1 00:00:00,000 --> 00:00:02,000 Speaker 1: All right, we're rolling. Hi everybody, justin here. It's the 2 00:00:02,040 --> 00:00:05,680 Speaker 1: After Show Podcast. It's a Thursday, October thirtieth, the day 3 00:00:05,680 --> 00:00:08,840 Speaker 1: before Halloween. Thank you for listening, For taking time out 4 00:00:08,880 --> 00:00:11,520 Speaker 1: of your day to listen to this podcast. I appreciate 5 00:00:11,560 --> 00:00:14,520 Speaker 1: it so much. I don't have a guest today, It's 6 00:00:14,560 --> 00:00:16,440 Speaker 1: just me, but I'm gonna do my best to check in, 7 00:00:16,720 --> 00:00:18,800 Speaker 1: even for just a couple of minutes, just to let 8 00:00:18,880 --> 00:00:21,279 Speaker 1: you know what's going on. You maybe play some talkbacks 9 00:00:21,280 --> 00:00:23,680 Speaker 1: and check in with the After Show Army and see 10 00:00:23,720 --> 00:00:26,840 Speaker 1: what's going on. Yesterday's podcast with Actually, I thought went 11 00:00:26,960 --> 00:00:29,800 Speaker 1: really really good. I only asked her for like five 12 00:00:29,880 --> 00:00:31,880 Speaker 1: or ten minutes. I think we did twenty minutes, and 13 00:00:32,320 --> 00:00:34,519 Speaker 1: we could have done much longer. Actually is a really 14 00:00:34,560 --> 00:00:36,400 Speaker 1: close friend of mine. We've been through a lot together 15 00:00:36,400 --> 00:00:39,080 Speaker 1: in our radio careers, and obviously she works right down 16 00:00:39,080 --> 00:00:40,559 Speaker 1: the hall and we have kids in the same age 17 00:00:40,600 --> 00:00:43,360 Speaker 1: and stuff. So she's a real gem. So hopefully we'll 18 00:00:43,360 --> 00:00:46,879 Speaker 1: have her back on. But on Monday, we're gonna have Santy, 19 00:00:47,159 --> 00:00:50,280 Speaker 1: her co host on who hired me in radio? So 20 00:00:50,280 --> 00:00:52,560 Speaker 1: we're gonna tell that whole story and his whole journey 21 00:00:52,600 --> 00:00:55,600 Speaker 1: through radio has been absolutely insane, but he's someone that 22 00:00:55,680 --> 00:00:57,600 Speaker 1: I look up to. So if you have any questions 23 00:00:57,680 --> 00:01:00,440 Speaker 1: or anything for Santy, you can leave a talkback. That'll 24 00:01:00,480 --> 00:01:05,039 Speaker 1: be on Monday Tomorrow, Halloween. And it depends on how crazy 25 00:01:05,080 --> 00:01:07,120 Speaker 1: I am. I might check in. I might not, But 26 00:01:07,280 --> 00:01:09,679 Speaker 1: you guys can check in on the talkbacks, which, by 27 00:01:09,680 --> 00:01:11,200 Speaker 1: the way, you leave it on the iHeart app. You 28 00:01:11,200 --> 00:01:13,360 Speaker 1: can leave them anytime. If you listen to this podcast, 29 00:01:13,400 --> 00:01:15,280 Speaker 1: like at ten o'clock at night, you can leave the 30 00:01:15,319 --> 00:01:17,840 Speaker 1: talk back then just boom, hit the button and you're in. 31 00:01:17,959 --> 00:01:21,560 Speaker 2: Hi. Justin longtime listener Michelle here. Sorry to hear you've 32 00:01:21,600 --> 00:01:25,400 Speaker 2: been catching flack and hate from some of the talkbackers. 33 00:01:25,440 --> 00:01:29,360 Speaker 2: That's not necessary. I do miss Winnie. I was wondering 34 00:01:29,480 --> 00:01:32,480 Speaker 2: if Winnie could ever be a guest on the after 35 00:01:32,560 --> 00:01:34,920 Speaker 2: show podcast. What do you think? 36 00:01:35,080 --> 00:01:36,880 Speaker 1: That's a great question and one that I'm asked all 37 00:01:36,920 --> 00:01:39,959 Speaker 1: the time. My answer to that would be yeah, eventually. 38 00:01:40,240 --> 00:01:42,600 Speaker 1: I think right now it's like too soon. But we 39 00:01:42,640 --> 00:01:45,679 Speaker 1: had bes on. Now Beck's left and she went to 40 00:01:45,680 --> 00:01:48,560 Speaker 1: Philadelphia and we had her on. We've had Gandhi on, 41 00:01:49,120 --> 00:01:50,720 Speaker 1: so I mean gone. He didn't get laid off. She's 42 00:01:50,720 --> 00:01:53,960 Speaker 1: in New York neither did Bes though Becks went to Philly, 43 00:01:53,960 --> 00:01:57,200 Speaker 1: but then Beck's actually got laid off from Philly in 44 00:01:57,240 --> 00:02:01,320 Speaker 1: the cuts last year. At this time, I think once 45 00:02:01,360 --> 00:02:03,720 Speaker 1: the dust settles and plus, I mean, I don't know, 46 00:02:03,800 --> 00:02:05,160 Speaker 1: I haven't asked twenty I talked to her the other 47 00:02:05,200 --> 00:02:08,320 Speaker 1: day before she left it for Dominican Republic, and I'm 48 00:02:08,320 --> 00:02:10,480 Speaker 1: sure she'd be like, yeah, I will, but I mean, 49 00:02:11,040 --> 00:02:12,960 Speaker 1: I love you, but the company just laid me off. 50 00:02:13,000 --> 00:02:14,799 Speaker 1: Now you want me to come on and support she'd 51 00:02:14,800 --> 00:02:17,519 Speaker 1: say something like fresh like that. I know, but down 52 00:02:17,560 --> 00:02:19,679 Speaker 1: the line, I'm sure. I'm sure it'd be fine. She'll 53 00:02:19,680 --> 00:02:22,160 Speaker 1: probably ask for money to do so, knowing whinny, but 54 00:02:22,200 --> 00:02:24,240 Speaker 1: she is in the DR. I talked to her before 55 00:02:24,280 --> 00:02:27,040 Speaker 1: she left, and uh, I don't know. She seems happy, 56 00:02:27,120 --> 00:02:29,800 Speaker 1: she seems okay. She's doing the social media influencing thing, 57 00:02:29,880 --> 00:02:31,880 Speaker 1: which she loves to do. I'm sure. I think she 58 00:02:31,960 --> 00:02:34,760 Speaker 1: is looking for a job and hopefully she lands somewhere 59 00:02:34,760 --> 00:02:36,800 Speaker 1: good and she'll be just fine. I've said this a 60 00:02:36,840 --> 00:02:40,160 Speaker 1: million times, like that girl loves money, she loves hustling, 61 00:02:40,240 --> 00:02:42,520 Speaker 1: she loves making money, and she is going to do so. 62 00:02:43,000 --> 00:02:44,840 Speaker 1: And she made it to the top she made it 63 00:02:44,840 --> 00:02:46,840 Speaker 1: to kiss one O eight and from the people that like, 64 00:02:46,919 --> 00:02:50,160 Speaker 1: you know, give me flak, that has died down for sure. 65 00:02:50,280 --> 00:02:53,600 Speaker 1: I mean some people still they hate listen. So what 66 00:02:53,639 --> 00:02:57,760 Speaker 1: that means is two things. One they hate listen and 67 00:02:57,800 --> 00:03:00,320 Speaker 1: then they leave talkbacks during the show while listen listening 68 00:03:00,320 --> 00:03:04,240 Speaker 1: to the show talking shit about the show. Right, So like, 69 00:03:04,440 --> 00:03:07,359 Speaker 1: while this show is awful, remember you left Matty, you 70 00:03:08,840 --> 00:03:11,240 Speaker 1: you let Winnie go, and now you have this piece 71 00:03:11,240 --> 00:03:14,600 Speaker 1: of shit show things like that, which is whatever. But 72 00:03:14,639 --> 00:03:17,240 Speaker 1: the other part of that is, this is the best 73 00:03:17,240 --> 00:03:21,799 Speaker 1: part is multiple of those people. That means more than one. 74 00:03:21,840 --> 00:03:23,600 Speaker 1: I don't know how many, but definitely more than one. 75 00:03:23,680 --> 00:03:26,680 Speaker 1: At least a few of the people that hate listen 76 00:03:26,760 --> 00:03:31,160 Speaker 1: and leave those talkbacks are the same people that were 77 00:03:31,200 --> 00:03:33,880 Speaker 1: complaining and doing it when Maddy left. So they were 78 00:03:33,880 --> 00:03:36,200 Speaker 1: hate listening when Maddy left because they were angry at 79 00:03:36,320 --> 00:03:39,360 Speaker 1: us over Maddie, and then now that when he's gone, 80 00:03:39,400 --> 00:03:41,560 Speaker 1: they're doing the same thing. So I don't know, some 81 00:03:41,600 --> 00:03:44,360 Speaker 1: people just like to complain. I don't know what it is, 82 00:03:44,440 --> 00:03:46,440 Speaker 1: you know, but for sure a lot of people have 83 00:03:46,600 --> 00:03:50,160 Speaker 1: kind of died down in either maybe some don't listen anymore, 84 00:03:50,160 --> 00:03:52,520 Speaker 1: which I understand. I mean, it sucks, but I understand 85 00:03:52,520 --> 00:03:56,600 Speaker 1: the show is different. So I don't need anybody to 86 00:03:56,760 --> 00:03:59,120 Speaker 1: leave a talk back and tell me that, because you 87 00:03:59,120 --> 00:04:02,120 Speaker 1: have to remember this. Nobody sees the talkbacks but me. 88 00:04:02,600 --> 00:04:05,000 Speaker 1: I choose what Billy and Lisa see. They don't have 89 00:04:05,040 --> 00:04:07,440 Speaker 1: a computer that goes to They only go to me. 90 00:04:07,720 --> 00:04:10,440 Speaker 1: So you're only complaining to me. My boss isn't gonna 91 00:04:10,440 --> 00:04:12,640 Speaker 1: see or hear it. Billy and Lisa aren't gonna hear it. 92 00:04:13,080 --> 00:04:15,520 Speaker 1: Nobody is gonna hear it but me. So I take 93 00:04:15,560 --> 00:04:17,760 Speaker 1: the brunt of it. That's why it was affecting me 94 00:04:17,880 --> 00:04:21,479 Speaker 1: so much. But to like, you know, look, I know 95 00:04:21,560 --> 00:04:26,320 Speaker 1: the show is different. Whether it's as good, worse, better whatever, 96 00:04:26,360 --> 00:04:27,960 Speaker 1: I mean, it depends on who you ask. I think 97 00:04:28,000 --> 00:04:30,000 Speaker 1: we're just trying to put the best show out there, 98 00:04:30,440 --> 00:04:33,720 Speaker 1: you know. But it is sad. It's sad because we'll 99 00:04:33,760 --> 00:04:37,720 Speaker 1: do segments. I'll say the Jonahs brothers for example, Billy 100 00:04:37,720 --> 00:04:42,000 Speaker 1: headed Jonah's brothers story. Okay, got to talk a couple 101 00:04:42,000 --> 00:04:43,640 Speaker 1: of talkbacks saying, you know, when he would have been 102 00:04:43,640 --> 00:04:46,920 Speaker 1: great on this story, and you know what, you're right, 103 00:04:47,200 --> 00:04:50,279 Speaker 1: And I have that thought too. On certain segments, certain 104 00:04:50,320 --> 00:04:53,880 Speaker 1: stories like maybe about waitressing, right, because when he was 105 00:04:53,920 --> 00:04:56,240 Speaker 1: a waitress, she could chime in on that and she's 106 00:04:56,240 --> 00:04:59,200 Speaker 1: not here to do so, so that is that is sad. 107 00:04:59,240 --> 00:05:04,080 Speaker 3: You know, longtime fan and listener of you guys, it 108 00:05:04,160 --> 00:05:06,600 Speaker 3: was just a shock. I'm sure you've heard this. You 109 00:05:06,640 --> 00:05:10,240 Speaker 3: guys were in super shock. So we were in a 110 00:05:10,240 --> 00:05:14,640 Speaker 3: lot of shock as well and trying to adjust to 111 00:05:15,480 --> 00:05:18,760 Speaker 3: one of our friends being let go, but then wanting 112 00:05:18,800 --> 00:05:22,720 Speaker 3: to hear the rest of you obviously getting your groove 113 00:05:22,800 --> 00:05:26,560 Speaker 3: together and seeing what's next for the show. So we 114 00:05:26,640 --> 00:05:28,360 Speaker 3: love you hand tight. You guys are good. 115 00:05:28,480 --> 00:05:31,520 Speaker 1: Yeah, that's that's the hardest part, right. I understand the 116 00:05:31,560 --> 00:05:34,800 Speaker 1: people listening that are upset. You know, you lost a friend, okay, 117 00:05:34,800 --> 00:05:36,559 Speaker 1: and then you're listening to the show and the rest 118 00:05:36,600 --> 00:05:40,000 Speaker 1: of the circle of your friends are having fun like 119 00:05:40,080 --> 00:05:43,080 Speaker 1: nothing happened. That's what it seems like. It's just the 120 00:05:43,160 --> 00:05:45,280 Speaker 1: nature of the business man, Like we do the show, 121 00:05:45,360 --> 00:05:48,239 Speaker 1: the show continues like we're all contracted employees. They didn't 122 00:05:48,240 --> 00:05:50,000 Speaker 1: come to us and say we're going to do this. 123 00:05:50,160 --> 00:05:52,920 Speaker 1: They just did it. And then you know, when I 124 00:05:52,960 --> 00:05:54,920 Speaker 1: was I remember said to my boss something like, you know, 125 00:05:55,320 --> 00:05:58,839 Speaker 1: is this necessary? Like we're doing just fine. I don't understand, 126 00:05:59,320 --> 00:06:01,680 Speaker 1: and they're like, yeah, it's done, like it's over. There's 127 00:06:01,760 --> 00:06:05,719 Speaker 1: no there's no like Billy Costa going like please, please please. 128 00:06:05,920 --> 00:06:07,719 Speaker 1: And then for the people that say, can Billy pay her, 129 00:06:07,800 --> 00:06:10,080 Speaker 1: that's not just not how it works, Like there's legal 130 00:06:10,120 --> 00:06:13,800 Speaker 1: things there. Billy's contracted. I'm contracted. It's just the way 131 00:06:13,800 --> 00:06:17,000 Speaker 1: it is, CBS. I think Morning's just had a big 132 00:06:17,080 --> 00:06:19,320 Speaker 1: layoff the other day. It sucks men, It's just the 133 00:06:19,320 --> 00:06:21,640 Speaker 1: way of the world. So you know, we're just doing 134 00:06:21,680 --> 00:06:23,840 Speaker 1: the best we can, you know, And I'm not really 135 00:06:23,880 --> 00:06:26,080 Speaker 1: angry anymore. I was. I was a little bit angry 136 00:06:26,480 --> 00:06:29,800 Speaker 1: after the first week when they kept coming, and you know, 137 00:06:29,800 --> 00:06:32,560 Speaker 1: it was really the comments about my family and being 138 00:06:32,600 --> 00:06:35,400 Speaker 1: a dad and especially the addiction stuff that I'm just like, 139 00:06:35,480 --> 00:06:38,440 Speaker 1: this is so unnecessary, and I just got sick of 140 00:06:38,480 --> 00:06:40,960 Speaker 1: seeing it, and so that's why I started blocking people, 141 00:06:41,000 --> 00:06:42,320 Speaker 1: which I am sorry for. 142 00:06:42,400 --> 00:06:45,640 Speaker 4: Hey, Justin, I just listened to your chopback today. It's Wednesday, 143 00:06:45,760 --> 00:06:48,159 Speaker 4: and I also listened yesterday Tuesday with a which was 144 00:06:48,320 --> 00:06:52,840 Speaker 4: actually really amazing, and I listened to your explanation out 145 00:06:52,880 --> 00:06:56,920 Speaker 4: why we were follow or block so many of us 146 00:06:58,240 --> 00:07:00,599 Speaker 4: I think the carment I made was more It's corporate, 147 00:07:00,640 --> 00:07:03,760 Speaker 4: aren't you, guys? And I'm really bothered while you're blocking me, 148 00:07:05,400 --> 00:07:07,320 Speaker 4: and hopefully you can change your mind. 149 00:07:07,520 --> 00:07:09,920 Speaker 1: Well, the good news is well, first of all, I'm 150 00:07:09,920 --> 00:07:13,280 Speaker 1: sorry for blocking you, because you know, I don't want 151 00:07:13,280 --> 00:07:16,720 Speaker 1: to upset anybody. She did leave her name there, and 152 00:07:16,760 --> 00:07:19,760 Speaker 1: I did unblock her. So if I blocked anybody and 153 00:07:19,960 --> 00:07:22,160 Speaker 1: you're upset by it, or you think it wasn't fair, 154 00:07:22,480 --> 00:07:25,840 Speaker 1: just DM me or well you can't d me, leave 155 00:07:25,880 --> 00:07:29,640 Speaker 1: a talk back and I will unblock you. That's fine. 156 00:07:30,040 --> 00:07:34,320 Speaker 1: You have to understand something that if you've listened to 157 00:07:34,320 --> 00:07:37,840 Speaker 1: the show, listen to the podcast. I've talked extensively about 158 00:07:37,840 --> 00:07:40,040 Speaker 1: my past, about my addiction, about some of the stuff 159 00:07:40,080 --> 00:07:42,240 Speaker 1: that I've gone through. I've laughed about it because I 160 00:07:42,280 --> 00:07:44,480 Speaker 1: can look back at it now and I can laugh. 161 00:07:44,800 --> 00:07:47,040 Speaker 1: At the time, it wasn't funny, right, And I went 162 00:07:47,080 --> 00:07:49,080 Speaker 1: through like the depths of hell, and it was so 163 00:07:49,280 --> 00:07:52,920 Speaker 1: bad and so negative for me for so long that 164 00:07:52,960 --> 00:07:55,320 Speaker 1: when I got clean, I turned my life around. That 165 00:07:55,400 --> 00:07:58,520 Speaker 1: whole journey, Like I got to a place where I 166 00:07:58,560 --> 00:08:01,760 Speaker 1: only wanted positivity around me, right, Like that was so 167 00:08:01,840 --> 00:08:04,960 Speaker 1: important all the people that were close to me are positive. 168 00:08:05,240 --> 00:08:07,920 Speaker 1: They lift me up, they love me, they don't want 169 00:08:07,920 --> 00:08:10,800 Speaker 1: anything from me, and so I've kind of built my 170 00:08:10,880 --> 00:08:13,360 Speaker 1: life in that way. And I know negativity is all 171 00:08:13,360 --> 00:08:16,720 Speaker 1: around us anyway. But when it was so overwhelming, the 172 00:08:16,800 --> 00:08:20,120 Speaker 1: negative comments over and over again, I just thought to myself, 173 00:08:20,160 --> 00:08:22,160 Speaker 1: I don't want to see them, so I'm just gonna 174 00:08:22,160 --> 00:08:26,560 Speaker 1: block that person. Not really out of anger towards the person. 175 00:08:26,600 --> 00:08:29,320 Speaker 1: I wasn't like, f you, but I just didn't want 176 00:08:29,360 --> 00:08:31,640 Speaker 1: to see them comment, so I would just block them 177 00:08:31,680 --> 00:08:34,240 Speaker 1: so I didn't see their comments. That's all. You can 178 00:08:34,280 --> 00:08:35,800 Speaker 1: call it a childish, you can call it whatever. But 179 00:08:35,800 --> 00:08:38,160 Speaker 1: it was really affecting my spirit. And one would say, 180 00:08:38,360 --> 00:08:41,960 Speaker 1: don't read the comments like Billy. Billy doesn't read anything 181 00:08:42,240 --> 00:08:45,400 Speaker 1: like this. Dude is free as a bird, you know, 182 00:08:45,640 --> 00:08:48,800 Speaker 1: so he doesn't see anything. He doesn't even like really whatever. 183 00:08:48,800 --> 00:08:50,680 Speaker 1: He's not involved in any of that. Me, I read 184 00:08:50,720 --> 00:08:53,640 Speaker 1: it all because I'm a producer. I kind of have to. 185 00:08:53,800 --> 00:08:56,199 Speaker 1: I want to see what's going on, So I'm constantly 186 00:08:56,520 --> 00:08:59,480 Speaker 1: monitoring things, and so I shouldn't, but I do. 187 00:09:00,160 --> 00:09:00,240 Speaker 3: So. 188 00:09:00,800 --> 00:09:05,560 Speaker 1: Yeah, I try to live in a way that's that 189 00:09:05,640 --> 00:09:08,440 Speaker 1: makes me feel good. It makes me think of I 190 00:09:08,480 --> 00:09:12,760 Speaker 1: remember when I first like got clean. Now, you gotta remember, 191 00:09:12,800 --> 00:09:15,120 Speaker 1: I came like off the street, literally like I had 192 00:09:15,200 --> 00:09:16,920 Speaker 1: been in jail. I was on the street, and so 193 00:09:16,960 --> 00:09:19,480 Speaker 1: I get clean, and that's all I knew. When you 194 00:09:19,480 --> 00:09:22,440 Speaker 1: had a conversation with me, all I talked about was, 195 00:09:22,600 --> 00:09:25,360 Speaker 1: you know, the detoxes, the programs, the jails, the time 196 00:09:25,400 --> 00:09:27,160 Speaker 1: that I'd done, the drugs that I did. That was 197 00:09:27,200 --> 00:09:31,560 Speaker 1: my entire identity. And so for the first several months 198 00:09:31,720 --> 00:09:34,000 Speaker 1: up to a year of getting clean, those were the 199 00:09:34,080 --> 00:09:37,520 Speaker 1: people that I associated with in the recovery community, people 200 00:09:37,600 --> 00:09:40,079 Speaker 1: that were just getting clean, that had just gotten out, 201 00:09:40,080 --> 00:09:42,880 Speaker 1: and that was the basis of my conversations. But the 202 00:09:42,920 --> 00:09:44,840 Speaker 1: longer that I stayed clean and I started to like 203 00:09:44,920 --> 00:09:47,320 Speaker 1: work with other people and I had like a sponsor 204 00:09:47,360 --> 00:09:49,840 Speaker 1: and I did some worker myself, I found that I 205 00:09:49,880 --> 00:09:52,439 Speaker 1: did not it didn't feel good right because I wasn't 206 00:09:52,480 --> 00:09:55,400 Speaker 1: living that way anymore. So I didn't want to talk 207 00:09:55,400 --> 00:09:57,280 Speaker 1: about being in jail because I didn't want to go 208 00:09:57,400 --> 00:09:59,719 Speaker 1: back to jail. I didn't want to talk about using 209 00:10:00,400 --> 00:10:02,839 Speaker 1: because I did not want to keep using drugs. They 210 00:10:02,840 --> 00:10:05,120 Speaker 1: were killing me. And so I remember I was talking 211 00:10:05,120 --> 00:10:06,720 Speaker 1: to this guy and I was explaining it to him, 212 00:10:06,760 --> 00:10:08,760 Speaker 1: and he said, you know what, the next time you're 213 00:10:08,800 --> 00:10:11,480 Speaker 1: in a conversation with some people or whatever and they 214 00:10:11,559 --> 00:10:14,080 Speaker 1: start they start talking about that kind of you know 215 00:10:14,120 --> 00:10:19,360 Speaker 1: those things, change the subject to something positive and see 216 00:10:19,360 --> 00:10:22,760 Speaker 1: what happens. And so I thought to myself, Okay, I'll 217 00:10:22,760 --> 00:10:25,280 Speaker 1: try it, and so I did it. Like I was 218 00:10:25,559 --> 00:10:27,640 Speaker 1: outside of this recovery meeting one day and there was 219 00:10:27,640 --> 00:10:29,840 Speaker 1: three or four guys standing with me, and you know, 220 00:10:30,200 --> 00:10:32,880 Speaker 1: the topic was I think it was jail maybe, and 221 00:10:32,920 --> 00:10:35,360 Speaker 1: I just, out of left field, like changed the topic 222 00:10:35,400 --> 00:10:39,400 Speaker 1: to something else, like something positive about recovery, and they 223 00:10:39,480 --> 00:10:42,679 Speaker 1: like didn't acknowledge it and went right back into the negativity. 224 00:10:42,679 --> 00:10:45,280 Speaker 1: And I thought to myself, this is what he's talking about. Like, 225 00:10:45,320 --> 00:10:49,040 Speaker 1: I need to like reevaluate the people that I'm associating with. 226 00:10:49,600 --> 00:10:51,480 Speaker 1: And so I've spent a lot of time doing that, 227 00:10:51,600 --> 00:10:53,400 Speaker 1: and now I'm happy to say I've been clean a 228 00:10:53,440 --> 00:10:55,920 Speaker 1: long time and everybody that's in my life that's close 229 00:10:55,920 --> 00:10:57,840 Speaker 1: to me and around me is like just loves me, 230 00:10:57,960 --> 00:11:01,640 Speaker 1: doesn't want anything from me, and lifts me up. You know, 231 00:11:01,800 --> 00:11:05,360 Speaker 1: when you're an active, active addiction, everybody wants something from you. 232 00:11:05,880 --> 00:11:09,920 Speaker 1: I constantly was around people that didn't love me, didn't 233 00:11:09,960 --> 00:11:12,040 Speaker 1: care about me, and just wanted to take from me, 234 00:11:12,240 --> 00:11:14,959 Speaker 1: and that was my choice. I put myself in those situations. 235 00:11:15,440 --> 00:11:19,120 Speaker 1: I can't even begin to describe how many times I 236 00:11:19,240 --> 00:11:21,679 Speaker 1: was around people. It was constant, and I would have 237 00:11:21,720 --> 00:11:24,480 Speaker 1: the thought, I don't even like this person, like I 238 00:11:24,480 --> 00:11:26,720 Speaker 1: don't even want to be here. But I was, you know, 239 00:11:26,880 --> 00:11:29,880 Speaker 1: chained through addiction drugs, and you know, caught up in 240 00:11:29,920 --> 00:11:32,679 Speaker 1: the lifestyle. So I don't know this little spiel that 241 00:11:32,720 --> 00:11:34,680 Speaker 1: I just wanted to get out there, just some context 242 00:11:34,720 --> 00:11:37,800 Speaker 1: for the people that were blocked or whatever. It's nothing 243 00:11:37,840 --> 00:11:41,320 Speaker 1: personal against you, and I will unblock you. I'm sorry. 244 00:11:41,360 --> 00:11:43,439 Speaker 1: I just was like, man, I'm like sitting at my 245 00:11:43,440 --> 00:11:45,320 Speaker 1: house reading these comments, like all the work that I 246 00:11:45,320 --> 00:11:47,960 Speaker 1: put into this show, my entire career, Like I understand, 247 00:11:48,040 --> 00:11:50,280 Speaker 1: I understand people's anger, and I just wish that I 248 00:11:50,280 --> 00:11:53,640 Speaker 1: could talk to them, like in person, not necessarily through 249 00:11:53,679 --> 00:11:56,280 Speaker 1: Instagram because I try not to like write things because 250 00:11:56,679 --> 00:11:59,840 Speaker 1: they can take that text and they can put other places. 251 00:12:00,080 --> 00:12:01,280 Speaker 1: Not that I would write anything bad, but you know 252 00:12:01,320 --> 00:12:04,440 Speaker 1: what I mean, But talk to them in person, you know, 253 00:12:04,800 --> 00:12:06,520 Speaker 1: and tell them how I feel and how the show 254 00:12:06,559 --> 00:12:09,760 Speaker 1: feels and that we're all upset by it. It sucks, 255 00:12:10,200 --> 00:12:12,520 Speaker 1: but you know, there are three people still on the show. 256 00:12:12,679 --> 00:12:14,680 Speaker 1: I'm still showing up at four o'clock in the morning. 257 00:12:14,679 --> 00:12:17,680 Speaker 1: I'm still putting together a show every single day, putting 258 00:12:17,679 --> 00:12:20,439 Speaker 1: all everything that I have goes into this show. It's 259 00:12:20,480 --> 00:12:23,320 Speaker 1: all I think about when I'm at home, you know, 260 00:12:23,440 --> 00:12:25,560 Speaker 1: not spending time with my kids. I'm working on the show, 261 00:12:26,000 --> 00:12:27,960 Speaker 1: you know what I mean, Like, I'm always planning what's 262 00:12:28,000 --> 00:12:30,920 Speaker 1: going to be the best for the show, so you know, 263 00:12:30,960 --> 00:12:33,160 Speaker 1: to see like when he leaves, when he gets laid off, 264 00:12:33,160 --> 00:12:36,160 Speaker 1: and then people are commenting like, yo, your fucking show sucks, 265 00:12:36,559 --> 00:12:40,280 Speaker 1: Like I'm never listening to that station again. I'm like, okay, 266 00:12:40,400 --> 00:12:41,920 Speaker 1: that was She was one part of it, man, she 267 00:12:41,920 --> 00:12:43,920 Speaker 1: was an important part. But there's three other people here. 268 00:12:43,960 --> 00:12:46,040 Speaker 1: So if you can't get past it, that's fine. You 269 00:12:46,080 --> 00:12:48,480 Speaker 1: don't have to listen. But I guess what I'm saying 270 00:12:48,559 --> 00:12:50,280 Speaker 1: is like, give us a chance, man, because we're trying 271 00:12:50,320 --> 00:12:52,720 Speaker 1: to find our new way to like the new normal. 272 00:12:52,760 --> 00:12:55,560 Speaker 1: As I said on yesterday's podcast, So a little bit 273 00:12:55,559 --> 00:12:57,920 Speaker 1: of a tangent here, So I'm sorry. And again, if 274 00:12:57,920 --> 00:13:00,280 Speaker 1: I did block. You leave a talk back and give 275 00:13:00,320 --> 00:13:02,760 Speaker 1: me your Instagram name and I'll unblock you. If not. 276 00:13:03,000 --> 00:13:05,160 Speaker 1: It's all good, man, it's all good. It's all good. 277 00:13:05,600 --> 00:13:07,840 Speaker 1: But listen, have a great Halloween. I'll try to check 278 00:13:07,880 --> 00:13:10,040 Speaker 1: in tomorrow, it depends. I might try to get up 279 00:13:10,040 --> 00:13:12,520 Speaker 1: out of here. I've been coming in even earlier, like 280 00:13:12,559 --> 00:13:14,920 Speaker 1: three thirty three forty five, to just try to get 281 00:13:14,920 --> 00:13:17,720 Speaker 1: more work done. I have producer Riley helping me. But 282 00:13:17,880 --> 00:13:20,880 Speaker 1: you know, not having winning is a big deal. You know, 283 00:13:20,960 --> 00:13:23,520 Speaker 1: it's more work for everybody, for Riley and for me, 284 00:13:23,600 --> 00:13:25,560 Speaker 1: and I can't put it all on Riley, so I 285 00:13:25,640 --> 00:13:28,400 Speaker 1: need to help out too, So we're stepping up. You 286 00:13:28,400 --> 00:13:32,920 Speaker 1: should actually see is it behind the scenes? Producer Riley 287 00:13:33,000 --> 00:13:35,640 Speaker 1: was our phone screener. Okay, she worked in a different studio, 288 00:13:36,080 --> 00:13:39,000 Speaker 1: but now she's running the board. She took that portion 289 00:13:39,520 --> 00:13:42,520 Speaker 1: of Winnie's job. So now we don't have a phone screener. 290 00:13:42,840 --> 00:13:46,360 Speaker 1: The phone screener is me. So when you're listening to 291 00:13:46,440 --> 00:13:49,440 Speaker 1: the show, okay, this is really telling of like the 292 00:13:49,440 --> 00:13:51,760 Speaker 1: way of the world. When you're listening to the show, 293 00:13:52,120 --> 00:13:55,640 Speaker 1: I am talking on the air while turning my mic 294 00:13:55,720 --> 00:13:58,800 Speaker 1: off and answering the phone and then putting them on hold, 295 00:13:58,800 --> 00:14:01,240 Speaker 1: turning my mic back on. If you joining the conversation, 296 00:14:01,760 --> 00:14:05,040 Speaker 1: then I'm pulling talkbacks because that are coming in. Because 297 00:14:05,120 --> 00:14:07,839 Speaker 1: Riley used to help me with the phone and the talkbacks, 298 00:14:07,840 --> 00:14:11,439 Speaker 1: but she can't, so think about that. I'm hosting, answering 299 00:14:11,480 --> 00:14:14,559 Speaker 1: the phone, and doing talkbacks all while trying to be 300 00:14:14,600 --> 00:14:16,960 Speaker 1: a part of the show live on the radio. It's 301 00:14:17,040 --> 00:14:21,120 Speaker 1: absolutely insane today. Actually, I'm going to talk to the 302 00:14:21,160 --> 00:14:23,320 Speaker 1: boss and say, we need like somebody to come help 303 00:14:23,360 --> 00:14:25,960 Speaker 1: answer the phones, like it's we needed. There were so 304 00:14:26,040 --> 00:14:28,560 Speaker 1: many talkbacks that we couldn't get to. The phones were ringing, 305 00:14:28,600 --> 00:14:32,120 Speaker 1: and I'm like in a conversation, trying to have a 306 00:14:32,160 --> 00:14:35,240 Speaker 1: conversation with Billy and Lisa and the phones are ringing 307 00:14:35,320 --> 00:14:37,040 Speaker 1: and I can't answer them. So it was a whole thing. 308 00:14:37,200 --> 00:14:40,360 Speaker 1: So we're working here. So I can't promise the podcast tomorrow, 309 00:14:40,400 --> 00:14:43,440 Speaker 1: but definitely Monday Santy will be on. And he's great. 310 00:14:43,480 --> 00:14:45,720 Speaker 1: He's had a long career in radio. I remember when 311 00:14:45,760 --> 00:14:48,200 Speaker 1: I when I applied for the internship at JAM and 312 00:14:48,520 --> 00:14:51,960 Speaker 1: he replied back as Santy, it's his name, obviously, and 313 00:14:52,000 --> 00:14:54,080 Speaker 1: so I replied back to him, and then I told 314 00:14:54,240 --> 00:14:57,200 Speaker 1: a friend that I did that. I applied and I 315 00:14:57,200 --> 00:14:59,240 Speaker 1: said some guy Santy and he goes, do you know 316 00:14:59,280 --> 00:15:02,520 Speaker 1: who that is? That's Crazy Kulo And I was like, 317 00:15:02,880 --> 00:15:05,160 Speaker 1: oh my god, because I used to listen on Crazy 318 00:15:05,240 --> 00:15:08,160 Speaker 1: Coulo with Romero. That was Santi. His radio name was 319 00:15:08,200 --> 00:15:10,400 Speaker 1: Crazy Kulo. He did all the stunts on jamm and 320 00:15:10,480 --> 00:15:13,320 Speaker 1: so anyway, we'll cover all that on Monday. Tune in 321 00:15:13,400 --> 00:15:15,760 Speaker 1: on the after Show. Have a great day, everybody,