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Speaker 1: Scrubbing in with Becca Tilly and Tanya rad and I

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Speaker 1: Heart Radio and two time People's Choice Award winning podcast

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Speaker 1: Hello Everybody. We're screbbing screwb a dove dove in the tub,

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Speaker 1: Tub Tub. We're fresh off well not weird, but well

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Speaker 1: we all are, but mostly Tanya is fresh off of

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Speaker 1: the final award show of the season for Our Girl,

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Speaker 1: Thank You. It does feel weird, Like I was telling

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Speaker 1: back all day, like it's almost like the last day

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Speaker 1: of school. You know, like award season is this thing

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Speaker 1: where it was almost like this separate work family where

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Speaker 1: you have meetings and you know your team of people

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Speaker 1: that are helping you with each show and the people

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Speaker 1: that you're working with, and and then when it's the

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Speaker 1: last show, it's just like that's it, okay, so fun,

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Speaker 1: you're out. I don't know, it's like really sad in

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Speaker 1: first awards show of the season that felt like an

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Speaker 1: it just felt more back to normal than any award

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Speaker 1: feeling normalcy for you, especially. It was like getting dressed up,

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Speaker 1: now it's like kind of over. But on the flip side,

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Speaker 1: And it was been It's been really fun to just

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Speaker 1: And this year of just like let's do it. Who

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Speaker 1: cares like you only like Yolo. I really feel like

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Speaker 1: Yolo did this award season you did. I mean, you

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Speaker 1: all right. That weirdly remind reminds me because right when

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Speaker 1: Like you can feel it through the photos. You're like,

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Speaker 1: like Electrician, there's nothing like that new failing when you

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Speaker 1: start dating someone, nothing truly. But can I also tell

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Speaker 1: My theory was that they're putting Joe and Mick Widow together.

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Speaker 1: preview shows up at April's house in the next episode.

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Speaker 1: a I've never felt that before because I love sharing

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00:24:28,560 --> 00:24:30,480
Speaker 1: and I love talking about these things, you know what

426
00:24:30,480 --> 00:24:33,240
Speaker 1: I mean. It's like something that I really enjoy. But

427
00:24:33,280 --> 00:24:34,800
Speaker 1: I think I was at this point in my life

428
00:24:34,840 --> 00:24:36,959
Speaker 1: where I was really in a lot of pain and

429
00:24:37,040 --> 00:24:39,639
Speaker 1: like not dating or not wanting to go and like

430
00:24:39,840 --> 00:24:43,000
Speaker 1: wanting to just not be that for a minute. And

431
00:24:43,040 --> 00:24:46,479
Speaker 1: I felt like I wasn't able to do that and

432
00:24:46,520 --> 00:24:50,159
Speaker 1: that was really hard, not being able to be ready

433
00:24:50,240 --> 00:24:52,720
Speaker 1: to date or not being able to share, no, not

434
00:24:52,840 --> 00:24:55,919
Speaker 1: being not being seen as anything other than like my

435
00:24:56,000 --> 00:24:58,159
Speaker 1: dating life, and so that was really hard for me.

436
00:24:58,160 --> 00:25:00,000
Speaker 1: And I don't want im like I'm so much more

437
00:25:00,040 --> 00:25:02,880
Speaker 1: and that I think, and I think that might. I mean,

438
00:25:02,920 --> 00:25:05,080
Speaker 1: I do think people are interested in your love life,

439
00:25:05,080 --> 00:25:07,520
Speaker 1: but I think that's been something that people have followed

440
00:25:07,560 --> 00:25:09,760
Speaker 1: your journey for so long, so I think that's why

441
00:25:09,800 --> 00:25:12,920
Speaker 1: they are connected to you in that way. But like

442
00:25:12,960 --> 00:25:14,720
Speaker 1: our listener like I'm like I'm down with our Like

443
00:25:14,920 --> 00:25:18,040
Speaker 1: when the listeners went message, I message them right back

444
00:25:18,080 --> 00:25:20,400
Speaker 1: as um like yeah, I'm happy as a clam and like,

445
00:25:20,480 --> 00:25:22,639
Speaker 1: thank you so much. It's so sweet. Like that's the

446
00:25:22,680 --> 00:25:25,760
Speaker 1: reason why I love to share. It's like this community

447
00:25:25,800 --> 00:25:28,920
Speaker 1: that we have. It's like professionally, when I'm being made

448
00:25:28,920 --> 00:25:32,480
Speaker 1: to feel a certain way, it bothers me. Yeah, I

449
00:25:32,520 --> 00:25:35,280
Speaker 1: mean rightfully, so I think, and I think, yeah, I

450
00:25:35,280 --> 00:25:38,160
Speaker 1: guess from my perspective. And you weren't even talking about

451
00:25:38,200 --> 00:25:42,200
Speaker 1: the scrubbers because I'm like the scrubbers you relate to

452
00:25:42,240 --> 00:25:46,040
Speaker 1: so many people outside of dating. Oh yeah, it's like

453
00:25:46,080 --> 00:25:49,560
Speaker 1: we're the same, like literally the same. And I think

454
00:25:49,560 --> 00:25:51,240
Speaker 1: there's something beautiful in that, you know what I mean.

455
00:25:51,320 --> 00:25:53,960
Speaker 1: Like I think sometimes when you go through a breakup,

456
00:25:54,600 --> 00:25:56,760
Speaker 1: you know, you read all these books about how to

457
00:25:57,640 --> 00:26:00,760
Speaker 1: whatever or you know, be a bit and all these things,

458
00:26:00,840 --> 00:26:03,720
Speaker 1: and that's just not me. Like I just I can't

459
00:26:03,720 --> 00:26:07,919
Speaker 1: do that. Yeah, Like we tried to time, we tried.

460
00:26:07,960 --> 00:26:10,080
Speaker 1: We try a few of these games and things, and

461
00:26:10,119 --> 00:26:13,360
Speaker 1: they just it wasn't me. And I think it's important

462
00:26:13,400 --> 00:26:16,080
Speaker 1: for women to hear that that it's okay to Like

463
00:26:16,840 --> 00:26:18,639
Speaker 1: I even told him when we started talking again, I

464
00:26:18,640 --> 00:26:20,840
Speaker 1: was like, I was praying for you the entire time

465
00:26:20,840 --> 00:26:23,440
Speaker 1: we were broken up, And I think that was like

466
00:26:23,560 --> 00:26:25,400
Speaker 1: a shock to him, you know, because it's like, that's

467
00:26:25,440 --> 00:26:27,679
Speaker 1: not what you do and like you break up with somebody,

468
00:26:27,720 --> 00:26:30,000
Speaker 1: you know, Like, it's not like I didn't have that.

469
00:26:31,160 --> 00:26:36,879
Speaker 1: I didn't go down that path of negativity and I

470
00:26:36,920 --> 00:26:39,600
Speaker 1: don't know, there's a different way and a different approach

471
00:26:39,640 --> 00:26:42,840
Speaker 1: to things, and I think that it's hopeful and it's

472
00:26:42,880 --> 00:26:46,760
Speaker 1: beautiful and it's so so funny because we started talking again. Aaron,

473
00:26:47,200 --> 00:26:50,359
Speaker 1: my neighbor, Aaron Limb was was talking to him, and

474
00:26:50,400 --> 00:26:52,240
Speaker 1: she was just like, did you not pick up the

475
00:26:52,320 --> 00:26:54,760
Speaker 1: hints every time she saw a freaking butterfly that she

476
00:26:54,800 --> 00:26:56,600
Speaker 1: was trying to tell you that, like she was hopeful

477
00:26:56,640 --> 00:27:00,080
Speaker 1: that you were going to come back. And he was like, no, oh,

478
00:27:00,160 --> 00:27:02,440
Speaker 1: it's not that, Like you know, when you're the guy

479
00:27:02,600 --> 00:27:05,320
Speaker 1: in his mind, he's thinking that that's me being hopeful

480
00:27:05,440 --> 00:27:09,200
Speaker 1: for my future, whoever it is, you know what I mean.

481
00:27:09,440 --> 00:27:10,960
Speaker 1: I think it could have been both. It could have

482
00:27:11,000 --> 00:27:12,800
Speaker 1: involved but it's hard to say when you don't when

483
00:27:12,800 --> 00:27:15,520
Speaker 1: you're not confident in that you know, well, yeah, I mean,

484
00:27:15,560 --> 00:27:18,520
Speaker 1: when when you're the one who has made that decision,

485
00:27:18,960 --> 00:27:22,480
Speaker 1: you're assuming that the person I mean, rightfully so is

486
00:27:22,880 --> 00:27:26,359
Speaker 1: looking forward yea and little is you know that, Like

487
00:27:26,400 --> 00:27:30,560
Speaker 1: every time I see a butterfly, I'm like, this is him.

488
00:27:30,600 --> 00:27:35,000
Speaker 1: So are we calling him Red Star still or has

489
00:27:35,000 --> 00:27:38,240
Speaker 1: he been given a new name? What are we calling

490
00:27:38,320 --> 00:27:40,320
Speaker 1: him by his actual name? No, I don't know. I

491
00:27:40,359 --> 00:27:42,240
Speaker 1: guess we can call him Red Star. Yeah, welcome back

492
00:27:42,280 --> 00:27:49,879
Speaker 1: Red starl. Well that's exciting. It's exciting here at the

493
00:27:49,960 --> 00:27:54,040
Speaker 1: end of the day. Like, I'm very happy, I'm very

494
00:27:54,040 --> 00:27:57,960
Speaker 1: in love. Things are moving in a really great direction.

495
00:27:58,400 --> 00:28:02,080
Speaker 1: And I will share more as I feel more secure.

496
00:28:03,000 --> 00:28:06,320
Speaker 1: Do you feel like since y'all kind of had like

497
00:28:06,359 --> 00:28:10,520
Speaker 1: a restart, do you feel like y'all are back in

498
00:28:10,560 --> 00:28:15,680
Speaker 1: that like honeymoon phase of the like Travis and Courtney. Yeah,

499
00:28:16,040 --> 00:28:17,720
Speaker 1: I honestly don't feel like we ever got out of

500
00:28:17,720 --> 00:28:20,240
Speaker 1: that phase. But I was gonna say also that I

501
00:28:20,240 --> 00:28:22,880
Speaker 1: guess that was still It was almost a full year,

502
00:28:23,840 --> 00:28:27,600
Speaker 1: so it was a year over year oh that y'all had. Yeah, yeah,

503
00:28:28,160 --> 00:28:31,199
Speaker 1: so yeah, I guess that. I mean, Eastern Allison are

504
00:28:31,240 --> 00:28:35,080
Speaker 1: still in it. I'm still in it. Yes, Like the

505
00:28:35,119 --> 00:28:36,800
Speaker 1: other day I was driving home and I was like,

506
00:28:36,880 --> 00:28:41,200
Speaker 1: oh my god, I'm so excited. Really, yeah, that's so

507
00:28:41,240 --> 00:28:43,120
Speaker 1: see it or still at it too? What years since

508
00:28:43,160 --> 00:28:48,840
Speaker 1: this been three yeah, three years. It's so crazy. I

509
00:28:48,880 --> 00:28:54,080
Speaker 1: never thought I would be someone who first of all

510
00:28:54,200 --> 00:28:57,360
Speaker 1: was in a long term relationship like this and also

511
00:28:57,560 --> 00:29:01,479
Speaker 1: still like so sitting like a kid. Yeah, you know,

512
00:29:01,640 --> 00:29:05,560
Speaker 1: like it's just never been my personality, and so it's

513
00:29:05,600 --> 00:29:08,360
Speaker 1: it's funny. Every time I think about it, I'm always like,

514
00:29:08,440 --> 00:29:11,720
Speaker 1: this is funny, like so ironic that this is when

515
00:29:11,760 --> 00:29:14,480
Speaker 1: I get like needy or need attention. I'm always like,

516
00:29:15,320 --> 00:29:18,200
Speaker 1: get it together, Becca, It's not who you are, but

517
00:29:18,240 --> 00:29:24,640
Speaker 1: it is. Wait, so have you thought about anything like

518
00:29:25,040 --> 00:29:26,720
Speaker 1: do you want to always just keep like even if

519
00:29:26,720 --> 00:29:29,000
Speaker 1: you guys get married and have them. Well, I mean

520
00:29:29,040 --> 00:29:32,040
Speaker 1: it's something no. I've kind of been more so leaning

521
00:29:32,080 --> 00:29:35,200
Speaker 1: towards I get really torn about it because at first

522
00:29:35,280 --> 00:29:39,760
Speaker 1: it was for reasons that I don't have anymore, and

523
00:29:39,800 --> 00:29:43,200
Speaker 1: now it's more so like it's just kind of nice

524
00:29:43,280 --> 00:29:48,280
Speaker 1: that the pressure of it being public isn't present, even

525
00:29:48,320 --> 00:29:50,000
Speaker 1: though I think a lot of people kind of know.

526
00:29:50,320 --> 00:29:55,120
Speaker 1: I think there's something about it that feels comfortable that

527
00:29:55,200 --> 00:29:58,320
Speaker 1: it's not public. But on the flip side, it'd be

528
00:29:58,320 --> 00:30:00,680
Speaker 1: fun to share it, you know, because like I know,

529
00:30:00,760 --> 00:30:02,800
Speaker 1: it's like this happy it's like this, there's this happy

530
00:30:02,840 --> 00:30:04,960
Speaker 1: medium with all of it, because I think also for me,

531
00:30:05,520 --> 00:30:08,040
Speaker 1: you know, insane with Red Star and the reason why

532
00:30:08,040 --> 00:30:11,200
Speaker 1: we didn't post things in the beginning was for different reasons.

533
00:30:11,240 --> 00:30:13,760
Speaker 1: Now those reasons are no longer there, and so he

534
00:30:14,280 --> 00:30:17,120
Speaker 1: told me, he was like, you can, you know, post me,

535
00:30:17,160 --> 00:30:19,840
Speaker 1: do whatever you want. And I was like, okay, And

536
00:30:19,880 --> 00:30:22,040
Speaker 1: I'm like slowly starting to do it because I'm like,

537
00:30:22,360 --> 00:30:24,840
Speaker 1: it's that weird feeling of just kind of getting used

538
00:30:24,840 --> 00:30:26,280
Speaker 1: to it, you know, but it's like not wanting it

539
00:30:26,320 --> 00:30:31,280
Speaker 1: to be my whole thing, but you know, a little

540
00:30:31,760 --> 00:30:34,640
Speaker 1: cherry on top. And there was a moment and when

541
00:30:34,640 --> 00:30:38,880
Speaker 1: we were at the premiere for Cruel Summer and I

542
00:30:38,960 --> 00:30:41,080
Speaker 1: was doing a video and he like popped his head

543
00:30:41,120 --> 00:30:42,760
Speaker 1: into it and I was like, no, we just really

544
00:30:42,800 --> 00:30:47,240
Speaker 1: I can't post that, like you're both of them really

545
00:30:47,240 --> 00:30:49,240
Speaker 1: it's finding and posted And I was like, are you

546
00:30:49,320 --> 00:30:54,560
Speaker 1: all are you sure? Loud? You know? So I feel

547
00:30:54,560 --> 00:30:59,560
Speaker 1: that way too, But um, yeah, I think it's there

548
00:30:59,640 --> 00:31:02,160
Speaker 1: is like a balance and you you want to be

549
00:31:02,240 --> 00:31:04,480
Speaker 1: I think a lot of couples and I totally get

550
00:31:04,480 --> 00:31:06,400
Speaker 1: it because I think I did it with Robert, especially

551
00:31:06,440 --> 00:31:09,160
Speaker 1: towards the end where like there's this high you get

552
00:31:09,200 --> 00:31:12,560
Speaker 1: off of sharing your relationship and people validating it and

553
00:31:12,600 --> 00:31:17,680
Speaker 1: people liking and commenting and like expressing their happiness for you,

554
00:31:18,360 --> 00:31:22,760
Speaker 1: and there's this like high that comes with wanting that attention.

555
00:31:23,280 --> 00:31:25,600
Speaker 1: You know. Yeah, it's not even like it's not even

556
00:31:25,640 --> 00:31:29,800
Speaker 1: this high, I think for me, like I feel like

557
00:31:29,840 --> 00:31:34,440
Speaker 1: I finally found a man that for so long I

558
00:31:34,520 --> 00:31:38,040
Speaker 1: knew existed, Like I always knew that he existed, but

559
00:31:39,240 --> 00:31:41,600
Speaker 1: I would talk about it and I would I have

560
00:31:41,640 --> 00:31:44,320
Speaker 1: hope in my heart, but it's like until you actually

561
00:31:44,680 --> 00:31:47,800
Speaker 1: physically see that person, you there is a little like

562
00:31:47,960 --> 00:31:50,360
Speaker 1: question markt and you know what I mean. And so

563
00:31:50,400 --> 00:31:52,480
Speaker 1: it's like you finally find this man that's like so

564
00:31:52,560 --> 00:31:57,040
Speaker 1: wonderful and all of those things that you've been sharing

565
00:31:57,120 --> 00:32:00,520
Speaker 1: and talking about wanting, and so it's like you to

566
00:32:00,560 --> 00:32:04,200
Speaker 1: tell other people like these guys exist, like there are

567
00:32:04,280 --> 00:32:06,360
Speaker 1: people out there like this, and like it might take

568
00:32:06,440 --> 00:32:09,160
Speaker 1: you some johnpts around the block to find them, but

569
00:32:09,200 --> 00:32:11,680
Speaker 1: like once you do, it's so beautiful and like worth it.

570
00:32:12,160 --> 00:32:16,880
Speaker 1: I saw this TikTok and um this guy was like

571
00:32:17,360 --> 00:32:19,560
Speaker 1: he was showing him like doing all these realasue things,

572
00:32:19,720 --> 00:32:21,520
Speaker 1: and so it starts and he's like, my wife had

573
00:32:21,560 --> 00:32:25,000
Speaker 1: a dream that I cheated on her, and so it

574
00:32:25,160 --> 00:32:27,840
Speaker 1: was him. He went and got her flowers and got

575
00:32:27,920 --> 00:32:30,400
Speaker 1: made her breakfast and got her coffee and like a

576
00:32:30,520 --> 00:32:33,760
Speaker 1: card and rose pedals and lit a candle and like

577
00:32:33,880 --> 00:32:36,520
Speaker 1: had it all set up and was like, sorry about

578
00:32:36,560 --> 00:32:42,960
Speaker 1: your dream. That will never happen in real life. Yeah.

579
00:32:43,440 --> 00:32:47,120
Speaker 1: So I think that I think a lot of what

580
00:32:48,480 --> 00:32:52,280
Speaker 1: the lesson is here is that sometimes I mean, I

581
00:32:52,320 --> 00:32:55,160
Speaker 1: think there's certain instances were shutting the door and locking

582
00:32:55,160 --> 00:32:57,720
Speaker 1: the door and dead bolting the door is very necessary.

583
00:32:57,760 --> 00:33:01,040
Speaker 1: But I think I think you have kind of brought

584
00:33:01,080 --> 00:33:06,000
Speaker 1: hope to people who maybe it ended because of a

585
00:33:06,080 --> 00:33:09,400
Speaker 1: circumstance of timing. You know, maybe there was something that

586
00:33:09,480 --> 00:33:13,560
Speaker 1: was happening that wasn't working, but you still felt that hope.

587
00:33:13,600 --> 00:33:17,440
Speaker 1: And I think it was like assigned to you know,

588
00:33:17,480 --> 00:33:19,640
Speaker 1: like when you feel something in your gut and you

589
00:33:19,680 --> 00:33:23,880
Speaker 1: feel like you know something's right, don't shut the door,

590
00:33:23,920 --> 00:33:28,320
Speaker 1: unlock it forever, like be open to someone coming back

591
00:33:28,440 --> 00:33:34,360
Speaker 1: and proving their value in your life. Yeah. Yeah, And

592
00:33:34,400 --> 00:33:37,120
Speaker 1: it's I think too, it was never I mean, like

593
00:33:37,840 --> 00:33:39,440
Speaker 1: I'm one of those people were like, if you cheat

594
00:33:39,520 --> 00:33:45,760
Speaker 1: on me, You're you're dumb. The dead boats, they're the key,

595
00:33:45,880 --> 00:33:48,720
Speaker 1: throw it out the window. And it's not about the cheating,

596
00:33:48,760 --> 00:33:51,440
Speaker 1: it's it's the trust and the lack of character in

597
00:33:51,480 --> 00:33:53,840
Speaker 1: that person that I just, I just I don't want

598
00:33:53,840 --> 00:33:55,040
Speaker 1: that in my life, nor do I want that in

599
00:33:55,040 --> 00:33:58,040
Speaker 1: my life at all or forever. So if that was

600
00:33:58,080 --> 00:34:00,280
Speaker 1: the case, I have no problem shutting the door, walking

601
00:34:00,280 --> 00:34:03,000
Speaker 1: and throwing away the key. But I think that was

602
00:34:03,040 --> 00:34:05,320
Speaker 1: like the opposite of it. And I think it was

603
00:34:05,360 --> 00:34:07,360
Speaker 1: just it was a matter of me being in a a

604
00:34:07,440 --> 00:34:11,000
Speaker 1: certain place in my life that he wasn't necessarily at,

605
00:34:11,239 --> 00:34:13,960
Speaker 1: and so just kind of giving him that space too

606
00:34:14,880 --> 00:34:18,000
Speaker 1: to figure it out for himself. It's like it's like

607
00:34:18,040 --> 00:34:20,600
Speaker 1: a dutch door, right, Like he closed the bottom part

608
00:34:20,760 --> 00:34:24,120
Speaker 1: and the open the top part. You open that and

609
00:34:24,160 --> 00:34:26,279
Speaker 1: you let the breeze come in, and you you know,

610
00:34:26,560 --> 00:34:29,600
Speaker 1: it's inviting, Yeah, and and and and he can crawl

611
00:34:29,760 --> 00:34:32,120
Speaker 1: over it if he wants to be there, he'll make

612
00:34:32,160 --> 00:34:36,040
Speaker 1: the effort to get in the door and crawl over it. Yeah, exactly.

613
00:34:36,280 --> 00:34:38,560
Speaker 1: But like it has been so nice to just kind

614
00:34:38,600 --> 00:34:40,759
Speaker 1: of like, you know, we went on a double date

615
00:34:40,880 --> 00:34:44,879
Speaker 1: last week, and you know, I don't know like having

616
00:34:44,960 --> 00:34:48,799
Speaker 1: him around my friends again, and it's just it's it's

617
00:34:48,920 --> 00:34:53,120
Speaker 1: really nice and uh, it's going really well and I

618
00:34:53,160 --> 00:34:56,080
Speaker 1: am a smitten kitten too. We're supposed to play pain

619
00:34:56,160 --> 00:34:59,520
Speaker 1: pollen because he has been challenging me, but the two

620
00:34:59,560 --> 00:35:02,239
Speaker 1: times that he's had the ping pong table out and

621
00:35:02,400 --> 00:35:04,000
Speaker 1: has invited me over, I haven't been able to come.

622
00:35:04,000 --> 00:35:08,040
Speaker 1: So he thinks I'm scared, But I don't know how

623
00:35:08,080 --> 00:35:10,719
Speaker 1: the relationship is going to be once I once I

624
00:35:10,800 --> 00:35:13,319
Speaker 1: beat him, I want you to like nothing makes me happen.

625
00:35:13,440 --> 00:35:15,680
Speaker 1: We want to have like a game, like a whole

626
00:35:15,920 --> 00:35:18,520
Speaker 1: game night thing, or we like invite maybe like two

627
00:35:18,520 --> 00:35:22,319
Speaker 1: couples or something you do like ping pong attorney, Yeah,

628
00:35:22,400 --> 00:35:26,400
Speaker 1: like proseco pong. Uh, and then like there was one

629
00:35:26,440 --> 00:35:28,080
Speaker 1: that bought you ball, We got bought you ball and

630
00:35:28,160 --> 00:35:29,920
Speaker 1: like kind of just kind of rotate and do all

631
00:35:29,920 --> 00:35:32,000
Speaker 1: of these like just a Jenga how like a Jenga

632
00:35:32,040 --> 00:35:35,080
Speaker 1: there and just have everybody just like playing random games

633
00:35:35,120 --> 00:35:37,680
Speaker 1: all the time. How fun is that? That's really fun?

634
00:35:37,719 --> 00:35:41,920
Speaker 1: Actually loves games. Yeah, wait, but you know we should

635
00:35:42,000 --> 00:35:46,280
Speaker 1: do what at some point? What because I've been getting

636
00:35:46,320 --> 00:35:50,279
Speaker 1: a lot of messages about this as well. At some

637
00:35:50,360 --> 00:35:53,600
Speaker 1: point we need to do some sort of large podcast

638
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Speaker 1: with our significance. Well, yeah, I mean I would very

639
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Speaker 1: much like to listen to that. Yeah, like not like

640
00:36:02,719 --> 00:36:04,799
Speaker 1: not like I don't want to do like a newlywed

641
00:36:04,840 --> 00:36:08,319
Speaker 1: game where we just ask trivia questions. That's not it.

642
00:36:08,320 --> 00:36:13,120
Speaker 1: It's something It's something better almost like that when we

643
00:36:13,160 --> 00:36:17,520
Speaker 1: haven't felt those questionnaires. But just like in real life, well,

644
00:36:17,600 --> 00:36:25,280
Speaker 1: that will certainly expose my relationship. I have a feeling

645
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Speaker 1: back is how thrilled with this idea. It just I

646
00:36:29,360 --> 00:36:35,360
Speaker 1: think there would be steps that came in time. We

647
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Speaker 1: use a surrogate for back, like like we hire uh

648
00:36:40,040 --> 00:36:43,839
Speaker 1: like an actor to wear an earpiece and sit there,

649
00:36:43,880 --> 00:36:46,560
Speaker 1: and they're like, I feel like I might as well

650
00:36:46,680 --> 00:36:49,879
Speaker 1: just have ninety five p on at that point. Yeah,

651
00:36:50,680 --> 00:36:52,239
Speaker 1: I'm not opposed to it. I think it would be

652
00:36:52,280 --> 00:36:56,799
Speaker 1: really fun. I always said, like, once my relationship was

653
00:36:58,000 --> 00:37:00,759
Speaker 1: publican out there, that it would be fun to do

654
00:37:00,880 --> 00:37:06,439
Speaker 1: like a podcast. Yeah. Well, we're just like like even

655
00:37:06,440 --> 00:37:09,080
Speaker 1: if we did like our how we went to Palm Springs,

656
00:37:09,560 --> 00:37:11,520
Speaker 1: you know, like we like our probably took it took

657
00:37:11,520 --> 00:37:14,200
Speaker 1: we took scrubbing in on the road and we went

658
00:37:14,239 --> 00:37:18,000
Speaker 1: somewhere just like around and had some spicy marks and

659
00:37:18,360 --> 00:37:22,640
Speaker 1: recorded the podcast that night. I mean, yeah, we were

660
00:37:22,640 --> 00:37:26,200
Speaker 1: definitely Aeson Alison there because we need some some sort

661
00:37:26,200 --> 00:37:31,600
Speaker 1: of sobriety, I'm going to manage things. God, that was

662
00:37:31,640 --> 00:37:35,760
Speaker 1: absolutely When I think about that just block of time,

663
00:37:36,239 --> 00:37:43,000
Speaker 1: what my memory has is so chaotic, so chaotic. Red

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Speaker 1: Star in that tall your shirt that he's still wears.

665
00:37:46,000 --> 00:37:49,560
Speaker 1: First of all, it's the cutest thing ever. So for

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Speaker 1: our scrubbing in live when we did the show in

667
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Speaker 1: l a Um that shirt that Becca got, you know,

668
00:37:55,000 --> 00:37:57,120
Speaker 1: weach had our shirts and had our faces on them.

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Speaker 1: The company Gold Sheep right, yeah, yeah, sent extras of

670
00:38:01,560 --> 00:38:04,120
Speaker 1: my face and said this one's for your boyfriend. So

671
00:38:04,160 --> 00:38:06,320
Speaker 1: I gave it to him and he's like, this is

672
00:38:06,320 --> 00:38:08,960
Speaker 1: actually a really sick shirt. Like it's actually really cool.

673
00:38:09,120 --> 00:38:13,040
Speaker 1: And so whenever we go away for the weekend somewhere

674
00:38:13,120 --> 00:38:16,360
Speaker 1: like Palm Springs or you know, Santa Barbara, anywhere we

675
00:38:16,360 --> 00:38:18,640
Speaker 1: go on vacation, he brings it's like his vacation shirt

676
00:38:18,640 --> 00:38:22,200
Speaker 1: and he wears it every single time. It's like, okay,

677
00:38:22,520 --> 00:38:25,680
Speaker 1: here's the thing. I loved the I loved the shirt

678
00:38:25,760 --> 00:38:28,920
Speaker 1: for our event, like it was really cute. That shirt

679
00:38:29,080 --> 00:38:34,920
Speaker 1: is not sick. No, it is so every time you

680
00:38:35,040 --> 00:38:37,000
Speaker 1: sent me a photo of him in it, because he

681
00:38:37,040 --> 00:38:40,040
Speaker 1: always is dressed so well that like, when I see

682
00:38:40,080 --> 00:38:44,480
Speaker 1: that shirt, I just I want to I don't even know,

683
00:38:45,040 --> 00:38:51,680
Speaker 1: Like the gesture is cute, but the shirt cool? Tanya,

684
00:38:54,160 --> 00:38:58,279
Speaker 1: thank you? Does he wear it around like like if

685
00:38:58,320 --> 00:39:00,120
Speaker 1: you're going to go out to dinner or something, that's like,

686
00:39:00,320 --> 00:39:02,840
Speaker 1: come on, I'm gonna show you. So we were around

687
00:39:03,200 --> 00:39:07,359
Speaker 1: that's it's so the best thing ever because we'll be

688
00:39:07,400 --> 00:39:09,960
Speaker 1: like walking by people and they're like literally strangels. Will

689
00:39:10,000 --> 00:39:14,799
Speaker 1: people say, is that you? Is that? He's like, sure is?

690
00:39:15,560 --> 00:39:18,640
Speaker 1: I might get him like for something, either your birthday

691
00:39:18,719 --> 00:39:22,960
Speaker 1: or his birthday, get like a a new version maybe

692
00:39:22,960 --> 00:39:25,960
Speaker 1: in like a black or something like the pink is

693
00:39:26,040 --> 00:39:30,920
Speaker 1: kind of what's throwing you? I think? So, yeah, it

694
00:39:31,000 --> 00:39:34,719
Speaker 1: looks it looks cool? Does it does look cool? I

695
00:39:34,760 --> 00:39:36,400
Speaker 1: just love it because a lot of guys, you know,

696
00:39:36,440 --> 00:39:38,399
Speaker 1: that would be the shirt they sleep in or where

697
00:39:38,400 --> 00:39:44,279
Speaker 1: did the you know the workout? Probably not where mostly all. No.

698
00:39:44,520 --> 00:39:47,879
Speaker 1: I love, Like I'm so torn because in my mind

699
00:39:47,880 --> 00:39:50,000
Speaker 1: when I see it, I'm like, well, Tanya has just

700
00:39:50,440 --> 00:39:55,239
Speaker 1: met her match because who else maybe Eastern. Otherwise, I

701
00:39:55,239 --> 00:39:58,279
Speaker 1: don't know many people who would like publicly choose to

702
00:39:58,280 --> 00:40:01,600
Speaker 1: wear that. And then on the flip side, just like

703
00:40:01,760 --> 00:40:05,120
Speaker 1: the because I always see him and he's always dressed

704
00:40:05,200 --> 00:40:08,120
Speaker 1: really well. So when I see Tanya and like a

705
00:40:08,200 --> 00:40:10,160
Speaker 1: cute outfit and they send me a photo of the

706
00:40:10,160 --> 00:40:11,799
Speaker 1: two of them and he is in that ping sure,

707
00:40:13,640 --> 00:40:15,960
Speaker 1: it's usually like by a body of water. Like that's

708
00:40:15,960 --> 00:40:18,080
Speaker 1: why it's his vacation shirt. He's not wearing it to

709
00:40:18,719 --> 00:40:24,399
Speaker 1: a restaurant. I'm gonna I'm gonna work on a new one. Yeah,

710
00:40:24,440 --> 00:40:29,160
Speaker 1: maybe a hat. Your hats. He looks so cute in

711
00:40:29,160 --> 00:40:32,200
Speaker 1: a baseball hat. He looks cute and everything. Okay, well

712
00:40:32,320 --> 00:40:37,719
Speaker 1: you wear a brown sack and make it look chic. Yeah,

713
00:40:37,760 --> 00:40:43,080
Speaker 1: she sexy. Um. All right, we are gonna take another

714
00:40:43,120 --> 00:40:45,280
Speaker 1: break and then we'll be back with emails, which Easton

715
00:40:45,360 --> 00:41:03,719
Speaker 1: will be taking over today. What a thrill. Okay, we

716
00:41:03,800 --> 00:41:09,200
Speaker 1: are back. We have some hard hitting emails today, TikTok

717
00:41:09,320 --> 00:41:13,880
Speaker 1: theories and such. Um. Eastern take it away. Alright, this

718
00:41:14,200 --> 00:41:17,720
Speaker 1: this first one is from Sarah, as Taylor Swift stands,

719
00:41:17,800 --> 00:41:20,279
Speaker 1: I would love to hear your thoughts on the bazillion

720
00:41:20,400 --> 00:41:23,640
Speaker 1: of t swizzle theories out there. The Internet is truly

721
00:41:23,680 --> 00:41:26,040
Speaker 1: an exhausting and hilarious place when it comes to swift

722
00:41:26,120 --> 00:41:28,360
Speaker 1: easter eggs, so I think listeners would be thriough to

723
00:41:28,400 --> 00:41:31,880
Speaker 1: hear about these topics. Here a few examples. Harry Styles

724
00:41:31,920 --> 00:41:34,719
Speaker 1: being featured on the re record of Style the Rest.

725
00:41:34,800 --> 00:41:37,400
Speaker 1: She war has an extra sunflower the five cherries on

726
00:41:37,440 --> 00:41:39,560
Speaker 1: her shirt during an interview, the fact that they spoke

727
00:41:39,600 --> 00:41:43,040
Speaker 1: at the award show. Uh. That the re recorded albums

728
00:41:43,040 --> 00:41:45,920
Speaker 1: are coming out in certain months that can be easter

729
00:41:46,000 --> 00:41:49,759
Speaker 1: egged because of the photos released in Rolling Stone and

730
00:41:49,960 --> 00:41:53,040
Speaker 1: the third albums in the trilogy of Folklore Slash Evermore

731
00:41:53,120 --> 00:41:56,440
Speaker 1: is coming on August five, to be specific. Uh, Sarah

732
00:41:56,440 --> 00:41:58,759
Speaker 1: can't remember the reasons behind that one, but apparently that's

733
00:41:58,760 --> 00:42:01,400
Speaker 1: the theory. So what do we think about those? Okay,

734
00:42:01,440 --> 00:42:06,400
Speaker 1: so allegedly, what I've seen in certain social media apps

735
00:42:07,920 --> 00:42:12,800
Speaker 1: is that my my brain bandwidth today is not producive

736
00:42:13,080 --> 00:42:20,439
Speaker 1: to productive, No, not inducive, conducive, conducive to know I'd

737
00:42:20,440 --> 00:42:24,240
Speaker 1: get there, conducive to TikTok theories. So okay, we'll pretend

738
00:42:24,280 --> 00:42:27,120
Speaker 1: it's a Twitter theory then, or Patty sent it to

739
00:42:27,160 --> 00:42:33,680
Speaker 1: you or syson me. They yeah, OK, So apparently the

740
00:42:33,840 --> 00:42:38,080
Speaker 1: third album to the trilogy is called wood Veil. Yes,

741
00:42:38,160 --> 00:42:40,440
Speaker 1: I didn't know that. And there's at the end of

742
00:42:40,880 --> 00:42:45,799
Speaker 1: Um Cardigan, there's like a little jingle at the end

743
00:42:45,800 --> 00:42:47,839
Speaker 1: of the video. There's like a little jingle at the end,

744
00:42:47,880 --> 00:42:52,239
Speaker 1: and then it's actually the beginning of Willow goes into

745
00:42:52,239 --> 00:42:54,480
Speaker 1: the Willow video and then there's a little jingle at

746
00:42:54,480 --> 00:42:56,840
Speaker 1: the end of Willow and they think that's the beginning

747
00:42:56,920 --> 00:43:01,000
Speaker 1: of wood Veil or whatever the single is going to. Really,

748
00:43:01,520 --> 00:43:05,240
Speaker 1: the thing with these theories is that if they're not true,

749
00:43:05,760 --> 00:43:10,320
Speaker 1: then it's just sad because they're so genius that someone

750
00:43:10,520 --> 00:43:12,799
Speaker 1: people have come up with the whole plan that's not

751
00:43:12,920 --> 00:43:15,560
Speaker 1: even real I know. And here's the thing, because I

752
00:43:15,560 --> 00:43:18,280
Speaker 1: feel like there was an in one of the images

753
00:43:18,400 --> 00:43:21,799
Speaker 1: from Evermore you could see the word would veil, like

754
00:43:21,920 --> 00:43:24,600
Speaker 1: in the artwork, and so that's where I think the

755
00:43:24,680 --> 00:43:27,680
Speaker 1: name came from. But all the stuff with like the

756
00:43:27,680 --> 00:43:29,840
Speaker 1: they spoke at the Grammys, Her and Harry Styles and

757
00:43:29,880 --> 00:43:32,000
Speaker 1: then the cherries on the shirt and stuff like that,

758
00:43:32,080 --> 00:43:36,759
Speaker 1: Like sometimes the stretch of the Easter Eggs is so

759
00:43:36,880 --> 00:43:41,760
Speaker 1: much to ponder that it gets to be too much.

760
00:43:42,880 --> 00:43:45,200
Speaker 1: Oh see, I don't think that the Harry Styles thing

761
00:43:45,239 --> 00:43:48,360
Speaker 1: is a stretch at all. I think that's very possive.

762
00:43:48,520 --> 00:43:54,000
Speaker 1: Harry Styles right now, dating Olivia Wilde would re record

763
00:43:54,239 --> 00:44:00,320
Speaker 1: a song that Taylor Swift wrote about him in I

764
00:44:00,440 --> 00:44:08,040
Speaker 1: was like my brain went, um, yes, I do think

765
00:44:08,080 --> 00:44:12,000
Speaker 1: he would. Why in what way would that harm him?

766
00:44:12,200 --> 00:44:15,560
Speaker 1: All it does is do good? No chance he's finally

767
00:44:15,680 --> 00:44:19,560
Speaker 1: like coming out as this, like, uh, what's the word

768
00:44:19,760 --> 00:44:24,240
Speaker 1: solo artist? That's like really catching steam. No one's saying

769
00:44:24,280 --> 00:44:26,560
Speaker 1: he's not. But if she's the biggest, like one of,

770
00:44:27,239 --> 00:44:30,560
Speaker 1: if not the biggest artists in the world, asking him

771
00:44:30,600 --> 00:44:32,799
Speaker 1: to do her one of her re recordings during a

772
00:44:32,840 --> 00:44:34,920
Speaker 1: time where a lot of her songs were about him. Look,

773
00:44:35,000 --> 00:44:38,280
Speaker 1: I'm not saying I would love it. I was hoping

774
00:44:38,320 --> 00:44:41,319
Speaker 1: he'd do Out of the Woods. As a fan, I

775
00:44:41,360 --> 00:44:45,400
Speaker 1: would love it, and as a friend, as a foe

776
00:44:46,000 --> 00:44:47,600
Speaker 1: or what's I don't even know a poe is. But

777
00:44:47,680 --> 00:44:50,600
Speaker 1: as a realist, I just don't see it happening, And

778
00:44:50,640 --> 00:44:53,000
Speaker 1: I don't want to get my hopes up. I'm fine,

779
00:44:53,080 --> 00:44:55,120
Speaker 1: My hopes are already up for the third album, So

780
00:44:55,200 --> 00:44:58,359
Speaker 1: like I'm I'm already expecting that to be crushed, so like,

781
00:44:58,800 --> 00:45:05,239
Speaker 1: what might as well throw an Harry duet. I am

782
00:45:05,280 --> 00:45:07,160
Speaker 1: not ready for it, you know when she says are

783
00:45:07,160 --> 00:45:10,239
Speaker 1: you ready for it? No, we're not. Do we know

784
00:45:10,239 --> 00:45:12,319
Speaker 1: which one she's doing next? Which album has that been?

785
00:45:12,600 --> 00:45:18,280
Speaker 1: They think because the TikTok theory she has the band

786
00:45:18,360 --> 00:45:22,480
Speaker 1: with now, our Ginger Champ theory is that, um, she

787
00:45:22,600 --> 00:45:25,200
Speaker 1: did Fearless was because that was the first album she

788
00:45:25,320 --> 00:45:28,760
Speaker 1: won for Best Uh, she want a Grammy for Album

789
00:45:28,800 --> 00:45:31,040
Speaker 1: of the Year and that was the first one she wanted.

790
00:45:31,040 --> 00:45:32,880
Speaker 1: And they're thinking she's going to do the second album

791
00:45:32,920 --> 00:45:35,840
Speaker 1: of the Year that she won, which is nine Red

792
00:45:35,920 --> 00:45:39,880
Speaker 1: didn't win a Grammy, Nope, but did not. Wow. You

793
00:45:39,920 --> 00:45:41,799
Speaker 1: know what the thing is about Taylor Swift is that

794
00:45:41,960 --> 00:45:44,279
Speaker 1: I think, you know, the people who don't like her,

795
00:45:45,000 --> 00:45:50,759
Speaker 1: um like I can't relate to you. But um, I

796
00:45:50,840 --> 00:45:54,359
Speaker 1: posted a cover of this country artist singing All Too

797
00:45:54,360 --> 00:45:56,480
Speaker 1: Well the other day and I had so many people like,

798
00:45:56,920 --> 00:45:59,640
Speaker 1: oh my god, like, who is that? What is the song?

799
00:45:59,719 --> 00:46:03,759
Speaker 1: And I'm like, it's just the greatest Taylor Swift song

800
00:46:03,840 --> 00:46:06,279
Speaker 1: of all time? But they haven't even given it a

801
00:46:06,400 --> 00:46:10,960
Speaker 1: chance because Taylor Swift and I'm like, you just go

802
00:46:11,120 --> 00:46:15,799
Speaker 1: on read her lyrics. I have a girlfriend that's going

803
00:46:15,800 --> 00:46:18,320
Speaker 1: through a breakup and she literally just this weekend texted

804
00:46:18,360 --> 00:46:21,279
Speaker 1: me saying, thank God for the album that is read

805
00:46:21,480 --> 00:46:24,760
Speaker 1: because I'm going through all my emotions. This song speaks

806
00:46:24,760 --> 00:46:28,120
Speaker 1: to me. And I was like, girl, girl, let me

807
00:46:28,200 --> 00:46:30,360
Speaker 1: tell you a thing about that album and what I

808
00:46:30,400 --> 00:46:32,960
Speaker 1: have done to it the last two months. Can we

809
00:46:33,000 --> 00:46:37,400
Speaker 1: talk about the song Ivy because that one is so good.

810
00:46:37,560 --> 00:46:41,799
Speaker 1: It's so good and really doesn't get the true recognition

811
00:46:42,040 --> 00:46:46,799
Speaker 1: none like Ivy was from Evermore Right. Yeah, delicious, delicious

812
00:46:47,560 --> 00:46:54,799
Speaker 1: and nutritious. Um, all right, Well, so that answers that did.

813
00:46:55,160 --> 00:46:58,560
Speaker 1: Essentially we're thrilled and we're on the same page. Well,

814
00:46:58,600 --> 00:47:01,600
Speaker 1: I don't know about Tanya, but I am so hopeful

815
00:47:01,640 --> 00:47:04,000
Speaker 1: and excited for any of these theories to be true.

816
00:47:04,560 --> 00:47:07,920
Speaker 1: And if they're not, I hope she has ideas for

817
00:47:08,040 --> 00:47:10,480
Speaker 1: what she's going to do in the future. At the

818
00:47:10,560 --> 00:47:14,760
Speaker 1: very least. I love when people have really crazy theories

819
00:47:14,760 --> 00:47:16,799
Speaker 1: about this stuff and then it doesn't. I really do

820
00:47:16,920 --> 00:47:18,880
Speaker 1: like when it doesn't happen like this happens with Marvel

821
00:47:18,920 --> 00:47:21,000
Speaker 1: stuff all the time. Like people are these crazy they

822
00:47:21,040 --> 00:47:22,719
Speaker 1: see an Easter egg and these crazy theories and then

823
00:47:22,719 --> 00:47:25,160
Speaker 1: it doesn't happen, and I just find that very entertaining.

824
00:47:25,280 --> 00:47:27,160
Speaker 1: I have like a whole I can't remember what my theory.

825
00:47:27,160 --> 00:47:29,440
Speaker 1: I had a whole theory about Evermore before it came out,

826
00:47:29,520 --> 00:47:33,239
Speaker 1: and it just not no, not Evermore. It was I

827
00:47:33,239 --> 00:47:36,520
Speaker 1: think before folklore when she like was posting with the fences,

828
00:47:36,600 --> 00:47:38,840
Speaker 1: it was like a fence and there was like nine

829
00:47:39,480 --> 00:47:42,600
Speaker 1: pokes in the fences or I don't even know, remember

830
00:47:42,600 --> 00:47:45,680
Speaker 1: the palm tree. Yeah, that whole. I'm like, I'm not

831
00:47:45,800 --> 00:47:48,520
Speaker 1: one to search for the Easter eggs, but I enjoy

832
00:47:48,680 --> 00:47:50,920
Speaker 1: the other people who put them together for all of

833
00:47:51,040 --> 00:47:57,080
Speaker 1: us to make some Easter eggs. What is that in

834
00:47:57,120 --> 00:48:00,200
Speaker 1: your life? Yeah? Yeah, yeah, yeah, I don't know. That

835
00:48:00,239 --> 00:48:07,120
Speaker 1: means you'll see. We have one more email about about theories.

836
00:48:07,360 --> 00:48:12,240
Speaker 1: This is for Grays. Uh. This is from Grace about Grays.

837
00:48:12,920 --> 00:48:15,759
Speaker 1: I totally agree that lately the Grays episodes have been

838
00:48:15,760 --> 00:48:18,160
Speaker 1: a bit boring, but there's definitely a lull. But I

839
00:48:18,200 --> 00:48:20,719
Speaker 1: have two theories. One that makes me very sad and

840
00:48:20,800 --> 00:48:23,360
Speaker 1: one that gives me hope. Here's this sad one. The

841
00:48:23,400 --> 00:48:26,320
Speaker 1: Game of Thrown serious finale episode felt this way neutral,

842
00:48:26,800 --> 00:48:28,799
Speaker 1: just like this season, just like this season of grays

843
00:48:28,840 --> 00:48:31,480
Speaker 1: is feeling. My theory about the Game of Thrown serious

844
00:48:31,480 --> 00:48:33,640
Speaker 1: finale was that the directors did that to please the

845
00:48:33,680 --> 00:48:36,239
Speaker 1: average number of fans. There could have been many more

846
00:48:36,280 --> 00:48:38,400
Speaker 1: extreme ways the series could have ended to give fans

847
00:48:38,400 --> 00:48:40,240
Speaker 1: hope for a new season, but I think the directors

848
00:48:40,280 --> 00:48:42,600
Speaker 1: chose the middle neutral path so fans would not have

849
00:48:42,719 --> 00:48:45,080
Speaker 1: hope for a new season and the cast could choose

850
00:48:45,080 --> 00:48:47,600
Speaker 1: whether or not they wanted to continue. I'm worried and

851
00:48:47,640 --> 00:48:50,320
Speaker 1: sad that Krista is doing this to Graze. Here's the

852
00:48:50,320 --> 00:48:53,400
Speaker 1: hopeful theory. Krista is truly trying to replicate what the

853
00:48:53,440 --> 00:48:56,680
Speaker 1: pandemic has felt like to so many people, boring, exhausting,

854
00:48:56,719 --> 00:48:59,160
Speaker 1: and long. This means that it probably won't be the

855
00:48:59,239 --> 00:49:01,600
Speaker 1: last season. They're just trying to be as realistic as

856
00:49:01,600 --> 00:49:04,440
Speaker 1: possible about the pandemic. But I'm concerned this will deter

857
00:49:04,600 --> 00:49:07,400
Speaker 1: viewers about having less exciting episodes and keeping Meredith on

858
00:49:07,480 --> 00:49:11,759
Speaker 1: event Ventilate right. Uh. Maybe Chris Say is also trying

859
00:49:11,800 --> 00:49:13,960
Speaker 1: to see if the show could continue without Meredith as

860
00:49:13,960 --> 00:49:16,600
Speaker 1: a prominent cast member and gradually face her oute so

861
00:49:16,640 --> 00:49:19,320
Speaker 1: Ellen could try new things in her career. Well, this

862
00:49:19,760 --> 00:49:24,279
Speaker 1: was written before this most recent episode because Meredith spoiler

863
00:49:24,440 --> 00:49:29,880
Speaker 1: alert is off the event. I don't love the idea

864
00:49:30,040 --> 00:49:34,480
Speaker 1: of a I don't know. I'm so torn about the

865
00:49:34,480 --> 00:49:40,520
Speaker 1: Grays finale because I wanted it to end with Meredith

866
00:49:40,560 --> 00:49:46,239
Speaker 1: and Derek on the beach together. Oh so, so you

867
00:49:46,280 --> 00:49:49,440
Speaker 1: basically want Meredith to die. I want Meredith to be

868
00:49:49,560 --> 00:49:53,520
Speaker 1: with Derek. However that may happen. Whether that's just Derek

869
00:49:54,600 --> 00:50:00,399
Speaker 1: comes home he's dead, Well, it's like saying you Denny

870
00:50:00,520 --> 00:50:03,680
Speaker 1: to come back. That's not the same at all, Actually

871
00:50:03,840 --> 00:50:06,600
Speaker 1: exactly the same. They both are dead. I don't know.

872
00:50:06,760 --> 00:50:10,120
Speaker 1: I just like I enjoyed the idea of Meredith being

873
00:50:10,160 --> 00:50:13,319
Speaker 1: with like that being her ending with him, and I'm

874
00:50:13,360 --> 00:50:15,880
Speaker 1: not saying like, oh, she has to be. It was

875
00:50:15,960 --> 00:50:18,520
Speaker 1: just like after especially if you're seeing them together, and

876
00:50:18,600 --> 00:50:21,920
Speaker 1: I was like, oh my god, there's no way she'll

877
00:50:21,920 --> 00:50:26,000
Speaker 1: have this with anybody else while we're watching. So here's

878
00:50:26,040 --> 00:50:30,759
Speaker 1: my thought. If Meredith is alive, which it seems is

879
00:50:30,800 --> 00:50:32,560
Speaker 1: going to be the case, which I'm very happy for

880
00:50:32,680 --> 00:50:36,439
Speaker 1: because all her friends and colleagues and her children need her,

881
00:50:37,480 --> 00:50:39,799
Speaker 1: I don't necessarily need her to end up with in

882
00:50:39,840 --> 00:50:42,360
Speaker 1: a relationship. But then Derek was like gave her the

883
00:50:42,440 --> 00:50:44,480
Speaker 1: basically like go ahead, like I don't want you to

884
00:50:44,520 --> 00:50:47,720
Speaker 1: be lonely. So now I'm scared what I want Meredith

885
00:50:47,760 --> 00:50:50,360
Speaker 1: to be with somebody, but who she doesn't know. I

886
00:50:50,400 --> 00:50:52,359
Speaker 1: don't know. I don't know that person, but he's got

887
00:50:52,360 --> 00:50:54,560
Speaker 1: to be badass. But I would like her to end

888
00:50:54,640 --> 00:50:56,759
Speaker 1: up with somebody. I think I haven't seen her with

889
00:50:56,840 --> 00:51:00,359
Speaker 1: someone that made me feel excited about a relationship for her.

890
00:51:00,440 --> 00:51:02,680
Speaker 1: So I guess when I wish they could bring them

891
00:51:02,719 --> 00:51:06,000
Speaker 1: that back, that that would give me tingles in places

892
00:51:06,320 --> 00:51:08,680
Speaker 1: I don't know that I'll fill the tingles, but I

893
00:51:08,760 --> 00:51:12,880
Speaker 1: don't hate the thought of that being that direction because

894
00:51:12,880 --> 00:51:19,719
Speaker 1: it's smart. I like that throwback. Um. But yeah, I

895
00:51:19,760 --> 00:51:22,640
Speaker 1: could totally see them doing a neutral thing where people

896
00:51:22,640 --> 00:51:26,239
Speaker 1: are just like all right, I guess, so you know,

897
00:51:26,680 --> 00:51:31,239
Speaker 1: the good times to have happened and it's over. I

898
00:51:31,320 --> 00:51:36,200
Speaker 1: hate that dark, but you can watch. Once you watch

899
00:51:36,280 --> 00:51:39,359
Speaker 1: this most recent episode, I think you'll have a stronger opinion. Yeah,

900
00:51:39,440 --> 00:51:41,640
Speaker 1: you know, these emails were harder for me today because

901
00:51:41,680 --> 00:51:44,080
Speaker 1: I feel like my mental capacity is that A is

902
00:51:44,120 --> 00:51:47,680
Speaker 1: that not? It's greatest and the theories are really hard

903
00:51:47,719 --> 00:51:52,480
Speaker 1: for me to like sink my it's pretty It's really

904
00:51:52,520 --> 00:51:57,760
Speaker 1: not that deep. It's so funny is we were doing

905
00:51:57,800 --> 00:52:00,440
Speaker 1: the you know, the Oscar after party last night, and

906
00:52:00,560 --> 00:52:03,319
Speaker 1: I'm like talking about all this like deep, Like I'm

907
00:52:03,360 --> 00:52:05,040
Speaker 1: just going deep because at the end of the day,

908
00:52:05,040 --> 00:52:07,800
Speaker 1: I'm like, nobody really watched a lot of these movies,

909
00:52:07,920 --> 00:52:10,560
Speaker 1: like you know whatever. But at the end of the day,

910
00:52:10,800 --> 00:52:14,600
Speaker 1: there is so much about storytelling about movies that really

911
00:52:14,640 --> 00:52:17,000
Speaker 1: connects us. And it's like kind of putting yourself in

912
00:52:17,080 --> 00:52:19,879
Speaker 1: these characters shoes. And I was getting so deep last

913
00:52:19,960 --> 00:52:23,480
Speaker 1: night into these like life lessons and stuff, and everyone

914
00:52:23,640 --> 00:52:25,719
Speaker 1: was just like telling you what planet are you on?

915
00:52:25,800 --> 00:52:30,239
Speaker 1: I was like, Planet Happy. That's where I like to be.

916
00:52:31,160 --> 00:52:34,239
Speaker 1: You do love to be there. Catch me on Planet Happy.

917
00:52:34,280 --> 00:52:38,839
Speaker 1: It's right next to Pluto and Saturn. Wow, that's where

918
00:52:38,840 --> 00:52:43,279
Speaker 1: I will reside. Do you ever take edibles? No? But

919
00:52:43,760 --> 00:52:48,600
Speaker 1: are those mushrooms? Oh no, I'm not taking either of those.

920
00:52:48,640 --> 00:52:56,480
Speaker 1: But somebody's all mushrooms daily. Um No. But somebody the

921
00:52:56,520 --> 00:52:59,600
Speaker 1: other day was telling me that I like should try

922
00:52:59,680 --> 00:53:04,360
Speaker 1: mush rooms much be happy. I don't. I've never tried mushrooms,

923
00:53:04,400 --> 00:53:07,680
Speaker 1: but I mean it's a I think it's a psycho

924
00:53:07,920 --> 00:53:13,720
Speaker 1: isn't it like a psychedelic experience? Yeah, psilocybin mushrooms anyway,

925
00:53:13,800 --> 00:53:17,760
Speaker 1: but they have medical benefits I understand I've done. Are

926
00:53:17,800 --> 00:53:22,440
Speaker 1: those different than edibles? Yes, she's talking about marijuana. I

927
00:53:22,480 --> 00:53:24,400
Speaker 1: feel like you would be someone who would have some

928
00:53:24,520 --> 00:53:28,640
Speaker 1: like really out there creative thoughts because I feel like

929
00:53:28,640 --> 00:53:33,440
Speaker 1: a creative genius. Yeah, like I should get my phone

930
00:53:33,440 --> 00:53:35,840
Speaker 1: out and just write down the thoughts I have because

931
00:53:35,880 --> 00:53:39,880
Speaker 1: sometimes I'm like, am I just is my sober version

932
00:53:39,880 --> 00:53:44,280
Speaker 1: of myself just limiting me to the potential I can reach.

933
00:53:45,400 --> 00:53:47,839
Speaker 1: I don't know, I don't I don't take them as

934
00:53:47,880 --> 00:53:51,560
Speaker 1: often as I should. I guess if I'm going to

935
00:53:51,640 --> 00:53:54,719
Speaker 1: be with me about drugs, and I know it's not

936
00:53:54,800 --> 00:53:56,520
Speaker 1: I mean, it's legal and it is what it is,

937
00:53:56,560 --> 00:53:59,759
Speaker 1: But uh, I get And I wonder why I don't

938
00:53:59,800 --> 00:54:02,560
Speaker 1: feel this way about alcohol because it does the same

939
00:54:02,600 --> 00:54:05,080
Speaker 1: thing to you. But I don't like not being in control,

940
00:54:06,040 --> 00:54:08,560
Speaker 1: see I. And for some reason, with alcohol it's like

941
00:54:08,680 --> 00:54:11,440
Speaker 1: I can I guess maybe because I've been drinking for

942
00:54:11,560 --> 00:54:13,919
Speaker 1: so many years, I know how much I can drink

943
00:54:13,960 --> 00:54:16,479
Speaker 1: and still be in control, whereas drugs I've never done,

944
00:54:16,480 --> 00:54:19,120
Speaker 1: so I don't know that threshold. But I don't like

945
00:54:19,160 --> 00:54:25,520
Speaker 1: not being in control. Here's my thing. I prefer. Some

946
00:54:25,640 --> 00:54:30,000
Speaker 1: of my actions might contradict this statement. I prefer an

947
00:54:30,160 --> 00:54:33,640
Speaker 1: edible experience because I'm not hungover the next day. I

948
00:54:33,680 --> 00:54:36,560
Speaker 1: don't have any anxiety. Well, I don't get anxiety. A

949
00:54:36,600 --> 00:54:40,480
Speaker 1: lot of people can get anxiety from uh, marijuana. I

950
00:54:40,480 --> 00:54:43,799
Speaker 1: don't get that. But I just feel like I know.

951
00:54:43,960 --> 00:54:47,279
Speaker 1: I guess I've learned my limits, like I've taken too

952
00:54:47,360 --> 00:54:48,960
Speaker 1: much before, and I feel like I couldn't live my

953
00:54:49,080 --> 00:54:52,520
Speaker 1: arms up. But that would throw me into a but

954
00:54:52,600 --> 00:54:54,480
Speaker 1: I was so relaxed that I was just like, oh,

955
00:54:54,560 --> 00:54:57,680
Speaker 1: I can't like I feel like I can't love my arms.

956
00:54:57,920 --> 00:55:00,719
Speaker 1: The best time ever I was playing Mario kar I

957
00:55:00,760 --> 00:55:03,960
Speaker 1: was on Rainbow Road and I literally felt like I

958
00:55:04,000 --> 00:55:07,080
Speaker 1: was soaring, like I thought like I was on the road.

959
00:55:07,320 --> 00:55:10,600
Speaker 1: It was awesome. See, I don't think i'd like that. Well,

960
00:55:10,719 --> 00:55:12,279
Speaker 1: that's what I'm saying. I mean. But then, so I

961
00:55:12,560 --> 00:55:15,480
Speaker 1: haven't taken that much and it was like seven milligrams.

962
00:55:15,520 --> 00:55:19,160
Speaker 1: It was like nothing significant. But normally I know my

963
00:55:19,239 --> 00:55:20,839
Speaker 1: limit and I just know I'm going to be able

964
00:55:20,880 --> 00:55:24,359
Speaker 1: to be relaxed and chill and not and also not

965
00:55:24,480 --> 00:55:26,879
Speaker 1: have any of the negative effects that I sometimes get

966
00:55:26,920 --> 00:55:31,400
Speaker 1: from alcohol, which we've all seen in action. I don't know.

967
00:55:32,600 --> 00:55:34,480
Speaker 1: Maybe we can do it one night, maybe game night

968
00:55:35,360 --> 00:55:37,759
Speaker 1: when we're playing ping pong. Oh, but then, but then

969
00:55:37,800 --> 00:55:39,839
Speaker 1: I won't be good. You might be the best you've

970
00:55:39,840 --> 00:55:42,359
Speaker 1: ever been. You think so, I don't. You never know

971
00:55:43,280 --> 00:55:46,160
Speaker 1: it happens. I want. I want east and Allison too.

972
00:55:46,520 --> 00:55:48,680
Speaker 1: I try to get them to do one and um

973
00:55:48,880 --> 00:55:52,239
Speaker 1: palm springs. But I had other things happening that day,

974
00:55:52,320 --> 00:55:58,919
Speaker 1: so my plans got derailed. Next time, next time. Oh

975
00:55:59,040 --> 00:56:04,240
Speaker 1: my god, look who was joining is three minutes before

976
00:56:04,280 --> 00:56:10,280
Speaker 1: we end the podcast, Mark, Okay, Tanya didn't watch Grays

977
00:56:10,400 --> 00:56:13,360
Speaker 1: and Easton doesn't watch. I'm just here talking about it

978
00:56:13,400 --> 00:56:17,520
Speaker 1: by myself. Okay, I'm so glad I came. That was

979
00:56:17,680 --> 00:56:21,920
Speaker 1: a phenomenal episode. I finished that show. I like tears

980
00:56:21,920 --> 00:56:23,920
Speaker 1: in my eyes, goosebumps, and I was just like, this

981
00:56:24,000 --> 00:56:26,719
Speaker 1: is why I still love this show. I was sobbing,

982
00:56:26,880 --> 00:56:30,080
Speaker 1: I had chills. I was like, I never thought i'd

983
00:56:30,080 --> 00:56:32,520
Speaker 1: get fresh Derek and Meredith scenes, and they were as

984
00:56:32,800 --> 00:56:37,480
Speaker 1: intense and emotional as they always were. The way he

985
00:56:37,719 --> 00:56:44,240
Speaker 1: looks at her still. Yes, it was great top to bottom,

986
00:56:44,280 --> 00:56:46,520
Speaker 1: and I loved I even loved the little other medical

987
00:56:46,560 --> 00:56:48,319
Speaker 1: stuff that was going on throughout it. It was just

988
00:56:48,360 --> 00:56:52,200
Speaker 1: a classic episode of all right, So my plan still

989
00:56:52,200 --> 00:56:58,919
Speaker 1: stand tonight nine PMS, me and my satisfied pro because

990
00:56:58,920 --> 00:57:03,279
Speaker 1: we kind of that's brought into it. But becose you're

991
00:57:03,280 --> 00:57:05,560
Speaker 1: saying Derek was giving all those looks that'd like, give

992
00:57:05,640 --> 00:57:09,960
Speaker 1: us the tea. I mean, yeah, I mean like a

993
00:57:10,040 --> 00:57:13,719
Speaker 1: brownie or something. Back to the edibles. Here we go. No,

994
00:57:13,840 --> 00:57:17,840
Speaker 1: I'm not an edible brownie, just a regular brownie. Yeah,

995
00:57:17,960 --> 00:57:20,120
Speaker 1: that guy is trying to get me to take edibles.

996
00:57:20,520 --> 00:57:22,440
Speaker 1: I said, to be fun if we took an edible,

997
00:57:22,560 --> 00:57:26,640
Speaker 1: because I think Tanya would be like just a creative genius.

998
00:57:27,080 --> 00:57:29,600
Speaker 1: That's what I think. But she's scared, so it's fine.

999
00:57:29,600 --> 00:57:32,080
Speaker 1: I'm not gonna. I don't like peer pressure, so anyway,

1000
00:57:32,360 --> 00:57:34,720
Speaker 1: I am a peer pressure you to watch Grazy Anatomy tonight,

1001
00:57:34,800 --> 00:57:39,240
Speaker 1: because like Mark said, it's all the old fields. Yes,

1002
00:57:39,440 --> 00:57:41,880
Speaker 1: it really is. It's just it's just wonderful. I didn't

1003
00:57:41,880 --> 00:57:45,880
Speaker 1: watch it, didn't not watch it intentionally. I'm crazy. I

1004
00:57:45,920 --> 00:57:48,800
Speaker 1: was like I did because I was wondering why earlier

1005
00:57:48,800 --> 00:57:50,760
Speaker 1: in the week because it was Daily Pop that I

1006
00:57:50,800 --> 00:57:56,280
Speaker 1: was prepping for before Oscars. I also, I'm feeling a

1007
00:57:56,280 --> 00:58:01,520
Speaker 1: little worried and sad about Teddy she's going through. It's

1008
00:58:01,520 --> 00:58:06,200
Speaker 1: not I'm a little worried what she's going to become unhinged.

1009
00:58:06,440 --> 00:58:09,880
Speaker 1: It feels a little unhinged right now. But Owen's trying.

1010
00:58:09,920 --> 00:58:14,600
Speaker 1: I mean, Owen was likable in this episode. He was,

1011
00:58:14,640 --> 00:58:16,800
Speaker 1: But is he leading her on? Is he like trying

1012
00:58:16,840 --> 00:58:18,360
Speaker 1: to make her think that things are going to be

1013
00:58:18,400 --> 00:58:22,040
Speaker 1: okay again? No, because I think when he was comforting

1014
00:58:22,040 --> 00:58:23,760
Speaker 1: her and she tried to kiss me, He's like, no,

1015
00:58:24,560 --> 00:58:28,320
Speaker 1: like I'm trying to be BEA was like, who would

1016
00:58:28,360 --> 00:58:30,160
Speaker 1: you want Meredith to be with? And I was like,

1017
00:58:30,280 --> 00:58:32,600
Speaker 1: I don't know. I don't want Meredith to do with anybody.

1018
00:58:33,640 --> 00:58:36,560
Speaker 1: Was Joe right, I was like, I don't want Joe

1019
00:58:36,560 --> 00:58:42,080
Speaker 1: to do with anybody minus Oh, But I think Joe

1020
00:58:42,160 --> 00:58:44,480
Speaker 1: is gonna be with I think they're setting up Joe

1021
00:58:44,480 --> 00:58:49,880
Speaker 1: to be with Mick Widow. There's some scenes that like

1022
00:58:50,200 --> 00:58:52,920
Speaker 1: make it I feel like there's something there, they're setting

1023
00:58:52,920 --> 00:58:55,440
Speaker 1: it up. I feel like he's too old for her.

1024
00:58:55,520 --> 00:58:58,520
Speaker 1: Is that weird? I don't think he looks because he's

1025
00:58:58,880 --> 00:59:01,520
Speaker 1: me out. How old is he? I don't know. He

1026
00:59:02,000 --> 00:59:04,280
Speaker 1: strikes me as very paternal. I find him to be

1027
00:59:04,320 --> 00:59:09,280
Speaker 1: like Alex's age. Yeah, oh really, I think of him

1028
00:59:09,280 --> 00:59:11,439
Speaker 1: as considerably older than that. But maybe I'm crazy. Maybe

1029
00:59:11,440 --> 00:59:14,400
Speaker 1: it's just the bald head, you know. Do you know what, though,

1030
00:59:15,360 --> 00:59:19,440
Speaker 1: do not judge a bald head by its bald cover,

1031
00:59:19,640 --> 00:59:22,480
Speaker 1: because let me tell you, I have met some meal

1032
00:59:22,640 --> 00:59:26,160
Speaker 1: mixes that were and losing their hair and they just

1033
00:59:26,200 --> 00:59:28,600
Speaker 1: went went went and shaved it, and let me tell you,

1034
00:59:29,320 --> 00:59:32,760
Speaker 1: made him even hotter. It is true. It's all about

1035
00:59:32,800 --> 00:59:36,000
Speaker 1: how they carry it. It's how they carry it. He

1036
00:59:36,120 --> 00:59:40,680
Speaker 1: carries it well, he carries it well. I would look

1037
00:59:40,720 --> 00:59:42,440
Speaker 1: him up, but I don't know his I can't think

1038
00:59:42,440 --> 00:59:44,120
Speaker 1: of his I don't know his name in real life,

1039
00:59:44,120 --> 00:59:45,880
Speaker 1: but I would get his age because not we should

1040
00:59:45,880 --> 00:59:53,400
Speaker 1: probably not. It's definitely not me all mix. But um, well,

1041
00:59:53,440 --> 00:59:55,920
Speaker 1: I'm so happy you joined us, just so I could

1042
00:59:56,280 --> 00:59:58,800
Speaker 1: have someone to celebrate that with, because it was a

1043
00:59:59,560 --> 01:00:01,760
Speaker 1: dagger in the heart. When Tony was like, I haven't

1044
01:00:01,760 --> 01:00:04,600
Speaker 1: watched it yet. That is rough. Okay, here we go.

1045
01:00:04,720 --> 01:00:09,960
Speaker 1: His name is Richard Flood. Oh, look at that. Uh

1046
01:00:10,040 --> 01:00:12,320
Speaker 1: doing the math in my head. Here he's thirty eight.

1047
01:00:12,960 --> 01:00:17,920
Speaker 1: Ye see, my bad. Sorry I thought he was like

1048
01:00:17,960 --> 01:00:23,200
Speaker 1: my age. No cover, Nope, clearly. I think that would

1049
01:00:23,200 --> 01:00:28,920
Speaker 1: actually make him younger than than Alex No, but younger

1050
01:00:28,920 --> 01:00:33,000
Speaker 1: than Justin Chambers because Justin Chanders is fifty. Justin Chanders

1051
01:00:33,120 --> 01:00:40,360
Speaker 1: is actually my age. Wow, I'm not fifty, but you understand. Well, Yeah,

1052
01:00:40,400 --> 01:00:42,760
Speaker 1: it was a great episode. I loved it. I'm excited

1053
01:00:42,760 --> 01:00:46,000
Speaker 1: about episode. Grace is back. I mean, next week it

1054
01:00:46,000 --> 01:00:49,120
Speaker 1: will probably suck again, but for one week it was back. Great.

1055
01:00:49,360 --> 01:00:53,080
Speaker 1: Can't wait? Can't wait because May six, May six, this

1056
01:00:53,160 --> 01:00:55,920
Speaker 1: Kapner's return. Have we talked about that? No, well, we

1057
01:00:56,000 --> 01:00:58,760
Speaker 1: talked briefly, talked about that Jackson shows up in her house,

1058
01:00:58,800 --> 01:01:00,880
Speaker 1: but we found out that she's all in one episode.

1059
01:01:00,960 --> 01:01:03,800
Speaker 1: So it's like a little not that I'm thrilled. I

1060
01:01:03,800 --> 01:01:05,640
Speaker 1: can't wait for the episode, but I'm a little bit

1061
01:01:05,760 --> 01:01:09,680
Speaker 1: upset knowing that because now just like one and done,

1062
01:01:10,080 --> 01:01:13,520
Speaker 1: unless Jackson goes with her, goes with her and then

1063
01:01:13,520 --> 01:01:17,040
Speaker 1: we lose Jackson. But know that j April's together. I

1064
01:01:17,080 --> 01:01:21,040
Speaker 1: don't know, I don't know. The fan theories in my

1065
01:01:21,120 --> 01:01:22,880
Speaker 1: in my brain right now. It's like a lot. We

1066
01:01:22,920 --> 01:01:25,800
Speaker 1: did Gray's, we did Taylor, we did That's all we did.

1067
01:01:26,080 --> 01:01:30,880
Speaker 1: I missed. I missed so much seven, so they're almost

1068
01:01:30,920 --> 01:01:33,840
Speaker 1: the exactly. So I don't know what's wrong with me.

1069
01:01:34,040 --> 01:01:36,160
Speaker 1: You know, It's okay. We all have off days. It's fine.

1070
01:01:36,400 --> 01:01:41,000
Speaker 1: Thank you off day two. Well Mark, it was so

1071
01:01:41,080 --> 01:01:45,160
Speaker 1: great to see you for a second. Kanya, fantastic again

1072
01:01:45,240 --> 01:01:51,920
Speaker 1: last night. Congratulations, thank you. I like weirdly emotional, like bricca, bricca, bricca,

1073
01:01:52,480 --> 01:01:55,680
Speaker 1: but brought me these beautiful flowers in a card and

1074
01:01:55,720 --> 01:01:57,840
Speaker 1: I got like really emotional. I've been like weirdly emotional

1075
01:01:57,840 --> 01:02:01,600
Speaker 1: all day because it's like Awards seasons over, and you

1076
01:02:01,680 --> 01:02:05,680
Speaker 1: kind of create this outside family of people that you

1077
01:02:05,680 --> 01:02:08,280
Speaker 1: you know, we did three big shows together, so you know,

1078
01:02:08,400 --> 01:02:11,960
Speaker 1: from like the producers and the writers and the Glam team,

1079
01:02:12,040 --> 01:02:14,040
Speaker 1: you know, and then it's just kind of like, okay,

1080
01:02:15,000 --> 01:02:19,080
Speaker 1: that ends absolutely because I'm like, can we talk about

1081
01:02:19,120 --> 01:02:22,960
Speaker 1: the box of cards you got today? Today? I'm in

1082
01:02:23,120 --> 01:02:27,080
Speaker 1: workout and I keep seeing my Tania texted me like

1083
01:02:27,160 --> 01:02:30,160
Speaker 1: multiple which really doesn't alarm me when I get back

1084
01:02:30,160 --> 01:02:31,880
Speaker 1: to back text from Tanya. But I was like, oh,

1085
01:02:31,920 --> 01:02:35,240
Speaker 1: I wonder, what's what's happening. So I finished work out,

1086
01:02:35,240 --> 01:02:36,800
Speaker 1: I checked my phone and she had sent me a

1087
01:02:36,800 --> 01:02:40,560
Speaker 1: photo of this like box and it said to Tanya

1088
01:02:40,640 --> 01:02:45,160
Speaker 1: with love Becca, and she was like, Becca, I'm so

1089
01:02:45,280 --> 01:02:49,800
Speaker 1: emotional and I'm looking at it like I did not

1090
01:02:50,160 --> 01:02:57,400
Speaker 1: send that, and so I'm panicking, thinking, okay, um, you know,

1091
01:02:57,840 --> 01:02:59,760
Speaker 1: and my first thought was like, maybe it's something for

1092
01:02:59,800 --> 01:03:04,120
Speaker 1: the podcast. So I called Danielle and she's like, I

1093
01:03:04,120 --> 01:03:07,280
Speaker 1: don't know what that is. And I was like, okay.

1094
01:03:07,320 --> 01:03:09,680
Speaker 1: So I get on Tanya's I get on Instagram and

1095
01:03:09,720 --> 01:03:13,760
Speaker 1: I get tagged in stories from Tanya and she's like, Becca,

1096
01:03:14,040 --> 01:03:17,760
Speaker 1: this is so emotional, all these notes about things that

1097
01:03:17,800 --> 01:03:20,840
Speaker 1: you love about me. And she's like it's three clips

1098
01:03:20,880 --> 01:03:24,520
Speaker 1: of like this gift. That box is like massive, and

1099
01:03:24,520 --> 01:03:27,600
Speaker 1: I'm pulling these cards out and they're so beautiful, like

1100
01:03:27,680 --> 01:03:30,360
Speaker 1: I'm and I'm I'm tired as hell today, so I'm

1101
01:03:30,400 --> 01:03:33,800
Speaker 1: super hyper emotional and I'm crying like I'm reading these

1102
01:03:33,800 --> 01:03:36,160
Speaker 1: and like actually crying because I was like, oh my god,

1103
01:03:36,280 --> 01:03:38,960
Speaker 1: Like this is so not like Becca. Like whenever she

1104
01:03:39,040 --> 01:03:41,200
Speaker 1: writes to me me a card for anything, like I get

1105
01:03:41,240 --> 01:03:44,040
Speaker 1: emotional about it. And now there's like stacks of reasons

1106
01:03:44,080 --> 01:03:47,360
Speaker 1: like why she loves me and what she admires about me,

1107
01:03:47,440 --> 01:03:50,800
Speaker 1: and they're all so personal, like they were really good.

1108
01:03:51,440 --> 01:03:54,280
Speaker 1: So and I'm still going. I'm going for thirty minutes

1109
01:03:54,320 --> 01:03:57,480
Speaker 1: reading these things. Like I was like, I'm not weeping.

1110
01:03:57,880 --> 01:04:01,680
Speaker 1: So I'm at my place hannicking. I'm calling Daniel. She

1111
01:04:01,800 --> 01:04:04,240
Speaker 1: don't know. I call Ali, my manager, and I'm like,

1112
01:04:04,840 --> 01:04:07,840
Speaker 1: is did this company like reach out to you about

1113
01:04:07,880 --> 01:04:09,920
Speaker 1: this box? For Tanya? I was like, she's posting it

1114
01:04:09,920 --> 01:04:11,800
Speaker 1: on her story. I did not send this to her,

1115
01:04:12,240 --> 01:04:15,640
Speaker 1: and so then I'm creeped out and I'm like, oh

1116
01:04:15,720 --> 01:04:18,680
Speaker 1: my god, Tanya has like a stalker who's like pretending

1117
01:04:18,720 --> 01:04:21,040
Speaker 1: to send gifts for me, like writing her these like

1118
01:04:21,280 --> 01:04:27,080
Speaker 1: personal letters. So finally I um am able to figure

1119
01:04:27,120 --> 01:04:28,880
Speaker 1: out what the company was and I look it up

1120
01:04:28,920 --> 01:04:31,320
Speaker 1: and I realized it's in one of our emails, and

1121
01:04:31,360 --> 01:04:35,320
Speaker 1: so I messaged Becky and I was like, hey, did

1122
01:04:35,400 --> 01:04:39,520
Speaker 1: you send this to Tanya? And thank God, She's like, yeah,

1123
01:04:39,680 --> 01:04:42,560
Speaker 1: isn't it so cute? I guess. I guess really it's

1124
01:04:42,600 --> 01:04:44,800
Speaker 1: for me because like I wrote them out and you

1125
01:04:44,800 --> 01:04:49,560
Speaker 1: should be getting one from Tanya too, So it's the

1126
01:04:49,680 --> 01:04:53,040
Speaker 1: cutest gift idea ever, like I know what to do

1127
01:04:53,120 --> 01:04:55,760
Speaker 1: to really make Tanya's day. Now, my god, it was

1128
01:04:55,840 --> 01:04:58,560
Speaker 1: like so special and I literally had these thoughts like

1129
01:04:58,680 --> 01:05:01,680
Speaker 1: I can't believe Becca took the top. I'm to write

1130
01:05:01,680 --> 01:05:03,200
Speaker 1: all the I mean, I'm telling you, it was like

1131
01:05:03,240 --> 01:05:06,160
Speaker 1: a fat stack of like and they were thoughtful and

1132
01:05:06,240 --> 01:05:09,600
Speaker 1: things that were like, oh my Becky, great job, because

1133
01:05:11,640 --> 01:05:14,400
Speaker 1: I really I really took my time looking through the

1134
01:05:14,480 --> 01:05:19,080
Speaker 1: qualities like this is tan yet never like I mean truly,

1135
01:05:19,120 --> 01:05:21,000
Speaker 1: I have never felt I felt things in my heart

1136
01:05:21,040 --> 01:05:23,240
Speaker 1: from that. I want to make sure you guys, you

1137
01:05:23,360 --> 01:05:26,880
Speaker 1: both felt seen. But then you happen to make that

1138
01:05:27,040 --> 01:05:30,280
Speaker 1: call because I was like, do I just play along?

1139
01:05:30,320 --> 01:05:32,520
Speaker 1: Like what do I do at this point? Because she

1140
01:05:32,760 --> 01:05:36,000
Speaker 1: is crying, She's posted on Instagram like I've had no

1141
01:05:36,080 --> 01:05:39,600
Speaker 1: space to even tell my truth. What do I do?

1142
01:05:40,000 --> 01:05:44,920
Speaker 1: And so I was like, Tanya some bad news and

1143
01:05:45,000 --> 01:05:46,600
Speaker 1: I had to break it to her and it was

1144
01:05:46,680 --> 01:05:50,000
Speaker 1: really sad. Yeah, it was really sad because I'm in

1145
01:05:50,000 --> 01:05:54,080
Speaker 1: a fragile state right now. Yeah, And and that crushed me.

1146
01:05:54,400 --> 01:05:58,360
Speaker 1: Yeah it wasn't. But anyways, a really cute idea if

1147
01:05:58,360 --> 01:06:01,520
Speaker 1: you want to make someone say you didn't misread Becca

1148
01:06:01,680 --> 01:06:10,560
Speaker 1: as Becky like Becca and made scent from them. I'm like,

1149
01:06:10,960 --> 01:06:13,320
Speaker 1: that's what I'm saying. I'm like, we can't, like, we

1150
01:06:13,320 --> 01:06:18,520
Speaker 1: can't even air this because it is so weird. It's

1151
01:06:18,600 --> 01:06:24,480
Speaker 1: so good. It's just so good, danielso just fun to

1152
01:06:24,520 --> 01:06:27,840
Speaker 1: talk about. I mean, I don't know, I've getting that

1153
01:06:27,880 --> 01:06:33,560
Speaker 1: call was heartbreaking. Giving that call was heartbreaking, believe me.

1154
01:06:33,600 --> 01:06:36,360
Speaker 1: But then oh, and then I was like, maybe this

1155
01:06:36,440 --> 01:06:38,640
Speaker 1: is from her friend Becca that she met in Santa Barbara.

1156
01:06:38,680 --> 01:06:40,200
Speaker 1: I thought that too. I thought it was Becca the

1157
01:06:40,240 --> 01:06:42,360
Speaker 1: Dula too, but then I was like, and then I

1158
01:06:42,400 --> 01:06:44,280
Speaker 1: was reading some of the notes and I was like, well,

1159
01:06:44,320 --> 01:06:47,880
Speaker 1: this is personal if they just met whenever they met

1160
01:06:48,040 --> 01:06:50,840
Speaker 1: like this, it was intense for Becca the Dulah. I

1161
01:06:50,880 --> 01:06:53,200
Speaker 1: thought at first it might have been the Doulah, and

1162
01:06:53,200 --> 01:06:54,640
Speaker 1: then I saw how many of their were else, like,

1163
01:06:54,680 --> 01:06:56,560
Speaker 1: there's no way this is the Duelah. I met her

1164
01:06:56,600 --> 01:07:00,400
Speaker 1: like two months ago. Yeah, this is years of friendship

1165
01:07:00,480 --> 01:07:05,600
Speaker 1: right here. No. Still, no, There was one though, there

1166
01:07:05,720 --> 01:07:09,880
Speaker 1: was one that said something about like, um, share more giggles,

1167
01:07:09,920 --> 01:07:15,840
Speaker 1: and I was like, giggles. Giggles wasn't interesting word, never

1168
01:07:16,640 --> 01:07:20,280
Speaker 1: the same. I was getting creative, but it's like, oh,

1169
01:07:20,360 --> 01:07:22,160
Speaker 1: you know, there's probably a hundred in here. She probably

1170
01:07:22,160 --> 01:07:25,760
Speaker 1: got tired. Yeah, the Giggles. I was like, that seems weird.

1171
01:07:25,840 --> 01:07:28,720
Speaker 1: I'll never forget. I mean, my stomach dropped when she

1172
01:07:28,800 --> 01:07:30,680
Speaker 1: sent me that text and I saw that box and

1173
01:07:30,720 --> 01:07:34,479
Speaker 1: she was like, I'm so emotional. It was like me too,

1174
01:07:35,000 --> 01:07:39,600
Speaker 1: for different reasons, because I didn't send that. Um Basically,

1175
01:07:39,680 --> 01:07:45,200
Speaker 1: now I'm heartbroken and sad, but I have some beautiful

1176
01:07:45,240 --> 01:07:49,800
Speaker 1: flowers from back. I did bring flowers, though, so I

1177
01:07:49,840 --> 01:07:53,880
Speaker 1: felt like I felt like the notes really overshadowed my

1178
01:07:53,960 --> 01:07:56,680
Speaker 1: flower gesture. But yeah, I mean, I'm not gonna lie.

1179
01:07:56,760 --> 01:07:58,960
Speaker 1: This card compared to the box I got, is like,

1180
01:08:00,960 --> 01:08:04,840
Speaker 1: I don't know it's gonna gonna stepping up. Becca, better

1181
01:08:04,880 --> 01:08:13,040
Speaker 1: shape up because I need the best friend. What sit on? You?

1182
01:08:13,080 --> 01:08:19,960
Speaker 1: Better shape up because I'm honestly not read that books

1183
01:08:20,000 --> 01:08:23,960
Speaker 1: again because it's so true. Nothing love from but love

1184
01:08:24,040 --> 01:08:26,880
Speaker 1: from me to you. You're the one that I wanted.

1185
01:08:27,320 --> 01:08:34,800
Speaker 1: You are the best friend. Oh Becky, beck you really

1186
01:08:34,800 --> 01:08:38,920
Speaker 1: showed up, minus the Giggles one, but honestly all arrest

1187
01:08:38,960 --> 01:08:42,040
Speaker 1: of them. Spot on the Giggles was the only thing

1188
01:08:42,120 --> 01:08:44,320
Speaker 1: that how did you kind of tilt in your head

1189
01:08:44,360 --> 01:08:49,760
Speaker 1: a little bit. Yeah, well, not known. So this day

1190
01:08:49,760 --> 01:08:52,920
Speaker 1: has been a journey. You know. It's peaks and valleys.

1191
01:08:52,960 --> 01:08:55,559
Speaker 1: Sometimes sometimes you hit a peak in a valley in

1192
01:08:55,600 --> 01:08:58,080
Speaker 1: a month. Sometimes you can hit him when ittes in

1193
01:08:58,080 --> 01:09:00,800
Speaker 1: an hour. Yeah, I was gonna say span of an

1194
01:09:00,800 --> 01:09:04,639
Speaker 1: hour in a peaky valley twenty four hours. I'm hoping

1195
01:09:04,680 --> 01:09:07,080
Speaker 1: tonight you'll get some rest and feel better. Tomorrow it's

1196
01:09:07,080 --> 01:09:10,360
Speaker 1: gonna be a peak. Yeah. After Derek and Meredith and

1197
01:09:10,439 --> 01:09:15,439
Speaker 1: the satisfier. Um, all right, we love you all as always.

1198
01:09:15,520 --> 01:09:18,240
Speaker 1: Have a great week. Um. Can't wait to see if

1199
01:09:18,240 --> 01:09:21,680
Speaker 1: any of our theories come true this week. Thursday night

1200
01:09:21,720 --> 01:09:26,880
Speaker 1: for Grace, Friday night maybe Taylor Swift music, I don't know. Um,

1201
01:09:27,000 --> 01:09:33,560
Speaker 1: Haley Kiyoko has a new single coming out and it

1202
01:09:33,640 --> 01:09:37,679
Speaker 1: is a bopa. You gotta sneak listen. Of course I did.

1203
01:09:39,920 --> 01:09:44,519
Speaker 1: Connections is not funny? Oh connected? Oh my, just sit

1204
01:09:44,600 --> 01:09:48,200
Speaker 1: my shin so hard. Um, all right on that note,

1205
01:09:48,920 --> 01:09:52,960
Speaker 1: but just be kind. My sweatshirt says, just be kind,

1206
01:09:55,000 --> 01:10:01,160
Speaker 1: Paula my lead. Send your friends all right, We'll see

1207
01:10:01,160 --> 01:10:04,000
Speaker 1: you next week and we love you all. Love you mine,

1208
01:10:14,960 --> 01:10:15,000
Speaker 1: m