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Speaker 1: What's Up Tribe. I'm Erica and I'm Mila, and this

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Speaker 1: is Good Mom's Bad Choices Podcast.

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Speaker 2: Beach season two.

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Speaker 3: If you joined us for season one, you got three

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Speaker 3: hundred uncensored episodes.

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Speaker 1: But things are a little different in twenty twenty four.

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Speaker 1: Not only are we having new guests, new segments, but

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Speaker 1: we're going outside, y'all. We're getting out of our studio

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Speaker 1: and podcasting in the wild, So make sure you check

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Speaker 3: This podcast is for all the good moms, all the

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Speaker 2: Ha ain't got no kids. Pull up.

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Speaker 3: Join us in season two as we deep dive into

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Speaker 3: even more uncensored topics like love, sex, dating, and.

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Speaker 1: Just look at this as the ultimate group chat. All

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Speaker 1: the shit you're afraid to say out loud or even try,

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Speaker 1: We say it and do it for.

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Speaker 1: This is a judgment free zone to show up exactly

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Speaker 1: as you are, and let's be honest, we've all made

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Speaker 2: Welcome back to Good Mom's Bad Choices.

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Speaker 1: I'm Erica and I'm Mila. Happy hump Day, bitches, what

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Speaker 2: We're two episodes away from ending our season.

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Speaker 1: I know, it's so weird.

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Speaker 2: I know. I don't even know what to I don't

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Speaker 2: know how to feel.

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Speaker 1: Guys, our season is ending. I can't believe it. It

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Speaker 3: And that means you won't have access to us unless

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Speaker 2: How are you, I'm great.

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Speaker 1: Were you adjusting back from the jungle Costa Rica life?

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Speaker 3: Today's the day I've felt more.

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Speaker 1: So, you guys, we just got back from our three

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Speaker 2: You got dry humps? That's pretty was that hollish?

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Speaker 1: That's kind of what it was like. I am not

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Speaker 2: You know what this is like?

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Speaker 3: This is a good strategy if you are trying to

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Speaker 3: Apparently they can still come and tell don't tell them.

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Speaker 3: Let don't let them tell you otherwise.

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Speaker 1: You know, that's how you know you got that good piss,

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Speaker 1: You got a good life, You got that good you

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Speaker 1: got that good thigh. Good, I got a good tight thigh.

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Speaker 1: Nigga can fucking met in his pants. But dry hump.

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Speaker 2: I can come off a dry hump easy. I know

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Speaker 1: I know that truth thing humping pillows and stuffed animals, and.

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Speaker 2: Do you need to be penetrated?

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Speaker 1: No, but I need I need to be like, there

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Speaker 3: We just went straight off the bath TMI. No one

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Speaker 3: asked any of this information. Erica once got dry humped

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Speaker 3: to ejaculation, and I love Costa.

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Speaker 1: Actually that we didn't try hump in Nicaragua. The dry

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Speaker 3: Well, I assume there was too much action happening. And

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Speaker 2: But he said, one way or other, bitch, you're paid

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Speaker 1: He made sure that happened. I had to do a

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Speaker 1: lot of Oh god, that was actually traumatic. I'm true,

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Speaker 1: I'm just talking about my baby daddy and his long ball.

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Speaker 3: Sometimes fat guys have big dicks. I mean, yeah, I

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Speaker 3: Know, you know, I'm just saying I have You don't

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Speaker 3: There are a few, and actually I got some new

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Speaker 3: look at their extremities, ears, fingers and feet, ears, ears, noses,

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Speaker 2: All extremities matter.

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Speaker 3: And if they have small little ears, it means they

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Speaker 2: So who's I think? I know what you're talking about.

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Speaker 3: I just feel like I saw a nigga that I

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Speaker 4: Anyways, some little guys have like large penises, and then

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Speaker 3: I'm just you know, I'm just letting you know. There's

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Speaker 1: Sometimes you'd be feeling you're like, ooh, bitch, I won,

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Speaker 2: You must have forgot about the ears in the hands.

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Speaker 1: Because the balls like lift.

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Speaker 1: Work and we do dick theories.

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Speaker 2: We do dick theory. So first first workshop is Dick theories.

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Speaker 2: Oh my god, I love retreating.

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Speaker 3: It is literally the highlight of my life. I don't

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Speaker 3: But yeah, we've had a We had a pretty like

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Speaker 2: Three weeks and I don't.

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Speaker 3: He poured the Patron on the picture of his dog

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Speaker 3: It was a lot of adventures, like got on a bus,

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Speaker 1: Nice.

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Speaker 3: The point is, in twenty twenty five, Erica and I

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Speaker 2: I guess we can move at any point in twenty

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Speaker 3: And I was thinking summertime because Trump is coming back

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Speaker 1: I just don't like it's nothing. I mean, it's all bad.

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Speaker 3: I've been feeling very zombie apocalyptic, and I'm just ready

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Speaker 3: Are they gonna blacklist their podcasts because I talked so

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Speaker 3: We've definitely over complicated life. It's very United States, just

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Speaker 3: It's like something about the jungle that just sits that

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Speaker 1: their masks and rest. Like you said, whether you live

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00:19:29,200 --> 00:19:32,680
Speaker 1: there or you're retreating, like everyone is in deep rest mode.

442
00:19:32,880 --> 00:19:34,879
Speaker 1: I mean, I've never been to a place where people

443
00:19:34,880 --> 00:19:37,800
Speaker 1: are like I've started my moon. I will not I

444
00:19:37,840 --> 00:19:42,440
Speaker 1: cannot work today moon, meaning my period started my moon. Unfortunately,

445
00:19:42,680 --> 00:19:45,359
Speaker 1: I'm not working, and I'm like, yeah, bitch.

446
00:19:45,200 --> 00:19:47,080
Speaker 3: I'm actually just I thought I was going to go,

447
00:19:47,119 --> 00:19:50,080
Speaker 3: but I'm not really feeling a spirit didn't move, spirits

448
00:19:50,119 --> 00:19:52,200
Speaker 3: telling me to stay home. Someone's going to honor that.

449
00:19:52,880 --> 00:19:55,359
Speaker 3: It's like, you're really on some honoring yourself shit in

450
00:19:55,400 --> 00:19:59,080
Speaker 3: the jungle. There's no like pushing past the comfort. There's

451
00:19:59,080 --> 00:20:01,080
Speaker 3: none of that. There's no people pleasing, bitch. When you

452
00:20:01,080 --> 00:20:03,960
Speaker 3: get to the jungle, you please in yourself. Something about

453
00:20:04,000 --> 00:20:06,480
Speaker 3: the jungle that makes you do it. And I'm trying

454
00:20:06,480 --> 00:20:07,160
Speaker 3: to get in on it.

455
00:20:08,240 --> 00:20:12,880
Speaker 1: Well, while you were having adventures, I was fucking facing

456
00:20:13,000 --> 00:20:18,560
Speaker 1: like the deep darkness of my soul. I After the

457
00:20:18,560 --> 00:20:21,360
Speaker 1: retreat ended, I chilled for a few days, and then

458
00:20:22,480 --> 00:20:25,640
Speaker 1: I got into some spiritual work with Sylvia. Shout out

459
00:20:25,680 --> 00:20:28,720
Speaker 1: to Ancestral, Sylvia, Ancestral.

460
00:20:29,119 --> 00:20:31,159
Speaker 2: She's just smoke a backwood. Sorry to interrupt you.

461
00:20:31,200 --> 00:20:33,239
Speaker 1: Yes, I'm right, this is the perfect time to light

462
00:20:33,320 --> 00:20:36,880
Speaker 1: a backwood. And she's been a guest on our show

463
00:20:37,320 --> 00:20:42,560
Speaker 1: and she does. She's an astrologer, amongst other things. And

464
00:20:42,680 --> 00:20:45,119
Speaker 1: so after the retreat ended, I had already started like

465
00:20:45,160 --> 00:20:48,320
Speaker 1: wombwork with her at the beginning of this year, and

466
00:20:48,400 --> 00:20:50,320
Speaker 1: so when I was out there, I was like, I

467
00:20:50,320 --> 00:20:52,120
Speaker 1: want to work with you one on one in person.

468
00:20:52,240 --> 00:20:55,359
Speaker 1: And so the last three days of the trip, I

469
00:20:55,400 --> 00:20:59,159
Speaker 1: was locked in my hotel room, like basically in a

470
00:20:59,240 --> 00:21:03,320
Speaker 1: meditative trains for three days, accessing different realms and talking

471
00:21:03,320 --> 00:21:10,040
Speaker 1: to my fucking grandmother. And that shit was crazy. Like

472
00:21:10,600 --> 00:21:18,199
Speaker 1: I never obviously I'm a believer of like other entities

473
00:21:18,320 --> 00:21:22,040
Speaker 1: being able to I guess quantum travel in ways, but

474
00:21:22,080 --> 00:21:26,560
Speaker 1: I've never I know that it's possible. I just I

475
00:21:26,560 --> 00:21:29,160
Speaker 1: guess I never envisioned myself being able to do it,

476
00:21:29,880 --> 00:21:32,480
Speaker 1: and like thinking that I would need plant medicine in

477
00:21:32,520 --> 00:21:34,320
Speaker 1: order to kind of be able to have these type

478
00:21:34,359 --> 00:21:40,200
Speaker 1: of experiences. But yeah, I had some pretty profound experiences

479
00:21:40,240 --> 00:21:43,560
Speaker 1: with Sylvia, and I'll probably talk about it more an

480
00:21:43,600 --> 00:21:47,480
Speaker 1: extent on Patreon, just because it's actually very deeply personal

481
00:21:47,520 --> 00:21:49,040
Speaker 1: and it has to do with my dad and has

482
00:21:49,040 --> 00:21:51,200
Speaker 1: to do it with my grandmother and just like some

483
00:21:51,359 --> 00:21:54,240
Speaker 1: fucking witchy ass shit that happened in that hotel in

484
00:21:54,280 --> 00:21:56,920
Speaker 1: that hotel room while I was talking to my dad

485
00:21:56,920 --> 00:22:00,320
Speaker 1: about my grandmother, like shit was like her spirit was

486
00:22:00,680 --> 00:22:02,400
Speaker 1: moving in the room.

487
00:22:02,200 --> 00:22:04,600
Speaker 3: Bitch, Like I know, I think there's definitely gonna have

488
00:22:04,680 --> 00:22:13,840
Speaker 3: to be a Patreon exclusive like recap of the retreat,

489
00:22:13,960 --> 00:22:16,119
Speaker 3: because there are a lot of things that happen that

490
00:22:17,760 --> 00:22:22,280
Speaker 3: are probably exclusively for Patreons. Yeah, you pass me your water,

491
00:22:23,200 --> 00:22:25,760
Speaker 3: Maybe not that one. Are you gonna soak the blunt

492
00:22:25,880 --> 00:22:28,560
Speaker 3: in my drinking? I gave you a bottle to just

493
00:22:28,600 --> 00:22:30,159
Speaker 3: take a couple of SIPs. You want to smoke or

494
00:22:30,160 --> 00:22:30,600
Speaker 3: you want to.

495
00:22:30,560 --> 00:22:32,240
Speaker 1: Be quenched, I'm not smoking.

496
00:22:33,600 --> 00:22:33,920
Speaker 2: You are?

497
00:22:38,840 --> 00:22:41,199
Speaker 1: Is this as you?

498
00:22:41,240 --> 00:22:41,520
Speaker 2: Guys?

499
00:22:42,040 --> 00:22:49,320
Speaker 3: We're dropping some asm that is annoying. Orlando's getting so mad.

500
00:22:49,400 --> 00:22:53,280
Speaker 3: It's fucking asmr Orlando. Headphones are on. It's annoying me.

501
00:22:53,280 --> 00:22:55,400
Speaker 3: And the headphones are not even on. You're gonna make

502
00:22:55,440 --> 00:22:59,000
Speaker 3: people fall off like I did like them. But then

503
00:22:59,080 --> 00:23:01,800
Speaker 3: Erica started sifting aggressively.

504
00:23:01,200 --> 00:23:05,280
Speaker 2: Into the microphone. But no, we did it.

505
00:23:05,359 --> 00:23:13,000
Speaker 3: Yeah, even when you told me your ancestral your ancestral experiences,

506
00:23:13,080 --> 00:23:16,320
Speaker 3: I was super intrigued and also like being able to

507
00:23:16,440 --> 00:23:18,560
Speaker 3: like step into different realms like like you said, I

508
00:23:18,600 --> 00:23:21,560
Speaker 3: knew it was possible, but like hearing your experience, really,

509
00:23:22,280 --> 00:23:24,000
Speaker 3: you know what made me think of It's just like

510
00:23:24,960 --> 00:23:30,919
Speaker 3: who else in anyone's family is having the opportunity to

511
00:23:31,440 --> 00:23:36,080
Speaker 3: like not rewrite wrongs but kind of like rewrite contracts,

512
00:23:36,080 --> 00:23:39,159
Speaker 3: and even like when I did that, so oh you

513
00:23:39,160 --> 00:23:43,120
Speaker 3: didn't do your actually missed your fucking appointment. The family constellation.

514
00:23:43,400 --> 00:23:45,560
Speaker 3: I just thought of it in some ways it's similar

515
00:23:45,800 --> 00:23:47,520
Speaker 3: but not as deep as the work you did. And

516
00:23:47,560 --> 00:23:49,040
Speaker 3: then I was like, damn, next time, do I need

517
00:23:49,040 --> 00:23:51,360
Speaker 3: to skip out? I'm going on adventures and go deep

518
00:23:51,359 --> 00:23:53,359
Speaker 3: into my womb because if I don't do it, who's

519
00:23:53,359 --> 00:23:55,600
Speaker 3: going to do it? Like no one in my family's

520
00:23:55,640 --> 00:23:59,080
Speaker 3: thinking about doing ancestral work with their womb and like

521
00:23:59,080 --> 00:24:02,520
Speaker 3: like healing actual things that happen in their ancestry. But

522
00:24:02,640 --> 00:24:06,040
Speaker 3: like that's kind of I feel like the reason our

523
00:24:06,080 --> 00:24:08,359
Speaker 3: paths have let us here, and like while we've gotten

524
00:24:08,440 --> 00:24:11,440
Speaker 3: like these gifts and like gotten just this version of

525
00:24:11,480 --> 00:24:13,679
Speaker 3: our life so that we can like have opportunities like

526
00:24:13,720 --> 00:24:16,239
Speaker 3: meeting Sylvia and just knowing it's possible to go do

527
00:24:16,359 --> 00:24:19,920
Speaker 3: work like that to maybe change the trajectory of karmic

528
00:24:20,240 --> 00:24:23,400
Speaker 3: things for our kids and for our ancestors.

529
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Speaker 2: Is that what you feel like you were doing over there?

530
00:24:25,840 --> 00:24:27,879
Speaker 1: Yeah? I mean, but I didn't know that that's what

531
00:24:27,880 --> 00:24:29,879
Speaker 1: we were gonna do. Like I kind of like everyone

532
00:24:29,960 --> 00:24:31,480
Speaker 1: kept asking me, like, what is the work you're gonna do?

533
00:24:31,520 --> 00:24:33,560
Speaker 1: And I was like, I don't know, I'm.

534
00:24:33,440 --> 00:24:34,400
Speaker 2: Not sure we're figuring it out.

535
00:24:34,440 --> 00:24:36,119
Speaker 1: I was like I was just letting her go, like

536
00:24:36,160 --> 00:24:37,960
Speaker 1: I was just I just said, I just said I

537
00:24:38,040 --> 00:24:40,159
Speaker 1: wanted to do some work with you. I wanted I

538
00:24:40,200 --> 00:24:42,840
Speaker 1: want to spend more time with you and dive deeper

539
00:24:42,880 --> 00:24:45,919
Speaker 1: into this this womb work that we've been doing, and

540
00:24:45,920 --> 00:24:48,040
Speaker 1: and she said okay, and then it just kind of

541
00:24:48,119 --> 00:24:54,920
Speaker 1: unfolded intuitively, and yeah, I just I was not expecting

542
00:24:55,760 --> 00:25:00,719
Speaker 1: my grandmother to show up. I was not expecting her.

543
00:25:03,560 --> 00:25:05,879
Speaker 1: I wasn't expecting her energy to be what it was.

544
00:25:07,720 --> 00:25:12,560
Speaker 1: I wasn't expecting to get messages from her that only

545
00:25:14,160 --> 00:25:17,000
Speaker 1: her and my father would know, and being able to

546
00:25:17,040 --> 00:25:19,359
Speaker 1: share that with him and him being like that's true.

547
00:25:19,960 --> 00:25:22,520
Speaker 1: So that's how I know this shit is real, Like

548
00:25:22,560 --> 00:25:24,360
Speaker 1: for those listening and then, like you know, you hear

549
00:25:24,400 --> 00:25:26,560
Speaker 1: these type of stories and it sounds like all woo

550
00:25:26,600 --> 00:25:31,960
Speaker 1: woo and shit, but like there's real there's real shit

551
00:25:32,119 --> 00:25:36,120
Speaker 1: happening in these realms, in these spaces. And I think

552
00:25:36,119 --> 00:25:38,320
Speaker 1: there's a level of preparation that you have to have

553
00:25:38,400 --> 00:25:40,760
Speaker 1: in order to be able to travel to these realms,

554
00:25:40,800 --> 00:25:42,359
Speaker 1: Like I think that I've done a lot of work

555
00:25:42,520 --> 00:25:46,840
Speaker 1: and so my field is open to be able to

556
00:25:46,880 --> 00:25:48,919
Speaker 1: do something like that. Like I had someone ask me

557
00:25:49,720 --> 00:25:51,879
Speaker 1: for Sylvia's number and was like, I want to do that,

558
00:25:51,960 --> 00:25:54,520
Speaker 1: And I was like, and now I get it, Like

559
00:25:54,560 --> 00:25:56,960
Speaker 1: I get why some of my friends and even like

560
00:25:58,440 --> 00:26:01,160
Speaker 1: one of my really good friends who's way down deep

561
00:26:01,200 --> 00:26:04,960
Speaker 1: into this, you know, spiritual path, like she's very protective

562
00:26:05,400 --> 00:26:10,520
Speaker 1: about who she shares her people with because it's not

563
00:26:10,560 --> 00:26:13,800
Speaker 1: for everyone. It can it is for everyone, but those

564
00:26:13,800 --> 00:26:16,119
Speaker 1: people that are ready to really do the work to

565
00:26:16,200 --> 00:26:20,320
Speaker 1: prepare for an experience like this, you know. And so yeah,

566
00:26:20,359 --> 00:26:23,040
Speaker 1: someone asked me in Costa Rica. It's a guy and

567
00:26:23,080 --> 00:26:25,199
Speaker 1: he was like, give me Sylvia's number, and I was like,

568
00:26:25,280 --> 00:26:28,720
Speaker 1: I don't know if you're ready for this. I think

569
00:26:28,760 --> 00:26:33,040
Speaker 1: you need to like some do some stuff first. And

570
00:26:33,080 --> 00:26:35,280
Speaker 1: I'm you know, and I'll probably I'm going to talk

571
00:26:35,320 --> 00:26:37,640
Speaker 1: to her about it. But there's a level of protection

572
00:26:37,920 --> 00:26:43,000
Speaker 1: that I have for for the people that I work with,

573
00:26:43,040 --> 00:26:45,240
Speaker 1: and you obviously I'm sharing Sylvia right here right now

574
00:26:45,280 --> 00:26:48,920
Speaker 1: for all of you, but she has her own disortment

575
00:26:48,960 --> 00:26:51,679
Speaker 1: as well. She had no problems saying no, thank you.

576
00:26:53,000 --> 00:26:57,240
Speaker 3: I feel like it's so interesting too, Like as we've

577
00:26:57,359 --> 00:27:02,359
Speaker 3: unfolded this good mom saga and like come to you know,

578
00:27:02,400 --> 00:27:06,600
Speaker 3: different different realizations and self awarenesses of healing, and even

579
00:27:06,640 --> 00:27:09,000
Speaker 3: like the women who have come with us, like our community,

580
00:27:09,119 --> 00:27:11,240
Speaker 3: the tribe, like the women who show up at the retreat.

581
00:27:11,560 --> 00:27:13,880
Speaker 3: It's like there is an agreement that you make with yourself,

582
00:27:13,920 --> 00:27:17,240
Speaker 3: and when you make that agreement with yourself, the universe corresponds, right,

583
00:27:17,560 --> 00:27:20,439
Speaker 3: So like I think everyone lives like like Erica and

584
00:27:20,480 --> 00:27:23,080
Speaker 3: I met, we had an agreement that we didn't really

585
00:27:23,160 --> 00:27:25,600
Speaker 3: weren't fully aware of, but that we were like going

586
00:27:25,680 --> 00:27:28,119
Speaker 3: to just like tap into this authentic space and like

587
00:27:28,200 --> 00:27:32,800
Speaker 3: speak honestly and then in that, in that, in that uncovering,

588
00:27:33,119 --> 00:27:35,600
Speaker 3: you know, these journeys and like this this work has

589
00:27:35,640 --> 00:27:39,840
Speaker 3: come to us, and I've seen even the women who

590
00:27:39,920 --> 00:27:43,000
Speaker 3: come on retreat like Blossom and like unravel in these ways.

591
00:27:43,040 --> 00:27:44,720
Speaker 3: Is because I think a lot of times, when you

592
00:27:44,760 --> 00:27:47,359
Speaker 3: sign up to go into the jungle with two women

593
00:27:47,440 --> 00:27:50,240
Speaker 3: you don't know and invest in yourself, there's a level

594
00:27:50,280 --> 00:27:52,560
Speaker 3: of openness that you were coming with, and so people

595
00:27:52,600 --> 00:27:55,080
Speaker 3: are ready to change, people are ready to do things differently.

596
00:27:55,320 --> 00:27:56,320
Speaker 2: Sometimes people don't know.

597
00:27:56,280 --> 00:27:59,240
Speaker 3: Exactly, like exactly what is off or wrong, but they

598
00:27:59,240 --> 00:28:02,760
Speaker 3: know they're missing some thing. And I just feel like

599
00:28:02,960 --> 00:28:06,720
Speaker 3: even for us, the day of our last retreat, we

600
00:28:06,800 --> 00:28:10,880
Speaker 3: met like this tantric man at yoga and he was like,

601
00:28:11,000 --> 00:28:12,000
Speaker 3: we're doing a meditation.

602
00:28:12,119 --> 00:28:13,600
Speaker 2: He's like, are you guys doing tantra?

603
00:28:13,680 --> 00:28:17,960
Speaker 3: And we're like yeah, but like, what would be the

604
00:28:18,080 --> 00:28:22,280
Speaker 3: chances of meeting a black man in yoga in Costa

605
00:28:22,320 --> 00:28:24,600
Speaker 3: Rica who like is tapped into tantra?

606
00:28:24,800 --> 00:28:25,040
Speaker 2: You know?

607
00:28:25,160 --> 00:28:28,240
Speaker 3: And you know it just we spent like a bunch

608
00:28:28,240 --> 00:28:33,240
Speaker 3: of time with them and like exchanging Tantric medicines and lineages,

609
00:28:33,280 --> 00:28:34,400
Speaker 3: and it was super powerful.

610
00:28:34,440 --> 00:28:35,520
Speaker 2: And I was just like telling.

611
00:28:35,400 --> 00:28:38,600
Speaker 3: Erica, like what the fuck would be the chances of us,

612
00:28:38,880 --> 00:28:41,440
Speaker 3: two of us who were like into tantra studying this

613
00:28:41,520 --> 00:28:45,600
Speaker 3: lineage meeting someone else black who's studying the same thing.

614
00:28:46,240 --> 00:28:51,800
Speaker 3: And it's just like abundantly clear that once you start

615
00:28:52,000 --> 00:28:55,400
Speaker 3: like making agreements with yourself and opening yourself up to

616
00:28:55,440 --> 00:28:58,880
Speaker 3: certain work into like healing, it comes in all forms

617
00:28:59,320 --> 00:29:01,360
Speaker 3: and you have to trust it, you know, And it's

618
00:29:01,400 --> 00:29:04,840
Speaker 3: like in any other chance, We're like we made a

619
00:29:04,920 --> 00:29:07,360
Speaker 3: random man at yogurt. You're like whatever man, but it's

620
00:29:07,440 --> 00:29:10,000
Speaker 3: like whatever, man, get out of here. But we were

621
00:29:10,000 --> 00:29:12,320
Speaker 3: welcoming to it because I think we both recognize that

622
00:29:12,680 --> 00:29:15,600
Speaker 3: it was kind of a gift from the divine and

623
00:29:15,680 --> 00:29:18,120
Speaker 3: so it was just like we had this opportunity to

624
00:29:19,480 --> 00:29:23,000
Speaker 3: explore in our tantra with like this divine masculine and

625
00:29:23,360 --> 00:29:25,479
Speaker 3: just like you had this opportunity to explore in this

626
00:29:25,560 --> 00:29:26,480
Speaker 3: work with Sylvia.

627
00:29:26,680 --> 00:29:28,120
Speaker 2: Is because you've.

628
00:29:27,920 --> 00:29:29,880
Speaker 3: Done all this work up to this point and you've

629
00:29:29,920 --> 00:29:32,880
Speaker 3: made agreements with yourself and the universe, and it's like, oh,

630
00:29:32,920 --> 00:29:35,640
Speaker 3: she's ready to go into these realms. And so there

631
00:29:35,720 --> 00:29:38,640
Speaker 3: is like an unlocking that happens as soon as you

632
00:29:38,840 --> 00:29:41,480
Speaker 3: like just make the agreement and you continue to do

633
00:29:41,520 --> 00:29:43,280
Speaker 3: the work. And sometimes we don't see the work because

634
00:29:43,280 --> 00:29:45,760
Speaker 3: it's just like inklings. It's little, it's little, it's little,

635
00:29:46,000 --> 00:29:47,320
Speaker 3: and then all of a sudden you look up and

636
00:29:47,320 --> 00:29:49,080
Speaker 3: you're like, oh, I've done a lot, and I've come

637
00:29:49,240 --> 00:29:53,040
Speaker 3: really far, and now I'm accessing my fucking lineage directly

638
00:29:53,640 --> 00:29:57,440
Speaker 3: Grandma to me, you know, and like that is powerful work.

639
00:29:57,520 --> 00:30:03,800
Speaker 3: But like it's really all in the outward seeking of

640
00:30:03,840 --> 00:30:06,080
Speaker 3: what you want and asking for it out loud.

641
00:30:06,200 --> 00:30:06,400
Speaker 2: You know.

642
00:30:06,400 --> 00:30:09,800
Speaker 3: I was in the hair salon yesterday and talking about

643
00:30:09,800 --> 00:30:11,880
Speaker 3: my trip to my hairdresser, and there was a girl

644
00:30:12,160 --> 00:30:13,720
Speaker 3: in the you know, getting her nails done, and she

645
00:30:13,800 --> 00:30:16,480
Speaker 3: was just like, I'm so interested in what you're talking about.

646
00:30:16,520 --> 00:30:18,720
Speaker 3: And like, I literally just asked God this morning. I

647
00:30:18,760 --> 00:30:21,480
Speaker 3: prayed and asked for my tribe, and I asked for

648
00:30:21,720 --> 00:30:23,640
Speaker 3: you know, to meet people who are on the same thing.

649
00:30:23,680 --> 00:30:25,800
Speaker 3: And then I met you here and I was like, girl,

650
00:30:25,840 --> 00:30:28,880
Speaker 3: because that's the power of fucking asking. When you ask God,

651
00:30:28,960 --> 00:30:31,080
Speaker 3: even if you don't know exactly what you're asking for,

652
00:30:31,440 --> 00:30:34,440
Speaker 3: you'll start to unlike He'll start or she'll start to

653
00:30:34,880 --> 00:30:37,239
Speaker 3: reveal the things that you need. And it's like up

654
00:30:37,240 --> 00:30:39,920
Speaker 3: to you if you're going to be aware enough to

655
00:30:40,680 --> 00:30:42,600
Speaker 3: be like, oh, this is this is the path and

656
00:30:42,600 --> 00:30:44,840
Speaker 3: not to be afraid of it and to just like

657
00:30:44,960 --> 00:30:48,680
Speaker 3: keep walking in that direction and you know doing will work.

658
00:30:48,760 --> 00:30:52,000
Speaker 2: And you know, inviting the man from.

659
00:30:52,000 --> 00:30:56,040
Speaker 3: Yoga and like in participating in certain type of just

660
00:30:56,080 --> 00:30:59,560
Speaker 3: different things. And like even in Tantra, the lineage that

661
00:30:59,560 --> 00:31:03,280
Speaker 3: we study, it's like a combination of different lineages.

662
00:31:03,400 --> 00:31:03,600
Speaker 2: You know.

663
00:31:03,640 --> 00:31:06,000
Speaker 3: That's one thing about tontras, Like no one's dissing each

664
00:31:06,000 --> 00:31:08,400
Speaker 3: other's thing. It's more like a collective like I'm gonna

665
00:31:08,400 --> 00:31:10,040
Speaker 3: take that, I'm gonna take this, and then it like

666
00:31:10,280 --> 00:31:13,120
Speaker 3: comes into this this lineage that is what we learn now.

667
00:31:13,160 --> 00:31:15,440
Speaker 3: But when we met him in the jungle, and even

668
00:31:15,440 --> 00:31:17,680
Speaker 3: when we met Sylvia in the jungle with like her

669
00:31:17,800 --> 00:31:19,840
Speaker 3: she has so many offerings. But you know, starting with

670
00:31:19,880 --> 00:31:23,440
Speaker 3: the natal chart reading, it's just like you get to

671
00:31:23,520 --> 00:31:26,840
Speaker 3: mix medicines when you are open to meeting other medicine

672
00:31:26,880 --> 00:31:29,760
Speaker 3: people in the jungle or wherever you meet them, and

673
00:31:29,800 --> 00:31:32,600
Speaker 3: like that's what the connection in the community is all about,

674
00:31:32,720 --> 00:31:35,760
Speaker 3: is because we get to gain so much information and

675
00:31:35,840 --> 00:31:37,520
Speaker 3: take it back to our kids and take it back

676
00:31:37,560 --> 00:31:42,960
Speaker 3: to each other and like grow in our spiritual pharmacy. M.

677
00:31:46,080 --> 00:31:49,000
Speaker 1: That's true. It's true. And I've just realized, I've just

678
00:31:49,440 --> 00:31:55,000
Speaker 1: I've realized how you know, they always say, oh, when

679
00:31:55,040 --> 00:31:57,360
Speaker 1: you choose yourself, like things start to show up. And

680
00:31:57,960 --> 00:32:00,000
Speaker 1: I was reflecting on where I was at last year

681
00:32:00,120 --> 00:32:04,160
Speaker 1: year and like the regression is that the word that

682
00:32:04,400 --> 00:32:07,880
Speaker 1: I had made in my process in my healing, and

683
00:32:07,960 --> 00:32:11,520
Speaker 1: like actively choosing to go against myself in so many ways.

684
00:32:11,520 --> 00:32:14,080
Speaker 1: But it was necessary, even that lesson was really necessary.

685
00:32:14,520 --> 00:32:16,200
Speaker 1: But I was thinking and I was told you this,

686
00:32:16,400 --> 00:32:21,080
Speaker 1: Like during the retreat, I was like if I had

687
00:32:21,080 --> 00:32:24,000
Speaker 1: continued to not, if I had continued down that path,

688
00:32:24,040 --> 00:32:25,960
Speaker 1: like none of these things would have been available to me.

689
00:32:27,120 --> 00:32:32,320
Speaker 1: Like I was really I was really considering going against

690
00:32:32,360 --> 00:32:37,560
Speaker 1: myself just for it is I can't even say. It

691
00:32:37,600 --> 00:32:41,280
Speaker 1: wasn't even safety. It was just like a feeling companionship,

692
00:32:41,520 --> 00:32:45,120
Speaker 1: was a feeling of like wanting to be loved and

693
00:32:46,960 --> 00:32:50,760
Speaker 1: just being tired of looking and searching. It was like

694
00:32:50,880 --> 00:32:52,640
Speaker 1: I'm done. I don't want to do this anymore. And

695
00:32:52,720 --> 00:32:54,120
Speaker 1: that was really it. It was like I don't want

696
00:32:54,120 --> 00:32:56,960
Speaker 1: to tell someone my life story again. I don't feel

697
00:32:56,960 --> 00:33:01,080
Speaker 1: like doing all of that. And it's interesting now because

698
00:33:01,800 --> 00:33:05,920
Speaker 1: even in dating now and the people that I've attracted,

699
00:33:06,880 --> 00:33:08,880
Speaker 1: I haven't had to do a lot of that either.

700
00:33:08,960 --> 00:33:10,200
Speaker 1: I haven't even had to do a lot of that

701
00:33:10,280 --> 00:33:14,160
Speaker 1: explaining who I am. It's just like it unveils itself

702
00:33:14,160 --> 00:33:17,400
Speaker 1: in such a different way that doesn't feel cumbersome, it

703
00:33:17,440 --> 00:33:21,640
Speaker 1: doesn't feel daunting, it doesn't feel annoying. It feels exciting.

704
00:33:21,760 --> 00:33:26,240
Speaker 1: And ever since I've departed from that situation and just

705
00:33:26,840 --> 00:33:28,880
Speaker 1: letting go of a lot of things fear and that

706
00:33:28,960 --> 00:33:30,600
Speaker 1: was something that came up a lot in the work

707
00:33:30,640 --> 00:33:33,400
Speaker 1: with Sylvia was that there is still a lot of fear.

708
00:33:36,200 --> 00:33:38,320
Speaker 1: There's still a lot of fear attached to me, but

709
00:33:38,400 --> 00:33:41,400
Speaker 1: a lot of it is not even my own. And

710
00:33:42,280 --> 00:33:46,479
Speaker 1: having that understanding, and I never even thought about that,

711
00:33:46,600 --> 00:33:51,240
Speaker 1: I thought, like I've always I've always felt like all

712
00:33:51,240 --> 00:33:57,120
Speaker 1: the things that I feel, whether it's anxiousness, fear, judgment, insecurity,

713
00:33:57,760 --> 00:33:59,640
Speaker 1: like those are all the makings of just me. This

714
00:33:59,720 --> 00:34:02,920
Speaker 1: is who I am. But we don't ever really consider

715
00:34:03,080 --> 00:34:05,960
Speaker 1: that some of the things or the habits that we

716
00:34:06,000 --> 00:34:08,880
Speaker 1: even have are not our own, and there's work that

717
00:34:08,920 --> 00:34:11,879
Speaker 1: has to be done to get those those things off

718
00:34:11,920 --> 00:34:15,560
Speaker 1: of you. And so even since that experience with Sylvia,

719
00:34:15,680 --> 00:34:21,200
Speaker 1: I feel less fearful about just even like choices, and

720
00:34:21,800 --> 00:34:24,279
Speaker 1: I feel just more at peace and at ease, and

721
00:34:24,320 --> 00:34:29,680
Speaker 1: I feel even like I've starting to witness the healing

722
00:34:29,719 --> 00:34:31,360
Speaker 1: in my family. And I was thinking, you know, I

723
00:34:31,440 --> 00:34:33,279
Speaker 1: talked about this earlier in the year, about like this

724
00:34:33,960 --> 00:34:35,919
Speaker 1: me realizing that me and my dad still had work

725
00:34:35,920 --> 00:34:38,480
Speaker 1: to do and feeling like I forgive him so like

726
00:34:39,200 --> 00:34:41,359
Speaker 1: we're good, and then realizing, oh no, there's still more

727
00:34:41,360 --> 00:34:44,160
Speaker 1: work to do, and this work that I did with Sylvia.

728
00:34:45,360 --> 00:34:49,400
Speaker 1: I feel like was even more impactful than me telling

729
00:34:49,440 --> 00:34:50,960
Speaker 1: my dad, Hey, I really want us to go on

730
00:34:50,960 --> 00:34:52,600
Speaker 1: a trip and spend more time together and get to

731
00:34:52,640 --> 00:34:55,480
Speaker 1: know each other more, like going be able to go

732
00:34:55,600 --> 00:34:59,000
Speaker 1: back to like one of the roots that are connected

733
00:34:59,040 --> 00:35:02,719
Speaker 1: to him as a as a young boy. His relationship

734
00:35:02,719 --> 00:35:06,320
Speaker 1: with his mother has already become so much more healing.

735
00:35:06,320 --> 00:35:09,400
Speaker 1: In our relationship, we're already talking more than we did before,

736
00:35:09,960 --> 00:35:13,600
Speaker 1: and it's just based on I feel like, being able

737
00:35:13,600 --> 00:35:17,560
Speaker 1: to tap into something outside of just what our physical

738
00:35:17,600 --> 00:35:19,720
Speaker 1: bodies are doing, which is like communicating with one another.

739
00:35:19,760 --> 00:35:23,680
Speaker 1: It's like other realmly for lack of a better word,

740
00:35:24,120 --> 00:35:28,080
Speaker 1: that has kind of renegotiated my contract with him and

741
00:35:28,160 --> 00:35:32,200
Speaker 1: like how he communicates with me, and like so even

742
00:35:32,239 --> 00:35:36,319
Speaker 1: since then, like two days ago, I told him that, like,

743
00:35:36,320 --> 00:35:38,480
Speaker 1: I really wanted to connect with my roots in Texas.

744
00:35:38,520 --> 00:35:39,719
Speaker 1: And if you're watching this on.

745
00:35:39,640 --> 00:35:44,239
Speaker 2: YouTube and see that you got a cowboy.

746
00:35:43,760 --> 00:35:45,719
Speaker 1: Hat on and actually my dad bought me this hat

747
00:35:45,800 --> 00:35:48,759
Speaker 1: on our trip. Yeah, So me and my dad went

748
00:35:48,800 --> 00:35:51,880
Speaker 1: on this father daughter trip. We went to Solvang and

749
00:35:51,920 --> 00:35:53,719
Speaker 1: I went into this hat store and I was like,

750
00:35:53,760 --> 00:35:55,200
Speaker 1: I want this hat. He's like I'll get it for you.

751
00:35:55,440 --> 00:35:57,040
Speaker 1: And so I'm wearing this in honor of him, but

752
00:35:57,080 --> 00:36:03,040
Speaker 1: also like just like an honor of Beyonce, not an

753
00:36:03,080 --> 00:36:07,560
Speaker 1: honor my daddy and beiance. They both from Texas. Shout

754
00:36:07,560 --> 00:36:09,239
Speaker 1: out to Texas, Sealy, Texas.

755
00:36:11,280 --> 00:36:14,160
Speaker 2: But uh, I feel.

756
00:36:15,920 --> 00:36:18,520
Speaker 1: More connected to him now, and I feel like he

757
00:36:18,560 --> 00:36:21,719
Speaker 1: feels more connected to me. And I was telling him

758
00:36:21,800 --> 00:36:25,200
Speaker 1: that I really wanted to establish a better relationship with

759
00:36:25,239 --> 00:36:27,719
Speaker 1: my family because I feel and that was something that

760
00:36:27,760 --> 00:36:29,880
Speaker 1: came up again, like feeling like I have no roots,

761
00:36:30,680 --> 00:36:34,560
Speaker 1: Like my mom's side of the family were kind of disjointed.

762
00:36:34,640 --> 00:36:38,000
Speaker 1: We have this like little bubble of like our immediate

763
00:36:38,040 --> 00:36:40,319
Speaker 1: family that we're close to, and then everyone else is

764
00:36:40,400 --> 00:36:44,960
Speaker 1: very dispersed. There's like resentment, there's just it's just like

765
00:36:45,000 --> 00:36:47,000
Speaker 1: we don't fuck with y'all. And then they're on my

766
00:36:47,040 --> 00:36:49,279
Speaker 1: dad's side of the family, there's just a disconnect because

767
00:36:49,280 --> 00:36:51,799
Speaker 1: me and my dad's relationship has not been like I'm

768
00:36:51,800 --> 00:36:55,040
Speaker 1: always just kind of trying to focus on him, him

769
00:36:55,080 --> 00:36:57,240
Speaker 1: and me, him and me and not realizing like sometimes

770
00:36:57,239 --> 00:37:00,440
Speaker 1: you gotta like go around the person that you're trying

771
00:37:00,600 --> 00:37:04,920
Speaker 1: to heal with and heal those other relationships so that

772
00:37:05,360 --> 00:37:08,120
Speaker 1: you guys can come back together. And that's what I've

773
00:37:08,160 --> 00:37:11,520
Speaker 1: realized is like me doing that work with Sylvia and

774
00:37:11,560 --> 00:37:14,640
Speaker 1: then also now like developing relationships with my cousins in

775
00:37:14,680 --> 00:37:16,239
Speaker 1: Texas that I haven't spoken to since I was a

776
00:37:16,239 --> 00:37:19,359
Speaker 1: little girl, is making my dad and our relationship even

777
00:37:19,360 --> 00:37:21,920
Speaker 1: more richer and like making us like, oh, like oh

778
00:37:21,960 --> 00:37:24,040
Speaker 1: you talk to Aunt Patsy what she say, like, oh my,

779
00:37:24,120 --> 00:37:26,400
Speaker 1: and then him sharing more stories with me because I

780
00:37:26,440 --> 00:37:28,600
Speaker 1: don't know what to ask certain things. I don't even

781
00:37:28,640 --> 00:37:30,799
Speaker 1: know what to ask, you know, so.

782
00:37:31,840 --> 00:37:33,520
Speaker 3: Well where you get to kind of go to the

783
00:37:33,640 --> 00:37:38,400
Speaker 3: root of the wounds that like unfortunately and like our

784
00:37:38,440 --> 00:37:40,759
Speaker 3: parents don't talk about because we kind of come from

785
00:37:41,239 --> 00:37:44,200
Speaker 3: cultures that are like we aren't talking about that, you know,

786
00:37:44,239 --> 00:37:46,480
Speaker 3: and like unless you have the information, how would you know,

787
00:37:46,560 --> 00:37:48,160
Speaker 3: And a lot of us don't have the information.

788
00:37:48,480 --> 00:37:50,200
Speaker 2: And even when you're telling me, talking to me.

789
00:37:50,160 --> 00:37:53,360
Speaker 3: About your experience, I was just like, damn, Like that

790
00:37:53,520 --> 00:37:55,840
Speaker 3: is powerful because I was thinking about like even my

791
00:37:55,880 --> 00:37:58,719
Speaker 3: relationship with my parents and like we are cool, you know,

792
00:37:58,840 --> 00:38:00,680
Speaker 3: we're good, and we're pretty close, and like I could

793
00:38:00,719 --> 00:38:03,080
Speaker 3: call them, but like I don't need to call my

794
00:38:03,120 --> 00:38:05,880
Speaker 3: parents every day. Like I probably didn't talk to my

795
00:38:05,960 --> 00:38:09,120
Speaker 3: parents on the phone the entire time I was gone,

796
00:38:09,160 --> 00:38:11,360
Speaker 3: and I didn't feel a way about it, and like

797
00:38:11,400 --> 00:38:13,040
Speaker 3: if I did there with some pictures of Luna, but

798
00:38:13,120 --> 00:38:16,959
Speaker 3: like I just realized that like there are there's such

799
00:38:17,040 --> 00:38:18,560
Speaker 3: even for your you know, for you too, like for

800
00:38:18,560 --> 00:38:21,720
Speaker 3: your dad, there's such walls up because they have childhood trauma,

801
00:38:22,040 --> 00:38:23,759
Speaker 3: and if you don't know what to ask, you're just

802
00:38:23,800 --> 00:38:26,200
Speaker 3: feeling awkward, like I'm trying to get to know you more,

803
00:38:26,320 --> 00:38:30,720
Speaker 3: you know, and it feels it feels huge, and especially

804
00:38:30,800 --> 00:38:34,680
Speaker 3: as black people, especially with our history being so dark

805
00:38:34,800 --> 00:38:38,000
Speaker 3: and rich, it's like it's a sensitive thing and and

806
00:38:38,480 --> 00:38:40,360
Speaker 3: you know, just like I've I've found out glimpse of

807
00:38:40,360 --> 00:38:43,080
Speaker 3: things about my family history and like you know about

808
00:38:43,120 --> 00:38:49,200
Speaker 3: like adoption and abortions and just like other other families

809
00:38:49,239 --> 00:38:51,040
Speaker 3: and things that I had no idea. But then we

810
00:38:51,080 --> 00:38:53,239
Speaker 3: don't stop to think about how has that affected our

811
00:38:53,280 --> 00:38:55,520
Speaker 3: parents and then how does that in turn affect us?

812
00:38:55,760 --> 00:38:57,200
Speaker 3: And I told you like even when I went to

813
00:38:57,239 --> 00:38:59,920
Speaker 3: Mexico with Ariel and Sane and had that like super

814
00:39:00,560 --> 00:39:04,239
Speaker 3: super like crazy experience where I experienced feeling all that

815
00:39:04,280 --> 00:39:07,400
Speaker 3: pain from my female ancestors, and I would have like

816
00:39:07,960 --> 00:39:10,360
Speaker 3: I just knew it was that. I just realized, there's

817
00:39:10,400 --> 00:39:13,839
Speaker 3: so much, like you said, that we've inherited, so much fear,

818
00:39:13,880 --> 00:39:16,200
Speaker 3: We've inherited, like you know, even like things that come

819
00:39:16,280 --> 00:39:20,840
Speaker 3: up in my relationship jealousy, like distrust, and it's real,

820
00:39:20,960 --> 00:39:23,279
Speaker 3: and we sometimes we just chop it up like you said,

821
00:39:23,360 --> 00:39:25,000
Speaker 3: is like, oh, that's just who I am, or that's

822
00:39:25,040 --> 00:39:27,120
Speaker 3: just what it is, or this is just my relationship

823
00:39:27,160 --> 00:39:28,680
Speaker 3: with my parents, or this is just who he is

824
00:39:28,920 --> 00:39:31,520
Speaker 3: without really being able to have the tools to delve

825
00:39:31,600 --> 00:39:34,400
Speaker 3: into where did you come from? And what am I

826
00:39:34,440 --> 00:39:36,480
Speaker 3: holding in my womb that I want to clear so

827
00:39:36,520 --> 00:39:38,719
Speaker 3: that I'm not giving it to Luna into you know,

828
00:39:38,800 --> 00:39:42,319
Speaker 3: her kids. So I'm like super proud of you for

829
00:39:42,360 --> 00:39:43,879
Speaker 3: doing the work, and now I want to go work

830
00:39:43,880 --> 00:39:44,040
Speaker 3: with it.

831
00:39:44,880 --> 00:39:46,120
Speaker 2: Sylvia Ancestral.

832
00:39:46,520 --> 00:39:48,839
Speaker 3: And it made me also think about when we first

833
00:39:48,920 --> 00:39:51,640
Speaker 3: sat down with her, ever before we had the retreat,

834
00:39:51,719 --> 00:39:54,400
Speaker 3: when we were just like there visiting, I had a

835
00:39:54,440 --> 00:39:56,200
Speaker 3: reading with her and the very first thing she said

836
00:39:56,200 --> 00:39:57,759
Speaker 3: to me and I honestly I think this scared the

837
00:39:57,760 --> 00:40:00,600
Speaker 3: shit out of me and I recognize it now, And

838
00:40:00,640 --> 00:40:04,640
Speaker 3: she literally looked at me and said, no one's laughing.

839
00:40:04,640 --> 00:40:08,480
Speaker 3: Your ancestors aren't laughing. And I was just like, bitch,

840
00:40:08,520 --> 00:40:08,799
Speaker 3: what the.

841
00:40:08,760 --> 00:40:09,560
Speaker 2: Fuck does that mean?

842
00:40:10,320 --> 00:40:12,680
Speaker 3: Like I wasn't expecting to open with that, you know,

843
00:40:12,800 --> 00:40:19,280
Speaker 3: and like basically like our you know, our our journey

844
00:40:19,360 --> 00:40:22,520
Speaker 3: is necessary and it's not just to us, and it

845
00:40:22,560 --> 00:40:24,600
Speaker 3: is like to be taken seriously. But you don't know

846
00:40:24,640 --> 00:40:28,560
Speaker 3: you have access to these type of tools and people

847
00:40:28,640 --> 00:40:30,680
Speaker 3: unless you actually do the work to like kind of

848
00:40:30,760 --> 00:40:32,440
Speaker 3: just follow in the guide.

849
00:40:32,600 --> 00:40:34,759
Speaker 1: Well, and I think also, like I think about this

850
00:40:34,960 --> 00:40:37,839
Speaker 1: like term you hear about. You hear a lot where

851
00:40:37,840 --> 00:40:42,640
Speaker 1: they say, like healing isn't linear, And I understand that

852
00:40:43,200 --> 00:40:46,040
Speaker 1: profoundly now because I was really trying to be linear

853
00:40:46,080 --> 00:40:48,680
Speaker 1: about the healing of me and my dad's relationship, like

854
00:40:48,719 --> 00:40:51,960
Speaker 1: going straight to him to try and heal this, not

855
00:40:52,239 --> 00:40:55,640
Speaker 1: realizing that there were other options. And like, if you're

856
00:40:55,680 --> 00:40:57,840
Speaker 1: listening right now, you're trying to heal a relationship with

857
00:40:57,880 --> 00:41:01,719
Speaker 1: a parent or whoever, Like I encourage you to think

858
00:41:01,719 --> 00:41:05,080
Speaker 1: outside of the box and like consider going around them.

859
00:41:05,280 --> 00:41:09,600
Speaker 1: And you know, sometimes it's about healing other parts of

860
00:41:09,640 --> 00:41:13,200
Speaker 1: your lineage, not just that one in particular, and inevitably

861
00:41:13,560 --> 00:41:17,239
Speaker 1: it will those that healing energy will echo into other

862
00:41:17,320 --> 00:41:21,920
Speaker 1: parts of your relationships, including the one you're actually trying

863
00:41:21,920 --> 00:41:24,440
Speaker 1: to heal. And so that's what I realized in this

864
00:41:24,520 --> 00:41:27,920
Speaker 1: experience is that like I was really actively like wanting

865
00:41:27,960 --> 00:41:30,200
Speaker 1: to sit down in front of my dad and say,

866
00:41:30,239 --> 00:41:32,520
Speaker 1: like we have shit to do. We have like I

867
00:41:32,560 --> 00:41:34,479
Speaker 1: want to I want us to be closer, like let's

868
00:41:34,480 --> 00:41:36,680
Speaker 1: do this, let's go on dad and daughter dates. And

869
00:41:36,719 --> 00:41:40,279
Speaker 1: it's like, okay, it just didn't feel like it.

870
00:41:40,280 --> 00:41:42,840
Speaker 3: Still can be surface. You can't really dig up in

871
00:41:42,920 --> 00:41:43,400
Speaker 3: the shit.

872
00:41:43,360 --> 00:41:46,759
Speaker 1: Right, so like going around it and like under it

873
00:41:46,800 --> 00:41:50,760
Speaker 1: and above it, like I'm starting to feel like, Okay,

874
00:41:50,880 --> 00:41:54,000
Speaker 1: this is actually what's going to help really heal this wound.

875
00:41:54,600 --> 00:41:57,000
Speaker 3: And this is really what like TNTRA is. You know,

876
00:41:57,120 --> 00:42:00,520
Speaker 3: it's about the energetic healing, it's about the spear healing.

877
00:42:00,560 --> 00:42:02,319
Speaker 2: It's about the healing that we do on.

878
00:42:02,239 --> 00:42:06,319
Speaker 3: A soul level, like we are souls inhabiting vessels. And

879
00:42:06,320 --> 00:42:08,240
Speaker 3: I know I say this a lot, but it's so true,

880
00:42:08,280 --> 00:42:10,319
Speaker 3: and we like underestimate what that means to be this

881
00:42:10,520 --> 00:42:14,520
Speaker 3: vast and like when you decide to like energetically heal,

882
00:42:14,600 --> 00:42:17,800
Speaker 3: it's contagious and even like Erica, you know sharing this experience.

883
00:42:17,840 --> 00:42:20,160
Speaker 3: Now if someone's at home thinking like damn, like what

884
00:42:20,440 --> 00:42:22,440
Speaker 3: does that look like for me? Even when you shared

885
00:42:22,440 --> 00:42:24,800
Speaker 3: it with me, and obviously I have access to Sylvia,

886
00:42:24,880 --> 00:42:28,960
Speaker 3: but like, just it made its contagious for me. And

887
00:42:29,000 --> 00:42:32,000
Speaker 3: that's the beautiful thing about energetic and spiritual work is

888
00:42:32,000 --> 00:42:35,120
Speaker 3: like it doesn't have to be directly transmitted for it

889
00:42:35,160 --> 00:42:37,719
Speaker 3: to be transmitted. And it's crazy because you said something

890
00:42:37,719 --> 00:42:39,480
Speaker 3: to me, and I started thinking about my childhood and

891
00:42:39,480 --> 00:42:41,080
Speaker 3: then Orlando woke up and was like, I had a

892
00:42:41,160 --> 00:42:42,719
Speaker 3: dream about you know, me as a kid. And the

893
00:42:42,760 --> 00:42:44,480
Speaker 3: thing is a lot of us don't realize. And I

894
00:42:44,520 --> 00:42:46,520
Speaker 3: think you said this in the in the episode and

895
00:42:46,520 --> 00:42:50,160
Speaker 3: take a hike, bitch. Is that a lot of like

896
00:42:50,560 --> 00:42:53,200
Speaker 3: a lot of trauma results in loss of memory of

897
00:42:53,239 --> 00:42:55,439
Speaker 3: your childhood and you think it's because you just got

898
00:42:55,440 --> 00:42:57,080
Speaker 3: old and you have a lot of memories. And that's

899
00:42:57,080 --> 00:42:59,960
Speaker 3: something too. But I realized recently that a lot of

900
00:43:00,200 --> 00:43:02,480
Speaker 3: the things that I blacked out was intentional. But I

901
00:43:02,520 --> 00:43:05,200
Speaker 3: don't I can't really like I haven't really gone deep

902
00:43:05,280 --> 00:43:08,400
Speaker 3: to figure out why. But there's certain like I have moments,

903
00:43:08,400 --> 00:43:10,680
Speaker 3: but there's a lot of things I've forgotten and I

904
00:43:10,719 --> 00:43:13,080
Speaker 3: just realized, like you, doing the work is contagious to

905
00:43:13,120 --> 00:43:15,440
Speaker 3: me now because now I know I have as if

906
00:43:15,440 --> 00:43:18,239
Speaker 3: I if I just scratched the surface, I have a

907
00:43:18,480 --> 00:43:22,000
Speaker 3: level of access to healing that maybe I didn't you know, realize,

908
00:43:22,239 --> 00:43:24,600
Speaker 3: And the same for every all of our friends and

909
00:43:24,640 --> 00:43:26,719
Speaker 3: everyone around us, and just like too, you know, one

910
00:43:26,760 --> 00:43:28,759
Speaker 3: of our really good friend's child to actually just came

911
00:43:28,760 --> 00:43:31,440
Speaker 3: to the retreat and now I'm sure that shifted her.

912
00:43:31,480 --> 00:43:33,800
Speaker 3: And like That's the beautiful thing about doing this work

913
00:43:33,840 --> 00:43:38,360
Speaker 3: on yourself is that inevitably the energetic healing spreads.

914
00:43:38,480 --> 00:43:38,719
Speaker 2: You know.

915
00:43:38,920 --> 00:43:42,040
Speaker 3: Even we mentioned this before, like we were we sat

916
00:43:42,080 --> 00:43:43,680
Speaker 3: down with the girls and they're like, we want to

917
00:43:43,719 --> 00:43:45,560
Speaker 3: do like a ceremony, and we were just like kind

918
00:43:45,560 --> 00:43:48,279
Speaker 3: of let them lead, and they did a bunch of

919
00:43:48,320 --> 00:43:50,680
Speaker 3: things that we've done in ceremony, and I was like,

920
00:43:50,719 --> 00:43:52,799
Speaker 3: they've never been to these ceremonies, but they've been on

921
00:43:52,880 --> 00:43:54,880
Speaker 3: property and they've been with us in this last.

922
00:43:54,719 --> 00:43:56,440
Speaker 2: Six years of our process.

923
00:43:56,480 --> 00:44:00,680
Speaker 3: And it's beautiful to know that just healing myself has

924
00:44:00,760 --> 00:44:03,360
Speaker 3: transmitted to our girls and that they are seeking and

925
00:44:03,840 --> 00:44:07,160
Speaker 3: recognizing that there is there are ways to access all

926
00:44:07,200 --> 00:44:11,080
Speaker 3: around and not just physically and I think we underestimate

927
00:44:11,120 --> 00:44:13,719
Speaker 3: that work. You know, you're working out, you're doing exercises,

928
00:44:13,760 --> 00:44:16,239
Speaker 3: you're getting a trainer, you're eating right, but like there

929
00:44:16,320 --> 00:44:18,560
Speaker 3: is some deep ass work that needs to happen for

930
00:44:18,640 --> 00:44:22,480
Speaker 3: us to experience like the ultimate joy and pleasure in

931
00:44:22,520 --> 00:44:25,480
Speaker 3: this lifetime, and it requires like it's not always easy

932
00:44:26,600 --> 00:44:29,319
Speaker 3: and like even the you know, yesterday, I was like

933
00:44:29,360 --> 00:44:30,719
Speaker 3: in my head a lot, and I felt it.

934
00:44:30,719 --> 00:44:31,600
Speaker 2: My body was tense.

935
00:44:31,640 --> 00:44:34,799
Speaker 3: I was holding my breath and Orlando like described me

936
00:44:34,840 --> 00:44:36,480
Speaker 3: and he was like looked at me, and he put

937
00:44:36,480 --> 00:44:38,200
Speaker 3: his hand on my chest and he was just like

938
00:44:38,239 --> 00:44:41,799
Speaker 3: you're safe, You're home, and I was just like he's

939
00:44:41,800 --> 00:44:43,520
Speaker 3: like breathe. He made me breathe with him, and I

940
00:44:43,640 --> 00:44:44,880
Speaker 3: just was like in my head, like how did he

941
00:44:44,960 --> 00:44:46,399
Speaker 3: know I was in my head? Like I don't even

942
00:44:46,400 --> 00:44:49,480
Speaker 3: know if I realized I had been so heavily like

943
00:44:49,520 --> 00:44:51,040
Speaker 3: in my head, but I felt it in my body

944
00:44:51,080 --> 00:44:53,440
Speaker 3: as soon as he triggered me to do it, and

945
00:44:53,840 --> 00:44:57,040
Speaker 3: he laid me on his chest and like like patted me,

946
00:44:57,840 --> 00:45:01,920
Speaker 3: and it was something that triggered me the past literally

947
00:45:01,960 --> 00:45:05,040
Speaker 3: like shot me back into like my childhood self and

948
00:45:05,080 --> 00:45:08,120
Speaker 3: it made me cry and I wasn't feeling emotional at

949
00:45:08,120 --> 00:45:08,359
Speaker 3: the time.

950
00:45:08,400 --> 00:45:09,520
Speaker 2: It just like happened so quickly.

951
00:45:09,560 --> 00:45:11,400
Speaker 3: It was like my body was defaulting on me like

952
00:45:11,400 --> 00:45:13,720
Speaker 3: ooh ooh, like and I was just like a baby.

953
00:45:13,760 --> 00:45:17,400
Speaker 3: And then I and I just felt it felt nourishing

954
00:45:17,400 --> 00:45:19,359
Speaker 3: in a way that I needed him to recognize that

955
00:45:19,400 --> 00:45:21,840
Speaker 3: and I'm grateful for it. But then he lifted up

956
00:45:21,880 --> 00:45:26,000
Speaker 3: my shirt to touch his, and there was a feeling

957
00:45:26,040 --> 00:45:28,680
Speaker 3: inside of me that was like it made me feel

958
00:45:28,680 --> 00:45:31,480
Speaker 3: like I could feel that I was just a soul

959
00:45:31,680 --> 00:45:34,000
Speaker 3: and that my soul was pressing against the front of

960
00:45:34,040 --> 00:45:37,520
Speaker 3: my body to be closer to his. You know, I

961
00:45:37,560 --> 00:45:39,560
Speaker 3: felt like as soon as he lifted my shirt, I

962
00:45:39,640 --> 00:45:42,840
Speaker 3: was like I felt my spirit, my infinite self, like

963
00:45:42,960 --> 00:45:45,759
Speaker 3: press up against the front of my body to be

964
00:45:45,840 --> 00:45:48,200
Speaker 3: closer to his. And I had this thought like I've

965
00:45:48,200 --> 00:45:51,400
Speaker 3: probably known him in so many ethers, but this is

966
00:45:51,400 --> 00:45:54,359
Speaker 3: this unique opportunity that we get to touch physically, and

967
00:45:54,360 --> 00:45:57,160
Speaker 3: that I could feel like the ease in that like

968
00:45:57,200 --> 00:45:59,640
Speaker 3: anything I'm in my head about is really not important,

969
00:46:00,239 --> 00:46:02,560
Speaker 3: and that I was safe and I was home, and

970
00:46:02,680 --> 00:46:05,680
Speaker 3: like it's like it just it caused like those all

971
00:46:05,719 --> 00:46:08,840
Speaker 3: those quick you know thoughts that quickly like it was

972
00:46:09,440 --> 00:46:12,680
Speaker 3: so it was like a reality check, you know, and

973
00:46:12,719 --> 00:46:15,440
Speaker 3: it was just it's interesting how we are. So and

974
00:46:15,480 --> 00:46:16,920
Speaker 3: even on the retreat, a lot of the girls I

975
00:46:17,000 --> 00:46:19,000
Speaker 3: talked to were like telling me at points they got

976
00:46:19,160 --> 00:46:21,960
Speaker 3: in their heads assuming that people were like, oh, like.

977
00:46:22,080 --> 00:46:24,399
Speaker 2: Talking about them, or like.

978
00:46:24,360 --> 00:46:26,080
Speaker 3: They were already grouped up, so I'm gonna go back

979
00:46:26,080 --> 00:46:29,399
Speaker 3: to my room, and I was like, I'm we are

980
00:46:29,480 --> 00:46:34,759
Speaker 3: rarely in environments where we can say, were you talking

981
00:46:34,760 --> 00:46:36,719
Speaker 3: about me? And we're like, no, girl, we were just

982
00:46:36,760 --> 00:46:38,680
Speaker 3: like chatting like oh, like can I sit here? Like yeah,

983
00:46:38,680 --> 00:46:40,080
Speaker 3: I have a seat, Like yeah, let's come join in

984
00:46:40,120 --> 00:46:43,080
Speaker 3: the conversation. But we're not in environments where our nervous

985
00:46:43,080 --> 00:46:45,319
Speaker 3: systems are regulated. Then you feel safe enough to say

986
00:46:45,320 --> 00:46:47,839
Speaker 3: that to strangers. But the truth is we're all making

987
00:46:47,920 --> 00:46:50,520
Speaker 3: up narratives in our head that are not real. And

988
00:46:50,560 --> 00:46:52,319
Speaker 3: when we can get out of our heads and out

989
00:46:52,360 --> 00:46:54,800
Speaker 3: of this physical realm, like then we can like ease

990
00:46:54,840 --> 00:46:58,640
Speaker 3: into the fearlessness because like the truth is like there's

991
00:46:58,680 --> 00:47:02,200
Speaker 3: nothing to fear because we never die. And it's just

992
00:47:02,400 --> 00:47:06,680
Speaker 3: like it's these small glimpses of like your experience and

993
00:47:06,719 --> 00:47:10,600
Speaker 3: seeing so many women tainted by these ideas that like

994
00:47:10,680 --> 00:47:12,920
Speaker 3: are just not real, These narratives we tell ourselves and

995
00:47:12,960 --> 00:47:15,560
Speaker 3: these beliefs that we've inherited that are not even ours.

996
00:47:16,160 --> 00:47:17,279
Speaker 2: And it's just like the.

997
00:47:19,400 --> 00:47:23,880
Speaker 3: Gift in surrendering and asking spirit for like fulfill me

998
00:47:24,000 --> 00:47:25,680
Speaker 3: and bring me the people that I need, bring me

999
00:47:25,719 --> 00:47:30,360
Speaker 3: the and like following that path is such a gift

1000
00:47:30,400 --> 00:47:32,320
Speaker 3: that we're gonna like that keeps on giving.

1001
00:47:33,719 --> 00:47:38,560
Speaker 1: No for real, I mean, I totally agree. I think about, yeah,

1002
00:47:38,600 --> 00:47:40,640
Speaker 1: having those conversations with a few different women on the

1003
00:47:40,640 --> 00:47:43,839
Speaker 1: retreat who had made up these narratives in their mind

1004
00:47:43,920 --> 00:47:46,879
Speaker 1: and then like getting into the practice of yes, going

1005
00:47:46,960 --> 00:47:49,080
Speaker 1: up to someone and saying, hey, can I can I

1006
00:47:49,120 --> 00:47:52,520
Speaker 1: sit here and talk to you? And like how uncomfortable

1007
00:47:52,800 --> 00:47:56,960
Speaker 1: that is in any other circumstance. Because we've created this

1008
00:47:57,080 --> 00:48:01,560
Speaker 1: little bubble of permission on property, women feel more empowered

1009
00:48:01,760 --> 00:48:05,040
Speaker 1: to ask questions that they never would. They would just

1010
00:48:05,080 --> 00:48:09,000
Speaker 1: suffer in silence and then write off people and add

1011
00:48:09,040 --> 00:48:11,000
Speaker 1: that to the list of why I don't fuck with bitches,

1012
00:48:11,840 --> 00:48:13,759
Speaker 1: you know, Like I don't fuck with bitches, you know.

1013
00:48:13,800 --> 00:48:16,880
Speaker 1: And when all you had to do was just say, hey,

1014
00:48:16,920 --> 00:48:18,360
Speaker 1: I'm gonna ask this question, I was talry to my

1015
00:48:18,400 --> 00:48:20,719
Speaker 1: cousin yesterday and she was saying how she's has like

1016
00:48:20,880 --> 00:48:24,040
Speaker 1: really people pleasing issues and like she was like, there's

1017
00:48:24,080 --> 00:48:26,720
Speaker 1: this girl and I really like her. She's really cool,

1018
00:48:26,920 --> 00:48:28,960
Speaker 1: not like dating wise, Like she's a really cool friend.

1019
00:48:29,360 --> 00:48:33,480
Speaker 1: She does like spoken word, and my cousin she does music,

1020
00:48:33,719 --> 00:48:36,399
Speaker 1: and she's like and she wants me to come over

1021
00:48:36,440 --> 00:48:38,440
Speaker 1: and jam with her. She wants me to like play

1022
00:48:38,480 --> 00:48:40,719
Speaker 1: the guitar while she does spoken word, and it's just

1023
00:48:40,760 --> 00:48:43,239
Speaker 1: like not my thing, Like I just don't I don't

1024
00:48:43,280 --> 00:48:45,480
Speaker 1: fuck with spoken word like that, and I honestly don't

1025
00:48:45,520 --> 00:48:47,080
Speaker 1: have fucking time to do that, like I'm trying to

1026
00:48:47,120 --> 00:48:49,239
Speaker 1: work on my own shit. And so I've literally been

1027
00:48:49,280 --> 00:48:52,040
Speaker 1: avoiding her, like and I really like her, but I'm

1028
00:48:52,320 --> 00:48:55,480
Speaker 1: scared that she's gonna ask me to do this jam

1029
00:48:55,520 --> 00:48:57,319
Speaker 1: session with her that I don't want to do, and

1030
00:48:57,360 --> 00:48:59,200
Speaker 1: I don't know how to tell her no. And I

1031
00:48:59,239 --> 00:49:01,800
Speaker 1: was like, so you're gonna just like forfeit a friendship

1032
00:49:01,880 --> 00:49:03,879
Speaker 1: because you don't know how to say no to this

1033
00:49:03,920 --> 00:49:04,560
Speaker 1: isn't my thing.

1034
00:49:04,960 --> 00:49:05,360
Speaker 2: And I was.

1035
00:49:05,360 --> 00:49:09,360
Speaker 1: Thinking, like how many women do that forfeit friendships? Because

1036
00:49:09,760 --> 00:49:12,080
Speaker 1: either they're making up narratives in their mind, they don't

1037
00:49:12,120 --> 00:49:14,279
Speaker 1: know how to like say hey, like I don't really

1038
00:49:14,320 --> 00:49:16,399
Speaker 1: want to do that, and like thinking the other person

1039
00:49:16,440 --> 00:49:18,680
Speaker 1: that's gonna hate them for it. And I told her,

1040
00:49:18,719 --> 00:49:21,319
Speaker 1: I was like, bitch, Like if you said no to her,

1041
00:49:21,360 --> 00:49:23,520
Speaker 1: she'll probably go find someone else to go do it

1042
00:49:23,560 --> 00:49:26,799
Speaker 1: with her. Like it's that simple, Like you're you're you're

1043
00:49:26,840 --> 00:49:30,760
Speaker 1: actually making yourself so important.

1044
00:49:30,239 --> 00:49:32,280
Speaker 2: It might not even think be what she needs maybe

1045
00:49:32,320 --> 00:49:33,440
Speaker 2: just like a hangout.

1046
00:49:33,160 --> 00:49:35,440
Speaker 1: You know. And she's like, I really like want to

1047
00:49:35,440 --> 00:49:37,239
Speaker 1: hang out with her, but I'm nervous that she's gonna

1048
00:49:37,320 --> 00:49:39,120
Speaker 1: keep asking me for this thing that I don't want

1049
00:49:39,120 --> 00:49:41,880
Speaker 1: to give her. I was like, oh my god, Like

1050
00:49:42,080 --> 00:49:43,759
Speaker 1: as women like we have such a heart. But then

1051
00:49:43,800 --> 00:49:47,400
Speaker 1: she like has no problem extending like really crazy text

1052
00:49:47,400 --> 00:49:50,520
Speaker 1: messages to like guys that are like like she was,

1053
00:49:50,640 --> 00:49:52,160
Speaker 1: she was just telling me the story about this guy

1054
00:49:52,160 --> 00:49:54,279
Speaker 1: who like shopped in the bed or something when what yeah,

1055
00:49:54,320 --> 00:49:56,520
Speaker 1: like like should in the beddy like years ago in

1056
00:49:56,600 --> 00:49:58,960
Speaker 1: high school or something while you're having sex and then

1057
00:49:59,000 --> 00:50:02,759
Speaker 1: like and like when it was happening, like she she

1058
00:50:02,800 --> 00:50:04,680
Speaker 1: saw the shit and he just was like that's not

1059
00:50:04,800 --> 00:50:06,920
Speaker 1: mine and like got up and like walked out, and

1060
00:50:06,960 --> 00:50:08,600
Speaker 1: she had to like wash her sheets, and she was like,

1061
00:50:08,640 --> 00:50:10,400
Speaker 1: what the fuck? And she like ran into him like

1062
00:50:10,520 --> 00:50:15,160
Speaker 1: years later recently actually, and then like a few nights ago,

1063
00:50:15,440 --> 00:50:18,080
Speaker 1: she just randomly texted him like remember when you shit

1064
00:50:18,120 --> 00:50:20,960
Speaker 1: in my bed in high school or in college? And

1065
00:50:21,000 --> 00:50:23,600
Speaker 1: I was like, so you have no problem texting this

1066
00:50:23,719 --> 00:50:25,960
Speaker 1: guy this, but you can't say no to your friend.

1067
00:50:26,000 --> 00:50:27,120
Speaker 1: I'm like, what the fuck is wrong?

1068
00:50:27,160 --> 00:50:28,960
Speaker 2: When she's still mad no?

1069
00:50:29,000 --> 00:50:31,799
Speaker 1: But it was just like it's like women, we can

1070
00:50:31,840 --> 00:50:34,480
Speaker 1: be really extreme in one way and then like super

1071
00:50:34,520 --> 00:50:36,800
Speaker 1: cut off in another way, Like she feels really comfortable

1072
00:50:36,880 --> 00:50:39,160
Speaker 1: kind of like exposing a guy, but has a really

1073
00:50:39,160 --> 00:50:43,239
Speaker 1: hard time like communicating herself. Yeah, And I was I

1074
00:50:43,280 --> 00:50:45,560
Speaker 1: was like thinking like wow, like how many how many

1075
00:50:45,800 --> 00:50:50,719
Speaker 1: friendships have died because of just these made up storylines

1076
00:50:50,719 --> 00:50:53,120
Speaker 1: in our head because we didn't know how to say hey.

1077
00:50:53,360 --> 00:50:56,760
Speaker 1: Like that made me uncomfortable thinking like if we said that,

1078
00:50:56,880 --> 00:51:00,759
Speaker 1: she was going to think whatever about me? And I'm

1079
00:51:00,800 --> 00:51:04,080
Speaker 1: just really grateful that we've created a space, at least

1080
00:51:04,080 --> 00:51:09,800
Speaker 1: for five days where women can practice, can practice saying no,

1081
00:51:10,160 --> 00:51:14,480
Speaker 1: can practice saying yes, can practice like just vocalizing their needs,

1082
00:51:14,840 --> 00:51:17,799
Speaker 1: not being afraid to ask for too much, not being

1083
00:51:17,840 --> 00:51:21,440
Speaker 1: afraid to just be quiet and be at peace. And

1084
00:51:21,880 --> 00:51:24,560
Speaker 1: it's just it's so important for women to have these

1085
00:51:24,600 --> 00:51:28,080
Speaker 1: spaces and men too, like men having these spaces too,

1086
00:51:28,120 --> 00:51:31,840
Speaker 1: And like I'm realizing too with men, like how much

1087
00:51:32,840 --> 00:51:37,319
Speaker 1: how much they need spaces to be I already know this,

1088
00:51:37,400 --> 00:51:40,399
Speaker 1: but to be vulnerable. And it's just like I read

1089
00:51:40,440 --> 00:51:43,600
Speaker 1: our comments sometimes and like there's so many hurt.

1090
00:51:43,920 --> 00:51:48,040
Speaker 2: Men's so basic. They're just so basic.

1091
00:51:48,040 --> 00:51:50,000
Speaker 3: And I try not to let that pollute my mind

1092
00:51:50,040 --> 00:51:54,040
Speaker 3: about like just the the majority of men, because it

1093
00:51:54,080 --> 00:51:55,319
Speaker 3: can't possibly be this.

1094
00:51:56,480 --> 00:51:58,920
Speaker 1: Well, just like women, we need safety. Like I I

1095
00:51:59,560 --> 00:52:02,840
Speaker 1: got fed some sort of like ad or something. I

1096
00:52:02,880 --> 00:52:04,160
Speaker 1: don't know what it was, but it was like these

1097
00:52:04,200 --> 00:52:06,640
Speaker 1: are the things that men need to be asked or

1098
00:52:06,680 --> 00:52:08,400
Speaker 1: like men need to be asked or told, and it

1099
00:52:08,480 --> 00:52:11,759
Speaker 1: was like they need to be told, like you're doing

1100
00:52:11,800 --> 00:52:15,120
Speaker 1: a good job, they need to be told. Like like

1101
00:52:15,160 --> 00:52:16,920
Speaker 1: it was a few different things and it was like

1102
00:52:17,960 --> 00:52:19,799
Speaker 1: not that different from what women need, but.

1103
00:52:19,760 --> 00:52:21,360
Speaker 2: It just like was delivered. It was just different, like

1104
00:52:21,400 --> 00:52:22,240
Speaker 2: different words.

1105
00:52:22,320 --> 00:52:24,520
Speaker 1: Yeah, And I was like we all kind of want

1106
00:52:24,520 --> 00:52:27,640
Speaker 1: the same thing in ways, there's a safety that men

1107
00:52:27,719 --> 00:52:28,359
Speaker 1: need as well.

1108
00:52:28,560 --> 00:52:31,000
Speaker 3: Is there a book on that is there a book

1109
00:52:31,040 --> 00:52:32,879
Speaker 3: on like affirmations for men.

1110
00:52:34,520 --> 00:52:35,400
Speaker 1: Maybe we should write it.

1111
00:52:35,440 --> 00:52:37,279
Speaker 3: We might need to, like we should like research all

1112
00:52:37,320 --> 00:52:42,000
Speaker 3: our male friends and yeah, because you know what, Like

1113
00:52:42,239 --> 00:52:42,799
Speaker 3: and I.

1114
00:52:42,760 --> 00:52:45,240
Speaker 1: Was talking to this, to this guy that I'm seeing,

1115
00:52:45,239 --> 00:52:47,520
Speaker 1: and he was saying how hard it's it is for

1116
00:52:47,600 --> 00:52:53,040
Speaker 1: him to receive affirmations for me and like compliments for me,

1117
00:52:53,239 --> 00:52:56,279
Speaker 1: and then he's like felt resistance in his body when

1118
00:52:56,320 --> 00:52:59,759
Speaker 1: I do that, And that's like my love language with

1119
00:53:00,520 --> 00:53:03,320
Speaker 1: in love, like I love giving men at words of affirmation,

1120
00:53:03,480 --> 00:53:05,560
Speaker 1: saying like I'm really impressed by you, and like I

1121
00:53:05,640 --> 00:53:09,800
Speaker 1: just do that naturally, and I never I never considered

1122
00:53:09,800 --> 00:53:11,920
Speaker 1: how uncomfortable it would make someone.

1123
00:53:12,040 --> 00:53:13,399
Speaker 3: Well, if the people are not if you're not used

1124
00:53:13,440 --> 00:53:16,920
Speaker 3: to it, it can be uncomfortable. Sometimes I didn't realize it,

1125
00:53:16,920 --> 00:53:19,319
Speaker 3: but I resonate with that, like in my body it

1126
00:53:19,360 --> 00:53:22,719
Speaker 3: feels like I don't know, but no, like, yeah, a

1127
00:53:22,719 --> 00:53:25,200
Speaker 3: lot of times we don't examine how things feel in

1128
00:53:25,200 --> 00:53:28,279
Speaker 3: our body and we're people pleasing and so that's like

1129
00:53:28,960 --> 00:53:31,040
Speaker 3: shout out to him for even recognizing that and then

1130
00:53:31,040 --> 00:53:33,399
Speaker 3: being able to communicate it. But it's just like it's

1131
00:53:33,440 --> 00:53:37,120
Speaker 3: also a practice being able to receive and also to

1132
00:53:37,120 --> 00:53:39,879
Speaker 3: to to affirm because that's not like my strongest that's

1133
00:53:39,920 --> 00:53:43,319
Speaker 3: not my strong point. So and then like we talk

1134
00:53:43,400 --> 00:53:45,799
Speaker 3: all the time, rewrite, and so you would think that

1135
00:53:45,960 --> 00:53:48,160
Speaker 3: I would have more words, but then I feel like

1136
00:53:48,239 --> 00:53:51,480
Speaker 3: stuck when it comes to words of affirmation. So not

1137
00:53:51,520 --> 00:53:58,640
Speaker 3: even with myself. Hmm, it's crazy. What, like you said,

1138
00:53:58,719 --> 00:54:03,960
Speaker 3: a week of tapping into your own pleasure and your

1139
00:54:04,000 --> 00:54:05,839
Speaker 3: body and saying like do I want to do this?

1140
00:54:06,120 --> 00:54:07,439
Speaker 2: How does this make me feel? Why?

1141
00:54:07,600 --> 00:54:10,840
Speaker 3: Like asking the questions you want to ask. But again,

1142
00:54:10,880 --> 00:54:13,640
Speaker 3: it's being in a place where you feel safe and

1143
00:54:13,680 --> 00:54:15,240
Speaker 3: your nervous system is regulating.

1144
00:54:16,400 --> 00:54:19,160
Speaker 2: Is it tarot time? Time?

1145
00:54:21,280 --> 00:54:21,400
Speaker 1: Wow?

1146
00:54:21,400 --> 00:54:24,800
Speaker 3: Because I'm high this backwood I put some rose petals.

1147
00:54:25,160 --> 00:54:27,439
Speaker 3: It was very beautiful. It's actually really delicious. I'm about

1148
00:54:27,440 --> 00:54:29,919
Speaker 3: to smoke the whole thing. But I'm high. It's rose

1149
00:54:29,960 --> 00:54:32,880
Speaker 3: petals and a little bit lavender, and I have a

1150
00:54:33,520 --> 00:54:34,760
Speaker 3: I have a bold cigar.

1151
00:54:35,800 --> 00:54:36,200
Speaker 2: I don't know.

1152
00:54:36,280 --> 00:54:38,560
Speaker 1: Is this just five Bold cigars?

1153
00:54:39,160 --> 00:54:40,359
Speaker 2: I guess it's flavorless.

1154
00:54:40,800 --> 00:54:42,520
Speaker 1: Is it just the it's the og backwood.

1155
00:54:42,560 --> 00:54:45,000
Speaker 3: I think I like this one. This might be this

1156
00:54:45,120 --> 00:54:48,759
Speaker 3: might this might be my winter. It's because I'm I'm

1157
00:54:48,880 --> 00:54:51,040
Speaker 3: wise and older. I don't need all those flavors.

1158
00:54:54,880 --> 00:54:56,000
Speaker 1: The seven of swords.

1159
00:54:56,880 --> 00:54:58,960
Speaker 2: Seven of swords.

1160
00:54:59,600 --> 00:55:02,080
Speaker 1: He looks happy, but he's like he's balancing a lot

1161
00:55:02,080 --> 00:55:05,160
Speaker 1: of things. He's carrying a lot of things. He's leaving

1162
00:55:05,280 --> 00:55:06,640
Speaker 1: some things behind.

1163
00:55:09,000 --> 00:55:15,160
Speaker 2: Seven of swords. Hmm, let's see. Let's see.

1164
00:55:15,600 --> 00:55:20,840
Speaker 3: Traditionally, the seven of swords indicate theft, betrayal, deception, and trickery.

1165
00:55:21,400 --> 00:55:23,040
Speaker 3: You may be trying to get away with something and

1166
00:55:23,480 --> 00:55:27,680
Speaker 3: are sneaking around behind other people's backs, hoping to go undetected.

1167
00:55:28,280 --> 00:55:30,760
Speaker 3: If you're lucky, you might get away with your secret intact,

1168
00:55:31,040 --> 00:55:33,319
Speaker 3: but if you're unlucky, others will soon find out what

1169
00:55:33,360 --> 00:55:36,919
Speaker 3: you've done, causing your shame and embarrassment. Be aware that

1170
00:55:37,560 --> 00:55:40,560
Speaker 3: anytime you use cunning or deception to gain an advantage

1171
00:55:40,560 --> 00:55:43,200
Speaker 3: over someone or something else, you're at risk of being

1172
00:55:43,280 --> 00:55:45,879
Speaker 3: found out, and even if you are not, the cover

1173
00:55:45,960 --> 00:55:48,480
Speaker 3: up will require a tremendous amount of effort and it

1174
00:55:48,520 --> 00:55:51,319
Speaker 3: may not be worth it. Alternatively, you may be the

1175
00:55:51,400 --> 00:55:54,760
Speaker 3: victim of someone else's betrayal. Others are not being candid

1176
00:55:54,760 --> 00:55:56,800
Speaker 3: with you, and you may be unaware of their lies

1177
00:55:56,800 --> 00:55:57,320
Speaker 3: and deception.

1178
00:55:57,440 --> 00:55:58,200
Speaker 1: Are you lying to me?

1179
00:55:58,719 --> 00:56:03,759
Speaker 3: No, okay, I'm not gonna lie you may trust someone

1180
00:56:03,800 --> 00:56:06,000
Speaker 3: who then turns out to be running their own agenda,

1181
00:56:06,080 --> 00:56:08,800
Speaker 3: leaving you high and dry. Look out for any sneaky behavior,

1182
00:56:09,000 --> 00:56:11,320
Speaker 3: and listen to your intuition if something does not feel

1183
00:56:11,360 --> 00:56:13,080
Speaker 3: right or seems too good to be true.

1184
00:56:13,120 --> 00:56:14,360
Speaker 1: Oh my god, you know what this made me think of?

1185
00:56:15,080 --> 00:56:15,600
Speaker 1: Last night?

1186
00:56:15,960 --> 00:56:16,200
Speaker 2: Wait?

1187
00:56:16,480 --> 00:56:18,920
Speaker 1: I told the story of last night. Oh my god,

1188
00:56:19,080 --> 00:56:22,720
Speaker 1: you guys, last night was crazy. Last night I started,

1189
00:56:22,760 --> 00:56:25,080
Speaker 1: I've never spiraled so hard in my life, so fast.

1190
00:56:28,239 --> 00:56:37,760
Speaker 1: I don't know if this has anything to do with this, but.

1191
00:56:33,880 --> 00:56:37,480
Speaker 3: Last night I'm almost at the rem sleep. What's the

1192
00:56:37,560 --> 00:56:40,480
Speaker 3: what's the what's the really deep one? You know, the

1193
00:56:40,520 --> 00:56:42,840
Speaker 3: deep one, Lucid, I don't know, I'm in the deep.

1194
00:56:43,520 --> 00:56:45,320
Speaker 3: I'm an Ram. I'm like right there.

1195
00:56:45,560 --> 00:56:49,040
Speaker 1: So I'm having like a little girls night with my

1196
00:56:49,239 --> 00:56:52,359
Speaker 1: cousin and my bestie and like we're just sitting there

1197
00:56:52,400 --> 00:56:55,839
Speaker 1: talking and my cousin was helping me with Iri while

1198
00:56:55,880 --> 00:56:58,239
Speaker 1: I was gone in Costa Rica, and she goes, you know,

1199
00:56:58,560 --> 00:57:01,719
Speaker 1: you check IRI's iPad? I was like, yeah, I do.

1200
00:57:01,760 --> 00:57:03,759
Speaker 1: And she's like, do you know someone named poopo Head

1201
00:57:03,880 --> 00:57:05,799
Speaker 1: and her iPad? And I was like, no, who the

1202
00:57:05,800 --> 00:57:08,879
Speaker 1: fuck is poopoo Head? And she was like, there's someone

1203
00:57:08,920 --> 00:57:10,640
Speaker 1: in her iPad named poopo Head and he must have

1204
00:57:10,719 --> 00:57:12,480
Speaker 1: messaged her and said like, I don't want to be

1205
00:57:12,520 --> 00:57:15,680
Speaker 1: your boyfriend. And I was like boyfriend. She's like, yeah,

1206
00:57:15,719 --> 00:57:17,400
Speaker 1: you need to go look in her iPad. So she

1207
00:57:17,480 --> 00:57:19,360
Speaker 1: was like, go look now. So I went upstairs. God

1208
00:57:19,360 --> 00:57:22,080
Speaker 1: Irie's iPad turned it on, and I'm looking through fucking

1209
00:57:22,160 --> 00:57:23,960
Speaker 1: her text and I'm looking through poopoo Head looking for

1210
00:57:24,000 --> 00:57:27,200
Speaker 1: poopo Head. I looked through, I find poopo Head and

1211
00:57:27,440 --> 00:57:29,160
Speaker 1: that's not even what she said. So my cousin was

1212
00:57:29,160 --> 00:57:31,280
Speaker 1: getting I get Iri fucked up out here because Poopohead

1213
00:57:31,280 --> 00:57:32,440
Speaker 1: just said I don't want to be your friend. And

1214
00:57:32,440 --> 00:57:34,400
Speaker 1: then I Rey didn't even respond because relatives are getting

1215
00:57:34,400 --> 00:57:37,000
Speaker 1: me fucked up because Iris unbothered, I realized as I

1216
00:57:37,040 --> 00:57:39,120
Speaker 1: read her text message with her friends, she's the most

1217
00:57:39,200 --> 00:57:41,280
Speaker 1: unbothered friend of all of them. She doesn't really give

1218
00:57:41,280 --> 00:57:45,440
Speaker 1: a fuck. So anyway, I then I start looking through

1219
00:57:45,440 --> 00:57:48,240
Speaker 1: the text and I see that there's a message from

1220
00:57:48,320 --> 00:57:52,160
Speaker 1: someone named BFF two and the emoji is a is like,

1221
00:57:52,680 --> 00:57:56,320
Speaker 1: has the emoji is this man with like a a

1222
00:57:56,440 --> 00:57:58,800
Speaker 1: what's it called a goateee? And I'm like who the

1223
00:57:58,920 --> 00:58:03,480
Speaker 1: fuck is bf F two with a goate? So I

1224
00:58:03,560 --> 00:58:05,760
Speaker 1: look in the text and it's like the first text

1225
00:58:05,840 --> 00:58:09,440
Speaker 1: is IRI, and then she goes, is this a mirror?

1226
00:58:10,160 --> 00:58:12,680
Speaker 1: And she and he is like it's E M, I

1227
00:58:13,080 --> 00:58:15,720
Speaker 1: R and yes, you called me while I was at work, bitch,

1228
00:58:15,760 --> 00:58:18,360
Speaker 1: I said at work, who the fuck is a mirror?

1229
00:58:19,440 --> 00:58:22,240
Speaker 1: You guys? I was trembling, like, I was like, who

1230
00:58:22,240 --> 00:58:24,480
Speaker 1: the fuck is a mirror? Why is a mere texting?

1231
00:58:24,560 --> 00:58:26,600
Speaker 2: Then you're going roadblocks and I was text like, why

1232
00:58:26,640 --> 00:58:26,959
Speaker 2: is this.

1233
00:58:27,000 --> 00:58:29,000
Speaker 1: Grown ass man texting my eight year old? Then I

1234
00:58:29,040 --> 00:58:30,920
Speaker 1: go and I was like, let me co check on roadblocks,

1235
00:58:30,960 --> 00:58:32,560
Speaker 1: Like what the fuck is happening on roadblocks? I haven't

1236
00:58:32,600 --> 00:58:35,400
Speaker 1: checked in like four months. I go in roadblocks, I

1237
00:58:35,400 --> 00:58:37,760
Speaker 1: see all of her friend friends and I see someone

1238
00:58:37,800 --> 00:58:40,280
Speaker 1: named a mirror in there, and I'm like, oh, no,

1239
00:58:41,000 --> 00:58:43,560
Speaker 1: they've gotten her. They've gotten to her. My parental controls

1240
00:58:43,560 --> 00:58:48,000
Speaker 1: weren't strong enough. Somehow someone has messaged her grown box

1241
00:58:48,040 --> 00:58:50,040
Speaker 1: and she got a phone number and now they're facetiming.

1242
00:58:50,080 --> 00:58:52,600
Speaker 1: I haven't even been here. I saw the first message

1243
00:58:52,640 --> 00:58:54,880
Speaker 1: was like in December, and then there was another one

1244
00:58:55,000 --> 00:58:59,440
Speaker 1: like like last week. I'm like having a pan attack

1245
00:58:59,560 --> 00:59:01,680
Speaker 1: my friends like egging me on. They're stressing me the

1246
00:59:01,680 --> 00:59:03,280
Speaker 1: fuck out, Like, what are we gonna do. You can't

1247
00:59:03,280 --> 00:59:04,880
Speaker 1: shame her, Like I was like, I'm gonna go wake

1248
00:59:04,880 --> 00:59:06,280
Speaker 1: her ass right up. I'm gonna go wake her up

1249
00:59:06,360 --> 00:59:07,840
Speaker 1: right the fuck now. I'm about to curse her out.

1250
00:59:07,840 --> 00:59:10,320
Speaker 1: And she was like, no, you can't do that. She's

1251
00:59:10,360 --> 00:59:14,160
Speaker 1: going to start lying to you because she knows that

1252
00:59:14,200 --> 00:59:17,520
Speaker 1: you went through her her iPad. You can't shame her.

1253
00:59:17,760 --> 00:59:20,480
Speaker 1: You don't want to make her seem like she's in trouble. Definitely,

1254
00:59:20,600 --> 00:59:23,400
Speaker 1: don't start the conversation saying you're not in trouble, because

1255
00:59:23,400 --> 00:59:25,720
Speaker 1: everyone knows that's code for you're in fucking trouble.

1256
00:59:25,800 --> 00:59:27,800
Speaker 2: This is a lot of advice, bitch, I have a

1257
00:59:27,840 --> 00:59:29,600
Speaker 2: lot of advice they were giving. Oh my god, it

1258
00:59:29,640 --> 00:59:31,120
Speaker 2: was I already just wore her ass.

1259
00:59:31,400 --> 00:59:32,640
Speaker 1: I was telling her. I was like, I'm not good

1260
00:59:32,720 --> 00:59:35,400
Speaker 1: with my faces. My faces are fucked Like I already

1261
00:59:35,480 --> 00:59:37,320
Speaker 1: like have judgmental face, and I don't even mean to.

1262
00:59:37,480 --> 00:59:39,880
Speaker 1: I have resting bitch face. It's just part of my demeanor.

1263
00:59:41,760 --> 00:59:43,760
Speaker 1: So anyway, they were like, we have to call him.

1264
00:59:43,880 --> 00:59:46,560
Speaker 1: What's his phone number? So I fucking star six seven

1265
00:59:46,800 --> 00:59:50,200
Speaker 1: called the Star six seven Star six seven, and I

1266
00:59:50,200 --> 00:59:52,040
Speaker 1: look at the area code and it's six one zero,

1267
00:59:52,240 --> 00:59:56,360
Speaker 1: and so I'm like, Romo's like, what is six one zero?

1268
00:59:56,680 --> 00:59:59,000
Speaker 1: And we look at it's Allentown, Pennsylvania. I'm like, what

1269
00:59:59,040 --> 01:00:02,040
Speaker 1: the fuck? Who is her? Fucking this predator lives in Philly?

1270
01:00:02,120 --> 01:00:05,040
Speaker 1: Like what the fuck is going on? I fucking call

1271
01:00:05,120 --> 01:00:08,880
Speaker 1: the number and someone answers and I'm like hello, No

1272
01:00:08,880 --> 01:00:11,760
Speaker 1: one says anything. I'm like, hello, Hello, no one says anything.

1273
01:00:12,680 --> 01:00:15,880
Speaker 1: Hello was like yes, and I could hear it's like

1274
01:00:15,920 --> 01:00:20,000
Speaker 1: a grown ass man. And I was like, Hi, is

1275
01:00:20,040 --> 01:00:24,320
Speaker 1: this a mirror? And he was like yeah. And I

1276
01:00:24,400 --> 01:00:27,960
Speaker 1: was like, why are you texting eight year olds? Mirror?

1277
01:00:28,760 --> 01:00:33,320
Speaker 1: And he was like, oh, you are you talking about Johnny?

1278
01:00:33,560 --> 01:00:35,800
Speaker 1: I was like Johnny. I was like thinking of my head, Oh,

1279
01:00:35,880 --> 01:00:37,520
Speaker 1: so you have a fucking list of little eight year

1280
01:00:37,520 --> 01:00:39,280
Speaker 1: olds you're fucking texting you fucking weirdo.

1281
01:00:40,160 --> 01:00:41,040
Speaker 2: So I'm like, no, I'm not.

1282
01:00:41,080 --> 01:00:43,400
Speaker 1: Johnny, my daughter. Why are you texting eight year olds?

1283
01:00:43,400 --> 01:00:45,040
Speaker 1: Why are you texting my eight year old daughter? Amir?

1284
01:00:45,200 --> 01:00:45,919
Speaker 2: Where do you live?

1285
01:00:46,120 --> 01:00:49,680
Speaker 1: Who are you? He's like whoa relax, one question at

1286
01:00:49,680 --> 01:00:51,960
Speaker 1: a time, and I was like the ah fucking dacity,

1287
01:00:52,000 --> 01:00:55,240
Speaker 1: And honestly, I was triggered also because I remember when

1288
01:00:55,280 --> 01:00:58,360
Speaker 1: my baby daddy cheated on me and this bitch sent

1289
01:00:58,400 --> 01:01:01,200
Speaker 1: the picture of her pregnancy and send her number and

1290
01:01:01,240 --> 01:01:03,040
Speaker 1: then I called and I had all these questions and

1291
01:01:03,080 --> 01:01:04,840
Speaker 1: she had the audacity to tell me to calm the

1292
01:01:04,840 --> 01:01:08,680
Speaker 1: fuck down. That's how I felt. I was triggered. I

1293
01:01:08,760 --> 01:01:13,320
Speaker 1: was like, where are you located? And he was like,

1294
01:01:13,640 --> 01:01:17,640
Speaker 1: no comment, and like the two aunties at the table

1295
01:01:17,640 --> 01:01:17,960
Speaker 1: are like.

1296
01:01:17,880 --> 01:01:19,840
Speaker 2: What the fuck?

1297
01:01:19,040 --> 01:01:25,120
Speaker 1: I'm like, who are you? And he was like no comment?

1298
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Speaker 1: And I was like I just hung up, and they're like,

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Speaker 1: why did you hang up? Had we had to ask

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01:01:28,680 --> 01:01:30,240
Speaker 1: more questions? I was like, don't have any more fucking

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01:01:30,280 --> 01:01:32,680
Speaker 1: questions to ask. I'm waking her up and they're like

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Speaker 1: you can't wake her up.

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Speaker 2: How long did this go on?

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Speaker 1: This just went off for like thirty minutes, because then

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01:01:38,280 --> 01:01:40,160
Speaker 1: I was like deep diving into roll blocks, like trying

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01:01:40,200 --> 01:01:42,720
Speaker 1: to find deleted messages. I was googling how to find

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01:01:42,760 --> 01:01:45,160
Speaker 1: a leading message on rollblocks. Apparently you can't delete messages

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01:01:45,200 --> 01:01:47,200
Speaker 1: they're an archive, but there were none, so I didn't

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01:01:47,240 --> 01:01:49,080
Speaker 1: know how the fuck they got into this phone number.

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01:01:49,080 --> 01:01:50,680
Speaker 1: So I was really confused, and then I went on

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01:01:50,680 --> 01:01:53,680
Speaker 1: a deep dive of her history on on the Googles,

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01:01:53,720 --> 01:01:55,880
Speaker 1: and my daughter's just searching like how to do a

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01:01:55,920 --> 01:01:59,880
Speaker 1: backhand spring and like just basic eighteen year old chef.

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Speaker 2: Yeah.

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Speaker 1: So then they left and they told me like, Erica,

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01:02:05,840 --> 01:02:08,200
Speaker 1: don't worry. We're gonna like call her therapists tomorrow. We're

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01:02:08,200 --> 01:02:10,080
Speaker 1: gonna find the best way to have this conversation because

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01:02:10,120 --> 01:02:12,440
Speaker 1: clearly you're not well equipped. I was like, I'm not.

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01:02:12,640 --> 01:02:14,400
Speaker 1: I'm not. I'm going too bitches, and no, kid, I'm

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01:02:14,440 --> 01:02:18,560
Speaker 1: gonna fuck this sala up. So I was like I

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01:02:18,600 --> 01:02:20,200
Speaker 1: was like told when I was. When they were leaving,

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01:02:20,200 --> 01:02:21,760
Speaker 1: I was like, I'm gonna call Jamila because I need

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01:02:21,760 --> 01:02:23,640
Speaker 1: to call Mela because they were both for kids are

1324
01:02:23,640 --> 01:02:25,720
Speaker 1: on rodblocks and this is fucked up. I need to

1325
01:02:25,720 --> 01:02:28,280
Speaker 1: make sure Luna doesn't have a mirror as a friend either,

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01:02:28,360 --> 01:02:31,080
Speaker 1: and she's not talking to a mirror. So I called

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01:02:31,120 --> 01:02:35,840
Speaker 1: Amila and I'm like Amila, Jamila, and she's like, I'm like,

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01:02:35,880 --> 01:02:36,720
Speaker 1: are you sleep She's.

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01:02:36,600 --> 01:02:41,840
Speaker 3: Like yeah, as I'm sure you could hear.

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01:02:43,040 --> 01:02:46,120
Speaker 1: I was like, well, first of all, the team never

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01:02:46,160 --> 01:02:48,360
Speaker 1: responded about our call tomorrow, so I don't even know

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01:02:48,360 --> 01:02:49,920
Speaker 1: if we're having the call at nine am or not.

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01:02:50,120 --> 01:02:53,640
Speaker 1: She was like okay, and I was like and secondly,

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01:02:54,280 --> 01:02:56,480
Speaker 1: I was talking to some fucking adult name Amir, and

1335
01:02:56,480 --> 01:02:58,400
Speaker 1: I don't know what to do. She found him on Roadblocks.

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01:02:58,520 --> 01:03:01,240
Speaker 1: He lives in Philly, was like a mirror.

1337
01:03:01,360 --> 01:03:03,080
Speaker 2: She's like, I don't know.

1338
01:03:03,120 --> 01:03:06,840
Speaker 3: I was living a double life.

1339
01:03:05,760 --> 01:03:08,400
Speaker 1: I don't even know my own child.

1340
01:03:08,600 --> 01:03:11,080
Speaker 3: I was like, roadblocks, Luna's on rope Bucks all the time.

1341
01:03:11,680 --> 01:03:13,080
Speaker 3: And I was like, wait, so what do you mean

1342
01:03:13,240 --> 01:03:14,200
Speaker 3: what are they talking about?

1343
01:03:14,360 --> 01:03:16,160
Speaker 2: I was like, you called. She was like yeah. She's like.

1344
01:03:16,200 --> 01:03:19,560
Speaker 2: I was like, he said no comment with his voice.

1345
01:03:20,480 --> 01:03:22,280
Speaker 2: I was like, you heard him. She was like. I

1346
01:03:22,280 --> 01:03:23,800
Speaker 2: was like he was a grown man. She was like yeah.

1347
01:03:23,800 --> 01:03:26,120
Speaker 3: I was literally like about to go wake up Lunena,

1348
01:03:26,440 --> 01:03:27,760
Speaker 3: like what the fuck is going on?

1349
01:03:27,800 --> 01:03:30,200
Speaker 2: And then I'm like, well, how do you spell it?

1350
01:03:30,200 --> 01:03:32,360
Speaker 2: Give me the give me the number. I put the

1351
01:03:32,360 --> 01:03:38,080
Speaker 2: fucking number in my phone. It's our cousin, it's their friend,

1352
01:03:38,120 --> 01:03:41,280
Speaker 2: it's our cousins. My it's my cousin's son. Fucking Sheena.

1353
01:03:41,720 --> 01:03:44,800
Speaker 2: I was like, bitch, she knows him.

1354
01:03:45,320 --> 01:03:48,479
Speaker 1: So Amir must have a mir Luna must have shared

1355
01:03:48,520 --> 01:03:52,400
Speaker 1: Amir's contact to fucking Iri, So the bit moji was

1356
01:03:52,440 --> 01:03:54,880
Speaker 1: already there, and I guess a mir is saved in

1357
01:03:54,960 --> 01:03:57,200
Speaker 1: Luna's iPad is bf F two, So I was like,

1358
01:03:57,320 --> 01:03:59,560
Speaker 1: why the fuck is his name bf F two in

1359
01:03:59,600 --> 01:04:02,600
Speaker 1: her phone? So anyway, then I was like, I gotta go,

1360
01:04:02,640 --> 01:04:04,120
Speaker 1: I gotta I gotta call a mer back.

1361
01:04:04,440 --> 01:04:06,720
Speaker 2: So I'm like it's three ams said, I don't.

1362
01:04:06,520 --> 01:04:08,520
Speaker 1: Give a fuck. It's like call a mer back and

1363
01:04:08,560 --> 01:04:13,280
Speaker 1: he's like hello, I'm like a mirror. It's Erica from

1364
01:04:13,320 --> 01:04:18,320
Speaker 1: Good Moms and he's like, oh hey, And I was like,

1365
01:04:19,120 --> 01:04:21,400
Speaker 1: why the fuck are you texting my daughter? I was like,

1366
01:04:21,440 --> 01:04:23,680
Speaker 1: why would you let me be in distressed? Why would

1367
01:04:23,680 --> 01:04:25,160
Speaker 1: you let a mom be in distress? Why would you

1368
01:04:25,160 --> 01:04:26,600
Speaker 1: play with me like this on the phone? And he

1369
01:04:26,680 --> 01:04:29,760
Speaker 1: was like, I thought someone. I thought like someone was

1370
01:04:29,840 --> 01:04:32,560
Speaker 1: prank calling me and he's like I was just fading

1371
01:04:32,640 --> 01:04:35,800
Speaker 1: back into sleep, thinking like who did I hurt? Who

1372
01:04:35,840 --> 01:04:38,520
Speaker 1: would like play on the phone about me.

1373
01:04:38,640 --> 01:04:44,880
Speaker 2: Texting eight or bitch?

1374
01:04:45,080 --> 01:04:47,280
Speaker 1: I told him, I said I was going to track

1375
01:04:47,360 --> 01:04:50,120
Speaker 1: you down and fucking end your life, and then Sheena

1376
01:04:50,280 --> 01:04:51,880
Speaker 1: was going to come end my life, and then it

1377
01:04:51,920 --> 01:04:53,920
Speaker 1: was really going to be good. Mom's bad choices, but

1378
01:04:53,960 --> 01:04:55,520
Speaker 1: like all bad my.

1379
01:04:55,440 --> 01:04:56,800
Speaker 2: Little cousin, Oh my.

1380
01:04:57,160 --> 01:04:59,080
Speaker 3: I was like, I literally trying to wrap my head

1381
01:04:59,080 --> 01:05:00,360
Speaker 3: around our kids talking grown me.

1382
01:05:00,440 --> 01:05:02,920
Speaker 2: I'm like, but what would they be talking about. I

1383
01:05:02,960 --> 01:05:04,560
Speaker 2: was like, I, here's a double life.

1384
01:05:05,280 --> 01:05:06,600
Speaker 1: And then she'd be like, that's what you get for

1385
01:05:07,160 --> 01:05:08,720
Speaker 1: showing your daughter how to prank call people.

1386
01:05:09,520 --> 01:05:13,000
Speaker 2: They'd love to prank call people. Now it's against you.

1387
01:05:13,240 --> 01:05:15,959
Speaker 1: So anyway, I was trembling for one hour, even after

1388
01:05:16,040 --> 01:05:18,000
Speaker 1: I found out the news that it wasn't true, Like

1389
01:05:18,000 --> 01:05:20,280
Speaker 1: it took me like at least an hour to like,

1390
01:05:20,360 --> 01:05:23,760
Speaker 1: come down, I've fucked up. I literally was like, I

1391
01:05:23,760 --> 01:05:25,160
Speaker 1: don't need to be a mom. I don't need to

1392
01:05:25,160 --> 01:05:27,520
Speaker 1: be a parent. I suck at parenting. I don't know

1393
01:05:27,520 --> 01:05:29,440
Speaker 1: how to talk to my kid. I was about to

1394
01:05:29,440 --> 01:05:31,720
Speaker 1: fucking pull her ass out of the bed. I was

1395
01:05:31,760 --> 01:05:35,040
Speaker 1: going to like blame her for everything. Also, I can't

1396
01:05:35,040 --> 01:05:37,959
Speaker 1: believe this, like went on under my nose. She's living

1397
01:05:37,960 --> 01:05:40,800
Speaker 1: a double life. She's only eight, Like what else?

1398
01:05:40,840 --> 01:05:41,400
Speaker 2: Don't I know?

1399
01:05:41,680 --> 01:05:45,400
Speaker 1: It was crazy? So all that to say was the sneaking.

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01:05:45,400 --> 01:05:47,000
Speaker 1: I don't know if this card has anything.

1401
01:05:46,720 --> 01:05:51,200
Speaker 3: To do with that, but it says on a positive note.

1402
01:05:51,440 --> 01:05:54,080
Speaker 3: You know you cannot do everything at once, nor should you. Instead,

1403
01:05:54,120 --> 01:05:56,120
Speaker 3: you must prioritize, but it's important to you and direct

1404
01:05:56,160 --> 01:05:58,600
Speaker 3: your focus and attention on the few tasks that will

1405
01:05:58,600 --> 01:06:01,160
Speaker 3: move you closer to your goals. It's the eighty twenty.

1406
01:06:01,400 --> 01:06:03,680
Speaker 3: Twenty percent of your work will account for eighty percent

1407
01:06:03,680 --> 01:06:06,400
Speaker 3: of your results, so focus on twenty percent. You may

1408
01:06:06,440 --> 01:06:09,000
Speaker 3: be able to accept some responsibilities or duties but not

1409
01:06:09,120 --> 01:06:11,120
Speaker 3: all of them, or you may say yes to some

1410
01:06:11,160 --> 01:06:14,760
Speaker 3: projects at the expense of others. Basically, take it easy

1411
01:06:15,240 --> 01:06:19,440
Speaker 3: and chill the fuck out. I'm trying, Okay, just ease

1412
01:06:19,560 --> 01:06:22,840
Speaker 3: and pleasure. Ease and pleasure. Everything we want is already ours.

1413
01:06:23,000 --> 01:06:25,320
Speaker 1: And our kids are not talking to strangement on the internet.

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01:06:25,480 --> 01:06:27,480
Speaker 3: They don't Our eight year olds a nine year old

1415
01:06:27,520 --> 01:06:29,200
Speaker 3: are not living double lives.

1416
01:06:30,400 --> 01:06:32,080
Speaker 2: Do we have an affirmation?

1417
01:06:33,360 --> 01:06:35,000
Speaker 1: Trust your kids.

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01:06:36,200 --> 01:06:38,439
Speaker 3: That's all that breathing, and that's what the fuck you got.

1419
01:06:40,640 --> 01:06:42,920
Speaker 3: We're gonna We're gonna have to Okay, fine, and want

1420
01:06:42,960 --> 01:06:51,280
Speaker 3: to do that. The affirmation is we can add it later. Yeah,

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01:06:51,320 --> 01:06:53,120
Speaker 3: I don't know. It's not coming to me. I'm not

1422
01:06:53,120 --> 01:06:57,120
Speaker 3: going to force it. Okay, don't force it anyway, don't

1423
01:06:57,120 --> 01:06:59,240
Speaker 3: forget to sign up for Patreon because you won't get

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01:06:59,240 --> 01:07:01,360
Speaker 3: any of this in the next few weeks.

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01:07:01,360 --> 01:07:04,840
Speaker 2: We're going off season. Come to our live show.

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01:07:04,960 --> 01:07:08,960
Speaker 3: We will be in Philadelphia on March thirteenth, We'll be

1427
01:07:09,240 --> 01:07:13,800
Speaker 3: in DC on March fourteenth. We'll be in New York. No, yeah,

1428
01:07:13,880 --> 01:07:15,760
Speaker 3: we'll be on New York on the sixteenth, Atlanta on

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01:07:15,800 --> 01:07:17,560
Speaker 3: the twenty first, and we have special guests.

1430
01:07:17,960 --> 01:07:20,880
Speaker 1: And we have in Houston on April eighteenth, Yes we do.

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01:07:21,000 --> 01:07:23,720
Speaker 3: And Erica will be wearing her hat and I might

1432
01:07:23,760 --> 01:07:27,160
Speaker 3: be wearing my hat too. We love you, guys, and

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Speaker 3: we'll see you soon. Bye.

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Speaker 1: Eight