Speaker 1: All right, it is Mojo in the morning show. We
Speaker 1: have a guy that works on our show. His name
Speaker 1: is Zach. He is the person that gets you all
Speaker 1: of our podcast plus any kind of audio that comes
Speaker 1: through your speakers that's not us, just individually speaking, Zach's
Speaker 1: responsible for.
Speaker 2: This guy is the best.
Speaker 1: He's the man that can do. We call him Big Zach,
Speaker 1: the Sultan of the Segues. Yeah, but he's also honestly
Speaker 1: one of the sweetest, most sensitive guys I've ever met.
Speaker 1: I love this kid like he's my son. And this
Speaker 1: is a really tough time for Zach right now, and
Speaker 1: he's gonna explain the reason why.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I'm gonna try not to get too emotional. I
Speaker 2: think you guys notice that I've been very not myself lately.
Speaker 2: I think it started back in November. But I'm I'm
Speaker 2: pretty depressed right now, and that's because I you know,
Speaker 2: around this time of year, I have anniversary dates like
Speaker 2: death date or you know, things that get brought up
Speaker 2: and makes me feel emotional. And what's coming up now
Speaker 2: is my mom's birthday is this week and it's great.
Speaker 2: I love celebrating her. But uh, for those don't know,
Speaker 2: my mom did pass away when I was twelve, and
Speaker 2: it made me realize that it's now been eighteen years
Speaker 2: since my mom has been gone. This is the eighteenth year.
Speaker 2: And I don't I don't think I'm over it yet.
Speaker 2: And that's kind of why I wanted to talk to
Speaker 2: you guys. I mean, this is like my therapy, but
Speaker 2: I just I don't think it ever gets easier. You know,
Speaker 2: the time does heal the wounds. It's just it comes
Speaker 2: in waves, and right now I'm like in that wave. Yeah, yeah,
Speaker 2: tough for you. Yeah. Days.
Speaker 3: Her mom's actual birthdays.
Speaker 2: The fifteenth, so Thursday, okay, Yeah. What was your mom's name? Debbie? Debbie? Yeah?
Speaker 1: And what do you remember the most about your mom?
Speaker 2: Her passion and and her like being like a prankster. Yeah.
Speaker 2: So you never really heard you talk about your mom?
Speaker 1: Yeah?
Speaker 2: Yeah, well, I mean.
Speaker 3: Like her personality. You mentioned your mom a lot, but
Speaker 3: I've never heard you.
Speaker 2: Most of my memories are her, like sick in hospitals.
Speaker 2: You know.
Speaker 4: You told me a story about your favorite memory with
Speaker 4: her ones and I liked it. You should tell it.
Speaker 2: I don't. I don't know if I remember what I
Speaker 2: told you, but I have a lot of she was
Speaker 2: very caring. She was a gift giver. She would find
Speaker 2: you know that my little pony that was limited edition
Speaker 2: for my sister, and she would get it, or she
Speaker 2: would give me, you know, wrestling action figures. And it's
Speaker 2: just I'm really missing her right now. What was some
Speaker 2: of like the prank she used to so Halloween was
Speaker 2: her favorite holiday, so she would like put like grapes
Speaker 2: and she would skin them off and then put them
Speaker 2: in a bowl and then have kids. You know, Like
Speaker 2: that really gravitated towards me.
Speaker 5: Do you miss her?
Speaker 4: How?
Speaker 2: Like? What do you do?
Speaker 5: Do you?
Speaker 2: I get in this funkho, No, No, I don't because
Speaker 2: I don't know. And maybe I need to embrace that more.
Speaker 2: But I don't have a lot of photos with her.
Speaker 2: I don't have any videos with her, you know. And
Speaker 2: it's just I get in this funk and I start
Speaker 2: thinking about things, and your sister talk about it. Yeah,
Speaker 2: And and we started talking about this last week, and
Speaker 2: I think that's why I wanted to bring it up
Speaker 2: on air, because again I didn't realize that it was
Speaker 2: the eighteenth anniversary this year.
Speaker 1: Yeah, you mentioned earlier this morning when we were talking
Speaker 1: about the show, and in the show out and we
Speaker 1: were going to bring this out that for you. One
Speaker 1: of the hard parts was that you now have lived
Speaker 1: more life on this earth without her.
Speaker 2: Yeah. It' I've been an adult more than i've had
Speaker 2: my mom, and I don't even consider myself an adult.
Speaker 2: It's just, uh, you know, there's some things I wish.
Speaker 2: You know, I can talk to my sister about anything.
Speaker 2: You know, it's but sometimes she's just not your mom,
Speaker 2: you know, and I don't. It's not that I feel
Speaker 2: like I'm a burden, but I don't. You know, everyone
Speaker 2: has limited time.
Speaker 1: But it's not you know, I want you to not
Speaker 1: think of when you talk to all of us about this,
Speaker 1: like you're burdening us. Honestly, I'm thrilled to hear about
Speaker 1: your mom. I want to first off, I want to
Speaker 1: know who created and who molded this amazing guy.
Speaker 2: It never gets easier. I hate to say it, it
Speaker 2: really doesn't.
Speaker 1: But you know what, it's not supposed to because if
Speaker 1: it was supposed to, she wouldn't have been your mom.
Speaker 1: And that's the thing I think, Zach, that you have
Speaker 1: to you have to look at as use dates in
Speaker 1: these anniversaries, and it's tough to say this because I
Speaker 1: don't do it enough as times to celebrate them and
Speaker 1: not mourning them, because that's probably what she.
Speaker 2: Would want you to do. You know, you are an
Speaker 2: amazing guy.
Speaker 1: Like I will say this that there are not a
Speaker 1: lot of people that I think that there is one
Speaker 1: hundred percent affinity for in this world, Like there's no
Speaker 1: you know, we live in such a polarizing thing. Either
Speaker 1: people love or you hate somebody. You are not just love,
Speaker 1: you're beloved.
Speaker 2: And I know your.
Speaker 1: Dad wasn't really a part of your life. Your mom's
Speaker 1: a reason why, and your sister, but your mom, and
Speaker 1: I think that's what a great celebration of her life,
Speaker 1: you know.
Speaker 2: And it sucks I.
Speaker 1: Every time he talks, I literally go okay, oh my god.
Speaker 1: I feel like he's literally me. I wish I had
Speaker 1: more pictures. I wish I had more videos.
Speaker 5: You know.
Speaker 2: My biggest mistake is I wish I got to say goodbye.
Speaker 4: Yeah.
Speaker 2: And I think I think about that off more than anything,
Speaker 2: And I think that's what hurts the most because I'm like, man,
Speaker 2: if I just had that one closure moment or something,
Speaker 2: but and people don't get that, and I think I
Speaker 2: dwell on that where were you when she died. So
Speaker 2: I was in the hospital. She was in her hospital,
Speaker 2: and they were planning on pulling the plug, and I
Speaker 2: knew that I couldn't see it, so I went in
Speaker 2: the gift shop and I bought a Webkins at the time,
Speaker 2: and I bought it for my cousin. And as soon
Speaker 2: as I got up, she was gone. And you were
Speaker 2: also twelve years old. Yeah, yeah, and I don't think
Speaker 2: she wanted me.
Speaker 1: To yeah, to see Yeah, at twelve, you would not
Speaker 1: have said what you would say now. But right now,
Speaker 1: if you had a chance to talk to mom, what
Speaker 1: would you what would you say to her? If I
Speaker 1: could talk to her now, I would ask her if
Speaker 1: she's proud of me.
Speaker 2: I guarantee she is.
Speaker 3: And you know, you can just talk. You can talk,
Speaker 3: You can talk to her.
Speaker 4: Are there any moments that you ever feel her presence,
Speaker 4: like when you're doing something or just since she's with you.
Speaker 2: You know, some people get those, and I envy that
Speaker 2: because some people are like, oh my mom came to
Speaker 2: me in my dreams, and I'm like, damn, dude, I
Speaker 2: want that, like at least once, like can you come
Speaker 2: come say high or something? And I think it's just
Speaker 2: because my mind blocked out so much when I was
Speaker 2: younger that my mind is still doing that now. Like
Speaker 2: protecting me in a way doesn't mean I still Yeah,
Speaker 2: I've never had that.
Speaker 1: Man, I feel her presence talking about her right now,
Speaker 1: I really do. I feel like her here in this
Speaker 1: room with us. You know what a weird thing is.
Speaker 1: On a totally different note, next time you're masturbating knowing
Speaker 1: that your mom. I think about it sometimes going off
Speaker 1: to that my mom is seeing to do this.
Speaker 2: Jesse, So you know we have different New Year's resolutions,
Speaker 2: my man, Dave, what's going on? Hey, Mojo Zach.
Speaker 6: I just want to say that I lost my mom
Speaker 6: when I was five. It doesn't never get easier. She
Speaker 6: had only cancer and that on Thanksgiving one of the worst,
Speaker 6: probably one of the worst things I had to go through.
Speaker 6: But things don't ever get easier. If you have memories
Speaker 6: of her, think about that, Try to think about the
Speaker 6: positive things. Try to think about you know, everyone believes
Speaker 6: in something. I always like pray to my mom. Yeah,
Speaker 6: I don't have any I guess advice and how to
Speaker 6: make things easier, because I don't think it ever will
Speaker 6: get easier. But you're an awesome, dude, And I can
Speaker 6: promise you that she's proud of you.
Speaker 2: Appreciate you, dude. You're the man.
Speaker 1: Wouldn't be wild to think that our moms are and
Speaker 1: I would like to think that this is what happens,
Speaker 1: Like Dave's mom and my mom and your mom and
Speaker 1: just all our grandparents that have passed are all just listening, going,
Speaker 1: why did Mojo.
Speaker 2: Just say that about Master? What's what's up, Jessica.
Speaker 7: So I just wanted to.
Speaker 5: Say that, first of all, when you lose someone like that,
Speaker 5: especially your mother, like you're literally learning to do life
Speaker 5: without the person who gave it to you. So it's
Speaker 5: never the same, it's just different. My mom's been going
Speaker 5: about five years and this year is her sixtieth birthday
Speaker 5: on Monday, and one of the things that I decided
Speaker 5: to do was rewrite her obituary because I always read
Speaker 5: it and I go, this isn't enough, Like there was
Speaker 5: still so much more to be said. And I think
Speaker 5: one of the things that we can always do is
Speaker 5: exactly what you're doing now is continue to talk about it,
Speaker 5: continue to tell her story, continue to keep those memories
Speaker 5: and things of her alive. And I was, I was like,
Speaker 5: even if you know only a handful of our friends
Speaker 5: and family read it, at least people can remember still
Speaker 5: who she is and who she was.
Speaker 3: That's actually a really good and interesting thing, Zach. Do
Speaker 3: you are there other family members that you could talk
Speaker 3: to to get Because you were only twelve, there's probably
Speaker 3: so much about your mom that you don't even know. Maybe,
Speaker 3: like that's that would be a therapeutic thing for you
Speaker 3: to learn a little bit more about your mom and
Speaker 3: her personality and what she was like in more stories
Speaker 3: that you know.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I've had these waves before. When I turned twenty one,
Speaker 2: I got to talk to my aunts, and before my
Speaker 2: grandma died, I got to talk to her. But you know,
Speaker 2: it's just still one of those things.
Speaker 1: Yea, you know, Hey, Medina, what's happening?
Speaker 7: Okay? I understand completely. Was that just going through? And
Speaker 7: the only thing I said, only adverse because I can
Speaker 7: give you, was to embrace all of the good memories.
Speaker 7: This year, I absolutely despised the holidays because I lost
Speaker 7: my mom. But this year, almost twelve years later, I
Speaker 7: literally embraced the s out of Christmas. My house was
Speaker 7: grinched out and everything, and I was determined to have a.
Speaker 5: Good holiday because I.
Speaker 7: Have not had a good holiday in about fifteen years.
Speaker 7: And I made all of that every Christmas movie that
Speaker 7: she forced me to watch. I watched it, everything that
Speaker 7: she wanted to do on her birthday previously. I did
Speaker 7: it just because sometimes and some of those things I
Speaker 7: did alone, but I needed that alone time as well,
Speaker 7: all of those feelings that like you are allowed to
Speaker 7: feel things, and I'm su use that because I'm crying
Speaker 7: and it's Monday morning. Great topic. This is a great
Speaker 7: topic because I feel like we don't talk about loss, no, no,
Speaker 7: but yeah, just just embrace it and just hold up
Speaker 7: to those great memories. And for sure, one hundred percent,
Speaker 7: she is extremely proud of you, extremely proud of you.
Speaker 1: Again, if they weren't so great, it wouldn't hurt as
Speaker 1: much as it hurts.
Speaker 7: Exactly the exact thing. And we are all praying for
Speaker 7: you that I really hope that you can can embrace
Speaker 7: that and come out of this month because people who
Speaker 7: have lost Charence and we all know what that punk is.
Speaker 2: I really appreciate you and I want you to know
Speaker 2: that I'm proud of you.
Speaker 7: Well, thank you, try more, Okay, have a good morning.
Speaker 3: Say something.
Speaker 1: I love that you brought this up on the air
Speaker 1: because I think that we need to bring your mom
Speaker 1: up more often. I really do, and I think, honestly,
Speaker 1: it's one of those things. You guys got a chance
Speaker 1: this past year to kind of see more of my
Speaker 1: family with everything that we had. I know, I've met
Speaker 1: your sister and gotten a chance to see what she's like.
Speaker 1: I think sometimes you don't understand how being around people
Speaker 1: that know who you are when you had your innocence
Speaker 1: and stuff like that, you're being a child and stuff.
Speaker 1: And I will say this, I know for a fact
Speaker 1: this because I lived it. You did not live a
Speaker 1: normal childhood, you know what I mean. You lived probably
Speaker 1: in the fear that your mom was gonna die at
Speaker 1: any moment all the time. And that's the hardest thing
Speaker 1: to live with, you know what I mean. And that's
Speaker 1: why I sit there and I think to myself, with you,
Speaker 1: there is one of those things where your mom you
Speaker 1: didn't get to say goodbye to, but you all through
Speaker 1: the years were saying goodbye to her, you know. And
Speaker 1: I wouldn't hold that too hard to and you can
Speaker 1: talk to her now, for God's sakes, you know what
Speaker 1: I mean.
Speaker 2: So I appreciate you and thanks for giving me this time.
Speaker 2: Well you went over by about tour and a half minutes.
Speaker 2: I'm not the guy controlling the four.
Speaker 1: How much do we love this guy so much?
Speaker 4: I love you guys blowing up my phone right now
Speaker 4: saying I love sex so much.
Speaker 2: Tell her I love her. I hope you get laid
Speaker 2: off of this topic. That's not the four.
Speaker 1: Any girls out there that are literally single and want
Speaker 1: to just really make a man feel good.
Speaker 2: Jesus, but my phone number is seven.