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Speaker 1: Serious, she really ain't doing nothing nothing. Yeah, right, So

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Speaker 1: This has been something that people ask me for years,

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Speaker 4: I just didn't have the desire, right like this is

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Speaker 3: It wasn't.

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Speaker 4: It wasn't planned out like that though.

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Speaker 1: I was just living life normally. It wasn't a thing

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Speaker 1: I thought of like, oh, I'm a virgin, but I

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Speaker 4: I was just living life, right, I was single, I

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Speaker 3: Then yeah, yeah, you was going on dates. You just

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Speaker 4: Absolutely. My friend's like, you always get the good guys, and.

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Speaker 3: You saw some of those guys get gone to get married. Absolutely,

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Speaker 1: Well not, let's let's define dating, right, So we weren't

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Speaker 4: Did they want that?

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Speaker 1: They thought it was a game, right, Oh, every woman wants.

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Speaker 1: Everyone wants to be married. But when I would say, hey,

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Speaker 1: we're cool, right, and then you start catching a little

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Speaker 1: feeling and it's like, hey, so you you really don't

442
00:19:00,040 --> 00:19:01,959
Speaker 1: And I'm like mm mmm right. I had one guy

443
00:19:02,080 --> 00:19:04,040
Speaker 1: was even mad where he was like this girl about

444
00:19:04,040 --> 00:19:05,520
Speaker 1: to come to my room. This is in college, right,

445
00:19:05,760 --> 00:19:07,639
Speaker 1: this girl about to come to my room. I was like, okay,

446
00:19:07,720 --> 00:19:09,000
Speaker 1: so are you gonna like head out?

447
00:19:09,119 --> 00:19:11,680
Speaker 4: And he was like what she can? You don't even care.

448
00:19:12,119 --> 00:19:13,920
Speaker 4: I was like, do you want me to be jealous?

449
00:19:14,040 --> 00:19:16,080
Speaker 4: Like I'm trying to. She liked him, she was a

450
00:19:16,119 --> 00:19:20,040
Speaker 4: cute girl. She liked it her. I'm like, why, I

451
00:19:20,080 --> 00:19:21,600
Speaker 4: didn't mean to. I want to be honest. I'm like,

452
00:19:21,680 --> 00:19:24,040
Speaker 4: you should probably put more energy into her because.

453
00:19:23,840 --> 00:19:24,680
Speaker 3: She liked him.

454
00:19:25,800 --> 00:19:27,240
Speaker 4: She did. I'm telling you.

455
00:19:27,480 --> 00:19:30,920
Speaker 1: I was like, like, I truly like, I'm not gonna

456
00:19:30,920 --> 00:19:33,679
Speaker 1: be selfish. Right, if you're seeking to be in a relationship,

457
00:19:34,160 --> 00:19:38,960
Speaker 1: choose who's choosing you. You said, yeah, yeah, she was

458
00:19:39,000 --> 00:19:41,080
Speaker 1: a little crazy about it. I think she flatt my tires.

459
00:19:42,200 --> 00:19:43,640
Speaker 4: I think she did. He had to pay to get

460
00:19:43,680 --> 00:19:46,240
Speaker 4: my tire a place because she didn't play about him.

461
00:19:46,560 --> 00:19:47,760
Speaker 3: But no, she didn't.

462
00:19:48,800 --> 00:19:52,600
Speaker 1: Okay, she knew where his heart was. Okay, but yeah, yes,

463
00:19:52,680 --> 00:19:54,879
Speaker 1: I was very honest. But I think you know that

464
00:19:55,119 --> 00:19:57,840
Speaker 1: ego was like, oh, well, now I'm gonna try.

465
00:19:57,880 --> 00:19:59,399
Speaker 4: You know, I like her. She gotta be having some

466
00:19:59,480 --> 00:20:00,119
Speaker 4: feelings me.

467
00:20:00,160 --> 00:20:03,240
Speaker 3: And I'm like, so that whole thing was just shut off,

468
00:20:03,320 --> 00:20:05,840
Speaker 3: your whole all the way up until about thirty five.

469
00:20:06,200 --> 00:20:08,400
Speaker 3: It was what was the switch that flipped?

470
00:20:09,600 --> 00:20:12,440
Speaker 1: So I I'll say a couple things i'm aware of

471
00:20:12,480 --> 00:20:13,560
Speaker 1: right cause it's still happening.

472
00:20:13,720 --> 00:20:16,080
Speaker 4: I'm not one hundred percent. I'm trying. I'm trying to,

473
00:20:16,480 --> 00:20:17,640
Speaker 4: you know, put myself out there.

474
00:20:18,040 --> 00:20:20,480
Speaker 1: But I would say one is when I gave my

475
00:20:20,600 --> 00:20:24,320
Speaker 1: yes to God, right and two thousand and twenty is

476
00:20:24,359 --> 00:20:26,080
Speaker 1: when I really surrender. It was like, okay, Lord, I'm

477
00:20:26,080 --> 00:20:28,560
Speaker 1: gonna start building out this stuff with absinence.

478
00:20:28,600 --> 00:20:30,040
Speaker 4: I don't know what I'm doing, but I'll.

479
00:20:29,840 --> 00:20:31,920
Speaker 3: Start doing it now was the birth of the sexlest tribe.

480
00:20:31,960 --> 00:20:33,359
Speaker 4: That was the birth of the sexless tribe.

481
00:20:33,480 --> 00:20:36,240
Speaker 1: And as I was doing it, this is something I

482
00:20:36,320 --> 00:20:38,760
Speaker 1: said right when, because over and over this will happen

483
00:20:38,840 --> 00:20:40,920
Speaker 1: with guys. If irish kid, well, what you gonna do?

484
00:20:41,040 --> 00:20:43,280
Speaker 1: I ain't playing that, And I'm like, okay, well me neither, right,

485
00:20:43,320 --> 00:20:45,600
Speaker 1: I don't want to date. And so I was like, manski,

486
00:20:45,720 --> 00:20:46,959
Speaker 1: are you like cold blooded?

487
00:20:47,080 --> 00:20:47,560
Speaker 4: Like what are you?

488
00:20:47,920 --> 00:20:50,200
Speaker 1: Are you ever gonna like somebody enough to be like, okay,

489
00:20:50,280 --> 00:20:52,560
Speaker 1: let's go forth. And I was like the moment that

490
00:20:52,640 --> 00:20:54,640
Speaker 1: a god says, you know, well, I'm gonna go ahead

491
00:20:54,680 --> 00:20:57,280
Speaker 1: and head out and you feel away then like I know,

492
00:20:57,840 --> 00:21:01,119
Speaker 1: I'm like, okay, let's try it, right, I feel like,

493
00:21:01,200 --> 00:21:03,160
Speaker 1: oh man, it's going to be a loss. Then I'll

494
00:21:03,240 --> 00:21:05,080
Speaker 1: try it. So it was like I had to feel

495
00:21:05,280 --> 00:21:08,280
Speaker 1: like I would be I guess, like gaining something. I

496
00:21:08,280 --> 00:21:10,080
Speaker 1: don't want that that sounds selfish, but like it would

497
00:21:10,080 --> 00:21:13,119
Speaker 1: be valuable right in an addition, and so when I

498
00:21:13,160 --> 00:21:16,480
Speaker 1: started building out the sexist tribe, that was the first

499
00:21:16,680 --> 00:21:20,879
Speaker 1: time I'll give a specific example. So I just hosted

500
00:21:21,000 --> 00:21:24,520
Speaker 1: my fifth meetup experience. Right, This was the second meetup experience,

501
00:21:24,560 --> 00:21:26,480
Speaker 1: the second experience for the people that don't know what

502
00:21:26,560 --> 00:21:28,719
Speaker 1: to gathering for absent and Christians all around the world. Right,

503
00:21:29,119 --> 00:21:32,040
Speaker 1: So the second meetup experience I was doing. It was

504
00:21:32,119 --> 00:21:35,800
Speaker 1: like hundreds of people, and this guy basically crashed my event.

505
00:21:37,440 --> 00:21:39,280
Speaker 1: Now I know of him, he knows of me.

506
00:21:39,400 --> 00:21:43,000
Speaker 4: We've conversed, meaning I knew a little something, right, We've

507
00:21:43,040 --> 00:21:45,600
Speaker 4: conversed in the DM. So he wound up crashing my event.

508
00:21:45,680 --> 00:21:47,640
Speaker 4: Now he was aware of this because he told somebody like, yeah,

509
00:21:47,720 --> 00:21:49,040
Speaker 4: n I just came on, I know, take you out

510
00:21:49,119 --> 00:21:51,359
Speaker 4: and paid time, you know. And he did. And he

511
00:21:51,440 --> 00:21:53,399
Speaker 4: pulled up and he walked in and I seen him,

512
00:21:53,440 --> 00:21:55,560
Speaker 4: and it didn't sit with me, right, So I took

513
00:21:55,600 --> 00:21:57,440
Speaker 4: a moment. I went in the back room. I was like, Lord, like,

514
00:21:58,080 --> 00:21:59,840
Speaker 4: do you want him here? Should I press it?

515
00:22:00,359 --> 00:22:02,600
Speaker 1: But even if I want, the presidice is a big guy, right,

516
00:22:03,240 --> 00:22:06,240
Speaker 1: I'm a girl's girls, I'm a woman woman, right, I understand.

517
00:22:06,520 --> 00:22:08,119
Speaker 4: So I'm like, I'm not am I about to address

518
00:22:08,160 --> 00:22:08,720
Speaker 4: this like man?

519
00:22:08,920 --> 00:22:09,080
Speaker 3: You know?

520
00:22:09,240 --> 00:22:11,320
Speaker 4: So anyways, I went to the back and talked about

521
00:22:11,320 --> 00:22:13,119
Speaker 4: a prayer about and I kept it moving. I was like,

522
00:22:13,200 --> 00:22:15,879
Speaker 4: she had just let it be. And I think it

523
00:22:16,040 --> 00:22:17,960
Speaker 4: was later when I reflected on it, or even in

524
00:22:18,040 --> 00:22:18,680
Speaker 4: that moment.

525
00:22:18,560 --> 00:22:20,720
Speaker 1: That was the first time I felt uncovered and I

526
00:22:20,800 --> 00:22:24,680
Speaker 1: felt vulnerable right where I was like, man, would he

527
00:22:24,960 --> 00:22:26,680
Speaker 1: have done the same thing if a man was hosting

528
00:22:26,720 --> 00:22:27,080
Speaker 1: this event?

529
00:22:27,320 --> 00:22:30,560
Speaker 4: Absolutely not right, So I felt disrespected.

530
00:22:30,760 --> 00:22:32,920
Speaker 1: I felt taken advantage of because I was a woman

531
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Speaker 1: overseeing this event, and I was like, man, if I

532
00:22:35,560 --> 00:22:38,000
Speaker 1: had a husband, he would have checked that, because my

533
00:22:38,040 --> 00:22:40,600
Speaker 1: man's gonna be a man's man. Okay, okay, so he

534
00:22:40,600 --> 00:22:42,280
Speaker 1: would have checked that. So that was the first time

535
00:22:42,280 --> 00:22:44,440
Speaker 1: where I was like, ooh, I felt that right, I

536
00:22:44,520 --> 00:22:49,320
Speaker 1: can feel how what was what I was missing? And

537
00:22:49,359 --> 00:22:50,639
Speaker 1: then I will say two other things.

538
00:22:50,960 --> 00:22:53,480
Speaker 4: Is me just.

539
00:22:55,600 --> 00:22:58,880
Speaker 1: You know when you when you say yes to a calling,

540
00:22:59,359 --> 00:23:02,040
Speaker 1: I'll just speak myself like my yes has been heavy,

541
00:23:02,920 --> 00:23:03,800
Speaker 1: has been heavy?

542
00:23:04,080 --> 00:23:06,200
Speaker 3: Yes, you're fighting culture heavy.

543
00:23:06,400 --> 00:23:09,600
Speaker 4: Right, like the darkest of the darkest, saddest of the sad,

544
00:23:09,680 --> 00:23:10,560
Speaker 4: the low of the low.

545
00:23:10,600 --> 00:23:15,280
Speaker 1: And I do that by myself, by myself, right and beforehand,

546
00:23:15,640 --> 00:23:17,600
Speaker 1: I just I understood now because I'm doing a lot

547
00:23:17,640 --> 00:23:20,359
Speaker 1: of unpacking It's like I was always there for me,

548
00:23:20,600 --> 00:23:23,200
Speaker 1: and I was okay with that, like self soothing, self.

549
00:23:22,960 --> 00:23:24,800
Speaker 4: Talk, journaling, like I didn't need anyone.

550
00:23:24,880 --> 00:23:28,080
Speaker 1: I never And it wasn't like me being cognizant of

551
00:23:28,200 --> 00:23:29,160
Speaker 1: oh I don't need anyone.

552
00:23:29,200 --> 00:23:31,919
Speaker 4: It was just like I just always was there for myself.

553
00:23:32,440 --> 00:23:35,280
Speaker 4: But with this, this is a whole nother beast, right.

554
00:23:35,800 --> 00:23:38,200
Speaker 1: And so in those moments where I'm feel heavy or

555
00:23:38,400 --> 00:23:44,240
Speaker 1: sad or low, that's where like I need my person, right,

556
00:23:44,440 --> 00:23:47,119
Speaker 1: that person I can confide in, that can console me,

557
00:23:47,720 --> 00:23:50,800
Speaker 1: that can be my just you know, a person where

558
00:23:50,800 --> 00:23:53,200
Speaker 1: I could just vent to or you know, cry with.

559
00:23:53,520 --> 00:23:56,239
Speaker 4: And so I was like, oh, I feel that void right.

560
00:23:56,480 --> 00:23:58,680
Speaker 2: See some women say they get that out of their girlfriends.

561
00:23:59,240 --> 00:24:03,040
Speaker 1: No, my girlfriends, we're getting older, they're dating, they got men,

562
00:24:03,280 --> 00:24:06,720
Speaker 1: they got husbands, they got children, they have their life. Right,

563
00:24:07,240 --> 00:24:09,560
Speaker 1: So it's like in my twenties, right, maybe I could

564
00:24:09,600 --> 00:24:12,760
Speaker 1: just call a friend app. But now, no, you got

565
00:24:12,840 --> 00:24:14,520
Speaker 1: a schedule a call with a friend. So I'm aa

566
00:24:14,520 --> 00:24:17,119
Speaker 1: schedule my vent Like I'm feeling down right now? Can

567
00:24:17,119 --> 00:24:18,520
Speaker 1: you fit me in Tuesday at two pm?

568
00:24:18,680 --> 00:24:18,720
Speaker 3: No?

569
00:24:18,880 --> 00:24:22,399
Speaker 1: I need my person who I am their concern right

570
00:24:22,440 --> 00:24:24,480
Speaker 1: where they're like I called him and this is my person.

571
00:24:24,560 --> 00:24:26,560
Speaker 1: He's checking up, like, make you good, what's up? The

572
00:24:26,640 --> 00:24:28,680
Speaker 1: meetup is coming, what's going on with? What are we

573
00:24:28,760 --> 00:24:30,200
Speaker 1: fastening for? What do we in prayer for?

574
00:24:30,800 --> 00:24:34,159
Speaker 4: That's a response of my partner, right So that's I

575
00:24:34,240 --> 00:24:34,960
Speaker 4: was like, ooh, I feel it.

576
00:24:37,760 --> 00:24:40,000
Speaker 3: You're saying a lot of stuff. You stepped in heavy

577
00:24:40,119 --> 00:24:48,399
Speaker 3: right now, because the mindset is in some spheres of

578
00:24:48,520 --> 00:24:52,679
Speaker 3: influence is that women don't need no man because they

579
00:24:52,760 --> 00:24:56,200
Speaker 3: got their girlfriends that can do everything that a man

580
00:24:56,280 --> 00:25:00,560
Speaker 3: can do, you know. And we're not talking about homes sexuality,

581
00:25:00,640 --> 00:25:02,639
Speaker 3: with just the fact of saying, if I need somebody

582
00:25:02,640 --> 00:25:04,960
Speaker 3: to show the crowd, I got my girlfriend for me,

583
00:25:05,240 --> 00:25:07,159
Speaker 3: I got this, I got somebody I can talk to.

584
00:25:07,280 --> 00:25:07,720
Speaker 3: I got this.

585
00:25:07,880 --> 00:25:08,960
Speaker 2: I don't really need that.

586
00:25:09,040 --> 00:25:11,480
Speaker 3: We can go on FRAN dates, we go FRAN vacations,

587
00:25:11,520 --> 00:25:13,960
Speaker 3: we can go do all that, and they've replaced. And

588
00:25:14,040 --> 00:25:17,280
Speaker 3: I believe it's just such a demonic spirit that's infiltrated

589
00:25:17,400 --> 00:25:21,960
Speaker 3: this world where that has been the norm that trying

590
00:25:22,000 --> 00:25:25,760
Speaker 3: to be promoted. And you're saying something it's the first time,

591
00:25:26,440 --> 00:25:29,240
Speaker 3: the very first time I've ever heard a woman say that,

592
00:25:31,160 --> 00:25:35,560
Speaker 3: and you're an actual virgencey in that, and you should

593
00:25:35,560 --> 00:25:38,399
Speaker 3: be the one that has been living this lifestyle the

594
00:25:38,560 --> 00:25:42,160
Speaker 3: longest by yourself, in with your girlfriends, that you should say, oh, yeah,

595
00:25:42,160 --> 00:25:44,359
Speaker 3: I don't really need I've never really desired a man

596
00:25:44,480 --> 00:25:46,520
Speaker 3: like that. I've never And that's why I believe that

597
00:25:46,600 --> 00:25:49,280
Speaker 3: this holy Spirit encounter that you've been having to unlock

598
00:25:49,760 --> 00:25:53,160
Speaker 3: this mindset, it's all God. And I believe that God

599
00:25:53,400 --> 00:25:56,040
Speaker 3: called you for this to even share this story that

600
00:25:56,080 --> 00:25:59,200
Speaker 3: you're sharing now, so that people don't keep accepting these

601
00:25:59,359 --> 00:26:01,720
Speaker 3: lives at the to me has spoken, so keep cooking.

602
00:26:01,800 --> 00:26:04,639
Speaker 3: So the second one was that hey, I want my

603
00:26:04,840 --> 00:26:06,680
Speaker 3: person to be able to check in on me.

604
00:26:06,800 --> 00:26:07,600
Speaker 2: And what's the third one?

605
00:26:08,800 --> 00:26:10,639
Speaker 1: So, like I said, I'm thirty seven. I had posted

606
00:26:10,720 --> 00:26:15,840
Speaker 1: on social media recently I got my first apartment ever recently, ever, ever, ever,

607
00:26:16,560 --> 00:26:17,440
Speaker 1: thank you much.

608
00:26:17,520 --> 00:26:19,840
Speaker 4: I loved that for me, and so it was also

609
00:26:19,960 --> 00:26:21,399
Speaker 4: a place of just stability. Right.

610
00:26:21,480 --> 00:26:23,280
Speaker 1: So when I gave my God to yes, it was

611
00:26:23,359 --> 00:26:28,119
Speaker 1: like seven years ago, woo lo, seven years ago, and

612
00:26:28,920 --> 00:26:31,440
Speaker 1: he just uprooted every plan I had. And I don't

613
00:26:31,440 --> 00:26:33,920
Speaker 1: know if it sounds cliche, but when I say every desire,

614
00:26:34,040 --> 00:26:38,560
Speaker 1: every plan I had laid out, snatched it, snatched it

615
00:26:38,760 --> 00:26:41,760
Speaker 1: with no plan, and I was living my best life, loving,

616
00:26:42,400 --> 00:26:43,760
Speaker 1: loving everything, your career.

617
00:26:43,840 --> 00:26:48,280
Speaker 3: You had job, great front.

618
00:26:48,200 --> 00:26:51,960
Speaker 1: Like little friend either, like everything was good and it

619
00:26:52,119 --> 00:26:55,520
Speaker 1: was snatched. And I even had like some people call

620
00:26:55,560 --> 00:26:57,560
Speaker 1: like a ministry before that was doing good. So it

621
00:26:57,640 --> 00:27:00,000
Speaker 1: wasn't even like I was out here, you know, going crazy,

622
00:27:00,000 --> 00:27:01,800
Speaker 1: he said. The Lord was like Ashiki and you guys

623
00:27:01,880 --> 00:27:04,600
Speaker 1: to come on. I was still doing things for his kingdom, right,

624
00:27:04,880 --> 00:27:10,560
Speaker 1: but still snatched me right, isolated me, had me steal Okay,

625
00:27:10,680 --> 00:27:15,000
Speaker 1: savings account drained, right, and that's so crazy even looking

626
00:27:15,080 --> 00:27:16,360
Speaker 1: at that, I had saved.

627
00:27:16,880 --> 00:27:19,480
Speaker 4: Lord. We all got a story, but I had saved.

628
00:27:19,240 --> 00:27:21,040
Speaker 1: And I was like, you know what, this is my

629
00:27:21,200 --> 00:27:23,600
Speaker 1: time because those that know I put my life on

630
00:27:23,680 --> 00:27:27,640
Speaker 1: hold for people too many times, right, too many times.

631
00:27:27,720 --> 00:27:28,960
Speaker 1: And I got to a point where I was like,

632
00:27:28,960 --> 00:27:30,400
Speaker 1: all right, I'm this is my time.

633
00:27:30,560 --> 00:27:30,679
Speaker 3: Right.

634
00:27:30,720 --> 00:27:32,440
Speaker 1: I had saved and I was like, okay, God, you

635
00:27:32,520 --> 00:27:34,880
Speaker 1: line everything up. I got my savings account. I'm about

636
00:27:34,880 --> 00:27:37,640
Speaker 1: to relocate. And as soon as I left Connecticut where

637
00:27:37,640 --> 00:27:41,520
Speaker 1: I'm from, everything fell apart. And I truly believe in hindsight,

638
00:27:41,600 --> 00:27:44,200
Speaker 1: I thought that savings account was for my new grand life.

639
00:27:44,520 --> 00:27:46,440
Speaker 1: And it was like, no, because this saves coin because

640
00:27:46,440 --> 00:27:47,719
Speaker 1: youre about to be sat down for a little bit

641
00:27:48,040 --> 00:27:50,280
Speaker 1: and you're not gonna be working. I've always worked two

642
00:27:50,400 --> 00:27:53,840
Speaker 1: jobs with the side business, like side hustle. Right, He's like,

643
00:27:53,920 --> 00:27:55,920
Speaker 1: oh no, no, this money is because you ain't gonna

644
00:27:55,920 --> 00:27:56,600
Speaker 1: have no income.

645
00:27:57,320 --> 00:27:59,840
Speaker 4: You reve yees, so you gonna need it. We're gonna

646
00:27:59,840 --> 00:28:02,000
Speaker 4: put it on now, right. Yeah. Yeah.

647
00:28:02,240 --> 00:28:04,680
Speaker 1: So for the last seven years, like my mother said,

648
00:28:04,960 --> 00:28:08,640
Speaker 1: you know, just not having stability, not having my own yes,

649
00:28:08,760 --> 00:28:09,760
Speaker 1: not having my footing.

650
00:28:10,119 --> 00:28:12,480
Speaker 4: Oh, it was like I was in the wilderness.

651
00:28:12,600 --> 00:28:18,400
Speaker 1: I'm telling you, I seven years, seven years, I'm telling you, Oh,

652
00:28:18,720 --> 00:28:22,359
Speaker 1: but hallelujah. Now with me getting my apartment, I finally

653
00:28:22,440 --> 00:28:25,480
Speaker 1: feel a little more stable, right, So it it frees

654
00:28:25,600 --> 00:28:27,640
Speaker 1: me up to be like, Okay, I can I can't

655
00:28:27,680 --> 00:28:29,160
Speaker 1: just stay a little dating because baby, if you don't

656
00:28:29,160 --> 00:28:32,240
Speaker 1: got a place to lay your head, what you're dating for,

657
00:28:33,160 --> 00:28:34,680
Speaker 1: a place that you could call your own, what you're

658
00:28:34,720 --> 00:28:35,080
Speaker 1: dating for?

659
00:28:35,720 --> 00:28:36,560
Speaker 4: The priorities are.

660
00:28:37,840 --> 00:28:39,760
Speaker 3: But even when you were dating, like, well, was you

661
00:28:39,800 --> 00:28:41,400
Speaker 3: even dating during the season? No?

662
00:28:41,760 --> 00:28:42,840
Speaker 4: Not the last seven years? No?

663
00:28:42,960 --> 00:28:44,520
Speaker 2: No, So what do you feel like you were?

664
00:28:44,560 --> 00:28:45,600
Speaker 3: What you had?

665
00:28:45,640 --> 00:28:46,920
Speaker 2: No desire to even just date.

666
00:28:47,960 --> 00:28:52,040
Speaker 1: Maybe when I say low dark and a that what trying.

667
00:28:53,360 --> 00:28:58,440
Speaker 1: I'm I am crying and weeping every day. I don't

668
00:28:58,520 --> 00:29:01,480
Speaker 1: care about a man. I'm in darkness trying to find

669
00:29:01,520 --> 00:29:02,000
Speaker 1: my way.

670
00:29:02,200 --> 00:29:03,400
Speaker 2: You could have found your man to get you.

671
00:29:03,880 --> 00:29:06,720
Speaker 1: They tried, and I said, baby, I remember God that

672
00:29:06,760 --> 00:29:08,360
Speaker 1: I really liked. He said, what if I helped you?

673
00:29:08,400 --> 00:29:09,360
Speaker 1: I said, you can't help me.

674
00:29:09,760 --> 00:29:12,040
Speaker 4: I knew he couldn't. He wasn't even a believer or

675
00:29:12,120 --> 00:29:12,680
Speaker 4: baby with you.

676
00:29:12,880 --> 00:29:15,400
Speaker 1: This is spiritual, and God, let me see that for

677
00:29:15,520 --> 00:29:17,400
Speaker 1: the first time Latians And I don't know if it

678
00:29:17,520 --> 00:29:19,520
Speaker 1: sounded very you know, but it is what it is.

679
00:29:19,640 --> 00:29:21,240
Speaker 1: That was the first time that God was like, this

680
00:29:21,400 --> 00:29:23,360
Speaker 1: is spiritual because I remember crying out to the Lord.

681
00:29:23,560 --> 00:29:24,960
Speaker 1: I was like, God, if you just tell me like

682
00:29:25,080 --> 00:29:27,200
Speaker 1: what it is while I'm feeling this, I can I can,

683
00:29:27,360 --> 00:29:30,800
Speaker 1: you know, like, hinder it. I can stop it before

684
00:29:30,840 --> 00:29:32,960
Speaker 1: it comes, like if it's I don't even know what

685
00:29:33,080 --> 00:29:34,760
Speaker 1: it could be. But if it's X, then when I

686
00:29:34,800 --> 00:29:36,360
Speaker 1: see X coming out, I'll avoid it.

687
00:29:36,440 --> 00:29:38,200
Speaker 4: And it was like, no, this is spiritual, So why

688
00:29:38,240 --> 00:29:38,680
Speaker 4: you think it is?

689
00:29:38,800 --> 00:29:41,000
Speaker 3: Hindsight twenty twenty, Why did God allowed you go through

690
00:29:41,000 --> 00:29:42,640
Speaker 3: this wilderness season for seven years.

691
00:29:43,360 --> 00:29:46,000
Speaker 1: I don't know the number, but I know he snatched

692
00:29:46,080 --> 00:29:50,000
Speaker 1: me because I was looking to relocate to Charlotte or Atlanta.

693
00:29:50,080 --> 00:29:51,160
Speaker 4: I would have been outside.

694
00:29:51,800 --> 00:29:53,840
Speaker 3: What outside is?

695
00:29:54,040 --> 00:29:56,880
Speaker 4: I would have been outside.

696
00:29:57,440 --> 00:29:59,400
Speaker 2: Where outside is? It's a kid?

697
00:30:01,120 --> 00:30:03,080
Speaker 3: What do you mean by the club?

698
00:30:04,000 --> 00:30:05,560
Speaker 1: I had left clubs. I was in a lounge and

699
00:30:05,600 --> 00:30:07,760
Speaker 1: I thought that was very like you know, I was like, oh, clubs,

700
00:30:08,200 --> 00:30:09,400
Speaker 1: I go. I go to a lounge.

701
00:30:09,680 --> 00:30:15,080
Speaker 4: So I've been in lounges, day parties, a little bar. Probably. Look,

702
00:30:15,080 --> 00:30:16,320
Speaker 4: I would have been outside.

703
00:30:17,640 --> 00:30:17,880
Speaker 3: Ghost.

704
00:30:18,400 --> 00:30:21,240
Speaker 1: I don't talk about that because it's shame. I'm embarrassed.

705
00:30:21,280 --> 00:30:24,400
Speaker 1: How I was playing outside, playing in God's face.

706
00:30:25,200 --> 00:30:27,080
Speaker 3: Oh so you said, you feel like that's what ever

707
00:30:27,200 --> 00:30:27,720
Speaker 3: been your life?

708
00:30:27,760 --> 00:30:28,240
Speaker 2: Had you moved?

709
00:30:28,280 --> 00:30:28,320
Speaker 3: No?

710
00:30:28,480 --> 00:30:31,000
Speaker 4: I know, because it was it was what living in

711
00:30:31,040 --> 00:30:33,040
Speaker 4: New York every weekend? What were we talking like?

712
00:30:33,480 --> 00:30:36,880
Speaker 1: I was outside and I know, even just with my friends,

713
00:30:36,960 --> 00:30:38,880
Speaker 1: like when I was in that low point point, there

714
00:30:38,960 --> 00:30:40,680
Speaker 1: was friends that had cut off like a year, I

715
00:30:40,800 --> 00:30:42,560
Speaker 1: was talking to nobody. They would call my phone. I

716
00:30:42,600 --> 00:30:44,480
Speaker 1: didn't want to answer because you didn't have nothing for me.

717
00:30:44,960 --> 00:30:46,640
Speaker 1: Like the state that I was in, it was literally

718
00:30:46,640 --> 00:30:49,440
Speaker 1: I was like God, it's you or bus like it's nothing,

719
00:30:50,160 --> 00:30:51,520
Speaker 1: literally words out of my mouth?

720
00:30:51,600 --> 00:30:52,120
Speaker 3: So what what?

721
00:30:52,400 --> 00:30:52,440
Speaker 4: What?

722
00:30:52,720 --> 00:30:55,600
Speaker 3: What shifted like that day day?

723
00:30:56,960 --> 00:30:57,200
Speaker 4: Y'all?

724
00:30:57,560 --> 00:30:59,960
Speaker 1: I'm not even this is my first time really staying

725
00:31:00,080 --> 00:31:03,840
Speaker 1: out loud, so I'm like, I don't even know, but words.

726
00:31:03,920 --> 00:31:06,240
Speaker 4: It really was day by day.

727
00:31:06,360 --> 00:31:09,040
Speaker 1: I sit now, like my eyes will get wordy re

728
00:31:09,160 --> 00:31:11,720
Speaker 1: now and I'll cry and be like, Lord, I can't

729
00:31:11,760 --> 00:31:15,040
Speaker 1: believe I was there and I'm out of it. I

730
00:31:15,160 --> 00:31:19,320
Speaker 1: don't It was literally, and I remember just being like

731
00:31:19,440 --> 00:31:21,080
Speaker 1: really sad, and I was like, Lord, I just feel

732
00:31:21,080 --> 00:31:22,520
Speaker 1: like I'm in a wilderness, Like I feel like I'm

733
00:31:22,560 --> 00:31:24,680
Speaker 1: just lost, can't find my way, and I've always been

734
00:31:24,720 --> 00:31:26,440
Speaker 1: able to find my way. That's what's tripping me out.

735
00:31:26,480 --> 00:31:29,080
Speaker 1: I couldn't even come up with like a week plan,

736
00:31:29,280 --> 00:31:33,840
Speaker 1: like just nothing. And I remember like remembering the Israelites

737
00:31:33,920 --> 00:31:35,880
Speaker 1: being in the desert like they didn't know too.

738
00:31:35,840 --> 00:31:37,400
Speaker 4: Much, right, But I was like, well, let me go

739
00:31:37,440 --> 00:31:39,640
Speaker 4: see what happened to them, Like what did they do?

740
00:31:39,960 --> 00:31:42,000
Speaker 1: I remember going to and reading and was reading that

741
00:31:42,040 --> 00:31:43,880
Speaker 1: there was complaining a lot, and I said, what, Lord,

742
00:31:43,960 --> 00:31:46,600
Speaker 1: maybe I just not complaining because then they lost longer

743
00:31:46,640 --> 00:31:47,040
Speaker 1: and longer.

744
00:31:47,280 --> 00:31:48,760
Speaker 2: So during the time was you a Christian?

745
00:31:48,960 --> 00:31:50,280
Speaker 3: Yeah, okay, right, right?

746
00:31:50,360 --> 00:31:52,800
Speaker 4: But a right, see how you had to ask that?

747
00:31:53,120 --> 00:31:57,760
Speaker 1: Hey hey, hey, gotta think back now, but I knew

748
00:31:57,840 --> 00:31:59,200
Speaker 1: enough to go through that word. But I'm gonna tell

749
00:31:59,200 --> 00:32:01,960
Speaker 1: you what I got from that to your question. As

750
00:32:02,000 --> 00:32:05,240
Speaker 1: I'm reading about them, like wandering in the desert, I

751
00:32:05,320 --> 00:32:08,320
Speaker 1: eventually read that they was like crying out for like food,

752
00:32:08,640 --> 00:32:11,240
Speaker 1: and like he sent manna. Right every day he said, oh,

753
00:32:11,400 --> 00:32:15,440
Speaker 1: just pick up enough for today and then tomorrow we'll reconvene.

754
00:32:15,480 --> 00:32:17,959
Speaker 1: Tomorrow worry about you know, tomorrow will reconvene, you'll get more.

755
00:32:18,280 --> 00:32:20,280
Speaker 1: And I remember just crying because that was one of

756
00:32:20,360 --> 00:32:23,440
Speaker 1: my biggest hurdles where it was like worrying about like

757
00:32:23,520 --> 00:32:26,800
Speaker 1: the future, right, and it was like girl day by day, right,

758
00:32:26,840 --> 00:32:27,760
Speaker 1: And I took that from that.

759
00:32:27,840 --> 00:32:31,320
Speaker 4: I was like, okay, lord, just I remember waking up

760
00:32:31,480 --> 00:32:31,920
Speaker 4: la terious.

761
00:32:31,920 --> 00:32:33,760
Speaker 1: I used to be so sad, wake up and I'm like,

762
00:32:34,320 --> 00:32:36,760
Speaker 1: just get through today, right, just worry about today?

763
00:32:36,880 --> 00:32:39,560
Speaker 4: Did he provide for today? She kid? Did he? And man?

764
00:32:39,600 --> 00:32:41,920
Speaker 1: The car had been repolld hallelujah paid off the car

765
00:32:42,360 --> 00:32:43,080
Speaker 1: during this time?

766
00:32:43,240 --> 00:32:44,760
Speaker 3: Right? Is the car? No?

767
00:32:44,960 --> 00:32:47,400
Speaker 1: You got somewhere to lay amen? Are you hungry now, Okay,

768
00:32:47,440 --> 00:32:50,000
Speaker 1: so he provided then go to sleep and wake up tomorrow.

769
00:32:50,040 --> 00:32:53,040
Speaker 1: And it really is that when I just kept just

770
00:32:53,120 --> 00:32:54,200
Speaker 1: focusing on today, I don't know.

771
00:32:56,080 --> 00:32:59,360
Speaker 4: So funny, right, So at one time I wasn't because

772
00:32:59,360 --> 00:33:01,200
Speaker 4: I was just so sad, like I just couldn't.

773
00:33:01,320 --> 00:33:04,760
Speaker 1: But I got this, uh, this lady I had reached

774
00:33:04,800 --> 00:33:07,920
Speaker 1: out to a job that I really really wanted to do,

775
00:33:08,000 --> 00:33:10,840
Speaker 1: I was interested in. She calls me where converser where

776
00:33:11,200 --> 00:33:13,480
Speaker 1: is good? She loves me? And then I think I

777
00:33:13,520 --> 00:33:15,560
Speaker 1: don't know what she asked me, cause again this is

778
00:33:15,640 --> 00:33:17,640
Speaker 1: me real, like this my first time really sharing stuff.

779
00:33:17,680 --> 00:33:19,800
Speaker 1: But she asked me something. I was like, yeah, well,

780
00:33:19,840 --> 00:33:21,640
Speaker 1: you know, God just kind of has me still right now.

781
00:33:21,720 --> 00:33:23,880
Speaker 1: I don't know what he's doing something. I'm just trying

782
00:33:23,880 --> 00:33:24,480
Speaker 1: to figure it out.

783
00:33:24,480 --> 00:33:25,240
Speaker 4: But I need to work.

784
00:33:25,720 --> 00:33:27,800
Speaker 1: And she said something along the lines and I got

785
00:33:27,880 --> 00:33:29,760
Speaker 1: to look back at my journal because I write a lot.

786
00:33:30,000 --> 00:33:33,360
Speaker 4: But she was like, sweetie, I'm gonna tell you something.

787
00:33:33,960 --> 00:33:36,240
Speaker 1: She was like, this job is a job, but what

788
00:33:36,360 --> 00:33:38,760
Speaker 1: God has you doing is like for eternity, like some

789
00:33:38,920 --> 00:33:39,840
Speaker 1: long I'm telling you.

790
00:33:40,480 --> 00:33:42,440
Speaker 4: Okay, I don't know this lady from nothing.

791
00:33:42,720 --> 00:33:43,000
Speaker 3: Wow.

792
00:33:43,600 --> 00:33:45,120
Speaker 1: So when we hang up, now, before that, she had

793
00:33:45,160 --> 00:33:47,840
Speaker 1: told me send me your resume, and I sent her

794
00:33:47,880 --> 00:33:49,480
Speaker 1: my resume emailed there, never heard back.

795
00:33:49,520 --> 00:33:51,160
Speaker 4: Call there, she didn't answer. I never heard back from

796
00:33:51,160 --> 00:33:51,840
Speaker 4: that lady again.

797
00:33:51,640 --> 00:33:52,040
Speaker 3: In my life.

798
00:33:52,400 --> 00:33:54,280
Speaker 4: So I don't know. And she loved me.

799
00:33:54,560 --> 00:33:56,880
Speaker 1: I had the background, my master's in the social work,

800
00:33:56,960 --> 00:33:59,640
Speaker 1: like it was good money, like good to go.

801
00:34:00,200 --> 00:34:02,640
Speaker 3: She just said, baby, I ain't gonna play with you

802
00:34:02,720 --> 00:34:03,760
Speaker 3: like this. You ain't belong here.

803
00:34:04,200 --> 00:34:04,720
Speaker 4: She said it.

804
00:34:04,800 --> 00:34:07,800
Speaker 1: She did like a little whisper, like girl sister, the

805
00:34:07,960 --> 00:34:10,279
Speaker 1: sister listen, believe it or believe it.

806
00:34:10,400 --> 00:34:12,960
Speaker 4: That's how she did me. I was like, okay, but

807
00:34:13,480 --> 00:34:14,759
Speaker 4: I'm trying to like, did I get the job?

808
00:34:14,920 --> 00:34:20,120
Speaker 3: Now? Thank you so much? You know, while I get

809
00:34:20,160 --> 00:34:22,759
Speaker 3: back on my feet right, but thank you? But did

810
00:34:22,800 --> 00:34:23,759
Speaker 3: I get hired or now? Yeah?

811
00:34:23,800 --> 00:34:25,040
Speaker 4: Yeah? Is the job coming right out?

812
00:34:25,080 --> 00:34:25,319
Speaker 3: You said?

813
00:34:25,360 --> 00:34:27,920
Speaker 4: The resumes sent to where's the email at Gmail?

814
00:34:28,360 --> 00:34:29,239
Speaker 3: What? No?

815
00:34:30,200 --> 00:34:35,359
Speaker 4: But yeah, trying to do listen, listen nothing with open

816
00:34:35,480 --> 00:34:38,239
Speaker 4: doors nothing what they live in Florida at some point,

817
00:34:38,680 --> 00:34:42,000
Speaker 4: and so Florida was the last stop before you came here,

818
00:34:42,800 --> 00:34:47,839
Speaker 4: and so you were able to move. Well, what point

819
00:34:47,880 --> 00:34:49,239
Speaker 4: are you make it? Because I wonder I could touch

820
00:34:49,320 --> 00:34:50,120
Speaker 4: on it talking.

821
00:34:49,960 --> 00:34:53,080
Speaker 3: About you had you had enough finances to make moves.

822
00:34:53,400 --> 00:34:56,560
Speaker 4: I had a finance with some gas in my car.

823
00:34:56,880 --> 00:34:59,800
Speaker 3: Oh that's what you did? Just move? Are you so you?

824
00:35:00,320 --> 00:35:01,360
Speaker 4: Like, yeah, it was in my trunk.

825
00:35:01,680 --> 00:35:01,879
Speaker 3: Yeah.

826
00:35:02,280 --> 00:35:04,279
Speaker 4: Also, you was really thugging it out. Yeah, but I

827
00:35:04,320 --> 00:35:06,160
Speaker 4: had a friend that I stayed with, So you was

828
00:35:06,200 --> 00:35:09,840
Speaker 4: thugging it out for real. Yeah listen, yeah, but you

829
00:35:09,920 --> 00:35:11,279
Speaker 4: were still doing the sex and man.

830
00:35:11,400 --> 00:35:14,399
Speaker 1: And that's why I'm telling you. People don't know. People

831
00:35:14,640 --> 00:35:18,160
Speaker 1: think they know. You have no idea, and that's why.

832
00:35:18,160 --> 00:35:20,000
Speaker 1: Remember one time I cried so hard. I keep myself

833
00:35:20,080 --> 00:35:22,839
Speaker 1: very private, right because not even from like a prideful thing.

834
00:35:22,880 --> 00:35:26,160
Speaker 1: But it's like, when I'm crying real tears, I'm not

835
00:35:26,280 --> 00:35:27,439
Speaker 1: thinking about turning on my camera.

836
00:35:27,760 --> 00:35:29,360
Speaker 4: I'm just not no shade to nobody.

837
00:35:29,400 --> 00:35:31,640
Speaker 1: But like the tears I was crying, the last thing

838
00:35:31,640 --> 00:35:33,520
Speaker 1: I'm thinking about it is turning on my camera and

839
00:35:33,600 --> 00:35:36,280
Speaker 1: to sharing. And like one time I did share something

840
00:35:36,480 --> 00:35:39,000
Speaker 1: with somebody that's in my trip and he's like, man, skid, like,

841
00:35:39,320 --> 00:35:40,439
Speaker 1: why don't you tell the tribe?

842
00:35:40,800 --> 00:35:42,720
Speaker 4: I said, for what? It's not their responsibility.

843
00:35:42,880 --> 00:35:45,080
Speaker 3: I asked you that before, and you was just like, nah,

844
00:35:45,120 --> 00:35:47,239
Speaker 3: it's not the responsibility. I said, these people want to

845
00:35:47,239 --> 00:35:49,280
Speaker 3: bless you so much. I said, you have no idea

846
00:35:49,640 --> 00:35:53,600
Speaker 3: because they're on the journey sometimes been change agents. You

847
00:35:53,680 --> 00:35:57,600
Speaker 3: don't realize that you're sharing something with people that are

848
00:35:57,800 --> 00:36:01,040
Speaker 3: that's unlocking something in them. Read them that they just

849
00:36:01,120 --> 00:36:02,640
Speaker 3: want to bless you and say thank you.

850
00:36:02,840 --> 00:36:03,040
Speaker 4: Yeah.

851
00:36:03,160 --> 00:36:05,960
Speaker 3: So it's like why you were in the wilderness struggle

852
00:36:05,960 --> 00:36:07,520
Speaker 3: and they said, I got some matter why.

853
00:36:08,239 --> 00:36:10,960
Speaker 1: But listen, listen, There's been people that have blessed me

854
00:36:11,080 --> 00:36:14,520
Speaker 1: right without asking, without knowing. I'll share a story where, man,

855
00:36:14,560 --> 00:36:17,360
Speaker 1: I'm telling you you like, I'm like, god, oh you

856
00:36:17,520 --> 00:36:19,880
Speaker 1: really see me? I don't care, but other people are like,

857
00:36:19,960 --> 00:36:20,560
Speaker 1: dub but like.

858
00:36:21,160 --> 00:36:23,879
Speaker 4: You really see me. I remember, right, just being real,

859
00:36:25,280 --> 00:36:25,840
Speaker 4: I'll just say this.

860
00:36:25,920 --> 00:36:27,560
Speaker 1: So I put out too much business, but there was

861
00:36:27,600 --> 00:36:29,960
Speaker 1: a bill that needed to be paid, right, five hundred dollars,

862
00:36:30,400 --> 00:36:32,880
Speaker 1: Like lord, I ain't got it, but this bill does

863
00:36:33,000 --> 00:36:33,600
Speaker 1: need to be paid.

864
00:36:33,880 --> 00:36:36,319
Speaker 4: And I remember a girl that I worked with years

865
00:36:36,360 --> 00:36:38,160
Speaker 4: ago at a group home. She reached out to me.

866
00:36:38,239 --> 00:36:39,880
Speaker 4: She's like, key, I love what you're doing. This is

867
00:36:40,000 --> 00:36:41,960
Speaker 4: you know, with merch. She talked about the merch. She

868
00:36:42,080 --> 00:36:44,120
Speaker 4: was like, I love your T shirt. So she was like, well,

869
00:36:44,160 --> 00:36:46,640
Speaker 4: you know I'm married now she's a believer. She's like,

870
00:36:46,680 --> 00:36:48,759
Speaker 4: I love what you're doing. I would love to.

871
00:36:48,800 --> 00:36:50,600
Speaker 1: Buy a shirt and like you could donate it or whatever.

872
00:36:50,600 --> 00:36:52,160
Speaker 1: And I was like, okay, Like she wants to buy

873
00:36:52,160 --> 00:36:54,759
Speaker 1: a shirt. So she's like, where can excuse me, where

874
00:36:54,760 --> 00:36:56,759
Speaker 1: can I send the money? And so we're going back

875
00:36:56,760 --> 00:36:59,080
Speaker 1: for cash, apzel whatever. We get it figured out how

876
00:36:59,160 --> 00:37:01,960
Speaker 1: much did she send me? She sent me five hundred

877
00:37:02,040 --> 00:37:03,399
Speaker 1: dollars expensive T shirt?

878
00:37:03,760 --> 00:37:07,600
Speaker 4: Hello, what God is like? I got you?

879
00:37:08,400 --> 00:37:11,040
Speaker 1: It makes no why would you send me five hundred

880
00:37:11,200 --> 00:37:13,640
Speaker 1: dollars because you talk about you want to buy a

881
00:37:13,800 --> 00:37:15,480
Speaker 1: shirt right when I needed it.

882
00:37:17,719 --> 00:37:21,360
Speaker 4: God, I'm telling you so listen, had enough.

883
00:37:21,239 --> 00:37:22,840
Speaker 1: To put some gas in my car, pack up what

884
00:37:22,920 --> 00:37:25,920
Speaker 1: I could in the car and drive and stay with

885
00:37:26,040 --> 00:37:26,480
Speaker 1: a friend.

886
00:37:26,920 --> 00:37:31,640
Speaker 3: And yeah, so when you started the sexless tribe? What happened?

887
00:37:31,800 --> 00:37:33,839
Speaker 3: What did God say to you? I know you didn't

888
00:37:33,840 --> 00:37:36,360
Speaker 3: even you didn't start off even called the sexist trial.

889
00:37:36,520 --> 00:37:38,919
Speaker 3: It was just you was just doing what I want.

890
00:37:39,280 --> 00:37:43,080
Speaker 1: Listen, all right, It's funny because I wish I had

891
00:37:43,200 --> 00:37:46,239
Speaker 1: like this this story, right, it really wasn't started off

892
00:37:46,280 --> 00:37:49,200
Speaker 1: with sexless situations. I would go live and interview people

893
00:37:49,200 --> 00:37:51,840
Speaker 1: who were absident. And I remember I was in Charlotte

894
00:37:51,880 --> 00:37:53,920
Speaker 1: at the time and outside.

895
00:37:53,680 --> 00:37:58,040
Speaker 4: Okay, and I was outside, I was I was sorry,

896
00:37:58,320 --> 00:38:01,319
Speaker 4: and so I had Oh my god, it's so much

897
00:38:01,360 --> 00:38:04,080
Speaker 4: to hear. So I had published my book. Now let

898
00:38:04,120 --> 00:38:04,600
Speaker 4: me tell people.

899
00:38:04,640 --> 00:38:06,439
Speaker 1: I'm a creative. So when I put out this book,

900
00:38:06,480 --> 00:38:08,719
Speaker 1: it was just another extension of me creating. I wasn't

901
00:38:08,760 --> 00:38:10,759
Speaker 1: trying to be like writing a lot of books. It

902
00:38:10,880 --> 00:38:12,359
Speaker 1: was like, ooh, what can I do tomorrow? I write

903
00:38:12,360 --> 00:38:13,640
Speaker 1: a book? What can I write?

904
00:38:13,760 --> 00:38:15,359
Speaker 4: It? Truly was what can I write at length?

905
00:38:15,480 --> 00:38:15,520
Speaker 3: On?

906
00:38:15,640 --> 00:38:16,760
Speaker 4: Oh my appsin this journey?

907
00:38:16,840 --> 00:38:20,120
Speaker 1: Right, That's all that was started promoting the book release,

908
00:38:20,480 --> 00:38:22,799
Speaker 1: people started finding me. I didn't really understand how social

909
00:38:22,840 --> 00:38:25,560
Speaker 1: media work, and so I would go live promoting the book.

910
00:38:26,000 --> 00:38:28,799
Speaker 4: And then I don't know how, I started interviewing people, right,

911
00:38:28,840 --> 00:38:30,640
Speaker 4: And it was sexless situations, right.

912
00:38:30,960 --> 00:38:33,080
Speaker 3: It was a platform ig Live.

913
00:38:33,120 --> 00:38:36,359
Speaker 1: Two thousand and like sixteen, all right, just fun here

914
00:38:36,400 --> 00:38:39,680
Speaker 1: and there, and then people would come every Wednesday and

915
00:38:39,920 --> 00:38:41,360
Speaker 1: listen to it, right, they would tune in.

916
00:38:41,440 --> 00:38:42,240
Speaker 4: You get to know the people.

917
00:38:42,640 --> 00:38:45,080
Speaker 1: And I was taking a road trip, actually, I was

918
00:38:45,160 --> 00:38:47,840
Speaker 1: relocating to Florida, and I stopped at one of the

919
00:38:47,920 --> 00:38:50,360
Speaker 1: girls I met on ig house and she took me

920
00:38:50,400 --> 00:38:52,239
Speaker 1: around to these historical sites that I want to go to.

921
00:38:52,719 --> 00:38:55,560
Speaker 4: I go live. I said, shout to the Sexless Tribe.

922
00:38:56,120 --> 00:38:57,200
Speaker 4: Didn't know where that came from.

923
00:38:57,280 --> 00:38:59,319
Speaker 1: It was shouting out the people that used to watch

924
00:38:59,320 --> 00:39:01,839
Speaker 1: Sexless Situation on Wednesday. So I was just like, oh,

925
00:39:01,920 --> 00:39:05,200
Speaker 1: should I did a sexcess Tribe right, don't know where

926
00:39:05,239 --> 00:39:09,799
Speaker 1: it came from, and then h it just snowballed from

927
00:39:09,840 --> 00:39:11,880
Speaker 1: Then I did a merch line and then did the

928
00:39:11,960 --> 00:39:12,880
Speaker 1: Sexis Tribe.

929
00:39:12,680 --> 00:39:15,640
Speaker 3: App, and then when that start twenty twenty.

930
00:39:16,040 --> 00:39:18,239
Speaker 4: The app was launched in twenty twenty, and so.

931
00:39:18,400 --> 00:39:20,400
Speaker 3: When you started saying this is what is going to

932
00:39:20,480 --> 00:39:24,160
Speaker 3: be called? That started in what year twenty twenty?

933
00:39:24,200 --> 00:39:26,280
Speaker 1: I officially gave my yes to guy. What an attitude

934
00:39:26,320 --> 00:39:29,279
Speaker 1: I tell people all time. It's not I don't advise it, right,

935
00:39:29,400 --> 00:39:31,440
Speaker 1: but I really did. I gave my yes, and I

936
00:39:31,520 --> 00:39:34,960
Speaker 1: was like, fine, I'm going to surrender right because.

937
00:39:34,719 --> 00:39:35,240
Speaker 4: I was fighting.

938
00:39:35,400 --> 00:39:37,080
Speaker 1: I was trying to look at look for the nine

939
00:39:37,120 --> 00:39:38,759
Speaker 1: to five, and I would tell people live. I'm like, oh,

940
00:39:38,760 --> 00:39:40,120
Speaker 1: because when I find my job, I used to be

941
00:39:40,200 --> 00:39:42,640
Speaker 1: going live every day. I told you I would go

942
00:39:42,760 --> 00:39:44,480
Speaker 1: live in and shut up the phone and be crying.

943
00:39:45,200 --> 00:39:47,680
Speaker 1: True because I'm like, Lord, what what am I doing?

944
00:39:47,920 --> 00:39:53,040
Speaker 1: I'm going live hours really every single day except the weekend. Eventually,

945
00:39:53,080 --> 00:39:54,600
Speaker 1: I said, y'all, I got to stop the week But

946
00:39:54,719 --> 00:39:58,080
Speaker 1: it was just in that isolation, that solitude being steel.

947
00:39:58,480 --> 00:40:00,319
Speaker 1: That's why I said, I know God had to sit

948
00:40:00,440 --> 00:40:02,000
Speaker 1: me still and isolate me, because if not, I'd have

949
00:40:02,000 --> 00:40:02,480
Speaker 1: been outside.

950
00:40:02,719 --> 00:40:05,040
Speaker 3: So you had good friends then that said, hey, you

951
00:40:05,080 --> 00:40:07,200
Speaker 3: can live with me, and you over here during this

952
00:40:07,360 --> 00:40:11,239
Speaker 3: social media thing and ain't work, and then it looked

953
00:40:11,280 --> 00:40:13,759
Speaker 3: like you were just sitting up here not trying to work.

954
00:40:14,160 --> 00:40:17,480
Speaker 1: Well, well, I'll say this, it's my best friend, right,

955
00:40:18,440 --> 00:40:19,719
Speaker 1: And I called that for a reason. I have one

956
00:40:19,760 --> 00:40:21,719
Speaker 1: best friend, and I stand on that, right. She's the

957
00:40:21,800 --> 00:40:23,360
Speaker 1: best out of all of them, right.

958
00:40:23,719 --> 00:40:26,480
Speaker 3: And so same one who lives here. Okay, So she

959
00:40:26,560 --> 00:40:28,279
Speaker 3: went from Florida to here, no no, no, no, no,

960
00:40:28,600 --> 00:40:28,880
Speaker 3: oh no no.

961
00:40:28,960 --> 00:40:30,200
Speaker 4: So I was stay with my mother in Florida.

962
00:40:30,200 --> 00:40:32,360
Speaker 1: What brought me to Florida was I lost my second

963
00:40:32,440 --> 00:40:35,239
Speaker 1: brother in twenty eighteen and my mother was out there

964
00:40:35,280 --> 00:40:37,359
Speaker 1: by herself, thank you so much, and just just having

965
00:40:37,360 --> 00:40:39,120
Speaker 1: a tough time. Put my life on hold, right, and

966
00:40:39,200 --> 00:40:41,840
Speaker 1: I said, okay, and we're not there to be with her.

967
00:40:41,960 --> 00:40:45,120
Speaker 1: But also things just fell apart.

968
00:40:44,960 --> 00:40:47,319
Speaker 4: Right, but hey, it all worked together for God's good.

969
00:40:48,480 --> 00:40:53,120
Speaker 3: So when you came to DFW Metroplex, that's your best friend, okay, yeah, yeah,

970
00:40:53,360 --> 00:40:54,560
Speaker 3: And I think.

971
00:40:54,560 --> 00:40:57,120
Speaker 1: I would hope she sees something in me right to

972
00:40:57,239 --> 00:41:00,759
Speaker 1: be like, Okay, she's not some slouch because she I'm

973
00:41:00,800 --> 00:41:02,160
Speaker 1: going to get things done right.

974
00:41:02,239 --> 00:41:06,640
Speaker 4: You could see me putting things in action and things.

975
00:41:06,440 --> 00:41:08,680
Speaker 1: Coming to fruition, right, So it's not I'm laying on

976
00:41:08,760 --> 00:41:12,520
Speaker 1: the couch doing nothing and I'm getting out.

977
00:41:12,400 --> 00:41:14,640
Speaker 3: There and trying before right, we went to eat that time,

978
00:41:15,280 --> 00:41:16,000
Speaker 3: did not meet her.

979
00:41:16,120 --> 00:41:18,480
Speaker 4: You ain't never met my friend people, you got me

980
00:41:18,520 --> 00:41:19,520
Speaker 4: mixed up with somebody.

981
00:41:19,320 --> 00:41:23,520
Speaker 3: Out No, so so I ain't never talked to that girl. No,

982
00:41:25,000 --> 00:41:28,120
Speaker 3: you know, just no, no, no. So you don't remember

983
00:41:28,200 --> 00:41:29,319
Speaker 3: us going to eat and play all that time?

984
00:41:30,640 --> 00:41:34,080
Speaker 4: Yes, we did, me and you, Yes, my friend at come.

985
00:41:34,440 --> 00:41:35,200
Speaker 3: I could have sworn.

986
00:41:35,400 --> 00:41:36,320
Speaker 4: Are you making that stuff?

987
00:41:36,440 --> 00:41:38,120
Speaker 3: No? I could have. I don't know why I have

988
00:41:38,239 --> 00:41:40,120
Speaker 3: this vision of this girl. I don't know.

989
00:41:40,280 --> 00:41:42,560
Speaker 4: I don't know where it was, but I just remember

990
00:41:42,600 --> 00:41:45,080
Speaker 4: you talking my best friend. Don't like people. She would

991
00:41:45,080 --> 00:41:45,520
Speaker 4: have came out.

992
00:41:47,800 --> 00:41:51,040
Speaker 3: We went to her apartment and I dropped you off

993
00:41:51,160 --> 00:41:53,480
Speaker 3: there you did. I didn't see her, That's what it was,

994
00:41:53,560 --> 00:41:55,320
Speaker 3: because I remember I said, why do I why do

995
00:41:55,400 --> 00:41:56,440
Speaker 3: I have this? Yees?

996
00:41:56,480 --> 00:41:57,400
Speaker 2: She wouldn't come downstairs.

997
00:41:57,920 --> 00:42:00,959
Speaker 4: Yeah, that's what it was, right, So yeah, I would

998
00:42:01,040 --> 00:42:03,960
Speaker 4: hope that she was like, I see you trying.

999
00:42:05,040 --> 00:42:08,600
Speaker 1: I see the effort, right, But eventually somebody to get

1000
00:42:08,800 --> 00:42:10,040
Speaker 1: your God gotta come through.

1001
00:42:10,080 --> 00:42:12,160
Speaker 4: And he did, and it was a glorious day.

1002
00:42:13,440 --> 00:42:16,160
Speaker 1: And may he give her whatever it is she's she's

1003
00:42:16,440 --> 00:42:19,160
Speaker 1: made up apps without a shotow.

1004
00:42:19,400 --> 00:42:21,240
Speaker 4: I told her, because my friends really do be believing

1005
00:42:21,280 --> 00:42:23,840
Speaker 4: in me. I don't know, they see a.

1006
00:42:23,880 --> 00:42:26,680
Speaker 3: Lot, right. My friend don't like people. She don't like people.

1007
00:42:26,840 --> 00:42:30,120
Speaker 4: Ain't about no, not absolutely not.

1008
00:42:30,640 --> 00:42:31,880
Speaker 1: But I told her, I said, you know, if ever

1009
00:42:31,960 --> 00:42:34,200
Speaker 1: they make a documentary about me, they're gonna talk good

1010
00:42:34,239 --> 00:42:37,759
Speaker 1: about you, right what They're gonna talk so good about her?

1011
00:42:38,960 --> 00:42:40,640
Speaker 4: So she made it. She made it into the Life

1012
00:42:40,680 --> 00:42:42,239
Speaker 4: Story interview.

1013
00:42:45,080 --> 00:42:45,759
Speaker 2: The documentary.

1014
00:42:46,680 --> 00:42:50,479
Speaker 1: No, not at all, not gonna happen. She'll write something,

1015
00:42:50,560 --> 00:42:51,880
Speaker 1: maybe maybe record something.

1016
00:42:53,360 --> 00:42:55,959
Speaker 4: Mm hmmm. Nah, she ain't gonna be on a camera.

1017
00:42:56,840 --> 00:42:57,799
Speaker 4: I'll give her shout out.

1018
00:42:57,960 --> 00:43:00,720
Speaker 3: So when did it switch. When did it change twenty twenty?

1019
00:43:00,800 --> 00:43:03,720
Speaker 3: And when did you catch your air and get oxygen

1020
00:43:03,760 --> 00:43:06,800
Speaker 3: where you go? I see it now, God, this is

1021
00:43:06,880 --> 00:43:07,279
Speaker 3: what it is.

1022
00:43:07,480 --> 00:43:09,480
Speaker 1: The first meetup, man, I thought I didn't know the

1023
00:43:09,520 --> 00:43:13,239
Speaker 1: answer to that question. The first meetup lataris, well, y're

1024
00:43:13,400 --> 00:43:19,759
Speaker 1: twenty twenty two? Yeah, twenty and twenty two. Officially, I

1025
00:43:19,800 --> 00:43:22,520
Speaker 1: guess like launched the sexistribe in twenty twenty, but had

1026
00:43:22,560 --> 00:43:24,560
Speaker 1: been doing like the live I think since twenty eighteen, right,

1027
00:43:24,640 --> 00:43:25,799
Speaker 1: so about four years after.

1028
00:43:26,360 --> 00:43:28,400
Speaker 4: I remember Lord.

1029
00:43:28,440 --> 00:43:30,920
Speaker 1: Sitting on not sitting but standing on like I guess

1030
00:43:30,920 --> 00:43:32,680
Speaker 1: you could say, for lack of a bed word, this stage,

1031
00:43:33,200 --> 00:43:35,040
Speaker 1: and I remember looking out in front of the crowd

1032
00:43:35,080 --> 00:43:37,440
Speaker 1: and I was like, God, we did it, like I

1033
00:43:37,560 --> 00:43:39,839
Speaker 1: see it now, right, Because one thing I tell people

1034
00:43:40,000 --> 00:43:46,759
Speaker 1: is on social media, the numbers like they're like not real, right,

1035
00:43:46,920 --> 00:43:49,080
Speaker 1: So people are, oh, you're an influencer, and I'm like,

1036
00:43:49,280 --> 00:43:52,040
Speaker 1: I'm not. Wait you say you're not, though, because I

1037
00:43:52,080 --> 00:43:54,239
Speaker 1: think it's a it's a disrespect to like people who

1038
00:43:54,280 --> 00:43:56,920
Speaker 1: are like putting in the work as an influencer.

1039
00:43:57,280 --> 00:43:59,080
Speaker 4: I haven't posted like a month and a half latarious

1040
00:43:59,680 --> 00:44:02,440
Speaker 4: influence well people, I feel like they show up. I

1041
00:44:02,520 --> 00:44:04,560
Speaker 4: could say I have influence. I can see they have influence.

1042
00:44:04,640 --> 00:44:07,560
Speaker 4: But an influencer, I feel like one who.

1043
00:44:09,239 --> 00:44:10,120
Speaker 2: One of influences.

1044
00:44:11,280 --> 00:44:14,040
Speaker 3: That's all it is meaning that do I say something

1045
00:44:14,120 --> 00:44:17,600
Speaker 3: that influences people to change? Can I say something to influence?

1046
00:44:17,640 --> 00:44:18,200
Speaker 2: Somebody say?

1047
00:44:18,280 --> 00:44:20,719
Speaker 3: Ooh, I'm gonna buy those shoes because so and so

1048
00:44:20,880 --> 00:44:23,160
Speaker 3: had those shoes. Hey, I'm going to go buy this

1049
00:44:23,280 --> 00:44:25,480
Speaker 3: book because so and so wrote this book. They said

1050
00:44:25,520 --> 00:44:28,759
Speaker 3: this is great. And sometimes we minimize the impact that

1051
00:44:28,920 --> 00:44:31,440
Speaker 3: we have because we're comparing it to like you said, well,

1052
00:44:31,480 --> 00:44:33,200
Speaker 3: I'm not really because the other influence they do it

1053
00:44:33,239 --> 00:44:35,160
Speaker 3: every day. They do this. Whatever you ain't got do

1054
00:44:35,200 --> 00:44:38,560
Speaker 3: it every day. You can sit there and call a

1055
00:44:38,719 --> 00:44:41,120
Speaker 3: meet up and get hundreds of people to show up,

1056
00:44:41,640 --> 00:44:45,680
Speaker 3: and you maybe post once every week or two weeks

1057
00:44:45,760 --> 00:44:46,000
Speaker 3: or whatever.

1058
00:44:47,520 --> 00:44:51,879
Speaker 2: Does it mean you're not influencer? It's a full time job.

1059
00:44:53,239 --> 00:44:57,080
Speaker 4: Don't remind me. I'm still struggling.

1060
00:44:58,719 --> 00:45:02,560
Speaker 3: That's influencer. It's a self employed person that is using

1061
00:45:02,680 --> 00:45:06,719
Speaker 3: social media to try to carve out, sketch out a

1062
00:45:06,880 --> 00:45:11,040
Speaker 3: living for themselves while creating impact and influencing people to

1063
00:45:11,200 --> 00:45:14,120
Speaker 3: do something for God. See, you're not you're not just

1064
00:45:14,239 --> 00:45:16,719
Speaker 3: some influencer that's just saying, oh, y'all want to do

1065
00:45:16,800 --> 00:45:19,000
Speaker 3: this so you can buy this QTE top and do

1066
00:45:19,160 --> 00:45:22,839
Speaker 3: this this closet, overhauled things or whatever, like you ain't.

1067
00:45:22,920 --> 00:45:24,880
Speaker 3: You ain't doing that. You're saying, I want people to

1068
00:45:24,920 --> 00:45:28,080
Speaker 3: live right by God. Yeah, it may be confident, I

1069
00:45:28,120 --> 00:45:31,839
Speaker 3: will say it may be it may be minimizing your

1070
00:45:31,920 --> 00:45:33,560
Speaker 3: impact by calling you an influencer.

1071
00:45:34,440 --> 00:45:36,279
Speaker 2: It may be it may be minimizing it.

1072
00:45:37,000 --> 00:45:41,360
Speaker 3: But you are I'm gonna make up a word an impactor,

1073
00:45:42,280 --> 00:45:45,920
Speaker 3: because you're causing impact to people, changing lives and so

1074
00:45:46,680 --> 00:45:48,520
Speaker 3: so okay, maybe not influencing.

1075
00:45:48,680 --> 00:45:50,200
Speaker 4: And I stay with you. I've said I've thought about

1076
00:45:50,200 --> 00:45:50,560
Speaker 4: that before.

1077
00:45:50,600 --> 00:45:53,279
Speaker 1: I was like, I realize now right that I do

1078
00:45:53,480 --> 00:45:56,040
Speaker 1: have impact in the work, the work that God has

1079
00:45:56,120 --> 00:45:56,880
Speaker 1: allowed me to do.

1080
00:45:57,360 --> 00:45:57,800
Speaker 3: Think about this.

1081
00:45:58,120 --> 00:45:58,719
Speaker 2: I want to say this.

1082
00:45:59,200 --> 00:46:01,879
Speaker 3: No, that's not sexy to be talking about not having

1083
00:46:01,920 --> 00:46:05,719
Speaker 3: sex like, that's not sexy to say the sexist trial.

1084
00:46:05,760 --> 00:46:08,400
Speaker 3: I remember when I first saw that on my page,

1085
00:46:08,520 --> 00:46:11,200
Speaker 3: I said, why would they call themselves that? That is

1086
00:46:11,280 --> 00:46:15,480
Speaker 3: so lame? Why call yourself the sexless tribe? Just say

1087
00:46:16,440 --> 00:46:19,640
Speaker 3: right right right, because there's something that just sounds cool.

1088
00:46:20,040 --> 00:46:23,640
Speaker 3: It just sounds so lame to say that, but even

1089
00:46:23,760 --> 00:46:26,480
Speaker 3: in my opinion about it, it's still didn't stop God

1090
00:46:26,520 --> 00:46:27,400
Speaker 3: from causing the movement.

1091
00:46:27,600 --> 00:46:29,399
Speaker 4: And let me say that, even with the name, people

1092
00:46:29,440 --> 00:46:31,600
Speaker 4: have pushed back. And when I tell people you worried

1093
00:46:31,600 --> 00:46:33,799
Speaker 4: about the wrong thing, right you so focused on the name,

1094
00:46:33,920 --> 00:46:35,600
Speaker 4: go before God and ask what would you have me

1095
00:46:35,719 --> 00:46:35,880
Speaker 4: to do?

1096
00:46:36,040 --> 00:46:36,200
Speaker 3: Right?

1097
00:46:36,400 --> 00:46:39,000
Speaker 1: Because it doesn't matter, look what's coming from it. And

1098
00:46:39,120 --> 00:46:40,600
Speaker 1: I think even with the name, because I could have

1099
00:46:40,680 --> 00:46:42,200
Speaker 1: changed the name, but I think it's provocative.

1100
00:46:42,520 --> 00:46:45,480
Speaker 4: I think it people go, oh what is that?

1101
00:46:45,920 --> 00:46:47,759
Speaker 1: Let me and then you you stumble, you google it

1102
00:46:47,880 --> 00:46:50,480
Speaker 1: and you look you but oh they lit, Oh they proud,

1103
00:46:50,560 --> 00:46:53,080
Speaker 1: they have a good time, they're confident, they're hunting out

1104
00:46:53,080 --> 00:46:53,640
Speaker 1: with their body.

1105
00:46:53,880 --> 00:46:54,320
Speaker 4: So I think that.

1106
00:46:54,360 --> 00:46:55,919
Speaker 1: I think even with that, I think if I would

1107
00:46:55,920 --> 00:46:58,040
Speaker 1: have sat on it too long, or if I wasn't

1108
00:46:58,080 --> 00:47:01,200
Speaker 1: in isolation, I could have been like maybe why don't know,

1109
00:47:01,800 --> 00:47:04,440
Speaker 1: I would said, like influence to change it, right, to

1110
00:47:04,560 --> 00:47:09,680
Speaker 1: make it perfect and cool and ah. But now right

1111
00:47:09,800 --> 00:47:11,880
Speaker 1: in that isolation, right cause in consets.

1112
00:47:11,560 --> 00:47:13,439
Speaker 4: Like I could have picked anything. Where did that even

1113
00:47:13,480 --> 00:47:13,799
Speaker 4: come from?

1114
00:47:13,840 --> 00:47:14,000
Speaker 3: Why?

1115
00:47:16,560 --> 00:47:16,960
Speaker 4: Oh yeah?

1116
00:47:17,160 --> 00:47:17,279
Speaker 3: Right?

1117
00:47:17,480 --> 00:47:19,920
Speaker 1: Just literally it was like shout out to the sexist

1118
00:47:20,000 --> 00:47:23,560
Speaker 1: tribe know where they came from. And then I was

1119
00:47:23,880 --> 00:47:26,200
Speaker 1: creating merch and the name was on the bag and

1120
00:47:26,719 --> 00:47:29,040
Speaker 1: you know all these But it is is provocative and

1121
00:47:29,200 --> 00:47:33,120
Speaker 1: it makes people inquisitive, right, like, wait, whomen is that?

1122
00:47:33,640 --> 00:47:35,000
Speaker 1: But at the end of the day, when you look

1123
00:47:35,040 --> 00:47:37,520
Speaker 1: at the work that's being done for, you can't deny

1124
00:47:37,640 --> 00:47:39,279
Speaker 1: it right that God is in it. And that's why

1125
00:47:39,560 --> 00:47:40,680
Speaker 1: I had to come up with one girl. When she

1126
00:47:40,760 --> 00:47:42,640
Speaker 1: tried to say something, I was like, maybe you worried about.

1127
00:47:42,400 --> 00:47:42,920
Speaker 4: The wrong thing.

1128
00:47:44,080 --> 00:47:45,920
Speaker 1: She just say nothing because I said, go before God

1129
00:47:45,960 --> 00:47:47,360
Speaker 1: and ask him what he would have you to do.

1130
00:47:48,320 --> 00:47:49,359
Speaker 1: That's all you worried about?

1131
00:47:49,400 --> 00:47:53,759
Speaker 4: The name? What right? What can you say? What can

1132
00:47:53,840 --> 00:47:56,960
Speaker 4: you say instead of you taking the time of saying, wow, Amen,

1133
00:47:57,560 --> 00:48:01,160
Speaker 4: shout out to the community that's shaking core, shouting to

1134
00:48:01,200 --> 00:48:01,960
Speaker 4: the work that you're doing.

1135
00:48:02,000 --> 00:48:04,040
Speaker 1: That little corny comment you could have kept to yourself.

1136
00:48:04,560 --> 00:48:07,040
Speaker 1: It was that was lame to me, right as a believer.

1137
00:48:07,160 --> 00:48:08,880
Speaker 1: There was so many things you could have used with

1138
00:48:09,040 --> 00:48:11,839
Speaker 1: the characters that you type to encourage us. That part,

1139
00:48:12,400 --> 00:48:15,040
Speaker 1: right part, So I'm like, no, you're cornyn.

1140
00:48:15,200 --> 00:48:17,000
Speaker 3: How did you feel when y'all were I don't know

1141
00:48:17,040 --> 00:48:22,000
Speaker 3: which meet up this was but y'all just basically popped

1142
00:48:22,080 --> 00:48:28,320
Speaker 3: up at Philip Anthony Mitchell Love Love and he spoke

1143
00:48:28,360 --> 00:48:28,960
Speaker 3: a word.

1144
00:48:30,520 --> 00:48:30,880
Speaker 2: Share that.

1145
00:48:31,880 --> 00:48:34,080
Speaker 1: Let me tell you, okay, So shout out to twenty

1146
00:48:34,120 --> 00:48:39,840
Speaker 1: eight nineteen pastor Philip Anthony Mitchell the again. I tell people,

1147
00:48:40,520 --> 00:48:43,600
Speaker 1: y'all see me in real time building something out right

1148
00:48:44,400 --> 00:48:44,959
Speaker 1: real time.

1149
00:48:45,080 --> 00:48:46,160
Speaker 4: There was no blueprint.

1150
00:48:46,480 --> 00:48:49,120
Speaker 1: I don't want to say there was nobody doing doing

1151
00:48:49,239 --> 00:48:51,960
Speaker 1: this because everybody was I don't know what everybody been doing.

1152
00:48:52,000 --> 00:48:54,040
Speaker 3: I mean, you had stuff like Pinky Promise and all that,

1153
00:48:54,360 --> 00:48:57,520
Speaker 3: but that was more towards women. There was never anything

1154
00:48:57,640 --> 00:49:00,200
Speaker 3: to my knowledge that was men and women. Okay, because

1155
00:49:00,200 --> 00:49:01,279
Speaker 3: first of all, I was going to be hard as

1156
00:49:01,320 --> 00:49:03,960
Speaker 3: all get out to get men to even walk around

1157
00:49:04,040 --> 00:49:04,640
Speaker 3: and promote that.

1158
00:49:05,160 --> 00:49:06,160
Speaker 2: So it's been hard.

1159
00:49:06,200 --> 00:49:08,960
Speaker 3: It's something that I desired doing, but the lift was

1160
00:49:09,000 --> 00:49:10,520
Speaker 3: too heavy that I'll be honest with you, I was

1161
00:49:10,520 --> 00:49:11,080
Speaker 3: afraid to do it.

1162
00:49:11,120 --> 00:49:13,600
Speaker 2: I said, why would I do that? It doesn't even I.

1163
00:49:13,600 --> 00:49:16,760
Speaker 3: Didn't want to do something that would be unsuccessful because

1164
00:49:16,840 --> 00:49:20,000
Speaker 3: it would be so hard to do that. And honestly,

1165
00:49:20,840 --> 00:49:22,960
Speaker 3: I said, it's too hard. Why would I do that?

1166
00:49:23,200 --> 00:49:25,239
Speaker 3: Especially in the same season where God was telling me

1167
00:49:25,280 --> 00:49:28,880
Speaker 3: to do that. I was struggling myself for one season

1168
00:49:29,120 --> 00:49:31,480
Speaker 3: and then falling off, and I said, I want to

1169
00:49:31,560 --> 00:49:34,640
Speaker 3: do this guy. I remember it was December of twenty twenty,

1170
00:49:34,960 --> 00:49:38,239
Speaker 3: and this lady came on the podcast. She's gonna be mad.

1171
00:49:38,320 --> 00:49:40,840
Speaker 3: I just forgot the name. I'm sorry, but she was.

1172
00:49:41,920 --> 00:49:43,800
Speaker 3: I was about to say her name. Anyway, she did that.

1173
00:49:43,920 --> 00:49:47,400
Speaker 3: I did a whole live with her where it was

1174
00:49:47,440 --> 00:49:50,680
Speaker 3: an abstinence call to abstinence, and it was on a

1175
00:49:50,760 --> 00:49:53,920
Speaker 3: Sunday that we did this service right there in my

1176
00:49:54,200 --> 00:49:58,239
Speaker 3: other room there where women wore white and they took

1177
00:49:58,320 --> 00:50:01,640
Speaker 3: this vibe absence. Then she said that on the episode.

1178
00:50:01,719 --> 00:50:04,680
Speaker 3: She was like, yeah, you know, God is going to

1179
00:50:04,840 --> 00:50:06,160
Speaker 3: have you do the same thing. I don't know, she

1180
00:50:06,200 --> 00:50:08,960
Speaker 3: said on episode afterwards. And I said, no, you's not.

1181
00:50:09,360 --> 00:50:11,520
Speaker 3: God is never going to ask me to be absent.

1182
00:50:11,600 --> 00:50:13,640
Speaker 3: It's never going to happen. It just doesn't make sense.

1183
00:50:13,960 --> 00:50:16,920
Speaker 3: So in the thing, uh, in the service she had

1184
00:50:16,960 --> 00:50:19,640
Speaker 3: spoke about it or whatnot, and afterwards, God said I

1185
00:50:19,760 --> 00:50:21,200
Speaker 3: need you to take a vibe absence and I.

1186
00:50:21,239 --> 00:50:22,799
Speaker 4: Said, I said, I won't say what I said.

1187
00:50:22,800 --> 00:50:24,920
Speaker 3: Why would I Why would I do that? Would I

1188
00:50:25,120 --> 00:50:28,280
Speaker 3: do that? Just doesn't make sense because you was outside.

1189
00:50:28,400 --> 00:50:31,160
Speaker 3: I was outside and I was outside for real. Yeah,

1190
00:50:31,239 --> 00:50:34,279
Speaker 3: when I'm outside, I'm really outside and everything. I don't

1191
00:50:34,320 --> 00:50:40,640
Speaker 3: need you over here to share my testimony the highways

1192
00:50:40,680 --> 00:50:41,280
Speaker 3: in the byways.

1193
00:50:42,600 --> 00:50:44,200
Speaker 4: You was on the side of the highway, remember, earl.

1194
00:50:47,040 --> 00:50:49,200
Speaker 4: But no please, because you say too much now you

1195
00:50:49,280 --> 00:50:49,600
Speaker 4: played it.

1196
00:50:49,680 --> 00:50:53,879
Speaker 3: But so then, so then I had Pastor Conway coming

1197
00:50:53,920 --> 00:50:58,160
Speaker 3: to podcast for one community because I had visited his church.

1198
00:50:58,520 --> 00:51:01,759
Speaker 3: And then God spoke to me then that God is

1199
00:51:01,880 --> 00:51:04,719
Speaker 3: calling me. And that was that January of that year

1200
00:51:04,760 --> 00:51:07,080
Speaker 3: of twenty twenty. And then the pandemic hit a few

1201
00:51:07,120 --> 00:51:09,520
Speaker 3: months later, and then by that December, guy said, I

1202
00:51:09,680 --> 00:51:12,560
Speaker 3: need you to take a vive abstinence and I want

1203
00:51:12,640 --> 00:51:16,239
Speaker 3: you to bring him on the on the podcast when

1204
00:51:16,280 --> 00:51:18,600
Speaker 3: you do it, And so he came on the podcast.

1205
00:51:18,719 --> 00:51:21,879
Speaker 2: We did it. Powerful moment and move of God.

1206
00:51:22,200 --> 00:51:24,520
Speaker 3: So after that I started being loud with it. I

1207
00:51:24,640 --> 00:51:27,320
Speaker 3: was I was on a clubhouse. I was like, this

1208
00:51:27,520 --> 00:51:29,560
Speaker 3: is a lot of men we've been deceived. I didn't

1209
00:51:29,560 --> 00:51:32,360
Speaker 3: know my body had value. I felt like my body,

1210
00:51:32,400 --> 00:51:34,239
Speaker 3: I'm supposed to just do what they told me, which

1211
00:51:34,360 --> 00:51:36,800
Speaker 3: men go, so on, sow your royal olds all that

1212
00:51:37,120 --> 00:51:40,600
Speaker 3: nonsense and go smash as many women as possible.

1213
00:51:40,680 --> 00:51:41,560
Speaker 2: Then you settle down.

1214
00:51:41,600 --> 00:51:44,440
Speaker 3: But what you practicing your singleness, you're gonna perfect in

1215
00:51:44,520 --> 00:51:47,719
Speaker 3: your marriage to practice being a horn longer in your

1216
00:51:47,800 --> 00:51:50,960
Speaker 3: single season. You're gonna struggle and faithfulness while you get married.

1217
00:51:51,160 --> 00:51:52,719
Speaker 3: So I was like, I'm gonna go tell that, but

1218
00:51:52,800 --> 00:51:54,759
Speaker 3: I was just loud. I was telling everybody, and then

1219
00:51:54,840 --> 00:51:56,399
Speaker 3: I said, I want a lot of men to join

1220
00:51:56,480 --> 00:51:58,799
Speaker 3: me on this. Now it was men that DM me said. Man,

1221
00:51:58,880 --> 00:52:01,279
Speaker 3: I watched the episode man that challenged me. I'm gonna

1222
00:52:01,280 --> 00:52:03,560
Speaker 3: take this vow with you, and there was a handful

1223
00:52:03,600 --> 00:52:06,239
Speaker 3: of guys. But then I said, I don't want to. Really,

1224
00:52:06,440 --> 00:52:08,480
Speaker 3: I saw a vision of a whole lot of men

1225
00:52:08,600 --> 00:52:11,440
Speaker 3: doing this. I was gonna do this whole ceremony thing

1226
00:52:11,520 --> 00:52:15,120
Speaker 3: with men, and I got scared. I said, man, I'm

1227
00:52:15,120 --> 00:52:16,640
Speaker 3: gonna do that. It's gonna be about two men on

1228
00:52:16,719 --> 00:52:19,960
Speaker 3: that live and it's gonna look very whack for me

1229
00:52:20,040 --> 00:52:20,279
Speaker 3: to do.

1230
00:52:21,840 --> 00:52:24,840
Speaker 4: So you know better, you said for nobody, But I

1231
00:52:24,960 --> 00:52:25,480
Speaker 4: know you didn't know.

1232
00:52:25,840 --> 00:52:26,440
Speaker 2: Oh, I meant that.

1233
00:52:28,200 --> 00:52:29,920
Speaker 3: The food of it, I didn't do it. So what

1234
00:52:30,040 --> 00:52:32,239
Speaker 3: I did do, though, Shakid. What you don't know is

1235
00:52:32,280 --> 00:52:34,600
Speaker 3: I just kept praying for God to keep blessing your ministry,

1236
00:52:35,719 --> 00:52:38,200
Speaker 3: because every time I saw God pop up on the thing,

1237
00:52:38,239 --> 00:52:40,359
Speaker 3: I was like, Oh, that's cool, that's cool, all right.

1238
00:52:40,360 --> 00:52:42,080
Speaker 3: And I was looking at the type of guys that

1239
00:52:42,120 --> 00:52:44,439
Speaker 3: you were tracked. I said, are these guys that would

1240
00:52:44,480 --> 00:52:49,000
Speaker 3: be looked down upon as being lame? Like they had

1241
00:52:49,040 --> 00:52:51,000
Speaker 3: no choice? And I said, all right, there's some cool

1242
00:52:51,040 --> 00:52:53,200
Speaker 3: guys here. That's this. And so I just said, God,

1243
00:52:53,360 --> 00:52:56,560
Speaker 3: keep blessing her ministry. And I said, even though I

1244
00:52:56,680 --> 00:52:59,239
Speaker 3: had a heart to do it, she already has the

1245
00:52:59,320 --> 00:53:01,600
Speaker 3: infant and that there and met. I mean, don't keep

1246
00:53:01,600 --> 00:53:03,839
Speaker 3: it real. I sat down and met with you and said, hey,

1247
00:53:03,960 --> 00:53:05,279
Speaker 3: is there any type of way I can partner with

1248
00:53:05,400 --> 00:53:07,480
Speaker 3: your app? We can do this or whatever, because.

1249
00:53:07,200 --> 00:53:09,120
Speaker 2: I still have the heart. You remember when we met.

1250
00:53:09,719 --> 00:53:12,719
Speaker 3: What's for that? It's because I was like, I can't

1251
00:53:12,760 --> 00:53:15,840
Speaker 3: do this on my own. I don't want to fail

1252
00:53:15,960 --> 00:53:18,120
Speaker 3: in something that people like he's doing too much. So

1253
00:53:18,280 --> 00:53:20,480
Speaker 3: let me get somebody that's already doing it because I

1254
00:53:20,600 --> 00:53:22,640
Speaker 3: see the value of I see the heart of it,

1255
00:53:22,960 --> 00:53:26,040
Speaker 3: and help undergird that and support that and push people

1256
00:53:26,160 --> 00:53:30,200
Speaker 3: to that, and then it can be a co partnership situation.

1257
00:53:30,640 --> 00:53:34,279
Speaker 3: And so that's why I believe firmly in what you're doing,

1258
00:53:34,360 --> 00:53:38,440
Speaker 3: is because if you can intercept the devil's lives early,

1259
00:53:38,880 --> 00:53:42,879
Speaker 3: they don't have to undo the Absolutely. I was forty

1260
00:53:43,000 --> 00:53:46,319
Speaker 3: years old, forty two years old, finally hearing from God

1261
00:53:46,440 --> 00:53:49,480
Speaker 3: I'm talking about for the first time ever in my life.

1262
00:53:50,160 --> 00:53:52,879
Speaker 3: I was forty two years old in twenty twenty saying,

1263
00:53:53,080 --> 00:53:55,840
Speaker 3: and God said, your body has value. I said, my

1264
00:53:55,920 --> 00:53:56,760
Speaker 3: body has value?

1265
00:53:56,840 --> 00:53:58,400
Speaker 4: Yeah, amen, I have never heard that.

1266
00:53:58,400 --> 00:53:58,879
Speaker 1: In my time.

1267
00:53:58,960 --> 00:54:01,799
Speaker 3: Life didn't teach it. I'man be honest with you. Church

1268
00:54:01,920 --> 00:54:03,840
Speaker 3: never taught men that their body had value.

1269
00:54:03,920 --> 00:54:04,000
Speaker 4: Ye.

1270
00:54:04,320 --> 00:54:06,800
Speaker 3: It was always telling women save yourself. Say it is

1271
00:54:07,080 --> 00:54:09,759
Speaker 3: not a soul on this earth, not a pastor, not

1272
00:54:09,880 --> 00:54:13,319
Speaker 3: a youth pastor, not nobody that I've ever heard while

1273
00:54:13,360 --> 00:54:15,480
Speaker 3: I was grown and I grew up in church. I

1274
00:54:15,600 --> 00:54:18,239
Speaker 3: grew up in church my entire life. Never heard them

1275
00:54:18,320 --> 00:54:21,719
Speaker 3: say practice aptionist, not your body. And I was forty

1276
00:54:21,719 --> 00:54:23,480
Speaker 3: two years old when I first heard God speak that

1277
00:54:23,560 --> 00:54:27,080
Speaker 3: to me. And so here you are speaking that to

1278
00:54:27,239 --> 00:54:31,000
Speaker 3: the nation, saying save yourself. Purity is cool, Purity is

1279
00:54:31,080 --> 00:54:34,560
Speaker 3: God's way back on Philip.

1280
00:54:35,000 --> 00:54:39,520
Speaker 1: Oh, yeah, yeah, please yes, So again real time, given

1281
00:54:39,600 --> 00:54:42,200
Speaker 1: my yess, no blueprint, trying to figure it out. And

1282
00:54:42,280 --> 00:54:44,360
Speaker 1: that's why always say shout out to the people that

1283
00:54:44,520 --> 00:54:46,440
Speaker 1: took that leap. During the first meet up, Now mind you,

1284
00:54:46,520 --> 00:54:48,279
Speaker 1: I had been just going live. I didn't know none

1285
00:54:48,320 --> 00:54:51,480
Speaker 1: of these people. Okay, I don't know nobody. I'm like, hey,

1286
00:54:52,080 --> 00:54:53,400
Speaker 1: we're gonna do a meet up in the land, and

1287
00:54:53,480 --> 00:54:56,160
Speaker 1: don't know who's gonna come, what's going to look like.

1288
00:54:56,200 --> 00:54:56,680
Speaker 4: I don't got no.

1289
00:54:56,800 --> 00:54:58,799
Speaker 1: Pictures, no videos to show you what. I'm a visual

1290
00:54:58,840 --> 00:55:02,120
Speaker 1: I don't even know, right, And so I took the leap.

1291
00:55:02,200 --> 00:55:04,319
Speaker 1: It took me a while, and my friend was like, girl,

1292
00:55:04,960 --> 00:55:07,440
Speaker 1: come on right, well he was, he's a guy. He's like, Shakia,

1293
00:55:07,480 --> 00:55:09,640
Speaker 1: how many more things God have to show you? Because

1294
00:55:09,680 --> 00:55:11,279
Speaker 1: I'm like, God, if you really want me to do this,

1295
00:55:11,600 --> 00:55:13,200
Speaker 1: than X, Y and Z. And then it would happened

1296
00:55:13,280 --> 00:55:15,440
Speaker 1: and he was like all right now he was. He

1297
00:55:15,560 --> 00:55:17,000
Speaker 1: was like all right because he want to go to

1298
00:55:17,040 --> 00:55:18,920
Speaker 1: the meeting. He like, come on, were ready?

1299
00:55:19,360 --> 00:55:20,479
Speaker 4: So launched the event.

1300
00:55:20,680 --> 00:55:23,680
Speaker 1: The people you know, purchased real tickets, booked real flights

1301
00:55:23,680 --> 00:55:27,080
Speaker 1: from different states and countries, and flew in And that

1302
00:55:27,239 --> 00:55:29,399
Speaker 1: was the first one. The second one I did here

1303
00:55:29,760 --> 00:55:32,640
Speaker 1: in Dallas, and I made a joke like, oh.

1304
00:55:32,520 --> 00:55:34,279
Speaker 4: What if we took over church? That would be so cool.

1305
00:55:35,320 --> 00:55:36,160
Speaker 4: So we went to church.

1306
00:55:36,239 --> 00:55:39,080
Speaker 1: And then so after I did that second one, we

1307
00:55:39,200 --> 00:55:42,279
Speaker 1: went to doctor Evans's church, right, and he came down

1308
00:55:42,320 --> 00:55:43,680
Speaker 1: and spoke with us, and it was amazing.

1309
00:55:43,719 --> 00:55:46,520
Speaker 4: He gave us a word. He was just newly widowed.

1310
00:55:46,560 --> 00:55:48,120
Speaker 4: So he made a joke like I'm in the sexuiest

1311
00:55:48,160 --> 00:55:50,800
Speaker 4: drive too, right, and so we laughed.

1312
00:55:50,840 --> 00:55:52,640
Speaker 3: We laughed, and so after that.

1313
00:55:52,680 --> 00:55:53,879
Speaker 1: We was like, oh, we gotta go to church again.

1314
00:55:53,920 --> 00:55:55,560
Speaker 1: So I'm like, oh, I'm bringing it back to Atlanta.

1315
00:55:55,640 --> 00:55:57,919
Speaker 1: Where are we gonna go? Because I'm very careful about

1316
00:55:58,200 --> 00:55:59,960
Speaker 1: but church, hey, right, because I believe it.

1317
00:56:00,000 --> 00:56:00,920
Speaker 4: I got to give an account.

1318
00:56:01,160 --> 00:56:02,640
Speaker 2: Okay, well I take people, hey.

1319
00:56:02,600 --> 00:56:03,000
Speaker 4: That's right.

1320
00:56:03,160 --> 00:56:07,239
Speaker 1: So somebody had shared a video of Pastor Philip, and

1321
00:56:07,320 --> 00:56:08,520
Speaker 1: I was like, well I like him cause I like

1322
00:56:08,560 --> 00:56:11,959
Speaker 1: a little conviction, right me make me comfortable. I was like, ooh,

1323
00:56:12,600 --> 00:56:15,560
Speaker 1: and this is before he was the now the pastor

1324
00:56:15,600 --> 00:56:18,880
Speaker 1: phil the church was very small, maybe one hundred and something.

1325
00:56:18,960 --> 00:56:22,400
Speaker 1: People reached out to that church and another church to

1326
00:56:22,400 --> 00:56:26,280
Speaker 1: the other church. Okay, so wind up going with Pastor

1327
00:56:26,320 --> 00:56:29,840
Speaker 1: Phillips Church and uh it was like a couple hundred.

1328
00:56:29,600 --> 00:56:31,719
Speaker 4: Of us, and I'm saying, they just how did you

1329
00:56:31,760 --> 00:56:34,040
Speaker 4: find out about him? So when they oh, sorry did

1330
00:56:34,120 --> 00:56:34,520
Speaker 4: I skip that?

1331
00:56:34,600 --> 00:56:36,000
Speaker 3: Sorry? They only had one hundred people.

1332
00:56:36,160 --> 00:56:38,480
Speaker 4: So somebody sent me a real sorry I had to

1333
00:56:38,480 --> 00:56:39,520
Speaker 4: skipped that. I got too excited.

1334
00:56:39,840 --> 00:56:41,840
Speaker 1: Somebody sent me a reel of him and I was like,

1335
00:56:41,920 --> 00:56:43,800
Speaker 1: well I like him, like a little conviction, little you know,

1336
00:56:44,080 --> 00:56:44,480
Speaker 1: hell by.

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00:56:45,040 --> 00:56:47,520
Speaker 4: Uh So yeah, I was like, oh, okay, I like this.

1338
00:56:47,640 --> 00:56:48,840
Speaker 4: So I prayed about it and I was like, I

1339
00:56:48,880 --> 00:56:49,640
Speaker 4: think this is the church.

1340
00:56:49,640 --> 00:56:50,920
Speaker 3: I want to call me ask you why do you

1341
00:56:51,200 --> 00:56:52,560
Speaker 3: like that? And you were unchurched.

1342
00:56:52,760 --> 00:56:53,239
Speaker 2: Why would you?

1343
00:56:53,880 --> 00:56:56,320
Speaker 3: It seemed like somebody that's un church would like something

1344
00:56:56,360 --> 00:56:59,799
Speaker 3: that's more comfortable, not somebody that was at Fire and Brimstone.

1345
00:56:59,320 --> 00:57:01,919
Speaker 1: Back in the day that that's what's firing Brimstone because

1346
00:57:01,920 --> 00:57:04,239
Speaker 1: it's a reminder like one day you have to give

1347
00:57:04,239 --> 00:57:06,920
Speaker 1: an account, right, And like I said earlier, right the

1348
00:57:07,000 --> 00:57:09,239
Speaker 1: world would be like you wasn't really doing nothing.

1349
00:57:09,360 --> 00:57:10,239
Speaker 4: Keep doing what you're doing.

1350
00:57:10,840 --> 00:57:12,759
Speaker 1: And I thank god if I staid before me, he'd

1351
00:57:12,800 --> 00:57:14,640
Speaker 1: be like, no, that wasn't my standard. I need somebody

1352
00:57:14,719 --> 00:57:16,240
Speaker 1: around me like No, you shouldn't be in that band.

1353
00:57:16,560 --> 00:57:18,920
Speaker 1: You shouldn't be kissing and pitting and rolling around, right.

1354
00:57:19,000 --> 00:57:21,560
Speaker 1: You shouldn't be getting that man aroused and then going

1355
00:57:21,600 --> 00:57:24,760
Speaker 1: about your business because then what is he about to do?

1356
00:57:25,440 --> 00:57:27,320
Speaker 4: Right? So I like that reminder.

1357
00:57:27,520 --> 00:57:30,120
Speaker 1: All day people are pacifying and all God loves you,

1358
00:57:30,200 --> 00:57:32,240
Speaker 1: and he does, amen. But I need the reminder that

1359
00:57:32,280 --> 00:57:34,479
Speaker 1: God is a god of rafts who he's a just god,

1360
00:57:34,760 --> 00:57:36,960
Speaker 1: and you're going to give an account. So remind me

1361
00:57:37,120 --> 00:57:39,640
Speaker 1: if you love me. Remind I know he loved me.

1362
00:57:39,760 --> 00:57:41,520
Speaker 1: I know he did, right, He's taking care of me.

1363
00:57:41,600 --> 00:57:43,840
Speaker 1: What I forget is that he's a just god because

1364
00:57:43,840 --> 00:57:45,920
Speaker 1: I don't feel those consequences right in the moment.

1365
00:57:46,280 --> 00:57:50,560
Speaker 3: And I believe that Philip Anthony Mitchell had to be

1366
00:57:50,960 --> 00:57:55,320
Speaker 3: who he is, especially in the region that he has

1367
00:57:55,560 --> 00:57:59,440
Speaker 3: gotten authority over. Yeah, because you can't go in Atlanta

1368
00:57:59,600 --> 00:58:04,120
Speaker 3: and be weak. Those spirits in Atlanta is very I'm

1369
00:58:04,120 --> 00:58:05,680
Speaker 3: about saying being no punk. I'm about to say be

1370
00:58:05,760 --> 00:58:07,880
Speaker 3: no punk and then they'll play what they were. But

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00:58:08,000 --> 00:58:10,000
Speaker 3: you can't go to Atlanta and be weak. You have

1372
00:58:10,160 --> 00:58:13,600
Speaker 3: to have somebody that that says I'm going to bombard

1373
00:58:13,760 --> 00:58:16,680
Speaker 3: the gates of Hell. With authority and conviction. So he

1374
00:58:16,880 --> 00:58:20,240
Speaker 3: has a divine anointing for that region. It's just so

1375
00:58:20,480 --> 00:58:22,880
Speaker 3: happened that it's spreading across the world.

1376
00:58:23,000 --> 00:58:23,160
Speaker 1: Yeah.

1377
00:58:23,360 --> 00:58:29,160
Speaker 4: But so when somebody sent me the real and you

1378
00:58:29,240 --> 00:58:31,440
Speaker 4: know who's talking about that? Oh, I like it. And

1379
00:58:31,600 --> 00:58:32,840
Speaker 4: so I was praying about it.

1380
00:58:33,320 --> 00:58:37,120
Speaker 1: I wasn't sure because we doctor Evans great teacher, he's

1381
00:58:37,200 --> 00:58:39,760
Speaker 1: not that right, and he's a known pastor, and I

1382
00:58:39,920 --> 00:58:41,960
Speaker 1: was like, man if I bring the tribe to this

1383
00:58:42,160 --> 00:58:44,280
Speaker 1: other church, he's not a known pastor, he's you know,

1384
00:58:44,320 --> 00:58:46,760
Speaker 1: a little more aggressive. That may not be everyone's speed.

1385
00:58:46,840 --> 00:58:49,120
Speaker 1: And I don't want, like that's just a responsibility. They

1386
00:58:49,120 --> 00:58:51,160
Speaker 1: don't like it what they upset, And so anyways, I

1387
00:58:51,240 --> 00:58:53,439
Speaker 1: prayed about it. I'd be like, God, if it ain't

1388
00:58:53,480 --> 00:58:55,280
Speaker 1: for me, stop it, let it, you know.

1389
00:58:55,520 --> 00:58:56,040
Speaker 3: And it didn't.

1390
00:58:56,240 --> 00:58:59,400
Speaker 1: It rolled out. I have a contact person with twenty

1391
00:58:59,440 --> 00:59:03,000
Speaker 1: eight nineteen. They welcomed us, they gave us, you know,

1392
00:59:03,400 --> 00:59:04,520
Speaker 1: it was like I said, I wanted to say it

1393
00:59:04,520 --> 00:59:06,080
Speaker 1: was one hundreds of us, to let you know that's

1394
00:59:06,080 --> 00:59:07,960
Speaker 1: how small the church was, that they could accommodate their

1395
00:59:08,040 --> 00:59:11,080
Speaker 1: people and our people, right, what's some wiggle room?

1396
00:59:11,240 --> 00:59:13,000
Speaker 4: Right? And I remember asked him.

1397
00:59:13,000 --> 00:59:16,160
Speaker 1: I was like, hey, listen, you know doctor Evans had

1398
00:59:16,240 --> 00:59:18,720
Speaker 1: given them like a talk when we were in Dallas.

1399
00:59:18,800 --> 00:59:21,000
Speaker 4: You think like Pastor Phillip could do that. He' said,

1400
00:59:21,000 --> 00:59:22,600
Speaker 4: oh yeah, we got you, We got you, you know.

1401
00:59:23,080 --> 00:59:25,200
Speaker 4: And so after he did, he took his time, and

1402
00:59:25,280 --> 00:59:27,680
Speaker 4: he was sick that day, like coughing and sick. His

1403
00:59:27,760 --> 00:59:29,080
Speaker 4: family had stayed on because they were sick.

1404
00:59:29,360 --> 00:59:32,320
Speaker 1: But he stood after he gave such a strong word,

1405
00:59:32,360 --> 00:59:35,160
Speaker 1: and I put on our YouTube page while I'm staying, yes,

1406
00:59:35,480 --> 00:59:37,720
Speaker 1: you hear me, and he said it like an end

1407
00:59:37,840 --> 00:59:39,880
Speaker 1: time tribe. He said, you are you guys are called

1408
00:59:39,960 --> 00:59:42,000
Speaker 1: for a time such as this, And that's something I

1409
00:59:42,080 --> 00:59:44,280
Speaker 1: had said right before the first meeting. I was like,

1410
00:59:44,360 --> 00:59:46,600
Speaker 1: what if we a remnant? What if we are called

1411
00:59:46,640 --> 00:59:48,200
Speaker 1: for a time such as this? What if we are

1412
00:59:48,520 --> 00:59:49,840
Speaker 1: to be the light in the saw? And I was

1413
00:59:49,960 --> 00:59:52,120
Speaker 1: hYP right, just talking, just saying stuff. Girl, you don't

1414
00:59:52,120 --> 00:59:54,480
Speaker 1: know if nobody canna show up talk about a remnant

1415
00:59:54,520 --> 00:59:56,200
Speaker 1: it before y'all being a amen.

1416
00:59:56,240 --> 00:59:57,920
Speaker 4: God can do all things right. But I was just

1417
00:59:58,000 --> 00:59:58,520
Speaker 4: so excited.

1418
00:59:58,680 --> 01:00:01,280
Speaker 1: But to hear a man that I had a respect

1419
01:00:01,320 --> 01:00:04,680
Speaker 1: for and now reiterate that man. People left to this

1420
01:00:04,840 --> 01:00:06,680
Speaker 1: dating by shiit because we an end time tried, we

1421
01:00:06,720 --> 01:00:08,120
Speaker 1: got a responsibility right.

1422
01:00:08,200 --> 01:00:12,560
Speaker 4: So it was such a powerful word for us.

1423
01:00:12,960 --> 01:00:14,600
Speaker 1: Oh okay, and then I want to say one more

1424
01:00:14,640 --> 01:00:18,080
Speaker 1: thing because then you know, I remember I like to

1425
01:00:18,120 --> 01:00:19,920
Speaker 1: be behind the scenes. I truly do contrary to what

1426
01:00:20,000 --> 01:00:22,480
Speaker 1: people leave, I really do and like I said, not

1427
01:00:22,720 --> 01:00:27,440
Speaker 1: having someone right, and I remember him praying over me

1428
01:00:27,560 --> 01:00:28,440
Speaker 1: and I just cried.

1429
01:00:28,480 --> 01:00:29,840
Speaker 4: In the vide you could see I was just crying

1430
01:00:29,880 --> 01:00:32,240
Speaker 4: and crying because I don't have that right. He just

1431
01:00:32,560 --> 01:00:35,120
Speaker 4: he just prayed over me, and I remember after he

1432
01:00:35,200 --> 01:00:37,880
Speaker 4: gave the speech, he then said, you can see Navid

1433
01:00:37,880 --> 01:00:39,200
Speaker 4: he says. I said, oh no, I'm good. He said,

1434
01:00:39,200 --> 01:00:40,720
Speaker 4: you sure you want to say and I was like, all.

1435
01:00:40,680 --> 01:00:43,600
Speaker 1: Right, I'm gonna say something, but Terri's you could see

1436
01:00:43,600 --> 01:00:46,640
Speaker 1: it on that YouTube video. It took me about ford

1437
01:00:46,800 --> 01:00:48,680
Speaker 1: try to even get it out because I just kept

1438
01:00:48,760 --> 01:00:52,280
Speaker 1: crying because I just felt so like I guess light,

1439
01:00:52,880 --> 01:00:53,400
Speaker 1: you know what I mean.

1440
01:00:53,400 --> 01:00:54,320
Speaker 4: I was just trying to tell people.

1441
01:00:54,320 --> 01:00:56,440
Speaker 1: I was like, y'all, like I want you to know

1442
01:00:56,520 --> 01:00:58,800
Speaker 1: I try my best and I may not always get

1443
01:00:58,840 --> 01:01:01,480
Speaker 1: it right, but I want to know I really I'm

1444
01:01:01,600 --> 01:01:04,720
Speaker 1: trying my best with what God has given me, and

1445
01:01:04,840 --> 01:01:06,919
Speaker 1: I just asked that y'all give me grace because people

1446
01:01:06,960 --> 01:01:10,080
Speaker 1: will talk about you, people will talk about you. I

1447
01:01:10,120 --> 01:01:12,600
Speaker 1: always say, I know everyone could do it better. Everybody

1448
01:01:12,600 --> 01:01:14,400
Speaker 1: could do it better. Right you be at the NBA game.

1449
01:01:14,640 --> 01:01:17,360
Speaker 1: Can't believe Lebron missed that shot for the three. If

1450
01:01:17,400 --> 01:01:19,520
Speaker 1: it was me, we know you would have made everyone

1451
01:01:20,360 --> 01:01:23,320
Speaker 1: we know right. So you know you hear these talks

1452
01:01:23,360 --> 01:01:25,840
Speaker 1: about they said this and which I like telling people,

1453
01:01:25,840 --> 01:01:28,760
Speaker 1: please stop telling me right, because it doesn't it's not

1454
01:01:28,840 --> 01:01:29,640
Speaker 1: good for my spirits.

1455
01:01:30,600 --> 01:01:32,720
Speaker 2: It is and this is what I want to tell people.

1456
01:01:32,880 --> 01:01:35,760
Speaker 3: And even though is that you feel like God has

1457
01:01:35,840 --> 01:01:38,680
Speaker 3: called you to leadership in whatever sphere of influence that

1458
01:01:38,840 --> 01:01:43,520
Speaker 3: you have, you gotta have tunnel vision when it comes

1459
01:01:43,560 --> 01:01:47,640
Speaker 3: to God, because yes, we know that we are in

1460
01:01:47,800 --> 01:01:50,920
Speaker 3: process regardless of what is. If I ever knew the

1461
01:01:51,080 --> 01:01:53,720
Speaker 3: weight of dear future wife when he called me to

1462
01:01:53,800 --> 01:01:55,120
Speaker 3: do it, I wouldn't made serious.

1463
01:01:55,320 --> 01:01:57,840
Speaker 4: I would have done literious. I'm gonna you hear me.

1464
01:01:58,000 --> 01:02:01,919
Speaker 4: Listen to me. I whoa hmm.

1465
01:02:02,520 --> 01:02:06,080
Speaker 1: I remember being on the floor crying La Terras. I

1466
01:02:06,240 --> 01:02:07,880
Speaker 1: was pressed down so hard that I was like trying

1467
01:02:07,880 --> 01:02:09,480
Speaker 1: to push you to the floor, like you're so death.

1468
01:02:09,560 --> 01:02:13,120
Speaker 1: I was crying, and I remember, like, Lord, why am

1469
01:02:13,200 --> 01:02:15,240
Speaker 1: I being attacked so much? I'm not even a pastor.

1470
01:02:15,320 --> 01:02:17,439
Speaker 1: I'm not even a threat to the kingdom. I said

1471
01:02:17,520 --> 01:02:20,240
Speaker 1: that because I really didn't like the baby, the way

1472
01:02:20,280 --> 01:02:21,680
Speaker 1: it was coming at me. It was like, I'm not

1473
01:02:21,760 --> 01:02:24,000
Speaker 1: even doing it. If there was no sexshit, there was

1474
01:02:24,200 --> 01:02:24,680
Speaker 1: none of that.

1475
01:02:25,000 --> 01:02:26,760
Speaker 4: It was none of it right. I would go live

1476
01:02:26,840 --> 01:02:29,520
Speaker 4: here and there. And I remember I would not lie

1477
01:02:29,600 --> 01:02:30,320
Speaker 4: about this, y'all.

1478
01:02:30,440 --> 01:02:32,640
Speaker 1: I remember then because I was doing a lot of

1479
01:02:32,680 --> 01:02:35,840
Speaker 1: researcher trying to figure things out, and I remember googling something,

1480
01:02:35,960 --> 01:02:36,880
Speaker 1: and I remember an article.

1481
01:02:36,880 --> 01:02:38,280
Speaker 4: I clicked on this article and I read through the

1482
01:02:38,320 --> 01:02:39,880
Speaker 4: article verbatim.

1483
01:02:39,920 --> 01:02:43,080
Speaker 1: It said, the problem with believers is, or the problems

1484
01:02:43,080 --> 01:02:45,840
Speaker 1: with believers is they don't understand that the enemy is

1485
01:02:46,320 --> 01:02:48,640
Speaker 1: attacking who they are right now, the enemy is attacking

1486
01:02:48,680 --> 01:02:49,800
Speaker 1: who God is preparing them to be.

1487
01:02:50,240 --> 01:02:54,439
Speaker 4: La Terris, you listen to me. I read that. I said, Lord,

1488
01:02:55,120 --> 01:02:58,200
Speaker 4: I don't want it. I cried. I said, I don't

1489
01:02:58,240 --> 01:02:59,800
Speaker 4: care what you have in store for me.

1490
01:03:00,520 --> 01:03:02,480
Speaker 1: If I have to keep going through this, if that's

1491
01:03:02,480 --> 01:03:05,479
Speaker 1: what maybe take it, take it, I would have never

1492
01:03:06,280 --> 01:03:07,000
Speaker 1: signed up for this.

1493
01:03:07,720 --> 01:03:09,840
Speaker 3: I don't want that back when I said, God told

1494
01:03:09,880 --> 01:03:11,800
Speaker 3: me exact same thing. That's why I'm trying to sit

1495
01:03:11,880 --> 01:03:15,720
Speaker 3: in this seat because the reality is that it and

1496
01:03:15,800 --> 01:03:18,360
Speaker 3: it keeps being told to me as the year's progressed.

1497
01:03:18,440 --> 01:03:22,440
Speaker 3: Like even the editor of my book I'm signed the

1498
01:03:22,640 --> 01:03:26,960
Speaker 3: w publisher, HarperCollins, and she said this book is going

1499
01:03:27,040 --> 01:03:29,240
Speaker 3: to open up a whole other level of attack. Told

1500
01:03:29,320 --> 01:03:32,600
Speaker 3: me and my fiance that and said, hey, listen, y'all,

1501
01:03:32,640 --> 01:03:35,360
Speaker 3: get ready for attack. He said, if you think, she said,

1502
01:03:35,480 --> 01:03:38,760
Speaker 3: this book is so weighted, it has so much stuff

1503
01:03:38,760 --> 01:03:40,960
Speaker 3: that's going to free people, teach people how to love,

1504
01:03:41,160 --> 01:03:44,600
Speaker 3: how to have healthy relationships, stronger marriages. She's been married

1505
01:03:44,680 --> 01:03:47,439
Speaker 3: for a couple of decades, and she said she learned

1506
01:03:47,480 --> 01:03:49,960
Speaker 3: so much in this book. She said, but watch watch

1507
01:03:50,040 --> 01:03:52,720
Speaker 3: the attacks. I said, Lord, I don't know. I want

1508
01:03:52,760 --> 01:03:54,440
Speaker 3: to get married and be happy. I don't need no

1509
01:03:54,520 --> 01:03:56,840
Speaker 3: more attacks. I don't want no attacks.

1510
01:03:56,960 --> 01:03:58,840
Speaker 1: But you know the beauty, she said, like it's the

1511
01:03:59,600 --> 01:04:02,560
Speaker 1: y'all and the weed, like you have your person now,

1512
01:04:02,640 --> 01:04:05,520
Speaker 1: like with this next one, you're gonna have your person.

1513
01:04:05,520 --> 01:04:08,120
Speaker 4: And that's beautiful now that you get to go through

1514
01:04:08,160 --> 01:04:08,480
Speaker 4: that with.

1515
01:04:08,840 --> 01:04:10,800
Speaker 3: But then that's the first thing that's attack is with

1516
01:04:11,040 --> 01:04:12,840
Speaker 3: the person because at the end of the day, the

1517
01:04:13,000 --> 01:04:14,600
Speaker 3: very thing you prayed for us a very thing that

1518
01:04:14,680 --> 01:04:16,560
Speaker 3: the devil is going to use to attack, and so

1519
01:04:16,720 --> 01:04:18,680
Speaker 3: you'll be sitting. That's why a lot of fifty percent

1520
01:04:18,720 --> 01:04:21,880
Speaker 3: of marriages into divorce because they have been called to

1521
01:04:21,960 --> 01:04:24,480
Speaker 3: purpose a lot of them. The Bible says, who God

1522
01:04:24,600 --> 01:04:27,120
Speaker 3: calls he qualifies, and what God has joined together that

1523
01:04:27,200 --> 01:04:29,360
Speaker 3: no man put asunder. So he brings these couples together,

1524
01:04:29,480 --> 01:04:32,480
Speaker 3: some of them that surrendered their relationship to God, and

1525
01:04:32,600 --> 01:04:35,440
Speaker 3: then he brings together and the next thing, No, there's divorce.

1526
01:04:35,480 --> 01:04:37,520
Speaker 3: Attistics are the same as people in the world. That's

1527
01:04:37,600 --> 01:04:39,920
Speaker 3: because they will use each other to fight each other.

1528
01:04:40,240 --> 01:04:42,880
Speaker 3: And by me knowing that, I'm going ah, Now, the

1529
01:04:43,000 --> 01:04:45,000
Speaker 3: other side of it is, oh, I know what the

1530
01:04:45,120 --> 01:04:47,360
Speaker 3: tack is going to be. Now let's fight against it

1531
01:04:48,120 --> 01:04:51,080
Speaker 3: and prepare ourselves to fight against it. That's the wisdom

1532
01:04:51,160 --> 01:04:53,360
Speaker 3: of it. But the fact there's going to be attacked,

1533
01:04:53,960 --> 01:04:56,280
Speaker 3: Like I said, even over the last couple of years,

1534
01:04:56,360 --> 01:04:59,320
Speaker 3: last year or so, I can make a video and

1535
01:04:59,520 --> 01:05:03,200
Speaker 3: everything not doing Differuture Wivy podcast is my transparent journey

1536
01:05:04,000 --> 01:05:07,040
Speaker 3: in process as I learned as I evolved. But what

1537
01:05:07,240 --> 01:05:11,080
Speaker 3: I'm inviting people to into is my evolution. That I

1538
01:05:11,200 --> 01:05:14,080
Speaker 3: may say something in one season that someone said, I

1539
01:05:14,120 --> 01:05:16,080
Speaker 3: can't believe he said that, or whatever, and it's like,

1540
01:05:17,160 --> 01:05:21,160
Speaker 3: this is in process, Like you said for talking about

1541
01:05:21,160 --> 01:05:22,280
Speaker 3: outside outside.

1542
01:05:22,040 --> 01:05:26,320
Speaker 2: Like I can't believe she's saying was she said that she.

1543
01:05:26,440 --> 01:05:29,360
Speaker 3: Loved God and was at bars and she was she

1544
01:05:29,560 --> 01:05:32,360
Speaker 3: was clubbing. She said that she she left New York.

1545
01:05:32,440 --> 01:05:35,800
Speaker 3: She's gonna go to Atlanta and Charlotte and she's gonna

1546
01:05:35,840 --> 01:05:36,560
Speaker 3: be outside.

1547
01:05:37,040 --> 01:05:38,960
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, be like, but had wisdom

1548
01:05:39,000 --> 01:05:41,280
Speaker 1: and know to know that when God sat me down

1549
01:05:41,480 --> 01:05:43,440
Speaker 1: to pivot, like, that's not it, right, And I love

1550
01:05:43,520 --> 01:05:45,880
Speaker 1: that I could look back and be like, kid, that

1551
01:05:46,040 --> 01:05:46,560
Speaker 1: just wasn't it.

1552
01:05:47,080 --> 01:05:47,600
Speaker 4: And I give.

1553
01:05:48,040 --> 01:05:49,400
Speaker 1: But this is this is what I tell her tears

1554
01:05:49,520 --> 01:05:53,600
Speaker 1: right because I'm so naive where I get shocked when

1555
01:05:53,640 --> 01:05:55,800
Speaker 1: people attack I do.

1556
01:05:56,160 --> 01:05:58,600
Speaker 4: I'm like, people are mean in real life.

1557
01:05:58,600 --> 01:06:00,520
Speaker 1: You don't swrike somebody Meani BETI He's like, but the

1558
01:06:00,560 --> 01:06:01,880
Speaker 1: people are mean in real life.

1559
01:06:02,160 --> 01:06:03,560
Speaker 4: But this is what I say as a believer.

1560
01:06:04,280 --> 01:06:06,840
Speaker 1: But I wish, and I say, I wish every person

1561
01:06:07,320 --> 01:06:09,960
Speaker 1: had to be called to a place of leadership where

1562
01:06:09,960 --> 01:06:11,800
Speaker 1: they built something from the ground up.

1563
01:06:12,520 --> 01:06:14,960
Speaker 4: You would have so much great do you? And especially

1564
01:06:15,000 --> 01:06:16,400
Speaker 4: for me, I was like, I didn't ask for this.

1565
01:06:16,920 --> 01:06:18,080
Speaker 4: There's one thing I.

1566
01:06:18,160 --> 01:06:20,720
Speaker 1: Look at people that like, God has given me this talent.

1567
01:06:20,800 --> 01:06:22,960
Speaker 1: He allows you to operate in that space. That's not

1568
01:06:23,080 --> 01:06:24,920
Speaker 1: my story. God gave me something I didn't have a

1569
01:06:25,000 --> 01:06:25,400
Speaker 1: desire for.

1570
01:06:25,800 --> 01:06:25,960
Speaker 3: Now.

1571
01:06:26,080 --> 01:06:28,840
Speaker 4: I'm grateful. I'm so grateful. But it's like I.

1572
01:06:29,000 --> 01:06:32,280
Speaker 1: Literally had to die to every desire and dream and

1573
01:06:32,400 --> 01:06:34,080
Speaker 1: career plan I had for myself.

1574
01:06:34,240 --> 01:06:36,560
Speaker 4: It was something that was polar opposite.

1575
01:06:36,600 --> 01:06:37,320
Speaker 3: What did you want to do?

1576
01:06:37,640 --> 01:06:40,600
Speaker 4: I went to work with juvenile boys. Yeah, so that's so.

1577
01:06:40,600 --> 01:06:42,560
Speaker 1: I'm like, if I had any inkling that would go

1578
01:06:42,560 --> 01:06:45,280
Speaker 1: to why would I get my I've always worked with

1579
01:06:45,360 --> 01:06:47,400
Speaker 1: like youth, troubled youth, because I was a trouble youth.

1580
01:06:47,440 --> 01:06:51,360
Speaker 4: They little misunderstood. But I think I was tearing it up,

1581
01:06:51,440 --> 01:06:54,520
Speaker 4: tearing up classroom buses, fighting, biting all of it.

1582
01:06:54,640 --> 01:06:59,560
Speaker 1: Yeah, I was fighting still a little high school. I

1583
01:06:59,560 --> 01:07:01,600
Speaker 1: wasn't biting, and I knew nothing not to bite the teacher.

1584
01:07:02,280 --> 01:07:05,880
Speaker 1: But high school listen, but college and oh yeah, and

1585
01:07:05,920 --> 01:07:08,720
Speaker 1: I always had something to say always to the teachers, yeah, yeah,

1586
01:07:08,760 --> 01:07:10,520
Speaker 1: so you would get into it the teachers, not the students.

1587
01:07:10,640 --> 01:07:12,880
Speaker 4: No, I was fighting. I was fighting the students. You know,

1588
01:07:13,400 --> 01:07:16,680
Speaker 4: I'm fighting some people and the teachers and the teachers.

1589
01:07:16,840 --> 01:07:19,280
Speaker 1: But it was a double untort because the teachers loved me, right,

1590
01:07:19,640 --> 01:07:21,040
Speaker 1: But I just I had something to say.

1591
01:07:21,320 --> 01:07:22,880
Speaker 3: What do you think that was? And you look back,

1592
01:07:23,440 --> 01:07:26,360
Speaker 3: Why was you so so aggressive?

1593
01:07:26,400 --> 01:07:27,240
Speaker 4: I don't think it's so deep.

1594
01:07:27,360 --> 01:07:29,600
Speaker 1: My my grad when I went, when I got to college,

1595
01:07:29,960 --> 01:07:31,920
Speaker 1: you said, I went to HBCU. Shout out to Elizabeth

1596
01:07:31,960 --> 01:07:35,280
Speaker 1: City State University, those teachers. I remember the first day

1597
01:07:35,280 --> 01:07:37,040
Speaker 1: I was there, right because I'm you know, I'm sitting

1598
01:07:37,080 --> 01:07:39,520
Speaker 1: up front, raised my hair, talking and I remember shout

1599
01:07:39,560 --> 01:07:42,200
Speaker 1: out to doctor Brackett. She said, come here, after come here,

1600
01:07:42,280 --> 01:07:43,920
Speaker 1: she said, what's your name? I said, she d She

1601
01:07:43,920 --> 01:07:46,000
Speaker 1: said where you from? My said, Connecticut. She said, don't change,

1602
01:07:46,720 --> 01:07:48,920
Speaker 1: don't change, stay just as you are.

1603
01:07:49,120 --> 01:07:50,920
Speaker 3: So what was you doing there in the first day

1604
01:07:50,960 --> 01:07:51,280
Speaker 3: that she know?

1605
01:07:51,560 --> 01:07:55,120
Speaker 4: Just vocal vocal and talking and she saw something in me?

1606
01:07:55,200 --> 01:07:58,320
Speaker 1: And I say from I tell people at my HBCU

1607
01:07:58,400 --> 01:08:00,160
Speaker 1: they called greatness side of me and I amtswer her.

1608
01:08:00,680 --> 01:08:03,520
Speaker 1: Before that I was not getting straight A's right, I

1609
01:08:03,560 --> 01:08:05,800
Speaker 1: did not have the high GPA in anything, right, but

1610
01:08:05,920 --> 01:08:06,920
Speaker 1: desire to go to college.

1611
01:08:07,040 --> 01:08:09,360
Speaker 4: Oh, I was your HBCU because I was gonna be outside.

1612
01:08:12,160 --> 01:08:15,320
Speaker 4: But went there and became a scholar, was going to

1613
01:08:15,400 --> 01:08:18,400
Speaker 4: South Africa doing research because they called it out of me.

1614
01:08:18,720 --> 01:08:20,240
Speaker 3: That's good, that's good.

1615
01:08:20,720 --> 01:08:21,800
Speaker 2: So you went at the party.

1616
01:08:22,320 --> 01:08:24,280
Speaker 4: I went there to get that experience, right, all the

1617
01:08:24,280 --> 01:08:28,000
Speaker 4: stuff I seen on on you know TV. What was

1618
01:08:28,080 --> 01:08:31,880
Speaker 4: college college here? What was the not spring break but.

1619
01:08:33,400 --> 01:08:34,760
Speaker 3: The BT spring bling?

1620
01:08:35,920 --> 01:08:39,519
Speaker 4: I want a little Blane in the spring, right.

1621
01:08:40,880 --> 01:08:42,920
Speaker 3: If I got some education along the way, what went

1622
01:08:42,960 --> 01:08:43,280
Speaker 3: out there?

1623
01:08:43,280 --> 01:08:45,280
Speaker 4: And that's just to see that.

1624
01:08:45,439 --> 01:08:45,559
Speaker 3: Right.

1625
01:08:46,240 --> 01:08:49,000
Speaker 4: When I got my first A, I remember, no I

1626
01:08:49,080 --> 01:08:50,720
Speaker 4: was getting a's, and I remember I got my first B.

1627
01:08:50,920 --> 01:08:52,759
Speaker 1: And I went to my next class and doctor Brackett

1628
01:08:52,800 --> 01:08:54,120
Speaker 1: came and knocked on the door. She said, come here,

1629
01:08:54,320 --> 01:08:54,960
Speaker 1: and I want to class.

1630
01:08:54,960 --> 01:08:56,640
Speaker 4: She said, what's this? I said, that's my test I

1631
01:08:56,760 --> 01:08:58,559
Speaker 4: just took. She said, but what is it? I said,

1632
01:08:58,560 --> 01:08:59,880
Speaker 4: it's a B. She said, yeah, we don't do B

1633
01:09:00,280 --> 01:09:03,080
Speaker 4: and she walked away. Really yeah, I was like, oh

1634
01:09:03,160 --> 01:09:04,439
Speaker 4: that's me. I'm a Yeah.

1635
01:09:05,080 --> 01:09:05,840
Speaker 3: She said, we don't do.

1636
01:09:06,000 --> 01:09:07,759
Speaker 4: We don't do bees. But baby, I was doing c's

1637
01:09:07,800 --> 01:09:10,760
Speaker 4: and d's lash ye in high school. You don't know,

1638
01:09:12,200 --> 01:09:13,040
Speaker 4: but you don't know, gotcha?

1639
01:09:13,840 --> 01:09:17,599
Speaker 1: But yeah, you just so that's always been uh my desire,

1640
01:09:17,720 --> 01:09:21,760
Speaker 1: right just working with youth, specifically young boys, because I

1641
01:09:21,840 --> 01:09:23,439
Speaker 1: have just a lot of men in my life that

1642
01:09:23,520 --> 01:09:27,040
Speaker 1: want astray right at a young age. And God said,

1643
01:09:27,400 --> 01:09:31,280
Speaker 1: I'm up here working with grown adels, talk about abstinence.

1644
01:09:31,520 --> 01:09:31,680
Speaker 3: You know.

1645
01:09:31,840 --> 01:09:35,080
Speaker 4: So I gave my yes, but I'm grateful.

1646
01:09:35,200 --> 01:09:38,640
Speaker 1: I'm I truly literising here today and the past meet up,

1647
01:09:38,640 --> 01:09:42,400
Speaker 1: I just had like five hundred plus people and I look.

1648
01:09:42,720 --> 01:09:44,360
Speaker 1: I remember coming out on the stage. It was like

1649
01:09:44,400 --> 01:09:46,479
Speaker 1: a theater, and I remember I said, y'all got to

1650
01:09:46,479 --> 01:09:49,040
Speaker 1: give me a minute to take this in. You can

1651
01:09:49,120 --> 01:09:51,840
Speaker 1: see numbers on you bright, you can see followers on

1652
01:09:51,920 --> 01:09:56,040
Speaker 1: I g but her coming from the Netherlands and Jamaica

1653
01:09:56,400 --> 01:10:01,680
Speaker 1: and and all these Netherlands, Jamaica, Turks and Cacos.

1654
01:10:03,200 --> 01:10:07,240
Speaker 4: I know I'm missing a Virgin Islands, a lot of places.

1655
01:10:07,360 --> 01:10:08,599
Speaker 4: You can't tell me. That's not God.

1656
01:10:08,720 --> 01:10:14,200
Speaker 1: No big name, no grand venue, no amazing promotion or

1657
01:10:14,280 --> 01:10:14,800
Speaker 1: pay you know what.

1658
01:10:17,000 --> 01:10:20,080
Speaker 4: I'm I don't know.

1659
01:10:20,680 --> 01:10:23,200
Speaker 1: And that's why when I be in shock and and

1660
01:10:23,400 --> 01:10:25,479
Speaker 1: just going through the process and trying to figure out.

1661
01:10:25,520 --> 01:10:27,080
Speaker 1: But all I can do is keep giving my yes

1662
01:10:27,479 --> 01:10:30,000
Speaker 1: and giving God the glory, not even in this like, oh,

1663
01:10:30,040 --> 01:10:32,760
Speaker 1: I'm trying to be humble. It's because I know. Why

1664
01:10:32,800 --> 01:10:35,840
Speaker 1: are y'all coming from the Netherlands with Terians for what?

1665
01:10:36,000 --> 01:10:37,720
Speaker 1: Why are you coming from Turks and Cacos? Baby, We're

1666
01:10:37,720 --> 01:10:40,200
Speaker 1: trying to go to Turks and Caicos. Why are you

1667
01:10:40,320 --> 01:10:41,839
Speaker 1: coming to all style Georgia?

1668
01:10:43,520 --> 01:10:47,080
Speaker 3: What does he whoos?

1669
01:10:47,960 --> 01:10:49,679
Speaker 4: And you're coming here? That's something like y'all.

1670
01:10:49,720 --> 01:10:52,760
Speaker 1: So I want people to sit back and just be like, man,

1671
01:10:52,880 --> 01:10:57,280
Speaker 1: if you just be obedient to God, he won't let

1672
01:10:57,320 --> 01:11:00,640
Speaker 1: it unfold as he sees fit. And so I'm privilege.

1673
01:11:00,640 --> 01:11:03,000
Speaker 1: I cried sometimes Lord that like you would choose me

1674
01:11:04,040 --> 01:11:07,240
Speaker 1: me to have an impact. We've had marriages, people met

1675
01:11:07,280 --> 01:11:09,479
Speaker 1: on the app that are now, may I like about this?

1676
01:11:10,040 --> 01:11:11,720
Speaker 2: How many people got married that you know?

1677
01:11:12,080 --> 01:11:16,240
Speaker 4: Oh that I know of? Maybe ten that I know

1678
01:11:16,439 --> 01:11:19,280
Speaker 4: of that many know? What's more, because people have.

1679
01:11:19,479 --> 01:11:22,160
Speaker 1: Emailed me and like I met my husband I'm a

1680
01:11:22,320 --> 01:11:23,840
Speaker 1: two years ago, right, so I would have never but

1681
01:11:23,920 --> 01:11:24,320
Speaker 1: they didn't.

1682
01:11:24,680 --> 01:11:28,639
Speaker 4: They got an app did would need to doing? Right?

1683
01:11:28,720 --> 01:11:30,599
Speaker 4: So they've had babies so I'm like, we're a part

1684
01:11:30,600 --> 01:11:34,800
Speaker 4: of y'all story for absolutely, for average you know.

1685
01:11:34,920 --> 01:11:36,880
Speaker 1: So it's like God that you would choose me, even

1686
01:11:36,920 --> 01:11:39,600
Speaker 1: with me giving an attitude, me saying yes because I

1687
01:11:39,680 --> 01:11:41,000
Speaker 1: truly want to get out of darkness.

1688
01:11:41,320 --> 01:11:43,000
Speaker 4: I gave my yes where God was like, I keep

1689
01:11:43,040 --> 01:11:45,519
Speaker 4: telling you what you need to do if you want

1690
01:11:45,560 --> 01:11:46,519
Speaker 4: to shake this this is.

1691
01:11:46,920 --> 01:11:50,760
Speaker 1: And I'm like, fine, fine, right, aggravated, but man, that

1692
01:11:50,880 --> 01:11:54,559
Speaker 1: you would still use it and my nasty attitude saying yes, my.

1693
01:11:56,080 --> 01:11:58,479
Speaker 4: That you would still let my name to be attached

1694
01:11:58,520 --> 01:11:59,240
Speaker 4: to something like this.

1695
01:12:00,720 --> 01:12:02,160
Speaker 3: You hit the nail on the hell when you said

1696
01:12:02,200 --> 01:12:06,759
Speaker 3: I wish God would allow everybody to have a leadership

1697
01:12:07,040 --> 01:12:09,840
Speaker 3: leadership role so they can see the attacked because you

1698
01:12:09,840 --> 01:12:13,559
Speaker 3: will stop attacking, attacking so many pastors, you'll stop attacking

1699
01:12:13,600 --> 01:12:15,760
Speaker 3: your boss. He'll be like, what is it like? I

1700
01:12:15,880 --> 01:12:20,080
Speaker 3: told this to my nephew son, my nephew adopted. I said,

1701
01:12:21,160 --> 01:12:24,000
Speaker 3: how hard do you think it is to teacher you?

1702
01:12:25,040 --> 01:12:28,640
Speaker 3: I said, it's a twenty five thirty something students in

1703
01:12:28,680 --> 01:12:31,799
Speaker 3: the classroom who y'are are very lackluster with ambition.

1704
01:12:32,000 --> 01:12:33,719
Speaker 2: Y'all don't want to y'all hard headed.

1705
01:12:33,520 --> 01:12:34,759
Speaker 3: Y'all try to fight the teachers.

1706
01:12:35,040 --> 01:12:36,360
Speaker 2: Y'all don't listen. Y'all don't care.

1707
01:12:36,640 --> 01:12:40,160
Speaker 3: She's trying to motivate you to be your best self,

1708
01:12:40,640 --> 01:12:43,479
Speaker 3: and then you make it difficult. I said, at least

1709
01:12:43,560 --> 01:12:45,000
Speaker 3: when you go, I said, this is what I'm gonna

1710
01:12:45,000 --> 01:12:47,040
Speaker 3: tell you right now, when you go to that school,

1711
01:12:47,160 --> 01:12:51,599
Speaker 3: I want the teacher to say the easiest student, I said,

1712
01:12:51,640 --> 01:12:55,200
Speaker 3: I don't want you to. Yeah, ladern he does exactly

1713
01:12:55,200 --> 01:12:58,439
Speaker 3: what need. He got some good some home training. Because

1714
01:12:58,760 --> 01:13:01,360
Speaker 3: I'm tell him what to do, do it and it's done.

1715
01:13:01,439 --> 01:13:03,280
Speaker 3: I said, I want the teacher saying that about you.

1716
01:13:03,720 --> 01:13:06,880
Speaker 3: He said. I I said, make your teacher's life easier. Amen,

1717
01:13:07,160 --> 01:13:09,280
Speaker 3: And I said and also, and then as he got

1718
01:13:09,280 --> 01:13:10,680
Speaker 3: a little older, I said, now I'm gon put a

1719
01:13:10,680 --> 01:13:13,559
Speaker 3: little bit more responsibility on you. When you watch another

1720
01:13:13,640 --> 01:13:15,880
Speaker 3: student getting out of pocket, disrespecting the teaching.

1721
01:13:16,479 --> 01:13:19,120
Speaker 2: I won't you say, say, Brandon, we don't, we don't

1722
01:13:19,160 --> 01:13:19,320
Speaker 2: do that.

1723
01:13:19,479 --> 01:13:20,479
Speaker 4: That's right, that's right.

1724
01:13:20,680 --> 01:13:23,320
Speaker 3: Like like the teacher told you, we don't, we don't

1725
01:13:23,360 --> 01:13:25,439
Speaker 3: do bees. I would just say, no, we don't, we don't.

1726
01:13:25,439 --> 01:13:26,800
Speaker 3: We don't talk to teachers like that, we don't talk

1727
01:13:26,840 --> 01:13:28,760
Speaker 3: to does like that. He said, No, man, that's gonna

1728
01:13:28,760 --> 01:13:30,840
Speaker 3: be a problem. They're gonna be thinking. I said, do it,

1729
01:13:31,400 --> 01:13:33,160
Speaker 3: and I said, he said, but then they're going to fight.

1730
01:13:33,400 --> 01:13:35,200
Speaker 2: They're going to fight. And I said, and if they hit,

1731
01:13:35,280 --> 01:13:35,880
Speaker 2: you fight him.

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Speaker 4: I said, at the time.

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Speaker 3: Down looking at them, appreciate you. I said, if you

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Speaker 3: stand up, I said, I want you to be a

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Speaker 3: person that always stand up to injustice. And I said,

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Speaker 3: and it starts in the classroom with a young boy

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Speaker 3: disrespecting the teacher or a young boy disrespecting girl in

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Speaker 3: the class time. And you ain't no, but the h

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01:13:56,960 --> 01:13:58,599
Speaker 3: or whatever said hold on, hold on, and he ended

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01:13:58,680 --> 01:14:01,640
Speaker 3: up starts seeing he started coming back get me reports Yeah, man,

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01:14:01,720 --> 01:14:03,280
Speaker 3: my homeboy. I had to fall out with him because

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01:14:03,280 --> 01:14:04,840
Speaker 3: he was talking bad to this girl or whatever. And

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01:14:04,880 --> 01:14:08,160
Speaker 3: I said, no, we' we don't disrespect. That's right, that's

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01:14:08,200 --> 01:14:11,680
Speaker 3: what you better do. So it's that mindset, so I

1745
01:14:11,760 --> 01:14:14,920
Speaker 3: can teach him what it looks like to cover not

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01:14:15,320 --> 01:14:18,280
Speaker 3: just our women, but people period. And so it's not

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01:14:18,400 --> 01:14:21,400
Speaker 3: some situation where you grow up with this toxic masculinity

1748
01:14:21,439 --> 01:14:23,719
Speaker 3: where you think you're above people and all that nonsense.

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01:14:23,760 --> 01:14:26,640
Speaker 2: We don't do that here. How can we support your

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01:14:26,640 --> 01:14:27,200
Speaker 2: Shaquia as we.

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Speaker 3: Wrap with this episode, oh support me, yeah, you got,

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01:14:32,160 --> 01:14:35,639
Speaker 3: you got your social media, you got, you got your book,

1753
01:14:35,680 --> 01:14:37,439
Speaker 3: still available to be bald like talk to him?

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01:14:37,479 --> 01:14:39,120
Speaker 4: Oh right, okay, so many things.

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01:14:39,400 --> 01:14:40,600
Speaker 3: You got an app out there, so.

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01:14:42,520 --> 01:14:42,800
Speaker 4: Amen.

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Speaker 1: So for me personally, you can find me on Instagram

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01:14:46,560 --> 01:14:51,040
Speaker 1: or TikTok at Shakiya Seabrook twenty two again Shakia Seabrook

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01:14:51,040 --> 01:14:53,280
Speaker 1: twenty two. And then if you want to connect within

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Speaker 1: the Sexless Tribe community, we have an app called This

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01:14:56,640 --> 01:15:01,240
Speaker 1: Sexless Tribe. Also have a merch call called a Subtle Reminder.

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01:15:01,439 --> 01:15:03,880
Speaker 1: So I create merchandise that helps you stay accountable to

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01:15:03,920 --> 01:15:05,040
Speaker 1: honor God with their body.

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Speaker 2: Let me jump in on this.

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01:15:06,920 --> 01:15:09,280
Speaker 3: So your app, it was a season where I signed

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01:15:09,320 --> 01:15:11,960
Speaker 3: up for your app and it was convicted me too much.

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01:15:12,280 --> 01:15:14,920
Speaker 2: So I'm gonna tell you what happened. Is it's just funny.

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01:15:17,040 --> 01:15:18,760
Speaker 4: That a look conviction because I care? I said, sending

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Speaker 4: conviction because I care.

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Speaker 3: So what happens is on Friday nights? Is it time

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01:15:23,000 --> 01:15:24,800
Speaker 3: to do that on Friday nights and Saturday nights?

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01:15:25,120 --> 01:15:26,800
Speaker 4: It's not I picked different nights.

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Speaker 3: Y'all convicted me. On a Friday, I was on my

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01:15:30,000 --> 01:15:32,880
Speaker 3: way to see this girl. It was in twenty twenty one,

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01:15:33,479 --> 01:15:36,479
Speaker 3: and it said, well, I wish I had the message,

1776
01:15:36,760 --> 01:15:39,479
Speaker 3: but it says, like, what is it? Because you don't

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01:15:39,479 --> 01:15:40,160
Speaker 3: want to make the message.

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01:15:40,439 --> 01:15:42,519
Speaker 4: Lord, it's like, what are you doing?

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01:15:43,560 --> 01:15:43,720
Speaker 3: Who?

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01:15:43,920 --> 01:15:47,640
Speaker 4: Where are you going? Who are you with? It's been

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01:15:47,720 --> 01:15:49,560
Speaker 4: so long since I wrote it. Now it's just automated.

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01:15:50,080 --> 01:15:51,720
Speaker 3: But it's like, and it was in the midst of

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01:15:51,760 --> 01:15:53,200
Speaker 3: me doing I said, what are you doing?

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01:15:53,240 --> 01:15:55,800
Speaker 4: Where you going? Who are you going with? There's something

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01:15:55,840 --> 01:15:59,560
Speaker 4: It's like something like be mindful because you could be

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01:15:59,600 --> 01:16:00,600
Speaker 4: putting your self in it.

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Speaker 3: Oh when I say that thing, One time I didn't

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01:16:04,960 --> 01:16:07,559
Speaker 3: listen to it. One time I did so. One time

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01:16:07,600 --> 01:16:10,720
Speaker 3: I said, snooze, put this out by the way, log

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01:16:10,800 --> 01:16:12,200
Speaker 3: I'll stop giving me the notification.

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01:16:12,360 --> 01:16:14,439
Speaker 2: Do whatever. And at one time I just said, let

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Speaker 2: me just go and turn around.

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Speaker 4: I ain't no matter you said.

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Speaker 1: Now I know who I'm going to link with, and

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Speaker 1: I am putting myself in a position will so don't.

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Speaker 4: We just need that note?

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Speaker 3: I love that though. When that came across, I said,

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Speaker 3: I love what you're doing. You know what I'm saying.

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01:16:29,479 --> 01:16:32,000
Speaker 3: I loved that because it was a gentle reminder.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, just a gentle remind I'll say, that's what when

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Speaker 1: I said a subtle reminder, Yeah, it made you think.

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Speaker 4: So yeah. So the merch So I have the promise

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01:16:39,680 --> 01:16:42,080
Speaker 4: worth keeping ring on this is part no not probably

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Speaker 4: the most popular, uh piece of merchandise on the store.

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01:16:46,439 --> 01:16:49,240
Speaker 4: And then what was that ring saying a promise worth keeping?

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01:16:49,400 --> 01:16:52,080
Speaker 4: A promise worth keeping because it is worth keeping and

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Speaker 4: I want I want the men and women to be

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01:16:53,880 --> 01:16:55,920
Speaker 4: reminded that it is worth keeping.

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Speaker 1: And then I had the meet up experience once a year,

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01:17:00,320 --> 01:17:03,040
Speaker 1: so you could check that out, get on the newsletter.

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01:17:03,920 --> 01:17:05,760
Speaker 1: And then I had the podcast. You can check out

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01:17:05,800 --> 01:17:08,479
Speaker 1: some older videos while up standing, but listen. It's a lot, right.

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Speaker 2: I was on the podcast, You was on the podcast.

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Speaker 1: Listen and Lateria, you know, I so happy for you,

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01:17:13,800 --> 01:17:15,400
Speaker 1: and I told you because it's been a journey and

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01:17:15,439 --> 01:17:18,120
Speaker 1: I'm so excited that now you get the crossover to

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Speaker 1: the other side and do it without any conviction and

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01:17:21,640 --> 01:17:24,479
Speaker 1: asking for It's all good, good.

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Speaker 3: Thank you, thank you for my engagement gift that you

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Speaker 3: brought the doole flowers. After I'll put it in put

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Speaker 3: in an episode for the next four episodes that I'm

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Speaker 3: recording to day, I'm gon lead it up there.

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Speaker 1: Right, your congratulations, so super happy for you. I just

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01:17:38,040 --> 01:17:39,960
Speaker 1: loved that I was able to even capture part of

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01:17:40,040 --> 01:17:42,360
Speaker 1: that journey, right, you were able to be on there

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01:17:42,760 --> 01:17:45,479
Speaker 1: talk about waiting long, right, and so we just said

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Speaker 1: hallelujah and amen that your weight is going to be

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Speaker 1: ending soon.

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Speaker 2: Second.

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Speaker 3: The reception gonna be over around ten o'clock. And then

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Speaker 3: what and then and then I'm going into the holies

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Speaker 3: of ho Hey, holdest, Amen.

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Speaker 4: Maybe you wanna come out glowing?

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01:18:07,120 --> 01:18:10,519
Speaker 3: Christ quiet somebody, Yeah, that's my sister Christian.

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Speaker 4: She don't know Jesus, you want to come out glowing

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01:18:13,960 --> 01:18:15,760
Speaker 4: and she probably can have a little glow dune.

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Speaker 3: She says she want to. She says she want to

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Speaker 3: have a kid as soon as possible.

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01:18:19,720 --> 01:18:23,960
Speaker 1: Hey, hey, hey, what're we waiting on? But again, I

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Speaker 1: know I shared a lot. But if you just go

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01:18:25,400 --> 01:18:26,360
Speaker 1: to www.

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01:18:26,600 --> 01:18:33,080
Speaker 4: Dot the Sexless Tribe dot com, app, merch podcast events,

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01:18:33,160 --> 01:18:34,960
Speaker 4: all that is there or on the app.

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Speaker 2: Amen, ay, so support Shakida.

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Speaker 3: That's s h A k I A C brook s

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Speaker 3: e A the way you spell c and brook b

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Speaker 3: r o O k s No.

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Speaker 4: Maybe I do you want to ask?

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Speaker 2: I think about your.

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Speaker 3: Raise your finger about but twenty two so Cebrook without

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Speaker 3: the s twenty two the number twenty two, Oh yeah,

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01:18:57,200 --> 01:18:59,080
Speaker 3: and so that's the numeral twenty two.

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Speaker 4: You professional man.

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01:19:00,680 --> 01:19:02,080
Speaker 3: That's what I do for a living. I've been doing

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01:19:02,120 --> 01:19:04,120
Speaker 3: this for five years and it's been a beautiful journey.

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01:19:04,240 --> 01:19:06,320
Speaker 3: And the reason why I feel like this platform is

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01:19:06,360 --> 01:19:08,640
Speaker 3: so important because I want to expose the world to

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01:19:09,240 --> 01:19:12,560
Speaker 3: people that I feel are significant and relevant to the

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01:19:12,640 --> 01:19:16,200
Speaker 3: move of Christ. And so I believe that this was

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01:19:16,280 --> 01:19:19,160
Speaker 3: so perfect for you because I want to amplify what

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01:19:19,280 --> 01:19:22,160
Speaker 3: you're doing to the masses, and so we're all in

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01:19:22,240 --> 01:19:24,680
Speaker 3: this together. I don't look at anything as competition. I

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01:19:24,760 --> 01:19:26,680
Speaker 3: want people to run over there and follow you and

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01:19:26,760 --> 01:19:29,720
Speaker 3: subscribe to your YouTube, challenge for it, and support your

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01:19:29,800 --> 01:19:32,360
Speaker 3: podcast and all that. And that's that's always been the

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Speaker 3: heart posture that I've had with dear future wife. He

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01:19:34,920 --> 01:19:37,680
Speaker 3: is just putting people out there and amplifying them. I

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01:19:37,840 --> 01:19:41,080
Speaker 3: just love to see him just take off. It's necessary.

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Speaker 3: I want people because I get a lot of d

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Speaker 3: ms from people who like, can you connect me to

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Speaker 3: other people that are influential that can help me in

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Speaker 3: my journey or whatnot? And so and like I said,

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Speaker 3: people have reached out to me and said, when are

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Speaker 3: you gonna interview her?

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Speaker 4: Yeah? They do.

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Speaker 3: They be like, we need to interview it. Have you

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01:19:59,040 --> 01:20:01,360
Speaker 3: heard of this? Like that's my own girl, you know

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Speaker 3: what I'm saying? Like I really that. I said, it's coming,

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Speaker 3: It's coming. And so it was perfect. But I did

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01:20:08,000 --> 01:20:11,719
Speaker 3: want exactly how we started off for the conversation to change,

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01:20:11,720 --> 01:20:15,120
Speaker 3: because at first I felt like you were so unrelatable,

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Speaker 3: you know what I'm saying.

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Speaker 2: I felt like you've been.

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Speaker 3: A virgin never like it just seemed like you couldn't.

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Speaker 3: I didn't. You and I have had conversations behind, you know,

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Speaker 3: offline about certain stuff that I would say that you'd

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01:20:26,800 --> 01:20:28,519
Speaker 3: be like, I don't know it. Just I was like,

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Speaker 3: you don't stand this journey. You don't understand this journey.

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01:20:31,280 --> 01:20:35,599
Speaker 3: I've been married before. Yeah. Yeah, it's different from when

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Speaker 3: you go and you go, you go to a restaurant,

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Speaker 3: if your if your family.

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Speaker 2: I remember this.

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Speaker 3: One lady says she never ever gives her kid junk food.

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Speaker 3: She was they were raised with that, never eating junk food.

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01:20:47,080 --> 01:20:49,000
Speaker 3: I said, the first time they decided to go eat

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Speaker 3: some pizza when they go to college, or go wherever

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Speaker 3: they're gonna be like this is good, or it could

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Speaker 3: be a situation like this or something I said. But

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Speaker 3: if they like it, or if they like it, be like,

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Speaker 3: oh my God.

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Speaker 4: All the time.

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Speaker 3: And it's the same thing that happened with church. A

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Speaker 3: lot of time people got church so much growing up

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Speaker 3: that they don't want to go to church no more.

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Speaker 3: So it had an adverse effect by the way church

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Speaker 3: culture was back then. And so I said, at the

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Speaker 3: end of the day, and we create healthy balance of

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Speaker 3: understanding who God is and understanding people's personal journey because

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Speaker 3: a lot of times we wouldn't have allowed Paul on

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Speaker 3: our platforms in a certain season of his life. He

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Speaker 3: wouldn't have allowed him when he was killing could come

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Speaker 3: to the door. You'd be like, hold on this man,

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Speaker 3: it come to kill me. Bless me because I know

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Speaker 3: Paul used to be crazy. So it's like, that's that mindset.

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Speaker 3: And so I've always wanted to be a person that

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Speaker 3: could take people through their journey while me going through

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Speaker 3: my journey. I always wanted to say, hey, listen. As

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Speaker 3: a Christian, I felt like a lot of stuff just

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01:21:52,680 --> 01:21:56,559
Speaker 3: wasn't talked about. Stuff at the church everybody was struggling privately,

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Speaker 3: but no one was bold enough to share it. And

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Speaker 3: so I said, God, I want to be what I

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Speaker 3: wish was afforded to me. And so what I love

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01:22:03,320 --> 01:22:05,880
Speaker 3: about where you're at now is that you said, now

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01:22:06,240 --> 01:22:09,720
Speaker 3: the Lord has awakened that desire to be married. Now

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01:22:09,960 --> 01:22:12,479
Speaker 3: is calling a different level of responsibility, because if I

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01:22:12,520 --> 01:22:15,120
Speaker 3: don't want marriage, then I ain't dating. I'm just chilling anyway.

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Speaker 3: And I'm just like, I'm good. I'm happy being single.

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Speaker 3: When the Bible says he calls something to be eunuchs,

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Speaker 3: it's like, I'm here, I'm good. I dont understand with ya.

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Speaker 3: Why are y'all struggling being absent anybody? Because I was

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Speaker 3: having sex for twenty seven years and now I'm twenty

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Speaker 3: eight years old or I'm forty something years old, and

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Speaker 3: now here it is I'm trying to do something that

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Speaker 3: my body has been so used to just say no,

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Speaker 3: walk away from.

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Speaker 2: Why is it so hard? And they're like, oh, she understand.

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Speaker 3: I got three kids, and you're telling me it's hard

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Speaker 3: for it shouldn't be so hard for me to have

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Speaker 3: sex to the woman who has three kids, one well, no, no,

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Speaker 3: let me.

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Speaker 1: Let me interject with that that is the beauty. I

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Speaker 1: didn't want to clarify just case it gets lost. One

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Speaker 1: thing that the whole point of me in creating the

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Speaker 1: tribe was secreating something outside of me, right, because if

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Speaker 1: I really want to keep it as is, everybody was

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01:22:58,479 --> 01:23:00,720
Speaker 1: following my page right, gleaning from me, and I could

1947
01:23:00,720 --> 01:23:02,200
Speaker 1: have kept it like that. But when they would find

1948
01:23:02,200 --> 01:23:03,840
Speaker 1: my page of like, oh I thought I was the

1949
01:23:03,960 --> 01:23:06,360
Speaker 1: last virgin, or I thought, no, actually, let me say this.

1950
01:23:06,560 --> 01:23:08,840
Speaker 1: I actually didn't say I was a virgin. My book

1951
01:23:09,280 --> 01:23:10,320
Speaker 1: talks about staining.

1952
01:23:10,400 --> 01:23:10,720
Speaker 2: I don't know.

1953
01:23:10,800 --> 01:23:12,880
Speaker 4: It's not from a stance of virgin And.

1954
01:23:12,920 --> 01:23:14,320
Speaker 3: I asked you that one day. I said, are your

1955
01:23:14,400 --> 01:23:16,240
Speaker 3: virgin apps that you said your virgion? I said, okay,

1956
01:23:16,360 --> 01:23:17,800
Speaker 3: now that gets a different level to it.

1957
01:23:17,960 --> 01:23:20,000
Speaker 1: Yes, And God had shown me it was like, if

1958
01:23:20,080 --> 01:23:23,519
Speaker 1: you speak of it from a virgion perspective, that you're

1959
01:23:23,520 --> 01:23:26,400
Speaker 1: going to exclude a lot of people. Yes, so at

1960
01:23:26,400 --> 01:23:28,479
Speaker 1: think they I'm abstinent, just like anybody else. So when

1961
01:23:28,479 --> 01:23:30,960
Speaker 1: I started, I would just talk about being abstinent. But

1962
01:23:31,040 --> 01:23:32,400
Speaker 1: then that had made a video when I was like

1963
01:23:32,479 --> 01:23:34,360
Speaker 1: thirty one, and it went viral, and it was like,

1964
01:23:34,840 --> 01:23:36,760
Speaker 1: I'm a virgin. It had like the people reacting on

1965
01:23:36,840 --> 01:23:38,799
Speaker 1: the left side of the screen. It was like everybody

1966
01:23:38,880 --> 01:23:40,680
Speaker 1: was doing it, and so many people reached out. I

1967
01:23:40,680 --> 01:23:42,120
Speaker 1: was like, I didn't know you were a virgin because

1968
01:23:42,160 --> 01:23:43,559
Speaker 1: it wasn't something I talked about.

1969
01:23:43,560 --> 01:23:45,120
Speaker 3: I just said, what you mean?

1970
01:23:45,200 --> 01:23:46,840
Speaker 4: People were saying I didn't know you were a virgin

1971
01:23:47,120 --> 01:23:48,439
Speaker 4: because they was like, oh, I just thought you were

1972
01:23:48,439 --> 01:23:50,680
Speaker 4: absent because you always just said you were abstinent, you know.

1973
01:23:51,200 --> 01:23:53,320
Speaker 1: So with creating the tribe, I was like, Okay, I

1974
01:23:53,400 --> 01:23:55,600
Speaker 1: need to create a tribe that's reflective of all the

1975
01:23:55,640 --> 01:23:58,000
Speaker 1: people that are staining. Because when men would come into

1976
01:23:58,040 --> 01:24:01,720
Speaker 1: my dmy, they be real right, they be real raw,

1977
01:24:02,000 --> 01:24:04,599
Speaker 1: And I'm like and I was like, I don't think

1978
01:24:04,640 --> 01:24:06,000
Speaker 1: he really want to talk to me about this. But

1979
01:24:06,160 --> 01:24:08,320
Speaker 1: the desperation, right, it's like, well, no one's really talking

1980
01:24:08,320 --> 01:24:08,680
Speaker 1: about it.

1981
01:24:09,280 --> 01:24:11,800
Speaker 4: I need help. I'm at my WIT's end. Help me, right,

1982
01:24:11,880 --> 01:24:14,439
Speaker 4: But they're just like laying everything out and there's certain

1983
01:24:14,439 --> 01:24:15,240
Speaker 4: things that I can't.

1984
01:24:15,080 --> 01:24:18,080
Speaker 1: Relate to, right, just like a woman that's been married before,

1985
01:24:18,120 --> 01:24:20,360
Speaker 1: a man that's been married before, people with children. But

1986
01:24:20,560 --> 01:24:23,240
Speaker 1: now with the tribe, even with the app we do

1987
01:24:23,360 --> 01:24:25,800
Speaker 1: men and women's checking right, every third Sunday. I have

1988
01:24:26,160 --> 01:24:28,400
Speaker 1: a man that leads it, and the man checking with

1989
01:24:28,479 --> 01:24:30,600
Speaker 1: the man, the woman with the woman because we have

1990
01:24:30,720 --> 01:24:33,880
Speaker 1: things that we separately need to talk about while living

1991
01:24:33,920 --> 01:24:36,120
Speaker 1: this lifestyle. And if a woman says, oh, can I

1992
01:24:36,240 --> 01:24:40,120
Speaker 1: be abstinent and I'm a mother, well absolutely right, absolutely,

1993
01:24:40,320 --> 01:24:42,000
Speaker 1: But guess why I have other people in the tribe

1994
01:24:42,040 --> 01:24:44,160
Speaker 1: that are in the same boat. And let me connect

1995
01:24:44,200 --> 01:24:46,519
Speaker 1: you with this person, you know, permiskit. I used to

1996
01:24:46,520 --> 01:24:48,800
Speaker 1: be promised kid, I was outside. I'm like, okay, so

1997
01:24:49,040 --> 01:24:50,960
Speaker 1: was Tasha. Let me connect you with Dasha, right, because

1998
01:24:51,000 --> 01:24:51,559
Speaker 1: then y'all can.

1999
01:24:51,479 --> 01:24:54,000
Speaker 4: Relate on a different level. So that is yet something

2000
01:24:55,040 --> 01:24:56,880
Speaker 4: like that. Oh absolutely. Now when the man come in

2001
01:24:56,880 --> 01:25:00,559
Speaker 4: with them, I'm like, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, let

2002
01:25:00,640 --> 01:25:01,639
Speaker 4: me connect you to the coup.

2003
01:25:01,760 --> 01:25:03,559
Speaker 1: Let me right shout out to Coop. Let me connect

2004
01:25:03,600 --> 01:25:05,320
Speaker 1: you to Coop because I don't want to hear on

2005
01:25:05,400 --> 01:25:06,640
Speaker 1: it now. I don't need to before I feel a

2006
01:25:06,640 --> 01:25:08,639
Speaker 1: little guilty. I'm like, Lord, can you just gotta.

2007
01:25:10,280 --> 01:25:10,599
Speaker 2: Guilty?

2008
01:25:10,760 --> 01:25:10,920
Speaker 3: Yeah?

2009
01:25:10,960 --> 01:25:13,120
Speaker 1: I know, because he didn't you know, they was seeking

2010
01:25:13,240 --> 01:25:15,759
Speaker 1: help and I was like, man, I'm gonna turn them away.

2011
01:25:15,640 --> 01:25:17,800
Speaker 3: With no So how would you how would you deal

2012
01:25:17,880 --> 01:25:18,040
Speaker 3: with it.

2013
01:25:18,160 --> 01:25:20,200
Speaker 4: I was just trying to talk through it because I

2014
01:25:20,240 --> 01:25:21,160
Speaker 4: weren't inappropriate.

2015
01:25:21,680 --> 01:25:23,920
Speaker 1: It's a lot for you to yeah, the man said, well,

2016
01:25:23,920 --> 01:25:26,599
Speaker 1: I'm I'm waking up every morning hard.

2017
01:25:27,160 --> 01:25:30,080
Speaker 4: I don't want to have that conversation, right. But then

2018
01:25:30,160 --> 01:25:31,639
Speaker 4: it's like, also, this is a real.

2019
01:25:31,520 --> 01:25:35,679
Speaker 3: Thing, you know, But I just I didn't prefer to Yeah,

2020
01:25:35,760 --> 01:25:37,920
Speaker 3: that's good, and that's what I'm saying, and this and this,

2021
01:25:38,160 --> 01:25:39,880
Speaker 3: and that's the reason why I said, it has to

2022
01:25:40,000 --> 01:25:43,240
Speaker 3: be very relatable to people in their different journeys. You

2023
01:25:43,320 --> 01:25:46,200
Speaker 3: know what I'm saying. And it's like, but I find

2024
01:25:47,360 --> 01:25:50,400
Speaker 3: great joy in knowing that. Now you're at the stage

2025
01:25:50,400 --> 01:25:52,120
Speaker 3: because when I was talking to you about coming to

2026
01:25:52,120 --> 01:25:54,920
Speaker 3: the podcast, you said, now I see what what's so hard?

2027
01:25:55,000 --> 01:25:59,320
Speaker 4: I said, these streets is before I couldn't relate, and

2028
01:25:59,400 --> 01:26:00,400
Speaker 4: not to say I wasn't.

2029
01:26:00,880 --> 01:26:03,120
Speaker 1: I couldn't sympathize with it. I was like, okay, just

2030
01:26:03,200 --> 01:26:05,040
Speaker 1: as a girl's so I can see it struggling. I

2031
01:26:05,080 --> 01:26:07,160
Speaker 1: have friends that are not abstinent, and they're like, it's trash.

2032
01:26:07,240 --> 01:26:09,120
Speaker 1: I hear you know, the be in the pool, So

2033
01:26:09,240 --> 01:26:11,439
Speaker 1: I get it. But I just couldn't go like, oh

2034
01:26:12,840 --> 01:26:15,479
Speaker 1: me too, I'm so mad right.

2035
01:26:15,560 --> 01:26:18,560
Speaker 4: I just couldn't. Oh, I'm sad too. It was like, okay,

2036
01:26:19,360 --> 01:26:21,800
Speaker 4: I didn't know. It's like, come to the meet up.

2037
01:26:21,960 --> 01:26:23,120
Speaker 4: I didn't know. I did it?

2038
01:26:23,320 --> 01:26:24,880
Speaker 3: Did it? Come to the media, right, I didn't know.

2039
01:26:25,000 --> 01:26:26,840
Speaker 4: I gave you what I could. But now I was like, girl,

2040
01:26:27,320 --> 01:26:27,800
Speaker 4: I get it.

2041
01:26:29,760 --> 01:26:31,639
Speaker 2: So how often do you go on dates?

2042
01:26:32,040 --> 01:26:34,080
Speaker 4: So I don't go on no dates? I've been on

2043
01:26:34,320 --> 01:26:37,080
Speaker 4: two dates since I've been here, and that's it.

2044
01:26:38,000 --> 01:26:39,800
Speaker 2: And how does those come about? Is it that people?

2045
01:26:40,640 --> 01:26:41,559
Speaker 4: I was on the apps?

2046
01:26:41,680 --> 01:26:44,639
Speaker 1: I was on the app, which I don't think anything's

2047
01:26:44,640 --> 01:26:46,639
Speaker 1: wrong with the d I don't think anything is wrong.

2048
01:26:46,720 --> 01:26:54,519
Speaker 1: It's a little exhausting, taking a risk, exhausted, it's a tiring.

2049
01:26:55,680 --> 01:26:59,040
Speaker 3: You got to read about them and then like the

2050
01:26:59,080 --> 01:26:59,519
Speaker 3: whole job.

2051
01:27:00,000 --> 01:27:02,400
Speaker 4: Hey, it's like no, thank you? So yeah, I was

2052
01:27:02,439 --> 01:27:02,680
Speaker 4: on the.

2053
01:27:02,720 --> 01:27:05,880
Speaker 3: Apps and met to and what made you? How does

2054
01:27:06,000 --> 01:27:09,679
Speaker 3: a person catch your attention enough for you to actually respond?

2055
01:27:13,200 --> 01:27:14,360
Speaker 3: I know the bar got to be high.

2056
01:27:14,880 --> 01:27:16,040
Speaker 4: Listen, don't do me.

2057
01:27:22,840 --> 01:27:26,639
Speaker 1: This is what I'll say, right, I gotta do better,

2058
01:27:26,880 --> 01:27:29,519
Speaker 1: But I'm gonna do I gotta do better, right because.

2059
01:27:29,320 --> 01:27:31,320
Speaker 4: You you find yourself and that's a member. Someone told me.

2060
01:27:31,439 --> 01:27:34,120
Speaker 1: Never make decisions when you're vulnerable or no, desperate, excuse

2061
01:27:34,160 --> 01:27:35,680
Speaker 1: me desperate, And I'm not gonna say I was in

2062
01:27:35,720 --> 01:27:36,200
Speaker 1: a place.

2063
01:27:36,000 --> 01:27:38,519
Speaker 4: Of desperation, but it was kind of like, okay, can

2064
01:27:38,560 --> 01:27:40,400
Speaker 4: you have put this off so long? Now you gotta

2065
01:27:40,880 --> 01:27:45,880
Speaker 4: come on right? So you know you, oh he's cute

2066
01:27:45,960 --> 01:27:49,160
Speaker 4: and okay you killed nobody or you know what I mean, Okay,

2067
01:27:49,160 --> 01:27:51,800
Speaker 4: you a little talk, a little conversation and they asked you.

2068
01:27:51,880 --> 01:27:55,280
Speaker 1: I'm like, okay, right, So it really wasn't a lie.

2069
01:27:55,320 --> 01:27:56,920
Speaker 1: I know people are like, can you gotta have more

2070
01:27:57,160 --> 01:27:58,599
Speaker 1: back and forth conversation on the app?

2071
01:27:58,640 --> 01:28:01,000
Speaker 4: I ain't time for all that. Let's you meet up.

2072
01:28:01,160 --> 01:28:03,680
Speaker 4: It's gonna wasted time like a little keiki and then

2073
01:28:03,720 --> 01:28:05,600
Speaker 4: it might not work out, but it's not wasted for me.

2074
01:28:05,680 --> 01:28:09,160
Speaker 4: It's not wasting right right. So yeah, it wasn't too

2075
01:28:09,240 --> 01:28:11,519
Speaker 4: much with neither one of those got good conversation.

2076
01:28:11,720 --> 01:28:12,360
Speaker 2: How long goes it?

2077
01:28:14,880 --> 01:28:16,880
Speaker 1: I think one was last year, one was last year,

2078
01:28:16,880 --> 01:28:19,280
Speaker 1: and the one was maybe twenty twenty three, and they

2079
01:28:19,320 --> 01:28:21,200
Speaker 1: were and they were believers, and they were of course

2080
01:28:21,240 --> 01:28:22,439
Speaker 1: like about one.

2081
01:28:22,920 --> 01:28:28,360
Speaker 4: Yeah, pitufall tragic shame. Once a year my yearly date.

2082
01:28:28,920 --> 01:28:32,760
Speaker 3: Got that up to twenty five. No, date, No, and I.

2083
01:28:33,439 --> 01:28:35,519
Speaker 1: The first one, I did it. I I liked him,

2084
01:28:35,560 --> 01:28:38,439
Speaker 1: I enjoyed him. The second one, that's so much. So

2085
01:28:38,840 --> 01:28:41,280
Speaker 1: you know it's one, you know, fifty to fifty. I

2086
01:28:41,320 --> 01:28:43,840
Speaker 1: don't know what the twenty twenty five. Remember I told okay, mamember,

2087
01:28:43,840 --> 01:28:46,559
Speaker 1: I told you about the man with the three kings.

2088
01:28:46,880 --> 01:28:50,920
Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, what happened? What happened to the second date?

2089
01:28:52,600 --> 01:28:53,760
Speaker 4: You know who?

2090
01:28:55,400 --> 01:28:57,559
Speaker 1: Okay, So I'll tell you the two red flags. One

2091
01:28:57,760 --> 01:29:01,360
Speaker 1: was he was a drinker. I don't drink the liquor.

2092
01:29:01,160 --> 01:29:02,040
Speaker 4: That's just me. I don't.

2093
01:29:02,040 --> 01:29:04,240
Speaker 1: But he was a drinker, like he was ordering them

2094
01:29:04,479 --> 01:29:06,320
Speaker 1: and he literally because I try to give grace, like,

2095
01:29:06,360 --> 01:29:10,440
Speaker 1: I'm like, okay, Ski, you have not my family, right, alcoholism.

2096
01:29:10,479 --> 01:29:12,479
Speaker 1: I've seen like the consequences of it, right, So I'm like, shit,

2097
01:29:12,560 --> 01:29:13,559
Speaker 1: that's your personal thing.

2098
01:29:13,920 --> 01:29:16,519
Speaker 4: That's not everybody. Okay. So I'm asking, I like, okay,

2099
01:29:16,560 --> 01:29:18,519
Speaker 4: so how often do you drink? He's, ah, if I.

2100
01:29:18,600 --> 01:29:20,600
Speaker 1: Come home, I'm gonna take a little drink. If I

2101
01:29:20,880 --> 01:29:23,600
Speaker 1: my social settings, I'm ana drink. I said, okay, So

2102
01:29:23,720 --> 01:29:25,439
Speaker 1: like if you go to the movies, She's like, I'm gonna.

2103
01:29:25,240 --> 01:29:26,120
Speaker 3: Drink at the movies.

2104
01:29:26,320 --> 01:29:30,400
Speaker 4: Yes, the movies. I'm bowling you, I'm gonna drink. So

2105
01:29:30,439 --> 01:29:33,200
Speaker 4: I'm like, okay, that's the thing. But then, yeah, that's

2106
01:29:33,240 --> 01:29:33,439
Speaker 4: the thing.

2107
01:29:34,080 --> 01:29:37,240
Speaker 1: He told me he gotta be doing one of the

2108
01:29:37,320 --> 01:29:40,439
Speaker 1: three kings, one of the three. And this comes because

2109
01:29:40,439 --> 01:29:42,200
Speaker 1: the liquor. He said, Oh yeah, I gotta be doing

2110
01:29:42,280 --> 01:29:43,920
Speaker 1: one of the three kings. If I'm not drinking, I

2111
01:29:43,920 --> 01:29:45,200
Speaker 1: gotta do one in three. So I'm like, what's the

2112
01:29:45,200 --> 01:29:45,679
Speaker 1: three kings?

2113
01:29:45,920 --> 01:29:51,120
Speaker 4: He said, drinking, smoking, or effing? And I should have

2114
01:29:51,160 --> 01:29:54,200
Speaker 4: got up and left. I should have. I should have,

2115
01:29:54,280 --> 01:29:59,200
Speaker 4: but I did it and that was it, and I

2116
01:29:59,640 --> 01:30:00,800
Speaker 4: respect well he told him.

2117
01:30:00,800 --> 01:30:00,920
Speaker 3: Why.

2118
01:30:00,920 --> 01:30:03,880
Speaker 4: I don't think we could. I don't think he was

2119
01:30:03,920 --> 01:30:06,320
Speaker 4: happy about it. And that was that sat me down.

2120
01:30:07,640 --> 01:30:10,519
Speaker 4: Yet what he said down the first day, yes, baby,

2121
01:30:10,600 --> 01:30:11,599
Speaker 4: he was laying at bear.

2122
01:30:11,840 --> 01:30:14,600
Speaker 1: And I appreciate it his honesty. He was very complimentary,

2123
01:30:14,680 --> 01:30:17,080
Speaker 1: very you know, I love it, thank you. But also

2124
01:30:17,160 --> 01:30:18,400
Speaker 1: he told on himself a lot.

2125
01:30:19,080 --> 01:30:23,439
Speaker 4: I was just like, okay, drinking, smoking, and he didn't

2126
01:30:23,479 --> 01:30:26,640
Speaker 4: say he said the full word, all of it. And

2127
01:30:26,680 --> 01:30:31,280
Speaker 4: I'm like, he came from choir rehearsal. What's that same mouth?

2128
01:30:31,320 --> 01:30:35,120
Speaker 4: Don't the Bible talk about that? Eh? That same mouth

2129
01:30:35,200 --> 01:30:36,080
Speaker 4: that was hallelujah.

2130
01:30:36,080 --> 01:30:39,599
Speaker 1: A couple of hours ago, you would he just said,

2131
01:30:39,920 --> 01:30:43,360
Speaker 1: he just showed me he acquired rehears earlier. He was

2132
01:30:43,439 --> 01:30:47,920
Speaker 1: coming from it before our date. I said, no, it's

2133
01:30:48,439 --> 01:30:52,080
Speaker 1: we think we're safe out here, but we're not. I

2134
01:30:52,280 --> 01:30:55,760
Speaker 1: sat now, I said, oh, how do we even know

2135
01:30:55,840 --> 01:30:56,320
Speaker 1: who you was?

2136
01:30:56,840 --> 01:30:56,880
Speaker 3: No?

2137
01:30:57,160 --> 01:30:59,160
Speaker 4: And I like that. I don't want people I'm talking about.

2138
01:30:59,200 --> 01:31:01,240
Speaker 3: So people don't go look at people social media's where

2139
01:31:01,240 --> 01:31:01,760
Speaker 3: to go on to date?

2140
01:31:01,880 --> 01:31:04,120
Speaker 4: Hey, mine didn't, Holly, did you go look at his?

2141
01:31:05,560 --> 01:31:05,600
Speaker 3: No?

2142
01:31:06,120 --> 01:31:06,599
Speaker 4: I didn't.

2143
01:31:06,960 --> 01:31:08,600
Speaker 1: I think I searched him. Maybe he didn't have I

2144
01:31:08,880 --> 01:31:11,240
Speaker 1: because I do do the search. Maybe nothing came up.

2145
01:31:11,840 --> 01:31:14,120
Speaker 1: Maybe nothing came up because I do do this, so

2146
01:31:14,200 --> 01:31:16,960
Speaker 1: I saw you. Sometimes they have that's what Sometimes they

2147
01:31:17,000 --> 01:31:18,720
Speaker 1: have like nicknames. One guy I didn't know his full name,

2148
01:31:18,880 --> 01:31:22,479
Speaker 1: but sometimes they have like you know, rage, I'm the

2149
01:31:22,560 --> 01:31:23,599
Speaker 1: dating that just rage.

2150
01:31:24,400 --> 01:31:26,439
Speaker 4: I can't do nothing rich and I don't be giving

2151
01:31:26,439 --> 01:31:28,040
Speaker 4: our phone numbers, so we can't do nothing with that.

2152
01:31:28,320 --> 01:31:31,240
Speaker 3: So you don't give your phone naw. So you go

2153
01:31:31,400 --> 01:31:33,160
Speaker 3: from talking to the d ms on the dating app

2154
01:31:33,200 --> 01:31:35,880
Speaker 3: and then meeting in person. Yeah, okay, see I not

2155
01:31:35,960 --> 01:31:36,679
Speaker 3: be on a date app.

2156
01:31:36,720 --> 01:31:37,600
Speaker 2: So I don't know.

2157
01:31:37,800 --> 01:31:40,800
Speaker 4: Oh yeah, listen, everybody that can throw stones. Okay, I'm

2158
01:31:40,840 --> 01:31:41,320
Speaker 4: new out here.

2159
01:31:41,439 --> 01:31:44,080
Speaker 3: No people people, no people know that don't date now,

2160
01:31:44,600 --> 01:31:46,720
Speaker 3: I mean the people. It's a part of our culture now,

2161
01:31:46,880 --> 01:31:49,240
Speaker 3: So it's nothing. I never frowned upon that.

2162
01:31:49,600 --> 01:31:50,519
Speaker 4: Yeah, it's a resource.

2163
01:31:50,600 --> 01:31:52,360
Speaker 3: That's yeah, it's it's a it's a resource. If you

2164
01:31:52,439 --> 01:31:55,200
Speaker 3: meet your spouse on that, you meet your spouse on that. Uh,

2165
01:31:56,000 --> 01:31:57,519
Speaker 3: just don't forget to continue vedding.

2166
01:31:57,720 --> 01:32:00,560
Speaker 4: You know, I installed uninstalled it now I'm not upon it.

2167
01:32:01,600 --> 01:32:02,439
Speaker 2: You just gave up on it.

2168
01:32:03,040 --> 01:32:05,880
Speaker 4: I just got a little scared. People a little crazy here.

2169
01:32:05,880 --> 01:32:09,840
Speaker 4: I said, oh, we're going on. I believe in the

2170
01:32:09,920 --> 01:32:13,000
Speaker 4: killer and the rapist litarious. I said, oh, I might

2171
01:32:13,040 --> 01:32:14,679
Speaker 4: get back on the later. But I got a little scared,

2172
01:32:14,680 --> 01:32:16,240
Speaker 4: So I said, let me ask.

2173
01:32:16,120 --> 01:32:19,120
Speaker 3: You this and then we're gonna conclude. Is it possible

2174
01:32:19,240 --> 01:32:21,160
Speaker 3: to meet somebody on your app?

2175
01:32:21,640 --> 01:32:24,560
Speaker 4: A lot of people always asked me this because I

2176
01:32:24,640 --> 01:32:26,439
Speaker 4: want to see if we can take if you can

2177
01:32:26,439 --> 01:32:29,920
Speaker 4: get your own supply hilarious, it's actually hilarious.

2178
01:32:31,120 --> 01:32:33,639
Speaker 3: Or do you feel like as a leader right if

2179
01:32:33,680 --> 01:32:35,679
Speaker 3: it don't work out and it just looked tacky?

2180
01:32:35,840 --> 01:32:37,200
Speaker 4: Exactly? I feel like one.

2181
01:32:37,880 --> 01:32:39,880
Speaker 1: A big thing I want is a man to choose

2182
01:32:40,040 --> 01:32:43,799
Speaker 1: me right, choose me, like if I'm in a crowd

2183
01:32:44,000 --> 01:32:46,439
Speaker 1: like you, you right need you and.

2184
01:32:46,520 --> 01:32:50,320
Speaker 4: Want you because we feel like those can't like like, yeah,

2185
01:32:50,479 --> 01:32:51,760
Speaker 4: I hate I hate it.

2186
01:32:51,760 --> 01:32:52,920
Speaker 2: They said, what do you want? You want to be

2187
01:32:53,000 --> 01:32:53,840
Speaker 2: wanted or needed?

2188
01:32:53,960 --> 01:32:54,320
Speaker 4: I hate?

2189
01:32:54,400 --> 01:32:56,920
Speaker 1: No, I hate a man like my wife is. It

2190
01:32:57,040 --> 01:32:59,599
Speaker 1: wasn't who I wanted, but she was who I needed.

2191
01:33:00,120 --> 01:33:02,200
Speaker 1: I'm gonna throw up me me, I'm gonna throw up.

2192
01:33:02,520 --> 01:33:03,200
Speaker 1: I'm gonna throw up.

2193
01:33:03,240 --> 01:33:05,879
Speaker 4: I don't care. I'm gonna throw up because like dangs.

2194
01:33:05,720 --> 01:33:07,479
Speaker 1: I just benefited. You really didn't want me. But it's

2195
01:33:07,479 --> 01:33:10,040
Speaker 1: like I can't help you me me, this is me.

2196
01:33:10,439 --> 01:33:12,000
Speaker 1: So I'm like, baby, you gotta know that they can

2197
01:33:12,080 --> 01:33:15,680
Speaker 1: be both right both, and so I want him to

2198
01:33:15,880 --> 01:33:17,800
Speaker 1: choose me and be good people.

2199
01:33:17,840 --> 01:33:20,360
Speaker 3: People be giving, people be making those reels about some

2200
01:33:20,560 --> 01:33:22,400
Speaker 3: of the couples that's been on my podcast that have

2201
01:33:22,520 --> 01:33:24,400
Speaker 3: said that that's what I was laughing, Oh they saying.

2202
01:33:24,400 --> 01:33:26,240
Speaker 4: I just hear men saying all the time, and I

2203
01:33:26,360 --> 01:33:29,080
Speaker 4: don't like that for me, So so men do say that.

2204
01:33:29,280 --> 01:33:32,320
Speaker 3: But people have attacked certain couples on my podcasts who

2205
01:33:32,400 --> 01:33:35,439
Speaker 3: have honestly admitted that, but you But you've heard Gud

2206
01:33:35,560 --> 01:33:37,320
Speaker 3: say that a lot, people say.

2207
01:33:37,439 --> 01:33:38,960
Speaker 4: Men say it all the time because it's like the

2208
01:33:39,000 --> 01:33:40,680
Speaker 4: biggest compliment to woman. I don't know.

2209
01:33:40,800 --> 01:33:43,600
Speaker 1: I'm like, I don't hear the compliment he didn't want you,

2210
01:33:43,720 --> 01:33:47,400
Speaker 1: hed or the Lord himself. I'm like the Lord, They're

2211
01:33:47,439 --> 01:33:51,280
Speaker 1: removed the scales. The Lord himself had to be like shakillah,

2212
01:33:51,320 --> 01:33:55,439
Speaker 1: you don't see it. Look, look, look, look, look, I'm offend.

2213
01:33:55,520 --> 01:33:55,720
Speaker 3: Dad.

2214
01:33:55,960 --> 01:33:58,360
Speaker 4: Pray for me truly because I believe. I believe it

2215
01:33:58,439 --> 01:34:01,080
Speaker 4: can happen. I believe this, but not for me.

2216
01:34:01,240 --> 01:34:03,519
Speaker 1: Don't you if that's hey, if he is pursuing me,

2217
01:34:03,560 --> 01:34:07,640
Speaker 1: don't you tell me that what you got to keep

2218
01:34:07,680 --> 01:34:08,200
Speaker 1: that to yourself?

2219
01:34:08,280 --> 01:34:11,200
Speaker 4: So want in need, but choose me? Right?

2220
01:34:11,240 --> 01:34:13,519
Speaker 1: So with the APP, I just don't know, especially if

2221
01:34:13,560 --> 01:34:16,400
Speaker 1: he is we are a close knit community. If he

2222
01:34:16,560 --> 01:34:19,240
Speaker 1: is in that community, has been in that community, he's

2223
01:34:19,320 --> 01:34:22,439
Speaker 1: made friendships with people, connections, and you know there's people

2224
01:34:22,479 --> 01:34:24,200
Speaker 1: in that app in the community to talk about me,

2225
01:34:24,240 --> 01:34:26,080
Speaker 1: A sess stuff, right, and it's like one day I

2226
01:34:26,160 --> 01:34:28,479
Speaker 1: may vent and be like, yeah, her, Sarah was talking

2227
01:34:28,479 --> 01:34:28,760
Speaker 1: about me.

2228
01:34:28,800 --> 01:34:30,920
Speaker 4: I didn't like that to hurt my feelings. I feel

2229
01:34:30,920 --> 01:34:32,800
Speaker 4: like she got like Onterio Mos and he'd be like, oh,

2230
01:34:32,920 --> 01:34:35,760
Speaker 4: Sarah's not like my sister. I don't need that pick one.

2231
01:34:35,920 --> 01:34:39,360
Speaker 4: Who are you for me or Sarah? Right?

2232
01:34:39,439 --> 01:34:41,040
Speaker 1: Because now I put you in that I don't want

2233
01:34:41,040 --> 01:34:43,639
Speaker 1: to put you in that position where you have to choose.

2234
01:34:44,160 --> 01:34:47,040
Speaker 1: So I'm like, I'd rather somebody not in the tribe

2235
01:34:47,240 --> 01:34:48,920
Speaker 1: so that they don't feel like they have to choose.

2236
01:34:49,160 --> 01:34:51,439
Speaker 1: Or if things don't go right now, you know, in

2237
01:34:51,560 --> 01:34:57,240
Speaker 1: my business, you might be telling the people. So I

2238
01:34:57,280 --> 01:34:59,400
Speaker 1: would just prefer someone that's not in my community, or

2239
01:34:59,560 --> 01:35:01,040
Speaker 1: catching before he get up in there.

2240
01:35:03,520 --> 01:35:07,200
Speaker 4: Snatch him right, snatch him right there. But if you

2241
01:35:07,400 --> 01:35:10,160
Speaker 4: up in that thing, I don't know. I don't know

2242
01:35:10,160 --> 01:35:11,120
Speaker 4: if you could choose me.

2243
01:35:11,320 --> 01:35:13,000
Speaker 3: Well, see as what I'm saying, some of these men

2244
01:35:13,360 --> 01:35:16,240
Speaker 3: may have joined to get to know you more so

2245
01:35:16,400 --> 01:35:18,960
Speaker 3: that they can meet you at a meet up and

2246
01:35:19,080 --> 01:35:20,719
Speaker 3: try to isolate you in black.

2247
01:35:21,479 --> 01:35:24,160
Speaker 4: Isolated me when they should have did it. I like

2248
01:35:24,200 --> 01:35:25,920
Speaker 4: an asserted man, come get me.

2249
01:35:26,400 --> 01:35:28,920
Speaker 3: So that's Hey, that's a call to action right now

2250
01:35:29,800 --> 01:35:32,120
Speaker 3: to meet up. Shoot your shot, let her know where

2251
01:35:32,120 --> 01:35:33,840
Speaker 3: you're staying, let her know, let her know.

2252
01:35:34,800 --> 01:35:37,000
Speaker 4: I didn't talked too much, didn't I just talking just

2253
01:35:37,120 --> 01:35:38,320
Speaker 4: saying too much? Kid?

2254
01:35:38,800 --> 01:35:40,720
Speaker 3: So yeah, she likes an asserted man, So let her

2255
01:35:40,760 --> 01:35:42,640
Speaker 3: know where you staying, let her know who side you are,

2256
01:35:43,040 --> 01:35:44,599
Speaker 3: right right, you have to try.

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01:35:44,840 --> 01:35:49,400
Speaker 4: I ain't never like that anyway, stupid name. I'm installing

2258
01:35:49,520 --> 01:35:49,840
Speaker 4: right now.

2259
01:35:49,920 --> 01:35:54,400
Speaker 3: What they're gonna send you a video of us beginning

2260
01:35:54,479 --> 01:35:56,479
Speaker 3: the heim pursuing you be like, what's that?

2261
01:35:58,520 --> 01:35:59,240
Speaker 2: That would be amazing?

2262
01:35:59,240 --> 01:36:01,200
Speaker 3: I would love that. Do y'all have y'all back on

2263
01:36:01,240 --> 01:36:06,080
Speaker 3: the podcast and then be right there. I installed that

2264
01:36:06,200 --> 01:36:09,120
Speaker 3: after that day. Immediately he is that that's my wife.

2265
01:36:09,160 --> 01:36:13,200
Speaker 3: Ain't going into twenty twenty six without her? The masses

2266
01:36:13,240 --> 01:36:15,040
Speaker 3: real quick before I wrap up, and it's my second

2267
01:36:15,080 --> 01:36:17,439
Speaker 3: wrap up like a pastor here is.

2268
01:36:19,479 --> 01:36:21,479
Speaker 2: Are you afraid of time? Meaning?

2269
01:36:22,040 --> 01:36:25,360
Speaker 3: Would you say that it could be too soon? A

2270
01:36:25,439 --> 01:36:29,080
Speaker 3: god meets you today, y'all hitting it off, y'all talk

2271
01:36:29,120 --> 01:36:32,519
Speaker 3: and getting to know each other. What will be too soon? Well?

2272
01:36:33,600 --> 01:36:36,360
Speaker 3: If he proposed to you three months later, would that

2273
01:36:36,439 --> 01:36:37,240
Speaker 3: be too soon? Yeah?

2274
01:36:37,800 --> 01:36:38,559
Speaker 2: Six months later?

2275
01:36:43,360 --> 01:36:44,160
Speaker 3: The paris.

2276
01:36:47,160 --> 01:36:49,200
Speaker 4: Six months, six months? And then well when do we

2277
01:36:49,280 --> 01:36:49,799
Speaker 4: get married?

2278
01:36:50,280 --> 01:36:51,080
Speaker 2: We ain't got there?

2279
01:36:51,720 --> 01:36:54,120
Speaker 3: You you weigh in on that? See the woman weighs

2280
01:36:54,160 --> 01:36:57,320
Speaker 3: in on when y'all get married collectively, but you don't

2281
01:36:57,360 --> 01:36:58,000
Speaker 3: weigh in when.

2282
01:36:57,920 --> 01:37:02,320
Speaker 4: He proposes, No, I'll say it's not too soon.

2283
01:37:02,520 --> 01:37:05,559
Speaker 2: So six months not? Why is your face contorting?

2284
01:37:06,040 --> 01:37:08,040
Speaker 4: Because this is still new to me, right, I'm just.

2285
01:37:08,240 --> 01:37:11,280
Speaker 2: Now getting to the mindset of yourself made married.

2286
01:37:11,400 --> 01:37:13,200
Speaker 4: Right, So it's like I want to say that and

2287
01:37:13,360 --> 01:37:15,479
Speaker 4: mean it. Right, So I really ship you met him

2288
01:37:15,479 --> 01:37:18,040
Speaker 4: six months from now? You ready for that? Like to

2289
01:37:18,600 --> 01:37:20,759
Speaker 4: I never you know, I've never had like a serious boyfriend,

2290
01:37:21,000 --> 01:37:21,479
Speaker 4: So this will be.

2291
01:37:23,160 --> 01:37:29,000
Speaker 1: Serious relationship, committal commitment now. And you know, my I'm

2292
01:37:29,040 --> 01:37:31,600
Speaker 1: always used to living life on my own terms. And

2293
01:37:31,920 --> 01:37:33,920
Speaker 1: don't get me wrong, I love baby, I'm ready to submit.

2294
01:37:34,000 --> 01:37:36,400
Speaker 1: I ain't got no issue. Okay, what you want on

2295
01:37:36,479 --> 01:37:37,840
Speaker 1: your plate? Let me bring sit down?

2296
01:37:37,920 --> 01:37:39,840
Speaker 3: Say what I'm bringing to you?

2297
01:37:39,880 --> 01:37:41,200
Speaker 1: Where are we talking about? This is the man I

2298
01:37:41,320 --> 01:37:43,640
Speaker 1: like in love? What are we talking about? But just

2299
01:37:43,800 --> 01:37:46,519
Speaker 1: I want to be honest like which is real?

2300
01:37:46,640 --> 01:37:49,080
Speaker 3: Because I forgot you said you've never been a serious relationships.

2301
01:37:49,320 --> 01:37:50,439
Speaker 3: All of this will be new.

2302
01:37:50,680 --> 01:37:51,640
Speaker 4: All of it will be new.

2303
01:37:51,960 --> 01:37:56,679
Speaker 3: Literally, uh, responsible for another person out there being concerned

2304
01:37:56,680 --> 01:38:00,000
Speaker 3: about their day to day life and him being concerned

2305
01:38:00,040 --> 01:38:02,519
Speaker 3: learned about you and that whole thing.

2306
01:38:02,720 --> 01:38:04,679
Speaker 2: It could be like giving me whip last.

2307
01:38:04,720 --> 01:38:06,880
Speaker 1: She'd be like, what I would say, I do that

2308
01:38:07,000 --> 01:38:10,840
Speaker 1: with my friends just naturally, right, well, just like showing

2309
01:38:10,920 --> 01:38:12,880
Speaker 1: up and asking and checking in, Like my friends know

2310
01:38:12,880 --> 01:38:14,200
Speaker 1: if you call me, even if I'm not in the

2311
01:38:14,240 --> 01:38:16,519
Speaker 1: best mood, I'm like okay, and they're like, okay, I

2312
01:38:16,760 --> 01:38:18,519
Speaker 1: know you're about to call me back, right, I just

2313
01:38:18,640 --> 01:38:21,080
Speaker 1: I check you with my friends. But to do life

2314
01:38:21,160 --> 01:38:25,679
Speaker 1: with someone that's different, like you're their person, person person

2315
01:38:25,760 --> 01:38:28,320
Speaker 1: and being ready to let them in and share with

2316
01:38:28,439 --> 01:38:30,360
Speaker 1: them and be vulnerable and open.

2317
01:38:30,240 --> 01:38:35,320
Speaker 2: And so three months absolutely, not six months maybe.

2318
01:38:38,400 --> 01:38:38,519
Speaker 3: Right?

2319
01:38:38,600 --> 01:38:39,439
Speaker 4: Six months better?

2320
01:38:39,600 --> 01:38:43,479
Speaker 3: All right? So then the next step the marriage. How

2321
01:38:43,560 --> 01:38:45,400
Speaker 3: long do you think y'all got to be with each

2322
01:38:45,400 --> 01:38:46,519
Speaker 3: other before y'all get married?

2323
01:38:48,560 --> 01:38:49,280
Speaker 4: At least the year?

2324
01:38:49,720 --> 01:38:50,960
Speaker 2: Okay, that's fair.

2325
01:38:51,360 --> 01:38:52,439
Speaker 3: Yeah, so at least a year?

2326
01:38:52,840 --> 01:38:53,760
Speaker 2: And why do you say that?

2327
01:38:54,120 --> 01:38:56,040
Speaker 3: And I'm talking about do you believe in doing pre

2328
01:38:56,160 --> 01:38:58,400
Speaker 3: engagement counseling and pre marital counseling stuff?

2329
01:38:58,560 --> 01:39:01,679
Speaker 2: All right? So even with you say one.

2330
01:39:01,600 --> 01:39:06,040
Speaker 4: Year minimum, everything's flexible.

2331
01:39:06,640 --> 01:39:08,080
Speaker 3: Got to come in and mess up your whole plan.

2332
01:39:08,400 --> 01:39:10,080
Speaker 3: I'm just talking about where you at now because I'm

2333
01:39:10,080 --> 01:39:12,400
Speaker 3: gonna see how this ages. And so at the end

2334
01:39:12,400 --> 01:39:14,320
Speaker 3: of the day, this is what you're saying now, and

2335
01:39:14,400 --> 01:39:16,160
Speaker 3: I want to be able to go back to when

2336
01:39:16,240 --> 01:39:18,880
Speaker 3: God does it for you and see how it lines up.

2337
01:39:19,240 --> 01:39:21,559
Speaker 4: Yeah, I would say it a year.

2338
01:39:21,640 --> 01:39:23,800
Speaker 1: There's no rhyme or reason, honestly, and this is all

2339
01:39:23,880 --> 01:39:25,280
Speaker 1: new to me, right, I don't know what it's like.

2340
01:39:25,320 --> 01:39:27,280
Speaker 4: People like, oh, I've been with somebody in you know,

2341
01:39:27,320 --> 01:39:28,840
Speaker 4: in six months. I just knew they were to one

2342
01:39:28,920 --> 01:39:31,120
Speaker 4: and why waiting? And I don't. I don't know that, right,

2343
01:39:31,120 --> 01:39:31,320
Speaker 4: And I.

2344
01:39:31,320 --> 01:39:34,559
Speaker 1: Think that's going to be a huge But I'm flexible

2345
01:39:34,560 --> 01:39:36,800
Speaker 1: and this is new to me too, right, So I'm

2346
01:39:36,840 --> 01:39:39,320
Speaker 1: going to be learning in real time with this person.

2347
01:39:39,439 --> 01:39:41,599
Speaker 1: So give me time also to grow and figure out

2348
01:39:41,640 --> 01:39:44,560
Speaker 1: how this is. And you know, so yeah, if I

2349
01:39:44,640 --> 01:39:46,040
Speaker 1: had like the blueprint, like oh, I know in a

2350
01:39:46,080 --> 01:39:48,840
Speaker 1: relationship that the thought I know somethings from you know,

2351
01:39:49,200 --> 01:39:53,360
Speaker 1: having some friends but never fully committed letting like my

2352
01:39:53,479 --> 01:39:55,880
Speaker 1: I remember this, God say like you have a wall

2353
01:39:55,960 --> 01:39:57,920
Speaker 1: up shikiya Like my friends say that too, right, only

2354
01:39:58,000 --> 01:40:00,960
Speaker 1: letting people in so little. I don't mean you, I

2355
01:40:01,120 --> 01:40:02,640
Speaker 1: just when I'm supposed tell you want to know what

2356
01:40:02,760 --> 01:40:04,600
Speaker 1: you want to know, just tell all my business. But

2357
01:40:04,760 --> 01:40:07,679
Speaker 1: just even being cognizant of that, like there's some things

2358
01:40:07,760 --> 01:40:10,200
Speaker 1: that I'm working on now that I don't know what

2359
01:40:10,280 --> 01:40:10,640
Speaker 1: that looks like.

2360
01:40:10,680 --> 01:40:11,680
Speaker 4: I want you to invite somebody in.

2361
01:40:11,960 --> 01:40:14,120
Speaker 1: That's good, right, So he may be like, you need

2362
01:40:14,160 --> 01:40:17,040
Speaker 1: a little more time, You need just a little more time,

2363
01:40:17,479 --> 01:40:20,960
Speaker 1: a little so, but I'm open, I'm flexible to see.

2364
01:40:21,439 --> 01:40:23,880
Speaker 3: That's good. That the fact that this is a different

2365
01:40:23,920 --> 01:40:27,840
Speaker 3: Shakia talking right now that I talked to a few

2366
01:40:27,920 --> 01:40:31,439
Speaker 3: years ago brings my heart joy. Ah, it brings my

2367
01:40:31,560 --> 01:40:33,360
Speaker 3: heart joy because at the end of the day, that

2368
01:40:33,520 --> 01:40:37,840
Speaker 3: means that growth has occurred and we all have to

2369
01:40:37,880 --> 01:40:40,840
Speaker 3: be given the grace to grow. And so you've given

2370
01:40:40,880 --> 01:40:43,680
Speaker 3: yourself enough grace to grow. And like you said, I

2371
01:40:43,720 --> 01:40:47,000
Speaker 3: don't know what I'll do. I want to I am submitted.

2372
01:40:47,000 --> 01:40:49,800
Speaker 3: I ain't afraid to be submitted. But this is just new.

2373
01:40:50,240 --> 01:40:52,639
Speaker 3: And that's the beauty of whoever God brings your life

2374
01:40:52,720 --> 01:40:53,960
Speaker 3: that they have to be aware of that.

2375
01:40:54,560 --> 01:40:57,680
Speaker 2: Does he have to be a virgin, No, but he

2376
01:40:58,080 --> 01:40:58,719
Speaker 2: has to be absent.

2377
01:40:59,320 --> 01:40:59,559
Speaker 4: Amen.

2378
01:40:59,760 --> 01:41:02,080
Speaker 1: He he doesn't have to be a virgin, but he

2379
01:41:02,280 --> 01:41:06,240
Speaker 1: does have to have done the work to unpack his past,

2380
01:41:06,760 --> 01:41:08,760
Speaker 1: right because I joke about it. I've joked about it

2381
01:41:08,880 --> 01:41:11,720
Speaker 1: for years. People have to understand. I learn it the

2382
01:41:11,840 --> 01:41:14,040
Speaker 1: closer I get to my OHK, you one day you

2383
01:41:14,120 --> 01:41:15,640
Speaker 1: are going to be with somebody and see all you're

2384
01:41:15,680 --> 01:41:18,120
Speaker 1: hidden treasures and all that, right, And so I'm like, oh,

2385
01:41:18,200 --> 01:41:20,280
Speaker 1: it's real where you're going to be with the man

2386
01:41:20,360 --> 01:41:22,559
Speaker 1: that potentially has a past, and it could have been

2387
01:41:22,640 --> 01:41:27,840
Speaker 1: a fruitful and great past, right, real fun and right fun.

2388
01:41:28,160 --> 01:41:31,800
Speaker 1: But he's going to bring in to our marriage the

2389
01:41:31,880 --> 01:41:33,880
Speaker 1: things that he experienced outside of our marriage.

2390
01:41:34,240 --> 01:41:35,479
Speaker 4: And I don't feel like I should be.

2391
01:41:35,520 --> 01:41:37,439
Speaker 1: Responsible for that, right, So when you're coming, you like,

2392
01:41:37,479 --> 01:41:38,800
Speaker 1: I like this that and the third okay, well you

2393
01:41:38,880 --> 01:41:41,840
Speaker 1: and Keisha, what's doing that? She introduced you to that?

2394
01:41:41,960 --> 01:41:44,400
Speaker 1: I didn't introduce you to that because I say, I

2395
01:41:44,479 --> 01:41:46,479
Speaker 1: think that's nasty. I think that's IFO I have to

2396
01:41:46,520 --> 01:41:49,360
Speaker 1: do it. That's not right to put that on me, right,

2397
01:41:49,360 --> 01:41:51,880
Speaker 1: And now you're frustrated and you should be wanting to

2398
01:41:51,920 --> 01:41:53,639
Speaker 1: do this with your husband, But he wouldn't even.

2399
01:41:53,520 --> 01:41:57,120
Speaker 4: Known what that was exactly, and that's not fair.

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01:41:57,280 --> 01:41:59,439
Speaker 1: That's not fair for me, And you can't bring those

2401
01:41:59,479 --> 01:42:02,680
Speaker 1: expectationstions into our marriage, right, so he will have to

2402
01:42:02,800 --> 01:42:06,840
Speaker 1: do that work unpacking and praying and all that deliverance.

2403
01:42:06,960 --> 01:42:08,920
Speaker 4: Yeah amen, yeah, soul tar break.

2404
01:42:08,920 --> 01:42:12,720
Speaker 1: Yes, right and like clear and renewing your mind of

2405
01:42:12,840 --> 01:42:15,439
Speaker 1: that and your desire. God take that desire out right,

2406
01:42:15,600 --> 01:42:18,320
Speaker 1: Let my wife explore me that part.

2407
01:42:18,960 --> 01:42:20,200
Speaker 4: Right, No, that's all.

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01:42:20,479 --> 01:42:23,080
Speaker 1: God take the past the desires I have, and let

2409
01:42:23,120 --> 01:42:25,439
Speaker 1: me have new desires right that what Shakia can offer

2410
01:42:25,640 --> 01:42:27,280
Speaker 1: and what Shakia can do, I don't know what I

2411
01:42:27,320 --> 01:42:29,880
Speaker 1: could do, right, whatever she can do, give a grace

2412
01:42:29,920 --> 01:42:30,439
Speaker 1: to learn.

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01:42:31,000 --> 01:42:34,960
Speaker 4: All right now right amen, But that it feels.

2414
01:42:34,680 --> 01:42:37,120
Speaker 3: Like real that you share. One day you said, hey,

2415
01:42:37,200 --> 01:42:39,519
Speaker 3: people think that you know you're gonna get married to

2416
01:42:39,600 --> 01:42:42,160
Speaker 3: a version and they just not gonna want to have sex.

2417
01:42:42,200 --> 01:42:43,719
Speaker 3: They ain't gonna wanna do nothing. It was just funny

2418
01:42:43,760 --> 01:42:47,720
Speaker 3: real that you said. You made some little funny be like, no,

2419
01:42:47,840 --> 01:42:49,720
Speaker 3: I'm gonna be like, come on, let's let you know,

2420
01:42:50,320 --> 01:42:53,120
Speaker 3: let's get it in, yall have a good time. But

2421
01:42:53,240 --> 01:42:56,360
Speaker 3: people will assume even when you're saying that, they're saying, oh, no,

2422
01:42:56,600 --> 01:42:58,160
Speaker 3: she ain't gonna want to do that, and they're not

2423
01:42:58,280 --> 01:43:02,120
Speaker 3: even hearing from a heels. They're hearing from trauma saying

2424
01:43:02,160 --> 01:43:03,839
Speaker 3: oh so basically I'm gonna get married to Ushing.

2425
01:43:03,960 --> 01:43:06,240
Speaker 4: Said, no, no, no, I want us to create things.

2426
01:43:06,360 --> 01:43:08,920
Speaker 4: I want us to have our own experiences and our

2427
01:43:09,000 --> 01:43:12,080
Speaker 4: own tricks and flips and splits that we learn together,

2428
01:43:12,600 --> 01:43:14,800
Speaker 4: not not rehearsing, but.

2429
01:43:14,960 --> 01:43:17,720
Speaker 3: Not regurgitating what happen you doing what Keisha did? Well,

2430
01:43:17,800 --> 01:43:18,840
Speaker 3: Keisha used to do it like this.

2431
01:43:19,000 --> 01:43:22,280
Speaker 1: I really like when Tanya used to what, well you

2432
01:43:22,479 --> 01:43:24,120
Speaker 1: need to write? I don't who wants that?

2433
01:43:24,560 --> 01:43:27,120
Speaker 4: Who wants that? Right? So yeah, I am open to

2434
01:43:27,240 --> 01:43:31,559
Speaker 4: explore and learn with my person and let's create experiences together,

2435
01:43:32,479 --> 01:43:35,160
Speaker 4: but not like performing what some of the girl done did.

2436
01:43:35,400 --> 01:43:39,080
Speaker 3: That's do you feel like people that men value because

2437
01:43:39,080 --> 01:43:41,440
Speaker 3: I don't know how many guys you dated had conversations.

2438
01:43:41,479 --> 01:43:42,880
Speaker 2: Do they value your virginity?

2439
01:43:43,000 --> 01:43:43,160
Speaker 3: Yes?

2440
01:43:43,400 --> 01:43:46,600
Speaker 4: They how you say, fantasize size it?

2441
01:43:47,600 --> 01:43:50,120
Speaker 2: Yeah, they be like, oh I got somebody.

2442
01:43:49,880 --> 01:43:52,920
Speaker 1: Nobody is And I think it's so insulting in a

2443
01:43:52,960 --> 01:43:56,200
Speaker 1: way because and this is no disrespect to nobody. And

2444
01:43:56,439 --> 01:43:58,200
Speaker 1: I said this when I was on another podcast, like

2445
01:43:58,720 --> 01:44:00,400
Speaker 1: men want to be able to do that they.

2446
01:44:00,720 --> 01:44:04,000
Speaker 4: Do or sow the row loads everywhere.

2447
01:44:04,080 --> 01:44:06,240
Speaker 1: But then when it's time to get a wife, is like, oh,

2448
01:44:06,360 --> 01:44:08,400
Speaker 1: but I want that one because she's never been with

2449
01:44:09,320 --> 01:44:12,240
Speaker 1: But do I want you respectfully right, not even because

2450
01:44:12,280 --> 01:44:14,360
Speaker 1: of how many, but the lack of discipline that you had.

2451
01:44:14,720 --> 01:44:17,040
Speaker 4: Why do you think I don't also desire someone? Right?

2452
01:44:17,479 --> 01:44:18,960
Speaker 2: Say, a man gonna be a man.

2453
01:44:19,040 --> 01:44:20,920
Speaker 1: So you you got except a man to me has

2454
01:44:20,920 --> 01:44:23,960
Speaker 1: a is disciplined. A young boy cannot discipline his body.

2455
01:44:24,360 --> 01:44:26,200
Speaker 4: I think about like my little cousin the first time

2456
01:44:26,240 --> 01:44:30,880
Speaker 4: he feels so right, Like, right, that's a little boy. Right,

2457
01:44:31,280 --> 01:44:34,080
Speaker 4: he's not disciplined yet. But at what age as a man?

2458
01:44:34,640 --> 01:44:34,880
Speaker 2: Still?

2459
01:44:35,000 --> 01:44:39,200
Speaker 1: Do you not be swayed by anything that's walking past you? Ready,

2460
01:44:39,200 --> 01:44:41,639
Speaker 1: the poking stroke, any chance you get like that's that's

2461
01:44:41,720 --> 01:44:44,320
Speaker 1: not a man? To me, A man is disciplined, right,

2462
01:44:44,400 --> 01:44:46,000
Speaker 1: So it's like if you are, like, I want to

2463
01:44:46,040 --> 01:44:48,320
Speaker 1: wipe that untouching building, nobody, no man could.

2464
01:44:48,120 --> 01:44:50,800
Speaker 4: Say he ain't never well what you think I would?

2465
01:44:51,320 --> 01:44:53,439
Speaker 1: I mean, I'm a rock with you. If you mind right,

2466
01:44:53,479 --> 01:44:55,000
Speaker 1: we're gonna we're gonna find a cute way to be

2467
01:44:55,120 --> 01:44:56,160
Speaker 1: like but you ain't never had.

2468
01:44:56,560 --> 01:45:00,280
Speaker 4: But she because he was out side.

2469
01:45:00,320 --> 01:45:04,200
Speaker 1: Now I gotta save face now, right because everybody saying,

2470
01:45:04,240 --> 01:45:05,920
Speaker 1: oh we know about tyrone?

2471
01:45:06,320 --> 01:45:07,680
Speaker 4: Right now, I got to figure out a way to

2472
01:45:07,720 --> 01:45:08,160
Speaker 4: say face.

2473
01:45:08,600 --> 01:45:12,160
Speaker 1: But right, you're having post Christ though you never want

2474
01:45:12,160 --> 01:45:14,519
Speaker 1: the other side, right, you didn't have the man of God,

2475
01:45:14,680 --> 01:45:17,000
Speaker 1: that is, you have that man of God relationship.

2476
01:45:17,360 --> 01:45:19,679
Speaker 4: But yes, I'm like, what makes you think? But yes

2477
01:45:19,760 --> 01:45:23,240
Speaker 4: they think. It's just like oh, so oh you are white.

2478
01:45:23,280 --> 01:45:27,960
Speaker 4: They immediately oh you are a white material. Yeah you

2479
01:45:28,160 --> 01:45:32,080
Speaker 4: just nobody and then had you proud wife? You didn't? Yeah,

2480
01:45:33,680 --> 01:45:36,200
Speaker 4: ill ill like that.

2481
01:45:36,400 --> 01:45:39,000
Speaker 3: We're trained to oh know, while we're trained like that,

2482
01:45:39,520 --> 01:45:42,479
Speaker 3: we're trained to that. Well, I guess that's difficult. I

2483
01:45:42,479 --> 01:45:44,800
Speaker 3: can't say that's wrong with it is to value a

2484
01:45:44,920 --> 01:45:48,160
Speaker 3: woman's virtue like that, and then in the in the

2485
01:45:48,320 --> 01:45:50,320
Speaker 3: in the opposite that we'd be like, she'sn't been around,

2486
01:45:50,320 --> 01:45:51,240
Speaker 3: but I don't want her.

2487
01:45:51,439 --> 01:45:52,400
Speaker 4: But which is crazy?

2488
01:45:52,400 --> 01:45:54,720
Speaker 1: And I said on another podcast, right, every man that

2489
01:45:54,840 --> 01:45:57,519
Speaker 1: is out here having sex is adding to the woman's body.

2490
01:45:57,360 --> 01:45:59,600
Speaker 3: Counting, right, yeah, I remember the podcast said that on

2491
01:45:59,760 --> 01:46:00,479
Speaker 3: you Why.

2492
01:46:00,439 --> 01:46:03,040
Speaker 1: It's like, okay, well, when we get married, we don't

2493
01:46:03,040 --> 01:46:04,639
Speaker 1: want a woman to hide body count.

2494
01:46:04,520 --> 01:46:07,200
Speaker 4: But you're adding to it, like what do you?

2495
01:46:07,360 --> 01:46:09,360
Speaker 1: But then when you're single, it's like, well you can't

2496
01:46:09,439 --> 01:46:11,479
Speaker 1: be not having sex because they no man gonna want

2497
01:46:11,479 --> 01:46:12,479
Speaker 1: you if you don't have sex.

2498
01:46:13,280 --> 01:46:15,400
Speaker 4: Okay, So then when I'm single, because they won't be

2499
01:46:15,479 --> 01:46:17,040
Speaker 4: with me if I don't have sex, I gotta have sex.

2500
01:46:17,360 --> 01:46:19,040
Speaker 4: So when I have sex, ask my body count.

2501
01:46:19,040 --> 01:46:20,760
Speaker 1: But then when it's time to get it, it disqualifies

2502
01:46:20,800 --> 01:46:24,639
Speaker 1: you get married, right, Can it make sense that you're

2503
01:46:24,640 --> 01:46:26,479
Speaker 1: adding to the body count. But then you're like, we

2504
01:46:26,479 --> 01:46:27,960
Speaker 1: don't want you to have a body count, Then stop

2505
01:46:28,000 --> 01:46:28,720
Speaker 1: having sex with them?

2506
01:46:28,800 --> 01:46:30,840
Speaker 3: No, They saying, well, the woman that's my wife, she's

2507
01:46:30,840 --> 01:46:33,320
Speaker 3: gonna have to have disciplines, right right, you gonna have to.

2508
01:46:33,360 --> 01:46:37,400
Speaker 1: Swarm off an now because somebody wasting here, like, ain't

2509
01:46:37,400 --> 01:46:38,519
Speaker 1: no man gonna want you, and.

2510
01:46:38,600 --> 01:46:41,519
Speaker 4: She fell for it. Leave somebody else's wife alone. You

2511
01:46:41,680 --> 01:46:45,160
Speaker 4: poking somebody's wife. Leave her alone. Stop disqualifying her. In

2512
01:46:45,280 --> 01:46:48,800
Speaker 4: y'all words, y'all be confused. Y'all really do.

2513
01:46:51,280 --> 01:46:53,080
Speaker 3: Fun? I said, well, that's so true.

2514
01:46:53,960 --> 01:46:54,840
Speaker 4: You get a little mad at me.

2515
01:46:54,880 --> 01:46:57,479
Speaker 3: But they got mad.

2516
01:46:58,439 --> 01:47:03,560
Speaker 4: They did get mad. I don't know what I was.

2517
01:47:03,760 --> 01:47:08,160
Speaker 4: I was genuinely confused. I'm like, what they got mad?

2518
01:47:08,240 --> 01:47:08,599
Speaker 3: He did?

2519
01:47:09,360 --> 01:47:12,439
Speaker 4: Doug will holler, right, but now they cool, they're cool,

2520
01:47:12,439 --> 01:47:15,080
Speaker 4: they cool, they're cool. But it because he didn't get mad.

2521
01:47:15,320 --> 01:47:15,840
Speaker 2: They got mad.

2522
01:47:15,880 --> 01:47:18,040
Speaker 3: They got mad that you like, because in their mind

2523
01:47:18,080 --> 01:47:21,360
Speaker 3: they're saying that don't mean we just want the woman.

2524
01:47:21,560 --> 01:47:23,560
Speaker 3: That's what he're saying is I want the woman that

2525
01:47:23,680 --> 01:47:26,280
Speaker 3: said no to all the wolves. I want the woman

2526
01:47:26,400 --> 01:47:29,719
Speaker 3: that the woman that rejected and turned down, the woman

2527
01:47:29,840 --> 01:47:32,120
Speaker 3: that doesn't have the quote unquote high body count.

2528
01:47:32,240 --> 01:47:35,960
Speaker 4: But why because sish, it's very selfish. It's for your ego,

2529
01:47:37,000 --> 01:47:37,720
Speaker 4: because like you.

2530
01:47:37,880 --> 01:47:40,040
Speaker 3: Just said, don't you think I want the same thing.

2531
01:47:40,360 --> 01:47:42,360
Speaker 3: I don't want a guy that's been out there and

2532
01:47:42,439 --> 01:47:46,320
Speaker 3: I gotta go ahead and repurpose the testimony you didn't.

2533
01:47:46,160 --> 01:47:50,880
Speaker 4: Have any right girl. Please look, I looking stupid, right,

2534
01:47:51,080 --> 01:47:52,280
Speaker 4: but I'm gonna do it for mine.

2535
01:47:53,520 --> 01:47:56,439
Speaker 3: So a man's ego is attached to that even more

2536
01:47:56,680 --> 01:47:58,479
Speaker 3: that he go in the room and know different dudes

2537
01:47:58,520 --> 01:48:00,840
Speaker 3: and being with a woman, he'd be like, yep, he

2538
01:48:01,080 --> 01:48:02,840
Speaker 3: just But again, because they were taught.

2539
01:48:02,960 --> 01:48:04,479
Speaker 2: Remember I go back to childhood.

2540
01:48:04,960 --> 01:48:09,200
Speaker 3: Girls are taught typically not to be out there messing

2541
01:48:09,200 --> 01:48:12,200
Speaker 3: around little boys and boys are taught the opposite. And

2542
01:48:12,320 --> 01:48:15,280
Speaker 3: so we know this as young men and young boys,

2543
01:48:15,320 --> 01:48:17,439
Speaker 3: that that's how they were taught. Even at the school.

2544
01:48:17,760 --> 01:48:19,800
Speaker 3: I talked to my nephew about this that the girls

2545
01:48:19,840 --> 01:48:20,680
Speaker 3: in they schooled.

2546
01:48:20,439 --> 01:48:21,559
Speaker 2: Like, yeah, she messed with everybody.

2547
01:48:21,840 --> 01:48:23,600
Speaker 3: I don't want her, she's for the streets, she's just

2548
01:48:23,720 --> 01:48:26,840
Speaker 3: or whatever. And then and you're taught that real early,

2549
01:48:27,320 --> 01:48:31,840
Speaker 3: to minimize a woman's value due to her body count,

2550
01:48:32,080 --> 01:48:34,519
Speaker 3: and so we grow up thinking that, and then we

2551
01:48:34,600 --> 01:48:37,479
Speaker 3: become adults and we go, Okay, now it's all my sister.

2552
01:48:37,600 --> 01:48:41,240
Speaker 3: Now I'm gonna choose my wife. Listen, Yeah, I need.

2553
01:48:41,200 --> 01:48:42,919
Speaker 2: The woman with Jaquia.

2554
01:48:43,040 --> 01:48:43,920
Speaker 3: Ah, that's nice.

2555
01:48:44,600 --> 01:48:45,840
Speaker 4: Oh you know, what's the number?

2556
01:48:46,520 --> 01:48:46,920
Speaker 2: I don't know.

2557
01:48:47,640 --> 01:48:50,720
Speaker 3: I got an argument with these guys. So I had

2558
01:48:50,760 --> 01:48:53,400
Speaker 3: this big viral video, one of my first viral videos

2559
01:48:53,400 --> 01:48:56,559
Speaker 3: in twenty twenty two. I said, I'm not concerned about

2560
01:48:56,600 --> 01:48:58,720
Speaker 3: a woman's past. She could have been with twenty five

2561
01:48:58,800 --> 01:49:02,800
Speaker 3: thirty five men. I said, I'm not intimidated by that.

2562
01:49:03,280 --> 01:49:05,760
Speaker 3: I said, the version of her I'll have no other

2563
01:49:05,840 --> 01:49:08,720
Speaker 3: man has ever gone. I said that on that reel.

2564
01:49:09,400 --> 01:49:12,439
Speaker 3: I just said, me, man, the manuscript got a hold

2565
01:49:12,479 --> 01:49:15,240
Speaker 3: of that went crazy. They kept saying, I can't believe

2566
01:49:15,240 --> 01:49:17,200
Speaker 3: you on a woman that's been for the streets and this, this, this,

2567
01:49:17,520 --> 01:49:19,800
Speaker 3: So I asked them, what is it? Yeah, I was

2568
01:49:19,880 --> 01:49:22,320
Speaker 3: on a male platform on YouTube, because they was talking

2569
01:49:22,320 --> 01:49:25,320
Speaker 3: about me on YouTube and I and one of my

2570
01:49:26,080 --> 01:49:28,320
Speaker 3: supporters saw. They said, they talking about you. They showed that.

2571
01:49:28,600 --> 01:49:30,479
Speaker 3: I got him the live. I started talking to him.

2572
01:49:30,840 --> 01:49:33,479
Speaker 3: They said about two or three at the most. I said,

2573
01:49:33,520 --> 01:49:35,720
Speaker 3: so you take what age? That's what I said. I said,

2574
01:49:35,760 --> 01:49:37,320
Speaker 3: So you take a woman that's fun, I said, thirty seven.

2575
01:49:37,320 --> 01:49:38,920
Speaker 3: I see, you take a woman thirty seven years old.

2576
01:49:39,200 --> 01:49:42,759
Speaker 3: She'd have been through college, I said, been through high school, college,

2577
01:49:43,240 --> 01:49:46,920
Speaker 3: and all her twenties and almost all her thirties, and

2578
01:49:47,040 --> 01:49:49,679
Speaker 3: you want her to have been with a guy each decade?

2579
01:49:50,360 --> 01:49:51,160
Speaker 3: And I said, he really?

2580
01:49:51,840 --> 01:49:54,760
Speaker 2: They said, They said yeah, yeah, that's what I want.

2581
01:49:55,160 --> 01:49:58,599
Speaker 3: And I said two or three. I said, what's your story?

2582
01:49:58,800 --> 01:49:59,000
Speaker 4: Yeah?

2583
01:49:59,080 --> 01:50:01,000
Speaker 3: And then he said, I mean a man is supposed

2584
01:50:01,040 --> 01:50:02,200
Speaker 3: to be this or whatever. And I said, but this

2585
01:50:02,240 --> 01:50:04,800
Speaker 3: is what God showed me a few months ago about

2586
01:50:04,880 --> 01:50:07,240
Speaker 3: my own thing. Is my woman is gonna want a

2587
01:50:07,360 --> 01:50:09,760
Speaker 3: man of valor to a man of discipline. I said, so,

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01:50:09,960 --> 01:50:12,800
Speaker 3: how do I blame her for running into a bunch

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01:50:12,880 --> 01:50:15,640
Speaker 3: of means on her way of finding me? Right? And

2590
01:50:15,720 --> 01:50:16,320
Speaker 3: he said.

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01:50:18,080 --> 01:50:18,240
Speaker 4: Right?

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01:50:18,439 --> 01:50:20,840
Speaker 3: He said, well, he said, I'm just saying a woman

2593
01:50:20,880 --> 01:50:23,640
Speaker 3: that's been with multiple people. They have an inability to

2594
01:50:25,120 --> 01:50:28,000
Speaker 3: pair bond. And he said that when a woman he

2595
01:50:29,080 --> 01:50:32,280
Speaker 3: likened it to wolves, that wolf packs joined together because

2596
01:50:32,320 --> 01:50:34,320
Speaker 3: they pair bond. He said, for a woman is used

2597
01:50:34,360 --> 01:50:36,559
Speaker 3: to sleeping with a guy and sleep with another guy,

2598
01:50:36,600 --> 01:50:38,759
Speaker 3: sleep with another guy, you're going to have a problem

2599
01:50:39,160 --> 01:50:42,200
Speaker 3: dating that woman and clearly marrying that woman because she

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01:50:42,320 --> 01:50:44,160
Speaker 3: has an inability to pair bond.

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01:50:44,320 --> 01:50:48,840
Speaker 2: She has an inability, he said. Men are conditioned like that.

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01:50:48,920 --> 01:50:51,559
Speaker 1: I guess that's why they be about to shoot up

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01:50:51,600 --> 01:50:54,680
Speaker 1: everybody when they find out their girlfriend and kiss a man.

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01:50:55,800 --> 01:50:58,240
Speaker 1: But y'all can just detach, right, But you were about

2605
01:50:58,280 --> 01:51:01,040
Speaker 1: to lose your mind when you found out she got

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01:51:01,120 --> 01:51:02,880
Speaker 1: a text from a man.

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01:51:04,800 --> 01:51:07,240
Speaker 3: That why testing you?

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01:51:07,360 --> 01:51:11,160
Speaker 4: Why are you caring? It doesn't make sense.

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01:51:11,240 --> 01:51:14,200
Speaker 3: Why do we, he said, because women are meant not

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01:51:14,479 --> 01:51:18,240
Speaker 3: to ever do that, and men are programmed be like that.

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01:51:19,800 --> 01:51:22,560
Speaker 4: Man of guy, because we are hoss the board and

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01:51:22,640 --> 01:51:23,200
Speaker 4: the tribe.

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01:51:23,320 --> 01:51:25,160
Speaker 1: No, what is good for the woman is good for

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01:51:25,240 --> 01:51:28,160
Speaker 1: the man. The Holy Spirit is residing in both. Okay,

2615
01:51:28,240 --> 01:51:31,200
Speaker 1: God said, both of us. Honor your body like what.

2616
01:51:31,560 --> 01:51:34,360
Speaker 4: It's not our own. Descripture talks about it's not our own. Therefore,

2617
01:51:34,400 --> 01:51:38,360
Speaker 4: honor God with their body. It holds true on both ends.

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01:51:38,800 --> 01:51:40,599
Speaker 4: So I don't understand in the world they could say

2619
01:51:40,640 --> 01:51:42,040
Speaker 4: what they want back end of the day, and we

2620
01:51:42,200 --> 01:51:43,360
Speaker 4: all all men have feelings.

2621
01:51:43,479 --> 01:51:46,320
Speaker 1: That stuff like that makes us think, oh, well, men

2622
01:51:46,400 --> 01:51:48,920
Speaker 1: don't bond and they don't have feelings and they don't care.

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01:51:49,000 --> 01:51:51,519
Speaker 4: Then they get mad when women think like that instead

2624
01:51:51,520 --> 01:51:53,920
Speaker 4: of change that nearature like, no, we want to bond too,

2625
01:51:54,040 --> 01:51:55,920
Speaker 4: does the same? What is it dopa?

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01:51:56,000 --> 01:52:01,200
Speaker 1: Meaning yeah, that's that that bonding do may not release

2627
01:52:01,240 --> 01:52:04,880
Speaker 1: oxytocin do Okay, So it bonds us and it pairs us.

2628
01:52:04,920 --> 01:52:06,679
Speaker 1: So why are we trying to act like it doesn't

2629
01:52:06,760 --> 01:52:09,080
Speaker 1: happen with men? Like they don't be trying to cuddlem

2630
01:52:09,160 --> 01:52:11,360
Speaker 1: like I don't know the whole, but I heard maybe.

2631
01:52:11,320 --> 01:52:16,160
Speaker 4: Cuddling all up to you. That is beautiful, they said

2632
01:52:16,240 --> 01:52:19,960
Speaker 4: right after the men be y'all cuddled up beneath you. Amen.

2633
01:52:20,080 --> 01:52:23,040
Speaker 4: We love that. We love that for y'all, So stop

2634
01:52:23,800 --> 01:52:24,400
Speaker 4: it's it's.

2635
01:52:24,320 --> 01:52:26,519
Speaker 1: Silly, and that's why we have to mute the noise

2636
01:52:26,640 --> 01:52:28,440
Speaker 1: because the world will have us confused.

2637
01:52:29,080 --> 01:52:30,439
Speaker 3: I want to, I want to, I want to make

2638
01:52:30,520 --> 01:52:32,000
Speaker 3: this a real and I'm gonna say this if you

2639
01:52:32,120 --> 01:52:34,719
Speaker 3: feel like men, do you believe it's a double standard,

2640
01:52:34,800 --> 01:52:37,840
Speaker 3: or you feel like this is how we were programmed

2641
01:52:37,880 --> 01:52:40,720
Speaker 3: as men and how women were programmed. I'm gonna make

2642
01:52:40,760 --> 01:52:45,160
Speaker 3: this surreal. I want y'all to talk, converse, not argue

2643
01:52:45,360 --> 01:52:48,320
Speaker 3: in the comments, have intelligent conversation. I want you all

2644
01:52:48,360 --> 01:52:52,360
Speaker 3: to bring scientific stuff and biblical references and so we

2645
01:52:52,479 --> 01:52:55,080
Speaker 3: can heal some stuff in here. We need to heal

2646
01:52:55,200 --> 01:52:58,160
Speaker 3: some stuff with these conversations. Saquia, it was absolutely amazing

2647
01:52:58,160 --> 01:52:59,799
Speaker 3: to have you on Diffuture Wifey podcast.

2648
01:53:00,000 --> 01:53:00,639
Speaker 2: Thank you so much.

2649
01:53:00,720 --> 01:53:02,760
Speaker 3: I kept trying to end it, but we just kept

2650
01:53:02,800 --> 01:53:04,960
Speaker 3: bringing more conversation up and I love it.

2651
01:53:05,000 --> 01:53:06,559
Speaker 2: I believe that you brought a lot of value.

2652
01:53:06,640 --> 01:53:11,000
Speaker 3: Y'all. Give it up for my homegrown Shaquiah seabrook Sea brooks.

2653
01:53:11,120 --> 01:53:14,599
Speaker 4: Okay, Gomolition, God bless.

2654
01:53:15,080 --> 01:53:17,160
Speaker 3: Stay tuned to the end for a letter to my

2655
01:53:17,240 --> 01:53:28,360
Speaker 3: future wife. Writing these love letters, Ladarian thrust it suddenly

2656
01:53:28,600 --> 01:53:33,080
Speaker 3: into child protective services. In twenty fifteen, my nephew Black

2657
01:53:33,840 --> 01:53:37,160
Speaker 3: a boy the likelihood have been adopted outside of kinship

2658
01:53:37,960 --> 01:53:43,160
Speaker 3: slim to none Ourmione, sixteen years old, black a boy

2659
01:53:43,640 --> 01:53:46,160
Speaker 3: with five years in the fossil care system before I

2660
01:53:46,280 --> 01:53:51,000
Speaker 3: even knew his name. The likelihood have ever been adopted Yep,

2661
01:53:51,080 --> 01:53:56,280
Speaker 3: you guessed it, slim to none. While Ladarian and Ourmiani

2662
01:53:56,320 --> 01:53:59,360
Speaker 3: were trying to survive and barely thrive in and overpopulated

2663
01:53:59,400 --> 01:54:02,040
Speaker 3: and underfun the Falster care system, I was living my

2664
01:54:02,080 --> 01:54:05,400
Speaker 3: own life, doing well professionally, having been a single father

2665
01:54:05,560 --> 01:54:07,479
Speaker 3: with a daughter who at that point was doing well

2666
01:54:07,560 --> 01:54:08,080
Speaker 3: in college.

2667
01:54:08,560 --> 01:54:10,200
Speaker 2: It was my time to live my life right.

2668
01:54:11,280 --> 01:54:11,519
Speaker 1: Wrong.

2669
01:54:12,680 --> 01:54:18,439
Speaker 3: I felt unsettled, tireless, agitated. There are just too many

2670
01:54:18,680 --> 01:54:22,080
Speaker 3: of our Black children stuck in ambiguity and in the

2671
01:54:22,200 --> 01:54:25,560
Speaker 3: limbo of the Falter care system. In twenty seventeen, I

2672
01:54:25,680 --> 01:54:29,559
Speaker 3: legally adopted my nephew Ladaria. Fast forward to twenty nineteen.

2673
01:54:29,600 --> 01:54:31,760
Speaker 3: I had no ties to this other young king, but

2674
01:54:31,840 --> 01:54:34,440
Speaker 3: I felt God instructed me to adopt them also in

2675
01:54:34,480 --> 01:54:38,520
Speaker 3: Il Babe, starting over with parenting should have been enough. Right,

2676
01:54:38,600 --> 01:54:41,360
Speaker 3: Working with various foster care and adoption agencies to help

2677
01:54:41,400 --> 01:54:44,480
Speaker 3: bring awareness to the countless young Black Kings and the

2678
01:54:44,520 --> 01:54:49,000
Speaker 3: Falster care system should have decreased my agitation. Right joining

2679
01:54:49,040 --> 01:54:52,000
Speaker 3: the board of directors of Advantage of Adoption and organization

2680
01:54:52,120 --> 01:54:55,280
Speaker 3: that helps find permanent adoptive homes for children in false

2681
01:54:55,400 --> 01:54:58,280
Speaker 3: care should have led to some type of resolve. Right, No,

2682
01:55:00,960 --> 01:55:04,360
Speaker 3: none of it felt like I had done enough. I

2683
01:55:04,480 --> 01:55:08,720
Speaker 3: now realized that every one of those experiences was land

2684
01:55:08,760 --> 01:55:11,160
Speaker 3: the fundamental foundation for my life's mission.

2685
01:55:12,080 --> 01:55:12,920
Speaker 2: Kingdom Royal.

2686
01:55:13,840 --> 01:55:16,520
Speaker 3: Kingdom Royal would be a luxury, state of the art

2687
01:55:16,600 --> 01:55:19,760
Speaker 3: home for foster boys. Our first location will be in

2688
01:55:19,800 --> 01:55:22,760
Speaker 3: the Dallas Fort Worth Metroplex. We will utilize the whole

2689
01:55:22,880 --> 01:55:27,480
Speaker 3: person approach that instills identity, empowers them to advocate for themselves,

2690
01:55:27,720 --> 01:55:31,800
Speaker 3: and enlightens them regarding new perspectives and limitless options that

2691
01:55:31,960 --> 01:55:36,520
Speaker 3: they thought were impossible. Though. The young Kings will attend

2692
01:55:36,520 --> 01:55:39,800
Speaker 3: the local public schools that are in proximity to Kingdom Royal.

2693
01:55:40,240 --> 01:55:44,080
Speaker 3: Our at home curriculum will broaden their worldview through participating

2694
01:55:44,080 --> 01:55:47,600
Speaker 3: in the arts, attending various cultural events, learning about and

2695
01:55:47,760 --> 01:55:52,200
Speaker 3: engaging in multifaceted discussions about current events and even relevant

2696
01:55:52,320 --> 01:55:56,760
Speaker 3: historical contexts, introducing them to gardening and landscaping, and even

2697
01:55:56,840 --> 01:56:00,560
Speaker 3: caring for our animals on our form and onsite stables.

2698
01:56:01,320 --> 01:56:04,680
Speaker 3: We just launched our startup capital campaign with the goal

2699
01:56:04,760 --> 01:56:06,400
Speaker 3: of raising two point eight million dollars.

2700
01:56:06,400 --> 01:56:07,840
Speaker 2: Now why two point eight million dollars?

2701
01:56:08,720 --> 01:56:11,040
Speaker 3: Well in twenty seventeen, I created a web series in

2702
01:56:11,080 --> 01:56:14,320
Speaker 3: which I performed random acts of kindness for targeting the

2703
01:56:14,400 --> 01:56:15,200
Speaker 3: homeless community.

2704
01:56:15,480 --> 01:56:17,360
Speaker 2: One of the most notable successes was.

2705
01:56:17,360 --> 01:56:20,680
Speaker 3: That one of the videos went viral, garnering twenty eight

2706
01:56:21,040 --> 01:56:24,800
Speaker 3: million views. However, one of my biggest regrets is that

2707
01:56:24,920 --> 01:56:27,760
Speaker 3: I didn't raise a single dollar to help in implementing

2708
01:56:27,960 --> 01:56:31,720
Speaker 3: a more sustainable plan for the homeless community. So throughout

2709
01:56:31,720 --> 01:56:35,480
Speaker 3: the years, with much remorse, I reflect that I'm not

2710
01:56:35,680 --> 01:56:39,040
Speaker 3: maximizing that moment. I knew if at that time just

2711
01:56:39,200 --> 01:56:42,240
Speaker 3: ten percent of the viewers donated one dollar, we would

2712
01:56:42,280 --> 01:56:45,680
Speaker 3: have raised at least two point eight million dollars that

2713
01:56:45,760 --> 01:56:48,879
Speaker 3: could have really established long term support for the homeless community,

2714
01:56:49,160 --> 01:56:52,240
Speaker 3: or at least started a long term initiative to do so.

2715
01:56:53,360 --> 01:56:57,960
Speaker 3: This is my do over, this is our new beginning. Together,

2716
01:56:58,320 --> 01:57:01,520
Speaker 3: we can attack this at the root by specifically helping

2717
01:57:01,720 --> 01:57:06,600
Speaker 3: our homeless Black boys, who are already disproportionately represented in

2718
01:57:06,680 --> 01:57:10,280
Speaker 3: the American fossil care system. I'm a Terisaarwick Phiel. I've

2719
01:57:10,320 --> 01:57:13,640
Speaker 3: been nominated for three regional Emmys documenting my work with

2720
01:57:13,720 --> 01:57:17,480
Speaker 3: the homeless, as well as my personal adoption journey. Despite

2721
01:57:17,560 --> 01:57:22,160
Speaker 3: those accolades. The greatest award for me is truly providing

2722
01:57:22,240 --> 01:57:27,560
Speaker 3: the infrastructure for a transformed life. Visit Kingdomroyal dot com

2723
01:57:27,680 --> 01:57:39,200
Speaker 3: for more details, Crown a king and make a donation today. Well,

2724
01:57:39,200 --> 01:57:41,240
Speaker 3: here's my favorite part of the podcast where I speak

2725
01:57:41,240 --> 01:57:44,160
Speaker 3: to my future wife he dear future wifey. In the

2726
01:57:44,280 --> 01:57:47,040
Speaker 3: world that treats sex like a casual handshake, I see

2727
01:57:47,080 --> 01:57:50,640
Speaker 3: it as a covenant handshake with Heaven. Intimacy between us

2728
01:57:50,680 --> 01:57:53,480
Speaker 3: will not just be the merging of bodies. It will

2729
01:57:53,560 --> 01:57:56,440
Speaker 3: be the merging of souls each time we come together.

2730
01:57:56,600 --> 01:57:59,720
Speaker 3: It won't merely be for pleasure, though pleasure will be

2731
01:58:00,400 --> 01:58:04,160
Speaker 3: it's fruit. It will be a renewal of vows without words,

2732
01:58:04,560 --> 01:58:07,880
Speaker 3: a reminder that our love is sacred, our union is

2733
01:58:07,920 --> 01:58:11,240
Speaker 3: set apart. I don't want our intimacy to be reduced

2734
01:58:11,280 --> 01:58:14,480
Speaker 3: to moments of convenience or stress release. I want it

2735
01:58:14,560 --> 01:58:17,919
Speaker 3: to be holy ground, a sanctuary where we both enter vulnerable,

2736
01:58:18,240 --> 01:58:21,840
Speaker 3: strip the ego, pride and fear, and find safety in

2737
01:58:21,920 --> 01:58:24,600
Speaker 3: each other's embrace. The rhythm of our bodies will be

2738
01:58:24,640 --> 01:58:27,360
Speaker 3: a prayer. The size we release will be worship, and

2739
01:58:27,440 --> 01:58:29,920
Speaker 3: the passion we share will be an offering to the

2740
01:58:30,040 --> 01:58:33,560
Speaker 3: God who authored our love. When I hold you close,

2741
01:58:34,080 --> 01:58:36,880
Speaker 3: I will treasure not just your curves, but your trust.

2742
01:58:37,400 --> 01:58:39,640
Speaker 3: When I kiss you deeply, I will honor not just

2743
01:58:39,720 --> 01:58:42,480
Speaker 3: your lips, but your spirit. And when I enter into you,

2744
01:58:43,080 --> 01:58:45,320
Speaker 3: I vow never to take lightly the fact that I

2745
01:58:45,640 --> 01:58:49,640
Speaker 3: have been granted access to the most sacred chamber of

2746
01:58:49,760 --> 01:58:54,080
Speaker 3: your being. That is not a right, It's a responsibility,

2747
01:58:54,640 --> 01:58:58,480
Speaker 3: a gift. I will never mishandle so let our bed

2748
01:58:58,600 --> 01:59:03,520
Speaker 3: be undefouled, a place where laughter, passion, and reverence all coexist.

2749
01:59:04,280 --> 01:59:08,080
Speaker 3: May our intimacy heal the cracks of the day, fuel

2750
01:59:08,160 --> 01:59:12,040
Speaker 3: the fires of our tomorrow, and continually remind us that

2751
01:59:12,240 --> 01:59:17,600
Speaker 3: sex is not common, it's consecrated. I hope you enjoyed

2752
01:59:17,680 --> 01:59:21,080
Speaker 3: this episode of the Dear Future WIFEI podcast. Remember belch,

2753
01:59:21,560 --> 01:59:26,360
Speaker 3: live intentionally and transparently, and don't stop loving. Make sure

2754
01:59:26,440 --> 01:59:28,920
Speaker 3: to subscribe to our Dear Future Wife you YouTube channel.

2755
01:59:29,120 --> 01:59:32,600
Speaker 3: We're available on Apple Podcasts, Google Podcasts, Spotify, and Stitcher.

2756
01:59:32,880 --> 01:59:35,960
Speaker 3: Welcome your support. Simply share our podcasts with your friends

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