WEBVTT - Twots Take BravoCon 2025 (Tamra Judge and Alexis Bellino) 0:00:02.560 --> 0:00:09.200 Two teas in a pod which Teddy Mellencamp and Camra Judge. 0:00:10.280 --> 0:00:12.239 Hey guys, welcome to to Teas and a Pop with 0:00:12.320 --> 0:00:16.480 myself Tamra Judge and today I have from Vegas Live 0:00:16.600 --> 0:00:22.239 Baby Bravo con the one, the one and only Alexis Jansen. 0:00:22.640 --> 0:00:25.599 Oh you're gonna say Jesus No, I'm not calling you 0:00:25.760 --> 0:00:29.080 Jesus Jugs anymore. You're now your new name is Jansen Jugs. 0:00:29.680 --> 0:00:32.720 They're smaller, went bigger, I went smaller. Yeah, so I got. 0:00:32.520 --> 0:00:34.720 Implants put in, but they're very tiny. They're only one 0:00:34.760 --> 0:00:36.920 hundred and fifty ccs. But I went bigger and you 0:00:36.960 --> 0:00:37.559 went smaller. 0:00:37.600 --> 0:00:39.240 I went half, Yeah, you went half. 0:00:39.280 --> 0:00:40.519 So how's married life so far? 0:00:40.800 --> 0:00:42.640 My gosh, I can't even. 0:00:42.720 --> 0:00:45.440 I mean, there's always stressors with when you have six kids. 0:00:45.440 --> 0:00:47.559 There's always somebody that's got some crisis or. 0:00:47.520 --> 0:00:49.920 This or that. But it is it is, so, it 0:00:50.000 --> 0:00:50.479 is different. 0:00:50.880 --> 0:00:53.280 I told you this a modern day Brady Bunch. 0:00:53.320 --> 0:00:55.640 We are. You have three boys and three girls. Okay, 0:00:55.680 --> 0:00:56.680 the Brady Bunch. 0:00:56.800 --> 0:00:59.480 So let's talk about like we I had you in 0:00:59.520 --> 0:01:01.680 the podcast a little while ago, a couple of what 0:01:01.840 --> 0:01:04.600 maybe three weeks ago or so, and we talked about 0:01:04.600 --> 0:01:07.240 the wedding and all that stuff. So now you guys 0:01:07.240 --> 0:01:09.680 have been married for what a month. 0:01:09.440 --> 0:01:11.839 And a couple of weeks or okay, so six weeks? 0:01:12.400 --> 0:01:15.200 And so what are the living arrangements? Are you going 0:01:15.280 --> 0:01:16.479 to stay in your house? 0:01:17.600 --> 0:01:20.640 We you know, it's really weird because we might sell 0:01:20.680 --> 0:01:22.960 my house. We don't really know. We're really figuring it 0:01:23.040 --> 0:01:26.000 out as we go. We're definitely keeping the house on 0:01:26.040 --> 0:01:27.119 the water because we have the boat. 0:01:27.160 --> 0:01:29.039 Okay, we have to have the house, even as Shannon 0:01:29.120 --> 0:01:30.240 used to be in that house. 0:01:30.319 --> 0:01:32.040 Oh honey, we changed it all. 0:01:32.160 --> 0:01:32.559 You staged. 0:01:32.959 --> 0:01:34.000 Oh honey, it's done. 0:01:34.160 --> 0:01:34.920 You stage that shit. 0:01:35.000 --> 0:01:36.640 L It's it's moved. It's done. 0:01:36.760 --> 0:01:40.319 Okay, you need to redecorate, new sheets, new everything, new mattress. 0:01:40.080 --> 0:01:45.240 New bed pillows, everything, everything, but the kids love it. 0:01:45.319 --> 0:01:49.160 New ring cameras, no ring cameras, the same. 0:01:51.680 --> 0:01:53.480 And you know what, by the way, it's right there 0:01:53.520 --> 0:01:57.000 when you walk in, So it's not like anyone's exclude different. 0:01:59.080 --> 0:02:01.200 Don't seen not punching? 0:02:02.240 --> 0:02:04.880 Oh my god, you're going The other morning I walked out. 0:02:04.960 --> 0:02:06.400 I mean, John wasn't the one punching. 0:02:06.640 --> 0:02:07.120 No it at all. 0:02:07.240 --> 0:02:08.920 Make that Claire, I walked out. 0:02:08.760 --> 0:02:11.320 The other morning completely naked because I just got on 0:02:11.360 --> 0:02:13.040 the shower and his his house is small, it's small. 0:02:13.360 --> 0:02:15.760 Careful, he's going to keep that footage. 0:02:15.400 --> 0:02:15.800 He goes. 0:02:16.240 --> 0:02:21.480 He goes, Babe, I got footage, and I went like that, now, 0:02:21.760 --> 0:02:22.320 yes you do. 0:02:22.400 --> 0:02:25.560 You just got to Bravo Khan. Yeah, and I heard 0:02:25.600 --> 0:02:26.639 you ran into Shannon. 0:02:27.360 --> 0:02:28.960 I don't know how this gets back so fast. 0:02:29.360 --> 0:02:32.000 Spencer got here before you. You're your your guy, and 0:02:32.080 --> 0:02:34.480 so he told me. He's like, oh my god, we're walking. 0:02:34.600 --> 0:02:37.440 You should have seen her face when she walked out 0:02:37.440 --> 0:02:37.880 of a room. 0:02:37.919 --> 0:02:40.400 And I have my escort taking me and Spencer to 0:02:40.480 --> 0:02:40.880 my room. 0:02:41.040 --> 0:02:43.560 Escort sounds really weird. I don't think you should use 0:02:43.600 --> 0:02:44.000 that word. 0:02:45.360 --> 0:02:48.480 Change there. I don't know what handler hand. Okay, that 0:02:48.600 --> 0:02:49.520 sounds even weirder. 0:02:50.240 --> 0:02:52.720 Escort sounds a little weird and vague's okay, baby, I'm 0:02:52.720 --> 0:02:53.640 just throwing that out there. 0:02:53.840 --> 0:02:56.760 Let's just say the very amazing person in the four 0:02:56.840 --> 0:02:59.320 seasons collared shirt was walking me to my room. 0:02:59.600 --> 0:03:02.360 Okay. And so anyway, she. 0:03:02.320 --> 0:03:05.680 Walks out, she gives this really bizarre like like look, 0:03:05.800 --> 0:03:09.040 and then the elevators right there, and I realized who 0:03:09.240 --> 0:03:11.880 I'm like Oh, that's gonna be really weird on the 0:03:11.880 --> 0:03:12.680 elevator with her. 0:03:12.760 --> 0:03:15.480 So we we hung back and okay, I could have 0:03:15.639 --> 0:03:16.920 You know, when I said to Spencer, I said, why 0:03:16.960 --> 0:03:18.239 do I do that? Why? Why is it weird? 0:03:18.440 --> 0:03:20.480 By the way, I would do the same, would you 0:03:20.840 --> 0:03:21.160 would you? 0:03:21.200 --> 0:03:21.920 Wait? I wouldn't. 0:03:22.120 --> 0:03:24.400 I am not getting in an elevator with Shannon, but door. 0:03:25.120 --> 0:03:28.000 I almost honestly afterwards, I thought I looked at him. 0:03:28.400 --> 0:03:34.320 Shannon be bore is what I call her. Be bore? 0:03:34.760 --> 0:03:36.640 You know, by the way, you know how she came 0:03:36.720 --> 0:03:41.360 after you for rehearsing. There's a door, Shannon door. Do 0:03:41.400 --> 0:03:44.840 you think she rehearsed with Archie Tamra Grudge? 0:03:45.480 --> 0:03:46.320 Oh my god. 0:03:46.520 --> 0:03:47.040 Not only that. 0:03:47.080 --> 0:03:49.480 Here's the thing, Tamara, You've had me on the podcast 0:03:49.560 --> 0:03:51.360 enough times now to know that weird things come out 0:03:51.360 --> 0:03:53.200 of my mouth that I don't even think about. They 0:03:53.240 --> 0:03:55.720 just know they come out. Cookie Sometimes I'm Cookie, Yeah, 0:03:55.880 --> 0:03:58.520 I don't. I don't sit in the mirror and practice. 0:03:58.880 --> 0:04:03.640 Do I practice my poses for Red car make sure 0:04:03.640 --> 0:04:07.440 my stomach's in in a certain dress or gown. Absolutely, 0:04:07.680 --> 0:04:09.560 But I don't practice lines. 0:04:09.640 --> 0:04:11.400 If they just whatever comes out comes out. 0:04:11.640 --> 0:04:16.600 How long do you think she And here's the ironic 0:04:16.640 --> 0:04:18.599 thing is I don't hold a grudge. I try to 0:04:18.600 --> 0:04:18.839 make up. 0:04:19.200 --> 0:04:20.800 You're the one that doesn't. To be honest, I know 0:04:20.960 --> 0:04:22.520 you're the one that wants We're. 0:04:22.400 --> 0:04:26.400 Still talking about David. Fuck John Janssen. She's still talking 0:04:26.440 --> 0:04:31.039 about David. Okay, now that's a grudge. Okay, okay, talking 0:04:31.080 --> 0:04:31.719 about gudge. 0:04:31.839 --> 0:04:32.520 Please hold on. 0:04:32.800 --> 0:04:35.360 Yes, we wish her well. I do, but please God 0:04:35.360 --> 0:04:35.840 bless her. 0:04:35.920 --> 0:04:37.760 I do wish her well. I do, I truly do. 0:04:37.880 --> 0:04:39.920 And from the bottom of my heart, please talk about David, 0:04:40.000 --> 0:04:43.200 your husband of decades, and that you have children with me, 0:04:43.880 --> 0:04:48.400 talking about my husband who was on and off boyfriend 0:04:48.400 --> 0:04:50.280 for a few years of your life, that I've now 0:04:50.360 --> 0:04:53.400 been almost longer with and also am married. 0:04:53.080 --> 0:04:55.280 Well too, John jans about a bad rap because her. 0:04:55.360 --> 0:04:57.039 So we're going to move on. But it's okay from that, 0:04:57.200 --> 0:05:00.960 But we were talking about grudges. We bear our grudge 0:05:01.040 --> 0:05:05.200 two years ago at Bravo con and we've been kind 0:05:05.240 --> 0:05:06.520 of inseparable since then. 0:05:07.320 --> 0:05:09.960 You know, I no one gets it, Tam, No one 0:05:10.000 --> 0:05:12.000 gets what that felt like in that room. Andy Cohen 0:05:12.040 --> 0:05:13.159 was there, He probably felt the love. 0:05:13.200 --> 0:05:14.680 He was crying tears. 0:05:14.680 --> 0:05:18.600 We all were having tears, and it was like it 0:05:18.640 --> 0:05:21.000 was one of those moments where you and I have 0:05:21.080 --> 0:05:24.360 grown so much from what we were a. 0:05:24.360 --> 0:05:26.920 Decade or both in marriages that we got out of. 0:05:26.960 --> 0:05:28.279 There was just a lot of there's a lot of 0:05:28.279 --> 0:05:28.719 other stuff. 0:05:30.000 --> 0:05:33.320 Just so here's the thing we grew. We grew. Could 0:05:33.360 --> 0:05:36.279 you imagine if I went you came back last year 0:05:36.800 --> 0:05:39.640 and all we talked about is this shit that happened 0:05:39.680 --> 0:05:42.520 between me and you fifteen years ago? Could you, like, 0:05:42.800 --> 0:05:45.320 first of all, who freaking remembers that shit? 0:05:46.360 --> 0:05:46.560 You know? 0:05:46.640 --> 0:05:48.440 I mean, otherwise it still bother anyone. 0:05:48.600 --> 0:05:51.760 Anyways, it's like, whatever happened, look at how fast we squashed. 0:05:51.880 --> 0:05:53.600 Look at how fast we squashed the beef. We had 0:05:53.600 --> 0:05:55.599 a lot of shit. You threw me out of your gym. 0:05:55.640 --> 0:05:57.159 You were like, get out of here. 0:05:57.480 --> 0:05:58.839 I thought it exact. 0:06:01.560 --> 0:06:03.280 I thought you were going to hit me. I went 0:06:03.360 --> 0:06:03.880 home that night. 0:06:04.920 --> 0:06:06.120 I don't hit anybody. 0:06:06.240 --> 0:06:08.440 I went home to my then husband and I said, 0:06:09.040 --> 0:06:11.280 I know we're husband's in now, but anyway, I went 0:06:11.320 --> 0:06:14.120 home to Jim and I said, I literally thought she 0:06:14.120 --> 0:06:15.000 was going to hit me, and I was going to 0:06:15.040 --> 0:06:16.240 take it, but I was going to hit her right back. 0:06:16.360 --> 0:06:18.920 I'm sorry. If you threw that much TV, can you 0:06:18.920 --> 0:06:20.960 throw a punch at me? Girlfriend, I am going to 0:06:21.040 --> 0:06:22.520 hit you back, and I was. 0:06:22.600 --> 0:06:26.320 I would never hit you xanax Lydia. 0:06:26.560 --> 0:06:29.440 Here's the thing, if you and I can get over this. 0:06:30.960 --> 0:06:33.920 Question, is were you really taking xanax? I took one, 0:06:34.560 --> 0:06:36.320 and I was I because I took. 0:06:36.200 --> 0:06:38.200 Sanax this year and drank and didn't go over very well. 0:06:38.279 --> 0:06:39.479 I only took like he told. 0:06:39.520 --> 0:06:41.640 The doctor told me to take half of one, so 0:06:41.680 --> 0:06:44.400 I took a quarter because I don't take prescription anything. 0:06:44.440 --> 0:06:45.560 I don't even take advill. 0:06:45.839 --> 0:06:47.680 I took it that night, or you took it. 0:06:48.160 --> 0:06:52.320 You have taken all the stress of you, Tamra grudge 0:06:53.200 --> 0:06:53.680 of all. 0:06:53.520 --> 0:06:56.480 The stress of you. I was. I took oxanic. 0:06:56.640 --> 0:06:58.520 I told Jim, I am I need and so our 0:06:58.560 --> 0:07:00.480 doctor gave me great. 0:07:00.560 --> 0:07:03.279 Not only am I a leaker. 0:07:03.040 --> 0:07:07.960 Of storyline, you're a am a cyber hacker. 0:07:08.680 --> 0:07:11.240 Now I cause people to take xanax. 0:07:11.760 --> 0:07:14.000 You know, my reputation met her by the second. 0:07:14.040 --> 0:07:16.840 Where's Teddy? Where's Teddy? When you need her? 0:07:17.120 --> 0:07:20.679 She's on the way. She's on the way. 0:07:21.400 --> 0:07:24.320 No, but you like the stress you and I were having, 0:07:24.320 --> 0:07:26.200 and just the whole all of it was coming to 0:07:26.480 --> 0:07:27.760 a lot become a lot for me. 0:07:28.160 --> 0:07:30.360 So I took He said take a half. I took 0:07:30.360 --> 0:07:33.800 a quarter. I woke up that night like straight up 0:07:33.800 --> 0:07:35.960 in bed. I'm like, I could never take this stuff again. 0:07:36.480 --> 0:07:37.600 It did the opposite for me. 0:07:37.640 --> 0:07:39.600 It made me feel like I was I don't even know, 0:07:39.640 --> 0:07:41.480 maybe it was laced with something else. 0:07:41.800 --> 0:07:44.040 I did have to take it because of you. It's 0:07:44.080 --> 0:07:45.040 just the show. Great. 0:07:45.400 --> 0:07:47.640 I can see the headlines now, but look how we 0:07:47.720 --> 0:07:50.880 made up. But I had to get you medicated first. 0:07:51.880 --> 0:07:56.280 Only one time I was your your did situation. 0:07:56.560 --> 0:07:58.400 You had to take some little bit. 0:07:58.280 --> 0:08:00.960 Of Okay, well, I don't blame you, know, I. 0:08:00.920 --> 0:08:06.200 Can't blame for everything you do. I do. I'm Cara. 0:08:07.760 --> 0:08:09.840 If this season is not good, it's Tamra. If the 0:08:09.880 --> 0:08:12.120 season's great, it's still Tarma's fault. 0:08:12.880 --> 0:08:13.320 It's great. 0:08:13.400 --> 0:08:14.600 It's crazy, right. 0:08:15.080 --> 0:08:16.760 So I really that has bothered me this. 0:08:16.840 --> 0:08:18.480 I know you can't talk about it because you're still 0:08:18.480 --> 0:08:21.120 filming or like it hasn't comp there, but it has 0:08:21.160 --> 0:08:21.600 bothered me. 0:08:21.600 --> 0:08:21.880 It does. 0:08:22.040 --> 0:08:25.120 It bothers me too. Well, everybody turn their back, yeah, 0:08:25.120 --> 0:08:27.920 I know. So let's talk about last season a little bit, Okay, 0:08:30.360 --> 0:08:33.760 any regrets, any thoughts if you had to do it 0:08:33.760 --> 0:08:38.440 over again, would you any problem with the edit? I 0:08:38.480 --> 0:08:40.600 know you're going to be interviewing Alex Baskin. 0:08:41.080 --> 0:08:43.760 Okay, well are you even supposed to give that information? 0:08:44.080 --> 0:08:46.160 I can give it team in the back. 0:08:46.000 --> 0:08:49.040 Room, I think so. Yes. So I hear that you're 0:08:49.080 --> 0:08:52.080 going to be interviewing Alex Baskin. So, guys, I want 0:08:52.080 --> 0:08:54.160 to let you know that that Alexis is here with 0:08:54.240 --> 0:08:57.400 iHeart with to teas in a pod because I can't 0:08:57.440 --> 0:09:00.800 be here every single day with Teddy, and Teddy's got 0:09:00.800 --> 0:09:05.439 some obligations here as well. At Bravo Kahn Alexis Billin 0:09:05.720 --> 0:09:09.520 Billino Jansen or I don't know what to say. 0:09:09.640 --> 0:09:10.760 I don't want to. 0:09:12.360 --> 0:09:12.760 Trust me. 0:09:13.120 --> 0:09:15.600 I told you this last time we talked. It is 0:09:15.800 --> 0:09:17.439 kind of going through what you went through with Eddie. 0:09:17.600 --> 0:09:20.440 I am Alexis Jansen on the marriage certificate. 0:09:19.880 --> 0:09:21.960 That took me three years. Say, he reminds me all 0:09:22.000 --> 0:09:22.480 the time. 0:09:22.400 --> 0:09:24.160 Right, and so when I'm getting my room and my 0:09:24.280 --> 0:09:28.240 license still, says Billino, I am Alexis Jansen. 0:09:27.960 --> 0:09:29.800 And can I give you some advice? 0:09:29.960 --> 0:09:30.120 Yes? 0:09:31.520 --> 0:09:35.160 When your year twins are still in high school, Yes, 0:09:35.679 --> 0:09:38.040 when they graduate high school is the time for you 0:09:38.080 --> 0:09:40.640 to change your name. It's easier because it's easier because 0:09:40.720 --> 0:09:42.800 when you have a different name than your children in 0:09:42.880 --> 0:09:45.720 high school, it just makes things weird. Yeah, so that 0:09:45.720 --> 0:09:47.640 that's my suggestion is just to wait. 0:09:47.800 --> 0:09:50.320 I don't think that you Honestly, I'm not in a 0:09:50.400 --> 0:09:52.560 rush because I did do it on the marriage certificate. 0:09:52.640 --> 0:09:54.480 So when we get our marriage license, it is going 0:09:54.520 --> 0:09:55.560 to say Alexis Janson. 0:09:55.600 --> 0:09:56.040 I know I am. 0:09:56.080 --> 0:09:59.600 When you see when you said marriage certificate, first thing 0:09:59.600 --> 0:10:01.880 came to my I was marriage boot Camp and I 0:10:01.880 --> 0:10:04.160 don't ever want to see you on that show again. Okay, 0:10:04.240 --> 0:10:05.520 I just want to tell you that, Well. 0:10:05.320 --> 0:10:06.959 That was with my mom. What's wrong with that? 0:10:07.800 --> 0:10:08.240 Is it? Oh? 0:10:08.240 --> 0:10:08.920 It was with your mom? 0:10:09.000 --> 0:10:09.920 With what was your ex? 0:10:11.120 --> 0:10:14.679 It was called marriage boot Camp family addition, so it 0:10:14.760 --> 0:10:17.040 was who in your family do you have the strife 0:10:17.040 --> 0:10:18.520 with that you need to mend things? 0:10:18.559 --> 0:10:20.040 Tamra. This is gonna make you cry. So I'm not 0:10:20.080 --> 0:10:21.480 gonna go deep. I don't want to. I don't I'm 0:10:21.480 --> 0:10:22.720 not gonna cry. We're not gonna cry. This is a 0:10:22.720 --> 0:10:23.680 fun We're at Bravo. 0:10:24.040 --> 0:10:24.960 This is past now. 0:10:25.080 --> 0:10:25.640 I know that. 0:10:25.880 --> 0:10:27.200 So you realized she. 0:10:27.840 --> 0:10:30.720 We spent eighteen days in that Marriage boot Camp house 0:10:30.760 --> 0:10:33.360 with she didn't like your ex Corey Feldman. Well that 0:10:33.440 --> 0:10:38.120 wasn't it, but yeah, anyway, she Corey Feldman and his 0:10:38.200 --> 0:10:42.160 brother Eden and yeah, and then his ex wife Corey's 0:10:42.160 --> 0:10:46.080 ex wife, and then Aaron Carter rest his mom Jane, 0:10:46.520 --> 0:10:48.839 and then Lauren Govan and her two parents who are 0:10:49.400 --> 0:10:53.000 amazingly exceptional people, and then my mom and myself. So 0:10:53.040 --> 0:10:55.840 it was all about working through family challenge stuff. Okay, 0:10:55.880 --> 0:10:59.160 I had the best experience on that. It was eighteen 0:10:59.200 --> 0:10:59.680 straight days. 0:11:00.040 --> 0:11:02.000 The way made you have a light detector test? 0:11:02.160 --> 0:11:02.480 Yes? 0:11:03.080 --> 0:11:04.080 Was it the same guy? 0:11:04.280 --> 0:11:05.559 No? It was not. 0:11:05.679 --> 0:11:09.120 I know that Gretchen. We did a light detector test 0:11:09.160 --> 0:11:11.840 this season, as you know, and it's the same guy 0:11:11.920 --> 0:11:13.640 that when she was on Marriage boot Camp that did 0:11:13.640 --> 0:11:15.840 the light detector. And then when she did it, she 0:11:16.040 --> 0:11:18.840 said in her confessional, I've never done one before and 0:11:18.920 --> 0:11:20.120 it was the same guy. 0:11:20.320 --> 0:11:22.080 How could she say she's not done it because she's on. 0:11:24.400 --> 0:11:27.199 Just in case if it's on national television, that you've 0:11:27.240 --> 0:11:29.040 done it on a dinner pinocchio. 0:11:30.520 --> 0:11:32.679 Okay, So did you get that out? 0:11:32.760 --> 0:11:33.120 Do you feel? 0:11:33.200 --> 0:11:34.040 I feel so much better? 0:11:36.480 --> 0:11:36.720 Okay? 0:11:36.840 --> 0:11:39.240 Right, So I feel so much better now. Sorry, sorry 0:11:39.320 --> 0:11:50.840 audio guys. So what I want to say is, let's 0:11:50.880 --> 0:11:53.679 talk a little bit about last season. So last season 0:11:54.520 --> 0:11:56.480 was rough for you, and I felt like, you know, 0:11:56.559 --> 0:11:59.439 when it comes to editing, you got a rough to 0:11:59.559 --> 0:12:02.040 edit because there are so many scenes that we did do. 0:12:02.400 --> 0:12:04.640 You called me every night, We cried together, You cried 0:12:04.679 --> 0:12:06.080 for me, You cried for me. 0:12:06.600 --> 0:12:09.120 We cried during filming. Which things they didn't see. It 0:12:09.200 --> 0:12:13.040 was only you know about Channon and John right who 0:12:13.120 --> 0:12:16.840 you are now married to, and and then it was 0:12:16.960 --> 0:12:19.600 a lot of stuff that you know, we talked about 0:12:19.600 --> 0:12:21.199 your mom and the stuff that you went through. 0:12:21.480 --> 0:12:23.880 Just never watch on your kids. We talked about. 0:12:23.600 --> 0:12:27.080 Sick and your children and your divorce and all these things. 0:12:27.120 --> 0:12:27.880 It was never shown. 0:12:28.240 --> 0:12:29.160 So I felt like for. 0:12:29.240 --> 0:12:32.880 People out there that didn't see the full Alexis and 0:12:32.920 --> 0:12:35.800 they saw what they saw, like, what do you what 0:12:35.840 --> 0:12:36.959 do you say to them? Now? 0:12:38.679 --> 0:12:42.360 You know? I feel like everything happens for a reason, 0:12:43.080 --> 0:12:47.760 did I Okay, so picture this, you just lose your mom? 0:12:48.200 --> 0:12:48.520 Okay? 0:12:48.600 --> 0:12:51.720 Five months before, three months before filming, August started filming 0:12:52.000 --> 0:12:54.360 December or January whatever that was. So a few months 0:12:54.400 --> 0:12:57.040 before we started filming, and you know my phone calls 0:12:57.040 --> 0:12:58.320 to you. I said, I don't think I can do it. 0:12:58.360 --> 0:13:00.360 Tom. I don't know if I have the energy, the strength. 0:13:00.400 --> 0:13:00.840 I don't know. 0:13:00.880 --> 0:13:06.120 I'm one talking into signing the contract yes and so, 0:13:06.440 --> 0:13:08.560 and then I also have to break up with my 0:13:08.600 --> 0:13:11.080 fiance at the time that I knew just was not right. 0:13:11.160 --> 0:13:13.840 It's not right to be with someone who's not there 0:13:13.960 --> 0:13:17.720 at your darkest hour. So I lost so much after 0:13:17.920 --> 0:13:21.880 already getting a divorce from my father's the children, the 0:13:22.000 --> 0:13:24.920 father of my children, and then go straight into filming 0:13:26.000 --> 0:13:29.560 after all of these other things have transpired. I was 0:13:29.679 --> 0:13:33.240 literally on my knees even more, and I kept saying, 0:13:33.240 --> 0:13:35.839 to God, why did you do this to me. 0:13:36.040 --> 0:13:39.120 After knowing how low I already was. But you know 0:13:39.160 --> 0:13:39.840 what it did, Tam. 0:13:39.840 --> 0:13:42.480 And this is why I say, what what doesn't kill 0:13:42.520 --> 0:13:44.439 you makes you stronger? That song is so true, Thank 0:13:44.440 --> 0:13:49.080 you killing Clerksland Clarkson. But I got stronger from it, 0:13:49.120 --> 0:13:51.120 and it was like I believe it was meant to happen. 0:13:51.480 --> 0:13:53.920 I don't know why. I don't have the clear picture, 0:13:54.040 --> 0:13:56.400 but what I would say to everybody is you are 0:13:56.440 --> 0:13:59.440 hearing more of who alexis really is now than the 0:13:59.480 --> 0:14:01.920 pod on all the Pods on Carlos. 0:14:02.559 --> 0:14:06.199 So you co host with Carlos, you recap Orange County. 0:14:06.480 --> 0:14:08.160 You're so good with Carlos. 0:14:08.520 --> 0:14:10.360 Yeah, and I think you're funny. 0:14:10.520 --> 0:14:13.440 I think your point across, by the way, he is amazing. 0:14:13.480 --> 0:14:18.480 Carlos is absolutely amazing. But I feel like you guys 0:14:18.640 --> 0:14:24.120 together are really good, really really good. Someone said, but 0:14:24.200 --> 0:14:26.400 there's a lot of headlines now that you're on too. 0:14:27.040 --> 0:14:28.640 One of the one of the people at your part, 0:14:28.720 --> 0:14:31.560 your party that was amazing. Sorry, we just took had 0:14:31.560 --> 0:14:35.600 the party a week ago for you know, Tamaron or yeah, 0:14:35.640 --> 0:14:36.880 Tamar and Katie through. 0:14:36.960 --> 0:14:39.680 Katie actually through the party. I know you, but you you. 0:14:39.640 --> 0:14:41.400 Still were a co host, Yeah, our host. 0:14:41.560 --> 0:14:44.040 But anyway, one of them said, you guys are like 0:14:44.080 --> 0:14:46.600 the modern day Kelly and Regis, And I'm like, my god, 0:14:46.600 --> 0:14:48.360 we are so not because we are not doing the news, 0:14:48.400 --> 0:14:49.640 we are doing reality TV. 0:14:49.880 --> 0:14:53.680 Like I don't know, I don't I'm just following where 0:14:53.760 --> 0:14:54.320 I thought. 0:14:54.080 --> 0:14:58.240 That you have a natural talent for podcasting. I really do. 0:14:58.360 --> 0:14:59.840 I think you're doing an amazing job. 0:15:00.240 --> 0:15:01.000 I have fun with you. 0:15:01.200 --> 0:15:03.840 Yeah, and as much as I want you back on 0:15:03.920 --> 0:15:07.440 the show in different circumstances because I could use a 0:15:07.480 --> 0:15:09.560 really good friend on the show. And I feel like, 0:15:10.320 --> 0:15:12.840 you know, I tell Eddie this all the time, and 0:15:12.840 --> 0:15:15.760 I don't want to get like teary eyed, but you 0:15:15.880 --> 0:15:18.520 check on me and you tell me you love me, 0:15:19.520 --> 0:15:22.640 and here I like, I feel like I have your heart, 0:15:22.800 --> 0:15:24.240 you know what I mean? Like there's not a lot 0:15:24.240 --> 0:15:27.360 of friends that you feel like have your back. And 0:15:27.440 --> 0:15:28.920 you know everything that went down. 0:15:28.800 --> 0:15:30.680 Last year, No I understand. 0:15:30.800 --> 0:15:33.200 I didn't turn my back on you. I did not 0:15:33.320 --> 0:15:34.000 know when in my back. 0:15:34.160 --> 0:15:35.080 No one understands. 0:15:35.080 --> 0:15:36.920 And I want to say this to all the listeners 0:15:37.000 --> 0:15:42.160 right now, the all the to tease listeners. Every castmate 0:15:42.360 --> 0:15:44.280 turned their back on me last season because of how 0:15:44.360 --> 0:15:46.480 much hatter I was getting and I had to shut 0:15:46.480 --> 0:15:49.360 off you know, my my Instagram, And then when I'd 0:15:49.360 --> 0:15:50.920 go out and meet them for coffee, no one would 0:15:50.960 --> 0:15:51.680 want to take a picture. 0:15:51.760 --> 0:15:52.760 No one wanted to post it. 0:15:53.200 --> 0:15:56.400 You posted on my birthday when I'm at the darkest 0:15:56.440 --> 0:15:59.800 time of turning off into getting death threats. John and 0:15:59.840 --> 0:16:02.320 I the most horrible human you've ever met, because we 0:16:02.400 --> 0:16:05.160 fell in love when nobody, neither of us were with 0:16:05.200 --> 0:16:05.800 anyone else. 0:16:06.080 --> 0:16:10.000 It's like, you did not turn your back on me 0:16:10.120 --> 0:16:10.400 and I. 0:16:10.920 --> 0:16:13.680 I so look back at all of that and think, 0:16:14.040 --> 0:16:16.400 plus what all the time we just cried about how 0:16:16.600 --> 0:16:18.560 the show was getting edited. At the moment, I know 0:16:18.600 --> 0:16:21.200 that words not nobody likes. Okay, so how we were 0:16:21.240 --> 0:16:25.080 being portrayed is what we should say. Yeah, so because 0:16:25.120 --> 0:16:26.200 you do it is true. 0:16:26.360 --> 0:16:28.560 What you do say is what you say. You can't 0:16:28.640 --> 0:16:29.040 fake them. 0:16:29.080 --> 0:16:31.880 Yeah, but a lot of times things aren't shown, so 0:16:32.040 --> 0:16:34.560 you know how it's portrayed. So people are like, why 0:16:34.560 --> 0:16:36.280 are you so hard on Shannon, Well, because of the 0:16:36.280 --> 0:16:38.320 stuff that I found and she was doing behind my back. 0:16:38.880 --> 0:16:41.640 So did they ever show any that. No, So there 0:16:41.680 --> 0:16:43.480 wasn't like it just came out of left field, like 0:16:43.520 --> 0:16:46.520 I was there until I wasn't right, you know. And 0:16:46.600 --> 0:16:48.760 it had nothing to do with being friends with you 0:16:49.280 --> 0:16:51.080 or you know I can balance friends. 0:16:51.320 --> 0:16:51.680