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Speaker 5: Julikah Smith. They're in the buildings going on. Because of

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Speaker 3: Somebody has to want your life, you.

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Speaker 2: Know, so that your life can preach Why would I

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Speaker 4: Dear my forever, Forever is a long time. That's how long.

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Speaker 3: I'll love you.

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Speaker 5: This journey has culminated with you as both the award

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Speaker 4: And you are the reward, the blessing given after endurance,

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Speaker 5: This isn't just our story, this is for all of us.

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Speaker 5: Well, today's episode, you know in the book Student Love,

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Speaker 6: Down here, Josh, boys, don't just sound like an old preacher.

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Speaker 1: My name is Joshua Hoover.

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Speaker 2: never out of time and so I think.

438
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Speaker 3: That we still have a purpose just like with everyone,

439
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Speaker 3: Like we were able to touch everybody and that's just

440
00:21:12,280 --> 00:21:13,720
Speaker 3: God touching them through us.

441
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Speaker 5: Let me ask you about to say, yeah, go ahead,

442
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Speaker 5: what I.

443
00:21:17,440 --> 00:21:18,040
Speaker 2: Was going to ask.

444
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Speaker 4: So you said there was some like backlash.

445
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Speaker 2: Or people had.

446
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Speaker 4: So I'm wondering, like what types of things were people

447
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Speaker 4: saying because in your introduction you also said I'm not

448
00:21:31,080 --> 00:21:34,439
Speaker 4: a person that you can shush. So I'm curious about

449
00:21:34,720 --> 00:21:37,160
Speaker 4: what people were saying. But then also how you you

450
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Speaker 4: all respond?

451
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Speaker 1: Oh, so she don't look at comments I do. I

452
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Speaker 1: am a dope gbal man what I'm saying because me

453
00:21:48,800 --> 00:21:50,920
Speaker 1: as a man, I feel like a wire to protect,

454
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Speaker 1: you know, to to have that foresight to look and

455
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Speaker 1: make sure all us everything. I feel like it was

456
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Speaker 1: inevitable for the negative comments to come in, but when

457
00:22:00,560 --> 00:22:05,520
Speaker 1: you start seeing them, it's like the audacity, you know.

458
00:22:05,720 --> 00:22:07,560
Speaker 1: It's more so like you don't want to judge folk.

459
00:22:07,600 --> 00:22:09,800
Speaker 1: They got some negative to say, but it's like when

460
00:22:09,920 --> 00:22:15,320
Speaker 1: God gave us this thing. It's like I do that

461
00:22:15,880 --> 00:22:17,840
Speaker 1: every day twice on Sunday. I'm also about it when

462
00:22:17,920 --> 00:22:21,480
Speaker 1: God gives you what God said and you're like, how

463
00:22:21,600 --> 00:22:26,199
Speaker 1: the world Asian hating, but haters is an acronym for

464
00:22:26,280 --> 00:22:29,760
Speaker 1: having anger toward everyone reaching success. And so one thing

465
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Speaker 1: that I've realized is what we're doing. One of the

466
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Speaker 1: main reasons people are something to say about this because

467
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Speaker 1: they low key want to beat us. And I say

468
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Speaker 1: that with all due respect, because it's like we are

469
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Speaker 1: also counter cultural, and so a lot of people say

470
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Speaker 1: a positive and a negative boy that goes hand in hand.

471
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Speaker 1: We're both positive. I woul't want to say like type type.

472
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Speaker 1: I don't know types quiet right, And so the thing

473
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Speaker 1: about it is, I ain't really watch the dragon ball Z,

474
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Speaker 1: but what that brother would do is he would cut

475
00:23:01,720 --> 00:23:07,640
Speaker 1: that thing back come ball of fusion. And the more

476
00:23:07,680 --> 00:23:09,800
Speaker 1: forces similar that were together, the bigger would be, the

477
00:23:09,840 --> 00:23:12,840
Speaker 1: more impact it would have. And I ain't teaching that's

478
00:23:12,880 --> 00:23:18,000
Speaker 1: hold the spigger. So I'm learning that because we're so similar,

479
00:23:18,400 --> 00:23:21,800
Speaker 1: we have a more grand impact. And it's like this

480
00:23:21,960 --> 00:23:24,680
Speaker 1: snowball is so huge and we're forced to be wreckon with.

481
00:23:25,000 --> 00:23:27,040
Speaker 1: And one thing about it also is the reason we're

482
00:23:27,040 --> 00:23:28,879
Speaker 1: able to still be consistent in what we're doing is

483
00:23:28,880 --> 00:23:30,480
Speaker 1: because we're making sure we're covering each other.

484
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Speaker 3: Yes, since day one, since we started talking, like one

485
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Speaker 3: thing that we would do, like even before we met,

486
00:23:37,359 --> 00:23:40,560
Speaker 3: because we were we were well we are still long distance,

487
00:23:41,080 --> 00:23:43,480
Speaker 3: but we were a long distance for three months before

488
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Speaker 3: we met in person.

489
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Speaker 6: Telling long distance where we're.

490
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Speaker 3: A long distance from. Then we were long distance in

491
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Speaker 3: Florida and Virginia, but now we're a long distance in.

492
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Speaker 2: L A and Louisiana, so ls.

493
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Speaker 3: But what something that we would do during the talking

494
00:24:02,000 --> 00:24:05,280
Speaker 3: stage is every night before we go to sleep, we

495
00:24:05,320 --> 00:24:07,840
Speaker 3: would take each other's order what we needed to pray

496
00:24:07,880 --> 00:24:10,679
Speaker 3: for each other, and like we would take it and

497
00:24:10,720 --> 00:24:12,280
Speaker 3: then write it down and then pray for each other

498
00:24:12,400 --> 00:24:14,840
Speaker 3: right there before we go to bed. So that's something

499
00:24:14,880 --> 00:24:19,320
Speaker 3: that we practiced. It's interceding for each other now whenever

500
00:24:19,480 --> 00:24:23,440
Speaker 3: something somebody's going through something or I mean, we still

501
00:24:23,480 --> 00:24:25,440
Speaker 3: do on the daily, but now, of course we're deeper

502
00:24:25,440 --> 00:24:28,480
Speaker 3: in relationships. So now we're closer and we know the

503
00:24:28,520 --> 00:24:30,240
Speaker 3: things that each of us are going through.

504
00:24:31,400 --> 00:24:34,200
Speaker 2: But also at the same time, we don't always know what's.

505
00:24:34,000 --> 00:24:36,320
Speaker 3: Going on in the other person's mind, what they're thinking about,

506
00:24:36,320 --> 00:24:39,320
Speaker 3: what they're pondering on, what they may be going through internally,

507
00:24:40,520 --> 00:24:43,280
Speaker 3: and we still ask those questions like hey, like how

508
00:24:43,320 --> 00:24:46,240
Speaker 3: can I pray for you? Or whenever they can't ask,

509
00:24:46,480 --> 00:24:48,560
Speaker 3: we do know the Holy Spirit steps in and then

510
00:24:48,760 --> 00:24:50,040
Speaker 3: we can be like, you know what, baby, I know

511
00:24:50,040 --> 00:24:51,520
Speaker 3: you're going through a hard time right now, let me

512
00:24:51,560 --> 00:24:52,119
Speaker 3: pray for you.

513
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Speaker 2: So I feel like interesceeding is something.

514
00:24:53,680 --> 00:24:56,920
Speaker 1: That, like we do often is a huge pill to

515
00:24:57,000 --> 00:24:59,959
Speaker 1: other people too. Absolutely, I mean, we prioritize prayer. I mean,

516
00:25:00,000 --> 00:25:01,480
Speaker 1: and one thing that really separates a good church for

517
00:25:01,520 --> 00:25:03,440
Speaker 1: bad church, capabit, you know, I want to say bad church,

518
00:25:03,800 --> 00:25:05,320
Speaker 1: but like one thing that separates a good church for

519
00:25:05,320 --> 00:25:08,280
Speaker 1: a great church is prayer. You know, you can be

520
00:25:08,280 --> 00:25:10,199
Speaker 1: able to see when things are performative, and especially like

521
00:25:10,200 --> 00:25:14,199
Speaker 1: the cultural theatrics you know of just like wanting to

522
00:25:14,200 --> 00:25:15,960
Speaker 1: be laid hands on and falling out, but you don't

523
00:25:15,960 --> 00:25:18,240
Speaker 1: feel nothing, you know what I'm saying, as opposed to

524
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Speaker 1: being prayed for, being poured into recognized.

525
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Speaker 6: Scene and heard.

526
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Speaker 1: And so one thing that I've also understood is a

527
00:25:25,480 --> 00:25:28,200
Speaker 1: man I have to pay attention because I used to

528
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Speaker 1: be like, maybe what's going on. I'm fine, I'm good,

529
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Speaker 1: I'm fine, I'm good. I'm good, but like, no, you're not, though,

530
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Speaker 1: So it's the cues the psychology behind it and knowing like, okay,

531
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Speaker 1: like the way that she looks, or the way that

532
00:25:39,840 --> 00:25:42,199
Speaker 1: she sounds, the way she moves, or different habits that

533
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Speaker 1: I'm noticing. It's up to me to ask God to

534
00:25:45,280 --> 00:25:48,159
Speaker 1: continue to heighten my sensitivity for her cry and the spirit,

535
00:25:48,680 --> 00:25:50,480
Speaker 1: because it's one thing for me to be a man

536
00:25:50,520 --> 00:25:53,680
Speaker 1: that leads, but it's also my responsibility to spiritually cover

537
00:25:53,760 --> 00:25:55,480
Speaker 1: her as a woman of God because she has a

538
00:25:55,600 --> 00:25:59,240
Speaker 1: purpose on her life. She is not just of the

539
00:25:59,280 --> 00:26:02,560
Speaker 1: trophy that that's that that's that countercultural thing I'm talking about.

540
00:26:02,600 --> 00:26:05,280
Speaker 1: She's not just the thing that aids and helps me

541
00:26:05,280 --> 00:26:08,360
Speaker 1: get to where I am. But it's reciprocated because where

542
00:26:08,400 --> 00:26:11,400
Speaker 1: she's called to, I'm called to support her. I'm called

543
00:26:11,440 --> 00:26:14,840
Speaker 1: to fund that project. I'm called to assist in multiplying

544
00:26:14,840 --> 00:26:16,520
Speaker 1: the name of Jesus and vice versa.

545
00:26:16,600 --> 00:26:18,680
Speaker 2: Oh, my goodness, and you're such a good reciprocator.

546
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Speaker 3: I feel like that's something that needs to be done

547
00:26:21,200 --> 00:26:25,040
Speaker 3: in a relationship with reciprocation. Just take takes such a

548
00:26:25,040 --> 00:26:28,080
Speaker 3: good reciprocator and as just like paying attention and listening,

549
00:26:28,240 --> 00:26:29,040
Speaker 3: like those are all.

550
00:26:28,920 --> 00:26:29,959
Speaker 2: Like great traits.

551
00:26:30,119 --> 00:26:33,159
Speaker 3: I feel like another thing that is needed in a

552
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Speaker 3: man as a man who does listen and takes action

553
00:26:36,680 --> 00:26:39,800
Speaker 3: in accordance to like listening as well too. So it's

554
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Speaker 3: like if I have a problem or like I say something,

555
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Speaker 3: it's like he changes according to that.

556
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Speaker 2: And I feel like that's something that a man who

557
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Speaker 2: was ready for marriage does that a man who not

558
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Speaker 2: necessarily is isn't doesn't do.

559
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Speaker 1: And also.

560
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Speaker 5: Because hus and joshn you just that pillow and bring

561
00:27:01,880 --> 00:27:05,080
Speaker 5: it down off the thing, Yeah, because I mean you

562
00:27:05,119 --> 00:27:07,560
Speaker 5: just stand it up like that, Like I said, yeah,

563
00:27:07,680 --> 00:27:15,359
Speaker 5: like that, we should have told them, wait for.

564
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Speaker 1: What I need everything that will preach everything.

565
00:27:27,440 --> 00:27:30,320
Speaker 3: So as a woman, I feel as though, and even

566
00:27:30,400 --> 00:27:34,760
Speaker 3: just like in relationship, you have to teach the other

567
00:27:34,800 --> 00:27:40,800
Speaker 3: person how to love you. And as a woman, it

568
00:27:40,880 --> 00:27:45,840
Speaker 3: doesn't serve us to not be heard. I think that

569
00:27:46,359 --> 00:27:52,320
Speaker 3: it's very important to know how to please your woman,

570
00:27:52,840 --> 00:27:57,360
Speaker 3: not just in the bedroom, but please her mentally, to

571
00:27:57,640 --> 00:28:03,399
Speaker 3: understand her where she's coming from and know that she

572
00:28:03,560 --> 00:28:07,879
Speaker 3: loves you. She's your helpmate. So the suggestions that she

573
00:28:08,000 --> 00:28:11,679
Speaker 3: gives you, the things that she says, it is to

574
00:28:11,880 --> 00:28:14,240
Speaker 3: help you, not just with her, but in life.

575
00:28:14,680 --> 00:28:18,520
Speaker 2: You know, I really do believe that a man who.

576
00:28:18,359 --> 00:28:22,479
Speaker 3: Treats his women right, is blessed in the other areas

577
00:28:22,480 --> 00:28:24,600
Speaker 3: of his life. And I do believe that it pours

578
00:28:24,600 --> 00:28:27,879
Speaker 3: out from that because us as women, we are multipliers.

579
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Speaker 2: And so that's why.

580
00:28:29,800 --> 00:28:32,399
Speaker 3: I say that it's important for a man to take

581
00:28:32,520 --> 00:28:35,320
Speaker 3: suggestions to heart and to take it back up with God.

582
00:28:35,359 --> 00:28:37,080
Speaker 3: Like I'm not just saying, oh, listen to everything that

583
00:28:37,119 --> 00:28:42,040
Speaker 3: I say, but if something comes from me, through me, from.

584
00:28:41,800 --> 00:28:44,920
Speaker 2: God to you, it would it would serve.

585
00:28:44,720 --> 00:28:49,360
Speaker 3: You to listen and to also serve me, so that

586
00:28:49,400 --> 00:28:51,960
Speaker 3: way I can serve you better. That way we can

587
00:28:52,320 --> 00:28:54,840
Speaker 3: continue that reciprocal relationship.

588
00:28:55,040 --> 00:28:56,400
Speaker 5: Let me ask you this, how did you find the

589
00:28:56,440 --> 00:28:58,960
Speaker 5: balance or I know y'all probably still find the balance

590
00:28:59,280 --> 00:29:02,800
Speaker 5: about what you y'all share publicly versus what y'all hold privately.

591
00:29:03,360 --> 00:29:05,440
Speaker 6: How y'all been finding that out?

592
00:29:05,640 --> 00:29:08,560
Speaker 1: I would say, prayer discern them.

593
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Speaker 6: God.

594
00:29:09,520 --> 00:29:11,320
Speaker 1: A lot of what we capture we're not recording for

595
00:29:11,400 --> 00:29:12,360
Speaker 1: our page.

596
00:29:12,880 --> 00:29:13,360
Speaker 2: That's true.

597
00:29:13,480 --> 00:29:17,520
Speaker 1: It's really just we we capture each other. It literally

598
00:29:17,600 --> 00:29:20,480
Speaker 1: just live, going back and clipping the stuff on live

599
00:29:20,920 --> 00:29:23,640
Speaker 1: and then just being ourselves. Like anything you see on

600
00:29:23,800 --> 00:29:30,680
Speaker 1: our page was not like all right, baby ten, get

601
00:29:30,720 --> 00:29:32,600
Speaker 1: it right. You know what I'm saying, we got people

602
00:29:32,640 --> 00:29:39,400
Speaker 1: to please. It's like, yo, that would take Jacob. It's like, yo,

603
00:29:39,400 --> 00:29:42,320
Speaker 1: we much rather just be ourselves, be accept about whoever

604
00:29:42,320 --> 00:29:44,640
Speaker 1: be rejected by another. It's like it doesn't matter. We

605
00:29:44,720 --> 00:29:48,640
Speaker 1: have literally been healed by the sickness of people pleasing.

606
00:29:48,960 --> 00:29:49,440
Speaker 6: That's good.

607
00:29:49,560 --> 00:29:52,760
Speaker 1: That is a vible infection. And especially it's so hard

608
00:29:53,120 --> 00:29:56,120
Speaker 1: not to people please because the more that we grow,

609
00:29:56,840 --> 00:29:59,600
Speaker 1: the more my mom would say, new levels, new devils.

610
00:30:00,120 --> 00:30:01,960
Speaker 1: It starts you start seeing Okay, once it was this

611
00:30:02,000 --> 00:30:04,080
Speaker 1: demographic target and us. Once it was these people. Oh,

612
00:30:04,120 --> 00:30:05,960
Speaker 1: then you gets to sea. They jealous. But now you

613
00:30:06,040 --> 00:30:09,920
Speaker 1: got people who have more than you, who are more successful,

614
00:30:09,920 --> 00:30:11,520
Speaker 1: that are like trying to tell you what you should

615
00:30:11,560 --> 00:30:13,520
Speaker 1: or should not be doing. And you know, I see

616
00:30:13,600 --> 00:30:15,640
Speaker 1: keys all over this place. And one of the things

617
00:30:15,640 --> 00:30:17,120
Speaker 1: that really speaks to me right now is the fact

618
00:30:17,120 --> 00:30:18,600
Speaker 1: that if I told you, right now, grab that key

619
00:30:18,600 --> 00:30:21,680
Speaker 1: and go open up your huh, your car, me me

620
00:30:21,720 --> 00:30:24,440
Speaker 1: out there looking like Boo with the food. But that

621
00:30:24,560 --> 00:30:28,160
Speaker 1: worked for somebody. But God is carving her own key,

622
00:30:28,600 --> 00:30:30,200
Speaker 1: and I really love that. Also, I wanted to kind

623
00:30:30,200 --> 00:30:32,960
Speaker 1: of tag as a man, what that's like. It takes

624
00:30:33,000 --> 00:30:36,280
Speaker 1: a lot of humility to receive instruction. It takes me

625
00:30:36,400 --> 00:30:38,880
Speaker 1: not wanting to flinch, Like, man, I'm so set in

626
00:30:38,880 --> 00:30:40,280
Speaker 1: my mind about what i want to do and how

627
00:30:40,280 --> 00:30:41,720
Speaker 1: I'm gonna do it. How you gonna come and tell

628
00:30:41,760 --> 00:30:45,640
Speaker 1: me it? Sujudge me. No. If I'm going to grow,

629
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Speaker 1: I have to be willing to listen, because listening is

630
00:30:48,320 --> 00:30:52,080
Speaker 1: the key, but comprehension is the lock. Yeah, it's like

631
00:30:52,440 --> 00:30:55,440
Speaker 1: I understand if she has my best interest at heart,

632
00:30:56,720 --> 00:30:59,240
Speaker 1: she loves me for me, she sees the purpose all

633
00:30:59,280 --> 00:31:01,600
Speaker 1: my life. She's gonna aim me in the right direction,

634
00:31:01,880 --> 00:31:03,640
Speaker 1: even if it don't make sense to me right now.

635
00:31:04,080 --> 00:31:06,680
Speaker 1: There's been so many times that she said something and

636
00:31:06,720 --> 00:31:09,080
Speaker 1: I'm like, I'm take it back with the Lord, take

637
00:31:09,080 --> 00:31:12,840
Speaker 1: it back to the feet of Jesus, right, And she's right.

638
00:31:13,160 --> 00:31:15,200
Speaker 1: But because in my man brain, I'm like, man, I

639
00:31:15,240 --> 00:31:17,840
Speaker 1: know what I'm doing. You know, it takes me having

640
00:31:17,840 --> 00:31:20,600
Speaker 1: to hit my head or make a mistake and realize

641
00:31:20,600 --> 00:31:22,480
Speaker 1: you're wrong. And sometimes it could be last minute, or

642
00:31:22,520 --> 00:31:24,800
Speaker 1: it could be just before last minute, and I change

643
00:31:25,280 --> 00:31:27,960
Speaker 1: and it also, I would say, as a man, I'm

644
00:31:28,000 --> 00:31:30,840
Speaker 1: also wired to try to fix stuff absolutely, but I

645
00:31:30,920 --> 00:31:34,920
Speaker 1: found it most effectively just listen, like sometimes she don't

646
00:31:34,920 --> 00:31:37,920
Speaker 1: want me to create a solution. And I also realize

647
00:31:37,920 --> 00:31:42,680
Speaker 1: it's not always about me. So if she's sad or yeah,

648
00:31:42,680 --> 00:31:44,880
Speaker 1: as a young man, you know especially you know it's

649
00:31:44,880 --> 00:31:47,000
Speaker 1: depicted as a man. You gotta fix, you gotta build,

650
00:31:47,040 --> 00:31:48,800
Speaker 1: you gotta listen, you gotta act on it. Like as

651
00:31:48,840 --> 00:31:53,080
Speaker 1: soon as you say someone like okay, get a whole

652
00:31:53,120 --> 00:32:01,640
Speaker 1: word out. Baby moved fast.

653
00:32:02,720 --> 00:32:04,680
Speaker 2: Kind of like that videos you just.

654
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Speaker 1: One thing she's talling me old hallelujah for move with intention, Yes,

655
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Speaker 1: slow for show, Move with intention. Think before you speak,

656
00:32:16,920 --> 00:32:19,080
Speaker 1: Think before you act, Think before you create, think before

657
00:32:19,120 --> 00:32:23,160
Speaker 1: we post. Because of anything, we want to post to

658
00:32:23,240 --> 00:32:26,320
Speaker 1: glorify Jesus Christ. That is our mission. You know, I've

659
00:32:26,320 --> 00:32:30,000
Speaker 1: always said to glorify God, to edify the body of Christ,

660
00:32:30,000 --> 00:32:31,040
Speaker 1: and to terrify the devil.

661
00:32:31,280 --> 00:32:34,480
Speaker 5: Let me ask you this, because you read the comments,

662
00:32:35,080 --> 00:32:37,200
Speaker 5: how do you not internalize it and start trying to

663
00:32:37,280 --> 00:32:42,040
Speaker 5: change your content to be suitable to whatever the comment was.

664
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Speaker 1: You can't forsake the mission for a moment.

665
00:32:44,440 --> 00:32:46,360
Speaker 6: How do you handle it? How do you handle it?

666
00:32:46,400 --> 00:32:48,760
Speaker 5: Because, like you said, you have a mindset of saying

667
00:32:48,760 --> 00:32:50,520
Speaker 5: I'm trying to protect her from the very thing she

668
00:32:50,560 --> 00:32:53,240
Speaker 5: ain't watching, she ain't reading them comments, and so your

669
00:32:53,240 --> 00:32:55,840
Speaker 5: mind is like, how do you try to protect what's

670
00:32:55,840 --> 00:32:56,720
Speaker 5: not affecting her?

671
00:32:56,840 --> 00:32:58,800
Speaker 1: I try to make sure my vision never gets distorted

672
00:32:58,880 --> 00:33:01,960
Speaker 1: from a negative comment. I always keep her grounded, because

673
00:33:02,000 --> 00:33:03,760
Speaker 1: even if she doesn't see it, it's like after a

674
00:33:03,800 --> 00:33:07,240
Speaker 1: mind or baby, you're loved, you're seeing, you're valued. What

675
00:33:07,280 --> 00:33:09,959
Speaker 1: we're doing is the right thing to do. Even if

676
00:33:09,960 --> 00:33:11,920
Speaker 1: we're messing up, even if we're falling on our face,

677
00:33:11,960 --> 00:33:14,320
Speaker 1: even if we're embarrassing each other, even if we're humiliating

678
00:33:14,320 --> 00:33:17,600
Speaker 1: ourselves publicly, we are in the will of God. And

679
00:33:17,640 --> 00:33:19,760
Speaker 1: so it takes me as a man to keep her

680
00:33:19,840 --> 00:33:21,719
Speaker 1: rooted in the promise that God has for us.

681
00:33:21,720 --> 00:33:25,120
Speaker 5: You said, even if we're embarrassing ourselves publicly, we're still

682
00:33:25,160 --> 00:33:27,120
Speaker 5: fulfilling the will of God. So tell me something that

683
00:33:27,200 --> 00:33:30,400
Speaker 5: y'all did, because I'm just oblivious to it. What is

684
00:33:30,520 --> 00:33:33,640
Speaker 5: something that you did or y'all did the content y'all

685
00:33:33,640 --> 00:33:37,640
Speaker 5: put out there that people saw negative, and then y'all

686
00:33:37,680 --> 00:33:40,080
Speaker 5: had to come back and be like, so what we

687
00:33:40,400 --> 00:33:42,400
Speaker 5: enjoyed it or maybe we had the.

688
00:33:44,240 --> 00:33:44,880
Speaker 6: Some came to it.

689
00:33:45,160 --> 00:33:50,640
Speaker 3: I feel like PDA like any CDA there, man. I

690
00:33:50,680 --> 00:33:53,200
Speaker 3: mean they're just like, oh, well, you know, we're not

691
00:33:53,240 --> 00:33:56,239
Speaker 3: supposed to be kissing, as you know recording crist We're

692
00:33:56,280 --> 00:33:56,880
Speaker 3: not supposed to be.

693
00:33:57,200 --> 00:33:58,200
Speaker 1: Hugged up and all that.

694
00:34:00,320 --> 00:34:08,680
Speaker 3: Yeah, yes, but we are long distance, you know, so

695
00:34:08,760 --> 00:34:11,319
Speaker 3: it's like for us even that's a modern day thing,

696
00:34:11,440 --> 00:34:13,560
Speaker 3: like they don't usually get to touch each other, and

697
00:34:13,600 --> 00:34:15,439
Speaker 3: so it's like when we do get in person, it's

698
00:34:15,440 --> 00:34:17,240
Speaker 3: like wow, like grateful.

699
00:34:17,280 --> 00:34:21,359
Speaker 1: You're right, God, you're right.

700
00:34:21,480 --> 00:34:23,720
Speaker 5: So people say they have a problem with y'all holding

701
00:34:23,800 --> 00:34:27,399
Speaker 5: hands or kissing, just being publicly. So y'all would kiss

702
00:34:27,480 --> 00:34:31,400
Speaker 5: and show y'all show picture of video of y'all kissing online.

703
00:34:31,280 --> 00:34:32,600
Speaker 2: D We did that one time.

704
00:34:32,920 --> 00:34:35,960
Speaker 6: And then what the people say, They said, y'all shouldn't kissing.

705
00:34:35,760 --> 00:34:37,239
Speaker 1: This Christians, they were just yeah, it was just like

706
00:34:37,280 --> 00:34:40,040
Speaker 1: many y'all too close? I love Yeah, y'all y'ah way

707
00:34:40,040 --> 00:34:41,480
Speaker 1: too close. I don't know.

708
00:34:41,560 --> 00:34:42,839
Speaker 2: I think I think they're like.

709
00:34:42,840 --> 00:34:44,239
Speaker 1: That is my sister. So you know what I'm saying,

710
00:34:44,480 --> 00:34:52,399
Speaker 1: Like all I'm saying, I'm just being complete, completely real.

711
00:34:53,960 --> 00:34:56,200
Speaker 1: I've learned and this is this is a this is

712
00:34:56,560 --> 00:34:59,960
Speaker 1: something I've learned recently because as a twenty one year old,

713
00:35:00,080 --> 00:35:02,960
Speaker 1: and flesh does get weak, absolutely, and so my horme

714
00:35:02,960 --> 00:35:04,920
Speaker 1: moan was going crazy. It could be a byproduc of

715
00:35:04,920 --> 00:35:06,960
Speaker 1: the how I'm feeling. It's unintentional. Even though where I

716
00:35:07,000 --> 00:35:08,880
Speaker 1: love them touch on her, I'm not trying to be sexual.

717
00:35:08,880 --> 00:35:11,359
Speaker 1: It's just like I crave her in a way that

718
00:35:11,640 --> 00:35:15,399
Speaker 1: is deeply affectionate. I've learned as recently though, as I'm

719
00:35:15,480 --> 00:35:17,560
Speaker 1: like taking these thtarts Chris, finding them and bringing them

720
00:35:17,560 --> 00:35:20,919
Speaker 1: back to the One of God, that skin is enough

721
00:35:21,960 --> 00:35:25,480
Speaker 1: because I've learned that true intimacy is knowing that I

722
00:35:25,560 --> 00:35:29,480
Speaker 1: have access to her and it's exclusive. Yes, So I

723
00:35:29,480 --> 00:35:32,880
Speaker 1: don't have to prove myself or or or express myself

724
00:35:32,920 --> 00:35:37,719
Speaker 1: sexually to feel worthy of love, especially as a young man,

725
00:35:37,800 --> 00:35:38,399
Speaker 1: where was like.

726
00:35:38,840 --> 00:35:40,120
Speaker 6: That's what the validation was.

727
00:35:40,320 --> 00:35:42,279
Speaker 5: Yeah, it's like, man, I know I'm good at this.

728
00:35:42,520 --> 00:35:48,239
Speaker 5: You know what I'm saying. They need to hear this. Yeah,

729
00:35:48,640 --> 00:35:51,320
Speaker 5: I want them to hear this part. As a Christian

730
00:35:51,440 --> 00:35:56,760
Speaker 5: man raised in the churches, steal, what were you brainwashed.

731
00:35:56,080 --> 00:35:57,840
Speaker 6: In the thinking true masculinity was?

732
00:35:58,320 --> 00:35:59,840
Speaker 2: Oh my gosh question.

733
00:36:00,080 --> 00:36:03,280
Speaker 1: Okay, being raised in the church, what was I brainwashed

734
00:36:03,480 --> 00:36:04,120
Speaker 1: into thinking?

735
00:36:05,560 --> 00:36:08,440
Speaker 5: Because you're talking about crucifying your flesh. Yes, And what

736
00:36:08,520 --> 00:36:11,279
Speaker 5: I was talking about was how we were taught, Like

737
00:36:11,320 --> 00:36:13,200
Speaker 5: you said, I know I can do this. It's like

738
00:36:13,320 --> 00:36:16,320
Speaker 5: there's a bravado that comes with our sexuality.

739
00:36:15,719 --> 00:36:18,040
Speaker 6: To say that we have to.

740
00:36:17,360 --> 00:36:18,719
Speaker 1: Show prove ourselves.

741
00:36:19,000 --> 00:36:22,240
Speaker 5: I ain't gay, you know what I'm saying, because guy's

742
00:36:22,320 --> 00:36:24,239
Speaker 5: being a guy will sit there and look at you

743
00:36:24,320 --> 00:36:26,759
Speaker 5: and be like, you ain't hit that yet. Know what

744
00:36:26,800 --> 00:36:32,840
Speaker 5: I'm saying. You ain't no way, no man way.

745
00:36:32,840 --> 00:36:35,760
Speaker 1: I'm talking about that. Rod Stad would comfort you, know,

746
00:36:36,440 --> 00:36:37,080
Speaker 1: so they're going to.

747
00:36:37,040 --> 00:36:38,560
Speaker 5: Tell you that, and in your brain you'd be like,

748
00:36:38,960 --> 00:36:40,640
Speaker 5: why are you trying to honor God? But they were

749
00:36:40,719 --> 00:36:44,160
Speaker 5: telling me that I'm not this like, man, you ain't

750
00:36:44,360 --> 00:36:46,200
Speaker 5: let me tell you, johnsh I understand you love the

751
00:36:46,200 --> 00:36:48,439
Speaker 5: Lord and all that, but it ain't no way, ain't

752
00:36:48,480 --> 00:36:50,200
Speaker 5: no way I'm going to.

753
00:36:49,160 --> 00:36:50,680
Speaker 1: Be heard that dude.

754
00:36:50,760 --> 00:36:51,359
Speaker 6: That's what I'm saying.

755
00:36:51,360 --> 00:36:54,520
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. And honestly, I take those

756
00:36:54,560 --> 00:36:57,799
Speaker 1: things not as inconveniced but an opportunity because a lot

757
00:36:57,840 --> 00:37:01,239
Speaker 1: of them, even though I'm unlearn a lot of their

758
00:37:01,280 --> 00:37:03,920
Speaker 1: minds is are concrete and so it's sometimes taking me

759
00:37:04,000 --> 00:37:06,239
Speaker 1: just planting that seed and be telling myself my seed

760
00:37:06,320 --> 00:37:09,960
Speaker 1: is enough, saying to them, I said, yo, I'm trying

761
00:37:10,000 --> 00:37:12,640
Speaker 1: to honor the Lord, you know, because first of all,

762
00:37:13,200 --> 00:37:15,160
Speaker 1: I have fallen short. I mean, there's been times we

763
00:37:15,200 --> 00:37:17,920
Speaker 1: have to repent and get back up again and not

764
00:37:18,040 --> 00:37:20,520
Speaker 1: drowning that guilt or that shame, because the longer we're there,

765
00:37:20,719 --> 00:37:22,600
Speaker 1: the worst we feel, and it knocks us off our pivot.

766
00:37:22,840 --> 00:37:24,920
Speaker 1: But in those moments where I actually am focused on

767
00:37:24,960 --> 00:37:26,640
Speaker 1: the mission that God has for us, and we'll CRUs

768
00:37:26,640 --> 00:37:29,320
Speaker 1: find our flesh, setting those boundaries to strengthen our self control.

769
00:37:29,520 --> 00:37:31,880
Speaker 1: And somebody got the audacity to say, man, come on, bro,

770
00:37:32,080 --> 00:37:34,200
Speaker 1: She's fine, Bro, man, you will go ahead. Come on, man.

771
00:37:36,440 --> 00:37:39,560
Speaker 1: I'm like, look here, and I'm trying not to be

772
00:37:39,640 --> 00:37:41,840
Speaker 1: judgmental because I know moments like that, I could easily

773
00:37:42,160 --> 00:37:44,160
Speaker 1: clock tea. You know what I'm saying, I could easily

774
00:37:44,280 --> 00:37:46,520
Speaker 1: like But that's why you didn't work out. That's why this,

775
00:37:46,680 --> 00:37:48,719
Speaker 1: that's why you still say that I could easily. But

776
00:37:48,760 --> 00:37:52,040
Speaker 1: I say this to Stem, I said, I'm different, and

777
00:37:52,040 --> 00:37:56,040
Speaker 1: so is my relationship. Our relationship is unprecedented. Our relationship

778
00:37:56,080 --> 00:37:58,160
Speaker 1: means a lot to me. If I give her access,

779
00:37:58,160 --> 00:38:01,000
Speaker 1: she didn't earn a vice versa. I'm based planning seeds

780
00:38:01,000 --> 00:38:03,680
Speaker 1: of heartbreak because it's like, if I'm doing this and

781
00:38:03,719 --> 00:38:05,360
Speaker 1: she's doing this, it's like we're telling each other we

782
00:38:05,360 --> 00:38:07,480
Speaker 1: don't want this to last. So it's like we have

783
00:38:07,560 --> 00:38:10,239
Speaker 1: to continue to stay focused and say, Okay, this is

784
00:38:10,280 --> 00:38:13,719
Speaker 1: a gift from God and realizing that it's not just

785
00:38:13,760 --> 00:38:15,600
Speaker 1: a gift from God to be pleasure, but it's to

786
00:38:15,680 --> 00:38:19,480
Speaker 1: be fruitful and to multiply. It's about teaching people in

787
00:38:19,520 --> 00:38:22,680
Speaker 1: a way that's digestible. I've learned that I don't listen

788
00:38:22,960 --> 00:38:25,799
Speaker 1: when I feel judged. I'm not. I'm not I'm not

789
00:38:26,000 --> 00:38:29,400
Speaker 1: receiving as easy as I would if somebody met me

790
00:38:29,440 --> 00:38:31,520
Speaker 1: where I was and say, you know what, bruh, I

791
00:38:31,640 --> 00:38:34,040
Speaker 1: understand what you're feeling as opposed to be like the

792
00:38:34,120 --> 00:38:36,480
Speaker 1: church and masculinity, how I see it. I was always

793
00:38:36,480 --> 00:38:39,320
Speaker 1: taught test drive to call for you by absolutely you

794
00:38:39,360 --> 00:38:41,879
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, like you know you will stay

795
00:38:41,920 --> 00:38:45,240
Speaker 1: a version? What did you get married? And all upsetting?

796
00:38:45,360 --> 00:38:45,560
Speaker 5: Man?

797
00:38:46,280 --> 00:38:52,399
Speaker 1: You know, one person for the rest of my life.

798
00:38:53,000 --> 00:38:56,600
Speaker 1: Lord Jesus. It's like I remember like feeling that way.

799
00:38:56,640 --> 00:38:58,120
Speaker 1: It was like, you know, I feel like I was like, Lord,

800
00:38:58,120 --> 00:39:00,000
Speaker 1: I got to try to find somebody that at least

801
00:39:00,440 --> 00:39:03,879
Speaker 1: is somewhat going to sensually please me. But I've learned

802
00:39:03,880 --> 00:39:06,160
Speaker 1: that I'll be pleased as long as I'm pleasing God teach,

803
00:39:06,600 --> 00:39:09,000
Speaker 1: because that's the word. When we get married, we can

804
00:39:09,040 --> 00:39:12,600
Speaker 1: teach each other that part how we want to be pleased.

805
00:39:12,640 --> 00:39:15,919
Speaker 1: That's why, man, I think I can speak for everybody

806
00:39:16,120 --> 00:39:21,000
Speaker 1: that is ever forunicated. We wish we were all virgins, Yeah,

807
00:39:21,719 --> 00:39:25,640
Speaker 1: because anybody who's ever fortunicated. Man, it's like it's like

808
00:39:25,640 --> 00:39:28,120
Speaker 1: I tell I said, maybe please forgive me, And I

809
00:39:28,160 --> 00:39:30,960
Speaker 1: speak for every young man, please forgive me for any

810
00:39:31,000 --> 00:39:33,319
Speaker 1: woman that I was ever sexually intimate with that was

811
00:39:33,360 --> 00:39:36,759
Speaker 1: not you, because they were not you. And so it

812
00:39:36,800 --> 00:39:40,960
Speaker 1: takes me having to realize, Okay, purifying yourself, keep yourself clean.

813
00:39:41,560 --> 00:39:44,440
Speaker 1: It may seem boring, it may seem like, man, I

814
00:39:44,440 --> 00:39:46,520
Speaker 1: ain't having no funs.

815
00:39:49,040 --> 00:39:51,600
Speaker 2: I feel like something that we've learned too.

816
00:39:51,560 --> 00:39:52,120
Speaker 1: Is that.

817
00:39:53,920 --> 00:39:59,000
Speaker 2: Horniness is like a distraction to get married exactly if

818
00:39:59,000 --> 00:40:05,399
Speaker 2: you if you want to sex, you know what I'm saying.

819
00:40:06,120 --> 00:40:12,319
Speaker 1: So for us, you.

820
00:40:12,320 --> 00:40:16,200
Speaker 3: Know, but it's like the purpose of sexual sin is distraction.

821
00:40:16,920 --> 00:40:20,239
Speaker 3: And so I feel like also for us, like we

822
00:40:20,640 --> 00:40:23,520
Speaker 3: have been learning to alchemize that and also to like

823
00:40:24,520 --> 00:40:26,879
Speaker 3: notice it as well too, Like, okay, like if we're

824
00:40:26,880 --> 00:40:28,920
Speaker 3: feeling this way, there's got to be something that the

825
00:40:28,960 --> 00:40:31,000
Speaker 3: devil is trying to distract us from that part.

826
00:40:31,040 --> 00:40:31,920
Speaker 2: God is trying to teach us.

827
00:40:31,920 --> 00:40:33,359
Speaker 3: God is trying to tell us in this moment, He's

828
00:40:33,360 --> 00:40:35,560
Speaker 3: trying to get us to do something, and it's like

829
00:40:35,680 --> 00:40:39,560
Speaker 3: this is a distraction, and so knowing that I think

830
00:40:39,640 --> 00:40:43,279
Speaker 3: also helps us in a way too. But honestly, like

831
00:40:44,360 --> 00:40:48,120
Speaker 3: waiting is hard sometimes too. And I think another one

832
00:40:48,120 --> 00:40:49,360
Speaker 3: of the comments.

833
00:40:49,000 --> 00:40:51,240
Speaker 2: That like people will always say is like, why haven't

834
00:40:51,239 --> 00:40:53,520
Speaker 2: you guys like gotten married yet, Like hurry.

835
00:40:53,920 --> 00:40:56,239
Speaker 3: I like, that's like one of the biggest things. And

836
00:40:56,280 --> 00:40:58,680
Speaker 3: it's like, of course there's positivity in that people want

837
00:40:58,719 --> 00:41:02,120
Speaker 3: to see us married, but we do not want to rush.

838
00:41:02,440 --> 00:41:05,080
Speaker 3: One thing that I've learned is that rushing is not

839
00:41:05,200 --> 00:41:08,840
Speaker 3: of God. Rushing is of the devil, and patience is

840
00:41:08,840 --> 00:41:12,440
Speaker 3: the fruit of the spirit. And so in the waiting,

841
00:41:12,719 --> 00:41:16,360
Speaker 3: we're getting to know each other truly to knowing Okay,

842
00:41:16,360 --> 00:41:18,560
Speaker 3: you know what, I actually do want to do this

843
00:41:18,600 --> 00:41:21,799
Speaker 3: thing with you for life, because you know, I think

844
00:41:21,840 --> 00:41:25,080
Speaker 3: that you know, rushing into marriage is like it it's

845
00:41:25,160 --> 00:41:26,800
Speaker 3: the easiest grounds for divorce.

846
00:41:27,080 --> 00:41:30,480
Speaker 5: Oh, so we're gonna unpack this because they don't know.

847
00:41:30,600 --> 00:41:32,799
Speaker 5: They don't know how long y'all been dating. They don't know,

848
00:41:33,080 --> 00:41:35,480
Speaker 5: and in their mind they're probably thinking he been together

849
00:41:35,520 --> 00:41:38,600
Speaker 5: for twenty one Yeah, maybe there was this and this,

850
00:41:38,680 --> 00:41:41,120
Speaker 5: and maybe they even for a long time. And so

851
00:41:41,239 --> 00:41:44,120
Speaker 5: before we reveal how long y'all actually been dating, we're

852
00:41:44,160 --> 00:41:46,279
Speaker 5: gonna go back to how y'all met?

853
00:41:48,880 --> 00:41:49,560
Speaker 1: Look at look at it?

854
00:41:51,600 --> 00:41:54,000
Speaker 6: All right, you're good. So how did y'all meet?

855
00:41:53,719 --> 00:42:00,440
Speaker 1: You go first? Well you don't, I forgot, So you

856
00:42:00,560 --> 00:42:02,600
Speaker 1: like to jump in a tag right now?

857
00:42:02,680 --> 00:42:02,879
Speaker 6: Yeah?

858
00:42:02,880 --> 00:42:08,360
Speaker 1: Already? Way yeah, okay, all right, I'm it was like

859
00:42:08,360 --> 00:42:11,040
Speaker 1: the real real deal, like just.

860
00:42:10,880 --> 00:42:13,520
Speaker 3: Day whatever you feel like you want to be on

861
00:42:13,600 --> 00:42:15,520
Speaker 3: the internet.

862
00:42:17,280 --> 00:42:18,879
Speaker 1: Because this is the dear future wife.

863
00:42:20,440 --> 00:42:23,120
Speaker 6: It's only six.

864
00:42:25,520 --> 00:42:27,960
Speaker 1: But okay, I just want to speak honestly, especially just

865
00:42:27,960 --> 00:42:30,719
Speaker 1: because anybody may be listening or like, okay, also, I'm

866
00:42:30,760 --> 00:42:33,560
Speaker 1: gonna say this preface. Don't be afraid of what happened

867
00:42:33,600 --> 00:42:34,960
Speaker 1: to how I did it? Just know that they worked

868
00:42:35,000 --> 00:42:40,160
Speaker 1: for me again, key, So I was I was in

869
00:42:40,400 --> 00:42:44,440
Speaker 1: a relationship before I met Julika, and we were at

870
00:42:44,480 --> 00:42:47,120
Speaker 1: the latter half of what I felt like was about

871
00:42:47,160 --> 00:42:50,080
Speaker 1: to be endo the breakup, And while I was planning

872
00:42:50,760 --> 00:42:53,480
Speaker 1: my exit, she was planning our future. So it was

873
00:42:53,520 --> 00:42:55,440
Speaker 1: more so like it was like I was low key

874
00:42:55,480 --> 00:42:57,600
Speaker 1: ready to go, and I'm like, I'm just trying to

875
00:42:57,600 --> 00:42:59,960
Speaker 1: see this thing through because I know I wanted to

876
00:43:00,080 --> 00:43:03,359
Speaker 1: proved to myself that I can maintain a healthy relationship,

877
00:43:03,640 --> 00:43:05,400
Speaker 1: but it wasn't really that healthy, and a lot of

878
00:43:05,440 --> 00:43:07,640
Speaker 1: it was because of me. And now I remember, like

879
00:43:07,719 --> 00:43:08,160
Speaker 1: we were.

880
00:43:08,040 --> 00:43:09,640
Speaker 6: Now put an age on at first. How were you

881
00:43:09,640 --> 00:43:09,840
Speaker 6: at this?

882
00:43:10,080 --> 00:43:13,759
Speaker 1: I was in college. I was about eighteen eighteen, eighteen

883
00:43:13,840 --> 00:43:14,160
Speaker 1: years old.

884
00:43:14,200 --> 00:43:17,000
Speaker 5: Yeah, so this is this is a conversation you haven't

885
00:43:17,000 --> 00:43:19,520
Speaker 5: at eighteen years old years old time I've been buried

886
00:43:19,560 --> 00:43:21,440
Speaker 5: and you're working on future and you working on your

887
00:43:21,480 --> 00:43:22,560
Speaker 5: exit plan eighteens.

888
00:43:22,640 --> 00:43:25,640
Speaker 1: Yes, so I'm just yeah, okay, yeah, yes, eighteen years old.

889
00:43:25,840 --> 00:43:28,120
Speaker 1: I remember we were just casually sitting next to each other.

890
00:43:28,520 --> 00:43:31,520
Speaker 1: And again I say this, ladies, don't feel afraid when

891
00:43:31,560 --> 00:43:34,080
Speaker 1: I say this.

892
00:43:34,239 --> 00:43:35,560
Speaker 2: I would never want to hear.

893
00:43:35,960 --> 00:43:41,920
Speaker 1: But it's the store. Yeah okay, So she was watching

894
00:43:41,920 --> 00:43:44,279
Speaker 1: tiktoks and I'm just sitting there, just tilling, you know

895
00:43:44,320 --> 00:43:47,000
Speaker 1: what I'm saying, glancing at nine there and I glanced

896
00:43:47,040 --> 00:43:50,120
Speaker 1: one time and here she is on the on the

897
00:43:50,160 --> 00:43:52,839
Speaker 1: explore page, and she watched the video for like three secs.

898
00:43:52,840 --> 00:43:54,759
Speaker 1: I said, oh my god, she's beautiful. But I had

899
00:43:54,760 --> 00:43:57,000
Speaker 1: the muzzle that I don't you know what I'm saying

900
00:43:57,000 --> 00:44:01,439
Speaker 1: that because I'm at a committal relationship A long man.

901
00:44:02,040 --> 00:44:04,680
Speaker 1: I said, I'm not about to express my attraction toward

902
00:44:04,719 --> 00:44:08,160
Speaker 1: this woman because first of all, it's it's unfruitful, you

903
00:44:08,200 --> 00:44:09,520
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. But it's a natural that I

904
00:44:09,520 --> 00:44:12,520
Speaker 1: was like, she's beautiful, and I said, man, all right, no, okay,

905
00:44:12,520 --> 00:44:14,799
Speaker 1: I forget about it. And then we finally broke up.

906
00:44:15,440 --> 00:44:17,120
Speaker 1: I pray that press and Lord, if it loved men,

907
00:44:19,640 --> 00:44:22,520
Speaker 1: you'll let me see that woman again. So I remember

908
00:44:22,680 --> 00:44:25,319
Speaker 1: my boys. We wake up every morning. I never saw

909
00:44:25,320 --> 00:44:27,239
Speaker 1: a page on her name. I saw her face for

910
00:44:27,280 --> 00:44:30,360
Speaker 1: three seconds. So I took instant connection, me and my

911
00:44:30,400 --> 00:44:33,360
Speaker 1: partners waking up every single one of five am Bible studies.

912
00:44:33,360 --> 00:44:36,120
Speaker 1: Prayer called you know the old fu you know, morning everybody.

913
00:44:36,200 --> 00:44:40,560
Speaker 1: Then glad to hear everybody here, you know what I'm saying.

914
00:44:40,560 --> 00:44:42,000
Speaker 1: We get up. We pray and see for each other,

915
00:44:42,040 --> 00:44:44,839
Speaker 1: support each other, talk about school and life, break over

916
00:44:44,880 --> 00:44:46,759
Speaker 1: the Bible. And then after all that was sading done.

917
00:44:46,800 --> 00:44:48,879
Speaker 1: One day of course, us being men, us being all

918
00:44:48,920 --> 00:44:51,640
Speaker 1: young single man, I was like, yo, shit, me the

919
00:44:51,640 --> 00:44:54,560
Speaker 1: finest girls you know, and we all sit the women

920
00:44:54,600 --> 00:44:57,200
Speaker 1: that we thought were beautiful. Yeah, I said my three.

921
00:44:57,719 --> 00:45:00,520
Speaker 1: Oh I'll see you who He sent this three? Oh yeah,

922
00:45:00,600 --> 00:45:02,680
Speaker 1: you got to take he said it three out of

923
00:45:02,719 --> 00:45:09,359
Speaker 1: that three Hollylujas. So here I am. I'm like, Joe,

924
00:45:13,520 --> 00:45:15,839
Speaker 1: we see what actors? That's what her name?

925
00:45:16,840 --> 00:45:17,319
Speaker 6: What name?

926
00:45:17,920 --> 00:45:20,520
Speaker 1: Sent me her page? So man, I'm looking at him like, wow,

927
00:45:20,680 --> 00:45:23,960
Speaker 1: this is her.

928
00:45:24,200 --> 00:45:25,560
Speaker 6: This came after our prayer.

929
00:45:25,640 --> 00:45:26,080
Speaker 4: Come this.

930
00:45:28,280 --> 00:45:36,439
Speaker 1: Just did he said Jesus and more abundantly. So I said, okay,

931
00:45:36,760 --> 00:45:38,279
Speaker 1: looking at the page so the expected, I said, okay,

932
00:45:38,280 --> 00:45:39,600
Speaker 1: this is the woman. This is what was this?

933
00:45:39,680 --> 00:45:40,040
Speaker 6: I saw?

934
00:45:40,360 --> 00:45:43,160
Speaker 1: Thought she was beautiful. I loved how well she sung.

935
00:45:43,320 --> 00:45:46,640
Speaker 1: I love how family oriented she was. I love how

936
00:45:46,680 --> 00:45:51,560
Speaker 1: expressive she was, her personality, her humor. But she wasn't

937
00:45:51,680 --> 00:45:56,400
Speaker 1: still at all. Her entire page was vibrant, it was loud,

938
00:45:56,440 --> 00:45:59,600
Speaker 1: it was beautiful. And then also I would read her captions,

939
00:45:59,880 --> 00:46:00,279
Speaker 1: you know.

940
00:46:00,239 --> 00:46:03,480
Speaker 5: Because when you know you, like most guys, they don't

941
00:46:03,480 --> 00:46:08,440
Speaker 5: be reading.

942
00:46:06,480 --> 00:46:11,640
Speaker 2: To read and along to write pieces of Old Testament.

943
00:46:11,640 --> 00:46:14,680
Speaker 1: I'm talking about old Testament, you know. But I would

944
00:46:14,680 --> 00:46:17,120
Speaker 1: sit and read it because I'm interested in her, only

945
00:46:17,120 --> 00:46:19,239
Speaker 1: investing things that you're interested in. Yes, I would read it.

946
00:46:19,400 --> 00:46:20,919
Speaker 1: I would see different side of her. I would see

947
00:46:20,920 --> 00:46:23,319
Speaker 1: more gentle, more, more and more loving, more and more

948
00:46:23,320 --> 00:46:25,600
Speaker 1: and more sensitive side of her. And she would be

949
00:46:25,640 --> 00:46:28,200
Speaker 1: openly vulnerable. And I love that about her because lot

950
00:46:28,239 --> 00:46:30,600
Speaker 1: of people got that mask on. So it's like you're

951
00:46:30,640 --> 00:46:32,919
Speaker 1: you're posting something and beautiful pictures, but you're also telling

952
00:46:33,000 --> 00:46:34,520
Speaker 1: us how you felt, how you were taking them, and

953
00:46:34,520 --> 00:46:35,560
Speaker 1: what you were going through mentally.

954
00:46:35,760 --> 00:46:39,880
Speaker 3: It's like, yes, like that's why because my social media,

955
00:46:40,440 --> 00:46:42,759
Speaker 3: you know, a lot of people get into content creation

956
00:46:42,840 --> 00:46:44,839
Speaker 3: to become a content creator, but for.

957
00:46:44,920 --> 00:46:49,480
Speaker 2: Me, it's like it's like an archive.

958
00:46:49,239 --> 00:46:53,400
Speaker 3: And like everything and memories diary exactly my online diary.

959
00:46:53,480 --> 00:46:56,160
Speaker 3: So that's that's how I treat it. I love to

960
00:46:56,160 --> 00:46:59,120
Speaker 3: go back and look and just read you be very vulnerable.

961
00:46:58,719 --> 00:47:01,840
Speaker 6: Like you you'd be like your inner thoughts and everything.

962
00:47:02,360 --> 00:47:04,279
Speaker 1: Yes, yes, I got a chance to.

963
00:47:04,400 --> 00:47:07,000
Speaker 6: Hear how she thinks feels.

964
00:47:08,560 --> 00:47:11,000
Speaker 1: I saw it. I was like, wow, like Shakespeare.

965
00:47:11,120 --> 00:47:11,800
Speaker 6: You know what I'm saying.

966
00:47:12,440 --> 00:47:17,120
Speaker 1: She's a writer, she's a thinker, she's a speaker. I'm like, yo,

967
00:47:17,200 --> 00:47:20,920
Speaker 1: she's she's perfect. And so I remember I saw a

968
00:47:20,920 --> 00:47:24,440
Speaker 1: specific post and this was a few actually a few

969
00:47:24,520 --> 00:47:26,680
Speaker 1: years later, going from eighteen. That was when I was eighteen.

970
00:47:26,719 --> 00:47:28,840
Speaker 1: But then I saw a nineteen year later. It was

971
00:47:28,880 --> 00:47:31,120
Speaker 1: a post she was talking about how she was a single, uh,

972
00:47:31,520 --> 00:47:34,080
Speaker 1: a woman in like want in love and she had

973
00:47:34,080 --> 00:47:36,239
Speaker 1: no hope that she's found another man and me not

974
00:47:36,280 --> 00:47:38,560
Speaker 1: ever reaching my shot. I was like, yo, just continue

975
00:47:38,560 --> 00:47:42,480
Speaker 1: to trust God's timing. In the conversation, I just commented,

976
00:47:42,480 --> 00:47:45,960
Speaker 1: I said, trust God's timing. Mind you, I never showed interest.

977
00:47:46,280 --> 00:47:48,680
Speaker 1: You know, I thought maybe she had never read my comments.

978
00:47:48,680 --> 00:47:50,319
Speaker 5: So why didn't you when you when you when it

979
00:47:50,360 --> 00:47:52,560
Speaker 5: was revealed to you that this is that girl you've

980
00:47:52,560 --> 00:47:53,279
Speaker 5: been looking for?

981
00:47:53,760 --> 00:47:55,360
Speaker 6: Why didn't you DM her? Then?

982
00:47:55,400 --> 00:47:58,759
Speaker 1: I was scared. I like to think, I ain't got

983
00:47:58,760 --> 00:48:00,640
Speaker 1: game with people will say otherwise. You know what I'm saying.

984
00:48:00,640 --> 00:48:03,960
Speaker 1: I'm like, oh lord, I'm trembling. I'm worried. I'm like, yo,

985
00:48:04,000 --> 00:48:05,440
Speaker 1: what if I said the wrong things? You know, I

986
00:48:05,440 --> 00:48:07,000
Speaker 1: don't want to just send hard eyes. I don't want

987
00:48:07,040 --> 00:48:08,359
Speaker 1: to be normal. I don't want to be this. At

988
00:48:08,400 --> 00:48:10,520
Speaker 1: the third so I said, Yo, she deserves a man

989
00:48:10,520 --> 00:48:13,040
Speaker 1: who has intention and good intentions. She deserves a man

990
00:48:13,080 --> 00:48:15,600
Speaker 1: who actually is intentional about what she's going to say,

991
00:48:15,680 --> 00:48:17,799
Speaker 1: what he's going to say, and how to approach, because

992
00:48:17,800 --> 00:48:19,920
Speaker 1: she's the woman that needs to be approach respectfully, you know.

993
00:48:20,080 --> 00:48:22,200
Speaker 1: So I'm also thinking like, oh, you know, she never

994
00:48:22,200 --> 00:48:23,840
Speaker 1: gonna see my stuff. She got a whole lot of

995
00:48:23,840 --> 00:48:26,160
Speaker 1: followers and whatnot, and then a lot of people that

996
00:48:26,200 --> 00:48:29,080
Speaker 1: I followed that was aspired by athletes and authors and

997
00:48:29,080 --> 00:48:31,200
Speaker 1: actors and musicians like, man, they follow her. You know

998
00:48:31,239 --> 00:48:34,080
Speaker 1: what I'm saying. I'm like, dang, I'm like, I'm just

999
00:48:34,440 --> 00:48:37,040
Speaker 1: litl o, David. You know what I'm saying. The brother's

1000
00:48:37,040 --> 00:48:40,239
Speaker 1: inside well, the frankasist, the murders smelling all good. You know,

1001
00:48:40,320 --> 00:48:41,640
Speaker 1: I'm like, oh God, it's there.

1002
00:48:41,920 --> 00:48:42,000
Speaker 5: She.

1003
00:48:44,520 --> 00:48:46,360
Speaker 1: So I was like a lot of fear. You know

1004
00:48:46,360 --> 00:48:49,200
Speaker 1: what I'm saying, that that mental hologram that would stop me.

1005
00:48:49,239 --> 00:48:54,520
Speaker 1: I'm like, man, like you know, you typing in back,

1006
00:48:54,560 --> 00:48:58,120
Speaker 1: sat back, Saint Dash. And so finally I heard the

1007
00:48:58,160 --> 00:49:00,799
Speaker 1: lawd say, stop being scared, man, come on, come on,

1008
00:49:00,880 --> 00:49:02,840
Speaker 1: lock in, lock in. And so it took me realize

1009
00:49:02,840 --> 00:49:04,640
Speaker 1: that I said, okay, God, before I ever reached out

1010
00:49:04,680 --> 00:49:05,719
Speaker 1: to her, prepare me.

1011
00:49:06,080 --> 00:49:07,680
Speaker 6: That's why I want to hear you talk about it.

1012
00:49:07,680 --> 00:49:11,239
Speaker 1: Prepare me to be whatever man she needs in her life.

1013
00:49:11,280 --> 00:49:13,359
Speaker 1: Because in my mind I'm thinking, Okay, in the back

1014
00:49:13,400 --> 00:49:15,240
Speaker 1: of my mind, I said, I might be a husband,

1015
00:49:15,560 --> 00:49:17,040
Speaker 1: but also the fourth of my mind like, I might

1016
00:49:17,120 --> 00:49:19,360
Speaker 1: just be somebody to aid. You know what I'm saying

1017
00:49:19,440 --> 00:49:22,120
Speaker 1: as an assignment, But in my mind, I'm like, she

1018
00:49:22,239 --> 00:49:28,560
Speaker 1: is a beautiful assignment. I said, Lord, you can't a

1019
00:49:28,600 --> 00:49:31,600
Speaker 1: lot of people. You gotta be helping them. But all Lord,

1020
00:49:31,680 --> 00:49:34,719
Speaker 1: this is different. So I said, alright, God, speak to

1021
00:49:34,760 --> 00:49:36,560
Speaker 1: the words of you that spoken again in all seriousness,

1022
00:49:36,600 --> 00:49:39,359
Speaker 1: real for like I remember dying to my flesh. I said, God,

1023
00:49:39,360 --> 00:49:41,040
Speaker 1: I got a lot of baggage. I got a lot

1024
00:49:41,040 --> 00:49:43,239
Speaker 1: of ways. I need to fix a lot of things.

1025
00:49:43,239 --> 00:49:44,839
Speaker 1: I need to renew a lot of things. I need

1026
00:49:44,880 --> 00:49:46,600
Speaker 1: a lot of people, need to forgive, a lot of

1027
00:49:46,719 --> 00:49:49,480
Speaker 1: a lot of doors, need to close. Closure was necessary

1028
00:49:49,640 --> 00:49:51,480
Speaker 1: when it came to past relationships, and I was like,

1029
00:49:51,480 --> 00:49:53,080
Speaker 1: I don't want to move forward and I don't want

1030
00:49:53,080 --> 00:49:55,520
Speaker 1: to bleed on somebody who never cut me, because as

1031
00:49:55,600 --> 00:49:57,520
Speaker 1: vulnerable as she was, she would talk about the trauma

1032
00:49:57,520 --> 00:49:59,400
Speaker 1: that she's experienced. And I'm like, bro, the last thing

1033
00:49:59,400 --> 00:50:00,920
Speaker 1: you want to do is get her ship and sink it.

1034
00:50:01,360 --> 00:50:03,239
Speaker 1: And so I remember like literally fasting. I was like, Lord,

1035
00:50:03,239 --> 00:50:05,399
Speaker 1: I don't know what I'm fasting for, but it's for her.

1036
00:50:05,760 --> 00:50:07,759
Speaker 1: And so I remember at the end of my fast, well,

1037
00:50:07,760 --> 00:50:10,719
Speaker 1: I was so hungry too, but it was when I

1038
00:50:10,760 --> 00:50:12,600
Speaker 1: was a hungry and staid I literally shot the message

1039
00:50:12,840 --> 00:50:14,360
Speaker 1: for real. I was like, Lord, like, all right, I

1040
00:50:14,360 --> 00:50:18,960
Speaker 1: could do it. So I believe it was twenty third

1041
00:50:19,360 --> 00:50:23,680
Speaker 1: it was June twenty seventh, seven June twenty seventh. Then

1042
00:50:23,680 --> 00:50:25,200
Speaker 1: I reached out to when I was telling I said,

1043
00:50:25,280 --> 00:50:27,360
Speaker 1: I love Hello. I said, hello, my name is Joshua.

1044
00:50:27,520 --> 00:50:30,400
Speaker 1: First I to introduce myself. I'm not thinking she know

1045
00:50:30,400 --> 00:50:32,440
Speaker 1: who I am. I'm not like you know what I'm saying.

1046
00:50:32,760 --> 00:50:34,560
Speaker 1: I'm not I'm not I'm not drinking. You know what

1047
00:50:34,600 --> 00:50:36,880
Speaker 1: I'm saying, Like, I'm.

1048
00:50:36,520 --> 00:50:38,480
Speaker 3: You know, so glad that you do that, because like

1049
00:50:38,520 --> 00:50:41,120
Speaker 3: people will just come and just just think that, you know, so.

1050
00:50:43,480 --> 00:50:47,080
Speaker 2: Time to like his name is your usual name? Was

1051
00:50:47,120 --> 00:50:47,680
Speaker 2: headline who.

1052
00:50:47,719 --> 00:50:50,160
Speaker 1: My usual name was headline who. I'm really glad you

1053
00:50:50,239 --> 00:50:55,359
Speaker 1: introduced yourself. My name is Joshua Government the government, yeah man.

1054
00:50:55,400 --> 00:50:57,040
Speaker 1: And I just told her what I liked about her,

1055
00:50:57,080 --> 00:51:00,200
Speaker 1: you know, personality of love for God, authenticity, and I

1056
00:51:00,239 --> 00:51:02,320
Speaker 1: just said, there's something special about you that I cannot ignore.

1057
00:51:02,520 --> 00:51:06,319
Speaker 1: I pray natural beauty, I said, I pray that there's

1058
00:51:06,360 --> 00:51:08,000
Speaker 1: there's something that we can, you know, learn about each other,

1059
00:51:08,040 --> 00:51:10,480
Speaker 1: you know, whether that looks like compensating, talking whatever. I

1060
00:51:10,520 --> 00:51:12,279
Speaker 1: just want to be part of that journey. And I

1061
00:51:12,320 --> 00:51:14,799
Speaker 1: said that boom. I'm like, hey, God, I know you

1062
00:51:14,880 --> 00:51:18,760
Speaker 1: please because I was obedient, show.

1063
00:51:18,680 --> 00:51:19,400
Speaker 6: Me the money.

1064
00:51:22,000 --> 00:51:24,719
Speaker 1: Man, the message they would buy. I'm like, cool, you

1065
00:51:24,719 --> 00:51:31,040
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. Two a week, a week, a

1066
00:51:31,120 --> 00:51:34,560
Speaker 1: month went by. I'm like, Lord, was that you?

1067
00:51:34,760 --> 00:51:35,120
Speaker 5: I was here?

1068
00:51:36,480 --> 00:51:39,320
Speaker 1: Right? But can I be honest? I was like, Lord,

1069
00:51:39,480 --> 00:51:41,120
Speaker 1: was that me? Or was that was that?

1070
00:51:41,280 --> 00:51:41,600
Speaker 2: Was that you?

1071
00:51:41,719 --> 00:51:42,200
Speaker 1: Or was that me?

1072
00:51:42,560 --> 00:51:42,759
Speaker 6: Yeah?

1073
00:51:43,239 --> 00:51:43,960
Speaker 1: I said, was that?

1074
00:51:44,080 --> 00:51:44,799
Speaker 6: Was that? Was that love?

1075
00:51:44,880 --> 00:51:48,399
Speaker 1: Or was that lust? I'm like, Lord, like I really

1076
00:51:48,520 --> 00:51:50,400
Speaker 1: like her, But I was like, did I lead myself?

1077
00:51:50,800 --> 00:51:52,840
Speaker 1: But I was like no, Like, God, you said to

1078
00:51:52,920 --> 00:51:54,720
Speaker 1: reach out to her because you was bugging me about

1079
00:51:54,719 --> 00:51:56,640
Speaker 1: it and after I prayed, Lord, show it to me.

1080
00:51:56,680 --> 00:51:59,080
Speaker 1: You showed it to me through my closest partner. I'm like, Lord,

1081
00:51:59,080 --> 00:52:02,000
Speaker 1: it's coming into alignment. I'm losing hope. At least, I'm

1082
00:52:02,040 --> 00:52:05,080
Speaker 1: detaching from the idea that she wants anything to do

1083
00:52:05,080 --> 00:52:07,399
Speaker 1: with me because I'm like God, I was obedient. I'm

1084
00:52:07,400 --> 00:52:10,640
Speaker 1: gonna still stay focused. I'm not gonna go outside forget

1085
00:52:10,680 --> 00:52:13,520
Speaker 1: about it, wild out say you know what, she missed

1086
00:52:13,520 --> 00:52:15,200
Speaker 1: a good one. I'm gonna go ahead and do me.

1087
00:52:15,360 --> 00:52:17,520
Speaker 1: No I was, I was, I was humblested. Lord, God,

1088
00:52:17,560 --> 00:52:20,000
Speaker 1: I'm gonna stay focused, focus on your, focus on your word,

1089
00:52:20,040 --> 00:52:24,600
Speaker 1: focus on growing and maturing spiritually. And then early one

1090
00:52:24,640 --> 00:52:27,560
Speaker 1: Sunday morning, that's where you tap it right here. Yes,

1091
00:52:27,920 --> 00:52:34,120
Speaker 1: you want me to live, want to live every night,

1092
00:52:34,440 --> 00:52:38,160
Speaker 1: discipling and evangelizing on TikTok, live late at like three

1093
00:52:38,160 --> 00:52:41,080
Speaker 1: folklock in the morning, because that's the people man that

1094
00:52:41,120 --> 00:52:47,319
Speaker 1: flus me weak at that time. So identify need and

1095
00:52:47,440 --> 00:52:49,839
Speaker 1: I try to meet it, like okay, Like hey, if

1096
00:52:49,840 --> 00:52:51,440
Speaker 1: this is the time that fleture the weakest. I want

1097
00:52:51,440 --> 00:52:53,440
Speaker 1: you to scroll and see worship. I want you to

1098
00:52:53,480 --> 00:52:54,880
Speaker 1: scroll and se privacy. I want you to scroll and

1099
00:52:54,880 --> 00:52:56,600
Speaker 1: be like, oh, he's speaking speaking, So it was just

1100
00:52:56,600 --> 00:52:58,799
Speaker 1: something I did, but I was live that night. Yeah,

1101
00:52:59,560 --> 00:53:00,760
Speaker 1: July to third.

1102
00:53:00,800 --> 00:53:06,279
Speaker 3: Yes, so this is this I'm in. So I kind

1103
00:53:06,280 --> 00:53:07,680
Speaker 3: of want to like take it back a little bit

1104
00:53:07,719 --> 00:53:10,840
Speaker 3: to the first time that I ever saw Joshua, and

1105
00:53:11,200 --> 00:53:13,920
Speaker 3: that was actually in June a year prior, so, like

1106
00:53:13,960 --> 00:53:17,080
Speaker 3: when he was eighteen, and there was a video that

1107
00:53:17,120 --> 00:53:18,680
Speaker 3: came across my feet and it.

1108
00:53:18,680 --> 00:53:21,600
Speaker 2: Was this young man who like had this beautiful smile

1109
00:53:21,680 --> 00:53:22,560
Speaker 2: and he's talking about.

1110
00:53:22,440 --> 00:53:27,920
Speaker 3: Caine Caine, and I was just like, oh my goodness,

1111
00:53:27,920 --> 00:53:31,360
Speaker 3: he's so funny. Oh my gosh. I would love to

1112
00:53:31,480 --> 00:53:34,040
Speaker 3: like just follow him. I love a pretty face that

1113
00:53:34,040 --> 00:53:34,960
Speaker 3: that also preaches.

1114
00:53:35,040 --> 00:53:35,960
Speaker 2: I love a pretty.

1115
00:53:35,680 --> 00:53:39,319
Speaker 3: Face that preaches you spread the word of I love

1116
00:53:39,400 --> 00:53:40,520
Speaker 3: to look at someone.

1117
00:53:40,320 --> 00:53:43,200
Speaker 1: Who, you know, spread the word of God, like really good.

1118
00:53:43,280 --> 00:53:44,919
Speaker 2: Like I just feel like, you know, to.

1119
00:53:44,880 --> 00:53:47,840
Speaker 7: Look at you you were talking about, like it's just

1120
00:53:47,920 --> 00:53:49,200
Speaker 7: easier to receive that.

1121
00:53:50,239 --> 00:53:54,640
Speaker 8: And it's actually funny too because.

1122
00:53:55,920 --> 00:53:59,040
Speaker 3: Actually I so when I first saw him, because we

1123
00:53:59,040 --> 00:54:02,040
Speaker 3: were obviously we were friends with the same person. So

1124
00:54:02,440 --> 00:54:05,600
Speaker 3: when I first saw him, I sent it to that friend,

1125
00:54:05,880 --> 00:54:09,440
Speaker 3: our mutual friend, and I was like, Yo, you should

1126
00:54:09,440 --> 00:54:12,359
Speaker 3: do this. Challenge of this and that was the first

1127
00:54:12,400 --> 00:54:14,040
Speaker 3: time that ever show and I sent him to that sat,

1128
00:54:14,120 --> 00:54:18,840
Speaker 3: that same friend. And so a year later, okay, I

1129
00:54:18,880 --> 00:54:21,000
Speaker 3: didn't think of him again. I actually did not even

1130
00:54:21,040 --> 00:54:24,319
Speaker 3: see him like on my feet again. But I did

1131
00:54:24,400 --> 00:54:26,480
Speaker 3: follow him because I was like, you know what this is.

1132
00:54:26,640 --> 00:54:29,080
Speaker 3: This is the type of person that I would follow

1133
00:54:29,120 --> 00:54:30,919
Speaker 3: you even if you never follow me back.

1134
00:54:32,120 --> 00:54:34,080
Speaker 1: But you didn't know. I had no clue.

1135
00:54:34,880 --> 00:54:38,560
Speaker 5: She said, I will follow you even if you didn't

1136
00:54:38,600 --> 00:54:39,399
Speaker 5: follow me back.

1137
00:54:40,080 --> 00:54:42,680
Speaker 2: Yes, And it's like I feel like that has like

1138
00:54:42,840 --> 00:54:44,239
Speaker 2: carried That.

1139
00:54:46,480 --> 00:54:48,759
Speaker 3: Was like my first like concrete thought of him, and

1140
00:54:48,800 --> 00:54:52,600
Speaker 3: I remembered him, and so you're My favorite.

1141
00:54:52,280 --> 00:54:55,239
Speaker 5: Scene in Lord of the Ring is when Frodo he

1142
00:54:55,320 --> 00:54:57,120
Speaker 5: literally goes into the water and he was like, you

1143
00:54:57,160 --> 00:54:59,920
Speaker 5: can't swim, don't follow after me. He said, wherever you go,

1144
00:55:00,160 --> 00:55:03,720
Speaker 5: I will follow. And so that's the that's the heart posture.

1145
00:55:03,719 --> 00:55:05,719
Speaker 5: When I watched that, I said, I want to be

1146
00:55:05,920 --> 00:55:08,480
Speaker 5: like that with christ I want my wife to be

1147
00:55:08,640 --> 00:55:11,640
Speaker 5: like that with me, and I want that alignment to

1148
00:55:11,680 --> 00:55:13,680
Speaker 5: be wherever he goes, I will follow.

1149
00:55:14,120 --> 00:55:15,880
Speaker 6: And so when you said that, that's why they just

1150
00:55:15,960 --> 00:55:16,480
Speaker 6: hit me like that.

1151
00:55:16,560 --> 00:55:22,160
Speaker 1: But mindset you go I'll go yeah, year, you know

1152
00:55:22,160 --> 00:55:24,799
Speaker 1: what I'm yeah yeah.

1153
00:55:24,840 --> 00:55:28,360
Speaker 3: So a year later, I was just going through my

1154
00:55:28,440 --> 00:55:30,880
Speaker 3: dms because you know, I'm single, right, so I just

1155
00:55:30,880 --> 00:55:33,560
Speaker 3: be going through the DMS. I didn't really respond to them,

1156
00:55:33,600 --> 00:55:35,319
Speaker 3: Like responding to the dams is not even like something

1157
00:55:35,360 --> 00:55:36,200
Speaker 3: that I usually do.

1158
00:55:37,440 --> 00:55:38,359
Speaker 2: But like, I was just.

1159
00:55:38,280 --> 00:55:41,359
Speaker 3: Going through my DMS and he was in them, and

1160
00:55:41,640 --> 00:55:43,840
Speaker 3: he sent this really beautiful message.

1161
00:55:43,400 --> 00:55:48,160
Speaker 2: About how he loved my natural beauty and my heart

1162
00:55:48,200 --> 00:55:52,040
Speaker 2: for God and how I love God. And I went

1163
00:55:52,080 --> 00:55:56,160
Speaker 2: on this page and I was like, oh, he's a preacher. Well,

1164
00:55:56,200 --> 00:55:57,440
Speaker 2: I don't know one.

1165
00:55:57,520 --> 00:55:59,480
Speaker 3: You know what they say about past you know what

1166
00:55:59,520 --> 00:56:04,520
Speaker 3: I mean, don't nobody want to be a pastor. I'm like,

1167
00:56:04,880 --> 00:56:07,359
Speaker 3: oh lord, I haven't murdered it, you know, Like I'm

1168
00:56:07,360 --> 00:56:10,160
Speaker 3: getting back deep because I feel as though I had

1169
00:56:10,200 --> 00:56:13,040
Speaker 3: I had backslid and my previous relationship and so like

1170
00:56:13,080 --> 00:56:14,960
Speaker 3: I'm getting back in deep with God. And so like

1171
00:56:15,040 --> 00:56:16,880
Speaker 3: I'm going to church all the time. I'm I'm going

1172
00:56:16,920 --> 00:56:19,440
Speaker 3: to truch my friends. So it's like me and my group,

1173
00:56:19,480 --> 00:56:22,680
Speaker 3: we we all locked in Christ. So I know the

1174
00:56:22,680 --> 00:56:26,160
Speaker 3: mantle of a pastor's wife. Don't nobody want that? And

1175
00:56:26,200 --> 00:56:28,399
Speaker 3: so you know, I'm like, oh, what's the preacher. Oh Lord,

1176
00:56:28,440 --> 00:56:30,279
Speaker 3: I don't I don't even know what is.

1177
00:56:30,280 --> 00:56:31,239
Speaker 7: He even doing over here?

1178
00:56:31,280 --> 00:56:33,480
Speaker 3: Because me personally, I was like I feel as I

1179
00:56:33,520 --> 00:56:35,120
Speaker 3: was a heathen. But I feel like it was one

1180
00:56:35,120 --> 00:56:37,000
Speaker 3: of those things where it's like I didn't see myself,

1181
00:56:37,560 --> 00:56:39,400
Speaker 3: you know, I didn't see myself. I didn't think that

1182
00:56:39,440 --> 00:56:41,680
Speaker 3: I was good enough to be a Christian. I didn't

1183
00:56:41,719 --> 00:56:45,160
Speaker 3: think that I was good enough to to to even

1184
00:56:45,200 --> 00:56:49,799
Speaker 3: like walk with God, you know, and not publicly, and

1185
00:56:49,880 --> 00:56:52,920
Speaker 3: so I ignored it because I was like, nah, he

1186
00:56:53,000 --> 00:56:55,120
Speaker 3: reached out to me, There's gotta be something wrong with him.

1187
00:56:55,520 --> 00:57:02,759
Speaker 7: And it's wrong with that one, because you know, it's

1188
00:57:02,800 --> 00:57:05,680
Speaker 7: like it's it's it's like I'm up here like Sarah

1189
00:57:05,800 --> 00:57:09,640
Speaker 7: Jake's Roberts, you know what I'm saying, or or doctor

1190
00:57:09,920 --> 00:57:11,800
Speaker 7: you know Anita.

1191
00:57:12,920 --> 00:57:13,680
Speaker 1: I'm not like up.

1192
00:57:13,640 --> 00:57:16,440
Speaker 3: Here just like you know, on fire for the Lord,

1193
00:57:16,600 --> 00:57:20,000
Speaker 3: like outwardly, and even though I am in my personal life,

1194
00:57:20,000 --> 00:57:22,080
Speaker 3: but it's like I'm like, nah, it's I'm wrong with him.

1195
00:57:22,320 --> 00:57:27,360
Speaker 3: And so I didn't respond and I so I just

1196
00:57:27,360 --> 00:57:28,280
Speaker 3: went about my life.

1197
00:57:28,320 --> 00:57:28,520
Speaker 1: You know.

1198
00:57:28,600 --> 00:57:31,480
Speaker 3: I was actually in the middle of a three month fast,

1199
00:57:31,640 --> 00:57:33,920
Speaker 3: so I was in a three month fast, so I

1200
00:57:34,000 --> 00:57:39,440
Speaker 3: was like fasting from from alcohol, from from partying, from

1201
00:57:39,840 --> 00:57:42,760
Speaker 3: from just any any sexual conversations.

1202
00:57:42,840 --> 00:57:46,720
Speaker 2: Like I was fasting from sugar, like I was passing

1203
00:57:46,800 --> 00:57:48,960
Speaker 2: from red meat. So like like a whole list.

1204
00:57:48,720 --> 00:57:51,280
Speaker 3: Of things I was fasting from that I also had

1205
00:57:51,280 --> 00:57:52,840
Speaker 3: a list of things that I would replace them with.

1206
00:57:52,880 --> 00:57:55,080
Speaker 3: So instead of sugar, I would just drink more water,

1207
00:57:55,440 --> 00:57:58,280
Speaker 3: eat more fruits and vegetables. Instead of drinking alcohol, I

1208
00:57:58,280 --> 00:57:59,560
Speaker 3: would drink more water.

1209
00:57:59,480 --> 00:58:03,000
Speaker 1: And you know the water water.

1210
00:58:04,480 --> 00:58:07,600
Speaker 3: Literally, you know, just trying to purify myself, just trying

1211
00:58:07,600 --> 00:58:10,120
Speaker 3: to just trying to get cleaned and purify my heart

1212
00:58:10,160 --> 00:58:13,560
Speaker 3: for the Lord, and and and just like deep in

1213
00:58:13,560 --> 00:58:19,960
Speaker 3: prayer every day with me and my friends. And so uh,

1214
00:58:20,080 --> 00:58:22,520
Speaker 3: it was late night and it was like two am

1215
00:58:22,560 --> 00:58:25,640
Speaker 3: in the morning. About a month later, which is July

1216
00:58:26,120 --> 00:58:31,080
Speaker 3: twenty third, I was scrolling TikTok late at night. And

1217
00:58:31,440 --> 00:58:34,240
Speaker 3: remember I followed him on TikTok, so I didn't follow

1218
00:58:34,280 --> 00:58:35,920
Speaker 3: him on Instagram. And that's where he reached out to me.

1219
00:58:35,960 --> 00:58:39,880
Speaker 3: On Instagram. I was scrolling and he came up on

1220
00:58:40,040 --> 00:58:45,000
Speaker 3: Live and I was like, oh wow, Like I love

1221
00:58:45,080 --> 00:58:47,240
Speaker 3: his voice, I love his smile.

1222
00:58:47,400 --> 00:58:52,360
Speaker 2: I love his spirit, his personality. I just thought like, wow.

1223
00:58:52,280 --> 00:58:55,800
Speaker 3: Like that doesn't mean a guy, right, yeah, oh yeah.

1224
00:58:56,400 --> 00:58:58,439
Speaker 3: And so I was, you know what, let me just

1225
00:58:58,720 --> 00:59:00,440
Speaker 3: let me just run it back, let me just go

1226
00:59:00,520 --> 00:59:06,840
Speaker 3: back today talking about and then I went and I.

1227
00:59:06,840 --> 00:59:09,320
Speaker 2: Just I sent him a voice message and I was

1228
00:59:09,400 --> 00:59:10,000
Speaker 2: just like, you.

1229
00:59:10,000 --> 00:59:16,960
Speaker 3: Know, I I was like, I love the way that

1230
00:59:17,280 --> 00:59:20,280
Speaker 3: you share your love for God online. But I was

1231
00:59:20,320 --> 00:59:25,760
Speaker 3: just also like, I I pray that your spirit is okay.

1232
00:59:25,840 --> 00:59:28,320
Speaker 2: I pray that you're okay, because you know.

1233
00:59:28,440 --> 00:59:31,120
Speaker 3: Those of us who smile online all of the time

1234
00:59:31,200 --> 00:59:35,200
Speaker 3: and are happy and and are you know, bubbly online.

1235
00:59:34,760 --> 00:59:36,440
Speaker 2: We go through the most stuff in private.

1236
00:59:36,480 --> 00:59:39,880
Speaker 3: So I was just like, I hope you're okay, and yeah,

1237
00:59:40,040 --> 00:59:40,960
Speaker 3: like keep being a light.

1238
00:59:41,040 --> 00:59:41,920
Speaker 2: That's what I said.

1239
00:59:42,360 --> 00:59:46,760
Speaker 3: And then I went back to TikTok, not even thinking

1240
00:59:46,760 --> 00:59:48,720
Speaker 3: about it, forgetting that that's how I saw him in

1241
00:59:48,720 --> 00:59:51,920
Speaker 3: the first place. And he was on TikTok just wilding

1242
00:59:51,960 --> 00:59:54,160
Speaker 3: out about this girl that responded.

1243
00:59:53,720 --> 00:59:57,080
Speaker 6: To his Josh, what happened? So why are you over

1244
00:59:57,080 --> 00:59:58,480
Speaker 6: here preaching then what you do?

1245
00:59:59,360 --> 01:00:01,440
Speaker 1: So I'm thought that it was the latter half of

1246
01:00:01,480 --> 01:00:03,440
Speaker 1: the live because there was a moment where I was

1247
01:00:03,440 --> 01:00:05,520
Speaker 1: like deep in and I'm crying. You don't speak of tongue.

1248
01:00:05,560 --> 01:00:08,040
Speaker 1: People are coming to Christ. So that intimate moment was

1249
01:00:08,080 --> 01:00:09,520
Speaker 1: kind of like starting to like side a little bit.

1250
01:00:09,560 --> 01:00:11,280
Speaker 1: So now I'm just kind of like goofing around. I

1251
01:00:11,320 --> 01:00:14,880
Speaker 1: got Corey Mickey in the background. I got uh uh,

1252
01:00:15,520 --> 01:00:20,440
Speaker 1: Carlton Pierson, you know, father, I'm I'm just mocking. I'm

1253
01:00:20,480 --> 01:00:22,600
Speaker 1: just playing around. And so I'm over there just joking.

1254
01:00:22,720 --> 01:00:24,320
Speaker 1: Like here we're going on with it going on.

1255
01:00:28,160 --> 01:00:28,680
Speaker 4: Mm hmmm.

1256
01:00:35,160 --> 01:00:38,000
Speaker 1: Said hold on, y'all, get me just people live like

1257
01:00:38,040 --> 01:00:39,760
Speaker 1: I'm talking about like focused lockday. Because you're trying to

1258
01:00:39,760 --> 01:00:41,000
Speaker 1: say what am I gonna say? What are gonna release?

1259
01:00:41,000 --> 01:00:43,440
Speaker 1: What are gonna say next? That's hold on that, Like

1260
01:00:44,240 --> 01:00:46,040
Speaker 1: I gotta get through this. Give me a second. How

1261
01:00:46,080 --> 01:00:46,840
Speaker 1: do I mute that?

1262
01:00:46,960 --> 01:00:47,479
Speaker 6: What I said?

1263
01:00:48,160 --> 01:00:51,120
Speaker 5: We're gonna drop that clip in there. Yeah, We're gonna

1264
01:00:51,200 --> 01:00:53,040
Speaker 5: drop that clip in there so you can see that.

1265
01:00:53,200 --> 01:00:56,840
Speaker 5: So look at this clip right now about Josh's reaction

1266
01:00:57,280 --> 01:00:58,800
Speaker 5: when he got that DM.

1267
01:00:59,000 --> 01:01:02,400
Speaker 9: Keeping it lifted, keeping it. I don't normally do this

1268
01:01:02,680 --> 01:01:05,520
Speaker 9: at all. I stay till myself.

1269
01:01:06,760 --> 01:01:07,680
Speaker 1: But your boy.

1270
01:01:10,760 --> 01:01:11,800
Speaker 6: Shot his shot.

1271
01:01:13,720 --> 01:01:18,680
Speaker 9: At somebody. It was a half court shot. I mean

1272
01:01:18,800 --> 01:01:23,000
Speaker 9: blindfolded backwards. I'm just I'm just.

1273
01:01:23,640 --> 01:01:28,360
Speaker 1: I'm one month later.

1274
01:01:35,840 --> 01:01:36,320
Speaker 6: I'm sorry.

1275
01:01:37,400 --> 01:01:48,000
Speaker 10: Blessed those that wait upon LORDRD and I to listen

1276
01:01:48,000 --> 01:01:50,120
Speaker 10: to a voice message. You know what good when it

1277
01:01:50,200 --> 01:01:51,080
Speaker 10: comes in a voice message?

1278
01:01:52,080 --> 01:01:55,800
Speaker 1: Hold on? Can I have this moment? Can we kim

1279
01:01:55,840 --> 01:01:58,440
Speaker 1: we kimmy celebrate because when he blesses the neighbor, that

1280
01:01:58,520 --> 01:02:04,720
Speaker 1: means in the neighborhood. Hey my neck? Like how many

1281
01:02:04,800 --> 01:02:06,640
Speaker 1: times I got a place?

1282
01:02:06,680 --> 01:02:06,920
Speaker 6: I got?

1283
01:02:06,960 --> 01:02:07,120
Speaker 1: Who?

1284
01:02:08,880 --> 01:02:09,400
Speaker 6: Where we at?

1285
01:02:09,400 --> 01:02:09,880
Speaker 1: Where we're at?

1286
01:02:10,360 --> 01:02:10,920
Speaker 4: My on my home?

1287
01:02:11,120 --> 01:03:17,000
Speaker 1: Come on, come on, I'll tell ya what tell your

1288
01:03:17,040 --> 01:03:22,760
Speaker 1: wi your give me like, give me like an hour

1289
01:03:23,480 --> 01:03:26,080
Speaker 1: and I'll be back on live. Give me like an hour.

1290
01:03:27,000 --> 01:03:29,080
Speaker 5: All right now, Josh, when you look back at that,

1291
01:03:29,400 --> 01:03:31,800
Speaker 5: what do you think about seeing yourself.

1292
01:03:31,400 --> 01:03:32,000
Speaker 6: In this moment?

1293
01:03:32,280 --> 01:03:36,800
Speaker 1: Mighty God? I gave God what he deserved because you

1294
01:03:36,920 --> 01:03:40,200
Speaker 1: see the Kingdom of God first, all of his righteousness. Yeah,

1295
01:03:43,760 --> 01:03:47,600
Speaker 1: and blessing those upon the law. I'm a waiting. I'm

1296
01:03:47,680 --> 01:03:48,600
Speaker 1: talking about awaiting.

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Speaker 6: So what did you think watching him react like that

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Speaker 6: to your d m.

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Speaker 2: Oh my goodness.

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Speaker 3: Honestly, like you know, like I said, I came to

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Speaker 3: Christ because like I was just so traumatized in relationship

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Speaker 3: and ships and not being valued and and and people

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01:04:03,240 --> 01:04:05,840
Speaker 3: not liking me, and well not as much as I

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Speaker 3: like them.

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Speaker 1: I really liked her.

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01:04:09,160 --> 01:04:11,520
Speaker 2: I was like, oh my gosh, he likes me.

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Speaker 1: My feet.

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Speaker 3: My brother was in the kitchen watching the dishes, and

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Speaker 3: I was like, I scream recorded like the latter half

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Speaker 3: of it, and I was.

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Speaker 8: Like, look, look, look this is how he's acting, like

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Speaker 8: off of my day, you.

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Speaker 2: Know, to be I mean, I don't know you love

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Speaker 2: me then, but it was just like you loved everything.

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Speaker 5: About her because he had already read you follow you,

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Speaker 5: already reading all your thoughts.

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Speaker 4: Yeah.

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Speaker 5: Yeah, So Josh clearly got to be a safe sexual

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Speaker 5: because he literally started reading everything, and so.

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Speaker 3: Mentally he had something that really gets Josh going is

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Speaker 3: conflict resolution, which is really interesting to get me going.

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01:05:02,200 --> 01:05:03,840
Speaker 3: He loves conflict resolution.

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01:05:04,120 --> 01:05:05,080
Speaker 2: It's something that's like.

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Speaker 6: Some folks like.

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Speaker 1: Some folk like sweet dinners and you know, Uncle Kendy

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01:05:14,400 --> 01:05:15,720
Speaker 1: let them know if you're watching. And some people like

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01:05:15,800 --> 01:05:18,800
Speaker 1: good music, you know what I'm saying, and smooth wine

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01:05:18,880 --> 01:05:23,160
Speaker 1: and champagne. All that is necessary could put put you

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01:05:23,240 --> 01:05:25,960
Speaker 1: in a bearable man. But for me, it was a

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Speaker 1: solve a problem, and like get we don't you know, Yeah,

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01:05:31,200 --> 01:05:32,960
Speaker 1: we don't agree to disagree. That's not we don't do.

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Speaker 6: Don't do that.

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Speaker 1: We find something agree on, understand and listen to each other.

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Speaker 1: We get that gunk out where I'm a little upset,

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Speaker 1: but I ain't gonna show it. I ain't gonna raise

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Speaker 1: my voice. I'm just never know what I'm saying. And

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Speaker 1: then and then she's gonna say what she want to say.

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Speaker 1: I may not like it, and then she may like

1339
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Speaker 1: what I'm saying. But then we humble ourselves, listen, comprehend

1340
01:05:50,480 --> 01:05:52,880
Speaker 1: and our ass you know, like what what do I

1341
01:05:53,000 --> 01:05:54,840
Speaker 1: need to do? You know? Or I rather say like,

1342
01:05:54,920 --> 01:05:56,760
Speaker 1: let's pray, and then we pray about it. We see

1343
01:05:56,800 --> 01:06:00,480
Speaker 1: the Lord. We all apologize, forgive the extend grace and

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01:06:00,520 --> 01:06:04,000
Speaker 1: pace for each other. And it's that conversation after it's like, hey,

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01:06:04,080 --> 01:06:08,040
Speaker 1: we could do anything. If this is what Mary folks

1346
01:06:08,040 --> 01:06:12,520
Speaker 1: talk about is the biggest problem, because we talked the mental.

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Speaker 1: We got mental were marrital counseling. So it's like we

1348
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Speaker 1: got mentor or something about man. It'd be the small stuff,

1349
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Speaker 1: man leave the cabinet is open and stuff, you know,

1350
01:06:21,200 --> 01:06:23,160
Speaker 1: not this and that and the third but I'm like,

1351
01:06:23,320 --> 01:06:26,600
Speaker 1: if we are so upset at something and we take

1352
01:06:26,640 --> 01:06:28,080
Speaker 1: this thing that was built in the dark and we

1353
01:06:28,160 --> 01:06:30,680
Speaker 1: bring it back to light together and we walk hand

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Speaker 1: in hand into the horizon. Yeah, oh, just does some man.

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Speaker 1: It's so it's it really is beautiful. Because I didn't

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Speaker 1: come from a family that had a lot of conflict resolution,

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Speaker 1: you know, I really kind of like, when you have conflict,

1358
01:06:43,280 --> 01:06:43,960
Speaker 1: you gotta divide.

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Speaker 4: How did you learn about conflict resolutions since you didn't

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Speaker 4: come from a family that really used conflict resolution.

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Speaker 1: To become what I wish I had, and willing to

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Speaker 1: just go a different path, you know, not necessarily rebel

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Speaker 1: or common bad against the ways in which I grew up,

1364
01:07:02,520 --> 01:07:04,440
Speaker 1: but more so like I see what didn't work out,

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Speaker 1: I see what could have been done better. And a

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Speaker 1: lot of it was just through communication, like literally, because

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Speaker 1: listening is the majority of the conversation.

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Speaker 5: You know.

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Speaker 1: We can talk and talk and talk and talk and talk.

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Speaker 1: But I love hearing her speak. I love hearing what

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Speaker 1: she has to say. I love hearing her insight, I

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Speaker 1: love hearing her suggestions. I love when I'm in the wrong.

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Speaker 1: She can say something and read me like a book

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Speaker 1: and I'm not mad about it because I know she

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Speaker 1: comes from a very pure place, and so we resolved conflict.

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Speaker 1: I love oh, And I say this really quickly. There

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Speaker 1: was one time when we were at a relationship, in

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01:07:35,440 --> 01:07:36,880
Speaker 1: a point of our relationship where it was like, all right,

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Speaker 1: we might as well just like, hey, this ain't gonna work,

1380
01:07:38,840 --> 01:07:40,160
Speaker 1: Like we were really upset with each other. I did

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Speaker 1: something stupid and like, I'm oa be trying to give

1382
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Speaker 1: grace to myself and love myself, as she would say,

1383
01:07:44,400 --> 01:07:46,800
Speaker 1: into evolution, and I hate myself with the change. And

1384
01:07:46,880 --> 01:07:50,680
Speaker 1: I'm really really like sad, and I'm like, man, like,

1385
01:07:50,800 --> 01:07:53,120
Speaker 1: what was I doing? I was empty inside and so

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01:07:53,280 --> 01:07:56,000
Speaker 1: I'm making decisions because I'm empty. And it's like she

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Speaker 1: didn't deserve it.

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Speaker 6: But she was like, Josh, you.

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Speaker 1: Father, help me. One of the only reasons I'm still

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Speaker 1: here is because I'm committed to the purpose in our relationship.

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Speaker 1: She said, more than that, Yeah, what you did, I

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01:08:14,640 --> 01:08:17,760
Speaker 1: forgive you. You've already been forgiven. I love you, but

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Speaker 1: it's the purpose in our relationship is one of the

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01:08:20,720 --> 01:08:23,000
Speaker 1: anchors that's keeping me here during all this storm.

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Speaker 6: Your little young self said that, And I'm a car

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Speaker 6: you because that's you young, and you said that.

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Speaker 3: I am why, you know, living for God and being

1398
01:08:38,439 --> 01:08:41,800
Speaker 3: a woman of God. When things like that happen, you

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01:08:42,040 --> 01:08:48,280
Speaker 3: have to have his heart, yes, and love even though

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01:08:48,680 --> 01:08:52,880
Speaker 3: a beautiful feeling in action, A lot of times it

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Speaker 3: is forgiveness.

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Speaker 2: But purpose will outlive us much longer than we're here

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01:09:01,560 --> 01:09:01,960
Speaker 2: on earth.

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Speaker 5: Let me tell you something, and I'm trying not to

1405
01:09:04,360 --> 01:09:07,280
Speaker 5: even just break down crime because people who watch their

1406
01:09:07,280 --> 01:09:12,400
Speaker 5: Future Wifey podcasts know why that is hitting me. I've

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Speaker 5: always said that as I was married before I divorced

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Speaker 5: my ex wife, I said, what I'm looking for this

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Speaker 5: next go around is my purpose partner. People didn't understand

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Speaker 5: when I say I said I divorced a wife before

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01:09:26,640 --> 01:09:29,920
Speaker 5: about never divorced purpose. And I said, so I want

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Speaker 5: my purpose partner. And then people like he is making

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Speaker 5: another word for wife, it's still a wife or whatever.

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01:09:34,280 --> 01:09:36,640
Speaker 6: I said. Your mind is going to elevate to this

1415
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Speaker 6: level what I'm talking about.

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Speaker 5: And that's why I said, your young self just said

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01:09:40,920 --> 01:09:43,479
Speaker 5: what I've been saying for the going on six years

1418
01:09:43,520 --> 01:09:46,920
Speaker 5: on Dear Future Wifey podcast that once you understand your

1419
01:09:47,080 --> 01:09:50,640
Speaker 5: purpose and you understand why God brought y'all together, you

1420
01:09:50,840 --> 01:09:51,559
Speaker 5: can't divorce.

1421
01:09:51,880 --> 01:09:54,679
Speaker 6: Absolutely, you can't because you know that God.

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01:09:55,000 --> 01:09:57,600
Speaker 5: When God says what God has joined together, let no

1423
01:09:57,840 --> 01:09:59,480
Speaker 5: man put asunder.

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Speaker 6: What he meant by that.

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01:10:00,040 --> 01:10:02,080
Speaker 5: That is saying, oh, I did this, So you think

1426
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Speaker 5: you got the right to go ahead and dismantle this.

1427
01:10:04,880 --> 01:10:08,959
Speaker 5: But that's when you understand the purpose of your covenant,

1428
01:10:09,040 --> 01:10:11,560
Speaker 5: the purpose of your marriage. And so that's what I

1429
01:10:11,600 --> 01:10:14,799
Speaker 5: always tell Ashley. I was like, listen, you my purpose partner.

1430
01:10:14,920 --> 01:10:16,920
Speaker 5: I prayed for you, I wrote letters to you. I

1431
01:10:17,000 --> 01:10:20,400
Speaker 5: wrote over three hundred letters describing what I wanted in

1432
01:10:20,479 --> 01:10:22,760
Speaker 5: my future wifey, how I would show up in her life,

1433
01:10:22,960 --> 01:10:26,280
Speaker 5: the safe space that I would create for our household. Listen,

1434
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Speaker 5: I understood and overstood what the dynamic of what marriage

1435
01:10:30,800 --> 01:10:33,640
Speaker 5: and a covenant kingdom relationship is truly supposed.

1436
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Speaker 6: To look like.

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01:10:34,040 --> 01:10:36,920
Speaker 5: And I said, I wasn't gonna rush it like y'all

1438
01:10:36,960 --> 01:10:39,320
Speaker 5: were talking about. I know that I can be patient,

1439
01:10:39,600 --> 01:10:42,679
Speaker 5: and I know that when God gives me the desires

1440
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Speaker 5: of my heart. I told her, I said, shoot, wherever

1441
01:10:45,640 --> 01:10:47,600
Speaker 5: you go, you can leave me. I ain't gonna do

1442
01:10:47,680 --> 01:10:48,720
Speaker 5: nothing but follow you wherever you went.

1443
01:10:52,479 --> 01:10:53,200
Speaker 4: We're going to get.

1444
01:10:54,720 --> 01:10:57,760
Speaker 5: Yeah, we show up the leader, dude, You're like, what,

1445
01:10:58,160 --> 01:10:59,840
Speaker 5: why are you still here? Because I ain't going nowhere?

1446
01:11:00,479 --> 01:11:02,599
Speaker 5: And I told her that and so it just hit

1447
01:11:02,760 --> 01:11:06,040
Speaker 5: so heavy, and I saw josh I start to well

1448
01:11:06,120 --> 01:11:08,439
Speaker 5: up with tears because when you said that to that

1449
01:11:08,600 --> 01:11:12,360
Speaker 5: young man, I'm.

1450
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Speaker 1: Gonna put words in your out. How did you feel

1451
01:11:14,720 --> 01:11:18,320
Speaker 1: about that? It let me know that I was worth

1452
01:11:18,400 --> 01:11:21,920
Speaker 1: loving it. Let me know that I make mistakes, but

1453
01:11:22,000 --> 01:11:29,880
Speaker 1: the mistakes don't make me. It let me know because

1454
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Speaker 1: I'm very flawed as a young man. And one thing

1455
01:11:35,120 --> 01:11:41,519
Speaker 1: I want to say, because I'm tested by lust, if

1456
01:11:41,600 --> 01:11:43,160
Speaker 1: you don't deal with it, it will deal with you.

1457
01:11:44,439 --> 01:11:47,160
Speaker 1: And if you're not careful, yourself sabotaged what God has

1458
01:11:47,200 --> 01:11:49,960
Speaker 1: given you. Yes, And I remember I was like, yo,

1459
01:11:50,120 --> 01:11:53,000
Speaker 1: like this was my only struggle. I ain't smoked, I

1460
01:11:53,000 --> 01:11:55,600
Speaker 1: ain't drink, I ain't cussed, I ain't fussed. But it

1461
01:11:55,720 --> 01:11:57,640
Speaker 1: was trying to pleasure myself because I felt that was

1462
01:11:57,640 --> 01:11:59,560
Speaker 1: the safest thing to do because I want try to

1463
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Speaker 1: be out and so it was protecting my eyegates and

1464
01:12:02,560 --> 01:12:04,360
Speaker 1: my ear gates, and I felt like I was hurting her.

1465
01:12:04,760 --> 01:12:07,799
Speaker 1: And I remember I was like, how could you possibly

1466
01:12:07,840 --> 01:12:10,320
Speaker 1: love me when I feel so disgusting? Yes, it was

1467
01:12:10,360 --> 01:12:12,840
Speaker 1: in my most vulnerable situation, on a vulnerable place that

1468
01:12:12,960 --> 01:12:15,000
Speaker 1: she sat me down over the phone. Because we're a

1469
01:12:15,000 --> 01:12:17,640
Speaker 1: long distance I'm in the mirror and she's saying, I

1470
01:12:17,720 --> 01:12:20,040
Speaker 1: need you to just tell yourself everything you don't like,

1471
01:12:20,400 --> 01:12:23,439
Speaker 1: everything you regret, everything you're ashamed of, and everything I'm saying.

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01:12:23,479 --> 01:12:26,920
Speaker 1: After every statement, she said, I love you, God, I

1473
01:12:27,000 --> 01:12:29,240
Speaker 1: love you. I hate the fact that I did this.

1474
01:12:29,600 --> 01:12:31,400
Speaker 1: I love you, hate the fact that I do this.

1475
01:12:31,880 --> 01:12:34,559
Speaker 1: I love you, hate the fact that I think this way.

1476
01:12:34,640 --> 01:12:37,760
Speaker 1: I love you. And she loved me into evolution and

1477
01:12:37,880 --> 01:12:40,960
Speaker 1: so it let me know that it's okay to make

1478
01:12:41,040 --> 01:12:45,160
Speaker 1: decisions that are righteous. But when God hand selects a

1479
01:12:45,280 --> 01:12:48,280
Speaker 1: partner for you, she'll fall in love with the man

1480
01:12:48,439 --> 01:12:51,160
Speaker 1: that she knows you're going to be. And it takes

1481
01:12:51,280 --> 01:12:55,559
Speaker 1: her staying at its feet because she's a praying woman.

1482
01:12:56,680 --> 01:12:59,280
Speaker 1: There's times where I'll wake up and she at the

1483
01:12:59,479 --> 01:13:01,040
Speaker 1: edge of at the edge of the bed or in

1484
01:13:01,080 --> 01:13:04,280
Speaker 1: another room soaking in his presence because she don't got

1485
01:13:04,320 --> 01:13:06,080
Speaker 1: the strength to talk to me. She don't got this

1486
01:13:06,120 --> 01:13:08,080
Speaker 1: strength to communicate her feelings, so she needs to seek

1487
01:13:08,120 --> 01:13:10,320
Speaker 1: him first before I asking me, my girlfriend, she said,

1488
01:13:10,400 --> 01:13:13,240
Speaker 1: let me see God. So it's always been her desire

1489
01:13:13,600 --> 01:13:16,640
Speaker 1: to hear from the Lord that has kept me here,

1490
01:13:17,080 --> 01:13:20,600
Speaker 1: you know, and even just knowing that she sees the

1491
01:13:20,760 --> 01:13:23,240
Speaker 1: version of me that is constantly being refined even when

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01:13:23,280 --> 01:13:26,400
Speaker 1: I don't. It's like I lose sight in myself sometimes

1493
01:13:26,720 --> 01:13:28,840
Speaker 1: because I'm still growing up to learning. But I don't

1494
01:13:28,840 --> 01:13:33,000
Speaker 1: make it an excuse. So it's knowing that she's plugged

1495
01:13:33,040 --> 01:13:36,880
Speaker 1: in and she's willing to love me when I don't

1496
01:13:36,880 --> 01:13:39,719
Speaker 1: know how to love myself. That was a moment recently

1497
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Speaker 1: where I had to ask God to help my own belief.

1498
01:13:43,280 --> 01:13:46,360
Speaker 1: I said, God, I'm not I'm preaching Jesus, I don't

1499
01:13:46,400 --> 01:13:49,439
Speaker 1: believe anymore. That's like I'm a pastor of a church

1500
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Speaker 1: and I'm shepherding people into salvation and I'm like, God,

1501
01:13:53,080 --> 01:13:56,439
Speaker 1: my prayers ain't being an answered and in harboring no forgiveness. God.

1502
01:13:56,439 --> 01:13:58,600
Speaker 1: I repent of that. But it's like it came to

1503
01:13:59,320 --> 01:14:00,920
Speaker 1: trying to cover her, but a part of me still

1504
01:14:00,920 --> 01:14:03,760
Speaker 1: felt guilty. So it's like I wouldn't even pray out

1505
01:14:03,800 --> 01:14:06,439
Speaker 1: loud because I'm like, Lord, the audacity of me. But

1506
01:14:06,560 --> 01:14:08,320
Speaker 1: it had to take me going back to his feet

1507
01:14:08,320 --> 01:14:13,200
Speaker 1: and surrendering and giving myself permission to cry because it's men.

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01:14:13,280 --> 01:14:14,760
Speaker 1: We try not to cry. We try to you know,

1509
01:14:14,880 --> 01:14:17,760
Speaker 1: thug it out, especially young man. We just smoke it away,

1510
01:14:17,840 --> 01:14:20,040
Speaker 1: drinking away, club it away, fornicated away. But I'm an

1511
01:14:20,080 --> 01:14:22,040
Speaker 1: emotional person and it's been my tears that have carried

1512
01:14:22,080 --> 01:14:24,120
Speaker 1: me through too. And she wipes every last one of

1513
01:14:24,160 --> 01:14:26,680
Speaker 1: them too, and she kisses my tears. I see what

1514
01:14:26,800 --> 01:14:45,400
Speaker 1: you do. I love man, It inspires me, you know

1515
01:14:45,439 --> 01:14:47,400
Speaker 1: what I mean. It's like you know they selectional testimony

1516
01:14:47,439 --> 01:14:50,160
Speaker 1: inspire you ain't and rely on somebody else's. But what

1517
01:14:50,280 --> 01:14:53,160
Speaker 1: we have is like God entrusted us with and he

1518
01:14:53,160 --> 01:14:54,479
Speaker 1: would have never gave it to us if anything we

1519
01:14:54,520 --> 01:14:56,800
Speaker 1: could do it so like it is like you said

1520
01:14:56,840 --> 01:14:59,920
Speaker 1: that purpose when all else is is rough. It's like

1521
01:15:00,280 --> 01:15:03,000
Speaker 1: we also remember that we're friends. You know what I'm saying,

1522
01:15:03,120 --> 01:15:05,280
Speaker 1: This is my dog, like what I said, what I'm

1523
01:15:05,280 --> 01:15:06,559
Speaker 1: want to say, my dall is like in a master,

1524
01:15:08,560 --> 01:15:11,800
Speaker 1: like my twin. You know, like like like I've never

1525
01:15:12,000 --> 01:15:14,720
Speaker 1: seen somebody so similar to me, because like you're the

1526
01:15:14,840 --> 01:15:18,599
Speaker 1: red yeah, literally I'm your red fore yeah. And if

1527
01:15:18,600 --> 01:15:21,280
Speaker 1: I'm the rip cage. We gotta have something comments real quick.

1528
01:15:21,320 --> 01:15:21,880
Speaker 6: Let me ask you this.

1529
01:15:22,040 --> 01:15:24,720
Speaker 5: So now back to the question that people ask, why

1530
01:15:24,760 --> 01:15:25,800
Speaker 5: have y'all got married yet?

1531
01:15:26,040 --> 01:15:28,599
Speaker 1: Why haven't got married yet? Man? Fear, not fear of commitment,

1532
01:15:29,160 --> 01:15:31,040
Speaker 1: and not fear of not believing that she's the one,

1533
01:15:31,400 --> 01:15:33,600
Speaker 1: but more so I want to do it perfect. Like

1534
01:15:34,160 --> 01:15:36,200
Speaker 1: I remember we had a conversation. We had a conversation

1535
01:15:36,560 --> 01:15:38,759
Speaker 1: where it's like, okay, now we have a public relationship,

1536
01:15:38,800 --> 01:15:40,799
Speaker 1: and I'm like, okay, people pleasing, it's still in effect.

1537
01:15:41,320 --> 01:15:44,519
Speaker 1: It's like, man, like money, funny change strange right now,

1538
01:15:44,560 --> 01:15:46,479
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. Yeah, So I'm like, lord,

1539
01:15:46,520 --> 01:15:48,040
Speaker 1: I don't want to give a no you know, you know,

1540
01:15:48,240 --> 01:15:51,160
Speaker 1: little little crackerjack box ring. It's like, I want to

1541
01:15:51,200 --> 01:15:54,559
Speaker 1: get it that exact cut, exact style, exact stone, exact

1542
01:15:54,640 --> 01:15:57,080
Speaker 1: snug fit. But I'm like, man, I ain't got it

1543
01:15:57,160 --> 01:15:58,560
Speaker 1: right now. So it's like I'm hustling a bust and

1544
01:15:58,560 --> 01:16:00,720
Speaker 1: I'm like, only they hold me back on is my

1545
01:16:01,000 --> 01:16:02,479
Speaker 1: my fear of not doing it the way that I

1546
01:16:02,520 --> 01:16:03,120
Speaker 1: feel like I should.

1547
01:16:03,200 --> 01:16:04,559
Speaker 6: That you want to do it now? I said, hell,

1548
01:16:04,720 --> 01:16:07,240
Speaker 6: before you finish this, what do you want in an

1549
01:16:07,280 --> 01:16:07,920
Speaker 6: engagement ring?

1550
01:16:09,720 --> 01:16:13,920
Speaker 2: I would like a marquee cut um hm with the

1551
01:16:13,960 --> 01:16:14,920
Speaker 2: halo three carrots.

1552
01:16:16,160 --> 01:16:18,439
Speaker 1: Hal, yeah, halo.

1553
01:16:19,240 --> 01:16:21,599
Speaker 2: I mean the lotus setting would be called.

1554
01:16:25,200 --> 01:16:30,240
Speaker 1: The leaves, right right, right, I do.

1555
01:16:30,439 --> 01:16:33,839
Speaker 2: I would like the band to have like be nature inspired.

1556
01:16:33,880 --> 01:16:34,559
Speaker 2: That would be cool.

1557
01:16:35,200 --> 01:16:37,200
Speaker 6: So have you shared that with him the type of

1558
01:16:37,280 --> 01:16:38,240
Speaker 6: ring that you want to do?

1559
01:16:38,800 --> 01:16:41,400
Speaker 5: And so when you when the way that she explained that,

1560
01:16:42,040 --> 01:16:44,240
Speaker 5: did you get so specific with the size of the

1561
01:16:44,360 --> 01:16:44,920
Speaker 5: carrot that it.

1562
01:16:45,000 --> 01:16:45,360
Speaker 6: Needs to be?

1563
01:16:45,600 --> 01:16:49,640
Speaker 3: And oh, yes, yes I did. I thought I just

1564
01:16:49,680 --> 01:16:52,000
Speaker 3: thought that three care on my finger.

1565
01:16:54,000 --> 01:16:57,320
Speaker 2: She likes. I just thought, I mean, you know, I'm like,

1566
01:16:57,720 --> 01:16:58,680
Speaker 2: the five is too big.

1567
01:16:59,000 --> 01:17:00,200
Speaker 6: He's definitely big.

1568
01:17:00,240 --> 01:17:02,000
Speaker 2: I don't know what seemed like. I don't know the

1569
01:17:02,080 --> 01:17:03,960
Speaker 2: size of my finger looks like three.

1570
01:17:04,800 --> 01:17:05,599
Speaker 6: It's given three.

1571
01:17:07,080 --> 01:17:07,240
Speaker 1: Three.

1572
01:17:08,000 --> 01:17:11,280
Speaker 4: So if it were smaller than that, you wouldn't be happy, No,

1573
01:17:11,640 --> 01:17:13,839
Speaker 4: I mean I would.

1574
01:17:13,640 --> 01:17:17,360
Speaker 2: Be, honestly for me, I'm just waiting to see if

1575
01:17:17,560 --> 01:17:18,640
Speaker 2: he has the balls to do.

1576
01:17:18,720 --> 01:17:21,760
Speaker 5: It, no matter like what, like, I just see that's

1577
01:17:21,760 --> 01:17:23,560
Speaker 5: what you said to me before, you said you just

1578
01:17:23,600 --> 01:17:25,720
Speaker 5: want to see if if he will do it?

1579
01:17:25,960 --> 01:17:26,160
Speaker 4: Yeah?

1580
01:17:26,240 --> 01:17:28,360
Speaker 5: Like is he? But to think about is this? Because

1581
01:17:28,360 --> 01:17:29,880
Speaker 5: I'm gonna tell you how the man works. I'm gonna

1582
01:17:29,880 --> 01:17:32,599
Speaker 5: speak on behalf of Josh now, when you just said

1583
01:17:32,680 --> 01:17:35,559
Speaker 5: what you wanted, you didn't lead with that, you didn't

1584
01:17:35,600 --> 01:17:37,280
Speaker 5: leave with I don't care. I don't care what the

1585
01:17:37,360 --> 01:17:39,479
Speaker 5: ring look like. I just want to see him leave

1586
01:17:39,520 --> 01:17:41,960
Speaker 5: with the intention I didn't do it. In his head,

1587
01:17:42,680 --> 01:17:49,400
Speaker 5: is that three carre lotus bomb with leaves all over it?

1588
01:17:49,640 --> 01:17:51,680
Speaker 5: You know what I'm saying, We're made and crushed it?

1589
01:17:52,040 --> 01:17:53,760
Speaker 5: And in his brain is that so?

1590
01:17:54,000 --> 01:17:54,160
Speaker 4: Now?

1591
01:17:54,479 --> 01:17:59,880
Speaker 5: Because he operates from a perfectionist mindset, he's aspiring.

1592
01:17:59,400 --> 01:18:02,040
Speaker 1: To do that, and he knows that if he does

1593
01:18:02,200 --> 01:18:04,120
Speaker 1: do that, and he gives it his best.

1594
01:18:05,360 --> 01:18:07,760
Speaker 5: And I'm speaking on my behalf as well, because he

1595
01:18:07,840 --> 01:18:10,719
Speaker 5: and I share a lot of commonality that his best

1596
01:18:10,880 --> 01:18:13,679
Speaker 5: may not be good enough and so, and he also

1597
01:18:13,840 --> 01:18:18,920
Speaker 5: believes that you deserve his best, and we say his best,

1598
01:18:19,000 --> 01:18:20,120
Speaker 5: you deserve the best.

1599
01:18:20,880 --> 01:18:23,720
Speaker 6: Think about what he said. Listen to what my young

1600
01:18:23,840 --> 01:18:24,360
Speaker 6: king said.

1601
01:18:24,760 --> 01:18:27,120
Speaker 5: He said that even when he looked at your following

1602
01:18:27,160 --> 01:18:29,760
Speaker 5: people that was leaving comments, he started measuring himself up

1603
01:18:29,800 --> 01:18:32,200
Speaker 5: against them, and they got this, they got this, will

1604
01:18:32,280 --> 01:18:35,760
Speaker 5: do will shoot. I'm just in the field. I'm just

1605
01:18:35,880 --> 01:18:38,360
Speaker 5: David in the field. These guys right here got careers,

1606
01:18:38,400 --> 01:18:40,559
Speaker 5: got money. He probably looked at they paid, just got

1607
01:18:40,600 --> 01:18:50,040
Speaker 5: Bentley's All the Day Life. Yeah dream card, he said.

1608
01:18:50,080 --> 01:18:52,120
Speaker 5: And I'm sitting up here at home my mama, like,

1609
01:18:52,240 --> 01:18:54,240
Speaker 5: how does that? How does that gonna work? You know

1610
01:18:54,280 --> 01:18:56,760
Speaker 5: what I'm saying, But the truth, And this is why

1611
01:18:56,760 --> 01:18:57,880
Speaker 5: I would to encourage Josh.

1612
01:18:59,080 --> 01:19:02,479
Speaker 6: She ain't with him. She could have had all of them.

1613
01:19:03,040 --> 01:19:05,519
Speaker 6: She chose you, yes.

1614
01:19:06,080 --> 01:19:08,760
Speaker 5: So that means that in spite of what you don't have,

1615
01:19:09,320 --> 01:19:14,000
Speaker 5: no matter what you're disqualifying yourself from, She's already qualified you.

1616
01:19:14,920 --> 01:19:17,280
Speaker 6: And so that's the reality. She already said, baby, you enough.

1617
01:19:18,080 --> 01:19:22,360
Speaker 5: And sometimes the thing, the roadblock that is limiting us

1618
01:19:22,640 --> 01:19:26,000
Speaker 5: from stepping into our destiny is something that we spoke

1619
01:19:26,080 --> 01:19:28,280
Speaker 5: to ourselves. It's not even what she said to you.

1620
01:19:28,960 --> 01:19:32,519
Speaker 5: She's saying that in a perfect world, but truth be told.

1621
01:19:32,560 --> 01:19:35,040
Speaker 5: The way she operates and function, she like you just

1622
01:19:35,080 --> 01:19:37,360
Speaker 5: the way you are. So you go get the best

1623
01:19:37,479 --> 01:19:40,000
Speaker 5: ring you can get and let it be your best.

1624
01:19:40,040 --> 01:19:42,640
Speaker 5: She's gonna notice it as your best gift. And we

1625
01:19:42,640 --> 01:19:44,679
Speaker 5: ain't gonna go biblical and start telling you the story

1626
01:19:44,720 --> 01:19:46,800
Speaker 5: in the Bible where it gave his best offering and

1627
01:19:46,840 --> 01:19:47,840
Speaker 5: came back and said, I don't want that.

1628
01:19:48,040 --> 01:19:49,840
Speaker 6: You know what I'm saying like, man, I gave you

1629
01:19:49,920 --> 01:19:51,840
Speaker 6: this more than what he just gave you, but that

1630
01:19:51,920 --> 01:19:55,120
Speaker 6: ain't your best. And so she knows she ain't.

1631
01:19:55,280 --> 01:19:57,280
Speaker 1: She know what you got, she know what you don't got.

1632
01:19:57,960 --> 01:19:59,800
Speaker 5: So at the end of the day, she's saying, just

1633
01:20:00,080 --> 01:20:02,080
Speaker 5: give me your best so that I can show you

1634
01:20:02,200 --> 01:20:04,600
Speaker 5: the type of wife I am, because I'm going to

1635
01:20:04,720 --> 01:20:06,240
Speaker 5: appreciate your best gift.

1636
01:20:07,120 --> 01:20:08,400
Speaker 1: So don't deprive her of that.

1637
01:20:08,800 --> 01:20:11,599
Speaker 5: Don't deprive her of the moment of showing, because she knows,

1638
01:20:11,840 --> 01:20:18,280
Speaker 5: thank you Holy Spirit. She knows where you're at you'll

1639
01:20:18,400 --> 01:20:21,840
Speaker 5: never be again, and she knows the elevation that you're

1640
01:20:21,960 --> 01:20:25,920
Speaker 5: going to walk in that she knows that these days

1641
01:20:26,880 --> 01:20:30,559
Speaker 5: despise you, not the day of small beginnings. She wants

1642
01:20:30,640 --> 01:20:33,560
Speaker 5: to be able to celebrate the small beginning because that

1643
01:20:33,720 --> 01:20:36,040
Speaker 5: ring is going to get upgraded in the years. And

1644
01:20:36,160 --> 01:20:39,640
Speaker 5: so what happens is she says, hey, listen, baby, choose me. Yes,

1645
01:20:39,720 --> 01:20:42,800
Speaker 5: because another thing about Julika is that she wants to

1646
01:20:42,880 --> 01:20:46,160
Speaker 5: be chosen. Everything that she's been saying this whole conversation

1647
01:20:46,360 --> 01:20:47,160
Speaker 5: is that he likes me.

1648
01:20:47,400 --> 01:20:47,920
Speaker 1: He likes me.

1649
01:20:48,080 --> 01:20:50,280
Speaker 5: Yeah, you look at her, You're like, she's beautiful, she's talented,

1650
01:20:50,320 --> 01:20:53,439
Speaker 5: she's this or whatever, but still in her mind, he

1651
01:20:53,680 --> 01:20:57,120
Speaker 5: likes me. So now the ultimate validation is does he

1652
01:20:57,439 --> 01:20:59,720
Speaker 5: like me so much that he'll actually put a ring

1653
01:20:59,760 --> 01:21:03,120
Speaker 5: on my finger? Because it sounds good, it's cute, But

1654
01:21:03,280 --> 01:21:06,040
Speaker 5: do you like me this much? So I can hear

1655
01:21:06,160 --> 01:21:09,200
Speaker 5: what people are saying underneath what they're saying, and that's

1656
01:21:09,280 --> 01:21:11,680
Speaker 5: the truth about it. But the beautiful thing about what

1657
01:21:11,880 --> 01:21:15,360
Speaker 5: y'all have together is that y'all, y'all will never be

1658
01:21:15,720 --> 01:21:19,040
Speaker 5: where y'all are right now. God is going to elevate

1659
01:21:19,120 --> 01:21:21,080
Speaker 5: you'all own levels, but he's wanting to see how y'all

1660
01:21:21,120 --> 01:21:23,880
Speaker 5: stewart this season of your life where it's not about money,

1661
01:21:23,920 --> 01:21:26,880
Speaker 5: it's about the love. It's about the commitment, it's about

1662
01:21:26,920 --> 01:21:29,840
Speaker 5: the covenant. It's about the covering. So that when y'all

1663
01:21:29,960 --> 01:21:33,439
Speaker 5: make a covenant decision right now, God says, now you

1664
01:21:33,680 --> 01:21:37,080
Speaker 5: enter into favor. The Bible says he that finds a wife,

1665
01:21:37,479 --> 01:21:40,400
Speaker 5: finds a good thing, and obtains favor from the Lord.

1666
01:21:41,080 --> 01:21:43,960
Speaker 6: You've met your favorite factor, but you haven't received favor yet.

1667
01:21:44,479 --> 01:21:48,040
Speaker 5: The minute that you actually walk into that dimension, it's

1668
01:21:48,120 --> 01:21:48,759
Speaker 5: so exciting.

1669
01:21:50,520 --> 01:21:54,560
Speaker 2: Our marriage is going to bring Listen, so am I

1670
01:21:54,640 --> 01:21:58,719
Speaker 2: confirming or am I confirmed? I'm loving everything?

1671
01:21:58,960 --> 01:22:02,000
Speaker 5: So why I said you can't operate on site oftentimes

1672
01:22:02,040 --> 01:22:04,760
Speaker 5: as men that I'm telling you, I am that dude,

1673
01:22:05,000 --> 01:22:05,479
Speaker 5: I am you.

1674
01:22:06,080 --> 01:22:06,560
Speaker 1: I am you.

1675
01:22:07,080 --> 01:22:09,519
Speaker 6: I would listen. I got to be this. You came

1676
01:22:09,560 --> 01:22:12,479
Speaker 6: to my house today. I got that house for my wife.

1677
01:22:12,640 --> 01:22:14,840
Speaker 1: Yes, I literally was like, let me go do this.

1678
01:22:15,160 --> 01:22:15,720
Speaker 6: You know what I'm saying.

1679
01:22:15,760 --> 01:22:18,120
Speaker 5: So in my mindset, I understand that at the end

1680
01:22:18,160 --> 01:22:20,640
Speaker 5: of the day, it still has to get outside of

1681
01:22:20,880 --> 01:22:23,760
Speaker 5: all of the stuff and get right here, hard to

1682
01:22:23,840 --> 01:22:25,800
Speaker 5: heart and be like, do you love me?

1683
01:22:26,360 --> 01:22:28,360
Speaker 6: I love you? Are you gonna cover me? Are you

1684
01:22:28,479 --> 01:22:30,439
Speaker 6: never gonna leave me? I ain't gonna never leave you.

1685
01:22:30,640 --> 01:22:32,760
Speaker 6: I'm always cover you. And that's enough.

1686
01:22:33,000 --> 01:22:33,599
Speaker 1: All the other.

1687
01:22:33,479 --> 01:22:39,360
Speaker 5: Stuff is it's superfluous. Yeah, yeah, it's gonna come because

1688
01:22:39,560 --> 01:22:42,240
Speaker 5: God is a guy. You said this, seeky first and

1689
01:22:42,320 --> 01:22:44,040
Speaker 5: Kingdom of God and his right and then all these

1690
01:22:44,120 --> 01:22:46,280
Speaker 5: things shall be at it. You quoted that scripture earlier,

1691
01:22:46,360 --> 01:22:49,600
Speaker 5: but you're not using that to apply to your industrial

1692
01:22:50,120 --> 01:22:50,559
Speaker 5: oil man.

1693
01:22:50,640 --> 01:22:53,559
Speaker 1: That's that's real. And you know why because I believe

1694
01:22:54,040 --> 01:22:56,120
Speaker 1: in addition to what you're saying is for the confirmation.

1695
01:22:56,280 --> 01:22:59,599
Speaker 1: Because we were in l A and we were at

1696
01:22:59,640 --> 01:23:05,720
Speaker 1: the screening of a relatable man that rate. There was

1697
01:23:05,720 --> 01:23:08,400
Speaker 1: an eye open experience because we saw so many beautiful couples.

1698
01:23:08,640 --> 01:23:10,800
Speaker 1: A lot of had similar stories. He proposed to me

1699
01:23:10,920 --> 01:23:13,240
Speaker 1: with a ring pop, he proposed a rubble band, he

1700
01:23:13,280 --> 01:23:17,120
Speaker 1: proposed to me with with with with his mouths. You

1701
01:23:17,120 --> 01:23:20,360
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. But I just got tattoos, right,

1702
01:23:20,720 --> 01:23:22,880
Speaker 1: and I'm realizing. I'm like, Yo, what's stopping me is

1703
01:23:22,880 --> 01:23:27,720
Speaker 1: I'm trying to do God's will my way. It's like, God,

1704
01:23:27,800 --> 01:23:31,360
Speaker 1: I'm already knowing this is my woman, and it's like, okay, now,

1705
01:23:31,400 --> 01:23:33,200
Speaker 1: God that you told me this moment, cool, let me

1706
01:23:33,280 --> 01:23:34,360
Speaker 1: do it the way that I want to do it.

1707
01:23:34,560 --> 01:23:36,640
Speaker 1: And so now like I'm like, Okay, I got my preferences,

1708
01:23:37,040 --> 01:23:38,800
Speaker 1: but it's not just about me. But it's, like you said,

1709
01:23:38,800 --> 01:23:43,080
Speaker 1: because she deserves it. But I'm realizing that holiness must

1710
01:23:43,160 --> 01:23:46,120
Speaker 1: be prioritized and it's the fact that you the matter, Like, Okay,

1711
01:23:46,280 --> 01:23:48,760
Speaker 1: we know we're gonna be at this lover, man, We're

1712
01:23:48,760 --> 01:23:51,160
Speaker 1: gonna be blessed to be a blessing. Yeah, right now

1713
01:23:51,160 --> 01:23:53,080
Speaker 1: I'm looking for the blessing. You know what I'm saying, Like, hey,

1714
01:23:53,600 --> 01:23:57,240
Speaker 1: let my name about his spirit. You know, you know

1715
01:23:57,320 --> 01:24:00,000
Speaker 1: what I'm saying. But I'm just so honestly, I probably

1716
01:24:00,040 --> 01:24:01,840
Speaker 1: speak for a lot of people too, and I'm just

1717
01:24:01,920 --> 01:24:04,240
Speaker 1: grateful that we're only a year in you know, yeah,

1718
01:24:04,320 --> 01:24:06,400
Speaker 1: a lot of people thirteen years.

1719
01:24:06,800 --> 01:24:07,519
Speaker 6: He's still waiting.

1720
01:24:07,960 --> 01:24:10,479
Speaker 1: It's just like it and it starts to start to

1721
01:24:10,520 --> 01:24:12,880
Speaker 1: really your word starts to like the plant. That was

1722
01:24:12,920 --> 01:24:17,559
Speaker 1: the word that deteriorate, diminished, the diminish.

1723
01:24:17,880 --> 01:24:21,880
Speaker 4: Yes, so you guys have been dating for one year.

1724
01:24:21,840 --> 01:24:22,200
Speaker 6: Four years.

1725
01:24:22,360 --> 01:24:24,240
Speaker 2: Yes, he asked me to be his girlfriend.

1726
01:24:24,600 --> 01:24:27,559
Speaker 3: When I want to go and see him November first,

1727
01:24:29,800 --> 01:24:32,800
Speaker 3: I want to go and see him in Hampton when

1728
01:24:32,840 --> 01:24:35,479
Speaker 3: he was going to school and to meet him for

1729
01:24:35,560 --> 01:24:36,120
Speaker 3: the first time.

1730
01:24:36,760 --> 01:24:39,320
Speaker 2: And uh, he asked me to be his girlfriend.

1731
01:24:39,920 --> 01:24:40,040
Speaker 5: Uh.

1732
01:24:40,560 --> 01:24:43,200
Speaker 3: We see two days after like we were like, you know,

1733
01:24:43,280 --> 01:24:49,240
Speaker 3: hanging out together and he asked me at Halbachi in

1734
01:24:49,320 --> 01:24:55,280
Speaker 3: front of everybody and was like, yes, yes, here girl. Yeah.

1735
01:24:56,040 --> 01:24:59,200
Speaker 2: And then we got in the car and I was like, hey, yeah.

1736
01:24:59,200 --> 01:25:02,800
Speaker 3: So because mind you, Prior to me meeting him, we

1737
01:25:02,920 --> 01:25:05,280
Speaker 3: talked about this. We were like, are you ready for

1738
01:25:05,280 --> 01:25:06,000
Speaker 3: a relationship?

1739
01:25:06,240 --> 01:25:06,280
Speaker 6: No?

1740
01:25:06,680 --> 01:25:08,840
Speaker 3: Are you ready for a relationship, No, We're not ready

1741
01:25:08,840 --> 01:25:09,600
Speaker 3: for a relationships.

1742
01:25:09,680 --> 01:25:10,439
Speaker 6: So we're not gone.

1743
01:25:10,880 --> 01:25:12,519
Speaker 2: And then two days into us meeting, you're ask me

1744
01:25:12,520 --> 01:25:13,280
Speaker 2: to be your girlfriend.

1745
01:25:13,360 --> 01:25:16,120
Speaker 1: What's really but I guess you know.

1746
01:25:17,680 --> 01:25:19,000
Speaker 2: She's sawing me a person I don't know.

1747
01:25:19,479 --> 01:25:22,200
Speaker 3: But listen, we got back in the car and that

1748
01:25:22,400 --> 01:25:25,160
Speaker 3: was just like, listen, I'm gonna have to see God

1749
01:25:25,280 --> 01:25:28,280
Speaker 3: because I have to see God about this. I told

1750
01:25:28,320 --> 01:25:29,800
Speaker 3: you yes in front of all those people, because we

1751
01:25:29,840 --> 01:25:31,200
Speaker 3: were in front of all those people, and want to

1752
01:25:31,240 --> 01:25:32,720
Speaker 3: embarrass you, But it's gonna have to be a no

1753
01:25:32,880 --> 01:25:34,840
Speaker 3: for right now because I have to ask God first

1754
01:25:35,120 --> 01:25:37,960
Speaker 3: and see what he has to say this next relationship

1755
01:25:38,000 --> 01:25:39,920
Speaker 3: that I get in, I wanted to be my last.

1756
01:25:40,520 --> 01:25:44,120
Speaker 3: I don't want to go through him, no other boyfriend,

1757
01:25:44,160 --> 01:25:46,800
Speaker 3: no other breakup. I want my next man to be

1758
01:25:46,920 --> 01:25:49,960
Speaker 3: my husband. And so I need to see God about

1759
01:25:49,960 --> 01:25:51,880
Speaker 3: to see what he has to say because obviously he

1760
01:25:52,000 --> 01:25:53,320
Speaker 3: has the best.

1761
01:25:53,640 --> 01:25:54,559
Speaker 2: Yeah, I'm saying.

1762
01:25:55,240 --> 01:25:57,519
Speaker 3: And so after a few days, like he was quiet,

1763
01:25:57,560 --> 01:26:00,840
Speaker 3: God was quiet, right, just just I guess trying to

1764
01:26:00,880 --> 01:26:04,280
Speaker 3: figure out how how trying to let us have our

1765
01:26:04,320 --> 01:26:06,160
Speaker 3: own time with each other, you know what I mean,

1766
01:26:06,240 --> 01:26:07,799
Speaker 3: and figure out each other for ourselves.

1767
01:26:08,920 --> 01:26:11,479
Speaker 2: But after I think three days he had or two

1768
01:26:11,560 --> 01:26:13,719
Speaker 2: days he had told me that this is your person,

1769
01:26:14,400 --> 01:26:15,519
Speaker 2: and so I said.

1770
01:26:15,360 --> 01:26:21,200
Speaker 3: Okay, Josh, if you want me to be your girlfriend,

1771
01:26:21,520 --> 01:26:24,519
Speaker 3: I need a promise ring and so and then he

1772
01:26:24,720 --> 01:26:26,679
Speaker 3: was like, okay, let's go ring shopping.

1773
01:26:27,120 --> 01:26:28,600
Speaker 2: And then went to ring shopping and.

1774
01:26:28,720 --> 01:26:32,880
Speaker 3: We exchange promise rings on the eleventh of November, the

1775
01:26:33,000 --> 01:26:33,679
Speaker 3: day that I left.

1776
01:26:33,720 --> 01:26:35,719
Speaker 2: And so I have two promise rings now.

1777
01:26:36,240 --> 01:26:37,280
Speaker 6: The eleventh of November.

1778
01:26:37,439 --> 01:26:42,160
Speaker 5: Yeah, yes, listen, man, I want to talk to y'all

1779
01:26:42,400 --> 01:26:45,160
Speaker 5: all day, and I gotta go jump on this other

1780
01:26:45,280 --> 01:26:49,240
Speaker 5: call or whatever. But gosh, and see, this could have

1781
01:26:49,280 --> 01:26:51,560
Speaker 5: been a two hour interview, which I was looking forward to,

1782
01:26:51,840 --> 01:26:55,920
Speaker 5: but because of the airline and all that nonsense, it

1783
01:26:56,080 --> 01:26:58,280
Speaker 5: messed up everything. And so we definitely like to have

1784
01:26:58,400 --> 01:27:04,519
Speaker 5: y'all back when y'all getting gaged. Now you know, y'all,

1785
01:27:04,720 --> 01:27:07,320
Speaker 5: y'all did an amazing job. I want you to grab

1786
01:27:07,400 --> 01:27:10,120
Speaker 5: that box and it's a piece of its two pieces

1787
01:27:10,160 --> 01:27:11,320
Speaker 5: of paper there and.

1788
01:27:11,400 --> 01:27:12,120
Speaker 6: The two keys.

1789
01:27:12,479 --> 01:27:15,200
Speaker 5: I want y'all to use the box. Grab the sharpies,

1790
01:27:15,600 --> 01:27:19,320
Speaker 5: y'all get one each. Yeah, mister missus, Uh open that up.

1791
01:27:19,400 --> 01:27:21,599
Speaker 5: Y'all going to write a key to love, write something

1792
01:27:22,200 --> 01:27:26,000
Speaker 5: that you would like to leave with the audience, get

1793
01:27:26,040 --> 01:27:27,120
Speaker 5: the ones with the keys on it.

1794
01:27:29,439 --> 01:27:29,880
Speaker 1: This is so.

1795
01:27:32,000 --> 01:27:36,920
Speaker 6: Talent, so right y Yeah, I'm real Like that's why

1796
01:27:36,920 --> 01:27:37,880
Speaker 6: I said, I understand Josh.

1797
01:27:38,600 --> 01:27:38,680
Speaker 5: Uh.

1798
01:27:38,760 --> 01:27:40,320
Speaker 6: And then y'all can write on use the box to

1799
01:27:40,400 --> 01:27:41,000
Speaker 6: right on top of it.

1800
01:27:41,760 --> 01:27:41,960
Speaker 4: Yeah.

1801
01:27:43,680 --> 01:27:45,519
Speaker 5: Yeah, write a key to love, some quote you want

1802
01:27:45,560 --> 01:27:47,720
Speaker 5: to say, something you want to leave, sign your name

1803
01:27:47,840 --> 01:27:50,840
Speaker 5: on it, and then we'll have you read what you

1804
01:27:51,000 --> 01:27:52,920
Speaker 5: feel A key to love is.

1805
01:27:54,439 --> 01:27:57,920
Speaker 6: Ashley. Yes, what you think about this young love?

1806
01:27:58,920 --> 01:28:03,479
Speaker 4: I'm so insane, fired and encourage that they are leading

1807
01:28:04,880 --> 01:28:09,160
Speaker 4: our future generation. Yeah, and I see how they're inspiring

1808
01:28:09,360 --> 01:28:14,640
Speaker 4: older people. I'm just reminded of the scripture where it

1809
01:28:14,720 --> 01:28:16,760
Speaker 4: says out of the mouth of babes.

1810
01:28:16,720 --> 01:28:17,720
Speaker 2: Even though you know.

1811
01:28:19,240 --> 01:28:20,919
Speaker 6: They still babes.

1812
01:28:21,760 --> 01:28:22,280
Speaker 4: What about you?

1813
01:28:22,439 --> 01:28:23,000
Speaker 2: Would you think?

1814
01:28:23,680 --> 01:28:26,200
Speaker 5: Well, I love how you were even saying that Josh

1815
01:28:26,320 --> 01:28:28,040
Speaker 5: is like I need him to mentor Ladarian.

1816
01:28:28,280 --> 01:28:28,880
Speaker 6: You know what I'm saying.

1817
01:28:29,160 --> 01:28:32,840
Speaker 5: And I understand how important that is because like I said,

1818
01:28:32,880 --> 01:28:37,360
Speaker 5: I want I want Ladarian to see young Christian men.

1819
01:28:37,760 --> 01:28:38,400
Speaker 6: You know what I'm saying.

1820
01:28:38,920 --> 01:28:42,679
Speaker 5: Uh, this world has been innundating young people with everything

1821
01:28:42,880 --> 01:28:46,639
Speaker 5: outside of God, and so it's good to see because

1822
01:28:46,680 --> 01:28:50,360
Speaker 5: you can clearly see that Josh has a huge calling

1823
01:28:50,560 --> 01:28:51,320
Speaker 5: over his life.

1824
01:28:51,640 --> 01:28:53,160
Speaker 6: Like while he's talking.

1825
01:28:53,520 --> 01:28:56,080
Speaker 5: I see him forty fifty years old, Like I can

1826
01:28:56,120 --> 01:28:59,280
Speaker 5: sit there and see him Like it's like I see

1827
01:28:59,400 --> 01:29:03,759
Speaker 5: so much promise over his life, mega so much impact.

1828
01:29:03,840 --> 01:29:04,479
Speaker 6: That's crazy.

1829
01:29:04,760 --> 01:29:06,240
Speaker 5: And I don't want to put a name and be

1830
01:29:06,360 --> 01:29:08,040
Speaker 5: like he's going to be like this person, this person,

1831
01:29:08,120 --> 01:29:10,880
Speaker 5: because I feel like it's still is a disservice to

1832
01:29:10,960 --> 01:29:13,960
Speaker 5: the personal calling and the unique calling over his life.

1833
01:29:14,360 --> 01:29:16,760
Speaker 5: But I will say this to you, Josh, think of

1834
01:29:16,880 --> 01:29:18,680
Speaker 5: the person in your mind. You ain't got to say

1835
01:29:18,680 --> 01:29:20,760
Speaker 5: their name, yes, but the person in your name and

1836
01:29:20,880 --> 01:29:22,439
Speaker 5: ministry that you aspire to.

1837
01:29:24,720 --> 01:29:26,400
Speaker 6: That pells in comparison to what God is going to

1838
01:29:26,439 --> 01:29:26,920
Speaker 6: do in your life.

1839
01:29:27,120 --> 01:29:29,719
Speaker 5: Thank you the person you look up to, the person

1840
01:29:29,760 --> 01:29:32,360
Speaker 5: you say if I had a ministry like this or whatever.

1841
01:29:33,960 --> 01:29:35,040
Speaker 6: Please thank you.

1842
01:29:35,760 --> 01:29:41,800
Speaker 5: Eyes have not seen, nor ears have heard, nor entered

1843
01:29:41,840 --> 01:29:44,160
Speaker 5: into the mind of man. I'm telling you the things

1844
01:29:44,280 --> 01:29:46,519
Speaker 5: that you are going to walk in, and I just

1845
01:29:46,600 --> 01:29:48,760
Speaker 5: kept hearing it. I was like, this is beautiful, like

1846
01:29:48,880 --> 01:29:52,679
Speaker 5: this is this is so beautiful and it's not something

1847
01:29:52,680 --> 01:29:54,759
Speaker 5: you have to wait till you forty years old about

1848
01:29:55,560 --> 01:29:58,840
Speaker 5: you're about to experience as suddenly in your life. You're

1849
01:29:58,840 --> 01:30:02,280
Speaker 5: about to experience an elevation in your life that's going

1850
01:30:02,360 --> 01:30:05,599
Speaker 5: to give you whiplash. How fast God is gonna do it. Jesus,

1851
01:30:05,720 --> 01:30:07,360
Speaker 5: You're going to get You're gonna be like, hold on,

1852
01:30:07,520 --> 01:30:09,439
Speaker 5: what just yesterday?

1853
01:30:09,520 --> 01:30:10,120
Speaker 1: I was pole?

1854
01:30:10,439 --> 01:30:13,280
Speaker 6: Just yesterday, I didn't understand it. Just yesterday I was struggling.

1855
01:30:13,280 --> 01:30:14,680
Speaker 6: You go like God, you just did.

1856
01:30:15,000 --> 01:30:18,160
Speaker 5: But it comes through your obedience, and it comes through

1857
01:30:18,160 --> 01:30:21,080
Speaker 5: your total surrender to God, saying God is for you.

1858
01:30:21,280 --> 01:30:23,720
Speaker 6: I live, It's for you, I die. God. I don't

1859
01:30:23,800 --> 01:30:24,680
Speaker 6: have to understand it.

1860
01:30:24,840 --> 01:30:26,840
Speaker 5: I'm just gonna put one foot in front of the other,

1861
01:30:27,000 --> 01:30:28,479
Speaker 5: and I'm gonna follow your voice.

1862
01:30:29,200 --> 01:30:32,439
Speaker 6: And I guarantee you, I guar run to you.

1863
01:30:32,720 --> 01:30:35,320
Speaker 5: On the other side of this covenant that you're gonna

1864
01:30:35,360 --> 01:30:40,600
Speaker 5: make with Julika is going to blow your mind. In

1865
01:30:40,760 --> 01:30:42,960
Speaker 5: the name of Jesus, Heavenly Father, I lift up this

1866
01:30:43,080 --> 01:30:47,720
Speaker 5: couple before you. I'm gonna call them the hoovers right now, Hallelujah.

1867
01:30:48,160 --> 01:30:50,400
Speaker 5: I lift up the hoovers before you, right now, the

1868
01:30:50,520 --> 01:30:53,879
Speaker 5: name of Jesus. I feel the Holy Spirit hoovering over.

1869
01:30:53,800 --> 01:30:54,519
Speaker 6: Them right now.

1870
01:30:54,640 --> 01:30:57,200
Speaker 5: In the name of Jesus and God, I speak right

1871
01:30:57,320 --> 01:31:01,439
Speaker 5: now that they do great exploits in your You've already started.

1872
01:31:01,479 --> 01:31:03,920
Speaker 5: You said that he that beginneth a good work shall

1873
01:31:04,000 --> 01:31:06,479
Speaker 5: perform it until the day of Christ. God. They are

1874
01:31:06,560 --> 01:31:09,960
Speaker 5: in total surrender to you, and God, I ask right

1875
01:31:10,040 --> 01:31:12,640
Speaker 5: now in the name of Jesus, that they're not just

1876
01:31:12,760 --> 01:31:15,679
Speaker 5: going to walk in influence. They're going to walk in impact.

1877
01:31:16,320 --> 01:31:21,200
Speaker 5: That wherever their feet treads, lives are going to come

1878
01:31:21,400 --> 01:31:25,360
Speaker 5: under submission to you, Heavenly Father, that when they open

1879
01:31:25,479 --> 01:31:28,720
Speaker 5: up their mouths, God, you are going to use them

1880
01:31:28,840 --> 01:31:34,640
Speaker 5: as mouthpieces to speak to a hurting nation, to a

1881
01:31:34,800 --> 01:31:40,800
Speaker 5: dying nation, to a doubtful nation. Joh said, even in

1882
01:31:40,920 --> 01:31:45,800
Speaker 5: the season, he was struggling with his unbelief, But God,

1883
01:31:46,240 --> 01:31:48,400
Speaker 5: you allowed him to go through that so that he

1884
01:31:48,479 --> 01:31:51,240
Speaker 5: could get the language, the mindset, so he can speak

1885
01:31:51,280 --> 01:31:55,880
Speaker 5: to other people that are struggling with their unbelief. This

1886
01:31:56,160 --> 01:32:03,599
Speaker 5: heart that Julika has to serve and honor you, unashamed, transparent, vulnerable, God,

1887
01:32:03,640 --> 01:32:06,639
Speaker 5: You're gonna use that to speak to that those young

1888
01:32:06,720 --> 01:32:09,639
Speaker 5: girls that are cowering in the corner because they feel

1889
01:32:09,680 --> 01:32:13,040
Speaker 5: like their voice has gone unheard for so many years.

1890
01:32:13,120 --> 01:32:16,120
Speaker 5: And she's gonna be able to give voice to the voiceless. Yes,

1891
01:32:16,600 --> 01:32:20,000
Speaker 5: she's gonna give hope to the hopeless. You're gonna use

1892
01:32:20,080 --> 01:32:22,719
Speaker 5: her to give restoration to those that have been struggling,

1893
01:32:23,200 --> 01:32:27,439
Speaker 5: who have given up, who have literally have have denounced

1894
01:32:27,479 --> 01:32:30,920
Speaker 5: their own bodies and started prostituting themselves out for cash.

1895
01:32:31,000 --> 01:32:34,040
Speaker 5: And God, you're gonna use her to bring out women

1896
01:32:34,720 --> 01:32:38,200
Speaker 5: Jesus who don't know their value. Yes, because there was

1897
01:32:38,240 --> 01:32:40,160
Speaker 5: a season in her life where she didn't know hers.

1898
01:32:41,520 --> 01:32:44,400
Speaker 5: But God, I thank you right now for the calling

1899
01:32:44,840 --> 01:32:48,759
Speaker 5: that's over their life. And God, we stand in agreement asking.

1900
01:32:48,880 --> 01:32:52,719
Speaker 5: I stand in agreement knowing that where you have joined together,

1901
01:32:52,840 --> 01:32:55,400
Speaker 5: let no man put us under. We thank you for

1902
01:32:55,479 --> 01:33:02,120
Speaker 5: this testimony. We thank you for the gift of their lives. Yes, God,

1903
01:33:02,240 --> 01:33:07,120
Speaker 5: we asked that you just make us suddenly happen. Bring

1904
01:33:07,240 --> 01:33:12,240
Speaker 5: the finances, bring everything that you need to bring into

1905
01:33:12,320 --> 01:33:15,360
Speaker 5: their lives to put Josh's.

1906
01:33:15,200 --> 01:33:17,280
Speaker 6: Spirit at peace and ease.

1907
01:33:18,920 --> 01:33:22,200
Speaker 5: But God, I asked, even if the finances don't come

1908
01:33:22,280 --> 01:33:24,240
Speaker 5: to the liking that he wants, and he gets to

1909
01:33:24,240 --> 01:33:28,280
Speaker 5: the ring that he desires, that he walks in total obedience, Yes, God,

1910
01:33:29,920 --> 01:33:33,040
Speaker 5: and does what you've already been showing him to do.

1911
01:33:33,960 --> 01:33:39,360
Speaker 6: We thank you Jesus name, we pray Amen, Amen, Amen

1912
01:33:40,479 --> 01:33:45,240
Speaker 6: much So what did y'all write on the Key to love?

1913
01:33:45,640 --> 01:33:49,000
Speaker 3: Okay, So this actually has been in my spirit since since.

1914
01:33:49,280 --> 01:33:50,040
Speaker 2: I went over there.

1915
01:33:51,439 --> 01:33:55,719
Speaker 3: It's do not judge your partner, love them into evolution,

1916
01:33:55,960 --> 01:33:58,000
Speaker 3: pray for them. And this is something that like I'm

1917
01:33:58,120 --> 01:34:02,840
Speaker 3: learning lately that it's literally the devil in your mind

1918
01:34:03,160 --> 01:34:05,240
Speaker 3: when you kind of start to like pick apart different

1919
01:34:05,320 --> 01:34:08,920
Speaker 3: things about your partner. That is like little judgments like oh,

1920
01:34:08,960 --> 01:34:10,240
Speaker 3: I don't like the way they do that, don't like

1921
01:34:10,320 --> 01:34:12,599
Speaker 3: the way they say that. I don't little think it's

1922
01:34:12,680 --> 01:34:17,160
Speaker 3: the voice of the enemy, And those small things can

1923
01:34:17,240 --> 01:34:20,719
Speaker 3: really build up over time, and it's important to rebuke

1924
01:34:20,840 --> 01:34:23,720
Speaker 3: those thoughts right there at the root. You might think

1925
01:34:23,720 --> 01:34:26,599
Speaker 3: it's yourself judging them, but it's not. And the more

1926
01:34:26,640 --> 01:34:29,360
Speaker 3: that you judge somebody else, especially somebody that you love

1927
01:34:29,439 --> 01:34:32,559
Speaker 3: so dearly, like your partner, you judge yourself more too.

1928
01:34:33,200 --> 01:34:37,200
Speaker 3: And it just leaves to I feel like judging yourself

1929
01:34:37,400 --> 01:34:40,840
Speaker 3: so much can lead to you taking your own life.

1930
01:34:41,160 --> 01:34:44,000
Speaker 2: That's how deep that is. Judging your own self so

1931
01:34:44,160 --> 01:34:46,120
Speaker 2: much to the ponent, you don't even want your own life.

1932
01:34:46,760 --> 01:34:50,799
Speaker 3: It it's it's imperative that you don't judge others, especially

1933
01:34:50,920 --> 01:34:55,919
Speaker 3: not your partner. And I put love them into evolution

1934
01:34:56,560 --> 01:34:57,519
Speaker 3: and pray for them.

1935
01:34:57,760 --> 01:35:02,160
Speaker 2: Because if I feel like i'm because because one thing

1936
01:35:02,200 --> 01:35:05,280
Speaker 2: I don't believe in is nagging. I don't believe in nagging. Josh.

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Speaker 3: If I tell them to do something once twice, I

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Speaker 3: know he's heard me. I'm gonna go to God and pray.

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Speaker 3: I'm gonna say, God, this is what I pray that

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Speaker 3: you do. This being your will, Josh is gonna change

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Speaker 3: his ways and accordingce to this, and it.

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Speaker 2: Happens and he does naturally. And so that's why I

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Speaker 2: say pray for them because in that way and in that.

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Speaker 3: I mean prayer works all over them, but especially in

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Speaker 3: this area to not judge your partner, but to love

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Speaker 3: them into evolution and pray for them.

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Speaker 2: I put that there because that's just been something that

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Speaker 2: was on my spirit ever since I seen the keys.

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Speaker 6: Beautiful, beautiful, well, says Josh Okay.

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Speaker 1: I said, the key is sacrifice.

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Speaker 6: That is true love.

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Speaker 1: Greatest love I ever known is sacrifice. Yes, I think

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Speaker 1: about Christ, of course, for God so love the world

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Speaker 1: that He gave is only begotten son. And I think

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Speaker 1: about what great love then laid out your life, you know,

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Speaker 1: And I think about those who do not know God,

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Speaker 1: do not know. So sorry those who are not loved

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Speaker 1: that I know God because God is loved. And so

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Speaker 1: when I say I'm in love with her, it means

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Speaker 1: I'm in God with her. I think about God, I

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Speaker 1: think about sacrifice, and so I think for me, willingness

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Speaker 1: to give is imperative. Your willingness to surrender is imperative.

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Speaker 1: Your willingness to let go and release what you've been

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Speaker 1: withholding for so long is imperative. I know, like some

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Speaker 1: of the coolest things I say cool because like I

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Speaker 1: get to see myself involved the more that we're together.

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Speaker 1: But it all came from sacrifice, sacrificeing old mindsets, sacrificing

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Speaker 1: old beliefs, sacrificing pride, sacrificing the masculine way. You know

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Speaker 1: that I've been taught traditionally, and just being able to

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Speaker 1: let go and let God and know even sacrificing also

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Speaker 1: for me looks like praying her back into the hands

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Speaker 1: of the Father. It's that Lord, at least while you're

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Speaker 1: working on me, like have your daughter back, because I

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Speaker 1: know that she belongs to you. And you love her

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Speaker 1: more than I love her. And so that for me

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Speaker 1: is sacrificial because I'm like, I don't want to lose her,

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Speaker 1: but I'm willing to say, God, if it be in

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Speaker 1: your will, let peace, power and provision rest for about

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Speaker 1: over us. But if not, then then it's not it's

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Speaker 1: not meant. But it's my willingness to like just want

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Speaker 1: God's will.

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Speaker 6: For our lives.

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Speaker 1: And that's sacrificial and that's the greatest live I know.

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Speaker 5: Good hang that on the y'all stand up and go

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Speaker 5: hang that up there? You push that box back? Yeah, perfect,

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Speaker 5: Lord Jesus, this was absolutely amazing.

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Speaker 6: Amazing, good Lord, so good, good Lord.

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Speaker 5: And just how we met them, like literally we was

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Speaker 5: walking into relationship goals and saw them literally just they

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Speaker 5: just got finished watching the movie and like, what y'all

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Speaker 5: doing up here? What are y'all doing? And then the

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Speaker 5: next day, you know, I was like, why don't y'all

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Speaker 5: stay around? They stayed around and there was y'all did

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Speaker 5: an amazing, amazing job.

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Speaker 6: Oh yeah, this is this is amazing.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, it's good straight up to Jordan, always have some

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Speaker 1: good one.

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Speaker 5: And speak. Yeah. I got a whole filtration system installed

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Speaker 5: in the house purified.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, he got the cool.

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Speaker 6: Listen.

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Speaker 5: May the love you share today outlived the season you're in,

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Speaker 5: maybe carry.

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Speaker 4: You through the days when words are few.

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Speaker 6: And faith has to do the talking. Y'all give it

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Speaker 6: up for my homies, Joshua and Julika. Y'all, thank you,

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Speaker 6: Thank you.

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Speaker 5: Ladarium rusted suddenly into child protective services in twenty fifteen,

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Speaker 5: My nephew, black a boy. The likelihood have been adopted

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Speaker 5: outside of kinship, slim to none, Rmie, sixteen years old,

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Speaker 5: black a boy with five years in the foster care

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Speaker 5: system before I even knew his name.

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Speaker 6: The likelihood have ever been adopted? Yep, you guessed it.

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Speaker 6: Slim to none.

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Speaker 5: While Laderian and our money were trying to survive and

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Speaker 5: barely thrive in an overpopulated and underfunded Falter care system,

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Speaker 5: I was living my own life, doing well professionally, having

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Speaker 5: been a single father with a daughter who at that

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Speaker 5: point was doing well in college. It was my time

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Speaker 5: to live my life right wrong. I felt unsettled, tireless, agitated.

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Speaker 5: There are just two many of our black children stuck

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Speaker 5: in ambiguity and in the limbo of the Falter care system.

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Speaker 5: In twenty seventeen, I legally adopted my nephew Ladarian. Fast

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Speaker 5: forward to twenty nineteen. I had no ties to this

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Speaker 5: other young king, but I felt God instructed me to

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Speaker 5: adopt them also in al Babe. Starting over with parenting

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Speaker 5: should have been enough. Right, Working with various foster care

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Speaker 5: and adoption agencies to help bring awareness to the countless

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Speaker 5: young Black kings and the falster care system should have

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Speaker 5: decreased My agitation. Right joined the board of Directors of

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Speaker 5: Advantage of Adoption and Organization and that helps find permanent

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Speaker 5: adoptive homes for children in foster care should have led

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Speaker 5: to some type of resolve.

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Speaker 6: Right, No, not at all. None of it felt like

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Speaker 6: I had done enough.

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Speaker 5: I now realized that every one of those experiences was

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Speaker 5: land the fundamental foundation for my life's mission.

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Speaker 6: Kingdom Royal.

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Speaker 5: Kingdom Royal would be a luxury, state of the art

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Speaker 5: home for foster boys. Our first location will be in

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Speaker 5: the Dallas Fort Worth Metroplex. We will utilize the whole

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Speaker 5: person approach that instills identity, empowers them to advocate for themselves,

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Speaker 5: and enlightens them regarding new perspectives and limitless.

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Speaker 6: Options that they thought were impossible.

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Speaker 5: Though the young Kings will attend the local public schools

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Speaker 5: that are in proximity to Kingdom Royal. Our at home

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Speaker 5: curriculum will broaden their worldview through participating in the arts,

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Speaker 5: attending various cultural events, learning about and engaging in multifaceted

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Speaker 5: discussions about current events and even relivve been historical contexts,

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Speaker 5: introducing them to gardening and landscaping, and even caring for.

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Speaker 6: Our animals on our form and on site stables.

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Speaker 5: We just launched our startup capital campaign with the goal

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Speaker 5: of raising two point eight million dollars.

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Speaker 6: Now why two point eight million dollars? Well.

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Speaker 5: In twenty seventeen, I created a web series in which

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Speaker 5: I performed random acts of kindness for targeting the homeless community.

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Speaker 5: One of the most notable successes was that one of

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Speaker 5: the videos went viral, garnering twenty eight million views. However,

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Speaker 5: one of my biggest regrets is that I didn't raise

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Speaker 5: a single dollar to help in implementing a more sustainable

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Speaker 5: plan for the homeless community. So, throughout the years, with

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Speaker 5: much remorse, I reflect that I'm not maximizing that moment.

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Speaker 5: I knew if at that time just ten percent of

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Speaker 5: the viewers donated one dollar.

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Speaker 6: We would have raised at least two point eight million.

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Speaker 5: Dollars that could have really established long term support for

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Speaker 5: the homeless community or at least started a long term

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Speaker 5: initiative to.

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Speaker 6: So this is my do over, this is our new beginning.

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Speaker 5: Together, we can attack this at the root by specifically

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Speaker 5: helping our homeless Black boys who are already disproportionately represented

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Speaker 5: in the American fossil care system.

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Speaker 6: I'm a Tarisarwickfield.

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Speaker 5: I've been nominated for three regional Emmys documenting my work

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Speaker 5: with the homeless as well as my personal adoption journey.

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Speaker 5: Despite those accolades, the greatest award for me is truly

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Speaker 5: providing the infrastructure for a transformed life. Visit Kingdomroyal dot

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Speaker 5: com for more details, crown.

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Speaker 6: A king and make a donation today.

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Speaker 5: I hope you enjoyed this episode of the Dear Future

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