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Speaker 2: welcome to your dear future WIFEI podcast Tasha Page Lockhart

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Speaker 2: and my homie di'angelo lofton what's up?

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Speaker 3: What we said in Detroit?

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Speaker 1: What up?

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Speaker 4: What up? Though? That's what's up Sunday best is in

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Speaker 3: Huh sir?

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Speaker 4: How did you feel being on that show?

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Speaker 3: All comes great?

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Speaker 1: God used it to expose me to millions of people

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Speaker 4: Mom went super duper viral. Your future dad is gonna

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Speaker 4: how do you feel?

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Speaker 3: I carry a pistol.

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Speaker 4: You're too old to try to stop your mama from love.

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Speaker 4: These two men pursuing your mama heavy.

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Speaker 3: I never gave up on love. I always be married.

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Speaker 3: Two prayers that I prayed.

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Speaker 1: and then that's when he had DM me. Two weeks later,

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Speaker 4: How did y'all meet my God?

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Speaker 5: One day she took a picture she had no makeup on,

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Speaker 4: And I don't even know you.

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Speaker 1: He didn't even ask me, but the vibe was just there.

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Speaker 4: Where were you at in your relationship journey?

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Speaker 5: In the process of going through a divorce, I was

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Speaker 2: When y'all met, he was still married going through a divorce.

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Speaker 2: How did you take that?

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Speaker 2: I've always said that I want the Dear Future Wifie

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Speaker 4: Let's talk about it.

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Speaker 2: And I think I'm very thankful to this couple sees

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Speaker 2: I'm about to call you Lockhart.

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Speaker 1: It's not Lockhart is the stage name. So that's around.

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Speaker 4: But yeah, Tasha Page Lockhart. And my homie di'angelo Lofton,

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Speaker 4: what's up.

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Speaker 4: What up? Though? That's what's up? Let me up? So

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Speaker 2: So, even when you as an artist and you get married,

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Speaker 1: Every everything legally on my license, on my everything that

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Speaker 3: You have coming off a Sunday best so.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, and Diageo. How do you feel about that?

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Speaker 4: I'm cool with it. I'm cool.

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Speaker 5: I met her as Tasha Page Lockhart, and I understand

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Speaker 5: it's business.

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Speaker 1: I like that you said that I understand this business.

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Speaker 5: Yeah, boy, when it's business, you completely understand that. And

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Speaker 5: When it's all said and done, there it is all right.

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Speaker 4: Let me ask you just what song would people remember

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Speaker 4: you by? What? What song? If you were to sing this,

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Speaker 3: I didn't want to go on the show.

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Speaker 4: What do you think about the outcome?

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Speaker 1: The outcome is great. God used it to expose me

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Speaker 2: A tremendous blessing put you in households all across the world,

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Speaker 4: I'm not brown?

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Speaker 2: No, you know what, I can't think it was my

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Speaker 2: And even when he says his name was Lofton, I said,

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Speaker 4: My brother is a musician. No, okay, that your brother

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Speaker 5: Uh, it's extensive. My background. I started off in church

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Speaker 5: So it was a lot of lead up to me

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Speaker 4: Yeah. Yeah. I was working then and head the room.

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Speaker 4: I don't know what it is, but I think the Lord.

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Speaker 4: Right there, holy goes right there again. She got Holy

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Speaker 4: So tell me why it was important from a man's

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Speaker 5: Absolutely, And that's what it was for me, you know,

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Speaker 5: You got to be a chatted to a person before

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Speaker 4: I ain't asked, nothing to ask.

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Speaker 1: I'm like, let me get out of the Instagram. It's

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Speaker 5: Said your number. You think I could not believe it.

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Speaker 1: Because I went to his page and saw he was

447
00:21:55,040 --> 00:21:57,680
Speaker 1: a pastor. So at first, I mean I did read it,

448
00:21:57,720 --> 00:21:59,640
Speaker 1: and I was just like, oh, I got to pay

449
00:21:59,640 --> 00:22:03,680
Speaker 1: attention to this. Then I started doing some research. I'm like, pastor, No,

450
00:22:04,000 --> 00:22:04,800
Speaker 1: not another one.

451
00:22:06,440 --> 00:22:13,600
Speaker 4: No, not another one, another one, another one?

452
00:22:16,400 --> 00:22:16,560
Speaker 1: Right.

453
00:22:18,040 --> 00:22:18,639
Speaker 4: I gave her.

454
00:22:18,760 --> 00:22:21,160
Speaker 5: I gave it an hour, and I was like, man,

455
00:22:21,680 --> 00:22:25,680
Speaker 5: she done responded, How can I respond back? And so

456
00:22:26,320 --> 00:22:30,560
Speaker 5: I responded by, like, I know a thousand men talked

457
00:22:30,600 --> 00:22:34,080
Speaker 5: to you on a regular basis, but you responded back

458
00:22:34,119 --> 00:22:35,920
Speaker 5: to me. I just want to say thank you. I

459
00:22:36,160 --> 00:22:39,399
Speaker 5: understand your celebrity status and you know. And and then

460
00:22:39,520 --> 00:22:41,520
Speaker 5: she responded by And then that's when she told me

461
00:22:41,600 --> 00:22:43,760
Speaker 5: she lived in Curry. And I was like, well, the

462
00:22:43,800 --> 00:22:45,320
Speaker 5: only thing we can go to is a gas station

463
00:22:45,480 --> 00:22:50,359
Speaker 5: out there, because yeah, there ain't nothing out there. Whatever,

464
00:22:52,040 --> 00:22:56,920
Speaker 5: got the best she is everywhere. Get a little sandwich

465
00:22:57,040 --> 00:23:01,359
Speaker 5: or sheets. And then and then she sent me her number,

466
00:23:01,720 --> 00:23:04,840
Speaker 5: and I was like, wait a minute, one of my love.

467
00:23:04,760 --> 00:23:07,320
Speaker 1: Languages, if you could make me laugh, you're making me

468
00:23:07,440 --> 00:23:10,480
Speaker 1: laugh through text vibe too strong?

469
00:23:10,840 --> 00:23:12,639
Speaker 3: Bye, I g no.

470
00:23:16,000 --> 00:23:18,320
Speaker 5: And we got on the phone and we talked for

471
00:23:18,680 --> 00:23:21,879
Speaker 5: two hours. Yeah, the first time it was in the

472
00:23:21,960 --> 00:23:24,479
Speaker 5: morning time. First time and for two hours, and then

473
00:23:24,520 --> 00:23:27,479
Speaker 5: she hung up the phone, went to be with her

474
00:23:27,520 --> 00:23:31,760
Speaker 5: sisters and her mother and facetimed because honestly, the whole time,

475
00:23:31,760 --> 00:23:35,399
Speaker 5: I'm thinking it's fake. I don't know her voice like that. No,

476
00:23:35,600 --> 00:23:39,040
Speaker 5: I'm thinking it's somebody playing with me for real. But

477
00:23:39,160 --> 00:23:42,359
Speaker 5: then she facetimed me. Later on her mother was on

478
00:23:42,480 --> 00:23:44,480
Speaker 5: the phone. I was like about to wreck my car

479
00:23:44,520 --> 00:23:46,720
Speaker 5: because I was like, wait a minute, while am I

480
00:23:46,760 --> 00:23:48,200
Speaker 5: asking answer FaceTime?

481
00:23:48,440 --> 00:23:50,600
Speaker 4: Driving anyway? But anyway, and I was like.

482
00:23:51,440 --> 00:23:57,320
Speaker 5: Wow, she's this down to earth. We just vibing like crazy,

483
00:23:57,440 --> 00:23:59,880
Speaker 5: and honestly, from there it just took off.

484
00:24:00,960 --> 00:24:03,880
Speaker 2: I met I met Tosha on the phone last year

485
00:24:03,880 --> 00:24:05,960
Speaker 2: when I wanted to get your mom on the podcast,

486
00:24:07,880 --> 00:24:11,639
Speaker 2: mom went super duper viral. What would people know that

487
00:24:12,200 --> 00:24:17,240
Speaker 2: people that were introduced to her what TikTok vocal was

488
00:24:17,320 --> 00:24:17,600
Speaker 2: going on?

489
00:24:19,240 --> 00:24:23,560
Speaker 1: The Devil is a lie Yah yeah, yeah, And we

490
00:24:23,640 --> 00:24:27,000
Speaker 1: thought she was just playing, like how in the world

491
00:24:27,200 --> 00:24:27,720
Speaker 1: is this thing?

492
00:24:29,800 --> 00:24:30,919
Speaker 3: We just I thank God for.

493
00:24:31,000 --> 00:24:33,520
Speaker 1: What he's doing in her life. Is how everything happened,

494
00:24:33,720 --> 00:24:34,480
Speaker 1: It's been amazing.

495
00:24:34,920 --> 00:24:39,600
Speaker 2: And so that came at a very interesting time for

496
00:24:39,720 --> 00:24:42,359
Speaker 2: her life, the loss of her husband or how many.

497
00:24:42,320 --> 00:24:45,280
Speaker 3: Years, twenty seven No, yeah, twenty seven years.

498
00:24:45,200 --> 00:24:46,160
Speaker 4: Twenty seven years.

499
00:24:46,560 --> 00:24:48,760
Speaker 2: And we talked about her coming on the podcast, but

500
00:24:49,640 --> 00:24:53,640
Speaker 2: beautiful story, beautiful thing, and then that moment was her

501
00:24:54,040 --> 00:24:57,840
Speaker 2: You encourage her to get back record, get back into

502
00:24:57,880 --> 00:25:00,680
Speaker 2: the music industry, and she's like, don't nobody want ain't nobody.

503
00:25:01,040 --> 00:25:02,879
Speaker 1: I don't think I can do this without Dad. She

504
00:25:03,000 --> 00:25:04,320
Speaker 1: just kept saying, I don't know if I can do

505
00:25:04,440 --> 00:25:07,439
Speaker 1: this without him. He wasn't just her husband. He discovered her.

506
00:25:07,560 --> 00:25:10,040
Speaker 1: He was her producer, he wrote all the songs, he

507
00:25:10,200 --> 00:25:13,040
Speaker 1: was her manager, he was her pastor. It was a

508
00:25:13,160 --> 00:25:16,480
Speaker 1: lot losing all the line up, all those people. I

509
00:25:16,600 --> 00:25:20,280
Speaker 1: just said, that's like five jobs, that's five different people.

510
00:25:20,640 --> 00:25:22,920
Speaker 1: You lost all of that in one suit.

511
00:25:23,800 --> 00:25:25,560
Speaker 3: So it's been tough.

512
00:25:26,000 --> 00:25:30,359
Speaker 2: And then just recording that moment and that going super

513
00:25:30,520 --> 00:25:34,680
Speaker 2: duper viral and introducing her the generations that wouldn't even

514
00:25:34,880 --> 00:25:36,000
Speaker 2: know of her existence.

515
00:25:36,359 --> 00:25:37,720
Speaker 4: How encouraging was that for her?

516
00:25:38,000 --> 00:25:40,200
Speaker 1: It was very encouraging because it let her know like,

517
00:25:40,320 --> 00:25:43,040
Speaker 1: you still got a lot left in you. No people

518
00:25:43,160 --> 00:25:45,639
Speaker 1: need what you have, and so I thank God for that.

519
00:25:46,400 --> 00:25:51,040
Speaker 4: And so how do you feel about your future?

520
00:25:51,119 --> 00:25:53,920
Speaker 2: Dad is going to either be Willie Moore Junior, or

521
00:25:53,960 --> 00:25:56,600
Speaker 2: it's going to be Jonathan mc reynold's like, how do

522
00:25:56,640 --> 00:25:57,040
Speaker 2: you feel?

523
00:25:57,240 --> 00:26:01,119
Speaker 4: How you been coming to the acceptance of that. I

524
00:26:01,240 --> 00:26:03,000
Speaker 4: carry a pistol, You carry a pistol.

525
00:26:03,720 --> 00:26:04,480
Speaker 3: I go to the rain.

526
00:26:04,600 --> 00:26:06,480
Speaker 4: I understand that. But you got to let it.

527
00:26:06,600 --> 00:26:08,680
Speaker 2: You're too old to try to stop your mama from love.

528
00:26:08,880 --> 00:26:12,480
Speaker 2: You know these two men are pursuing your mama. Heavy

529
00:26:14,400 --> 00:26:16,080
Speaker 2: You feel like that. You know you done got on.

530
00:26:16,160 --> 00:26:18,520
Speaker 2: You not moved on and got your love. Your mama can't.

531
00:26:18,640 --> 00:26:19,520
Speaker 2: Your mama can't find her.

532
00:26:19,760 --> 00:26:21,399
Speaker 1: First of all, I want all of these young guys

533
00:26:21,480 --> 00:26:26,960
Speaker 1: to stay away from from mama. It's so funny. It's

534
00:26:27,000 --> 00:26:29,880
Speaker 1: just a fun We just got going. Willie Morton talked

535
00:26:29,920 --> 00:26:32,240
Speaker 1: about her a couple of times on the radio. The

536
00:26:32,320 --> 00:26:34,359
Speaker 1: White Stone to text me like where your mama? Tell

537
00:26:34,400 --> 00:26:36,160
Speaker 1: her to get over here, Willie works, I'm like, y'all

538
00:26:36,320 --> 00:26:39,480
Speaker 1: leave my bahlone. I talked about Obama. You stopped walking

539
00:26:39,520 --> 00:26:42,720
Speaker 1: away from that camera. Now walking away from walking away

540
00:26:42,720 --> 00:26:46,119
Speaker 1: from that camera, right all right?

541
00:26:46,880 --> 00:26:53,040
Speaker 2: Stop walking away from standing there looking at the camera

542
00:26:53,520 --> 00:26:56,679
Speaker 2: and so so yeah, man shout out to her. How

543
00:26:56,760 --> 00:26:57,320
Speaker 2: she's been doing.

544
00:26:57,440 --> 00:26:57,960
Speaker 1: She's doing good.

545
00:26:58,080 --> 00:27:00,880
Speaker 4: So she's doing great, she just wants to Yeah.

546
00:27:01,359 --> 00:27:03,960
Speaker 1: I think it's traditional female Gospel Artists of the Year.

547
00:27:04,720 --> 00:27:05,640
Speaker 1: That's our second one.

548
00:27:06,359 --> 00:27:12,560
Speaker 2: People don't even know. Ye, yes, legend, that's a legend.

549
00:27:12,680 --> 00:27:14,639
Speaker 2: I want you all go look who that is. That

550
00:27:14,920 --> 00:27:18,720
Speaker 2: is an absolute legend. And you'll see what we're talking

551
00:27:18,720 --> 00:27:19,800
Speaker 2: about when you start deep down.

552
00:27:20,040 --> 00:27:24,159
Speaker 1: Oh oh yeah, that's the voice on his blessed words.

553
00:27:24,560 --> 00:27:26,679
Speaker 4: Yes, yes, legend.

554
00:27:28,000 --> 00:27:30,720
Speaker 2: And so pop up on FaceTime. You see the Mama,

555
00:27:30,800 --> 00:27:34,200
Speaker 2: you see Tasha. You're like, Okay, this is real, you know,

556
00:27:34,800 --> 00:27:37,560
Speaker 2: And what did you think? Where were you at in

557
00:27:37,640 --> 00:27:41,520
Speaker 2: your relationship journey? Like had you been divorced at this

558
00:27:41,680 --> 00:27:43,880
Speaker 2: moment or you been divorced with X amount of years?

559
00:27:43,920 --> 00:27:46,200
Speaker 4: What? What? What was your relationship journey at this point?

560
00:27:46,480 --> 00:27:47,560
Speaker 1: Will the truth.

561
00:27:48,840 --> 00:27:49,240
Speaker 4: The truth?

562
00:27:49,800 --> 00:27:50,320
Speaker 5: Amen?

563
00:27:50,760 --> 00:27:53,639
Speaker 4: Amen? Amen? So I was.

564
00:27:53,840 --> 00:27:57,960
Speaker 5: I was in the process of going through divorce. I

565
00:27:58,160 --> 00:28:01,399
Speaker 5: was in my own home, you know, in my own place,

566
00:28:02,160 --> 00:28:09,159
Speaker 5: and still pastoring and losing my mind, all of it,

567
00:28:09,760 --> 00:28:12,200
Speaker 5: all of it. I was at the altar crying out

568
00:28:12,240 --> 00:28:15,000
Speaker 5: to the Lord asking him why am I going through this?

569
00:28:15,760 --> 00:28:19,000
Speaker 5: Like the bird and the pain, everything was happening all

570
00:28:19,080 --> 00:28:22,159
Speaker 5: at once. This is you know, months before I met her,

571
00:28:22,640 --> 00:28:25,119
Speaker 5: and I was like, God, I don't want to go

572
00:28:25,240 --> 00:28:28,760
Speaker 5: through this. I don't understand this, you know. And the

573
00:28:28,880 --> 00:28:32,399
Speaker 5: Lord spoke to me and said, he said, I'm about

574
00:28:32,440 --> 00:28:36,639
Speaker 5: to place something in front of you that eyes have

575
00:28:36,840 --> 00:28:37,280
Speaker 5: not seen.

576
00:28:37,880 --> 00:28:40,000
Speaker 4: And I'm like, I don't want to see.

577
00:28:39,880 --> 00:28:44,200
Speaker 5: It, you know, because because I'm being real, Like I

578
00:28:44,400 --> 00:28:46,960
Speaker 5: was striving to keep what I had, you know, because

579
00:28:47,080 --> 00:28:49,640
Speaker 5: no man wants to go through something that he invested in.

580
00:28:50,120 --> 00:28:52,720
Speaker 5: Another man wanted to lose something that he invested in

581
00:28:52,920 --> 00:28:56,480
Speaker 5: at the time. But you know, I had to accept

582
00:28:56,520 --> 00:28:58,880
Speaker 5: what God allowed. I had to accept the moment and

583
00:28:59,080 --> 00:29:03,640
Speaker 5: accept what was going on in my past and so.

584
00:29:05,640 --> 00:29:06,720
Speaker 4: Be real. Can I be real?

585
00:29:07,120 --> 00:29:10,800
Speaker 5: A real platform what it is. I did not want

586
00:29:10,960 --> 00:29:14,160
Speaker 5: to get married again. I had to say it like that,

587
00:29:15,120 --> 00:29:19,080
Speaker 5: you told me to tell the truth. I was about

588
00:29:19,120 --> 00:29:23,400
Speaker 5: to be for the streets, absolutely the whole. I was like,

589
00:29:23,880 --> 00:29:26,920
Speaker 5: I'm not doing this again. I was about to be

590
00:29:27,160 --> 00:29:35,400
Speaker 5: outside and in these streets and and and I didn't

591
00:29:35,440 --> 00:29:40,040
Speaker 5: want another church girl, none of it. Long she loved

592
00:29:40,080 --> 00:29:40,400
Speaker 5: the Lord.

593
00:29:40,440 --> 00:29:43,080
Speaker 4: I was fine with it. You know, God, Okay, let's go.

594
00:29:43,600 --> 00:29:43,800
Speaker 5: You know.

595
00:29:47,440 --> 00:29:51,160
Speaker 4: Jesus, You know Jesus so and that's that's the mind

596
00:29:51,320 --> 00:29:55,720
Speaker 4: where how many years were you married. I was married, uh.

597
00:29:58,280 --> 00:30:01,040
Speaker 2: Six years, all right, six years? He and it was

598
00:30:01,120 --> 00:30:02,960
Speaker 2: at your first marriage only, man, oh that was my

599
00:30:03,280 --> 00:30:05,320
Speaker 2: that was my second marriage. Second marriage.

600
00:30:05,440 --> 00:30:08,640
Speaker 5: First marriage was ten years, ten years, so.

601
00:30:08,720 --> 00:30:10,760
Speaker 4: Sixteen years of marriage combined. You like, I don't want

602
00:30:10,760 --> 00:30:12,160
Speaker 4: to do it, no more, don't want to do it.

603
00:30:12,520 --> 00:30:14,800
Speaker 5: Don't want to do it because I was like, something's wrong,

604
00:30:14,920 --> 00:30:18,800
Speaker 5: must be wrong with me where you know, I need

605
00:30:18,880 --> 00:30:21,880
Speaker 5: to fix me. You know, although I can bring up

606
00:30:21,920 --> 00:30:26,280
Speaker 5: a whole lot of a whole lot of things from

607
00:30:26,320 --> 00:30:29,040
Speaker 5: the other end, but I was like, Lord, I need

608
00:30:29,160 --> 00:30:33,080
Speaker 5: to fix me. So I immediately went into counseling. And

609
00:30:33,240 --> 00:30:35,920
Speaker 5: I was in counseling for a year. Even I was

610
00:30:35,960 --> 00:30:37,400
Speaker 5: still in counseling when I met her.

611
00:30:37,880 --> 00:30:39,240
Speaker 4: You know that's good.

612
00:30:39,600 --> 00:30:42,440
Speaker 5: And I just kept going going because I did. I

613
00:30:42,520 --> 00:30:46,120
Speaker 5: didn't want to because I knew that honestly when I

614
00:30:46,280 --> 00:30:49,280
Speaker 5: married her. When I met her, I knew that the

615
00:30:49,360 --> 00:30:51,640
Speaker 5: Lord was setting us up. So I won't just meeting

616
00:30:51,680 --> 00:30:54,880
Speaker 5: her just to have fun. She wasn't a part of

617
00:30:55,000 --> 00:30:58,440
Speaker 5: the me being in the streets, and so I knew

618
00:30:58,480 --> 00:31:00,680
Speaker 5: that if God was, you know, well, let.

619
00:31:00,640 --> 00:31:02,760
Speaker 2: Me ask you just Tasha, you know, because you like

620
00:31:03,000 --> 00:31:04,440
Speaker 2: I ain't trying to marry another pastor?

621
00:31:04,480 --> 00:31:06,680
Speaker 4: Where was your heart at? Did you desire marriage at

622
00:31:06,720 --> 00:31:07,000
Speaker 4: that time?

623
00:31:07,320 --> 00:31:09,440
Speaker 3: I still desire I never gave up on love. I

624
00:31:09,520 --> 00:31:13,040
Speaker 3: always be married. And best version of me is when.

625
00:31:12,880 --> 00:31:14,440
Speaker 4: I'm married and you've been married how many times?

626
00:31:14,760 --> 00:31:15,960
Speaker 3: I had been married twice before?

627
00:31:16,040 --> 00:31:18,080
Speaker 2: All right, so you been married twice? He been married

628
00:31:18,120 --> 00:31:20,480
Speaker 2: twice before. But you still was hopeful. But you just

629
00:31:20,520 --> 00:31:21,400
Speaker 2: didn't want to pass us.

630
00:31:21,560 --> 00:31:22,040
Speaker 3: No, I didn't.

631
00:31:22,080 --> 00:31:25,080
Speaker 1: Why not because of the situation I was in before.

632
00:31:25,200 --> 00:31:30,600
Speaker 1: It was so traumatic and I was just like a

633
00:31:30,720 --> 00:31:34,880
Speaker 1: basketball player, a football player, a plumber something.

634
00:31:35,160 --> 00:31:35,880
Speaker 2: Just have a job.

635
00:31:36,200 --> 00:31:42,240
Speaker 1: Just love God, you got you gotta speak a tongue though,

636
00:31:42,400 --> 00:31:43,320
Speaker 1: you gotta be able to lay.

637
00:31:43,360 --> 00:31:44,000
Speaker 3: Hadn't zob me?

638
00:31:44,800 --> 00:31:46,440
Speaker 4: But you can't be a pastor league?

639
00:31:46,520 --> 00:31:49,680
Speaker 1: No, So I was just like God, why it was

640
00:31:49,760 --> 00:31:51,760
Speaker 1: just the be was just too strong, like really, the

641
00:31:51,880 --> 00:31:55,480
Speaker 1: chemistry it was so strong, it was undeniable.

642
00:31:56,640 --> 00:31:58,760
Speaker 2: And so when you found out, So when y'all met,

643
00:31:58,800 --> 00:32:00,479
Speaker 2: he was still married going through divorce.

644
00:32:00,800 --> 00:32:01,680
Speaker 4: How did you take that?

645
00:32:02,800 --> 00:32:10,720
Speaker 1: So he thought he was divorced, thought you're talking about

646
00:32:11,320 --> 00:32:12,800
Speaker 1: So I'll say this, I'll say this much.

647
00:32:15,880 --> 00:32:17,280
Speaker 3: I'll say I'll say this much.

648
00:32:19,600 --> 00:32:24,320
Speaker 1: It was a situation to where all the paperwork wasn't

649
00:32:24,320 --> 00:32:27,160
Speaker 1: turned in yet, it wasn't all way all the way

650
00:32:27,200 --> 00:32:29,240
Speaker 1: fu out and there was a out of sight, out

651
00:32:29,240 --> 00:32:30,040
Speaker 1: of mind type of thing.

652
00:32:30,080 --> 00:32:32,080
Speaker 3: It's like, oh, yeah, I signed it. You know what

653
00:32:32,120 --> 00:32:32,400
Speaker 3: I mean.

654
00:32:32,480 --> 00:32:34,520
Speaker 1: You're busy with your life. You passed around, you moving,

655
00:32:34,520 --> 00:32:36,640
Speaker 1: and you moving, you're moving, and then all of a sudden,

656
00:32:36,640 --> 00:32:38,480
Speaker 1: it's like, no, this is not all the way done.

657
00:32:38,960 --> 00:32:41,440
Speaker 1: And so we were faced with something early on in

658
00:32:41,520 --> 00:32:45,280
Speaker 1: our relationship, after we were already after we already had

659
00:32:45,320 --> 00:32:47,600
Speaker 1: feelings for one another, where I had to make a

660
00:32:47,640 --> 00:32:51,080
Speaker 1: decision do I stay or do I leave? And so

661
00:32:51,240 --> 00:32:53,240
Speaker 1: I chose to stay because I saw work in it.

662
00:32:53,360 --> 00:32:55,640
Speaker 1: I saw I saw him for the man who he

663
00:32:55,720 --> 00:32:56,120
Speaker 1: really is.

664
00:32:56,280 --> 00:32:58,120
Speaker 4: So he told you that, he told you that, hey,

665
00:32:58,240 --> 00:32:59,000
Speaker 4: this wasn't foul.

666
00:32:59,640 --> 00:33:00,120
Speaker 5: Uh uh.

667
00:33:00,160 --> 00:33:03,160
Speaker 3: I'm still honest with me from the beginning, absolutely.

668
00:33:02,920 --> 00:33:06,240
Speaker 4: And let you make an informed decision. Yes, and you

669
00:33:06,360 --> 00:33:06,600
Speaker 4: did that.

670
00:33:06,960 --> 00:33:10,520
Speaker 1: That's what won me over though. Like when because it

671
00:33:10,640 --> 00:33:14,520
Speaker 1: was out of state relationship, London's relationship, I had caught

672
00:33:14,600 --> 00:33:16,800
Speaker 1: like four people trying to vent him. I was like,

673
00:33:16,840 --> 00:33:20,200
Speaker 1: what do you know about die? I called four people,

674
00:33:20,600 --> 00:33:23,400
Speaker 1: And when I called those people, they confirmed everything he

675
00:33:23,520 --> 00:33:25,280
Speaker 1: told really everything he told me.

676
00:33:25,320 --> 00:33:26,640
Speaker 3: He never lied from the beginning, so they.

677
00:33:26,640 --> 00:33:27,640
Speaker 4: Knew that you were separated.

678
00:33:29,200 --> 00:33:32,680
Speaker 5: Yeah, so I mean you wouldn't try a lot of

679
00:33:32,720 --> 00:33:36,080
Speaker 5: people didn't know my business. Yeah, I kept my business private.

680
00:33:36,280 --> 00:33:40,080
Speaker 5: But you know, through different circumstances, a lot of people

681
00:33:40,520 --> 00:33:44,360
Speaker 5: started realizing that, oh they're not together no more, you know,

682
00:33:44,840 --> 00:33:47,520
Speaker 5: you know, because it was it has been a year already,

683
00:33:47,600 --> 00:33:49,680
Speaker 5: and you know, we just I was just very.

684
00:33:49,600 --> 00:33:50,480
Speaker 4: Private with mine.

685
00:33:51,120 --> 00:33:55,040
Speaker 5: I didn't go on Facebook and put separated like people do,

686
00:33:55,360 --> 00:33:57,920
Speaker 5: like you know, and so I just kept moving and

687
00:33:58,280 --> 00:33:59,800
Speaker 5: kept dealing with what I had to deal with.

688
00:34:00,520 --> 00:34:00,640
Speaker 4: Uh.

689
00:34:00,960 --> 00:34:04,640
Speaker 5: And I didn't even know that she knew anybody from Virginia,

690
00:34:05,800 --> 00:34:09,440
Speaker 5: so for me, But I know in the music industry,

691
00:34:09,719 --> 00:34:12,520
Speaker 5: and it just people just know think they know everything

692
00:34:13,120 --> 00:34:15,160
Speaker 5: and really don't know half of nothing. You know, they

693
00:34:15,280 --> 00:34:18,480
Speaker 5: just know what they think they know. But you know,

694
00:34:18,600 --> 00:34:20,840
Speaker 5: I just chose to be honest from the from the beginning.

695
00:34:20,920 --> 00:34:23,600
Speaker 5: That's good though, Yeah, And you know, honestly is the

696
00:34:23,680 --> 00:34:26,560
Speaker 5: best policy. It is, regardless of how much it hurts,

697
00:34:27,760 --> 00:34:31,080
Speaker 5: because I honestly hurts sometimes it does, you know, But

698
00:34:31,480 --> 00:34:34,600
Speaker 5: I thank God for opening up doors now now she

699
00:34:34,680 --> 00:34:37,560
Speaker 5: ain't telling the full truth because she broke up with

700
00:34:37,680 --> 00:34:45,600
Speaker 5: me about three times, and.

701
00:34:45,680 --> 00:34:48,920
Speaker 1: It wasn't anything that he was doing. Because I had

702
00:34:48,960 --> 00:34:51,839
Speaker 1: never given my chance, given myself a chance to actually.

703
00:34:51,600 --> 00:34:54,439
Speaker 3: Date like I was. I wanted to see. I wanted

704
00:34:54,480 --> 00:34:55,840
Speaker 3: to see from.

705
00:34:55,760 --> 00:34:59,000
Speaker 4: From your divorce and meeting him. How many? How long

706
00:34:59,120 --> 00:35:03,360
Speaker 4: was that from your past husband, Sonny?

707
00:35:05,520 --> 00:35:06,040
Speaker 3: Three years?

708
00:35:06,280 --> 00:35:08,560
Speaker 4: And you still didn't have enough time dating three year olds?

709
00:35:08,560 --> 00:35:11,319
Speaker 1: Because that first year after that was healing, all right.

710
00:35:11,920 --> 00:35:14,160
Speaker 1: I wasn't no, It wasn't no. I wasn't even in

711
00:35:14,239 --> 00:35:18,760
Speaker 1: a mindset or wasn't no dating after that. It was healing.

712
00:35:18,920 --> 00:35:23,000
Speaker 1: It was get your mind back. So once I did

713
00:35:23,920 --> 00:35:28,879
Speaker 1: get permission from the Lord to start dating again, I did.

714
00:35:28,920 --> 00:35:32,719
Speaker 1: I wasn't in a relationship that didn't that ended, and

715
00:35:32,880 --> 00:35:36,000
Speaker 1: then I was just dating different people I wanted to see.

716
00:35:36,719 --> 00:35:38,920
Speaker 1: Twenty year old Tasha and forty year old Tasha is

717
00:35:38,920 --> 00:35:41,960
Speaker 1: two different things. When you're dating in your twenties, you're

718
00:35:42,160 --> 00:35:44,680
Speaker 1: talking about what you aspire to be. This is what

719
00:35:44,760 --> 00:35:46,560
Speaker 1: we're gonna do together, and we're gonna travel the world,

720
00:35:46,560 --> 00:35:48,320
Speaker 1: and we're gonna write songs, and we're gonna tour and

721
00:35:48,360 --> 00:35:50,120
Speaker 1: we're gonna d da da da da. We're gonna have

722
00:35:50,280 --> 00:35:53,400
Speaker 1: two kids and a dog and a picket fit and

723
00:35:53,480 --> 00:35:56,120
Speaker 1: it's all that. When you're forty years old, it's like

724
00:35:56,120 --> 00:35:59,480
Speaker 1: a history lesson and this snow over here. You know,

725
00:36:00,560 --> 00:36:02,560
Speaker 1: I felt and broke my arm when I was eleven,

726
00:36:02,600 --> 00:36:04,520
Speaker 1: and that's what that's from. And then I had surgery,

727
00:36:04,600 --> 00:36:05,000
Speaker 1: and then.

728
00:36:05,120 --> 00:36:06,480
Speaker 4: That's why this is crooked.

729
00:36:07,719 --> 00:36:11,120
Speaker 1: I was tired of it. It was too much. I'm

730
00:36:11,120 --> 00:36:12,800
Speaker 1: just going to have to keep repeating all of this

731
00:36:13,000 --> 00:36:14,920
Speaker 1: every time, like, come on.

732
00:36:15,920 --> 00:36:20,440
Speaker 4: History lesson, it is and so, but you still wanted

733
00:36:20,560 --> 00:36:21,759
Speaker 4: more time you met this guy.

734
00:36:21,880 --> 00:36:25,320
Speaker 2: You felt the vibe was undeniable, y'all clicking, y'all that,

735
00:36:25,560 --> 00:36:29,520
Speaker 2: And then at what point how long were y'all dating

736
00:36:29,560 --> 00:36:33,000
Speaker 2: each other before you said I just need more time

737
00:36:33,120 --> 00:36:34,560
Speaker 2: to go explore.

738
00:36:34,680 --> 00:36:35,480
Speaker 3: I never said that.

739
00:36:35,640 --> 00:36:37,560
Speaker 1: I never said I need more time to go explore.

740
00:36:37,760 --> 00:36:40,440
Speaker 1: I was just like, I can't remember how I said.

741
00:36:42,040 --> 00:36:44,439
Speaker 4: What she said the first time?

742
00:36:45,760 --> 00:36:47,759
Speaker 5: What does she say, Lord ha mercy, I'm trying to

743
00:36:47,760 --> 00:36:48,960
Speaker 5: remember the circumstance she.

744
00:36:49,080 --> 00:36:49,960
Speaker 4: Just came back from.

745
00:36:51,280 --> 00:36:52,200
Speaker 1: I went on a fashion.

746
00:36:54,320 --> 00:36:57,600
Speaker 5: It was because here's the problem. The Lord told me

747
00:36:57,880 --> 00:37:00,520
Speaker 5: in the midst of us dating that she was going

748
00:37:00,600 --> 00:37:04,320
Speaker 5: to be my wife. So here shit comes going on

749
00:37:04,400 --> 00:37:08,839
Speaker 5: the fast at the end of the fast, telling me, oh,

750
00:37:08,920 --> 00:37:10,080
Speaker 5: I don't think this is gonna work.

751
00:37:10,840 --> 00:37:11,400
Speaker 4: I was say.

752
00:37:15,480 --> 00:37:16,120
Speaker 1: To be sure.

753
00:37:16,560 --> 00:37:19,480
Speaker 5: I was like, cause I ain't tell her at that

754
00:37:19,600 --> 00:37:22,080
Speaker 5: time what the Lord was sharing with me. But I'm like,

755
00:37:22,960 --> 00:37:25,680
Speaker 5: these moves ain't making sense, Like what are you talking about?

756
00:37:26,640 --> 00:37:28,440
Speaker 4: And you know, so I let it.

757
00:37:28,560 --> 00:37:32,320
Speaker 5: You know, the next day, you know, I'm thinking, to

758
00:37:32,360 --> 00:37:35,400
Speaker 5: my mind, man, I missed this girl so much and

759
00:37:35,760 --> 00:37:38,719
Speaker 5: we talked all day law every day, so I'm like talking.

760
00:37:39,680 --> 00:37:42,399
Speaker 5: But when she called me, I'm like, oh my god,

761
00:37:42,520 --> 00:37:47,080
Speaker 5: she called, what's the first time? Okay, the second time.

762
00:37:47,160 --> 00:37:49,839
Speaker 4: I get back together. I just kept talking, just kept

763
00:37:49,880 --> 00:37:50,560
Speaker 4: talking every day.

764
00:37:50,600 --> 00:37:51,640
Speaker 5: I kept talking every day.

765
00:37:51,680 --> 00:37:55,880
Speaker 1: Stop talking to her, I keep talking to him and

766
00:37:56,000 --> 00:37:57,359
Speaker 1: was like, I don't think this is going to work.

767
00:37:57,840 --> 00:38:00,359
Speaker 1: My initial reason though, even though I need the time,

768
00:38:00,520 --> 00:38:02,200
Speaker 1: when when I said I don't think this is going

769
00:38:02,280 --> 00:38:04,560
Speaker 1: to work after coming off of that fast, it's because

770
00:38:04,600 --> 00:38:06,840
Speaker 1: the Lord has spoke something to me during that fast

771
00:38:06,920 --> 00:38:11,239
Speaker 1: and he was like, you've given me everything but your body. Okay, God,

772
00:38:11,680 --> 00:38:13,160
Speaker 1: you know you've given it every and I need you

773
00:38:13,239 --> 00:38:15,440
Speaker 1: to give me that. And so I had to do

774
00:38:15,600 --> 00:38:17,640
Speaker 1: that that was that was for me. I had to

775
00:38:17,719 --> 00:38:19,000
Speaker 1: do that because the vibrus.

776
00:38:18,920 --> 00:38:20,160
Speaker 4: The vibe was too too strong.

777
00:38:20,440 --> 00:38:24,800
Speaker 5: And I was like, God, oh oh so, and imagine

778
00:38:24,880 --> 00:38:28,080
Speaker 5: me and like, hold on, how you leaving me because

779
00:38:28,120 --> 00:38:31,040
Speaker 5: we vibing too How you.

780
00:38:31,120 --> 00:38:32,600
Speaker 1: Leave somebody that's too good?

781
00:38:33,560 --> 00:38:37,160
Speaker 4: I was like no, God said, sabotage, And y'all just

782
00:38:37,239 --> 00:38:40,280
Speaker 4: kept each other. And then and then she did it again.

783
00:38:40,640 --> 00:38:42,920
Speaker 4: How long from the first time and second time? About

784
00:38:43,000 --> 00:38:45,439
Speaker 4: two months she did it again.

785
00:38:45,480 --> 00:38:48,239
Speaker 5: I said, wait a minute now. So at this point

786
00:38:48,239 --> 00:38:51,360
Speaker 5: I'm frustrated. I'm like, you ain't gonna keep doing that.

787
00:38:51,360 --> 00:38:52,800
Speaker 4: And by the time, you still didn't tell her that

788
00:38:52,880 --> 00:38:55,920
Speaker 4: you that God told you that wife. I didn't, and

789
00:38:56,120 --> 00:38:57,160
Speaker 4: I didn't changed anything.

790
00:39:00,080 --> 00:39:01,239
Speaker 1: The second time he did tell me.

791
00:39:01,640 --> 00:39:03,640
Speaker 2: But the first time after he told you the first time,

792
00:39:03,680 --> 00:39:06,480
Speaker 2: if he said, listen, God said you my wife, like

793
00:39:07,200 --> 00:39:09,120
Speaker 2: I want to marry you and it's going to be

794
00:39:09,200 --> 00:39:11,560
Speaker 2: in this period of time, would that have changed anything.

795
00:39:12,120 --> 00:39:13,759
Speaker 3: He had already told me he wanted to marry me.

796
00:39:13,840 --> 00:39:17,200
Speaker 1: He didn't say God said, already told me he wanted

797
00:39:17,200 --> 00:39:19,760
Speaker 1: to marry me, like two weeks.

798
00:39:21,080 --> 00:39:24,959
Speaker 5: There's a reason why two weeks, two weeks, two weeks

799
00:39:25,000 --> 00:39:25,600
Speaker 5: I already knew.

800
00:39:26,280 --> 00:39:27,840
Speaker 4: But here's the reason. She told me.

801
00:39:28,239 --> 00:39:30,759
Speaker 5: Do you know all these men always say that the

802
00:39:30,880 --> 00:39:32,719
Speaker 5: Lord said that I.

803
00:39:32,960 --> 00:39:35,920
Speaker 1: Was they, I said, I went on five dates and

804
00:39:36,000 --> 00:39:39,280
Speaker 1: all of them said, in the first week, you're my wife.

805
00:39:39,320 --> 00:39:40,680
Speaker 1: I said, what makes you anything?

806
00:39:41,360 --> 00:39:44,880
Speaker 5: I'm telling y'all, I ain't going to ever say that. Then, No,

807
00:39:46,719 --> 00:39:49,640
Speaker 5: I'm saying that. But I old the Lord I served

808
00:39:49,640 --> 00:39:50,200
Speaker 5: on a lot of me.

809
00:39:50,440 --> 00:39:52,759
Speaker 4: So what is this going on.

810
00:39:53,719 --> 00:39:56,279
Speaker 1: I'm just tired of hearing that you're going on a

811
00:39:56,360 --> 00:39:58,319
Speaker 1: date with somebody. For the first time, we had Ruth

812
00:39:58,400 --> 00:40:01,319
Speaker 1: Chris and you lean over. We and the Lord said

813
00:40:01,360 --> 00:40:01,960
Speaker 1: you my wife?

814
00:40:02,480 --> 00:40:03,040
Speaker 4: What Lord?

815
00:40:07,960 --> 00:40:12,000
Speaker 5: So that second time, honestly, she did it again, and

816
00:40:12,160 --> 00:40:14,120
Speaker 5: she called back the next day and I did not

817
00:40:14,239 --> 00:40:16,960
Speaker 5: want to answer the phone. I looked at that, I

818
00:40:17,040 --> 00:40:23,160
Speaker 5: looked that name, and I said hello, I said, it's

819
00:40:23,280 --> 00:40:27,480
Speaker 5: just like that. So the frustration, man.

820
00:40:27,360 --> 00:40:29,440
Speaker 4: Because I felt like she was playing with me. Now,

821
00:40:29,880 --> 00:40:31,040
Speaker 4: why why are you playing with me?

822
00:40:31,080 --> 00:40:34,800
Speaker 5: And then this is the right and then this is

823
00:40:34,800 --> 00:40:37,160
Speaker 5: the Lord reminded me, I told you she's going to

824
00:40:37,200 --> 00:40:39,200
Speaker 5: be your wife. I said, well, Lord, you need to

825
00:40:39,239 --> 00:40:42,320
Speaker 5: tell her because because I keep breaking up with me

826
00:40:42,920 --> 00:40:46,200
Speaker 5: in my life. Right for getting me all just my

827
00:40:46,400 --> 00:40:53,000
Speaker 5: grains and the hot burn. But it was a true

828
00:40:53,200 --> 00:40:57,200
Speaker 5: test of when the Lord speaks, and you know it's him.

829
00:40:57,719 --> 00:41:00,719
Speaker 5: You can't you can't, you can't get distracted that, you

830
00:41:00,800 --> 00:41:03,960
Speaker 5: can't run away. You can allow other things in. You know,

831
00:41:04,800 --> 00:41:06,680
Speaker 5: I'm gonna be honest with you. You know, I started

832
00:41:07,200 --> 00:41:10,240
Speaker 5: looking to entertain something else because I'm like, she keep breaking.

833
00:41:10,120 --> 00:41:11,520
Speaker 4: Up with me, serious about me.

834
00:41:13,680 --> 00:41:16,920
Speaker 5: Let me not set my heart up for failure, and

835
00:41:17,360 --> 00:41:20,560
Speaker 5: so in order to do that, let me entertain something else.

836
00:41:21,160 --> 00:41:24,600
Speaker 5: But I just could not get away from number one

837
00:41:24,640 --> 00:41:25,560
Speaker 5: what the Lord said.

838
00:41:25,760 --> 00:41:27,120
Speaker 3: But you know what I want to sorry to cut

839
00:41:27,120 --> 00:41:27,359
Speaker 3: you off.

840
00:41:27,560 --> 00:41:29,600
Speaker 1: I want to interject right here because I'm glad you

841
00:41:29,719 --> 00:41:32,640
Speaker 1: didn't pull that card. I'm glad you didn't because it

842
00:41:32,640 --> 00:41:36,200
Speaker 1: could seem like manipulation what I'm saying for him, somebody

843
00:41:36,239 --> 00:41:39,160
Speaker 1: say no to say God said you're my wife. For

844
00:41:39,280 --> 00:41:40,840
Speaker 1: him not to say that, Yeah, I'm glad he didn't

845
00:41:40,880 --> 00:41:43,400
Speaker 1: say that, and he allowed me to see it for myself.

846
00:41:43,640 --> 00:41:45,879
Speaker 4: Yeah, and so when did you start saying it? After

847
00:41:45,920 --> 00:41:46,440
Speaker 4: the third time?

848
00:41:46,520 --> 00:41:51,120
Speaker 1: Lord reminded me three times three times after that, the

849
00:41:51,239 --> 00:41:53,440
Speaker 1: Lord reminded me of a prayer that I prayed right

850
00:41:53,480 --> 00:41:55,160
Speaker 1: before I met him, which is what. So I was

851
00:41:55,200 --> 00:41:57,960
Speaker 1: walking through a hotel lobby. I had been doing different

852
00:41:58,000 --> 00:42:00,560
Speaker 1: things to prepare to be married. I knew it was

853
00:42:00,640 --> 00:42:02,440
Speaker 1: going to happen. I didn't know it was going to

854
00:42:02,520 --> 00:42:04,200
Speaker 1: be that soon. I didn't know who was going to

855
00:42:04,239 --> 00:42:06,680
Speaker 1: be and I had almost narrowed it down. It was

856
00:42:06,800 --> 00:42:09,799
Speaker 1: like two or three contenders. I was like, okay, one

857
00:42:09,880 --> 00:42:11,319
Speaker 1: of them. It's gonna be one, two.

858
00:42:11,320 --> 00:42:14,240
Speaker 3: Or three mm hmmm.

859
00:42:14,880 --> 00:42:17,719
Speaker 1: And the lords and my godmother was like, it's you're

860
00:42:17,760 --> 00:42:19,520
Speaker 1: doing too much and it's like a traffic jam and

861
00:42:19,600 --> 00:42:20,240
Speaker 1: you need to stop.

862
00:42:21,440 --> 00:42:22,919
Speaker 3: And I shut it all down.

863
00:42:24,040 --> 00:42:26,880
Speaker 1: I shut it. It's like a traffic jam, you need

864
00:42:26,960 --> 00:42:30,520
Speaker 1: to stop. And I shut it all down. And I

865
00:42:30,680 --> 00:42:33,279
Speaker 1: was reminded of a prayer. Two prayers that I prayed.

866
00:42:33,360 --> 00:42:36,839
Speaker 1: One was, Lord, recalibrate my frequency so that I can

867
00:42:36,920 --> 00:42:40,319
Speaker 1: attract something different, because I keep attracting the same type

868
00:42:40,360 --> 00:42:44,600
Speaker 1: of men. So I started deep, digging deep and looking

869
00:42:44,760 --> 00:42:48,560
Speaker 1: internally to see the things that I am requiring.

870
00:42:48,120 --> 00:42:51,440
Speaker 3: From a man. Am I doing those things myself? How

871
00:42:51,600 --> 00:42:53,080
Speaker 3: is my credit? What am I doing?

872
00:42:53,200 --> 00:42:53,440
Speaker 4: Like? Well?

873
00:42:53,520 --> 00:42:56,520
Speaker 3: How am I functioning? Am I heeled? Am I was?

874
00:42:56,600 --> 00:42:57,160
Speaker 3: I in therapy?

875
00:42:57,320 --> 00:42:57,440
Speaker 2: Was I.

876
00:42:57,719 --> 00:43:00,400
Speaker 1: So I started like really diving deep in to my

877
00:43:00,560 --> 00:43:03,320
Speaker 1: own personal healing and doing the work. And then I

878
00:43:03,440 --> 00:43:06,160
Speaker 1: prayed a prayer walking through a hotel lobby. I said, God,

879
00:43:07,080 --> 00:43:10,160
Speaker 1: please let my husband find me. Please. It was that simple.

880
00:43:10,680 --> 00:43:12,880
Speaker 1: I was like, please let my husband find me. And

881
00:43:13,000 --> 00:43:14,719
Speaker 1: then that's when he had DM me. Two weeks later,

882
00:43:15,200 --> 00:43:17,400
Speaker 1: the Lord reminded me of that. He was like, I

883
00:43:17,520 --> 00:43:20,960
Speaker 1: gave you all the confirmations that you need. You asked

884
00:43:21,000 --> 00:43:22,720
Speaker 1: me for this, and I gave you what you asked

885
00:43:22,719 --> 00:43:24,640
Speaker 1: me for. And I was And then he took me

886
00:43:24,719 --> 00:43:26,960
Speaker 1: to Puerto Rico for my birthday. And when we went

887
00:43:27,000 --> 00:43:29,800
Speaker 1: to Puerto Rico, the moment that we shared it was

888
00:43:29,920 --> 00:43:31,799
Speaker 1: just like we came back from there.

889
00:43:31,800 --> 00:43:32,439
Speaker 3: I was like, okay.

890
00:43:33,280 --> 00:43:36,560
Speaker 1: We had a conversation at his apartment and we was like.

891
00:43:36,760 --> 00:43:38,120
Speaker 1: I was like, are you gonna stop playing with me?

892
00:43:38,200 --> 00:43:39,800
Speaker 1: He was like, you're gonna stop playing with me, because

893
00:43:39,800 --> 00:43:40,759
Speaker 1: that's how we talked to each other.

894
00:43:41,040 --> 00:43:41,800
Speaker 4: You're gonna stop.

895
00:43:41,600 --> 00:43:43,640
Speaker 3: Playing with me. I was like, okay, Ya'm gonna stop playing.

896
00:43:43,680 --> 00:43:47,759
Speaker 2: So the third breakup happened before Puerto Rico. Yes, And okay,

897
00:43:47,920 --> 00:43:49,960
Speaker 2: when the third why did how far? So?

898
00:43:50,400 --> 00:43:51,240
Speaker 4: Was it every two months?

899
00:43:52,239 --> 00:43:55,800
Speaker 1: You know, it wasn't like planned or time somehow on

900
00:43:55,840 --> 00:43:59,880
Speaker 1: the system. You gotta understand for the first time the

901
00:44:00,000 --> 00:44:03,200
Speaker 1: first time I got married, I got married because my

902
00:44:04,640 --> 00:44:08,440
Speaker 1: son's father, CJ's father, Cliff, helped me get off drugs.

903
00:44:08,440 --> 00:44:11,600
Speaker 1: I was addicted to cocaine and we were I've been

904
00:44:11,640 --> 00:44:12,640
Speaker 1: knowing him all my life.

905
00:44:12,719 --> 00:44:13,200
Speaker 4: We grew up.

906
00:44:13,280 --> 00:44:16,200
Speaker 1: That was my first boyfriend. I ever had everything. So

907
00:44:16,719 --> 00:44:19,000
Speaker 1: he helped me get off drugs. And when he took

908
00:44:19,080 --> 00:44:23,880
Speaker 1: me from Detroit to Atlanta, we was living together and

909
00:44:23,960 --> 00:44:25,839
Speaker 1: so we grew up in church and holiness. He looked

910
00:44:25,880 --> 00:44:27,080
Speaker 1: at me and was like, do you still love me?

911
00:44:27,160 --> 00:44:28,040
Speaker 3: I was like, yeah, I love you.

912
00:44:28,640 --> 00:44:30,319
Speaker 1: I was like, you still love me? He said yeah,

913
00:44:30,920 --> 00:44:33,080
Speaker 1: And he was like, we can't be shocking up. We

914
00:44:33,160 --> 00:44:35,240
Speaker 1: can't live, we can't sleep in the same bed together,

915
00:44:35,480 --> 00:44:36,439
Speaker 1: we can't be having sex.

916
00:44:36,480 --> 00:44:37,320
Speaker 3: We got to get married.

917
00:44:37,600 --> 00:44:40,040
Speaker 1: So it wasn't you know it was it was that

918
00:44:40,360 --> 00:44:42,440
Speaker 1: it was like we just wanted to please God, but

919
00:44:42,600 --> 00:44:45,280
Speaker 1: neither one of us was equipped to be married.

920
00:44:45,360 --> 00:44:47,799
Speaker 3: We didn't have the tools. We didn't we just were young.

921
00:44:47,920 --> 00:44:49,719
Speaker 1: I was twenty three years old and I just was

922
00:44:49,800 --> 00:44:51,920
Speaker 1: scared that if I went back to Detroit, I was

923
00:44:51,960 --> 00:44:53,080
Speaker 1: going to get back on cocaine.

924
00:44:53,600 --> 00:44:56,440
Speaker 4: Did what led you to drugs? Was it battling with

925
00:44:57,160 --> 00:45:00,000
Speaker 4: the sexual assauce that you experienced at a young age.

926
00:45:00,640 --> 00:45:00,840
Speaker 4: It was.

927
00:45:00,960 --> 00:45:02,040
Speaker 3: It was battling with that.

928
00:45:02,360 --> 00:45:06,080
Speaker 1: It was keeping that secret because I didn't want to

929
00:45:06,160 --> 00:45:08,520
Speaker 1: be I didn't want to tear my family up, and

930
00:45:08,680 --> 00:45:11,400
Speaker 1: I was afraid of the person that did it. So

931
00:45:12,320 --> 00:45:14,120
Speaker 1: it was a lot going on in my mind. And

932
00:45:14,239 --> 00:45:16,239
Speaker 1: I saw other people in the family try to come

933
00:45:16,280 --> 00:45:19,200
Speaker 1: forward and nobody believed them, so that victim shaming was

934
00:45:19,239 --> 00:45:21,040
Speaker 1: a big issue for me. And I'm like, they're not

935
00:45:21,120 --> 00:45:23,640
Speaker 1: going to believe me anyway, So why would I even

936
00:45:23,680 --> 00:45:26,160
Speaker 1: put myself out there like that? And I held that

937
00:45:26,360 --> 00:45:28,960
Speaker 1: for I didn't start talking about it until I was

938
00:45:29,040 --> 00:45:29,719
Speaker 1: thirty years old.

939
00:45:30,040 --> 00:45:32,640
Speaker 5: Wow, And it happened in middle school?

940
00:45:34,520 --> 00:45:36,920
Speaker 4: And how were you introduced to cocaine.

941
00:45:37,360 --> 00:45:40,160
Speaker 1: Being in the studio around different people that were doing it,

942
00:45:41,040 --> 00:45:44,239
Speaker 1: just being influenced that way and wanting to do music

943
00:45:44,480 --> 00:45:48,080
Speaker 1: so bad, And you know, I always looked at rug

944
00:45:48,560 --> 00:45:51,560
Speaker 1: drug drug addiction and drug abuse when you see people

945
00:45:51,640 --> 00:45:53,719
Speaker 1: on the streets and homeless people and stuff like that,

946
00:45:53,880 --> 00:45:55,960
Speaker 1: So I never wanted to look like that. That was

947
00:45:56,000 --> 00:45:58,400
Speaker 1: it was drug addiction for me, had a look to it,

948
00:45:58,880 --> 00:46:00,799
Speaker 1: but the people that I was around, they didn't look

949
00:46:00,880 --> 00:46:03,520
Speaker 1: like that. And I was like, yeah, wait a minute,

950
00:46:03,600 --> 00:46:05,120
Speaker 1: if y'all could do in the night. It took me

951
00:46:05,200 --> 00:46:10,640
Speaker 1: down a five year ride. I mean, it really broke me.

952
00:46:11,200 --> 00:46:15,440
Speaker 4: At what ages you're in your twenties, yeah, I was

953
00:46:15,480 --> 00:46:16,200
Speaker 4: in my twenties, I was.

954
00:46:16,280 --> 00:46:18,840
Speaker 1: It started when I was like maybe between like seventeen

955
00:46:18,880 --> 00:46:22,360
Speaker 1: and eighteen. It started with like exsta cpls, volumes and vikings,

956
00:46:22,400 --> 00:46:25,200
Speaker 1: and then it escalated all the way to cocaine to

957
00:46:25,680 --> 00:46:27,480
Speaker 1: we were putting heroin in our blunts.

958
00:46:27,960 --> 00:46:29,840
Speaker 3: Like yeah, I was a hardcore drug addict.

959
00:46:30,239 --> 00:46:30,439
Speaker 5: Yeah.

960
00:46:30,600 --> 00:46:34,040
Speaker 4: Wow. He did that for five years and it just

961
00:46:34,520 --> 00:46:36,120
Speaker 4: you said he helped you get off of it. Did

962
00:46:36,160 --> 00:46:39,080
Speaker 4: you go through treatment or just I never went through treatment.

963
00:46:39,120 --> 00:46:42,600
Speaker 4: I went through the Bible. Really, I went through every

964
00:46:42,680 --> 00:46:43,720
Speaker 4: time the doors opened.

965
00:46:43,760 --> 00:46:47,400
Speaker 1: I was at that church, every service, every Bible study, everything,

966
00:46:47,800 --> 00:46:52,320
Speaker 1: and I'll never forget. I am so grateful to Bishop

967
00:46:52,400 --> 00:46:55,920
Speaker 1: Jerron Williams out of Atlanta, Georgia and New Life International

968
00:46:56,000 --> 00:47:00,759
Speaker 1: Family Church. They really and doctor LaToya Hey Williams, they

969
00:47:00,880 --> 00:47:04,120
Speaker 1: really took time with me and loved me where I

970
00:47:04,360 --> 00:47:05,560
Speaker 1: was and helped me get delivered.

971
00:47:05,719 --> 00:47:07,480
Speaker 4: Yes, during that time, you're still singing.

972
00:47:07,640 --> 00:47:09,320
Speaker 3: I was still singing, and you'll.

973
00:47:09,320 --> 00:47:11,840
Speaker 4: You'll be singing and then your goal on a three four.

974
00:47:11,800 --> 00:47:12,960
Speaker 3: Day binge of getting high.

975
00:47:13,280 --> 00:47:13,560
Speaker 4: Wow.

976
00:47:14,000 --> 00:47:15,640
Speaker 3: And then I would stay going.

977
00:47:15,800 --> 00:47:17,439
Speaker 1: Like I would tell my mom when I was still

978
00:47:17,480 --> 00:47:19,279
Speaker 1: living at the house with them, I would say, I'm

979
00:47:19,320 --> 00:47:21,080
Speaker 1: going downstairs, because we lived in the high rise and

980
00:47:21,120 --> 00:47:23,400
Speaker 1: we had a penthouse on the nineteenth floor. And I

981
00:47:23,400 --> 00:47:25,880
Speaker 1: would say I'm going downstairs to wash clothes, and she

982
00:47:26,000 --> 00:47:28,280
Speaker 1: was like, okay. They wouldn't see me for two weeks.

983
00:47:31,640 --> 00:47:34,719
Speaker 1: What would would you get high? Having sex, getting high,

984
00:47:34,800 --> 00:47:37,360
Speaker 1: parlaying out at the club, strip club? I was singing

985
00:47:37,400 --> 00:47:39,680
Speaker 1: at strip clubs while girls was dancing. I want to

986
00:47:39,760 --> 00:47:40,680
Speaker 1: tell you, I'm listen.

987
00:47:40,760 --> 00:47:41,280
Speaker 4: I've lived.

988
00:47:43,120 --> 00:47:46,440
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, I've done a lot. And so when you

989
00:47:46,600 --> 00:47:49,000
Speaker 1: see me singing like I'm crazy, it's because I used

990
00:47:49,000 --> 00:47:52,800
Speaker 1: to be crazy. God didn't work over me.

991
00:47:52,920 --> 00:48:06,640
Speaker 4: But buddy, yeah, victory is mine and so here it is.

992
00:48:06,800 --> 00:48:08,839
Speaker 4: So now you broke up with the third time, you'll

993
00:48:08,880 --> 00:48:10,719
Speaker 4: know where that was, Whether that was every two months,

994
00:48:10,760 --> 00:48:13,680
Speaker 4: you don't know because you just you just responding in trauma.

995
00:48:14,400 --> 00:48:17,040
Speaker 4: And what the third time? How you responded at D'Angelo.

996
00:48:19,000 --> 00:48:22,400
Speaker 5: It was the same way, but one thing about me,

997
00:48:23,120 --> 00:48:25,839
Speaker 5: When the Lord tells me something, I have to hold

998
00:48:25,880 --> 00:48:29,959
Speaker 5: on to it. And with that, her birthday was coming

999
00:48:30,080 --> 00:48:35,360
Speaker 5: up and we won't even together, we won't officially like together,

1000
00:48:36,160 --> 00:48:39,319
Speaker 5: and I was like, you know what, I love her

1001
00:48:39,400 --> 00:48:44,520
Speaker 5: though I'm already head over here. And it's not because

1002
00:48:44,560 --> 00:48:49,319
Speaker 5: of her celebrity. I found her mind like we our

1003
00:48:49,480 --> 00:48:53,680
Speaker 5: minds connected, our hearts connected, and and so I was.

1004
00:48:53,760 --> 00:48:56,319
Speaker 5: I would be so heartbroken when she would break up

1005
00:48:56,360 --> 00:48:59,120
Speaker 5: with me, but I could not let it go. I

1006
00:48:59,200 --> 00:49:01,440
Speaker 5: knew it was something there when she kept calling me

1007
00:49:01,520 --> 00:49:03,600
Speaker 5: even though she was breaking up with me. And so

1008
00:49:04,440 --> 00:49:07,359
Speaker 5: when her birthday came, I said, look, let me take

1009
00:49:07,400 --> 00:49:10,719
Speaker 5: you out. She had no plans, and I asked her

1010
00:49:10,760 --> 00:49:13,040
Speaker 5: and she was like, I don't know, and I'm thinking

1011
00:49:13,080 --> 00:49:15,000
Speaker 5: to my mind here here, I'm thinking of my mind,

1012
00:49:15,719 --> 00:49:19,600
Speaker 5: which one of them negroles is trying to take her out?

1013
00:49:20,080 --> 00:49:22,839
Speaker 4: And let me be the first. Absolutely, I ain't never

1014
00:49:22,920 --> 00:49:24,239
Speaker 4: told her that, So that's why she looked at me.

1015
00:49:25,400 --> 00:49:29,279
Speaker 4: So I was like, you know what, your play even

1016
00:49:29,360 --> 00:49:31,959
Speaker 4: if even if we ain't together for real, I'm gonna

1017
00:49:31,960 --> 00:49:32,520
Speaker 4: put someone.

1018
00:49:32,360 --> 00:49:34,719
Speaker 5: The mind going to I'm going to make her let

1019
00:49:34,800 --> 00:49:37,400
Speaker 5: her know that loften ain't nothing to play with.

1020
00:49:37,760 --> 00:49:42,440
Speaker 3: It, and so, uh, I'm sorry.

1021
00:49:45,600 --> 00:49:50,520
Speaker 4: So with Puerto Rico getting back to the hotel room

1022
00:49:50,520 --> 00:49:53,640
Speaker 4: and just keep talking that this all before.

1023
00:49:54,920 --> 00:49:55,160
Speaker 1: God.

1024
00:49:56,360 --> 00:50:00,759
Speaker 4: I went to Puerto Rico with your name my God

1025
00:50:02,320 --> 00:50:02,719
Speaker 4: cash in.

1026
00:50:06,200 --> 00:50:10,000
Speaker 5: I went there and had a great time. Uh that

1027
00:50:10,120 --> 00:50:12,120
Speaker 5: was my first time, you know, going to Puerto Rico

1028
00:50:12,200 --> 00:50:12,520
Speaker 5: as well.

1029
00:50:12,719 --> 00:50:14,400
Speaker 4: And so came back and.

1030
00:50:16,160 --> 00:50:19,400
Speaker 5: We sat down and she was like, look, I know

1031
00:50:19,560 --> 00:50:24,200
Speaker 5: you've been messing around. I went on a few dates.

1032
00:50:24,719 --> 00:50:29,279
Speaker 5: What are we doing because I'm willing to drop everything

1033
00:50:29,600 --> 00:50:31,000
Speaker 5: to be with you because I love you.

1034
00:50:31,320 --> 00:50:34,040
Speaker 4: Who said that? Tom said that? So where did this

1035
00:50:34,120 --> 00:50:34,520
Speaker 4: come from?

1036
00:50:35,239 --> 00:50:38,360
Speaker 1: I just never had somebody to not play about me

1037
00:50:38,520 --> 00:50:42,759
Speaker 1: like you, never had anybody to really stand on their

1038
00:50:42,840 --> 00:50:45,440
Speaker 1: words and everything he said he was going to do,

1039
00:50:45,600 --> 00:50:46,640
Speaker 1: he always doesn't.

1040
00:50:46,760 --> 00:50:47,200
Speaker 4: That's good.

1041
00:50:48,040 --> 00:50:50,759
Speaker 5: Yeah, And so I was like, well, let me go.

1042
00:50:52,160 --> 00:50:54,480
Speaker 5: I'm serious about you too. I already know what the

1043
00:50:54,560 --> 00:50:59,399
Speaker 5: Lord said. But I begin to entertain before then because

1044
00:50:59,400 --> 00:51:01,640
Speaker 5: I didn't want my heart absolutely crush.

1045
00:51:02,560 --> 00:51:04,680
Speaker 4: And so, and with good reasons, you keep doing it.

1046
00:51:06,480 --> 00:51:09,480
Speaker 1: I don't, please, don't, don't don't watch this and be like,

1047
00:51:09,800 --> 00:51:11,400
Speaker 1: oh yeah, I'm gonna do. Listen, it's only by the

1048
00:51:11,440 --> 00:51:13,439
Speaker 1: grace of God that this man still ask his phone.

1049
00:51:13,520 --> 00:51:16,400
Speaker 1: After all, don't try that at home.

1050
00:51:18,480 --> 00:51:18,839
Speaker 4: A man.

1051
00:51:19,320 --> 00:51:20,320
Speaker 3: Don't play with him like that.

1052
00:51:20,520 --> 00:51:22,560
Speaker 2: I'm gonna tell you why you shouldn't play with him,

1053
00:51:22,600 --> 00:51:26,160
Speaker 2: because at a certain point, when a man gets healed,

1054
00:51:26,640 --> 00:51:27,399
Speaker 2: it's certain things.

1055
00:51:27,480 --> 00:51:30,520
Speaker 4: He knows his own threshold. And so it's prayers that

1056
00:51:30,560 --> 00:51:32,640
Speaker 4: I prayed. I said, God, I want my wife to

1057
00:51:32,760 --> 00:51:36,160
Speaker 4: recognize me as I recognize her, so you may give

1058
00:51:36,239 --> 00:51:38,960
Speaker 4: me confirmation that you're not the one, because you may

1059
00:51:39,040 --> 00:51:41,120
Speaker 4: be playing games and I'm like, oh no, my wife

1060
00:51:41,160 --> 00:51:42,440
Speaker 4: would never play with my heart like that.

1061
00:51:42,960 --> 00:51:45,000
Speaker 2: You don't know what my threshold of pain is. You

1062
00:51:45,040 --> 00:51:47,520
Speaker 2: don't know what my threshold of value is. That if

1063
00:51:47,560 --> 00:51:49,319
Speaker 2: I know that I keep letting you do that, then

1064
00:51:49,360 --> 00:51:51,680
Speaker 2: that's going to send me back in the therapy that

1065
00:51:51,760 --> 00:51:54,160
Speaker 2: I've been through, because my therapist may be like, may

1066
00:51:54,520 --> 00:51:57,160
Speaker 2: sit down with me and say another Terrris, this is

1067
00:51:57,200 --> 00:51:59,959
Speaker 2: a thread in your life. You keep trying to earn value.

1068
00:52:00,160 --> 00:52:02,040
Speaker 2: You keep trying to my love like when just words

1069
00:52:02,080 --> 00:52:05,319
Speaker 2: of affirmation. And so if I don't manage that well,

1070
00:52:05,640 --> 00:52:07,600
Speaker 2: then I may put myself in a place where I'm

1071
00:52:07,600 --> 00:52:10,239
Speaker 2: trying to seek approval from somebody, and at the end

1072
00:52:10,280 --> 00:52:11,960
Speaker 2: of the day, when you get healed in value like

1073
00:52:12,040 --> 00:52:13,800
Speaker 2: oh you you don't see me, you don't know me,

1074
00:52:13,880 --> 00:52:15,839
Speaker 2: God bless you. I'm gonna go to somebody who does.

1075
00:52:16,239 --> 00:52:19,439
Speaker 4: And so I can understand what my brother DiAngelo is saying,

1076
00:52:19,440 --> 00:52:20,759
Speaker 4: because he's saying, Okay, you.

1077
00:52:20,920 --> 00:52:24,040
Speaker 2: Keep I'm being serious about you, but you keep rejecting me. Now,

1078
00:52:24,120 --> 00:52:25,600
Speaker 2: I can't force myself to.

1079
00:52:25,640 --> 00:52:26,000
Speaker 4: Be with you.

1080
00:52:26,440 --> 00:52:28,279
Speaker 2: I can't make you, I can't convince you, I can't

1081
00:52:28,280 --> 00:52:30,840
Speaker 2: persuade you. I'm showing up as a man. Do you

1082
00:52:30,960 --> 00:52:32,960
Speaker 2: see me the way I see you? No? Well, it's

1083
00:52:33,000 --> 00:52:34,600
Speaker 2: the third time you said no. I don't need to

1084
00:52:34,640 --> 00:52:37,719
Speaker 2: be convinced anymore. But here's the thing, though, what kept

1085
00:52:37,800 --> 00:52:41,120
Speaker 2: me just wanting to hold on is because she had

1086
00:52:41,200 --> 00:52:43,560
Speaker 2: all the intangibles that I love, and in fact, she

1087
00:52:43,640 --> 00:52:46,400
Speaker 2: kept calling you right, and she kept calling me because

1088
00:52:46,640 --> 00:52:49,399
Speaker 2: I went through you know, I had to find out

1089
00:52:50,000 --> 00:52:53,440
Speaker 2: what I even loved as a child.

1090
00:52:54,040 --> 00:52:59,160
Speaker 5: I've never shared this publicly. As a child, I was abused,

1091
00:53:00,040 --> 00:53:06,239
Speaker 5: actually abused by my father, and I didn't know what

1092
00:53:06,600 --> 00:53:09,680
Speaker 5: love is. But I did everything I could do to

1093
00:53:10,080 --> 00:53:14,759
Speaker 5: ensure that I wouldn't fall into the stereotypical type that

1094
00:53:15,400 --> 00:53:21,680
Speaker 5: if you are sexually molested by the same gender, that

1095
00:53:21,840 --> 00:53:26,600
Speaker 5: you're going to turn up being attracted to the same gender, right,

1096
00:53:26,719 --> 00:53:30,920
Speaker 5: And so everything I did growing up, I tried to

1097
00:53:31,200 --> 00:53:34,359
Speaker 5: fight that narrative and I did you know what I'm saying,

1098
00:53:34,560 --> 00:53:36,880
Speaker 5: and I pray and I asked the Lord never to

1099
00:53:37,840 --> 00:53:40,439
Speaker 5: allow me to be attracted to that and or fall

1100
00:53:40,520 --> 00:53:42,480
Speaker 5: into that, because that was a seed, you know, that

1101
00:53:42,600 --> 00:53:43,280
Speaker 5: was being planted.

1102
00:53:43,680 --> 00:53:44,000
Speaker 4: And so.

1103
00:53:45,480 --> 00:53:49,840
Speaker 5: While doing that, though, I found myself not knowing what

1104
00:53:50,000 --> 00:53:55,879
Speaker 5: I desired because the only thing that I knew love

1105
00:53:56,160 --> 00:53:59,200
Speaker 5: was or thought love was, was from the wrong thing.

1106
00:54:01,560 --> 00:54:05,239
Speaker 5: And the Lord had to show me me. He had

1107
00:54:05,320 --> 00:54:09,840
Speaker 5: to deliver me out of the mindset of hatred. He

1108
00:54:09,920 --> 00:54:12,120
Speaker 5: had to deliver me out of the mindset of stop

1109
00:54:12,200 --> 00:54:17,880
Speaker 5: trying to cover up you're trying to stop trying to

1110
00:54:17,960 --> 00:54:21,160
Speaker 5: cover up things, or how can I say, stop trying

1111
00:54:21,239 --> 00:54:25,960
Speaker 5: to overdo things so you won't feel a certain way,

1112
00:54:26,280 --> 00:54:30,200
Speaker 5: because I was trying to at some point mess with

1113
00:54:30,280 --> 00:54:33,719
Speaker 5: as many as women as I could so I would

1114
00:54:33,920 --> 00:54:37,840
Speaker 5: never fall or sink into thinking that being with the

1115
00:54:37,960 --> 00:54:41,880
Speaker 5: same gender as something I should do. So instead of

1116
00:54:41,960 --> 00:54:44,759
Speaker 5: being delivered. I was trying to deliver myself there it is,

1117
00:54:46,920 --> 00:54:50,680
Speaker 5: but that ain't the right way to go either. Absolutely,

1118
00:54:50,760 --> 00:54:54,360
Speaker 5: you know, now you fallen into being a hormonger and

1119
00:54:54,600 --> 00:54:58,040
Speaker 5: all kinds of things. And so it took the Lord

1120
00:54:58,320 --> 00:55:02,480
Speaker 5: God Almighty to really delivered me out of that mindset.

1121
00:55:03,000 --> 00:55:04,759
Speaker 4: And and that's how you know.

1122
00:55:05,320 --> 00:55:08,320
Speaker 5: I was young when I got in my first marriage,

1123
00:55:08,360 --> 00:55:11,400
Speaker 5: and so very very young, and I had no idea.

1124
00:55:11,480 --> 00:55:14,800
Speaker 5: I was twenty two and you were hallo tas to

1125
00:55:14,880 --> 00:55:20,640
Speaker 5: twenty three. Yeah, so yeah, we had the same stories. Yeah,

1126
00:55:20,920 --> 00:55:23,960
Speaker 5: you know, and so the Lord had to grow me

1127
00:55:24,120 --> 00:55:27,400
Speaker 5: up real good. And so from that moment, I'm growing

1128
00:55:27,480 --> 00:55:30,560
Speaker 5: and growing. And I thought in my second marriage, I

1129
00:55:30,680 --> 00:55:34,320
Speaker 5: thought I found what I was looking for. And I

1130
00:55:34,480 --> 00:55:38,320
Speaker 5: was just really trying to escape the first yep. So

1131
00:55:38,840 --> 00:55:43,680
Speaker 5: but when I met her, literally everything that I desired

1132
00:55:43,719 --> 00:55:48,319
Speaker 5: from a woman, everything that I wanted her, touch her,

1133
00:55:48,400 --> 00:55:56,120
Speaker 5: feel her cotton, the fabric of our life, everything, y'all

1134
00:55:56,120 --> 00:56:00,120
Speaker 5: can use that, everything that I always dreamed of.

1135
00:56:00,400 --> 00:56:02,920
Speaker 2: I mean, because clearly the third time you got to

1136
00:56:03,040 --> 00:56:08,920
Speaker 2: know the fact you introduced therapy into your life. So

1137
00:56:09,360 --> 00:56:12,600
Speaker 2: you know, after the second time, had you gone through therapy, after.

1138
00:56:12,480 --> 00:56:15,720
Speaker 5: The first divorce did not did not first or the second.

1139
00:56:15,800 --> 00:56:17,960
Speaker 4: So you say, I'm gonna do something different, right.

1140
00:56:17,960 --> 00:56:20,840
Speaker 5: And so that's how I knew that the Lord was

1141
00:56:20,920 --> 00:56:25,200
Speaker 5: really moving and really ordaining the moment. It is because

1142
00:56:25,920 --> 00:56:28,920
Speaker 5: He brought forth something in front of me that I

1143
00:56:29,239 --> 00:56:34,160
Speaker 5: always desired my entire life. And and and so some

1144
00:56:34,320 --> 00:56:37,799
Speaker 5: people are not going to understand our relationship.

1145
00:56:38,560 --> 00:56:40,759
Speaker 4: And it's okay, right, Why do you say that?

1146
00:56:41,400 --> 00:56:45,839
Speaker 5: Because you know people not going to understand timelines, They're

1147
00:56:45,840 --> 00:56:48,760
Speaker 5: going to feel like, oh, y'all should have waited longer

1148
00:56:48,840 --> 00:56:51,360
Speaker 5: than that. Y'all should have you know, you should have

1149
00:56:51,400 --> 00:56:53,560
Speaker 5: did this, and you should have did get out my

1150
00:56:53,680 --> 00:56:57,680
Speaker 5: business number one. But absolutely, but number two, when it's God,

1151
00:56:58,960 --> 00:57:01,160
Speaker 5: God is going to do so then if we're looking

1152
00:57:01,239 --> 00:57:06,319
Speaker 5: for God to do something extraordinary, then my timeline ain't

1153
00:57:06,360 --> 00:57:10,120
Speaker 5: gonna work. None of the things that you think I

1154
00:57:10,160 --> 00:57:12,759
Speaker 5: should do isn't gonna work when it's God.

1155
00:57:13,080 --> 00:57:14,400
Speaker 4: Right now, I don't you know?

1156
00:57:14,719 --> 00:57:19,920
Speaker 5: Of course, be healed, be made free, absolutely, but save

1157
00:57:20,160 --> 00:57:23,240
Speaker 5: room for God to work. H How in the world

1158
00:57:23,320 --> 00:57:26,439
Speaker 5: am I gonna say it ain't time enough when God

1159
00:57:26,600 --> 00:57:30,240
Speaker 5: is setting before me everything that I desire.

1160
00:57:30,280 --> 00:57:32,600
Speaker 1: You Confirmation after confirmation it's like.

1161
00:57:33,520 --> 00:57:34,920
Speaker 4: Prophecies after prophecy.

1162
00:57:34,960 --> 00:57:37,520
Speaker 2: He's gonna give me a timeline y'all. Y'all when y'all

1163
00:57:37,640 --> 00:57:40,880
Speaker 2: met and then said I do well? Was no, when

1164
00:57:40,960 --> 00:57:43,240
Speaker 2: y'all met and got engaged. What was the timeline?

1165
00:57:44,680 --> 00:57:49,320
Speaker 1: We in September, September of twenty four, twenty twenty four,

1166
00:57:49,760 --> 00:57:51,160
Speaker 1: got engage and.

1167
00:57:53,720 --> 00:57:57,600
Speaker 2: No, that's in June, June. I'm sorry, Junior, this year. June,

1168
00:57:57,760 --> 00:57:59,600
Speaker 2: this year, y'all got engaged in June.

1169
00:58:00,200 --> 00:58:02,080
Speaker 4: So what is that about? Nine months later?

1170
00:58:02,680 --> 00:58:03,680
Speaker 3: About eight?

1171
00:58:04,680 --> 00:58:08,520
Speaker 4: Yeah, and then y'all got married June twenty six, so'all

1172
00:58:08,520 --> 00:58:10,720
Speaker 4: got engaged and it got married the same month. Yes, sir,

1173
00:58:10,840 --> 00:58:12,560
Speaker 4: so y'all got engaged. So what happened to?

1174
00:58:12,640 --> 00:58:16,400
Speaker 1: Were talking, talking, talking, just like he did with the

1175
00:58:16,480 --> 00:58:16,840
Speaker 1: other thing.

1176
00:58:17,200 --> 00:58:18,080
Speaker 4: Were looking at each other.

1177
00:58:18,200 --> 00:58:19,720
Speaker 1: We had we had a dinner table full of his

1178
00:58:19,840 --> 00:58:22,320
Speaker 1: family and were just laughing and having a good time.

1179
00:58:22,720 --> 00:58:25,280
Speaker 1: He was like, girl, you look so good. I marry you.

1180
00:58:25,560 --> 00:58:28,960
Speaker 1: I marry you this week. I'm like, stop playing, or

1181
00:58:29,000 --> 00:58:31,240
Speaker 1: you won't? He like, I will I marry you Thursday.

1182
00:58:32,440 --> 00:58:36,800
Speaker 1: I was like, if you don't shut up, So I

1183
00:58:37,000 --> 00:58:39,120
Speaker 1: overhear him on the phone talking to his uncle. That's

1184
00:58:39,160 --> 00:58:41,960
Speaker 1: the pastor like, yeah, what you're doing Thursday?

1185
00:58:42,000 --> 00:58:44,439
Speaker 3: I said, is for real?

1186
00:58:47,080 --> 00:58:48,960
Speaker 1: I said about mine? You know how you were talking

1187
00:58:49,000 --> 00:58:49,120
Speaker 1: to you.

1188
00:58:50,120 --> 00:58:53,760
Speaker 4: It's I went to Dealerts.

1189
00:58:54,000 --> 00:58:56,440
Speaker 1: I spent two hundred dollars on the dress. I went

1190
00:58:56,480 --> 00:58:59,960
Speaker 1: to Michael's. I made my bouquet. My mother just had

1191
00:59:00,320 --> 00:59:03,120
Speaker 1: to be in town. His mother was there. My mother

1192
00:59:03,240 --> 00:59:04,120
Speaker 1: was there in the basket.

1193
00:59:05,600 --> 00:59:07,480
Speaker 4: As I said, it was sacred, it was holy.

1194
00:59:07,600 --> 00:59:11,360
Speaker 1: I cried when that music came on Mali Music. It's

1195
00:59:11,400 --> 00:59:13,160
Speaker 1: a song called Still by Mali Music.

1196
00:59:13,360 --> 00:59:14,440
Speaker 4: Still I go.

1197
00:59:15,080 --> 00:59:17,959
Speaker 1: And I stood at that door and the lady was like, okay,

1198
00:59:18,240 --> 00:59:19,960
Speaker 1: he's ready for you. Walked down, you can walk down.

1199
00:59:20,440 --> 00:59:23,080
Speaker 1: I just lost it. It was like, this is where

1200
00:59:23,120 --> 00:59:26,720
Speaker 1: I'm supposed to be. I finally felt like I this

1201
00:59:26,920 --> 00:59:30,160
Speaker 1: is where I belong like and it was just the

1202
00:59:30,440 --> 00:59:33,880
Speaker 1: most beautiful moment. And I didn't have to perform for anybody.

1203
00:59:34,360 --> 00:59:36,400
Speaker 1: It wasn't a room full of people there. I wasn't

1204
00:59:36,400 --> 00:59:38,919
Speaker 1: worried about my makeup being messed up. I weren't worried

1205
00:59:38,920 --> 00:59:40,720
Speaker 1: about any of that. I was just walking to my.

1206
00:59:40,800 --> 00:59:44,400
Speaker 3: Man, like I'm coming to you. It was beautiful. It

1207
00:59:44,560 --> 00:59:45,320
Speaker 3: was beautiful.

1208
00:59:45,600 --> 00:59:47,320
Speaker 4: Yeah, that is amazing.

1209
00:59:47,600 --> 00:59:49,920
Speaker 2: I don't want to get too far from this moment

1210
00:59:50,160 --> 00:59:53,680
Speaker 2: that DeAngelo shared a place that a lot of men

1211
00:59:54,000 --> 00:59:58,480
Speaker 2: don't share, and especially I've never heard it with that

1212
00:59:58,680 --> 01:00:01,920
Speaker 2: much weight when it been the offense being a male's

1213
01:00:02,360 --> 01:00:07,280
Speaker 2: father like that is very very heavy. And I just

1214
01:00:07,360 --> 01:00:11,920
Speaker 2: want to salute you King for actually sharing that, because yeah,

1215
01:00:12,120 --> 01:00:15,439
Speaker 2: very brave and courageous, and I believe that you gave

1216
01:00:15,760 --> 01:00:20,479
Speaker 2: reference to somebody else watching It's men. God always showed

1217
01:00:20,520 --> 01:00:23,439
Speaker 2: me something in the spirit round. When certain things happen

1218
01:00:23,480 --> 01:00:25,960
Speaker 2: on the podcast, it's a man that's going to end

1219
01:00:26,040 --> 01:00:29,280
Speaker 2: up dming you telling you that man, thank you for

1220
01:00:29,360 --> 01:00:29,800
Speaker 2: sharing that.

1221
01:00:30,160 --> 01:00:32,600
Speaker 4: You know, I was sexually assaulted by my uncle. This

1222
01:00:32,800 --> 01:00:33,720
Speaker 4: right here happened to me.

1223
01:00:34,000 --> 01:00:36,320
Speaker 2: And they're going to start sharing stuff with you, and

1224
01:00:36,520 --> 01:00:39,240
Speaker 2: now you're going to understand why God allowed you to

1225
01:00:39,320 --> 01:00:41,640
Speaker 2: share that, because you're going to be walking other brothers

1226
01:00:41,720 --> 01:00:45,160
Speaker 2: through that. A lot of men have attached their masculinity

1227
01:00:45,440 --> 01:00:48,959
Speaker 2: to their sexuality where they've been like, no, I ain't

1228
01:00:49,040 --> 01:00:51,440
Speaker 2: no feeling the blank and then they say, all right,

1229
01:00:51,440 --> 01:00:53,720
Speaker 2: I'm finna just go on to smashing spree. And now

1230
01:00:53,800 --> 01:00:57,120
Speaker 2: you're just breaking hearts all across the globe because you're

1231
01:00:57,200 --> 01:00:58,720
Speaker 2: trying to prove a point to yourself.

1232
01:00:59,120 --> 01:01:01,040
Speaker 4: And the devil said, got him, got him.

1233
01:01:01,280 --> 01:01:04,240
Speaker 2: However, however way he wants to get you, got him,

1234
01:01:04,480 --> 01:01:07,120
Speaker 2: and now he got you damaging all these women because

1235
01:01:07,200 --> 01:01:10,120
Speaker 2: you don't want to be looked at internally as that.

1236
01:01:10,440 --> 01:01:13,480
Speaker 5: You don't even want to get close to that mindset.

1237
01:01:13,000 --> 01:01:15,080
Speaker 2: That at all, you know, So you say, because what

1238
01:01:15,360 --> 01:01:17,520
Speaker 2: is it that made him feel like it was okay

1239
01:01:17,640 --> 01:01:19,560
Speaker 2: to do me? So I must be giving off something?

1240
01:01:19,960 --> 01:01:22,439
Speaker 2: And it's like, no, it's a demonic attack. You ain't

1241
01:01:22,480 --> 01:01:24,440
Speaker 2: gave off nothing. You're an innocent young man.

1242
01:01:24,640 --> 01:01:27,720
Speaker 4: It was a demonic attack assigned to derail your whole

1243
01:01:27,800 --> 01:01:32,040
Speaker 4: life and come against that spirit, that that that is

1244
01:01:32,120 --> 01:01:34,240
Speaker 4: coming against your mind and spirit to try to have

1245
01:01:34,440 --> 01:01:36,840
Speaker 4: you take a turn for the worst. And the same

1246
01:01:36,920 --> 01:01:39,040
Speaker 4: thing with you, Tasha is the same fact is that

1247
01:01:39,760 --> 01:01:42,560
Speaker 4: we don't talk about this enough in the Kingdom of

1248
01:01:43,240 --> 01:01:47,000
Speaker 4: violations and sexual assault. Even using the language on my

1249
01:01:47,200 --> 01:01:51,200
Speaker 4: podcast video makes them say, oh, this is a trigger word.

1250
01:01:51,520 --> 01:01:54,800
Speaker 4: You get now now advertisers can advertise on the episode

1251
01:01:54,840 --> 01:01:57,880
Speaker 4: because you said these words. So we talk around it.

1252
01:01:58,040 --> 01:01:59,560
Speaker 4: We try to figure out a way to say it.

1253
01:01:59,640 --> 01:02:01,960
Speaker 2: Man, I don't care as sexual assault and so at

1254
01:02:02,000 --> 01:02:03,600
Speaker 2: the end of the day, we got to come against

1255
01:02:03,640 --> 01:02:05,760
Speaker 2: that spirit. We got to come against the spirit of

1256
01:02:05,840 --> 01:02:08,600
Speaker 2: being silent because we can't talk about it because we

1257
01:02:08,680 --> 01:02:11,880
Speaker 2: don't out of fear of not being believed. We need

1258
01:02:12,000 --> 01:02:15,120
Speaker 2: our parents, those people that are in leaderships to be

1259
01:02:15,200 --> 01:02:18,160
Speaker 2: able to listen when a child comes forth and shares

1260
01:02:18,240 --> 01:02:21,520
Speaker 2: that and not be like, Ah, you just because your

1261
01:02:21,560 --> 01:02:24,560
Speaker 2: mama didn't let you go outside yesterday. Yeah, you're throwing

1262
01:02:24,560 --> 01:02:28,040
Speaker 2: a temper chantrum because of whatever reason. No, take it

1263
01:02:28,120 --> 01:02:31,720
Speaker 2: to heart, do the research and handle that thing with

1264
01:02:31,800 --> 01:02:34,080
Speaker 2: the gravity that is due. So thank you so much,

1265
01:02:34,120 --> 01:02:37,120
Speaker 2: salute to both of y'all for sharing that. And it

1266
01:02:37,280 --> 01:02:40,240
Speaker 2: just gives another reason, not that this is some trauma

1267
01:02:40,320 --> 01:02:43,080
Speaker 2: bond situation, but it's a place of healing, it's a

1268
01:02:43,160 --> 01:02:45,800
Speaker 2: place of restoration, it's a place of safety that y'all

1269
01:02:45,880 --> 01:02:50,080
Speaker 2: found with each other. That now, even having these backgrounds

1270
01:02:50,120 --> 01:02:53,400
Speaker 2: and you talk about these history lessons that you jokingly share,

1271
01:02:53,840 --> 01:02:56,320
Speaker 2: God is going to use the history lessons that y'all

1272
01:02:56,440 --> 01:02:59,640
Speaker 2: shared in y'all's own life to bring deliverance to other

1273
01:02:59,720 --> 01:03:02,520
Speaker 2: people that have gone through some of the same similar experiences.

1274
01:03:02,640 --> 01:03:04,520
Speaker 2: So I just heard that in the spirit as we

1275
01:03:04,600 --> 01:03:07,440
Speaker 2: were talking that history that y'all gone through, y'all have

1276
01:03:07,520 --> 01:03:10,280
Speaker 2: an anointing over that nowhere y'all able to discern it

1277
01:03:10,320 --> 01:03:13,320
Speaker 2: when y'all see it show up as in y'all's sphere

1278
01:03:13,360 --> 01:03:15,959
Speaker 2: of influence, where y'all can have conversations that other people

1279
01:03:16,080 --> 01:03:18,720
Speaker 2: can have because you know what it looks like, sound like,

1280
01:03:18,800 --> 01:03:21,160
Speaker 2: smell like, and you go, hey, come here, let me

1281
01:03:21,200 --> 01:03:21,919
Speaker 2: talk to you real quick.

1282
01:03:22,080 --> 01:03:25,360
Speaker 1: And being with someone, it's one thing to have a

1283
01:03:25,440 --> 01:03:31,160
Speaker 1: person who seeks to want to understand you, who does

1284
01:03:31,200 --> 01:03:34,600
Speaker 1: their research. I know people who are married to people

1285
01:03:34,680 --> 01:03:38,160
Speaker 1: who have been molested or raped or abused in any

1286
01:03:38,200 --> 01:03:41,120
Speaker 1: type of way. They read books, they go to classes,

1287
01:03:41,240 --> 01:03:45,200
Speaker 1: they do We understand one another to our core. Yes,

1288
01:03:45,520 --> 01:03:48,520
Speaker 1: he understands my pain. He understands the things that I

1289
01:03:48,600 --> 01:03:50,120
Speaker 1: deal with, the things that I go with that I'm

1290
01:03:50,160 --> 01:03:53,760
Speaker 1: still dealing with. Yeah, and I'm healed, Yeah, but I'm

1291
01:03:53,840 --> 01:03:57,720
Speaker 1: still it's still certain things, certain conversations that have to happen.

1292
01:03:58,080 --> 01:04:00,720
Speaker 1: But then family and different things that you know, it

1293
01:04:00,880 --> 01:04:04,240
Speaker 1: takes time to get over, it takes time to work through.

1294
01:04:04,960 --> 01:04:07,840
Speaker 1: And so I understand him and he understands me, And

1295
01:04:07,920 --> 01:04:11,560
Speaker 1: it's definitely a Kingdom assignment, why God brought us together

1296
01:04:11,680 --> 01:04:12,920
Speaker 1: for beautiful.

1297
01:04:13,480 --> 01:04:15,880
Speaker 2: Family and friends. So y'all feel like all your family

1298
01:04:15,920 --> 01:04:18,120
Speaker 2: and friends were in agreement with it? Or did you

1299
01:04:18,200 --> 01:04:20,280
Speaker 2: have people like y'all moving too fast? I heard what

1300
01:04:20,360 --> 01:04:22,760
Speaker 2: you said, DiAngelo. You say everybody's not gonna agree with it?

1301
01:04:23,080 --> 01:04:25,080
Speaker 2: Are you talking about the public at large? D you

1302
01:04:25,120 --> 01:04:26,960
Speaker 2: feel like you're in a circle. You still had to

1303
01:04:27,040 --> 01:04:29,320
Speaker 2: deal with people saying y'all moving too fast.

1304
01:04:30,200 --> 01:04:34,680
Speaker 5: A lot of people both I would say, they'll tell

1305
01:04:34,680 --> 01:04:35,439
Speaker 5: you to take your.

1306
01:04:35,400 --> 01:04:38,680
Speaker 3: Time, you know, Uh does it take your time?

1307
01:04:42,560 --> 01:04:42,720
Speaker 4: You know?

1308
01:04:43,080 --> 01:04:44,959
Speaker 5: Because they cared for me, you know what I'm saying,

1309
01:04:45,160 --> 01:04:48,600
Speaker 5: And they cared about my life, and they a lot

1310
01:04:48,640 --> 01:04:51,760
Speaker 5: of people saw what I went through, uh, and my

1311
01:04:51,960 --> 01:04:55,360
Speaker 5: past experience, and so they was like, man, you just

1312
01:04:55,480 --> 01:04:58,520
Speaker 5: need to take your time, you know, Uh, don't don't

1313
01:04:58,680 --> 01:05:02,520
Speaker 5: rush nothing. And and so I was, you know, I'm

1314
01:05:02,640 --> 01:05:06,680
Speaker 5: battling that mindset, like take my time, don't rush. But

1315
01:05:06,760 --> 01:05:08,840
Speaker 5: then I hear the Lord say, marry her.

1316
01:05:10,280 --> 01:05:13,960
Speaker 4: So listen to I'm not gonna listen to y'all.

1317
01:05:14,000 --> 01:05:16,160
Speaker 5: I love y'all, but I'm not gonna listen to you

1318
01:05:16,520 --> 01:05:22,080
Speaker 5: because I know when the Lord speaks as a reason why.

1319
01:05:22,600 --> 01:05:25,600
Speaker 2: And what they don't know is the state of mind

1320
01:05:25,680 --> 01:05:27,040
Speaker 2: that you were in, you was about to be in

1321
01:05:27,080 --> 01:05:31,000
Speaker 2: these streets. And so God, God can save us from ourselves.

1322
01:05:31,120 --> 01:05:33,880
Speaker 2: God said, hold on, son, I know what's in your heart.

1323
01:05:34,000 --> 01:05:36,240
Speaker 2: I know you're gonna take this brokenness and go out here.

1324
01:05:36,480 --> 01:05:38,800
Speaker 2: I'm gonna go on to smashing spree. Come come to me,

1325
01:05:38,880 --> 01:05:42,120
Speaker 2: someone back, Come to me. I need you and the covenant.

1326
01:05:42,360 --> 01:05:44,360
Speaker 2: I don't need you out here in these streets. And

1327
01:05:44,480 --> 01:05:46,680
Speaker 2: so they don't know that part. That's why God is

1328
01:05:46,760 --> 01:05:49,760
Speaker 2: so gracious to know us. He's he's omniscient, he's all knowing.

1329
01:05:49,880 --> 01:05:52,640
Speaker 2: So he's he's like, I if I leave you single

1330
01:05:52,720 --> 01:05:54,640
Speaker 2: too long, it's gonna take you too long to even

1331
01:05:54,640 --> 01:05:57,440
Speaker 2: get married again. Because the minute that you start getting

1332
01:05:57,600 --> 01:06:00,680
Speaker 2: used and accustomed to a certain lifestyle, it's you just

1333
01:06:00,840 --> 01:06:02,160
Speaker 2: further away from covenant.

1334
01:06:02,520 --> 01:06:04,560
Speaker 4: And so God knows that. That's why I said, can't

1335
01:06:04,560 --> 01:06:06,480
Speaker 4: listen to what people say? What about your end? Tashi?

1336
01:06:06,520 --> 01:06:08,600
Speaker 2: Were you hearing people saying you're rushing at you too soon?

1337
01:06:08,720 --> 01:06:10,080
Speaker 2: This man just put a ring on your finger and

1338
01:06:10,120 --> 01:06:11,120
Speaker 2: the next week want to marry you.

1339
01:06:11,200 --> 01:06:11,880
Speaker 4: What are y'all doing?

1340
01:06:13,840 --> 01:06:14,480
Speaker 3: Same with him?

1341
01:06:14,640 --> 01:06:16,880
Speaker 1: You know, my family knows what I went through before,

1342
01:06:17,840 --> 01:06:20,880
Speaker 1: and they saw the process of me coming out of

1343
01:06:20,960 --> 01:06:23,120
Speaker 1: that and how it took a toll on me mentally

1344
01:06:23,280 --> 01:06:27,560
Speaker 1: and physically and emotionally spiritually, like every part of me

1345
01:06:27,720 --> 01:06:30,840
Speaker 1: was affected by that. And so they were just like,

1346
01:06:31,680 --> 01:06:33,520
Speaker 1: we know, we can't tell you what to do, but

1347
01:06:33,680 --> 01:06:35,360
Speaker 1: are you there. It was just are you sure?

1348
01:06:35,640 --> 01:06:35,800
Speaker 4: You know?

1349
01:06:36,400 --> 01:06:38,720
Speaker 1: Sure, we love him, we love him, but if you

1350
01:06:38,880 --> 01:06:41,400
Speaker 1: say you know, you ain't doing it, We're gonna ride

1351
01:06:41,440 --> 01:06:43,600
Speaker 1: with you. It was that type of thing, just checking

1352
01:06:43,640 --> 01:06:47,520
Speaker 1: on me, making sure. And then once I confirmed with them,

1353
01:06:47,680 --> 01:06:50,520
Speaker 1: confirmed and like, no, this is it. I'm I'm sure

1354
01:06:50,560 --> 01:06:54,480
Speaker 1: about this. They love him, they love My children loved him.

1355
01:06:54,520 --> 01:06:57,440
Speaker 1: That was a big thing for your kids because in

1356
01:06:57,520 --> 01:06:59,960
Speaker 1: the second marriage, I didn't give my children an opportunity

1357
01:07:00,920 --> 01:07:04,400
Speaker 1: to even have a say so to even they never

1358
01:07:04,680 --> 01:07:06,920
Speaker 1: had a chance to really bond with him. They never

1359
01:07:07,000 --> 01:07:10,400
Speaker 1: were around and never and so that hurt them and

1360
01:07:10,520 --> 01:07:12,479
Speaker 1: I had to go back and apologize to my kids

1361
01:07:12,520 --> 01:07:16,080
Speaker 1: for that. And so the relationship that he has with

1362
01:07:16,200 --> 01:07:18,760
Speaker 1: them and the relationship that I have with his children.

1363
01:07:19,240 --> 01:07:22,200
Speaker 1: God gave us this and it's a beautiful thing, us

1364
01:07:22,680 --> 01:07:26,120
Speaker 1: merging our families together, and so we're just taking one

1365
01:07:26,200 --> 01:07:27,520
Speaker 1: day at a time and having fun.

1366
01:07:27,680 --> 01:07:30,520
Speaker 4: And so when he said, when you heard them over

1367
01:07:30,560 --> 01:07:33,960
Speaker 4: a whispering, we're gonna get married next thursday, that that

1368
01:07:34,120 --> 01:07:34,560
Speaker 4: scare you.

1369
01:07:34,680 --> 01:07:36,280
Speaker 1: I know, I got nervous.

1370
01:07:36,760 --> 01:07:37,080
Speaker 4: I did.

1371
01:07:37,200 --> 01:07:37,840
Speaker 3: I got nervous.

1372
01:07:37,840 --> 01:07:41,640
Speaker 4: I was like, what made you say, No, I don't

1373
01:07:41,640 --> 01:07:42,680
Speaker 4: want to get married next week.

1374
01:07:42,720 --> 01:07:44,120
Speaker 1: I want to get married because I wanted to.

1375
01:07:44,320 --> 01:07:45,360
Speaker 3: I wanted to be with him?

1376
01:07:45,920 --> 01:07:51,120
Speaker 4: Really? Yeah, absolutely, so you had peace. You had peace

1377
01:07:51,280 --> 01:07:56,120
Speaker 4: in marrying him quickly. It just was a whiplash moment

1378
01:07:56,280 --> 01:07:57,200
Speaker 4: of getting married in.

1379
01:07:57,240 --> 01:07:59,240
Speaker 3: The next because this is a big decision. Yeah, I

1380
01:07:59,280 --> 01:07:59,920
Speaker 3: don't look at it.

1381
01:08:00,720 --> 01:08:02,240
Speaker 1: We're just walking to this to going to the store.

1382
01:08:02,440 --> 01:08:04,200
Speaker 1: Were just going grocery shop and we'll be back. No,

1383
01:08:04,520 --> 01:08:07,920
Speaker 1: this is a lifetime commitment. Nobody gets married and plans

1384
01:08:08,000 --> 01:08:08,600
Speaker 1: to get divorced.

1385
01:08:08,640 --> 01:08:10,840
Speaker 4: So watch. So what made you lean into it like that?

1386
01:08:11,000 --> 01:08:11,160
Speaker 5: Though?

1387
01:08:11,440 --> 01:08:14,200
Speaker 1: I just knew it was God, I knew it was

1388
01:08:14,240 --> 01:08:17,479
Speaker 1: too many different confirmations. I'll give you one. One one

1389
01:08:17,520 --> 01:08:21,639
Speaker 1: of the confirmations was my mother said, I got baptized

1390
01:08:21,640 --> 01:08:24,280
Speaker 1: when I was a kid. I don't remember being baptized

1391
01:08:24,320 --> 01:08:26,360
Speaker 1: as an I've never been baptized as an adult.

1392
01:08:26,400 --> 01:08:28,640
Speaker 3: I was being baptized as a child, and.

1393
01:08:28,720 --> 01:08:30,640
Speaker 1: I wanted I wanted to I've been telling talking to

1394
01:08:30,680 --> 01:08:32,000
Speaker 1: the Lord like I want to be baptist. I got

1395
01:08:32,080 --> 01:08:34,680
Speaker 1: to get baptized again. Every time they do it at

1396
01:08:34,720 --> 01:08:36,760
Speaker 1: the church, I'm out of town, I'm on the row.

1397
01:08:36,840 --> 01:08:38,920
Speaker 1: I'm like I've been saying this. I've been saying this.

1398
01:08:39,040 --> 01:08:40,880
Speaker 1: So he was with me one time and we were

1399
01:08:40,920 --> 01:08:44,680
Speaker 1: I had to sing somewhere. We were together, and when

1400
01:08:44,720 --> 01:08:46,200
Speaker 1: I got done singing, he was like, you know, while

1401
01:08:46,200 --> 01:08:48,840
Speaker 1: you were singing, I saw me baptizing you.

1402
01:08:49,000 --> 01:08:49,439
Speaker 4: Oh wow.

1403
01:08:49,680 --> 01:08:53,640
Speaker 1: It was it was specific things that the Lord. I mean,

1404
01:08:53,720 --> 01:08:56,120
Speaker 1: I would I would be thinking something and he would

1405
01:08:56,240 --> 01:08:59,240
Speaker 1: call me. He would say he was like yeah. So

1406
01:08:59,479 --> 01:09:02,120
Speaker 1: it's like he always knew. He always knew where I was.

1407
01:09:02,240 --> 01:09:04,040
Speaker 1: He always met me where I was. He could always

1408
01:09:04,160 --> 01:09:06,559
Speaker 1: feel me, like if I'm not feeling well, if I'm

1409
01:09:06,600 --> 01:09:07,920
Speaker 1: dealing with something, what's wrong with you?

1410
01:09:08,360 --> 01:09:09,800
Speaker 3: Call me like, you know, let's pray.

1411
01:09:10,439 --> 01:09:13,040
Speaker 1: So we started this thing where he the Lord told

1412
01:09:13,120 --> 01:09:16,519
Speaker 1: him to stop and pray at twelve noon Monday through Friday.

1413
01:09:16,840 --> 01:09:18,479
Speaker 1: And he started doing it and he would get off

1414
01:09:18,520 --> 01:09:20,040
Speaker 1: the phone and I'm like, why are you getting off

1415
01:09:20,080 --> 01:09:20,400
Speaker 1: the phone.

1416
01:09:20,640 --> 01:09:22,720
Speaker 3: I got to pray at twelve. So I started doing

1417
01:09:22,760 --> 01:09:23,200
Speaker 3: it with him.

1418
01:09:23,760 --> 01:09:26,439
Speaker 1: So the first couple of months while we were dating,

1419
01:09:26,960 --> 01:09:30,200
Speaker 1: twelve no no matter where we were, we stopped and prayed.

1420
01:09:31,080 --> 01:09:32,880
Speaker 1: No matter where we were, no matter what we were doing,

1421
01:09:33,080 --> 01:09:35,479
Speaker 1: we stopped and prayed. And so now we kept doing it.

1422
01:09:35,600 --> 01:09:37,160
Speaker 1: And then one day he said the Lord told him

1423
01:09:37,400 --> 01:09:40,400
Speaker 1: to open it up. So Monday through Friday twelve New

1424
01:09:40,479 --> 01:09:42,840
Speaker 1: Eastern Standard time, we're on zoom praying and there's people

1425
01:09:42,920 --> 01:09:45,839
Speaker 1: on there. Sometimes we share a word, sometimes we prophesize.

1426
01:09:45,880 --> 01:09:48,960
Speaker 1: Some people are getting healed, coming back with testimonies of

1427
01:09:49,000 --> 01:09:53,880
Speaker 1: getting jobs, bodies being kids, being saved. So God didn't

1428
01:09:53,920 --> 01:09:55,840
Speaker 1: just bring us together for us to have a good time,

1429
01:09:55,880 --> 01:09:57,880
Speaker 1: and we do have a great time, but this is

1430
01:09:57,920 --> 01:10:01,320
Speaker 1: a kingdom assignment, like this is a real partnership. And

1431
01:10:01,400 --> 01:10:04,519
Speaker 1: I told him that, yes, I've been married twice, but

1432
01:10:04,600 --> 01:10:07,200
Speaker 1: when I married you, I felt like I've never been

1433
01:10:07,240 --> 01:10:10,519
Speaker 1: married before. I feel like I've never done this before,

1434
01:10:10,640 --> 01:10:12,880
Speaker 1: Like I feel really feel like this is the first

1435
01:10:12,920 --> 01:10:16,720
Speaker 1: time I've ever been married. And it's amazing, it's beautiful.

1436
01:10:17,600 --> 01:10:18,559
Speaker 1: I can't say it enough.

1437
01:10:18,600 --> 01:10:19,640
Speaker 3: I just thank God for it.

1438
01:10:19,720 --> 01:10:20,519
Speaker 1: I thank God for you.

1439
01:10:20,600 --> 01:10:21,720
Speaker 4: I love you too.

1440
01:10:22,040 --> 01:10:24,439
Speaker 5: Okay, and we do this thing and we tell people

1441
01:10:25,720 --> 01:10:29,600
Speaker 5: because every couple has arguments, every couple has you know,

1442
01:10:29,760 --> 01:10:31,880
Speaker 5: when you're getting learned each other, you're gonna you're gonna

1443
01:10:32,080 --> 01:10:34,680
Speaker 5: run into that. Uh. And I might say it in

1444
01:10:34,800 --> 01:10:39,560
Speaker 5: my interpretation, she's gonna correct me. But our motto is

1445
01:10:39,840 --> 01:10:45,080
Speaker 5: let love lead. Just let love regardless. Like because when

1446
01:10:45,120 --> 01:10:48,040
Speaker 5: we first started getting in arguments, one time we got

1447
01:10:48,080 --> 01:10:49,960
Speaker 5: an argument and we didn't talk.

1448
01:10:50,120 --> 01:10:51,839
Speaker 4: We was driving in the thought.

1449
01:10:52,479 --> 01:10:56,680
Speaker 3: On the road trip five hours five my headphones on and.

1450
01:10:56,760 --> 01:10:59,960
Speaker 5: Turned off Hulu, and I'm just I'm just a stubborn.

1451
01:11:00,040 --> 01:11:02,280
Speaker 5: And then I'm enjoying map quests.

1452
01:11:04,920 --> 01:11:06,479
Speaker 1: And the whole time I'm looking at my show and

1453
01:11:06,560 --> 01:11:09,200
Speaker 1: the show was good too. I'm like, this man ain't

1454
01:11:09,200 --> 01:11:11,200
Speaker 1: gonna say nothing to me nothing. Who's gonna be the

1455
01:11:11,240 --> 01:11:12,640
Speaker 1: first one to say I'm sorry? Who's gonna be the

1456
01:11:12,680 --> 01:11:14,360
Speaker 1: first one to break it? I said, now, now this

1457
01:11:14,479 --> 01:11:16,640
Speaker 1: is dangerous because we're both too stubborn for this. We

1458
01:11:16,760 --> 01:11:18,519
Speaker 1: got I looked at him, I said, so what are

1459
01:11:18,560 --> 01:11:18,920
Speaker 1: we doing?

1460
01:11:19,439 --> 01:11:19,840
Speaker 2: What is this?

1461
01:11:20,240 --> 01:11:20,880
Speaker 4: So you broke it?

1462
01:11:23,720 --> 01:11:27,360
Speaker 5: And from there and she she said those words and

1463
01:11:27,520 --> 01:11:31,479
Speaker 5: it and it stuck with me and so we we

1464
01:11:31,680 --> 01:11:35,160
Speaker 5: lead with that every in every situation, every up and down.

1465
01:11:35,920 --> 01:11:39,160
Speaker 5: So when you are engaging in an argument or anything,

1466
01:11:39,600 --> 01:11:43,680
Speaker 5: it should be the love that's leading regardless, so that

1467
01:11:44,200 --> 01:11:47,679
Speaker 5: you ain't gonna say nothing crazy. You know, I don't

1468
01:11:47,760 --> 01:11:53,760
Speaker 5: cuss like that. I don't cuss and so like that

1469
01:11:53,920 --> 01:11:55,120
Speaker 5: because people will pull that out.

1470
01:11:55,800 --> 01:11:58,200
Speaker 4: But you know, so I don't.

1471
01:11:58,640 --> 01:12:00,479
Speaker 5: I will never call her out her name, you know

1472
01:12:00,479 --> 01:12:02,600
Speaker 5: what I'm saying that that's something I just want to do.

1473
01:12:03,400 --> 01:12:05,479
Speaker 5: Like the insult thing we're not gonna do. And then

1474
01:12:05,520 --> 01:12:07,200
Speaker 5: if you're letting love lee, you're not going to do

1475
01:12:07,280 --> 01:12:10,960
Speaker 5: that anymore. Absolutely, And so even so we're not trying

1476
01:12:11,040 --> 01:12:11,599
Speaker 5: to win.

1477
01:12:12,840 --> 01:12:13,559
Speaker 4: And that's the thing.

1478
01:12:13,760 --> 01:12:16,599
Speaker 5: I'm not trying to win an argument. Yeah, I don't

1479
01:12:16,600 --> 01:12:18,559
Speaker 5: want to win an argument. I want to I want

1480
01:12:18,560 --> 01:12:22,280
Speaker 5: to stay in love good good, So you know, and

1481
01:12:22,439 --> 01:12:24,679
Speaker 5: that's you know what we're learning in our process.

1482
01:12:24,800 --> 01:12:26,800
Speaker 4: We're not perfect, you know, none of it.

1483
01:12:27,360 --> 01:12:31,240
Speaker 5: We're trying to learn each other and and so, but

1484
01:12:31,400 --> 01:12:34,320
Speaker 5: we're going to be married for the next forty fifty years.

1485
01:12:34,439 --> 01:12:36,960
Speaker 4: There it is, there it is. How old are you, Tasha?

1486
01:12:37,479 --> 01:12:37,920
Speaker 3: Forty two?

1487
01:12:38,160 --> 01:12:42,400
Speaker 4: How are you forty one? No, he said, forty fifty years.

1488
01:12:42,479 --> 01:12:47,200
Speaker 1: Sixty seventy sixty seven, still be throwing that thing undred.

1489
01:12:49,920 --> 01:12:50,800
Speaker 4: Baby in.

1490
01:12:52,720 --> 01:12:58,719
Speaker 1: You because I can, I will.

1491
01:12:59,280 --> 01:12:59,840
Speaker 4: I can out.

1492
01:13:00,200 --> 01:13:04,439
Speaker 2: That's a new Bible verse. Listen, how can we support you?

1493
01:13:04,520 --> 01:13:06,800
Speaker 2: You got an album coming out? Well, how can we

1494
01:13:06,840 --> 01:13:07,240
Speaker 2: support you?

1495
01:13:07,520 --> 01:13:10,760
Speaker 1: I got some new music that's coming out, and I

1496
01:13:11,000 --> 01:13:12,800
Speaker 1: actually have something to give you too, because I want

1497
01:13:12,800 --> 01:13:14,439
Speaker 1: you to hear the new song. Oh, I got some

1498
01:13:14,560 --> 01:13:17,960
Speaker 1: new music coming out. The first single is called come

1499
01:13:18,000 --> 01:13:20,639
Speaker 1: to Pass. Yeah, it's called come to Pass.

1500
01:13:21,080 --> 01:13:23,040
Speaker 4: It's it's about her meeting her boas.

1501
01:13:25,760 --> 01:13:28,439
Speaker 1: I'm just excited. I'm excited about what God is doing

1502
01:13:28,920 --> 01:13:31,519
Speaker 1: in my music ministry. I haven't released a full body

1503
01:13:31,560 --> 01:13:32,719
Speaker 1: of work since twenty seventeen.

1504
01:13:32,840 --> 01:13:33,639
Speaker 4: Twenty seventeen.

1505
01:13:34,360 --> 01:13:35,120
Speaker 3: Long, been that long.

1506
01:13:35,200 --> 01:13:37,560
Speaker 1: I wasn't ready to release music, Like, I didn't want to.

1507
01:13:37,680 --> 01:13:40,160
Speaker 1: I didn't want to let my supporters rush me, and

1508
01:13:40,280 --> 01:13:41,439
Speaker 1: I didn't want to do it for the sake of

1509
01:13:41,560 --> 01:13:43,400
Speaker 1: get music out. You got to release content. You got

1510
01:13:43,479 --> 01:13:45,640
Speaker 1: to stay relevant. You got the Lord allowed me to

1511
01:13:45,640 --> 01:13:50,760
Speaker 1: stay really through features, through just relationships and his favor Like,

1512
01:13:51,240 --> 01:13:53,360
Speaker 1: how is it that I'm on the road almost every

1513
01:13:53,400 --> 01:13:54,720
Speaker 1: weekend with no new music out.

1514
01:13:56,160 --> 01:13:57,519
Speaker 3: That's God that has to be gone.

1515
01:13:57,600 --> 01:14:00,960
Speaker 2: Do you know Anita Hawkins. Yeah, remember I met you

1516
01:14:01,200 --> 01:14:04,080
Speaker 2: at her birthday party? You did you go to a

1517
01:14:04,160 --> 01:14:06,240
Speaker 2: birthday thing that she had in Dallas? It was something?

1518
01:14:06,800 --> 01:14:07,439
Speaker 2: Was it her thing?

1519
01:14:07,640 --> 01:14:08,240
Speaker 4: It was something?

1520
01:14:09,320 --> 01:14:10,760
Speaker 3: I remember her being there.

1521
01:14:10,960 --> 01:14:14,320
Speaker 2: Yeah, she was there, but who's was it? I thought

1522
01:14:14,400 --> 01:14:16,760
Speaker 2: that was her thing? But it was a birthday thing

1523
01:14:16,840 --> 01:14:18,160
Speaker 2: that she had a couple of years ago. And I

1524
01:14:18,240 --> 01:14:21,200
Speaker 2: remember meeting you there. Yeah, So I don't know.

1525
01:14:21,640 --> 01:14:22,120
Speaker 3: Was that nice?

1526
01:14:22,240 --> 01:14:27,920
Speaker 1: Was I don't know. I just have a serious look sometimes.

1527
01:14:27,880 --> 01:14:29,080
Speaker 4: When I talked to you, you was cool.

1528
01:14:29,120 --> 01:14:30,920
Speaker 2: You've always been cool with me and matter of fact,

1529
01:14:30,960 --> 01:14:33,479
Speaker 2: we've got on the phone and talked extensively about your

1530
01:14:33,600 --> 01:14:36,320
Speaker 2: whole background and your mom and the loss of your

1531
01:14:36,400 --> 01:14:37,280
Speaker 2: dad all that stuff.

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Speaker 4: So I always was like, she's solid to me. And

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Speaker 4: so yeah, always been solid.

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Speaker 2: So I ain't, like I said, I ain't in the

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01:14:44,040 --> 01:14:46,599
Speaker 2: gospel industry that much to know what people may say

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Speaker 2: about you.

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Speaker 4: So if you've been mean the people, I.

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Speaker 2: No more.

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01:14:56,520 --> 01:14:59,120
Speaker 1: In these days, you gotta earned the with me.

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Speaker 3: It's been I haven't been through too much.

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Speaker 4: You got to earn the real And so your album

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01:15:08,040 --> 01:15:10,879
Speaker 4: is coming out today. You have a website to Shay.

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Speaker 1: Ministries dot com, follow me on Instagram. Part we have

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01:15:16,200 --> 01:15:18,000
Speaker 1: a lot going on. I have a women's ministry that

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01:15:18,120 --> 01:15:21,479
Speaker 1: my husband urged me to relaunch called Daughters of Eve

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01:15:21,640 --> 01:15:24,280
Speaker 1: and so we do every third Monday on Zoom. All

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01:15:24,320 --> 01:15:26,800
Speaker 1: of that is on my social media stuff and then

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Speaker 1: him and I you could talk about Yeah, we are.

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Speaker 4: Going into ministry. Good.

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Speaker 5: I pastored for the past seven years in Virginia and

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01:15:38,560 --> 01:15:43,120
Speaker 5: now we are moving forward. Not a timeline yet, but

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01:15:43,240 --> 01:15:45,600
Speaker 5: we're moving forward seeking the face of the Lord, and

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01:15:45,960 --> 01:15:49,960
Speaker 5: we'll be doing full live ministry in Uh the Raleigh

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01:15:50,000 --> 01:15:54,080
Speaker 5: Durham area, North Carolina is a burden that I carry

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01:15:54,120 --> 01:15:55,800
Speaker 5: and I can't let it go there it is and

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Speaker 5: so we're doing that and uh, that's you know, that's

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Speaker 5: all I'm doing. You can follow me on t lofton one,

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Speaker 5: two three at an ig and then DiAngelo Lofton on

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Speaker 5: Facebook and all others.

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Speaker 4: And we're good. If I'm available, I want to come

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01:16:13,400 --> 01:16:16,840
Speaker 4: to your first service that I want to pull up

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01:16:16,880 --> 01:16:18,559
Speaker 4: that great. Yeah, that'd be great.

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Speaker 2: I love it when people are being assigned by God

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01:16:22,120 --> 01:16:24,959
Speaker 2: in the city to go and speak to the demonic

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01:16:25,080 --> 01:16:27,960
Speaker 2: influences there so they can bring souls to the Kingdom.

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Speaker 4: Ten toes down in that song and.

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Speaker 1: Thank you for what you're doing. Thank you for what

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01:16:32,160 --> 01:16:34,840
Speaker 1: you're doing for people who have lost hope. I mean

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01:16:34,920 --> 01:16:36,559
Speaker 1: there are a lot of people who did give up

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Speaker 1: on love.

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Speaker 4: Absolutely, it felt like this is not for me.

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Speaker 3: I haven't found my person or one of them.

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01:16:43,000 --> 01:16:47,200
Speaker 1: Breaks. But then no, seriously, thank you for extending this

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01:16:47,240 --> 01:16:49,280
Speaker 1: platform for us to be able to share our stories

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01:16:49,360 --> 01:16:53,360
Speaker 1: and for just extent creating this for people to know

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01:16:53,479 --> 01:16:55,479
Speaker 1: that there is somebody out there for you and to

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01:16:55,600 --> 01:16:58,439
Speaker 1: get the tools. That's the thing part, to get the

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01:16:58,600 --> 01:17:00,840
Speaker 1: tools to be think you want to be in a mirror,

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01:17:01,080 --> 01:17:02,799
Speaker 1: and you think you want to be in a marriage,

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01:17:03,120 --> 01:17:07,160
Speaker 1: you need the most selfless version of yourself has to

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Speaker 1: emerge at that point.

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Speaker 4: If you want to be in a marriage, that's the

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01:17:10,320 --> 01:17:13,360
Speaker 4: best version of yourself. Yeah, yeah, you ain't lying. That's

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Speaker 4: as powerful.

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Speaker 5: Well, listen, DiAngelo, you have social media, yes, Instagram, t

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Speaker 5: Lofton one two three, t Lofton one two three, and

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Speaker 5: Facebook is D'Angelo lofton.

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Speaker 4: There it is?

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Speaker 2: And so again, fellas, I want you to reach out

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Speaker 2: to him if his testimony resonated with you, so that

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01:17:32,120 --> 01:17:33,960
Speaker 2: you can get free from this, so that when you

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01:17:34,400 --> 01:17:37,080
Speaker 2: decide to take vows again. You take vows as a

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01:17:37,280 --> 01:17:40,360
Speaker 2: whole man in the name of Jesus. Y'all give it

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Speaker 2: up for the lofty John.

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Speaker 5: Let's shure less you stay tuned to the end for

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01:17:44,960 --> 01:17:46,120
Speaker 5: a letter to my future wife.

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Speaker 4: Right and least love letters.

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01:17:53,760 --> 01:17:58,799
Speaker 2: Ladarian thrust it suddenly into child protective services. In twenty fifteen,

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Speaker 2: my nephew, black a boy.

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Speaker 4: The likelihood have been adopted outside of kinship? Slim to none?

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Speaker 2: Rmione, sixteen years old, black a boy with five years

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Speaker 2: in the Falter care system before I even knew his name.

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01:18:15,840 --> 01:18:19,479
Speaker 4: The likelihood have ever been adopted? Yep, you guessed it.

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01:18:20,160 --> 01:18:21,120
Speaker 4: Slim to none.

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01:18:22,680 --> 01:18:25,639
Speaker 2: While Laderian and OURMIONI were trying to survive and barely

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01:18:25,720 --> 01:18:29,120
Speaker 2: thrive in an overpopulated and underfunded Falseter care system, I

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01:18:29,280 --> 01:18:32,559
Speaker 2: was living my own life, doing well professionally, having been

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01:18:32,640 --> 01:18:34,760
Speaker 2: a single father with a daughter who at that point

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01:18:34,880 --> 01:18:37,240
Speaker 2: was doing well in college. It was my time to

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01:18:37,280 --> 01:18:43,840
Speaker 2: live my life right wrong. I felt unsettled, tireless, agitated.

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01:18:44,800 --> 01:18:48,120
Speaker 2: There are just too many of our black children stuck

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01:18:48,439 --> 01:18:51,719
Speaker 2: in ambiguity and in the limbo of the Falter care system.

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01:18:52,439 --> 01:18:55,560
Speaker 2: In twenty seventeen, I legally adopted my nephew Ladarian.

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Speaker 4: Fast forward to twenty nineteen.

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Speaker 2: I had no ties to this other young king, but

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01:19:00,200 --> 01:19:02,880
Speaker 2: God instructed me to adopt them also on an babe.

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01:19:03,800 --> 01:19:06,800
Speaker 2: Starting over with parenting should have been enough. Right, Working

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01:19:06,840 --> 01:19:09,479
Speaker 2: with various foster care and adoption agencies to help bring

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01:19:09,560 --> 01:19:12,719
Speaker 2: awareness to the countless young Black Kings and the Falster

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01:19:12,840 --> 01:19:15,480
Speaker 2: care system should have decreased my agitation.

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01:19:15,720 --> 01:19:15,840
Speaker 4: Right.

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Speaker 2: Joining the board of directors of Advantage of Adoption and

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01:19:19,400 --> 01:19:22,920
Speaker 2: organization that helps find permanent adoptive homes for children in

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01:19:22,960 --> 01:19:25,479
Speaker 2: FALSI care should have led to some type of resolve.

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Speaker 4: Right, No, not at all. None of it felt like

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01:19:30,120 --> 01:19:31,120
Speaker 4: I had done enough.

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01:19:32,240 --> 01:19:36,320
Speaker 2: I now realized that every one of those experiences was

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01:19:36,400 --> 01:19:39,080
Speaker 2: land the fundamental foundation for my life's mission.

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01:19:40,000 --> 01:19:40,799
Speaker 4: Kingdom Royal.

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01:19:41,760 --> 01:19:44,439
Speaker 2: Kingdom Royal would be a luxury, state of the art

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01:19:44,479 --> 01:19:47,680
Speaker 2: home for foster boys. Our first location will be in

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01:19:47,720 --> 01:19:50,679
Speaker 2: the Dallas Fort Worth Metroplex. We will utilize the whole

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01:19:50,800 --> 01:19:55,360
Speaker 2: person approach that instills identity, empowers them to advocate for themselves,

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01:19:55,640 --> 01:19:59,680
Speaker 2: and enlightens them regarding new perspectives and limitless options that

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01:19:59,760 --> 01:20:04,439
Speaker 2: they thought were impossible. Though, the young Kings will attend

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01:20:04,439 --> 01:20:07,160
Speaker 2: the local public schools that are in proximity the King

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01:20:07,160 --> 01:20:11,000
Speaker 2: of Royale. Our at home curriculum will broaden their worldview

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01:20:11,080 --> 01:20:15,000
Speaker 2: through participating in the arts, attending various cultural events, learning

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01:20:15,080 --> 01:20:19,240
Speaker 2: about and engaging in multifaceted discussions about current events and

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01:20:19,400 --> 01:20:24,040
Speaker 2: even relevant historical contexts, Introducing them to gardening and landscaping,

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01:20:24,160 --> 01:20:27,400
Speaker 2: and even caring for our animals on our form and

1642
01:20:27,520 --> 01:20:31,879
Speaker 2: on site stables. We just launched our startup capital campaign

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01:20:32,120 --> 01:20:34,280
Speaker 2: with the goal of raising two point eight million dollars.

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01:20:34,320 --> 01:20:36,760
Speaker 4: Now why two point eight million dollars? Well.

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01:20:36,800 --> 01:20:39,160
Speaker 2: In twenty seventeen, I created a web series in which

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01:20:39,200 --> 01:20:43,120
Speaker 2: I performed random acts of kindness for targeting the homeless community.

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01:20:43,400 --> 01:20:45,280
Speaker 4: One of the most notable successes was.

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01:20:45,280 --> 01:20:48,599
Speaker 2: That one of the videos went viral, garnering twenty eight

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01:20:48,960 --> 01:20:52,720
Speaker 2: million views. However, one of my biggest regrets is that

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01:20:52,840 --> 01:20:55,680
Speaker 2: I didn't raise a single dollar to help in implementing

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01:20:55,880 --> 01:20:59,599
Speaker 2: a more sustainable plan for the homeless community. So, throughout

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01:20:59,640 --> 01:21:03,400
Speaker 2: the years, with much remorse, I reflect that I'm not

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01:21:03,600 --> 01:21:06,960
Speaker 2: maximizing that moment. I knew if at that time just

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01:21:07,120 --> 01:21:10,160
Speaker 2: ten percent of the viewers donated one dollar, we would

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01:21:10,200 --> 01:21:13,600
Speaker 2: have raised at least two point eight million dollars that

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01:21:13,680 --> 01:21:16,799
Speaker 2: could have really established long term support for the homeless community,

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01:21:17,080 --> 01:21:20,160
Speaker 2: or at least started a long term initiative to do so.

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01:21:21,240 --> 01:21:25,320
Speaker 4: This is my do over, this is our new beginning.

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01:21:25,520 --> 01:21:29,000
Speaker 2: Together, we can attack this at the route by specifically

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01:21:29,120 --> 01:21:34,240
Speaker 2: helping our homeless Black boys who are already disproportionately represented

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01:21:34,439 --> 01:21:36,120
Speaker 2: in the American fossil care system.

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Speaker 4: I'm a tarisaar Wickfield.

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01:21:38,080 --> 01:21:41,439
Speaker 2: I've been nominated for three regional Emmys documenting my work

1664
01:21:41,520 --> 01:21:44,439
Speaker 2: with the homeless as well as my personal adoption journey.

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01:21:45,000 --> 01:21:49,400
Speaker 2: Despite those accolades, the greatest award for me is truly

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Speaker 2: providing the infrastructure for a transformed life. Visit Kingdomroyal dot

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Speaker 2: com for more details Crown of.

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Speaker 4: King and make a donation today.

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Speaker 2: Here's my favorite part of the podcast where I speak

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01:22:08,920 --> 01:22:13,519
Speaker 2: to my future wife, their future wifeing our scars will

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01:22:13,600 --> 01:22:17,360
Speaker 2: not be wasted, the tears we've cried in secret, the

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01:22:17,479 --> 01:22:20,360
Speaker 2: nights we wrestle with loneliness, the seasons we thought would

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01:22:20,720 --> 01:22:24,160
Speaker 2: break us. God was weaving them into a greater purpose.

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01:22:24,520 --> 01:22:27,479
Speaker 2: When we come together, our marriage will not just be

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01:22:27,720 --> 01:22:31,400
Speaker 2: for our joy, it will be for His glory. I

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01:22:31,479 --> 01:22:33,719
Speaker 2: believe the Lord will take the ashes of our past

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01:22:33,800 --> 01:22:38,400
Speaker 2: trauma and exchange them for beauty that touches nations. Where

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01:22:38,520 --> 01:22:42,439
Speaker 2: pain once silenced us, He will give us platforms where

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01:22:42,520 --> 01:22:45,639
Speaker 2: heartbreak tried to destroy us. He will give us healing

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01:22:45,840 --> 01:22:50,000
Speaker 2: words for the broken hearted. Together, our transparency will be medicine.

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01:22:50,160 --> 01:22:54,640
Speaker 2: Our story will remind people that God still restores, still redeems,

1682
01:22:54,680 --> 01:22:57,439
Speaker 2: and still resurrects dead things.

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01:22:58,640 --> 01:23:00,479
Speaker 4: We won't hide from what we been through.

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01:23:01,280 --> 01:23:05,120
Speaker 2: Well stand as living testimonies that trauma does not define us,

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01:23:05,600 --> 01:23:09,200
Speaker 2: grace does. Our union will be a lighthouse for those

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01:23:09,320 --> 01:23:12,559
Speaker 2: lost in storms, of safe harbor for those searching for hope,

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01:23:12,600 --> 01:23:15,760
Speaker 2: and a declaration that love can grow even out of

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01:23:16,040 --> 01:23:21,320
Speaker 2: fractured souls. So, my Love, let us embrace the assignment

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01:23:21,560 --> 01:23:25,360
Speaker 2: not just to love each other well, but to love

1690
01:23:25,479 --> 01:23:28,759
Speaker 2: the world better. Because of what we've endured, the nations

1691
01:23:28,960 --> 01:23:33,680
Speaker 2: will find healing and the overflow of our obedience. Dear

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01:23:33,760 --> 01:23:37,400
Speaker 2: Future Hoopy, I hope you enjoyed this episode of the

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01:23:37,439 --> 01:23:42,880
Speaker 2: Dear Future Wife podcast. Remember belt live intentionally and transparently,

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01:23:43,400 --> 01:23:44,360
Speaker 2: and don't stop loving.

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01:23:44,800 --> 01:23:47,080
Speaker 4: Make sure to subscribe to our Dear Future Wife you

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Speaker 4: YouTube channel. We're available on Apple podcasts, Google podcasts, Spotify

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Speaker 4: and Stitcher welcome your support. Simply share our podcasts with

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