker 1>moving van in the driveway, A government car parked behind it.

0:37:53.080 --> 0:37:57.320
<v Speaker 1>She watches mover's load furniture into the van. Interior Ada's

0:37:57.320 --> 0:38:00.759
<v Speaker 1>living room day. Dana enters from the front hallway, looks

0:38:00.800 --> 0:38:04.719
<v Speaker 1>around the room. Moving boxes are everywhere, laden with Ada's possessions.

0:38:05.480 --> 0:38:08.000
<v Speaker 1>She crosses to the piano, picks up a framed photo,

0:38:08.480 --> 0:38:10.680
<v Speaker 1>close on a photo of young Ada holding Teddy as

0:38:10.680 --> 0:38:13.400
<v Speaker 1>a toddler, a rare photo of both of them smiling

0:38:13.400 --> 0:38:16.560
<v Speaker 1>into the camera, sets the picture back on the piano.

0:38:17.000 --> 0:38:19.640
<v Speaker 1>Walks over to the sliding glass door, looks out of

0:38:19.719 --> 0:38:25.840
<v Speaker 1>the garden. She opens the door. Exterior backyard continuous. Dana

0:38:25.880 --> 0:38:29.440
<v Speaker 1>steps out, glances around her eyes land on the hollowed

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<v Speaker 1>out spot in the garden. She crosses to the spot,

0:38:33.000 --> 0:38:37.000
<v Speaker 1>kneels down, presses her hand to the earth, closes her eyes.

0:38:38.640 --> 0:38:41.920
<v Speaker 1>The court appointed administrator for Ada's estate appears in the doorway.

0:38:42.200 --> 0:38:42.960
<v Speaker 4>Can I help you?

0:38:43.400 --> 0:38:44.880
<v Speaker 1>Dana stands up, whorls around.

0:38:45.520 --> 0:38:47.240
<v Speaker 5>I'm from the DA's office.

0:38:47.719 --> 0:38:51.160
<v Speaker 1>The administrator just stares at Dana. Dana fishes in her purse,

0:38:51.200 --> 0:38:52.279
<v Speaker 1>produces her credentials.

0:38:52.800 --> 0:38:55.000
<v Speaker 7>I need to finish some paperwork in regards to the

0:38:55.080 --> 0:38:56.040
<v Speaker 7>legal proceedings.

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<v Speaker 5>I won't be long.

0:38:57.760 --> 0:38:59.839
<v Speaker 1>The administrator a peers at Dana's identification.

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<v Speaker 3>Take your time, we'll be sorting through this junk for

0:39:03.120 --> 0:39:03.560
<v Speaker 3>a while.

0:39:03.960 --> 0:39:10.279
<v Speaker 1>Disappears back inside, Dana follows. Interior living room continues. Dana

0:39:10.360 --> 0:39:12.360
<v Speaker 1>re enters from the back yard. She takes the photo

0:39:12.400 --> 0:39:14.279
<v Speaker 1>from the piano, looks at it, and brings it to

0:39:14.360 --> 0:39:17.840
<v Speaker 1>her chest. She glances around the room one last time,

0:39:18.400 --> 0:39:20.440
<v Speaker 1>walks to the front door, takes the photo with her.

0:39:21.440 --> 0:39:25.120
<v Speaker 1>Interior Dana's Home Office Night. Dana sits at her desk,

0:39:25.360 --> 0:39:27.880
<v Speaker 1>Ada's unopened letter and the framed photograph she took from

0:39:27.920 --> 0:39:30.879
<v Speaker 1>Ada's house in front of her. She opens the letter

0:39:30.920 --> 0:39:34.640
<v Speaker 1>and reads. A range of emotions play across her face.

0:39:35.080 --> 0:39:38.160
<v Speaker 1>She struggles to rein them in. Finally, she can no

0:39:38.239 --> 0:39:41.640
<v Speaker 1>longer hold back and breaks down sobs as she gets

0:39:41.680 --> 0:39:53.879
<v Speaker 1>to the end of the letter. Interior Dana's House Foyer Night.

0:39:55.200 --> 0:39:57.920
<v Speaker 1>The front door opens. Ethan enters, hangs up his jacket.

0:39:58.040 --> 0:40:03.120
<v Speaker 1>He hears crying, calls out. Dana hurries towards the back

0:40:03.120 --> 0:40:07.320
<v Speaker 1>of the house. Interior Dana's home office continues. Ethan rushes

0:40:07.360 --> 0:40:10.160
<v Speaker 1>in kneels in front of Dana's chair, still clutching the letter.

0:40:10.239 --> 0:40:12.719
<v Speaker 1>She dissolves in his arms. She clings to him. As

0:40:12.760 --> 0:40:17.000
<v Speaker 1>they sink to the floor, he rocks her close On

0:40:17.080 --> 0:40:20.040
<v Speaker 1>Dana's laptop screen open to a social media account for

0:40:20.120 --> 0:40:23.080
<v Speaker 1>Christopher Moreland, there are multiple photos of a man with

0:40:23.120 --> 0:40:30.000
<v Speaker 1>a young girl with down syndrome. Exterior airport day, Ethan's

0:40:30.000 --> 0:40:33.360
<v Speaker 1>car pulls up in the departure lane, stops. Ethan exits

0:40:33.400 --> 0:40:36.200
<v Speaker 1>the driver's side, steps back to the trunk, removes a suitcase.

0:40:37.200 --> 0:40:40.000
<v Speaker 1>Dana exits the passenger side, stands on the curb. Her

0:40:40.000 --> 0:40:42.160
<v Speaker 1>hair is loose, flowing, and she is dressed in a

0:40:42.200 --> 0:40:45.160
<v Speaker 1>sun dressed and sandals. Ethan brings the suitcase to her.

0:40:45.360 --> 0:40:51.239
<v Speaker 1>They kiss, I love you, I love you too. She

0:40:51.280 --> 0:40:56.800
<v Speaker 1>takes the suitcase walks into the airport. Interior airplane day.

0:40:57.600 --> 0:41:01.120
<v Speaker 1>Dana boards the plane, finds her seat, settles her. The

0:41:01.160 --> 0:41:05.000
<v Speaker 1>flight crew prepares for takeoff. She leans back in her seat,

0:41:05.160 --> 0:41:07.040
<v Speaker 1>pulls a small stuffed cat out of the pocket of

0:41:07.080 --> 0:41:10.319
<v Speaker 1>her sweater, pulls it in her lap, closes her eyes

0:41:10.360 --> 0:41:14.040
<v Speaker 1>as the plane shuttles down the runway. Montage during Ada's

0:41:14.080 --> 0:41:18.560
<v Speaker 1>voiceover the plane lands. Dana walks through the airport. Dana

0:41:18.600 --> 0:41:22.320
<v Speaker 1>reunts a car. Dana drives through the suburbs. Dana pulls

0:41:22.320 --> 0:41:24.239
<v Speaker 1>into the parking lot of a ball field.

0:41:24.760 --> 0:41:27.920
<v Speaker 3>When you're going to have a baby, It's like planning

0:41:27.960 --> 0:41:32.120
<v Speaker 3>a fabulous trip to Italy. You buy a bunch of

0:41:32.160 --> 0:41:37.080
<v Speaker 3>guide books and make your wonderful plans. After months of

0:41:37.239 --> 0:41:41.759
<v Speaker 3>eager anticipation, the day arrives, you pack your bags and

0:41:41.880 --> 0:41:46.080
<v Speaker 3>off you go. The stewardess comes in and says, welcome

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<v Speaker 3>to Holland, Holland. Do you say, what do you mean Holland.

0:41:51.080 --> 0:41:55.399
<v Speaker 3>I'm supposed to be in Italy. All my life I've

0:41:55.480 --> 0:41:59.200
<v Speaker 3>dreamed of going to Italy. But there's been a change

0:41:59.200 --> 0:42:03.719
<v Speaker 3>in the flight. Place They've landed in Holland, and there

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<v Speaker 3>you must stay. The important thing is they haven't taken

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<v Speaker 3>you to a horrible, disgusting, filthy place. It's just a

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<v Speaker 3>different place. So you must go out and buy new

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<v Speaker 3>guide books, and you must learn a whole new language,

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<v Speaker 3>and you will meet a whole new group of people

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<v Speaker 3>you would have never met. It's slower paces than Italy,

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<v Speaker 3>less flashy than Italy. But after you've been there for

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<v Speaker 3>a while and you catch your breath, you look around

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<v Speaker 3>and you begin to notice that Holland has windmills, and

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<v Speaker 3>Holland has tulips. Holland even has Rembrandts. But everyone you

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<v Speaker 3>know is busy coming and going from Italy, and for

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<v Speaker 3>the rest of your life you will say, yes, that's

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<v Speaker 3>where I was supposed to go, and the pain of

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<v Speaker 3>that will never ever ever go away, because the loss

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<v Speaker 3>of that tream is a very significant loss. But if

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<v Speaker 3>you spend your life warning the fact you didn't get

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<v Speaker 3>to Italy, you may never be free to enjoy the

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<v Speaker 3>very special, the very lovely things about.

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<v Speaker 10>Holland exterior ballfield day softball game in progress, Challenger League

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<v Speaker 10>for children with a range of special needs.

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<v Speaker 1>Some kids are in wheelchairs, some cannot speak or see,

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<v Speaker 1>but everyone is having a great time. Parents in the

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<v Speaker 1>stands clap enthusiastically. Dana exits the rental car watches the game.

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<v Speaker 1>A big cheer erupts as a child gets a hit

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<v Speaker 1>and their buddy pushes the wheelchair to first base. He

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<v Speaker 1>starts towards the stands behind the backstop. Chris kneels next

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<v Speaker 1>to Mattie seven. He sees Dana approach, stands up. She

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<v Speaker 1>gets closer. He puts a protective arm around Mattie. Dana

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<v Speaker 1>stops a few feet away. Chris speaks to Mattie then

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<v Speaker 1>walks forward to Dana.

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<v Speaker 4>I didn't believe your mom when she said you were coming.

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<v Speaker 4>You have no right to be here, not after all

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<v Speaker 4>this time. What makes you think you can walk back

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<v Speaker 4>in here like nothing happened?

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<v Speaker 5>Something did happen?

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<v Speaker 4>What does that mean?

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<v Speaker 3>Why are you here? What do you want?

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<v Speaker 1>I made a mistake.

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<v Speaker 7>It's terrible a mistake because I didn't know who I was,

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<v Speaker 7>and I didn't believe in myself. I didn't think I

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<v Speaker 7>could be a mother or a good one anyway, so

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<v Speaker 7>I did what I thought was best for everyone. I

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<v Speaker 7>failed you, and I failed our daughter.

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<v Speaker 5>I don't expect you.

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<v Speaker 4>To forgive me.

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<v Speaker 1>She spots Mattie running towards.

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<v Speaker 5>Them, but maybe she can't.

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<v Speaker 1>Mattie runs up to Chris. Daddy, it's almost my turn. Okay, sweetheart,

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<v Speaker 1>I'll be right there. Mattie looks at Dana.

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<v Speaker 6>Hi, who are you here to watch the game.

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<v Speaker 1>Dana looks at Chris.

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<v Speaker 4>Would that be all right?

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<v Speaker 1>Sure?

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<v Speaker 5>Are you for the home team or the away team?

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<v Speaker 5>I think home?

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<v Speaker 1>That's my team. She takes Dana's hand. Come on, I'll

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<v Speaker 1>show you where to sit. She leans Dana towards the stands.

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<v Speaker 1>Dana turns to look back at Chris, tears in her eyes.

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<v Speaker 1>He puts up a hand and shakes his head as

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<v Speaker 1>if to acquiesce. Makes no move to stop them. That's

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<v Speaker 1>a really pretty dress.

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<v Speaker 6>Your hair color is just like mine.

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<v Speaker 5>Do you have any pets. We have two cats and

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<v Speaker 5>a hamster.

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<v Speaker 1>My name's Mattie.

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<v Speaker 5>What's yours?

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<v Speaker 1>Chris watches them walk away fade out the end. Yes, emotionals, guy, Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>you guys gon't me to.

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<v Speaker 3>Thank you very much.

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