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Speaker 1: You're listening to KFI A six on demand. Joe, Welcome

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Speaker 1: to the Jesus Christ Show.

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Speaker 2: Hello, how can I help you?

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Speaker 3: Well? Got a life situation? Okay, it does concern God,

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Speaker 3: at least my relationship with God, because I've for the

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Speaker 3: last two years now, I've had this kind of lack

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Speaker 3: of interest funk that I'm going through that happened ever

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Speaker 3: since I had the first insomnia I've ever had in

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Speaker 3: my life. I had it for two and a half

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Speaker 3: months two years ago. Ever since then, I've just had

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Speaker 3: this general lack of interest that doesn't seem like my

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Speaker 3: regular personality. And as far as my God relationship, I've

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Speaker 3: prayed many times. I've I've heard through my research in

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Speaker 3: the Christianity years ago that nothing's impossible with God, that

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Speaker 3: the difference between God's power and my power is an

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Speaker 3: immeasurable It's so vast I would think it would take

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Speaker 3: basically nothing for God to be able to just in

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Speaker 3: a since snap, God's fingers staying I mean back to

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Speaker 3: regular and I can't figure out why that hasn't been

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Speaker 3: done yet.

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Speaker 1: Usually when that hasn't been done, it's because something is

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Speaker 1: still in progress of being learned. God isn't toying with

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Speaker 1: you or playing around. It's a matter of a few things,

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Speaker 1: one of which the human the physical nature of humanity,

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Speaker 1: and the biological machine that you are is complicated and

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Speaker 1: there's many things to it. So to get a clearer picture, first,

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Speaker 1: are you saying that you had about with insomnia two

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Speaker 1: years ago that lasted for two months or are you

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Speaker 1: still wrestling that.

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Speaker 3: I can't you can usually find it something on the

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Speaker 3: internet about anything. I'm not dealing with insomnia that got

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Speaker 3: solved with one or two different drugs from a local

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Speaker 3: und What I'm doing with is post insomnia, and there

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Speaker 3: is nothing on the internet I can I type in

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Speaker 3: post insomnia, life after in somnia, and I can't figure

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Speaker 3: out if what I'm going through is even normal or

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Speaker 3: if anybody's ever had it in their lives except I

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Speaker 3: have called a couple of psychiatrists and asked them, have

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Speaker 3: you dealt with in somnia? Have you dealt with the

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Speaker 3: funk of lack of it just comes after it? And

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Speaker 3: at least a few of them have said they have,

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Speaker 3: So if they're telling the truth, then other people have

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Speaker 3: gone through this.

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Speaker 1: So you're saying that you have kind of a lack

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Speaker 1: of zest for life.

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Speaker 3: Well, people that knew me back then that know me

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Speaker 3: now say I'm definitely sounding better and using better words,

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Speaker 3: you know, like I've evolved to being more of whatever

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Speaker 3: I am. But I know I'm just not the same

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Speaker 3: the person before the day that it all happened. That

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Speaker 3: person is not what I am right now.

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Speaker 1: Okay, Well there's a couple of things and again.

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Speaker 3: And I know why it happened.

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Speaker 1: Basically, you know why the insomnia happened, right What was

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Speaker 1: going Okay, what was going on?

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Speaker 3: I haven't called a friend that day and said something

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Speaker 3: feels really weird inside. So the I was trying to

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Speaker 3: be a personal trainer for many years. Clients come, clients go.

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Speaker 3: A life situation came up such that I had no

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Speaker 3: clients at a point two years ago, and I said,

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Speaker 3: I have to run an AD to get some And

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Speaker 3: I figured I'd have an AD for about four months

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Speaker 3: coming away from the place where I ran the AD.

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Speaker 3: I only ended up with a month and a half

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Speaker 3: for however, our meeting went there and what they'd advised

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Speaker 3: me to do for the best clients whatever. So after

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Speaker 3: gonna have four months. What am I going to do then?

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Speaker 3: Is it a whole career change? I mean, ad'll be gone.

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Speaker 3: And that's when I got home and called a friend

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Speaker 3: up and said, something feels really weird inside of me.

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Speaker 3: And that's the night insomnia started. And I had had

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Speaker 3: concerns over money over the last twenty years, so thinking

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Speaker 3: about money problems trying to how to solve them wasn't.

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Speaker 2: New to me.

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Speaker 3: But that night, unless I took the drugs I eventually

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Speaker 3: got from the doctor, I could never get any sleep

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Speaker 3: at all. I'd get right to the edge of falling

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Speaker 3: I just couldn't sleep. But now so then I got

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Speaker 3: but I couldn't get rid of insomnia. And I was thinking,

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Speaker 3: you got to get rid of it. Now, you have

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Speaker 3: to look healthy. This is a person you're training. And

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Speaker 3: I at times about a month later, still at the insomnia,

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Speaker 3: This person had even to keep standing up to be

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Speaker 3: able to train them, which is kind of a joking

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Speaker 3: and of itself, because here I was deteriorating as I

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Speaker 3: was supposed to teach health.

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Speaker 1: Well. Although this is certainly not a show that deals

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Speaker 1: with medicine, it's not the focus. I'm not a doctor, right.

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Speaker 1: I looked at the morality of things, and we use

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Speaker 1: scripture to take a look at the world and to

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Speaker 1: see it through that lens. Now but in your circumstance,

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Speaker 1: So that was my thing.

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Speaker 3: Is the question with the whole God. I know it's

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Speaker 3: not about medicine, but it's just like it's the patients

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Speaker 3: I've had to try to have over this time to

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Speaker 3: just in a sense of wait for this to get gone.

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Speaker 1: Were you patient before?

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Speaker 3: I would say I was considered to be very intelligent,

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Speaker 3: and I.

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Speaker 1: Guess not about intelligence. Were you patient before? To some

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Speaker 1: of the markers that you've given me our point to anxiety?

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Speaker 1: The marker about the four months now to one and

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Speaker 1: a half months. There's certain things that you've said that

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Speaker 1: point to anxiety. Would you have considered yourself a patience person?

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Speaker 1: Or have people pointed out that you're not always patient.

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Speaker 3: I'm very quick to think, quick to talk, And people

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Speaker 3: would say anyway. Some would say he's patient, other ones

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Speaker 3: would say he needs things done now. And so that'd

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Speaker 3: be a hard question to answer.

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Speaker 1: Okay, in the God's scheme of things, there's a couple

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Speaker 1: of things going on. You've changed the chemistry of your

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Speaker 3: Couple of ways that possibly, I mean much, I would

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Speaker 3: take that happened absolutely still the same.

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Speaker 1: It changed, but it doesn't mean that it won't be.

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Speaker 1: It changed. The day you had what sounds like panic,

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Speaker 1: what sounds like intense anxiety, the day that you did that,

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Speaker 1: your chemicals change. I mean, it's just the way things

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Speaker 1: work so much so that you knew it. You felt it.

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Speaker 1: Something slipped away and you felt like, hey, the stability

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Speaker 1: mentioned that to a friend or family member whoever you

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Speaker 1: called that day, so you knew that something had changed. Now,

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Speaker 1: the doctors to balance that out, because it was prolonged,

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Speaker 1: which is to put you to sleep essentially and let

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Speaker 1: you relax. And medicine is miraculous in many ways and

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Speaker 1: could do many things. And doctors depending on who you

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Speaker 1: went to see. Did you go see a general practitioner

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Speaker 1: or your general doctor? And they prescribed the sleep medicine.

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Speaker 3: It's general. They give you an antidepressant because I think

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Speaker 3: depression insomnia related to each other, and so I gave

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Speaker 3: me that, and then something very strong called tamazapam that

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Speaker 3: suppose that you can't stay on very long. It's supposed

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Speaker 3: week and a half, he goes, well, take one and then

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Speaker 3: So I considered myself possibly on a high dose of

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Speaker 3: And then after a month and a half, he says,

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Speaker 3: we got to get you off of this. It's dangerous,

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Speaker 3: and he used something else to get me off of that,

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Speaker 3: and eventually that thing worked, and then I got off

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Speaker 3: hoping but then this lack of interest thing has been

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Speaker 1: Okay, so again I'm thinking.

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Speaker 3: Maybe even the stuff I use to get off of

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Speaker 1: Indeed, you said that you have or have not visited

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Speaker 3: That's the final thing. My mother and I are very

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Speaker 3: tired of this process. And I'm now I've called so

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Speaker 3: many of them. Some of them want to get on

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Speaker 3: the phone. They are four or five six hundred for

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Speaker 3: hundred hour after that. So it's pretty pricey. But if

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Speaker 3: they could guarantee it, it'd be worth it.

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Speaker 1: Well, there's no guarantees, but I will tell you this

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Speaker 1: from what you've said, and it's very reasonable to say

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Speaker 1: that you have altered things. And let's look at it

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Speaker 1: from your strength. Right, as a trainer, there are people

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Speaker 1: to reverse that and get them into new goods patterns, right,

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Speaker 1: say okay, here's a quick fix. It's a lifestyle change

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Speaker 3: Process and an easy to understand one. And if I

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Speaker 3: this is that I do rehabs, I would be able

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Speaker 3: to work on something. This thing, it's like it's my brain.

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Speaker 1: And I'm you're out of yeah, you're out of your strength?

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Speaker 3: How I can work? I stare at my brain from

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Speaker 3: the lies closed, thinking, if you're so bright, if you're

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Speaker 4: You know?

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Speaker 1: Well? Sometimes though, and this is not to downplay general

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Speaker 1: practitioner doctors. They're wonderful and they do amazing things. But

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Speaker 1: sometimes if you're dealing with they're just dealing with those symptoms.

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Speaker 3: So I think whether than I said, a psychiatrist has

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Speaker 3: to know more about brain chemicals and a local MD.

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Speaker 3: And that's based only my little hope and dream that

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Speaker 3: they'd go, oh no, I've seen that many times.

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Speaker 1: Try this and it may or may not be that quick.

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Speaker 1: To be honest with you, Joe, but I will tell

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Speaker 1: you this that the little time that we spent together,

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Speaker 1: I would say that it is a wonderful choice to

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Speaker 1: find out and see if the psychiatrist has different insight

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Speaker 1: and maybe can wean you off of some of these

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Speaker 1: things that sound like they've leveled you out, that you

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Speaker 1: have no highs and no lows. You kind of are

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Speaker 1: in the middle, just your tonality. On the air. We

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Speaker 1: speak to a lot of people, however, I will say,

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Speaker 1: on the God side of things, the spiritual side of things,

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Speaker 1: you do have an issue with patience. I can hear

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Speaker 1: it in your voice. I can hear it in your voice,

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Speaker 1: and I can hear it even pushing through the medication.

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Speaker 1: And I understand that it's been a long time that

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Speaker 1: be a natural part of that. But I can hear that.

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Speaker 1: So I offer you this that whenever God allows you

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Speaker 3: Ed.

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Speaker 1: Welcome to the Jesus Christ Show.

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Speaker 4: Thank you for taking my prayer, I call. I'm almost

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Speaker 1: Sure, the prayer is often quoted and not always understood

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Speaker 1: There's there's so much to it, and it's quite beautiful

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Speaker 1: some people will add, for Thine is the kingdom, the power,

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Speaker 2: Yes, I'm calling regarding some problems that I have. I'm

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Speaker 2: in the in the God's flock, trying to try not

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Speaker 2: to be so shameful of what I've done in the industry.

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Speaker 2: And then uh, yeah, I was curious at first, kind

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Speaker 2: why they didn't want to turn to God. I'm not

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Speaker 2: and I did when I did go through the motions

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Speaker 2: But also you're you're also just labeled so much and

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Speaker 1: So you mean by people that find out or by

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Speaker 1: More people in the church are struggling with it than

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Speaker 1: that's key. And as far as the battle within, is

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Speaker 1: this something you do multiple times a day, Oh.

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Speaker 2: I'm, I'm it's it's more under the control now, I

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Speaker 2: just I just struggled with just going back to church.

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Speaker 2: That's that's more or less it. And and we and

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Speaker 1: Well, if it's something that you are in control of

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Speaker 1: I know it seems silly, but you can put uh restrictions. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: do things like that just to remind you, to give

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Speaker 2: And like I said, I've been doing that and I'm

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Speaker 1: I'm sorry, no, And I just don't want you to

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Speaker 1: And you can't let the enemy get that foothold in

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Speaker 1: about yourself. It's a very limited pleasure time. All of

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Speaker 1: you really need it. Doesn't mean you need to wear

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Speaker 1: It's not about that. And don't feel that. I know

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Speaker 1: hands and go I'm an alcoholic. Oh well I love pornography.

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Speaker 1: Oh I cheated on my wife. I can't have a relationship. Now,

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Speaker 1: and if it comes up and it's appropriate, absolutely, it's

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Speaker 1: It's just not a good thing to lead with.

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Speaker 2: And that's what I did. I lead with it.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, it's a tough one, brother, because they they there's

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Speaker 1: an automatic belief to that, and even though it could

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Speaker 1: be somebody who themselves are struggling with it, they'll still

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Speaker 2: I revealed it the under the guise of that it

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Speaker 2: would be a comp that I did it confidentially, and

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Speaker 2: that I tell you, that's what a portrayal that was.

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Speaker 1: Well, humans are humans, and there you will It is

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Speaker 1: a betrayal. Absolutely, this someone in leadership, Yes, yeah, that's

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Speaker 1: that's gross, but it is, but that's going to happen.

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Speaker 2: And I learned, and like I say, you know, I

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Speaker 2: have such a strong relationship and I know I can

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Speaker 2: rebuild that and I know that what my gift is,

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Speaker 2: I'm an encourager and I can encourage people. I really

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Speaker 2: love encouraging people, and I love your show. I just

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Speaker 2: took me a little while to get to you. And

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Speaker 2: I appreciate your answers and they are rot on the nose,

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Speaker 2: So thank you so much. In anybody else that's listening

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Speaker 2: that had that problem, Jesus loves you, man, and you

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Speaker 2: can go to him, and I appreciate your help.

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Speaker 3: Brother.

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Speaker 1: You know what happens quite a bit, James, and I

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Speaker 1: want you to really think about this, is that people

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Speaker 1: that have the gift of certain things, like you say, encouragement,

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Speaker 1: almost never ever impart that gift onto themselves. And you

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Speaker 1: have to allow yourself to hear those very same words

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Speaker 1: that you've given others time and time again, those words

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Speaker 1: of encouragement and kindness and acceptance, and you need to

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Speaker 1: allow yourself to have them as well. Guard yourself until

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Speaker 1: you feel safe. Not every church, sadly is safe. Not

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Speaker 1: every person in a church is safe, even though there

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Speaker 1: will be those that are so guard yourself as you're

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Speaker 1: opening up and you're learning about a church. I'm sorry

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Speaker 1: that you'd open up to somebody and you'd say, hey,

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Speaker 1: this is what I'm wrestling with and they did not

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Speaker 1: keep that in confidence or they treated you different because

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Speaker 1: of it. That really is a horrible sin unto itself.

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Speaker 1: But understand that you are coming out from underneath being

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Speaker 1: a slave to this. Two Peter two nineteen says that

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Speaker 1: for whatever overcomes a person to that, he is enslaved.

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Speaker 1: And if there's something that overcomes you, and in this

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Speaker 1: case it's pornography and that sensation of orgasm, whatever it

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Speaker 1: is building those things up, or the release that comes

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Speaker 1: with it, those types of things can be very powerful,

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Speaker 1: and I want you to work through them obviously as

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Speaker 1: you're doing. But I don't want you to feel the

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Speaker 1: shame of the enemy that whispers in your ear, because

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Speaker 1: all that does is trying to keep you from God,

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Speaker 1: and you're not going to fall for that. And I

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Speaker 1: don't want you to fall for that. The enemy hates you,

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Speaker 1: and the enemy hates me, and the enemy wants nothing

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Speaker 1: more than to keep us away from each other, because

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Speaker 1: in that bond, in that relationship, there is strength, strength

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Speaker 1: to truly overcome, strength to guard yourself against the ways

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Speaker 1: of the enemy, which are ultimately death, not physical death necessarily,

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Speaker 1: but spiritual death. And the enemy has a way of

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Speaker 1: finding those soft spots in your life, poking at you

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Speaker 1: day in and day out, seeing how you respond. And

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Speaker 1: when the enemy finds what you respond to, then he pounces.

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Speaker 1: And when the enemy sees something in your life, whether

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Speaker 1: it be pornography or whatever it might be, that is

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Speaker 1: ruling it something that you're struggling with, knowing that you

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Speaker 1: care enough to confess it and to strengthen yourself and

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Speaker 1: to remove it from your life. These addictions that pull

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Speaker 1: you down, that the world, the very hurdles that the

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Speaker 1: enemy has put in front of you, or bad enough.

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Speaker 1: But the moment you get strength to push them aside,

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Speaker 1: the moment you get strength to say, I won't let

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Speaker 1: this put me in bondage anymore, I won't let this

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Speaker 1: control me. I will not be enslaved. And you push

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Speaker 1: past them and you start to better yourself. Then the

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Speaker 1: enemy switches gears and he just slithers up next to

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Speaker 1: you and gets in your ear and says, Wow, that

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Speaker 1: sure was a pretty big hurdle. You probably aren't even

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Speaker 1: over it yet. And it doesn't really matter, because even

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Speaker 1: if you're over it, even if you remove it from

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Speaker 1: your life, you've got the stink of that, the scars

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Speaker 1: from that, all over your body, and that's all anyone

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Speaker 1: can see. And that is so putrid to the nostrils

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Speaker 1: of God. He will turn himself from you because of

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Speaker 1: what you've done. But the enemy is a liar, and

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Speaker 1: the enemy plays on your insecurities. The enemy plays on

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Speaker 1: the things that you worry about, that you are constantly

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Speaker 1: thinking of, because all he needs is just to push

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Speaker 1: it off a little bit each day. The less time

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Speaker 1: you spend with God, the less time you search for God,

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Speaker 1: the less time you spend praying, talking, connecting with God,

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Speaker 1: is time that He has you in a place of vulnerability.

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Speaker 1: He has you in a place where you're softened to Him,

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Speaker 1: even when it's a place of strength. In one arena,

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Speaker 1: you're getting better, you're strengthening yourself, you're trying to purify

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Speaker 1: yourself through God. The enemy uses that transition to make

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Speaker 1: you feel so bad about yourself, to make you feel

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Speaker 1: so ugly that you'll turn yourself away from God, but

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Speaker 1: he'll make you believe Eve that it's God turning himself

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Speaker 1: from you, But I assure you it's not. My arms

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Speaker 1: are always open and I'm facing right at you, wanting

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Speaker 1: nothing more than you to run right into them.

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Speaker 3: Kf I am six forty on demand