WEBVTT - Elf Talk 0:00:00.280 --> 0:00:03.360 Welcome to Insider's Guide to the Other Side, a production 0:00:03.440 --> 0:00:09.280 of iHeartRadio. Hi y'all, I'm Julie. 0:00:09.400 --> 0:00:13.320 Hi there, I'm Brenda. Welcome to Insider's Guide to the 0:00:13.360 --> 0:00:13.960 other Side. 0:00:14.400 --> 0:00:16.880 Now, y'all need to know that we are obsessed with 0:00:17.320 --> 0:00:20.000 everything on the other side. 0:00:20.480 --> 0:00:23.800 Yes, we are, because once you learn to navigate the energetic, 0:00:24.360 --> 0:00:27.920 or to some the invisible world, life is going to 0:00:27.920 --> 0:00:30.600 be more fun and much more serene. 0:00:31.320 --> 0:00:35.640 Uh heck, yes it can, because, let's be honest, br in, 0:00:35.720 --> 0:00:37.519 earth school is hard. In fact, you taught me. 0:00:37.479 --> 0:00:40.080 That let's crush earth school together. 0:00:44.320 --> 0:00:49.400 Well, hello, everybody today is elf talk. It's elf talk 0:00:49.520 --> 0:00:54.240 because my wishy poo has a lot going on, So 0:00:54.320 --> 0:00:56.840 I hope you hang in with me. I think I 0:00:56.920 --> 0:00:59.320 have some interesting things to talk to you all about 0:01:00.120 --> 0:01:04.360 was actually, you know, wondering. Talked to Suzanne and some 0:01:04.440 --> 0:01:07.360 friends like what should I talk about? I don't have Brenda, 0:01:08.880 --> 0:01:11.600 I'm a little lost. What is the loss elf to do? 0:01:12.600 --> 0:01:18.959 And you know, recently, I always, as you guys know, 0:01:19.200 --> 0:01:22.200 like to I find a lot of lessons in my 0:01:22.200 --> 0:01:24.800 own life. I find a lot of lessons from listening 0:01:24.840 --> 0:01:30.840 to other people. And one of them actually arrived well 0:01:31.280 --> 0:01:33.880 on the screen on my phone in the form of 0:01:33.920 --> 0:01:37.720 a news alert. And the news alert was a former 0:01:38.360 --> 0:01:45.280 colleague and friend he just jumped. And the man's name 0:01:45.760 --> 0:01:49.120 is John Landau. And you guys may have never heard 0:01:49.160 --> 0:01:54.800 of John. John. John was the film producer. And funny 0:01:54.800 --> 0:01:56.919 thing about John is I'd actually started working at Fox 0:01:56.960 --> 0:02:00.360 when he was twenty nine. He was head of production 0:02:01.200 --> 0:02:05.160 and then he ended up working with Jim Cameron, and 0:02:05.200 --> 0:02:11.400 so they did Titanic together. We worked with him on Avatar. 0:02:12.639 --> 0:02:15.680 We also worked with him on a movie called Alita 0:02:15.960 --> 0:02:20.240 Battle Angel. And I have to tell you when I 0:02:20.280 --> 0:02:25.200 saw that, I was my heart sank and I was crushed. 0:02:25.240 --> 0:02:29.840 He was I think sixty three sixty four. He also 0:02:29.919 --> 0:02:32.120 lived kind of sort of ish around the corner from 0:02:32.240 --> 0:02:36.480 us in Sherman Oaks, so he was also a neighbor 0:02:36.680 --> 0:02:39.480 and a colleague and a friend. And I you know, 0:02:39.639 --> 0:02:43.200 it set me to this place of really thinking about 0:02:43.280 --> 0:02:48.920 the times with him and thinking about I mean, honestly, 0:02:49.040 --> 0:02:53.400 his kindness and by the way, his Hawaiian shirts, and 0:02:53.440 --> 0:02:57.000 he was so gifted in this field. He was also 0:02:57.160 --> 0:03:00.600 so loyal to Jim and so loyal to the vision 0:03:00.919 --> 0:03:05.640 that he had because with avatar. You know, Jim had 0:03:05.639 --> 0:03:10.400 a vision thirteen years prior before even beginning to make it. 0:03:10.760 --> 0:03:14.040 Technology had to keep up, had to come keep up 0:03:14.080 --> 0:03:17.040 with his vision, had to meet him at his vision. 0:03:17.680 --> 0:03:19.320 And John was a big part of that, a big 0:03:19.360 --> 0:03:25.680 believer in that. And I was just, you know, twirling 0:03:25.680 --> 0:03:28.400 in my own head and recalling memories. And so I 0:03:28.560 --> 0:03:34.160 ended up just texting some friends of mine that I 0:03:34.200 --> 0:03:37.040 worked with at Fox, and because I need to get 0:03:37.080 --> 0:03:38.800 out of my head, I needed to talk to other people. 0:03:39.960 --> 0:03:42.680 So there's this you know, text chain that was going on. 0:03:43.240 --> 0:03:50.000 And one of my friends was so vulnerable when she said, 0:03:50.360 --> 0:03:53.080 she goes, you know, I've been thinking about John for 0:03:53.160 --> 0:03:58.040 the last year, and I wanted to reach out and 0:03:58.160 --> 0:04:02.720 tell him grateful I was for what he taught me, 0:04:04.080 --> 0:04:10.200 how grateful I was for how he treated me and frankly, 0:04:10.440 --> 0:04:13.920 how he treated everyone, and that was one of his superpowers. 0:04:14.760 --> 0:04:18.680 And she goes, but I didn't listen to myself. I 0:04:19.000 --> 0:04:24.120 in some ways felt unworthy to go to him and 0:04:24.200 --> 0:04:28.719 tell him this. And I said to her, I go, 0:04:28.920 --> 0:04:33.120 I wish that I would have done the same. In fact, 0:04:33.320 --> 0:04:35.480 I'm sure all of us wish we could have done 0:04:35.520 --> 0:04:41.160 the same, And just shown him our gratefulness and our 0:04:41.200 --> 0:04:45.800 compassion and caring for him, not just as a professional, 0:04:46.320 --> 0:04:51.320 but as a human. And you know, this really ties 0:04:51.400 --> 0:04:53.640 into and I know Brenda and I have talked about 0:04:53.640 --> 0:04:58.920 this before. We've talked about some other instances in our 0:04:58.960 --> 0:05:02.120 own life where we have reached out to people because 0:05:02.160 --> 0:05:05.160 it was important for us to let them know how 0:05:05.200 --> 0:05:07.599 we felt about them. I mean, I think I shared 0:05:08.880 --> 0:05:11.160 probably within the last six eight months. It's hard to 0:05:11.200 --> 0:05:15.880 keep track of time these days. Everybody. I reached out 0:05:15.960 --> 0:05:24.920 to my dad's girlfriend's daughter, so strange, and I wrote 0:05:24.920 --> 0:05:29.080 her letter, you know, and I said to her that 0:05:29.400 --> 0:05:32.240 I was just so grateful a for her mother, and 0:05:32.279 --> 0:05:36.720 her mother had passed, and I was so grateful to 0:05:36.800 --> 0:05:40.400 her because she was so kind to me in a 0:05:40.520 --> 0:05:43.719 very difficult situation because even when my father was living, 0:05:44.000 --> 0:05:48.640 he liked to drink, and you know, it's a pretty 0:05:48.720 --> 0:05:52.400 unstable environment for eleven twelve year old, you know, to 0:05:52.480 --> 0:05:54.720 deal with that. But I just wanted to reach out 0:05:54.839 --> 0:05:56.520 and thank her. And even at the end of it, 0:05:56.640 --> 0:06:00.000 I had said to her, you know, no reply is request. 0:06:01.200 --> 0:06:06.120 I just want you to know. And every once in 0:06:06.160 --> 0:06:08.720 a while I get it right, I tell I tell 0:06:08.839 --> 0:06:12.000 enough people you know, whether it is from you know, 0:06:12.080 --> 0:06:15.400 recent or whether it's from what feels like a lifetime ago. 0:06:15.800 --> 0:06:19.520 But sometimes I miss people, and honestly, John is one 0:06:19.560 --> 0:06:25.120 of those I've missed, and I I of course, what 0:06:25.200 --> 0:06:29.680 I had texted in this chain was I said, well, 0:06:29.680 --> 0:06:35.040 he knows now, and my friend was like, ah, She's like, oh, 0:06:35.080 --> 0:06:37.560 that's why you're a mind, that's why you're my friend. Yeah, 0:06:37.600 --> 0:06:39.920 thank god you told me. Yes, of course he knows now, 0:06:40.440 --> 0:06:42.039 and she's but I wish I could have done it, 0:06:42.080 --> 0:06:44.240 and I said, I totally know, but he does know now, 0:06:46.600 --> 0:06:50.560 and so it just it it got me thinking, and 0:06:50.720 --> 0:06:54.520 I'll confess a little bit of spiraling. I like the spiral. 0:06:54.560 --> 0:06:57.080 I like to ste I like to kind of go 0:06:57.200 --> 0:07:01.279 live in that kind of emotion and that I'm feeling. 0:07:03.120 --> 0:07:06.760 So what I did was I was thinking about, like, 0:07:06.880 --> 0:07:08.800 what do I actually want to watch on TV? It's 0:07:08.839 --> 0:07:11.840 a long weekend. What do I want to watch? And 0:07:12.200 --> 0:07:17.720 I started rewatching a show that interestingly played into this, 0:07:17.800 --> 0:07:20.040 and then after that I watched a movie. So I 0:07:20.080 --> 0:07:22.000 promise you all of this is linked. I'm going to 0:07:22.080 --> 0:07:23.680 be back in just a minute. I'm going to tell 0:07:23.680 --> 0:07:32.280 you about a little binging that just happened. Okay, everybody, 0:07:32.360 --> 0:07:35.280 I'm back. I'm going to talk about some binging and 0:07:35.400 --> 0:07:39.440 luckily this go around, it's not about food, but it 0:07:39.520 --> 0:07:42.400 is TV. You know, when I, you know, found out 0:07:42.400 --> 0:07:46.920 about John, I was, you know, distraught, and the conversations 0:07:47.000 --> 0:07:50.040 had me thinking about you know, that would have, could 0:07:50.040 --> 0:07:54.960 have should a part of who we are. And funny enough, 0:07:55.240 --> 0:08:01.760 I started watching rewatching a show from the early that 0:08:01.920 --> 0:08:07.040 aired on NBC called My Name Is Earl. And if 0:08:07.080 --> 0:08:09.760 you've watched it, raise your hand. I will look to 0:08:10.080 --> 0:08:14.800 see if I can see you. So those that know 0:08:15.280 --> 0:08:19.440 my Name is Earl is about the lead character is 0:08:19.520 --> 0:08:22.239 named Earl. I think it's obvious by the title. Probably 0:08:22.240 --> 0:08:24.320 didn't need to tell you that, but I am. Anyway, 0:08:24.600 --> 0:08:28.560 Earl is our lead character. And Earl has a brother, Randy. 0:08:29.680 --> 0:08:35.640 He has an ex wife, and well he has two kids, 0:08:35.679 --> 0:08:37.400 but they weren't his kids. But that you got to 0:08:37.400 --> 0:08:39.320 watch it to understand that whole part of the story. 0:08:40.160 --> 0:08:43.920 But the thing about Earle is Earl was a bad 0:08:43.960 --> 0:08:52.280 guy and he actually won a scratch off lotto and 0:08:52.360 --> 0:08:55.240 it was one hundred grand and he's all excited going 0:08:55.240 --> 0:08:57.160 out of the convenience store and then gets hit by 0:08:57.160 --> 0:09:02.680 a car and he sees the lotto ticket fly away 0:09:02.720 --> 0:09:06.240 from him, and then he watched something on television learned 0:09:06.240 --> 0:09:09.280 about karma. And for the record, just so you guys know, 0:09:09.440 --> 0:09:13.079 the creator of the show was called Greg Garcia, and 0:09:13.120 --> 0:09:17.480 Greg got the idea of karma from watching something, and 0:09:17.559 --> 0:09:20.680 so he wanted to create a series about it. So, 0:09:21.240 --> 0:09:26.079 you know, sometimes understanding the show runner, the creator and 0:09:26.160 --> 0:09:29.520 what their intention was this, you know, and how it 0:09:29.559 --> 0:09:32.079 came to them and what they ended up creating is 0:09:32.120 --> 0:09:34.040 also kind of fun. So just know, if you want 0:09:34.080 --> 0:09:36.800 to dig around, his name is Greg Garcia. But back 0:09:36.840 --> 0:09:42.720 to Earle. So Earle, who really I mean? Or it 0:09:42.800 --> 0:09:45.360 was a dick? He really was. He was a jackass, Earl. 0:09:46.040 --> 0:09:48.400 You know, he loved to steal, so he stole things 0:09:48.440 --> 0:09:51.280 from people. He did them wrong, He lied to them, 0:09:51.520 --> 0:10:00.280 he cheated, manipulated, you know, you name it. He would 0:10:00.320 --> 0:10:03.400 destroy people's property. I mean, the list is long, in fact, 0:10:03.440 --> 0:10:07.280 on Earl's list that he put together because he wanted 0:10:07.320 --> 0:10:10.560 to go make it right with all those people that 0:10:10.640 --> 0:10:16.960 he did wrong because he now believed in karma. And 0:10:17.000 --> 0:10:19.520 the funny thing is, I was talking to a friend 0:10:19.520 --> 0:10:21.199 of mine and I was telling her what I wanted 0:10:21.200 --> 0:10:25.720 to talk about today and she said, she goes, well, 0:10:25.720 --> 0:10:27.880 do me a favor. I go, what's that she's will 0:10:27.920 --> 0:10:30.559 you explain, like why do people always say Karma is 0:10:30.559 --> 0:10:34.079 a bitch? And I said, well, Karma's a bitch if 0:10:34.240 --> 0:10:36.800 only if you're a bitch. And of course that should 0:10:36.800 --> 0:10:39.480 be a T shirt. Go ahead, something, please feel free 0:10:39.520 --> 0:10:44.240 to make it. And she said, because everybody thinks that 0:10:44.280 --> 0:10:46.720 it's bad. Well, in the case of my name is Earl, 0:10:46.960 --> 0:10:49.240 my name is Earl, it is actually he's done a 0:10:49.280 --> 0:10:51.960 lot of bad things, and he wanted good things to 0:10:52.000 --> 0:10:54.760 happen to his life. And some of the good things 0:10:54.760 --> 0:10:57.240 that would happen, you know, sometimes it would be materialistic. 0:10:57.280 --> 0:10:59.559 So when he started his list, he actually got the 0:10:59.600 --> 0:11:04.080 LOTO to get back and wanted to use that money 0:11:04.120 --> 0:11:09.440 to make everything right. But I'll also tell you the 0:11:09.559 --> 0:11:13.800 other thing that I thought was even more valuable that 0:11:14.080 --> 0:11:18.120 they addressed in this show was he would say he 0:11:18.360 --> 0:11:20.640 would have this kind of funny feeling in his stomach 0:11:20.800 --> 0:11:23.400 or in his chest when he would finally be able 0:11:23.400 --> 0:11:27.720 to cross something off of his list. And that's the magic. 0:11:27.920 --> 0:11:31.360 Because he had to go through a vulnerability of admitting 0:11:31.400 --> 0:11:34.840 to people what he had done. He went through a 0:11:34.840 --> 0:11:41.960 lot of tasks to right wrongs, and many times the 0:11:42.000 --> 0:11:45.440 wrong wasn't what he actually thought he needed to go fix. 0:11:45.760 --> 0:11:48.600 It was the kind of butterfly effect of it. It 0:11:48.760 --> 0:11:52.560 was because he did one thing, it really ruined somebody's 0:11:52.600 --> 0:11:57.280 life in another way, but he would feel better by 0:11:59.200 --> 0:12:02.720 by writing his wrongs. And that's really what karma is. 0:12:02.840 --> 0:12:05.760 It's not about, obviously, the monetary part of it. But 0:12:05.880 --> 0:12:07.680 you know, as Brenda and I have talked about before, 0:12:07.760 --> 0:12:10.679 karma just is, you know, is in a way of 0:12:12.120 --> 0:12:15.280 you know, it can come back, and it does come back. 0:12:15.400 --> 0:12:17.800 It can come back quickly and it can come back slowly. 0:12:18.480 --> 0:12:22.959 But there is a universal balance. There's a neutrality that 0:12:23.000 --> 0:12:26.040 we all end up having to get to with our actions, 0:12:26.120 --> 0:12:30.439 our words, our intentions. And I'll give you a dramatic 0:12:31.080 --> 0:12:34.640 example of something that Earle did in one of the 0:12:34.840 --> 0:12:36.640 one of the episodes, but I really encourage you guys 0:12:36.679 --> 0:12:38.960 to watch it if it is all interesting to you. 0:12:40.280 --> 0:12:44.080 But he and his brother would they would go They 0:12:44.120 --> 0:12:48.960 went to a country club and uh, actually the guy 0:12:49.120 --> 0:12:52.320 Johnny Galecki who played in the show Roseanne, was in 0:12:52.559 --> 0:12:55.000 the guest star in this particular episode, and he walked 0:12:55.000 --> 0:12:56.640 into the bar and said, I got a hole in 0:12:56.720 --> 0:13:00.600 one today. You know, A beers for everyone. And so 0:13:00.679 --> 0:13:03.080 these guys they don't know anything. They're like, wait, we 0:13:03.120 --> 0:13:05.800 can go back her all the time and get free beer. Right, 0:13:07.040 --> 0:13:10.439 So they went back the next day and Johnny Gallecki 0:13:10.520 --> 0:13:12.640 came back in and someone's like, did you get a 0:13:12.640 --> 0:13:15.600 hole in one again? He's like no. So to these guys, 0:13:15.640 --> 0:13:19.400 there was no free beer. So what they started to 0:13:19.440 --> 0:13:21.959 do is they would go hide on the golf course. 0:13:22.040 --> 0:13:25.000 Now remember, guys, this is a comedy. It's hilarious. I 0:13:25.000 --> 0:13:27.520 mean you can like it's literally taking your medicine with 0:13:27.520 --> 0:13:30.719 some sugar. It's fantastic. They would follow him around on 0:13:30.760 --> 0:13:35.079 the golf course and you know, they would grab his 0:13:35.320 --> 0:13:36.880 golf ball and they would either put it in the 0:13:36.880 --> 0:13:39.559 hole or throw it into the fairway. So all of 0:13:39.600 --> 0:13:42.319 a sudden, Johnny Glecki is getting more hole in ones. 0:13:42.400 --> 0:13:44.760 He's the hole he's I think he's the golf champion 0:13:45.040 --> 0:13:48.160 or he is I think he broke a course record 0:13:48.160 --> 0:13:51.160 with the lowest score. And so he starts buying everybody 0:13:51.240 --> 0:13:54.280 beer and wings and all of this and you know 0:13:54.320 --> 0:14:00.200 these two losers, Earl and his brother are you know, Tom, 0:14:00.280 --> 0:14:02.080 it was worth it because they were getting free beer 0:14:02.120 --> 0:14:04.800 and free food at a country club. So fast forward 0:14:04.840 --> 0:14:08.439 twenty years for Earl when he has his list, he 0:14:08.559 --> 0:14:12.640 has this guy, this golfer on his list that he 0:14:12.679 --> 0:14:16.200 needed to go make things right. So he goes and 0:14:16.240 --> 0:14:19.840 he finds the guy. Actually, I'm going to take that back. 0:14:19.880 --> 0:14:21.440 I don't think it was twenty years for this one. 0:14:21.480 --> 0:14:24.680 It was probably more like five, so forgive me. But 0:14:24.760 --> 0:14:27.960 he goes, he finds the guy. He finds Johnny Gileki, 0:14:28.040 --> 0:14:33.040 and he's living in his car and he's and Earl 0:14:33.160 --> 0:14:35.600 is like, tells him what he did. He's confessing and 0:14:35.640 --> 0:14:39.200 so on and so forth, and he says to the guy, 0:14:39.400 --> 0:14:43.560 He's like, he goes, why are you in your car? 0:14:44.000 --> 0:14:47.360 And he said, well, I thought I really had it, 0:14:47.440 --> 0:14:53.280 Like I like, golf was my thing, so I everything 0:14:53.320 --> 0:14:55.280 in my world revolved around golf. I would show up 0:14:55.320 --> 0:14:59.120 late for work because I was practicing or getting new equipment. 0:14:59.120 --> 0:15:01.840 And I got fired from job. I would be home 0:15:02.080 --> 0:15:04.400 and I would be hitting golf balls or practicing and 0:15:04.440 --> 0:15:06.560 trying to get better to get my game back. Because 0:15:06.560 --> 0:15:08.520 apparently when you guys left, I wasn't as good as 0:15:08.560 --> 0:15:12.360 I thought I was and I lost my girlfriend. You know, 0:15:12.440 --> 0:15:15.040 this is that butterfly effect, right, It's like the flap 0:15:15.080 --> 0:15:18.800 of a wing can create that chain reaction. So with 0:15:18.920 --> 0:15:22.760 Earle just trying to get free beer and wings again 0:15:22.920 --> 0:15:30.200 comedy from this guy's golf game, his life ended up, 0:15:30.480 --> 0:15:33.800 you know, going south because he was made to believe 0:15:33.800 --> 0:15:35.840 he was really good at something, and when Earl and 0:15:35.880 --> 0:15:40.200 his brother stopped with their Shenanigans, he wasn't as good 0:15:41.080 --> 0:15:44.560 and you know, started losing faith and spending too much 0:15:44.600 --> 0:15:50.080 time focusing on it and he got obsessed. But that 0:15:50.240 --> 0:15:53.960 was that was the That was a chain reaction that happened. 0:15:54.000 --> 0:15:56.080 So you would think, you know, he just went to 0:15:56.160 --> 0:15:57.680 go tell a guy and wanted to make it up 0:15:57.680 --> 0:15:59.360 to him, but what happened was the guy's life had 0:15:59.400 --> 0:16:03.440 fallen apart. The same thing happened and another story about 0:16:03.520 --> 0:16:08.920 his dad and with his dad, he stole his dad's 0:16:09.000 --> 0:16:11.920 Mustang that he was working on. He came back told 0:16:11.960 --> 0:16:14.280 his dad that he you know, drove it into a lake. 0:16:14.400 --> 0:16:16.880 But really what he did is he lost it in 0:16:16.920 --> 0:16:22.400 a drag race at eleven years old, and so his 0:16:22.520 --> 0:16:24.480 dad was on his list, so he went to the 0:16:24.560 --> 0:16:27.440 guy that won it from him again he's eleven. He 0:16:27.440 --> 0:16:31.360 came and reached the dam pedals to get the car back, 0:16:31.400 --> 0:16:33.080 so he had to do another drag race with the guy. 0:16:33.360 --> 0:16:35.400 And Earl has an El Camino. You'll see when you 0:16:35.400 --> 0:16:38.000 watch the show. I want a new guy with an 0:16:38.000 --> 0:16:42.920 El Camino. They were cool in the day. So he 0:16:43.000 --> 0:16:46.560 wins it back and he goes and he's all proud 0:16:46.600 --> 0:16:48.040 to go show his dad. He's his dad got your 0:16:48.040 --> 0:16:51.840 car back, and his dad was like, that car wasn't 0:16:51.880 --> 0:16:55.200 for me. That car was for you. When you turned sixteen, 0:16:56.280 --> 0:17:00.560 you lost your own car in a drag race. It 0:17:00.600 --> 0:17:03.880 wasn't mine, it was for you. And so of course 0:17:04.000 --> 0:17:06.040 Earl is like, Okay, now what do I do, which 0:17:06.080 --> 0:17:07.880 is part of what we do when we go back 0:17:07.920 --> 0:17:11.800 and try to make things right, you know again chain reaction. 0:17:11.960 --> 0:17:14.119 It's not what we think it is, which is another 0:17:14.160 --> 0:17:16.080 thing I absolutely love about this show and why it's 0:17:16.119 --> 0:17:19.959 been so helpful just to be processing through you know 0:17:20.040 --> 0:17:23.600 what I had expressed before about kind of living in 0:17:23.960 --> 0:17:26.720 the loss of people and not saying things and doing 0:17:26.760 --> 0:17:28.919 things that you would wish you would have done. But 0:17:28.960 --> 0:17:33.200 what Earle does is he decides he's going to get 0:17:33.240 --> 0:17:37.280 the car running again and restore the whole thing, and 0:17:37.320 --> 0:17:39.400 he does it at his dad's and his dad comes 0:17:39.440 --> 0:17:43.160 over there and starts to help him, and he realizes 0:17:43.200 --> 0:17:46.000 all his dad really wanted to do was, you know, 0:17:47.160 --> 0:17:51.040 refurbish this car with his son so they would spend 0:17:51.040 --> 0:17:55.240 time together. So what he learned is that it really 0:17:55.400 --> 0:18:00.280 wasn't about material things. It wasn't about the car about 0:18:00.280 --> 0:18:05.879 the time. So I've been putting my own list together 0:18:07.040 --> 0:18:13.280 things I need to go deal with because, like you, 0:18:13.840 --> 0:18:17.159 I am perfectly imperfect. I am processing ways I'm going 0:18:17.200 --> 0:18:21.200 to deal with it. I want to have that feeling 0:18:21.480 --> 0:18:24.399 of vulnerability and have that feeling of oh, I just 0:18:24.480 --> 0:18:29.919 took care of something, because you know, I'm human, and 0:18:29.920 --> 0:18:31.320 and of the things I want to take care of, 0:18:31.400 --> 0:18:34.440 they're normally people. By the way, I didn't never stole anything. Actually, 0:18:34.520 --> 0:18:39.040 if I did, I probably stole some double bubble from 0:18:39.040 --> 0:18:42.040 the Rexul drug store when I was a kid. I 0:18:42.080 --> 0:18:45.280 don't know. I should probably send them twenty cents with 0:18:45.400 --> 0:18:47.800 some interest. I'm not sure. But outside of that is 0:18:47.840 --> 0:18:50.399 more about for me. It's probably treatment. I can be 0:18:50.400 --> 0:18:51.960 a bit of an asshole if you guys you know, 0:18:52.280 --> 0:18:55.280 can imagine. So I have some work to do there 0:18:55.920 --> 0:19:00.159 because what I don't want to have happen is actually 0:19:01.400 --> 0:19:05.120 the movie I watched after I started watching. My name 0:19:05.160 --> 0:19:10.080 is Earl, And remember, y'all, I love TV and movies, 0:19:10.320 --> 0:19:15.600 so you guys are getting the elf life weaved into 0:19:18.960 --> 0:19:22.680 art and entertainment. So hold on for me. I'm gonna 0:19:22.680 --> 0:19:25.679 close this one. I'm hopefully pretty good. Bear with me. 0:19:25.760 --> 0:19:34.480 There was a plan. I'll be right back. Okay, y'all, 0:19:34.480 --> 0:19:38.400 I'm back. So I didn't plan on this, meaning the 0:19:38.560 --> 0:19:42.879 series of entertainment events that I watched. But I watched 0:19:42.880 --> 0:19:47.399 a movie again my same friend who wanted me to 0:19:47.520 --> 0:19:50.560 clear up the whole you know, Karme's a bitch? Well 0:19:50.680 --> 0:19:54.679 se Linka's you're a bitch comment, same friend, and she said, 0:19:54.880 --> 0:19:57.600 have you watched ghost Town? And I look it up 0:19:57.640 --> 0:19:59.800 and I'm like, how could I have missed this? It 0:19:59.840 --> 0:20:03.120 was two thousand and eight, I was in the industry. 0:20:03.160 --> 0:20:08.120 What the hell is wrong with me? So? And funny enough, 0:20:08.119 --> 0:20:10.880 by the way, my old boss actually made it, Stacy Snyder. 0:20:11.119 --> 0:20:13.200 So there's all these weird little things that happened. And 0:20:13.200 --> 0:20:15.119 of course I reached out to her and we had 0:20:15.160 --> 0:20:20.040 a long text chain about it. But so she goes 0:20:20.160 --> 0:20:22.080 watch this movie. She goes, I think it has a 0:20:22.080 --> 0:20:24.640 little bit to do with karma, you know, but I don't. 0:20:24.680 --> 0:20:26.439 I don't know. You put your own damn pieces together. 0:20:26.600 --> 0:20:32.639 And so I watched this movie and it was pretty 0:20:32.680 --> 0:20:35.680 crazy because it was a full circle every for this 0:20:35.800 --> 0:20:41.240 conversation for elf talk today because it centered on a guy, 0:20:42.560 --> 0:20:47.320 the actor's Great Cannar and he actually was hit by 0:20:47.359 --> 0:20:50.840 a bus and his widow he left behind was a 0:20:50.880 --> 0:20:55.000 woman played by Taylione. And if you're a fan of 0:20:55.040 --> 0:20:58.800 Madame Secretary, that is our same beloved tayl aone And 0:20:58.800 --> 0:21:02.520 if you haven't seen Madame Secretary, very highly encourage it, folks. 0:21:03.040 --> 0:21:06.720 And then we also have a dentist in this story, 0:21:07.160 --> 0:21:11.879 and it is played by Ricky Gervase. So Ricky also, 0:21:11.920 --> 0:21:14.439 by the way, was the creator of the UK version 0:21:14.560 --> 0:21:18.359 of the Office Just f yi, And an actress who 0:21:18.400 --> 0:21:23.800 played in that is Katie Flanakin, who's a friend of 0:21:23.840 --> 0:21:27.080 the Witchipoo. So I was gonna bring Wichipoo back, all right, 0:21:27.119 --> 0:21:29.440 I'm going to go back to ghost Town and I'm 0:21:29.440 --> 0:21:31.240 going to try to turn off my add but I 0:21:31.240 --> 0:21:35.600 don't know how. So, uh, Greg Kanear is hit by 0:21:35.640 --> 0:21:40.919 a bus and he actually finds this guy that can 0:21:40.960 --> 0:21:45.720 see him and hear him. And I'm gonna not give 0:21:45.760 --> 0:21:47.240 everything up to you, guys. I just want to get 0:21:47.240 --> 0:21:49.040 to the heart and the core of what this is. 0:21:49.119 --> 0:21:54.520 But so so. Greg Kinnear is seen by Ricky Gervase 0:21:56.080 --> 0:21:58.400 and so are, by the way, a lot of other spirits. 0:21:58.640 --> 0:22:01.760 In fact, all these spirits you could see them in 0:22:01.800 --> 0:22:05.320 one scene shouting at him about all the things they 0:22:05.359 --> 0:22:08.760 wanted him to do for them. You know, Tell so 0:22:08.840 --> 0:22:10.959 and so I love them, Tell so and so, I'm sorry, 0:22:11.119 --> 0:22:14.800 Tell so. You see where I'm going here is if 0:22:14.800 --> 0:22:18.520 we don't take care of our business while we're here 0:22:18.560 --> 0:22:20.919 in our body, we got to try to take care 0:22:20.960 --> 0:22:22.840 of it another way. And it is super hard to 0:22:22.880 --> 0:22:25.200 find people that can see. And here goes to get 0:22:25.240 --> 0:22:28.600 that across for you. But in this. 0:22:28.720 --> 0:22:36.320 Movie you actually see that Greg was not Greg King's character, 0:22:36.440 --> 0:22:41.320 not a great guy, a little douche, and he was 0:22:41.400 --> 0:22:45.200 really struggling to figure out why he had not crossed over, 0:22:45.600 --> 0:22:48.399 like truly crossed over, like the Bright Light crossovers. 0:22:48.440 --> 0:22:51.720 How they portrayed it in the movie, So we kept 0:22:51.720 --> 0:22:54.959 trying to come up with different schemes, different ways, and 0:22:55.040 --> 0:22:57.960 part of it was, you know, he was trying to 0:22:58.000 --> 0:23:02.440 cover up his bad behavior, and really what it came 0:23:02.520 --> 0:23:08.680 down to wash it was the truth and it was 0:23:10.400 --> 0:23:16.240 his attempt, you know, to rectify that because he didn't 0:23:16.280 --> 0:23:19.160 deal with it again when he was alive. So I 0:23:19.200 --> 0:23:24.280 think the overarching message today starts with well, started with 0:23:24.280 --> 0:23:26.199 death and ends with death, because you know, death is 0:23:26.240 --> 0:23:31.840 my genre, y'all. But it is really thinking through, you know, 0:23:31.880 --> 0:23:38.200 the full circle of how we are on the planet 0:23:39.720 --> 0:23:42.360 and when we are perfectly imperfect, how do we deal 0:23:42.400 --> 0:23:45.959 with our imperfections? How do we deal with who we 0:23:46.000 --> 0:23:48.240 are and what we've done, what we've thought, you know, 0:23:48.280 --> 0:23:51.600 listen even our thoughts, you guys. It's so interesting because 0:23:51.640 --> 0:23:54.720 I'm working with some people that I worked with twenty 0:23:54.800 --> 0:23:58.120 years ago, and I've loved it. And it's so funny 0:23:58.160 --> 0:24:01.840 because when I was in Can, I saw people I 0:24:01.880 --> 0:24:06.080 had not seen, literally for twenty five years, and they're like, oh, 0:24:06.160 --> 0:24:09.679 you're back, Jillie, big hug, and here's what's really fucked up. 0:24:09.720 --> 0:24:12.520 I'm thinking to myself, was I really that nice to 0:24:12.560 --> 0:24:14.679 you for you to treat me this way. And the 0:24:14.720 --> 0:24:17.440 thing is, I was it's just all that shit went 0:24:17.480 --> 0:24:19.480 around in my head that never came out of my mouth, 0:24:20.000 --> 0:24:21.720 and a lot comes out of my mouth everybody, but 0:24:21.720 --> 0:24:25.359 there were certain things and that I was thinking about. 0:24:25.359 --> 0:24:30.960 Why watching all of this about stopping that negative that 0:24:31.000 --> 0:24:34.680 negative talk internal talk, right, because to me, that's also 0:24:34.760 --> 0:24:39.359 a part of what is also karmic to us because 0:24:39.400 --> 0:24:42.560 that inside talk, which I'll say doesn't happen nearly as 0:24:42.640 --> 0:24:45.199 much as it used to, but it still occurs. But 0:24:45.320 --> 0:24:47.760 back in the day, you know, when I was a 0:24:47.760 --> 0:24:51.959 big dummy, I you know, I think it was ego 0:24:52.240 --> 0:24:56.879 and jealousy and admiration or things that I thought I 0:24:56.960 --> 0:25:00.119 should have and do and be that others were, and 0:25:00.200 --> 0:25:04.320 I think that's why that shit happened. So this is 0:25:04.359 --> 0:25:07.240