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<v Speaker 1>What's Up Tribe. I'm Erica and I'm Mila, and this

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<v Speaker 1>is Good Mom's Bad Choices Podcast.

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<v Speaker 2>Beach season two.

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<v Speaker 3>If you joined us for season one, you got three

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<v Speaker 3>hundred uncensored episodes.

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<v Speaker 1>But things are a little different in twenty twenty four.

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<v Speaker 1>Not only are we having new guests, new segments, but

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<v Speaker 1>we're going outside, y'all. We're getting out of our studio

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<v Speaker 1>and podcasting in the wild, So make sure you check

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<v Speaker 1>Just look at this as the ultimate group chat. All

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<v Speaker 2>Welcome back to Good Mom's Bad Choices.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm Erica and I'm Mila. Happy hump Day, bitches, what

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<v Speaker 1>did it do is hump Day?

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<v Speaker 2>We're two episodes away from ending our season.

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<v Speaker 1>I know, it's so weird.

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<v Speaker 2>I know. I don't even know what to I don't

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<v Speaker 2>know how to feel.

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<v Speaker 1>Guys, our season is ending. I can't believe it. It

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<v Speaker 1>And also just like extended interviews with guests there that

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<v Speaker 1>to go off season and connect with you guys in

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<v Speaker 2>More intimate, honestly.

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<v Speaker 3>We get to connect with our people more intimately and

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<v Speaker 3>it's nice.

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<v Speaker 2>How are you, I'm great.

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<v Speaker 1>Were you adjusting back from the jungle Costa Rica life?

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<v Speaker 2>Slowly, but surely.

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<v Speaker 3>Today's the day I've felt more.

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<v Speaker 2>American.

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<v Speaker 1>So, you guys, we just got back from our three

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<v Speaker 1>week trip to Costa Rica. We led to retreats at

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<v Speaker 1>the Good Vibe Retreat.

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<v Speaker 3>Not just any two retreats. It's our ninth and tenth retreat.

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<v Speaker 3>We just completed our ninth and tenth retreat. And if

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<v Speaker 3>you know us, if you've been listening, you know it's

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<v Speaker 3>a big fucking deal because we like accidentally started this

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<v Speaker 3>business two years ago and to just come up on

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<v Speaker 3>our tenth, ninth and tenth retreat is just honestly unreal

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<v Speaker 3>and the most beautiful shit I've ever witnessed, the most

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<v Speaker 3>beautiful work I've ever done. So I feel super grateful

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<v Speaker 3>to come back. I'm also super eager to get the

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<v Speaker 3>fuck out of the United States permanently and eat real

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<v Speaker 3>food and.

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<v Speaker 2>Live on the beach.

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<v Speaker 3>But overall, I'm adjusting back and I hope to return

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<v Speaker 3>to the jungle much sooner than later.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, me too. It was hard for me to leave

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<v Speaker 1>this time. I mean, besides that, my child wasn't there

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<v Speaker 1>and I had to go back toget her. But I

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<v Speaker 1>was over there plant seeds. Bitch for us Okay, I

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<v Speaker 1>was out there trying to find a nanny for us.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm over there trying to like really figure out what

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<v Speaker 1>it is to live in Costa Rica full time.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I'm feeling like my new job is like like scouter,

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<v Speaker 3>like where I'm going to live next? Because yeah, after

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<v Speaker 3>I went to Costa Rica, I went to Panama as

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<v Speaker 3>my or some being there. We went to Boca's and

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<v Speaker 3>it was beautiful Boca to too. It's like a say,

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<v Speaker 3>appalago of islands. And then we went to Panama City

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<v Speaker 3>and I texted Erica immediately like, bitch, I think we

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<v Speaker 3>need to live a Banama City. I'm really feeling like

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<v Speaker 3>we need multiple like international locations to get all the

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<v Speaker 3>things we need because I know we say this a lot,

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<v Speaker 3>but we're jungle bitches, but we're also like city bitches.

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<v Speaker 3>I'm like a city jungle girl. I'm like half city girls,

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<v Speaker 3>half jungle bitch. And I feel like Panama City is

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<v Speaker 3>really chic. It was super chic and super beautiful. It

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<v Speaker 3>was giving like old town Cuba, but like upscale. They

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<v Speaker 3>had like beautiful restaurants. Shout out to Aarin, our wonderful,

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<v Speaker 3>beautiful tour guide who took us all around and produced

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<v Speaker 3>us to all her friends, took us to all the

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<v Speaker 3>best restaurants on all the best adventures. We were like,

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<v Speaker 3>it was just me, Aaron and Orlando and a truple

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<v Speaker 3>for a full week and I highly recommend it, and

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<v Speaker 3>has a tour guy.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm like, I don't think Aaron wants to be a guy.

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<v Speaker 2>She's our tour guide. Okay, she's I'm putting her on.

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<v Speaker 1>Trip creating her fucking skincare empire. So many empires over there.

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<v Speaker 1>But it wasn't a real fucking adventure. We did some

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<v Speaker 1>real adventuring and it was great.

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<v Speaker 3>We I've never crossed a border by foot, so we

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<v Speaker 3>crossed the border by foot.

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<v Speaker 2>And it was very like old Jankie.

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<v Speaker 3>We had to like take her luggage across a man

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<v Speaker 3>took it across in a wheelbarrow for five dollars.

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<v Speaker 1>Actually, yeah, that's what I had to do. Remember when

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<v Speaker 1>I when I had to escape the country from Costa Rica,

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<v Speaker 1>from Nicaragua to Costa Rica. That's what I had to

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<v Speaker 1>do to walk across the border.

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<v Speaker 2>Was it a bridge?

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<v Speaker 1>Well, they're two different borders, so I.

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<v Speaker 2>Know, okay, you didn't you didn't go.

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<v Speaker 1>I was going from Nicaragua to Costa Rica, escaped the

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<v Speaker 1>Nicaragwood war that was happening.

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<v Speaker 3>I remember that had what episode was that that I

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<v Speaker 3>told you to get a free trip with a guy

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<v Speaker 3>and then it ended up.

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<v Speaker 1>It was like then he dry humped me until he

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<v Speaker 1>came his pan came in his pants. He dry humped me,

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<v Speaker 1>and then I had to escape Nicaragua because there was

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<v Speaker 1>an impending war that he knew about but still had

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<v Speaker 1>me fly out that I didn't know about it, and

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<v Speaker 1>you're only there for like a weekend, and like I

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<v Speaker 1>was there for one and a half days, bitch. I

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<v Speaker 1>was in Nicarago for maybe twenty two hours before I

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<v Speaker 1>had to escape.

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<v Speaker 3>That was like in the earliest parts of our friendship.

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<v Speaker 3>It was like probably an earlier episode.

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<v Speaker 2>And I was like, you should go. I fuck it.

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<v Speaker 2>You've never been in Nicaraga.

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<v Speaker 1>I'd never been flewed out before. And then we flew

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<v Speaker 1>out within like twenty four hours.

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<v Speaker 3>She texted me like I think I might die and

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<v Speaker 3>I was like, oh no, I told her to go.

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<v Speaker 2>She's like, there's a man with a machine gun.

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<v Speaker 3>We're going through some back jungle, so there's a war

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<v Speaker 3>breaking out. I was like, oh god, I gave her

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<v Speaker 3>the wrong ghetto advice, telling her to be a hoe,

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<v Speaker 3>and now she's gonna die in Nicaragua war.

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<v Speaker 1>She has no business. Thank god I didn't have to

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<v Speaker 1>be a hoe. Well, I guess I don't know.

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<v Speaker 2>You got dry humps? That's pretty was that hollish?

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<v Speaker 1>I feel like that's pretty safe.

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<v Speaker 2>I feel like it's worse. No, it's not.

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<v Speaker 3>Every time I think of you telling me all bodily

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<v Speaker 3>fluids were exchange, I literally every time I think about it,

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<v Speaker 3>I think about justin Timberlake in that movie he did

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<v Speaker 3>called The Bad Teacher until.

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<v Speaker 2>He comes in his jeans.

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<v Speaker 1>That's kind of what it was like. I am not

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<v Speaker 1>has anyone ever been dry humped before and the man

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<v Speaker 1>come in their pants? Because that was like new. That

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<v Speaker 1>was like a new discovery.

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<v Speaker 2>That's over fifteen years old.

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<v Speaker 3>I don't think so maybe like really religious Christians or something.

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<v Speaker 4>You know.

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<v Speaker 1>I felt like, you know, I dodged, you know, putting

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<v Speaker 1>an Agama on my list. He doesn't count.

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<v Speaker 2>You know what this is like?

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<v Speaker 3>This is a good strategy if you are trying to

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<v Speaker 3>like live your best whole life but not get any

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<v Speaker 3>extra bodies, to just have them try humpy through their pants.

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<v Speaker 3>Apparently they can still come and tell don't tell them.

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<v Speaker 3>Let don't let them tell you otherwise.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, that's how you know you got that good piss,

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<v Speaker 1>You got a good life, You got that good you

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<v Speaker 1>got that good thigh. Good, I got a good tight thigh.

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<v Speaker 1>Nigga can fucking met in his pants. But dry hump.

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<v Speaker 2>I can come off a dry hump easy. I know

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<v Speaker 2>that you can.

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<v Speaker 1>I know that truth thing humping pillows and stuffed animals, and.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't know about suffed animals, not since I'm a child.

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<v Speaker 1>But I can't come off off of a dry hump

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<v Speaker 1>at all.

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<v Speaker 2>Do you need to be penetrated?

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<v Speaker 1>No, but I need I need to be like, there

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<v Speaker 1>needs to be some sort of at least a suck

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<v Speaker 1>of something, some sort of suction happening.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh a suction. Well this isn't rub.

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<v Speaker 3>We just went straight off the bath TMI. No one

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<v Speaker 3>asked any of this information. Erica once got dry humped

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<v Speaker 3>to ejaculation, and I love Costa.

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<v Speaker 1>Actually that we didn't try hump in Nicaragua. The dry

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<v Speaker 1>humping happened in Tamarindo.

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<v Speaker 3>Well, I assume there was too much action happening. And

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<v Speaker 3>when you're on your escape plan to get dry humped

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<v Speaker 3>in Nicaragua.

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<v Speaker 2>But he said, one way or other, bitch, you're paid

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<v Speaker 2>for this trip. Yeah he did lay down.

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<v Speaker 1>He made sure that happened. I had to do a

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<v Speaker 1>lot of Oh god, that was actually traumatic. I'm true,

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<v Speaker 1>what's wrong with women? I didn't even want to do it,

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<v Speaker 1>but I felt bad. So I was like, oh God,

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<v Speaker 1>I guess he has a nice mouth. You know I

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<v Speaker 1>have about you know I have about mouths. He had

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<v Speaker 1>a nice mouth. So I just focused on that and

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<v Speaker 1>just was like, just make out, just make out, just

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<v Speaker 1>make out. He's a bigger guy too, so I'm not

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<v Speaker 1>really into big guys like that. No offense, but I

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<v Speaker 1>really like my guys slimming long for the most part.

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<v Speaker 3>You know what, I'm balls and ew who likes long balls?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh you know.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm just talking about my baby daddy and his long ball.

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<v Speaker 2>You know one thing about me, I don't discriminate.

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<v Speaker 3>I've dated all types of guys, big bones, just straight

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<v Speaker 3>up chabby.

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<v Speaker 1>I discriminate thick.

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<v Speaker 3>Sometimes fat guys have big dicks. I mean, yeah, I

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<v Speaker 3>don't really like hips.

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<v Speaker 2>You know.

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<v Speaker 1>I was like, you think fat means you don't have

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<v Speaker 1>big anything?

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<v Speaker 2>No, no, no, you.

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<v Speaker 3>Know, you know, I'm just saying I have You don't

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<v Speaker 3>have theories. You don't have dick theories, and so did

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<v Speaker 3>Oh my god, what are your dick theories?

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<v Speaker 1>Let's break down the dick theories theories by Jamila.

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<v Speaker 3>There are a few, and actually I got some new

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<v Speaker 3>ones on the retreat. Who yes, who the fuck was

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<v Speaker 3>it giving me dick theories on the retreat? Like as

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<v Speaker 3>soon as she sat down, she was like, yeah, you

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<v Speaker 3>look at their extremities, ears, fingers and feet, ears, ears, noses,

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<v Speaker 3>I think she said, ears, noses, and hands.

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<v Speaker 2>All extremities matter.

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<v Speaker 3>And if they have small little ears, it means they

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<v Speaker 3>probably don't have large penises.

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<v Speaker 2>You gotta look at the extremities.

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<v Speaker 3>Wow, shout out to the retreat, because you know what,

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<v Speaker 3>you get a lot of information there.

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<v Speaker 1>That's not true, though. I'm thinking of someone specifically that

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<v Speaker 1>has small ears in a big deck.

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<v Speaker 2>So who's I think? I know what you're talking about.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't know.

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<v Speaker 3>I just feel like I saw a nigga that I

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<v Speaker 3>know you've been with my Maybe those are little ears.

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<v Speaker 2>Maybe she's just a little guy.

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<v Speaker 4>Anyways, some little guys have like large penises, and then

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<v Speaker 4>some little guys just have little penises, and then some

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<v Speaker 4>big guys have little penises, and it just throws off

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<v Speaker 4>the whole game.

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<v Speaker 3>I'm just you know, I'm just letting you know. There's

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<v Speaker 3>really no there's no rhyme or reason, there's no strategy.

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<v Speaker 3>You just have to do the dick test where you're

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<v Speaker 3>just like.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, but I've done that and I've been wrong because

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<v Speaker 1>the dick test also doesn't take into into consideration girth.

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<v Speaker 2>Wait, somebody also the same girl told me that.

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<v Speaker 1>Sometimes you'd be feeling you're like, ooh, bitch, I won,

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<v Speaker 1>and then they pull it's a torpedo.

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<v Speaker 3>She told me that, uh, you gotta be careful during

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<v Speaker 3>the dick test because sometimes it's they have big balls.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh that's true. Wait, I was there for that conversation.

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<v Speaker 1>I remember who was it.

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<v Speaker 2>You must have forgot about the ears in the hands.

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<v Speaker 1>Because the balls like lift.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, it can be all like stuff together.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, they're just like hanging on there.

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<v Speaker 3>What do you guys do with the retreat, Well, we

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<v Speaker 3>deep dive into how to figure out who has a

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<v Speaker 3>big penis show.

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<v Speaker 1>Work and we do dick theories.

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<v Speaker 2>We do dick theory. So first first workshop is Dick theories.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh my god, I love retreating.

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<v Speaker 3>It is literally the highlight of my life. I don't

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<v Speaker 3>know how we got on Dick theories, but obviously they're

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<v Speaker 3>all a gamble. All Dick theories are a fucking gamble.

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<v Speaker 3>But yeah, we've had a We had a pretty like

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<v Speaker 3>most always jam packed.

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<v Speaker 2>Three weeks and I don't.

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<v Speaker 3>Know, there's a lot of surprises. There's always like such

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<v Speaker 3>characters at the retreat.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 3>I did a walk over the border and take like

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<v Speaker 3>two buses and a boat to some islands, saw some

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<v Speaker 3>starfish and met a pirate. I met a pirate who

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<v Speaker 3>was also a cancer dragon. You know, I hit it

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<v Speaker 3>off with people who have specific specificities with I think

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<v Speaker 3>it just made that word up, specific extremities and specificities.

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<v Speaker 3>And we went on his boat and he was just

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<v Speaker 3>like he was showing us a framed photo of his

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<v Speaker 3>dog named Patron. He was obviously like a pirate. He

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<v Speaker 3>was an alcoholic and he was like, look at Patron,

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<v Speaker 3>and then he like poured Patron on top of it,

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<v Speaker 3>and he like licked it and then he passed it.

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<v Speaker 1>To the picture flame. He poured Patron on the picture flame.

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<v Speaker 3>He poured the Patron on the picture of his dog

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<v Speaker 3>that died named Patron, And this is like moments after

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<v Speaker 3>we discovered we're both cancer dragons, and he was like yeah,

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<v Speaker 3>and I.

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<v Speaker 2>Was like, then he poured it on and I was like.

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<v Speaker 1>You licked it. I would telling me people have lickd

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<v Speaker 1>that picture. Bitch.

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<v Speaker 2>The patron would like, wash off the germs.

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<v Speaker 1>All I know is that Orlando had us on a

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<v Speaker 1>group chat and he was like texting random quotes, and

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<v Speaker 1>because I wasn't with you guys, I was like, what

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<v Speaker 1>the fuck is he talking about? Like he said, I

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<v Speaker 1>don't know what he wrote. I got to look, but

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<v Speaker 1>he wrote some shit and I was like, they're fucked up.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean I was like, they're drunk for sure. Right

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<v Speaker 1>now we're doing things. We're definitely drunk, amongst other things, and.

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<v Speaker 3>Stretchering through the streets of Bocca Latro, which are fucked

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<v Speaker 3>up right now. And Aaron's like, my friend said, we

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<v Speaker 3>have to be visionaries. In two years, the streets will

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<v Speaker 3>be together. I'm like, this is really fucked up. But

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<v Speaker 3>you know, I like a ghetto good time, like I'd

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<v Speaker 3>like adventures. So then we got to do like some

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<v Speaker 3>ATVing on the back jungles. We're like, usually ATVing they're

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<v Speaker 3>like guided tours. No, these moffuckers just gave us the

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<v Speaker 3>key and we went like on some private beach and

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<v Speaker 3>we like, go over a bridge.

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<v Speaker 2>I feel like I was in a video game. I'm like,

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<v Speaker 2>are we supposed to go over this bridge? And we're

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<v Speaker 2>like I think So we made it.

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<v Speaker 3>And I was topless in the back like I you know,

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<v Speaker 3>I'm a passenger princess.

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<v Speaker 2>So it's just in the back of the ATV like

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<v Speaker 2>howling and shit.

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<v Speaker 3>With my titties out and we just butt naked, fucking

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<v Speaker 3>skinny dipped on the ocean alone and ate really good food.

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<v Speaker 3>I'm a fucking foodie, so that was great. But you know,

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<v Speaker 3>it was nice to have like an after trip after

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<v Speaker 3>the retreat because the retreats they were like wellness and nice,

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<v Speaker 3>and then I got to like kind of crazy and

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<v Speaker 3>you know, I like balance.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, we're two different bitches, because there's no motherfucking way

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<v Speaker 1>I could have went on an adventure after that. I

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<v Speaker 1>was thinking about you. I was like, I love my friend.

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<v Speaker 1>I love this for her because ain't no way. She

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<v Speaker 1>was like, I was like, how was just like adventure

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<v Speaker 1>after adventure I was like stressed me out thinking about it.

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<v Speaker 3>It was a lot of adventures, like got on a bus,

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<v Speaker 3>went to a window, paid a guy, got on another bus,

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<v Speaker 3>got on a boat. It was just a bunch of Yeah,

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<v Speaker 3>it was a lot, but I enjoyed every second, you know.

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<v Speaker 3>We adventured through some back jungles, found some deserted beaches.

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<v Speaker 2>The water is really beautiful.

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<v Speaker 3>I liked explore new places, so that was really it

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<v Speaker 3>went to the reggae club.

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<v Speaker 2>It was fun.

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<v Speaker 1>Is the ocean better there or is it like it's different?

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<v Speaker 1>Is it like, is it more blue green or is it.

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<v Speaker 2>It was definitely super blue and super clear.

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<v Speaker 3>It was kind of like overcast the days we were there,

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<v Speaker 3>but the days that it wasn't, it was super clear

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<v Speaker 3>and blue. And there's just so many beaches and like

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<v Speaker 3>even the jungles look a little bit different. So it's

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<v Speaker 3>interesting to see like a neighboring country that looks like

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<v Speaker 3>it's very close but still slightly different. Nice and Panama City,

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<v Speaker 3>which we're moving to, because I'm already putting dims on that. Also,

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<v Speaker 3>it's like I also discovered it's I'm not I don't

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<v Speaker 3>want to tell everybody the business so don't tell. It's

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<v Speaker 3>one of the cheaper places to get a permanent residency.

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<v Speaker 1>Is it permanent or residential citizenship? That's what you text me,

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<v Speaker 1>residential citizen. Okay, well maybe that's what it is. Like

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<v Speaker 1>you have lived there as long as you own a

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<v Speaker 1>house there. You I don't know what the stipulations.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I don't know what the stipulations are, but I

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<v Speaker 3>know if you pay like you can get it like

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<v Speaker 3>you can. You can pay the fee, which is I

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<v Speaker 3>think is like three thousand dollars thirty five hundred dollars,

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<v Speaker 3>and then you can later apply for citizenship and get

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<v Speaker 3>your passport.

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<v Speaker 1>Nice.

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<v Speaker 3>The point is, in twenty twenty five, Erica and I

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<v Speaker 3>have already decided out at this bitch, right yeah, because

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<v Speaker 3>we're in twenty twenty four right now, Okay, so we

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<v Speaker 3>only have about ten more months to figure out the plant.

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<v Speaker 2>I guess we can move at any point in twenty

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<v Speaker 2>twenty five.

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<v Speaker 3>And I was thinking summertime because Trump is coming back

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<v Speaker 3>into office.

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<v Speaker 2>I didn't I'm not really, I'm so scared of Trump.

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<v Speaker 1>I just don't like it's nothing. I mean, it's all bad.

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<v Speaker 1>It's what do you think Joe Biden's doing over here.

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<v Speaker 2>Nothing. He's dying in office actively. So I don't know.

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<v Speaker 2>I just I feel like something's happening.

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<v Speaker 3>I've been feeling very zombie apocalyptic, and I'm just ready

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<v Speaker 3>to go. I'm going to live spend the last days

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<v Speaker 3>of living in the earth. I'd rather live in the

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<v Speaker 3>jungle happily, not stressed about bullshit government of the United States.

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<v Speaker 1>That's true. I mean, it's so it's when I was

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<v Speaker 1>out there.

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<v Speaker 3>Are they gonna blacklist their podcasts because I talked so

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<v Speaker 3>we shit about the government.

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<v Speaker 1>I was always out there. I was just talking to

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<v Speaker 1>a lot of the locals and some of the expots,

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<v Speaker 1>but mostly the locals. And they're just so like they

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<v Speaker 1>pride themselves on simplicity, Like simplicity is like the key,

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<v Speaker 1>and they're they're totally fine with that and good with that.

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<v Speaker 1>Like as long as they got their fruits, their veggies,

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<v Speaker 1>they got a house over a roof over their head.

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<v Speaker 1>Like the jungle is the esthetic. The jungle is the

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<v Speaker 1>luxury experience, and it is like being able to just

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<v Speaker 1>pull over to the side of the road and just

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<v Speaker 1>hop in the ocean coconut. Because I feel like in

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<v Speaker 1>even in La like trying to get to the beach

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<v Speaker 1>is a whole fucking thing. Sometimes you gotta pay to

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<v Speaker 1>like park and you gotta walk so far into the

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<v Speaker 1>fucking sand to get to the beach. Like there, it's

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<v Speaker 1>like boom, get in the water, russ yourself.

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<v Speaker 3>We've definitely over complicated life. It's very United States, just

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<v Speaker 3>over complicated everything. And yeah, I'm when I'm there, my

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<v Speaker 3>like nervous system feels regulated, and I just know it

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<v Speaker 3>to be true. Just when we bring women and like

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<v Speaker 3>by day two they're like whoa, and I'm like, bitch.

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<v Speaker 2>I know.

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<v Speaker 3>It's like something about the jungle that just sits that

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<v Speaker 3>ass the fuck down.

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<v Speaker 2>It resets you. It like lets you just like relax.

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<v Speaker 1>There's so much there's so much femininity around, so I

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<v Speaker 1>think it really I think it's for both men and women.

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<v Speaker 1>But I just see women really be able to kind

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<v Speaker 1>of surrender there really just like lay down their guards,

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<v Speaker 1>their masks and rest. Like you said, whether you live

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<v Speaker 1>there or you're retreating, like everyone is in deep rest mode.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, I've never been to a place where people

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<v Speaker 1>are like I've started my moon. I will not I

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<v Speaker 1>cannot work today moon, meaning my period started my moon. Unfortunately,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm not working, and I'm like, yeah, bitch.

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<v Speaker 3>I'm actually just I thought I was going to go,

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<v Speaker 3>but I'm not really feeling a spirit didn't move, spirits

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<v Speaker 3>telling me to stay home. Someone's going to honor that.

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<v Speaker 3>It's like, you're really on some honoring yourself shit in

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<v Speaker 3>the jungle. There's no like pushing past the comfort. There's

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<v Speaker 3>none of that. There's no people pleasing, bitch. When you

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<v Speaker 3>get to the jungle, you please in yourself. Something about

0:20:04.000 --> 0:20:06.480
<v Speaker 3>the jungle that makes you do it. And I'm trying

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<v Speaker 3>to get in on it.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, while you were having adventures, I was fucking facing

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<v Speaker 1>like the deep darkness of my soul. I After the

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<v Speaker 1>retreat ended, I chilled for a few days, and then

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<v Speaker 1>I got into some spiritual work with Sylvia. Shout out

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<v Speaker 1>to Ancestral, Sylvia, Ancestral.

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<v Speaker 2>She's just smoke a backwood. Sorry to interrupt you.

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<v Speaker 1>Yes, I'm right, this is the perfect time to light

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<v Speaker 1>a backwood. And she's been a guest on our show

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<v Speaker 1>and she does. She's an astrologer, amongst other things. And

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<v Speaker 1>so after the retreat ended, I had already started like

0:20:45.160 --> 0:20:48.320
<v Speaker 1>wombwork with her at the beginning of this year, and

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<v Speaker 1>so when I was out there, I was like, I

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<v Speaker 1>want to work with you one on one in person.

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<v Speaker 1>And so the last three days of the trip, I

0:20:55.400 --> 0:20:59.159
<v Speaker 1>was locked in my hotel room, like basically in a

0:20:59.240 --> 0:21:03.320
<v Speaker 1>meditative trains for three days, accessing different realms and talking

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<v Speaker 1>to my fucking grandmother. And that shit was crazy. Like

0:21:10.600 --> 0:21:18.199
<v Speaker 1>I never obviously I'm a believer of like other entities

0:21:18.320 --> 0:21:22.040
<v Speaker 1>being able to I guess quantum travel in ways, but

0:21:22.080 --> 0:21:26.560
<v Speaker 1>I've never I know that it's possible. I just I

0:21:26.560 --> 0:21:29.160
<v Speaker 1>guess I never envisioned myself being able to do it,

0:21:29.880 --> 0:21:32.480
<v Speaker 1>and like thinking that I would need plant medicine in

0:21:32.520 --> 0:21:34.320
<v Speaker 1>order to kind of be able to have these type

0:21:34.359 --> 0:21:40.200
<v Speaker 1>of experiences. But yeah, I had some pretty profound experiences

0:21:40.240 --> 0:21:43.560
<v Speaker 1>with Sylvia, and I'll probably talk about it more an

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<v Speaker 1>extent on Patreon, just because it's actually very deeply personal

0:21:47.520 --> 0:21:49.040
<v Speaker 1>and it has to do with my dad and has

0:21:49.040 --> 0:21:51.200
<v Speaker 1>to do it with my grandmother and just like some

0:21:51.359 --> 0:21:54.240
<v Speaker 1>fucking witchy ass shit that happened in that hotel in

0:21:54.280 --> 0:21:56.920
<v Speaker 1>that hotel room while I was talking to my dad

0:21:56.920 --> 0:22:00.320
<v Speaker 1>about my grandmother, like shit was like her spirit was

0:22:00.680 --> 0:22:02.400
<v Speaker 1>moving in the room.

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<v Speaker 3>Bitch, Like I know, I think there's definitely gonna have

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<v Speaker 3>to be a Patreon exclusive like recap of the retreat,

0:22:13.960 --> 0:22:16.119
<v Speaker 3>because there are a lot of things that happen that

0:22:17.760 --> 0:22:22.280
<v Speaker 3>are probably exclusively for Patreons. Yeah, you pass me your water,

0:22:23.200 --> 0:22:25.760
<v Speaker 3>Maybe not that one. Are you gonna soak the blunt

0:22:25.880 --> 0:22:28.560
<v Speaker 3>in my drinking? I gave you a bottle to just

0:22:28.600 --> 0:22:30.159
<v Speaker 3>take a couple of SIPs. You want to smoke or

0:22:30.160 --> 0:22:30.600
<v Speaker 3>you want to.

0:22:30.560 --> 0:22:32.240
<v Speaker 1>Be quenched, I'm not smoking.

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<v Speaker 2>You are?

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<v Speaker 1>Is this as you?

0:22:41.240 --> 0:22:41.520
<v Speaker 2>Guys?

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<v Speaker 3>We're dropping some asm that is annoying. Orlando's getting so mad.

0:22:49.400 --> 0:22:53.280
<v Speaker 3>It's fucking asmr Orlando. Headphones are on. It's annoying me.

0:22:53.280 --> 0:22:55.400
<v Speaker 3>And the headphones are not even on. You're gonna make

0:22:55.440 --> 0:22:59.000
<v Speaker 3>people fall off like I did like them. But then

0:22:59.080 --> 0:23:01.800
<v Speaker 3>Erica started sifting aggressively.

0:23:01.200 --> 0:23:05.280
<v Speaker 2>Into the microphone. But no, we did it.

0:23:05.359 --> 0:23:13.000
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, even when you told me your ancestral your ancestral experiences,

0:23:13.080 --> 0:23:16.320
<v Speaker 3>I was super intrigued and also like being able to

0:23:16.440 --> 0:23:18.560
<v Speaker 3>like step into different realms like like you said, I

0:23:18.600 --> 0:23:21.560
<v Speaker 3>knew it was possible, but like hearing your experience, really,

0:23:22.280 --> 0:23:24.000
<v Speaker 3>you know what made me think of It's just like

0:23:24.960 --> 0:23:30.919
<v Speaker 3>who else in anyone's family is having the opportunity to

0:23:31.440 --> 0:23:36.080
<v Speaker 3>like not rewrite wrongs but kind of like rewrite contracts,

0:23:36.080 --> 0:23:39.159
<v Speaker 3>and even like when I did that, so oh you

0:23:39.160 --> 0:23:43.120
<v Speaker 3>didn't do your actually missed your fucking appointment. The family constellation.

0:23:43.400 --> 0:23:45.560
<v Speaker 3>I just thought of it in some ways it's similar

0:23:45.800 --> 0:23:47.520
<v Speaker 3>but not as deep as the work you did. And

0:23:47.560 --> 0:23:49.040
<v Speaker 3>then I was like, damn, next time, do I need

0:23:49.040 --> 0:23:51.360
<v Speaker 3>to skip out? I'm going on adventures and go deep

0:23:51.359 --> 0:23:53.359
<v Speaker 3>into my womb because if I don't do it, who's

0:23:53.359 --> 0:23:55.600
<v Speaker 3>going to do it? Like no one in my family's

0:23:55.640 --> 0:23:59.080
<v Speaker 3>thinking about doing ancestral work with their womb and like

0:23:59.080 --> 0:24:02.520
<v Speaker 3>like healing actual things that happen in their ancestry. But

0:24:02.640 --> 0:24:06.040
<v Speaker 3>like that's kind of I feel like the reason our

0:24:06.080 --> 0:24:08.359
<v Speaker 3>paths have let us here, and like while we've gotten

0:24:08.440 --> 0:24:11.440
<v Speaker 3>like these gifts and like gotten just this version of

0:24:11.480 --> 0:24:13.679
<v Speaker 3>our life so that we can like have opportunities like

0:24:13.720 --> 0:24:16.239
<v Speaker 3>meeting Sylvia and just knowing it's possible to go do

0:24:16.359 --> 0:24:19.920
<v Speaker 3>work like that to maybe change the trajectory of karmic

0:24:20.240 --> 0:24:23.400
<v Speaker 3>things for our kids and for our ancestors.

0:24:24.000 --> 0:24:25.640
<v Speaker 2>Is that what you feel like you were doing over there?

0:24:25.840 --> 0:24:27.879
<v Speaker 1>Yeah? I mean, but I didn't know that that's what

0:24:27.880 --> 0:24:29.879
<v Speaker 1>we were gonna do. Like I kind of like everyone

0:24:29.960 --> 0:24:31.480
<v Speaker 1>kept asking me, like, what is the work you're gonna do?

0:24:31.520 --> 0:24:33.560
<v Speaker 1>And I was like, I don't know, I'm.

0:24:33.440 --> 0:24:34.400
<v Speaker 2>Not sure we're figuring it out.

0:24:34.440 --> 0:24:36.119
<v Speaker 1>I was like I was just letting her go, like

0:24:36.160 --> 0:24:37.960
<v Speaker 1>I was just I just said, I just said I

0:24:38.040 --> 0:24:40.159
<v Speaker 1>wanted to do some work with you. I wanted I

0:24:40.200 --> 0:24:42.840
<v Speaker 1>want to spend more time with you and dive deeper

0:24:42.880 --> 0:24:45.919
<v Speaker 1>into this this womb work that we've been doing, and

0:24:45.920 --> 0:24:48.040
<v Speaker 1>and she said okay, and then it just kind of

0:24:48.119 --> 0:24:54.920
<v Speaker 1>unfolded intuitively, and yeah, I just I was not expecting

0:24:55.760 --> 0:25:00.719
<v Speaker 1>my grandmother to show up. I was not expecting her.

0:25:03.560 --> 0:25:05.879
<v Speaker 1>I wasn't expecting her energy to be what it was.

0:25:07.720 --> 0:25:12.560
<v Speaker 1>I wasn't expecting to get messages from her that only

0:25:14.160 --> 0:25:17.000
<v Speaker 1>her and my father would know, and being able to

0:25:17.040 --> 0:25:19.359
<v Speaker 1>share that with him and him being like that's true.

0:25:19.960 --> 0:25:22.520
<v Speaker 1>So that's how I know this shit is real, Like

0:25:22.560 --> 0:25:24.360
<v Speaker 1>for those listening and then, like you know, you hear

0:25:24.400 --> 0:25:26.560
<v Speaker 1>these type of stories and it sounds like all woo

0:25:26.600 --> 0:25:31.960
<v Speaker 1>woo and shit, but like there's real there's real shit

0:25:32.119 --> 0:25:36.120
<v Speaker 1>happening in these realms, in these spaces. And I think

0:25:36.119 --> 0:25:38.320
<v Speaker 1>there's a level of preparation that you have to have

0:25:38.400 --> 0:25:40.760
<v Speaker 1>in order to be able to travel to these realms,

0:25:40.800 --> 0:25:42.359
<v Speaker 1>Like I think that I've done a lot of work

0:25:42.520 --> 0:25:46.840
<v Speaker 1>and so my field is open to be able to

0:25:46.880 --> 0:25:48.919
<v Speaker 1>do something like that. Like I had someone ask me

0:25:49.720 --> 0:25:51.879
<v Speaker 1>for Sylvia's number and was like, I want to do that,

0:25:51.960 --> 0:25:54.520
<v Speaker 1>And I was like, and now I get it, Like

0:25:54.560 --> 0:25:56.960
<v Speaker 1>I get why some of my friends and even like

0:25:58.440 --> 0:26:01.160
<v Speaker 1>one of my really good friends who's way down deep

0:26:01.200 --> 0:26:04.960
<v Speaker 1>into this, you know, spiritual path, like she's very protective

0:26:05.400 --> 0:26:10.520
<v Speaker 1>about who she shares her people with because it's not

0:26:10.560 --> 0:26:13.800
<v Speaker 1>for everyone. It can it is for everyone, but those

0:26:13.800 --> 0:26:16.119
<v Speaker 1>people that are ready to really do the work to

0:26:16.200 --> 0:26:20.320
<v Speaker 1>prepare for an experience like this, you know. And so yeah,

0:26:20.359 --> 0:26:23.040
<v Speaker 1>someone asked me in Costa Rica. It's a guy and

0:26:23.080 --> 0:26:25.199
<v Speaker 1>he was like, give me Sylvia's number, and I was like,

0:26:25.280 --> 0:26:28.720
<v Speaker 1>I don't know if you're ready for this. I think

0:26:28.760 --> 0:26:33.040
<v Speaker 1>you need to like some do some stuff first. And

0:26:33.080 --> 0:26:35.280
<v Speaker 1>I'm you know, and I'll probably I'm going to talk

0:26:35.320 --> 0:26:37.640
<v Speaker 1>to her about it. But there's a level of protection

0:26:37.920 --> 0:26:43.000
<v Speaker 1>that I have for for the people that I work with,

0:26:43.040 --> 0:26:45.240
<v Speaker 1>and you obviously I'm sharing Sylvia right here right now

0:26:45.280 --> 0:26:48.920
<v Speaker 1>for all of you, but she has her own disortment

0:26:48.960 --> 0:26:51.679
<v Speaker 1>as well. She had no problems saying no, thank you.

0:26:53.000 --> 0:26:57.240
<v Speaker 3>I feel like it's so interesting too, Like as we've

0:26:57.359 --> 0:27:02.359
<v Speaker 3>unfolded this good mom saga and like come to you know,

0:27:02.400 --> 0:27:06.600
<v Speaker 3>different different realizations and self awarenesses of healing, and even

0:27:06.640 --> 0:27:09.000
<v Speaker 3>like the women who have come with us, like our community,

0:27:09.119 --> 0:27:11.240
<v Speaker 3>the tribe, like the women who show up at the retreat.

0:27:11.560 --> 0:27:13.880
<v Speaker 3>It's like there is an agreement that you make with yourself,

0:27:13.920 --> 0:27:17.240
<v Speaker 3>and when you make that agreement with yourself, the universe corresponds, right,

0:27:17.560 --> 0:27:20.439
<v Speaker 3>So like I think everyone lives like like Erica and

0:27:20.480 --> 0:27:23.080
<v Speaker 3>I met, we had an agreement that we didn't really

0:27:23.160 --> 0:27:25.600
<v Speaker 3>weren't fully aware of, but that we were like going

0:27:25.680 --> 0:27:28.119
<v Speaker 3>to just like tap into this authentic space and like

0:27:28.200 --> 0:27:32.800
<v Speaker 3>speak honestly and then in that, in that, in that uncovering,

0:27:33.119 --> 0:27:35.600
<v Speaker 3>you know, these journeys and like this this work has

0:27:35.640 --> 0:27:39.840
<v Speaker 3>come to us, and I've seen even the women who

0:27:39.920 --> 0:27:43.000
<v Speaker 3>come on retreat like Blossom and like unravel in these ways.

0:27:43.040 --> 0:27:44.720
<v Speaker 3>Is because I think a lot of times, when you

0:27:44.760 --> 0:27:47.359
<v Speaker 3>sign up to go into the jungle with two women

0:27:47.440 --> 0:27:50.240
<v Speaker 3>you don't know and invest in yourself, there's a level

0:27:50.280 --> 0:27:52.560
<v Speaker 3>of openness that you were coming with, and so people

0:27:52.600 --> 0:27:55.080
<v Speaker 3>are ready to change, people are ready to do things differently.

0:27:55.320 --> 0:27:56.320
<v Speaker 2>Sometimes people don't know.

0:27:56.280 --> 0:27:59.240
<v Speaker 3>Exactly, like exactly what is off or wrong, but they

0:27:59.240 --> 0:28:02.760
<v Speaker 3>know they're missing some thing. And I just feel like

0:28:02.960 --> 0:28:06.720
<v Speaker 3>even for us, the day of our last retreat, we

0:28:06.800 --> 0:28:10.880
<v Speaker 3>met like this tantric man at yoga and he was like,

0:28:11.000 --> 0:28:12.000
<v Speaker 3>we're doing a meditation.

0:28:12.119 --> 0:28:13.600
<v Speaker 2>He's like, are you guys doing tantra?

0:28:13.680 --> 0:28:17.960
<v Speaker 3>And we're like yeah, but like, what would be the

0:28:18.080 --> 0:28:22.280
<v Speaker 3>chances of meeting a black man in yoga in Costa

0:28:22.320 --> 0:28:24.600
<v Speaker 3>Rica who like is tapped into tantra?

0:28:24.800 --> 0:28:25.040
<v Speaker 2>You know?

0:28:25.160 --> 0:28:28.240
<v Speaker 3>And you know it just we spent like a bunch

0:28:28.240 --> 0:28:33.240
<v Speaker 3>of time with them and like exchanging Tantric medicines and lineages,

0:28:33.280 --> 0:28:34.400
<v Speaker 3>and it was super powerful.

0:28:34.440 --> 0:28:35.520
<v Speaker 2>And I was just like telling.

0:28:35.400 --> 0:28:38.600
<v Speaker 3>Erica, like what the fuck would be the chances of us,

0:28:38.880 --> 0:28:41.440
<v Speaker 3>two of us who were like into tantra studying this

0:28:41.520 --> 0:28:45.600
<v Speaker 3>lineage meeting someone else black who's studying the same thing.

0:28:46.240 --> 0:28:51.800
<v Speaker 3>And it's just like abundantly clear that once you start

0:28:52.000 --> 0:28:55.400
<v Speaker 3>like making agreements with yourself and opening yourself up to

0:28:55.440 --> 0:28:58.880
<v Speaker 3>certain work into like healing, it comes in all forms

0:28:59.320 --> 0:29:01.360
<v Speaker 3>and you have to trust it, you know, And it's

0:29:01.400 --> 0:29:04.840
<v Speaker 3>like in any other chance, We're like we made a

0:29:04.920 --> 0:29:07.360
<v Speaker 3>random man at yogurt. You're like whatever man, but it's

0:29:07.440 --> 0:29:10.000
<v Speaker 3>like whatever, man, get out of here. But we were

0:29:10.000 --> 0:29:12.320
<v Speaker 3>welcoming to it because I think we both recognize that

0:29:12.680 --> 0:29:15.600
<v Speaker 3>it was kind of a gift from the divine and

0:29:15.680 --> 0:29:18.120
<v Speaker 3>so it was just like we had this opportunity to

0:29:19.480 --> 0:29:23.000
<v Speaker 3>explore in our tantra with like this divine masculine and

0:29:23.360 --> 0:29:25.479
<v Speaker 3>just like you had this opportunity to explore in this

0:29:25.560 --> 0:29:26.480
<v Speaker 3>work with Sylvia.

0:29:26.680 --> 0:29:28.120
<v Speaker 2>Is because you've.

0:29:27.920 --> 0:29:29.880
<v Speaker 3>Done all this work up to this point and you've

0:29:29.920 --> 0:29:32.880
<v Speaker 3>made agreements with yourself and the universe, and it's like, oh,

0:29:32.920 --> 0:29:35.640
<v Speaker 3>she's ready to go into these realms. And so there

0:29:35.720 --> 0:29:38.640
<v Speaker 3>is like an unlocking that happens as soon as you

0:29:38.840 --> 0:29:41.480
<v Speaker 3>like just make the agreement and you continue to do

0:29:41.520 --> 0:29:43.280
<v Speaker 3>the work. And sometimes we don't see the work because

0:29:43.280 --> 0:29:45.760
<v Speaker 3>it's just like inklings. It's little, it's little, it's little,

0:29:46.000 --> 0:29:47.320
<v Speaker 3>and then all of a sudden you look up and

0:29:47.320 --> 0:29:49.080
<v Speaker 3>you're like, oh, I've done a lot, and I've come

0:29:49.240 --> 0:29:53.040
<v Speaker 3>really far, and now I'm accessing my fucking lineage directly

0:29:53.640 --> 0:29:57.440
<v Speaker 3>Grandma to me, you know, and like that is powerful work.

0:29:57.520 --> 0:30:03.800
<v Speaker 3>But like it's really all in the outward seeking of

0:30:03.840 --> 0:30:06.080
<v Speaker 3>what you want and asking for it out loud.

0:30:06.200 --> 0:30:06.400
<v Speaker 2>You know.

0:30:06.400 --> 0:30:09.800
<v Speaker 3>I was in the hair salon yesterday and talking about

0:30:09.800 --> 0:30:11.880
<v Speaker 3>my trip to my hairdresser, and there was a girl

0:30:12.160 --> 0:30:13.720
<v Speaker 3>in the you know, getting her nails done, and she

0:30:13.800 --> 0:30:16.480
<v Speaker 3>was just like, I'm so interested in what you're talking about.

0:30:16.520 --> 0:30:18.720
<v Speaker 3>And like, I literally just asked God this morning. I

0:30:18.760 --> 0:30:21.480
<v Speaker 3>prayed and asked for my tribe, and I asked for

0:30:21.720 --> 0:30:23.640
<v Speaker 3>you know, to meet people who are on the same thing.

0:30:23.680 --> 0:30:25.800
<v Speaker 3>And then I met you here and I was like, girl,

0:30:25.840 --> 0:30:28.880
<v Speaker 3>because that's the power of fucking asking. When you ask God,

0:30:28.960 --> 0:30:31.080
<v Speaker 3>even if you don't know exactly what you're asking for,

0:30:31.440 --> 0:30:34.440
<v Speaker 3>you'll start to unlike He'll start or she'll start to

0:30:34.880 --> 0:30:37.239
<v Speaker 3>reveal the things that you need. And it's like up

0:30:37.240 --> 0:30:39.920
<v Speaker 3>to you if you're going to be aware enough to

0:30:40.680 --> 0:30:42.600
<v Speaker 3>be like, oh, this is this is the path and

0:30:42.600 --> 0:30:44.840
<v Speaker 3>not to be afraid of it and to just like

0:30:44.960 --> 0:30:48.680
<v Speaker 3>keep walking in that direction and you know doing will work.

0:30:48.760 --> 0:30:52.000
<v Speaker 2>And you know, inviting the man from.

0:30:52.000 --> 0:30:56.040
<v Speaker 3>Yoga and like in participating in certain type of just

0:30:56.080 --> 0:30:59.560
<v Speaker 3>different things. And like even in Tantra, the lineage that

0:30:59.560 --> 0:31:03.280
<v Speaker 3>we study, it's like a combination of different lineages.

0:31:03.400 --> 0:31:03.600
<v Speaker 2>You know.

0:31:03.640 --> 0:31:06.000
<v Speaker 3>That's one thing about tontras, Like no one's dissing each

0:31:06.000 --> 0:31:08.400
<v Speaker 3>other's thing. It's more like a collective like I'm gonna

0:31:08.400 --> 0:31:10.040
<v Speaker 3>take that, I'm gonna take this, and then it like

0:31:10.280 --> 0:31:13.120
<v Speaker 3>comes into this this lineage that is what we learn now.

0:31:13.160 --> 0:31:15.440
<v Speaker 3>But when we met him in the jungle, and even

0:31:15.440 --> 0:31:17.680
<v Speaker 3>when we met Sylvia in the jungle with like her

0:31:17.800 --> 0:31:19.840
<v Speaker 3>she has so many offerings. But you know, starting with

0:31:19.880 --> 0:31:23.440
<v Speaker 3>the natal chart reading, it's just like you get to

0:31:23.520 --> 0:31:26.840
<v Speaker 3>mix medicines when you are open to meeting other medicine

0:31:26.880 --> 0:31:29.760
<v Speaker 3>people in the jungle or wherever you meet them, and

0:31:29.800 --> 0:31:32.600
<v Speaker 3>like that's what the connection in the community is all about,

0:31:32.720 --> 0:31:35.760
<v Speaker 3>is because we get to gain so much information and

0:31:35.840 --> 0:31:37.520
<v Speaker 3>take it back to our kids and take it back

0:31:37.560 --> 0:31:42.960
<v Speaker 3>to each other and like grow in our spiritual pharmacy. M.

0:31:46.080 --> 0:31:49.000
<v Speaker 1>That's true. It's true. And I've just realized, I've just

0:31:49.440 --> 0:31:55.000
<v Speaker 1>I've realized how you know, they always say, oh, when

0:31:55.040 --> 0:31:57.360
<v Speaker 1>you choose yourself, like things start to show up. And

0:31:57.960 --> 0:32:00.000
<v Speaker 1>I was reflecting on where I was at last year

0:32:00.120 --> 0:32:04.160
<v Speaker 1>year and like the regression is that the word that

0:32:04.400 --> 0:32:07.880
<v Speaker 1>I had made in my process in my healing, and

0:32:07.960 --> 0:32:11.520
<v Speaker 1>like actively choosing to go against myself in so many ways.

0:32:11.520 --> 0:32:14.080
<v Speaker 1>But it was necessary, even that lesson was really necessary.

0:32:14.520 --> 0:32:16.200
<v Speaker 1>But I was thinking and I was told you this,

0:32:16.400 --> 0:32:21.080
<v Speaker 1>Like during the retreat, I was like if I had

0:32:21.080 --> 0:32:24.000
<v Speaker 1>continued to not, if I had continued down that path,

0:32:24.040 --> 0:32:25.960
<v Speaker 1>like none of these things would have been available to me.

0:32:27.120 --> 0:32:32.320
<v Speaker 1>Like I was really I was really considering going against

0:32:32.360 --> 0:32:37.560
<v Speaker 1>myself just for it is I can't even say. It

0:32:37.600 --> 0:32:41.280
<v Speaker 1>wasn't even safety. It was just like a feeling companionship,

0:32:41.520 --> 0:32:45.120
<v Speaker 1>was a feeling of like wanting to be loved and

0:32:46.960 --> 0:32:50.760
<v Speaker 1>just being tired of looking and searching. It was like

0:32:50.880 --> 0:32:52.640
<v Speaker 1>I'm done. I don't want to do this anymore. And

0:32:52.720 --> 0:32:54.120
<v Speaker 1>that was really it. It was like I don't want

0:32:54.120 --> 0:32:56.960
<v Speaker 1>to tell someone my life story again. I don't feel

0:32:56.960 --> 0:33:01.080
<v Speaker 1>like doing all of that. And it's interesting now because

0:33:01.800 --> 0:33:05.920
<v Speaker 1>even in dating now and the people that I've attracted,

0:33:06.880 --> 0:33:08.880
<v Speaker 1>I haven't had to do a lot of that either.

0:33:08.960 --> 0:33:10.200
<v Speaker 1>I haven't even had to do a lot of that

0:33:10.280 --> 0:33:14.160
<v Speaker 1>explaining who I am. It's just like it unveils itself

0:33:14.160 --> 0:33:17.400
<v Speaker 1>in such a different way that doesn't feel cumbersome, it

0:33:17.440 --> 0:33:21.640
<v Speaker 1>doesn't feel daunting, it doesn't feel annoying. It feels exciting.

0:33:21.760 --> 0:33:26.240
<v Speaker 1>And ever since I've departed from that situation and just

0:33:26.840 --> 0:33:28.880
<v Speaker 1>letting go of a lot of things fear and that

0:33:28.960 --> 0:33:30.600
<v Speaker 1>was something that came up a lot in the work

0:33:30.640 --> 0:33:33.400
<v Speaker 1>with Sylvia was that there is still a lot of fear.

0:33:36.200 --> 0:33:38.320
<v Speaker 1>There's still a lot of fear attached to me, but

0:33:38.400 --> 0:33:41.400
<v Speaker 1>a lot of it is not even my own. And

0:33:42.280 --> 0:33:46.479
<v Speaker 1>having that understanding, and I never even thought about that,

0:33:46.600 --> 0:33:51.240
<v Speaker 1>I thought, like I've always I've always felt like all

0:33:51.240 --> 0:33:57.120
<v Speaker 1>the things that I feel, whether it's anxiousness, fear, judgment, insecurity,

0:33:57.760 --> 0:33:59.640
<v Speaker 1>like those are all the makings of just me. This

0:33:59.720 --> 0:34:02.920
<v Speaker 1>is who I am. But we don't ever really consider

0:34:03.080 --> 0:34:05.960
<v Speaker 1>that some of the things or the habits that we

0:34:06.000 --> 0:34:08.880
<v Speaker 1>even have are not our own, and there's work that

0:34:08.920 --> 0:34:11.879
<v Speaker 1>has to be done to get those those things off

0:34:11.920 --> 0:34:15.560
<v Speaker 1>of you. And so even since that experience with Sylvia,

0:34:15.680 --> 0:34:21.200
<v Speaker 1>I feel less fearful about just even like choices, and

0:34:21.800 --> 0:34:24.279
<v Speaker 1>I feel just more at peace and at ease, and

0:34:24.320 --> 0:34:29.680
<v Speaker 1>I feel even like I've starting to witness the healing

0:34:29.719 --> 0:34:31.360
<v Speaker 1>in my family. And I was thinking, you know, I

0:34:31.440 --> 0:34:33.279
<v Speaker 1>talked about this earlier in the year, about like this

0:34:33.960 --> 0:34:35.919
<v Speaker 1>me realizing that me and my dad still had work

0:34:35.920 --> 0:34:38.480
<v Speaker 1>to do and feeling like I forgive him so like

0:34:39.200 --> 0:34:41.359
<v Speaker 1>we're good, and then realizing, oh no, there's still more

0:34:41.360 --> 0:34:44.160
<v Speaker 1>work to do, and this work that I did with Sylvia.

0:34:45.360 --> 0:34:49.400
<v Speaker 1>I feel like was even more impactful than me telling

0:34:49.440 --> 0:34:50.960
<v Speaker 1>my dad, Hey, I really want us to go on

0:34:50.960 --> 0:34:52.600
<v Speaker 1>a trip and spend more time together and get to

0:34:52.640 --> 0:34:55.480
<v Speaker 1>know each other more, like going be able to go

0:34:55.600 --> 0:34:59.000
<v Speaker 1>back to like one of the roots that are connected

0:34:59.040 --> 0:35:02.719
<v Speaker 1>to him as a as a young boy. His relationship

0:35:02.719 --> 0:35:06.320
<v Speaker 1>with his mother has already become so much more healing.

0:35:06.320 --> 0:35:09.400
<v Speaker 1>In our relationship, we're already talking more than we did before,

0:35:09.960 --> 0:35:13.600
<v Speaker 1>and it's just based on I feel like, being able

0:35:13.600 --> 0:35:17.560
<v Speaker 1>to tap into something outside of just what our physical

0:35:17.600 --> 0:35:19.720
<v Speaker 1>bodies are doing, which is like communicating with one another.

0:35:19.760 --> 0:35:23.680
<v Speaker 1>It's like other realmly for lack of a better word,

0:35:24.120 --> 0:35:28.080
<v Speaker 1>that has kind of renegotiated my contract with him and

0:35:28.160 --> 0:35:32.200
<v Speaker 1>like how he communicates with me, and like so even

0:35:32.239 --> 0:35:36.319
<v Speaker 1>since then, like two days ago, I told him that, like,

0:35:36.320 --> 0:35:38.480
<v Speaker 1>I really wanted to connect with my roots in Texas.

0:35:38.520 --> 0:35:39.719
<v Speaker 1>And if you're watching this on.

0:35:39.640 --> 0:35:44.239
<v Speaker 2>YouTube and see that you got a cowboy.

0:35:43.760 --> 0:35:45.719
<v Speaker 1>Hat on and actually my dad bought me this hat

0:35:45.800 --> 0:35:48.759
<v Speaker 1>on our trip. Yeah, So me and my dad went

0:35:48.800 --> 0:35:51.880
<v Speaker 1>on this father daughter trip. We went to Solvang and

0:35:51.920 --> 0:35:53.719
<v Speaker 1>I went into this hat store and I was like,

0:35:53.760 --> 0:35:55.200
<v Speaker 1>I want this hat. He's like I'll get it for you.

0:35:55.440 --> 0:35:57.040
<v Speaker 1>And so I'm wearing this in honor of him, but

0:35:57.080 --> 0:36:03.040
<v Speaker 1>also like just like an honor of Beyonce, not an

0:36:03.080 --> 0:36:07.560
<v Speaker 1>honor my daddy and beiance. They both from Texas. Shout

0:36:07.560 --> 0:36:09.239
<v Speaker 1>out to Texas, Sealy, Texas.

0:36:11.280 --> 0:36:14.160
<v Speaker 2>But uh, I feel.

0:36:15.920 --> 0:36:18.520
<v Speaker 1>More connected to him now, and I feel like he

0:36:18.560 --> 0:36:21.719
<v Speaker 1>feels more connected to me. And I was telling him

0:36:21.800 --> 0:36:25.200
<v Speaker 1>that I really wanted to establish a better relationship with

0:36:25.239 --> 0:36:27.719
<v Speaker 1>my family because I feel and that was something that

0:36:27.760 --> 0:36:29.880
<v Speaker 1>came up again, like feeling like I have no roots,

0:36:30.680 --> 0:36:34.560
<v Speaker 1>Like my mom's side of the family were kind of disjointed.

0:36:34.640 --> 0:36:38.000
<v Speaker 1>We have this like little bubble of like our immediate

0:36:38.040 --> 0:36:40.319
<v Speaker 1>family that we're close to, and then everyone else is

0:36:40.400 --> 0:36:44.960
<v Speaker 1>very dispersed. There's like resentment, there's just it's just like

0:36:45.000 --> 0:36:47.000
<v Speaker 1>we don't fuck with y'all. And then they're on my

0:36:47.040 --> 0:36:49.279
<v Speaker 1>dad's side of the family, there's just a disconnect because

0:36:49.280 --> 0:36:51.799
<v Speaker 1>me and my dad's relationship has not been like I'm

0:36:51.800 --> 0:36:55.040
<v Speaker 1>always just kind of trying to focus on him, him

0:36:55.080 --> 0:36:57.240
<v Speaker 1>and me, him and me and not realizing like sometimes

0:36:57.239 --> 0:37:00.440
<v Speaker 1>you gotta like go around the person that you're trying

0:37:00.600 --> 0:37:04.920
<v Speaker 1>to heal with and heal those other relationships so that

0:37:05.360 --> 0:37:08.120
<v Speaker 1>you guys can come back together. And that's what I've

0:37:08.160 --> 0:37:11.520
<v Speaker 1>realized is like me doing that work with Sylvia and

0:37:11.560 --> 0:37:14.640
<v Speaker 1>then also now like developing relationships with my cousins in

0:37:14.680 --> 0:37:16.239
<v Speaker 1>Texas that I haven't spoken to since I was a

0:37:16.239 --> 0:37:19.359
<v Speaker 1>little girl, is making my dad and our relationship even

0:37:19.360 --> 0:37:21.920
<v Speaker 1>more richer and like making us like, oh, like oh

0:37:21.960 --> 0:37:24.040
<v Speaker 1>you talk to Aunt Patsy what she say, like, oh my,

0:37:24.120 --> 0:37:26.400
<v Speaker 1>and then him sharing more stories with me because I

0:37:26.440 --> 0:37:28.600
<v Speaker 1>don't know what to ask certain things. I don't even

0:37:28.640 --> 0:37:30.799
<v Speaker 1>know what to ask, you know, so.

0:37:31.840 --> 0:37:33.520
<v Speaker 3>Well where you get to kind of go to the

0:37:33.640 --> 0:37:38.400
<v Speaker 3>root of the wounds that like unfortunately and like our

0:37:38.440 --> 0:37:40.759
<v Speaker 3>parents don't talk about because we kind of come from

0:37:41.239 --> 0:37:44.200
<v Speaker 3>cultures that are like we aren't talking about that, you know,

0:37:44.239 --> 0:37:46.480
<v Speaker 3>and like unless you have the information, how would you know,

0:37:46.560 --> 0:37:48.160
<v Speaker 3>And a lot of us don't have the information.

0:37:48.480 --> 0:37:50.200
<v Speaker 2>And even when you're telling me, talking to me.

0:37:50.160 --> 0:37:53.360
<v Speaker 3>About your experience, I was just like, damn, Like that

0:37:53.520 --> 0:37:55.840
<v Speaker 3>is powerful because I was thinking about like even my

0:37:55.880 --> 0:37:58.719
<v Speaker 3>relationship with my parents and like we are cool, you know,

0:37:58.840 --> 0:38:00.680
<v Speaker 3>we're good, and we're pretty close, and like I could

0:38:00.719 --> 0:38:03.080
<v Speaker 3>call them, but like I don't need to call my

0:38:03.120 --> 0:38:05.880
<v Speaker 3>parents every day. Like I probably didn't talk to my

0:38:05.960 --> 0:38:09.120
<v Speaker 3>parents on the phone the entire time I was gone,

0:38:09.160 --> 0:38:11.360
<v Speaker 3>and I didn't feel a way about it, and like

0:38:11.400 --> 0:38:13.040
<v Speaker 3>if I did there with some pictures of Luna, but

0:38:13.120 --> 0:38:16.959
<v Speaker 3>like I just realized that like there are there's such

0:38:17.040 --> 0:38:18.560
<v Speaker 3>even for your you know, for you too, like for

0:38:18.560 --> 0:38:21.720
<v Speaker 3>your dad, there's such walls up because they have childhood trauma,

0:38:22.040 --> 0:38:23.759
<v Speaker 3>and if you don't know what to ask, you're just

0:38:23.800 --> 0:38:26.200
<v Speaker 3>feeling awkward, like I'm trying to get to know you more,

0:38:26.320 --> 0:38:30.720
<v Speaker 3>you know, and it feels it feels huge, and especially

0:38:30.800 --> 0:38:34.680
<v Speaker 3>as black people, especially with our history being so dark

0:38:34.800 --> 0:38:38.000
<v Speaker 3>and rich, it's like it's a sensitive thing and and

0:38:38.480 --> 0:38:40.360
<v Speaker 3>you know, just like I've I've found out glimpse of

0:38:40.360 --> 0:38:43.080
<v Speaker 3>things about my family history and like you know about

0:38:43.120 --> 0:38:49.200
<v Speaker 3>like adoption and abortions and just like other other families

0:38:49.239 --> 0:38:51.040
<v Speaker 3>and things that I had no idea. But then we

0:38:51.080 --> 0:38:53.239
<v Speaker 3>don't stop to think about how has that affected our

0:38:53.280 --> 0:38:55.520
<v Speaker 3>parents and then how does that in turn affect us?

0:38:55.760 --> 0:38:57.200
<v Speaker 3>And I told you like even when I went to

0:38:57.239 --> 0:38:59.920
<v Speaker 3>Mexico with Ariel and Sane and had that like super

0:39:00.560 --> 0:39:04.239
<v Speaker 3>super like crazy experience where I experienced feeling all that

0:39:04.280 --> 0:39:07.400
<v Speaker 3>pain from my female ancestors, and I would have like

0:39:07.960 --> 0:39:10.360
<v Speaker 3>I just knew it was that. I just realized, there's

0:39:10.400 --> 0:39:13.839
<v Speaker 3>so much, like you said, that we've inherited, so much fear,

0:39:13.880 --> 0:39:16.200
<v Speaker 3>We've inherited, like you know, even like things that come

0:39:16.280 --> 0:39:20.840
<v Speaker 3>up in my relationship jealousy, like distrust, and it's real,

0:39:20.960 --> 0:39:23.279
<v Speaker 3>and we sometimes we just chop it up like you said,

0:39:23.360 --> 0:39:25.000
<v Speaker 3>is like, oh, that's just who I am, or that's

0:39:25.040 --> 0:39:27.120
<v Speaker 3>just what it is, or this is just my relationship

0:39:27.160 --> 0:39:28.680
<v Speaker 3>with my parents, or this is just who he is

0:39:28.920 --> 0:39:31.520
<v Speaker 3>without really being able to have the tools to delve

0:39:31.600 --> 0:39:34.400
<v Speaker 3>into where did you come from? And what am I

0:39:34.440 --> 0:39:36.480
<v Speaker 3>holding in my womb that I want to clear so

0:39:36.520 --> 0:39:38.719
<v Speaker 3>that I'm not giving it to Luna into you know,

0:39:38.800 --> 0:39:42.319
<v Speaker 3>her kids. So I'm like super proud of you for

0:39:42.360 --> 0:39:43.879
<v Speaker 3>doing the work, and now I want to go work

0:39:43.880 --> 0:39:44.040
<v Speaker 3>with it.

0:39:44.880 --> 0:39:46.120
<v Speaker 2>Sylvia Ancestral.

0:39:46.520 --> 0:39:48.839
<v Speaker 3>And it made me also think about when we first

0:39:48.920 --> 0:39:51.640
<v Speaker 3>sat down with her, ever before we had the retreat,

0:39:51.719 --> 0:39:54.400
<v Speaker 3>when we were just like there visiting, I had a

0:39:54.440 --> 0:39:56.200
<v Speaker 3>reading with her and the very first thing she said

0:39:56.200 --> 0:39:57.759
<v Speaker 3>to me and I honestly I think this scared the

0:39:57.760 --> 0:40:00.600
<v Speaker 3>shit out of me and I recognize it now, And

0:40:00.640 --> 0:40:04.640
<v Speaker 3>she literally looked at me and said, no one's laughing.

0:40:04.640 --> 0:40:08.480
<v Speaker 3>Your ancestors aren't laughing. And I was just like, bitch,

0:40:08.520 --> 0:40:08.799
<v Speaker 3>what the.

0:40:08.760 --> 0:40:09.560
<v Speaker 2>Fuck does that mean?

0:40:10.320 --> 0:40:12.680
<v Speaker 3>Like I wasn't expecting to open with that, you know,

0:40:12.800 --> 0:40:19.280
<v Speaker 3>and like basically like our you know, our our journey

0:40:19.360 --> 0:40:22.520
<v Speaker 3>is necessary and it's not just to us, and it

0:40:22.560 --> 0:40:24.600
<v Speaker 3>is like to be taken seriously. But you don't know

0:40:24.640 --> 0:40:28.560
<v Speaker 3>you have access to these type of tools and people

0:40:28.640 --> 0:40:30.680
<v Speaker 3>unless you actually do the work to like kind of

0:40:30.760 --> 0:40:32.440
<v Speaker 3>just follow in the guide.

0:40:32.600 --> 0:40:34.759
<v Speaker 1>Well, and I think also, like I think about this

0:40:34.960 --> 0:40:37.839
<v Speaker 1>like term you hear about. You hear a lot where

0:40:37.840 --> 0:40:42.640
<v Speaker 1>they say, like healing isn't linear, And I understand that

0:40:43.200 --> 0:40:46.040
<v Speaker 1>profoundly now because I was really trying to be linear

0:40:46.080 --> 0:40:48.680
<v Speaker 1>about the healing of me and my dad's relationship, like

0:40:48.719 --> 0:40:51.960
<v Speaker 1>going straight to him to try and heal this, not

0:40:52.239 --> 0:40:55.640
<v Speaker 1>realizing that there were other options. And like, if you're

0:40:55.680 --> 0:40:57.840
<v Speaker 1>listening right now, you're trying to heal a relationship with

0:40:57.880 --> 0:41:01.719
<v Speaker 1>a parent or whoever, Like I encourage you to think

0:41:01.719 --> 0:41:05.080
<v Speaker 1>outside of the box and like consider going around them.

0:41:05.280 --> 0:41:09.600
<v Speaker 1>And you know, sometimes it's about healing other parts of

0:41:09.640 --> 0:41:13.200
<v Speaker 1>your lineage, not just that one in particular, and inevitably

0:41:13.560 --> 0:41:17.239
<v Speaker 1>it will those that healing energy will echo into other

0:41:17.320 --> 0:41:21.920
<v Speaker 1>parts of your relationships, including the one you're actually trying

0:41:21.920 --> 0:41:24.440
<v Speaker 1>to heal. And so that's what I realized in this

0:41:24.520 --> 0:41:27.920
<v Speaker 1>experience is that like I was really actively like wanting

0:41:27.960 --> 0:41:30.200
<v Speaker 1>to sit down in front of my dad and say,

0:41:30.239 --> 0:41:32.520
<v Speaker 1>like we have shit to do. We have like I

0:41:32.560 --> 0:41:34.479
<v Speaker 1>want to I want us to be closer, like let's

0:41:34.480 --> 0:41:36.680
<v Speaker 1>do this, let's go on dad and daughter dates. And

0:41:36.719 --> 0:41:40.279
<v Speaker 1>it's like, okay, it just didn't feel like it.

0:41:40.280 --> 0:41:42.840
<v Speaker 3>Still can be surface. You can't really dig up in

0:41:42.920 --> 0:41:43.400
<v Speaker 3>the shit.

0:41:43.360 --> 0:41:46.759
<v Speaker 1>Right, so like going around it and like under it

0:41:46.800 --> 0:41:50.760
<v Speaker 1>and above it, like I'm starting to feel like, Okay,

0:41:50.880 --> 0:41:54.000
<v Speaker 1>this is actually what's going to help really heal this wound.

0:41:54.600 --> 0:41:57.000
<v Speaker 3>And this is really what like TNTRA is. You know,

0:41:57.120 --> 0:42:00.520
<v Speaker 3>it's about the energetic healing, it's about the spear healing.

0:42:00.560 --> 0:42:02.319
<v Speaker 2>It's about the healing that we do on.

0:42:02.239 --> 0:42:06.319
<v Speaker 3>A soul level, like we are souls inhabiting vessels. And

0:42:06.320 --> 0:42:08.240
<v Speaker 3>I know I say this a lot, but it's so true,

0:42:08.280 --> 0:42:10.319
<v Speaker 3>and we like underestimate what that means to be this

0:42:10.520 --> 0:42:14.520
<v Speaker 3>vast and like when you decide to like energetically heal,

0:42:14.600 --> 0:42:17.800
<v Speaker 3>it's contagious and even like Erica, you know sharing this experience.

0:42:17.840 --> 0:42:20.160
<v Speaker 3>Now if someone's at home thinking like damn, like what

0:42:20.440 --> 0:42:22.440
<v Speaker 3>does that look like for me? Even when you shared

0:42:22.440 --> 0:42:24.800
<v Speaker 3>it with me, and obviously I have access to Sylvia,

0:42:24.880 --> 0:42:28.960
<v Speaker 3>but like, just it made its contagious for me. And

0:42:29.000 --> 0:42:32.000
<v Speaker 3>that's the beautiful thing about energetic and spiritual work is

0:42:32.000 --> 0:42:35.120
<v Speaker 3>like it doesn't have to be directly transmitted for it

0:42:35.160 --> 0:42:37.719
<v Speaker 3>to be transmitted. And it's crazy because you said something

0:42:37.719 --> 0:42:39.480
<v Speaker 3>to me, and I started thinking about my childhood and

0:42:39.480 --> 0:42:41.080
<v Speaker 3>then Orlando woke up and was like, I had a

0:42:41.160 --> 0:42:42.719
<v Speaker 3>dream about you know, me as a kid. And the

0:42:42.760 --> 0:42:44.480
<v Speaker 3>thing is a lot of us don't realize. And I

0:42:44.520 --> 0:42:46.520
<v Speaker 3>think you said this in the in the episode and

0:42:46.520 --> 0:42:50.160
<v Speaker 3>take a hike, bitch. Is that a lot of like

0:42:50.560 --> 0:42:53.200
<v Speaker 3>a lot of trauma results in loss of memory of

0:42:53.239 --> 0:42:55.439
<v Speaker 3>your childhood and you think it's because you just got

0:42:55.440 --> 0:42:57.080
<v Speaker 3>old and you have a lot of memories. And that's

0:42:57.080 --> 0:42:59.960
<v Speaker 3>something too. But I realized recently that a lot of

0:43:00.200 --> 0:43:02.480
<v Speaker 3>the things that I blacked out was intentional. But I

0:43:02.520 --> 0:43:05.200
<v Speaker 3>don't I can't really like I haven't really gone deep

0:43:05.280 --> 0:43:08.400
<v Speaker 3>to figure out why. But there's certain like I have moments,

0:43:08.400 --> 0:43:10.680
<v Speaker 3>but there's a lot of things I've forgotten and I

0:43:10.719 --> 0:43:13.080
<v Speaker 3>just realized, like you, doing the work is contagious to

0:43:13.120 --> 0:43:15.440
<v Speaker 3>me now because now I know I have as if

0:43:15.440 --> 0:43:18.239
<v Speaker 3>I if I just scratched the surface, I have a

0:43:18.480 --> 0:43:22.000
<v Speaker 3>level of access to healing that maybe I didn't you know, realize,

0:43:22.239 --> 0:43:24.600
<v Speaker 3>And the same for every all of our friends and

0:43:24.640 --> 0:43:26.719
<v Speaker 3>everyone around us, and just like too, you know, one

0:43:26.760 --> 0:43:28.759
<v Speaker 3>of our really good friend's child to actually just came

0:43:28.760 --> 0:43:31.440
<v Speaker 3>to the retreat and now I'm sure that shifted her.

0:43:31.480 --> 0:43:33.800
<v Speaker 3>And like That's the beautiful thing about doing this work

0:43:33.840 --> 0:43:38.360
<v Speaker 3>on yourself is that inevitably the energetic healing spreads.

0:43:38.480 --> 0:43:38.719
<v Speaker 2>You know.

0:43:38.920 --> 0:43:42.040
<v Speaker 3>Even we mentioned this before, like we were we sat

0:43:42.080 --> 0:43:43.680
<v Speaker 3>down with the girls and they're like, we want to

0:43:43.719 --> 0:43:45.560
<v Speaker 3>do like a ceremony, and we were just like kind

0:43:45.560 --> 0:43:48.279
<v Speaker 3>of let them lead, and they did a bunch of

0:43:48.320 --> 0:43:50.680
<v Speaker 3>things that we've done in ceremony, and I was like,

0:43:50.719 --> 0:43:52.799
<v Speaker 3>they've never been to these ceremonies, but they've been on

0:43:52.880 --> 0:43:54.880
<v Speaker 3>property and they've been with us in this last.

0:43:54.719 --> 0:43:56.440
<v Speaker 2>Six years of our process.

0:43:56.480 --> 0:44:00.680
<v Speaker 3>And it's beautiful to know that just healing myself has

0:44:00.760 --> 0:44:03.360
<v Speaker 3>transmitted to our girls and that they are seeking and

0:44:03.840 --> 0:44:07.160
<v Speaker 3>recognizing that there is there are ways to access all

0:44:07.200 --> 0:44:11.080
<v Speaker 3>around and not just physically and I think we underestimate

0:44:11.120 --> 0:44:13.719
<v Speaker 3>that work. You know, you're working out, you're doing exercises,

0:44:13.760 --> 0:44:16.239
<v Speaker 3>you're getting a trainer, you're eating right, but like there

0:44:16.320 --> 0:44:18.560
<v Speaker 3>is some deep ass work that needs to happen for

0:44:18.640 --> 0:44:22.480
<v Speaker 3>us to experience like the ultimate joy and pleasure in

0:44:22.520 --> 0:44:25.480
<v Speaker 3>this lifetime, and it requires like it's not always easy

0:44:26.600 --> 0:44:29.319
<v Speaker 3>and like even the you know, yesterday, I was like

0:44:29.360 --> 0:44:30.719
<v Speaker 3>in my head a lot, and I felt it.

0:44:30.719 --> 0:44:31.600
<v Speaker 2>My body was tense.

0:44:31.640 --> 0:44:34.799
<v Speaker 3>I was holding my breath and Orlando like described me

0:44:34.840 --> 0:44:36.480
<v Speaker 3>and he was like looked at me, and he put

0:44:36.480 --> 0:44:38.200
<v Speaker 3>his hand on my chest and he was just like

0:44:38.239 --> 0:44:41.799
<v Speaker 3>you're safe, You're home, and I was just like he's

0:44:41.800 --> 0:44:43.520
<v Speaker 3>like breathe. He made me breathe with him, and I

0:44:43.640 --> 0:44:44.880
<v Speaker 3>just was like in my head, like how did he

0:44:44.960 --> 0:44:46.399
<v Speaker 3>know I was in my head? Like I don't even

0:44:46.400 --> 0:44:49.480
<v Speaker 3>know if I realized I had been so heavily like

0:44:49.520 --> 0:44:51.040
<v Speaker 3>in my head, but I felt it in my body

0:44:51.080 --> 0:44:53.440
<v Speaker 3>as soon as he triggered me to do it, and

0:44:53.840 --> 0:44:57.040
<v Speaker 3>he laid me on his chest and like like patted me,

0:44:57.840 --> 0:45:01.920
<v Speaker 3>and it was something that triggered me the past literally

0:45:01.960 --> 0:45:05.040
<v Speaker 3>like shot me back into like my childhood self and

0:45:05.080 --> 0:45:08.120
<v Speaker 3>it made me cry and I wasn't feeling emotional at

0:45:08.120 --> 0:45:08.359
<v Speaker 3>the time.

0:45:08.400 --> 0:45:09.520
<v Speaker 2>It just like happened so quickly.

0:45:09.560 --> 0:45:11.400
<v Speaker 3>It was like my body was defaulting on me like

0:45:11.400 --> 0:45:13.720
<v Speaker 3>ooh ooh, like and I was just like a baby.

0:45:13.760 --> 0:45:17.400
<v Speaker 3>And then I and I just felt it felt nourishing

0:45:17.400 --> 0:45:19.359
<v Speaker 3>in a way that I needed him to recognize that

0:45:19.400 --> 0:45:21.840
<v Speaker 3>and I'm grateful for it. But then he lifted up

0:45:21.880 --> 0:45:26.000
<v Speaker 3>my shirt to touch his, and there was a feeling

0:45:26.040 --> 0:45:28.680
<v Speaker 3>inside of me that was like it made me feel

0:45:28.680 --> 0:45:31.480
<v Speaker 3>like I could feel that I was just a soul

0:45:31.680 --> 0:45:34.000
<v Speaker 3>and that my soul was pressing against the front of

0:45:34.040 --> 0:45:37.520
<v Speaker 3>my body to be closer to his. You know, I

0:45:37.560 --> 0:45:39.560
<v Speaker 3>felt like as soon as he lifted my shirt, I

0:45:39.640 --> 0:45:42.840
<v Speaker 3>was like I felt my spirit, my infinite self, like

0:45:42.960 --> 0:45:45.759
<v Speaker 3>press up against the front of my body to be

0:45:45.840 --> 0:45:48.200
<v Speaker 3>closer to his. And I had this thought like I've

0:45:48.200 --> 0:45:51.400
<v Speaker 3>probably known him in so many ethers, but this is

0:45:51.400 --> 0:45:54.359
<v Speaker 3>this unique opportunity that we get to touch physically, and

0:45:54.360 --> 0:45:57.160
<v Speaker 3>that I could feel like the ease in that like

0:45:57.200 --> 0:45:59.640
<v Speaker 3>anything I'm in my head about is really not important,

0:46:00.239 --> 0:46:02.560
<v Speaker 3>and that I was safe and I was home, and

0:46:02.680 --> 0:46:05.680
<v Speaker 3>like it's like it just it caused like those all

0:46:05.719 --> 0:46:08.840
<v Speaker 3>those quick you know thoughts that quickly like it was

0:46:09.440 --> 0:46:12.680
<v Speaker 3>so it was like a reality check, you know, and

0:46:12.719 --> 0:46:15.440
<v Speaker 3>it was just it's interesting how we are. So and

0:46:15.480 --> 0:46:16.920
<v Speaker 3>even on the retreat, a lot of the girls I

0:46:17.000 --> 0:46:19.000
<v Speaker 3>talked to were like telling me at points they got

0:46:19.160 --> 0:46:21.960
<v Speaker 3>in their heads assuming that people were like, oh, like.

0:46:22.080 --> 0:46:24.399
<v Speaker 2>Talking about them, or like.

0:46:24.360 --> 0:46:26.080
<v Speaker 3>They were already grouped up, so I'm gonna go back

0:46:26.080 --> 0:46:29.399
<v Speaker 3>to my room, and I was like, I'm we are

0:46:29.480 --> 0:46:34.759
<v Speaker 3>rarely in environments where we can say, were you talking

0:46:34.760 --> 0:46:36.719
<v Speaker 3>about me? And we're like, no, girl, we were just

0:46:36.760 --> 0:46:38.680
<v Speaker 3>like chatting like oh, like can I sit here? Like yeah,

0:46:38.680 --> 0:46:40.080
<v Speaker 3>I have a seat, Like yeah, let's come join in

0:46:40.120 --> 0:46:43.080
<v Speaker 3>the conversation. But we're not in environments where our nervous

0:46:43.080 --> 0:46:45.319
<v Speaker 3>systems are regulated. Then you feel safe enough to say

0:46:45.320 --> 0:46:47.839
<v Speaker 3>that to strangers. But the truth is we're all making

0:46:47.920 --> 0:46:50.520
<v Speaker 3>up narratives in our head that are not real. And

0:46:50.560 --> 0:46:52.319
<v Speaker 3>when we can get out of our heads and out

0:46:52.360 --> 0:46:54.800
<v Speaker 3>of this physical realm, like then we can like ease

0:46:54.840 --> 0:46:58.640
<v Speaker 3>into the fearlessness because like the truth is like there's

0:46:58.680 --> 0:47:02.200
<v Speaker 3>nothing to fear because we never die. And it's just

0:47:02.400 --> 0:47:06.680
<v Speaker 3>like it's these small glimpses of like your experience and

0:47:06.719 --> 0:47:10.600
<v Speaker 3>seeing so many women tainted by these ideas that like

0:47:10.680 --> 0:47:12.920
<v Speaker 3>are just not real, These narratives we tell ourselves and

0:47:12.960 --> 0:47:15.560
<v Speaker 3>these beliefs that we've inherited that are not even ours.

0:47:16.160 --> 0:47:17.279
<v Speaker 2>And it's just like the.

0:47:19.400 --> 0:47:23.880
<v Speaker 3>Gift in surrendering and asking spirit for like fulfill me

0:47:24.000 --> 0:47:25.680
<v Speaker 3>and bring me the people that I need, bring me

0:47:25.719 --> 0:47:30.360
<v Speaker 3>the and like following that path is such a gift

0:47:30.400 --> 0:47:32.320
<v Speaker 3>that we're gonna like that keeps on giving.

0:47:33.719 --> 0:47:38.560
<v Speaker 1>No for real, I mean, I totally agree. I think about, yeah,

0:47:38.600 --> 0:47:40.640
<v Speaker 1>having those conversations with a few different women on the

0:47:40.640 --> 0:47:43.839
<v Speaker 1>retreat who had made up these narratives in their mind

0:47:43.920 --> 0:47:46.879
<v Speaker 1>and then like getting into the practice of yes, going

0:47:46.960 --> 0:47:49.080
<v Speaker 1>up to someone and saying, hey, can I can I

0:47:49.120 --> 0:47:52.520
<v Speaker 1>sit here and talk to you? And like how uncomfortable

0:47:52.800 --> 0:47:56.960
<v Speaker 1>that is in any other circumstance. Because we've created this

0:47:57.080 --> 0:48:01.560
<v Speaker 1>little bubble of permission on property, women feel more empowered

0:48:01.760 --> 0:48:05.040
<v Speaker 1>to ask questions that they never would. They would just

0:48:05.080 --> 0:48:09.000
<v Speaker 1>suffer in silence and then write off people and add

0:48:09.040 --> 0:48:11.000
<v Speaker 1>that to the list of why I don't fuck with bitches,

0:48:11.840 --> 0:48:13.759
<v Speaker 1>you know, Like I don't fuck with bitches, you know.

0:48:13.800 --> 0:48:16.880
<v Speaker 1>And when all you had to do was just say, hey,

0:48:16.920 --> 0:48:18.360
<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna ask this question, I was talry to my

0:48:18.400 --> 0:48:20.719
<v Speaker 1>cousin yesterday and she was saying how she's has like

0:48:20.880 --> 0:48:24.040
<v Speaker 1>really people pleasing issues and like she was like, there's

0:48:24.080 --> 0:48:26.720
<v Speaker 1>this girl and I really like her. She's really cool,

0:48:26.920 --> 0:48:28.960
<v Speaker 1>not like dating wise, Like she's a really cool friend.

0:48:29.360 --> 0:48:33.480
<v Speaker 1>She does like spoken word, and my cousin she does music,

0:48:33.719 --> 0:48:36.399
<v Speaker 1>and she's like and she wants me to come over

0:48:36.440 --> 0:48:38.440
<v Speaker 1>and jam with her. She wants me to like play

0:48:38.480 --> 0:48:40.719
<v Speaker 1>the guitar while she does spoken word, and it's just

0:48:40.760 --> 0:48:43.239
<v Speaker 1>like not my thing, Like I just don't I don't

0:48:43.280 --> 0:48:45.480
<v Speaker 1>fuck with spoken word like that, and I honestly don't

0:48:45.520 --> 0:48:47.080
<v Speaker 1>have fucking time to do that, like I'm trying to

0:48:47.120 --> 0:48:49.239
<v Speaker 1>work on my own shit. And so I've literally been

0:48:49.280 --> 0:48:52.040
<v Speaker 1>avoiding her, like and I really like her, but I'm

0:48:52.320 --> 0:48:55.480
<v Speaker 1>scared that she's gonna ask me to do this jam

0:48:55.520 --> 0:48:57.319
<v Speaker 1>session with her that I don't want to do, and

0:48:57.360 --> 0:48:59.200
<v Speaker 1>I don't know how to tell her no. And I

0:48:59.239 --> 0:49:01.800
<v Speaker 1>was like, so you're gonna just like forfeit a friendship

0:49:01.880 --> 0:49:03.879
<v Speaker 1>because you don't know how to say no to this

0:49:03.920 --> 0:49:04.560
<v Speaker 1>isn't my thing.

0:49:04.960 --> 0:49:05.360
<v Speaker 2>And I was.

0:49:05.360 --> 0:49:09.360
<v Speaker 1>Thinking, like how many women do that forfeit friendships? Because

0:49:09.760 --> 0:49:12.080
<v Speaker 1>either they're making up narratives in their mind, they don't

0:49:12.120 --> 0:49:14.279
<v Speaker 1>know how to like say hey, like I don't really

0:49:14.320 --> 0:49:16.399
<v Speaker 1>want to do that, and like thinking the other person

0:49:16.440 --> 0:49:18.680
<v Speaker 1>that's gonna hate them for it. And I told her,

0:49:18.719 --> 0:49:21.319
<v Speaker 1>I was like, bitch, Like if you said no to her,

0:49:21.360 --> 0:49:23.520
<v Speaker 1>she'll probably go find someone else to go do it

0:49:23.560 --> 0:49:26.799
<v Speaker 1>with her. Like it's that simple, Like you're you're you're

0:49:26.840 --> 0:49:30.760
<v Speaker 1>actually making yourself so important.

0:49:30.239 --> 0:49:32.280
<v Speaker 2>It might not even think be what she needs maybe

0:49:32.320 --> 0:49:33.440
<v Speaker 2>just like a hangout.

0:49:33.160 --> 0:49:35.440
<v Speaker 1>You know. And she's like, I really like want to

0:49:35.440 --> 0:49:37.239
<v Speaker 1>hang out with her, but I'm nervous that she's gonna

0:49:37.320 --> 0:49:39.120
<v Speaker 1>keep asking me for this thing that I don't want

0:49:39.120 --> 0:49:41.880
<v Speaker 1>to give her. I was like, oh my god, Like

0:49:42.080 --> 0:49:43.759
<v Speaker 1>as women like we have such a heart. But then

0:49:43.800 --> 0:49:47.400
<v Speaker 1>she like has no problem extending like really crazy text

0:49:47.400 --> 0:49:50.520
<v Speaker 1>messages to like guys that are like like she was,

0:49:50.640 --> 0:49:52.160
<v Speaker 1>she was just telling me the story about this guy

0:49:52.160 --> 0:49:54.279
<v Speaker 1>who like shopped in the bed or something when what yeah,

0:49:54.320 --> 0:49:56.520
<v Speaker 1>like like should in the beddy like years ago in

0:49:56.600 --> 0:49:58.960
<v Speaker 1>high school or something while you're having sex and then

0:49:59.000 --> 0:50:02.759
<v Speaker 1>like and like when it was happening, like she she

0:50:02.800 --> 0:50:04.680
<v Speaker 1>saw the shit and he just was like that's not

0:50:04.800 --> 0:50:06.920
<v Speaker 1>mine and like got up and like walked out, and

0:50:06.960 --> 0:50:08.600
<v Speaker 1>she had to like wash her sheets, and she was like,

0:50:08.640 --> 0:50:10.400
<v Speaker 1>what the fuck? And she like ran into him like

0:50:10.520 --> 0:50:15.160
<v Speaker 1>years later recently actually, and then like a few nights ago,

0:50:15.440 --> 0:50:18.080
<v Speaker 1>she just randomly texted him like remember when you shit

0:50:18.120 --> 0:50:20.960
<v Speaker 1>in my bed in high school or in college? And

0:50:21.000 --> 0:50:23.600
<v Speaker 1>I was like, so you have no problem texting this

0:50:23.719 --> 0:50:25.960
<v Speaker 1>guy this, but you can't say no to your friend.

0:50:26.000 --> 0:50:27.120
<v Speaker 1>I'm like, what the fuck is wrong?

0:50:27.160 --> 0:50:28.960
<v Speaker 2>When she's still mad no?

0:50:29.000 --> 0:50:31.799
<v Speaker 1>But it was just like it's like women, we can

0:50:31.840 --> 0:50:34.480
<v Speaker 1>be really extreme in one way and then like super

0:50:34.520 --> 0:50:36.800
<v Speaker 1>cut off in another way, Like she feels really comfortable

0:50:36.880 --> 0:50:39.160
<v Speaker 1>kind of like exposing a guy, but has a really

0:50:39.160 --> 0:50:43.239
<v Speaker 1>hard time like communicating herself. Yeah, And I was I

0:50:43.280 --> 0:50:45.560
<v Speaker 1>was like thinking like wow, like how many how many

0:50:45.800 --> 0:50:50.719
<v Speaker 1>friendships have died because of just these made up storylines

0:50:50.719 --> 0:50:53.120
<v Speaker 1>in our head because we didn't know how to say hey.

0:50:53.360 --> 0:50:56.760
<v Speaker 1>Like that made me uncomfortable thinking like if we said that,

0:50:56.880 --> 0:51:00.759
<v Speaker 1>she was going to think whatever about me? And I'm

0:51:00.800 --> 0:51:04.080
<v Speaker 1>just really grateful that we've created a space, at least

0:51:04.080 --> 0:51:09.800
<v Speaker 1>for five days where women can practice, can practice saying no,

0:51:10.160 --> 0:51:14.480
<v Speaker 1>can practice saying yes, can practice like just vocalizing their needs,

0:51:14.840 --> 0:51:17.799
<v Speaker 1>not being afraid to ask for too much, not being

0:51:17.840 --> 0:51:21.440
<v Speaker 1>afraid to just be quiet and be at peace. And

0:51:21.880 --> 0:51:24.560
<v Speaker 1>it's just it's so important for women to have these

0:51:24.600 --> 0:51:28.080
<v Speaker 1>spaces and men too, like men having these spaces too,

0:51:28.120 --> 0:51:31.840
<v Speaker 1>And like I'm realizing too with men, like how much

0:51:32.840 --> 0:51:37.319
<v Speaker 1>how much they need spaces to be I already know this,

0:51:37.400 --> 0:51:40.399
<v Speaker 1>but to be vulnerable. And it's just like I read

0:51:40.440 --> 0:51:43.600
<v Speaker 1>our comments sometimes and like there's so many hurt.

0:51:43.920 --> 0:51:48.040
<v Speaker 2>Men's so basic. They're just so basic.

0:51:48.040 --> 0:51:50.000
<v Speaker 3>And I try not to let that pollute my mind

0:51:50.040 --> 0:51:54.040
<v Speaker 3>about like just the the majority of men, because it

0:51:54.080 --> 0:51:55.319
<v Speaker 3>can't possibly be this.

0:51:56.480 --> 0:51:58.920
<v Speaker 1>Well, just like women, we need safety. Like I I

0:51:59.560 --> 0:52:02.840
<v Speaker 1>got fed some sort of like ad or something. I

0:52:02.880 --> 0:52:04.160
<v Speaker 1>don't know what it was, but it was like these

0:52:04.200 --> 0:52:06.640
<v Speaker 1>are the things that men need to be asked or

0:52:06.680 --> 0:52:08.400
<v Speaker 1>like men need to be asked or told, and it

0:52:08.480 --> 0:52:11.759
<v Speaker 1>was like they need to be told, like you're doing

0:52:11.800 --> 0:52:15.120
<v Speaker 1>a good job, they need to be told. Like like

0:52:15.160 --> 0:52:16.920
<v Speaker 1>it was a few different things and it was like

0:52:17.960 --> 0:52:19.799
<v Speaker 1>not that different from what women need, but.

0:52:19.760 --> 0:52:21.360
<v Speaker 2>It just like was delivered. It was just different, like

0:52:21.400 --> 0:52:22.240
<v Speaker 2>different words.

0:52:22.320 --> 0:52:24.520
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, And I was like we all kind of want

0:52:24.520 --> 0:52:27.640
<v Speaker 1>the same thing in ways, there's a safety that men

0:52:27.719 --> 0:52:28.359
<v Speaker 1>need as well.

0:52:28.560 --> 0:52:31.000
<v Speaker 3>Is there a book on that is there a book

0:52:31.040 --> 0:52:32.879
<v Speaker 3>on like affirmations for men.

0:52:34.520 --> 0:52:35.400
<v Speaker 1>Maybe we should write it.

0:52:35.440 --> 0:52:37.279
<v Speaker 3>We might need to, like we should like research all

0:52:37.320 --> 0:52:42.000
<v Speaker 3>our male friends and yeah, because you know what, Like

0:52:42.239 --> 0:52:42.799
<v Speaker 3>and I.

0:52:42.760 --> 0:52:45.240
<v Speaker 1>Was talking to this, to this guy that I'm seeing,

0:52:45.239 --> 0:52:47.520
<v Speaker 1>and he was saying how hard it's it is for

0:52:47.600 --> 0:52:53.040
<v Speaker 1>him to receive affirmations for me and like compliments for me,

0:52:53.239 --> 0:52:56.279
<v Speaker 1>and then he's like felt resistance in his body when

0:52:56.320 --> 0:52:59.759
<v Speaker 1>I do that, And that's like my love language with

0:53:00.520 --> 0:53:03.320
<v Speaker 1>in love, like I love giving men at words of affirmation,

0:53:03.480 --> 0:53:05.560
<v Speaker 1>saying like I'm really impressed by you, and like I

0:53:05.640 --> 0:53:09.800
<v Speaker 1>just do that naturally, and I never I never considered

0:53:09.800 --> 0:53:11.920
<v Speaker 1>how uncomfortable it would make someone.

0:53:12.040 --> 0:53:13.399
<v Speaker 3>Well, if the people are not if you're not used

0:53:13.440 --> 0:53:16.920
<v Speaker 3>to it, it can be uncomfortable. Sometimes I didn't realize it,

0:53:16.920 --> 0:53:19.319
<v Speaker 3>but I resonate with that, like in my body it

0:53:19.360 --> 0:53:22.719
<v Speaker 3>feels like I don't know, but no, like, yeah, a

0:53:22.719 --> 0:53:25.200
<v Speaker 3>lot of times we don't examine how things feel in

0:53:25.200 --> 0:53:28.279
<v Speaker 3>our body and we're people pleasing and so that's like

0:53:28.960 --> 0:53:31.040
<v Speaker 3>shout out to him for even recognizing that and then

0:53:31.040 --> 0:53:33.399
<v Speaker 3>being able to communicate it. But it's just like it's

0:53:33.440 --> 0:53:37.120
<v Speaker 3>also a practice being able to receive and also to

0:53:37.120 --> 0:53:39.879
<v Speaker 3>to to affirm because that's not like my strongest that's

0:53:39.920 --> 0:53:43.319
<v Speaker 3>not my strong point. So and then like we talk

0:53:43.400 --> 0:53:45.799
<v Speaker 3>all the time, rewrite, and so you would think that

0:53:45.960 --> 0:53:48.160
<v Speaker 3>I would have more words, but then I feel like

0:53:48.239 --> 0:53:51.480
<v Speaker 3>stuck when it comes to words of affirmation. So not

0:53:51.520 --> 0:53:58.640
<v Speaker 3>even with myself. Hmm, it's crazy. What, like you said,

0:53:58.719 --> 0:54:03.960
<v Speaker 3>a week of tapping into your own pleasure and your

0:54:04.000 --> 0:54:05.839
<v Speaker 3>body and saying like do I want to do this?

0:54:06.120 --> 0:54:07.439
<v Speaker 2>How does this make me feel? Why?

0:54:07.600 --> 0:54:10.840
<v Speaker 3>Like asking the questions you want to ask. But again,

0:54:10.880 --> 0:54:13.640
<v Speaker 3>it's being in a place where you feel safe and

0:54:13.680 --> 0:54:15.240
<v Speaker 3>your nervous system is regulating.

0:54:16.400 --> 0:54:19.160
<v Speaker 2>Is it tarot time? Time?

0:54:21.280 --> 0:54:21.400
<v Speaker 1>Wow?

0:54:21.400 --> 0:54:24.800
<v Speaker 3>Because I'm high this backwood I put some rose petals.

0:54:25.160 --> 0:54:27.439
<v Speaker 3>It was very beautiful. It's actually really delicious. I'm about

0:54:27.440 --> 0:54:29.919
<v Speaker 3>to smoke the whole thing. But I'm high. It's rose

0:54:29.960 --> 0:54:32.880
<v Speaker 3>petals and a little bit lavender, and I have a

0:54:33.520 --> 0:54:34.760
<v Speaker 3>I have a bold cigar.

0:54:35.800 --> 0:54:36.200
<v Speaker 2>I don't know.

0:54:36.280 --> 0:54:38.560
<v Speaker 1>Is this just five Bold cigars?

0:54:39.160 --> 0:54:40.359
<v Speaker 2>I guess it's flavorless.

0:54:40.800 --> 0:54:42.520
<v Speaker 1>Is it just the it's the og backwood.

0:54:42.560 --> 0:54:45.000
<v Speaker 3>I think I like this one. This might be this

0:54:45.120 --> 0:54:48.759
<v Speaker 3>might this might be my winter. It's because I'm I'm

0:54:48.880 --> 0:54:51.040
<v Speaker 3>wise and older. I don't need all those flavors.

0:54:54.880 --> 0:54:56.000
<v Speaker 1>The seven of swords.

0:54:56.880 --> 0:54:58.960
<v Speaker 2>Seven of swords.

0:54:59.600 --> 0:55:02.080
<v Speaker 1>He looks happy, but he's like he's balancing a lot

0:55:02.080 --> 0:55:05.160
<v Speaker 1>of things. He's carrying a lot of things. He's leaving

0:55:05.280 --> 0:55:06.640
<v Speaker 1>some things behind.

0:55:09.000 --> 0:55:15.160
<v Speaker 2>Seven of swords. Hmm, let's see. Let's see.

0:55:15.600 --> 0:55:20.840
<v Speaker 3>Traditionally, the seven of swords indicate theft, betrayal, deception, and trickery.

0:55:21.400 --> 0:55:23.040
<v Speaker 3>You may be trying to get away with something and

0:55:23.480 --> 0:55:27.680
<v Speaker 3>are sneaking around behind other people's backs, hoping to go undetected.

0:55:28.280 --> 0:55:30.760
<v Speaker 3>If you're lucky, you might get away with your secret intact,

0:55:31.040 --> 0:55:33.319
<v Speaker 3>but if you're unlucky, others will soon find out what

0:55:33.360 --> 0:55:36.919
<v Speaker 3>you've done, causing your shame and embarrassment. Be aware that

0:55:37.560 --> 0:55:40.560
<v Speaker 3>anytime you use cunning or deception to gain an advantage

0:55:40.560 --> 0:55:43.200
<v Speaker 3>over someone or something else, you're at risk of being

0:55:43.280 --> 0:55:45.879
<v Speaker 3>found out, and even if you are not, the cover

0:55:45.960 --> 0:55:48.480
<v Speaker 3>up will require a tremendous amount of effort and it

0:55:48.520 --> 0:55:51.319
<v Speaker 3>may not be worth it. Alternatively, you may be the

0:55:51.400 --> 0:55:54.760
<v Speaker 3>victim of someone else's betrayal. Others are not being candid

0:55:54.760 --> 0:55:56.800
<v Speaker 3>with you, and you may be unaware of their lies

0:55:56.800 --> 0:55:57.320
<v Speaker 3>and deception.

0:55:57.440 --> 0:55:58.200
<v Speaker 1>Are you lying to me?

0:55:58.719 --> 0:56:03.759
<v Speaker 3>No, okay, I'm not gonna lie you may trust someone

0:56:03.800 --> 0:56:06.000
<v Speaker 3>who then turns out to be running their own agenda,

0:56:06.080 --> 0:56:08.800
<v Speaker 3>leaving you high and dry. Look out for any sneaky behavior,

0:56:09.000 --> 0:56:11.320
<v Speaker 3>and listen to your intuition if something does not feel

0:56:11.360 --> 0:56:13.080
<v Speaker 3>right or seems too good to be true.

0:56:13.120 --> 0:56:14.360
<v Speaker 1>Oh my god, you know what this made me think of?

0:56:15.080 --> 0:56:15.600
<v Speaker 1>Last night?

0:56:15.960 --> 0:56:16.200
<v Speaker 2>Wait?

0:56:16.480 --> 0:56:18.920
<v Speaker 1>I told the story of last night. Oh my god,

0:56:19.080 --> 0:56:22.720
<v Speaker 1>you guys, last night was crazy. Last night I started,

0:56:22.760 --> 0:56:25.080
<v Speaker 1>I've never spiraled so hard in my life, so fast.

0:56:28.239 --> 0:56:37.760
<v Speaker 1>I don't know if this has anything to do with this, but.

0:56:33.880 --> 0:56:37.480
<v Speaker 3>Last night I'm almost at the rem sleep. What's the

0:56:37.560 --> 0:56:40.480
<v Speaker 3>what's the what's the really deep one? You know, the

0:56:40.520 --> 0:56:42.840
<v Speaker 3>deep one, Lucid, I don't know, I'm in the deep.

0:56:43.520 --> 0:56:45.320
<v Speaker 3>I'm an Ram. I'm like right there.

0:56:45.560 --> 0:56:49.040
<v Speaker 1>So I'm having like a little girls night with my

0:56:49.239 --> 0:56:52.359
<v Speaker 1>cousin and my bestie and like we're just sitting there

0:56:52.400 --> 0:56:55.839
<v Speaker 1>talking and my cousin was helping me with Iri while

0:56:55.880 --> 0:56:58.239
<v Speaker 1>I was gone in Costa Rica, and she goes, you know,

0:56:58.560 --> 0:57:01.719
<v Speaker 1>you check IRI's iPad? I was like, yeah, I do.

0:57:01.760 --> 0:57:03.759
<v Speaker 1>And she's like, do you know someone named poopo Head

0:57:03.880 --> 0:57:05.799
<v Speaker 1>and her iPad? And I was like, no, who the

0:57:05.800 --> 0:57:08.879
<v Speaker 1>fuck is poopoo Head? And she was like, there's someone

0:57:08.920 --> 0:57:10.640
<v Speaker 1>in her iPad named poopo Head and he must have

0:57:10.719 --> 0:57:12.480
<v Speaker 1>messaged her and said like, I don't want to be

0:57:12.520 --> 0:57:15.680
<v Speaker 1>your boyfriend. And I was like boyfriend. She's like, yeah,

0:57:15.719 --> 0:57:17.400
<v Speaker 1>you need to go look in her iPad. So she

0:57:17.480 --> 0:57:19.360
<v Speaker 1>was like, go look now. So I went upstairs. God

0:57:19.360 --> 0:57:22.080
<v Speaker 1>Irie's iPad turned it on, and I'm looking through fucking

0:57:22.160 --> 0:57:23.960
<v Speaker 1>her text and I'm looking through poopoo Head looking for

0:57:24.000 --> 0:57:27.200
<v Speaker 1>poopo Head. I looked through, I find poopo Head and

0:57:27.440 --> 0:57:29.160
<v Speaker 1>that's not even what she said. So my cousin was

0:57:29.160 --> 0:57:31.280
<v Speaker 1>getting I get Iri fucked up out here because Poopohead

0:57:31.280 --> 0:57:32.440
<v Speaker 1>just said I don't want to be your friend. And

0:57:32.440 --> 0:57:34.400
<v Speaker 1>then I Rey didn't even respond because relatives are getting

0:57:34.400 --> 0:57:37.000
<v Speaker 1>me fucked up because Iris unbothered, I realized as I

0:57:37.040 --> 0:57:39.120
<v Speaker 1>read her text message with her friends, she's the most

0:57:39.200 --> 0:57:41.280
<v Speaker 1>unbothered friend of all of them. She doesn't really give

0:57:41.280 --> 0:57:45.440
<v Speaker 1>a fuck. So anyway, I then I start looking through

0:57:45.440 --> 0:57:48.240
<v Speaker 1>the text and I see that there's a message from

0:57:48.320 --> 0:57:52.160
<v Speaker 1>someone named BFF two and the emoji is a is like,

0:57:52.680 --> 0:57:56.320
<v Speaker 1>has the emoji is this man with like a a

0:57:56.440 --> 0:57:58.800
<v Speaker 1>what's it called a goateee? And I'm like who the

0:57:58.920 --> 0:58:03.480
<v Speaker 1>fuck is bf F two with a goate? So I

0:58:03.560 --> 0:58:05.760
<v Speaker 1>look in the text and it's like the first text

0:58:05.840 --> 0:58:09.440
<v Speaker 1>is IRI, and then she goes, is this a mirror?

0:58:10.160 --> 0:58:12.680
<v Speaker 1>And she and he is like it's E M, I

0:58:13.080 --> 0:58:15.720
<v Speaker 1>R and yes, you called me while I was at work, bitch,

0:58:15.760 --> 0:58:18.360
<v Speaker 1>I said at work, who the fuck is a mirror?

0:58:19.440 --> 0:58:22.240
<v Speaker 1>You guys? I was trembling, like, I was like, who

0:58:22.240 --> 0:58:24.480
<v Speaker 1>the fuck is a mirror? Why is a mere texting?

0:58:24.560 --> 0:58:26.600
<v Speaker 2>Then you're going roadblocks and I was text like, why

0:58:26.640 --> 0:58:26.959
<v Speaker 2>is this.

0:58:27.000 --> 0:58:29.000
<v Speaker 1>Grown ass man texting my eight year old? Then I

0:58:29.040 --> 0:58:30.920
<v Speaker 1>go and I was like, let me co check on roadblocks,

0:58:30.960 --> 0:58:32.560
<v Speaker 1>Like what the fuck is happening on roadblocks? I haven't

0:58:32.600 --> 0:58:35.400
<v Speaker 1>checked in like four months. I go in roadblocks, I

0:58:35.400 --> 0:58:37.760
<v Speaker 1>see all of her friend friends and I see someone

0:58:37.800 --> 0:58:40.280
<v Speaker 1>named a mirror in there, and I'm like, oh, no,

0:58:41.000 --> 0:58:43.560
<v Speaker 1>they've gotten her. They've gotten to her. My parental controls

0:58:43.560 --> 0:58:48.000
<v Speaker 1>weren't strong enough. Somehow someone has messaged her grown box

0:58:48.040 --> 0:58:50.040
<v Speaker 1>and she got a phone number and now they're facetiming.

0:58:50.080 --> 0:58:52.600
<v Speaker 1>I haven't even been here. I saw the first message

0:58:52.640 --> 0:58:54.880
<v Speaker 1>was like in December, and then there was another one

0:58:55.000 --> 0:58:59.440
<v Speaker 1>like like last week. I'm like having a pan attack

0:58:59.560 --> 0:59:01.680
<v Speaker 1>my friends like egging me on. They're stressing me the

0:59:01.680 --> 0:59:03.280
<v Speaker 1>fuck out, Like, what are we gonna do. You can't

0:59:03.280 --> 0:59:04.880
<v Speaker 1>shame her, Like I was like, I'm gonna go wake

0:59:04.880 --> 0:59:06.280
<v Speaker 1>her ass right up. I'm gonna go wake her up

0:59:06.360 --> 0:59:07.840
<v Speaker 1>right the fuck now. I'm about to curse her out.

0:59:07.840 --> 0:59:10.320
<v Speaker 1>And she was like, no, you can't do that. She's

0:59:10.360 --> 0:59:14.160
<v Speaker 1>going to start lying to you because she knows that

0:59:14.200 --> 0:59:17.520
<v Speaker 1>you went through her her iPad. You can't shame her.

0:59:17.760 --> 0:59:20.480
<v Speaker 1>You don't want to make her seem like she's in trouble. Definitely,

0:59:20.600 --> 0:59:23.400
<v Speaker 1>don't start the conversation saying you're not in trouble, because

0:59:23.400 --> 0:59:25.720
<v Speaker 1>everyone knows that's code for you're in fucking trouble.

0:59:25.800 --> 0:59:27.800
<v Speaker 2>This is a lot of advice, bitch, I have a

0:59:27.840 --> 0:59:29.600
<v Speaker 2>lot of advice they were giving. Oh my god, it

0:59:29.640 --> 0:59:31.120
<v Speaker 2>was I already just wore her ass.

0:59:31.400 --> 0:59:32.640
<v Speaker 1>I was telling her. I was like, I'm not good

0:59:32.720 --> 0:59:35.400
<v Speaker 1>with my faces. My faces are fucked Like I already

0:59:35.480 --> 0:59:37.320
<v Speaker 1>like have judgmental face, and I don't even mean to.

0:59:37.480 --> 0:59:39.880
<v Speaker 1>I have resting bitch face. It's just part of my demeanor.

0:59:41.760 --> 0:59:43.760
<v Speaker 1>So anyway, they were like, we have to call him.

0:59:43.880 --> 0:59:46.560
<v Speaker 1>What's his phone number? So I fucking star six seven

0:59:46.800 --> 0:59:50.200
<v Speaker 1>called the Star six seven Star six seven, and I

0:59:50.200 --> 0:59:52.040
<v Speaker 1>look at the area code and it's six one zero,

0:59:52.240 --> 0:59:56.360
<v Speaker 1>and so I'm like, Romo's like, what is six one zero?

0:59:56.680 --> 0:59:59.000
<v Speaker 1>And we look at it's Allentown, Pennsylvania. I'm like, what

0:59:59.040 --> 1:00:02.040
<v Speaker 1>the fuck? Who is her? Fucking this predator lives in Philly?

1:00:02.120 --> 1:00:05.040
<v Speaker 1>Like what the fuck is going on? I fucking call

1:00:05.120 --> 1:00:08.880
<v Speaker 1>the number and someone answers and I'm like hello, No

1:00:08.880 --> 1:00:11.760
<v Speaker 1>one says anything. I'm like, hello, Hello, no one says anything.

1:00:12.680 --> 1:00:15.880
<v Speaker 1>Hello was like yes, and I could hear it's like

1:00:15.920 --> 1:00:20.000
<v Speaker 1>a grown ass man. And I was like, Hi, is

1:00:20.040 --> 1:00:24.320
<v Speaker 1>this a mirror? And he was like yeah. And I

1:00:24.400 --> 1:00:27.960
<v Speaker 1>was like, why are you texting eight year olds? Mirror?

1:00:28.760 --> 1:00:33.320
<v Speaker 1>And he was like, oh, you are you talking about Johnny?

1:00:33.560 --> 1:00:35.800
<v Speaker 1>I was like Johnny. I was like thinking of my head, Oh,

1:00:35.880 --> 1:00:37.520
<v Speaker 1>so you have a fucking list of little eight year

1:00:37.520 --> 1:00:39.280
<v Speaker 1>olds you're fucking texting you fucking weirdo.

1:00:40.160 --> 1:00:41.040
<v Speaker 2>So I'm like, no, I'm not.

1:00:41.080 --> 1:00:43.400
<v Speaker 1>Johnny, my daughter. Why are you texting eight year olds?

1:00:43.400 --> 1:00:45.040
<v Speaker 1>Why are you texting my eight year old daughter? Amir?

1:00:45.200 --> 1:00:45.919
<v Speaker 2>Where do you live?

1:00:46.120 --> 1:00:49.680
<v Speaker 1>Who are you? He's like whoa relax, one question at

1:00:49.680 --> 1:00:51.960
<v Speaker 1>a time, and I was like the ah fucking dacity,

1:00:52.000 --> 1:00:55.240
<v Speaker 1>And honestly, I was triggered also because I remember when

1:00:55.280 --> 1:00:58.360
<v Speaker 1>my baby daddy cheated on me and this bitch sent

1:00:58.400 --> 1:01:01.200
<v Speaker 1>the picture of her pregnancy and send her number and

1:01:01.240 --> 1:01:03.040
<v Speaker 1>then I called and I had all these questions and

1:01:03.080 --> 1:01:04.840
<v Speaker 1>she had the audacity to tell me to calm the

1:01:04.840 --> 1:01:08.680
<v Speaker 1>fuck down. That's how I felt. I was triggered. I

1:01:08.760 --> 1:01:13.320
<v Speaker 1>was like, where are you located? And he was like,

1:01:13.640 --> 1:01:17.640
<v Speaker 1>no comment, and like the two aunties at the table

1:01:17.640 --> 1:01:17.960
<v Speaker 1>are like.

1:01:17.880 --> 1:01:19.840
<v Speaker 2>What the fuck?

1:01:19.040 --> 1:01:25.120
<v Speaker 1>I'm like, who are you? And he was like no comment?

1:01:25.320 --> 1:01:27.080
<v Speaker 1>And I was like I just hung up, and they're like,

1:01:27.120 --> 1:01:28.640
<v Speaker 1>why did you hang up? Had we had to ask

1:01:28.680 --> 1:01:30.240
<v Speaker 1>more questions? I was like, don't have any more fucking

1:01:30.280 --> 1:01:32.680
<v Speaker 1>questions to ask. I'm waking her up and they're like

1:01:32.720 --> 1:01:33.600
<v Speaker 1>you can't wake her up.

1:01:35.160 --> 1:01:36.200
<v Speaker 2>How long did this go on?

1:01:36.240 --> 1:01:38.240
<v Speaker 1>This just went off for like thirty minutes, because then

1:01:38.280 --> 1:01:40.160
<v Speaker 1>I was like deep diving into roll blocks, like trying

1:01:40.200 --> 1:01:42.720
<v Speaker 1>to find deleted messages. I was googling how to find

1:01:42.760 --> 1:01:45.160
<v Speaker 1>a leading message on rollblocks. Apparently you can't delete messages

1:01:45.200 --> 1:01:47.200
<v Speaker 1>they're an archive, but there were none, so I didn't

1:01:47.240 --> 1:01:49.080
<v Speaker 1>know how the fuck they got into this phone number.

1:01:49.080 --> 1:01:50.680
<v Speaker 1>So I was really confused, and then I went on

1:01:50.680 --> 1:01:53.680
<v Speaker 1>a deep dive of her history on on the Googles,

1:01:53.720 --> 1:01:55.880
<v Speaker 1>and my daughter's just searching like how to do a

1:01:55.920 --> 1:01:59.880
<v Speaker 1>backhand spring and like just basic eighteen year old chef.

1:02:00.160 --> 1:02:02.240
<v Speaker 2>Yeah.

1:02:02.280 --> 1:02:05.840
<v Speaker 1>So then they left and they told me like, Erica,

1:02:05.840 --> 1:02:08.200
<v Speaker 1>don't worry. We're gonna like call her therapists tomorrow. We're

1:02:08.200 --> 1:02:10.080
<v Speaker 1>gonna find the best way to have this conversation because

1:02:10.120 --> 1:02:12.440
<v Speaker 1>clearly you're not well equipped. I was like, I'm not.

1:02:12.640 --> 1:02:14.400
<v Speaker 1>I'm not. I'm going too bitches, and no, kid, I'm

1:02:14.440 --> 1:02:18.560
<v Speaker 1>gonna fuck this sala up. So I was like I

1:02:18.600 --> 1:02:20.200
<v Speaker 1>was like told when I was. When they were leaving,

1:02:20.200 --> 1:02:21.760
<v Speaker 1>I was like, I'm gonna call Jamila because I need

1:02:21.760 --> 1:02:23.640
<v Speaker 1>to call Mela because they were both for kids are

1:02:23.640 --> 1:02:25.720
<v Speaker 1>on rodblocks and this is fucked up. I need to

1:02:25.720 --> 1:02:28.280
<v Speaker 1>make sure Luna doesn't have a mirror as a friend either,

1:02:28.360 --> 1:02:31.080
<v Speaker 1>and she's not talking to a mirror. So I called

1:02:31.120 --> 1:02:35.840
<v Speaker 1>Amila and I'm like Amila, Jamila, and she's like, I'm like,

1:02:35.880 --> 1:02:36.720
<v Speaker 1>are you sleep She's.

1:02:36.600 --> 1:02:41.840
<v Speaker 3>Like yeah, as I'm sure you could hear.

1:02:43.040 --> 1:02:46.120
<v Speaker 1>I was like, well, first of all, the team never

1:02:46.160 --> 1:02:48.360
<v Speaker 1>responded about our call tomorrow, so I don't even know

1:02:48.360 --> 1:02:49.920
<v Speaker 1>if we're having the call at nine am or not.

1:02:50.120 --> 1:02:53.640
<v Speaker 1>She was like okay, and I was like and secondly,

1:02:54.280 --> 1:02:56.480
<v Speaker 1>I was talking to some fucking adult name Amir, and

1:02:56.480 --> 1:02:58.400
<v Speaker 1>I don't know what to do. She found him on Roadblocks.

1:02:58.520 --> 1:03:01.240
<v Speaker 1>He lives in Philly, was like a mirror.

1:03:01.360 --> 1:03:03.080
<v Speaker 2>She's like, I don't know.

1:03:03.120 --> 1:03:06.840
<v Speaker 3>I was living a double life.

1:03:05.760 --> 1:03:08.400
<v Speaker 1>I don't even know my own child.

1:03:08.600 --> 1:03:11.080
<v Speaker 3>I was like, roadblocks, Luna's on rope Bucks all the time.

1:03:11.680 --> 1:03:13.080
<v Speaker 3>And I was like, wait, so what do you mean

1:03:13.240 --> 1:03:14.200
<v Speaker 3>what are they talking about?

1:03:14.360 --> 1:03:16.160
<v Speaker 2>I was like, you called. She was like yeah. She's like.

1:03:16.200 --> 1:03:19.560
<v Speaker 2>I was like, he said no comment with his voice.

1:03:20.480 --> 1:03:22.280
<v Speaker 2>I was like, you heard him. She was like. I

1:03:22.280 --> 1:03:23.800
<v Speaker 2>was like he was a grown man. She was like yeah.

1:03:23.800 --> 1:03:26.120
<v Speaker 3>I was literally like about to go wake up Lunena,

1:03:26.440 --> 1:03:27.760
<v Speaker 3>like what the fuck is going on?

1:03:27.800 --> 1:03:30.200
<v Speaker 2>And then I'm like, well, how do you spell it?

1:03:30.200 --> 1:03:32.360
<v Speaker 2>Give me the give me the number. I put the

1:03:32.360 --> 1:03:38.080
<v Speaker 2>fucking number in my phone. It's our cousin, it's their friend,

1:03:38.120 --> 1:03:41.280
<v Speaker 2>it's our cousins. My it's my cousin's son. Fucking Sheena.

1:03:41.720 --> 1:03:44.800
<v Speaker 2>I was like, bitch, she knows him.

1:03:45.320 --> 1:03:48.479
<v Speaker 1>So Amir must have a mir Luna must have shared

1:03:48.520 --> 1:03:52.400
<v Speaker 1>Amir's contact to fucking Iri, So the bit moji was

1:03:52.440 --> 1:03:54.880
<v Speaker 1>already there, and I guess a mir is saved in

1:03:54.960 --> 1:03:57.200
<v Speaker 1>Luna's iPad is bf F two, So I was like,

1:03:57.320 --> 1:03:59.560
<v Speaker 1>why the fuck is his name bf F two in

1:03:59.600 --> 1:04:02.600
<v Speaker 1>her phone? So anyway, then I was like, I gotta go,

1:04:02.640 --> 1:04:04.120
<v Speaker 1>I gotta I gotta call a mer back.

1:04:04.440 --> 1:04:06.720
<v Speaker 2>So I'm like it's three ams said, I don't.

1:04:06.520 --> 1:04:08.520
<v Speaker 1>Give a fuck. It's like call a mer back and

1:04:08.560 --> 1:04:13.280
<v Speaker 1>he's like hello, I'm like a mirror. It's Erica from

1:04:13.320 --> 1:04:18.320
<v Speaker 1>Good Moms and he's like, oh hey, And I was like,

1:04:19.120 --> 1:04:21.400
<v Speaker 1>why the fuck are you texting my daughter? I was like,

1:04:21.440 --> 1:04:23.680
<v Speaker 1>why would you let me be in distressed? Why would

1:04:23.680 --> 1:04:25.160
<v Speaker 1>you let a mom be in distress? Why would you

1:04:25.160 --> 1:04:26.600
<v Speaker 1>play with me like this on the phone? And he

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<v Speaker 1>was like, I thought someone. I thought like someone was

1:04:29.840 --> 1:04:32.560
<v Speaker 1>prank calling me and he's like I was just fading

1:04:32.640 --> 1:04:35.800
<v Speaker 1>back into sleep, thinking like who did I hurt? Who

1:04:35.840 --> 1:04:38.520
<v Speaker 1>would like play on the phone about me.

1:04:38.640 --> 1:04:44.880
<v Speaker 2>Texting eight or bitch?

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<v Speaker 1>I told him, I said I was going to track

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<v Speaker 1>you down and fucking end your life, and then Sheena

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<v Speaker 1>was going to come end my life, and then it

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<v Speaker 1>was really going to be good. Mom's bad choices, but

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<v Speaker 1>like all bad my.

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<v Speaker 2>Little cousin, Oh my.

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<v Speaker 3>I was like, I literally trying to wrap my head

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<v Speaker 3>around our kids talking grown me.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm like, but what would they be talking about. I

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<v Speaker 2>was like, I, here's a double life.

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<v Speaker 1>And then she'd be like, that's what you get for

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<v Speaker 1>showing your daughter how to prank call people.

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<v Speaker 2>They'd love to prank call people. Now it's against you.

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<v Speaker 1>So anyway, I was trembling for one hour, even after

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<v Speaker 1>I found out the news that it wasn't true, Like

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<v Speaker 1>it took me like at least an hour to like,

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<v Speaker 1>come down, I've fucked up. I literally was like, I

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<v Speaker 1>don't need to be a mom. I don't need to

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<v Speaker 1>be a parent. I suck at parenting. I don't know

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<v Speaker 1>how to talk to my kid. I was about to

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<v Speaker 1>fucking pull her ass out of the bed. I was

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<v Speaker 1>going to like blame her for everything. Also, I can't

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<v Speaker 1>believe this, like went on under my nose. She's living

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<v Speaker 1>a double life. She's only eight, Like what else?

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<v Speaker 2>Don't I know?

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<v Speaker 1>It was crazy? So all that to say was the sneaking.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know if this card has anything.

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<v Speaker 3>To do with that, but it says on a positive note.

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<v Speaker 3>You know you cannot do everything at once, nor should you. Instead,

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<v Speaker 3>you must prioritize, but it's important to you and direct

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<v Speaker 3>your focus and attention on the few tasks that will

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<v Speaker 3>move you closer to your goals. It's the eighty twenty.

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<v Speaker 3>Twenty percent of your work will account for eighty percent

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<v Speaker 3>of your results, so focus on twenty percent. You may

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<v Speaker 3>be able to accept some responsibilities or duties but not

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<v Speaker 3>all of them, or you may say yes to some

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<v Speaker 3>projects at the expense of others. Basically, take it easy

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<v Speaker 3>and chill the fuck out. I'm trying, Okay, just ease

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<v Speaker 3>and pleasure. Ease and pleasure. Everything we want is already ours.

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<v Speaker 1>And our kids are not talking to strangement on the internet.

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<v Speaker 3>They don't Our eight year olds a nine year old

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<v Speaker 3>are not living double lives.

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<v Speaker 2>Do we have an affirmation?

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<v Speaker 1>Trust your kids.

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<v Speaker 3>That's all that breathing, and that's what the fuck you got.

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<v Speaker 3>We're gonna We're gonna have to Okay, fine, and want

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<v Speaker 3>to do that. The affirmation is we can add it later. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 3>I don't know. It's not coming to me. I'm not

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<v Speaker 3>going to force it. Okay, don't force it anyway, don't

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<v Speaker 3>forget to sign up for Patreon because you won't get

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<v Speaker 3>any of this in the next few weeks.

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<v Speaker 2>We're going off season. Come to our live show.

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<v Speaker 3>We will be in Philadelphia on March thirteenth, We'll be

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<v Speaker 3>in DC on March fourteenth. We'll be in New York. No, yeah,

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<v Speaker 3>we'll be on New York on the sixteenth, Atlanta on

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<v Speaker 3>the twenty first, and we have special guests.

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<v Speaker 1>And we have in Houston on April eighteenth, Yes we do.

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<v Speaker 3>And Erica will be wearing her hat and I might

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<v Speaker 3>be wearing my hat too. We love you, guys, and

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<v Speaker 3>we'll see you soon. Bye.

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<v Speaker 1>Eight