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Speaker 2: Hello, can you hear me? Yeah?

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Speaker 3: Hey, what's your name, Maddie, Maddie, what's up, Maddie? What's up?

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Speaker 3: What's going on with you? You know?

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Speaker 1: Nothing much? I uh, I'm just eating some pizza right now.

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Speaker 3: That sounds psychedelic. That sounds psychedelic eating pizza. You know.

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Speaker 3: I'm sad.

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Speaker 1: I just I just can't. This is just crazy, but continue. Sorry.

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Speaker 3: I was just gonna say, it's really about the simple

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Speaker 3: things in life. Is eating pizza is so great? I

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Speaker 3: talk a lot on here about like my own like

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Speaker 3: food bullshit, and I've been thinking about this. Tell me,

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Speaker 3: tell me what you think, Maddie is I can't decide

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Speaker 3: if I'm happier when I'm not eating like shit or

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Speaker 3: when I'm eating like shit, because something like there's just

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Speaker 3: an acute happiness that I feel when I eat a

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Speaker 3: I don't there is like one could say a greater

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Speaker 3: amount of contentment in living a healthy lifestyle, but I

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Speaker 3: don't know. There's it's probably a balance. There's probably a

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Speaker 3: way to balance it, because once you eat like shit

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Speaker 3: for too long, the effects diminished but god, I did

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Speaker 3: nothing fucking matches it. I like, like sex or drugs

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Speaker 3: or what like. I've had no dopamine high quite like

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Speaker 3: eating an entire pint of peanut butter s'mores, Ben and Jerry's.

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Speaker 3: I really and and to deprive myself of that feels

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Speaker 3: like it makes life less worth living. But also to

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Speaker 3: I find a great joy and exercise, Like I like

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Speaker 4: What do you?

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Speaker 3: What do you think, Maddie?

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Speaker 1: Okay, I've like been having this similar issue because I'm

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Speaker 1: I've been I've been trying to like be more healthy,

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Speaker 1: It takes fucking forever, and then I could sit there

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Speaker 1: I feel like, but also part of it is definitely

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Speaker 1: just sugar, and it's like another I don't know, it's

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Speaker 1: another money spending thing in this capitalistic world. You know,

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Speaker 1: and fast food just the ease that it provides, I guess,

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Speaker 1: I need I need that summer body, so I'm just

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Speaker 3: What are your plans for the summertime? Do you have

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Speaker 1: You know? I, well, I'm broke, so I'm gonna do

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Speaker 3: Honestly, Uh, your friend did your friend pay for your

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Speaker 3: plane ticket out of the kindness of their heart or

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Speaker 1: Well, there's no strings attached. Her mom is a flight

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Speaker 3: So hmm, well, Mattie, let me ask you this, is

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Speaker 1: You know, not really, I didn't really think you'd answer,

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Speaker 3: It's an interesting thing, romanticizing your life. I think about it.

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Speaker 3: I've been thinking about it recently because there's parts of

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Speaker 3: I want there is nothing romantic about that at all,

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Speaker 1: Is eating And how are you supposed to do that? Though?

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Speaker 1: How how do you be normal? Do you know?

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Speaker 3: You just eat a sandwich and watch TV. It's the

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Speaker 3: I am honored. You know what, I know, what I'm

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Speaker 3: thinking about right now is I'm actually I'm talking a

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Speaker 1: I literally, yeah, like the most normal, Like it's so

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Speaker 3: I thought myself. I thought to myself, I cause I

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Speaker 3: So I'm wrong. I do romanticize eating a sandwich.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, well, it's hard. It's hard to catch yourself doing

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Speaker 1: Look I'm doing it, and then once you notice you're

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Speaker 1: I don't know. Maybe that's the first steps. Because I'm

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Speaker 3: I'm back. I'm always back and forth between like, oh,

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Speaker 3: it's too much to ask. It's too much to ask

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Speaker 1: Well, yeah, I do. I have this issue where I like, well,

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Speaker 1: I guess it's romanticizing. I set myself up like I'm

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Speaker 3: God, hold on, hold on, hell I can I stop?

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Speaker 3: Can I stop? Can I stop you real quick? Because immediately, yes,

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Speaker 3: I'm curious you immediately went negative with what you're saying.

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Speaker 3: You immediately said it was a problem, and you said

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Speaker 4: Well?

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Speaker 1: I feel like I think it's just like you, like

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Speaker 3: Well, I don't think. I don't think that's inherently bad.

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Speaker 3: You're basically what you're doing is you're take like life

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Speaker 3: I think it's like it's you're like tapping into your

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Speaker 1: Yeah, I don't think I'm an asshole at this point,

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Speaker 1: I feel like people get a little bit more assholey

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Speaker 3: Why do you why do you think people get become

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Speaker 1: Oh?

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Speaker 3: Man, I don't know.

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Speaker 1: I feel like it's just like it's it's more of

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Speaker 1: But also I've you know, I've met some people that

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Speaker 3: Yeah, fucking go sell apples? Why not?

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Speaker 3: The thing I've been thinking about is like is it

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Speaker 1: the whatevers, and it's just like you see these people

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Speaker 1: doing like insanely crazy things, like in your face all

435
00:25:54,359 --> 00:25:56,920
Speaker 1: fucking day, and it's like, god damn it. Like I'm

436
00:25:56,960 --> 00:25:59,679
Speaker 1: sitting here like hitting my vapes in the back of

437
00:25:59,680 --> 00:26:00,640
Speaker 1: this tea shop.

438
00:26:01,240 --> 00:26:06,960
Speaker 3: Dude, our fucking brains are not We're not meant to

439
00:26:07,080 --> 00:26:10,600
Speaker 3: be I really do I really feel you on on

440
00:26:11,000 --> 00:26:12,920
Speaker 3: all these things that you're talking about. They're all things

441
00:26:12,960 --> 00:26:17,200
Speaker 3: I've been thinking about because I'm also on Instagram seeing

442
00:26:17,200 --> 00:26:19,320
Speaker 3: people do cool things, and I'm like, gosh, should be

443
00:26:19,920 --> 00:26:24,600
Speaker 3: doing more cool things. You know, our brain, our fucking

444
00:26:24,680 --> 00:26:29,680
Speaker 3: brains are not meant to be doing this shit like

445
00:26:29,720 --> 00:26:32,320
Speaker 3: we were. We were supposed to like live our own

446
00:26:32,440 --> 00:26:36,679
Speaker 3: lives and because we had no other reference point, just

447
00:26:36,760 --> 00:26:39,439
Speaker 3: be like, oh, the best thing you could do with

448
00:26:39,520 --> 00:26:43,040
Speaker 3: your life is dig holes in the dirt for eighty years.

449
00:26:43,760 --> 00:26:49,240
Speaker 3: And in some ways some in some ways it's a

450
00:26:49,320 --> 00:26:54,639
Speaker 3: negative that we're exposed to fucking literally everything all the time,

451
00:26:54,880 --> 00:26:58,280
Speaker 3: and then in some ways it's positive because it could

452
00:26:58,320 --> 00:27:03,960
Speaker 3: be you know, inspiring to do Yeah, you know, in

453
00:27:04,280 --> 00:27:06,400
Speaker 3: some way, I guess it. I guess with a lot

454
00:27:06,440 --> 00:27:09,959
Speaker 3: of shit. It just kind of depends on how you

455
00:27:10,000 --> 00:27:15,040
Speaker 3: look at it. Well, okay, so when when you're having

456
00:27:15,080 --> 00:27:19,080
Speaker 3: everything shoved in your face on the computer, are there

457
00:27:19,119 --> 00:27:21,080
Speaker 3: things in particular that jump out at you where you're like, oh,

458
00:27:21,119 --> 00:27:26,720
Speaker 3: I wish I was uh surfing or I don't whatever

459
00:27:26,760 --> 00:27:30,159
Speaker 3: it is, you know.

460
00:27:30,560 --> 00:27:35,480
Speaker 1: I so I like I like to watch the like

461
00:27:35,720 --> 00:27:40,080
Speaker 1: travel vlogs or whatever. But also another weird thing is

462
00:27:40,119 --> 00:27:44,080
Speaker 1: that like like when given the opportunity to like leave

463
00:27:44,119 --> 00:27:46,800
Speaker 1: the country or like, you know, I had all these

464
00:27:46,840 --> 00:27:50,000
Speaker 1: like study abroad opportunities in college, like I'm just like, no,

465
00:27:50,680 --> 00:27:53,040
Speaker 1: I don't know, I don't have a passport, Like I've

466
00:27:53,080 --> 00:27:55,199
Speaker 1: never left the country, and like I also don't have

467
00:27:55,240 --> 00:27:58,159
Speaker 1: like a dying urge to do so. And I'm like

468
00:27:58,280 --> 00:28:00,720
Speaker 1: is that weird? Because everyone's like like, oh, you don't

469
00:28:00,720 --> 00:28:03,240
Speaker 1: want to go on this little trip with me to

470
00:28:03,280 --> 00:28:08,080
Speaker 1: this other country, and I'm like, look like, I don't know.

471
00:28:08,160 --> 00:28:12,399
Speaker 1: I feel like I I find some comfort in sitting

472
00:28:12,400 --> 00:28:14,520
Speaker 1: there and just like watching other people do shit. But

473
00:28:14,600 --> 00:28:16,640
Speaker 1: then like every now and then I'll be like, oh

474
00:28:16,680 --> 00:28:19,320
Speaker 1: my god, like at least just like get up and

475
00:28:19,359 --> 00:28:22,080
Speaker 1: open a window or some shit, you know, like feel

476
00:28:22,240 --> 00:28:25,639
Speaker 1: feel some real error on you, Like you don't have

477
00:28:25,680 --> 00:28:27,280
Speaker 1: to like go hop on a plane right now, but

478
00:28:27,400 --> 00:28:29,680
Speaker 1: like figure something out.

479
00:28:29,800 --> 00:28:30,600
Speaker 3: I don't know.

480
00:28:30,400 --> 00:28:33,560
Speaker 1: I don't think it's easier to get down on yourself

481
00:28:33,680 --> 00:28:35,680
Speaker 1: when when all of that is happening, it's just like

482
00:28:35,680 --> 00:28:38,200
Speaker 1: where should I even start? I guess, well.

483
00:28:37,960 --> 00:28:39,280
Speaker 3: That I don't know. I mean, is it just like

484
00:28:39,320 --> 00:28:41,760
Speaker 3: a sense of like all feeling guilty because you're not

485
00:28:42,440 --> 00:28:46,480
Speaker 3: doing enough? Or is it like, oh I actively I

486
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Speaker 3: mean you know it's something you don't actively want to

487
00:28:50,880 --> 00:28:51,520
Speaker 3: do any of that.

488
00:28:51,640 --> 00:28:53,520
Speaker 1: Yeah, I guess it's more like should I feel like

489
00:28:53,560 --> 00:28:55,280
Speaker 1: I want to be doing this for everyone else is?

490
00:28:55,360 --> 00:28:57,600
Speaker 1: But like I wouldn't even know that everyone else is

491
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Speaker 1: if I wasn't, so just like on my phone, know

492
00:29:00,360 --> 00:29:02,280
Speaker 1: what I mean, it's really that damn phone.

493
00:29:02,560 --> 00:29:06,840
Speaker 3: Like, but well, here's an here's another thing to think

494
00:29:06,880 --> 00:29:12,920
Speaker 3: about God, I am, I'm I'm such a hypocrite with this,

495
00:29:13,560 --> 00:29:15,840
Speaker 3: but I've been thinking about it because I'm also at

496
00:29:15,880 --> 00:29:19,240
Speaker 3: a like a little inflection point where I'm trying to

497
00:29:19,240 --> 00:29:29,240
Speaker 3: figure out, you know, my passions and dive deeper into them.

498
00:29:29,800 --> 00:29:34,880
Speaker 3: But it's like the the the action I'm gonna I am.

499
00:29:34,960 --> 00:29:37,959
Speaker 3: If you saw how I spent my day today, you

500
00:29:38,040 --> 00:29:39,920
Speaker 3: would kill me for saying this, But it is. I

501
00:29:40,440 --> 00:29:42,480
Speaker 3: But you have to believe in the idea, not the

502
00:29:42,560 --> 00:29:46,640
Speaker 3: fact that I scrolled Instagram for like five fucking hours today.

503
00:29:46,800 --> 00:29:53,000
Speaker 3: The action predicates the motivation, you know what I mean? Okay,

504
00:29:53,440 --> 00:29:59,080
Speaker 3: So like so like, look, you're never gonna know if

505
00:29:59,320 --> 00:30:03,920
Speaker 3: you like traveling abroad or doing whatever the fuck these

506
00:30:03,920 --> 00:30:09,040
Speaker 3: things or selling fucking apples unless if you like, go

507
00:30:09,120 --> 00:30:13,040
Speaker 3: do it, you know, right, So I mean, give it.

508
00:30:13,080 --> 00:30:16,000
Speaker 3: If you can give it a shot, give it, you know,

509
00:30:16,160 --> 00:30:18,600
Speaker 3: give it a shot, and then you'll see and then

510
00:30:18,960 --> 00:30:20,840
Speaker 3: and then it's nice, right because if you go to

511
00:30:21,280 --> 00:30:23,640
Speaker 3: France or whatever and you get there and you're like,

512
00:30:23,800 --> 00:30:26,160
Speaker 3: I really wish I was eating a sandwich and watching

513
00:30:26,200 --> 00:30:29,720
Speaker 3: TV right now, then great, you did it. You have

514
00:30:29,880 --> 00:30:33,440
Speaker 3: verifiable evidence that you don't actually want to do any

515
00:30:33,440 --> 00:30:35,160
Speaker 3: of this shit. I don't know. I don't know where

516
00:30:35,160 --> 00:30:37,480
Speaker 3: I stand on that side. I've been thinking, I really

517
00:30:37,640 --> 00:30:40,640
Speaker 3: truly it's sorta Maddie matt I ever really truly have

518
00:30:40,680 --> 00:30:45,360
Speaker 3: been thinking about this a lot lately, about like feeling

519
00:30:47,240 --> 00:30:51,800
Speaker 3: guilty because you feel like you should want something but

520
00:30:51,840 --> 00:30:56,120
Speaker 3: then not inherently craving it, And I don't know where

521
00:30:56,120 --> 00:30:59,880
Speaker 3: I land on it. I think I land on the

522
00:31:00,240 --> 00:31:05,720
Speaker 3: idea that the action predicates the motivation and that you

523
00:31:05,760 --> 00:31:09,920
Speaker 3: know you do shit, and then fucking yeah, I think that.

524
00:31:10,040 --> 00:31:11,960
Speaker 3: I think that's where I ultimately land on. Because you

525
00:31:12,000 --> 00:31:14,560
Speaker 3: don't want to be you don't want to be like

526
00:31:14,640 --> 00:31:18,920
Speaker 3: eighty because, like you said, as you realized, you will

527
00:31:18,960 --> 00:31:23,720
Speaker 3: be uh old, and you don't want to you don't

528
00:31:23,720 --> 00:31:28,520
Speaker 3: want to regret things. But it's also so fucking ea,

529
00:31:28,680 --> 00:31:34,240
Speaker 3: I'm realizing this. It's also so fucking easy. If you're eighty,

530
00:31:34,400 --> 00:31:36,920
Speaker 3: it would be really easy for you to go. I

531
00:31:37,560 --> 00:31:39,640
Speaker 3: swear on my life, if you're eighty, it would be

532
00:31:39,640 --> 00:31:42,040
Speaker 3: really easy for you to go. You know, I spent

533
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Speaker 3: my life eating sandwiches and watching TV, and honestly, at

534
00:31:49,000 --> 00:31:52,160
Speaker 3: the age of eighty, now that it's all over, I

535
00:31:52,200 --> 00:31:56,720
Speaker 3: had a great time doing that and then die. Why not?

536
00:31:57,320 --> 00:31:59,960
Speaker 3: Why not? Why not? Everyone talks about the deathbed like

537
00:32:00,080 --> 00:32:04,360
Speaker 3: it's such and this is all very demotivational. But I

538
00:32:04,440 --> 00:32:07,000
Speaker 3: really have been thinking about that because, you know what,

539
00:32:07,080 --> 00:32:10,760
Speaker 3: if you got I really because when I sit down

540
00:32:11,160 --> 00:32:13,240
Speaker 3: and I eat a sandwich, I was just telling you,

541
00:32:13,240 --> 00:32:14,920
Speaker 3: When I eat the fucking sandwich in the frize and

542
00:32:14,960 --> 00:32:19,480
Speaker 3: I'm watching a YouTube video of ten facts you didn't

543
00:32:19,480 --> 00:32:23,200
Speaker 3: know about Zelda's Skywards Sword, I really can I really

544
00:32:23,200 --> 00:32:25,440
Speaker 3: have tapped into this ability in this moment to be like,

545
00:32:25,880 --> 00:32:29,080
Speaker 3: what an honor it is to eat of this bread

546
00:32:29,640 --> 00:32:32,920
Speaker 3: and watch of the YouTube video? What an honor it is?

547
00:32:33,360 --> 00:32:35,560
Speaker 3: And I think when I'm on my deathbed, I could like,

548
00:32:35,560 --> 00:32:39,200
Speaker 3: if I died tomorrow, you know, I don't think I

549
00:32:39,200 --> 00:32:43,120
Speaker 3: would regret the time I spent doing that. I mean,

550
00:32:43,200 --> 00:32:46,720
Speaker 3: i'd like to. I'm very happy that I got to

551
00:32:46,800 --> 00:32:50,000
Speaker 3: also go on lots of adventures and have great relationships

552
00:32:50,040 --> 00:32:53,880
Speaker 3: and with friends, and do work that I was proud

553
00:32:53,920 --> 00:32:58,880
Speaker 3: of and what and I ultimately would like to do

554
00:32:58,960 --> 00:33:03,600
Speaker 3: more of those things and less eating sandwiches and watching TV.

555
00:33:03,880 --> 00:33:06,880
Speaker 3: But if it ended up that all you ever did

556
00:33:07,120 --> 00:33:10,880
Speaker 3: was eat sandwiches, and watch TV. You could you could

557
00:33:11,160 --> 00:33:15,160
Speaker 3: feasibly make peace with that in a way that wouldn't

558
00:33:15,160 --> 00:33:16,600
Speaker 3: be absurd.

559
00:33:17,880 --> 00:33:20,840
Speaker 1: You know, there's really there was really no other time

560
00:33:21,200 --> 00:33:23,600
Speaker 1: like in human history where someone could do that, you know.

561
00:33:23,760 --> 00:33:31,240
Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, basic basic humanity is Like what do you

562
00:33:31,520 --> 00:33:34,760
Speaker 3: have parents? Right? Mm hmm, Like do you have a

563
00:33:34,800 --> 00:33:37,280
Speaker 3: good relationship with them?

564
00:33:37,360 --> 00:33:39,880
Speaker 1: Yeah, just like yeah, we're all right.

565
00:33:40,600 --> 00:33:42,680
Speaker 3: Do you have friends?

566
00:33:43,400 --> 00:33:47,520
Speaker 1: Yeah, sorta. I I definitely have friends. I guess that's

567
00:33:47,520 --> 00:33:50,680
Speaker 1: another thing, Like since I've moved. I've been in a

568
00:33:50,680 --> 00:33:55,240
Speaker 1: different state now for like four years now, and it's

569
00:33:55,240 --> 00:33:57,360
Speaker 1: been a lot harder to make friends for some reason.

570
00:33:57,480 --> 00:33:59,120
Speaker 1: Like I feel like the older you get, the harder

571
00:33:59,120 --> 00:34:01,200
Speaker 1: it is to just be like you want to hang

572
00:34:01,240 --> 00:34:04,920
Speaker 1: out after this or something, you know. But yeah, I

573
00:34:05,200 --> 00:34:08,200
Speaker 1: have a I have a solid little group of people,

574
00:34:08,480 --> 00:34:10,560
Speaker 1: and I have some friends that are gonna move with

575
00:34:10,560 --> 00:34:12,799
Speaker 1: me in the summer. But and you know, I say

576
00:34:12,800 --> 00:34:14,680
Speaker 1: all this like ship, like, oh, I don't know what

577
00:34:14,719 --> 00:34:16,880
Speaker 1: I want to do, but like I am also a

578
00:34:17,000 --> 00:34:20,359
Speaker 1: very lucky person and I've I've like made it this far,

579
00:34:20,440 --> 00:34:23,799
Speaker 1: you know, so something will work out.

580
00:34:24,120 --> 00:34:26,640
Speaker 3: I mean again, if you died tomorrow, you could be like, well,

581
00:34:26,680 --> 00:34:29,319
Speaker 3: I had friends, and I had a decent enough relationship

582
00:34:29,320 --> 00:34:34,200
Speaker 3: with my mom. And yeah, you know, I got to

583
00:34:34,239 --> 00:34:36,840
Speaker 3: watch YouTube. This is great.

584
00:34:37,080 --> 00:34:39,040
Speaker 1: Yeah, I got to talk to the therapy. Get go.

585
00:34:40,120 --> 00:34:45,080
Speaker 3: I I really it's I it's cool going to talk

586
00:34:45,080 --> 00:34:47,239
Speaker 3: to you about all this, because I swear I've been

587
00:34:47,280 --> 00:34:54,000
Speaker 3: like deep in thought about uh like ambition and whatnot.

588
00:34:57,920 --> 00:35:01,960
Speaker 3: I'm always it's a personal it's a person no choice. Well,

589
00:35:02,040 --> 00:35:02,759
Speaker 3: you know, I.

590
00:35:02,680 --> 00:35:05,880
Speaker 1: Also will say I used to be like, you know,

591
00:35:06,320 --> 00:35:09,440
Speaker 1: when I first when I first left my hometown, and

592
00:35:09,520 --> 00:35:13,440
Speaker 1: like my freshman year of college, like I graduated high

593
00:35:13,480 --> 00:35:16,680
Speaker 1: school twenty twenty, so I the whole COVID thing was happening,

594
00:35:16,920 --> 00:35:21,360
Speaker 1: and literally like it was like rock bottom for me.

595
00:35:21,440 --> 00:35:25,000
Speaker 1: I was literally sick every day. I went to college

596
00:35:25,000 --> 00:35:27,080
Speaker 1: and lost like fifty pounds and I like came back

597
00:35:27,080 --> 00:35:30,920
Speaker 1: looking sickly or whatever. And like now I work nine

598
00:35:30,960 --> 00:35:33,120
Speaker 1: to five and I go to the gym after and

599
00:35:33,160 --> 00:35:36,360
Speaker 1: I eat Quen wall So it's like I'm doing something.

600
00:35:37,520 --> 00:35:40,520
Speaker 1: But then it's like, you know, I don't I know, right,

601
00:35:40,520 --> 00:35:44,040
Speaker 1: I am like quen wah. But literally it's like I

602
00:35:44,320 --> 00:35:47,200
Speaker 1: gotta get I gotta keep getting better, I guess in

603
00:35:47,239 --> 00:35:50,520
Speaker 1: my head. And but I have been a lot worse.

604
00:35:50,560 --> 00:35:53,560
Speaker 1: So it's like, oh, I'm doing I'm doing good now

605
00:35:54,480 --> 00:35:56,000
Speaker 1: I have better and.

606
00:35:56,000 --> 00:35:59,480
Speaker 3: I have this theory. I have this theory. I have

607
00:35:59,560 --> 00:36:05,200
Speaker 3: not experienced it in my personal life, but I I

608
00:36:05,239 --> 00:36:10,920
Speaker 3: am optimistically believing that it is possible. My theory is

609
00:36:10,920 --> 00:36:18,520
Speaker 3: that it it is possible to achieve things and improve

610
00:36:18,600 --> 00:36:25,319
Speaker 3: it life and be ambitious without fucking hating yourself. I

611
00:36:25,360 --> 00:36:29,279
Speaker 3: have not gotten experience. I have not yet personally experienced this,

612
00:36:29,800 --> 00:36:34,880
Speaker 3: but I have to believe it's possible. Maybe maybe it's like, like,

613
00:36:35,000 --> 00:36:43,520
Speaker 3: I like, I can you be ambitious from a place

614
00:36:43,600 --> 00:36:46,319
Speaker 3: of not hating yourself, because there's a weird like when

615
00:36:46,480 --> 00:36:48,960
Speaker 3: like being ambitious and like wanting to improve yourself and

616
00:36:48,960 --> 00:36:53,359
Speaker 3: do stuff kind of comes with the inherent partilate that

617
00:36:53,440 --> 00:37:01,400
Speaker 3: you are not enough. And I argue, I have you know,

618
00:37:01,520 --> 00:37:03,719
Speaker 3: ambitious friends, and I argue with We kind of talked

619
00:37:03,760 --> 00:37:06,200
Speaker 3: back and forth about the whole like being enough thing,

620
00:37:06,280 --> 00:37:10,200
Speaker 3: and I'm I don't like I get I guess like

621
00:37:10,239 --> 00:37:13,520
Speaker 3: if you're like unhappy, like I think it's a weird

622
00:37:13,800 --> 00:37:16,640
Speaker 3: paradox because like you take people who are like unhappy

623
00:37:17,480 --> 00:37:19,239
Speaker 3: and you try to and you say like, oh, but

624
00:37:19,360 --> 00:37:21,920
Speaker 3: you are enough as you are, and it's like, well,

625
00:37:21,920 --> 00:37:23,640
Speaker 3: if I'm enough as I am, why why am I

626
00:37:23,719 --> 00:37:30,120
Speaker 3: fucking miserable? You know? So on that sense, I I

627
00:37:30,200 --> 00:37:34,799
Speaker 3: don't like the the the movement of you are enough.

628
00:37:35,480 --> 00:37:37,279
Speaker 3: But then I like, when I look at it on

629
00:37:37,320 --> 00:37:40,279
Speaker 3: the flip side, I'm like, well, you know you never

630
00:37:40,400 --> 00:37:44,480
Speaker 3: get there. You know you can have infinite improvement and

631
00:37:44,520 --> 00:37:49,000
Speaker 3: infinite success and it will never be enough, And so

632
00:37:49,040 --> 00:37:53,600
Speaker 3: what you just hate yourself into improvement forever? That's that

633
00:37:53,719 --> 00:37:59,880
Speaker 3: also seems fucked to me. So I don't know the answer.

634
00:38:00,239 --> 00:38:03,200
Speaker 3: The answer lies somewhere in the middle. I haven't figured

635
00:38:03,239 --> 00:38:05,799
Speaker 3: it out yet, but I think there's I think there's

636
00:38:05,800 --> 00:38:09,040
Speaker 3: a balance. It's it's gotta be some balance of the two,

637
00:38:09,160 --> 00:38:12,680
Speaker 3: because if you're just just accepting that you're enough and

638
00:38:12,719 --> 00:38:16,080
Speaker 3: you're miserable all the time, then you're something's clearly off.

639
00:38:16,840 --> 00:38:19,279
Speaker 3: But if the opposite is just hating yourself forever, then

640
00:38:19,400 --> 00:38:20,560
Speaker 3: what kind of life is that?

641
00:38:20,760 --> 00:38:20,960
Speaker 4: You know?

642
00:38:22,280 --> 00:38:24,240
Speaker 1: I do kind of feel like some of the most

643
00:38:24,280 --> 00:38:30,120
Speaker 1: like ambitious people in my life also have this, like, like, Okay,

644
00:38:30,200 --> 00:38:33,400
Speaker 1: my best friend she is in like every college club

645
00:38:33,840 --> 00:38:37,319
Speaker 1: dean's list every year, winning awards all the time for

646
00:38:37,520 --> 00:38:39,799
Speaker 1: some shit I didn't even know she was doing, but

647
00:38:39,920 --> 00:38:44,799
Speaker 1: then will tell me like all the time, like I

648
00:38:44,880 --> 00:38:48,279
Speaker 1: literally like everything I do, like I hate myself, you

649
00:38:48,280 --> 00:38:50,960
Speaker 1: know what I mean. And I'm like how And I'm like, okay, yeah,

650
00:38:51,120 --> 00:38:54,520
Speaker 1: me too, But how is this manifesting so differently like

651
00:38:54,560 --> 00:38:56,839
Speaker 1: in our two lives? Because when I'm having that like

652
00:38:56,880 --> 00:38:59,640
Speaker 1: I fucking hate myself thing, I will shut down for

653
00:38:59,640 --> 00:39:03,920
Speaker 1: a week and like consider quitting my job and just

654
00:39:03,960 --> 00:39:07,160
Speaker 1: self distruct I guess. But she will just keep picking

655
00:39:07,239 --> 00:39:11,840
Speaker 1: up things and has like an extensive resume And I'm like, how,

656
00:39:12,040 --> 00:39:13,799
Speaker 1: you know, do you know anyone like that? Do you

657
00:39:13,800 --> 00:39:14,919
Speaker 1: have anyone like that in your life?

658
00:39:15,200 --> 00:39:17,880
Speaker 3: Yeah? Yeah, absolutely I don't.

659
00:39:18,000 --> 00:39:20,160
Speaker 1: I'm like, how did you How did she get that

660
00:39:20,280 --> 00:39:20,920
Speaker 1: into the stick?

661
00:39:20,960 --> 00:39:21,880
Speaker 4: And I didn't, you know.

662
00:39:22,280 --> 00:39:24,600
Speaker 1: And it's the same with like those ultra running people,

663
00:39:24,840 --> 00:39:28,680
Speaker 1: like well they'll run for like one hundred miles and

664
00:39:28,680 --> 00:39:32,040
Speaker 1: be like yeah, like something super traumatic happened in my

665
00:39:32,080 --> 00:39:34,279
Speaker 1: life to where this is what I do now, And

666
00:39:34,320 --> 00:39:37,640
Speaker 1: I'm like, god damn, Like if something traumatic happened in

667
00:39:37,719 --> 00:39:40,560
Speaker 1: my life, like I'd probably be sitting here eating the

668
00:39:40,640 --> 00:39:44,440
Speaker 1: pizza still, you know what I mean, Like, yeah, yeah.

669
00:39:44,520 --> 00:39:47,880
Speaker 3: I always think about those like people who don't have

670
00:39:48,040 --> 00:39:51,000
Speaker 3: arms and legs that like didn't fucking go climb a mountain,

671
00:39:51,520 --> 00:39:52,120
Speaker 3: you know what I mean?

672
00:39:52,239 --> 00:39:57,239
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, yeah, I have arms and legs, and I

673
00:39:57,560 --> 00:40:01,080
Speaker 1: still didn't climb the mountain. But Monday one day, I might.

674
00:40:02,920 --> 00:40:05,120
Speaker 3: I don't. I actually, I'm not gonna say I don't

675
00:40:05,120 --> 00:40:06,719
Speaker 3: have answers to all these things, because I actually think

676
00:40:06,719 --> 00:40:11,080
Speaker 3: I do or I don't. No, No, I don't have answers,

677
00:40:11,120 --> 00:40:13,520
Speaker 3: but I'm I have theories and I'm working on them.

678
00:40:13,840 --> 00:40:20,840
Speaker 3: I think my current theory is, uh, well, like I

679
00:40:21,000 --> 00:40:27,080
Speaker 3: procrastinated all day on making a fucking video, and then

680
00:40:27,120 --> 00:40:31,360
Speaker 3: once I actually finished it, I felt good. And then

681
00:40:32,280 --> 00:40:35,400
Speaker 3: I so I think there's got to be a balance

682
00:40:35,640 --> 00:40:41,239
Speaker 3: of like, Okay, you don't procrastinate and like do the

683
00:40:41,280 --> 00:40:45,160
Speaker 3: things you want to do and make the things you're

684
00:40:45,160 --> 00:40:50,120
Speaker 3: trying to make, and then you'll feel better when you

685
00:40:50,320 --> 00:40:55,000
Speaker 3: make those positive choices and changes, and then from there

686
00:40:55,360 --> 00:40:58,200
Speaker 3: you actually do yeah, and then from there you know,

687
00:40:58,520 --> 00:41:04,840
Speaker 3: drink as much as you want and gamble and watch

688
00:41:04,880 --> 00:41:06,080
Speaker 3: YouTube and.

689
00:41:08,160 --> 00:41:09,320
Speaker 1: You mean, like as a reward.

690
00:41:10,000 --> 00:41:11,520
Speaker 3: I don't know. I don't know what I mean, I

691
00:41:11,560 --> 00:41:13,440
Speaker 3: really don't, but I'm.

692
00:41:13,280 --> 00:41:16,359
Speaker 1: Because I'll do that. I'll do I'll do one good

693
00:41:16,400 --> 00:41:20,080
Speaker 1: thing in my day. And then I'm like, oh, I

694
00:41:20,120 --> 00:41:23,560
Speaker 1: can do whatever I want now. Like, for example, I

695
00:41:23,680 --> 00:41:28,000
Speaker 1: usually go out on Thursdays and do karaoke, and last

696
00:41:28,000 --> 00:41:30,759
Speaker 1: Thursday I didn't go, and I was like, since I

697
00:41:30,800 --> 00:41:33,919
Speaker 1: won't be spending money at karaoke, I can go eat

698
00:41:34,000 --> 00:41:38,000
Speaker 1: four donuts for breakfast today, Yeah, as a reward. And

699
00:41:38,040 --> 00:41:40,160
Speaker 1: then it's just like, well, that wasn't a reward. You

700
00:41:40,480 --> 00:41:42,600
Speaker 1: You might as well have just gotten done karaoke and

701
00:41:42,640 --> 00:41:43,600
Speaker 1: spent your money, you know.

702
00:41:43,800 --> 00:41:45,759
Speaker 3: But now see how great would your day be if

703
00:41:45,760 --> 00:41:48,200
Speaker 3: you went you took a long walk and you're like,

704
00:41:48,239 --> 00:41:50,480
Speaker 3: all right, I achieved my fitness goal for the day.

705
00:41:50,520 --> 00:41:53,120
Speaker 3: I'm gonna go do karaoke. That's a great day. See.

706
00:41:53,120 --> 00:41:56,000
Speaker 3: It's a balance, It's a fucking balance. I think the

707
00:41:56,120 --> 00:42:00,120
Speaker 3: answer I think there's the I think the like the

708
00:42:00,200 --> 00:42:04,560
Speaker 3: capitalist thing of like you are never enough and you

709
00:42:04,640 --> 00:42:11,000
Speaker 3: must keep improving is not like there's like something that

710
00:42:11,320 --> 00:42:16,080
Speaker 3: gets somewhere between. There's something like the philosophies of like

711
00:42:16,280 --> 00:42:19,600
Speaker 3: the socialist you are enough and everything is fine all

712
00:42:19,640 --> 00:42:23,080
Speaker 3: the time, Like there's something in between those two they're

713
00:42:23,160 --> 00:42:25,600
Speaker 3: like something we need a balance of the two.

714
00:42:25,800 --> 00:42:30,080
Speaker 1: There is I think one one other thing not to

715
00:42:30,200 --> 00:42:35,840
Speaker 1: be that guy. I've recently stopped smoking so much weed,

716
00:42:36,200 --> 00:42:41,919
Speaker 1: and like that has been. That's been like the best thing.

717
00:42:42,200 --> 00:42:44,640
Speaker 1: I think. It did make me gain like a ton

718
00:42:44,680 --> 00:42:47,880
Speaker 1: of weight, which kind of sucks. But also like I

719
00:42:47,960 --> 00:42:51,040
Speaker 1: remember to do things and I don't have like that

720
00:42:51,160 --> 00:42:54,120
Speaker 1: constant like oh my god, you fucking suck thing over

721
00:42:54,160 --> 00:42:57,319
Speaker 1: my head at this point, I still do sometimes. And

722
00:42:57,400 --> 00:43:00,959
Speaker 1: also fuck that whole thing where people are like, yeah,

723
00:43:01,000 --> 00:43:05,960
Speaker 1: weed is an addicting because seriously, like there was a

724
00:43:05,960 --> 00:43:08,879
Speaker 1: weird brain switch that happened to me like two years ago,

725
00:43:09,040 --> 00:43:12,560
Speaker 1: where like all of a sudden I would smoke the

726
00:43:12,640 --> 00:43:15,719
Speaker 1: tiniest amount of weed and like just get scared. And

727
00:43:15,880 --> 00:43:19,680
Speaker 1: it still happens, and it's happened. It started two years ago,

728
00:43:19,719 --> 00:43:21,759
Speaker 1: and to this day, I still smoke every day, but

729
00:43:21,840 --> 00:43:23,400
Speaker 1: you know, it's just like before I go to bed

730
00:43:23,480 --> 00:43:26,160
Speaker 1: or whatever, cause I guess it's sort of just like

731
00:43:26,200 --> 00:43:28,799
Speaker 1: a ritual I've built in my head. But like every

732
00:43:28,880 --> 00:43:31,319
Speaker 1: day I smoke my weed and get scared and go

733
00:43:31,400 --> 00:43:35,400
Speaker 1: to sleep, and it's like, man, this shit is fucking addicting,

734
00:43:35,640 --> 00:43:37,640
Speaker 1: Like I don't even know. I don't know what to say.

735
00:43:37,719 --> 00:43:39,440
Speaker 1: It's definitely not like crack or anything.

736
00:43:40,040 --> 00:43:42,560
Speaker 3: It is. It is very hilarious. How many times I've

737
00:43:42,560 --> 00:43:45,279
Speaker 3: been like, Oh, I'm gonna smoke weed before I go

738
00:43:45,320 --> 00:43:47,239
Speaker 3: to the grocery store, and then I have a panic

739
00:43:47,719 --> 00:43:50,200
Speaker 3: the grocery store. And then the next day, dude, and

740
00:43:50,239 --> 00:43:53,560
Speaker 3: then the next day I'm like, I should fucking smoke

741
00:43:53,600 --> 00:43:55,120
Speaker 3: weed before I go to the grocery store.

742
00:43:55,320 --> 00:43:57,600
Speaker 1: Well, it sounds so nice, And it used to be,

743
00:43:57,840 --> 00:43:59,880
Speaker 1: like I'm telling you, like in high school, I was

744
00:44:00,600 --> 00:44:03,399
Speaker 1: literally like all day long, just like high as fuck,

745
00:44:03,800 --> 00:44:07,040
Speaker 1: hitting the dappin, smoking joints, hitting the bong or whatever.

746
00:44:07,560 --> 00:44:10,720
Speaker 1: And now it's like one little rip of the bong

747
00:44:10,840 --> 00:44:12,960
Speaker 1: and it's like ruined my whole day and I have

748
00:44:13,080 --> 00:44:16,600
Speaker 1: to go to sleep. I guess that's part of I've

749
00:44:16,600 --> 00:44:18,839
Speaker 1: heard that happening like to other people, and I guess

750
00:44:18,840 --> 00:44:21,040
Speaker 1: it's just part of Like I guess you just hit

751
00:44:21,080 --> 00:44:24,319
Speaker 1: your limit eventually. But I if you asked me when

752
00:44:24,360 --> 00:44:27,759
Speaker 1: I was seventeen, like, are you gonna be scared of

753
00:44:27,800 --> 00:44:31,120
Speaker 1: weed randomly one day, I'd be like, why would that happen?

754
00:44:31,360 --> 00:44:33,360
Speaker 1: You know, Like I don't know what happened in my brain,

755
00:44:33,440 --> 00:44:37,480
Speaker 1: but I can pinpoint the exact day it happened. And

756
00:44:37,520 --> 00:44:40,240
Speaker 1: it's been that way ever since, and I still haven't stopped.

757
00:44:40,280 --> 00:44:42,640
Speaker 1: I don't know. I don't know what it is, but

758
00:44:42,800 --> 00:44:45,479
Speaker 1: I have. I have significantly cut down and it's been

759
00:44:45,719 --> 00:44:50,240
Speaker 1: super helpful and on the normal side of living honestly.

760
00:44:50,920 --> 00:44:54,759
Speaker 3: Maddie, mm hmm. Is there anything else you want to

761
00:44:54,760 --> 00:44:56,279
Speaker 3: say to the people of the computer before we go?

762
00:44:59,480 --> 00:45:02,319
Speaker 1: No, is not. I really appreciate you picking.

763
00:45:02,080 --> 00:45:10,320
Speaker 3: Up, of course. Good luck with your life. Thank you, Uh,

764
00:45:10,360 --> 00:45:15,799
Speaker 3: you know everything I was gonna say. I was gonna

765
00:45:15,800 --> 00:45:18,759
Speaker 3: say everything will probably be fine, but that yeah, why not?

766
00:45:19,080 --> 00:45:19,319
Speaker 1: Yeah?

767
00:45:19,360 --> 00:45:22,319
Speaker 3: Sure, I mean everything will be fine. Everyone, everything is

768
00:45:22,360 --> 00:45:27,480
Speaker 3: gonna everyone will die, and it will be good because

769
00:45:27,520 --> 00:45:30,880
Speaker 3: that's we'll go back. We'll go, we'll return, We'll return

770
00:45:31,000 --> 00:45:35,040
Speaker 3: to the prodigal son. I don't know what I'm talking about.

771
00:45:36,840 --> 00:45:38,959
Speaker 3: Thank you for calling, Maddy. I'll see you around the universe.

772
00:45:39,560 --> 00:45:46,040
Speaker 3: Lyle bye. That was a nice conversation. That was good.

773
00:45:49,760 --> 00:45:57,120
Speaker 3: I am. Yeah, a lot of those things that Maddie

774
00:45:57,160 --> 00:46:00,880
Speaker 3: was talking about. I was thinking about a lot.

775
00:46:02,880 --> 00:46:03,080
Speaker 1: Yeah.

776
00:46:03,120 --> 00:46:08,080
Speaker 3: I don't know how ambitious you're supposed to be or

777
00:46:08,120 --> 00:46:11,720
Speaker 3: like the weird, like the thing of like, oh, should

778
00:46:11,719 --> 00:46:19,760
Speaker 3: I be feeling certain feelings? I don't know. There's probably

779
00:46:19,800 --> 00:46:22,200
Speaker 3: some book about all this ship that I talk about

780
00:46:22,239 --> 00:46:24,879
Speaker 3: on this show that is like, here's what you here's

781
00:46:25,000 --> 00:46:27,520
Speaker 3: here's what your brain should be doing at all times.

782
00:46:27,640 --> 00:46:30,280
Speaker 3: And I'll just one day I'll find it and everything

783
00:46:30,280 --> 00:46:32,279
Speaker 3: and people will call me and I'll just be like, well,

784
00:46:32,280 --> 00:46:34,200
Speaker 3: here's what it says in the book that knows everything,

785
00:46:34,640 --> 00:46:37,200
Speaker 3: because there's always a fucking book that knows everything.

786
00:46:38,640 --> 00:46:40,839
Speaker 2: Hi, what's your name, Tony the Tiger.

787
00:46:41,080 --> 00:46:43,000
Speaker 3: Tony the Tiger. What's up, Tony the Tiger? What are

788
00:46:43,040 --> 00:46:43,359
Speaker 3: you doing?

789
00:46:43,760 --> 00:46:43,960
Speaker 1: Uh?

790
00:46:44,000 --> 00:46:46,399
Speaker 2: Nothing much, man. I just finished playing pickle ball. It's

791
00:46:46,440 --> 00:46:48,200
Speaker 2: played about an hour and a half to pick a ball,

792
00:46:48,680 --> 00:46:51,120
Speaker 2: So just kind of relaxing for the rest of the night.

793
00:46:52,520 --> 00:46:54,200
Speaker 3: M Is there anything in particular that you called in

794
00:46:54,320 --> 00:46:55,520
Speaker 3: want to talk about Tony the Tiger?

795
00:46:57,200 --> 00:47:01,080
Speaker 2: Yeah, man, I just Uh. I'm graduating from medical school

796
00:47:01,440 --> 00:47:04,399
Speaker 2: in about a month, so it's kind of a big

797
00:47:04,440 --> 00:47:07,920
Speaker 2: transition for me. I'm starting residency in July, so it's

798
00:47:07,920 --> 00:47:10,279
Speaker 2: a big It's a big thing for me, a big

799
00:47:11,080 --> 00:47:11,840
Speaker 2: life event.

800
00:47:13,840 --> 00:47:17,600
Speaker 3: Uh Y, are you excited? What are you in? Residency?

801
00:47:17,640 --> 00:47:19,760
Speaker 3: For like what kind of medicine.

802
00:47:20,400 --> 00:47:22,839
Speaker 2: So internal medicine. So that's like you know when you

803
00:47:22,880 --> 00:47:25,160
Speaker 2: think doctor, that's like the doctor like you know, like

804
00:47:25,200 --> 00:47:27,360
Speaker 2: when you go to the hospital, the one that just

805
00:47:27,480 --> 00:47:28,960
Speaker 2: sees you rounds on you every day.

806
00:47:30,400 --> 00:47:30,799
Speaker 3: That's cool.

807
00:47:31,200 --> 00:47:32,640
Speaker 2: Get kind of like general medicine type.

808
00:47:33,280 --> 00:47:35,360
Speaker 3: You're gonna get to look inside of a lot of ears.

809
00:47:37,640 --> 00:47:39,800
Speaker 2: Well not in the hospital so much. A lot of

810
00:47:39,840 --> 00:47:42,360
Speaker 2: hospitals don't even have that tool to look in the ears.

811
00:47:42,400 --> 00:47:44,240
Speaker 2: You just kind of got to bring your own around.

812
00:47:44,320 --> 00:47:45,480
Speaker 2: And if you don't have it and then you're not

813
00:47:45,520 --> 00:47:47,360
Speaker 2: looking in any years, wait.

814
00:47:47,239 --> 00:47:49,160
Speaker 3: A minute, you have to buy you you're like a

815
00:47:49,239 --> 00:47:51,719
Speaker 3: teacher at an underfunded school. You have to bring your

816
00:47:51,760 --> 00:47:52,480
Speaker 3: own shit.

817
00:47:53,760 --> 00:47:55,400
Speaker 2: I mean a lot of the hospitals, like you go

818
00:47:55,440 --> 00:47:57,000
Speaker 2: in the room and they don't even they don't even

819
00:47:57,080 --> 00:48:00,239
Speaker 2: have like the tools and stuff on the wall all.

820
00:48:01,040 --> 00:48:04,440
Speaker 2: A lot of times that's more in like a clinic.

821
00:48:04,560 --> 00:48:06,680
Speaker 2: That's more in like you go into the clinic, like

822
00:48:06,760 --> 00:48:10,600
Speaker 2: your primarary doctor to get like a check up for

823
00:48:11,480 --> 00:48:13,120
Speaker 2: you know, your struped throat or whatever.

824
00:48:13,800 --> 00:48:15,719
Speaker 3: So you just got like a steph of scope in

825
00:48:15,760 --> 00:48:18,440
Speaker 3: your pocket with your like phone and keys and vape

826
00:48:18,480 --> 00:48:22,600
Speaker 3: and ship and you bring it into the hospital.

827
00:48:22,960 --> 00:48:25,239
Speaker 2: I try to stay away from the vape. I've had

828
00:48:25,440 --> 00:48:28,520
Speaker 2: a couple of classmates that pulled out their vape in

829
00:48:28,560 --> 00:48:31,239
Speaker 2: the hospital, Like we're walking through the er and they

830
00:48:31,320 --> 00:48:33,920
Speaker 2: just start vaping. I'm like, dude, we're gonna get kicked

831
00:48:33,920 --> 00:48:36,920
Speaker 2: out of here, like stop stop sucking vaping, Like just

832
00:48:36,920 --> 00:48:39,279
Speaker 2: walking by the patient room and they just put It's

833
00:48:39,320 --> 00:48:42,440
Speaker 2: just like automatic because like the nicotine addiction, they think,

834
00:48:42,560 --> 00:48:43,640
Speaker 2: do it without thinking about it.

835
00:48:43,680 --> 00:48:48,680
Speaker 3: You know, how was medical school? It sounds like it

836
00:48:48,760 --> 00:48:49,280
Speaker 3: was easy.

837
00:48:51,719 --> 00:48:54,320
Speaker 2: Oh, it was the easiest four years of my life

838
00:48:54,520 --> 00:48:58,200
Speaker 2: for sure. No, it was. It was super hard man.

839
00:48:58,400 --> 00:49:01,480
Speaker 2: I would say the first year, what was the hardest.

840
00:49:01,880 --> 00:49:03,560
Speaker 2: I think you've mentioned that you have friends who were

841
00:49:03,600 --> 00:49:04,879
Speaker 2: in med school or something, but.

842
00:49:05,000 --> 00:49:06,920
Speaker 3: Yeah, I do. I have one of my best friends

843
00:49:06,960 --> 00:49:08,839
Speaker 3: is is about to start as residency.

844
00:49:10,120 --> 00:49:11,640
Speaker 2: Okay, so you know, you know a little bit about it.

845
00:49:11,680 --> 00:49:14,719
Speaker 2: But for the listeners or whatever, it's like first year

846
00:49:14,760 --> 00:49:17,239
Speaker 2: is when you have like all the classes at once.

847
00:49:17,280 --> 00:49:20,759
Speaker 2: So you got like anatomy, like your general class where

848
00:49:20,800 --> 00:49:23,440
Speaker 2: you learn how to like treat patients and be a doctor.

849
00:49:24,000 --> 00:49:27,640
Speaker 2: And then I'm at a doo school, so I'll theopathic medicine,

850
00:49:27,680 --> 00:49:31,000
Speaker 2: so you have to do like spinal manipulation stuff. So

851
00:49:31,080 --> 00:49:34,719
Speaker 2: that's another class. You're doing all that at once, and

852
00:49:34,760 --> 00:49:39,319
Speaker 2: it's just freaking brutal. Like people like either like turn

853
00:49:39,400 --> 00:49:43,279
Speaker 2: to like drugs that first semester or they like like

854
00:49:43,400 --> 00:49:46,319
Speaker 2: try to like you know, fuck the classmates. Like there's

855
00:49:46,360 --> 00:49:48,239
Speaker 2: a lot of like relationships that popped up. Like the

856
00:49:48,239 --> 00:49:50,600
Speaker 2: first semester that was this is everyone was like really stressed,

857
00:49:50,600 --> 00:49:51,880
Speaker 2: you know, and trying to.

858
00:49:51,920 --> 00:49:55,319
Speaker 3: Like doing doing drugs and trying to fuck your classmates

859
00:49:55,320 --> 00:49:56,799
Speaker 3: sounds pretty standard.

860
00:49:57,280 --> 00:50:01,120
Speaker 2: No, oh, that's yeah, that's pretty standards. That's pretty standard stuff.

861
00:50:01,120 --> 00:50:03,759
Speaker 3: So that was across across all disciplines.

862
00:50:05,920 --> 00:50:08,239
Speaker 2: Oh yeah, even if you're like, uh, you know, an

863
00:50:08,320 --> 00:50:12,040
Speaker 2: accountant school, you're also trying to fuck your classmates. So

864
00:50:12,440 --> 00:50:16,400
Speaker 2: it's it's across all disciplines. But that's the hardest semester.

865
00:50:16,600 --> 00:50:18,680
Speaker 2: And then it's like once you figure out how to study,

866
00:50:18,719 --> 00:50:21,080
Speaker 2: you just kind of coast from there and you're just

867
00:50:21,160 --> 00:50:23,520
Speaker 2: kind of chilling trying to get to third year. When

868
00:50:23,560 --> 00:50:25,520
Speaker 2: you're actually third years, like when you do your clinicals

869
00:50:25,560 --> 00:50:27,120
Speaker 2: and you actually like get to go out and you

870
00:50:27,120 --> 00:50:30,360
Speaker 2: have to like you know, sit in your apartment for

871
00:50:30,400 --> 00:50:33,439
Speaker 2: twelve hours a day by yourself, like eating grub hub

872
00:50:34,040 --> 00:50:37,120
Speaker 2: every day. You're actually out in the hospital like doing things.

873
00:50:37,160 --> 00:50:38,960
Speaker 2: That was my like first year, it was just like

874
00:50:39,040 --> 00:50:42,719
Speaker 2: ordering grub Hub and studying. So I got like the

875
00:50:42,760 --> 00:50:43,640
Speaker 2: freshman of fifteen.

876
00:50:43,880 --> 00:50:50,560
Speaker 3: Yeah, are you excited to be a doctor? That's so real.

877
00:50:50,719 --> 00:50:54,640
Speaker 3: That's such a real job. It's an interesting it's an

878
00:50:54,680 --> 00:51:02,080
Speaker 3: interesting thing because like like the previous caller that we talked.

879
00:51:02,000 --> 00:51:05,040
Speaker 2: To, I didn't hear that, but yeah, she.

880
00:51:05,880 --> 00:51:07,560
Speaker 3: Was kind of like, oh, like what am I going

881
00:51:07,640 --> 00:51:11,319
Speaker 3: to be doing when I'm fifty? And I also have

882
00:51:11,400 --> 00:51:17,000
Speaker 3: that thing, and I have some friends who I'm also like,

883
00:51:17,040 --> 00:51:18,560
Speaker 3: what the hell are we going to be doing when

884
00:51:18,560 --> 00:51:22,160
Speaker 3: we're like old and shit? And but what you're doing

885
00:51:22,239 --> 00:51:25,480
Speaker 3: is interesting because you kind of know you're how old

886
00:51:25,480 --> 00:51:25,680
Speaker 3: are you?

887
00:51:27,800 --> 00:51:29,560
Speaker 2: Thirties and my early thirties.

888
00:51:29,840 --> 00:51:32,799
Speaker 3: Early thirties, see, but you kind of know what you're

889
00:51:32,840 --> 00:51:35,320
Speaker 3: going to be doing for the entire rest of your life.

890
00:51:37,440 --> 00:51:40,440
Speaker 2: Yeah, you generally know, Like each day is different. That's why,

891
00:51:40,560 --> 00:51:42,319
Speaker 2: like I like medicine because you're not you're not doing

892
00:51:42,320 --> 00:51:44,480
Speaker 2: the same necessarily the same thing over and over because

893
00:51:44,480 --> 00:51:47,360
Speaker 2: you're seeing different patients. Every day. So but you generally

894
00:51:47,440 --> 00:51:48,799
Speaker 2: know what you're going to be doing, and you have

895
00:51:48,840 --> 00:51:52,040
Speaker 2: like pretty good job security, i'd say, because you actually

896
00:51:52,080 --> 00:51:55,319
Speaker 2: like have like a thought after skill. But you know,

897
00:51:55,360 --> 00:51:57,560
Speaker 2: it's kind of like I think, like coding, you know,

898
00:51:57,680 --> 00:51:59,399
Speaker 2: is another one where you have like job security because

899
00:51:59,440 --> 00:52:01,600
Speaker 2: you have like a sought after school and stuff like that.

900
00:52:01,680 --> 00:52:04,120
Speaker 2: So there's a lot of jobs where it's like, you know,

901
00:52:04,200 --> 00:52:05,839
Speaker 2: you know what you're going to be doing, Like you said,

902
00:52:05,880 --> 00:52:09,120
Speaker 2: until until you're like fifty, you don't have like any

903
00:52:09,200 --> 00:52:12,239
Speaker 2: you know, there's no blackness, you know, kind of in

904
00:52:12,280 --> 00:52:14,400
Speaker 2: front of you for what your career is going to be.

905
00:52:14,480 --> 00:52:19,320
Speaker 2: Like do you like that? I do like that. I

906
00:52:19,400 --> 00:52:22,120
Speaker 2: think it's it just gives you, like it takes one

907
00:52:22,320 --> 00:52:24,960
Speaker 2: more stress out of life. Like you know, there's a

908
00:52:24,960 --> 00:52:26,719
Speaker 2: lot of people who have jobs where like they're not sure.

909
00:52:26,760 --> 00:52:28,239
Speaker 2: I worked at a job where I was like not

910
00:52:28,280 --> 00:52:30,520
Speaker 2: sure if I was going to get laid off, not

911
00:52:30,520 --> 00:52:32,719
Speaker 2: necessarily fired, but like laid off. And I think a

912
00:52:32,719 --> 00:52:35,160
Speaker 2: lot of people have that in their careers and it

913
00:52:35,200 --> 00:52:37,000
Speaker 2: could be any type of job. You know, even doctors

914
00:52:37,040 --> 00:52:38,840
Speaker 2: can get laid off, but like there's less of a

915
00:52:39,000 --> 00:52:42,640
Speaker 2: chance of that, especially if you're at like a hospital

916
00:52:42,680 --> 00:52:45,319
Speaker 2: that's kind of more rural. So I do like that,

917
00:52:47,280 --> 00:52:50,320
Speaker 2: but yeah, I just you know, and I don't really

918
00:52:50,400 --> 00:52:55,359
Speaker 2: I think like it's not the only way to go

919
00:52:55,480 --> 00:52:57,560
Speaker 2: and in your life, you know, like there's tons of

920
00:52:57,600 --> 00:52:59,600
Speaker 2: different career pathways you can go where you have job

921
00:52:59,600 --> 00:53:02,719
Speaker 2: security and doesn't require like an extra seven years just

922
00:53:02,760 --> 00:53:05,440
Speaker 2: to school, you know. So it's like I just did

923
00:53:05,440 --> 00:53:07,359
Speaker 2: it because I couldn't see myself doing anything else.

924
00:53:07,520 --> 00:53:11,359
Speaker 3: You know, that's a great reasons like I do it.

925
00:53:12,600 --> 00:53:15,560
Speaker 3: Can AI replace the doctors or are you guys good.

926
00:53:17,000 --> 00:53:17,239
Speaker 1: Dude?

927
00:53:17,239 --> 00:53:19,800
Speaker 2: I was literally thinking about that today because I was

928
00:53:19,880 --> 00:53:21,560
Speaker 2: I saw a meme or not a meme, but like

929
00:53:21,560 --> 00:53:25,719
Speaker 2: a post about the Medtronic. The company has like a

930
00:53:25,719 --> 00:53:29,960
Speaker 2: new robot where they're they're able to do like the

931
00:53:30,080 --> 00:53:33,279
Speaker 2: surgery general surgeries like appendectomies and stuff like where you

932
00:53:33,280 --> 00:53:36,319
Speaker 2: take your appendix out with's like the same error rate

933
00:53:36,680 --> 00:53:41,360
Speaker 2: as like a regular surgeon. But the robots aren't actually robots.

934
00:53:41,560 --> 00:53:45,719
Speaker 2: They're being controlled by the surgeon like remotely, so there's

935
00:53:45,719 --> 00:53:49,000
Speaker 2: no there's no autonomous robots at this point even remotely

936
00:53:49,040 --> 00:53:52,040
Speaker 2: doing surgery. So it's gonna be a long time. The

937
00:53:52,080 --> 00:53:54,799
Speaker 2: first thing to go. I think it's gonna be like

938
00:53:55,040 --> 00:53:57,439
Speaker 2: radiology because you're like looking at X rays and there's

939
00:53:57,520 --> 00:54:01,520
Speaker 2: like pattern recognition software, you know. And then same thing

940
00:54:01,560 --> 00:54:04,320
Speaker 2: for like pathology, where you're just like looking at microscope slides.

941
00:54:05,200 --> 00:54:07,440
Speaker 2: You're just looking for patterns. So I think that's another

942
00:54:07,480 --> 00:54:11,120
Speaker 2: thing that could be the next one for AI, but

943
00:54:11,280 --> 00:54:13,400
Speaker 2: just for like a regular doctor where you're just like

944
00:54:14,480 --> 00:54:16,760
Speaker 2: you need empathy, you need to talk to the patient,

945
00:54:16,920 --> 00:54:19,600
Speaker 2: talk to the family, make decisions on the fly. That's

946
00:54:19,640 --> 00:54:20,960
Speaker 2: I think that's gonna be a little harder.

947
00:54:22,400 --> 00:54:25,040
Speaker 3: That makes sense there, Yeah, yeah, it does, like uh,

948
00:54:26,880 --> 00:54:29,120
Speaker 3: you know, you want I mean, yeah, part of your

949
00:54:29,200 --> 00:54:32,319
Speaker 3: job is like talking to people and doing stuff that

950
00:54:32,480 --> 00:54:34,440
Speaker 3: I guess a robot can't do.

951
00:54:36,800 --> 00:54:39,120
Speaker 2: Yeah. Yeah, And maybe at some point we'll have like

952
00:54:39,480 --> 00:54:42,359
Speaker 2: freaking matrix robots that just like take over and they're

953
00:54:42,400 --> 00:54:44,759
Speaker 2: the doctors. But I don't know if they'll be evil,

954
00:54:44,880 --> 00:54:46,680
Speaker 2: Maybe they won't want to treat humans, so I don't

955
00:54:47,400 --> 00:54:49,680
Speaker 2: I don't know about that, but maybe at one point

956
00:54:49,680 --> 00:54:51,719
Speaker 2: we'll have that. I don't know. It's gonna be a

957
00:54:51,719 --> 00:54:53,719
Speaker 2: long time, probably. I don't think in our lifetime. Low.

958
00:54:53,800 --> 00:54:58,400
Speaker 2: I think it's gonna be way past when we're or alive,

959
00:54:58,520 --> 00:55:02,120
Speaker 2: that that's gonna be fully like honest robots doing surgery,

960
00:55:02,280 --> 00:55:03,000
Speaker 2: that's my opinion.

961
00:55:03,120 --> 00:55:06,359
Speaker 3: But well that are you excited for that? I mean,

962
00:55:06,440 --> 00:55:07,720
Speaker 3: like do you feel like they'll be better?

963
00:55:10,800 --> 00:55:13,520
Speaker 2: I really think like the biggest thing that patients like

964
00:55:13,520 --> 00:55:14,920
Speaker 2: say to me that they like about me is that

965
00:55:14,960 --> 00:55:17,920
Speaker 2: I'm like generally pretty personal. They're like that. They're like

966
00:55:17,920 --> 00:55:19,480
Speaker 2: the I'm like the nicest person to come in the

967
00:55:19,520 --> 00:55:22,000
Speaker 2: room all day and just talk to them. And you know,

968
00:55:22,120 --> 00:55:24,239
Speaker 2: human touch is another thing. So like I don't know

969
00:55:24,280 --> 00:55:25,680
Speaker 2: if you ever had a doctor that just went in

970
00:55:25,719 --> 00:55:28,359
Speaker 2: and like didn't even touch you, like do a physical exam,

971
00:55:28,440 --> 00:55:30,360
Speaker 2: and you're like, what the fuck's that? Like did he

972
00:55:30,400 --> 00:55:32,880
Speaker 2: even do anything? Or even do anything? So it's like

973
00:55:33,480 --> 00:55:35,279
Speaker 2: that's a big part of being a doctor is like

974
00:55:35,320 --> 00:55:38,319
Speaker 2: the human compassion, human touch aspect. So I mean you

975
00:55:38,360 --> 00:55:41,960
Speaker 2: want like a cold, like silvery robot hand doing a

976
00:55:41,960 --> 00:55:44,000
Speaker 2: physical exam on you, you know, or I guess they

977
00:55:44,040 --> 00:55:47,200
Speaker 2: could they could do like a warming thing of the

978
00:55:47,239 --> 00:55:50,160
Speaker 2: hand with the robots, but I don't know, I think

979
00:55:50,160 --> 00:55:52,279
Speaker 2: that the human side is like a big thing. I thought,

980
00:55:52,280 --> 00:55:55,239
Speaker 2: I'm not really excited for that to be a thing.

981
00:55:56,920 --> 00:56:00,600
Speaker 3: It'll be interesting when like you have kids who grew

982
00:56:00,760 --> 00:56:03,359
Speaker 3: up with robots.

983
00:56:03,800 --> 00:56:07,160
Speaker 2: You know, Well, it'd be like Alledium, like that movie

984
00:56:07,200 --> 00:56:14,279
Speaker 2: with Matt Damon where this guy Elysium where the rich

985
00:56:14,320 --> 00:56:17,040
Speaker 2: people just like go get into a pod with robots

986
00:56:17,080 --> 00:56:20,520
Speaker 2: and they just are like automatically healed. But the poor

987
00:56:20,520 --> 00:56:25,759
Speaker 2: people don't have access to that. It could be like

988
00:56:25,760 --> 00:56:26,280
Speaker 2: that something.

989
00:56:26,680 --> 00:56:28,560
Speaker 3: I think. I think, I think I got to stop

990
00:56:29,200 --> 00:56:31,160
Speaker 3: talking about AI so much.

991
00:56:31,680 --> 00:56:34,440
Speaker 2: Yeah, man, but yeah, just yeah, I'm excited to do

992
00:56:34,400 --> 00:56:35,960
Speaker 2: it for residency. I'm excited to be a doctor. I

993
00:56:35,960 --> 00:56:37,680
Speaker 2: don't have to walk into a room and say I'm

994
00:56:37,880 --> 00:56:41,440
Speaker 2: this I'm student doctor Tony and Tiger, and I can

995
00:56:41,480 --> 00:56:43,279
Speaker 2: just be like, I'm doctor Tony the Tuger. I can

996
00:56:43,320 --> 00:56:46,560
Speaker 2: just actually be more confident. You know what, I.

997
00:56:46,440 --> 00:56:49,239
Speaker 3: Forgot that you started this call by saying that you

998
00:56:49,280 --> 00:56:50,200
Speaker 3: were Tony the Tiger.

999
00:56:52,760 --> 00:56:56,160
Speaker 2: Well, dude, Tony Tiger's a He's a forgotten mascot.

1000
00:56:56,239 --> 00:56:59,000
Speaker 3: So I wonder I see when Honestly, when you said that,

1001
00:56:59,080 --> 00:57:00,520
Speaker 3: I thought you were going to bed of a dumb

1002
00:57:00,520 --> 00:57:03,600
Speaker 3: ass troll. But you're actually like a smart guy.

1003
00:57:05,560 --> 00:57:07,080
Speaker 2: I was just trying to come up with the name. Dude,

1004
00:57:07,120 --> 00:57:08,480
Speaker 2: I just popped into my head and I was just

1005
00:57:08,520 --> 00:57:12,360
Speaker 2: coming up with a stupid team. I don't want to

1006
00:57:12,360 --> 00:57:13,960
Speaker 2: troll you, dude, y'll be listening to you. You were

1007
00:57:14,040 --> 00:57:16,880
Speaker 2: one of the podcasts that getting me through med school.

1008
00:57:16,880 --> 00:57:16,920
Speaker 1: Do.

1009
00:57:16,960 --> 00:57:18,880
Speaker 2: I started listening to you my first semester in med

1010
00:57:18,920 --> 00:57:21,600
Speaker 2: school and like what, I'm just like vibing out chilling

1011
00:57:21,640 --> 00:57:25,160
Speaker 2: after test you. I just listened for like four hours, yeah,

1012
00:57:25,200 --> 00:57:28,280
Speaker 2: and just like chill. So I think you you can,

1013
00:57:28,280 --> 00:57:30,160
Speaker 2: I can. I shout out a couple other my podcasts

1014
00:57:30,160 --> 00:57:34,960
Speaker 2: that got me through the tough time. Go ahead, bad friends,

1015
00:57:35,000 --> 00:57:37,440
Speaker 2: Bobby Lee, my boy Andrew Sentino. I know Bobby Lee

1016
00:57:37,520 --> 00:57:41,200
Speaker 2: was on your your podcast, and then uh ceo Von

1017
00:57:41,360 --> 00:57:44,560
Speaker 2: this past weekend. He's he's a cool, cool dude. So

1018
00:57:45,000 --> 00:57:47,200
Speaker 2: those ones have been great, dude. And then I got

1019
00:57:47,200 --> 00:57:49,840
Speaker 2: into doctor Drew after seeing uh seeing him on your

1020
00:57:49,840 --> 00:57:50,720
Speaker 2: podcast also.

1021
00:57:50,760 --> 00:57:56,680
Speaker 3: Yeah yeah, so yeah, there's.

1022
00:57:56,600 --> 00:57:59,240
Speaker 2: Just like yat to have someone anyone's thinking about doing

1023
00:57:59,320 --> 00:58:01,520
Speaker 2: some sort of horror graduate agree now as med school

1024
00:58:01,560 --> 00:58:03,360
Speaker 2: or anything, you got to have like some sort of outlet,

1025
00:58:03,440 --> 00:58:06,440
Speaker 2: you know, the whether it's like chilling listening podcast. I

1026
00:58:06,480 --> 00:58:08,080
Speaker 2: just would go for a three four out walk and

1027
00:58:08,120 --> 00:58:10,800
Speaker 2: just listen to therapy. Get go just kind of chill

1028
00:58:10,880 --> 00:58:14,120
Speaker 2: and get out, like you said, you always say get outside,

1029
00:58:14,120 --> 00:58:17,680
Speaker 2: like that's anyone can just go outside, just walk outside.

1030
00:58:18,120 --> 00:58:18,280
Speaker 4: You know.

1031
00:58:18,920 --> 00:58:21,800
Speaker 3: I kind of like bringing this back to the previous

1032
00:58:21,800 --> 00:58:24,320
Speaker 3: conversation that I just had, and I know you weren't

1033
00:58:24,320 --> 00:58:27,600
Speaker 3: there for it, but it was a lot about like

1034
00:58:29,160 --> 00:58:34,760
Speaker 3: ambition versus not and talking to you is interesting because

1035
00:58:35,480 --> 00:58:42,560
Speaker 3: the world does require the continued existence of the human

1036
00:58:42,760 --> 00:58:45,760
Speaker 3: you know what's fucking oh man, okay, hold, I'm about

1037
00:58:45,760 --> 00:58:51,080
Speaker 3: to fuck my mind. The continued existence of the human

1038
00:58:51,200 --> 00:58:56,000
Speaker 3: race is kind of dependent upon people having ambition, because

1039
00:58:56,000 --> 00:58:59,080
Speaker 3: we need people like you to be ambitious enough to

1040
00:58:59,120 --> 00:59:05,320
Speaker 3: go become doctors. So if everyone decided that watching TV

1041
00:59:05,400 --> 00:59:09,160
Speaker 3: and eating sandwiches was enough, we'd be fucked. But also,

1042
00:59:11,200 --> 00:59:13,840
Speaker 3: but also also on top of that, I.

1043
00:59:14,080 --> 00:59:16,800
Speaker 5: Kind of have a little part of me that goes,

1044
00:59:17,560 --> 00:59:20,160
Speaker 5: you know what, if the human race died out because

1045
00:59:20,160 --> 00:59:23,120
Speaker 5: we all got lazy and decided that eating sandwiches was enough,

1046
00:59:23,320 --> 00:59:28,600
Speaker 5: and then we all died, maybe it kind of really

1047
00:59:28,840 --> 00:59:31,280
Speaker 5: was enough and we could all just die.

1048
00:59:32,520 --> 00:59:36,040
Speaker 3: That's insane. I'm insane. I gotta stop talking like this.

1049
00:59:36,320 --> 00:59:39,120
Speaker 3: I really I don't know what the fuck happened to me.

1050
00:59:39,840 --> 00:59:42,320
Speaker 3: You've been listening to me, What's what is this? Okay?

1051
00:59:42,440 --> 00:59:44,240
Speaker 3: You've been listening to me go crazy for a month.

1052
00:59:44,440 --> 00:59:47,000
Speaker 3: What does that sound like to you? Am I insane?

1053
00:59:47,560 --> 00:59:49,400
Speaker 2: Dude? I love it. I know you're just because you've

1054
00:59:49,400 --> 00:59:51,960
Speaker 2: been driving a lot and you've been like probably really tired,

1055
00:59:52,040 --> 00:59:54,760
Speaker 2: and just like had the opportunity to be like thinking

1056
00:59:54,840 --> 00:59:56,760
Speaker 2: all the time because you're I mean, I'm assuming like

1057
00:59:56,760 --> 00:59:58,400
Speaker 2: you're traveling alone a lot of times, so you just

1058
00:59:58,840 --> 01:00:01,720
Speaker 2: when you have the time to think by yourself, sometimes

1059
01:00:01,720 --> 01:00:04,440
Speaker 2: you just go into spirals. I think everybody does that,

1060
01:00:04,480 --> 01:00:06,120
Speaker 2: Like I've been doing that the third year of med

1061
01:00:06,120 --> 01:00:07,680
Speaker 2: school because I don't talk anyone. I just go to

1062
01:00:07,720 --> 01:00:09,680
Speaker 2: the hospital and come home and I just think about shit.

1063
01:00:10,240 --> 01:00:12,000
Speaker 2: So it's like, it's not You're not going crazy, dude,

1064
01:00:12,040 --> 01:00:14,640
Speaker 2: You're just thinking a lot, and you're probably taking yourself

1065
01:00:14,640 --> 01:00:17,800
Speaker 2: into like just a bunch of spiraling dark holes. It

1066
01:00:17,800 --> 01:00:21,080
Speaker 2: doesn't sound you're definitely different than you were, but you're

1067
01:00:21,120 --> 01:00:23,440
Speaker 2: I still love listening to you. Like you're just changing

1068
01:00:23,480 --> 01:00:26,000
Speaker 2: with you know, with your experiences and stuff.

1069
01:00:26,600 --> 01:00:29,439
Speaker 3: It's scary, though, I don't want to be different than

1070
01:00:29,520 --> 01:00:32,960
Speaker 3: how I know. I I've thought myself into. I've kind

1071
01:00:32,960 --> 01:00:36,520
Speaker 3: of it feels almost as though I've irreversibly thought myself

1072
01:00:36,600 --> 01:00:41,680
Speaker 3: into Like today I was just I was on I

1073
01:00:41,720 --> 01:00:47,160
Speaker 3: was procrastinating, and I was like asking chat gybt if

1074
01:00:47,240 --> 01:00:50,240
Speaker 3: science could verifiably deny that we are living in a

1075
01:00:50,280 --> 01:00:53,800
Speaker 3: simulation and shit like that, And I was really I

1076
01:00:53,800 --> 01:00:56,160
Speaker 3: really like like like people say shit like like like

1077
01:00:56,200 --> 01:00:58,400
Speaker 3: people get high and say like, oh, could we be

1078
01:00:58,400 --> 01:01:00,560
Speaker 3: living in a simulation? But like I felt that, and

1079
01:01:00,560 --> 01:01:02,760
Speaker 3: I really felt I really was left for a for

1080
01:01:02,840 --> 01:01:06,040
Speaker 3: a while still, I'm like, oh, fuck, are we living

1081
01:01:06,080 --> 01:01:06,760
Speaker 3: in a simulation?

1082
01:01:07,040 --> 01:01:09,480
Speaker 2: But that's how you my quick thought on that. It's

1083
01:01:09,520 --> 01:01:11,320
Speaker 2: like there's a dud that used to listen to you

1084
01:01:11,400 --> 01:01:13,760
Speaker 2: on Serious XM and he would just be like, well,

1085
01:01:13,760 --> 01:01:15,720
Speaker 2: who the fuck here is if you're living in you know, simulation,

1086
01:01:16,280 --> 01:01:19,800
Speaker 2: you still have you're still living. Just enjoy like the experience,

1087
01:01:19,920 --> 01:01:23,400
Speaker 2: like everyone dies, like, just enjoy it while you're here.

1088
01:01:23,440 --> 01:01:25,520
Speaker 2: And there's probably no way that you're ever gonna know

1089
01:01:25,520 --> 01:01:28,720
Speaker 2: if you're living in a simulation, So just keep going.

1090
01:01:28,880 --> 01:01:31,080
Speaker 2: Just have fun, go out with friends, you know, do

1091
01:01:31,200 --> 01:01:34,160
Speaker 2: fun things, travel like you do, talk to people, and

1092
01:01:34,240 --> 01:01:35,200
Speaker 2: just enjoy it, you know.

1093
01:01:35,640 --> 01:01:38,240
Speaker 3: Yeah, all these things I'm thinking about. All these things

1094
01:01:38,280 --> 01:01:40,640
Speaker 3: I'm thinking about, you're not supposed to be thinking about

1095
01:01:40,640 --> 01:01:41,280
Speaker 3: them for too long.

1096
01:01:43,080 --> 01:01:47,120
Speaker 2: Yeah, you might. You might have gotten a little bit

1097
01:01:47,120 --> 01:01:47,880
Speaker 2: too deep into this.

1098
01:01:48,080 --> 01:01:50,120
Speaker 3: I think that's why I got a little bit too deep.

1099
01:01:50,280 --> 01:01:54,200
Speaker 3: Outside of the matrix, there's no there's no bottom, there's

1100
01:01:54,200 --> 01:02:00,320
Speaker 3: no and you know, getting you know, reading like I

1101
01:02:00,600 --> 01:02:04,640
Speaker 3: don't read books. I I don't read books. I adhd

1102
01:02:05,000 --> 01:02:09,200
Speaker 3: scramble around Wikipedia, and I was doing that today. I

1103
01:02:09,280 --> 01:02:12,560
Speaker 3: was ADHD scrambling around Wikipedia, like looking at like the

1104
01:02:12,560 --> 01:02:18,640
Speaker 3: Wikipedia page of consciousness and of like like ship like

1105
01:02:18,720 --> 01:02:23,360
Speaker 3: that and like looking at like like skimming through the

1106
01:02:23,400 --> 01:02:27,000
Speaker 3: Wikipedia pages of like philosophers is doing that today and

1107
01:02:27,040 --> 01:02:30,959
Speaker 3: like reading about like theories of consciousness. And it felt

1108
01:02:31,040 --> 01:02:33,760
Speaker 3: important to like dive into a little bit. But you don't,

1109
01:02:33,960 --> 01:02:38,360
Speaker 3: you'll you'll it'll it will kind of if you go

1110
01:02:38,520 --> 01:02:48,120
Speaker 3: too deep into that, it'll kind of ruin your life.

1111
01:02:44,760 --> 01:02:48,560
Speaker 2: Like like athletes or something or like like I love

1112
01:02:48,640 --> 01:02:52,080
Speaker 2: Jamie Soox. I just Wikipedia Jamie Fox over and over. Yeah,

1113
01:02:52,200 --> 01:02:55,000
Speaker 2: I don't know. I just Wikia like fun things a

1114
01:02:55,040 --> 01:02:56,000
Speaker 2: Wikipedia racist.

1115
01:02:56,440 --> 01:02:59,560
Speaker 3: Yeah, I used to do that on stream. But if

1116
01:02:59,560 --> 01:03:02,479
Speaker 3: you go too deep into like existentialist thoughts and theory

1117
01:03:02,480 --> 01:03:05,880
Speaker 3: and stuff. It just will ruin. It ruined my life

1118
01:03:05,880 --> 01:03:07,760
Speaker 3: for a little bit. I'm trying to get out of it,

1119
01:03:08,120 --> 01:03:10,600
Speaker 3: and I actually think I will. I think the key

1120
01:03:10,680 --> 01:03:11,960
Speaker 3: to getting out of it is you got you just

1121
01:03:11,960 --> 01:03:14,800
Speaker 3: gotta do. You just gotta be in your life. You

1122
01:03:14,880 --> 01:03:18,120
Speaker 3: gotta have responsibilities, you gotta. I mean, you're a great

1123
01:03:18,480 --> 01:03:21,360
Speaker 3: example of a real person because you have so many

1124
01:03:22,160 --> 01:03:24,120
Speaker 3: like being in residency. I mean, you don't have time

1125
01:03:24,200 --> 01:03:29,280
Speaker 3: to think about fucking like what happens after we die,

1126
01:03:29,760 --> 01:03:31,880
Speaker 3: because you're so in life.

1127
01:03:32,280 --> 01:03:35,600
Speaker 2: It's frozen meals over and in my life.

1128
01:03:35,920 --> 01:03:39,520
Speaker 3: That's the key. You gotta be in your life in

1129
01:03:39,560 --> 01:03:41,880
Speaker 3: some way, shape or form, whether it's being with people

1130
01:03:42,040 --> 01:03:44,720
Speaker 3: or working or what. You gotta be in your life

1131
01:03:44,760 --> 01:03:45,479
Speaker 3: because if you if.

1132
01:03:45,400 --> 01:03:47,640
Speaker 2: You gotta go do something real, like you gotta do

1133
01:03:47,680 --> 01:03:51,080
Speaker 2: something real, solid, objectively real that can get like y'all

1134
01:03:51,120 --> 01:03:52,960
Speaker 2: just sit in your room. I know if people I've

1135
01:03:52,960 --> 01:03:54,640
Speaker 2: been that way before, while I've been depressed, I just

1136
01:03:54,640 --> 01:03:56,360
Speaker 2: want to sit in my room. But you just got

1137
01:03:56,360 --> 01:03:58,680
Speaker 2: to force yourself to go out and do things, you know,

1138
01:03:59,120 --> 01:04:00,400
Speaker 2: which is easier said and done.

1139
01:04:00,440 --> 01:04:04,560
Speaker 3: But I've had too little responsibility because I was touring

1140
01:04:04,600 --> 01:04:06,640
Speaker 3: and traveling for a while, and now that I'm now,

1141
01:04:06,680 --> 01:04:10,280
Speaker 3: I'm not and I think I've had too little responsive.

1142
01:04:10,880 --> 01:04:17,080
Speaker 3: My responsibility has become too little. Now that I'm I thought,

1143
01:04:17,240 --> 01:04:19,040
Speaker 3: I literally thought about that. I thought about that. I'm like,

1144
01:04:19,040 --> 01:04:20,800
Speaker 3: should I just have a But that's a that's a

1145
01:04:20,800 --> 01:04:22,240
Speaker 3: bad reason to have a kid.

1146
01:04:22,880 --> 01:04:25,080
Speaker 2: No, I know, don't have kids. Maybe get like a

1147
01:04:25,120 --> 01:04:26,040
Speaker 2: goldfish or something.

1148
01:04:26,480 --> 01:04:29,120
Speaker 3: I do you have once you yeah, if you have

1149
01:04:29,160 --> 01:04:32,360
Speaker 3: too little responsibility, you start thinking and I'm actually I

1150
01:04:32,480 --> 01:04:37,720
Speaker 3: mean this, I'm I am glad that I don't think

1151
01:04:37,760 --> 01:04:41,000
Speaker 3: this will last forever. I'm optimistic that I'll I'll heal myself.

1152
01:04:41,200 --> 01:04:43,640
Speaker 3: But I'm glad I had this little era in my

1153
01:04:43,720 --> 01:04:46,320
Speaker 3: life because I think it's an honor as a human

1154
01:04:46,400 --> 01:04:53,120
Speaker 3: being to get to this point where you're so did

1155
01:04:53,160 --> 01:04:58,000
Speaker 3: like in the like conscious of these crazy kind of

1156
01:04:58,200 --> 01:05:03,320
Speaker 3: terrifying existential things, like because I do believe I'll be

1157
01:05:03,320 --> 01:05:05,640
Speaker 3: able to like see it and then go back to

1158
01:05:05,840 --> 01:05:08,920
Speaker 3: like let me stop at a stop sign and like

1159
01:05:08,960 --> 01:05:12,440
Speaker 3: an Instagram put it just like whatever the bullshit of life.

1160
01:05:12,200 --> 01:05:15,480
Speaker 2: And everybody goes through it. Dude, there's like it's just

1161
01:05:15,560 --> 01:05:17,760
Speaker 2: kind of stupid reference but there's that episode of Knock

1162
01:05:17,800 --> 01:05:21,000
Speaker 2: Them Now from the Middle where like Malcolm like goes

1163
01:05:21,000 --> 01:05:23,800
Speaker 2: into like the existential crisis and like doesn't believe that

1164
01:05:23,800 --> 01:05:26,680
Speaker 2: anything's real and just like super depressed, and like his

1165
01:05:26,800 --> 01:05:29,680
Speaker 2: mom's like she's like, don't worry about respent like two

1166
01:05:29,720 --> 01:05:31,760
Speaker 2: days in the dryer, just like sitting in the dryer,

1167
01:05:32,480 --> 01:05:35,320
Speaker 2: like thinking about life. That's like everyone like experiences that

1168
01:05:35,440 --> 01:05:37,600
Speaker 2: kind of thing where they're just like, what is life?

1169
01:05:37,640 --> 01:05:39,600
Speaker 2: What the fuck is going on? Some people experienced it

1170
01:05:39,680 --> 01:05:41,479
Speaker 2: later than others, you know, I don't.

1171
01:05:41,520 --> 01:05:44,000
Speaker 3: I actually I don't know if everyone experiences that. I

1172
01:05:44,040 --> 01:05:48,240
Speaker 3: think it's no, Like do you think no some people

1173
01:05:48,280 --> 01:05:51,880
Speaker 3: are too, I don't think. I I genuinely I don't

1174
01:05:51,920 --> 01:05:54,720
Speaker 3: think every single person experiences that.

1175
01:05:54,760 --> 01:05:57,360
Speaker 2: Okay again, Yeah, yeah, it's hard to talking absolute, so

1176
01:05:57,360 --> 01:05:58,400
Speaker 2: probably you're probably correct.

1177
01:05:58,440 --> 01:06:01,200
Speaker 3: I mean, like, okay again again alluding to the previous

1178
01:06:01,280 --> 01:06:04,000
Speaker 3: conversation I just had. We were talking about like people

1179
01:06:04,000 --> 01:06:07,280
Speaker 3: who are like eighty years old and like arguing about

1180
01:06:07,320 --> 01:06:11,000
Speaker 3: coupons with people or whatever. You know, I'm talking about

1181
01:06:11,000 --> 01:06:11,880
Speaker 3: like angry eighty year old.

1182
01:06:12,040 --> 01:06:12,120
Speaker 4: Ye.

1183
01:06:12,240 --> 01:06:15,200
Speaker 3: I don't. I don't. I think if you're I think

1184
01:06:15,280 --> 01:06:20,920
Speaker 3: if you're eighty years old and you are arguing with

1185
01:06:20,960 --> 01:06:25,360
Speaker 3: a retail worker, you've probably never had an existential crisis

1186
01:06:25,360 --> 01:06:31,840
Speaker 3: in your entire life. I would gander that.

1187
01:06:29,800 --> 01:06:32,000
Speaker 2: That's probably true if you're like pinching pennies like that,

1188
01:06:32,160 --> 01:06:34,200
Speaker 2: Like what are those people called that are the super

1189
01:06:34,240 --> 01:06:37,120
Speaker 2: coupons or whatever that are like they try to they

1190
01:06:37,120 --> 01:06:40,080
Speaker 2: spend hours trying to like save money on shit with coupons.

1191
01:06:40,120 --> 01:06:41,360
Speaker 2: Those people probably never.

1192
01:06:41,440 --> 01:06:44,200
Speaker 3: Yeah, well not necessarily like people who not necessarily like

1193
01:06:44,400 --> 01:06:47,600
Speaker 3: penny pinchers, but just people who like they like are like,

1194
01:06:48,480 --> 01:06:52,560
Speaker 3: you know, concerned with like complete other. But if you're

1195
01:06:52,600 --> 01:06:54,720
Speaker 3: eighty years old and you were just concerned about like

1196
01:06:54,800 --> 01:06:57,320
Speaker 3: complete other bullshit that has fucking like nothing to do

1197
01:06:57,480 --> 01:07:03,080
Speaker 3: with you, you've probably ever had an existential crisis, which

1198
01:07:03,120 --> 01:07:05,840
Speaker 3: is But so I guess I think.

1199
01:07:05,800 --> 01:07:08,440
Speaker 2: What's another example of that though, like something that had

1200
01:07:08,480 --> 01:07:11,600
Speaker 2: nothing to do with you that is bullshit? What's what's

1201
01:07:11,640 --> 01:07:12,040
Speaker 2: one other?

1202
01:07:14,080 --> 01:07:17,720
Speaker 3: Let me think, like sorry to challenge you, No, no, no, no,

1203
01:07:18,080 --> 01:07:20,120
Speaker 3: this is it's okay. I'm trying. I'm trying to think

1204
01:07:20,160 --> 01:07:22,400
Speaker 3: of like concrete examples.

1205
01:07:23,680 --> 01:07:27,800
Speaker 2: I'm trying to think of one too, but I don't know,

1206
01:07:27,840 --> 01:07:31,400
Speaker 2: like what you're I don't know, like I don't know,

1207
01:07:31,720 --> 01:07:34,320
Speaker 2: like what you're like what someone else is wearing, maybe.

1208
01:07:34,080 --> 01:07:38,320
Speaker 3: Like yeah, sure sure something like that, you know, or

1209
01:07:38,360 --> 01:07:42,880
Speaker 3: I don't know, if you're like crazy what you know

1210
01:07:42,920 --> 01:07:45,840
Speaker 3: what you know what I mean though, like people definitely

1211
01:07:46,280 --> 01:07:48,880
Speaker 3: people who've never had accidential crisis. So I think by

1212
01:07:48,920 --> 01:07:52,360
Speaker 3: that point, like if it is kind of it is

1213
01:07:52,520 --> 01:08:01,080
Speaker 3: weirdly an honor to have like a terrifying existential crisis.

1214
01:08:01,400 --> 01:08:05,640
Speaker 3: I think it's something to push through and eventually be like, Okay,

1215
01:08:05,720 --> 01:08:12,200
Speaker 3: I'm gonna go back into the matrix and be learn

1216
01:08:12,440 --> 01:08:15,800
Speaker 3: learn how to accept that you'll never have answers to

1217
01:08:15,880 --> 01:08:19,800
Speaker 3: these terrifying questions and like that's fine and okay, and

1218
01:08:20,400 --> 01:08:23,880
Speaker 3: like just eat your sandwich and do your job and

1219
01:08:23,960 --> 01:08:25,519
Speaker 3: be okay, you know.

1220
01:08:27,120 --> 01:08:31,040
Speaker 2: Just eat your sandwich and just kind of.

1221
01:08:32,320 --> 01:08:36,800
Speaker 3: Eat your blooney sandwich and look at you know, watch

1222
01:08:36,800 --> 01:08:39,400
Speaker 3: a YouTube video and shut up. You know, it's fine,

1223
01:08:40,240 --> 01:08:43,920
Speaker 3: shut the fuck up, right, you know, but it's an

1224
01:08:43,920 --> 01:08:45,760
Speaker 3: honor that you ever got, and you I don't think

1225
01:08:45,760 --> 01:08:49,360
Speaker 3: you can ever fully silence whatever screaming part of your

1226
01:08:49,360 --> 01:08:54,720
Speaker 3: brain is is in touch with that, but it's you know,

1227
01:08:54,760 --> 01:08:56,840
Speaker 3: it's good to have had that at some point in

1228
01:08:56,880 --> 01:08:59,040
Speaker 3: your level before you you know, it's good to have.

1229
01:08:59,439 --> 01:09:03,080
Speaker 3: That's the is are Really, there's a higher being things

1230
01:09:03,080 --> 01:09:04,960
Speaker 3: that I sound kind of like a douche, but I

1231
01:09:04,960 --> 01:09:05,960
Speaker 3: I you.

1232
01:09:05,920 --> 01:09:12,400
Speaker 2: Know, I don't know anyway, think you're someone's but.

1233
01:09:11,360 --> 01:09:12,559
Speaker 3: I'm sorry you cut out just now.

1234
01:09:13,880 --> 01:09:15,639
Speaker 2: Nobody thinks that you're a douche.

1235
01:09:18,040 --> 01:09:18,960
Speaker 3: What's your name again?

1236
01:09:21,840 --> 01:09:22,080
Speaker 2: Yeah?

1237
01:09:22,560 --> 01:09:28,840
Speaker 3: Okay, Well, Tony the Tiger, your phone sucks and I

1238
01:09:28,880 --> 01:09:31,120
Speaker 3: can't I can't understand, but it's okay. I was going

1239
01:09:31,160 --> 01:09:33,840
Speaker 3: to end the phone call soon. Anyway. I like you,

1240
01:09:33,880 --> 01:09:36,639
Speaker 3: Tony the Tiger. You're You're a cool guy. I'm I'm

1241
01:09:37,280 --> 01:09:39,240
Speaker 3: I'm happy to live on the same planet as you.

1242
01:09:39,680 --> 01:09:42,480
Speaker 3: Uh right now, this is cool.

1243
01:09:43,840 --> 01:09:44,120
Speaker 2: Person.

1244
01:09:45,320 --> 01:09:48,840
Speaker 3: Yeah, I'm gonna try to win back. Where do you live? Like,

1245
01:09:48,960 --> 01:09:50,240
Speaker 3: you don't have to give me your address?

1246
01:09:50,640 --> 01:09:52,800
Speaker 2: No, where that you would ever come. It's a it's

1247
01:09:52,800 --> 01:09:54,720
Speaker 2: a big college campus, but in a state that you'd

1248
01:09:54,720 --> 01:09:55,640
Speaker 2: probably never come to.

1249
01:09:56,080 --> 01:09:57,519
Speaker 3: Well, try me what state?

1250
01:09:58,640 --> 01:09:59,240
Speaker 2: Arkansas?

1251
01:09:59,680 --> 01:10:08,400
Speaker 3: Uh? Where? What's the biggest city in Arkansas? Lafayette?

1252
01:10:08,800 --> 01:10:10,840
Speaker 2: To someone the other day, Now you talk to someone

1253
01:10:10,880 --> 01:10:12,960
Speaker 2: the other day who's from that town?

1254
01:10:13,439 --> 01:10:14,439
Speaker 3: What town? Little Rock?

1255
01:10:14,800 --> 01:10:21,520
Speaker 2: Like? No, what's the biggest college University of Arkansas. That's

1256
01:10:21,560 --> 01:10:22,439
Speaker 2: the big college here.

1257
01:10:22,720 --> 01:10:23,439
Speaker 3: Which city is that?

1258
01:10:25,040 --> 01:10:25,560
Speaker 2: Fayetteville?

1259
01:10:26,240 --> 01:10:29,320
Speaker 3: Fayetteville, Okay? Is there is that where you live?

1260
01:10:31,880 --> 01:10:33,240
Speaker 2: Yeah, I'm in this in this area?

1261
01:10:34,520 --> 01:10:35,320
Speaker 3: Is it? What's it like?

1262
01:10:37,320 --> 01:10:39,519
Speaker 2: Dude? It's fucking awesome. There's tons of comedy clubs here.

1263
01:10:39,560 --> 01:10:43,080
Speaker 2: There's bars, and there's big concert venues and stuff. Bobby

1264
01:10:43,120 --> 01:10:45,880
Speaker 2: Lee came here to do a show. We had a

1265
01:10:47,520 --> 01:10:51,799
Speaker 2: bunch of comedians. Nate Bargetti came here.

1266
01:10:51,840 --> 01:10:53,640
Speaker 3: I would do a show in Fayetville, Arkansas. Well, I

1267
01:10:53,680 --> 01:10:56,800
Speaker 3: don't know if anyone would, if people would come, If

1268
01:10:56,840 --> 01:10:58,679
Speaker 3: I get like one hundred people, that could be fun.

1269
01:10:59,680 --> 01:11:02,839
Speaker 2: I mean it's forty thousand people of this campus, college campus,

1270
01:11:02,880 --> 01:11:03,880
Speaker 2: So all.

1271
01:11:03,840 --> 01:11:05,559
Speaker 3: Right, maybe what's the comedy club there?

1272
01:11:07,320 --> 01:11:10,640
Speaker 2: There's a bunch. There's JJ's Live. But then there's the

1273
01:11:10,640 --> 01:11:13,200
Speaker 2: Walmart Empathy here, which is like the big outdoor venue

1274
01:11:14,000 --> 01:11:15,559
Speaker 2: where Bobby Lee played.

1275
01:11:16,000 --> 01:11:18,320
Speaker 3: I don't know if I draw to play the Walmart

1276
01:11:18,320 --> 01:11:19,240
Speaker 3: amphitheater man.

1277
01:11:21,360 --> 01:11:24,280
Speaker 2: Yeah, there's there's a JJ's Live is probably where you go.

1278
01:11:24,400 --> 01:11:26,679
Speaker 2: There's a bunch of them. There's these big, big clubs

1279
01:11:26,720 --> 01:11:29,880
Speaker 2: where bands come and comedy people come.

1280
01:11:31,520 --> 01:11:36,280
Speaker 3: I'll try if you work at JJ's Live hit me

1281
01:11:36,360 --> 01:11:39,440
Speaker 3: up on Instagram.

1282
01:11:39,520 --> 01:11:41,439
Speaker 2: All right, man, Well that's talking to you, dude.

1283
01:11:41,600 --> 01:11:43,080
Speaker 3: Let's talking to you too, Tonny. Is there anything else

1284
01:11:43,120 --> 01:11:44,280
Speaker 3: you want to say to the people of the computer

1285
01:11:44,360 --> 01:11:44,840
Speaker 3: before we go?

1286
01:11:46,080 --> 01:11:47,800
Speaker 2: Just keep listening to therapy that go as long as

1287
01:11:47,800 --> 01:11:48,160
Speaker 2: he doesn't.

1288
01:11:49,240 --> 01:11:52,599
Speaker 3: God fucking bless you, Tony. Keep keep keep being I'm glad.

1289
01:11:52,640 --> 01:11:54,920
Speaker 3: I'm glad that you didn't. I'm glad you did something

1290
01:11:54,960 --> 01:11:56,920
Speaker 3: with your life. I'm very happy about that.

1291
01:11:57,280 --> 01:11:59,519
Speaker 2: It's good that you're a doctor and you as well, sir,

1292
01:11:59,760 --> 01:12:00,640
Speaker 2: have get care man.

1293
01:12:00,720 --> 01:12:05,040
Speaker 3: Bye bye. Hello, Hey, Hey, what's your name? My name

1294
01:12:05,080 --> 01:12:08,240
Speaker 3: is Mike, Mike. What's up, Mike? How you doing?

1295
01:12:09,439 --> 01:12:11,400
Speaker 4: Oh no, I'm gonna at the gym at the moment,

1296
01:12:11,479 --> 01:12:13,080
Speaker 4: So I'm gonna taking a break right now.

1297
01:12:13,880 --> 01:12:15,680
Speaker 3: You're at the gym. What are we what are we

1298
01:12:15,760 --> 01:12:18,439
Speaker 3: working on? Is it a push day? A pull day?

1299
01:12:19,880 --> 01:12:21,080
Speaker 4: It's leg day?

1300
01:12:22,120 --> 01:12:24,840
Speaker 3: Leg Day? Respect for not skipping leg day. I'm a

1301
01:12:24,840 --> 01:12:26,959
Speaker 3: big leg day skipper.

1302
01:12:28,280 --> 01:12:31,120
Speaker 4: Oh no, yeah, you should not skip leg day at all.

1303
01:12:34,040 --> 01:12:36,280
Speaker 3: Just real quick. I'm not on like a headset or

1304
01:12:36,280 --> 01:12:37,160
Speaker 3: anything like that, right.

1305
01:12:38,280 --> 01:12:41,040
Speaker 4: No, I'm trying to find the quietest part in this gym,

1306
01:12:41,080 --> 01:12:43,840
Speaker 4: and it's just like I think I'm gonna go there.

1307
01:12:43,880 --> 01:12:48,479
Speaker 3: I'm sorry, sorry, sorry, Okay? How are you? How are

1308
01:12:48,520 --> 01:12:49,759
Speaker 3: your legs? How are your calves?

1309
01:12:50,760 --> 01:12:54,479
Speaker 4: Oh? I'm dying right now. I'm legit dying.

1310
01:12:54,840 --> 01:12:56,120
Speaker 3: Why are you legit dying?

1311
01:12:57,880 --> 01:13:02,599
Speaker 4: It kind of went a little hard on my lot today. Yeah,

1312
01:13:03,120 --> 01:13:04,880
Speaker 4: I did five forty on the squad.

1313
01:13:06,080 --> 01:13:10,320
Speaker 3: You did five five? I'm sorry you say five forty? Yeah,

1314
01:13:11,320 --> 01:13:16,640
Speaker 3: five hundred forty pounds? Yeah, So like, hold on, do

1315
01:13:16,680 --> 01:13:21,120
Speaker 3: you squat? Hold on? You squat five hundred and forty pounds?

1316
01:13:21,680 --> 01:13:24,559
Speaker 4: Yes, And like to give you like a picture of

1317
01:13:24,600 --> 01:13:28,000
Speaker 4: like what my body size is. I'm five eight and

1318
01:13:28,200 --> 01:13:31,000
Speaker 4: I'm less than one or forty five pounds at the moment.

1319
01:13:32,920 --> 01:13:36,480
Speaker 3: Bro, there's no way you squat five hundred and forty pounds.

1320
01:13:36,640 --> 01:13:38,040
Speaker 3: That's like how many of you?

1321
01:13:40,080 --> 01:13:44,599
Speaker 4: About three? I think I'm not good at maths?

1322
01:13:45,920 --> 01:13:49,080
Speaker 3: Is that even physical? Is that? Is that physically possible?

1323
01:13:50,200 --> 01:13:53,560
Speaker 4: It is? It is physically possible as long as you

1324
01:13:53,600 --> 01:13:57,120
Speaker 4: conditionally train your your muscle to do it, and then

1325
01:13:57,160 --> 01:14:00,760
Speaker 4: you always up your your level every time you you, uh,

1326
01:14:01,120 --> 01:14:03,360
Speaker 4: you work out that muscle, then you'll get stronger.

1327
01:14:06,080 --> 01:14:08,599
Speaker 3: Do you What do your calves look like? Are you ripped?

1328
01:14:10,760 --> 01:14:13,200
Speaker 4: I'm getting ripped. Yeah, yeah, but my legs look way

1329
01:14:13,240 --> 01:14:16,000
Speaker 4: better than my upper half body right now, so like

1330
01:14:16,400 --> 01:14:18,960
Speaker 4: I'm getting my my ass back again at the moment.

1331
01:14:20,360 --> 01:14:22,400
Speaker 3: Did There's no fucking way you you're lying to me.

1332
01:14:22,439 --> 01:14:25,560
Speaker 3: You do not squat five hundred and forty pounds.

1333
01:14:26,400 --> 01:14:28,240
Speaker 4: I'll see you a video later if you want.

1334
01:14:29,680 --> 01:14:31,800
Speaker 3: You know what, Yeah, actually, dude, send me a video

1335
01:14:32,160 --> 01:14:34,800
Speaker 3: of you squatting five hundred and forty pounds. Can you

1336
01:14:34,840 --> 01:14:36,400
Speaker 3: do it right now? Actually?

1337
01:14:37,600 --> 01:14:40,519
Speaker 4: Yeah? Okay, do you want me to go back to

1338
01:14:40,560 --> 01:14:42,479
Speaker 4: the leg part of it? I'll do it.

1339
01:14:43,360 --> 01:14:44,559
Speaker 3: What do you mean the leg part of it?

1340
01:14:45,439 --> 01:14:47,320
Speaker 4: No, because I'm at the core part of the gym

1341
01:14:47,400 --> 01:14:50,360
Speaker 4: right now, so I have to walk to the.

1342
01:14:49,680 --> 01:14:51,839
Speaker 3: Oh okay, Oh I thought you had a pre existing

1343
01:14:51,960 --> 01:14:52,599
Speaker 3: video of this.

1344
01:14:53,760 --> 01:14:56,760
Speaker 4: No, no, no, not yet, but I'll film one just

1345
01:14:56,760 --> 01:14:57,520
Speaker 4: for you.

1346
01:14:57,520 --> 01:14:59,840
Speaker 3: You squatted five hundred and forty pounds and you didn't

1347
01:14:59,840 --> 01:15:01,759
Speaker 3: even video it to show people.

1348
01:15:02,840 --> 01:15:05,320
Speaker 4: No, I'm not the show off kind of guy, though,

1349
01:15:05,640 --> 01:15:08,360
Speaker 4: I don't. I'm not like literally like three quarters of

1350
01:15:08,479 --> 01:15:11,280
Speaker 4: people here in the gym, or are they like take

1351
01:15:11,360 --> 01:15:15,920
Speaker 4: selfies in the gym, or like you know, if you

1352
01:15:16,280 --> 01:15:17,839
Speaker 4: kidnap that if.

1353
01:15:17,680 --> 01:15:20,200
Speaker 3: You can squat five hundred and forty pounds. You get

1354
01:15:20,479 --> 01:15:22,240
Speaker 3: to take a video of it and brag about it.

1355
01:15:22,280 --> 01:15:24,960
Speaker 3: You that you get to do that, you earned the

1356
01:15:25,040 --> 01:15:28,040
Speaker 3: ability to do that. Is this a one rep? Is this?

1357
01:15:28,280 --> 01:15:30,120
Speaker 3: Is this a one rep max? Or are you doing

1358
01:15:30,200 --> 01:15:31,640
Speaker 3: multiple ramps?

1359
01:15:31,880 --> 01:15:37,679
Speaker 4: I do? I do? Uh? Uh? Ten reps? Uh ten

1360
01:15:38,880 --> 01:15:40,920
Speaker 4: ten rap, ten raps.

1361
01:15:40,400 --> 01:15:45,120
Speaker 3: Three sets, ten reps, three sets of five hundred and

1362
01:15:45,200 --> 01:15:46,680
Speaker 3: forty pounds. You're fucking lying to me.

1363
01:15:47,840 --> 01:15:50,200
Speaker 4: No, I'm not. I promise. I think you promise.

1364
01:15:52,760 --> 01:15:53,720
Speaker 3: What do you what do you bent?

1365
01:15:55,560 --> 01:15:55,680
Speaker 5: Uh?

1366
01:15:56,320 --> 01:15:58,320
Speaker 4: I'm venturing at two fifty at the moment.

1367
01:15:59,080 --> 01:16:02,800
Speaker 3: Two fifty? Yeah, dude, what do you look like?

1368
01:16:04,479 --> 01:16:05,639
Speaker 4: I'm okay?

1369
01:16:06,240 --> 01:16:06,719
Speaker 3: Uh?

1370
01:16:07,040 --> 01:16:09,040
Speaker 4: Imagine Bruce Lee with long hair.

1371
01:16:10,400 --> 01:16:12,759
Speaker 3: You look like Bruce Lee with long hair.

1372
01:16:13,520 --> 01:16:14,599
Speaker 4: With really long hair.

1373
01:16:14,680 --> 01:16:15,800
Speaker 2: Yeah?

1374
01:16:16,200 --> 01:16:16,799
Speaker 3: Are you skary?

1375
01:16:16,800 --> 01:16:16,840
Speaker 1: Like?

1376
01:16:16,880 --> 01:16:17,599
Speaker 3: Are you skinny?

1377
01:16:18,920 --> 01:16:21,200
Speaker 4: Yeah? I'm slim fit. Yeah, I'm skinny.

1378
01:16:22,120 --> 01:16:24,080
Speaker 3: And how much did you say you weigh?

1379
01:16:24,720 --> 01:16:26,599
Speaker 4: I'm less than one hundred and forty five pounds at

1380
01:16:26,640 --> 01:16:26,960
Speaker 4: the moment.

1381
01:16:27,200 --> 01:16:29,880
Speaker 3: Shut the shut up, Shut the fuck up. You are less.

1382
01:16:30,000 --> 01:16:32,080
Speaker 3: Shut up, dude, you are lying to me. Why you

1383
01:16:32,160 --> 01:16:34,840
Speaker 3: like you learn less? You're less than one hundred and

1384
01:16:34,880 --> 01:16:36,360
Speaker 3: forty five pounds right now.

1385
01:16:36,880 --> 01:16:40,160
Speaker 4: I'm at five eight two five eight forty five pounds.

1386
01:16:40,280 --> 01:16:43,240
Speaker 3: Shut the fuck up. You do not bench two hundred

1387
01:16:43,280 --> 01:16:46,200
Speaker 3: and fifty pounds and squat five hundred pounds.

1388
01:16:46,200 --> 01:16:48,719
Speaker 4: I'll tak a video so you can be shocked for yourself.

1389
01:16:50,280 --> 01:16:55,680
Speaker 3: That's not even four. Like what, dude, You're fucking completely

1390
01:16:55,760 --> 01:16:56,760
Speaker 3: lying to me right now.

1391
01:16:57,320 --> 01:16:59,360
Speaker 4: I'm not. I'm not lying to you, Lyle.

1392
01:17:01,840 --> 01:17:04,799
Speaker 3: Not. How is that even physically possible?

1393
01:17:05,960 --> 01:17:09,960
Speaker 4: You just train? I've been training like since like last fall,

1394
01:17:10,360 --> 01:17:14,080
Speaker 4: I've been I've been uh sticking to my gym regiment

1395
01:17:14,200 --> 01:17:20,680
Speaker 4: since last fall, and I've gotten stronger since you've just

1396
01:17:20,720 --> 01:17:23,640
Speaker 4: seen me. Like last fall I was, I was like

1397
01:17:23,720 --> 01:17:26,439
Speaker 4: at one to fifty eight, and I somehow managed to

1398
01:17:26,479 --> 01:17:31,960
Speaker 4: lose weight during my journey of like uh working out

1399
01:17:32,160 --> 01:17:33,360
Speaker 4: like every time.

1400
01:17:36,240 --> 01:17:39,320
Speaker 3: Dude. Okay, yeah, I you know what. I don't even

1401
01:17:39,400 --> 01:17:42,040
Speaker 3: I was going to react to it on the podcast,

1402
01:17:42,439 --> 01:17:44,800
Speaker 3: But send me, send me these videos of you doing me.

1403
01:17:44,920 --> 01:17:47,679
Speaker 3: I just for my own personal I want to see

1404
01:17:47,680 --> 01:17:51,439
Speaker 3: you one hundred five eight one hundred and forty five

1405
01:17:51,479 --> 01:17:56,519
Speaker 3: pounds man squatting five hundred and forty pounds and benching

1406
01:17:56,520 --> 01:18:00,120
Speaker 3: two hundred fifty pounds looks like Cause I think, what

1407
01:18:00,160 --> 01:18:06,960
Speaker 3: do I bench, I bench like, let me check, I forget.

1408
01:18:07,080 --> 01:18:09,280
Speaker 3: There's no way. Do you take steroids?

1409
01:18:09,880 --> 01:18:12,840
Speaker 4: No? I don't. The most I do is uh is

1410
01:18:12,920 --> 01:18:15,799
Speaker 4: actually that energy drink that you drink Celsius?

1411
01:18:15,920 --> 01:18:16,920
Speaker 3: Oh celsius.

1412
01:18:17,120 --> 01:18:17,320
Speaker 4: Yeah?

1413
01:18:17,400 --> 01:18:20,120
Speaker 3: So now all right, how many how many celsiuses are

1414
01:18:20,160 --> 01:18:23,519
Speaker 3: you on? When you bench one hundred and whatever? Fucking put?

1415
01:18:23,560 --> 01:18:24,519
Speaker 3: When you bench one?

1416
01:18:25,760 --> 01:18:26,479
Speaker 4: I just do one?

1417
01:18:27,520 --> 01:18:30,519
Speaker 3: What do I bench? I'll bench like my max. I

1418
01:18:31,000 --> 01:18:33,360
Speaker 3: don't really like do the bench. I do like dumbbells.

1419
01:18:33,560 --> 01:18:36,240
Speaker 3: So my max with the dumbbells is like I'll do

1420
01:18:36,360 --> 01:18:39,160
Speaker 3: like two sixty pound dumbbells. That's like what one hundred

1421
01:18:39,200 --> 01:18:40,480
Speaker 3: and twenty pounds?

1422
01:18:40,880 --> 01:18:44,360
Speaker 4: Yeah, oh that's good. So do you do like max

1423
01:18:44,439 --> 01:18:47,200
Speaker 4: rap until you you equally can't do it and then

1424
01:18:47,240 --> 01:18:48,840
Speaker 4: you do another set and so you can't do.

1425
01:18:48,880 --> 01:18:51,840
Speaker 3: It again something like that. It depends if I'm like

1426
01:18:51,960 --> 01:18:54,080
Speaker 3: really into it, I'll like track all this shit. But

1427
01:18:54,160 --> 01:18:55,880
Speaker 3: lately it's just going to the gym has becomeing like

1428
01:18:55,920 --> 01:18:58,040
Speaker 3: more of a casual thing.

1429
01:18:58,120 --> 01:18:58,439
Speaker 4: I was.

1430
01:18:58,520 --> 01:19:01,080
Speaker 3: I was really I it was really good at like

1431
01:19:01,200 --> 01:19:03,559
Speaker 3: doing it like without fail three times a week, and

1432
01:19:03,560 --> 01:19:05,360
Speaker 3: then I got and then I and then I had

1433
01:19:05,360 --> 01:19:08,760
Speaker 3: an existential crisis and I wondered what the point was.

1434
01:19:09,240 --> 01:19:11,160
Speaker 3: But now I'm back sort of, not really. I don't

1435
01:19:11,160 --> 01:19:11,400
Speaker 3: know why I.

1436
01:19:11,400 --> 01:19:17,040
Speaker 4: Said, hey, hey Low, uh, just so you know that

1437
01:19:17,280 --> 01:19:19,000
Speaker 4: a lot of people care about you, so like we

1438
01:19:19,360 --> 01:19:20,599
Speaker 4: look out for you.

1439
01:19:20,840 --> 01:19:22,760
Speaker 3: Well, thank thank you man, thank you. I'm trying to

1440
01:19:22,800 --> 01:19:24,800
Speaker 3: look out for you. You're going to kill yourself if you

1441
01:19:24,920 --> 01:19:25,559
Speaker 3: keep doing this.

1442
01:19:26,560 --> 01:19:28,240
Speaker 4: No, no, I'm not going to kill myself. I know

1443
01:19:28,320 --> 01:19:30,920
Speaker 4: my limit. So it's like if my body notes went

1444
01:19:30,960 --> 01:19:33,360
Speaker 4: to quit, I'll quit. I'm not gonna like push myself

1445
01:19:33,400 --> 01:19:36,880
Speaker 4: until like I pop at mc l or at L

1446
01:19:37,000 --> 01:19:40,400
Speaker 4: or something like that. Yeah, I don't want to do that.

1447
01:19:40,880 --> 01:19:49,120
Speaker 3: Man. Yeah, what's your name again, Mike, Mike.

1448
01:19:50,800 --> 01:19:54,559
Speaker 4: Low. We've actually met, and we've actually met in the

1449
01:19:54,600 --> 01:19:59,160
Speaker 4: Salt Lake Show before your last salt show. Yes, I

1450
01:19:59,160 --> 01:20:02,120
Speaker 4: brought my girlfriend with me and she was she was

1451
01:20:02,120 --> 01:20:05,519
Speaker 4: the girl that mentioned about the chocolate covered cinnamon gummy bear.

1452
01:20:05,720 --> 01:20:07,320
Speaker 4: I don't know if you remember that, but yeah, we

1453
01:20:07,320 --> 01:20:10,320
Speaker 4: shook your hand with a pictures and you made our night.

1454
01:20:10,840 --> 01:20:13,280
Speaker 3: Oh, thank you, thank you. Oh that's really nice. That's

1455
01:20:13,320 --> 01:20:16,080
Speaker 3: really nice. And she mentioned the chocolate covered.

1456
01:20:17,600 --> 01:20:18,519
Speaker 4: Gummy gummy bear.

1457
01:20:19,320 --> 01:20:21,559
Speaker 3: You're not you're not eating that stuff.

1458
01:20:22,520 --> 01:20:25,719
Speaker 4: No, No, I'm in a strict diet right now.

1459
01:20:25,880 --> 01:20:26,800
Speaker 3: What do you eat?

1460
01:20:27,840 --> 01:20:31,320
Speaker 4: Uh? So, I've been really boring with my with my

1461
01:20:31,400 --> 01:20:35,080
Speaker 4: meal meals lately. I've been just doing, like I alternate

1462
01:20:35,160 --> 01:20:37,920
Speaker 4: between like beef and chicken every other day with rice

1463
01:20:38,040 --> 01:20:38,720
Speaker 4: and then that's it.

1464
01:20:40,200 --> 01:20:44,240
Speaker 3: How long you've been doing that since last fall and

1465
01:20:44,280 --> 01:20:47,000
Speaker 3: you're and you have no desire to eat something like

1466
01:20:47,040 --> 01:20:50,120
Speaker 3: a chocolate covered cinnamon gummy bear. Uh.

1467
01:20:50,680 --> 01:20:53,560
Speaker 4: I do it at least like on the weekend sparingly,

1468
01:20:53,800 --> 01:20:56,360
Speaker 4: but most of the time. Yeah, I tried. I tried

1469
01:20:56,600 --> 01:20:58,880
Speaker 4: try to fight it. Remember like that, have you seen

1470
01:20:59,120 --> 01:21:04,360
Speaker 4: the movie, uh, Dodgeball, where like Ben Stiller almost got

1471
01:21:04,479 --> 01:21:06,960
Speaker 4: that because like he was trying to pry his urge

1472
01:21:07,000 --> 01:21:08,760
Speaker 4: to like eat the drumpstick.

1473
01:21:10,720 --> 01:21:11,320
Speaker 3: Yeah, I'm like that.

1474
01:21:11,360 --> 01:21:14,360
Speaker 4: I'm like, yeah, yeah, I'm like at that moment right now,

1475
01:21:14,360 --> 01:21:17,559
Speaker 4: but I'm yeah, my concentration is pretty good right now.

1476
01:21:20,360 --> 01:21:22,599
Speaker 3: Oh, help me solve this mystery. Okay, help me solve

1477
01:21:22,640 --> 01:21:28,200
Speaker 3: this mystery. I go to the Blink Fitness, and at

1478
01:21:28,240 --> 01:21:33,879
Speaker 3: the Blink Fitness they have for sale like these sour

1479
01:21:34,439 --> 01:21:40,080
Speaker 3: rainbow belts. Yeah, and I thought first I was looking

1480
01:21:40,120 --> 01:21:41,280
Speaker 3: at them, and I was like, are these like this

1481
01:21:41,320 --> 01:21:44,400
Speaker 3: is like protein candy, and it's not. It's just regular

1482
01:21:44,439 --> 01:21:50,960
Speaker 3: ass sour belts. Is there any reason whatsoever from a

1483
01:21:51,000 --> 01:21:53,759
Speaker 3: fitness perspective why you would want to eat that before

1484
01:21:53,760 --> 01:21:56,760
Speaker 3: working out?

1485
01:21:57,240 --> 01:22:01,240
Speaker 4: So I would not recommend you eating though us. I

1486
01:22:01,439 --> 01:22:05,479
Speaker 4: just do like the energy bars, any energy bars that's

1487
01:22:05,520 --> 01:22:08,720
Speaker 4: like a little over like twenty grams of protein, and

1488
01:22:08,760 --> 01:22:12,599
Speaker 4: then I would I would just eat that before the thing, yeah,

1489
01:22:12,640 --> 01:22:14,679
Speaker 4: because like yeah, yeah.

1490
01:22:14,720 --> 01:22:21,200
Speaker 3: The the question is is is is there a reason

1491
01:22:21,280 --> 01:22:24,439
Speaker 3: why they sell that other than for people who have

1492
01:22:24,520 --> 01:22:26,560
Speaker 3: given up on their way out of there?

1493
01:22:26,760 --> 01:22:30,599
Speaker 4: It's pure marketing. I think it's just like, oh look,

1494
01:22:30,720 --> 01:22:33,120
Speaker 4: oh you're at a gym. Oh look what else we're

1495
01:22:33,160 --> 01:22:36,880
Speaker 4: selling here? Because like they're selling like other like uh

1496
01:22:37,240 --> 01:22:40,599
Speaker 4: like weird stuff that you shouldn't be eating too. Yeah,

1497
01:22:40,600 --> 01:22:45,160
Speaker 4: because just like the gym that you just stated, Yeah,

1498
01:22:45,280 --> 01:22:47,960
Speaker 4: I have a membership at that particular gym too, and

1499
01:22:48,080 --> 01:22:49,240
Speaker 4: yeah they do that ship too.

1500
01:22:49,520 --> 01:22:53,080
Speaker 3: What's your take on bear Bell's protein bars.

1501
01:22:53,640 --> 01:22:55,920
Speaker 4: I actually love it. I highly recommend it.

1502
01:22:56,479 --> 01:23:00,080
Speaker 3: Yeah, they're awesome there, like, but here's my problem. I

1503
01:23:00,080 --> 01:23:02,000
Speaker 3: eat I think I Yeah, I eat one for breakfast

1504
01:23:02,040 --> 01:23:05,599
Speaker 3: every morning. I eat a Barebells protein bar that's that's good.

1505
01:23:05,640 --> 01:23:06,920
Speaker 3: That's good. That's good.

1506
01:23:07,439 --> 01:23:08,519
Speaker 4: Yes, yes, it's good.

1507
01:23:08,560 --> 01:23:12,040
Speaker 3: But because I'm because because I'm eating it, and I'm like,

1508
01:23:12,320 --> 01:23:15,760
Speaker 3: this tastes like a candy bar. I'm I think I've

1509
01:23:15,760 --> 01:23:18,280
Speaker 3: convinced myself that eating a candy bar for breakfast every

1510
01:23:18,280 --> 01:23:20,200
Speaker 3: morning is somehow not unhealthy.

1511
01:23:20,560 --> 01:23:23,400
Speaker 4: Like there's got to be a cat no, no, uh,

1512
01:23:23,479 --> 01:23:26,360
Speaker 4: it's no. U. Just like if you just stick to

1513
01:23:26,560 --> 01:23:29,200
Speaker 4: like what you're doing right now, or you intermittently go

1514
01:23:29,280 --> 01:23:30,880
Speaker 4: to the gym when you feel like it, and then

1515
01:23:31,200 --> 01:23:32,880
Speaker 4: you're still eating that in the morning, Yeah, I think

1516
01:23:32,920 --> 01:23:36,320
Speaker 4: you'll still be fine. But like from like the sound

1517
01:23:36,400 --> 01:23:40,240
Speaker 4: of like your previous episodes, you're just physically active every day.

1518
01:23:40,479 --> 01:23:42,000
Speaker 4: I think you'll Yeah, you'll be fine.

1519
01:23:44,560 --> 01:23:46,200
Speaker 3: I don't know why I'm listening to you. You're lying

1520
01:23:46,240 --> 01:23:48,080
Speaker 3: to me about fucking benching.

1521
01:23:48,960 --> 01:23:49,400
Speaker 2: You're lying.

1522
01:23:49,960 --> 01:23:53,519
Speaker 4: I'm not You're gonna get You're gonna get your video tomorrow.

1523
01:23:55,720 --> 01:23:59,920
Speaker 3: What's your name again, Mike? Mike? I like you, my

1524
01:24:00,080 --> 01:24:00,479
Speaker 3: You're cool.

1525
01:24:00,520 --> 01:24:02,800
Speaker 4: Yeah, you're cool. Guys.

1526
01:24:04,240 --> 01:24:06,720
Speaker 3: Everyone I talked to on the podcast today was was

1527
01:24:06,880 --> 01:24:07,920
Speaker 3: I enjoyed talking to?

1528
01:24:09,240 --> 01:24:13,519
Speaker 4: Yeah? Yeah, I agree, especially that that lady that you

1529
01:24:13,600 --> 01:24:15,599
Speaker 4: talked in the first half of this episode. Yeah, I

1530
01:24:15,600 --> 01:24:17,520
Speaker 4: sortally enjoyed that part of the episode.

1531
01:24:17,840 --> 01:24:23,439
Speaker 3: Yeah, she was cool. What else? What else? We got it?

1532
01:24:23,520 --> 01:24:26,599
Speaker 3: Let's we can keep going for however long we want.

1533
01:24:26,720 --> 01:24:32,120
Speaker 3: There's no thing, there's no yeah, go ahead, go ahead?

1534
01:24:32,160 --> 01:24:36,599
Speaker 4: Okay, So, uh what else? Oh and then there's another

1535
01:24:36,600 --> 01:24:41,720
Speaker 4: thing I want to talk about? Okay? Yeah, so, uh

1536
01:24:43,360 --> 01:24:47,800
Speaker 4: so my act still pays for my uh my subscription

1537
01:24:48,000 --> 01:24:52,439
Speaker 4: on like premium channels like Max and Paramount, And I

1538
01:24:52,479 --> 01:24:54,479
Speaker 4: still don't have the heart to like tell her that

1539
01:24:55,080 --> 01:24:58,000
Speaker 4: I'm still using those accounts that she paid for.

1540
01:25:01,479 --> 01:25:03,360
Speaker 3: I'm gonna go ahead, and I'm gonna label that as

1541
01:25:03,400 --> 01:25:04,479
Speaker 3: a victimless crime.

1542
01:25:05,800 --> 01:25:09,040
Speaker 4: Oh really, well I love that.

1543
01:25:09,479 --> 01:25:13,479
Speaker 3: Well, look, dude, I mean it's not it doesn't take away.

1544
01:25:14,040 --> 01:25:17,120
Speaker 3: It's not like she it's not like she. Are you

1545
01:25:17,200 --> 01:25:19,280
Speaker 3: at like the max amount of accounts that can be

1546
01:25:19,320 --> 01:25:20,160
Speaker 3: added to the thing?

1547
01:25:21,600 --> 01:25:22,400
Speaker 4: Uh yes?

1548
01:25:23,360 --> 01:25:24,439
Speaker 3: Oh really yeah?

1549
01:25:24,479 --> 01:25:27,120
Speaker 4: Like yeah, like my name is still on the account

1550
01:25:27,280 --> 01:25:30,200
Speaker 4: like for this said use their name for all like

1551
01:25:30,520 --> 01:25:34,800
Speaker 4: the Prime Video, the Paramount plus match Netflix.

1552
01:25:35,720 --> 01:25:38,920
Speaker 3: Yeah, damn, her new her new guy is gonna be

1553
01:25:38,960 --> 01:25:39,640
Speaker 3: like who the fuck is.

1554
01:25:39,680 --> 01:25:42,360
Speaker 4: Matt right exactly?

1555
01:25:42,840 --> 01:25:46,479
Speaker 3: What's your what's your icon on it? Uh?

1556
01:25:46,560 --> 01:25:49,920
Speaker 4: An alien like for one of them, and then like

1557
01:25:50,000 --> 01:25:53,600
Speaker 4: I have the main guy from the Last of Us

1558
01:25:53,680 --> 01:25:57,559
Speaker 4: from like Max, and like I have a random puppy

1559
01:25:57,560 --> 01:25:58,400
Speaker 4: for my paramount.

1560
01:25:59,320 --> 01:26:01,479
Speaker 3: I'm gonna, I think gets I think. You know what, Look,

1561
01:26:01,520 --> 01:26:03,559
Speaker 3: here's the thing. If you want to be Jesus Christ,

1562
01:26:03,800 --> 01:26:07,000
Speaker 3: right and some some people, uh, if you want to

1563
01:26:07,040 --> 01:26:11,840
Speaker 3: be the like like Ned Flanders, like I commit. You know,

1564
01:26:11,880 --> 01:26:17,080
Speaker 3: if you want to be a man of like complete, utter, unflinching,

1565
01:26:17,439 --> 01:26:23,880
Speaker 3: one hundred percent nobility, then yeah, then you could take

1566
01:26:23,920 --> 01:26:30,360
Speaker 3: yourself off of the HBO Max subscription. But yeah, you know,

1567
01:26:30,479 --> 01:26:32,160
Speaker 3: I I don't know if you're got nobody gets to

1568
01:26:32,200 --> 01:26:34,200
Speaker 3: one hundred percent. If you're if you were gutting for

1569
01:26:34,240 --> 01:26:38,639
Speaker 3: one hundred percent no noble Jesus Christ, run of life,

1570
01:26:39,360 --> 01:26:41,600
Speaker 3: then you would take you would take it off. But

1571
01:26:42,120 --> 01:26:43,880
Speaker 3: nobody gets nobody does a hundred.

1572
01:26:43,840 --> 01:26:47,639
Speaker 4: So yeah, yeah, no, it's it's it's kind of yeah,

1573
01:26:47,720 --> 01:26:51,120
Speaker 4: because like every now and then, like uh, I would

1574
01:26:51,160 --> 01:26:55,840
Speaker 4: like switch user names on these asset apps, and I

1575
01:26:55,880 --> 01:26:58,799
Speaker 4: would and I would notice like someone's been like watching

1576
01:26:58,840 --> 01:27:01,160
Speaker 4: like different stuff and I on my part of the

1577
01:27:01,360 --> 01:27:03,400
Speaker 4: channel too. I was like that's weird. I was like,

1578
01:27:03,720 --> 01:27:07,679
Speaker 4: I haven't seen h Gilmore girls in a long time.

1579
01:27:07,720 --> 01:27:09,120
Speaker 4: I was like, I've never seen that shawe.

1580
01:27:09,160 --> 01:27:10,040
Speaker 2: I was like, what the heck?

1581
01:27:10,800 --> 01:27:12,559
Speaker 4: I was like, why are they watching it on my account?

1582
01:27:15,640 --> 01:27:15,840
Speaker 1: Yeah?

1583
01:27:15,840 --> 01:27:17,960
Speaker 4: And then the weird part is like we split up

1584
01:27:18,000 --> 01:27:20,439
Speaker 4: like almost two and a half years ago.

1585
01:27:22,160 --> 01:27:26,000
Speaker 3: Oh oh oh it's been two and a half years. Yeah,

1586
01:27:26,040 --> 01:27:29,200
Speaker 3: well yeah, let her let her kick you off?

1587
01:27:30,920 --> 01:27:32,800
Speaker 2: Oh yeah, who who?

1588
01:27:33,600 --> 01:27:36,679
Speaker 3: Who broke it off? She did?

1589
01:27:38,160 --> 01:27:38,639
Speaker 1: She did?

1590
01:27:38,920 --> 01:27:41,640
Speaker 3: Is that part of what inspired you to train to

1591
01:27:42,840 --> 01:27:47,960
Speaker 3: uh squat four of you?

1592
01:27:48,040 --> 01:27:51,640
Speaker 4: Actually? Yeah, I just yeah, I was like not in

1593
01:27:51,720 --> 01:27:56,280
Speaker 4: a good shape when we broke up, and then now

1594
01:27:57,160 --> 01:28:00,600
Speaker 4: I'm in a better shape, Like I feel I like

1595
01:28:01,800 --> 01:28:04,559
Speaker 4: this version of me versus the version of me two

1596
01:28:04,600 --> 01:28:05,479
Speaker 4: and a half years ago.

1597
01:28:08,640 --> 01:28:11,080
Speaker 3: Wait, so was that was that? This is not the

1598
01:28:11,120 --> 01:28:12,960
Speaker 3: same woman that I met in Salt Lake City?

1599
01:28:13,880 --> 01:28:15,639
Speaker 4: No, No, that was my new girlfriend?

1600
01:28:15,960 --> 01:28:20,519
Speaker 3: Okay, okay, well yeah your ex girlfriend? Fucking she definitely

1601
01:28:21,840 --> 01:28:24,920
Speaker 3: she definitely sold low on that shack.

1602
01:28:26,280 --> 01:28:31,080
Speaker 4: Oh definitely. Yeah. Yeah. And then yeah she's still Yeah,

1603
01:28:31,080 --> 01:28:33,880
Speaker 4: she's still working a pretty bad job. So I'm kind

1604
01:28:33,880 --> 01:28:36,800
Speaker 4: of happy that I'm in a better place now than

1605
01:28:37,680 --> 01:28:38,320
Speaker 4: she is now.

1606
01:28:39,200 --> 01:28:41,600
Speaker 3: I don't believe you at all. I don't believe for

1607
01:28:41,640 --> 01:28:43,320
Speaker 3: a second. Then you know I don't, and you know

1608
01:28:43,320 --> 01:28:47,000
Speaker 3: what the thing is. I guess, Yeah, next, I guess

1609
01:28:47,040 --> 01:28:50,479
Speaker 3: on the next podcast. I'll have to mention at some

1610
01:28:50,640 --> 01:28:55,080
Speaker 3: point whether or not because I'm expecting you to send

1611
01:28:55,080 --> 01:28:56,160
Speaker 3: me these videos.

1612
01:28:56,800 --> 01:28:58,080
Speaker 4: Yeah, you're getting one tomorrow.

1613
01:28:59,080 --> 01:29:03,519
Speaker 3: Okay, all right, I mean I don't I yeah, okay,

1614
01:29:03,560 --> 01:29:08,440
Speaker 3: I'll try to remember to check the phone line.

1615
01:29:08,600 --> 01:29:10,280
Speaker 4: Yeah, I'll send it to your Instagram page.

1616
01:29:10,800 --> 01:29:12,599
Speaker 3: Okay, yeah, do that, I check that more.

1617
01:29:12,720 --> 01:29:20,480
Speaker 4: Okay, Yeah, I'll do that, all right, Matt.

1618
01:29:20,360 --> 01:29:21,439
Speaker 3: Is there anything else you want to say to the

1619
01:29:21,479 --> 01:29:22,519
Speaker 3: people of the computer before we go?

1620
01:29:24,160 --> 01:29:26,920
Speaker 4: Uh, pigeons aren't real.

1621
01:29:27,560 --> 01:29:29,599
Speaker 3: You're telling me I can eat a bare Bells protein

1622
01:29:29,680 --> 01:29:32,240
Speaker 3: bar and drink of Celsius every day for the rest

1623
01:29:32,240 --> 01:29:34,160
Speaker 3: of my life and it's not unhealthy.

1624
01:29:35,520 --> 01:29:36,800
Speaker 4: Yes, that's track.

1625
01:29:39,200 --> 01:29:43,599
Speaker 3: Please let me look you go ahead, go ahead, you look.

1626
01:29:43,960 --> 01:29:46,240
Speaker 4: You look better now than you did when I first

1627
01:29:46,280 --> 01:29:49,519
Speaker 4: started watching you. So well, you're doing something good in

1628
01:29:49,560 --> 01:29:49,920
Speaker 4: your life.

1629
01:29:50,120 --> 01:29:53,320
Speaker 3: Well hold on, Well, I I lost weight and I'm

1630
01:29:53,320 --> 01:29:56,080
Speaker 3: continuing to lose well, I'm I'm I fell off a

1631
01:29:56,120 --> 01:29:57,800
Speaker 3: lot of my habits, but I did lose weight. But

1632
01:29:58,920 --> 01:30:02,280
Speaker 3: even though I lost weight, I don't know if that's

1633
01:30:02,360 --> 01:30:05,479
Speaker 3: I don't know if losing weight is the same as

1634
01:30:06,280 --> 01:30:11,000
Speaker 3: being healthy because you can eat only twinkies for a

1635
01:30:11,160 --> 01:30:13,040
Speaker 3: month and you will lose weight.

1636
01:30:15,120 --> 01:30:20,759
Speaker 4: Yeah, no, there's there's so So the thing with weight

1637
01:30:20,840 --> 01:30:24,280
Speaker 4: loss is just like it's literally what you do on

1638
01:30:24,360 --> 01:30:30,200
Speaker 4: top of it. It's what's very beneficial for you. Like

1639
01:30:30,320 --> 01:30:32,960
Speaker 4: even if you don't think you you don't feel like

1640
01:30:33,280 --> 01:30:37,360
Speaker 4: you're progressing in your in your physical house right now,

1641
01:30:37,840 --> 01:30:41,560
Speaker 4: but like if everyone can notice that you like physically

1642
01:30:41,640 --> 01:30:45,040
Speaker 4: changed and you're doing something good about your your physical

1643
01:30:45,040 --> 01:30:46,080
Speaker 4: workout right now.

1644
01:30:48,200 --> 01:30:51,080
Speaker 3: I'm gonna I'm gonna only eat cosmic brownies for a month.

1645
01:30:51,479 --> 01:30:53,320
Speaker 3: Those are so you know how many fuck guess many

1646
01:30:53,320 --> 01:30:55,080
Speaker 3: fucking calories is in a cosmic brownie?

1647
01:30:55,120 --> 01:30:55,439
Speaker 1: Dude?

1648
01:30:56,840 --> 01:30:59,599
Speaker 4: Uh isn't it like uh like fifteen hundred?

1649
01:31:00,040 --> 01:31:03,400
Speaker 3: It's like five fifteen hundred. That's crazy? Is what is

1650
01:31:03,479 --> 01:31:06,320
Speaker 3: up with you and your numbers? You have aut landish?

1651
01:31:06,320 --> 01:31:10,000
Speaker 4: No, no, no, I just my my brain is full

1652
01:31:10,040 --> 01:31:15,240
Speaker 4: of like useless sacks. So it's just like it's yeah, yeah,

1653
01:31:15,439 --> 01:31:18,280
Speaker 4: I'm crazy like that with numbers.

1654
01:31:17,479 --> 01:31:20,920
Speaker 3: Five hundred and ten, Dude. Five isn't that fucking bullshit?

1655
01:31:21,640 --> 01:31:25,880
Speaker 3: Five hundred and ten calories for a for for for

1656
01:31:26,560 --> 01:31:30,040
Speaker 3: you know, ten seconds of joy?

1657
01:31:30,479 --> 01:31:34,479
Speaker 4: Man, you eat it that quick? That's crazy.

1658
01:31:34,720 --> 01:31:37,320
Speaker 3: I've never tied myself. But all right, I'll tell you what.

1659
01:31:37,439 --> 01:31:40,120
Speaker 3: You send me a picture of you doing a five

1660
01:31:40,200 --> 01:31:42,000
Speaker 3: hundred and forty pounds squat in a two hundred and

1661
01:31:42,040 --> 01:31:43,720
Speaker 3: fifty pound bench, and I'll send you a video of

1662
01:31:43,800 --> 01:31:51,160
Speaker 3: me eating a five hundred and ten calorie cosmic brownie. Deal, Matt,

1663
01:31:51,240 --> 01:31:52,240
Speaker 3: is there anything else you want to say to the

1664
01:31:52,240 --> 01:31:53,360
Speaker 3: people the computer before we go?

1665
01:31:56,640 --> 01:32:01,960
Speaker 4: Be kind? H justick care of yourself and I'm glad

1666
01:32:01,960 --> 01:32:03,280
Speaker 4: you're doing better now.

1667
01:32:05,000 --> 01:32:08,880
Speaker 3: Thank you, man, Good luck, God bless you your beautiful soul.

1668
01:32:09,800 --> 01:32:12,639
Speaker 3: I'm around this. I'll see you around the universe. God,

1669
01:32:12,760 --> 01:32:16,880
Speaker 3: good there's I'm you. Hold on, I'm gonna keep you. Okay.

1670
01:32:18,360 --> 01:32:21,120
Speaker 3: First of all, First of all, first of all, I

1671
01:32:21,160 --> 01:32:23,280
Speaker 3: didn't mean. First of all, whenever I say God bless

1672
01:32:23,280 --> 01:32:28,479
Speaker 3: you to someone, I don't mean like the Christian God. Okay,

1673
01:32:29,720 --> 01:32:32,920
Speaker 3: even if I did, that's an asshole thing to say

1674
01:32:33,160 --> 01:32:36,040
Speaker 3: to someone when they say God bless you. It's an

1675
01:32:36,120 --> 01:32:39,320
Speaker 3: asshole thing to say to someone when they say God

1676
01:32:39,360 --> 01:32:42,800
Speaker 3: bless you. I don't believe it because when someone says God,

1677
01:32:42,840 --> 01:32:45,280
Speaker 3: bless you. They're trying to be nice, They're trying to

1678
01:32:45,320 --> 01:32:47,160
Speaker 3: they just they really just mean have a good day.

1679
01:32:47,240 --> 01:32:49,320
Speaker 3: And then when you say I don't believe in God,

1680
01:32:50,000 --> 01:32:52,760
Speaker 3: you kind of be an asshole. But I also I

1681
01:32:52,760 --> 01:32:56,000
Speaker 3: don't really, I don't mean, I don't know. I don't

1682
01:32:56,320 --> 01:32:58,080
Speaker 3: I don't believe in God. I don't believe in like

1683
01:32:58,160 --> 01:33:01,080
Speaker 3: Christian God either. I believe in like higher power ship.

1684
01:33:01,479 --> 01:33:04,800
Speaker 3: I think you can mar yeah, yeah, but like that's

1685
01:33:04,840 --> 01:33:08,680
Speaker 3: what God. Yeah, but but but that's what God means,

1686
01:33:09,280 --> 01:33:11,760
Speaker 3: you know, it just means higher power. It doesn't necessarily

1687
01:33:11,760 --> 01:33:14,760
Speaker 3: mean like the God that you grew up with when

1688
01:33:14,760 --> 01:33:17,920
Speaker 3: you were going to church and ship. You know. Yeah,

1689
01:33:18,320 --> 01:33:22,960
Speaker 3: so what so may the higher may, whatever controls the

1690
01:33:23,000 --> 01:33:27,880
Speaker 3: flow of the universe be that, even not a higher power,

1691
01:33:27,920 --> 01:33:30,960
Speaker 3: be that even you. May whatever that force is, even

1692
01:33:30,960 --> 01:33:32,960
Speaker 3: if that force is literally you and your brain and

1693
01:33:33,000 --> 01:33:38,840
Speaker 3: your actions, you being God, May God bless you, May

1694
01:33:38,920 --> 01:33:41,000
Speaker 3: you bless you? You know what I mean?

1695
01:33:42,120 --> 01:33:44,040
Speaker 4: Well, is this what it feels like being blessed by

1696
01:33:44,040 --> 01:33:49,719
Speaker 4: the gekker right now? Do you believe I do believe

1697
01:33:49,760 --> 01:33:50,160
Speaker 4: in the Gecko?

1698
01:33:53,640 --> 01:33:57,120
Speaker 3: I just that because I've been saying God bless you

1699
01:33:57,160 --> 01:33:59,640
Speaker 3: to people, and I don't know why, but that's what

1700
01:33:59,680 --> 01:34:02,160
Speaker 3: I mean when I say it, I think when it

1701
01:34:02,160 --> 01:34:02,720
Speaker 3: comes out of my.

1702
01:34:03,320 --> 01:34:05,479
Speaker 4: Ask you about that. I've always wanted to ask you

1703
01:34:05,520 --> 01:34:07,920
Speaker 4: about that. It's just like, I don't know if he's

1704
01:34:08,000 --> 01:34:10,880
Speaker 4: like real because I know you're Jewish. So it's just like.

1705
01:34:11,640 --> 01:34:15,960
Speaker 3: I grew up I culturally, I grew up culturally Jewish,

1706
01:34:15,960 --> 01:34:18,720
Speaker 3: but I don't like, I don't like, I don't know

1707
01:34:18,720 --> 01:34:20,720
Speaker 3: what the toll rest. I don't even think, but I

1708
01:34:20,760 --> 01:34:25,440
Speaker 3: don't think most Jews know what like it doesn't Judaism

1709
01:34:25,479 --> 01:34:30,880
Speaker 3: has no effect on my spiritual views of life in

1710
01:34:30,920 --> 01:34:34,000
Speaker 3: the universe. It's just you know, I like, I like

1711
01:34:34,880 --> 01:34:35,679
Speaker 3: eating matza.

1712
01:34:38,120 --> 01:34:39,679
Speaker 4: I haven't had matsa in a long time.

1713
01:34:41,560 --> 01:34:45,000
Speaker 3: But no, I don't mean like a Christian. I don't

1714
01:34:45,000 --> 01:34:47,120
Speaker 3: mean like a Christian. I don't mean like a Christian

1715
01:34:47,720 --> 01:34:51,640
Speaker 3: made Jesus Christ as we understand that to be. You know,

1716
01:34:51,800 --> 01:34:57,679
Speaker 3: it just means, you know, whatever I guess I explained it. Well,

1717
01:34:57,720 --> 01:35:00,000
Speaker 3: it's just a higher power. That's not even when I

1718
01:35:00,120 --> 01:35:01,639
Speaker 3: you know what, you know what it really is. Actually

1719
01:35:01,680 --> 01:35:03,519
Speaker 3: it's not even any of that stuff. It's just you

1720
01:35:03,560 --> 01:35:08,720
Speaker 3: know what it really is. I just needed something to say. Oh,

1721
01:35:08,760 --> 01:35:11,080
Speaker 3: that's what it really is. It just means by it

1722
01:35:11,360 --> 01:35:14,960
Speaker 3: just it just makes It's just words. It means nothing.

1723
01:35:15,120 --> 01:35:16,960
Speaker 3: It doesn't even mean any of the stuff I said

1724
01:35:17,000 --> 01:35:21,559
Speaker 3: about you being God. It's just saying more words because

1725
01:35:22,680 --> 01:35:25,240
Speaker 3: we're in a conversation, and when you're in a conversation,

1726
01:35:25,320 --> 01:35:27,880
Speaker 3: you have to say words for there to be a conversation.

1727
01:35:28,280 --> 01:35:30,040
Speaker 3: That's what it means when I say cared bless you.

1728
01:35:31,040 --> 01:35:32,800
Speaker 4: So yeah, if you put down a T shirt, I'd

1729
01:35:32,840 --> 01:35:33,559
Speaker 4: totally buy it.

1730
01:35:34,640 --> 01:35:37,720
Speaker 3: Matt God bless you. Send me that video of you

1731
01:35:38,720 --> 01:35:43,920
Speaker 3: lifting one hundred and whatever pounds and I may never

1732
01:35:44,000 --> 01:35:46,439
Speaker 3: talk to you ever again. But if that is the case,

1733
01:35:46,479 --> 01:35:48,599
Speaker 3: I enjoyed the period of time that we did get

1734
01:35:48,600 --> 01:35:48,960
Speaker 3: to talk.

1735
01:35:50,120 --> 01:35:55,920
Speaker 4: I I I concur have a good name Matte that.

1736
01:35:56,200 --> 01:35:58,280
Speaker 3: I liked Matt, that was cool. I liked everyone we

1737
01:35:58,320 --> 01:36:02,280
Speaker 3: talked to today. What a great episode of the podcast.

1738
01:36:02,920 --> 01:36:04,640
Speaker 3: Thank you to everyone who listens to this. This is

1739
01:36:04,640 --> 01:36:08,160
Speaker 3: a fun episode of the podcast. Sometimes sometimes we just

1740
01:36:08,200 --> 01:36:10,599
Speaker 3: do an episode and I'm like, wow, I felt great.

1741
01:36:11,640 --> 01:36:14,639
Speaker 3: The correlation is always it's always about how much caffeine

1742
01:36:14,640 --> 01:36:19,200
Speaker 3: I induce I ingested before recording. It makes me feel

1743
01:36:19,240 --> 01:36:24,240
Speaker 3: like myself, like chemically. I know it's not. It feels

1744
01:36:24,280 --> 01:36:27,320
Speaker 3: weird to like need a substance to be yourself, but

1745
01:36:27,400 --> 01:36:32,280
Speaker 3: I really do feel like myself. I felt I loved

1746
01:36:32,360 --> 01:36:35,840
Speaker 3: the version of myself that I was for the entire

1747
01:36:35,960 --> 01:36:40,200
Speaker 3: duration of this episode. And the reason for that is

1748
01:36:40,240 --> 01:36:42,960
Speaker 3: because I drank a diet Mountain Dew, which has ninety

1749
01:36:43,000 --> 01:36:46,800
Speaker 3: one milligrams of caffeine. I could keep talking. Sometimes by

1750
01:36:46,800 --> 01:36:49,760
Speaker 3: the end of doing this, like I'm exhausted and I

1751
01:36:49,880 --> 01:36:52,400
Speaker 3: lie on the floor. But today I'm like, I could

1752
01:36:52,479 --> 01:36:59,320
Speaker 3: just keep talking. I feel good. This was nice. I'm

1753
01:36:59,320 --> 01:37:01,639
Speaker 3: gonna cut my line. I'm gonna. I'm gonna. I'm gonna

1754
01:37:01,680 --> 01:37:04,040
Speaker 3: quit while we're hot. Thank you for listening to the

1755
01:37:04,040 --> 01:37:08,120
Speaker 3: Therapy Echo podcast. I really mean it. I'm honored. Thanks

1756
01:37:08,200 --> 01:37:11,880
Speaker 3: for sitting through the ads or skipping through them. Thanks

1757
01:37:11,880 --> 01:37:18,640
Speaker 3: for dealing with it, Thanks for listening, Thanks for commenting.

1758
01:37:18,680 --> 01:37:20,800
Speaker 3: If you comment, I read all the Spotify and the

1759
01:37:20,800 --> 01:37:26,519
Speaker 3: YouTube comments because I'm crazy. This was nice, this was good.

1760
01:37:26,560 --> 01:37:30,080
Speaker 3: I enjoyed doing this. This was this was this was

1761
01:37:30,160 --> 01:37:35,120
Speaker 3: this felt fun to do, and I felt honored to

1762
01:37:35,120 --> 01:37:38,200
Speaker 3: be able to do it today. So thank you for listening.

1763
01:37:39,080 --> 01:37:41,519
Speaker 3: I'm gonna go calm down. I need to calm down.

1764
01:37:41,520 --> 01:37:46,719
Speaker 3: I'm gonna go calm down. God bless you. I guess

1765
01:37:46,720 --> 01:37:49,599
Speaker 3: whatever the fuck I mean when I say that, I'm glad.

1766
01:37:49,600 --> 01:37:53,960
Speaker 3: I got to clear that up. And uh, I'm gonna

1767
01:37:53,960 --> 01:37:56,120
Speaker 3: go eat something. I'm gonna go. I'm gonna go eat

1768
01:37:56,120 --> 01:38:00,240
Speaker 3: a fucking sandwich and watch TV and feel honored. I'm

1769
01:38:00,280 --> 01:38:02,960
Speaker 3: gonna go eat a sandwich and watch a YouTube video

1770
01:38:04,240 --> 01:38:08,960
Speaker 3: about Luigi and about like ten Luigi facts or whatever

1771
01:38:09,040 --> 01:38:11,760
Speaker 3: the fuck, and I'm gonna feel honored that I get

1772
01:38:11,800 --> 01:38:20,360
Speaker 3: to live today to do that, all right. Gecko out

1773
01:38:20,360 --> 01:38:23,519
Speaker 3: goes on the line taking your phone calls every night.

1774
01:38:23,920 --> 01:38:25,840
Speaker 5: Never Beacon goes to his ride.

1775
01:38:25,920 --> 01:38:26,600
Speaker 1: He's teaching you

1776
01:38:26,600 --> 01:38:29,120
Speaker 2: A loud in them of your life, but he's not

1777
01:38:29,240 --> 01:38:30,640
Speaker 2: really an expert.