Speaker 1: I say so. And I'm Jermaine and welcome to the
Speaker 1: 100th episode of Cities Hush hush.
Speaker 1: I like it. I like whispered and shouted it. 100 episode. It.
Speaker 1: Welcome to the 100th episode of clarity.
Speaker 1: I,
Speaker 1: how do you say 100 episode in Mandarin? That's basically it.
Speaker 1: Malays yummy for some reason
Speaker 1: to 100 is just wild. It's insane. I know. How
Speaker 1: do you guys feel about this? I can't believe it
Speaker 1: doesn't feel like a
Speaker 2: 100. Our first episode done in 20
Speaker 1: 2020 2020 20 October. Yes, that's correct. So it's been
Speaker 1: more than three years since we've started and I've seen
Speaker 1: your faces.
Speaker 1: You don't want to see. I will leave. Now, my goodness.
Speaker 1: When we recorded our first episode, I never imagined we
Speaker 1: would be sitting here doing 1/100 episode and today we
Speaker 1: are in a completely new set altogether. Now, one thing
Speaker 1: you might not know about Harsh Podcast is that we
Speaker 1: are very mobile. We have had like different sets. No,
Speaker 1: we really are mobile.
Speaker 1: We've had pixel studios. That was all of us location.
Speaker 1: The smallest, smallest studio, like it was just barely. Now,
Speaker 1: we started on a
Speaker 2: gray sofa do you remember? Yeah.
Speaker 1: And we had to sit like separately because the sofa
Speaker 1: couldn't hold three of us. That's true. Remember that? I,
Speaker 1: now it's sitting on the floor. So actually we started
Speaker 1: from the bottom. We went even lower.
Speaker 1: I love that. The pixel studios, the small ones. Then
Speaker 1: we had the bigger studio in, in pixel pixel. We upgraded,
Speaker 1: we upgraded to the bigger one sitting on the floor
Speaker 1: with this very comfy cushions from nine N nine N
Speaker 1: believed in us with nothing but we were nobody. Thank you.
Speaker 1: We're still nobody's. And then we moved to media media
Speaker 1: was like come, come, come, come back, come back home.
Speaker 1: That was great. And then we had a few studios
Speaker 1: in media Corp and then after that, we moved to
Speaker 1: Alvin Studio. No, there was one more for that. Who
Speaker 1: was that new studio studio? That's right. Then we moved
Speaker 1: to Vin Studio and today we're here, me and Polly
Speaker 2: with an audience
Speaker 1: might not be able to see on the screens but
Speaker 1: with an entire audience behind. Hi, you guys. Hi guys.
Speaker 1: What's up? Some of them are sleeping, wake up, wake up, boring. So,
Speaker 1: so we're actually here because we are doing a collaboration
Speaker 1: with the film and media study students. They have such
Speaker 1: a nice studio. You guys, I know this is also
Speaker 1: where you spend
Speaker 2: a couple of years of
Speaker 1: your life. Oh, that is true. That is true. Yeah.
Speaker 1: As I was walking down the hallway. I was like,
Speaker 1: am I 17 again?
Speaker 1: Yeah. And you know what? I think it's great because
Speaker 1: today is January 2nd 2024. It's a brand new year. So,
Speaker 1: so can you,
Speaker 1: oh, my gosh. How time flies? Life is? Change so
Speaker 1: much in the last 100 episodes, right. So, I think,
Speaker 1: you know, in view that this is 1/100 episode and
Speaker 1: it's a brand new year. Let's take this episode to
Speaker 1: slow down a bit and just reflect on the past
Speaker 1: 99 episodes that we've done in the past three years
Speaker 1: of our lives.
Speaker 2: I'm getting emotional. I'm scared.
Speaker 1: I it's wild to think you've done 99 episodes. I
Speaker 1: couldn't name you. Probably 10 episodes.
Speaker 2: I can
Speaker 1: let off the top of my
Speaker 2: mind. The recent ones. Pocketing.
Speaker 1: Ok. Overreacting. Remember that? Overreacting,
Speaker 2: slut, shaming toxic mother, daughter relationship. What
Speaker 1: baby? A real baby. Yes. Yes. The one Rachel, right?
Speaker 1: And the one Jan Danker girls supporting girls in the workplace,
Speaker 1: the 61 fertility. That's right. The one with Kelly Mini.
Speaker 1: I
Speaker 2: love that. Cheating. The way you love
Speaker 1: situation.
Speaker 1: Actually. Speaking of all these, which is your favorite episode
Speaker 1: so far. I really like the one of Kelly as
Speaker 1: in we met a Hollywood star. Can you tell that
Speaker 1: you may 1 every day? You all right. Hollywood Singapore.
Speaker 1: I really like that episode with Kelly. I think she
Speaker 1: was very honest with us. And it's nice to look
Speaker 1: up to someone and you learn from their life experiences
Speaker 1: if we were to speak about which episode with a
Speaker 1: guest that left the strongest impact for me. I've always thought,
Speaker 1: I know Rachel Naomi, she's so influential as well the
Speaker 1: way she speaks. But my recent favorite is the one
Speaker 1: of Jean Danker. I mean, she's a radio personality. She
Speaker 1: knows what we are doing for a living. She understands
Speaker 1: the struggles, right? I think everyone has a crush on Jan.
Speaker 1: I know girlfriend, everyone. She's so elegant, so graceful. I
Speaker 1: don't know how she does that. So,
Speaker 1: what about you?
Speaker 2: Favorite guests? Actually, something that sticks out in my mind
Speaker 2: is the one who did with Norell Norell, which was
Speaker 2: a lot
Speaker 1: quite sometimes last year.
Speaker 2: Yes. And I think it was because you were speaking about,
Speaker 2: you know, just attachment styles, losing people and that, that
Speaker 2: struck a chord in me.
Speaker 1: Well, you know, aside from harsh, let's pull the time
Speaker 1: back to October 2020 when it first started and look
Speaker 1: at our
Speaker 1: own careers. We, I mean, we, we were in radio.
Speaker 1: Still in radio. Yes, same. But I feel like all
Speaker 1: of us have evolved so much. Oh, absolutely. Especially j
Speaker 1: I see a lot of growth in you from then
Speaker 1: to me. Not, he was definitely not high growth in
Speaker 1: terms of, first of all. Ok, you're more toned, you're
Speaker 1: more lean. I always tell her in great shape. Oh
Speaker 1: my God. The Pilates a they paid off it
Speaker 1: and not just that I think work wise, career wise
Speaker 1: as well. I see hosting so many more events. You
Speaker 1: have so many more social media posting. Your Tik Tok
Speaker 1: is going great for you. Everything just seems to be
Speaker 1: working out. My mental health is doing better. Can I
Speaker 1: just the biggest win, Hazy spoke to my ex boyfriend recently? Yes,
Speaker 1: I did. And my
Speaker 1: ex boyfriend actually said to her, what do you say?
Speaker 1: He said really nice stuff. Like he said, he's happy
Speaker 1: that Jimmy is in a better place and that she
Speaker 1: found someone who is more compatible for her. Yeah. So,
Speaker 1: I mean, great guy. Like Jimmy always speaks well and
Speaker 1: wishes him well as well. So, yeah, wishing you well.
Speaker 1: Not that, you know,
Speaker 1: you well, but hang on. I just want to add
Speaker 1: one more thing. If there's one thing I wish people
Speaker 1: knew about Jimmy, it's how hard she works 100
Speaker 2: percent. I literally just spoke to my mother about this yesterday.
Speaker 2: Your mother, my mother, because I was like Js coming
Speaker 2: back in January after like two months and she was like, oh,
Speaker 2: once take two months,
Speaker 2: like, she's so tired because she's so busy. She works
Speaker 2: from morning to night and nobody sees
Speaker 1: it. Yeah. And she took time off from work to
Speaker 1: do more work. She did more like hosting stuff like
Speaker 1: her own work thing, like a family thing. So I
Speaker 1: wish people can see how hard you work. Thank you guys.
Speaker 1: Thank you. But I correct. But I personally think that
Speaker 1: hazy since 2020 to now, firstly, you've had like 10
Speaker 1: different hairstyles.
Speaker 1: That's not wrong. She had bang short hair, long hair,
Speaker 1: middle hair, like everything, all colors, correct. But career wise
Speaker 1: you have just flown and grown above way out of
Speaker 1: your league that you were in 2020 I think in
Speaker 1: 2020 you have big dreams in 2024. Now you've realized
Speaker 1: those dreams. Can you imagine that both in work and
Speaker 1: in your personal life? Thank you. Actually, as we speak
Speaker 1: today is the launch of my Chinese New Year song
Speaker 1: is a song written
Speaker 1: because it's a year of a dragon. Ok. So my
Speaker 1: song title is called Sing Along Dance Along. It's so catchy,
Speaker 1: it stuck in my head. I let Jy hear it
Speaker 1: once just now and she said it's stuck in the head,
Speaker 1: which means I think it's a pretty successful. Also go
Speaker 1: on to, to do that. You
Speaker 2: need answer.
Speaker 1: You are, don't need.
Speaker 1: I mean, how incredible is that she worked with all
Speaker 1: her best friends to make the music, the arrangement, choreography,
Speaker 1: the music video and she brought it to life. It's
Speaker 1: just hazy. Like we have a huge hole in my
Speaker 1: pocket right now as we speak, but you will recover it.
Speaker 1: I hope. And it's a dream that I've always wanted
Speaker 1: to accomplish. I mean DP hosting, making my own song
Speaker 1: more to come. I hope. And I want to do
Speaker 1: more things in 2024. You move to a new home
Speaker 1: in 2024.
Speaker 1: She's a homeowner now. She's a homeowner. Her net worth
Speaker 1: just went up and actually a, is a, is about here.
Speaker 1: I'm like, come on, you want to talk about Net
Speaker 1: Worth the time? I have no asset, both of my body,
Speaker 1: but you have got it. Thank you.
Speaker 1: And Zora, I don't know. Have you gotten more loud?
Speaker 1: I'm trying to think
Speaker 1: actually a note from our PD as sounded really different
Speaker 1: compared to the first episode. She was a lot more
Speaker 1: soft spoken, more gentle, but now she's got a vibe.
Speaker 1: Do you think so?
Speaker 2: I know my voice has changed over the past couple
Speaker 2: of years better, I guess. So. I mean, people have
Speaker 2: been telling me that they like this
Speaker 1: voice. It's nice. I like the raspiness. I think, you know,
Speaker 1: in 2020 A already had DGF vibes but in 2024
Speaker 1: it's like through the roof, you will not find someone
Speaker 1: else who
Speaker 1: harder than her. Yeah, that's true. Is that true though?
Speaker 1: Is it? No, I don't think so. Actually, that's not
Speaker 1: just career based on your personal level as well. I
Speaker 1: like harsh because it's a never ending journey. We all
Speaker 1: grow together. So here's another fun fact. Did you know
Speaker 1: how we were chosen to host the Harsh podcast together.
Speaker 1: No idea. Names out
Speaker 2: of a hat. You're joking, you are joking, dude, obviously not,
Speaker 1: right.
Speaker 1: I mean, we have
Speaker 2: quite a story though.
Speaker 1: Ok. Actually, this story is nicer. So according to our PDN,
Speaker 1: this question was raised on a couple of occasions, but
Speaker 1: she's never answered it properly. So when she came out
Speaker 1: of the project idea, she knew that Harsh would involve
Speaker 1: three women each with very distinct backgrounds for sure. But
Speaker 1: she just didn't know who one thing for sure is
Speaker 1: that she wasn't looking for strong, powerful, inspiring role models.
Speaker 1: She was looking for calm, gentle and comforting friends. I
Speaker 1: I found nothing
Speaker 1: but what is she? But what she did say though
Speaker 1: is that she knew she wanted radio djs on Hush
Speaker 1: but she almost cast personalities out of radio because that
Speaker 1: that was the COVID period and it was tough to
Speaker 1: meet people in the company due to possible cross contamination.
Speaker 1: Remember media Corp had a whole team at B team
Speaker 1: X thing as with many other companies. And at one point,
Speaker 1: she actually pitched to a couple of personalities and even
Speaker 1: met them. But after consulting with her mentors, she decided
Speaker 1: to stick with the original plan. So harsh had to
Speaker 1: wait till the COVID restriction
Speaker 1: east a bit for that to happen, right? So basically
Speaker 1: this is what happened in our company. Just a very
Speaker 1: quick summary during COVID. They were like, we don't want
Speaker 1: you guys to contaminate each other with COVID just in case. Right.
Speaker 1: And have an outbreak. So they split us into two groups.
Speaker 1: These two groups cannot see each other ever. Not in
Speaker 1: the building, not outside, but by some miracle, the three
Speaker 1: of us were in the same group. So I was
Speaker 1: supposed to be someone else. I'm not supposed to be here. Really? Yeah,
Speaker 1: I was supposed to be someone else on my station
Speaker 1: but she wasn't in the same group.
Speaker 1: Oh,
Speaker 1: yeah.
Speaker 1: This could have looked very, very different. Wow, we would
Speaker 1: not have been, we would still be friends. I never
Speaker 1: knew that. Do you think should be sad if she
Speaker 1: knew that she was supposed to be here? I think
Speaker 1: she knows, she knows, she knows she's doing amazing. Incredible.
Speaker 1: But Jimmy, do you know that me and you, we
Speaker 1: were cast together according to the PD, she hoped for
Speaker 1: at least two hours.
Speaker 1: The harsh goes to know each other on a personal basis.
Speaker 1: So that at least if things got awkward, we could
Speaker 1: salvage it a bit. So that's how we got together.
Speaker 1: But Zora, our PDN actually met you. When you hosted
Speaker 1: our company's Hurry via lunch, you might not have known this.
Speaker 1: But that's how she got to know you. And she
Speaker 1: had seen you play the violin on TV.
Speaker 1: And probably wondered why a violinist was hosting media Cops Company,
Speaker 1: Harry via lunch. And then she knew that you could
Speaker 1: speak English very fluently. You learned Malay in two years
Speaker 1: and in fact, you were chosen first, you were the
Speaker 1: chosen one. Really? We were the chosen 2nd and 3rd. Yes. Wow. Wow.
Speaker 1: It's news to me.
Speaker 1: I think you can play the violin. You can play
Speaker 1: the guitar, Jimmy. What can you play? Don't say feelings.
Speaker 1: No, I can play piano. So
Speaker 1: our producer says she would just like to add that
Speaker 1: the stars just aligned and she's not one to question fate,
Speaker 1: but she has complete trust in the universe when she
Speaker 1: put our photos next to each other on the powerpoint
Speaker 1: slide that she used to pitch. Hush. Can answer please. Yeah,
Speaker 1: like thinning
Speaker 1: big shout out to my boss as well. Arena Cook
Speaker 1: for putting me up there. If not, I wouldn't be
Speaker 1: here because at that point, I was like, I was
Speaker 1: very new to the station as well in this industry.
Speaker 1: I think everything is really about fate. You really the
Speaker 1: jobs you get the jobs you lose. You have to
Speaker 1: take it with a pinch of salt.
Speaker 2: Honestly, for me hush, it's beyond like doing the podcast.
Speaker 2: But I think in my mind it was always meant
Speaker 2: to be that we as the three of us and
Speaker 2: the team were supposed to come together to
Speaker 2: was always meant to be for me that our paths crossed.
Speaker 2: You know how I believe in my red threat theory, right?
Speaker 2: So when you're born, you've got red threats attached to
Speaker 2: you and whoever you cross paths with in your life. Basically,
Speaker 2: it's never by accident, it was always supposed to be
Speaker 2: because you've got a red threat attached to them,
Speaker 1: basically is destined to be. So we all have a
Speaker 1: lot in Chinese is called H literal translation.
Speaker 1: That's right. You know, I just want to add on
Speaker 1: also that all of the ideas, the scripts that we
Speaker 1: have come from our hard working team here at H
Speaker 1: I mean, sometimes you say, hey, this is a good idea.
Speaker 1: Can we talk about it? We toss the idea into
Speaker 1: the group chat and they work on it like immediately
Speaker 1: they make it a reality. Yeah, they come with the
Speaker 1: script so we could never have done this on our own.
Speaker 1: Let's be honest. No way. There's no way. And we
Speaker 1: also have some very talented people behind the camera. Yes.
Speaker 1: Big shout out to our, we have seven people here
Speaker 1: today and a bunch of students so
Speaker 1: very grateful compared to episode one where it was just
Speaker 1: a few of us in that studio like two people
Speaker 1: or three people, two people. No. But the wildest thing
Speaker 1: I was just telling Hazy this is that, do you
Speaker 1: realize how much we have shared about our lives and
Speaker 1: also the lives of the people around us in the
Speaker 1: last 99 episodes? Sometimes you don't think about it. But
Speaker 1: if you
Speaker 1: were to listen to every episode, you could probably piece
Speaker 1: our lives together. No, it's
Speaker 2: true. I actually usually tell people if someone listens to
Speaker 2: every single episode, you would probably know about like 80%
Speaker 2: of me because we share so
Speaker 1: much. But somehow I just feel like it's so safe
Speaker 1: for me to share here. I beg to differ on
Speaker 1: a point. I feel like you could share more
Speaker 2: guys. I'm a very guarded person.
Speaker 1: PD is nodding her head. You could share very
Speaker 2: guarded.
Speaker 1: I, I don't think you are. You are a very,
Speaker 1: I be who I am. I am
Speaker 2: but I be who I am without having to put
Speaker 2: it deliberately put it out there
Speaker 1: in the public. Here's a challenge for you in 2024.
Speaker 1: Tell me as we cross over 1/100 episode to our listeners,
Speaker 1: the core listeners, right? Try,
Speaker 1: you know, giving that extra just 10% 10% 10 more percent.
Speaker 1: All right, and just know that you're safe with the
Speaker 1: Tik Tok. Listen
Speaker 1: after the call is the people that come up to us.
Speaker 1: I watch hush every week when I'm eating my dinner
Speaker 1: and things like that. Oh my
Speaker 2: gosh. Should I tell you a story? A couple of
Speaker 2: weeks ago, I was out and then I bumped into
Speaker 2: this group of friends and they were seated at the
Speaker 2: table and then this girl says, oh my God, you
Speaker 2: look so nice today. In that moment. I was like,
Speaker 2: do I know you? Do I not because like the
Speaker 2: opening statement was a bit like, you know, and then
Speaker 2: I eventually found out they were harsh listeners. So I
Speaker 2: was there for a bit and then they said, so
Speaker 2: is there, were you late
Speaker 1: today? We were supposed to meet up for a breakfast?
Speaker 1: We haven't had one, the three of us in like
Speaker 1: six months probably. And Azura did not wake up over slept.
Speaker 1: I called her at the time the breakfast started. She
Speaker 1: was like, sorry, sorry, I just,
Speaker 1: I was well, but at least you made it for
Speaker 1: the recording. That that's the way. But do you think
Speaker 1: you share more last time? A harsh podcast or? No?
Speaker 1: I mean, sometimes the tiktok comments really do get to us.
Speaker 1: Let's be honest. Has it ever affected you from sharing
Speaker 1: a talk? Here's
Speaker 2: the thing about this space you come in, right? And
Speaker 2: most of the time we forget that it's going to
Speaker 2: be on the world wide web that people are gonna
Speaker 2: be listening to this because it feels like it's the
Speaker 2: three of us
Speaker 1: talking, you know, a gossip girl sitting here
Speaker 1: and
Speaker 2: we're so comfortable with each other. We're so comfortable with
Speaker 2: the team. Like honestly, there is so little about each
Speaker 2: other that we each don't know about, you know what
Speaker 2: I mean? We can complete stories for each other as
Speaker 2: they come up. So sometimes it just comes out so
Speaker 2: naturally that we just share more than we plan to,
Speaker 2: I
Speaker 1: feel like in fact down the timeline, I'm sharing more
Speaker 1: and more in Harsh podcast
Speaker 1: at the start, I was still a bit more guarded,
Speaker 1: like hesitant to share, not just with Harsh with each
Speaker 1: other as well, right? I mean, we just started out,
Speaker 1: we don't really know each other, but now that we
Speaker 1: are also open to sharing and we really, really understand
Speaker 1: each other. So thank you for listening to Harsh and
Speaker 1: giving us a space to talk to each other like
Speaker 1: this is therapy or something. Obviously, I feel like the
Speaker 1: purpose of harsh has evolved for me just a bit
Speaker 1: at the start is more to like spread positivity to
Speaker 1: our listeners. But now it's more of like it's OK
Speaker 1: to be negative. At times, we go through these things
Speaker 1: ourselves and we want to share our experiences with you
Speaker 1: to let you know that you're not alone. That's exactly it.
Speaker 1: I just, you know, I hearing people's experiences as well
Speaker 1: has made me feel less alone. So I hope that
Speaker 1: hush can be that for you if you tune in. Yeah.
Speaker 1: Yeah. And do you guys know what is the most
Speaker 1: talked about themes on harsh podcast so far situations as
Speaker 1: in close sex, close, I think the overarching theme is relationships, relationships. Wow.
Speaker 1: Remember we talked about sex situations, navigating relationships with the
Speaker 1: other half. In fact, like their mothers, their family, true people.
Speaker 1: They love
Speaker 1: posting them on social media or not telling your friends
Speaker 1: about them. It's funny
Speaker 2: because we've talked about it so much. But I think
Speaker 2: there's so much more that we can go on and
Speaker 2: on about. I
Speaker 1: think so actually, and in fact, if we did a
Speaker 1: topic today that we have done two years ago, I
Speaker 1: think the episode will be totally different because it's true.
Speaker 1: My views have changed. Oh, my God, you're right. Right. On.
Speaker 1: View of love has changed how
Speaker 1: I feel like harsh or mainly my co-host have taught
Speaker 1: me that it's ok to let go. Not, I step
Speaker 1: into every relationship thinking that I want this to be
Speaker 1: my last, but it never is my last. And at
Speaker 1: times when I'm broken, they step in to tell me
Speaker 1: it's ok if it's not for you, it's not for you.
Speaker 1: So I feel like my outlook on love has changed
Speaker 1: a bit with all the guests that have been coming
Speaker 1: on harsh podcast and all the conversations we've been having
Speaker 1: all the comments that I've read of our listeners out there.
Speaker 1: You know,
Speaker 2: someone told me recently that
Speaker 2: love is a practice like everything else in your life. You,
Speaker 2: every time you do it, it's a different experience. Every
Speaker 2: time you do it, you learn something from it. So
Speaker 2: why do people think it has to be a one
Speaker 2: time thing or this has to be the last thing?
Speaker 2: It's a, it's a journey and it's a practice every
Speaker 2: time you do
Speaker 1: it. I think love, I have learned to love better
Speaker 1: in the last three years from talking to people and
Speaker 1: understanding more because every week when we talk about these things, right?
Speaker 1: We are reading real research
Speaker 1: from real psychologist and things like that. So sometimes you're
Speaker 1: like a shit I could do better. This is me,
Speaker 1: this is quite toxic or negative. I could do better, right?
Speaker 1: And I think that's what hush helps us to be
Speaker 1: a better version of ourselves every week. And we are
Speaker 1: constantly evolving. On this note, let us revisit some topics
Speaker 1: that we have spoken about previously and see if I
Speaker 1: stand still holds. Ok, social media influences on women. Do
Speaker 1: you still have the fear of dressing like a slut?
Speaker 1: Not hazy.
Speaker 1: Check out eight days.
Speaker 1: Well, I love to dress and what I love to
Speaker 1: dress and it's not about dressing like a slut. It's
Speaker 1: about dressing confidently. Yes. Whatever makes me happy.
Speaker 2: Correct. What if I think I look nice? And
Speaker 1: II I think I'm a bit more daring now. Actually
Speaker 1: all of us are. No, that's true. Yeah. True. OK.
Speaker 1: What about work life balance? I feel like this is
Speaker 1: something very close to Jimmy, especially in 2022 something that
Speaker 1: she's been struggling to achieve and trying to figure out
Speaker 1: as well. I'm still struggling to achieve it in order
Speaker 1: to
Speaker 1: time to myself. I usually plan a calendar invite to
Speaker 1: myself saying me time I do rest time, me time
Speaker 1: block anything else in it. But then 90% of the
Speaker 1: time it's always taken over by work, like my manager
Speaker 1: will text me at this day. Are you free for this? Ok.
Speaker 1: But then there's, you think that's a me problem. So
Speaker 1: I've recently heard someone over the radio say a study
Speaker 1: that was conducted showed that people who took one rest
Speaker 1: day a week
Speaker 1: generally are happier and more productive I believe, does sound
Speaker 1: crazy to ask off with yourself one rest day a week.
Speaker 1: Just a bit. Like, honestly, how about half a day
Speaker 1: a week? At least? How about like a Sunday? Yeah.
Speaker 1: Like a Sunday off. No work just time with your
Speaker 1: loved ones or even just with yourself? Yeah. I think
Speaker 1: everyone should do that. I believe that it can really
Speaker 1: make you happy and more productive. In fact, I think
Speaker 1: Joakim said that on radio. Oh, really? Yeah. Yeah, I
Speaker 1: just think he run, he runs,
Speaker 2: I guess he runs to.
Speaker 1: So what does success mean to you? Go? Success to me.
Speaker 1: Definitely monetarily. I'm trying to drop the idea, but it's
Speaker 1: very hard. Like, I know you guys know, I can't
Speaker 1: say no to money even if it eats into your
Speaker 1: rest time. Of course, you just say yes, because there's
Speaker 1: money involved, right? But I'm trying
Speaker 1: to see that there's more to life than just money,
Speaker 1: but also happiness. Yeah. I've been chasing happiness for like
Speaker 1: so many years I can tell from my IG stories.
Speaker 1: Suddenly she's in Bali, she's in L A.
Speaker 1: So anyway, moving on anyway. Yeah. So I've been chasing
Speaker 1: happiness for many years. And one of the things that
Speaker 1: I think Zora said on Harsh podcast is that you
Speaker 1: don't always have to be chasing for happiness. You can
Speaker 1: be happy today. Right? So I'm trying to do that
Speaker 1: and also
Speaker 1: so maybe try to say no to something so that
Speaker 1: I have time to myself to be happy, maybe keep
Speaker 1: it at me time in the calendar. OK. I try
Speaker 1: draw
Speaker 2: boundaries for yourself.
Speaker 1: Wow. I'm just trying to figure out what success means
Speaker 1: to do because she's always so happy. Go lucky. I
Speaker 1: don't think money defines her.
Speaker 1: She cares about money, she cares about life experiences. I do. Yeah,
Speaker 1: she does, the more she experiences of life and new
Speaker 1: situations that she's never been in. I think that is
Speaker 1: a successful life to her.
Speaker 2: Yes, I think I'm at this place where,
Speaker 1: see what I mean?
Speaker 2: I'm at a place in life where I just really
Speaker 2: want a life well lived like when I think about
Speaker 2: it at any point, you see right. Here's the thing.
Speaker 2: I don't want to be only thinking about this at 60.
Speaker 2: I want it such that at any given point at
Speaker 2: any time I'm stopped at any day. If someone asked,
Speaker 2: I can say I've lived a life well,
Speaker 1: so well, she was a ball of sunshine. Amen.
Speaker 1: Is this like if I die to borrow, you know,
Speaker 1: I lived a good life kind of thing. Yes.
Speaker 2: Yes. And I think a lot of it also is
Speaker 2: just wanting to be a better person every day, a
Speaker 2: better person in every aspect, you know, like, just like that.
Speaker 1: That's good. You know, funny. You mentioned that because on
Speaker 1: the topic of, if we died tomorrow, would you girls
Speaker 1: have any regrets right now?
Speaker 1: Actually, I don't think I have. Yeah, I would not
Speaker 1: having a kid. I want to at least experience being a,
Speaker 1: being a mom. Wow. Yeah, I think there's nothing else
Speaker 1: in my life that I need. I'm so excited.
Speaker 2: I'm fun on
Speaker 1: the everybody. God, I'm moving away.
Speaker 2: I'll follow you. I,
Speaker 1: I'm scared. Call the police. No, but I, you know,
Speaker 1: I've done all the jobs I've wanted to, I've had
Speaker 1: all the love in my life that I've wanted to.
Speaker 1: I've traveled, I've not been a mom,
Speaker 1: I've been a pet mom but not an actual human mom.
Speaker 1: What about you? Any regrets? I
Speaker 2: don't think so. Actually, like, as much as there's a
Speaker 2: lot more that I would like to do and that
Speaker 2: I can do and would like to do. But
Speaker 2: at this point, as much as I can afford to
Speaker 2: do at this point in my life, I don't think
Speaker 1: so. That's good. That's so nice to hear. Ok, what
Speaker 1: if you could revisit an old episode that we did ok,
Speaker 1: back in the past and did something differently, which would
Speaker 1: it be?
Speaker 1: I wouldn't do anything different because at that point in time,
Speaker 1: that's how it felt like we said. Now, if we
Speaker 1: revisit every topic, we will have different things to say
Speaker 1: about every topic. Actually, I have a challenge for us
Speaker 1: in 2024 is to go even bolder, break more boundaries.
Speaker 1: Is it possible? Yes, it's possible. PD is like, she's
Speaker 1: like we're pushing it else. Can we do? I'm ready.
Speaker 1: I'm sure there's many, many more things we can do.
Speaker 1: But you know what if I were to revisit an
Speaker 1: old episode?
Speaker 1: I think you guys remember the one we did about
Speaker 1: the ticking biological clock. And then we ask ourselves, are
Speaker 1: we worried? I think my answer there was like a
Speaker 1: na let me leave life. I'm not worried, but I
Speaker 1: think that might have changed. I mean, with the recent
Speaker 1: breakup and me
Speaker 1: continuing to work harder in life sometimes, right? Call me insecure.
Speaker 1: But sometimes I look at myself in the mirror and
Speaker 1: then I really just think to myself. Wow. I really aged.
Speaker 1: I just feel like what's all the collagen in my face?
Speaker 1: Am I working too hard? Like should I be doing
Speaker 1: something else in my life? So,
Speaker 1: so maybe now if we were to revisit the episode,
Speaker 1: maybe I would have considered things from a different point
Speaker 1: of view maybe back then when we did that I
Speaker 1: was happy. So I was like, no, I'm not worried
Speaker 1: things will come. But actually, conversely, I think I was
Speaker 1: more worried about my biological clock then than I am now.
Speaker 1: I think now it's just like because now you're happy. Yeah. Ok.
Speaker 1: So
Speaker 1: the state of mind that you are actually I hear you. Yeah. Ok.
Speaker 1: Let's wrap it up with some milestones you want to
Speaker 1: achieve and then final words, some milestones that we want
Speaker 1: to achieve for hush, for harsh and for yourself. Do
Speaker 1: you think we can reach 200
Speaker 2: episodes? 1000%? I'll be actually if we didn't, you
Speaker 1: know, you think I'll have a kid by the 2/100
Speaker 1: episode
Speaker 2: you would have given birth on Can you,
Speaker 1: we talked about the hush, there's a visual side of
Speaker 1: Harsh podcast, right? And then we said we're gonna document
Speaker 1: whoever gives birth first. Dude. I got, it's gotta be
Speaker 1: a pap smear on hush.
Speaker 2: It's true. The camera
Speaker 1: was outside the curtain getting p So
Speaker 2: we took three years. Is it to get here? So
Speaker 2: another
Speaker 1: three, no, because in between the seasons, we took a break.
Speaker 1: But now we are on season four, I would say
Speaker 1: like another 2.5 3,
Speaker 2: 6, 2027
Speaker 1: 200 episodes. My
Speaker 2: God, where am I gonna be?
Speaker 1: Life, man? We don't know, we actually don't know. Let's
Speaker 1: just make every episode count and just celebrate the time
Speaker 1: that we have, by the way, if you're watching us
Speaker 1: on youtube throughout this whole episode, Hazy and Aza have
Speaker 1: not let go of their hands.
Speaker 1: Ok,
Speaker 2: guys, my goal in 2024 is to work on my
Speaker 2: entrance attachment
Speaker 1: style,
Speaker 1: you know, as well as one person who I feel
Speaker 1: like very comfortable holding hands with, oh, I don't need
Speaker 1: to let go on sometimes I'll be like, I'll be
Speaker 1: worried whether she feels uncomfortable. Award, but she clearly doesn't
Speaker 1: like holding on to do it. I think I'm as
Speaker 1: you can tell I'm very avoided. There's a big gap. No,
Speaker 1: I'm just not, I'm not touching your physical touch. You
Speaker 1: with my boyfriend. Not A
Speaker 2: I is with everybody. I'm not kidding you. I know.
Speaker 1: OK. Your hands have been everywhere. OK. OK. Yes. To
Speaker 1: wrap up this 100th episode. Any final words for harsh
Speaker 1: listeners like thank you without you listening. We wouldn't be
Speaker 1: able to do this. We wouldn't have a job, we
Speaker 1: would still have jobs, but we wouldn't have this right.
Speaker 1: And
Speaker 1: I just, I really love it when people come up
Speaker 1: to us and they don't talk about being a radio
Speaker 1: DJ or whatever Tik Tok, social media. They're like, I
Speaker 1: love hush. They let you come. I love hush. Yeah.
Speaker 1: Like that, it just makes my heart melt. And sometimes
Speaker 1: it's guys, I listen to her
Speaker 1: podcast to me. I'm very grateful when people take time
Speaker 1: out of your busy schedules to send us a text message.
Speaker 1: Sometimes we receive IG dms on our individual accounts where
Speaker 1: we screenshot and we send it in the hash chat.
Speaker 1: So everybody gets to read it.
Speaker 1: I think it's really, really nice and heartwarming whenever we
Speaker 1: get text like that because we all know it's not
Speaker 1: easy to put up just one episode, the amount of
Speaker 1: work that goes into this great, like things like that.
Speaker 1: It takes a lot of time and effort from a
Speaker 1: lot of people. So thank you for contributing to
Speaker 1: community and thank you for loving us. We
Speaker 2: love you too. I think at whichever point you had
Speaker 2: found us. Thank you for sticking around. Thank you for
Speaker 2: listening to us. Thank you for finding comfort in the
Speaker 2: things that we say, whether you agree or you don't
Speaker 2: agree
Speaker 2: and you know, just thank you for making it such
Speaker 2: a safe space for us as well because we're really not,
Speaker 2: you know, educating you. We're actually sharing learning at the
Speaker 2: same time
Speaker 1: as well. We're not perfect. We're just human as well. Yeah,
Speaker 1: and yeah, share with us more of your stories in
Speaker 1: 2024 right? You can stay completely anonymous. We just want
Speaker 1: to know the peak, let us let us know.
Speaker 1: So today on our 100th episode, it would be really,
Speaker 1: really nice if you could follow us on Instagram if
Speaker 1: you haven't already at its clarity.co.
Speaker 2: That's right. And if you want to learn more about us.
Speaker 2: You can spend um maybe the next couple of months
Speaker 2: catching up on every single of the
Speaker 2: past 100 episodes on me. Listen on Spotify on Apple
Speaker 2: Podcast and turn on your notifications
Speaker 1: and check out our what must be our fifth or
Speaker 1: sixth set of Hush podcast on youtube. Here's to the
Speaker 1: next 100 episode girls. I'm scared. I love it. Of
Speaker 1: what
Speaker 2: I'm scared. I mean, as it is, right? Every week
Speaker 2: we come in on Hush and every week I'm like,
Speaker 2: oh my God, guys, I got a new story.
Speaker 2: Really? I have to go on for another three years
Speaker 2: to have a new story. Every
Speaker 1: 100 stories. Once again, I'm Hazel Iaz and I'm Happy
Speaker 1: 100 episode
Speaker 1: and Happy New Year.
Speaker 1: Make good decisions. Don't do anything you want to do.
Speaker 1: We would do a lot. No, no, no, don't.