1 00:00:00,160 --> 00:00:05,480 Speaker 1: Hello, gorgeous. It's Lala Kent. Welcome to Untraditionally, Lala. Hey, 2 00:00:05,519 --> 00:00:09,000 Speaker 1: gorge it's La La Kent. Welcome back to Untraditionally Lala. 3 00:00:09,160 --> 00:00:11,720 Speaker 1: I am so excited. I've been wanting you on the 4 00:00:11,720 --> 00:00:16,440 Speaker 1: podcast for so long. I have Remy Bader Hello, Hello, Hello. 5 00:00:17,160 --> 00:00:20,680 Speaker 2: We did this. We did this a long time ago, 6 00:00:20,720 --> 00:00:22,520 Speaker 2: but it was we didn't meet. We didn't know. 7 00:00:22,880 --> 00:00:26,120 Speaker 3: It was like, no, and have we met in person? 8 00:00:26,520 --> 00:00:26,960 Speaker 2: Yeah? 9 00:00:27,040 --> 00:00:29,760 Speaker 1: Yeah, but it was years ago, Babe. 10 00:00:29,400 --> 00:00:32,120 Speaker 4: I'm wondering if we even did. You know when you 11 00:00:32,159 --> 00:00:33,800 Speaker 4: like think you do, like when you think you have 12 00:00:33,880 --> 00:00:36,159 Speaker 4: they met you in New York. I don't know. Now 13 00:00:36,200 --> 00:00:38,199 Speaker 4: I'm like thinking maybe not, but I feel like I 14 00:00:38,240 --> 00:00:39,320 Speaker 4: know you. I don't know, maybe we did. 15 00:00:39,440 --> 00:00:40,080 Speaker 3: I feel like I know. 16 00:00:40,080 --> 00:00:41,480 Speaker 2: I feel like I've known you for a long time. 17 00:00:41,600 --> 00:00:44,879 Speaker 1: See, but that's what happens because we follow each other 18 00:00:44,920 --> 00:00:47,400 Speaker 1: on social media and I feel like I know everything 19 00:00:47,400 --> 00:00:49,279 Speaker 1: about your life. But I want to give you an 20 00:00:49,320 --> 00:00:54,080 Speaker 1: epic intro. Okay, she is a content creator. She's a model, 21 00:00:54,320 --> 00:00:58,480 Speaker 1: entrepreneur and advocate known for sparking a cultural shift towards 22 00:00:58,560 --> 00:01:03,160 Speaker 1: greater inclusivity and fashion. You first rose to prominence with 23 00:01:03,200 --> 00:01:07,560 Speaker 1: your viral like realistic halls. Yes, that's when I first 24 00:01:07,920 --> 00:01:09,039 Speaker 1: was like, okay, I'm. 25 00:01:08,880 --> 00:01:09,960 Speaker 3: Obsessed with this girl. 26 00:01:10,080 --> 00:01:10,440 Speaker 2: Thank you. 27 00:01:10,840 --> 00:01:13,680 Speaker 3: How you would show like these itty bitty clothes and 28 00:01:13,680 --> 00:01:15,360 Speaker 3: then you'd go to like H and. 29 00:01:15,440 --> 00:01:16,600 Speaker 2: M yeah or Zara. 30 00:01:17,240 --> 00:01:20,160 Speaker 4: I would try on the clothes that didn't fit me 31 00:01:20,200 --> 00:01:23,560 Speaker 4: and kind of call out in a humorous way that 32 00:01:23,600 --> 00:01:26,399 Speaker 4: the brands are not inclusive, which ended up working in 33 00:01:26,400 --> 00:01:27,240 Speaker 4: my favor because then I. 34 00:01:27,280 --> 00:01:30,640 Speaker 2: Started working with the brands to make them more inclusive, 35 00:01:30,680 --> 00:01:31,880 Speaker 2: which I never thought would happen. 36 00:01:32,560 --> 00:01:33,679 Speaker 3: It's so amazing. 37 00:01:33,760 --> 00:01:35,880 Speaker 1: But also there were looks that you would put on, 38 00:01:35,959 --> 00:01:40,759 Speaker 1: and I feel like you would also inspire all different 39 00:01:40,760 --> 00:01:43,199 Speaker 1: body types, like this could work for you, right. 40 00:01:43,120 --> 00:01:45,039 Speaker 4: It wasn't all bad, Like I would show the bad 41 00:01:45,120 --> 00:01:47,440 Speaker 4: and the good, but I just felt like everyone was 42 00:01:47,720 --> 00:01:50,400 Speaker 4: always only showing the good, and I'm like, there's clearly 43 00:01:50,440 --> 00:01:52,200 Speaker 4: things that don't fit us a lot of the time. 44 00:01:52,280 --> 00:01:54,360 Speaker 2: Why is no one putting that online? I do feel 45 00:01:54,400 --> 00:01:55,279 Speaker 2: like at. 46 00:01:55,120 --> 00:01:58,200 Speaker 4: That time, I was kind of the person who brought that, 47 00:01:58,840 --> 00:02:01,240 Speaker 4: I guess onto TikTok because I didn't do I really 48 00:02:01,360 --> 00:02:05,760 Speaker 4: didn't follow influencers or like much YouTube in Instagram ever, 49 00:02:05,800 --> 00:02:07,520 Speaker 4: and then TikTok came to be and then I just 50 00:02:07,600 --> 00:02:09,160 Speaker 4: that's where I started doing it, where it kind of 51 00:02:09,200 --> 00:02:12,000 Speaker 4: like blew up very quickly. So you started on TikTok 52 00:02:12,120 --> 00:02:14,080 Speaker 4: on TikTok during COVID, and. 53 00:02:14,080 --> 00:02:16,560 Speaker 3: Did you do you have a YouTube channel? 54 00:02:16,760 --> 00:02:19,400 Speaker 2: I don't. I do, and I moved it. 55 00:02:19,680 --> 00:02:22,080 Speaker 4: I mean, like I do real so I do TikTok 56 00:02:22,160 --> 00:02:25,560 Speaker 4: Instagram and I'm now like Snapchat, which I started more recently. 57 00:02:26,160 --> 00:02:28,000 Speaker 4: I always said I wanted to start a YouTube, and like, 58 00:02:28,520 --> 00:02:30,240 Speaker 4: I just feel like I'm almost like too late to 59 00:02:30,280 --> 00:02:32,640 Speaker 4: the game. I mean, you're never too late, but like 60 00:02:32,720 --> 00:02:35,120 Speaker 4: I don't know, I get what you mean. I asked 61 00:02:35,160 --> 00:02:38,040 Speaker 4: a few YouTube friends of mine that are like, it's 62 00:02:38,160 --> 00:02:40,760 Speaker 4: kind of like, I don't think you ever missed the market. 63 00:02:40,760 --> 00:02:42,000 Speaker 4: A lot of people are like, oh, should I start 64 00:02:42,040 --> 00:02:43,799 Speaker 4: on TikTok now, Like, I don't know, it's too late. 65 00:02:43,840 --> 00:02:45,400 Speaker 2: It's oversaturated, but you never know. 66 00:02:45,840 --> 00:02:47,119 Speaker 3: Do you think that it's too late. 67 00:02:47,440 --> 00:02:48,359 Speaker 2: I don't think it's too late. 68 00:02:48,400 --> 00:02:50,760 Speaker 4: I just think it's an oversaturated space and you really 69 00:02:50,800 --> 00:02:52,600 Speaker 4: need to do something that no one's doing, which is 70 00:02:52,639 --> 00:02:53,320 Speaker 4: hard to do. 71 00:02:53,520 --> 00:02:55,040 Speaker 2: Like I feel like when I started, it was. 72 00:02:55,840 --> 00:02:59,480 Speaker 4: So many Like I like, there just wasn't as many people, 73 00:02:59,520 --> 00:03:01,600 Speaker 4: and I start it even what I thought was late 74 00:03:01,639 --> 00:03:04,280 Speaker 4: because I didn't go on TikTok or have a TikTok 75 00:03:04,280 --> 00:03:06,200 Speaker 4: like when everyone was like dancing on TikTok and home 76 00:03:06,440 --> 00:03:07,280 Speaker 4: at in twenty twenty. 77 00:03:07,280 --> 00:03:09,560 Speaker 2: It was more towards the end. 78 00:03:11,000 --> 00:03:13,560 Speaker 4: I think it was like October twenty twenty, but it 79 00:03:13,600 --> 00:03:15,800 Speaker 4: really blew up January twenty twenty one, so it like 80 00:03:15,919 --> 00:03:17,720 Speaker 4: was not in the beginning of COVID or anything. 81 00:03:17,800 --> 00:03:19,560 Speaker 3: How many followers do you have on TikTok. 82 00:03:20,200 --> 00:03:21,200 Speaker 2: TikTok I have like. 83 00:03:21,200 --> 00:03:25,520 Speaker 4: Two point two million, and then Instagram I have like 84 00:03:25,600 --> 00:03:28,440 Speaker 4: eight hundred something thousand, So like I started a year 85 00:03:28,560 --> 00:03:30,840 Speaker 4: later because people were like afraid and still are for 86 00:03:31,000 --> 00:03:34,000 Speaker 4: to do reels, you know, because like Instagram's was always 87 00:03:34,000 --> 00:03:39,440 Speaker 4: like perfection photos. But yeah, I definitely grew from reels. 88 00:03:39,480 --> 00:03:41,640 Speaker 4: It's interesting that I didn't grow. I don't think you 89 00:03:41,720 --> 00:03:45,040 Speaker 4: like grow from having a TikTok, like maybe a little bit, 90 00:03:45,080 --> 00:03:47,600 Speaker 4: but it's very different followings. Like a lot of people 91 00:03:47,640 --> 00:03:50,320 Speaker 4: on TikTok are anti Instagram and literally will not go 92 00:03:50,360 --> 00:03:52,360 Speaker 4: over there and seeing the other way around. 93 00:03:53,040 --> 00:03:56,800 Speaker 1: So I'm I'm newer to TikTok yeah, and the things 94 00:03:56,800 --> 00:03:59,800 Speaker 1: that I post, I just post my kids basically because 95 00:03:59,800 --> 00:04:03,520 Speaker 1: I and but also when I post. If I were 96 00:04:03,560 --> 00:04:07,080 Speaker 1: to post the bitch video of ocean on Instagram, I 97 00:04:07,120 --> 00:04:10,480 Speaker 1: think I'd be mom shamed, whereas TikTok wait. 98 00:04:10,360 --> 00:04:12,040 Speaker 4: You didn't post it at all, and there you have 99 00:04:12,120 --> 00:04:14,040 Speaker 4: to because I have one. We should test it out 100 00:04:14,080 --> 00:04:18,719 Speaker 4: to see because screw people, whatever they say. But you 101 00:04:18,839 --> 00:04:20,440 Speaker 4: have to post that as a real It's the best 102 00:04:20,520 --> 00:04:21,479 Speaker 4: video on the Internet. 103 00:04:22,080 --> 00:04:24,680 Speaker 3: It's really good and I was sitting on it for 104 00:04:24,760 --> 00:04:26,760 Speaker 3: so long. You guys, Oh my god, No. 105 00:04:26,839 --> 00:04:30,760 Speaker 4: It's it's just the every like it's just so you 106 00:04:30,800 --> 00:04:32,800 Speaker 4: can't make that up, like the way she did that. 107 00:04:34,320 --> 00:04:35,599 Speaker 4: It's just the funniest thing ever. 108 00:04:35,640 --> 00:04:37,719 Speaker 3: And the chances of Mom walking in while you're dropping 109 00:04:37,720 --> 00:04:38,240 Speaker 3: the bitch. 110 00:04:38,040 --> 00:04:40,200 Speaker 2: Way, yeah, like that's just crazy, not. 111 00:04:40,320 --> 00:04:40,960 Speaker 3: Cool, funny. 112 00:04:41,400 --> 00:04:44,120 Speaker 1: You are also a mental health advocate using your platform 113 00:04:44,160 --> 00:04:46,240 Speaker 1: to share your experiences. 114 00:04:46,680 --> 00:04:50,000 Speaker 4: And then you founded fangirl, Yes, which I have one 115 00:04:50,040 --> 00:04:52,359 Speaker 4: for you. Shut up, I have one for you. I 116 00:04:52,400 --> 00:04:52,880 Speaker 4: brought it. 117 00:04:53,200 --> 00:04:55,080 Speaker 3: Wait, okay, so fangirl, you guys. 118 00:04:55,160 --> 00:04:57,960 Speaker 1: It is a clip on fan and ring lights you 119 00:04:57,960 --> 00:05:00,440 Speaker 1: can have like this Ultimate Beyonce the. 120 00:05:00,440 --> 00:05:02,800 Speaker 4: New Brown one that just came out. Wait, it's the 121 00:05:02,839 --> 00:05:06,640 Speaker 4: packaging is so cheap, thank you. So so it's a fit. 122 00:05:06,640 --> 00:05:09,040 Speaker 4: It's a I started because I'm just like the sweatiest 123 00:05:09,040 --> 00:05:11,520 Speaker 4: girl ever. And I was going to all of these 124 00:05:11,880 --> 00:05:13,760 Speaker 4: red carpets and these events, and I was like so 125 00:05:13,920 --> 00:05:15,320 Speaker 4: embarrassed how much I was sweating. 126 00:05:15,320 --> 00:05:16,880 Speaker 2: And I was like, whatever, I'm just going to bring 127 00:05:16,880 --> 00:05:17,800 Speaker 2: a fan. I don't care. 128 00:05:18,400 --> 00:05:21,120 Speaker 4: But I just started kept promoting like these random fans 129 00:05:21,120 --> 00:05:22,480 Speaker 4: that I would take around, and I'm like, why am 130 00:05:22,520 --> 00:05:23,920 Speaker 4: I not making my own I kind of thought it 131 00:05:23,960 --> 00:05:27,080 Speaker 4: would be a joke, but my followers were excited about it. 132 00:05:27,160 --> 00:05:30,039 Speaker 4: And then now this was the first summer that I 133 00:05:30,120 --> 00:05:31,760 Speaker 4: really was selling. 134 00:05:31,440 --> 00:05:33,360 Speaker 2: It, and I sold like ten thousand. 135 00:05:33,440 --> 00:05:35,160 Speaker 3: It's so jillious idea. 136 00:05:35,360 --> 00:05:37,600 Speaker 2: Now I'm gonna, you know, do some more with it. 137 00:05:38,640 --> 00:05:43,560 Speaker 1: These belong in like Target, Yeah, like I well anywhere, No, Yeah, 138 00:05:43,640 --> 00:05:45,080 Speaker 1: I think that's that would be the goal. 139 00:05:45,080 --> 00:05:46,960 Speaker 4: Like now that I have like sales to prove, like 140 00:05:47,080 --> 00:05:49,720 Speaker 4: I want to get it into bigger places. 141 00:05:49,800 --> 00:05:51,120 Speaker 2: Right now, you could get it on Amazon and. 142 00:05:51,120 --> 00:05:53,159 Speaker 3: Revolve Amaze, Oh you can get it on Revolve. 143 00:05:53,240 --> 00:05:55,920 Speaker 2: Yeah, Revolve. It is just I think one that's just 144 00:05:55,960 --> 00:05:57,159 Speaker 2: like exclusive to Revolve. 145 00:05:58,560 --> 00:06:02,760 Speaker 4: And then I like dropped different colors for on Amazon, 146 00:06:03,080 --> 00:06:04,800 Speaker 4: and then this summer I did like a few that 147 00:06:04,800 --> 00:06:07,279 Speaker 4: were just in the Hamptons, like at Surflage and stuff. 148 00:06:07,320 --> 00:06:10,600 Speaker 4: So like it's like a fun thing turning into a business. 149 00:06:10,640 --> 00:06:12,080 Speaker 4: How old are you, I'm thirty. 150 00:06:13,080 --> 00:06:16,000 Speaker 1: I'm so impressed with what you've done by the age 151 00:06:16,040 --> 00:06:16,520 Speaker 1: of thirty. 152 00:06:16,920 --> 00:06:17,839 Speaker 2: Thank you so much. 153 00:06:18,000 --> 00:06:21,680 Speaker 3: And you've been through a lot, like obviously on the. 154 00:06:21,560 --> 00:06:24,080 Speaker 1: Business side of things, and you, you know, taking a 155 00:06:24,160 --> 00:06:26,880 Speaker 1: chance doing something different on TikTok and watching your following 156 00:06:26,920 --> 00:06:32,520 Speaker 1: grow branding and those opportunities get larger you doing this. 157 00:06:33,040 --> 00:06:37,479 Speaker 1: You also have edited by Remy Yes, that's a collection 158 00:06:37,600 --> 00:06:38,400 Speaker 1: a Sam's Club. 159 00:06:38,320 --> 00:06:39,679 Speaker 2: A collection at Sam's Club. 160 00:06:39,680 --> 00:06:44,760 Speaker 4: It now it's shifted over to edited by Hunter McGrady, 161 00:06:44,920 --> 00:06:47,960 Speaker 4: so like I picked someone with them that would kind 162 00:06:47,960 --> 00:06:49,880 Speaker 4: of take the next thing over. It goes up to 163 00:06:49,880 --> 00:06:52,039 Speaker 4: a six X, which I feel like no one is 164 00:06:52,080 --> 00:06:54,320 Speaker 4: doing anymore, not no one, but like barely a lot 165 00:06:54,320 --> 00:06:57,120 Speaker 4: of places in the past year or two have dropped 166 00:06:57,160 --> 00:06:57,920 Speaker 4: plus sizes. 167 00:06:58,040 --> 00:07:02,279 Speaker 2: So this actually did with my father. Wow, he is. 168 00:07:02,279 --> 00:07:04,680 Speaker 4: In the DNA industry. We want to do something for 169 00:07:04,760 --> 00:07:07,400 Speaker 4: a long time. I think at the end of the day, 170 00:07:08,520 --> 00:07:11,840 Speaker 4: I wouldn't. I think it's better, which I told I 171 00:07:12,200 --> 00:07:14,360 Speaker 4: was open about that, Like, I don't think I would 172 00:07:14,360 --> 00:07:16,680 Speaker 4: work with family again after that because I feel like 173 00:07:16,720 --> 00:07:18,840 Speaker 4: it was affecting our relationship in not a good way 174 00:07:18,960 --> 00:07:22,680 Speaker 4: and it was just better to end it there. So 175 00:07:22,720 --> 00:07:25,000 Speaker 4: I did two drops with them. It did super well. 176 00:07:26,680 --> 00:07:29,680 Speaker 4: But now Hunter's taking over, so it's edited by Hunter 177 00:07:29,880 --> 00:07:31,800 Speaker 4: and then there'll be someone else to take the next one, 178 00:07:31,880 --> 00:07:32,760 Speaker 4: so it's. 179 00:07:32,600 --> 00:07:35,239 Speaker 2: Doing super well. It was on one hundred Sam's Clubs 180 00:07:35,240 --> 00:07:36,880 Speaker 2: and now this year it went up to two hundred 181 00:07:36,920 --> 00:07:39,920 Speaker 2: Sam's Clubs, So it's very unheard of these days to 182 00:07:39,960 --> 00:07:43,800 Speaker 2: have any sort of plus sizes in store. Yeah, if 183 00:07:43,840 --> 00:07:46,600 Speaker 2: anyone gets out online, and they're even dropping it online 184 00:07:46,600 --> 00:07:49,840 Speaker 2: these days too, just because just because so many people 185 00:07:49,880 --> 00:07:53,200 Speaker 2: in the past year or two lost weight, they're taking 186 00:07:53,200 --> 00:07:55,600 Speaker 2: away plus sizes completely at all these places, which I 187 00:07:55,600 --> 00:07:56,600 Speaker 2: don't think is fair. 188 00:07:57,000 --> 00:07:59,520 Speaker 3: Do you think that people are dropping the weight since 189 00:08:00,160 --> 00:08:03,640 Speaker 3: the g what is it called the GLGLP one. 190 00:08:03,840 --> 00:08:04,960 Speaker 2: I think that's what. 191 00:08:06,480 --> 00:08:08,880 Speaker 4: Kind of started it, But I don't really get how 192 00:08:08,920 --> 00:08:11,920 Speaker 4: that then just turns into like, oh, this gives us 193 00:08:11,920 --> 00:08:14,400 Speaker 4: a reason, like there's so many plusized people still out 194 00:08:14,440 --> 00:08:17,080 Speaker 4: there so it's like, I still you know, my body 195 00:08:17,120 --> 00:08:20,840 Speaker 4: has changed so much since I've fluctuated gained loss weight 196 00:08:20,960 --> 00:08:25,440 Speaker 4: many times since I started in twenty twenty online, But 197 00:08:25,480 --> 00:08:28,200 Speaker 4: no matter what, from before I was online to now, 198 00:08:28,360 --> 00:08:31,160 Speaker 4: I still have the same I still feel very passionate 199 00:08:31,240 --> 00:08:32,839 Speaker 4: that everyone should be able to get the same clothes 200 00:08:32,840 --> 00:08:34,679 Speaker 4: no matter what size they are, and that's not going 201 00:08:34,720 --> 00:08:35,480 Speaker 4: to change. 202 00:08:35,800 --> 00:08:40,880 Speaker 1: So it's very hard because you are now making a 203 00:08:40,960 --> 00:08:44,520 Speaker 1: living off of people watching you and they want to 204 00:08:44,559 --> 00:08:47,280 Speaker 1: know what you like, what you're going through. They're now 205 00:08:47,320 --> 00:08:50,360 Speaker 1: invested in you as a person. It's kind of not 206 00:08:50,480 --> 00:08:54,400 Speaker 1: kind of it has gone well beyond you just trying 207 00:08:54,440 --> 00:08:58,959 Speaker 1: on clothing, yeah and calling out brands. Yeah, you went 208 00:08:59,000 --> 00:09:02,520 Speaker 1: through a massive breakup, right, which. 209 00:09:02,280 --> 00:09:06,840 Speaker 4: I always remember you reaching out and you were wait, 210 00:09:07,080 --> 00:09:08,040 Speaker 4: was it the breakup or. 211 00:09:08,000 --> 00:09:10,440 Speaker 3: The I reached out to you about Maybe it was. 212 00:09:10,800 --> 00:09:13,760 Speaker 4: Yeah, we spoke, we were sending voice notes to each other, 213 00:09:15,200 --> 00:09:18,559 Speaker 4: But no, I always appreciated that, Yes, my breakup was 214 00:09:18,600 --> 00:09:21,360 Speaker 4: like very public because I showed that person in my 215 00:09:21,440 --> 00:09:26,480 Speaker 4: life publicly, even though they weren't like in the public eye. 216 00:09:27,200 --> 00:09:29,800 Speaker 4: So everyone wants an you know, that is like fels 217 00:09:29,840 --> 00:09:33,880 Speaker 4: like they're owdin answer which I understand to a point 218 00:09:34,000 --> 00:09:36,960 Speaker 4: of that, but then that led to obviously I opened 219 00:09:37,000 --> 00:09:39,480 Speaker 4: up about losing weight and having a surgery, and then 220 00:09:40,400 --> 00:09:45,040 Speaker 4: that too, a lot of people felt entitled to knowing 221 00:09:45,080 --> 00:09:49,120 Speaker 4: every detail about that, which I think just from getting 222 00:09:49,280 --> 00:09:52,560 Speaker 4: so much hate when I got a lot bigger, and 223 00:09:52,600 --> 00:09:55,320 Speaker 4: people just seeing how horrible the internet could be, like 224 00:09:55,600 --> 00:09:58,320 Speaker 4: the disgusting things people would say about my weight. I 225 00:09:58,440 --> 00:10:00,880 Speaker 4: just decided that I wanted to start keeping a lot 226 00:10:00,920 --> 00:10:03,000 Speaker 4: of my health journey to myself after that, because I 227 00:10:03,040 --> 00:10:06,400 Speaker 4: was like, this isn't fair. You guys, don't I'm not 228 00:10:06,640 --> 00:10:08,320 Speaker 4: giving this to you anymore. 229 00:10:08,040 --> 00:10:09,760 Speaker 1: Right, It's too sacred for me to give to you, 230 00:10:09,800 --> 00:10:12,360 Speaker 1: And they don't. You have to go to bed with 231 00:10:12,400 --> 00:10:15,080 Speaker 1: yourself at night. And I think when you start seeing 232 00:10:15,120 --> 00:10:17,560 Speaker 1: the same thing over and over again, we start to 233 00:10:17,600 --> 00:10:20,679 Speaker 1: believe what people say about us, and before you know it, 234 00:10:20,760 --> 00:10:22,280 Speaker 1: you look in the mirror and you're like, who am I? 235 00:10:22,360 --> 00:10:23,960 Speaker 1: What do I believe in? What do I want out 236 00:10:24,000 --> 00:10:29,199 Speaker 1: of life? Because you start buying into this fiction that 237 00:10:29,280 --> 00:10:31,600 Speaker 1: the audience knows you better than you know. 238 00:10:31,559 --> 00:10:32,400 Speaker 2: Your hundred percent. 239 00:10:32,720 --> 00:10:35,240 Speaker 1: Yeah, so you got a lot of heat when you 240 00:10:35,240 --> 00:10:37,319 Speaker 1: would gain weight, but you got. 241 00:10:37,120 --> 00:10:39,360 Speaker 3: A lot of heat as well. I lost it when 242 00:10:39,440 --> 00:10:40,280 Speaker 3: you lost it. 243 00:10:40,320 --> 00:10:42,920 Speaker 4: Because I think that was the first time, well I 244 00:10:42,920 --> 00:10:44,600 Speaker 4: think that's what people thought it was the first time 245 00:10:44,600 --> 00:10:46,400 Speaker 4: that I wasn't sharing things, But it was really a 246 00:10:46,520 --> 00:10:50,160 Speaker 4: ye over a year of me not sharing personal things 247 00:10:50,160 --> 00:10:51,120 Speaker 4: and not sharing things. 248 00:10:50,960 --> 00:10:51,760 Speaker 2: About my health. 249 00:10:52,600 --> 00:10:54,680 Speaker 4: But I do think I have such a close relationship 250 00:10:54,679 --> 00:10:56,760 Speaker 4: with a lot of my followers in a way that 251 00:10:56,840 --> 00:10:59,600 Speaker 4: I like answer them respond all the time. I do 252 00:10:59,640 --> 00:11:02,840 Speaker 4: give a or always did give personal details about my life, 253 00:11:02,960 --> 00:11:06,880 Speaker 4: so they felt I owed every moment and thought about 254 00:11:06,920 --> 00:11:10,080 Speaker 4: that health decision I made where I needed to for 255 00:11:10,160 --> 00:11:12,040 Speaker 4: my mental health keep a lot of that to myself. 256 00:11:23,040 --> 00:11:25,280 Speaker 1: Do you feel comfortable sharing when the moment was where 257 00:11:25,280 --> 00:11:26,439 Speaker 1: you said I'm going to have surgery? 258 00:11:27,280 --> 00:11:28,760 Speaker 2: Yes, that was when. 259 00:11:30,559 --> 00:11:33,120 Speaker 4: That was when I was getting all that really bad 260 00:11:33,120 --> 00:11:36,439 Speaker 4: haye and made a video crying online that I can't 261 00:11:36,440 --> 00:11:38,439 Speaker 4: do this anymore in terms of sharing my health journey. 262 00:11:38,440 --> 00:11:40,000 Speaker 2: I'm not giving this to you guys anymore. 263 00:11:40,040 --> 00:11:42,600 Speaker 4: And I would say it was like around that the 264 00:11:42,640 --> 00:11:44,640 Speaker 4: next few days where I was like if I had 265 00:11:44,679 --> 00:11:48,520 Speaker 4: no follower, if followers didn't exist, if my family didn't exist, 266 00:11:48,559 --> 00:11:51,200 Speaker 4: in anyone in my life that had an opinion on 267 00:11:51,240 --> 00:11:51,559 Speaker 4: my way. 268 00:11:51,640 --> 00:11:53,520 Speaker 2: What would I do? And that's kind of when I 269 00:11:53,559 --> 00:11:55,240 Speaker 2: made that decision, like by myself. 270 00:11:55,760 --> 00:11:58,040 Speaker 3: And was your family receptive to it? 271 00:11:58,360 --> 00:11:59,920 Speaker 2: Yeah, I kept them a little separate to that. 272 00:12:00,200 --> 00:12:01,760 Speaker 4: To it, I was like, I'm doing this and I 273 00:12:01,800 --> 00:12:03,600 Speaker 4: don't really want to hear your opinion because I had 274 00:12:03,640 --> 00:12:06,720 Speaker 4: a lot of like issues with weight with my parents 275 00:12:06,760 --> 00:12:08,880 Speaker 4: growing up, like them telling me to lose weight all 276 00:12:08,920 --> 00:12:10,880 Speaker 4: the time. So I was like, this isn't a part 277 00:12:10,920 --> 00:12:12,600 Speaker 4: of I don't want you a part of the decision. 278 00:12:12,600 --> 00:12:15,880 Speaker 4: I'm just letting you know I'm doing this, okay, but 279 00:12:15,960 --> 00:12:18,000 Speaker 4: I didn't want I was with my boyfriend at the 280 00:12:18,000 --> 00:12:20,760 Speaker 4: time and like I just at the. 281 00:12:20,720 --> 00:12:22,679 Speaker 3: Time you made the decision, yes. 282 00:12:22,559 --> 00:12:24,400 Speaker 4: Who also had a lot to say about my weight 283 00:12:24,440 --> 00:12:26,080 Speaker 4: at the time. So I just was like, I don't 284 00:12:26,120 --> 00:12:29,040 Speaker 4: want anyone's opinion here, like this is for me, no 285 00:12:29,080 --> 00:12:29,559 Speaker 4: one else. 286 00:12:30,800 --> 00:12:32,200 Speaker 3: Was he against it? 287 00:12:33,040 --> 00:12:35,720 Speaker 4: No, he was like he was like do what He 288 00:12:35,760 --> 00:12:37,920 Speaker 4: was very much like he was supportive during that time 289 00:12:37,960 --> 00:12:40,040 Speaker 4: of like do what makes you happy, But everyone close 290 00:12:40,040 --> 00:12:42,360 Speaker 4: to me in my life was very much like pushing 291 00:12:42,360 --> 00:12:46,120 Speaker 4: me to lose weight. Okay, but I think for the 292 00:12:46,160 --> 00:12:48,599 Speaker 4: wrong reasons, Like I think I had like at the 293 00:12:48,679 --> 00:12:49,880 Speaker 4: end of the day, I did what I did for 294 00:12:50,040 --> 00:12:52,040 Speaker 4: my health and for me, Like I was just like 295 00:12:52,200 --> 00:12:59,280 Speaker 4: really didn't want anyone else's opinions in the way. Actually 296 00:12:59,320 --> 00:13:01,360 Speaker 4: at that time, now that I think of it, too, 297 00:13:02,960 --> 00:13:05,480 Speaker 4: he didn't say anything about my weight till after I 298 00:13:05,559 --> 00:13:09,800 Speaker 4: made the surgery decision. He was very like supportive, just 299 00:13:09,840 --> 00:13:13,400 Speaker 4: without saying anything, like very quiet. Okay, so it wasn't 300 00:13:13,480 --> 00:13:17,720 Speaker 4: until later on, but like I've always and my sister 301 00:13:17,960 --> 00:13:19,760 Speaker 4: also like never said anything. 302 00:13:20,120 --> 00:13:24,040 Speaker 2: But like I just knew people were more. I knew 303 00:13:24,040 --> 00:13:24,760 Speaker 2: that people. 304 00:13:24,520 --> 00:13:27,800 Speaker 4: Were like concerned, but I felt like the concern from 305 00:13:27,840 --> 00:13:31,360 Speaker 4: followers was more of like a hate being mean concerned, 306 00:13:31,400 --> 00:13:33,760 Speaker 4: You're just getting bigger. We're like my family friends, like 307 00:13:33,800 --> 00:13:35,679 Speaker 4: people in my life closer, like knew I. 308 00:13:35,640 --> 00:13:37,480 Speaker 2: Was having actual health issues. Right. 309 00:13:38,000 --> 00:13:39,600 Speaker 4: I want to make a point that this was like 310 00:13:39,600 --> 00:13:42,000 Speaker 4: a personal decision for my health. But like I will 311 00:13:42,040 --> 00:13:46,080 Speaker 4: never change my mindset, like I said on advocating for 312 00:13:46,600 --> 00:13:50,080 Speaker 4: size inclusivity. But again, I kind of always thought body 313 00:13:50,080 --> 00:13:52,360 Speaker 4: positivity was a little bit toxic in a way of 314 00:13:52,400 --> 00:13:54,360 Speaker 4: always saying you need to love your body twenty four 315 00:13:54,360 --> 00:13:57,920 Speaker 4: to seven. I never believed that I never spoke about 316 00:13:57,920 --> 00:13:59,120 Speaker 4: that or anything. 317 00:13:58,840 --> 00:14:01,920 Speaker 1: Well, I think it's very unreal too, because no matter 318 00:14:01,960 --> 00:14:04,320 Speaker 1: what you look like, what size you happen to be 319 00:14:04,360 --> 00:14:07,920 Speaker 1: at at that point in time, you know, you're always 320 00:14:08,000 --> 00:14:10,640 Speaker 1: your worst critic and you're always going to have something 321 00:14:10,720 --> 00:14:13,400 Speaker 1: that you wish you could fix or change. Lose weight 322 00:14:13,440 --> 00:14:17,560 Speaker 1: in some places, gain weight in others. And I understand 323 00:14:17,600 --> 00:14:20,280 Speaker 1: where you're coming from where that's not not a label 324 00:14:20,320 --> 00:14:22,960 Speaker 1: that you put on yourself. But society makes it very 325 00:14:23,000 --> 00:14:26,400 Speaker 1: difficult to just be. They want to put you in 326 00:14:26,440 --> 00:14:28,440 Speaker 1: a box, they want to know what to do with you. 327 00:14:28,760 --> 00:14:32,160 Speaker 1: Everyone belongs in a box. I remember season six of 328 00:14:32,240 --> 00:14:35,200 Speaker 1: vander Pump Rules. You know, I was very much like 329 00:14:35,320 --> 00:14:38,800 Speaker 1: I preferred women. I had been through a lot, and 330 00:14:38,920 --> 00:14:42,840 Speaker 1: everyone was like, oh, she's like a newfound feminist and 331 00:14:42,920 --> 00:14:45,720 Speaker 1: she's she's a girl's girl, and I'm like, I don't 332 00:14:45,720 --> 00:14:48,800 Speaker 1: want these labels. This puts a target on my back 333 00:14:48,880 --> 00:14:51,520 Speaker 1: because any move that I made beyond what you have 334 00:14:51,640 --> 00:14:54,800 Speaker 1: labeled me, you're gonna try to hit that target. 335 00:14:54,840 --> 00:14:55,760 Speaker 3: And I just don't want it. 336 00:14:55,760 --> 00:14:57,600 Speaker 4: Don't even have a choice, Like you literally don't have 337 00:14:57,600 --> 00:15:00,080 Speaker 4: a choice, Like what if what for you change just 338 00:15:00,160 --> 00:15:02,040 Speaker 4: because you've been doing this for a while, Like when 339 00:15:02,040 --> 00:15:05,000 Speaker 4: you were on TV, Like what changed from that that 340 00:15:05,040 --> 00:15:06,720 Speaker 4: people labeled you a few years later? 341 00:15:06,880 --> 00:15:09,600 Speaker 2: Because I feel like you people can. 342 00:15:10,520 --> 00:15:12,320 Speaker 3: You can get. People don't want you to evolve. 343 00:15:12,320 --> 00:15:14,480 Speaker 1: People want you to stay the same person that you've 344 00:15:14,520 --> 00:15:17,840 Speaker 1: always been. And if years down the line, you do 345 00:15:17,920 --> 00:15:20,160 Speaker 1: something that doesn't add up to what you did a 346 00:15:20,200 --> 00:15:23,600 Speaker 1: few years back, you're a hypocrite. I reserve the right 347 00:15:23,640 --> 00:15:26,440 Speaker 1: to evolve. I reserve the right to make myself. 348 00:15:26,320 --> 00:15:28,000 Speaker 2: Change and grow. How old were you when you started 349 00:15:28,000 --> 00:15:28,920 Speaker 2: on vander Pump. 350 00:15:29,400 --> 00:15:31,960 Speaker 1: I think the first season aired when I was twenty five, 351 00:15:32,000 --> 00:15:33,160 Speaker 1: so I think I was twenty. 352 00:15:32,840 --> 00:15:35,360 Speaker 2: Four ten Are you open about your age now? 353 00:15:35,520 --> 00:15:38,560 Speaker 4: Yeah, I'm thirty five now, So like, imagine you didn't 354 00:15:38,680 --> 00:15:41,760 Speaker 4: change in ten years, Like that would be insane, It 355 00:15:41,760 --> 00:15:44,920 Speaker 4: would be insane, And like, I think that yet to 356 00:15:45,000 --> 00:15:47,120 Speaker 4: the core, I'm the same person. But if I started 357 00:15:47,120 --> 00:15:49,440 Speaker 4: at twenty five and now I'm thirty, it would be 358 00:15:50,080 --> 00:15:52,000 Speaker 4: really sad if I didn't change and. 359 00:15:51,880 --> 00:15:52,720 Speaker 2: Grow in ways. 360 00:15:52,760 --> 00:15:56,520 Speaker 4: And it's very interesting that people online, when you're you're online, 361 00:15:56,600 --> 00:15:59,800 Speaker 4: you like no longer are a person to people, You're 362 00:15:59,800 --> 00:16:02,640 Speaker 4: like the character or something, and it's like you changed 363 00:16:02,720 --> 00:16:07,440 Speaker 4: becomes this insult and it's like wait, I should change. 364 00:16:07,160 --> 00:16:08,960 Speaker 3: Yeah, and so should you. 365 00:16:08,400 --> 00:16:11,280 Speaker 1: You should also be changing the people who are commenting 366 00:16:11,280 --> 00:16:14,840 Speaker 1: who have the luxury of sitting behind a keyboard with 367 00:16:15,000 --> 00:16:17,520 Speaker 1: you know, two hundred followers that are just their close 368 00:16:17,560 --> 00:16:21,400 Speaker 1: friends and family. Right, So you are in a very 369 00:16:21,440 --> 00:16:26,000 Speaker 1: delicate situation when you decide to open up for people 370 00:16:26,000 --> 00:16:28,800 Speaker 1: to relate to you, because then the floodgates are open 371 00:16:29,040 --> 00:16:30,840 Speaker 1: for people who relate to you and also want to 372 00:16:30,840 --> 00:16:33,280 Speaker 1: bring you down to the pits of hell. 373 00:16:33,560 --> 00:16:33,720 Speaker 4: Right. 374 00:16:34,720 --> 00:16:37,760 Speaker 1: I want to know in all of this and your 375 00:16:37,880 --> 00:16:41,320 Speaker 1: your health journey and this guy that you were with that. 376 00:16:41,240 --> 00:16:44,720 Speaker 3: You pretty much you know, you were living together. 377 00:16:45,280 --> 00:16:48,240 Speaker 2: He basically like lived at my apartment. 378 00:16:48,320 --> 00:16:50,120 Speaker 1: Yeah, right, you guys had a lot of videos together. 379 00:16:50,280 --> 00:16:52,400 Speaker 1: Would you say that he was like one of your 380 00:16:52,440 --> 00:16:53,960 Speaker 1: great loves that just didn't work out? 381 00:16:54,080 --> 00:16:56,120 Speaker 2: That was my only boyfriend I've ever had. 382 00:16:56,280 --> 00:16:57,960 Speaker 3: Okay, so you go through these. 383 00:16:57,760 --> 00:17:01,080 Speaker 4: Two monumental things only human I've ever like loved, So 384 00:17:01,240 --> 00:17:04,680 Speaker 4: like that's all I have to like compare to or anything. Yeah, 385 00:17:04,720 --> 00:17:07,680 Speaker 4: And that was at the same time that breakup was 386 00:17:07,760 --> 00:17:11,399 Speaker 4: during this whole post, the surgery got like I got 387 00:17:11,520 --> 00:17:14,320 Speaker 4: very sick for like I would say, like two months, 388 00:17:14,359 --> 00:17:16,520 Speaker 4: like I couldn't eat, couldn't drink. 389 00:17:16,680 --> 00:17:18,000 Speaker 2: I kind of I was. 390 00:17:18,119 --> 00:17:20,040 Speaker 4: In a lot of regret from the surgery, like I 391 00:17:20,080 --> 00:17:21,400 Speaker 4: didn't know how it was going to be. And that's 392 00:17:21,400 --> 00:17:23,040 Speaker 4: also why I didn't open up about it. I was like, 393 00:17:23,080 --> 00:17:24,520 Speaker 4: I don't know if I just made a huge mistake. 394 00:17:25,400 --> 00:17:27,280 Speaker 4: So I got in a you know, a big depression 395 00:17:27,320 --> 00:17:28,880 Speaker 4: that was all the same time. 396 00:17:28,680 --> 00:17:29,560 Speaker 2: As the breakup. 397 00:17:29,600 --> 00:17:33,160 Speaker 4: Like the breakup was like basically during all of this happening, 398 00:17:34,760 --> 00:17:37,720 Speaker 4: so like it was, Yeah, definitely a very interesting time 399 00:17:37,760 --> 00:17:39,800 Speaker 4: where like I was trying, I was like, do I 400 00:17:39,840 --> 00:17:41,640 Speaker 4: open up about some things not others? 401 00:17:41,720 --> 00:17:44,159 Speaker 2: It was very confused, a confusing time for me. 402 00:17:56,000 --> 00:18:01,199 Speaker 1: Did these two things happening at once make you someone 403 00:18:01,240 --> 00:18:04,960 Speaker 1: who goes, I know exactly what I want and don't 404 00:18:05,000 --> 00:18:07,760 Speaker 1: want here the red flags, here the green flags. Do 405 00:18:07,760 --> 00:18:11,000 Speaker 1: you feel like you're more focused on what you want 406 00:18:11,040 --> 00:18:11,440 Speaker 1: in life? 407 00:18:11,520 --> 00:18:11,760 Speaker 2: Yes? 408 00:18:11,840 --> 00:18:14,480 Speaker 4: More focused because I had nothing to compare to, and 409 00:18:14,920 --> 00:18:18,040 Speaker 4: I definitely let a lot of things like slide or 410 00:18:18,640 --> 00:18:22,560 Speaker 4: thinking back to the beginning, like was just letting maybe 411 00:18:22,600 --> 00:18:25,560 Speaker 4: if that has started now with someone else, I'd be like, no, 412 00:18:26,080 --> 00:18:29,760 Speaker 4: you know really so like I just yes the answers, 413 00:18:29,800 --> 00:18:31,320 Speaker 4: but I don't know exactly what I want. 414 00:18:31,359 --> 00:18:33,119 Speaker 2: I can't picture that person. 415 00:18:33,160 --> 00:18:35,760 Speaker 4: I don't know what I want definitely, Like in terms 416 00:18:35,760 --> 00:18:38,240 Speaker 4: of everyone always sets me, especially lately because I talk 417 00:18:38,240 --> 00:18:40,760 Speaker 4: about my dating more openly or like just meeting people, 418 00:18:40,840 --> 00:18:42,400 Speaker 4: and everyone's like, what's your type? 419 00:18:42,400 --> 00:18:42,960 Speaker 2: What's your type? 420 00:18:42,960 --> 00:18:45,560 Speaker 4: Like I literally don't have a type in terms of 421 00:18:45,640 --> 00:18:50,240 Speaker 4: like physical or anything. Like I love funny people and 422 00:18:50,320 --> 00:18:53,280 Speaker 4: someone that gets my humor and is funny, but like, 423 00:18:54,040 --> 00:18:56,040 Speaker 4: and there are obviously other things in terms of like 424 00:18:56,320 --> 00:18:58,720 Speaker 4: being super motivated. I do think I want someone that's 425 00:18:58,760 --> 00:19:04,919 Speaker 4: not in my career path, like some something different and 426 00:19:05,080 --> 00:19:06,119 Speaker 4: very passionate. 427 00:19:05,760 --> 00:19:06,720 Speaker 3: About their own thing. 428 00:19:07,000 --> 00:19:09,679 Speaker 1: Yeah, you have so many different career paths though, Like 429 00:19:09,720 --> 00:19:13,000 Speaker 1: you're you're a content creator, but you're also like a creator. 430 00:19:13,240 --> 00:19:15,080 Speaker 4: I don't think I want someone that's a content creator 431 00:19:15,160 --> 00:19:17,720 Speaker 4: putting themselves online. But okay, but I can't. I'm not 432 00:19:17,960 --> 00:19:20,199 Speaker 4: anti Like I'm not anti anything. Like again, that was 433 00:19:20,200 --> 00:19:23,159 Speaker 4: my only experience. So I have like written down in 434 00:19:23,240 --> 00:19:25,960 Speaker 4: my phone things of like red flags now to look 435 00:19:26,000 --> 00:19:29,280 Speaker 4: out for, but also like things I would want in someone, 436 00:19:29,680 --> 00:19:32,200 Speaker 4: but I still don't know, Like I have no idea 437 00:19:32,240 --> 00:19:33,080 Speaker 4: who that person is. 438 00:19:33,080 --> 00:19:34,240 Speaker 2: Or what they're going to bring to me or what 439 00:19:34,240 --> 00:19:35,719 Speaker 2: they're going to do for a living. So I just 440 00:19:35,760 --> 00:19:38,600 Speaker 2: don't know. I also am not like I would say that. 441 00:19:38,600 --> 00:19:41,679 Speaker 4: My followers probably think I'm like actively looking because I 442 00:19:41,760 --> 00:19:44,480 Speaker 4: talk about it so much, But I'm not looking for 443 00:19:45,440 --> 00:19:46,600 Speaker 4: a boyfriend at the moment. 444 00:19:46,800 --> 00:19:50,879 Speaker 2: I'm dating so that I can experience. I've never dated. 445 00:19:50,880 --> 00:19:52,760 Speaker 4: I probably got on five dates in my life, not 446 00:19:52,800 --> 00:19:55,480 Speaker 4: like with dates like dates with people, because like obviously 447 00:19:55,480 --> 00:19:56,960 Speaker 4: me and my boyfriend would go on dates, but like 448 00:19:57,720 --> 00:19:59,240 Speaker 4: never like I didn't go on a date for two 449 00:19:59,240 --> 00:20:00,920 Speaker 4: and a half years when date with him he became 450 00:20:00,960 --> 00:20:04,639 Speaker 4: my boyfriend. Wow, I never dated, So like I'm just 451 00:20:04,640 --> 00:20:05,959 Speaker 4: more like, Okay, I'm thirty. 452 00:20:06,119 --> 00:20:08,320 Speaker 2: I mean, no rush. My mom had me at thirty nine. 453 00:20:08,400 --> 00:20:11,880 Speaker 4: Both my parents had My dad had two marriages before 454 00:20:11,920 --> 00:20:14,720 Speaker 4: my mom had one. Then they are not pushing me 455 00:20:14,920 --> 00:20:16,080 Speaker 4: in any way where I feel like a lot of 456 00:20:16,080 --> 00:20:17,760 Speaker 4: my friends that are single right now like their parents 457 00:20:17,760 --> 00:20:20,000 Speaker 4: are pushing them to be My parents are like, have fun, 458 00:20:20,640 --> 00:20:23,720 Speaker 4: and I just want a date to experience and learn 459 00:20:23,760 --> 00:20:24,920 Speaker 4: what I want and don't want. 460 00:20:25,200 --> 00:20:26,640 Speaker 3: I think that's the only way to do it. 461 00:20:26,920 --> 00:20:28,720 Speaker 4: Yeah, but I think a lot of other people are 462 00:20:28,760 --> 00:20:31,200 Speaker 4: like I mean a lot of my really close friends 463 00:20:31,240 --> 00:20:33,439 Speaker 4: that are single right now are like literally going in 464 00:20:33,440 --> 00:20:35,200 Speaker 4: six states a week being like I need to find 465 00:20:35,200 --> 00:20:36,040 Speaker 4: this person now, like. 466 00:20:36,000 --> 00:20:39,240 Speaker 3: A they on the apps? Yeah, how do you meet people? 467 00:20:39,359 --> 00:20:42,920 Speaker 4: I'm on the apps. I'm on like Bumble and Hinge. 468 00:20:43,320 --> 00:20:45,280 Speaker 4: Raya has not let me on ever, like they just 469 00:20:45,320 --> 00:20:46,800 Speaker 4: won't no clue. 470 00:20:47,480 --> 00:20:51,440 Speaker 1: I've heard Raya is only like there's little actual meetups. 471 00:20:51,480 --> 00:20:54,240 Speaker 1: You just like develop a pen pal sort of relationship. 472 00:20:54,560 --> 00:20:55,960 Speaker 1: So I don't know that you're wouldn't know. 473 00:20:56,440 --> 00:20:57,000 Speaker 3: Wouldn't but. 474 00:20:58,440 --> 00:21:01,719 Speaker 4: I yeah, like sometime, and I don't want a freaking 475 00:21:01,760 --> 00:21:03,800 Speaker 4: pen pal, like I feel like that always ends up happening. 476 00:21:03,840 --> 00:21:05,240 Speaker 4: When I'm like talking to people, I'm like, no, no, no, 477 00:21:05,280 --> 00:21:06,879 Speaker 4: I don't like talking to someone I don't know, Like 478 00:21:07,080 --> 00:21:08,840 Speaker 4: that's why this summer, like when I was out, that 479 00:21:08,960 --> 00:21:10,959 Speaker 4: was my first time even practicing, like meeting someone at 480 00:21:11,000 --> 00:21:14,280 Speaker 4: a bar and going up to them, which I did 481 00:21:14,280 --> 00:21:15,440 Speaker 4: a good job at. 482 00:21:15,520 --> 00:21:16,200 Speaker 2: But I was like. 483 00:21:16,240 --> 00:21:18,639 Speaker 4: Out and drinking and partying like I was out the 484 00:21:18,640 --> 00:21:22,119 Speaker 4: other day and I was like sober and which I 485 00:21:22,119 --> 00:21:24,680 Speaker 4: could talk to anyone sober, like I've never an issue, 486 00:21:24,680 --> 00:21:26,639 Speaker 4: But it was very shocking to me in terms of 487 00:21:26,760 --> 00:21:28,879 Speaker 4: dating and like men, I was like, I made my 488 00:21:28,920 --> 00:21:29,399 Speaker 4: friend do it. 489 00:21:29,440 --> 00:21:30,800 Speaker 2: Like for me, I was like, I can't. I'm like, 490 00:21:30,840 --> 00:21:31,600 Speaker 2: who am I? 491 00:21:31,640 --> 00:21:34,280 Speaker 4: Like, I'm literally very outgoing, can talk to a wall, 492 00:21:34,320 --> 00:21:37,240 Speaker 4: and I'm like in terms of guys, I like didn't 493 00:21:37,280 --> 00:21:39,040 Speaker 4: know how to. So that's my next step is like, 494 00:21:39,080 --> 00:21:41,760 Speaker 4: how do I go up to and flirt with men 495 00:21:42,320 --> 00:21:44,800 Speaker 4: without alcohol? Because that's not ever what I needed in 496 00:21:44,800 --> 00:21:48,040 Speaker 4: my life in terms of being social and I don't 497 00:21:48,119 --> 00:21:50,240 Speaker 4: need that now. But I just thought that was interesting. 498 00:21:50,240 --> 00:21:52,840 Speaker 4: I'm like, oh my god, I'm like a nervous flirter. 499 00:21:53,000 --> 00:21:54,280 Speaker 4: I think that's totally normal. 500 00:21:54,960 --> 00:21:58,160 Speaker 1: You know, I had never been single sober, and now 501 00:21:58,200 --> 00:22:01,359 Speaker 1: obviously that's what I am. And it is you start 502 00:22:01,359 --> 00:22:03,840 Speaker 1: having an out of body experience where you're like watching 503 00:22:03,920 --> 00:22:08,200 Speaker 1: yourself make this move to talk to this guy and 504 00:22:09,560 --> 00:22:12,240 Speaker 1: the like, I literally had had sex for the first 505 00:22:12,280 --> 00:22:14,600 Speaker 1: time sober. This was like a couple of years ago, 506 00:22:15,080 --> 00:22:19,399 Speaker 1: and it was fucking awesome. Have you had sober sex before? 507 00:22:20,119 --> 00:22:20,800 Speaker 2: Yeah, it's great. 508 00:22:20,920 --> 00:22:24,920 Speaker 3: Are you open to like one night stance? I never 509 00:22:25,800 --> 00:22:26,520 Speaker 3: had one before? 510 00:22:27,080 --> 00:22:30,320 Speaker 4: Yes, Like, and like this was a more recent thing 511 00:22:30,520 --> 00:22:33,760 Speaker 4: because I again like I but like and I shouldn't 512 00:22:33,760 --> 00:22:37,400 Speaker 4: feel this way, but like now I feel like it mean, 513 00:22:37,600 --> 00:22:41,359 Speaker 4: I like, I don't care what people say, Like women 514 00:22:41,440 --> 00:22:42,879 Speaker 4: like when you have sex with someone, don't you like 515 00:22:42,920 --> 00:22:45,040 Speaker 4: release a hormone that makes you look attached to that person? 516 00:22:45,400 --> 00:22:48,040 Speaker 1: It's I think that that's just yeah, most women. I 517 00:22:48,119 --> 00:22:50,560 Speaker 1: think any woman that goes like no, I don't get attached. 518 00:22:50,600 --> 00:22:52,400 Speaker 3: I could fuck it. However, like I rather. 519 00:22:52,280 --> 00:22:54,480 Speaker 4: Still talk to that person. I don't need to date them. 520 00:22:54,480 --> 00:22:56,600 Speaker 4: But it's funny because I said so many times to 521 00:22:56,640 --> 00:22:58,520 Speaker 4: my followers, even like a few months ago, I'm just like, 522 00:22:58,880 --> 00:23:00,399 Speaker 4: why can't I just hook up with I'm gonna have 523 00:23:00,440 --> 00:23:01,960 Speaker 4: it be casual, and they're like that never ends. 524 00:23:01,960 --> 00:23:02,520 Speaker 2: Well I'm like no, no. 525 00:23:02,760 --> 00:23:05,240 Speaker 4: And then I had like a three month situationship where 526 00:23:05,240 --> 00:23:07,040 Speaker 4: like I really liked the guy, thought it was going 527 00:23:07,040 --> 00:23:09,959 Speaker 4: as we're go, and it ended really badly, and I 528 00:23:10,080 --> 00:23:13,480 Speaker 4: was like, oh, I like need to I need to 529 00:23:13,560 --> 00:23:15,760 Speaker 4: somewhat have like a connection to this person or even 530 00:23:15,840 --> 00:23:17,760 Speaker 4: just like keep talking or be friends. So like when 531 00:23:17,800 --> 00:23:20,120 Speaker 4: someone just goes m I A, I'm like so offended, 532 00:23:20,320 --> 00:23:21,120 Speaker 4: right like that. 533 00:23:20,960 --> 00:23:23,080 Speaker 3: If it wants I understand, Yeah, that's what it's supposed 534 00:23:23,119 --> 00:23:23,320 Speaker 3: to be. 535 00:23:23,400 --> 00:23:26,000 Speaker 2: So I'm like, maybe that's not for me, Okay, that's. 536 00:23:25,800 --> 00:23:29,520 Speaker 3: Fine, but I'm ready. You're you're learning. Do you think 537 00:23:29,600 --> 00:23:30,879 Speaker 3: men get nervous. 538 00:23:30,520 --> 00:23:33,719 Speaker 1: That like if they date you it could end up 539 00:23:33,760 --> 00:23:34,800 Speaker 1: being content on? 540 00:23:36,359 --> 00:23:39,000 Speaker 2: No, this isn't new. This is a new thing for me. 541 00:23:39,040 --> 00:23:43,560 Speaker 4: I've been making videos being like this loser did this 542 00:23:43,640 --> 00:23:46,800 Speaker 4: the other day and like whatever, I actually I got 543 00:23:46,880 --> 00:23:49,080 Speaker 4: scared when I'm not scared. But I finally blocked the 544 00:23:49,119 --> 00:23:52,680 Speaker 4: situationship God, because every time we've had an encounter, I'm like, I. 545 00:23:52,640 --> 00:23:53,439 Speaker 3: Want to talk about it. 546 00:23:53,520 --> 00:23:55,679 Speaker 4: Yeah, like now I I freaking keep saying like if 547 00:23:55,680 --> 00:23:57,159 Speaker 4: I see him, like I know, like I think at 548 00:23:57,160 --> 00:23:59,200 Speaker 4: this point we're just not gonna like look at each 549 00:23:59,240 --> 00:24:01,920 Speaker 4: other because it's all content now. 550 00:24:01,960 --> 00:24:03,840 Speaker 2: But I never say someone's name. 551 00:24:03,920 --> 00:24:06,280 Speaker 4: I would never say them people they dropped the nay 552 00:24:06,680 --> 00:24:08,560 Speaker 4: drop the name every time they know where there are. 553 00:24:08,600 --> 00:24:10,080 Speaker 4: Because one guy that I was like kind of hooking 554 00:24:10,160 --> 00:24:12,320 Speaker 4: up with and kind of had this not this guy, 555 00:24:12,359 --> 00:24:14,800 Speaker 4: but like how to talk about that? He was like 556 00:24:14,840 --> 00:24:17,160 Speaker 4: whatever happened? He's like, I was really bitter you made 557 00:24:17,160 --> 00:24:19,400 Speaker 4: that video about me? And I'm like, no one knows 558 00:24:19,400 --> 00:24:20,879 Speaker 4: who you are, and he's like, but I knew it 559 00:24:20,880 --> 00:24:22,879 Speaker 4: was about me. I'm like, you ghosted me. And he's like, 560 00:24:22,920 --> 00:24:23,720 Speaker 4: I think you're really cool. 561 00:24:23,720 --> 00:24:26,040 Speaker 2: Good and he was like, let's hang out again. 562 00:24:26,080 --> 00:24:28,439 Speaker 4: I'm like sure, because honestly, for me, I'm like I 563 00:24:28,560 --> 00:24:30,760 Speaker 4: need sometimes someone that I want to hook up with, 564 00:24:31,000 --> 00:24:33,080 Speaker 4: just if I'm like horny or something like why can't 565 00:24:33,119 --> 00:24:35,040 Speaker 4: I But I just want to have like some sort 566 00:24:35,080 --> 00:24:36,160 Speaker 4: of like friendship or. 567 00:24:36,080 --> 00:24:38,320 Speaker 1: Like not that they're gonna go on my ag Do 568 00:24:38,320 --> 00:24:41,720 Speaker 1: you want them like on the roster until you're over it? 569 00:24:41,840 --> 00:24:43,080 Speaker 2: Yeah, or else it's like rude. 570 00:24:43,440 --> 00:24:49,040 Speaker 4: But but going back to your question, I have been 571 00:24:49,560 --> 00:24:53,560 Speaker 4: nervous being like, if these guys see these videos, it's. 572 00:24:53,400 --> 00:24:54,719 Speaker 2: So gonna push away people. 573 00:24:55,080 --> 00:24:56,760 Speaker 4: But then some of my friends are like, no, it'll 574 00:24:56,800 --> 00:24:58,240 Speaker 4: just make them treat you right, and I'm like, no, 575 00:24:58,359 --> 00:24:58,840 Speaker 4: it seems a. 576 00:24:58,840 --> 00:25:00,920 Speaker 2: Little scary, even though I I'm not saying their name. 577 00:25:01,600 --> 00:25:04,400 Speaker 4: No, I'm unsure how much I want to keep going 578 00:25:04,440 --> 00:25:06,280 Speaker 4: with it, Like I don't know. 579 00:25:06,640 --> 00:25:08,800 Speaker 1: I think you keep doing Whoever is going to be 580 00:25:08,800 --> 00:25:11,159 Speaker 1: signing your checks is what you fucking do. 581 00:25:11,400 --> 00:25:13,760 Speaker 3: Like you are a content creator. 582 00:25:13,800 --> 00:25:16,600 Speaker 1: Whoever comes into your life should be the person that's like, 583 00:25:16,680 --> 00:25:18,720 Speaker 1: whatever you need to do, Okay, But you know. 584 00:25:18,840 --> 00:25:21,040 Speaker 4: What I just realized that I did yesterday or like 585 00:25:21,080 --> 00:25:24,120 Speaker 4: this week is like some guys that are in my dms, 586 00:25:24,119 --> 00:25:25,959 Speaker 4: which there aren't many, but like guys that I'm like 587 00:25:26,240 --> 00:25:28,960 Speaker 4: maybe it's newer or like just flirting with Yah, I 588 00:25:29,040 --> 00:25:32,399 Speaker 4: block them from my stories and that's showing that, like 589 00:25:33,160 --> 00:25:35,680 Speaker 4: what I love that, No, but it's showing that I'm 590 00:25:35,720 --> 00:25:38,159 Speaker 4: like nervous for them to see their real me. So 591 00:25:38,200 --> 00:25:40,040 Speaker 4: that's not like a great thing, you know, but I'm 592 00:25:40,040 --> 00:25:42,440 Speaker 4: posting about so many I feel like if you don't 593 00:25:42,480 --> 00:25:45,240 Speaker 4: know me first in person, you're just getting this like 594 00:25:45,240 --> 00:25:47,359 Speaker 4: like rogue version of me and they're gonna be like what, 595 00:25:47,520 --> 00:25:50,840 Speaker 4: Like I'm I just don't know, So like that's the 596 00:25:50,880 --> 00:25:52,600 Speaker 4: thing that I'm like. And then I said it to 597 00:25:52,640 --> 00:25:54,359 Speaker 4: one friend the other day and they're like, but then 598 00:25:54,400 --> 00:25:56,840 Speaker 4: they're not then you're hiding you, And I'm like, I 599 00:25:56,880 --> 00:25:58,600 Speaker 4: nobody think it's a lot to just like if you 600 00:25:58,680 --> 00:26:01,119 Speaker 4: follow me and just like see everything I post on 601 00:26:01,119 --> 00:26:02,600 Speaker 4: my stories, you might be a little scared. 602 00:26:03,840 --> 00:26:05,879 Speaker 3: Oh okay, can I tell you. I feel that I 603 00:26:06,440 --> 00:26:07,159 Speaker 3: love that you do that. 604 00:26:07,200 --> 00:26:09,480 Speaker 1: But at the same time, I'm like, anyone who I'm 605 00:26:09,480 --> 00:26:12,960 Speaker 1: gonna be talking to you need to know get on 606 00:26:13,040 --> 00:26:16,000 Speaker 1: my socials. See how I interact in a bunch of 607 00:26:16,000 --> 00:26:18,880 Speaker 1: different situations, whether I'm saying, like tune into my Amazon 608 00:26:18,960 --> 00:26:21,479 Speaker 1: Live or like a new episode of untraditionally La La 609 00:26:22,080 --> 00:26:24,520 Speaker 1: being a mom, or like maybe doing a slutty thirst trap. 610 00:26:24,560 --> 00:26:28,639 Speaker 1: You gotta see me in all my elements because if 611 00:26:28,680 --> 00:26:31,440 Speaker 1: you come into my world, this is what you get. 612 00:26:31,800 --> 00:26:32,119 Speaker 2: True. 613 00:26:32,400 --> 00:26:34,560 Speaker 1: And if I if you come into my world based 614 00:26:34,600 --> 00:26:36,720 Speaker 1: off of what I want you to see and only 615 00:26:36,760 --> 00:26:39,280 Speaker 1: what I want you to see, then I get attached. 616 00:26:39,320 --> 00:26:41,199 Speaker 1: And when you see other things you may not like 617 00:26:41,240 --> 00:26:43,760 Speaker 1: and you abort mission, big fucking waste of time. 618 00:26:43,880 --> 00:26:46,520 Speaker 2: Right, No, for sure. And for my saying that when 619 00:26:46,560 --> 00:26:50,040 Speaker 2: I was with my ex two like, I was very 620 00:26:50,080 --> 00:26:53,080 Speaker 2: I never changed my content, Like I remember one time 621 00:26:53,160 --> 00:26:55,160 Speaker 2: he said like that I was like showing too much 622 00:26:55,160 --> 00:26:56,840 Speaker 2: skin in a photo. I said, okay, well then you 623 00:26:56,880 --> 00:26:57,199 Speaker 2: can go. 624 00:26:57,520 --> 00:26:59,359 Speaker 4: I was like, I've I was like, or was it 625 00:26:59,520 --> 00:27:01,520 Speaker 4: one of my fond any videos where like I'm changing 626 00:27:01,560 --> 00:27:04,040 Speaker 4: in my halls and stuff, And I'm like, I'm never 627 00:27:04,160 --> 00:27:06,040 Speaker 4: changing that, just so you know, FYI like this will 628 00:27:06,280 --> 00:27:09,480 Speaker 4: always be how it started. Because if I'm not planning 629 00:27:09,480 --> 00:27:11,399 Speaker 4: on changing my content for someone, which I would never do. 630 00:27:11,440 --> 00:27:12,960 Speaker 4: If a man told me what to post or not post, 631 00:27:13,040 --> 00:27:16,000 Speaker 4: it'd be like you're done, so I. 632 00:27:15,960 --> 00:27:18,800 Speaker 2: Probably should unblock them from my stories. Yeah, but like 633 00:27:18,840 --> 00:27:20,520 Speaker 2: what if they're just flirting. 634 00:27:20,040 --> 00:27:23,720 Speaker 4: Situations like like I want them to I don't know. 635 00:27:24,280 --> 00:27:27,240 Speaker 1: I don't know either. You're asking someone who's like chronically safe. 636 00:27:28,400 --> 00:27:32,840 Speaker 1: I don't like the word date because it gives it 637 00:27:33,040 --> 00:27:36,040 Speaker 1: potential for it to go somewhere. So I right now 638 00:27:36,359 --> 00:27:37,119 Speaker 1: just fuck. 639 00:27:37,840 --> 00:27:40,080 Speaker 2: Oh you're you're just okay? Same. 640 00:27:40,600 --> 00:27:43,840 Speaker 1: Yeah, I'm like, I don't need you, I don't want 641 00:27:43,880 --> 00:27:46,399 Speaker 1: anything from you. I, for the first time in my life, 642 00:27:46,400 --> 00:27:49,119 Speaker 1: feels so peaceful, and I would like to enjoy this 643 00:27:49,280 --> 00:27:52,080 Speaker 1: moment in my life because I deserve that. It's been 644 00:27:52,200 --> 00:27:56,440 Speaker 1: like years of just chaos, right and fighting tooth and 645 00:27:56,520 --> 00:28:00,199 Speaker 1: nail to like get some oxygen, and now I have it, 646 00:28:00,720 --> 00:28:02,280 Speaker 1: And I'm like, why would I ruin that? 647 00:28:02,800 --> 00:28:04,840 Speaker 4: Are people just like you're not on the apps or 648 00:28:05,000 --> 00:28:07,600 Speaker 4: not on the app or it sliding into people's I. 649 00:28:08,040 --> 00:28:09,240 Speaker 3: Am always the aggressor. 650 00:28:09,920 --> 00:28:12,600 Speaker 1: I always It's very rare that I'll give out my 651 00:28:12,760 --> 00:28:15,359 Speaker 1: number because I like to take the numbers, sit on it, 652 00:28:15,440 --> 00:28:17,240 Speaker 1: and then if I feel like reaching out, great. I 653 00:28:17,240 --> 00:28:19,200 Speaker 1: don't want to be the person that goests even though 654 00:28:19,200 --> 00:28:20,760 Speaker 1: that that that has happened before. 655 00:28:20,840 --> 00:28:22,520 Speaker 2: Oh I give my number out like candy, So that 656 00:28:22,560 --> 00:28:23,480 Speaker 2: part's not like me. 657 00:28:23,680 --> 00:28:25,560 Speaker 3: Great, but you have to find your groove. 658 00:28:25,960 --> 00:28:28,000 Speaker 2: Bring me to stop doing that, like it could be 659 00:28:28,040 --> 00:28:28,880 Speaker 2: anyone on that, like. 660 00:28:28,880 --> 00:28:30,880 Speaker 1: You know, like you're gonna get to the point where 661 00:28:30,920 --> 00:28:32,240 Speaker 1: you have to change your phone number. 662 00:28:32,240 --> 00:28:35,000 Speaker 4: I had reason My sister yells at me everage amount 663 00:28:35,119 --> 00:28:37,440 Speaker 4: just stop stop because I'm literally like a girl will 664 00:28:37,480 --> 00:28:39,520 Speaker 4: be like I love you whatever. I'm like, text me tomorrow. 665 00:28:39,560 --> 00:28:41,760 Speaker 4: And then I'm like what am I doing? Like, oh, 666 00:28:41,800 --> 00:28:43,760 Speaker 4: I have to stop, but you have to. 667 00:28:44,040 --> 00:28:45,000 Speaker 2: I know it's bad. 668 00:28:45,680 --> 00:28:47,640 Speaker 1: No, And you know, it's a fine line for me 669 00:28:47,920 --> 00:28:51,240 Speaker 1: with bringing dudes around, because there's the people who are 670 00:28:51,280 --> 00:28:54,719 Speaker 1: like overly eager to be on television. 671 00:28:55,400 --> 00:28:57,440 Speaker 2: It's real. Is it not really hard to not know 672 00:28:57,520 --> 00:28:59,680 Speaker 2: people's intentions? Yes, yes it is. 673 00:28:59,760 --> 00:29:01,280 Speaker 1: But and there are the people that are like I 674 00:29:01,320 --> 00:29:02,720 Speaker 1: don't want to be talking about to do. 675 00:29:02,720 --> 00:29:05,200 Speaker 3: With that all, And I'm like, well, there's the guy. 676 00:29:07,080 --> 00:29:09,400 Speaker 4: That is exactly what I want, And I'm like, there's 677 00:29:09,480 --> 00:29:11,440 Speaker 4: I have yet to find that. Like that guy had 678 00:29:11,440 --> 00:29:13,560 Speaker 4: a situationship was like, do not put me anywhere. That's 679 00:29:13,560 --> 00:29:15,120 Speaker 4: why I started making the videos to piss him off 680 00:29:15,160 --> 00:29:18,760 Speaker 4: more after, because I know there's nothing that makes him 681 00:29:18,800 --> 00:29:23,040 Speaker 4: more mad. But like then, my ex, I think wanted 682 00:29:23,080 --> 00:29:25,320 Speaker 4: it a little too much. And now now I'm like 683 00:29:26,000 --> 00:29:27,240 Speaker 4: very cautious about that. 684 00:29:27,440 --> 00:29:30,520 Speaker 1: Yeah, you've learned a lot, and I mean you're only thirty, 685 00:29:30,600 --> 00:29:34,920 Speaker 1: Like you're still it's gonna be a process because you're 686 00:29:35,680 --> 00:29:36,880 Speaker 1: only going to. 687 00:29:38,520 --> 00:29:40,520 Speaker 3: Get higher and higher to the sky. 688 00:29:40,800 --> 00:29:43,960 Speaker 1: Right So right now, I think, and this is just 689 00:29:44,080 --> 00:29:48,080 Speaker 1: my opinion, you stay true to like getting yourself where 690 00:29:48,120 --> 00:29:52,240 Speaker 1: you want to be physically, emotionally, spiritually wherever, and also 691 00:29:52,360 --> 00:29:56,040 Speaker 1: business wise so that the guy that comes in, you know, 692 00:29:56,280 --> 00:29:59,120 Speaker 1: you'll attract someone who needs nothing from you, you don't 693 00:29:59,120 --> 00:30:02,120 Speaker 1: need anything from him, and you guys just add to 694 00:30:02,160 --> 00:30:03,280 Speaker 1: each other's one hundred percent. 695 00:30:03,440 --> 00:30:06,840 Speaker 4: And I think that's what my mom always says. Who's 696 00:30:06,840 --> 00:30:10,560 Speaker 4: a huge fan of you. She's always like, we were 697 00:30:10,560 --> 00:30:12,920 Speaker 4: watching Like Love Is Blond the other day and she's like, oh, 698 00:30:12,960 --> 00:30:15,160 Speaker 4: I can't when they keep saying my person. If you 699 00:30:15,200 --> 00:30:17,440 Speaker 4: ever come home and say my person, I'm kicking you out. 700 00:30:17,440 --> 00:30:18,720 Speaker 3: I'm like, what is with you? 701 00:30:18,760 --> 00:30:20,240 Speaker 4: Like with the and she goes any soul me to 702 00:30:20,280 --> 00:30:21,760 Speaker 4: hate that too, And I was like, why are you 703 00:30:21,800 --> 00:30:24,880 Speaker 4: so like anti that? And she was just like I've 704 00:30:24,880 --> 00:30:27,320 Speaker 4: always like from her too. It's always been like someone 705 00:30:27,360 --> 00:30:29,440 Speaker 4: to add to not be like your other half. For me, 706 00:30:30,360 --> 00:30:32,600 Speaker 4: those words, it's more other half, I'm like, and everyone's like, 707 00:30:32,640 --> 00:30:35,560 Speaker 4: I love my other half. I never I'm not looking 708 00:30:35,600 --> 00:30:37,520 Speaker 4: for another half, like you need to be whole. And 709 00:30:37,520 --> 00:30:40,440 Speaker 4: then I think I totally agree. Someone that adds to 710 00:30:40,520 --> 00:30:42,960 Speaker 4: my life. That's great in a good way and a 711 00:30:42,960 --> 00:30:44,040 Speaker 4: positive exactly. 712 00:30:44,440 --> 00:30:48,560 Speaker 1: No, I'm so happy for you, and I know that 713 00:30:48,560 --> 00:30:50,240 Speaker 1: that comment section can be brutal. 714 00:30:50,280 --> 00:30:52,400 Speaker 3: My heart was like breaking for you. 715 00:30:52,400 --> 00:30:55,360 Speaker 4: You want to feel brutal, but brute definitely have a 716 00:30:55,400 --> 00:30:56,520 Speaker 4: little bit of thicker skin. 717 00:30:57,000 --> 00:30:59,400 Speaker 3: Do you feel like you got thicker skin through it all? 718 00:30:59,840 --> 00:31:02,239 Speaker 4: I think I one hundred percent do. But I've like 719 00:31:02,320 --> 00:31:04,040 Speaker 4: I have my days in my weeks. I think it's 720 00:31:04,080 --> 00:31:06,040 Speaker 4: when I'm hormonal. I have no idea, but like all 721 00:31:06,160 --> 00:31:08,600 Speaker 4: last week I was like in my fields and then 722 00:31:08,680 --> 00:31:11,080 Speaker 4: like you know, like there's certain days where like you 723 00:31:11,160 --> 00:31:14,360 Speaker 4: focus on those negative comments where like I don't know, 724 00:31:14,440 --> 00:31:16,400 Speaker 4: I woke up yesterday and I didn't give a shit 725 00:31:16,480 --> 00:31:19,440 Speaker 4: about anything, and I'm like, yeah, it's very I mean, 726 00:31:19,480 --> 00:31:21,240 Speaker 4: I think that's just a part of being in this world. 727 00:31:21,280 --> 00:31:22,520 Speaker 2: It's just like confusing. 728 00:31:22,520 --> 00:31:25,000 Speaker 4: So, yes, I thought I'd gained thicker skin, and then 729 00:31:25,120 --> 00:31:27,440 Speaker 4: recently I think I've just kind of what you said, like, 730 00:31:27,480 --> 00:31:29,560 Speaker 4: I do need to figure out my brand and who 731 00:31:29,560 --> 00:31:31,560 Speaker 4: I am and where I what I'm doing right now 732 00:31:31,600 --> 00:31:33,800 Speaker 4: because of what the box people put me in. Now, 733 00:31:33,840 --> 00:31:36,880 Speaker 4: I'm like, where am I? What am I doing? Like 734 00:31:36,920 --> 00:31:39,680 Speaker 4: I love putting out content and I talk about kind 735 00:31:39,680 --> 00:31:42,200 Speaker 4: of everything, but I think it's almost hard me not 736 00:31:42,280 --> 00:31:44,800 Speaker 4: being put into this box for ones that I'm like. 737 00:31:44,800 --> 00:31:46,160 Speaker 2: What am I or what am I? 738 00:31:46,480 --> 00:31:46,560 Speaker 1: Like? 739 00:31:46,560 --> 00:31:48,120 Speaker 3: Hold on, I'm more comfortable in a box. 740 00:31:48,200 --> 00:31:50,320 Speaker 4: Yeah, I'm like, I'm like, did I like the box? 741 00:31:50,400 --> 00:31:52,680 Speaker 4: Like I don't know, but I'm just I'm figuring it all. 742 00:31:52,880 --> 00:31:54,160 Speaker 3: You got comfortable people. 743 00:31:54,440 --> 00:31:56,680 Speaker 1: Sometimes you could be in the most unhappy place of 744 00:31:56,680 --> 00:31:58,840 Speaker 1: your life. But if you're comfortable there because it's your 745 00:31:58,880 --> 00:32:01,960 Speaker 1: every day, the moment that you get. 746 00:32:01,760 --> 00:32:03,800 Speaker 3: Out of it, you start to flounder a bit. 747 00:32:03,960 --> 00:32:06,520 Speaker 4: Yeah, Like I was comfortable for so long, like didn't 748 00:32:06,560 --> 00:32:08,720 Speaker 4: focus on my health, my mental health like nothing. But 749 00:32:08,760 --> 00:32:11,840 Speaker 4: I was just like staying in this place because I 750 00:32:11,880 --> 00:32:14,440 Speaker 4: was like, oh, my career is skyrocketing, So like I'm 751 00:32:14,480 --> 00:32:16,160 Speaker 4: just going to be here. But now that I'm like, 752 00:32:16,480 --> 00:32:19,240 Speaker 4: I am happier, Like when I think about like mentally, 753 00:32:19,280 --> 00:32:22,880 Speaker 4: I'm overall happier in the past year just for so 754 00:32:23,000 --> 00:32:26,200 Speaker 4: many reasons and work I've done on myself and physically 755 00:32:26,240 --> 00:32:28,560 Speaker 4: not in pain like I was in pain with my 756 00:32:28,680 --> 00:32:30,160 Speaker 4: back and my knees for so long. 757 00:32:30,240 --> 00:32:31,640 Speaker 2: So like I'm happier. 758 00:32:31,680 --> 00:32:33,600 Speaker 4: But I think now it's like, Okay, I'm out of 759 00:32:33,600 --> 00:32:35,600 Speaker 4: that box that people were putting me in terms of 760 00:32:35,640 --> 00:32:37,320 Speaker 4: like connecting. 761 00:32:36,760 --> 00:32:40,120 Speaker 2: My weight to who I am that right. 762 00:32:40,000 --> 00:32:42,520 Speaker 4: It almost started happening to me, Like I almost started 763 00:32:42,520 --> 00:32:44,360 Speaker 4: thinking that way too, And now I'm like. 764 00:32:44,840 --> 00:32:46,960 Speaker 2: Okay, who am I? Without that piece? 765 00:32:47,600 --> 00:32:49,040 Speaker 3: You felt like it was your identity. 766 00:32:49,120 --> 00:32:50,880 Speaker 2: I feel like people were making it my identity, but 767 00:32:50,920 --> 00:32:52,360 Speaker 2: I think that started to become it. 768 00:32:52,440 --> 00:32:55,480 Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, So where can people find you so that 769 00:32:55,560 --> 00:32:58,200 Speaker 1: you can like share your journey and share all of 770 00:32:58,280 --> 00:33:00,240 Speaker 1: your amazing because you're also one of the fun as 771 00:33:00,320 --> 00:33:02,000 Speaker 1: people that I've ever met in my life. 772 00:33:02,080 --> 00:33:04,400 Speaker 3: And where can they buy your goods? Tell me everything? 773 00:33:04,720 --> 00:33:09,880 Speaker 4: It's just at remy Bader on TikTok, Instagram, Snapchat, and 774 00:33:09,880 --> 00:33:12,080 Speaker 4: then you could buy fangirl. 775 00:33:13,600 --> 00:33:15,400 Speaker 2: Which also clips on your phone. 776 00:33:15,480 --> 00:33:17,280 Speaker 4: Or laptop or anything you've use in like a zoom, 777 00:33:17,320 --> 00:33:21,160 Speaker 4: meaning you could use it on your phone when you're out. Anyways, 778 00:33:21,400 --> 00:33:24,040 Speaker 4: Fangirl by Remy you can get that on Amazon and 779 00:33:24,120 --> 00:33:27,040 Speaker 4: on Revolve as of now and TBD because you'll be 780 00:33:27,120 --> 00:33:29,840 Speaker 4: able to see it more somewhere many other places in 781 00:33:29,880 --> 00:33:30,280 Speaker 4: the future. 782 00:33:30,360 --> 00:33:32,160 Speaker 3: No, I can't wait. I'm so into this. 783 00:33:32,280 --> 00:33:34,520 Speaker 1: I'm literally I can't wait to clip my extensions in 784 00:33:34,600 --> 00:33:36,720 Speaker 1: and like have a Beyonce fans. 785 00:33:36,480 --> 00:33:38,920 Speaker 4: Light is so you could do the fan the light 786 00:33:38,960 --> 00:33:40,520 Speaker 4: at the same time. But like I didn't do for 787 00:33:40,560 --> 00:33:42,080 Speaker 4: the light, but I was like, what is something that's 788 00:33:42,120 --> 00:33:44,720 Speaker 4: non existent? And people are like obviously when it's like 789 00:33:44,800 --> 00:33:47,160 Speaker 4: darker outer, it's like the light is amazing. 790 00:33:47,200 --> 00:33:48,600 Speaker 2: It makes you look like gorge. 791 00:33:48,720 --> 00:33:50,440 Speaker 3: Oh I can't wait to look gorge. 792 00:33:50,520 --> 00:33:50,720 Speaker 2: Yeah. 793 00:33:50,760 --> 00:33:51,680 Speaker 3: I needed it today. 794 00:33:52,400 --> 00:33:55,560 Speaker 1: Noo Remmy, thank you so much for coming on my livecast. 795 00:33:55,880 --> 00:33:58,880 Speaker 1: I love you. You're a fucking rock star. You look amazing. 796 00:33:59,160 --> 00:33:59,560 Speaker 2: Thank you. 797 00:33:59,640 --> 00:34:00,920 Speaker 3: I hope you feel amazing. 798 00:34:01,560 --> 00:34:03,600 Speaker 1: You guys, thank you for listening to another episode of 799 00:34:03,680 --> 00:34:05,960 Speaker 1: Untraditionally La La. I'm gonna catch you on Monday for 800 00:34:06,040 --> 00:34:07,480 Speaker 1: the bonus and again next week. 801 00:34:07,600 --> 00:34:09,480 Speaker 3: Bye.