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Speaker 2: How are you, I'm great.
Speaker 1: Were you adjusting back from the jungle Costa Rica life?
Speaker 2: Slowly, but surely.
Speaker 3: Today's the day I've felt more.
Speaker 2: American.
Speaker 1: So, you guys, we just got back from our three
Speaker 1: week trip to Costa Rica. We led to retreats at
Speaker 1: the Good Vibe Retreat.
Speaker 3: Not just any two retreats. It's our ninth and tenth retreat.
Speaker 3: We just completed our ninth and tenth retreat. And if
Speaker 3: you know us, if you've been listening, you know it's
Speaker 3: a big fucking deal because we like accidentally started this
Speaker 3: business two years ago and to just come up on
Speaker 3: our tenth, ninth and tenth retreat is just honestly unreal
Speaker 3: and the most beautiful shit I've ever witnessed, the most
Speaker 3: beautiful work I've ever done. So I feel super grateful
Speaker 3: to come back. I'm also super eager to get the
Speaker 3: fuck out of the United States permanently and eat real
Speaker 3: food and.
Speaker 2: Live on the beach.
Speaker 3: But overall, I'm adjusting back and I hope to return
Speaker 3: to the jungle much sooner than later.
Speaker 1: Yeah, me too. It was hard for me to leave
Speaker 1: this time. I mean, besides that, my child wasn't there
Speaker 1: and I had to go back toget her. But I
Speaker 1: was over there plant seeds. Bitch for us Okay, I
Speaker 1: was out there trying to find a nanny for us.
Speaker 1: I'm over there trying to like really figure out what
Speaker 1: it is to live in Costa Rica full time.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I'm feeling like my new job is like like scouter,
Speaker 3: like where I'm going to live next? Because yeah, after
Speaker 3: I went to Costa Rica, I went to Panama as
Speaker 3: my or some being there. We went to Boca's and
Speaker 3: it was beautiful Boca to too. It's like a say,
Speaker 3: appalago of islands. And then we went to Panama City
Speaker 3: and I texted Erica immediately like, bitch, I think we
Speaker 3: need to live a Banama City. I'm really feeling like
Speaker 3: we need multiple like international locations to get all the
Speaker 3: things we need because I know we say this a lot,
Speaker 3: but we're jungle bitches, but we're also like city bitches.
Speaker 3: I'm like a city jungle girl. I'm like half city girls,
Speaker 3: half jungle bitch. And I feel like Panama City is
Speaker 3: really chic. It was super chic and super beautiful. It
Speaker 3: was giving like old town Cuba, but like upscale. They
Speaker 3: had like beautiful restaurants. Shout out to Aarin, our wonderful,
Speaker 3: beautiful tour guide who took us all around and produced
Speaker 3: us to all her friends, took us to all the
Speaker 3: best restaurants on all the best adventures. We were like,
Speaker 3: it was just me, Aaron and Orlando and a truple
Speaker 3: for a full week and I highly recommend it, and
Speaker 3: has a tour guy.
Speaker 1: I'm like, I don't think Aaron wants to be a guy.
Speaker 2: She's our tour guide. Okay, she's I'm putting her on.
Speaker 1: Trip creating her fucking skincare empire. So many empires over there.
Speaker 1: But it wasn't a real fucking adventure. We did some
Speaker 1: real adventuring and it was great.
Speaker 3: We I've never crossed a border by foot, so we
Speaker 3: crossed the border by foot.
Speaker 2: And it was very like old Jankie.
Speaker 3: We had to like take her luggage across a man
Speaker 3: took it across in a wheelbarrow for five dollars.
Speaker 1: Actually, yeah, that's what I had to do. Remember when
Speaker 1: I when I had to escape the country from Costa Rica,
Speaker 1: from Nicaragua to Costa Rica. That's what I had to
Speaker 1: do to walk across the border.
Speaker 2: Was it a bridge?
Speaker 1: Well, they're two different borders, so I.
Speaker 2: Know, okay, you didn't you didn't go.
Speaker 1: I was going from Nicaragua to Costa Rica, escaped the
Speaker 1: Nicaragwood war that was happening.
Speaker 3: I remember that had what episode was that that I
Speaker 3: told you to get a free trip with a guy
Speaker 3: and then it ended up.
Speaker 1: It was like then he dry humped me until he
Speaker 1: came his pan came in his pants. He dry humped me,
Speaker 1: and then I had to escape Nicaragua because there was
Speaker 1: an impending war that he knew about but still had
Speaker 1: me fly out that I didn't know about it, and
Speaker 1: you're only there for like a weekend, and like I
Speaker 1: was there for one and a half days, bitch. I
Speaker 1: was in Nicarago for maybe twenty two hours before I
Speaker 1: had to escape.
Speaker 3: That was like in the earliest parts of our friendship.
Speaker 3: It was like probably an earlier episode.
Speaker 2: And I was like, you should go. I fuck it.
Speaker 2: You've never been in Nicaraga.
Speaker 1: I'd never been flewed out before. And then we flew
Speaker 1: out within like twenty four hours.
Speaker 3: She texted me like I think I might die and
Speaker 3: I was like, oh no, I told her to go.
Speaker 2: She's like, there's a man with a machine gun.
Speaker 3: We're going through some back jungle, so there's a war
Speaker 3: breaking out. I was like, oh god, I gave her
Speaker 3: the wrong ghetto advice, telling her to be a hoe,
Speaker 3: and now she's gonna die in Nicaragua war.
Speaker 1: She has no business. Thank god I didn't have to
Speaker 1: be a hoe. Well, I guess I don't know.
Speaker 2: You got dry humps? That's pretty was that hollish?
Speaker 1: I feel like that's pretty safe.
Speaker 2: I feel like it's worse. No, it's not.
Speaker 3: Every time I think of you telling me all bodily
Speaker 3: fluids were exchange, I literally every time I think about it,
Speaker 3: I think about justin Timberlake in that movie he did
Speaker 3: called The Bad Teacher until.
Speaker 2: He comes in his jeans.
Speaker 1: That's kind of what it was like. I am not
Speaker 1: has anyone ever been dry humped before and the man
Speaker 1: come in their pants? Because that was like new. That
Speaker 1: was like a new discovery.
Speaker 2: That's over fifteen years old.
Speaker 3: I don't think so maybe like really religious Christians or something.
Speaker 4: You know.
Speaker 1: I felt like, you know, I dodged, you know, putting
Speaker 1: an Agama on my list. He doesn't count.
Speaker 2: You know what this is like?
Speaker 3: This is a good strategy if you are trying to
Speaker 3: like live your best whole life but not get any
Speaker 3: extra bodies, to just have them try humpy through their pants.
Speaker 3: Apparently they can still come and tell don't tell them.
Speaker 3: Let don't let them tell you otherwise.
Speaker 1: You know, that's how you know you got that good piss,
Speaker 1: You got a good life, You got that good you
Speaker 1: got that good thigh. Good, I got a good tight thigh.
Speaker 1: Nigga can fucking met in his pants. But dry hump.
Speaker 2: I can come off a dry hump easy. I know
Speaker 2: that you can.
Speaker 1: I know that truth thing humping pillows and stuffed animals, and.
Speaker 2: I don't know about suffed animals, not since I'm a child.
Speaker 1: But I can't come off off of a dry hump
Speaker 1: at all.
Speaker 2: Do you need to be penetrated?
Speaker 1: No, but I need I need to be like, there
Speaker 1: needs to be some sort of at least a suck
Speaker 1: of something, some sort of suction happening.
Speaker 2: Oh a suction. Well this isn't rub.
Speaker 3: We just went straight off the bath TMI. No one
Speaker 3: asked any of this information. Erica once got dry humped
Speaker 3: to ejaculation, and I love Costa.
Speaker 1: Actually that we didn't try hump in Nicaragua. The dry
Speaker 1: humping happened in Tamarindo.
Speaker 3: Well, I assume there was too much action happening. And
Speaker 3: when you're on your escape plan to get dry humped
Speaker 3: in Nicaragua.
Speaker 2: But he said, one way or other, bitch, you're paid
Speaker 2: for this trip. Yeah he did lay down.
Speaker 1: He made sure that happened. I had to do a
Speaker 1: lot of Oh god, that was actually traumatic. I'm true,
Speaker 1: what's wrong with women? I didn't even want to do it,
Speaker 1: but I felt bad. So I was like, oh God,
Speaker 1: I guess he has a nice mouth. You know I
Speaker 1: have about you know I have about mouths. He had
Speaker 1: a nice mouth. So I just focused on that and
Speaker 1: just was like, just make out, just make out, just
Speaker 1: make out. He's a bigger guy too, so I'm not
Speaker 1: really into big guys like that. No offense, but I
Speaker 1: really like my guys slimming long for the most part.
Speaker 3: You know what, I'm balls and ew who likes long balls?
Speaker 2: Oh you know.
Speaker 1: I'm just talking about my baby daddy and his long ball.
Speaker 2: You know one thing about me, I don't discriminate.
Speaker 3: I've dated all types of guys, big bones, just straight
Speaker 3: up chabby.
Speaker 1: I discriminate thick.
Speaker 3: Sometimes fat guys have big dicks. I mean, yeah, I
Speaker 3: don't really like hips.
Speaker 2: You know.
Speaker 1: I was like, you think fat means you don't have
Speaker 1: big anything?
Speaker 2: No, no, no, you.
Speaker 3: Know, you know, I'm just saying I have You don't
Speaker 3: have theories. You don't have dick theories, and so did
Speaker 3: Oh my god, what are your dick theories?
Speaker 1: Let's break down the dick theories theories by Jamila.
Speaker 3: There are a few, and actually I got some new
Speaker 3: ones on the retreat. Who yes, who the fuck was
Speaker 3: it giving me dick theories on the retreat? Like as
Speaker 3: soon as she sat down, she was like, yeah, you
Speaker 3: look at their extremities, ears, fingers and feet, ears, ears, noses,
Speaker 3: I think she said, ears, noses, and hands.
Speaker 2: All extremities matter.
Speaker 3: And if they have small little ears, it means they
Speaker 3: probably don't have large penises.
Speaker 2: You gotta look at the extremities.
Speaker 3: Wow, shout out to the retreat, because you know what,
Speaker 3: you get a lot of information there.
Speaker 1: That's not true, though. I'm thinking of someone specifically that
Speaker 1: has small ears in a big deck.
Speaker 2: So who's I think? I know what you're talking about.
Speaker 2: I don't know.
Speaker 3: I just feel like I saw a nigga that I
Speaker 3: know you've been with my Maybe those are little ears.
Speaker 2: Maybe she's just a little guy.
Speaker 4: Anyways, some little guys have like large penises, and then
Speaker 4: some little guys just have little penises, and then some
Speaker 4: big guys have little penises, and it just throws off
Speaker 4: the whole game.
Speaker 3: I'm just you know, I'm just letting you know. There's
Speaker 3: really no there's no rhyme or reason, there's no strategy.
Speaker 3: You just have to do the dick test where you're
Speaker 3: just like.
Speaker 1: Yeah, but I've done that and I've been wrong because
Speaker 1: the dick test also doesn't take into into consideration girth.
Speaker 2: Wait, somebody also the same girl told me that.
Speaker 1: Sometimes you'd be feeling you're like, ooh, bitch, I won,
Speaker 1: and then they pull it's a torpedo.
Speaker 3: She told me that, uh, you gotta be careful during
Speaker 3: the dick test because sometimes it's they have big balls.
Speaker 1: Oh that's true. Wait, I was there for that conversation.
Speaker 1: I remember who was it.
Speaker 2: You must have forgot about the ears in the hands.
Speaker 1: Because the balls like lift.
Speaker 2: Yeah, it can be all like stuff together.
Speaker 1: Yeah, they're just like hanging on there.
Speaker 3: What do you guys do with the retreat, Well, we
Speaker 3: deep dive into how to figure out who has a
Speaker 3: big penis show.
Speaker 1: Work and we do dick theories.
Speaker 2: We do dick theory. So first first workshop is Dick theories.
Speaker 2: Oh my god, I love retreating.
Speaker 3: It is literally the highlight of my life. I don't
Speaker 3: know how we got on Dick theories, but obviously they're
Speaker 3: all a gamble. All Dick theories are a fucking gamble.
Speaker 3: But yeah, we've had a We had a pretty like
Speaker 3: most always jam packed.
Speaker 2: Three weeks and I don't.
Speaker 3: Know, there's a lot of surprises. There's always like such
Speaker 3: characters at the retreat.
Speaker 2: Yeah.
Speaker 3: I did a walk over the border and take like
Speaker 3: two buses and a boat to some islands, saw some
Speaker 3: starfish and met a pirate. I met a pirate who
Speaker 3: was also a cancer dragon. You know, I hit it
Speaker 3: off with people who have specific specificities with I think
Speaker 3: it just made that word up, specific extremities and specificities.
Speaker 3: And we went on his boat and he was just
Speaker 3: like he was showing us a framed photo of his
Speaker 3: dog named Patron. He was obviously like a pirate. He
Speaker 3: was an alcoholic and he was like, look at Patron,
Speaker 3: and then he like poured Patron on top of it,
Speaker 3: and he like licked it and then he passed it.
Speaker 1: To the picture flame. He poured Patron on the picture flame.
Speaker 3: He poured the Patron on the picture of his dog
Speaker 3: that died named Patron, And this is like moments after
Speaker 3: we discovered we're both cancer dragons, and he was like yeah,
Speaker 3: and I.
Speaker 2: Was like, then he poured it on and I was like.
Speaker 1: You licked it. I would telling me people have lickd
Speaker 1: that picture. Bitch.
Speaker 2: The patron would like, wash off the germs.
Speaker 1: All I know is that Orlando had us on a
Speaker 1: group chat and he was like texting random quotes, and
Speaker 1: because I wasn't with you guys, I was like, what
Speaker 1: the fuck is he talking about? Like he said, I
Speaker 1: don't know what he wrote. I got to look, but
Speaker 1: he wrote some shit and I was like, they're fucked up.
Speaker 1: I mean I was like, they're drunk for sure. Right
Speaker 1: now we're doing things. We're definitely drunk, amongst other things, and.
Speaker 3: Stretchering through the streets of Bocca Latro, which are fucked
Speaker 3: up right now. And Aaron's like, my friend said, we
Speaker 3: have to be visionaries. In two years, the streets will
Speaker 3: be together. I'm like, this is really fucked up. But
Speaker 3: you know, I like a ghetto good time, like I'd
Speaker 3: like adventures. So then we got to do like some
Speaker 3: ATVing on the back jungles. We're like, usually ATVing they're
Speaker 3: like guided tours. No, these moffuckers just gave us the
Speaker 3: key and we went like on some private beach and
Speaker 3: we like, go over a bridge.
Speaker 2: I feel like I was in a video game. I'm like,
Speaker 2: are we supposed to go over this bridge? And we're
Speaker 2: like I think So we made it.
Speaker 3: And I was topless in the back like I you know,
Speaker 3: I'm a passenger princess.
Speaker 2: So it's just in the back of the ATV like
Speaker 2: howling and shit.
Speaker 3: With my titties out and we just butt naked, fucking
Speaker 3: skinny dipped on the ocean alone and ate really good food.
Speaker 3: I'm a fucking foodie, so that was great. But you know,
Speaker 3: it was nice to have like an after trip after
Speaker 3: the retreat because the retreats they were like wellness and nice,
Speaker 3: and then I got to like kind of crazy and
Speaker 3: you know, I like balance.
Speaker 1: Yeah, we're two different bitches, because there's no motherfucking way
Speaker 1: I could have went on an adventure after that. I
Speaker 1: was thinking about you. I was like, I love my friend.
Speaker 1: I love this for her because ain't no way. She
Speaker 1: was like, I was like, how was just like adventure
Speaker 1: after adventure I was like stressed me out thinking about it.
Speaker 3: It was a lot of adventures, like got on a bus,
Speaker 3: went to a window, paid a guy, got on another bus,
Speaker 3: got on a boat. It was just a bunch of Yeah,
Speaker 3: it was a lot, but I enjoyed every second, you know.
Speaker 3: We adventured through some back jungles, found some deserted beaches.
Speaker 2: The water is really beautiful.
Speaker 3: I liked explore new places, so that was really it
Speaker 3: went to the reggae club.
Speaker 2: It was fun.
Speaker 1: Is the ocean better there or is it like it's different?
Speaker 1: Is it like, is it more blue green or is it.
Speaker 2: It was definitely super blue and super clear.
Speaker 3: It was kind of like overcast the days we were there,
Speaker 3: but the days that it wasn't, it was super clear
Speaker 3: and blue. And there's just so many beaches and like
Speaker 3: even the jungles look a little bit different. So it's
Speaker 3: interesting to see like a neighboring country that looks like
Speaker 3: it's very close but still slightly different. Nice and Panama City,
Speaker 3: which we're moving to, because I'm already putting dims on that. Also,
Speaker 3: it's like I also discovered it's I'm not I don't
Speaker 3: want to tell everybody the business so don't tell. It's
Speaker 3: one of the cheaper places to get a permanent residency.
Speaker 1: Is it permanent or residential citizenship? That's what you text me,
Speaker 1: residential citizen. Okay, well maybe that's what it is. Like
Speaker 1: you have lived there as long as you own a
Speaker 1: house there. You I don't know what the stipulations.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I don't know what the stipulations are, but I
Speaker 3: know if you pay like you can get it like
Speaker 3: you can. You can pay the fee, which is I
Speaker 3: think is like three thousand dollars thirty five hundred dollars,
Speaker 3: and then you can later apply for citizenship and get
Speaker 3: your passport.
Speaker 1: Nice.
Speaker 3: The point is, in twenty twenty five, Erica and I
Speaker 3: have already decided out at this bitch, right yeah, because
Speaker 3: we're in twenty twenty four right now, Okay, so we
Speaker 3: only have about ten more months to figure out the plant.
Speaker 2: I guess we can move at any point in twenty
Speaker 2: twenty five.
Speaker 3: And I was thinking summertime because Trump is coming back
Speaker 3: into office.
Speaker 2: I didn't I'm not really, I'm so scared of Trump.
Speaker 1: I just don't like it's nothing. I mean, it's all bad.
Speaker 1: It's what do you think Joe Biden's doing over here.
Speaker 2: Nothing. He's dying in office actively. So I don't know.
Speaker 2: I just I feel like something's happening.
Speaker 3: I've been feeling very zombie apocalyptic, and I'm just ready
Speaker 3: to go. I'm going to live spend the last days
Speaker 3: of living in the earth. I'd rather live in the
Speaker 3: jungle happily, not stressed about bullshit government of the United States.
Speaker 1: That's true. I mean, it's so it's when I was
Speaker 1: out there.
Speaker 3: Are they gonna blacklist their podcasts because I talked so
Speaker 3: we shit about the government.
Speaker 1: I was always out there. I was just talking to
Speaker 1: a lot of the locals and some of the expots,
Speaker 1: but mostly the locals. And they're just so like they
Speaker 1: pride themselves on simplicity, Like simplicity is like the key,
Speaker 1: and they're they're totally fine with that and good with that.
Speaker 1: Like as long as they got their fruits, their veggies,
Speaker 1: they got a house over a roof over their head.
Speaker 1: Like the jungle is the esthetic. The jungle is the
Speaker 1: luxury experience, and it is like being able to just
Speaker 1: pull over to the side of the road and just
Speaker 1: hop in the ocean coconut. Because I feel like in
Speaker 1: even in La like trying to get to the beach
Speaker 1: is a whole fucking thing. Sometimes you gotta pay to
Speaker 1: like park and you gotta walk so far into the
Speaker 1: fucking sand to get to the beach. Like there, it's
Speaker 1: like boom, get in the water, russ yourself.
Speaker 3: We've definitely over complicated life. It's very United States, just
Speaker 3: over complicated everything. And yeah, I'm when I'm there, my
Speaker 3: like nervous system feels regulated, and I just know it
Speaker 3: to be true. Just when we bring women and like
Speaker 3: by day two they're like whoa, and I'm like, bitch.
Speaker 2: I know.
Speaker 3: It's like something about the jungle that just sits that
Speaker 3: ass the fuck down.
Speaker 2: It resets you. It like lets you just like relax.
Speaker 1: There's so much there's so much femininity around, so I
Speaker 1: think it really I think it's for both men and women.
Speaker 1: But I just see women really be able to kind
Speaker 1: of surrender there really just like lay down their guards,
Speaker 1: their masks and rest. Like you said, whether you live
Speaker 1: there or you're retreating, like everyone is in deep rest mode.
Speaker 1: I mean, I've never been to a place where people
Speaker 1: are like I've started my moon. I will not I
Speaker 1: cannot work today moon, meaning my period started my moon. Unfortunately,
Speaker 1: I'm not working, and I'm like, yeah, bitch.
Speaker 3: I'm actually just I thought I was going to go,
Speaker 3: but I'm not really feeling a spirit didn't move, spirits
Speaker 3: telling me to stay home. Someone's going to honor that.
Speaker 3: It's like, you're really on some honoring yourself shit in
Speaker 3: the jungle. There's no like pushing past the comfort. There's
Speaker 3: none of that. There's no people pleasing, bitch. When you
Speaker 3: get to the jungle, you please in yourself. Something about
Speaker 3: the jungle that makes you do it. And I'm trying
Speaker 3: to get in on it.
Speaker 1: Well, while you were having adventures, I was fucking facing
Speaker 1: like the deep darkness of my soul. I After the
Speaker 1: retreat ended, I chilled for a few days, and then
Speaker 1: I got into some spiritual work with Sylvia. Shout out
Speaker 1: to Ancestral, Sylvia, Ancestral.
Speaker 2: She's just smoke a backwood. Sorry to interrupt you.
Speaker 1: Yes, I'm right, this is the perfect time to light
Speaker 1: a backwood. And she's been a guest on our show
Speaker 1: and she does. She's an astrologer, amongst other things. And
Speaker 1: so after the retreat ended, I had already started like
Speaker 1: wombwork with her at the beginning of this year, and
Speaker 1: so when I was out there, I was like, I
Speaker 1: want to work with you one on one in person.
Speaker 1: And so the last three days of the trip, I
Speaker 1: was locked in my hotel room, like basically in a
Speaker 1: meditative trains for three days, accessing different realms and talking
Speaker 1: to my fucking grandmother. And that shit was crazy. Like
Speaker 1: I never obviously I'm a believer of like other entities
Speaker 1: being able to I guess quantum travel in ways, but
Speaker 1: I've never I know that it's possible. I just I
Speaker 1: guess I never envisioned myself being able to do it,
Speaker 1: and like thinking that I would need plant medicine in
Speaker 1: order to kind of be able to have these type
Speaker 1: of experiences. But yeah, I had some pretty profound experiences
Speaker 1: with Sylvia, and I'll probably talk about it more an
Speaker 1: extent on Patreon, just because it's actually very deeply personal
Speaker 1: and it has to do with my dad and has
Speaker 1: to do it with my grandmother and just like some
Speaker 1: fucking witchy ass shit that happened in that hotel in
Speaker 1: that hotel room while I was talking to my dad
Speaker 1: about my grandmother, like shit was like her spirit was
Speaker 1: moving in the room.
Speaker 3: Bitch, Like I know, I think there's definitely gonna have
Speaker 3: to be a Patreon exclusive like recap of the retreat,
Speaker 3: because there are a lot of things that happen that
Speaker 3: are probably exclusively for Patreons. Yeah, you pass me your water,
Speaker 3: Maybe not that one. Are you gonna soak the blunt
Speaker 3: in my drinking? I gave you a bottle to just
Speaker 3: take a couple of SIPs. You want to smoke or
Speaker 3: you want to.
Speaker 1: Be quenched, I'm not smoking.
Speaker 2: You are?
Speaker 1: Is this as you?
Speaker 2: Guys?
Speaker 3: We're dropping some asm that is annoying. Orlando's getting so mad.
Speaker 3: It's fucking asmr Orlando. Headphones are on. It's annoying me.
Speaker 3: And the headphones are not even on. You're gonna make
Speaker 3: people fall off like I did like them. But then
Speaker 3: Erica started sifting aggressively.
Speaker 2: Into the microphone. But no, we did it.
Speaker 3: Yeah, even when you told me your ancestral your ancestral experiences,
Speaker 3: I was super intrigued and also like being able to
Speaker 3: like step into different realms like like you said, I
Speaker 3: knew it was possible, but like hearing your experience, really,
Speaker 3: you know what made me think of It's just like
Speaker 3: who else in anyone's family is having the opportunity to
Speaker 3: like not rewrite wrongs but kind of like rewrite contracts,
Speaker 3: and even like when I did that, so oh you
Speaker 3: didn't do your actually missed your fucking appointment. The family constellation.
Speaker 3: I just thought of it in some ways it's similar
Speaker 3: but not as deep as the work you did. And
Speaker 3: then I was like, damn, next time, do I need
Speaker 3: to skip out? I'm going on adventures and go deep
Speaker 3: into my womb because if I don't do it, who's
Speaker 3: going to do it? Like no one in my family's
Speaker 3: thinking about doing ancestral work with their womb and like
Speaker 3: like healing actual things that happen in their ancestry. But
Speaker 3: like that's kind of I feel like the reason our
Speaker 3: paths have let us here, and like while we've gotten
Speaker 3: like these gifts and like gotten just this version of
Speaker 3: our life so that we can like have opportunities like
Speaker 3: meeting Sylvia and just knowing it's possible to go do
Speaker 3: work like that to maybe change the trajectory of karmic
Speaker 3: things for our kids and for our ancestors.
Speaker 2: Is that what you feel like you were doing over there?
Speaker 1: Yeah? I mean, but I didn't know that that's what
Speaker 1: we were gonna do. Like I kind of like everyone
Speaker 1: kept asking me, like, what is the work you're gonna do?
Speaker 1: And I was like, I don't know, I'm.
Speaker 2: Not sure we're figuring it out.
Speaker 1: I was like I was just letting her go, like
Speaker 1: I was just I just said, I just said I
Speaker 1: wanted to do some work with you. I wanted I
Speaker 1: want to spend more time with you and dive deeper
Speaker 1: into this this womb work that we've been doing, and
Speaker 1: and she said okay, and then it just kind of
Speaker 1: unfolded intuitively, and yeah, I just I was not expecting
Speaker 1: my grandmother to show up. I was not expecting her.
Speaker 1: I wasn't expecting her energy to be what it was.
Speaker 1: I wasn't expecting to get messages from her that only
Speaker 1: her and my father would know, and being able to
Speaker 1: share that with him and him being like that's true.
Speaker 1: So that's how I know this shit is real, Like
Speaker 1: for those listening and then, like you know, you hear
Speaker 1: these type of stories and it sounds like all woo
Speaker 1: woo and shit, but like there's real there's real shit
Speaker 1: happening in these realms, in these spaces. And I think
Speaker 1: there's a level of preparation that you have to have
Speaker 1: in order to be able to travel to these realms,
Speaker 1: Like I think that I've done a lot of work
Speaker 1: and so my field is open to be able to
Speaker 1: do something like that. Like I had someone ask me
Speaker 1: for Sylvia's number and was like, I want to do that,
Speaker 1: And I was like, and now I get it, Like
Speaker 1: I get why some of my friends and even like
Speaker 1: one of my really good friends who's way down deep
Speaker 1: into this, you know, spiritual path, like she's very protective
Speaker 1: about who she shares her people with because it's not
Speaker 1: for everyone. It can it is for everyone, but those
Speaker 1: people that are ready to really do the work to
Speaker 1: prepare for an experience like this, you know. And so yeah,
Speaker 1: someone asked me in Costa Rica. It's a guy and
Speaker 1: he was like, give me Sylvia's number, and I was like,
Speaker 1: I don't know if you're ready for this. I think
Speaker 1: you need to like some do some stuff first. And
Speaker 1: I'm you know, and I'll probably I'm going to talk
Speaker 1: to her about it. But there's a level of protection
Speaker 1: that I have for for the people that I work with,
Speaker 1: and you obviously I'm sharing Sylvia right here right now
Speaker 1: for all of you, but she has her own disortment
Speaker 1: as well. She had no problems saying no, thank you.
Speaker 3: I feel like it's so interesting too, Like as we've
Speaker 3: unfolded this good mom saga and like come to you know,
Speaker 3: different different realizations and self awarenesses of healing, and even
Speaker 3: like the women who have come with us, like our community,
Speaker 3: the tribe, like the women who show up at the retreat.
Speaker 3: It's like there is an agreement that you make with yourself,
Speaker 3: and when you make that agreement with yourself, the universe corresponds, right,
Speaker 3: So like I think everyone lives like like Erica and
Speaker 3: I met, we had an agreement that we didn't really
Speaker 3: weren't fully aware of, but that we were like going
Speaker 3: to just like tap into this authentic space and like
Speaker 3: speak honestly and then in that, in that, in that uncovering,
Speaker 3: you know, these journeys and like this this work has
Speaker 3: come to us, and I've seen even the women who
Speaker 3: come on retreat like Blossom and like unravel in these ways.
Speaker 3: Is because I think a lot of times, when you
Speaker 3: sign up to go into the jungle with two women
Speaker 3: you don't know and invest in yourself, there's a level
Speaker 3: of openness that you were coming with, and so people
Speaker 3: are ready to change, people are ready to do things differently.
Speaker 2: Sometimes people don't know.
Speaker 3: Exactly, like exactly what is off or wrong, but they
Speaker 3: know they're missing some thing. And I just feel like
Speaker 3: even for us, the day of our last retreat, we
Speaker 3: met like this tantric man at yoga and he was like,
Speaker 3: we're doing a meditation.
Speaker 2: He's like, are you guys doing tantra?
Speaker 3: And we're like yeah, but like, what would be the
Speaker 3: chances of meeting a black man in yoga in Costa
Speaker 3: Rica who like is tapped into tantra?
Speaker 2: You know?
Speaker 3: And you know it just we spent like a bunch
Speaker 3: of time with them and like exchanging Tantric medicines and lineages,
Speaker 3: and it was super powerful.
Speaker 2: And I was just like telling.
Speaker 3: Erica, like what the fuck would be the chances of us,
Speaker 3: two of us who were like into tantra studying this
Speaker 3: lineage meeting someone else black who's studying the same thing.
Speaker 3: And it's just like abundantly clear that once you start
Speaker 3: like making agreements with yourself and opening yourself up to
Speaker 3: certain work into like healing, it comes in all forms
Speaker 3: and you have to trust it, you know, And it's
Speaker 3: like in any other chance, We're like we made a
Speaker 3: random man at yogurt. You're like whatever man, but it's
Speaker 3: like whatever, man, get out of here. But we were
Speaker 3: welcoming to it because I think we both recognize that
Speaker 3: it was kind of a gift from the divine and
Speaker 3: so it was just like we had this opportunity to
Speaker 3: explore in our tantra with like this divine masculine and
Speaker 3: just like you had this opportunity to explore in this
Speaker 3: work with Sylvia.
Speaker 2: Is because you've.
Speaker 3: Done all this work up to this point and you've
Speaker 3: made agreements with yourself and the universe, and it's like, oh,
Speaker 3: she's ready to go into these realms. And so there
Speaker 3: is like an unlocking that happens as soon as you
Speaker 3: like just make the agreement and you continue to do
Speaker 3: the work. And sometimes we don't see the work because
Speaker 3: it's just like inklings. It's little, it's little, it's little,
Speaker 3: and then all of a sudden you look up and
Speaker 3: you're like, oh, I've done a lot, and I've come
Speaker 3: really far, and now I'm accessing my fucking lineage directly
Speaker 3: Grandma to me, you know, and like that is powerful work.
Speaker 3: But like it's really all in the outward seeking of
Speaker 3: what you want and asking for it out loud.
Speaker 2: You know.
Speaker 3: I was in the hair salon yesterday and talking about
Speaker 3: my trip to my hairdresser, and there was a girl
Speaker 3: in the you know, getting her nails done, and she
Speaker 3: was just like, I'm so interested in what you're talking about.
Speaker 3: And like, I literally just asked God this morning. I
Speaker 3: prayed and asked for my tribe, and I asked for
Speaker 3: you know, to meet people who are on the same thing.
Speaker 3: And then I met you here and I was like, girl,
Speaker 3: because that's the power of fucking asking. When you ask God,
Speaker 3: even if you don't know exactly what you're asking for,
Speaker 3: you'll start to unlike He'll start or she'll start to
Speaker 3: reveal the things that you need. And it's like up
Speaker 3: to you if you're going to be aware enough to
Speaker 3: be like, oh, this is this is the path and
Speaker 3: not to be afraid of it and to just like
Speaker 3: keep walking in that direction and you know doing will work.
Speaker 2: And you know, inviting the man from.
Speaker 3: Yoga and like in participating in certain type of just
Speaker 3: different things. And like even in Tantra, the lineage that
Speaker 3: we study, it's like a combination of different lineages.
Speaker 2: You know.
Speaker 3: That's one thing about tontras, Like no one's dissing each
Speaker 3: other's thing. It's more like a collective like I'm gonna
Speaker 3: take that, I'm gonna take this, and then it like
Speaker 3: comes into this this lineage that is what we learn now.
Speaker 3: But when we met him in the jungle, and even
Speaker 3: when we met Sylvia in the jungle with like her
Speaker 3: she has so many offerings. But you know, starting with
Speaker 3: the natal chart reading, it's just like you get to
Speaker 3: mix medicines when you are open to meeting other medicine
Speaker 3: people in the jungle or wherever you meet them, and
Speaker 3: like that's what the connection in the community is all about,
Speaker 3: is because we get to gain so much information and
Speaker 3: take it back to our kids and take it back
Speaker 3: to each other and like grow in our spiritual pharmacy. M.
Speaker 1: That's true. It's true. And I've just realized, I've just
Speaker 1: I've realized how you know, they always say, oh, when
Speaker 1: you choose yourself, like things start to show up. And
Speaker 1: I was reflecting on where I was at last year
Speaker 1: year and like the regression is that the word that
Speaker 1: I had made in my process in my healing, and
Speaker 1: like actively choosing to go against myself in so many ways.
Speaker 1: But it was necessary, even that lesson was really necessary.
Speaker 1: But I was thinking and I was told you this,
Speaker 1: Like during the retreat, I was like if I had
Speaker 1: continued to not, if I had continued down that path,
Speaker 1: like none of these things would have been available to me.
Speaker 1: Like I was really I was really considering going against
Speaker 1: myself just for it is I can't even say. It
Speaker 1: wasn't even safety. It was just like a feeling companionship,
Speaker 1: was a feeling of like wanting to be loved and
Speaker 1: just being tired of looking and searching. It was like
Speaker 1: I'm done. I don't want to do this anymore. And
Speaker 1: that was really it. It was like I don't want
Speaker 1: to tell someone my life story again. I don't feel
Speaker 1: like doing all of that. And it's interesting now because
Speaker 1: even in dating now and the people that I've attracted,
Speaker 1: I haven't had to do a lot of that either.
Speaker 1: I haven't even had to do a lot of that
Speaker 1: explaining who I am. It's just like it unveils itself
Speaker 1: in such a different way that doesn't feel cumbersome, it
Speaker 1: doesn't feel daunting, it doesn't feel annoying. It feels exciting.
Speaker 1: And ever since I've departed from that situation and just
Speaker 1: letting go of a lot of things fear and that
Speaker 1: was something that came up a lot in the work
Speaker 1: with Sylvia was that there is still a lot of fear.
Speaker 1: There's still a lot of fear attached to me, but
Speaker 1: a lot of it is not even my own. And
Speaker 1: having that understanding, and I never even thought about that,
Speaker 1: I thought, like I've always I've always felt like all
Speaker 1: the things that I feel, whether it's anxiousness, fear, judgment, insecurity,
Speaker 1: like those are all the makings of just me. This
Speaker 1: is who I am. But we don't ever really consider
Speaker 1: that some of the things or the habits that we
Speaker 1: even have are not our own, and there's work that
Speaker 1: has to be done to get those those things off
Speaker 1: of you. And so even since that experience with Sylvia,
Speaker 1: I feel less fearful about just even like choices, and
Speaker 1: I feel just more at peace and at ease, and
Speaker 1: I feel even like I've starting to witness the healing
Speaker 1: in my family. And I was thinking, you know, I
Speaker 1: talked about this earlier in the year, about like this
Speaker 1: me realizing that me and my dad still had work
Speaker 1: to do and feeling like I forgive him so like
Speaker 1: we're good, and then realizing, oh no, there's still more
Speaker 1: work to do, and this work that I did with Sylvia.
Speaker 1: I feel like was even more impactful than me telling
Speaker 1: my dad, Hey, I really want us to go on
Speaker 1: a trip and spend more time together and get to
Speaker 1: know each other more, like going be able to go
Speaker 1: back to like one of the roots that are connected
Speaker 1: to him as a as a young boy. His relationship
Speaker 1: with his mother has already become so much more healing.
Speaker 1: In our relationship, we're already talking more than we did before,
Speaker 1: and it's just based on I feel like, being able
Speaker 1: to tap into something outside of just what our physical
Speaker 1: bodies are doing, which is like communicating with one another.
Speaker 1: It's like other realmly for lack of a better word,
Speaker 1: that has kind of renegotiated my contract with him and
Speaker 1: like how he communicates with me, and like so even
Speaker 1: since then, like two days ago, I told him that, like,
Speaker 1: I really wanted to connect with my roots in Texas.
Speaker 1: And if you're watching this on.
Speaker 2: YouTube and see that you got a cowboy.
Speaker 1: Hat on and actually my dad bought me this hat
Speaker 1: on our trip. Yeah, So me and my dad went
Speaker 1: on this father daughter trip. We went to Solvang and
Speaker 1: I went into this hat store and I was like,
Speaker 1: I want this hat. He's like I'll get it for you.
Speaker 1: And so I'm wearing this in honor of him, but
Speaker 1: also like just like an honor of Beyonce, not an
Speaker 1: honor my daddy and beiance. They both from Texas. Shout
Speaker 1: out to Texas, Sealy, Texas.
Speaker 2: But uh, I feel.
Speaker 1: More connected to him now, and I feel like he
Speaker 1: feels more connected to me. And I was telling him
Speaker 1: that I really wanted to establish a better relationship with
Speaker 1: my family because I feel and that was something that
Speaker 1: came up again, like feeling like I have no roots,
Speaker 1: Like my mom's side of the family were kind of disjointed.
Speaker 1: We have this like little bubble of like our immediate
Speaker 1: family that we're close to, and then everyone else is
Speaker 1: very dispersed. There's like resentment, there's just it's just like
Speaker 1: we don't fuck with y'all. And then they're on my
Speaker 1: dad's side of the family, there's just a disconnect because
Speaker 1: me and my dad's relationship has not been like I'm
Speaker 1: always just kind of trying to focus on him, him
Speaker 1: and me, him and me and not realizing like sometimes
Speaker 1: you gotta like go around the person that you're trying
Speaker 1: to heal with and heal those other relationships so that
Speaker 1: you guys can come back together. And that's what I've
Speaker 1: realized is like me doing that work with Sylvia and
Speaker 1: then also now like developing relationships with my cousins in
Speaker 1: Texas that I haven't spoken to since I was a
Speaker 1: little girl, is making my dad and our relationship even
Speaker 1: more richer and like making us like, oh, like oh
Speaker 1: you talk to Aunt Patsy what she say, like, oh my,
Speaker 1: and then him sharing more stories with me because I
Speaker 1: don't know what to ask certain things. I don't even
Speaker 1: know what to ask, you know, so.
Speaker 3: Well where you get to kind of go to the
Speaker 3: root of the wounds that like unfortunately and like our
Speaker 3: parents don't talk about because we kind of come from
Speaker 3: cultures that are like we aren't talking about that, you know,
Speaker 3: and like unless you have the information, how would you know,
Speaker 3: And a lot of us don't have the information.
Speaker 2: And even when you're telling me, talking to me.
Speaker 3: About your experience, I was just like, damn, Like that
Speaker 3: is powerful because I was thinking about like even my
Speaker 3: relationship with my parents and like we are cool, you know,
Speaker 3: we're good, and we're pretty close, and like I could
Speaker 3: call them, but like I don't need to call my
Speaker 3: parents every day. Like I probably didn't talk to my
Speaker 3: parents on the phone the entire time I was gone,
Speaker 3: and I didn't feel a way about it, and like
Speaker 3: if I did there with some pictures of Luna, but
Speaker 3: like I just realized that like there are there's such
Speaker 3: even for your you know, for you too, like for
Speaker 3: your dad, there's such walls up because they have childhood trauma,
Speaker 3: and if you don't know what to ask, you're just
Speaker 3: feeling awkward, like I'm trying to get to know you more,
Speaker 3: you know, and it feels it feels huge, and especially
Speaker 3: as black people, especially with our history being so dark
Speaker 3: and rich, it's like it's a sensitive thing and and
Speaker 3: you know, just like I've I've found out glimpse of
Speaker 3: things about my family history and like you know about
Speaker 3: like adoption and abortions and just like other other families
Speaker 3: and things that I had no idea. But then we
Speaker 3: don't stop to think about how has that affected our
Speaker 3: parents and then how does that in turn affect us?
Speaker 3: And I told you like even when I went to
Speaker 3: Mexico with Ariel and Sane and had that like super
Speaker 3: super like crazy experience where I experienced feeling all that
Speaker 3: pain from my female ancestors, and I would have like
Speaker 3: I just knew it was that. I just realized, there's
Speaker 3: so much, like you said, that we've inherited, so much fear,
Speaker 3: We've inherited, like you know, even like things that come
Speaker 3: up in my relationship jealousy, like distrust, and it's real,
Speaker 3: and we sometimes we just chop it up like you said,
Speaker 3: is like, oh, that's just who I am, or that's
Speaker 3: just what it is, or this is just my relationship
Speaker 3: with my parents, or this is just who he is
Speaker 3: without really being able to have the tools to delve
Speaker 3: into where did you come from? And what am I
Speaker 3: holding in my womb that I want to clear so
Speaker 3: that I'm not giving it to Luna into you know,
Speaker 3: her kids. So I'm like super proud of you for
Speaker 3: doing the work, and now I want to go work
Speaker 3: with it.
Speaker 2: Sylvia Ancestral.
Speaker 3: And it made me also think about when we first
Speaker 3: sat down with her, ever before we had the retreat,
Speaker 3: when we were just like there visiting, I had a
Speaker 3: reading with her and the very first thing she said
Speaker 3: to me and I honestly I think this scared the
Speaker 3: shit out of me and I recognize it now, And
Speaker 3: she literally looked at me and said, no one's laughing.
Speaker 3: Your ancestors aren't laughing. And I was just like, bitch,
Speaker 3: what the.
Speaker 2: Fuck does that mean?
Speaker 3: Like I wasn't expecting to open with that, you know,
Speaker 3: and like basically like our you know, our our journey
Speaker 3: is necessary and it's not just to us, and it
Speaker 3: is like to be taken seriously. But you don't know
Speaker 3: you have access to these type of tools and people
Speaker 3: unless you actually do the work to like kind of
Speaker 3: just follow in the guide.
Speaker 1: Well, and I think also, like I think about this
Speaker 1: like term you hear about. You hear a lot where
Speaker 1: they say, like healing isn't linear, And I understand that
Speaker 1: profoundly now because I was really trying to be linear
Speaker 1: about the healing of me and my dad's relationship, like
Speaker 1: going straight to him to try and heal this, not
Speaker 1: realizing that there were other options. And like, if you're
Speaker 1: listening right now, you're trying to heal a relationship with
Speaker 1: a parent or whoever, Like I encourage you to think
Speaker 1: outside of the box and like consider going around them.
Speaker 1: And you know, sometimes it's about healing other parts of
Speaker 1: your lineage, not just that one in particular, and inevitably
Speaker 1: it will those that healing energy will echo into other
Speaker 1: parts of your relationships, including the one you're actually trying
Speaker 1: to heal. And so that's what I realized in this
Speaker 1: experience is that like I was really actively like wanting
Speaker 1: to sit down in front of my dad and say,
Speaker 1: like we have shit to do. We have like I
Speaker 1: want to I want us to be closer, like let's
Speaker 1: do this, let's go on dad and daughter dates. And
Speaker 1: it's like, okay, it just didn't feel like it.
Speaker 3: Still can be surface. You can't really dig up in
Speaker 3: the shit.
Speaker 1: Right, so like going around it and like under it
Speaker 1: and above it, like I'm starting to feel like, Okay,
Speaker 1: this is actually what's going to help really heal this wound.
Speaker 3: And this is really what like TNTRA is. You know,
Speaker 3: it's about the energetic healing, it's about the spear healing.
Speaker 2: It's about the healing that we do on.
Speaker 3: A soul level, like we are souls inhabiting vessels. And
Speaker 3: I know I say this a lot, but it's so true,
Speaker 3: and we like underestimate what that means to be this
Speaker 3: vast and like when you decide to like energetically heal,
Speaker 3: it's contagious and even like Erica, you know sharing this experience.
Speaker 3: Now if someone's at home thinking like damn, like what
Speaker 3: does that look like for me? Even when you shared
Speaker 3: it with me, and obviously I have access to Sylvia,
Speaker 3: but like, just it made its contagious for me. And
Speaker 3: that's the beautiful thing about energetic and spiritual work is
Speaker 3: like it doesn't have to be directly transmitted for it
Speaker 3: to be transmitted. And it's crazy because you said something
Speaker 3: to me, and I started thinking about my childhood and
Speaker 3: then Orlando woke up and was like, I had a
Speaker 3: dream about you know, me as a kid. And the
Speaker 3: thing is a lot of us don't realize. And I
Speaker 3: think you said this in the in the episode and
Speaker 3: take a hike, bitch. Is that a lot of like
Speaker 3: a lot of trauma results in loss of memory of
Speaker 3: your childhood and you think it's because you just got
Speaker 3: old and you have a lot of memories. And that's
Speaker 3: something too. But I realized recently that a lot of
Speaker 3: the things that I blacked out was intentional. But I
Speaker 3: don't I can't really like I haven't really gone deep
Speaker 3: to figure out why. But there's certain like I have moments,
Speaker 3: but there's a lot of things I've forgotten and I
Speaker 3: just realized, like you, doing the work is contagious to
Speaker 3: me now because now I know I have as if
Speaker 3: I if I just scratched the surface, I have a
Speaker 3: level of access to healing that maybe I didn't you know, realize,
Speaker 3: And the same for every all of our friends and
Speaker 3: everyone around us, and just like too, you know, one
Speaker 3: of our really good friend's child to actually just came
Speaker 3: to the retreat and now I'm sure that shifted her.
Speaker 3: And like That's the beautiful thing about doing this work
Speaker 3: on yourself is that inevitably the energetic healing spreads.
Speaker 2: You know.
Speaker 3: Even we mentioned this before, like we were we sat
Speaker 3: down with the girls and they're like, we want to
Speaker 3: do like a ceremony, and we were just like kind
Speaker 3: of let them lead, and they did a bunch of
Speaker 3: things that we've done in ceremony, and I was like,
Speaker 3: they've never been to these ceremonies, but they've been on
Speaker 3: property and they've been with us in this last.
Speaker 2: Six years of our process.
Speaker 3: And it's beautiful to know that just healing myself has
Speaker 3: transmitted to our girls and that they are seeking and
Speaker 3: recognizing that there is there are ways to access all
Speaker 3: around and not just physically and I think we underestimate
Speaker 3: that work. You know, you're working out, you're doing exercises,
Speaker 3: you're getting a trainer, you're eating right, but like there
Speaker 3: is some deep ass work that needs to happen for
Speaker 3: us to experience like the ultimate joy and pleasure in
Speaker 3: this lifetime, and it requires like it's not always easy
Speaker 3: and like even the you know, yesterday, I was like
Speaker 3: in my head a lot, and I felt it.
Speaker 2: My body was tense.
Speaker 3: I was holding my breath and Orlando like described me
Speaker 3: and he was like looked at me, and he put
Speaker 3: his hand on my chest and he was just like
Speaker 3: you're safe, You're home, and I was just like he's
Speaker 3: like breathe. He made me breathe with him, and I
Speaker 3: just was like in my head, like how did he
Speaker 3: know I was in my head? Like I don't even
Speaker 3: know if I realized I had been so heavily like
Speaker 3: in my head, but I felt it in my body
Speaker 3: as soon as he triggered me to do it, and
Speaker 3: he laid me on his chest and like like patted me,
Speaker 3: and it was something that triggered me the past literally
Speaker 3: like shot me back into like my childhood self and
Speaker 3: it made me cry and I wasn't feeling emotional at
Speaker 3: the time.
Speaker 2: It just like happened so quickly.
Speaker 3: It was like my body was defaulting on me like
Speaker 3: ooh ooh, like and I was just like a baby.
Speaker 3: And then I and I just felt it felt nourishing
Speaker 3: in a way that I needed him to recognize that
Speaker 3: and I'm grateful for it. But then he lifted up
Speaker 3: my shirt to touch his, and there was a feeling
Speaker 3: inside of me that was like it made me feel
Speaker 3: like I could feel that I was just a soul
Speaker 3: and that my soul was pressing against the front of
Speaker 3: my body to be closer to his. You know, I
Speaker 3: felt like as soon as he lifted my shirt, I
Speaker 3: was like I felt my spirit, my infinite self, like
Speaker 3: press up against the front of my body to be
Speaker 3: closer to his. And I had this thought like I've
Speaker 3: probably known him in so many ethers, but this is
Speaker 3: this unique opportunity that we get to touch physically, and
Speaker 3: that I could feel like the ease in that like
Speaker 3: anything I'm in my head about is really not important,
Speaker 3: and that I was safe and I was home, and
Speaker 3: like it's like it just it caused like those all
Speaker 3: those quick you know thoughts that quickly like it was
Speaker 3: so it was like a reality check, you know, and
Speaker 3: it was just it's interesting how we are. So and
Speaker 3: even on the retreat, a lot of the girls I
Speaker 3: talked to were like telling me at points they got
Speaker 3: in their heads assuming that people were like, oh, like.
Speaker 2: Talking about them, or like.
Speaker 3: They were already grouped up, so I'm gonna go back
Speaker 3: to my room, and I was like, I'm we are
Speaker 3: rarely in environments where we can say, were you talking
Speaker 3: about me? And we're like, no, girl, we were just
Speaker 3: like chatting like oh, like can I sit here? Like yeah,
Speaker 3: I have a seat, Like yeah, let's come join in
Speaker 3: the conversation. But we're not in environments where our nervous
Speaker 3: systems are regulated. Then you feel safe enough to say
Speaker 3: that to strangers. But the truth is we're all making
Speaker 3: up narratives in our head that are not real. And
Speaker 3: when we can get out of our heads and out
Speaker 3: of this physical realm, like then we can like ease
Speaker 3: into the fearlessness because like the truth is like there's
Speaker 3: nothing to fear because we never die. And it's just
Speaker 3: like it's these small glimpses of like your experience and
Speaker 3: seeing so many women tainted by these ideas that like
Speaker 3: are just not real, These narratives we tell ourselves and
Speaker 3: these beliefs that we've inherited that are not even ours.
Speaker 2: And it's just like the.
Speaker 3: Gift in surrendering and asking spirit for like fulfill me
Speaker 3: and bring me the people that I need, bring me
Speaker 3: the and like following that path is such a gift
Speaker 3: that we're gonna like that keeps on giving.
Speaker 1: No for real, I mean, I totally agree. I think about, yeah,
Speaker 1: having those conversations with a few different women on the
Speaker 1: retreat who had made up these narratives in their mind
Speaker 1: and then like getting into the practice of yes, going
Speaker 1: up to someone and saying, hey, can I can I
Speaker 1: sit here and talk to you? And like how uncomfortable
Speaker 1: that is in any other circumstance. Because we've created this
Speaker 1: little bubble of permission on property, women feel more empowered
Speaker 1: to ask questions that they never would. They would just
Speaker 1: suffer in silence and then write off people and add
Speaker 1: that to the list of why I don't fuck with bitches,
Speaker 1: you know, Like I don't fuck with bitches, you know.
Speaker 1: And when all you had to do was just say, hey,
Speaker 1: I'm gonna ask this question, I was talry to my
Speaker 1: cousin yesterday and she was saying how she's has like
Speaker 1: really people pleasing issues and like she was like, there's
Speaker 1: this girl and I really like her. She's really cool,
Speaker 1: not like dating wise, Like she's a really cool friend.
Speaker 1: She does like spoken word, and my cousin she does music,
Speaker 1: and she's like and she wants me to come over
Speaker 1: and jam with her. She wants me to like play
Speaker 1: the guitar while she does spoken word, and it's just
Speaker 1: like not my thing, Like I just don't I don't
Speaker 1: fuck with spoken word like that, and I honestly don't
Speaker 1: have fucking time to do that, like I'm trying to
Speaker 1: work on my own shit. And so I've literally been
Speaker 1: avoiding her, like and I really like her, but I'm
Speaker 1: scared that she's gonna ask me to do this jam
Speaker 1: session with her that I don't want to do, and
Speaker 1: I don't know how to tell her no. And I
Speaker 1: was like, so you're gonna just like forfeit a friendship
Speaker 1: because you don't know how to say no to this
Speaker 1: isn't my thing.
Speaker 2: And I was.
Speaker 1: Thinking, like how many women do that forfeit friendships? Because
Speaker 1: either they're making up narratives in their mind, they don't
Speaker 1: know how to like say hey, like I don't really
Speaker 1: want to do that, and like thinking the other person
Speaker 1: that's gonna hate them for it. And I told her,
Speaker 1: I was like, bitch, Like if you said no to her,
Speaker 1: she'll probably go find someone else to go do it
Speaker 1: with her. Like it's that simple, Like you're you're you're
Speaker 1: actually making yourself so important.
Speaker 2: It might not even think be what she needs maybe
Speaker 2: just like a hangout.
Speaker 1: You know. And she's like, I really like want to
Speaker 1: hang out with her, but I'm nervous that she's gonna
Speaker 1: keep asking me for this thing that I don't want
Speaker 1: to give her. I was like, oh my god, Like
Speaker 1: as women like we have such a heart. But then
Speaker 1: she like has no problem extending like really crazy text
Speaker 1: messages to like guys that are like like she was,
Speaker 1: she was just telling me the story about this guy
Speaker 1: who like shopped in the bed or something when what yeah,
Speaker 1: like like should in the beddy like years ago in
Speaker 1: high school or something while you're having sex and then
Speaker 1: like and like when it was happening, like she she
Speaker 1: saw the shit and he just was like that's not
Speaker 1: mine and like got up and like walked out, and
Speaker 1: she had to like wash her sheets, and she was like,
Speaker 1: what the fuck? And she like ran into him like
Speaker 1: years later recently actually, and then like a few nights ago,
Speaker 1: she just randomly texted him like remember when you shit
Speaker 1: in my bed in high school or in college? And
Speaker 1: I was like, so you have no problem texting this
Speaker 1: guy this, but you can't say no to your friend.
Speaker 1: I'm like, what the fuck is wrong?
Speaker 2: When she's still mad no?
Speaker 1: But it was just like it's like women, we can
Speaker 1: be really extreme in one way and then like super
Speaker 1: cut off in another way, Like she feels really comfortable
Speaker 1: kind of like exposing a guy, but has a really
Speaker 1: hard time like communicating herself. Yeah, And I was I
Speaker 1: was like thinking like wow, like how many how many
Speaker 1: friendships have died because of just these made up storylines
Speaker 1: in our head because we didn't know how to say hey.
Speaker 1: Like that made me uncomfortable thinking like if we said that,
Speaker 1: she was going to think whatever about me? And I'm
Speaker 1: just really grateful that we've created a space, at least
Speaker 1: for five days where women can practice, can practice saying no,
Speaker 1: can practice saying yes, can practice like just vocalizing their needs,
Speaker 1: not being afraid to ask for too much, not being
Speaker 1: afraid to just be quiet and be at peace. And
Speaker 1: it's just it's so important for women to have these
Speaker 1: spaces and men too, like men having these spaces too,
Speaker 1: And like I'm realizing too with men, like how much
Speaker 1: how much they need spaces to be I already know this,
Speaker 1: but to be vulnerable. And it's just like I read
Speaker 1: our comments sometimes and like there's so many hurt.
Speaker 2: Men's so basic. They're just so basic.
Speaker 3: And I try not to let that pollute my mind
Speaker 3: about like just the the majority of men, because it
Speaker 3: can't possibly be this.
Speaker 1: Well, just like women, we need safety. Like I I
Speaker 1: got fed some sort of like ad or something. I
Speaker 1: don't know what it was, but it was like these
Speaker 1: are the things that men need to be asked or
Speaker 1: like men need to be asked or told, and it
Speaker 1: was like they need to be told, like you're doing
Speaker 1: a good job, they need to be told. Like like
Speaker 1: it was a few different things and it was like
Speaker 1: not that different from what women need, but.
Speaker 2: It just like was delivered. It was just different, like
Speaker 2: different words.
Speaker 1: Yeah, And I was like we all kind of want
Speaker 1: the same thing in ways, there's a safety that men
Speaker 1: need as well.
Speaker 3: Is there a book on that is there a book
Speaker 3: on like affirmations for men.
Speaker 1: Maybe we should write it.
Speaker 3: We might need to, like we should like research all
Speaker 3: our male friends and yeah, because you know what, Like
Speaker 3: and I.
Speaker 1: Was talking to this, to this guy that I'm seeing,
Speaker 1: and he was saying how hard it's it is for
Speaker 1: him to receive affirmations for me and like compliments for me,
Speaker 1: and then he's like felt resistance in his body when
Speaker 1: I do that, And that's like my love language with
Speaker 1: in love, like I love giving men at words of affirmation,
Speaker 1: saying like I'm really impressed by you, and like I
Speaker 1: just do that naturally, and I never I never considered
Speaker 1: how uncomfortable it would make someone.
Speaker 3: Well, if the people are not if you're not used
Speaker 3: to it, it can be uncomfortable. Sometimes I didn't realize it,
Speaker 3: but I resonate with that, like in my body it
Speaker 3: feels like I don't know, but no, like, yeah, a
Speaker 3: lot of times we don't examine how things feel in
Speaker 3: our body and we're people pleasing and so that's like
Speaker 3: shout out to him for even recognizing that and then
Speaker 3: being able to communicate it. But it's just like it's
Speaker 3: also a practice being able to receive and also to
Speaker 3: to to affirm because that's not like my strongest that's
Speaker 3: not my strong point. So and then like we talk
Speaker 3: all the time, rewrite, and so you would think that
Speaker 3: I would have more words, but then I feel like
Speaker 3: stuck when it comes to words of affirmation. So not
Speaker 3: even with myself. Hmm, it's crazy. What, like you said,
Speaker 3: a week of tapping into your own pleasure and your
Speaker 3: body and saying like do I want to do this?
Speaker 2: How does this make me feel? Why?
Speaker 3: Like asking the questions you want to ask. But again,
Speaker 3: it's being in a place where you feel safe and
Speaker 3: your nervous system is regulating.
Speaker 2: Is it tarot time? Time?
Speaker 1: Wow?
Speaker 3: Because I'm high this backwood I put some rose petals.
Speaker 3: It was very beautiful. It's actually really delicious. I'm about
Speaker 3: to smoke the whole thing. But I'm high. It's rose
Speaker 3: petals and a little bit lavender, and I have a
Speaker 3: I have a bold cigar.
Speaker 2: I don't know.
Speaker 1: Is this just five Bold cigars?
Speaker 2: I guess it's flavorless.
Speaker 1: Is it just the it's the og backwood.
Speaker 3: I think I like this one. This might be this
Speaker 3: might this might be my winter. It's because I'm I'm
Speaker 3: wise and older. I don't need all those flavors.
Speaker 1: The seven of swords.
Speaker 2: Seven of swords.
Speaker 1: He looks happy, but he's like he's balancing a lot
Speaker 1: of things. He's carrying a lot of things. He's leaving
Speaker 1: some things behind.
Speaker 2: Seven of swords. Hmm, let's see. Let's see.
Speaker 3: Traditionally, the seven of swords indicate theft, betrayal, deception, and trickery.
Speaker 3: You may be trying to get away with something and
Speaker 3: are sneaking around behind other people's backs, hoping to go undetected.
Speaker 3: If you're lucky, you might get away with your secret intact,
Speaker 3: but if you're unlucky, others will soon find out what
Speaker 3: you've done, causing your shame and embarrassment. Be aware that
Speaker 3: anytime you use cunning or deception to gain an advantage
Speaker 3: over someone or something else, you're at risk of being
Speaker 3: found out, and even if you are not, the cover
Speaker 3: up will require a tremendous amount of effort and it
Speaker 3: may not be worth it. Alternatively, you may be the
Speaker 3: victim of someone else's betrayal. Others are not being candid
Speaker 3: with you, and you may be unaware of their lies
Speaker 3: and deception.
Speaker 1: Are you lying to me?
Speaker 3: No, okay, I'm not gonna lie you may trust someone
Speaker 3: who then turns out to be running their own agenda,
Speaker 3: leaving you high and dry. Look out for any sneaky behavior,
Speaker 3: and listen to your intuition if something does not feel
Speaker 3: right or seems too good to be true.
Speaker 1: Oh my god, you know what this made me think of?
Speaker 1: Last night?
Speaker 2: Wait?
Speaker 1: I told the story of last night. Oh my god,
Speaker 1: you guys, last night was crazy. Last night I started,
Speaker 1: I've never spiraled so hard in my life, so fast.
Speaker 1: I don't know if this has anything to do with this, but.
Speaker 3: Last night I'm almost at the rem sleep. What's the
Speaker 3: what's the what's the really deep one? You know, the
Speaker 3: deep one, Lucid, I don't know, I'm in the deep.
Speaker 3: I'm an Ram. I'm like right there.
Speaker 1: So I'm having like a little girls night with my
Speaker 1: cousin and my bestie and like we're just sitting there
Speaker 1: talking and my cousin was helping me with Iri while
Speaker 1: I was gone in Costa Rica, and she goes, you know,
Speaker 1: you check IRI's iPad? I was like, yeah, I do.
Speaker 1: And she's like, do you know someone named poopo Head
Speaker 1: and her iPad? And I was like, no, who the
Speaker 1: fuck is poopoo Head? And she was like, there's someone
Speaker 1: in her iPad named poopo Head and he must have
Speaker 1: messaged her and said like, I don't want to be
Speaker 1: your boyfriend. And I was like boyfriend. She's like, yeah,
Speaker 1: you need to go look in her iPad. So she
Speaker 1: was like, go look now. So I went upstairs. God
Speaker 1: Irie's iPad turned it on, and I'm looking through fucking
Speaker 1: her text and I'm looking through poopoo Head looking for
Speaker 1: poopo Head. I looked through, I find poopo Head and
Speaker 1: that's not even what she said. So my cousin was
Speaker 1: getting I get Iri fucked up out here because Poopohead
Speaker 1: just said I don't want to be your friend. And
Speaker 1: then I Rey didn't even respond because relatives are getting
Speaker 1: me fucked up because Iris unbothered, I realized as I
Speaker 1: read her text message with her friends, she's the most
Speaker 1: unbothered friend of all of them. She doesn't really give
Speaker 1: a fuck. So anyway, I then I start looking through
Speaker 1: the text and I see that there's a message from
Speaker 1: someone named BFF two and the emoji is a is like,
Speaker 1: has the emoji is this man with like a a
Speaker 1: what's it called a goateee? And I'm like who the
Speaker 1: fuck is bf F two with a goate? So I
Speaker 1: look in the text and it's like the first text
Speaker 1: is IRI, and then she goes, is this a mirror?
Speaker 1: And she and he is like it's E M, I
Speaker 1: R and yes, you called me while I was at work, bitch,
Speaker 1: I said at work, who the fuck is a mirror?
Speaker 1: You guys? I was trembling, like, I was like, who
Speaker 1: the fuck is a mirror? Why is a mere texting?
Speaker 2: Then you're going roadblocks and I was text like, why
Speaker 2: is this.
Speaker 1: Grown ass man texting my eight year old? Then I
Speaker 1: go and I was like, let me co check on roadblocks,
Speaker 1: Like what the fuck is happening on roadblocks? I haven't
Speaker 1: checked in like four months. I go in roadblocks, I
Speaker 1: see all of her friend friends and I see someone
Speaker 1: named a mirror in there, and I'm like, oh, no,
Speaker 1: they've gotten her. They've gotten to her. My parental controls
Speaker 1: weren't strong enough. Somehow someone has messaged her grown box
Speaker 1: and she got a phone number and now they're facetiming.
Speaker 1: I haven't even been here. I saw the first message
Speaker 1: was like in December, and then there was another one
Speaker 1: like like last week. I'm like having a pan attack
Speaker 1: my friends like egging me on. They're stressing me the
Speaker 1: fuck out, Like, what are we gonna do. You can't
Speaker 1: shame her, Like I was like, I'm gonna go wake
Speaker 1: her ass right up. I'm gonna go wake her up
Speaker 1: right the fuck now. I'm about to curse her out.
Speaker 1: And she was like, no, you can't do that. She's
Speaker 1: going to start lying to you because she knows that
Speaker 1: you went through her her iPad. You can't shame her.
Speaker 1: You don't want to make her seem like she's in trouble. Definitely,
Speaker 1: don't start the conversation saying you're not in trouble, because
Speaker 1: everyone knows that's code for you're in fucking trouble.
Speaker 2: This is a lot of advice, bitch, I have a
Speaker 2: lot of advice they were giving. Oh my god, it
Speaker 2: was I already just wore her ass.
Speaker 1: I was telling her. I was like, I'm not good
Speaker 1: with my faces. My faces are fucked Like I already
Speaker 1: like have judgmental face, and I don't even mean to.
Speaker 1: I have resting bitch face. It's just part of my demeanor.
Speaker 1: So anyway, they were like, we have to call him.
Speaker 1: What's his phone number? So I fucking star six seven
Speaker 1: called the Star six seven Star six seven, and I
Speaker 1: look at the area code and it's six one zero,
Speaker 1: and so I'm like, Romo's like, what is six one zero?
Speaker 1: And we look at it's Allentown, Pennsylvania. I'm like, what
Speaker 1: the fuck? Who is her? Fucking this predator lives in Philly?
Speaker 1: Like what the fuck is going on? I fucking call
Speaker 1: the number and someone answers and I'm like hello, No
Speaker 1: one says anything. I'm like, hello, Hello, no one says anything.
Speaker 1: Hello was like yes, and I could hear it's like
Speaker 1: a grown ass man. And I was like, Hi, is
Speaker 1: this a mirror? And he was like yeah. And I
Speaker 1: was like, why are you texting eight year olds? Mirror?
Speaker 1: And he was like, oh, you are you talking about Johnny?
Speaker 1: I was like Johnny. I was like thinking of my head, Oh,
Speaker 1: so you have a fucking list of little eight year
Speaker 1: olds you're fucking texting you fucking weirdo.
Speaker 2: So I'm like, no, I'm not.
Speaker 1: Johnny, my daughter. Why are you texting eight year olds?
Speaker 1: Why are you texting my eight year old daughter? Amir?
Speaker 2: Where do you live?
Speaker 1: Who are you? He's like whoa relax, one question at
Speaker 1: a time, and I was like the ah fucking dacity,
Speaker 1: And honestly, I was triggered also because I remember when
Speaker 1: my baby daddy cheated on me and this bitch sent
Speaker 1: the picture of her pregnancy and send her number and
Speaker 1: then I called and I had all these questions and
Speaker 1: she had the audacity to tell me to calm the
Speaker 1: fuck down. That's how I felt. I was triggered. I
Speaker 1: was like, where are you located? And he was like,
Speaker 1: no comment, and like the two aunties at the table
Speaker 1: are like.
Speaker 2: What the fuck?
Speaker 1: I'm like, who are you? And he was like no comment?
Speaker 1: And I was like I just hung up, and they're like,
Speaker 1: why did you hang up? Had we had to ask
Speaker 1: more questions? I was like, don't have any more fucking
Speaker 1: questions to ask. I'm waking her up and they're like
Speaker 1: you can't wake her up.
Speaker 2: How long did this go on?
Speaker 1: This just went off for like thirty minutes, because then
Speaker 1: I was like deep diving into roll blocks, like trying
Speaker 1: to find deleted messages. I was googling how to find
Speaker 1: a leading message on rollblocks. Apparently you can't delete messages
Speaker 1: they're an archive, but there were none, so I didn't
Speaker 1: know how the fuck they got into this phone number.
Speaker 1: So I was really confused, and then I went on
Speaker 1: a deep dive of her history on on the Googles,
Speaker 1: and my daughter's just searching like how to do a
Speaker 1: backhand spring and like just basic eighteen year old chef.
Speaker 2: Yeah.
Speaker 1: So then they left and they told me like, Erica,
Speaker 1: don't worry. We're gonna like call her therapists tomorrow. We're
Speaker 1: gonna find the best way to have this conversation because
Speaker 1: clearly you're not well equipped. I was like, I'm not.
Speaker 1: I'm not. I'm going too bitches, and no, kid, I'm
Speaker 1: gonna fuck this sala up. So I was like I
Speaker 1: was like told when I was. When they were leaving,
Speaker 1: I was like, I'm gonna call Jamila because I need
Speaker 1: to call Mela because they were both for kids are
Speaker 1: on rodblocks and this is fucked up. I need to
Speaker 1: make sure Luna doesn't have a mirror as a friend either,
Speaker 1: and she's not talking to a mirror. So I called
Speaker 1: Amila and I'm like Amila, Jamila, and she's like, I'm like,
Speaker 1: are you sleep She's.
Speaker 3: Like yeah, as I'm sure you could hear.
Speaker 1: I was like, well, first of all, the team never
Speaker 1: responded about our call tomorrow, so I don't even know
Speaker 1: if we're having the call at nine am or not.
Speaker 1: She was like okay, and I was like and secondly,
Speaker 1: I was talking to some fucking adult name Amir, and
Speaker 1: I don't know what to do. She found him on Roadblocks.
Speaker 1: He lives in Philly, was like a mirror.
Speaker 2: She's like, I don't know.
Speaker 3: I was living a double life.
Speaker 1: I don't even know my own child.
Speaker 3: I was like, roadblocks, Luna's on rope Bucks all the time.
Speaker 3: And I was like, wait, so what do you mean
Speaker 3: what are they talking about?
Speaker 2: I was like, you called. She was like yeah. She's like.
Speaker 2: I was like, he said no comment with his voice.
Speaker 2: I was like, you heard him. She was like. I
Speaker 2: was like he was a grown man. She was like yeah.
Speaker 3: I was literally like about to go wake up Lunena,
Speaker 3: like what the fuck is going on?
Speaker 2: And then I'm like, well, how do you spell it?
Speaker 2: Give me the give me the number. I put the
Speaker 2: fucking number in my phone. It's our cousin, it's their friend,
Speaker 2: it's our cousins. My it's my cousin's son. Fucking Sheena.
Speaker 2: I was like, bitch, she knows him.
Speaker 1: So Amir must have a mir Luna must have shared
Speaker 1: Amir's contact to fucking Iri, So the bit moji was
Speaker 1: already there, and I guess a mir is saved in
Speaker 1: Luna's iPad is bf F two, So I was like,
Speaker 1: why the fuck is his name bf F two in
Speaker 1: her phone? So anyway, then I was like, I gotta go,
Speaker 1: I gotta I gotta call a mer back.
Speaker 2: So I'm like it's three ams said, I don't.
Speaker 1: Give a fuck. It's like call a mer back and
Speaker 1: he's like hello, I'm like a mirror. It's Erica from
Speaker 1: Good Moms and he's like, oh hey, And I was like,
Speaker 1: why the fuck are you texting my daughter? I was like,
Speaker 1: why would you let me be in distressed? Why would
Speaker 1: you let a mom be in distress? Why would you
Speaker 1: play with me like this on the phone? And he
Speaker 1: was like, I thought someone. I thought like someone was
Speaker 1: prank calling me and he's like I was just fading
Speaker 1: back into sleep, thinking like who did I hurt? Who
Speaker 1: would like play on the phone about me.
Speaker 2: Texting eight or bitch?
Speaker 1: I told him, I said I was going to track
Speaker 1: you down and fucking end your life, and then Sheena
Speaker 1: was going to come end my life, and then it
Speaker 1: was really going to be good. Mom's bad choices, but
Speaker 1: like all bad my.
Speaker 2: Little cousin, Oh my.
Speaker 3: I was like, I literally trying to wrap my head
Speaker 3: around our kids talking grown me.
Speaker 2: I'm like, but what would they be talking about. I
Speaker 2: was like, I, here's a double life.
Speaker 1: And then she'd be like, that's what you get for
Speaker 1: showing your daughter how to prank call people.
Speaker 2: They'd love to prank call people. Now it's against you.
Speaker 1: So anyway, I was trembling for one hour, even after
Speaker 1: I found out the news that it wasn't true, Like
Speaker 1: it took me like at least an hour to like,
Speaker 1: come down, I've fucked up. I literally was like, I
Speaker 1: don't need to be a mom. I don't need to
Speaker 1: be a parent. I suck at parenting. I don't know
Speaker 1: how to talk to my kid. I was about to
Speaker 1: fucking pull her ass out of the bed. I was
Speaker 1: going to like blame her for everything. Also, I can't
Speaker 1: believe this, like went on under my nose. She's living
Speaker 1: a double life. She's only eight, Like what else?
Speaker 2: Don't I know?
Speaker 1: It was crazy? So all that to say was the sneaking.
Speaker 1: I don't know if this card has anything.
Speaker 3: To do with that, but it says on a positive note.
Speaker 3: You know you cannot do everything at once, nor should you. Instead,
Speaker 3: you must prioritize, but it's important to you and direct
Speaker 3: your focus and attention on the few tasks that will
Speaker 3: move you closer to your goals. It's the eighty twenty.
Speaker 3: Twenty percent of your work will account for eighty percent
Speaker 3: of your results, so focus on twenty percent. You may
Speaker 3: be able to accept some responsibilities or duties but not
Speaker 3: all of them, or you may say yes to some
Speaker 3: projects at the expense of others. Basically, take it easy
Speaker 3: and chill the fuck out. I'm trying, Okay, just ease
Speaker 3: and pleasure. Ease and pleasure. Everything we want is already ours.
Speaker 1: And our kids are not talking to strangement on the internet.
Speaker 3: They don't Our eight year olds a nine year old
Speaker 3: are not living double lives.
Speaker 2: Do we have an affirmation?
Speaker 1: Trust your kids.
Speaker 3: That's all that breathing, and that's what the fuck you got.
Speaker 3: We're gonna We're gonna have to Okay, fine, and want
Speaker 3: to do that. The affirmation is we can add it later. Yeah,
Speaker 3: I don't know. It's not coming to me. I'm not
Speaker 3: going to force it. Okay, don't force it anyway, don't
Speaker 3: forget to sign up for Patreon because you won't get
Speaker 3: any of this in the next few weeks.
Speaker 2: We're going off season. Come to our live show.
Speaker 3: We will be in Philadelphia on March thirteenth, We'll be
Speaker 3: in DC on March fourteenth. We'll be in New York. No, yeah,
Speaker 3: we'll be on New York on the sixteenth, Atlanta on
Speaker 3: the twenty first, and we have special guests.
Speaker 1: And we have in Houston on April eighteenth, Yes we do.
Speaker 3: And Erica will be wearing her hat and I might
Speaker 3: be wearing my hat too. We love you, guys, and
Speaker 3: we'll see you soon. Bye.
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