Speaker 1: All right, it is Mojo in the morning show. Phone
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Speaker 1: radio with us. We have a guy that works on
Speaker 1: our show. His name is Zach. He is the person
Speaker 1: that gets you all of our podcast plus any kind
Speaker 1: of audio that comes through your speakers that's not us,
Speaker 1: just individually speaking, Zach's responsible for. This guy is the best.
Speaker 1: He's the man that can do. We call him Big Zach,
Speaker 1: the Sultan of the Segues. Yeah, but he's also honestly
Speaker 1: one of the sweetest, most sensitive guys I've ever met.
Speaker 2: I love this kid like he's my son.
Speaker 1: And this is a really tough time for Zach right now,
Speaker 1: and he's gonna explain the reason why.
Speaker 2: Yeah, gonna try not to get too emotional. I think
Speaker 2: you guys noticed that I've been very not myself lately.
Speaker 2: I think it started back in November. But I'm I'm
Speaker 2: pretty depressed right now. And that's because I you know,
Speaker 2: around this time of year, I have anniversary dates, like
Speaker 2: death dates or you know, things that get brought up
Speaker 2: and makes me feel emotional. And what's coming up now
Speaker 2: is my mom's birthday is this week and it's great.
Speaker 2: I love celebrating her, but my mom did pass away
Speaker 2: when I was twelve, and it made me realize that
Speaker 2: it's now been eighteen years since my mom has been gone.
Speaker 2: This is the eighteenth year, and I don't I don't
Speaker 2: think I'm over it yet. And that's kind of why
Speaker 2: I wanted to talk to you guys. I mean, this
Speaker 2: is like my therapy, but I just I don't think
Speaker 2: it ever gets easier. You know that time does heal
Speaker 2: the wounds, It's just it comes in waves, and right
Speaker 2: now I'm like in that wave. Yeah, yeah, howidays is
Speaker 2: tough for you? Yea?
Speaker 3: What day is your mom's actual birthdays?
Speaker 2: After the fifteenth? So Thursday?
Speaker 3: Okay?
Speaker 2: Yeah? What was your mom's name? Debbie? Debbie? Yeah? And
Speaker 2: what do you.
Speaker 1: Remember the most about your mom?
Speaker 2: Her passion and and her like being like a prankster.
Speaker 3: Yeah yeah, so I've never really heard you talk about
Speaker 3: your mom.
Speaker 4: Yeah yeah, well, I mean like her personality.
Speaker 3: You mentioned your mom a lot, but I've never heard
Speaker 3: you Most of.
Speaker 2: My memories are her like sick in hospitals, you know.
Speaker 5: Tell me a story about your favorite memory with her
Speaker 5: ones and I liked it. You should tell it.
Speaker 2: I don't. I don't know if I remember what I
Speaker 2: told you, But I have a lot of She was
Speaker 2: very caring. She was a gift giver. She would find
Speaker 2: you know them little Pony that was limited edition for
Speaker 2: my sister, and she would get it, or she would
Speaker 2: get me, you know, wrestling action figures. And it's just
Speaker 2: I'm really missing her right now. What was some of
Speaker 2: like the pranks you used to So Halloween was her
Speaker 2: favorite holiday, So she would like put like grapes and
Speaker 2: she would skin them off and then put them in
Speaker 2: a bowl and then have kids, you know, and stuff.
Speaker 2: And that really gravitated towards me.
Speaker 3: Do you miss her?
Speaker 5: How?
Speaker 2: Like?
Speaker 3: What do you do?
Speaker 5: Do you?
Speaker 2: I get in this fune. No, No, I don't because
Speaker 2: I don't know. And maybe I need to embrace that more.
Speaker 2: But I don't have a lot of photos with her.
Speaker 2: I don't have any videos with her, you know. And
Speaker 2: it's just I get in this funk and I start
Speaker 2: thinking about things.
Speaker 5: And your sister talk about it.
Speaker 2: Yeah, And and we started talking about this last week
Speaker 2: and I think that's why I wanted to bring it
Speaker 2: up on air, because again I didn't realize that it
Speaker 2: was the eighteenth anniversary this year.
Speaker 1: Yeah, you mentioned earlier this morning when we were talking
Speaker 1: about the show and laying the show out and we
Speaker 1: were going to bring this up that for you, one
Speaker 1: of the hard parts was that you now have lived
Speaker 1: more life on this earth without her.
Speaker 2: Yeah. It h I've I've been an adult more than
Speaker 2: i've had my mom, and I don't even consider myself
Speaker 2: an adult. It's just, uh, you know, there's some things
Speaker 2: I wish. You know, I can talk to my sister
Speaker 2: about anything. You know, it's but sometimes she's just not
Speaker 2: your mom, you know, and I don't. It's not that
Speaker 2: I feel like I'm a burden, but I don't. You know,
Speaker 2: everyone has limited time.
Speaker 1: But it's not you know, I want you to not
Speaker 1: think of when you talk to all of us about this,
Speaker 1: like you're burdening us. Honestly, I'm thrilled to hear about
Speaker 1: your mom. I want to first off, I want to
Speaker 1: know who created and who molded this amazing guy.
Speaker 2: It never gets easier.
Speaker 1: I hate to say it, it really doesn't, but you
Speaker 1: know what, it's not supposed to, because if it was supposed.
Speaker 2: To, she wouldn't have been your mom.
Speaker 1: And that's the thing I think, Zach, that you have
Speaker 1: to you have to look at as use dates in
Speaker 1: these anniversaries. And it's tough to say this because I
Speaker 1: don't do it enough as times to celebrate them and
Speaker 1: not mourning them, because that's probably what she would want
Speaker 1: you to do. You know, you are an amazing guy.
Speaker 1: Like I will say this that there are not a
Speaker 1: lot of people that I think that there is one
Speaker 1: hundred percent affinity for in this world, Like there's you know,
Speaker 1: we live in such a polarizing thing. Either people love
Speaker 1: or you hate somebody. You are not just loved, you're bullloved.
Speaker 1: And I know your dad wasn't really a part of
Speaker 1: your life. Your mom's a reason why, and your sister,
Speaker 1: but your mom, and I think that's what a great
Speaker 1: celebration of her life, you know. And it sucks I
Speaker 1: every time he talks, I literally go okay, oh my god.
Speaker 1: I feel like he's literally me. I wish I had
Speaker 1: more pictures, I wish I had more videos.
Speaker 2: You know. My biggest mistake is I wish I got
Speaker 2: to say goodbye. Yeah and I think I think about
Speaker 2: that off more than anything, and I think that's what
Speaker 2: hurts the most because I'm like, man, if I just
Speaker 2: had that one closure moment or something, but and people
Speaker 2: don't get that, And I think I dwell on that.
Speaker 2: What were you when she died? So I was in
Speaker 2: the hospital. She was in her hospital, and they were
Speaker 2: planning on pulling the plug, and I knew that I
Speaker 2: couldn't see it. So I went in the gift shop
Speaker 2: and I bought a Webkins at the time, and I
Speaker 2: bought it for my cousin. And as soon as I
Speaker 2: got up, she was gone.
Speaker 3: And you were also twelve years old.
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, and I don't think she wanted me to
Speaker 2: yeah to see Yeah, at twelve, you would not have
Speaker 2: said what you would say now. But right now, if
Speaker 2: you had a chance to talk to her, mom, what
Speaker 2: would you what would you say to her? If I
Speaker 2: could talk to her now, I would ask her if
Speaker 2: she's proud of me? I guarantee she is.
Speaker 3: And you know, you can just talk, you can talk,
Speaker 3: You can talk to her.
Speaker 5: Are there any moments that you ever feel her presence,
Speaker 5: like when you're doing something or just since she's with you?
Speaker 2: You know, some people get those, and I envy that
Speaker 2: because some people are like, Oh, my mom came to
Speaker 2: me in my dreams, and I'm like, damn, dude, I
Speaker 2: want that, like at least once, like can you come, come,
Speaker 2: say hi or something. And I think it's just because
Speaker 2: my mind blocked out so much when I was younger
Speaker 2: that my mind is still doing that now. Like protecting
Speaker 2: me in a way doesn't mean I still yeah, I've
Speaker 2: never had that.
Speaker 1: Man, I feel her presence talking about her right now.
Speaker 1: I really do. I feel like her hair in this
Speaker 1: room with us. You know what a weird thing is.
Speaker 1: On a totally different note, next time you're masturbating knowing
Speaker 1: that your mother, I think about it sometimes going on
Speaker 1: to that my mom's saying to do this.
Speaker 2: J Just so you know, we have different New Year's resolutions,
Speaker 2: my man, Dave, what's going on?
Speaker 6: Hey Mojoe, Zach. I just want to say that, like
Speaker 6: I lost my mom in House five, it doesn't.
Speaker 2: Ever get easier.
Speaker 7: She had only cancer and died on Thanksgiving. One of
Speaker 7: the worst.
Speaker 6: Probably one of the worst things I had to go through.
Speaker 6: But things don't ever get easier if you have memories
Speaker 6: of her.
Speaker 2: Think about that, trying to think about.
Speaker 6: The positive things trying to think about. You know, everyone
Speaker 6: believes in something. I always pray to my mom.
Speaker 5: Yeah, I don't have any I guess advice and how
Speaker 5: to make things easier, because I don't think it ever
Speaker 5: will get easier.
Speaker 2: But you're an awesome dude, and I can promise you
Speaker 2: that she's proud of you, appreciated the man.
Speaker 1: Wouldn't be wild to think that our moms are and
Speaker 1: I would like to think that this is what happens,
Speaker 1: like Dave's mom and my mom and your mom and
Speaker 1: just all our grandparents that have passed are all just listening, going,
Speaker 1: why did Mojo just say that about Master?
Speaker 2: What's what's up? Jessica?
Speaker 7: So I just wanted to say that, first of all,
Speaker 7: when you lose someone like that, especially your mother, like
Speaker 7: you're literally learning to do life without the person who
Speaker 7: gave it to you. So it's never the same, it's
Speaker 7: just different.
Speaker 8: My mum's been gone about five years and this year
Speaker 8: is her sixtieth birthday on Monday, and one of the
Speaker 8: things that I decided to do.
Speaker 2: Was rewrite her obituary.
Speaker 8: Because I always read it and I go, this isn't enough,
Speaker 8: Like there was still so much more to be said,
Speaker 8: And I think one of the things that we can
Speaker 8: always do is exactly what you're doing now is continue
Speaker 8: to talk about it, continue to tell her story, continue
Speaker 8: to keep those memories and things of her alive. And
Speaker 8: I was like, even if you know, only a handful
Speaker 8: of our friends and family read it, at least people
Speaker 8: can remember still who she.
Speaker 3: Is and who she was.
Speaker 4: That's actually a really good and interesting thing, Zach. Do
Speaker 4: you are there other family members that you could talk
Speaker 4: to to get Because you were only twelve, there's probably
Speaker 4: so much about your mom that you don't even know.
Speaker 4: Maybe like that's that would be a therapeutic thing for
Speaker 4: you to learn a little bit more about your mom
Speaker 4: and her personality and what she was like in more
Speaker 4: stories that you.
Speaker 2: Sure you know, Yeah, I've had these these waves before.
Speaker 2: When I turned twenty one, I got to talk to
Speaker 2: my you know aunts, and yeah, before my grandma died,
Speaker 2: I got to talk to her. But you know, it's
Speaker 2: just still one of those things. Yeah, you know, hey, Medina,
Speaker 2: what's happening?
Speaker 3: Okay?
Speaker 6: I understand completely. Was that just going through And the
Speaker 6: only thing, actually, the only advice I can give you
Speaker 6: is to embrace all of the good memories. This year,
Speaker 6: I absolutely despised the holidays because I lost my mom.
Speaker 6: But this year, almost twelve years later, I literally embraced
Speaker 6: the s out of Christ. My house was grin, shout
Speaker 6: and everything, and I was determined to have a good
Speaker 6: holiday because I have not had a good holiday in
Speaker 6: about fifteen years. And I made all of that every
Speaker 6: Christmas movie that she forced me to watch, I watched
Speaker 6: it everything that she wanted to do on her birthday previously.
Speaker 6: I did it just because sometimes and some of those
Speaker 6: things I did alone, but I needed that alone time
Speaker 6: as well. And embrace all of those feelings that like
Speaker 6: you are allowed to feel things. And I'm so upset
Speaker 6: because I'm crying and it's Monday morning. A great topic.
Speaker 6: This is a great topic because I feel like we
Speaker 6: don't talk about lost no, no, but yeah, just just
Speaker 6: embrace it and just hold up to those great memories.
Speaker 6: And for sure, one hundred percent, she is extremely proud
Speaker 6: of you, extremely proud of you.
Speaker 1: Again, if they weren't so great, it wouldn't hurt as
Speaker 1: much as it hurts.
Speaker 6: Exactly the exact thing. And we are all praying for
Speaker 6: you that I really hope that you can can embrace
Speaker 6: that and come out of this month because people who
Speaker 6: have lost Charence, we all know what that punk is.
Speaker 2: I really appreciate you, and I want you to know
Speaker 2: that I'm proud of you.
Speaker 6: Well try more, Okay, good morning to say something about.
Speaker 1: I love that you brought this up on the air,
Speaker 1: because I think that we need to bring your.
Speaker 2: Mom up more often. For sure, I really do.
Speaker 1: And I think, honestly it's one of those things. You
Speaker 1: guys got a chance this past year to kind of
Speaker 1: see more of my family with everything that we had.
Speaker 1: I know, I've met your sister and gotten a chance
Speaker 1: to see what she's like. I think sometimes you don't
Speaker 1: understand how being around people that know who you are
Speaker 1: when you had your innocence and stuff like that, You're
Speaker 1: being a child and stuff. And I will say this,
Speaker 1: I know for a fact this because I lived it.
Speaker 1: You did not live a normal childhood, you know what
Speaker 1: I mean. You lived probably in the fear that your
Speaker 1: mom was going to die at any moment all the time.
Speaker 1: And that's the hardest thing to live with, you know
Speaker 1: what I mean. And that's why I sit there and
Speaker 1: I think to myself, with you, there is one of
Speaker 1: those things where your mom you didn't get to say
Speaker 1: goodbye to, but you all through the years, we're saying
Speaker 1: goodbye to her, you know. And I wouldn't hold that
Speaker 1: too hard to and you can talk to her now,
Speaker 1: for God's sake, you know what I mean. So I
Speaker 1: appreciate you, and thanks for giving me this time. Well
Speaker 1: you went over by about tour and a half minutes.
Speaker 1: I'm not the guy controlling.
Speaker 2: How much do we love this guy? I love you guys.
Speaker 5: Blowing up my phone right now saying I love sex
Speaker 5: so much.
Speaker 2: Tell her I love her. I hope you get laid
Speaker 2: off of this topic. That's not the poor any girls
Speaker 2: out there.
Speaker 1: That are literally single and want to just really make
Speaker 1: a man feel good.
Speaker 2: Jesus, but my phone number is seven