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Speaker 1: Let's continue now, Billy Cunningham, the Great America and one

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Speaker 1: of the great aspects of our human life, just the

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Speaker 1: mental side of things, which often dominates the physical side.

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Speaker 1: We spent disproportionate amounts of money on physicality, lack of resources,

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Speaker 1: of the persons whose lives have crossed with mine is

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Speaker 1: Brandon Sajo, who began in Cincinnati as a sportscaster. He

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Speaker 1: kind of filtered away a little bit. He worked here,

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Speaker 1: I use the term, resurface a few years later with

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Speaker 1: the Mental Game podcast headquartered in la and once again Brandon, soho,

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Speaker 1: welcome to the Bill Cunningham Show. And first of all,

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Speaker 1: Brandon described to the American people how our paths crossed.

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Speaker 1: At one point, many years ago.

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Speaker 2: I was a young cub at seven hundred doing the

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Speaker 1: And from that point you went to television, and then

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Speaker 1: after that something happened you worked at local television stations

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Speaker 1: here in Cincinnati. What happened? What was the break in

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Speaker 2: Yeah, I mean I had struggled with my mental health

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Speaker 2: Was, like I call it, it would numb the pain.

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Speaker 2: You know. I think you can joke. I love I

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Speaker 1: So you were in a dark, lonely place, no one

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Speaker 2: I mean that walks home almost every night to where

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Speaker 2: Why aren't you telling your story? And I said, well,

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Speaker 1: But for Lender Center, but for your mother, but for

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Speaker 2: And Channel five was amazing with their support my coworkers.

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