1 00:00:01,040 --> 00:00:06,360 Speaker 1: Conversations on life, style, beauty, and relationships. It's the Velvet's 2 00:00:06,440 --> 00:00:10,080 Speaker 1: Edge Podcast with Kelly Henderson. What's up, you guys, It's Kelly. 3 00:00:10,119 --> 00:00:14,400 Speaker 1: This is the last Velvet's Edge podcast of I don't 4 00:00:14,400 --> 00:00:16,480 Speaker 1: know how you guys are feeling, but I'm actually really 5 00:00:16,960 --> 00:00:19,840 Speaker 1: really ready for this year to be over. It's been 6 00:00:19,880 --> 00:00:23,600 Speaker 1: a doozy. I've learned a lot um and a lot 7 00:00:23,640 --> 00:00:26,360 Speaker 1: of things have changed, but I think that going into 8 00:00:27,440 --> 00:00:29,520 Speaker 1: we're going to have our best year yet. I feel it. 9 00:00:29,680 --> 00:00:31,920 Speaker 1: I feel it in my bones, and today I want 10 00:00:31,920 --> 00:00:35,600 Speaker 1: to talk about that. I want to talk about resolutions, um, 11 00:00:35,720 --> 00:00:38,800 Speaker 1: what we're taking with us, what we're leaving behind. And 12 00:00:39,000 --> 00:00:41,800 Speaker 1: I mean, obviously I'll know that I hate doing solo 13 00:00:41,960 --> 00:00:45,199 Speaker 1: podcast I find them very difficult and just really learnsome 14 00:00:45,800 --> 00:01:05,600 Speaker 1: so so you don't have to do it. I'm back back. Literally, 15 00:01:05,640 --> 00:01:08,280 Speaker 1: I asked you what you're walking music would be if 16 00:01:08,280 --> 00:01:10,399 Speaker 1: you're hear a baseball player, and that's what he begged. 17 00:01:12,440 --> 00:01:16,440 Speaker 1: Welcome back, Chip. Oh my god. I hope that people 18 00:01:16,600 --> 00:01:20,840 Speaker 1: enjoyed that as much as I did. Oh have you 19 00:01:20,880 --> 00:01:22,800 Speaker 1: been where you've been? What you've been doing? I feel 20 00:01:22,840 --> 00:01:25,040 Speaker 1: like we haven't seen you in so long I've been 21 00:01:25,040 --> 00:01:28,320 Speaker 1: to Jamaica and Canada. Do you even lestly been in Canada? 22 00:01:28,560 --> 00:01:33,759 Speaker 1: Let's get really here, you're a citizen. I mean, there's 23 00:01:33,760 --> 00:01:36,800 Speaker 1: so many stories I've heard about your journeys, but they're 24 00:01:37,000 --> 00:01:39,640 Speaker 1: honestly too many for us to fit in one podcast. 25 00:01:39,680 --> 00:01:41,520 Speaker 1: Is there one thing you want the listeners to know 26 00:01:41,640 --> 00:01:47,400 Speaker 1: about your time away? What did you learn during my pause? Um? 27 00:01:47,480 --> 00:01:53,440 Speaker 1: What did I learned during my pause? Um? But you 28 00:01:53,560 --> 00:01:58,040 Speaker 1: kind of got glocked into that. I Mean. The funny 29 00:01:58,040 --> 00:02:00,440 Speaker 1: thing is is like it makes you wonder, like where 30 00:02:00,440 --> 00:02:02,280 Speaker 1: did I even find the time to do that's when 31 00:02:02,280 --> 00:02:06,160 Speaker 1: we were doing that. But you know, I think it's 32 00:02:06,480 --> 00:02:08,000 Speaker 1: when there are things that you like to do, you 33 00:02:08,040 --> 00:02:10,440 Speaker 1: make the time for it. You know, that's right. But 34 00:02:10,480 --> 00:02:14,280 Speaker 1: it's also like everyone needs a break sometime, right, you know? 35 00:02:14,600 --> 00:02:17,480 Speaker 1: So do you remember I've told the story multiple times 36 00:02:17,840 --> 00:02:21,640 Speaker 1: on the podcast about the day that I sort of 37 00:02:21,680 --> 00:02:23,720 Speaker 1: just like hit the bottom and I was like, I 38 00:02:23,760 --> 00:02:26,120 Speaker 1: can't do this anymore. And you were actually a part 39 00:02:26,120 --> 00:02:27,480 Speaker 1: of that day. You showed up at my house too, 40 00:02:27,560 --> 00:02:29,680 Speaker 1: which was one of I mean, I said this to 41 00:02:29,680 --> 00:02:32,160 Speaker 1: you earlier, but it's one of the reasons that I 42 00:02:32,200 --> 00:02:34,520 Speaker 1: feel so lucky in this life is because I have 43 00:02:34,760 --> 00:02:39,200 Speaker 1: friends and friendships that are so genuinely real that when 44 00:02:39,240 --> 00:02:42,000 Speaker 1: one of us struggles, that other people are just constantly 45 00:02:42,000 --> 00:02:44,480 Speaker 1: there to help build us back up and keep us 46 00:02:44,520 --> 00:02:47,079 Speaker 1: going and hold our hands through the hard times. And 47 00:02:47,160 --> 00:02:49,480 Speaker 1: you and our friend Mary were both here for me 48 00:02:49,560 --> 00:02:53,480 Speaker 1: that day, and I mean you were very much like, hey, 49 00:02:53,680 --> 00:02:56,080 Speaker 1: it's okay, like take some of the pressure off. You 50 00:02:56,120 --> 00:02:58,000 Speaker 1: don't have to do this. But like, what was that 51 00:02:58,040 --> 00:03:01,519 Speaker 1: like from your perspective. I'm just curious, like, do was 52 00:03:01,560 --> 00:03:04,560 Speaker 1: there anything that you related to that I was feeling 53 00:03:04,840 --> 00:03:08,280 Speaker 1: or that you just observed and learned yourself from that experience. Yeah. 54 00:03:08,320 --> 00:03:11,200 Speaker 1: I mean, look, I think that it's really easy in 55 00:03:11,280 --> 00:03:14,919 Speaker 1: life to feel like everything that we're doing is so 56 00:03:15,000 --> 00:03:19,480 Speaker 1: important and um, that the rug is going to be 57 00:03:19,480 --> 00:03:21,480 Speaker 1: pulled out from under us and it's going to cause 58 00:03:21,639 --> 00:03:26,040 Speaker 1: every dominot of all um. And you know, we we 59 00:03:26,120 --> 00:03:30,040 Speaker 1: work in entertainment, Like we're not curing cancer, we're not 60 00:03:30,200 --> 00:03:34,400 Speaker 1: saving babies. We we bring we bring joy to people. 61 00:03:34,480 --> 00:03:36,680 Speaker 1: And I think that's important. And you know, I don't 62 00:03:36,680 --> 00:03:38,720 Speaker 1: want to um, you know, I don't think this is 63 00:03:38,760 --> 00:03:41,120 Speaker 1: a waste of time. That's I think that there is 64 00:03:41,120 --> 00:03:43,920 Speaker 1: a reason why we do these things. But I also 65 00:03:44,080 --> 00:03:47,560 Speaker 1: think that, um, we can't do them if we're not here, 66 00:03:48,320 --> 00:03:52,600 Speaker 1: and um, we have to take care of ourselves. So 67 00:03:54,080 --> 00:03:56,760 Speaker 1: it is more important for me to have you in 68 00:03:56,880 --> 00:04:01,200 Speaker 1: my life as a friend than to do this. Um, 69 00:04:01,240 --> 00:04:05,080 Speaker 1: although I love doing this with you, um, I, it's 70 00:04:05,120 --> 00:04:08,960 Speaker 1: not worth your suffering. So I think, you know, for me, 71 00:04:09,000 --> 00:04:11,560 Speaker 1: it was just like it is really hard to let 72 00:04:11,600 --> 00:04:14,800 Speaker 1: go of these things. And I remember the first time. 73 00:04:14,880 --> 00:04:17,800 Speaker 1: I mean, it's a little unrelated because I wasn't having 74 00:04:17,839 --> 00:04:20,200 Speaker 1: like a breakdown, but like the first time I wanted 75 00:04:20,200 --> 00:04:23,240 Speaker 1: to quit a job and I had dreamt my whole well, 76 00:04:23,240 --> 00:04:24,800 Speaker 1: since I was like in fifth grade of working for 77 00:04:24,839 --> 00:04:27,560 Speaker 1: Atlantic Records. And I got a job at Atlantic Records, 78 00:04:27,800 --> 00:04:30,000 Speaker 1: and I was five and a half years in and 79 00:04:30,040 --> 00:04:33,280 Speaker 1: they had fired all the executives and the new executives 80 00:04:33,279 --> 00:04:35,560 Speaker 1: were coming in and I didn't want to be there anymore. 81 00:04:35,920 --> 00:04:38,800 Speaker 1: But I also was terrified to say it because I 82 00:04:38,839 --> 00:04:41,760 Speaker 1: felt like I was giving up on a dream. And 83 00:04:41,800 --> 00:04:45,159 Speaker 1: I realized one night, like, wait, I've already lived the 84 00:04:45,200 --> 00:04:49,080 Speaker 1: fucking dream, you know what I mean. Like so, and 85 00:04:49,080 --> 00:04:51,280 Speaker 1: it was like in that moment, I had like this 86 00:04:51,320 --> 00:04:53,839 Speaker 1: like really cathartic thing where I called my old boss 87 00:04:53,839 --> 00:04:55,839 Speaker 1: and said to her like, I think I'm gonna quit 88 00:04:55,880 --> 00:04:58,159 Speaker 1: tomorrow and she was like do it. And after that 89 00:04:58,200 --> 00:05:01,000 Speaker 1: conversation with her, I was like in a huddle in 90 00:05:01,160 --> 00:05:03,920 Speaker 1: fetal position on my floor, like bawling, but not out 91 00:05:03,920 --> 00:05:07,400 Speaker 1: of sadness, out of like letting it all go. Yeah. 92 00:05:07,400 --> 00:05:10,080 Speaker 1: It was. It was really relieving because I knew I 93 00:05:10,120 --> 00:05:13,640 Speaker 1: was going to be okay. Yeah, and um so, like 94 00:05:14,760 --> 00:05:16,480 Speaker 1: to relate it back to that moment for you, it's 95 00:05:16,480 --> 00:05:18,560 Speaker 1: like I knew you were going to be okay. You 96 00:05:18,600 --> 00:05:21,799 Speaker 1: just needed to be supported in that. And um so, 97 00:05:22,240 --> 00:05:26,560 Speaker 1: for me, that the lesson was just like does any 98 00:05:26,600 --> 00:05:29,240 Speaker 1: of this stuff matter if we're we don't look at 99 00:05:29,279 --> 00:05:32,120 Speaker 1: ourselves and tell us tell ourselves that we matter. Right, 100 00:05:32,360 --> 00:05:34,000 Speaker 1: That's such a good way to say it. It's like 101 00:05:34,040 --> 00:05:36,279 Speaker 1: the bigger picture thing. And that's what you said to 102 00:05:36,320 --> 00:05:39,400 Speaker 1: me that day. I'll never forget. But you were just like, listen, 103 00:05:39,839 --> 00:05:42,840 Speaker 1: this is great, and like, I want to be very clear, 104 00:05:42,920 --> 00:05:45,400 Speaker 1: it wasn't just a podcast like this was a build 105 00:05:45,480 --> 00:05:49,760 Speaker 1: up over years of just self abandonment and kind of 106 00:05:49,760 --> 00:05:52,719 Speaker 1: just some really major hits that I've taken and tried 107 00:05:52,760 --> 00:05:56,560 Speaker 1: to just keep moving through them versus giving ussell myself 108 00:05:56,600 --> 00:05:59,200 Speaker 1: the space to grieve. And I didn't feel like that 109 00:05:59,279 --> 00:06:00,760 Speaker 1: was really an option, and I did it in my 110 00:06:00,800 --> 00:06:03,159 Speaker 1: own ways, but it actually almost prolonged a lot of 111 00:06:03,160 --> 00:06:06,159 Speaker 1: it because I wasn't just taking the time to just 112 00:06:06,279 --> 00:06:10,200 Speaker 1: focus on the healing or feeling the pain. And I'm 113 00:06:10,279 --> 00:06:12,440 Speaker 1: just a person that has to feel through my feelings 114 00:06:12,520 --> 00:06:14,320 Speaker 1: or they're not going to go away. And I actually 115 00:06:14,320 --> 00:06:16,240 Speaker 1: think most people are like that. We just are a 116 00:06:16,279 --> 00:06:18,280 Speaker 1: little bit out of touch with it. And I'm I'm 117 00:06:18,320 --> 00:06:21,080 Speaker 1: one of those people who's wired to feel so big 118 00:06:21,120 --> 00:06:23,280 Speaker 1: that like I can't avoid it and it just ends 119 00:06:23,360 --> 00:06:26,599 Speaker 1: up crashing down like it did. But the podcast was 120 00:06:26,640 --> 00:06:29,719 Speaker 1: one place where, um, you know, a lot of my 121 00:06:29,880 --> 00:06:33,640 Speaker 1: jobs put me in this position of exposure, and like, 122 00:06:34,279 --> 00:06:38,240 Speaker 1: when you're in this down spot, it's it's very hard 123 00:06:38,320 --> 00:06:41,120 Speaker 1: to keep showing up to put yourself out there, you know, 124 00:06:41,200 --> 00:06:44,239 Speaker 1: And especially with some of my stuff being as public 125 00:06:44,279 --> 00:06:46,359 Speaker 1: as it was, it was really hard for me to 126 00:06:46,400 --> 00:06:48,400 Speaker 1: get out of bed and want to like show up 127 00:06:48,440 --> 00:06:51,440 Speaker 1: to do that anymore. And so you said to me, 128 00:06:51,520 --> 00:06:54,159 Speaker 1: you were just like, look, just press pause and then 129 00:06:54,240 --> 00:06:56,680 Speaker 1: figure out if this is even stuff you want to 130 00:06:56,760 --> 00:06:59,880 Speaker 1: do anymore, because I've become so disconnected that it was 131 00:07:00,120 --> 00:07:02,200 Speaker 1: just like phoning it in. And I think that was 132 00:07:02,240 --> 00:07:04,599 Speaker 1: one of the biggest gifts for me, was just to say, yeah, 133 00:07:04,680 --> 00:07:07,360 Speaker 1: let's hit pause. I don't have to quit. I'm not 134 00:07:07,400 --> 00:07:09,800 Speaker 1: ready to do that. And I realized during the pause 135 00:07:09,880 --> 00:07:12,200 Speaker 1: how much I value this, you know, And so then 136 00:07:12,240 --> 00:07:14,160 Speaker 1: it was like, Okay, yeah, I am ready to go 137 00:07:14,240 --> 00:07:16,760 Speaker 1: back now. But I wouldn't have had that connection to 138 00:07:16,840 --> 00:07:20,240 Speaker 1: it if I didn't stop and have the support and 139 00:07:20,360 --> 00:07:23,000 Speaker 1: knowing I was going to be okay. And so the 140 00:07:23,000 --> 00:07:25,160 Speaker 1: whole thing and the whole all the friendships that I 141 00:07:25,240 --> 00:07:29,520 Speaker 1: have have really really really resonated with how I've been 142 00:07:29,560 --> 00:07:33,080 Speaker 1: able to heal and move forward in my own life 143 00:07:33,120 --> 00:07:35,840 Speaker 1: knowing like I'm supported no matter what. Right. Well, I 144 00:07:35,880 --> 00:07:37,680 Speaker 1: also too, I got a sense that like you were 145 00:07:37,680 --> 00:07:43,200 Speaker 1: so worried about letting me down and and the listeners. 146 00:07:43,240 --> 00:07:49,320 Speaker 1: But it's the lesson in that is like communication. Again, 147 00:07:49,520 --> 00:07:52,160 Speaker 1: we talk about this a lot. If you had said 148 00:07:52,160 --> 00:07:55,000 Speaker 1: to me any other day, like, hey, I'm not feeling 149 00:07:55,000 --> 00:07:58,280 Speaker 1: this right now, can we pause, I would have been like, sure, right, 150 00:07:58,640 --> 00:08:02,760 Speaker 1: But I was showing up for you. So it's like 151 00:08:03,040 --> 00:08:06,040 Speaker 1: I think sometimes it's like you just gotta say things 152 00:08:06,040 --> 00:08:08,280 Speaker 1: and get them all from chest and not not like 153 00:08:08,920 --> 00:08:10,800 Speaker 1: not let it be something that just builds up to 154 00:08:10,800 --> 00:08:15,280 Speaker 1: the point where like you're literally ready to like listening 155 00:08:15,320 --> 00:08:18,760 Speaker 1: to my playlist and burning. Talk about this, Like my 156 00:08:18,800 --> 00:08:21,560 Speaker 1: neighbors literally probably think I'm insane. Do you remember I 157 00:08:21,560 --> 00:08:24,880 Speaker 1: had that bucket because I was like, there's always mosquitoes 158 00:08:24,880 --> 00:08:26,960 Speaker 1: in my backyard. I didn't get in the backyard treated 159 00:08:27,000 --> 00:08:31,160 Speaker 1: this year mistake, because when you're sitting in your backyard crying, 160 00:08:31,440 --> 00:08:33,840 Speaker 1: like I remember, I had those like mosquito bets all 161 00:08:33,840 --> 00:08:36,960 Speaker 1: over my forehead like it looked like a psycho um. 162 00:08:37,000 --> 00:08:39,440 Speaker 1: But I'm burning this Palace Santo because I didn't have 163 00:08:39,480 --> 00:08:42,000 Speaker 1: any insect repellent and that apparently it's supposed to keep 164 00:08:42,000 --> 00:08:44,760 Speaker 1: it away and it calms you. And neighbors are like this, 165 00:08:44,960 --> 00:08:47,600 Speaker 1: this is my weird neighbor is like Donna seance or 166 00:08:47,640 --> 00:08:52,640 Speaker 1: something like we need look at the tree, look at 167 00:08:52,679 --> 00:08:55,520 Speaker 1: the leaves, like this is life. I don't need to work, 168 00:08:55,559 --> 00:08:58,760 Speaker 1: you know whatever. It's just like thank god I'm not 169 00:08:58,840 --> 00:09:01,000 Speaker 1: like a million million million in air, because it would 170 00:09:01,000 --> 00:09:03,640 Speaker 1: literally be like me doing that every day, just like 171 00:09:03,720 --> 00:09:06,839 Speaker 1: a little sitting under trees and burning palacing to him 172 00:09:07,080 --> 00:09:12,240 Speaker 1: like they gotta have to show it, right. Well, I'm 173 00:09:12,280 --> 00:09:14,400 Speaker 1: glad you're back. I'm glad that you took a pause, 174 00:09:14,440 --> 00:09:17,199 Speaker 1: and it is nice to see your smile. Yeah, thank you. 175 00:09:17,280 --> 00:09:21,920 Speaker 1: It's nice to see yours as well. I wanted to 176 00:09:21,960 --> 00:09:24,360 Speaker 1: license that song. We didn't play very much. We're about 177 00:09:24,360 --> 00:09:26,920 Speaker 1: to get sued and taken taking the podcast goes away. Okay, 178 00:09:26,960 --> 00:09:29,480 Speaker 1: we love George Michael. So that is coming from the 179 00:09:29,480 --> 00:09:32,360 Speaker 1: place of like, did you he they just did. ABC 180 00:09:32,480 --> 00:09:35,079 Speaker 1: has got a like a series. I don't I think 181 00:09:35,120 --> 00:09:37,520 Speaker 1: it does air, but I watched it on called Superstar 182 00:09:38,240 --> 00:09:41,160 Speaker 1: and it's like one episode about like massive stars. And 183 00:09:41,160 --> 00:09:43,800 Speaker 1: I watched the George Michael on that saw something about him. 184 00:09:43,800 --> 00:09:45,280 Speaker 1: I didn't think it was all my TV. And I 185 00:09:45,320 --> 00:09:49,840 Speaker 1: didn't watch you know that song last Christmas. He wrote 186 00:09:49,840 --> 00:09:55,040 Speaker 1: that he was nineteen years old, so talented. It's sad 187 00:09:55,080 --> 00:09:57,240 Speaker 1: to me with people like that, Like, honestly, when you 188 00:09:57,240 --> 00:09:59,800 Speaker 1: say George Michael, I just remember the public bathroom since 189 00:09:59,840 --> 00:10:02,800 Speaker 1: you ship and it's like weird that all of these 190 00:10:03,360 --> 00:10:05,720 Speaker 1: things that he's had, all of these accolades, is amazing song. 191 00:10:05,720 --> 00:10:08,120 Speaker 1: It's kind of like Michael Jackson. You know, it's unfortunate 192 00:10:08,160 --> 00:10:10,680 Speaker 1: that their legacy ends up going down as like the 193 00:10:10,760 --> 00:10:13,319 Speaker 1: things that about that with people that like, I mean 194 00:10:13,440 --> 00:10:16,240 Speaker 1: even not celebrities, like people that die have drug overdoses. 195 00:10:17,400 --> 00:10:20,319 Speaker 1: It's like the one thing that everyone remembers about them, right, 196 00:10:20,559 --> 00:10:27,920 Speaker 1: it sucks, it does anywhere we're moving past bullshit, Yeah, 197 00:10:28,000 --> 00:10:30,880 Speaker 1: we are moving past bullshit. We're moving into the new year. 198 00:10:31,000 --> 00:10:33,760 Speaker 1: And so obviously I felt like the topic of resolutions 199 00:10:34,200 --> 00:10:38,280 Speaker 1: was a good one, and I mean, resolutions are controversial 200 00:10:38,360 --> 00:10:40,760 Speaker 1: topic oddly, like if you ask people if they said 201 00:10:40,760 --> 00:10:42,560 Speaker 1: any year's resolution, have you ever noticed people like, oh, 202 00:10:42,559 --> 00:10:45,280 Speaker 1: I don't do that? What do you feel like? While 203 00:10:45,480 --> 00:10:47,920 Speaker 1: I it's funny, I we talked about this. I have 204 00:10:48,000 --> 00:10:51,000 Speaker 1: not like in my my notes section on my phone. 205 00:10:51,640 --> 00:10:53,440 Speaker 1: I bet you I have. I bet I can go 206 00:10:53,480 --> 00:10:56,000 Speaker 1: back and find like resolutions from two thousand fifteen, like 207 00:10:56,800 --> 00:10:59,440 Speaker 1: and it's like it's like a long it's the most 208 00:10:59,480 --> 00:11:02,679 Speaker 1: impulsibleble list of resolutions you've ever like, rather than just 209 00:11:02,760 --> 00:11:05,360 Speaker 1: being like, here's the one thing that I'm going to 210 00:11:05,440 --> 00:11:08,840 Speaker 1: commit to and like see through, I like set myself 211 00:11:08,880 --> 00:11:12,560 Speaker 1: up for failure every year. Um, and then I guarantee 212 00:11:12,559 --> 00:11:15,520 Speaker 1: you if I found sixteen, seventeen, eighteen nineteen, t like, 213 00:11:15,559 --> 00:11:17,760 Speaker 1: they would just be replicas of each other. Do you 214 00:11:17,800 --> 00:11:21,080 Speaker 1: remember any of them and have they manifested? No, because 215 00:11:21,080 --> 00:11:23,280 Speaker 1: I fail at all of them. I mean, so your 216 00:11:23,280 --> 00:11:26,439 Speaker 1: goals are just a little too lofty, yeah, Like I mean, 217 00:11:26,480 --> 00:11:28,280 Speaker 1: I think the popular ones are always like I'm going 218 00:11:28,360 --> 00:11:34,840 Speaker 1: to eat better, I'm gonna exercise. Um. I think for 219 00:11:35,160 --> 00:11:39,160 Speaker 1: my twenty twenty two is I am going to trust 220 00:11:39,280 --> 00:11:44,200 Speaker 1: myself more. You just like, sorry, excuse me, that's not 221 00:11:44,240 --> 00:11:47,240 Speaker 1: on the outline right now. See, I trusted myself to 222 00:11:47,320 --> 00:11:51,400 Speaker 1: just go with my gut and it's for me, Okay, 223 00:11:51,440 --> 00:11:53,200 Speaker 1: So you're going to trust yourself more. I want to 224 00:11:53,200 --> 00:11:55,560 Speaker 1: know more about that. I want to first let's let's 225 00:11:55,559 --> 00:11:58,920 Speaker 1: talk about where resolutions even came from. Because I just 226 00:11:59,040 --> 00:12:00,880 Speaker 1: read this and I think it's not funny. But did 227 00:12:00,920 --> 00:12:03,320 Speaker 1: you know they came from during the time like where 228 00:12:03,360 --> 00:12:06,240 Speaker 1: Caesar was rain where it says the rain of Caesar, 229 00:12:06,280 --> 00:12:12,000 Speaker 1: where Caesar was rain here during the reign of Caesar. 230 00:12:12,040 --> 00:12:14,160 Speaker 1: At the time, new Year's resolutions were a more of 231 00:12:14,200 --> 00:12:16,920 Speaker 1: moral nature, such as being kind to others. So they 232 00:12:17,000 --> 00:12:18,960 Speaker 1: started and I actually think this is why a lot 233 00:12:19,000 --> 00:12:22,199 Speaker 1: of people don't resonate with them is because they feel 234 00:12:22,200 --> 00:12:24,640 Speaker 1: this pressure of like, how am I going to be 235 00:12:24,679 --> 00:12:27,160 Speaker 1: a better person. It's like annoying, right, It's like, oh, 236 00:12:27,280 --> 00:12:29,240 Speaker 1: I know I should eat better and then or I 237 00:12:29,280 --> 00:12:30,960 Speaker 1: know I shouldn't drink so much, and it's like that 238 00:12:31,000 --> 00:12:33,520 Speaker 1: doesn't make you actually want to do those things. It's 239 00:12:33,559 --> 00:12:36,120 Speaker 1: like this pressure we put on ourselves or this negative 240 00:12:36,120 --> 00:12:39,000 Speaker 1: message in our head. But then when you do, yeah, 241 00:12:39,040 --> 00:12:40,720 Speaker 1: and then you do the behavior and you actually feel 242 00:12:40,760 --> 00:12:43,160 Speaker 1: more shame about it, but you don't change it. So 243 00:12:43,200 --> 00:12:45,400 Speaker 1: I think that's why, if I had to make a 244 00:12:45,400 --> 00:12:49,520 Speaker 1: guess why people are like about resolutions. I started a 245 00:12:49,559 --> 00:12:51,880 Speaker 1: couple of years ago doing a word every year. My 246 00:12:51,920 --> 00:12:53,840 Speaker 1: mom told me about this thing they do and at 247 00:12:54,400 --> 00:12:56,280 Speaker 1: her job at the time, and they would set a 248 00:12:56,320 --> 00:12:58,320 Speaker 1: word as your intention for the year. And I have 249 00:12:58,400 --> 00:13:01,800 Speaker 1: found that that because it's not so specific maybe but 250 00:13:02,440 --> 00:13:04,480 Speaker 1: like a more of a broad thing, I have found 251 00:13:04,480 --> 00:13:07,199 Speaker 1: that that really helps. And then if you put the 252 00:13:07,240 --> 00:13:09,600 Speaker 1: word up somewhere in your house, it's like you see it. 253 00:13:09,640 --> 00:13:11,800 Speaker 1: So when you get a little off track, you're like, oh, yeah, 254 00:13:12,080 --> 00:13:14,280 Speaker 1: I'm really focusing on that this year, and then you 255 00:13:14,360 --> 00:13:16,880 Speaker 1: can see it manifest in your life. And then we 256 00:13:16,920 --> 00:13:20,760 Speaker 1: did that. We went to the Healing Place in Ville. Yes, 257 00:13:21,040 --> 00:13:23,560 Speaker 1: it's uh oh god. What is that place called the 258 00:13:23,559 --> 00:13:28,760 Speaker 1: Healing Place? Isn't it? Um? The Happy Hour? Actually I 259 00:13:28,800 --> 00:13:31,040 Speaker 1: had the owner of the Happy Hour on this podcast. Yeah, 260 00:13:31,080 --> 00:13:33,800 Speaker 1: it's a great place in Nashville. You can do group 261 00:13:33,840 --> 00:13:39,640 Speaker 1: therapy sessions. You can do UM intention setting individual therapy sessions, 262 00:13:39,679 --> 00:13:41,319 Speaker 1: and we did a group one one day that was 263 00:13:41,320 --> 00:13:46,200 Speaker 1: actually really cool. Um, but true to form, Yeah, I 264 00:13:46,240 --> 00:13:48,880 Speaker 1: can't remember our work. You can't remember. What I didn't 265 00:13:48,920 --> 00:13:50,560 Speaker 1: do is I didn't put it up, Like I know 266 00:13:50,640 --> 00:13:52,920 Speaker 1: exactly where the book is that I wrote it in, Okay, 267 00:13:53,080 --> 00:13:56,400 Speaker 1: And um, I didn't put it up anywhere. I think 268 00:13:56,600 --> 00:14:00,920 Speaker 1: though it was something along the lines of like freedom 269 00:14:01,120 --> 00:14:04,320 Speaker 1: or free or something like that. That seems right. I 270 00:14:04,320 --> 00:14:06,840 Speaker 1: can't fully remember anything like that. Why would that have 271 00:14:06,920 --> 00:14:12,600 Speaker 1: been your word? Well, because I felt like I was 272 00:14:12,679 --> 00:14:15,600 Speaker 1: like sort of giving my life myself license to like 273 00:14:16,520 --> 00:14:19,680 Speaker 1: try and fail. Like last year was like there was 274 00:14:19,720 --> 00:14:23,920 Speaker 1: a lot of new for me, particularly professionally, Like I 275 00:14:23,960 --> 00:14:26,800 Speaker 1: was in territory that like I hadn't been in before. 276 00:14:27,400 --> 00:14:32,200 Speaker 1: And so I think the like by granting myself the freedom. 277 00:14:32,240 --> 00:14:34,040 Speaker 1: It was like the freedom to fail, the freedom to 278 00:14:34,080 --> 00:14:37,520 Speaker 1: try new things, the freedom not be scared, Like even 279 00:14:37,520 --> 00:14:39,640 Speaker 1: though I was, you know, it's like I don't have 280 00:14:39,680 --> 00:14:42,680 Speaker 1: all the answers. I'm scared all the time. But like, 281 00:14:43,080 --> 00:14:45,000 Speaker 1: I don't think that's a place that I can live in. 282 00:14:45,240 --> 00:14:47,960 Speaker 1: You know, isn't there a definition of courage that's like 283 00:14:48,040 --> 00:14:50,800 Speaker 1: courage isn't the absence of fear, but it's having the 284 00:14:50,840 --> 00:14:53,080 Speaker 1: fear and taking this step anyway. So it was more 285 00:14:53,160 --> 00:14:56,320 Speaker 1: that mentality for you. Yeah, I love that. Do you 286 00:14:56,320 --> 00:14:59,200 Speaker 1: feel like you really kind of leaned into that? Yeah, 287 00:14:59,320 --> 00:15:03,080 Speaker 1: I mean it looked I think I, Um, I will 288 00:15:03,120 --> 00:15:06,160 Speaker 1: always suffer from feeling like I don't do enough or 289 00:15:06,200 --> 00:15:10,120 Speaker 1: I didn't do it the best. Um, But I think 290 00:15:10,240 --> 00:15:13,760 Speaker 1: that's probably like I try to look at those negative 291 00:15:13,800 --> 00:15:17,560 Speaker 1: things and be like, that's just drive. That is also 292 00:15:17,600 --> 00:15:20,640 Speaker 1: what fuels me to like keep going because I do 293 00:15:20,760 --> 00:15:22,920 Speaker 1: want to be the best. I want to do things 294 00:15:23,000 --> 00:15:26,720 Speaker 1: better than everybody else. Um. But it's that like fucking 295 00:15:26,760 --> 00:15:28,960 Speaker 1: devil on your shoulder, that's like you're not as good 296 00:15:29,000 --> 00:15:32,160 Speaker 1: as everybody else. That gets in the way sometimes, so 297 00:15:32,800 --> 00:15:37,480 Speaker 1: um And I think that's why trusting myself is for me, 298 00:15:37,560 --> 00:15:40,720 Speaker 1: like because I have I feel like I feel really 299 00:15:40,760 --> 00:15:43,200 Speaker 1: good about everything that I've achieved in the last couple 300 00:15:43,280 --> 00:15:45,360 Speaker 1: of years. So what's your favorite thing that happened this 301 00:15:45,440 --> 00:15:50,120 Speaker 1: year that you accomplished. Um, it's so funny to like 302 00:15:50,280 --> 00:15:54,400 Speaker 1: make it all about work, but I am a workaholic. Um, 303 00:15:54,440 --> 00:15:56,600 Speaker 1: you know, I think you know, we've I've talked about 304 00:15:56,600 --> 00:16:00,960 Speaker 1: Lindsay l who's a client of mine, and um, you know, 305 00:16:01,240 --> 00:16:06,800 Speaker 1: I we set a goal of like conquering Canada, um 306 00:16:07,080 --> 00:16:11,080 Speaker 1: or not conquering it, putting more attention on the country 307 00:16:11,080 --> 00:16:14,400 Speaker 1: of Canada, which is where she from. And um, she's 308 00:16:14,520 --> 00:16:16,720 Speaker 1: she like for the last several years, she's put so 309 00:16:16,800 --> 00:16:19,480 Speaker 1: much effort into the United States and even Europe and 310 00:16:19,480 --> 00:16:22,800 Speaker 1: Australia and other places and very little focus on Canada. 311 00:16:23,360 --> 00:16:25,960 Speaker 1: And um, you know, we finished the year with a 312 00:16:25,960 --> 00:16:28,880 Speaker 1: headlining tour, she hosted the Canadian Country Music Awards, and 313 00:16:28,920 --> 00:16:31,280 Speaker 1: she's the host of Canada's Got Talent, which will start 314 00:16:31,320 --> 00:16:34,800 Speaker 1: airing next year. And yeah, and she got a Juno 315 00:16:34,840 --> 00:16:37,640 Speaker 1: Award nomination for Country Album of the Year. Like it 316 00:16:37,800 --> 00:16:40,400 Speaker 1: was all of these first happened, and a lot of 317 00:16:40,440 --> 00:16:42,200 Speaker 1: it was very concentrated at the end of the year, 318 00:16:42,240 --> 00:16:45,120 Speaker 1: and it just felt like, holy sh it, like we 319 00:16:45,200 --> 00:16:49,720 Speaker 1: did this. Yeah, so and that was the intention. That's awesome. 320 00:16:50,400 --> 00:16:53,680 Speaker 1: Eleven goals actually happened and you see them in the 321 00:16:53,800 --> 00:16:57,600 Speaker 1: timeframe that you actually anticipated it to. Um, do you 322 00:16:57,720 --> 00:17:01,120 Speaker 1: have anything you want to leave behind find other than 323 00:17:02,160 --> 00:17:05,919 Speaker 1: doubts in what do you want to just put down 324 00:17:06,040 --> 00:17:09,160 Speaker 1: for the rest of the year and maybe your life? Um, 325 00:17:09,200 --> 00:17:12,320 Speaker 1: you know it's I want to put down negativity. I've 326 00:17:12,400 --> 00:17:18,960 Speaker 1: learned this year that projecting negativity onto other things and 327 00:17:19,119 --> 00:17:24,000 Speaker 1: other people. Um, and you we're all guilty of like 328 00:17:24,080 --> 00:17:26,679 Speaker 1: being catty and talking ship and like, well it's you 329 00:17:26,800 --> 00:17:30,280 Speaker 1: do it, and but I have it's to me. Over 330 00:17:30,320 --> 00:17:33,800 Speaker 1: the last year, it has felt grosser and grosser, and 331 00:17:33,800 --> 00:17:37,600 Speaker 1: and like I make the excuse of like I'm being funny, 332 00:17:37,800 --> 00:17:40,160 Speaker 1: like it's being a funny person, but it's also being 333 00:17:40,240 --> 00:17:44,119 Speaker 1: means sometimes and it has started to make me feel 334 00:17:44,160 --> 00:17:51,000 Speaker 1: gross and um, so just negativity, Like I just I 335 00:17:51,000 --> 00:17:54,640 Speaker 1: feel like my life would is so much better if 336 00:17:54,720 --> 00:17:59,879 Speaker 1: it's I'm surrounded by positivity, including coming from me with 337 00:18:00,040 --> 00:18:03,080 Speaker 1: since you're like it's like, what good does it do 338 00:18:03,240 --> 00:18:06,160 Speaker 1: for me to make fun of a celebrity who fucked 339 00:18:06,160 --> 00:18:09,320 Speaker 1: their face up. You know what I mean, like nothing, 340 00:18:09,800 --> 00:18:13,320 Speaker 1: what is it bringing to your look? It's truly negativity, 341 00:18:13,359 --> 00:18:15,800 Speaker 1: And it's like I can feel bad for them, Like, 342 00:18:16,160 --> 00:18:19,800 Speaker 1: but I hope that like that person who sucked their 343 00:18:19,840 --> 00:18:21,280 Speaker 1: face up likes how they look when they look in 344 00:18:21,320 --> 00:18:25,840 Speaker 1: the mirror, you know. Um, so yeah, because I also 345 00:18:25,920 --> 00:18:29,080 Speaker 1: feel like negativity comes comes back to you in some way. 346 00:18:29,119 --> 00:18:30,879 Speaker 1: I think that that's right. And I also think that 347 00:18:30,920 --> 00:18:33,359 Speaker 1: a lot of times when I find myself needing to 348 00:18:33,400 --> 00:18:35,960 Speaker 1: cut other people down or make fun of them, or 349 00:18:36,000 --> 00:18:40,640 Speaker 1: even get like just so frustrated, it's usually because I'm 350 00:18:40,760 --> 00:18:43,879 Speaker 1: internally not in a good place with myself, you know. 351 00:18:44,000 --> 00:18:47,120 Speaker 1: And I mean it always always ends up coming back 352 00:18:47,160 --> 00:18:50,280 Speaker 1: to us, right, Like, even if someone else's behavior is 353 00:18:50,320 --> 00:18:52,760 Speaker 1: not what you would like, or you don't agree with 354 00:18:52,880 --> 00:18:55,639 Speaker 1: their face or whatever it is, or their politics or 355 00:18:55,680 --> 00:18:57,120 Speaker 1: I think that's one of the big things we've learned 356 00:18:57,160 --> 00:19:01,040 Speaker 1: this year. Um, it doesn't mean like you have to 357 00:19:01,040 --> 00:19:03,600 Speaker 1: speak badly about them or you have to get so 358 00:19:03,640 --> 00:19:05,840 Speaker 1: fired up and angry. It's just like, hey, that doesn't 359 00:19:05,840 --> 00:19:08,760 Speaker 1: work for me. Yeah, And it's like to eat their 360 00:19:08,800 --> 00:19:13,639 Speaker 1: own There's a saying about practicing principles about personalities, and 361 00:19:13,680 --> 00:19:17,000 Speaker 1: it's like they have every right to do everything they're 362 00:19:17,040 --> 00:19:18,760 Speaker 1: doing in their life. It doesn't have to work for you, 363 00:19:18,800 --> 00:19:20,600 Speaker 1: and you don't have to be in a relationship with them. 364 00:19:20,840 --> 00:19:22,919 Speaker 1: She also don't need to bring the negativity of the 365 00:19:23,000 --> 00:19:25,400 Speaker 1: hate and the anger and all of those things. I've 366 00:19:25,440 --> 00:19:26,880 Speaker 1: learned that a lot in the last two years too, 367 00:19:26,920 --> 00:19:30,439 Speaker 1: after the things that we like um focus on that 368 00:19:30,480 --> 00:19:32,480 Speaker 1: we don't like about other people are truly things that 369 00:19:32,480 --> 00:19:35,240 Speaker 1: we don't like about ourselves. And I think it's really 370 00:19:35,240 --> 00:19:39,840 Speaker 1: important to I've recognized that I'm just like, yeah, stop 371 00:19:39,840 --> 00:19:42,160 Speaker 1: making fun of other people, because you have that fall too, 372 00:19:42,480 --> 00:19:46,400 Speaker 1: you know, like about specific things. And it's like, I'm 373 00:19:46,440 --> 00:19:48,480 Speaker 1: making myself really sound like a faking asshole is just 374 00:19:48,480 --> 00:19:50,200 Speaker 1: sitting around making fun of people all the time. But 375 00:19:50,680 --> 00:19:53,840 Speaker 1: it's that it's just an example that you know, It's 376 00:19:53,880 --> 00:19:58,080 Speaker 1: like I can't even like think clearly about like anything specific. 377 00:19:58,400 --> 00:20:00,280 Speaker 1: It's like, I don't want to be a mean girl. 378 00:20:01,000 --> 00:20:03,800 Speaker 1: Oh I love that because you speak girl, because I 379 00:20:03,840 --> 00:20:07,640 Speaker 1: do think I am more inherently a nice person. You are, 380 00:20:08,080 --> 00:20:12,240 Speaker 1: Oh my god. Right, So when I when I'm like 381 00:20:12,400 --> 00:20:22,320 Speaker 1: I don't like feeling like I'm being right, I do 382 00:20:22,440 --> 00:20:24,600 Speaker 1: think a lot of times it's easy to get confused 383 00:20:24,600 --> 00:20:26,719 Speaker 1: with humor, and that is a big one for you, 384 00:20:26,960 --> 00:20:28,919 Speaker 1: because like you're very funny and so a lot of 385 00:20:28,920 --> 00:20:32,199 Speaker 1: times you'll throw out a zinger because it's funny, but 386 00:20:32,280 --> 00:20:34,840 Speaker 1: you're right, like if it's a negative connotation, it really 387 00:20:34,920 --> 00:20:38,680 Speaker 1: is kind of like an hit feeling, what do we get? Um? 388 00:20:38,720 --> 00:20:41,080 Speaker 1: I do remember my word from that saying at the 389 00:20:41,080 --> 00:20:44,160 Speaker 1: Happy Hour. My word was truth and it was interesting 390 00:20:44,200 --> 00:20:49,840 Speaker 1: because now the word so I actually we wrote them 391 00:20:49,840 --> 00:20:52,359 Speaker 1: on these cards, which I do actually recommend people doing 392 00:20:52,440 --> 00:20:54,480 Speaker 1: is putting them up somewhere, and I hung it in 393 00:20:54,520 --> 00:20:57,720 Speaker 1: my bedroom and it's been there since we did that. 394 00:20:57,840 --> 00:20:59,920 Speaker 1: It's still there actually, but I'm gonna change it out 395 00:21:00,160 --> 00:21:02,879 Speaker 1: in the new year. Um, but I wrote it. I 396 00:21:02,920 --> 00:21:04,960 Speaker 1: remember when we were doing that session and I just 397 00:21:05,119 --> 00:21:09,240 Speaker 1: was feeling confused because the last couple of years, I 398 00:21:09,240 --> 00:21:11,280 Speaker 1: think a lot of people might resonate with this, but 399 00:21:11,720 --> 00:21:14,280 Speaker 1: so much has changed in our world, and I still 400 00:21:14,359 --> 00:21:16,720 Speaker 1: feel like it is changing, you know, even just the 401 00:21:16,840 --> 00:21:20,760 Speaker 1: small little things like uber is more difficult to call. 402 00:21:20,800 --> 00:21:22,840 Speaker 1: I know that sounds so silly, but it's like we 403 00:21:22,840 --> 00:21:26,040 Speaker 1: were operating at such a high speed and at such 404 00:21:26,080 --> 00:21:32,040 Speaker 1: an intense like you know, quick fixes and instant gratification place, 405 00:21:32,200 --> 00:21:34,720 Speaker 1: and like the world is literally telling us we have 406 00:21:34,760 --> 00:21:38,520 Speaker 1: to stop. It's saying slow the funk down. And it 407 00:21:38,680 --> 00:21:41,439 Speaker 1: happened to me on a smaller scale in my own life, 408 00:21:41,520 --> 00:21:44,480 Speaker 1: you know, and UM in so many different ways, and 409 00:21:44,960 --> 00:21:47,680 Speaker 1: there was the pandemic for everyone. I had so much 410 00:21:47,720 --> 00:21:50,520 Speaker 1: shift with my work world during the pandemic. I had 411 00:21:50,560 --> 00:21:53,720 Speaker 1: so much shift before UM just being on that TV 412 00:21:53,840 --> 00:21:58,160 Speaker 1: show and public fallout and being lied about and I've 413 00:21:58,200 --> 00:22:00,000 Speaker 1: never I've never faced any of the stuff that I've 414 00:22:00,320 --> 00:22:03,639 Speaker 1: the infertility stuff. I've said all these things a million times, UM, 415 00:22:03,720 --> 00:22:05,679 Speaker 1: and I did try to just power through. And I 416 00:22:05,720 --> 00:22:09,120 Speaker 1: remember sitting in that happy hour place being like something 417 00:22:09,240 --> 00:22:12,320 Speaker 1: in me isn't feeling authentic anymore because I'm literally just 418 00:22:12,400 --> 00:22:15,080 Speaker 1: powering through all of this pain act trying to like 419 00:22:15,560 --> 00:22:17,399 Speaker 1: keep going because that's what I feel like we're taught 420 00:22:17,440 --> 00:22:20,320 Speaker 1: to do. And in reality, I just kept losing myself 421 00:22:20,400 --> 00:22:22,959 Speaker 1: more and more and more during that time. And so 422 00:22:23,920 --> 00:22:25,919 Speaker 1: the word that I set was like, I want to 423 00:22:26,080 --> 00:22:29,960 Speaker 1: stand in my truth. And the interesting part is like 424 00:22:30,280 --> 00:22:33,400 Speaker 1: when you say something and you're putting it out into 425 00:22:33,400 --> 00:22:36,880 Speaker 1: the universe as this intention of positivity and like being 426 00:22:36,920 --> 00:22:40,480 Speaker 1: more authentic, and the journey to getting to my truth 427 00:22:40,600 --> 00:22:43,840 Speaker 1: has been very painful if I'm being really honest, you know, 428 00:22:43,920 --> 00:22:49,879 Speaker 1: like there's been more loss and breakups and um job 429 00:22:49,960 --> 00:22:54,760 Speaker 1: shifts again and taking a pause and and facing myself 430 00:22:54,840 --> 00:22:58,000 Speaker 1: in ways that I didn't necessarily want to, you know, 431 00:22:58,040 --> 00:23:00,440 Speaker 1: are things that I still deeper traumas I need. It's 432 00:23:00,440 --> 00:23:03,359 Speaker 1: a heel even and I'm still on these journeys and 433 00:23:03,440 --> 00:23:08,240 Speaker 1: it's messy and uncomfortable, and I'm starting to get to 434 00:23:08,320 --> 00:23:11,840 Speaker 1: a place of even though I don't really feel like 435 00:23:11,960 --> 00:23:16,280 Speaker 1: anything is quite resolved fully. I mean there's things that 436 00:23:16,640 --> 00:23:19,080 Speaker 1: have been in some ways, um, but I don't have 437 00:23:19,119 --> 00:23:24,880 Speaker 1: all the answers. But I'm sitting here, standing, sitting here, standing, um, 438 00:23:24,920 --> 00:23:29,760 Speaker 1: standing somewhere in all of this like uncertainty maybe, or 439 00:23:30,160 --> 00:23:32,280 Speaker 1: that's not the right word, because it doesn't feel that uncertain. 440 00:23:32,480 --> 00:23:35,240 Speaker 1: I'm standing here, not knowing all the answers, though still 441 00:23:35,280 --> 00:23:37,480 Speaker 1: standing more in my truth than I was. And I 442 00:23:37,560 --> 00:23:39,280 Speaker 1: think you're never going to know the answer. I think 443 00:23:39,280 --> 00:23:42,480 Speaker 1: that's right, and I think it's not all of the answers. 444 00:23:42,520 --> 00:23:46,159 Speaker 1: You'll find answers, But I think admitting that is a 445 00:23:46,200 --> 00:23:49,080 Speaker 1: really important step towards your truth. That's right, you know, 446 00:23:49,720 --> 00:23:52,680 Speaker 1: because it's a journey, it really is, and it's um, 447 00:23:52,800 --> 00:23:57,240 Speaker 1: it is scary, like it can be. Most I would 448 00:23:57,280 --> 00:24:00,800 Speaker 1: guess that most people are willing to skate through life 449 00:24:01,880 --> 00:24:07,159 Speaker 1: and not have to face their truth, um, because the 450 00:24:07,200 --> 00:24:09,480 Speaker 1: other stuff doesn't catch up to them as quickly. And 451 00:24:09,520 --> 00:24:11,320 Speaker 1: then it's you know, then it's over and it's fine. 452 00:24:11,400 --> 00:24:17,200 Speaker 1: Whatever I'm really guilty of, like just move move past things. Um. 453 00:24:17,520 --> 00:24:20,480 Speaker 1: And somehow, I it's like I've been able to get 454 00:24:20,480 --> 00:24:22,880 Speaker 1: I'm forty six now, and it's like I've been It's 455 00:24:22,920 --> 00:24:26,400 Speaker 1: worked for me, you know. Um, But there are like 456 00:24:26,760 --> 00:24:29,479 Speaker 1: I would be lying if like I didn't say, like 457 00:24:29,600 --> 00:24:35,920 Speaker 1: I admire the strength and the tenacity of what you're 458 00:24:36,000 --> 00:24:38,399 Speaker 1: the journey that you're on right now, because it's really 459 00:24:38,480 --> 00:24:43,560 Speaker 1: fucking brave. Um, because you're choosing pain, Like you're choosing 460 00:24:43,560 --> 00:24:46,560 Speaker 1: to face the pain to get through it. And I 461 00:24:46,760 --> 00:24:49,600 Speaker 1: my natural inclination is to run from it, and I 462 00:24:49,760 --> 00:24:53,800 Speaker 1: have been fortunate enough to like seemingly outrun it. But 463 00:24:53,840 --> 00:24:58,719 Speaker 1: I'm also forty six, single, overweight, Like I my body 464 00:24:58,920 --> 00:25:01,800 Speaker 1: is manifesting and my I guess my life in a 465 00:25:01,840 --> 00:25:06,400 Speaker 1: way is manifesting it um in a negative way, and 466 00:25:06,560 --> 00:25:08,080 Speaker 1: like that's something I need to look in the mirror 467 00:25:08,119 --> 00:25:12,320 Speaker 1: and be like, okay, like this isn't my truth. Like 468 00:25:12,440 --> 00:25:15,239 Speaker 1: I'm not happy with my body, you know, like and 469 00:25:15,280 --> 00:25:18,640 Speaker 1: only I can fix it. So um yeah, I think 470 00:25:18,640 --> 00:25:22,200 Speaker 1: it's really inspiring to watch you like um like face 471 00:25:22,320 --> 00:25:25,720 Speaker 1: the dark side. People aren't willing to do that, thank you. 472 00:25:25,960 --> 00:25:28,720 Speaker 1: I mean it's again, like I said, my wiring, which 473 00:25:28,760 --> 00:25:31,159 Speaker 1: is I think a reason I really enjoy doing this 474 00:25:31,200 --> 00:25:34,800 Speaker 1: podcast too is I have said this, but I came 475 00:25:34,800 --> 00:25:37,880 Speaker 1: to this world as basically the feeling is to feeling 476 00:25:38,160 --> 00:25:42,280 Speaker 1: like signs, my indiogram number whatever you like, astrological signs 477 00:25:42,280 --> 00:25:44,159 Speaker 1: is what I was talking about. But like all of 478 00:25:44,200 --> 00:25:46,359 Speaker 1: it is, the way that I came into this world 479 00:25:46,480 --> 00:25:49,600 Speaker 1: is there is absolutely no chance that I am going 480 00:25:49,640 --> 00:25:52,879 Speaker 1: to side skate sidestep feelings like there, it's just not 481 00:25:52,880 --> 00:25:55,639 Speaker 1: going to happen, Like that is not my wiring. And 482 00:25:55,680 --> 00:25:57,720 Speaker 1: so the more I can lean into that as a 483 00:25:57,800 --> 00:26:00,840 Speaker 1: power of like wait a second, I am a feeler 484 00:26:01,000 --> 00:26:04,639 Speaker 1: and I am super empathetic, and I like in a 485 00:26:05,040 --> 00:26:07,800 Speaker 1: way of like using it for good versus being like 486 00:26:07,880 --> 00:26:10,760 Speaker 1: trying to shift out of it because it's uncomfortable. Um, 487 00:26:10,920 --> 00:26:13,639 Speaker 1: the more in my truth I am and like even 488 00:26:13,880 --> 00:26:16,000 Speaker 1: you know, I was thinking about, oh my god, I 489 00:26:16,040 --> 00:26:17,919 Speaker 1: just like really know how to blow up my life, 490 00:26:18,000 --> 00:26:19,679 Speaker 1: you know, like I was thinking about this and I 491 00:26:19,720 --> 00:26:23,639 Speaker 1: was like, but I did take really bold steps to 492 00:26:23,760 --> 00:26:26,400 Speaker 1: do things that we're fucking scary, and like what you're 493 00:26:26,400 --> 00:26:29,640 Speaker 1: talking about, you stepped into these new realms this last year. 494 00:26:30,119 --> 00:26:33,160 Speaker 1: The only way that we grow, I think, is when 495 00:26:33,200 --> 00:26:36,600 Speaker 1: you put yourself out there, you do something scary and 496 00:26:36,600 --> 00:26:39,280 Speaker 1: then just know that sometimes it's gonna work and sometimes 497 00:26:39,320 --> 00:26:42,720 Speaker 1: it's not, but you're never not learning. Like I could 498 00:26:42,760 --> 00:26:44,080 Speaker 1: go back and be like, oh I wish I would 499 00:26:44,080 --> 00:26:45,800 Speaker 1: have never done that reality TV show that is just 500 00:26:45,840 --> 00:26:48,000 Speaker 1: so not in line with me. But the things that 501 00:26:48,000 --> 00:26:51,560 Speaker 1: are now, I'm able to say I learned about myself 502 00:26:51,720 --> 00:26:54,720 Speaker 1: and then the journey that's taken me on since it 503 00:26:54,840 --> 00:26:56,920 Speaker 1: was worth it, you know. I mean it was fucking 504 00:26:56,960 --> 00:27:00,760 Speaker 1: painful and embarrassing and I'm still facing percussions. I mean, 505 00:27:00,760 --> 00:27:02,440 Speaker 1: we were laughing about some of the hate mail. I's 506 00:27:02,440 --> 00:27:05,560 Speaker 1: still get like, who is spinning? Literally if you're spending 507 00:27:05,600 --> 00:27:08,560 Speaker 1: your time's like sending me hate mail? Like you really 508 00:27:08,600 --> 00:27:13,760 Speaker 1: need to. I mean, it is just it's like I 509 00:27:13,920 --> 00:27:16,399 Speaker 1: laugh about it now because I'm just like, oh my god, 510 00:27:16,480 --> 00:27:19,640 Speaker 1: I feel sad for you worked out. It's not even 511 00:27:19,640 --> 00:27:23,680 Speaker 1: just like it worked up about my face, like Okay, 512 00:27:24,520 --> 00:27:27,760 Speaker 1: get a bigger problem. You clearly need to evaluate something 513 00:27:27,840 --> 00:27:31,240 Speaker 1: because I'm not your problem. Um. But yeah, like it's 514 00:27:31,240 --> 00:27:35,160 Speaker 1: just it's about like giving yourself the grace of Hey, 515 00:27:35,240 --> 00:27:37,000 Speaker 1: you went out and tried something new and it just 516 00:27:37,000 --> 00:27:39,359 Speaker 1: didn't work out, and it didn't feel like real learning 517 00:27:39,400 --> 00:27:44,240 Speaker 1: happens when things don't work out, like you know, look, 518 00:27:44,359 --> 00:27:47,560 Speaker 1: I certainly would love for life to be easy all 519 00:27:47,600 --> 00:27:51,560 Speaker 1: the time. It would make everything easier, right, but it's 520 00:27:51,600 --> 00:27:54,600 Speaker 1: not well and we would never grow. We would never grow. 521 00:27:54,760 --> 00:27:58,360 Speaker 1: And um, yeah, I think the taking chances and it's 522 00:27:58,400 --> 00:28:00,960 Speaker 1: so funny. I feel like I don't very often. But 523 00:28:01,000 --> 00:28:02,639 Speaker 1: then I look back at my life and I'm like 524 00:28:03,320 --> 00:28:05,840 Speaker 1: Bird's Nest Virginia. I was like, I'm moving to New 525 00:28:05,880 --> 00:28:08,680 Speaker 1: York City after moving to Los Angeles, I like moved 526 00:28:08,720 --> 00:28:11,520 Speaker 1: away from everything I knew, and I've done it several 527 00:28:11,560 --> 00:28:16,080 Speaker 1: times to continue to take chances. Um, and you know, 528 00:28:16,440 --> 00:28:19,760 Speaker 1: for me, and it's and it's never felt selfish, but 529 00:28:19,800 --> 00:28:23,760 Speaker 1: it was it felt like I was seeking something, you know, 530 00:28:23,920 --> 00:28:27,480 Speaker 1: so I think that that is where you really do 531 00:28:27,640 --> 00:28:29,719 Speaker 1: have to Yeah, like you said, give yourself the credit 532 00:28:29,760 --> 00:28:32,160 Speaker 1: and then also just know that like that is part 533 00:28:32,160 --> 00:28:35,440 Speaker 1: of the journey, and it's just about not getting stuck 534 00:28:35,520 --> 00:28:37,800 Speaker 1: in the pain, but feeling through the pain and then 535 00:28:37,840 --> 00:28:40,560 Speaker 1: evaluating what you really want to do next, what is 536 00:28:40,600 --> 00:28:42,680 Speaker 1: your truth? I don't know. These are the things that 537 00:28:42,720 --> 00:28:45,680 Speaker 1: I'm learning, and like, like you said, it's it takes courage. 538 00:28:45,680 --> 00:28:48,440 Speaker 1: It takes courage to even go do a relationship, Like 539 00:28:48,520 --> 00:28:51,320 Speaker 1: it is scary to put yourself out there. And I 540 00:28:51,360 --> 00:28:52,920 Speaker 1: have to give myself that too. You know, I've been 541 00:28:52,920 --> 00:28:55,760 Speaker 1: beating myself up, like, oh, you're almost forty and now 542 00:28:55,800 --> 00:28:59,800 Speaker 1: you're single again, and it's like, yeah, but you were 543 00:28:59,840 --> 00:29:02,080 Speaker 1: in that relationship for three years where you learned so much. 544 00:29:02,280 --> 00:29:04,280 Speaker 1: You know what's funny if you think about it, when 545 00:29:04,320 --> 00:29:06,920 Speaker 1: it comes to relationships, Let's remove all the people that 546 00:29:07,000 --> 00:29:09,400 Speaker 1: just fucking marry their high school sweetheart, because that's I 547 00:29:09,400 --> 00:29:12,000 Speaker 1: don't like, I think that's an anomaly, and you know, 548 00:29:12,120 --> 00:29:18,760 Speaker 1: good on them. Most relationships don't work literally all but 549 00:29:18,960 --> 00:29:21,360 Speaker 1: your final one relation. And that's not even to say 550 00:29:21,400 --> 00:29:24,360 Speaker 1: that they're even perfect. But the majority of the relationships 551 00:29:24,360 --> 00:29:27,720 Speaker 1: that you will be in your life, romantic relationships will fail. 552 00:29:29,400 --> 00:29:35,320 Speaker 1: And and that's that fact alone should give us all 553 00:29:35,320 --> 00:29:38,000 Speaker 1: the courage to go fail. Like we're all in it together. 554 00:29:38,040 --> 00:29:41,600 Speaker 1: We're all failing at relationships most of the time. But 555 00:29:42,000 --> 00:29:45,120 Speaker 1: you're never going to find the one that works until 556 00:29:45,160 --> 00:29:47,480 Speaker 1: you get past the ones that fail. Right, And it's 557 00:29:47,520 --> 00:29:51,200 Speaker 1: like you never actually walk away unless you're just completely 558 00:29:51,240 --> 00:29:54,880 Speaker 1: shut down and not looking at yourself at all. I 559 00:29:54,920 --> 00:29:57,120 Speaker 1: personally don't feel like you can walk away from a 560 00:29:57,160 --> 00:30:01,320 Speaker 1: relationship without some lesson right or some like knew awareness 561 00:30:01,320 --> 00:30:04,840 Speaker 1: about yourself or knew awareness about what you want. Like 562 00:30:05,400 --> 00:30:07,440 Speaker 1: it's just been such a journey, and when I like 563 00:30:07,520 --> 00:30:09,600 Speaker 1: get really down, I just try to focus on that 564 00:30:09,720 --> 00:30:12,200 Speaker 1: right now of just like, yeah, but this is shifting 565 00:30:12,200 --> 00:30:14,320 Speaker 1: me to a whole new layer of myself that I 566 00:30:14,440 --> 00:30:17,400 Speaker 1: just like more. And so it wasn't you know, it's 567 00:30:17,400 --> 00:30:19,360 Speaker 1: not for nothing, None of it is. And it takes 568 00:30:19,360 --> 00:30:20,720 Speaker 1: courage to do it. And so I'm not going to 569 00:30:20,800 --> 00:30:23,680 Speaker 1: beat myself up. And and then it takes courage to 570 00:30:23,720 --> 00:30:26,400 Speaker 1: know that, like you can go through the pain of 571 00:30:26,440 --> 00:30:30,320 Speaker 1: a breakup too, And that's really fucking hard, but it's, 572 00:30:30,440 --> 00:30:32,800 Speaker 1: you know whatever, it's decisions we have to make sometimes. 573 00:30:32,840 --> 00:30:35,200 Speaker 1: But anyway, so okay, I wanted to do the things 574 00:30:35,200 --> 00:30:37,080 Speaker 1: that we're gonna leave behind, and then I'm gonna say 575 00:30:37,080 --> 00:30:38,920 Speaker 1: my word to you from me before episod. I'm gonna 576 00:30:39,000 --> 00:30:43,440 Speaker 1: leave behind self doubt. I'm gonna leave behind negative self talk, 577 00:30:43,600 --> 00:30:46,240 Speaker 1: like just getting in my head. And this kind of 578 00:30:46,240 --> 00:30:48,280 Speaker 1: goes with the next one, which is over analyzing, like 579 00:30:48,320 --> 00:30:52,800 Speaker 1: I constantly am over analyzing what I'm doing wrong, or like, 580 00:30:53,040 --> 00:30:55,280 Speaker 1: oh my god, I shouldn't have said that that way, 581 00:30:55,320 --> 00:30:58,280 Speaker 1: and just like not really allowing myself to be human. 582 00:30:58,440 --> 00:31:00,680 Speaker 1: And that was part of maybe why the pause needed 583 00:31:00,720 --> 00:31:02,800 Speaker 1: to happen, because I was asking myself to be a 584 00:31:02,800 --> 00:31:06,200 Speaker 1: fucking robot and that I couldn't couldn't operate that way anymore. 585 00:31:06,240 --> 00:31:10,920 Speaker 1: So I just want to like leave behind over analyzing 586 00:31:11,400 --> 00:31:14,120 Speaker 1: and start to live my life instead of like being 587 00:31:14,160 --> 00:31:16,800 Speaker 1: worried about how to live it perfectly, if that makes sense, 588 00:31:17,400 --> 00:31:20,400 Speaker 1: um relationships or situations that don't serve me or who 589 00:31:20,400 --> 00:31:23,640 Speaker 1: I'm becoming authentically, So it could be like work, you know, 590 00:31:23,760 --> 00:31:26,120 Speaker 1: like I've been so freaked out about so much stuff 591 00:31:26,280 --> 00:31:28,480 Speaker 1: leaving but It's been the stuff that needed to leave 592 00:31:28,640 --> 00:31:31,880 Speaker 1: for me to stand in more of my truth. UM Friends, 593 00:31:31,880 --> 00:31:36,240 Speaker 1: some friendships, obviously relationships, dating, but just stop attaching so 594 00:31:36,320 --> 00:31:41,160 Speaker 1: much to outcomes, like knowing that like I have a 595 00:31:41,240 --> 00:31:45,719 Speaker 1: goal and goals are good, but um, the universe has 596 00:31:45,720 --> 00:31:47,560 Speaker 1: a bigger plan that I just don't even know about, 597 00:31:47,640 --> 00:31:51,120 Speaker 1: and so taking the lessons from each situation not getting 598 00:31:51,240 --> 00:31:54,280 Speaker 1: so I get so worked up and matt and take 599 00:31:54,360 --> 00:31:57,440 Speaker 1: everything so personal when things don't the outcome doesn't work 600 00:31:57,440 --> 00:31:59,840 Speaker 1: out the way that I think it should, and trying 601 00:31:59,880 --> 00:32:02,720 Speaker 1: to be less attached to that and more attached to 602 00:32:02,760 --> 00:32:05,600 Speaker 1: the journey of whatever it is the universe keeps bringing in. 603 00:32:07,840 --> 00:32:12,640 Speaker 1: I love it. I mean it's I hadn't gotten that granular. UM. 604 00:32:12,720 --> 00:32:14,680 Speaker 1: So I'm like sitting here saying, like what am I 605 00:32:14,680 --> 00:32:17,440 Speaker 1: going to say? Um? But I definitely one of the 606 00:32:17,480 --> 00:32:19,040 Speaker 1: things that like over the last couple of weeks that 607 00:32:19,080 --> 00:32:22,440 Speaker 1: I've been thinking about, like, I'm I really want to 608 00:32:22,480 --> 00:32:29,560 Speaker 1: approach this year with less fear like um and and 609 00:32:30,240 --> 00:32:34,360 Speaker 1: the fear of losing money, the fear of not making money, um, 610 00:32:34,520 --> 00:32:38,720 Speaker 1: letting money sort of control any decision. UM. I know 611 00:32:39,000 --> 00:32:41,760 Speaker 1: I have a good gut um and It's got me 612 00:32:41,800 --> 00:32:44,120 Speaker 1: really far in life. And so I've achieved some awesome 613 00:32:44,120 --> 00:32:48,440 Speaker 1: things based on gut and just intuition, and I really 614 00:32:48,480 --> 00:32:51,960 Speaker 1: want to trust that more. Um and I so I 615 00:32:52,280 --> 00:32:55,360 Speaker 1: want to let go of leading with fear because I 616 00:32:55,400 --> 00:32:58,720 Speaker 1: feel like, I think it's always important to, like, when 617 00:32:58,760 --> 00:33:00,720 Speaker 1: you're entering a situation, to sort of look at it 618 00:33:00,760 --> 00:33:02,760 Speaker 1: from all sides, like, Okay, this is how it could 619 00:33:02,760 --> 00:33:04,920 Speaker 1: work out. This is what could go wrong, you know, 620 00:33:05,000 --> 00:33:08,240 Speaker 1: because you have to like approach things with some intelligence, 621 00:33:08,760 --> 00:33:10,680 Speaker 1: but like stop putting all the weight on the this 622 00:33:10,720 --> 00:33:14,400 Speaker 1: is what could go wrong, because there's so much more 623 00:33:14,560 --> 00:33:17,640 Speaker 1: that could go right often. So I want to lead 624 00:33:17,680 --> 00:33:20,720 Speaker 1: with less fear. And I mean I think this year too, 625 00:33:20,800 --> 00:33:24,560 Speaker 1: I want and back to the relationship thing. Not that 626 00:33:24,600 --> 00:33:26,800 Speaker 1: I want to, I'm like putting a goal, like I 627 00:33:26,800 --> 00:33:28,800 Speaker 1: want to end up in a relationship this year. I 628 00:33:28,840 --> 00:33:30,880 Speaker 1: want to date more this year. I mean slutto Paloza 629 00:33:31,000 --> 00:33:33,080 Speaker 1: is fun to talk about and be like I'm all 630 00:33:33,160 --> 00:33:35,480 Speaker 1: for people like being their slutty self, but like the 631 00:33:35,520 --> 00:33:37,320 Speaker 1: truth is is like I do want to date more. 632 00:33:37,360 --> 00:33:38,840 Speaker 1: I want to know. I want to get to know 633 00:33:38,960 --> 00:33:42,360 Speaker 1: myself better through dating because I feel like the older 634 00:33:42,400 --> 00:33:45,120 Speaker 1: I get and the less time that I'm in a relationship, 635 00:33:45,840 --> 00:33:48,320 Speaker 1: I'm starting to think I'm not capable of being in one. 636 00:33:48,840 --> 00:33:52,840 Speaker 1: And I know that's not and I know that's not true, 637 00:33:53,320 --> 00:33:57,240 Speaker 1: but it doesn't mean I don't think it sometimes, So um, 638 00:33:57,280 --> 00:33:58,959 Speaker 1: I need to get past that. And the only way 639 00:33:59,000 --> 00:34:01,760 Speaker 1: to get past it is to like get into some relationships, 640 00:34:02,080 --> 00:34:05,280 Speaker 1: gone some dates, whatever it is, and fail a few times, 641 00:34:05,320 --> 00:34:07,520 Speaker 1: like have people tell me I didn't like when you 642 00:34:07,560 --> 00:34:10,040 Speaker 1: did that, or I love when you did that. So 643 00:34:10,160 --> 00:34:12,680 Speaker 1: I want to invest a little bit more in myself 644 00:34:12,960 --> 00:34:15,520 Speaker 1: and then there's all the fucking other ones. Eat healthy. 645 00:34:15,760 --> 00:34:18,160 Speaker 1: But I think it's more about just like I want 646 00:34:18,160 --> 00:34:27,719 Speaker 1: to love myself want you know, I do think that's right, 647 00:34:27,760 --> 00:34:29,480 Speaker 1: because it's like the more you love yourself, the more 648 00:34:29,480 --> 00:34:31,359 Speaker 1: you're inclined to make a decision that's like in your 649 00:34:31,360 --> 00:34:35,080 Speaker 1: best interests versus just sabotage or whatever we do. Yeah, 650 00:34:35,120 --> 00:34:37,480 Speaker 1: And I think in loving myself more, it will invite 651 00:34:37,520 --> 00:34:41,719 Speaker 1: people like I will be more attractive to people. So 652 00:34:42,880 --> 00:34:44,360 Speaker 1: that's a really good one. What did you what did 653 00:34:44,400 --> 00:34:49,400 Speaker 1: you say your word west? Truth? Yes? Yeah, well you're 654 00:34:49,440 --> 00:34:51,520 Speaker 1: gonna have to write that down right now now. It 655 00:34:51,600 --> 00:34:54,759 Speaker 1: was trust myself, trust yourself. So are you gonna put 656 00:34:54,760 --> 00:34:56,759 Speaker 1: it on your wall? I guess I have to. Yeah, 657 00:34:56,760 --> 00:34:58,719 Speaker 1: I think I got one of those pens, and like 658 00:34:59,360 --> 00:35:01,719 Speaker 1: I should go to like world market and find me 659 00:35:01,760 --> 00:35:04,120 Speaker 1: one of those signs of girls love. I was about 660 00:35:04,120 --> 00:35:09,399 Speaker 1: to say, of course is my word, he's gay? Did 661 00:35:09,400 --> 00:35:18,560 Speaker 1: you guys know that? What? Okay? So we actually our 662 00:35:18,800 --> 00:35:22,040 Speaker 1: friend Mary's daughter had a birthday party at this paint place, 663 00:35:22,520 --> 00:35:25,560 Speaker 1: uh last weekend, and it was amazing. You go in 664 00:35:25,600 --> 00:35:27,279 Speaker 1: this big room and it's got these tarps on the 665 00:35:27,320 --> 00:35:29,399 Speaker 1: wall and you like can throw You end up throwing 666 00:35:29,400 --> 00:35:32,320 Speaker 1: pain on each other, but you throw a paint on canvases. 667 00:35:32,560 --> 00:35:34,800 Speaker 1: And I had told this story on the podcast, but 668 00:35:34,840 --> 00:35:38,920 Speaker 1: I had this insanely vivid vision about this huge bird 669 00:35:39,560 --> 00:35:42,760 Speaker 1: in a house. Um it was like a dinosaur sized 670 00:35:42,800 --> 00:35:45,400 Speaker 1: bird and it couldn't spread its wings, like it was 671 00:35:45,480 --> 00:35:47,359 Speaker 1: just like stuck in the house and these people were 672 00:35:47,360 --> 00:35:48,880 Speaker 1: just like trying to put the wings down in the 673 00:35:48,880 --> 00:35:51,000 Speaker 1: bird was like no, I just it wasn't saying. It 674 00:35:51,040 --> 00:35:52,680 Speaker 1: was just like I just want to spread my wings. 675 00:35:52,760 --> 00:35:54,440 Speaker 1: I just want to like get out into the big 676 00:35:54,480 --> 00:35:57,440 Speaker 1: sky and fly basically, But the house was like it 677 00:35:57,520 --> 00:36:00,279 Speaker 1: was too congested and it couldn't do that there. It 678 00:36:00,360 --> 00:36:02,760 Speaker 1: was just very boxed in and so finally the bird 679 00:36:02,920 --> 00:36:04,759 Speaker 1: broke out. I was just laying in bed having this vision. 680 00:36:04,760 --> 00:36:07,880 Speaker 1: By the way, it's insane, but um, no substances were involved. 681 00:36:07,960 --> 00:36:11,239 Speaker 1: Actually there weren't like five am in the morning. There 682 00:36:11,320 --> 00:36:15,240 Speaker 1: was definitely no substances involved. Um. But yeah, the bird 683 00:36:15,280 --> 00:36:17,120 Speaker 1: finally broke out, and it was like that was all 684 00:36:17,120 --> 00:36:20,080 Speaker 1: it wanted. It wasn't like this huge, big thing of 685 00:36:20,600 --> 00:36:22,640 Speaker 1: making these huge changes. It just needed to be able 686 00:36:22,680 --> 00:36:25,279 Speaker 1: to spread its wings and fly. And so going into 687 00:36:25,280 --> 00:36:27,879 Speaker 1: this next year, into my word is going to be fly. 688 00:36:28,480 --> 00:36:31,120 Speaker 1: And it ties into a lot of like what I 689 00:36:31,160 --> 00:36:34,200 Speaker 1: was saying about not attaching to outcomes. But I just 690 00:36:34,520 --> 00:36:38,200 Speaker 1: feel like I've put so much pressure on myself to 691 00:36:38,520 --> 00:36:41,560 Speaker 1: accomplish certain things, or to to look a certain way, 692 00:36:41,640 --> 00:36:44,080 Speaker 1: to live this perfect life, to be married by a 693 00:36:44,120 --> 00:36:48,239 Speaker 1: certain age, and to just like do the things that 694 00:36:48,280 --> 00:36:52,720 Speaker 1: I think I should do as a woman or whatever 695 00:36:52,760 --> 00:36:54,879 Speaker 1: it is. I don't know the weird pressures I put 696 00:36:54,920 --> 00:36:56,879 Speaker 1: on myself. And I really just want to be able 697 00:36:56,960 --> 00:37:00,400 Speaker 1: to live my life and just fly and fly free. 698 00:37:00,440 --> 00:37:02,560 Speaker 1: And I mean I even have birds tattooed on my back. 699 00:37:02,600 --> 00:37:04,400 Speaker 1: It's like, why did it make me get to the 700 00:37:04,440 --> 00:37:07,319 Speaker 1: age of forty to realize this? But like that's how 701 00:37:07,360 --> 00:37:09,760 Speaker 1: I want to live. And you're smirking and I cannot 702 00:37:09,840 --> 00:37:14,920 Speaker 1: figure out why what are you about to do? Was 703 00:37:15,000 --> 00:37:19,080 Speaker 1: this my walkout song? Now? Why I got to get 704 00:37:19,080 --> 00:37:21,200 Speaker 1: to the chorus? Why is Mark McGrath going to be 705 00:37:21,239 --> 00:37:29,680 Speaker 1: singing my walkout song? Isn't that who this is? Baby? 706 00:37:30,280 --> 00:37:32,520 Speaker 1: I just want to fly, Baby, I can't find the part. 707 00:37:33,160 --> 00:37:37,080 Speaker 1: There you go, that's your new theme song, that's your walkout. 708 00:37:37,680 --> 00:37:40,000 Speaker 1: This is that Mark McGrath that I get Sugar Ray? 709 00:37:40,560 --> 00:37:44,200 Speaker 1: That's Sugar Ray. Yeah. I mean it's a little jeesy, 710 00:37:44,400 --> 00:37:46,840 Speaker 1: but it's better than I believe I can fly by 711 00:37:46,960 --> 00:37:49,680 Speaker 1: R back at that that would have been dark. I 712 00:37:49,719 --> 00:37:52,240 Speaker 1: don't want to go into twenty two with R Kelly. 713 00:37:52,280 --> 00:37:56,080 Speaker 1: Come on, This one at least feels fun and uplifting. Yeah. 714 00:37:56,360 --> 00:37:58,799 Speaker 1: So you're George Michael and I'm Mark Mark. Yeah, we're 715 00:37:58,840 --> 00:38:05,040 Speaker 1: like we'reely like living in um. Also on my list 716 00:38:05,080 --> 00:38:09,319 Speaker 1: of things, we two our our merch well, I was 717 00:38:09,360 --> 00:38:12,319 Speaker 1: setting we were setting up today until he goes Can 718 00:38:12,360 --> 00:38:14,680 Speaker 1: you believe that we actually never did merch and I 719 00:38:14,719 --> 00:38:21,080 Speaker 1: was like every episode was like next week we're launching merch, 720 00:38:22,320 --> 00:38:25,040 Speaker 1: and then we keep getting these samples and we're like, no, 721 00:38:25,160 --> 00:38:27,640 Speaker 1: I hate that. No, it's really me that I'm so 722 00:38:27,719 --> 00:38:30,279 Speaker 1: picky with this ship. We're I'm gonna just hold your 723 00:38:30,280 --> 00:38:32,799 Speaker 1: hand through it. Maybe I'll just make merch and be like, here, 724 00:38:32,840 --> 00:38:35,000 Speaker 1: put it up. You're gonna hand hold me through our merch? 725 00:38:37,040 --> 00:38:38,680 Speaker 1: Why am I? So it's you know what it is. 726 00:38:38,760 --> 00:38:41,200 Speaker 1: It's like it has to be something that I would 727 00:38:41,239 --> 00:38:44,000 Speaker 1: wear myself. And so I'm having a really difficult time 728 00:38:44,080 --> 00:38:46,799 Speaker 1: because you know, there's like you just have your own 729 00:38:46,800 --> 00:38:49,080 Speaker 1: preference and I'm sorry, but this is like the world 730 00:38:49,120 --> 00:38:50,359 Speaker 1: I live in. So I see a lot of ship 731 00:38:50,440 --> 00:38:53,319 Speaker 1: and I'm just like, Nope, that's not good enough. Nope, nope, nope, nope. 732 00:38:53,760 --> 00:38:56,040 Speaker 1: I'm a little too picky maybe, but we'll work on 733 00:38:56,080 --> 00:38:57,680 Speaker 1: it for you guys. I'm going to try to let 734 00:38:57,680 --> 00:39:01,120 Speaker 1: go and let God let go, and let fly, let 735 00:39:01,120 --> 00:39:03,160 Speaker 1: go and fly. Um. We do have a couple of 736 00:39:03,360 --> 00:39:08,840 Speaker 1: listener emails to get to and let me get to them. 737 00:39:08,920 --> 00:39:10,640 Speaker 1: I wanted to do this a little bit so we 738 00:39:10,640 --> 00:39:13,480 Speaker 1: can still connect with you guys before the New Year. 739 00:39:14,280 --> 00:39:16,480 Speaker 1: This is from Tracy. She said, I love the sound 740 00:39:16,480 --> 00:39:18,759 Speaker 1: of the new format. I was missing the interview and 741 00:39:18,800 --> 00:39:21,320 Speaker 1: pop culture there were the reason. They were the reasons 742 00:39:21,360 --> 00:39:23,520 Speaker 1: I started listening to begin with. So happy it can't 743 00:39:23,719 --> 00:39:26,000 Speaker 1: wait to keep listening more. Much love from a listener 744 00:39:26,040 --> 00:39:32,399 Speaker 1: in Canada, biggest fans. Hey, um, so, I don't even 745 00:39:32,440 --> 00:39:36,120 Speaker 1: remember what we said the new format. They were like, 746 00:39:36,120 --> 00:39:38,080 Speaker 1: we're gonna have to go back and listen. So we said, 747 00:39:38,280 --> 00:39:40,680 Speaker 1: we're gonna do one week of an interview with someone 748 00:39:40,760 --> 00:39:43,480 Speaker 1: like an expert. We're gonna do, which is what I 749 00:39:43,520 --> 00:39:47,319 Speaker 1: also do on the Yeah, so on the velvet side 750 00:39:47,320 --> 00:39:49,640 Speaker 1: of things, I interview people a lot. That's kind of 751 00:39:49,680 --> 00:39:53,800 Speaker 1: been the thing. And you have really showed an interest 752 00:39:53,800 --> 00:39:58,960 Speaker 1: in bringing in a third party. He wants a threesome apparently. Yeah, 753 00:39:59,040 --> 00:40:01,000 Speaker 1: well you know what it is. It's like, I don't 754 00:40:01,000 --> 00:40:02,920 Speaker 1: feel like I'm an expert on anything, so it's like, 755 00:40:03,200 --> 00:40:05,640 Speaker 1: but I'm really curious about things, so if we can, 756 00:40:05,800 --> 00:40:07,279 Speaker 1: you are an expert on some things, but we're not 757 00:40:07,320 --> 00:40:10,120 Speaker 1: experts on everything, right, So yes, I do believe there's 758 00:40:10,239 --> 00:40:12,520 Speaker 1: a lot of topics, and especially like when we start 759 00:40:12,560 --> 00:40:16,160 Speaker 1: diving into listener questions sometimes we're like we this is 760 00:40:16,200 --> 00:40:17,960 Speaker 1: our opinion, but we would love to be able to 761 00:40:18,000 --> 00:40:20,120 Speaker 1: give you guys a full expert opinion. So we are 762 00:40:20,120 --> 00:40:22,279 Speaker 1: going to start doing that more on. It's going to 763 00:40:22,360 --> 00:40:26,120 Speaker 1: be one week of that one week of listener emails. 764 00:40:27,600 --> 00:40:29,759 Speaker 1: One week we set up sex and dating because that 765 00:40:29,800 --> 00:40:31,440 Speaker 1: was what seemed to resonate with you guys more. But 766 00:40:31,480 --> 00:40:34,520 Speaker 1: I want to have feedback about that more like, because 767 00:40:34,520 --> 00:40:35,759 Speaker 1: that was what you were sort of like, I don't 768 00:40:35,800 --> 00:40:39,400 Speaker 1: feel like an expert, but it's like the thing that 769 00:40:39,560 --> 00:40:42,160 Speaker 1: everyone loves to talk about because it's like the one 770 00:40:42,600 --> 00:40:46,080 Speaker 1: common denominator in every single person in this world. Yeah. 771 00:40:46,280 --> 00:40:48,839 Speaker 1: What I do love about it is is like the 772 00:40:48,920 --> 00:40:51,960 Speaker 1: freedom of talking about it, you know, you're talking to 773 00:40:52,000 --> 00:40:54,799 Speaker 1: your friends. Yeah, it's just like because even still it's 774 00:40:54,880 --> 00:40:58,960 Speaker 1: like with my friends who I am incredibly open with, 775 00:40:59,040 --> 00:41:02,040 Speaker 1: it's like it's still like not the easiest thing to 776 00:41:02,040 --> 00:41:04,360 Speaker 1: talk about all the time, you know. So it's I 777 00:41:04,440 --> 00:41:07,600 Speaker 1: find it fun to like just explore and normalize it. 778 00:41:08,960 --> 00:41:11,160 Speaker 1: You know, there's a reason why pornography is fucking huge 779 00:41:11,160 --> 00:41:15,440 Speaker 1: on the Internet is because people like sex, right, you know. Um, 780 00:41:15,480 --> 00:41:18,000 Speaker 1: and there's there's still a lot of like veiled secrecy 781 00:41:18,040 --> 00:41:22,160 Speaker 1: around it and it's let's spread some love. Yeah, well 782 00:41:22,760 --> 00:41:25,839 Speaker 1: right right, so we'll we'll keep that one. We're gonna 783 00:41:25,960 --> 00:41:28,080 Speaker 1: work through the dynamic with that. But that's the one 784 00:41:28,120 --> 00:41:29,839 Speaker 1: we really need to hear from you guys on what 785 00:41:29,880 --> 00:41:32,319 Speaker 1: your questions are or what you're struggling with in your 786 00:41:32,320 --> 00:41:35,560 Speaker 1: relationships that you want us to talk about, stories that 787 00:41:35,600 --> 00:41:38,520 Speaker 1: you think. Oh my god, me and Brittany were email 788 00:41:38,520 --> 00:41:41,719 Speaker 1: on the other day. I remember our jall girl, she's 789 00:41:41,760 --> 00:41:43,200 Speaker 1: a different she's a different color here and I was 790 00:41:43,239 --> 00:41:45,600 Speaker 1: almost didn't recognize her in her profile pick. She needs 791 00:41:45,600 --> 00:41:48,640 Speaker 1: to come to Nashville, I know. Um. So anyway, we 792 00:41:48,680 --> 00:41:50,120 Speaker 1: love to hear from you guys. You can always email 793 00:41:50,160 --> 00:41:55,080 Speaker 1: us at the Edge at velvets sedge dot com. God, 794 00:41:55,120 --> 00:41:58,080 Speaker 1: I'm out of practice. Oh my gosh, the Edge at 795 00:41:58,160 --> 00:41:59,880 Speaker 1: velvetsedge dot com, or you can slide into my d 796 00:42:00,280 --> 00:42:04,279 Speaker 1: at Velvet's Edge. Chip is Chip Doors. I was about 797 00:42:04,280 --> 00:42:09,520 Speaker 1: to say, are you joking? You're not gonna r um? 798 00:42:09,640 --> 00:42:12,000 Speaker 1: And then the other week, what were we gonna do? 799 00:42:12,600 --> 00:42:17,640 Speaker 1: Pop culture? Just talk about like pop culture? That's right, Yeah, 800 00:42:18,080 --> 00:42:20,200 Speaker 1: we're going to really nail down this for me. I mean, 801 00:42:20,360 --> 00:42:22,120 Speaker 1: you could end up just being two things where you go, 802 00:42:22,560 --> 00:42:24,399 Speaker 1: you know, like, who knows, we'll figure it out. We're 803 00:42:24,400 --> 00:42:29,440 Speaker 1: exploring journey, journey, we're learning, we're trusting ourselves, we're flying. 804 00:42:29,840 --> 00:42:32,879 Speaker 1: Oh yes, and if you guys do have feedback about 805 00:42:32,880 --> 00:42:35,400 Speaker 1: the format, just like Tracy just emailed us, go ahead 806 00:42:35,400 --> 00:42:37,319 Speaker 1: and hit up that email too, because we love hearing 807 00:42:37,360 --> 00:42:40,520 Speaker 1: from you guys on all fronts. In general, it really 808 00:42:40,719 --> 00:42:45,680 Speaker 1: does help. It's nice to know someone's out there, you know. Um, 809 00:42:45,680 --> 00:42:47,799 Speaker 1: this one comes from a different Brittany, She says, Chip 810 00:42:47,840 --> 00:42:49,560 Speaker 1: and Kelly, I love you both, and I'm sure I've 811 00:42:49,560 --> 00:42:53,959 Speaker 1: told you before. Um. Anyways, Oh, we must have gotten 812 00:42:53,960 --> 00:42:56,359 Speaker 1: emails from our foray. Anyways, I'm writing to tell you 813 00:42:56,400 --> 00:42:58,400 Speaker 1: that after being divorced for ten years and being on 814 00:42:58,480 --> 00:43:00,839 Speaker 1: and off dating apps for six of those years, I'm 815 00:43:00,840 --> 00:43:02,880 Speaker 1: forty six years young and I recently got married to 816 00:43:02,920 --> 00:43:05,000 Speaker 1: my best friend and soul mate, whom I met on 817 00:43:05,160 --> 00:43:08,600 Speaker 1: Bumble four years ago. Kelly, I envy you for not 818 00:43:08,680 --> 00:43:12,919 Speaker 1: having to do the online dating apps well, Brittany, as 819 00:43:12,920 --> 00:43:16,320 Speaker 1: it can be very draining. However, I can honestly say 820 00:43:16,400 --> 00:43:19,719 Speaker 1: I learned a lot about myself while dating online. But 821 00:43:19,760 --> 00:43:21,640 Speaker 1: I wanted to give Chips some moral support and just 822 00:43:21,680 --> 00:43:23,920 Speaker 1: say stick with it. Sometimes you take a break from 823 00:43:23,960 --> 00:43:25,879 Speaker 1: it for a while and just do you. And then 824 00:43:25,920 --> 00:43:28,200 Speaker 1: sometimes you go full force and really throw yourself out 825 00:43:28,200 --> 00:43:30,520 Speaker 1: there and be vulnerable. I really like what Chips said 826 00:43:30,560 --> 00:43:34,200 Speaker 1: a few weeks ago about if only those If you 827 00:43:34,280 --> 00:43:37,360 Speaker 1: only like those quote unquote super hot individuals, it doesn't 828 00:43:37,400 --> 00:43:40,040 Speaker 1: always end well. But I also think it's all about 829 00:43:40,040 --> 00:43:42,319 Speaker 1: what kind of relationship you were looking for at the time. 830 00:43:42,520 --> 00:43:46,600 Speaker 1: Hanging there. You are a very charismatic, smart, handsome, charming 831 00:43:46,640 --> 00:43:48,680 Speaker 1: and funny person, and the right one will show up 832 00:43:48,719 --> 00:43:51,480 Speaker 1: for you when you're ready to step a Britney's not single. 833 00:43:52,719 --> 00:43:55,640 Speaker 1: With gratitude from Denver. You two always make my day. 834 00:43:56,040 --> 00:43:58,040 Speaker 1: I made that noise because, like I guess, eventually, I 835 00:43:58,080 --> 00:43:59,640 Speaker 1: am going to have to do dating apps. So it's 836 00:43:59,680 --> 00:44:02,040 Speaker 1: just so weird to even think about. I've never done one, 837 00:44:02,239 --> 00:44:04,000 Speaker 1: and I'm so not in a place to even think 838 00:44:04,040 --> 00:44:06,359 Speaker 1: about that yet. I need some time. Yeah you need 839 00:44:06,440 --> 00:44:11,799 Speaker 1: some time. Yeah, definitely not healed already. But um, it's 840 00:44:11,840 --> 00:44:14,680 Speaker 1: interesting to hear about someone getting married because we actually 841 00:44:14,719 --> 00:44:18,200 Speaker 1: just had a friend, a friend that a couple of ours. Wait, 842 00:44:18,239 --> 00:44:31,680 Speaker 1: but I think it's a strip. Um, we had a 843 00:44:31,719 --> 00:44:35,560 Speaker 1: friend getting engaged and her boyfriend is the one that 844 00:44:35,640 --> 00:44:39,040 Speaker 1: she met on Bumble with Bumble, right, I think, and 845 00:44:39,040 --> 00:44:41,240 Speaker 1: then even another friend who's in a relationship from Bumble 846 00:44:41,280 --> 00:44:46,839 Speaker 1: and one Strong. So you like Tender better now, you said, Yeah, 847 00:44:46,880 --> 00:44:50,000 Speaker 1: I mean I've been finding like it's a deeper well, 848 00:44:50,120 --> 00:44:52,239 Speaker 1: you know, tell us more. I don't know, it just 849 00:44:52,280 --> 00:44:56,279 Speaker 1: seems like more people are on it, um the other apps. 850 00:44:56,320 --> 00:44:58,799 Speaker 1: Just I feel like when I sign onto them, I'm like, 851 00:44:58,800 --> 00:45:00,319 Speaker 1: these are the same faces have been on her for 852 00:45:00,360 --> 00:45:03,640 Speaker 1: five years. Yeah. We have another friend who says that, Yeah. 853 00:45:03,760 --> 00:45:05,920 Speaker 1: He he he says that it's like the same girls and 854 00:45:05,960 --> 00:45:08,239 Speaker 1: he's swiping on that and then he's now he's like 855 00:45:08,239 --> 00:45:15,200 Speaker 1: sliding into d M on Instagram. He's like, because that's 856 00:45:15,200 --> 00:45:20,560 Speaker 1: always funny, different girls at point. Yeah. Interesting, I'm really well. 857 00:45:20,600 --> 00:45:22,680 Speaker 1: The funny thing about the Instagram thing, too, is even 858 00:45:22,719 --> 00:45:24,759 Speaker 1: though it's not a dating app, it is still like 859 00:45:25,200 --> 00:45:28,799 Speaker 1: you're putting out into the world an image of yourself. Yeah, 860 00:45:29,120 --> 00:45:31,560 Speaker 1: so I think it's um, it might actually be the 861 00:45:31,640 --> 00:45:33,719 Speaker 1: most honest place to find, you know. It's like when 862 00:45:33,719 --> 00:45:36,080 Speaker 1: you're when you're feeling well, I mean, look, obviously people 863 00:45:36,080 --> 00:45:38,799 Speaker 1: are only putting their best lives, but same thing with 864 00:45:38,880 --> 00:45:41,520 Speaker 1: a match dot com or a bumble or whatever, Like 865 00:45:41,520 --> 00:45:44,440 Speaker 1: you're answering questions hoping that someone will relate to your 866 00:45:44,480 --> 00:45:47,200 Speaker 1: answer and like you so actually you're putting more. I 867 00:45:47,200 --> 00:45:49,319 Speaker 1: feel like Instagram is just like a picture and you're like, hey, 868 00:45:49,360 --> 00:45:51,239 Speaker 1: look this is like the best angle and I edited 869 00:45:51,239 --> 00:45:53,399 Speaker 1: the funk out of this photo. But you can also 870 00:45:53,400 --> 00:45:56,200 Speaker 1: look at the photos that people have tagged you. Oh, 871 00:45:56,360 --> 00:45:58,359 Speaker 1: I didn't think about you don't have control over, so 872 00:45:58,680 --> 00:46:02,640 Speaker 1: I feel like I'm fucked pop. It's like home wrecking bitch, 873 00:46:02,800 --> 00:46:07,239 Speaker 1: like like trying to defend myself about a fair I 874 00:46:07,280 --> 00:46:11,839 Speaker 1: didn't have right. Right, that'll be interesting whatever. Maybe there's 875 00:46:11,880 --> 00:46:14,120 Speaker 1: someone else who's like a failed reality star out there. 876 00:46:15,200 --> 00:46:17,640 Speaker 1: Maybe we should do a reality show about putting failed 877 00:46:17,640 --> 00:46:24,560 Speaker 1: reality stars together. Reality rehab. Oh my god, reality rehab trademark. 878 00:46:27,000 --> 00:46:31,640 Speaker 1: It's like Celebrity rehab, failed reality stars. So dark, it's 879 00:46:31,760 --> 00:46:37,120 Speaker 1: so dark and dalist. It's like list um. Anyway, we'll 880 00:46:37,120 --> 00:46:39,080 Speaker 1: talk more about that. I'm sure in the here, But 881 00:46:39,239 --> 00:46:42,040 Speaker 1: do you have any Are you even doing apps right now? Yeah? 882 00:46:42,080 --> 00:46:44,680 Speaker 1: I'm stilling all of them. I did just rejoin RYA. 883 00:46:45,280 --> 00:46:48,520 Speaker 1: Oh that just means so terrible to me. It's like 884 00:46:49,440 --> 00:46:52,359 Speaker 1: and plus there's nobody. There's like four people in Nashville, right, 885 00:46:52,680 --> 00:46:54,719 Speaker 1: so unless you wanted a long distance did you want 886 00:46:54,719 --> 00:46:57,600 Speaker 1: to tell the people about the candle I just gave you? 887 00:46:58,840 --> 00:47:02,040 Speaker 1: She gave me a candle that shape like a dick. Wow, 888 00:47:02,040 --> 00:47:04,440 Speaker 1: I mean you've had it. You couldn't have just said penis, like, 889 00:47:04,960 --> 00:47:10,000 Speaker 1: I mean it's vainy Okay, listen, there's a story behind this. 890 00:47:10,080 --> 00:47:12,680 Speaker 1: And my brother just started a crystal shop on at 891 00:47:12,719 --> 00:47:16,600 Speaker 1: Sea which is called Shop Ion. I think it's a 892 00:47:16,880 --> 00:47:19,239 Speaker 1: e O n if anyone wants to go check it out. 893 00:47:19,280 --> 00:47:21,399 Speaker 1: He has some really cool stuff, but he has these 894 00:47:21,520 --> 00:47:25,880 Speaker 1: penis candles. That um chip was like a cool things, 895 00:47:26,040 --> 00:47:29,040 Speaker 1: like thinking that it is detailed, but it's it's got 896 00:47:29,040 --> 00:47:31,279 Speaker 1: a purpose, like you burn it and you do it 897 00:47:31,280 --> 00:47:33,759 Speaker 1: while you're meditating, and it's like it's supposed to make 898 00:47:33,800 --> 00:47:37,279 Speaker 1: you more open. It's like a healing candle. It's like, 899 00:47:37,320 --> 00:47:40,600 Speaker 1: if you have any sort of sexual blocks or emotional 900 00:47:40,719 --> 00:47:42,960 Speaker 1: love blocks, it's supposed to help you open that up. 901 00:47:43,000 --> 00:47:44,960 Speaker 1: And so I figured why you were on this dating journey, 902 00:47:45,000 --> 00:47:48,520 Speaker 1: like why not open her up? Let's burn that dick, 903 00:47:50,360 --> 00:47:53,400 Speaker 1: burn that dick down. She also gave me hand towels 904 00:47:53,400 --> 00:47:56,400 Speaker 1: that say tits and pits and slips, pits and slips. 905 00:47:56,480 --> 00:48:00,680 Speaker 1: Remember talking about that from who was it? Ashton Kitchens 906 00:48:02,960 --> 00:48:08,200 Speaker 1: and see I really should start a march shop pits 907 00:48:08,360 --> 00:48:13,080 Speaker 1: and slits. That's all you watch? Oh man? Well, um, 908 00:48:13,160 --> 00:48:15,160 Speaker 1: so you're taking what's what's your word? Again? I want 909 00:48:15,160 --> 00:48:20,160 Speaker 1: to say it one more time. Um, trust trusting yourself, 910 00:48:20,239 --> 00:48:22,839 Speaker 1: Trust yourself. That's going to go on Chips vision board 911 00:48:22,880 --> 00:48:25,640 Speaker 1: for this next year. I'm gonna put fly. I actually 912 00:48:25,640 --> 00:48:27,759 Speaker 1: have a huge painting now that I did at that 913 00:48:27,960 --> 00:48:30,600 Speaker 1: that seven year old eight year old birthday party that 914 00:48:30,600 --> 00:48:32,279 Speaker 1: says fly, and I hang it in my house that 915 00:48:32,400 --> 00:48:34,520 Speaker 1: so I see it every day and just remember to 916 00:48:34,560 --> 00:48:39,960 Speaker 1: get out there and fly. Just want um, you guys, 917 00:48:39,960 --> 00:48:41,879 Speaker 1: I do. If you pick a word and you put 918 00:48:41,880 --> 00:48:44,480 Speaker 1: it up, send us picks and you know the email address. 919 00:48:44,480 --> 00:48:46,279 Speaker 1: I think you probably know better than me, but it's 920 00:48:46,440 --> 00:48:49,920 Speaker 1: the Edge, Elvis, Edge dot com or tag us Yeah, 921 00:48:49,920 --> 00:48:52,000 Speaker 1: and I'll share them. I love seeing what you guys 922 00:48:52,080 --> 00:48:56,520 Speaker 1: come up with or what your intentions going into will be. Um. 923 00:48:56,800 --> 00:48:59,279 Speaker 1: I just really am feeling like a good vibe going 924 00:48:59,280 --> 00:49:07,040 Speaker 1: into this. Snoopie h good one, Okay, well when you 925 00:49:07,160 --> 00:49:11,560 Speaker 1: answer cool, it was a really good to talk to you. 926 00:49:11,600 --> 00:49:15,880 Speaker 1: Then chop, Okay, how much money do you want to 927 00:49:15,920 --> 00:49:19,239 Speaker 1: bet that I can get this right or get right? 928 00:49:20,120 --> 00:49:24,880 Speaker 1: Oh my god, sixteen? You can do it? Sixteen? Why 929 00:49:25,040 --> 00:49:27,080 Speaker 1: that don't over? Why does it have to be a 930 00:49:27,160 --> 00:49:30,040 Speaker 1: round number? Okay, well that was the weirdest thing you've 931 00:49:30,080 --> 00:49:35,760 Speaker 1: said all day. So for sixteen dollars and gentlemen, here 932 00:49:35,760 --> 00:49:40,440 Speaker 1: we go. So when you guys move into two, into 933 00:49:40,480 --> 00:49:43,759 Speaker 1: this new year, I hope that you always remember to 934 00:49:43,880 --> 00:49:51,200 Speaker 1: live on the edge. And sorry you're rich. As you 935 00:49:51,239 --> 00:49:55,120 Speaker 1: guys move into two and you're living on the edge, 936 00:49:55,160 --> 00:49:59,399 Speaker 1: I hope you always remember to casual. I just needed 937 00:49:59,400 --> 00:50:00,680 Speaker 1: to warm up a litt it. Just let me know. 938 00:50:01,040 --> 00:50:04,720 Speaker 1: Take two. Okay. We love you guys. Happy one, Happy 939 00:50:04,719 --> 00:50:07,760 Speaker 1: new Year. Can't wait to see you in two. Bye. 940 00:50:08,719 --> 00:50:11,719 Speaker 1: Thanks for listening to The Velvet's Edge podcast with Kelly Henderson, 941 00:50:11,880 --> 00:50:14,400 Speaker 1: where we believe everyone has a little velvet and a 942 00:50:14,400 --> 00:50:18,600 Speaker 1: little edge. Subscribe for more conversations on life, style, beauty 943 00:50:18,640 --> 00:50:22,359 Speaker 1: and relationships. Search Velvet's Edge wherever you get your podcasts.