WEBVTT - Conversation with a Lady of the Hour

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<v Speaker 1>Thank you for listening to another episode of no Ceilings.

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<v Speaker 1>this is glasses cribs. Don't supposed to do podcasts with

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<v Speaker 1>my man Peter and the Spott Peter By. I got

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<v Speaker 1>my manager and who actually supposed to manage my career

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<v Speaker 1>for the most part, Still still is here today from

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<v Speaker 1>the Gangster Chronicles Norm Norm Still and we got my

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<v Speaker 1>peoples right here. Sierra LUs is super ere we go

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<v Speaker 1>veteran that knows how different hustles working. Everybody's a hustler

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<v Speaker 1>in the room, so it works out the lady of

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<v Speaker 1>the hour. So I think, I think Pete, I think, um,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm probably not. I'll be honest, like I'm not in

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<v Speaker 1>up pouring at all, like very minimal, like like it

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<v Speaker 1>has to serve a purpose for me, like I'm using

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<v Speaker 1>it to just literally getting myself there and then sit

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<v Speaker 1>verse his homies. I got homies who really into it

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<v Speaker 1>and know all of the actresses and actors. For me,

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<v Speaker 1>the only actor I know is Brian Pumper, right, because

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<v Speaker 1>Brian is like and he's crazy, he's got madness going on.

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<v Speaker 1>And then I think his name to do not know

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<v Speaker 1>his name is Byron Long, so Julia because I think

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<v Speaker 1>that's his government name is his government name is Julia.

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<v Speaker 1>Julia used to date my older cousin when we was younger,

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<v Speaker 1>and he used to always say that, yeah, I want

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<v Speaker 1>to be a porn star, like I would sleep with

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<v Speaker 1>a man. I'll do whatever it takes. And I was like,

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<v Speaker 1>that's crazy, dude, but like he was like, yeah, it's porn.

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<v Speaker 1>They pay me the funk. That's what I do. And

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<v Speaker 1>I'm like, that's what I do. And then ten years later,

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<v Speaker 1>like Julba turned into Byron Long. So it's to do

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<v Speaker 1>with the dreads. He's just sucking all the girls. I'm like, damn.

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<v Speaker 1>So I think about my cousin Tenise and be like

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<v Speaker 1>he was sucking his porn star. That's the I wondered

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<v Speaker 1>to she feel proud. I need to ask him day,

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<v Speaker 1>like do you watch him like he used to do

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<v Speaker 1>it better than that or that like taught him everything

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<v Speaker 1>is new. Denisa, my cousin Tonisa, was off the port,

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<v Speaker 1>so she might have taught him ship too. Did have

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<v Speaker 1>a career opportunity till after we got didn't even know

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<v Speaker 1>you feel, what kind of are you like a porn person?

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<v Speaker 1>Not heavy in it like that, not probably more like

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<v Speaker 1>means to us type of I mean as far as

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<v Speaker 1>name and names and whatnot, and and watching the scenes

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<v Speaker 1>and the acting and the whatever, not so much, big bro,

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<v Speaker 1>when you were like a teenager. I mean, I know

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<v Speaker 1>it's like a while ago, not like that, but I mean, like,

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<v Speaker 1>were you in the porn when you were young? Yeah?

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<v Speaker 1>I actually, um part still every once in a while

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<v Speaker 1>we'll watch porn. But the only difference now if I

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<v Speaker 1>watched it, I look at it with the MRUs so

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<v Speaker 1>back when you were like a stub when you was young,

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<v Speaker 1>before you got like you know, got with your old

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<v Speaker 1>lady who was actually who was like the queen of

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<v Speaker 1>porn when you was coming up, well, to me, I

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<v Speaker 1>was always a Vanessa del Rio ebbing the eyes. Um.

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<v Speaker 1>Then with some of the ones I've had my um,

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<v Speaker 1>I see when you fifteen ages, fifteen, eighteen, you gotta

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<v Speaker 1>call them jerk moments or jerk girlfriends, the ones that

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<v Speaker 1>you look you know, we had the VHS tapes that

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<v Speaker 1>you hear up under your mattress and when everybody was doomed,

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<v Speaker 1>you go kick you a quick jerk, You go kick

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<v Speaker 1>you kick you with a quick jerk in the hardware

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<v Speaker 1>era exactly exactly craziest. Pouring in they days was like

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<v Speaker 1>way better because they used to have pooring with those

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<v Speaker 1>bad like actings where the plumber comes back. I heard

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<v Speaker 1>you're having problems with your pipes and he come in

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<v Speaker 1>with that era, pooring was dope. Well, no, that was

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<v Speaker 1>the scripted era. That that that was the scripted area.

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<v Speaker 1>And uh, actually I just remember this um lady name

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<v Speaker 1>Maria Tortuga. I don't know because that actually translated from

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<v Speaker 1>Spanish Maria turtle Um. She had She was very wet,

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<v Speaker 1>and that was the first time when I saw want

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<v Speaker 1>to squirt, so kind of sun my head up a

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<v Speaker 1>little bit. Do you believe in squirt? And I swear

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<v Speaker 1>that's pissed. I think it's just them pissing on somebody. Bro,

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<v Speaker 1>I think I'll freak out people. That's not true. There's

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<v Speaker 1>no way. That don't even make sense. No, what is squirting? Um,

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know if this is the difference. It's the

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<v Speaker 1>squirting and discussion. Gussion is actually cussion is different. I

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<v Speaker 1>know concussion is like normal nubrication that the body producers

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<v Speaker 1>for sex, right, but what is kind of the same thing.

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<v Speaker 1>It's just no, it's not like you could get up

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<v Speaker 1>and go I barely have my first encounter a couple

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<v Speaker 1>of years ago. You could get up and go to

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<v Speaker 1>the restroom and have sex or whatever. When you come

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<v Speaker 1>back and it's not p not that much. Can't come

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<v Speaker 1>out and still be pe. So wait a minute, So

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<v Speaker 1>you mean to tell me, even like as a hustle,

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<v Speaker 1>when you as you hustled in that industry, those guys

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<v Speaker 1>didn't make you squirt. I've never squirted. Angela release almost

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<v Speaker 1>really the spot that spot physiologically is a gland. I've

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<v Speaker 1>read it into professional name of that god you're gonna.

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<v Speaker 1>I didn't have that. I've seen different things. I've seen

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<v Speaker 1>where it's uh, andrew release that like makes you pee.

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<v Speaker 1>But we'll have to do a fluid test. So I

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<v Speaker 1>don't know how much time smell like P. I have

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<v Speaker 1>a lot of time, actually, but it doesn't smell like PE.

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<v Speaker 1>It doesn't taste like it either, So that's crazy. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>I think I had a squirting moment. Before, and I

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<v Speaker 1>didn't know. This was a few years back, and I

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<v Speaker 1>swear I can't believe I'm about to say this, but

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<v Speaker 1>I woke up and I'm like that this motherfucker pee

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<v Speaker 1>on me, because that's all I'm thinking in my head.

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<v Speaker 1>I have a puddle around me, and I'm just like,

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<v Speaker 1>peat on me, so mad, so mad that that makes

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<v Speaker 1>men feel a lot less now because so that means

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<v Speaker 1>most of the men are not hitting the G spot.

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<v Speaker 1>It depends. I mean like I've had a couple of

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<v Speaker 1>times like the girls and they haven't done it before,

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<v Speaker 1>and they'd be like, that's what they think. They think

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<v Speaker 1>that it's gonna be P because they've never had that experience.

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<v Speaker 1>So what That's what I said, stop, stop, I'm gonna pee.

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<v Speaker 1>And when it happened, it wasn't P. It was like

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<v Speaker 1>literally just legitly clear. It was. It just tastes like nothing.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know how that explain it, but it was, Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>it's it's not I don't know how to explain it's not.

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<v Speaker 1>It's awesome. So at that point, is that really like

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<v Speaker 1>like the same thing as a climax, Like is it

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<v Speaker 1>that kind of peak? Yes, I didn't know it's different,

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<v Speaker 1>but also to score, it is a mental thing to like.

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<v Speaker 1>If your mind is on so many other things besides

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<v Speaker 1>just making love to this person or sex and them down,

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<v Speaker 1>it won't happen because you're gonna be worried about stop. Stop, stop,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna pee you. No, you're just into it. But

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<v Speaker 1>the it's like, I can't explain it. It's like it's

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<v Speaker 1>better than sex. You're squared, so should women. So should

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<v Speaker 1>somebody be worried if they don't make their wife squirt? No? No,

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<v Speaker 1>let me tell you why. Because for a woman to return,

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<v Speaker 1>we're a woman to reach our climax period. We could

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<v Speaker 1>have sex all day, fifty times today and I could

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<v Speaker 1>probably never come. But that's because I got fifty thousand

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<v Speaker 1>things on my mind. There's so many other things running

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<v Speaker 1>through my mind besides busting the nut. Now you're going

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<v Speaker 1>to be thinking about busting this nut right now, and

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<v Speaker 1>that's the only thing I'm worried about, as long as

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<v Speaker 1>my man is pleased and fine, But I have so

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<v Speaker 1>many other things running through my mind that you're not

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<v Speaker 1>even focused. I'm not even focused on that. So sometimes

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<v Speaker 1>if your girl could be a wet she could be

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<v Speaker 1>personal get wet all the time, but at the time

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<v Speaker 1>you're gonna notice it's weather. That's because she's not focused

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<v Speaker 1>on something she so it is a mind. It really

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<v Speaker 1>is even sporting that is crazy. Well, what I was

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<v Speaker 1>gonna say, like, um, she just made a veilup pointless

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<v Speaker 1>in the mind because the average woman, if they love

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<v Speaker 1>a man, it don't necessarily mean because that's the best

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<v Speaker 1>he the best motherfuckering lovers she ever had. No, no,

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<v Speaker 1>not never, because for me, it wasn't even a man

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<v Speaker 1>that made me scort. And it was a mental thing.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't want to sound like a freak right now,

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<v Speaker 1>but it wasn't. I didn't tell the truth. It's a

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<v Speaker 1>mental thing because all in the mind, in her mind,

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<v Speaker 1>she just kept saying like she wants to taste nuts,

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<v Speaker 1>so I can't, Like I in my mind, I'm like,

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<v Speaker 1>well how can I do that? I'm like, I gotta

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<v Speaker 1>score and instantly like I just started scorting me before

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<v Speaker 1>you knew that, she was like I'm drowning. I'm like, okay,

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<v Speaker 1>then get up that I did what I had to do,

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<v Speaker 1>you know what I'm saying. So, yeah, I don't know it.

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<v Speaker 1>Like I said, it wasn't a man that made me score.

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<v Speaker 1>So I can't say so women really do understand women

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<v Speaker 1>a lot better. Oh yeah, I don't love women in

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<v Speaker 1>my personal life, but professional dam me, bitch, get over

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<v Speaker 1>here right now. You see that's what that's what. That's

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<v Speaker 1>what Myron Long said. And see that was the thing

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<v Speaker 1>that he was asking me earlier about, you know, being

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<v Speaker 1>an important industry and this and that. It's all about

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<v Speaker 1>some man. They be like, oh, I want to be

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<v Speaker 1>a porn starre I got a big dig I know

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<v Speaker 1>I could funk women like this. They know how they're

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<v Speaker 1>making women feel and making women react, so they know.

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<v Speaker 1>And at the times it's like, okay, well I can

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<v Speaker 1>get three thou dollars right now, and I have a

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<v Speaker 1>hearty head and the baby at the end of this,

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<v Speaker 1>I need to pay my bills right now. So I

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<v Speaker 1>think women and me and probably going to it for

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<v Speaker 1>different reasons. Yeah, I have to ask somebody like because

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<v Speaker 1>I would imagine me and go into it obviously thinking

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<v Speaker 1>about a couple of dollars, but the vagina has to

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<v Speaker 1>be the main how many bitches he could fuck? How

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<v Speaker 1>many bad bitches? And then too, it's a million guys

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<v Speaker 1>out there that want to fund this one bad bitch

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<v Speaker 1>that he could fuck. I feel like I got it right.

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<v Speaker 1>And then if she's that type of girl not saying

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<v Speaker 1>anything negative about anybody in the industry, because we all

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<v Speaker 1>was there and I go back if they were paying

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<v Speaker 1>again like they was, but anyway, um, she might like

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<v Speaker 1>to have sex like I got a cousin her name tilicious,

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<v Speaker 1>she do porn to. She teld me like Dick is

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<v Speaker 1>sweet to her. And I just don't understand how dick

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<v Speaker 1>is sweet because you talked to girls who, like you

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<v Speaker 1>were saying, like your guy might like the idea of

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<v Speaker 1>sucking the girl that all these other guys watching want

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<v Speaker 1>to fuck. Well, if that woman is like a consummate

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<v Speaker 1>professional and it's just all production value the whole way through,

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<v Speaker 1>what is like, do you have you talked to like

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<v Speaker 1>male actors who been with girls and after the production

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<v Speaker 1>ends that you know there's you were so so what

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<v Speaker 1>about her to? Oh? Yeah, whatever you could tell like

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<v Speaker 1>you can tell tell when you're there. She's a great actress, right,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm one of those girls that is a fucking awesome actress.

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<v Speaker 1>I will tell you the honest to god truth. I

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<v Speaker 1>even had production like cut Sara, why are you doing

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<v Speaker 1>him like that? Like it's called smashdown. He's supposed to

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<v Speaker 1>be smashing you down. I'm like, oh, bull ship, tell

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<v Speaker 1>me what's supposed to go onwn um the smashdown. It's

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<v Speaker 1>like you just in my mind it was me smashing him.

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<v Speaker 1>But he was supposed to be like just hard for

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<v Speaker 1>darky style in all levels, like before the hand thing

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<v Speaker 1>came behind the back. That's kind of like yet So

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<v Speaker 1>they have a lot of different terms in the hustle

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<v Speaker 1>at that point. Oh yes, they got one called big

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<v Speaker 1>gass headaches, headache, white guy. This is their thing fetish

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<v Speaker 1>not I'm not gonna blame you, but yeah, he wanted

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<v Speaker 1>me to literally like smash his head in the wall.

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<v Speaker 1>On the smash his head into the wall. Yeah, so

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<v Speaker 1>in school, big ass, so my ass big as headaches.

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<v Speaker 1>So he'd to the wall and I thought at first, like, no,

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<v Speaker 1>he doesn't want me to like smash this hit and

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<v Speaker 1>he literally grabbed me and small and I was just like, okay, wait,

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<v Speaker 1>we can't do it that word because you have teeth

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<v Speaker 1>in your nose and everything else. But I got the

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<v Speaker 1>concept now, But yeah, he just wanted me. He laid

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<v Speaker 1>down on the couch and I would just literally with

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<v Speaker 1>all my forest. Okay, I thought it was a pay

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<v Speaker 1>per view world restaurant. Close close. We even did one

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<v Speaker 1>with dog De Downy Hunter. Well not with him per se,

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<v Speaker 1>but that was that was a yeah, and I do

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<v Speaker 1>believe it was like some controversy about it, but yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>that's crazy. So so so do you did you when

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<v Speaker 1>you grew up? Did you ever loose to look at porn?

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<v Speaker 1>I never watched porn, and I'm so being honest, I

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<v Speaker 1>still don't even watch porn. The only time I watched

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<v Speaker 1>porn is to make sure I'm not doing the same

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<v Speaker 1>in the next video. How do you feel you said,

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<v Speaker 1>that's a good point. So look though, so like now

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<v Speaker 1>that modern porn is like how it is, or like

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<v Speaker 1>this kind of new conventional porn. Do you did you

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<v Speaker 1>ever trip off when they would ask you to do

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<v Speaker 1>actress things? Did you ever feel like that actually was

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<v Speaker 1>involved actress? No? You know what, Honestly, when I started

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<v Speaker 1>doing it, I wasn't worried about if I was gonna

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<v Speaker 1>have to go in there and rediscrib work being actress.

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<v Speaker 1>And really, you know understand at that point, right, I

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<v Speaker 1>was like this and said what what I'm in that

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<v Speaker 1>right now. Yes, you know. So I had an idea

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<v Speaker 1>for a porn like I always wanted to direct one porn.

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<v Speaker 1>I wanted to produce one porn, like an hour long porn. No, no, no,

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<v Speaker 1>not no game. I had no idea, right, don't nobody

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<v Speaker 1>still make sure you copyright this shot. I was about

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<v Speaker 1>this No, no, Yeah, So I had an idea to

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<v Speaker 1>do a porn that was rooted in slavery, and the

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<v Speaker 1>whole thing takes place on a plantation, and his white

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<v Speaker 1>slave owners, right is black slavers, black slaves, black slavers,

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<v Speaker 1>slave ladies, the master master's wife, feel me, And I

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<v Speaker 1>wanted to just produce and direct a porn where all

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<v Speaker 1>of this freaky ship take place on a plantation, Like

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<v Speaker 1>I wanted to have a brother hanging from a tree

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<v Speaker 1>getting head like like like exactly right, and then the

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<v Speaker 1>slave master's wife like sucking up while you're hanging from

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<v Speaker 1>the tree. You are a pervert, sir. But I mean, honestly,

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<v Speaker 1>that is that sounds like a fire porn. But that

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<v Speaker 1>is the type of thoughts that they have. Though. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>and it would certainly be a good way to think

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<v Speaker 1>about all the sexes, think about all the sex things

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<v Speaker 1>that could work, like a plan Tation has a ton

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<v Speaker 1>of sex scenes, right, and like the older white men

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<v Speaker 1>who like porn, who feel like the new porn and

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<v Speaker 1>pop and they will watch this, I'm gonna do that.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm actually producing direct one porn just you know, really

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<v Speaker 1>gonna go big, especially right now this day. And ain't

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<v Speaker 1>just a lot of racism. It's a lot of things

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<v Speaker 1>that are got together for me. Racist point is that

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<v Speaker 1>like a genre. Yeah, every anything that you could think of.

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<v Speaker 1>That's just like, that's why everybody's so confused about only

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<v Speaker 1>fans or fans only whatever they think like it's the

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<v Speaker 1>new prostitution or the new porn. It's not. Everybody is

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<v Speaker 1>crazy to me, these bitches that are getting on there

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<v Speaker 1>and your second dick. First of all, the thing, the

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<v Speaker 1>key thing how it's got so famous is that the

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<v Speaker 1>bitch got rich, made a million dollars off her feet.

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<v Speaker 1>You bitches is getting on their second day because you

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<v Speaker 1>want to. You're doing in the house porn and that's

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<v Speaker 1>where you're sucking up for the bitches in the real game.

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<v Speaker 1>But this is but it's like rap, Like that's like

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<v Speaker 1>hip hop, right, hip hop is very much like these

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<v Speaker 1>unspoken corners of ship that's happening, And what's happening is

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<v Speaker 1>the average hip hop artists or that's a rapper that's

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<v Speaker 1>posing as a hip hop artist. They're coming in with

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<v Speaker 1>these very generic concepts and everybody's rewarding them because you know,

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<v Speaker 1>mainstream dollars is being pushed. But hip hop itself was

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<v Speaker 1>about these small pocket corners right of culture. And the

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<v Speaker 1>first time you heard certain rappers sake cuse or talk

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<v Speaker 1>like this or say use all of this lingo, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>that's what hip hop was. And I don't think people

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<v Speaker 1>are reaching and I would imagine it's the same with

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<v Speaker 1>only fans. We're I was saying about getting bigger only fans.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, like, you can become really big, but it

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<v Speaker 1>would be more efficient to do normal production, develop your

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<v Speaker 1>name and get more money that way and then go

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<v Speaker 1>to only fans. Don't start the only fans to be

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<v Speaker 1>sucking dick for ten viewers until you build up to

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<v Speaker 1>ten thousand viewers. That's a lot of fucking low priced

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<v Speaker 1>dick sucking going on. Not only fans. Aren't most people

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<v Speaker 1>doing it with their dudes? No, no, every time, because

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<v Speaker 1>Twitter is like only fans. Twitter there like all the

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<v Speaker 1>porn like Twitter, you could tell they know that's for

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<v Speaker 1>adult so they don't harass porn. I mean they eventually

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<v Speaker 1>take it down, but they don't harass it. But I

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<v Speaker 1>noticed a lot of people that I do see that

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<v Speaker 1>other people retweet it will be the same guy. Well,

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<v Speaker 1>don't get me wrong. A lot of people are doing

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<v Speaker 1>it in their relationship, are with somebody that they're comfortable with.

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<v Speaker 1>But there's a lot of people. You'd be surprised if

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<v Speaker 1>if you had a website set up right now, people

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<v Speaker 1>will call you and be like, hey, you guys, you

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<v Speaker 1>want to set up a date and um, you could

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<v Speaker 1>put it on your only fans Like, motherfucker, I don't

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<v Speaker 1>have it. The only fans did this. So a little

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<v Speaker 1>dude that I know that rhyme right, dude is dope

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<v Speaker 1>is fucking He had one song, Um, juju on that beat.

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<v Speaker 1>I told you about this, yep, Juju on that beat.

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<v Speaker 1>His name is Za hill Fa Za Dog is on

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<v Speaker 1>Twitter now like the Jews you want to beat. You

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<v Speaker 1>know he danced. Dude, he's actually fucking girls on his ship,

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<v Speaker 1>jacking off on his Twitter and like sucking glass dial does.

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<v Speaker 1>And I would think to myself. I'm like, Damn, I

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<v Speaker 1>wonder because think he gave because he's probably not getting

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<v Speaker 1>he actually used a deal dough on hisself. Bro. I

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<v Speaker 1>felt so bad for that kid, like and I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>it's not wrong with it, like if that's what you want,

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<v Speaker 1>but I wonder just like when he just you know,

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<v Speaker 1>modern wise, a lot of people don't think they're gay

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<v Speaker 1>concerned about using a glass dial though. I think you

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<v Speaker 1>need to be in a plastic and rubber game for

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<v Speaker 1>something like that because it doesn't take much. She doesn't

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<v Speaker 1>take much. It's a little just a little bit. And

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<v Speaker 1>and Tiger Tiger got the only fans. Shout out to

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<v Speaker 1>my boy Tiger, because this nigger really got the only

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<v Speaker 1>fans where he knel and girls. That's what I'm saying.

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<v Speaker 1>Is he in the relationship? Is it the same bit

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<v Speaker 1>people are doing it friplessly and not. I'm telling you

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<v Speaker 1>it's the consequence that's like in the porn industry, like

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<v Speaker 1>back in the day, you know porn days, should do

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<v Speaker 1>we wear condoms when we start? When I started doing porn,

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<v Speaker 1>people wouldn't wearing condoms. You go through this company call Aim,

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<v Speaker 1>you would get tested then let you know, twenty four hours.

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<v Speaker 1>If you got something. So y'all sucking all these people randomly?

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<v Speaker 1>How how safe is that? I almost did them? Well.

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<v Speaker 1>I got referred to that and I was like, you

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<v Speaker 1>guys wanted to spending like three hundred dollars. I was

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<v Speaker 1>dating a girl who's who's in this school. She's dead now.

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<v Speaker 1>Name is Loria Alexia. Back in the day, she got

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<v Speaker 1>killed in New York. But how she get killed. She

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<v Speaker 1>was messing around with this Russian dude and then from

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<v Speaker 1>what this, From what I understand, her friend put this

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<v Speaker 1>on her Facebook cause I couldn't get ahold of for

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<v Speaker 1>a while. She's like, Anna, I'm like, it's gonna be

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<v Speaker 1>great when you come back to l A and yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>I was like she stopped test me back, like that's

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<v Speaker 1>just what. We didn't have that kind of volatility. So

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<v Speaker 1>I want on her Facebook and her friend posted up

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<v Speaker 1>that she had been dating some rushing dude. I was

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<v Speaker 1>aware of it, but I guess they got mad or whatever,

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<v Speaker 1>and she I can understand that. I mean, I got

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<v Speaker 1>we got an argument. I left her on the street

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<v Speaker 1>corner in middle San Frando Valley like four in the morning.

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<v Speaker 1>I couldn't take it. Anymore. I didn't, but her boyfriend

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<v Speaker 1>picked up a shot gun and blew a hole right

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<v Speaker 1>through her right in the middle of their penthouse condo

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<v Speaker 1>and then called the police or the police came and

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<v Speaker 1>he was like, I didn't do that, like the stupidest.

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<v Speaker 1>That's really like a crime of passion where you just

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<v Speaker 1>like I was out of my skin. She picked me off.

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<v Speaker 1>So I've seen the picture of the minute. How she

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<v Speaker 1>almost get you important not because she was like, well, yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>we could do one and they'll pay you, like you know,

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<v Speaker 1>I'll get him to pay you. And I'm like, all right,

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<v Speaker 1>just like you gotta go do this, And between me

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<v Speaker 1>having problems with her and her being flaking and whatever else,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm like, I'm gonna end up spending three fifty four

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<v Speaker 1>or whatever the hell the price tag was to go

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<v Speaker 1>through this stupid ass clinic and get all these tests

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<v Speaker 1>done and it's not even gonna happen at the end

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<v Speaker 1>of the day. I'm like just taking out of my

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<v Speaker 1>paycheck on the back and like, no, you gotta pay

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<v Speaker 1>a front scam. So let me ask you a question. Look, okay,

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<v Speaker 1>so let's say a girl wanted to sleep with you.

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<v Speaker 1>Let's be more realistic. I mean, but you didn't want

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<v Speaker 1>to sleep with her. Yes, she wasn't ugly, or she

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<v Speaker 1>wasn't horrible. You just was like, this is not your style.

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<v Speaker 1>How much, honestly, would she had to pay you to

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<v Speaker 1>sleep with you? What's a fair price? It depends, like

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<v Speaker 1>like what do you mean? Like it's a girl who

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<v Speaker 1>likes me and wants to and thinks that she's gonna

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<v Speaker 1>backdoor fuck me into a relationship, or she just want

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<v Speaker 1>to this is this is like a one off. She's like, look,

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<v Speaker 1>I know you don't want to sleep with me. It

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<v Speaker 1>would be whatever I could get her for. What if

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<v Speaker 1>it was two hundred dollars but you did not want

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<v Speaker 1>to sleep with her, it would be whatever I could

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<v Speaker 1>get her for. So if I knew good and damn well,

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<v Speaker 1>I've jill step bitch out of her last two dollars,

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah I could her? Because what would you think? What

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<v Speaker 1>would you think if if if if if Mrs Still

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<v Speaker 1>if a lady, let's say you and Mrs Still is

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<v Speaker 1>walking down the street, y'all somewhere because right and y'all

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<v Speaker 1>walking together, and a wealthy lady, a wealthy old lady.

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<v Speaker 1>Let's say she bought sixty nine white lady feel me,

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<v Speaker 1>and she walked up to you, and she just complimenting you.

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<v Speaker 1>She's telling Mrs Stell, Hey, I love how he looks.

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<v Speaker 1>She's gorgeous. I want to sleep with him, like a

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<v Speaker 1>decent proposal. What what? What do you want for him?

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<v Speaker 1>Is there a number you think Mrs Still would be

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<v Speaker 1>okay with? Well, in a decent proposal. I don't think

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<v Speaker 1>I wouldn't be fine with no motherfucker asked me to.

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<v Speaker 1>I'll probably knock the motherfuck out, I mean, lady, But

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<v Speaker 1>if absolutely nothing, I'm asking you, what would the number

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<v Speaker 1>you think she would go for? The numbers she would

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<v Speaker 1>go for, I don't think my wife would go for

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<v Speaker 1>nothing like that. You you know how conservative my wife feels.

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<v Speaker 1>Man to tell me you think for a million dollars,

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<v Speaker 1>I think the number would be however much it would

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<v Speaker 1>cost to move him out? No, no, I don't. I

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<v Speaker 1>don't agree with you, and I agree with you. She

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<v Speaker 1>is conservative, right, But I bet you if an old

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<v Speaker 1>white lady said I got a million dollars, I'll be

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<v Speaker 1>honest with you. I don't think my wife's be with

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<v Speaker 1>no stuff like that. But if somebody did you say

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<v Speaker 1>a million dollars, it would be. It would definitely be

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<v Speaker 1>a conversation about that ship because you think about it now,

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<v Speaker 1>it's a little old last lady and it's just some

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<v Speaker 1>sex for a million dollars, you change your whole life.

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<v Speaker 1>But then again, just like in the movie in Decent Proposal,

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<v Speaker 1>sometimes it ain't just that simple. Okay, look, let's let's

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<v Speaker 1>let's because what we're doing is we're going to this.

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<v Speaker 1>Don't funk that. Let's say it's this simple. What would

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<v Speaker 1>the number be for Mrs Still Probably a couple of

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<v Speaker 1>million dollars, So five millions, She's like, you better go

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<v Speaker 1>do that. How how much would it be to get

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<v Speaker 1>her out of her conservative zone? Think about what would

0:23:58.359 --> 0:24:00.560
<v Speaker 1>be that number to get her out of her conservatives?

0:24:00.640 --> 0:24:03.080
<v Speaker 1>On well, five million dollars, I think anybody could have

0:24:03.119 --> 0:24:05.920
<v Speaker 1>to have a conversation about us, unless they just really

0:24:05.960 --> 0:24:09.400
<v Speaker 1>independently wealthy. When somebody asking that question, five million dollars

0:24:09.480 --> 0:24:12.480
<v Speaker 1>is life? Change your money? I agree, and I say

0:24:12.560 --> 0:24:16.120
<v Speaker 1>something now back to the conversation that we were not

0:24:16.359 --> 0:24:19.480
<v Speaker 1>live for it with your wife, that's the same thing.

0:24:20.160 --> 0:24:23.640
<v Speaker 1>If you are incapable of having sex or pleasing your

0:24:23.640 --> 0:24:26.600
<v Speaker 1>wife or whatever the case. May be vice versa. Ain't

0:24:26.640 --> 0:24:28.280
<v Speaker 1>no dollars sign and man gonna be able to give

0:24:28.320 --> 0:24:31.160
<v Speaker 1>you for your wife exactly, which which was my first answer,

0:24:31.200 --> 0:24:33.719
<v Speaker 1>because right now, that was your first answer, because if

0:24:33.720 --> 0:24:35.919
<v Speaker 1>it came to me and he was asked me, what

0:24:35.920 --> 0:24:42.560
<v Speaker 1>would make her let me finish it? Now, this's my

0:24:42.640 --> 0:24:45.480
<v Speaker 1>thing though, like I was explaining to you earlier, for better,

0:24:45.520 --> 0:24:48.000
<v Speaker 1>for worse, for richard, for poor, it ain't not one

0:24:48.040 --> 0:24:49.920
<v Speaker 1>dollar amount that no bitch on this earth gonna be

0:24:49.960 --> 0:24:53.800
<v Speaker 1>able to give me for my husband. And I think

0:24:54.000 --> 0:24:56.920
<v Speaker 1>I think she could give me for my husband that

0:24:58.520 --> 0:25:00.560
<v Speaker 1>I wouldn't give a funk if the bitch needed twenty

0:25:00.560 --> 0:25:02.520
<v Speaker 1>minutes with him and was gonna pay me two point

0:25:02.560 --> 0:25:05.920
<v Speaker 1>five million dollars, amen, because I think that's I'm pretty sure,

0:25:06.760 --> 0:25:08.720
<v Speaker 1>but I'm pretty sure that's how my wife would be too,

0:25:08.720 --> 0:25:11.959
<v Speaker 1>because if the if the shoe was on the other

0:25:12.000 --> 0:25:14.480
<v Speaker 1>foot in my pocket, it wouldn't be let me tell you,

0:25:14.520 --> 0:25:16.720
<v Speaker 1>because if that one point two million can walk through,

0:25:16.720 --> 0:25:18.680
<v Speaker 1>guess what it's gonna be another one point two million.

0:25:18.680 --> 0:25:23.359
<v Speaker 1>It's gonna be another one point That's the point of

0:25:23.720 --> 0:25:25.840
<v Speaker 1>this is the problem that people are having right now,

0:25:25.880 --> 0:25:27.760
<v Speaker 1>and this is what I had to come to. Now,

0:25:27.840 --> 0:25:30.280
<v Speaker 1>let me get real real, sure, this is the real

0:25:30.480 --> 0:25:32.960
<v Speaker 1>ship that I had to come through too. Is that

0:25:33.000 --> 0:25:36.159
<v Speaker 1>money worth me? Every time? I really love this person,

0:25:36.359 --> 0:25:38.120
<v Speaker 1>and every time the money car I got to jump

0:25:38.200 --> 0:25:40.760
<v Speaker 1>up and go because then guess what, I don't really

0:25:40.760 --> 0:25:43.800
<v Speaker 1>love him. I really love money. No, but he's the

0:25:43.840 --> 0:25:46.960
<v Speaker 1>one getting I wouldn't give a funk even if it

0:25:47.080 --> 0:25:49.160
<v Speaker 1>is my husband getting fun. I love the money enough

0:25:49.200 --> 0:25:51.879
<v Speaker 1>to pick my husband out. But listen, but listen, have

0:25:52.080 --> 0:25:54.760
<v Speaker 1>you ever like when you like in the hustle like,

0:25:54.920 --> 0:25:59.359
<v Speaker 1>have you ever felt like a prostitute? No, that's my point.

0:25:59.520 --> 0:26:03.840
<v Speaker 1>Now that held up. I've never felt like a prostitute

0:26:04.160 --> 0:26:06.280
<v Speaker 1>because I was built for this ship. And when I

0:26:06.320 --> 0:26:08.760
<v Speaker 1>say that, this is way deeper than anything. A lot

0:26:08.800 --> 0:26:10.600
<v Speaker 1>of people say, Oh, all the girls that do pour

0:26:10.640 --> 0:26:12.640
<v Speaker 1>in their strip or whatever, they've been raped in their life.

0:26:13.240 --> 0:26:15.520
<v Speaker 1>That's not why bitches do. Like I said, we ain't

0:26:15.520 --> 0:26:17.080
<v Speaker 1>got shipped to be ashamed of it. Ain't no man

0:26:17.119 --> 0:26:18.800
<v Speaker 1>about to watch for that. I'm gonna be worried. Oh

0:26:18.800 --> 0:26:20.520
<v Speaker 1>my daddy gonna see me. I don't if you do

0:26:20.600 --> 0:26:23.520
<v Speaker 1>see me. Thank you for the child support. Unwillingly you

0:26:23.560 --> 0:26:25.480
<v Speaker 1>feel me, but you don't think that even could play

0:26:25.480 --> 0:26:27.600
<v Speaker 1>a part. Like if let's say, if you're pops all around,

0:26:27.600 --> 0:26:29.080
<v Speaker 1>you don't think that could play a part of why

0:26:29.119 --> 0:26:31.320
<v Speaker 1>you maybe on the hustle. So tell that's why I said,

0:26:31.320 --> 0:26:34.320
<v Speaker 1>because I have nothing to be ashamed of. If your

0:26:34.400 --> 0:26:36.959
<v Speaker 1>dad was my dad was around, It's like, oh, like

0:26:37.160 --> 0:26:39.360
<v Speaker 1>just recently when I went to Louisiana, my home girl

0:26:39.359 --> 0:26:41.520
<v Speaker 1>from California, she came. She wanted to go to the club.

0:26:41.800 --> 0:26:45.040
<v Speaker 1>I'm like, I'm not. That's the thing. The thing that

0:26:45.119 --> 0:26:48.800
<v Speaker 1>killed me about Motherfucker's because is motherfucker's will fly around

0:26:48.840 --> 0:26:51.240
<v Speaker 1>the world to go to the club. Right. That's how

0:26:51.280 --> 0:26:53.800
<v Speaker 1>you know people be intrigued with people so much. They

0:26:54.400 --> 0:26:57.359
<v Speaker 1>different people. Nobody care about all these motherfuckers. I ain't

0:26:57.359 --> 0:26:59.640
<v Speaker 1>going nowhere to see the same ship I see at home,

0:27:00.000 --> 0:27:04.000
<v Speaker 1>and people ain't different. I need to. I mean, like, guys,

0:27:03.840 --> 0:27:10.479
<v Speaker 1>it's consisting the club at all, whatever whatever it is.

0:27:10.720 --> 0:27:13.600
<v Speaker 1>In Spanish, sty trying to fun whatever it is. And

0:27:13.680 --> 0:27:17.280
<v Speaker 1>Italian they're trying to fun whatever it is. In Japanese

0:27:17.320 --> 0:27:20.440
<v Speaker 1>they're trying to Ain't nobody so that. But I'm thinking

0:27:20.440 --> 0:27:23.600
<v Speaker 1>about that, and I'm saying like, so at that same

0:27:23.640 --> 0:27:26.680
<v Speaker 1>point that that guy wouldn't be you're not prostitute your husband, right,

0:27:26.720 --> 0:27:29.359
<v Speaker 1>It's it's it's opportunity of a lifetime. It is the

0:27:29.400 --> 0:27:31.840
<v Speaker 1>opportunity of a lifetime. But is the money gonna be

0:27:31.880 --> 0:27:33.879
<v Speaker 1>the thing that all is? That, that's the rule of

0:27:33.920 --> 0:27:36.240
<v Speaker 1>all evil? Is that's gonna be? What for the love

0:27:37.280 --> 0:27:40.960
<v Speaker 1>and that in key word, listen, We're gonna get deeper

0:27:40.960 --> 0:27:43.960
<v Speaker 1>than is. My grandfather he just had cancer. He just

0:27:44.040 --> 0:27:48.560
<v Speaker 1>died whatever, whatever him, my grandma's been together for they've

0:27:48.560 --> 0:27:51.280
<v Speaker 1>been together for thirty seven years. I don't want to

0:27:51.320 --> 0:27:54.399
<v Speaker 1>get married no more. Just off of seeing that he

0:27:54.440 --> 0:27:55.840
<v Speaker 1>came to my house. I'll take care of him. He

0:27:55.880 --> 0:27:58.360
<v Speaker 1>came December third, He died December ten. The whole time,

0:27:58.400 --> 0:28:02.199
<v Speaker 1>my grandma my birthday. Sorry, yeah, the whole time my

0:28:02.240 --> 0:28:04.199
<v Speaker 1>grandma talked about, oh well we got six months. We've

0:28:04.200 --> 0:28:06.760
<v Speaker 1>got six months. I'm literally arguing with my grandma. We

0:28:06.800 --> 0:28:08.120
<v Speaker 1>didn't got to the point where I tried to get

0:28:08.119 --> 0:28:09.679
<v Speaker 1>your sho get the funk out of my house. You

0:28:09.720 --> 0:28:11.600
<v Speaker 1>can't go back there and hold his hands, show him

0:28:11.600 --> 0:28:15.959
<v Speaker 1>a little bit of love. Nothing after a long thirty

0:28:16.000 --> 0:28:18.480
<v Speaker 1>seven years, Well, he like, what kind of what kind

0:28:18.480 --> 0:28:21.360
<v Speaker 1>of husband. Was he the best? If I never seen

0:28:21.480 --> 0:28:25.760
<v Speaker 1>unconditional love, that's what he did show us. No, I'm

0:28:25.800 --> 0:28:29.800
<v Speaker 1>gonna tell you what she loved, what their relationship is.

0:28:30.080 --> 0:28:35.040
<v Speaker 1>They've smoked up. So instead of her sitting there holding

0:28:35.080 --> 0:28:37.440
<v Speaker 1>her man's hand, that being with her for the last

0:28:37.440 --> 0:28:41.240
<v Speaker 1>thirty seven years unconditionally, no matter what, she rather go

0:28:41.320 --> 0:28:45.680
<v Speaker 1>get high. But that's what I'm saying. So, did you

0:28:45.720 --> 0:28:47.560
<v Speaker 1>really love this man that you've been with for thirty

0:28:47.600 --> 0:28:51.080
<v Speaker 1>seven years? Or did you love the dope? Because why

0:28:51.160 --> 0:28:54.600
<v Speaker 1>you go smoking dope and he dying and he knows

0:28:54.640 --> 0:28:56.440
<v Speaker 1>that this is your way of coping and this is

0:28:56.480 --> 0:28:58.400
<v Speaker 1>how you cope with things, so he knows what you're

0:28:58.400 --> 0:29:00.719
<v Speaker 1>doing and why you're not here his death. Bit. So

0:29:00.760 --> 0:29:04.480
<v Speaker 1>while you out there getting hot, he dying. When So

0:29:04.800 --> 0:29:06.960
<v Speaker 1>in that hustle, how many of the people are high

0:29:07.000 --> 0:29:09.840
<v Speaker 1>and drunk before they're doing the scenes? Oh? I don't know.

0:29:10.120 --> 0:29:13.320
<v Speaker 1>Is it alcohol and drugs on the set? No? Not

0:29:13.400 --> 0:29:15.840
<v Speaker 1>like they don't. They don't provide it for us. Now,

0:29:15.880 --> 0:29:17.640
<v Speaker 1>if you come and bring your own ship, that's on

0:29:17.680 --> 0:29:20.160
<v Speaker 1>you and whatever you do. Let's say, if if if

0:29:20.200 --> 0:29:23.200
<v Speaker 1>a male actor would have came in he drunk when

0:29:23.280 --> 0:29:26.760
<v Speaker 1>they let him go on with the scene. Yeah, whatever

0:29:26.800 --> 0:29:28.920
<v Speaker 1>they want to do. But see that's the thing. That's

0:29:28.920 --> 0:29:30.480
<v Speaker 1>why I was telling you too, like I was built

0:29:30.520 --> 0:29:32.960
<v Speaker 1>for this, Like, ain't no male actor's gonna come. I

0:29:33.000 --> 0:29:35.040
<v Speaker 1>actually got him to it, one of them. You feel me,

0:29:35.240 --> 0:29:37.520
<v Speaker 1>come in. I don't want to be name dropping, Like

0:29:37.600 --> 0:29:41.880
<v Speaker 1>just tell me between us and everybody, Mr and Mr

0:29:42.000 --> 0:29:45.000
<v Speaker 1>Market shout out to Mr. Market, shout out to Mr. Markets.

0:29:45.040 --> 0:29:49.720
<v Speaker 1>So respect you feel me. But he showed a legend.

0:29:48.240 --> 0:29:53.640
<v Speaker 1>I heard he's a big time legend. He actually that

0:29:53.720 --> 0:29:56.440
<v Speaker 1>year we got him to it. A couple one months later, Um,

0:29:56.480 --> 0:29:58.280
<v Speaker 1>it was the A b N. He was there, tee pain.

0:29:58.480 --> 0:30:00.920
<v Speaker 1>He just released his book and yet got nominated. I

0:30:00.960 --> 0:30:03.040
<v Speaker 1>think he actually won an award at the A v

0:30:03.200 --> 0:30:08.040
<v Speaker 1>N is the Point Awards that year. So anyways, it's me. Nevertheless,

0:30:08.080 --> 0:30:10.560
<v Speaker 1>you see what you and it's a light sky ambition

0:30:10.600 --> 0:30:16.000
<v Speaker 1>named Kim Treats. She looks almost my twin only things smarter, yeah,

0:30:16.040 --> 0:30:21.120
<v Speaker 1>smart as light skin and she's so it's just so

0:30:21.160 --> 0:30:23.920
<v Speaker 1>fretty to me. But this nigga shows up an hour

0:30:24.280 --> 0:30:28.320
<v Speaker 1>and a half late, star l a traffic and this

0:30:28.440 --> 0:30:31.840
<v Speaker 1>holiday weekend. But he late come to find out, he

0:30:31.880 --> 0:30:34.680
<v Speaker 1>did an old lady scene. The lady was like seventy

0:30:34.840 --> 0:30:38.280
<v Speaker 1>eight years old, right, he shows up, can't get his

0:30:38.360 --> 0:30:45.200
<v Speaker 1>dick hard? Sorry that I mean, listen, I can't always

0:30:45.240 --> 0:30:47.800
<v Speaker 1>forgot the run right right right me? Sometimes I take

0:30:47.840 --> 0:30:49.200
<v Speaker 1>my time and be like I need to come back

0:30:49.240 --> 0:30:51.479
<v Speaker 1>to this tomorrow. But we're sucking this dick. And then

0:30:51.480 --> 0:30:53.520
<v Speaker 1>it's like it's me and it's Kim Treats, and it's

0:30:53.560 --> 0:30:56.040
<v Speaker 1>just like, well, damn okay. Now at the thirty minutes,

0:30:56.080 --> 0:30:57.720
<v Speaker 1>you know, I'm a different type of bit. I don't

0:30:57.720 --> 0:31:01.200
<v Speaker 1>care about nothing else is going on. You're like, what's up?

0:31:01.240 --> 0:31:05.600
<v Speaker 1>What's what? Right? He like, what do you mean what

0:31:05.680 --> 0:31:07.160
<v Speaker 1>I need you to do? What you're doing? I said,

0:31:07.200 --> 0:31:10.080
<v Speaker 1>obviously it's not working. Your dick ain't getting hard. Period.

0:31:10.280 --> 0:31:14.760
<v Speaker 1>I'm not about I'm a legend. And so now here

0:31:14.800 --> 0:31:18.400
<v Speaker 1>you go, which who you think you are? And I

0:31:18.440 --> 0:31:20.240
<v Speaker 1>hit him with the same thing, nigger. We're both doing

0:31:20.240 --> 0:31:22.200
<v Speaker 1>the same thing right now. So we're on the same level.

0:31:22.240 --> 0:31:23.600
<v Speaker 1>Who do you think I am? I don't see your

0:31:23.640 --> 0:31:29.360
<v Speaker 1>motherfucking less, don't forget that. And then not having a

0:31:29.480 --> 0:31:32.640
<v Speaker 1>dad and then also being molested in the you know,

0:31:32.680 --> 0:31:35.160
<v Speaker 1>growing up as a child. So when I do get

0:31:35.160 --> 0:31:38.040
<v Speaker 1>in certain situations like that. I can be into a

0:31:38.120 --> 0:31:40.360
<v Speaker 1>party words fifty niggers in there, and I'm the only female.

0:31:40.560 --> 0:31:42.280
<v Speaker 1>So wait a minute. You said you got molested as

0:31:42.320 --> 0:31:44.440
<v Speaker 1>a child. Yeah, I did so. Then you made everybody

0:31:44.440 --> 0:31:46.440
<v Speaker 1>point right when you started off, like it usually something

0:31:46.520 --> 0:31:49.000
<v Speaker 1>going wrong, right, we usually something does go wrong, But

0:31:49.040 --> 0:31:52.040
<v Speaker 1>that is not the purpose or the reason. Like I said, Oh,

0:31:52.160 --> 0:31:53.480
<v Speaker 1>she's doing it because you don't have a dad. No,

0:31:53.840 --> 0:31:55.959
<v Speaker 1>it's because she doesn't have anything to be ashamed of.

0:31:56.400 --> 0:31:59.280
<v Speaker 1>If if my mama watched porn, guess what you think

0:31:59.320 --> 0:32:01.800
<v Speaker 1>I would be doing. No, because I have something to

0:32:01.840 --> 0:32:05.160
<v Speaker 1>be ashamed of. You see what I'm saying. It's because

0:32:05.200 --> 0:32:07.560
<v Speaker 1>you don't have something. These bitches that's walking down there

0:32:07.600 --> 0:32:10.360
<v Speaker 1>on Fip Road with no panting, she don't. She ain't

0:32:10.400 --> 0:32:12.320
<v Speaker 1>got to be ashamed of. She's not worried about her mom,

0:32:12.360 --> 0:32:14.120
<v Speaker 1>but she's not worried about her grandmashin't got no daddy,

0:32:14.200 --> 0:32:15.960
<v Speaker 1>Nobody gonna come snatch her up. She ain't got no

0:32:16.040 --> 0:32:18.760
<v Speaker 1>big brother because it's uncle nobody that really cared. So

0:32:18.920 --> 0:32:22.240
<v Speaker 1>it's like, you know what I'm saying. So I never thought, Yeah,

0:32:22.280 --> 0:32:24.920
<v Speaker 1>when I'm out there, I gotta be the nigga and

0:32:24.960 --> 0:32:27.080
<v Speaker 1>the female. I gotta be my own pimp. And it's

0:32:27.360 --> 0:32:29.880
<v Speaker 1>you gotta suck your own mind to the point where

0:32:30.280 --> 0:32:39.640
<v Speaker 1>you gotta make yourself built for this. How did I mean?

0:32:39.680 --> 0:32:41.160
<v Speaker 1>I don't want to get into this because this is

0:32:41.200 --> 0:32:45.240
<v Speaker 1>gonna make it too creepy. I hate creepy conversations. Who

0:32:46.320 --> 0:32:50.120
<v Speaker 1>how did you get molested? Um, that's the craziest thing.

0:32:50.160 --> 0:32:53.680
<v Speaker 1>It's not how, It's just that I think growing up

0:32:53.680 --> 0:32:57.920
<v Speaker 1>in the house my mom was molested, My grandmother was molested.

0:32:58.000 --> 0:33:00.760
<v Speaker 1>So back in their area is nobody say nothing, you'd

0:33:00.760 --> 0:33:03.479
<v Speaker 1>be quiet. So my thing was growing up we had

0:33:03.520 --> 0:33:06.840
<v Speaker 1>to live with my my mom's well, it started before that.

0:33:07.160 --> 0:33:09.880
<v Speaker 1>When I was five, my brother molested me. So it

0:33:09.960 --> 0:33:12.080
<v Speaker 1>was my mom selling doe being in doge game. She

0:33:12.120 --> 0:33:16.720
<v Speaker 1>did five years in the penitentiary, and your yeah, he's

0:33:16.800 --> 0:33:19.000
<v Speaker 1>yeah at the time he was my only brother, but yeah,

0:33:19.040 --> 0:33:21.880
<v Speaker 1>my older brother. And then you know, not having people

0:33:21.920 --> 0:33:24.520
<v Speaker 1>there who actually watching. If the kids is in the

0:33:24.600 --> 0:33:26.440
<v Speaker 1>room and it's too quiet, I'm the first one in there.

0:33:26.440 --> 0:33:29.160
<v Speaker 1>What's going on? My baby can't be in there too

0:33:29.280 --> 0:33:33.320
<v Speaker 1>quiet for too long. I don't trust nothing. When my

0:33:33.400 --> 0:33:36.080
<v Speaker 1>brother came home from prison. He did um from the

0:33:36.120 --> 0:33:38.280
<v Speaker 1>age of twelve to eighteen. He came home, he was

0:33:38.320 --> 0:33:40.480
<v Speaker 1>home for a week. My niece in the living room.

0:33:40.760 --> 0:33:43.320
<v Speaker 1>I'm in the back room, but she crying. I don't

0:33:43.360 --> 0:33:45.800
<v Speaker 1>appreciate that cry. I never heard that baby cry like that.

0:33:45.880 --> 0:33:48.920
<v Speaker 1>So I go in there. What's going on? Oh? What bitch? Oh?

0:33:48.960 --> 0:33:50.480
<v Speaker 1>I'm changing her diaper? And then you don't need a

0:33:50.520 --> 0:33:52.200
<v Speaker 1>changer like roper change your ro I'm a girl. That

0:33:52.280 --> 0:33:54.080
<v Speaker 1>one of us girls changing. He get got five counties

0:33:54.080 --> 0:33:56.120
<v Speaker 1>in here, that one of us change your diapers. So

0:33:56.320 --> 0:33:58.520
<v Speaker 1>it turned into a big thing where he actually started

0:33:58.560 --> 0:34:01.160
<v Speaker 1>digging me and grabbed me a side down't and just

0:34:01.240 --> 0:34:03.920
<v Speaker 1>from the fear of me always being afraid of him

0:34:03.960 --> 0:34:07.680
<v Speaker 1>growing up. You know, she made me be in a space,

0:34:08.239 --> 0:34:11.799
<v Speaker 1>so he beat me upside down't. Did he ever apologize

0:34:11.800 --> 0:34:14.359
<v Speaker 1>for that? No, he didn't. And the crazy party is

0:34:14.800 --> 0:34:17.919
<v Speaker 1>he actually wrote a letter to my sister. He did

0:34:17.920 --> 0:34:21.680
<v Speaker 1>it to both of us and like my brother, Yeah,

0:34:21.719 --> 0:34:24.160
<v Speaker 1>I don't want to make and I don't want to like. It.

0:34:24.160 --> 0:34:27.120
<v Speaker 1>Ain't about raining though, because I think people be funked

0:34:27.160 --> 0:34:28.839
<v Speaker 1>up when they're doing I don't think that's No. I've

0:34:28.840 --> 0:34:32.720
<v Speaker 1>never seen a little girl that I thought was attracted,

0:34:32.760 --> 0:34:34.920
<v Speaker 1>So I never had to fight off. Always say that

0:34:34.960 --> 0:34:37.880
<v Speaker 1>to people, like like for a homosexual person, and I

0:34:37.920 --> 0:34:40.160
<v Speaker 1>don't want to compare him. But I never saw a

0:34:40.200 --> 0:34:42.200
<v Speaker 1>man that I had to comment Like I saw a man,

0:34:42.239 --> 0:34:44.200
<v Speaker 1>I was like, oh, this made it so handsome, and

0:34:44.239 --> 0:34:48.919
<v Speaker 1>I right, like I don't think people people anything. Yeah,

0:34:49.040 --> 0:34:51.919
<v Speaker 1>Like I never had to feel though. I never seen

0:34:51.960 --> 0:34:53.839
<v Speaker 1>a man that I thought was handsome. I never saw

0:34:53.880 --> 0:34:56.520
<v Speaker 1>a child I thought was beautiful. But my brother, I

0:34:56.560 --> 0:34:59.080
<v Speaker 1>think it was on a different level. Maybe he was

0:34:59.120 --> 0:35:01.560
<v Speaker 1>like that's up or something. I watched a lot of

0:35:01.600 --> 0:35:03.759
<v Speaker 1>First forty egg in Criminal Minds and stuff buzzee with

0:35:06.040 --> 0:35:08.239
<v Speaker 1>what he would do. The weirdest ship he would have,

0:35:08.440 --> 0:35:10.279
<v Speaker 1>like it would be a bird in the room, it

0:35:10.280 --> 0:35:11.839
<v Speaker 1>would be a cat in the room and the dog.

0:35:12.160 --> 0:35:14.080
<v Speaker 1>He would have the cat chasing the bird and then

0:35:14.080 --> 0:35:16.799
<v Speaker 1>the dog chasing the cat, and when the cat caught

0:35:16.840 --> 0:35:18.719
<v Speaker 1>the bird, and he would rape us and then he

0:35:18.760 --> 0:35:20.920
<v Speaker 1>would dissect the bird. When he was done raping us,

0:35:22.520 --> 0:35:25.879
<v Speaker 1>was gone, yeah, yeah, he's coming. Yeah. If you ever

0:35:25.920 --> 0:35:28.839
<v Speaker 1>thought that maybe he was molested before, That's what I'll

0:35:28.840 --> 0:35:31.000
<v Speaker 1>be thinking, because if that sounds like a transference of

0:35:31.080 --> 0:35:34.440
<v Speaker 1>pain to me, right, And that's the thing I think. So,

0:35:35.040 --> 0:35:37.600
<v Speaker 1>And if he was not molested, I think maybe he

0:35:37.719 --> 0:35:41.560
<v Speaker 1>was beat and then something happened. Things were happening around

0:35:41.680 --> 0:35:43.719
<v Speaker 1>him because, like I said, we lived a lifestyle my

0:35:43.760 --> 0:35:45.840
<v Speaker 1>mom and they're so dope on my aunties. My grandma

0:35:45.880 --> 0:35:47.920
<v Speaker 1>was a crack kid. We had an inn house, nowny.

0:35:47.960 --> 0:35:50.480
<v Speaker 1>We didn't have the best life just because people didn't

0:35:50.480 --> 0:35:53.359
<v Speaker 1>have had a manny we but we did. We had

0:35:53.440 --> 0:35:56.040
<v Speaker 1>had a couple of dollars dollars running. Yeah, my MoMA

0:35:56.120 --> 0:36:00.000
<v Speaker 1>name was a hustler like third Bread. It's crazy, that's crazy,

0:36:00.320 --> 0:36:02.520
<v Speaker 1>but that's what made me tough enough to wear. Now

0:36:03.880 --> 0:36:05.960
<v Speaker 1>nigga could come in here and it won't. That's why

0:36:05.960 --> 0:36:08.799
<v Speaker 1>I got passed in my faceboo keys, because I'm not

0:36:08.840 --> 0:36:12.920
<v Speaker 1>turning down nothing, anything to the next level except period.

0:36:13.040 --> 0:36:16.680
<v Speaker 1>All energies will be. I'm gonna match you every single time.

0:36:16.680 --> 0:36:18.759
<v Speaker 1>I don't care what it is, however you want to go.

0:36:18.920 --> 0:36:20.560
<v Speaker 1>I don't even caracist the level that I'm not on.

0:36:20.680 --> 0:36:22.080
<v Speaker 1>I'm about to get on your level just so you

0:36:22.080 --> 0:36:26.080
<v Speaker 1>could know where we're gonna go with this. Yeah, So

0:36:26.440 --> 0:36:30.160
<v Speaker 1>have you ever thought about seeing a therapist about it. Um,

0:36:30.200 --> 0:36:32.799
<v Speaker 1>I actually I did. And this is the crazy part

0:36:32.960 --> 0:36:38.840
<v Speaker 1>right now. Just recently my daughter ran away and she

0:36:39.000 --> 0:36:41.719
<v Speaker 1>was just basically saying like I'm too much for her,

0:36:43.760 --> 0:36:46.680
<v Speaker 1>and I'm just like, well, damn. When I did go

0:36:46.760 --> 0:36:49.239
<v Speaker 1>to see a therapy about, you know, my problem with me,

0:36:49.680 --> 0:36:52.200
<v Speaker 1>whatever I've been going through, it was like, okay, they

0:36:52.200 --> 0:36:53.960
<v Speaker 1>give you this medication. Then once they gave me the

0:36:54.000 --> 0:36:57.239
<v Speaker 1>medication I was on the medication for Like therapists give

0:36:57.280 --> 0:37:00.400
<v Speaker 1>you medication. Yeah, they give you medication. You've got a

0:37:00.440 --> 0:37:04.319
<v Speaker 1>bits bother to talk to your mind, your motherfucker's psychologist

0:37:04.320 --> 0:37:08.480
<v Speaker 1>and psychiatrist. So which one is just for the mind? Psychiatrists?

0:37:08.560 --> 0:37:13.600
<v Speaker 1>Psychiatrists has a script, has a script path psychologist? Right,

0:37:14.239 --> 0:37:16.600
<v Speaker 1>Let's got to be able to afford that though, the

0:37:16.640 --> 0:37:18.680
<v Speaker 1>bitch to just sit there and listen to your problems

0:37:18.719 --> 0:37:22.359
<v Speaker 1>and not saying nothing, you know, otherwise medicale because that's

0:37:22.360 --> 0:37:25.800
<v Speaker 1>what I got, you know, Sure, I go to the

0:37:25.840 --> 0:37:28.400
<v Speaker 1>people behavior health. You go to the behavior health in

0:37:28.520 --> 0:37:30.480
<v Speaker 1>or whatever. They have councilors in there, You talk to them,

0:37:30.560 --> 0:37:33.680
<v Speaker 1>and then based on whatever their evaluation, they just recommend

0:37:33.719 --> 0:37:37.719
<v Speaker 1>you to somebody anxiety. So we're gonna give you this.

0:37:38.160 --> 0:37:42.279
<v Speaker 1>That is a bullshit, bro. What the fuck? Yeah? You

0:37:42.320 --> 0:37:45.279
<v Speaker 1>know you add therapy? I think, Um, that's sharp. Like

0:37:45.360 --> 0:37:48.239
<v Speaker 1>Charlotte man, that's his things. I see always pushing if

0:37:48.280 --> 0:37:52.760
<v Speaker 1>you really check out, because that may always pushing like therapy.

0:37:52.800 --> 0:37:56.319
<v Speaker 1>That's the thing. And I really understand why because we'll

0:37:56.360 --> 0:37:59.319
<v Speaker 1>have all these problems and don't have anyone to talk

0:37:59.360 --> 0:38:01.799
<v Speaker 1>to about what a thing is. Therapy is the best

0:38:01.800 --> 0:38:04.439
<v Speaker 1>thing possible for you and us as black people. We've

0:38:04.480 --> 0:38:08.000
<v Speaker 1>been taught for so long that anything huh, okay, how

0:38:08.040 --> 0:38:09.799
<v Speaker 1>did you go to? Therefore, I wanted therapy. I had

0:38:09.800 --> 0:38:11.319
<v Speaker 1>a lot of issues that helped me out. Um, I

0:38:11.360 --> 0:38:14.000
<v Speaker 1>had a lot of I had a lot of issues,

0:38:14.040 --> 0:38:16.680
<v Speaker 1>but I had a lot of issues with my father. Um,

0:38:17.440 --> 0:38:20.160
<v Speaker 1>a lot of father issues. Um, you know, just stuff

0:38:20.200 --> 0:38:22.000
<v Speaker 1>that went back from broken promises when I was little.

0:38:22.200 --> 0:38:24.160
<v Speaker 1>Don't get me wrong, my father is a great man,

0:38:24.239 --> 0:38:27.080
<v Speaker 1>get along purpose now. But that helped me to heal

0:38:27.200 --> 0:38:29.400
<v Speaker 1>him because I was stuck so much in the past

0:38:29.440 --> 0:38:31.080
<v Speaker 1>and stuff he did when he was a younger man

0:38:31.120 --> 0:38:33.360
<v Speaker 1>and didn't know no better that I wasn't willing to

0:38:33.400 --> 0:38:35.439
<v Speaker 1>move forward. And actually the best thing I ever did

0:38:35.480 --> 0:38:37.479
<v Speaker 1>was go to therapy. Because it has him not a world.

0:38:37.480 --> 0:38:40.520
<v Speaker 1>We got a great relationship and he's the best grandfather ever.

0:38:40.600 --> 0:38:42.560
<v Speaker 1>He was a way better grandfather than he was a father.

0:38:42.640 --> 0:38:46.680
<v Speaker 1>Because but what did you go to therapy before or

0:38:46.760 --> 0:38:49.480
<v Speaker 1>after you were a father? And did that impact If

0:38:49.840 --> 0:38:51.719
<v Speaker 1>it was after you had already been a father, did

0:38:51.719 --> 0:38:56.680
<v Speaker 1>that change your perspective as a dad in your relationship

0:38:56.680 --> 0:38:59.200
<v Speaker 1>with your sons? Yes, it did. And therefore, don't get

0:38:59.200 --> 0:39:01.320
<v Speaker 1>me wrong, I was always a good father to step On.

0:39:01.360 --> 0:39:04.200
<v Speaker 1>See the difference between my father and me. I was available,

0:39:04.920 --> 0:39:07.000
<v Speaker 1>I was around, I was there, you know, I was

0:39:07.040 --> 0:39:09.359
<v Speaker 1>in the house. I was providing everything else like that.

0:39:09.400 --> 0:39:12.080
<v Speaker 1>But to be a father is more than just providing.

0:39:12.120 --> 0:39:14.520
<v Speaker 1>It's more than just being because there being for somebody

0:39:14.560 --> 0:39:17.080
<v Speaker 1>emotionally and you know, helping take care of their needs.

0:39:17.760 --> 0:39:20.120
<v Speaker 1>And it helped me to become a better father. So therefore,

0:39:20.600 --> 0:39:22.960
<v Speaker 1>Jasmine and Christopher probably got a better version of me

0:39:23.040 --> 0:39:25.040
<v Speaker 1>than with Stepfin hapen he was drinking. Don't get me wrong,

0:39:25.040 --> 0:39:27.239
<v Speaker 1>I wasn't horrible to step fine, but it's a lot

0:39:27.239 --> 0:39:31.560
<v Speaker 1>of stuff I would have did different. But just but

0:39:31.640 --> 0:39:34.839
<v Speaker 1>that's my point, Like even the fact that you were

0:39:34.920 --> 0:39:36.560
<v Speaker 1>just there, So even though you might have thought you

0:39:36.600 --> 0:39:38.319
<v Speaker 1>was like, Okay, the first one I did good, but

0:39:38.360 --> 0:39:41.120
<v Speaker 1>I could do better, right exactly. Step Ron still came

0:39:41.160 --> 0:39:44.000
<v Speaker 1>out really good. He came out because like, don't get

0:39:44.040 --> 0:39:46.000
<v Speaker 1>me wrong, I was never messed up the step and

0:39:46.040 --> 0:39:49.600
<v Speaker 1>I loved him and everything. Yeah, because what I had

0:39:49.640 --> 0:39:51.399
<v Speaker 1>going on is I had for a period of time

0:39:51.440 --> 0:39:54.399
<v Speaker 1>that I was still trying to pursue my dreams. It

0:39:54.480 --> 0:39:57.880
<v Speaker 1>wasn't so much where I was. And that's the and

0:39:57.920 --> 0:39:59.959
<v Speaker 1>that's what I was saying about not that's what makes

0:40:00.080 --> 0:40:03.719
<v Speaker 1>me not want to have children. Like so if you

0:40:03.760 --> 0:40:06.080
<v Speaker 1>know me, you know, like every day I get further

0:40:06.120 --> 0:40:09.360
<v Speaker 1>away from being a parent because I think you start

0:40:09.440 --> 0:40:13.080
<v Speaker 1>fighting this you you almost have to live vicariously through

0:40:13.120 --> 0:40:15.319
<v Speaker 1>your children. What's funny is right? And this is I'm

0:40:15.320 --> 0:40:16.600
<v Speaker 1>gonna tell you all this right, And I don't know

0:40:16.640 --> 0:40:18.080
<v Speaker 1>if you want me to, but I don't give a funk.

0:40:18.080 --> 0:40:19.840
<v Speaker 1>I'm this is my big bro. And he could be

0:40:19.880 --> 0:40:22.400
<v Speaker 1>mad at me. I thought it was a time right

0:40:22.480 --> 0:40:25.000
<v Speaker 1>when he was coaching Chris. Chris still is his son, right,

0:40:25.040 --> 0:40:27.120
<v Speaker 1>Chris still is like this amazing corn you know, you know,

0:40:27.120 --> 0:40:32.040
<v Speaker 1>because it was Chris's dad. Chris is a bigger deal

0:40:32.520 --> 0:40:35.520
<v Speaker 1>and I want and I won't do that. Chris is

0:40:35.560 --> 0:40:38.920
<v Speaker 1>my nephew, right, And I thought Big Broke start getting

0:40:38.920 --> 0:40:42.799
<v Speaker 1>so carried away with trying to live vicariously through Chris.

0:40:42.800 --> 0:40:45.040
<v Speaker 1>And I'm like, bro, I know you. I've been knowing

0:40:45.040 --> 0:40:48.880
<v Speaker 1>you fifteen years. Like you are not done, Like you

0:40:48.960 --> 0:40:51.040
<v Speaker 1>still got work to do, you still have an empire

0:40:51.120 --> 0:40:53.759
<v Speaker 1>to build, and you still gotta be Chris's dad and

0:40:53.840 --> 0:40:56.480
<v Speaker 1>doing all this other stuff. I think he started taking

0:40:57.200 --> 0:40:59.680
<v Speaker 1>his life right. His dreams took a backseat to Chris's.

0:40:59.719 --> 0:41:02.560
<v Speaker 1>And I'm like, that ain't right. And see that's where

0:41:02.640 --> 0:41:05.160
<v Speaker 1>me and I think most people disagree. And I think

0:41:05.160 --> 0:41:07.719
<v Speaker 1>people tend to start taking a back seat to their

0:41:07.800 --> 0:41:11.440
<v Speaker 1>kid's dream Man, fuck them kids. I'm not saying the

0:41:11.560 --> 0:41:18.880
<v Speaker 1>kids like that. Don't defend the kids. These kids just

0:41:18.960 --> 0:41:21.879
<v Speaker 1>gonna grow up and go out and live their own life.

0:41:21.920 --> 0:41:26.000
<v Speaker 1>And you, you gave a motherfucker eighteen years of being there. Again,

0:41:26.800 --> 0:41:29.440
<v Speaker 1>you can never be the best parent without being the

0:41:29.440 --> 0:41:32.960
<v Speaker 1>best version of yourself. It's always gonna be a weird

0:41:33.000 --> 0:41:36.160
<v Speaker 1>type of respect. And so I believe that wholeheartedly. Every

0:41:36.200 --> 0:41:39.520
<v Speaker 1>time I watch different people parent, you mean they like

0:41:39.640 --> 0:41:42.160
<v Speaker 1>so still you feel me? Still was working a job

0:41:42.160 --> 0:41:44.680
<v Speaker 1>and he was making good money, you know, probably says

0:41:44.719 --> 0:41:46.759
<v Speaker 1>he said me eighty thousand dollars a year. Feel me

0:41:46.840 --> 0:41:50.239
<v Speaker 1>and focus. But he would always complain to me like gee, man,

0:41:50.360 --> 0:41:53.600
<v Speaker 1>like man, I hate this job. Man, I do same shit.

0:41:54.480 --> 0:41:57.000
<v Speaker 1>And I used to tell him, like, cause your intellect

0:41:57.080 --> 0:41:59.600
<v Speaker 1>is too vast for you to try to reduce yourself

0:41:59.640 --> 0:42:02.200
<v Speaker 1>down in to that role, Like you can't just be

0:42:02.680 --> 0:42:07.600
<v Speaker 1>Chris's dad and then you know, working for different dealerships.

0:42:07.719 --> 0:42:09.400
<v Speaker 1>What I'm saying, that's not going to work for you.

0:42:09.480 --> 0:42:11.799
<v Speaker 1>God gave you too much for you to do that.

0:42:11.840 --> 0:42:14.680
<v Speaker 1>You needed to keep building on you know, still is

0:42:14.719 --> 0:42:17.000
<v Speaker 1>the first person that took me around the world touring.

0:42:17.800 --> 0:42:20.839
<v Speaker 1>What I'm saying, like, so he's always been very much

0:42:20.840 --> 0:42:23.759
<v Speaker 1>somebody who has built empires. I'm like, you can't stop now.

0:42:24.280 --> 0:42:27.080
<v Speaker 1>Like he started talking to me sometimes like he was

0:42:27.160 --> 0:42:29.920
<v Speaker 1>like seving me. I'm like, bro, you got chick dude,

0:42:30.400 --> 0:42:32.440
<v Speaker 1>you know what I mean? And he called me back,

0:42:33.480 --> 0:42:36.120
<v Speaker 1>he was like, yo, gee, like let's do a podcast now,

0:42:36.160 --> 0:42:38.319
<v Speaker 1>mind you. I turned down podcast is for you. I

0:42:38.440 --> 0:42:41.720
<v Speaker 1>turned down podcast for years. I'm not doing the podcast

0:42:41.800 --> 0:42:43.880
<v Speaker 1>crept and I'm not working with that. That ship is

0:42:44.200 --> 0:42:46.080
<v Speaker 1>a bunch of niggas talking because I hate that ship.

0:42:46.200 --> 0:42:49.480
<v Speaker 1>I've been listening to these niggas talking, and he was like, man,

0:42:49.480 --> 0:42:52.160
<v Speaker 1>would you do a podcast? And because it was because

0:42:52.920 --> 0:42:55.680
<v Speaker 1>because it was my big bro, it was still I

0:42:55.760 --> 0:42:57.440
<v Speaker 1>was like, I need to do it. You feel me.

0:42:57.480 --> 0:42:59.920
<v Speaker 1>I can't not because I just pumped this motherfucker up

0:43:00.360 --> 0:43:03.400
<v Speaker 1>into doing it. I'm like, yeah, do it. And obviously

0:43:03.440 --> 0:43:05.920
<v Speaker 1>we started off and at that time, you know, we

0:43:05.960 --> 0:43:09.280
<v Speaker 1>was figuring out marketing and different things, and it became like, yeah,

0:43:09.320 --> 0:43:11.799
<v Speaker 1>it failed by the wayside, but he never stopped and

0:43:11.800 --> 0:43:15.080
<v Speaker 1>he started building the whole empire. Here we are today. Now,

0:43:15.120 --> 0:43:19.040
<v Speaker 1>I wouldn't have did another podcast, but again, my friends,

0:43:19.360 --> 0:43:22.840
<v Speaker 1>my friends, when they building their dreams feel me. I

0:43:22.960 --> 0:43:25.760
<v Speaker 1>believe in their dreams. So I'm a part of their dreams.

0:43:26.200 --> 0:43:29.960
<v Speaker 1>Like we when she got the Black Effect podcast network,

0:43:29.960 --> 0:43:32.759
<v Speaker 1>He's like, gee, you gotta do it, and I'm like, damn,

0:43:32.840 --> 0:43:35.560
<v Speaker 1>you got your own thing, bro, fun I can't tell

0:43:35.600 --> 0:43:38.799
<v Speaker 1>you know this show ship alright, because I do it

0:43:38.840 --> 0:43:41.160
<v Speaker 1>for you. You feel me, And that's how I am.

0:43:41.239 --> 0:43:42.719
<v Speaker 1>You know, I'm saying I'm that kind of person for

0:43:42.840 --> 0:43:46.160
<v Speaker 1>my partners. So I'm glad I wanted to make sure

0:43:46.200 --> 0:43:47.520
<v Speaker 1>I told you. I don't know if I ever told

0:43:47.560 --> 0:43:50.640
<v Speaker 1>you that, because I'm really proudly bro that you you

0:43:50.640 --> 0:43:53.680
<v Speaker 1>you understood because Chris is straight. That's not to say

0:43:53.760 --> 0:43:57.640
<v Speaker 1>you you don't get to stop being Chris's father, But Chris,

0:43:57.680 --> 0:44:01.279
<v Speaker 1>at this point, the work was already done. Now you're

0:44:01.320 --> 0:44:04.319
<v Speaker 1>just kind of fine tuning the little machine is and

0:44:04.360 --> 0:44:06.319
<v Speaker 1>making sure you're like, hey, that right there is gonna

0:44:06.320 --> 0:44:08.719
<v Speaker 1>be sucked up. But you don't, you know, you don't

0:44:08.719 --> 0:44:11.560
<v Speaker 1>gotta be overhands on with him. That little dude is

0:44:11.600 --> 0:44:14.719
<v Speaker 1>a really smart, intelligent, sharp kid. Yeah, you know. And

0:44:14.960 --> 0:44:17.319
<v Speaker 1>at the time that I did focus on Chris, I

0:44:17.320 --> 0:44:19.279
<v Speaker 1>don't have no regrets for it because it made him

0:44:19.280 --> 0:44:21.440
<v Speaker 1>the man that he is now. And see since my

0:44:21.600 --> 0:44:24.000
<v Speaker 1>kids pretty much like Chris told me the day, I

0:44:24.040 --> 0:44:25.960
<v Speaker 1>don't talk Chris everything, and he was. He needs to know.

0:44:26.520 --> 0:44:28.399
<v Speaker 1>So when Chris coming to the crib, now there ain't

0:44:28.480 --> 0:44:30.360
<v Speaker 1>no coach still more in the house. It's like we

0:44:30.400 --> 0:44:32.680
<v Speaker 1>give each other pound his coaches up at the s

0:44:32.680 --> 0:44:34.480
<v Speaker 1>c hand of all that business. I don't have nothing

0:44:34.480 --> 0:44:36.600
<v Speaker 1>to do with this football stuff now. And I'm saying

0:44:36.640 --> 0:44:38.480
<v Speaker 1>there was nothing wrong with that time, But I just

0:44:38.880 --> 0:44:42.279
<v Speaker 1>I realized that and back to the point, um clean.

0:44:42.360 --> 0:44:46.560
<v Speaker 1>It was like, um, that's the thing about children, you

0:44:46.600 --> 0:44:50.759
<v Speaker 1>know that the motherfucker's ignorant. We was them and we

0:44:50.800 --> 0:44:57.160
<v Speaker 1>was right. You know, ben Zino just facetimes you call

0:44:57.239 --> 0:45:02.200
<v Speaker 1>him back being without guy man daughter because crazy let

0:45:02.239 --> 0:45:05.000
<v Speaker 1>me see, let me see your phone? No that crazy?

0:45:05.040 --> 0:45:07.560
<v Speaker 1>Because so his daughter is I think her name is

0:45:07.560 --> 0:45:13.279
<v Speaker 1>Coally Reray. So she with blue face right now, little girl.

0:45:13.480 --> 0:45:15.360
<v Speaker 1>I couldn't imagine what it's like to be a pop

0:45:15.840 --> 0:45:18.080
<v Speaker 1>and see your baby on TV. Like you really got

0:45:18.080 --> 0:45:21.399
<v Speaker 1>to be convinced. I wonder what that feels like as

0:45:21.400 --> 0:45:24.960
<v Speaker 1>a father. When you talk to your dad, did you

0:45:25.000 --> 0:45:27.759
<v Speaker 1>actually have to tell him? Did he know what? Actually?

0:45:28.160 --> 0:45:31.360
<v Speaker 1>I when I found him, I did. I had to

0:45:31.400 --> 0:45:33.920
<v Speaker 1>tell him. I was like, you know, I don't know

0:45:34.440 --> 0:45:36.160
<v Speaker 1>how to tell him and my brother, like I don't

0:45:36.160 --> 0:45:39.480
<v Speaker 1>know if y'all watch porn, But actually no, no, no,

0:45:40.160 --> 0:45:42.760
<v Speaker 1>So I found my dad, but you know, he winded

0:45:42.840 --> 0:45:45.919
<v Speaker 1>up not being my dad after all that time. But yeah,

0:45:46.040 --> 0:45:47.799
<v Speaker 1>when I did find him, I found out that I

0:45:47.800 --> 0:45:50.759
<v Speaker 1>had a brother and a sister on his side. But

0:45:50.880 --> 0:45:52.400
<v Speaker 1>I had to tell them, like I don't know if

0:45:52.480 --> 0:45:55.239
<v Speaker 1>y'all watch this porn. But my name is Cyril Less.

0:45:55.239 --> 0:45:57.960
<v Speaker 1>I hope I'm not your favorite period. And literally that's

0:45:58.000 --> 0:46:00.719
<v Speaker 1>how I say. Imagine if he was like he was

0:46:00.719 --> 0:46:04.399
<v Speaker 1>like if he wouldn't that, but I mean, and let

0:46:04.400 --> 0:46:06.600
<v Speaker 1>me just say this. He never responded. He didn't tell

0:46:06.600 --> 0:46:09.480
<v Speaker 1>me yes, no, he didn't say nothing. So it was

0:46:09.520 --> 0:46:12.400
<v Speaker 1>just more like, okay, imagine if your dad was like

0:46:12.520 --> 0:46:15.160
<v Speaker 1>yacking it too, you didn't know you was his and

0:46:15.239 --> 0:46:19.000
<v Speaker 1>that now, listen, that is the whole thing that I

0:46:19.040 --> 0:46:21.520
<v Speaker 1>mean when I say we don't have nothing to be

0:46:21.600 --> 0:46:25.239
<v Speaker 1>ashamed as we don't know if this is at home

0:46:25.360 --> 0:46:27.520
<v Speaker 1>jacking off or not. But it's no different though, even

0:46:27.600 --> 0:46:30.600
<v Speaker 1>hustling like when I started, when I start selling Sharman Ship,

0:46:30.680 --> 0:46:33.160
<v Speaker 1>I'm in the streets every day doing my stuff for me.

0:46:33.480 --> 0:46:36.279
<v Speaker 1>My mom was tripping wrestling so big olds. Oh. She

0:46:36.440 --> 0:46:40.080
<v Speaker 1>was like, you know, the first time she she found

0:46:40.080 --> 0:46:41.919
<v Speaker 1>out what I was doing, she tried to knock my teeth.

0:46:42.080 --> 0:46:45.560
<v Speaker 1>She like, bro, you know, bust my nose, fucked me up,

0:46:45.600 --> 0:46:47.880
<v Speaker 1>punched me in my face. And my mom had hands.

0:46:47.880 --> 0:46:50.359
<v Speaker 1>She wasn't like six ft three hundred pam. My mom

0:46:50.400 --> 0:46:52.560
<v Speaker 1>could fight like a dode for me. She she really

0:46:52.560 --> 0:46:54.759
<v Speaker 1>could fight and she bust my mouth, but I was

0:46:54.800 --> 0:46:56.759
<v Speaker 1>grown at that point, so I just was like, man,

0:46:56.840 --> 0:46:58.480
<v Speaker 1>my my nose, not talking about the car, like man,

0:46:58.520 --> 0:47:01.240
<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna go get this money. You tripped it, mama.

0:47:01.880 --> 0:47:04.480
<v Speaker 1>And the second time she called me, she tried to

0:47:04.520 --> 0:47:06.560
<v Speaker 1>run me over with a car. Like with a car

0:47:06.800 --> 0:47:09.920
<v Speaker 1>like she swooped on the curve like nigga, you for me.

0:47:09.960 --> 0:47:12.560
<v Speaker 1>The third time she took me to buy a sixteen

0:47:12.560 --> 0:47:15.319
<v Speaker 1>ouncercern she paid for it. She was like, don't care,

0:47:15.400 --> 0:47:18.719
<v Speaker 1>nobody to cheat you right, feel me? So this is

0:47:18.760 --> 0:47:22.160
<v Speaker 1>the kind of experience, fear me that we have growing up.

0:47:22.200 --> 0:47:25.279
<v Speaker 1>And you don't be ashamed like I never. I don't

0:47:25.320 --> 0:47:27.200
<v Speaker 1>think me and my dad. I don't think me and

0:47:27.239 --> 0:47:30.280
<v Speaker 1>good bar ever sat down and chopped it up like Daddy,

0:47:30.320 --> 0:47:32.360
<v Speaker 1>this is what I'm doing. But I think he knew

0:47:33.040 --> 0:47:37.080
<v Speaker 1>and I wasn't ashamed. But the difference is, and this

0:47:37.120 --> 0:47:40.080
<v Speaker 1>is the part where you either responsible or you not.

0:47:40.800 --> 0:47:43.560
<v Speaker 1>Every time I went to jail, I never called my dad,

0:47:43.920 --> 0:47:46.280
<v Speaker 1>I never called my step mom, I never called my mother.

0:47:47.120 --> 0:47:50.200
<v Speaker 1>My brother's barely knew because I got myself into this

0:47:50.200 --> 0:47:54.200
<v Speaker 1>ship getting myself out of this ship. So and I

0:47:54.239 --> 0:47:59.239
<v Speaker 1>think when I listened to kids talk. You know, have

0:47:59.320 --> 0:48:01.640
<v Speaker 1>you ever chopped up with your kid about it? Like

0:48:01.719 --> 0:48:03.400
<v Speaker 1>do she know? What? Did she know that you did

0:48:03.480 --> 0:48:06.879
<v Speaker 1>this before? Oh? Man, oh she had she find out.

0:48:07.440 --> 0:48:13.799
<v Speaker 1>Goddamn yeah. My daughter is six team. And then I

0:48:13.840 --> 0:48:16.360
<v Speaker 1>adopted two little kids. They're my sister's children, but I

0:48:16.360 --> 0:48:19.120
<v Speaker 1>have custody of them now. But I moved to bar

0:48:19.320 --> 0:48:21.239
<v Speaker 1>this before I got my sister's kids. I have moved

0:48:21.239 --> 0:48:23.200
<v Speaker 1>to Barstow because I used to live in the inner

0:48:23.239 --> 0:48:24.880
<v Speaker 1>city and s Bargino and I'm just like, you know,

0:48:24.960 --> 0:48:27.480
<v Speaker 1>let me move and trying to change my life and

0:48:27.560 --> 0:48:30.960
<v Speaker 1>just get things in order. My daughter's older now. The

0:48:31.080 --> 0:48:34.640
<v Speaker 1>smallest place in bars though five exits. Sure enough, there's

0:48:34.680 --> 0:48:38.719
<v Speaker 1>only one high school. There's the way. Yeah, I'm out

0:48:38.719 --> 0:48:47.759
<v Speaker 1>of the way. Everything is good ship. When kids grew up,

0:48:49.200 --> 0:48:55.920
<v Speaker 1>Internet got popular, they on God, I had a quit

0:48:56.080 --> 0:48:58.840
<v Speaker 1>not that day, but that day, like I didn't go

0:48:58.920 --> 0:49:01.160
<v Speaker 1>to work no more. Then brought it up to you

0:49:01.239 --> 0:49:07.600
<v Speaker 1>first some little kids, multiple little boys, little kids like

0:49:08.520 --> 0:49:11.440
<v Speaker 1>so humiliated. The little boy had to be in Kim

0:49:11.480 --> 0:49:16.920
<v Speaker 1>Gurden get the fun. But that's because a high school student,

0:49:17.920 --> 0:49:22.440
<v Speaker 1>this bit Alasia can't wait to catch her. She was

0:49:22.480 --> 0:49:26.600
<v Speaker 1>a senior. Low key she was. She was in high school.

0:49:26.600 --> 0:49:27.720
<v Speaker 1>She was I don't know if she was a freshman

0:49:27.800 --> 0:49:29.960
<v Speaker 1>or not. But she's sitting there at the pool. She's

0:49:30.000 --> 0:49:32.600
<v Speaker 1>sitting there, she's telling the kids like, oh, that's miss Tunisia.

0:49:32.840 --> 0:49:34.719
<v Speaker 1>But I see her whispering to the kids. So then

0:49:34.760 --> 0:49:36.799
<v Speaker 1>the next day, the little boy comes to the school like, oh,

0:49:36.880 --> 0:49:39.319
<v Speaker 1>ms Tenisha. Lasia told me this that in the third

0:49:39.320 --> 0:49:42.600
<v Speaker 1>about you like you do movies. I was like, what

0:49:42.640 --> 0:49:46.960
<v Speaker 1>do you mean. He was like, yeah, like grown up movies.

0:49:47.080 --> 0:49:49.719
<v Speaker 1>And I was like, okay, yeah, this ship just got real.

0:49:49.880 --> 0:49:52.520
<v Speaker 1>So I went home. My daughters in high school. Now,

0:49:52.600 --> 0:49:55.120
<v Speaker 1>I mean, you worked at the school. I worked at

0:49:55.160 --> 0:49:58.040
<v Speaker 1>the school. All thought were just like the kids. No,

0:49:58.080 --> 0:50:02.080
<v Speaker 1>I wouldn't cut the motherucker, I wouldn't touch the principle out.

0:50:02.120 --> 0:50:04.600
<v Speaker 1>The next day they hired me to be the PTA president,

0:50:04.760 --> 0:50:06.799
<v Speaker 1>the supervisor at the school and all kind of ship.

0:50:07.120 --> 0:50:10.120
<v Speaker 1>So it's a part. Yeah, so that's what I thought.

0:50:10.160 --> 0:50:11.879
<v Speaker 1>And then my daughter goes to school there, so I'm

0:50:11.920 --> 0:50:13.880
<v Speaker 1>just like, yes, my baby. So at the end of

0:50:13.920 --> 0:50:16.319
<v Speaker 1>like I said, eventually she goes to junior high. So

0:50:16.360 --> 0:50:19.960
<v Speaker 1>now the junior high school students all have I fucking phones.

0:50:20.080 --> 0:50:23.440
<v Speaker 1>Fuck your iPhone, all of them have iPhones. Man. So

0:50:25.719 --> 0:50:28.120
<v Speaker 1>my daughter one day went to school and told this

0:50:28.160 --> 0:50:30.040
<v Speaker 1>girl she was gonna set her on fire when she

0:50:30.080 --> 0:50:32.399
<v Speaker 1>was at home making a video with the ball fire.

0:50:32.440 --> 0:50:33.920
<v Speaker 1>She was gonna set the growing fire and this all

0:50:33.920 --> 0:50:36.959
<v Speaker 1>this other stuff. Police bring her home, tell me like, yeah,

0:50:36.960 --> 0:50:38.560
<v Speaker 1>she was in the car. YEA had the long story short,

0:50:39.400 --> 0:50:41.680
<v Speaker 1>you know I beat her ass. So yeah, long story short,

0:50:41.760 --> 0:50:44.680
<v Speaker 1>this was over and I didn't find out until later

0:50:44.760 --> 0:50:46.960
<v Speaker 1>on because you weren't supposed to be the ass once

0:50:47.000 --> 0:50:48.800
<v Speaker 1>you find out what it was over. If I wouldn't

0:50:48.840 --> 0:50:50.600
<v Speaker 1>known in the beginning. But see, look I didn't. I'm

0:50:50.640 --> 0:50:52.279
<v Speaker 1>not gonna lie. I didn't go up around that day

0:50:52.440 --> 0:50:54.640
<v Speaker 1>and we just talked about this. She even admitted it.

0:50:54.840 --> 0:50:56.920
<v Speaker 1>The next day. She did some ship at school, acting

0:50:56.920 --> 0:50:58.640
<v Speaker 1>like she was just a big Boston classroom. So I

0:50:58.640 --> 0:51:00.239
<v Speaker 1>beat her. Ask when she came home, you're not come

0:51:00.280 --> 0:51:02.400
<v Speaker 1>home in the police card day one and then you

0:51:02.480 --> 0:51:04.640
<v Speaker 1>got a video balls of fire. And I kept asking

0:51:04.640 --> 0:51:06.960
<v Speaker 1>her the night before, what you doing, What's up? What's up?

0:51:07.000 --> 0:51:09.120
<v Speaker 1>She kept saying nothing, So I told her when the

0:51:09.120 --> 0:51:11.800
<v Speaker 1>police came, I said, you see how God worked. I said, okay,

0:51:11.880 --> 0:51:16.359
<v Speaker 1>so how did that conversation right? So she tells me, Mom,

0:51:16.560 --> 0:51:18.279
<v Speaker 1>the reason why I threatened this, that the girl and

0:51:18.360 --> 0:51:21.160
<v Speaker 1>fire was because this boy came up to me at

0:51:21.160 --> 0:51:23.600
<v Speaker 1>school and he did this what she did when she

0:51:23.640 --> 0:51:25.120
<v Speaker 1>had her phone in her hand and she showed me

0:51:25.239 --> 0:51:27.759
<v Speaker 1>like this and she turned the fun away and I said, okay, well,

0:51:27.760 --> 0:51:30.399
<v Speaker 1>what's what does that mean? She said it was a girl.

0:51:30.600 --> 0:51:32.879
<v Speaker 1>Yeah it was me though, but I'm saying that she's

0:51:32.960 --> 0:51:35.080
<v Speaker 1>your daughter is a girl, so it's different. So she

0:51:35.200 --> 0:51:37.080
<v Speaker 1>just didn't want to make you feel bad still, right,

0:51:37.280 --> 0:51:39.680
<v Speaker 1>And that was the thing. And that's the thing about

0:51:39.719 --> 0:51:42.799
<v Speaker 1>my daughter real life scory like she is my right

0:51:42.840 --> 0:51:45.160
<v Speaker 1>hand man, and I get what she did. And she

0:51:45.200 --> 0:51:47.120
<v Speaker 1>said that I could be a lot because of the

0:51:47.200 --> 0:51:51.360
<v Speaker 1>things that I have went through in my life. She

0:51:51.480 --> 0:51:53.719
<v Speaker 1>the only person that's been there. She's the only person

0:51:53.760 --> 0:51:55.880
<v Speaker 1>that see me hurt. She don't even see me happy.

0:51:55.880 --> 0:51:57.399
<v Speaker 1>She see me up and she see me down. These

0:51:57.400 --> 0:51:59.480
<v Speaker 1>bitches out here your pitches is sick. Y'all lose it.

0:51:59.480 --> 0:52:01.279
<v Speaker 1>The only bit I could ever teach to be like me.

0:52:01.360 --> 0:52:04.520
<v Speaker 1>Flossy motherfucking bossy is my daughter by mistake. You see

0:52:04.560 --> 0:52:06.879
<v Speaker 1>what I'm saying, but they told my daughter like, yeah,

0:52:06.880 --> 0:52:08.600
<v Speaker 1>this is your mom moved the whoop and looking out

0:52:08.640 --> 0:52:11.160
<v Speaker 1>for me and her mom feelings. She didn't say nothing.

0:52:11.520 --> 0:52:13.880
<v Speaker 1>She didn't say nothing after she got her as if

0:52:13.920 --> 0:52:21.000
<v Speaker 1>that was a little boy crying. How did the conversation

0:52:21.200 --> 0:52:23.560
<v Speaker 1>did she asked question? She just told me no. She

0:52:23.600 --> 0:52:25.239
<v Speaker 1>didn't ask me no questions. I just had to keep

0:52:25.239 --> 0:52:27.200
<v Speaker 1>your dream with her, like my nigga, this is how

0:52:27.239 --> 0:52:28.920
<v Speaker 1>we was. This is how I provided for you after

0:52:29.000 --> 0:52:31.600
<v Speaker 1>I left your dad. It was like, it's either one

0:52:31.680 --> 0:52:33.640
<v Speaker 1>or two things. You feel me in the ninety five

0:52:33.800 --> 0:52:35.920
<v Speaker 1>wasn't working fast enough. Should I had to go. I

0:52:35.920 --> 0:52:37.200
<v Speaker 1>had to get up out my mom's house. That was

0:52:37.200 --> 0:52:38.560
<v Speaker 1>the first time I went back to her house. I

0:52:38.640 --> 0:52:40.160
<v Speaker 1>got hit in the eye with a crow bar. I

0:52:40.239 --> 0:52:42.239
<v Speaker 1>was selling drugs, thinking I was living a life out

0:52:42.239 --> 0:52:44.799
<v Speaker 1>there in Arizona, and I was like, yeah, this is it.

0:52:44.960 --> 0:52:51.080
<v Speaker 1>So the smoker, we should find him her, we should

0:52:51.080 --> 0:52:54.960
<v Speaker 1>find her. Yeah, well, but you know what, I just

0:52:55.000 --> 0:52:57.759
<v Speaker 1>came to the Yeah, we're gonna have to put her

0:52:57.760 --> 0:53:04.160
<v Speaker 1>in program when she's sober. That's how I'm not gonna lie.

0:53:04.200 --> 0:53:09.080
<v Speaker 1>You got a sober because because you need that energy

0:53:10.120 --> 0:53:12.960
<v Speaker 1>that's how I'm like, I'm not gonna when I started,

0:53:13.280 --> 0:53:15.239
<v Speaker 1>like as I was gang banging and ship, like I

0:53:15.239 --> 0:53:17.680
<v Speaker 1>would never get into with my homeboys, like when they

0:53:17.760 --> 0:53:20.080
<v Speaker 1>was loaded, they was all sharing a drunk. I ain't

0:53:20.080 --> 0:53:24.040
<v Speaker 1>gonna fight when you sober tomorrow, because what's up with that?

0:53:24.280 --> 0:53:26.719
<v Speaker 1>I was drunk? No, because that's how you feel the

0:53:26.800 --> 0:53:31.400
<v Speaker 1>inside you was possessed by Mr Hennessy. Because now I

0:53:31.480 --> 0:53:34.839
<v Speaker 1>need y'all fade for me. So that's fair to me.

0:53:35.400 --> 0:53:38.480
<v Speaker 1>But no on everything, Like I realized that that was

0:53:38.520 --> 0:53:41.359
<v Speaker 1>the energy that nigga is needed for me. So what's

0:53:41.360 --> 0:53:44.000
<v Speaker 1>funny is as a drug dealer, like I didn't did

0:53:44.160 --> 0:53:47.480
<v Speaker 1>so much scummy ship, I could relate. Even as a gangbanger,

0:53:47.520 --> 0:53:49.840
<v Speaker 1>I did this so much scummy ship. I could relate,

0:53:50.560 --> 0:53:53.479
<v Speaker 1>you know what I'm saying, So I could imagine, man.

0:53:53.719 --> 0:53:55.960
<v Speaker 1>But she never talked about it no more. It's just

0:53:56.040 --> 0:53:58.839
<v Speaker 1>the thing night and I ain't gonna mine Like now

0:53:58.880 --> 0:54:02.759
<v Speaker 1>that she's older, people you know, nedn't say things like,

0:54:02.880 --> 0:54:04.960
<v Speaker 1>oh well what about your mom? Or you like your

0:54:04.960 --> 0:54:07.319
<v Speaker 1>mom mark you know a little ship like that. But

0:54:07.719 --> 0:54:10.239
<v Speaker 1>see that's the thing she built for that type of conversation.

0:54:10.280 --> 0:54:13.480
<v Speaker 1>You know how to defend herself that you feel me.

0:54:13.520 --> 0:54:15.080
<v Speaker 1>That's why I told her when you run away, bitty

0:54:15.120 --> 0:54:17.680
<v Speaker 1>streets aren't ready for you. There's three way double Dutch

0:54:17.719 --> 0:54:19.880
<v Speaker 1>out here. They played with three ropes not too so

0:54:19.920 --> 0:54:21.760
<v Speaker 1>why you think you're ready for it when the motherfucker's

0:54:21.760 --> 0:54:23.200
<v Speaker 1>get wicked. I hope you know how to bleed on

0:54:23.239 --> 0:54:24.920
<v Speaker 1>the concrete because I'm gonna tell you right now and

0:54:25.040 --> 0:54:28.439
<v Speaker 1>nanny get out there, that ever could twist my mind

0:54:28.440 --> 0:54:31.120
<v Speaker 1>to make me go any other way but forward, period,

0:54:31.239 --> 0:54:36.160
<v Speaker 1>And I hope you build for that because it especially

0:54:36.160 --> 0:54:38.799
<v Speaker 1>you think you want to go to Vegas, baby girl,

0:54:38.880 --> 0:54:42.680
<v Speaker 1>please and take so So the porn star used to date?

0:54:42.760 --> 0:54:45.759
<v Speaker 1>How like what that was? That was she actually a

0:54:45.800 --> 0:54:49.400
<v Speaker 1>porn star? Yeah? Did you ever trip? Like did you

0:54:49.400 --> 0:54:53.719
<v Speaker 1>ever listen to her? What like her? Did she have issues? Yeah?

0:54:54.120 --> 0:54:58.520
<v Speaker 1>Like that was a thing I forgot how that he

0:54:59.680 --> 0:55:02.319
<v Speaker 1>was like to grow over some ship. And I just

0:55:02.400 --> 0:55:06.120
<v Speaker 1>just like trying to you're like the expression of basketball

0:55:06.120 --> 0:55:10.200
<v Speaker 1>like a heat check. Yeah, yeah, certain, sometimes you just

0:55:10.239 --> 0:55:12.520
<v Speaker 1>got the hot hand. Anybody you say hello too, it's

0:55:12.520 --> 0:55:14.879
<v Speaker 1>gonna it's gonna happen when you first met her, keeping

0:55:14.920 --> 0:55:16.920
<v Speaker 1>the buck because it's just like it's me and you here.

0:55:19.520 --> 0:55:24.799
<v Speaker 1>Did you expect certain things? No? All. I when I

0:55:24.960 --> 0:55:28.640
<v Speaker 1>first bumped into her, I was just like, you knew

0:55:28.640 --> 0:55:31.440
<v Speaker 1>who she was. I know who she was. Also you

0:55:31.520 --> 0:55:34.319
<v Speaker 1>knew who she was. Yeah, okay, I wanted to see

0:55:34.360 --> 0:55:37.040
<v Speaker 1>if I could pull her. That's all it was. Niggas

0:55:37.080 --> 0:55:43.000
<v Speaker 1>ain't shipped through all races. I'm the lowss to the low.

0:55:43.080 --> 0:55:44.960
<v Speaker 1>I mean, you guys go over there with wives and

0:55:45.080 --> 0:55:50.560
<v Speaker 1>standards and things like that. Tell you something. I said,

0:55:50.560 --> 0:55:53.759
<v Speaker 1>I've been single for twelve years and counting, like what

0:55:53.840 --> 0:55:58.279
<v Speaker 1>happened to the relationship didn't go well? But at the

0:55:58.280 --> 0:56:03.200
<v Speaker 1>same time, like but but like here's me, Like I

0:56:03.239 --> 0:56:05.399
<v Speaker 1>don't I'm not gonna wake up to a phone call

0:56:05.480 --> 0:56:09.280
<v Speaker 1>talking about somebody got my kid. That's not gonna happen.

0:56:09.360 --> 0:56:12.880
<v Speaker 1>So so I was like, you know where I was

0:56:12.920 --> 0:56:15.279
<v Speaker 1>with Chicken like four years over the relationship relationship with

0:56:15.280 --> 0:56:17.400
<v Speaker 1>about four years and it was kind of turbull. You know,

0:56:17.400 --> 0:56:19.240
<v Speaker 1>it's just kind of that time of your life. But

0:56:19.440 --> 0:56:21.279
<v Speaker 1>I loved I was about to propost where she just

0:56:21.320 --> 0:56:23.319
<v Speaker 1>this didn't work out, And I was like, you know what,

0:56:23.520 --> 0:56:27.319
<v Speaker 1>or I always keep a stack of insurance pussy, you know,

0:56:27.480 --> 0:56:31.120
<v Speaker 1>just in case, and I'm like, you know what, I'm

0:56:31.160 --> 0:56:33.919
<v Speaker 1>not gonna go run this policy drive because it's that's good,

0:56:33.960 --> 0:56:38.080
<v Speaker 1>because there's no way I can survive that unscathed. You

0:56:38.920 --> 0:56:43.319
<v Speaker 1>coming out with moving, I'm gonna geting. I'm gonna chick

0:56:43.360 --> 0:56:45.640
<v Speaker 1>who's got a boyfriend. Now it's gonna I've had enough

0:56:46.000 --> 0:56:47.880
<v Speaker 1>ram dudes trying to run up on you, blow my

0:56:47.960 --> 0:56:50.319
<v Speaker 1>spot up, whatever the hell, because they got their feelings hurt.

0:56:51.120 --> 0:56:53.960
<v Speaker 1>But that's that's that's all it was. Because she's, you know,

0:56:54.440 --> 0:56:57.200
<v Speaker 1>one of those chicks. We got the Chanel ship head

0:56:57.239 --> 0:56:58.640
<v Speaker 1>to toe and all this stuff, and I knew what

0:56:58.719 --> 0:57:00.279
<v Speaker 1>she was, she knew who she was. That to see

0:57:00.840 --> 0:57:04.320
<v Speaker 1>fucking pull it off, and she was kind of cool.

0:57:04.320 --> 0:57:07.080
<v Speaker 1>But she was just as you from Barbados. So it's like,

0:57:08.040 --> 0:57:11.280
<v Speaker 1>I'm I don't have a great relationship with that island

0:57:11.320 --> 0:57:14.520
<v Speaker 1>in general. I don't you don't mind dating girls that

0:57:14.560 --> 0:57:16.960
<v Speaker 1>do poor strip and stuff like. It depends on what

0:57:17.040 --> 0:57:20.640
<v Speaker 1>we're talking about for day. That's my question. Being seen

0:57:20.720 --> 0:57:27.200
<v Speaker 1>with him in public, it depends on what public, and

0:57:27.240 --> 0:57:32.440
<v Speaker 1>it depends on how they present themselves. So what if

0:57:32.480 --> 0:57:37.560
<v Speaker 1>what if you made a good Christian have a real

0:57:37.640 --> 0:57:41.320
<v Speaker 1>hard time I've been I've been dragged by some grimy

0:57:41.360 --> 0:57:50.720
<v Speaker 1>bitches to church, So I'm not gonna bud man, what

0:57:50.800 --> 0:57:55.800
<v Speaker 1>the dude, real ship there were nights because I used

0:57:55.800 --> 0:57:57.480
<v Speaker 1>to have a few boys of who was in Madle

0:57:57.480 --> 0:58:00.439
<v Speaker 1>Exotic down to the track and at the bumbo and

0:58:00.520 --> 0:58:03.000
<v Speaker 1>they were nice for this miserable ass bitch I used

0:58:03.040 --> 0:58:07.160
<v Speaker 1>to deal with. It was staying with me, would take

0:58:07.240 --> 0:58:09.280
<v Speaker 1>me down the chair. I have to go where I

0:58:09.280 --> 0:58:11.800
<v Speaker 1>asked the church on Sundays at that spot on Elsa

0:58:11.880 --> 0:58:14.680
<v Speaker 1>Gundo and Avalon with the barbecuells and the boom boom

0:58:14.760 --> 0:58:16.520
<v Speaker 1>role right the other side of the fucking wall. And

0:58:16.560 --> 0:58:18.400
<v Speaker 1>I know my boys car still there because he got

0:58:18.440 --> 0:58:20.600
<v Speaker 1>drunk because I drove him all three thirty in the

0:58:20.960 --> 0:58:23.040
<v Speaker 1>morning and they're still there. And I'm here in the

0:58:23.160 --> 0:58:24.760
<v Speaker 1>sleaziest person in there. So what I'm sitting in the

0:58:24.800 --> 0:58:34.160
<v Speaker 1>pew next to but whatever, fucking Jesus Christ. So do

0:58:34.200 --> 0:58:36.880
<v Speaker 1>you think that if you go somewhere in public, everybody's

0:58:36.920 --> 0:58:41.640
<v Speaker 1>gonna know she that important? What's so fear? Well, here's

0:58:42.000 --> 0:58:43.120
<v Speaker 1>you want to be all be here all the way.

0:58:44.760 --> 0:58:48.960
<v Speaker 1>I don't personally care that much if it comes into

0:58:49.000 --> 0:58:51.880
<v Speaker 1>a scenario where it's like and again I don't I

0:58:51.920 --> 0:58:58.800
<v Speaker 1>haven't been all that much relationship be just by virtually

0:59:00.120 --> 0:59:03.480
<v Speaker 1>a lot of factors in general. You know, there's girls

0:59:03.480 --> 0:59:06.840
<v Speaker 1>that I would date, be in it with. Whatever the hell.

0:59:07.760 --> 0:59:10.520
<v Speaker 1>My family not gonna like you. I know that if

0:59:10.560 --> 0:59:13.720
<v Speaker 1>that matters to you, and I know it matters to you,

0:59:14.040 --> 0:59:16.120
<v Speaker 1>I'm not gonna put you through that. So we can't

0:59:16.120 --> 0:59:19.200
<v Speaker 1>be together very safe. That's like when you wipe bro

0:59:19.320 --> 0:59:23.440
<v Speaker 1>because it's black, you don't even give a parents like.

0:59:24.160 --> 0:59:28.360
<v Speaker 1>But I don't care about no guts. I don't care

0:59:28.440 --> 0:59:30.640
<v Speaker 1>if favor see you or you ever see but if

0:59:30.720 --> 0:59:32.600
<v Speaker 1>you care, I'm not gonna put you through that. I

0:59:32.640 --> 0:59:34.680
<v Speaker 1>don't think I've ever thought in my life what would

0:59:34.680 --> 0:59:36.520
<v Speaker 1>my parents think of somebody else? Oh yeah, not my

0:59:36.600 --> 0:59:40.120
<v Speaker 1>parents now their parents. Yeah, I'm like, that's a good

0:59:40.120 --> 0:59:42.720
<v Speaker 1>pers That's what I want to know. What is the

0:59:42.840 --> 0:59:46.000
<v Speaker 1>problem because let me say this, every girl the damn

0:59:46.080 --> 0:59:48.800
<v Speaker 1>porn ain't got no problem and all that and got

0:59:48.840 --> 0:59:50.720
<v Speaker 1>a lot of issues. And number two, like I said,

0:59:50.760 --> 0:59:53.040
<v Speaker 1>they're some bitches out there that they dictate sweets so

0:59:53.080 --> 0:59:57.040
<v Speaker 1>they like it. So what is the problem with being

0:59:57.120 --> 1:00:01.200
<v Speaker 1>seen with the girl that does p and probit. I

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<v Speaker 1>wasn't said what wasn't porn specific What I was saying, Well,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm saying it's poring or stripping specifically because those you

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<v Speaker 1>think that there's there's girls. Let me don't do to

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<v Speaker 1>either question and don't lie because you're in the room. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>one thing we're not gonna do on this no cel

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<v Speaker 1>ship because they're not doing no line. If if I

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<v Speaker 1>smell out your line, because on your line. So let

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<v Speaker 1>me ask you a question, big bro. Do you see

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<v Speaker 1>a porn start or what the same way you see

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<v Speaker 1>a prostitute? Um, don't lie, you know what. No, No,

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<v Speaker 1>you see a porn start the same way you see

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<v Speaker 1>an actress. Um, you know what? You gotta look at

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<v Speaker 1>them kind of was both? Um, the differences between the

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<v Speaker 1>prostitute and um, no, I'm not lying. I'm telling the truth.

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<v Speaker 1>This is my opinion that this between the prostitute the

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<v Speaker 1>prostitute to meet almost the situations is different. Because what

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<v Speaker 1>a porn star she doing that for a job, that's

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<v Speaker 1>her job, that's what you're doing. It's a certain level

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<v Speaker 1>of fantasy to that, right. A prostitute maybe out there

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<v Speaker 1>that you've got a couple of different type of process.

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<v Speaker 1>You got high paid kind of class women that you

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<v Speaker 1>got to have some money. They're going a thousand, two

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<v Speaker 1>thousand dollars apart, and then you got the prostitutes that's

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<v Speaker 1>going out there for sucking thick in the back of Alberson's.

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<v Speaker 1>So it's definitely a difference, you know what I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>Because it is a difference because when you're second dig

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<v Speaker 1>for a thousand dollars, your escort, you you didn't upper

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<v Speaker 1>class your level to where you're not walking on the

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<v Speaker 1>streets to where you're street walker. Right, So let me

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<v Speaker 1>ask you a question. So y'all mean to tell me

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<v Speaker 1>y'all think it's a difference between somebody's sucking dig for

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<v Speaker 1>two thousand and two dollars, it's the same. It's the

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<v Speaker 1>same practically. It's the thing I'm gonna tell you all.

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<v Speaker 1>I know, it's a difference. If you see a bitch

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<v Speaker 1>right now on figure rolling that looks like the bitches

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<v Speaker 1>be looking on figure rolls, is some nice looking okay?

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<v Speaker 1>They hang on. Let me say now, let me say

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<v Speaker 1>it's pretty okay, let me say what I'm about to

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<v Speaker 1>say now looking like the old And then you see

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<v Speaker 1>a bitch out there and look yeah, exactly. Now you

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<v Speaker 1>see a strawberry, then you see a bitch out there

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<v Speaker 1>to look like me out there, and figure, roll, who

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<v Speaker 1>are you gonna pick? I'm not no, no, no, no,

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<v Speaker 1>no no. I'm just gonna be honest with you. I

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<v Speaker 1>would never pay for pussy because it's two okay, well

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<v Speaker 1>not you. But I know what I'm saying. If pussy

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<v Speaker 1>was more valued fair, it'd be different, like a pussy pussy.

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<v Speaker 1>I changed my way pussy could be valued. That's the

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<v Speaker 1>only way pussy could be value change. I change. I

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<v Speaker 1>used to always have that I'm not gonna pay for

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<v Speaker 1>pussy opinion, right. I did never say I wouldn't pay

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<v Speaker 1>for pussy. I said pussy too expensive, so I never

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<v Speaker 1>subscribed to paying for it. That's fair enough to just insane.

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<v Speaker 1>I changed my opinion on this. And here's why. If

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<v Speaker 1>I'm paying for pussy, I'm saying my time's worth more

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<v Speaker 1>than yours. If I'm putting my time in because I'm

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<v Speaker 1>paying for it, that's not working that way. Like I

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<v Speaker 1>would rather at this point, like I'm I'm real funny

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<v Speaker 1>on my time, right, like I would rather. And the

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<v Speaker 1>people say, oh, all time you go on a date

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<v Speaker 1>and do you take two days to go folks, some

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<v Speaker 1>girl dinners and drinks all that ship that costs the

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<v Speaker 1>same amount. Whatever, I'm not even talking about that. What

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<v Speaker 1>about the four hours that I lost my time? I

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<v Speaker 1>would rather pay you here. You want to go out

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<v Speaker 1>with your home girl, so you want to feel special.

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<v Speaker 1>You don't feel like you're giving a pussy for free.

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<v Speaker 1>Whatever the hell you get something out of it, Call

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<v Speaker 1>you two best friends. Here's the money that three of

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<v Speaker 1>you idiots can go out and get drunk. I'll pick

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<v Speaker 1>up the end of the night and suck you there.

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<v Speaker 1>But I don't want to spend it from eight pm

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<v Speaker 1>to midnight with you. Yeah, that's my motherfucker. That's paying

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<v Speaker 1>playing games. Let me tell you something or real bit

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<v Speaker 1>like me, if I meet you on the first date

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<v Speaker 1>and I know you want to suck me, You're going

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<v Speaker 1>to pay me? Why Because there's nothing that I want

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<v Speaker 1>from you. You want something for me. So now what

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<v Speaker 1>I want from you is your money. Anything ever than that,

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<v Speaker 1>I don't want. I don't want your time. I don't

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<v Speaker 1>want to talk to you. I don't want you to

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<v Speaker 1>make me feel special later on or none of that,

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<v Speaker 1>because then that is where you get a bit. That's

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<v Speaker 1>really just playing games. You're not at that point. Even

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<v Speaker 1>a girl who wants me, I would, who likes me,

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<v Speaker 1>I'd rather just go out with your friends. Yeah. And

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<v Speaker 1>I don't like sleeping with people either, so I have

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<v Speaker 1>to I have to leave this. I ended a relationship

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<v Speaker 1>because no, I was just a funny story. I was

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<v Speaker 1>in Vegas, you know, last week. So I come back

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<v Speaker 1>and I was gonna stay a couple bunch of days,

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<v Speaker 1>as girls like, oh, come to god, I want to

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<v Speaker 1>see whatever. Fine, I didn't want to, but I come down.

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<v Speaker 1>I go to her place that in late and she

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<v Speaker 1>usual sleeps on the couch. I know that's all right,

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<v Speaker 1>Well you sleep on the couch, I'm sleeping in your

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<v Speaker 1>bed whatever. Yeah, that's cool. So I drive there under

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<v Speaker 1>the condition that I'm sleeping by myself in her bed

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<v Speaker 1>because she apparently wanted me to be there because she

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<v Speaker 1>had to go wherever for a few days. I don't

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<v Speaker 1>even fun what you want. I get in the bed,

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<v Speaker 1>I look over. She right there. She tricks right there.

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<v Speaker 1>God damn it. Yeah, sure she had you come lay

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<v Speaker 1>up with her four in the morning. I woke up

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<v Speaker 1>pissed at seven right there and I'm like, she didn't

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<v Speaker 1>have breakfast. No, she's still asleep. I wake up and

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<v Speaker 1>start getting dressed. I don't even the girl, I don't

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<v Speaker 1>even care. I wasn't even worth there, like dinner before.

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<v Speaker 1>They don't make no sense. When you actually sleep at

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<v Speaker 1>the girl house, you should always wake up to breakfast.

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<v Speaker 1>No breakfast, breakfast, food breakfast, but more important breakfast. Breakfast

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<v Speaker 1>is just more time. But this is the thing. If

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<v Speaker 1>you wanted to sleep by yourself, key thing is to

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<v Speaker 1>sleep on the couch next time, because she's gonna get

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<v Speaker 1>all the goddamn went over there to sleep on a couch. Well,

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<v Speaker 1>then she's not gonna happen. Good looking out for checking

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<v Speaker 1>out another episode and no sentence with me the l

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<v Speaker 1>O and my man Peter By. Make sure you download

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