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Speaker 1: Life Audio's Life gets hie, but moll forward by a days.

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Speaker 2: There's chapter is long.

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Speaker 3: I remember to turn the play.

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Speaker 4: Welcome back to the Real Deal Podcast with Abby Johnson

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Speaker 4: and Reagan Long, where we deliver the Real Deal Deal

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Speaker 4: completely unfiltered. Welcome everyone. It is Abby. I don't know

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Speaker 4: about how it is in Texas, but here in North

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Speaker 4: Carolina this morning, it is so gorgeous. It's going to

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Speaker 4: be eighty nine degrees in sunny today.

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Speaker 1: That is nice.

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Speaker 2: Let me say it, it's gonna be eighty.

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Speaker 4: Let me make most of the other states.

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Speaker 2: Tuning in just so a little bit jealous.

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Speaker 3: I just love it.

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Speaker 1: The sun. The sun.

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Speaker 4: Just Abby and I always talk about this. The sun

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Speaker 4: just makes me feel so good. It makes like it's

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Speaker 4: truly one of God's healing tools.

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Speaker 2: Oh my gosh. The other day, I was like, literally,

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Speaker 2: I looked like I don't know what I looked like.

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Speaker 2: I looked like a weird person, but I was just

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Speaker 2: like I thought people were probably driving by, like what

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Speaker 2: is this woman doing? But I was just sitting out

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Speaker 2: on the driveway in a lawn chair with my head back,

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Speaker 2: just letting the sun like hit my face. It felt

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Speaker 2: so good. I sent a picture to you. Yes, I

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Speaker 2: was like, I looked at me.

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Speaker 4: I used to do that when I was pregnant with

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Speaker 4: kJ I literally I had this like big old belly.

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Speaker 1: It looked like I was carrying triplets.

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Speaker 4: I would be like eating, holding like a bag of Cheetos,

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Speaker 4: sitting at a lawn chair in the driveway, a baby

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Speaker 4: pull like a kiddie pool, putting my feet in it,

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Speaker 4: and I'm like, I'm so cousin eddie Ish and I

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Speaker 4: would care less like a kid.

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Speaker 2: Fulton was on his little crazy cart thing like just

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Speaker 2: doing circles and going crazy on it. I was just like, yes,

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Speaker 2: this is the best day ever.

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Speaker 3: Living it up.

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Speaker 5: Oh my god.

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Speaker 2: I love the sun.

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Speaker 3: I love the sun.

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Speaker 2: I just it was yat in the sun like every day.

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Speaker 2: I just love it.

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Speaker 3: I love it. Guys.

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Speaker 4: Before we started recording, Abby called me and again, and

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Speaker 4: I think most people are like this with their best friend.

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Speaker 4: It's like some days you can talk like four times

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Speaker 4: a day. There's some days you go four days without talking.

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Speaker 4: And I mean normally we text almost day, but when

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Speaker 4: Abbie's on the road, obviously it's you know, she's much

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Speaker 4: busier with her commitments and so like through the week,

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Speaker 4: I'm like randomly sending her reels and tiktoks and like

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Speaker 4: did you see this?

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Speaker 3: Did you see this? Yeah?

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Speaker 4: I was like, hey, let's get on, let's record a podcast.

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Speaker 1: And then I forget.

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Speaker 4: My best friend's like a world traveler, and I get these.

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Speaker 4: I'll be randomly in the carpool line or somewhere because

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Speaker 4: Abby and I have each other on Light three sixties,

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Speaker 4: so I randomly get a ding and it's like Abby

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Speaker 4: in Baltimore across the country or.

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Speaker 3: I know, so buddy, buddy, I know, I know.

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Speaker 2: I was like, like yan Has, I'll lose the raan

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Speaker 2: Has is now back home. They don't like you.

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Speaker 4: Actually, if you actually checked in with me a lot,

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Speaker 4: you'd be like that chick's back at Chick fil A.

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Speaker 4: She's a taco bell again, man, that's where all her

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Speaker 2: I just get your I get your notifications every time

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Speaker 2: you like get home. It's like as a ride back

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Speaker 2: at home and I'm.

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Speaker 4: Like, oh good, this likeliday. You know, Like there's times

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Speaker 4: where Abby's like just waking up in the morning and

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Speaker 4: so she's at a hotel or whatever, and I'm like, dude,

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Speaker 4: like where are you?

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Speaker 1: And She'll be like.

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Speaker 4: Oh, I'm in like Wisconsin, and like her assistant will

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Speaker 4: be like in the background, no, Abby were in Michigan, Like, no,

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Speaker 4: we were already.

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Speaker 1: I was like, I don't know where I'm at.

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Speaker 3: I don't know.

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Speaker 2: I'm to roll over and like look at the phone

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Speaker 2: and look at the agress on the phone to be

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Speaker 2: like what time zone where we're staying? I'm not really sure.

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Speaker 2: I was walking through an airport the other day.

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Speaker 3: I literally looked at man and went.

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Speaker 2: Airport, Wait, where are we?

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Speaker 3: Oh my gosh.

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Speaker 1: It was so funny.

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Speaker 4: So have you literally, because I don't know this answer,

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Speaker 4: have you experienced some of these crazy like delays? Like

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Speaker 4: have you seen ice at the airports?

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Speaker 2: Okay? No, I have not yet. I expect I will

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Speaker 2: because I am flying to Lax on Monday and crying

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Speaker 2: out of Lax, so I expect. And because I'm going

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Speaker 2: on my like my favorite guy in the world, I'm

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Speaker 2: going on his show and I'm doing it in person.

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Speaker 3: Shut up? Are you okay? I knew you were doing it,

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Speaker 3: did you, Jackie Peterson?

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Speaker 2: Yes, So I'm flying there on Monday and you're filming

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Speaker 2: on Tuesday morning, and so I'm just so flipping excited

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Speaker 2: to be opub and so literally thought it was like

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Speaker 2: a scam. When my just send it to me, I

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Speaker 2: was like, wait, I'm like, is this like a scam invitation?

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Speaker 2: She's like, dude, it's like real, It's like from the

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Speaker 2: bo's heir. And I'm like, oh my gosh.

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Speaker 4: I remember it was like a year ago or maybe

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Speaker 4: eighteen months ago, and you sent me like a reel

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Speaker 4: of his and you were like, I just love this guy.

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Speaker 4: He is so good and like and then when you

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Speaker 4: text me about it, you're just so pumped at I'm like, oh,

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Speaker 4: I love my gosh.

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Speaker 2: I'm like, oh my gosh, this is so exciting. Like

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Speaker 2: I don't get excited about being.

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Speaker 4: Met like big actors, big like big big, like big

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Speaker 4: time people, And she's like, oh, hey, how are you. Meanwhile,

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Speaker 4: they're drooling over Abby. So it's a very rare Abby

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Speaker 4: gets excited over someone.

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Speaker 2: She is so excited for this, so pumped to be

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Speaker 2: on Jesse Peterson's show. I just love him and like

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Speaker 2: it's not even that like I always agree with him

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Speaker 2: for people who are willing to put their opinions out there,

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Speaker 2: just so boldly, you know, and I'm justogically apologetically just

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Speaker 2: they just put their views out there. And he has

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Speaker 2: such an incredible life experience, you know, and so he

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Speaker 2: has just a really amazing perspective. And sometimes the things

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Speaker 2: that he says, like immediately is like it's it's kind

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Speaker 2: of like an affront to what we have been trained

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Speaker 2: to believe in our culture. And so sometimes I'm like,

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Speaker 4: What I hear him saying, you should be used to that,

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Speaker 4: considering I'm your best friend.

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Speaker 6: I like, sometimes I like he said something, I'm like,

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Speaker 6: I don't know, Like I don't know. Then like I

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Speaker 6: think about it, and it really I'm like, uh like

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Speaker 6: that it is an interesting perspective, like, and it causes

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Speaker 6: me to really like think about and like sometimes rethink

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Speaker 6: about like the way that we have been to make

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Speaker 2: And so but I just love how bold he is.

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Speaker 2: And two boldies on a polar good pump. So anyway,

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Speaker 2: so I fly to LA on Monday and then I

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Speaker 2: going to see, Yeah, I'm sure how bad it is

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Speaker 2: and so New York will be probably interesting. Yeah, but

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Speaker 2: I have I'm going to be gone for ten days,

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Speaker 2: so I have seven events and ten days. So oh

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Speaker 2: and I have to fly up to Canada too, So

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Speaker 2: but Canada should be fine. But I know that Trump

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Speaker 2: was signing like an executive order for TSA for their

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Speaker 2: pay to be reinstated. But I actually talked a TSA agent,

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Speaker 2: of Austin, and you know, I just asked them. I

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Speaker 2: was like, you know, how, like how are you guys doing, Like,

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Speaker 2: first of all, thank you for being here, for working

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Speaker 2: even though you're not getting paid. And I was like,

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Speaker 2: you know, I was like, are you guys going to

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Speaker 2: you know, she said, it's just really hard, like nobody

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Speaker 2: tells you when you sign up to be a TSA

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Speaker 2: officer that this could happen, like if the government, you know,

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Speaker 2: if they can't come to some sort of you know,

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Speaker 2: budgetary reconciliation, like we may not get paid, Like that's

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Speaker 2: not in the training, right, Like nobody tells you that.

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Speaker 2: And she said, you know a lot of people that

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Speaker 2: like they have to have a job. And she was like,

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Speaker 2: Like none of us are mad in our friends.

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Speaker 1: You're just trying to live. You're just trying to survive.

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Speaker 2: He was like, I'm fortunate because I'm married and I

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Speaker 2: his income, right, But yeah, she did say like she

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Speaker 4: I've seen different reports across the US like it's hit

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Speaker 4: or miss like some are. It's like, hey, it wasn't

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Speaker 4: like that wasn't what I expected, and then others there's

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Speaker 4: just photographs where the lines are just it's just it's

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Speaker 4: just it's crazy.

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Speaker 3: I know.

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Speaker 2: Well, I'm about to fly literally all over the United States,

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Speaker 2: so we will have a full report report. Yeah, like

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Speaker 2: I'm I'm gonna be everywhere, Like I'm going to Washington State,

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Speaker 2: Saint Louis, New York, Ontario, Maine, Ohio, DC, California, Monty. Listen,

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Speaker 2: like okay, So I mean, like, if you want to

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Speaker 2: know the truth, we'll swing back to Abby in like

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Speaker 2: a week or two. Like you get in here, I'll

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Speaker 2: let you know on the podcast, like what it was.

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Speaker 4: Really I'm going to have to actually actually I'm like

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Speaker 4: interested in this, and I think many people will be.

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Speaker 4: And so who is it aw traveling with you?

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Speaker 2: Yeah for all those okay, well not for all of them,

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Speaker 2: but well not for all of them. Well Christine is

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Speaker 2: traveling with me this week.

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Speaker 4: Oh okay, Well I need to like text both of

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Speaker 4: them to be like, listen, I want you to get

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Speaker 4: a little video footage with Abby and lines in each report,

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Speaker 4: document it and send it to me and we'll end

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Speaker 4: it up.

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Speaker 1: Because literally it.

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Speaker 4: It would be kind of cool to see all these

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Speaker 4: different parts and how and how it looks.

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Speaker 2: I know, Yeah, this week I'm going to Lax and

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Speaker 2: then Oklahoma, so I know Oklahoma. Yeah, gosh crazy. So

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Speaker 2: to people who have been traumatized. You don't sure trauma

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Speaker 2: with suicide.

437
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Speaker 4: I don't and I don't think. Okay, you and I

438
00:26:55,480 --> 00:26:59,639
Speaker 4: have both been diagnosed with depression at some point. You

439
00:26:59,680 --> 00:27:03,240
Speaker 4: and I have both been diagnosed with PTSD at some point.

440
00:27:03,280 --> 00:27:07,320
Speaker 4: You and I have both undergone you know, some light

441
00:27:08,000 --> 00:27:12,800
Speaker 4: baby blue stuff after babies, some normal postpartum stuff after babies.

442
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Speaker 1: You know the.

443
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Speaker 4: Gamut, right, But I'm just gonna speak directly for myself here,

444
00:27:18,800 --> 00:27:22,879
Speaker 4: and I mean, it wasn't long ago, Abby, I was

445
00:27:22,920 --> 00:27:27,280
Speaker 4: on the phone with you in such pain and heartache.

446
00:27:27,600 --> 00:27:33,760
Speaker 4: And again, if you haven't experienced this, then again you

447
00:27:33,960 --> 00:27:34,760
Speaker 4: just don't know.

448
00:27:35,440 --> 00:27:36,480
Speaker 1: But it's like when.

449
00:27:36,280 --> 00:27:40,159
Speaker 4: You're it a low or you're like, you know, trying

450
00:27:40,160 --> 00:27:44,119
Speaker 4: to keep your head above water and you slip. It

451
00:27:44,200 --> 00:27:48,960
Speaker 4: is very fast, it is very scary, and it's like,

452
00:27:49,240 --> 00:27:51,760
Speaker 4: again unless you've experienced it, you just can't wrap your

453
00:27:51,800 --> 00:27:53,760
Speaker 4: head around it because it's like you can be low

454
00:27:54,200 --> 00:27:59,280
Speaker 4: and then it's like you have just snowballed to the

455
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Speaker 4: bottom where it is terrifying.

456
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Speaker 1: Lo And you know, in those.

457
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Speaker 4: Moments, you know it's it's a physical pain, it's an

458
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Speaker 4: emotional pain. It's crying out to God in saying different things.

459
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Speaker 1: But I also, in my.

460
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Speaker 4: Deepest pain and knowing like, Okay, I'm not okay, like

461
00:28:20,960 --> 00:28:26,280
Speaker 4: I'm i mentally hurt, I'm not like stable to make

462
00:28:26,960 --> 00:28:29,960
Speaker 4: good decisions right now, like I'm aware of that. Right

463
00:28:30,760 --> 00:28:35,199
Speaker 4: but amongst chaos and pain, I do know that in

464
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Speaker 4: even wishing like okay, Lord, take me up now, I

465
00:28:37,680 --> 00:28:40,719
Speaker 4: just want to be with you, Lord, I do know

466
00:28:41,240 --> 00:28:43,760
Speaker 4: there's a part of you. And perhaps that's the Holy

467
00:28:43,800 --> 00:28:47,400
Speaker 4: Spirit talking that you are not rational. These are not

468
00:28:47,680 --> 00:28:53,440
Speaker 4: this is temporary. This is the enemy speaking lies into you, like, no,

469
00:28:53,800 --> 00:28:56,400
Speaker 4: you don't want to take your life. You don't want

470
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Speaker 4: someone else to take your life. Yes, this sucks, but no,

471
00:29:00,080 --> 00:29:03,480
Speaker 4: you're going to be okay. And it's like you have

472
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Speaker 4: to fight those urges. You have to claw your way

473
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Speaker 4: out of the low points. You have to invoke Jesus,

474
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Speaker 4: like you know, you're bigger than this, You're bigger than me.

475
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Speaker 1: Lord.

476
00:29:15,600 --> 00:29:18,840
Speaker 4: I'm giving this to you because I'm telling you it is.

477
00:29:19,200 --> 00:29:22,720
Speaker 4: It is incredibly easy to be consumed with despair.

478
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Speaker 2: Don't you think one of the things that that we're

479
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Speaker 2: missing in our culture and even even in Christianity. I

480
00:29:32,240 --> 00:29:34,840
Speaker 2: don't think in Catholicism we're missing it, because I think

481
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Speaker 2: we we touch on it a lot in Catholicism. But

482
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Speaker 2: I think just kind of like in Christianity in general,

483
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Speaker 2: is we we miss the discussion of suffering, Yes, and

484
00:29:51,920 --> 00:29:58,360
Speaker 2: and almost like the importance of suffering and how suffering

485
00:29:58,720 --> 00:30:05,760
Speaker 2: brings us closer to God, like those crosses bring us

486
00:30:06,120 --> 00:30:11,040
Speaker 2: closer to the Lord, and how like yes, like they

487
00:30:11,120 --> 00:30:18,000
Speaker 2: can tempt us, like even Jesus was tempted, right, Yes.

488
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Speaker 7: They can bring us immense pain.

489
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Speaker 2: Like you know, I was reminded in the readings last

490
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Speaker 2: week at church that you know, when Lazarus died, Jesus wept,

491
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Speaker 2: he was.

492
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Speaker 7: In Immen's pain when his friend passed. Jesus experienced Immen's pain,

493
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Speaker 7: He experienced Immen's suffering, He experienced all of the things

494
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Speaker 7: that we, you know, experience as humans. That's why he

495
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Speaker 7: came to earth in human form. But like we we can't.

496
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Speaker 7: So I think that's why it's so important like for

497
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Speaker 7: us to talk about these things and talk about them

498
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Speaker 7: in the church and not to be like, well, when

499
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Speaker 7: you're a Christian, it's just going to be all roses

500
00:31:05,520 --> 00:31:10,960
Speaker 7: and rainbows and its and it's not. It's not, and

501
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Speaker 7: there will be a lot of suffering is humans, Like,

502
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Speaker 7: of course it is just so you know, even some

503
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Speaker 7: of the greatest saints that walked this earth who truly

504
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Speaker 7: embraced suffering, like in a way that I can't imagine

505
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Speaker 7: doing so, But so yes, is this human? It's like,

506
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Speaker 7: who's really excited? Like, oh Lord, what kind of suffering

507
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Speaker 7: can you be stow upon me today?

508
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Speaker 4: Like we just don't do that? But there is something

509
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Speaker 4: and I think it's not. I mean, and just because

510
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Speaker 4: we're human, it's not until we see the glimmers of

511
00:31:49,600 --> 00:31:52,960
Speaker 4: light abby when we're kind of allowing God to pull

512
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Speaker 4: us through it where we're like, okay, you know what

513
00:31:56,560 --> 00:32:01,800
Speaker 4: I mean. But but it is. It's like it's hard

514
00:32:01,800 --> 00:32:03,480
Speaker 4: to see it when we're in it. But what a

515
00:32:03,680 --> 00:32:09,160
Speaker 4: joy to be able to even our suffering is a

516
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Speaker 4: drop in the bucket compared to what Jesus went through.

517
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Speaker 4: And every Good Friday, and this is approaching Easter or

518
00:32:15,120 --> 00:32:18,479
Speaker 4: so it's right upon us, and every Good Friday, I

519
00:32:18,520 --> 00:32:22,560
Speaker 4: almost I get very anxious leading up to it every year,

520
00:32:23,280 --> 00:32:28,920
Speaker 4: and I think it's truly because I'm so incredibly aware

521
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Speaker 4: of the immense suffering Jesus went through. And every Good Friday,

522
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Speaker 4: my children and I watch Passion of the Christ, and

523
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Speaker 4: every single time it. Honestly, I don't. It's almost like

524
00:32:42,560 --> 00:32:45,360
Speaker 4: it's harder to watch it. It doesn't get easier every year, No,

525
00:32:45,480 --> 00:32:49,760
Speaker 4: it doesn't much more aware and I and again, I

526
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Speaker 4: take it so much more personally, like looking at what

527
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Speaker 4: he went through and knowing my sins were a part

528
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Speaker 4: of that. And it's when you get to that level

529
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Speaker 4: of knowing, okay, you know, as a walk is a Christian.

530
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Speaker 4: I feel like it's like baby steps like I used

531
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Speaker 4: to be. For the longest time, I just didn't want

532
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Speaker 4: to go to Hell, Like, yeah, I loved God for sure,

533
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Speaker 4: but it was like just this intense fear of hell.

534
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Speaker 4: So I tried to like snap back out of sin right,

535
00:33:21,400 --> 00:33:23,959
Speaker 4: and then it became it wasn't just that, it was

536
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Speaker 4: like when you truly know that we cause God to

537
00:33:28,840 --> 00:33:32,640
Speaker 4: weep and we're offending him and hurting him. Like I

538
00:33:32,720 --> 00:33:36,880
Speaker 4: really saw how I elevated in my walk with Christ

539
00:33:36,920 --> 00:33:40,080
Speaker 4: where it was like I just don't want to hurt

540
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Speaker 4: God anymore, Like I don't want to offend God any.

541
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Speaker 1: More than I already have.

542
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Speaker 4: Yeah, because I've done it's so much and I've caused

543
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Speaker 4: him so much suffering. And yet it's like so those

544
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Speaker 4: moments of when we're in that grief and suffering. It's

545
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Speaker 4: like it's so hard to look at it that way,

546
00:33:59,120 --> 00:34:02,120
Speaker 4: but it is. It's like what an honor that we

547
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Speaker 4: get to suffer.

548
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Speaker 2: But yeah, and I think it's like as we grow

549
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Speaker 2: in our faith, like we the Holy Spirit like pours out,

550
00:34:13,960 --> 00:34:16,359
Speaker 2: like we receive the gifts of the Holy Spirit. Right,

551
00:34:17,239 --> 00:34:20,480
Speaker 2: So I think like when we're children and when we're

552
00:34:20,520 --> 00:34:24,640
Speaker 2: like young in our faith, our primary gift of the

553
00:34:24,640 --> 00:34:28,360
Speaker 2: Holy Spirit is fear of the Lord. Yeah, right, I

554
00:34:28,360 --> 00:34:31,360
Speaker 2: mean it's important. Yeah, yeah, and that is that is

555
00:34:31,360 --> 00:34:35,200
Speaker 2: a gift of the Holy Spirit. Like you're you're like, oh,

556
00:34:35,360 --> 00:34:39,520
Speaker 2: don't want to go to hell? Like, right, I know

557
00:34:39,600 --> 00:34:41,120
Speaker 2: that the.

558
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Speaker 3: Lord, you know.

559
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Speaker 2: But then as you grow, like you, you, the Holy

560
00:34:45,800 --> 00:34:48,880
Speaker 2: Spirit starts to impart more gifts on you.

561
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Speaker 3: Right.

562
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Speaker 2: You start to get like the gift of understanding, You

563
00:34:53,800 --> 00:34:59,200
Speaker 2: start to get the gift of knowledge of piety, and

564
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Speaker 2: and then it's you know, you, as you continue to grow,

565
00:35:02,320 --> 00:35:06,360
Speaker 2: you get the gift of fortitude, You get the gift

566
00:35:06,400 --> 00:35:09,680
Speaker 2: of counsel, which maybe then you can start getting to others,

567
00:35:10,400 --> 00:35:14,960
Speaker 2: and then you know, finally, I feel like that for

568
00:35:15,000 --> 00:35:17,640
Speaker 2: a lot of people, the last gift that the Holy

569
00:35:17,640 --> 00:35:21,920
Speaker 2: Spirit imparts on us is wisdom, right, Like you're not

570
00:35:21,960 --> 00:35:27,799
Speaker 2: going to have wisdom at you know, fifteen years old, right, but.

571
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Speaker 4: Even it's forty or fifty, it's where you're matured in

572
00:35:33,440 --> 00:35:38,200
Speaker 4: your faith, right, you know what I mean? And that's

573
00:35:38,280 --> 00:35:41,320
Speaker 4: just something until we take our last breath, we pray

574
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Speaker 4: that it continues to grow.

575
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Speaker 3: Right.

576
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Speaker 4: And so again, my two things that I pray for

577
00:35:46,360 --> 00:35:49,920
Speaker 4: daily is discernment and wisdom, which I feel like they

578
00:35:49,960 --> 00:35:52,759
Speaker 4: go hand in hand. But then the other biggest thing,

579
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Speaker 4: abby is I feel like all of us who truly

580
00:35:55,560 --> 00:35:57,680
Speaker 4: love God, we truly want to be in heaven, right,

581
00:35:58,480 --> 00:36:01,680
Speaker 4: But I don't you know, I constantly have to pray

582
00:36:01,760 --> 00:36:05,600
Speaker 4: for obedience to follow through because I do feel most

583
00:36:05,640 --> 00:36:07,880
Speaker 4: of the time we all know, like what we're praying

584
00:36:08,080 --> 00:36:10,920
Speaker 4: for an answer from God deep down deep dowb We

585
00:36:11,040 --> 00:36:15,000
Speaker 4: know what the answer is, and most often when we

586
00:36:15,080 --> 00:36:17,560
Speaker 4: keep asking him, it's because we don't like the answer

587
00:36:17,800 --> 00:36:19,799
Speaker 4: and we're like, okay, you got to change your answer, God,

588
00:36:20,320 --> 00:36:23,760
Speaker 4: like we already know. And so it's it's also praying

589
00:36:23,840 --> 00:36:29,000
Speaker 4: for that obedience to follow through God's will for us,

590
00:36:29,080 --> 00:36:30,800
Speaker 4: because it looks different for every.

591
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Speaker 1: Single one of us.

592
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Speaker 4: And so it's like, Okay, first you need that discernment

593
00:36:34,440 --> 00:36:38,279
Speaker 4: and wisdom, and then it's like, oh, okay, Lord, I

594
00:36:38,760 --> 00:36:41,480
Speaker 4: need the obedience. Bless me with the courage and the

595
00:36:41,520 --> 00:36:46,000
Speaker 4: strength to be obedient and to carry out your will

596
00:36:46,480 --> 00:36:50,919
Speaker 4: because because also, Abby, even if our life is full

597
00:36:50,920 --> 00:36:53,120
Speaker 4: of suffering. And this is why you see, like the

598
00:36:53,120 --> 00:36:55,880
Speaker 4: most the richest people in the world who don't have God,

599
00:36:56,320 --> 00:36:59,600
Speaker 4: they all will come and tell you, yeah, I have

600
00:37:00,000 --> 00:37:03,080
Speaker 4: every single thing I want for nothing, and I'm not happy.

601
00:37:03,480 --> 00:37:06,359
Speaker 4: And yet you have a very poor person who has

602
00:37:06,400 --> 00:37:10,719
Speaker 4: ailments and suffering, and they have Christ within them, and

603
00:37:10,800 --> 00:37:14,279
Speaker 4: there's this certain piece and joy that they're like, it

604
00:37:14,280 --> 00:37:17,319
Speaker 4: doesn't make sense, but I'm okay, I'm job.

605
00:37:17,440 --> 00:37:22,480
Speaker 2: They feel they feel wealthy like they feel rich, you know, yes.

606
00:37:22,440 --> 00:37:26,279
Speaker 4: And so it's like and so I truly do believe too,

607
00:37:27,280 --> 00:37:31,279
Speaker 4: kind of putting the success and money aside. If you

608
00:37:31,800 --> 00:37:35,319
Speaker 4: coulh you could be doing something in life where you're

609
00:37:35,360 --> 00:37:40,480
Speaker 4: not sinning, but you're also not walking in the will

610
00:37:40,520 --> 00:37:43,240
Speaker 4: God has for you. So if that's the case, okay,

611
00:37:43,239 --> 00:37:46,520
Speaker 4: you're not sinning, you're not upsetting or offending God, but

612
00:37:46,600 --> 00:37:49,719
Speaker 4: you still don't feel that peace like but something's not right,

613
00:37:49,800 --> 00:37:53,200
Speaker 4: it's not fitting, like this isn't what God's calling me

614
00:37:53,280 --> 00:37:57,560
Speaker 4: to do. And until you are walking like I'm telling

615
00:37:57,560 --> 00:38:00,040
Speaker 4: you Abby, when I know I'm truly being obedient and

616
00:38:00,840 --> 00:38:03,120
Speaker 4: I'm truly I might not even be doing some really

617
00:38:03,160 --> 00:38:06,920
Speaker 4: heavy lifting. It might be some very simple things, but

618
00:38:07,000 --> 00:38:11,520
Speaker 4: like I have this unexplainable piece where I'm like, Okay,

619
00:38:11,640 --> 00:38:15,280
Speaker 4: the last three days I've literally been walking in exactly

620
00:38:15,320 --> 00:38:19,000
Speaker 4: what God's called me to do, and it's this unexplainable piece.

621
00:38:19,520 --> 00:38:24,160
Speaker 2: You know, yeah, totally yeah and yeah yeah.

622
00:38:24,160 --> 00:38:26,479
Speaker 4: And then there's other days where I could be like, man,

623
00:38:26,920 --> 00:38:32,040
Speaker 4: I accomplish this, this, this, this, and and yet I

624
00:38:32,040 --> 00:38:35,720
Speaker 4: don't necessarily have that piece because even though I perhaps

625
00:38:35,760 --> 00:38:39,400
Speaker 4: may have not been sitting, that was what God called

626
00:38:39,400 --> 00:38:42,759
Speaker 4: me to do, right, you know. And so it's like

627
00:38:42,840 --> 00:38:47,040
Speaker 4: it's really trying to be every day dying to self,

628
00:38:47,400 --> 00:38:50,120
Speaker 4: literally every day dying to ourself, and like, no.

629
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Speaker 1: God, what do you want from me?

630
00:38:51,600 --> 00:38:55,520
Speaker 2: Oh my gosh, see you dying to sell? Did you

631
00:38:55,600 --> 00:38:59,800
Speaker 2: see where James tall Rico put on which I believe

632
00:39:00,000 --> 00:39:03,960
Speaker 2: Sames Telrico is probably one of the most dangerous people

633
00:39:04,239 --> 00:39:10,840
Speaker 2: running for office in this next selection because he you know,

634
00:39:10,920 --> 00:39:17,120
Speaker 2: professes to be a Christian whatever. So Pete hag Sets

635
00:39:18,480 --> 00:39:26,480
Speaker 2: pastor said that he hopes that James tell Rico becomes

636
00:39:26,719 --> 00:39:32,759
Speaker 2: crucified with Christ, and James tell Rico took that as

637
00:39:32,800 --> 00:39:40,120
Speaker 2: a death threat. Oh my gosh, oh lord. And I

638
00:39:40,360 --> 00:39:47,000
Speaker 2: was like, okayright, like you don't understand that, like being

639
00:39:47,040 --> 00:39:53,120
Speaker 2: crucified like means like dying to self? Like great, you

640
00:39:53,200 --> 00:39:56,120
Speaker 2: actually think that his pastru meant we.

641
00:39:56,120 --> 00:40:00,360
Speaker 4: Want to crucify him on the right, right, It's like

642
00:40:00,560 --> 00:40:03,200
Speaker 4: find a Catholic to break that down for you.

643
00:40:03,560 --> 00:40:09,279
Speaker 8: And we just tell Rico like goes online and it's like,

644
00:40:10,600 --> 00:40:13,799
Speaker 8: you know, he can choose hate with his words or

645
00:40:13,800 --> 00:40:18,440
Speaker 8: something like that, but I choose love, right, Oh of course,

646
00:40:19,040 --> 00:40:20,240
Speaker 8: of course.

647
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Speaker 3: I was laughing so hard.

648
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Speaker 9: I was like, this guy like professes to be a Christian,

649
00:40:27,200 --> 00:40:31,200
Speaker 9: like so got a Christian moral theologian or whatever. I

650
00:40:31,200 --> 00:40:35,000
Speaker 9: doesn't know what being crucified in christ means?

651
00:40:35,040 --> 00:40:37,080
Speaker 3: Like what like what?

652
00:40:37,840 --> 00:40:39,759
Speaker 1: And you know what and abby that is?

653
00:40:40,120 --> 00:40:43,479
Speaker 4: It is, it's it's insane and it's laughable. But I

654
00:40:43,520 --> 00:40:46,920
Speaker 4: think that just goes to testify it's such a glaring

655
00:40:47,920 --> 00:40:51,440
Speaker 4: truth of in Christianity today.

656
00:40:52,040 --> 00:40:53,480
Speaker 1: Just love, love, love.

657
00:40:53,680 --> 00:40:57,680
Speaker 4: And just everything should feel good and happy and everything

658
00:40:57,719 --> 00:41:00,959
Speaker 4: should be comfortable, like why the heck should we ever

659
00:41:01,000 --> 00:41:02,080
Speaker 4: have to suffer?

660
00:41:02,600 --> 00:41:06,640
Speaker 2: Like everything, and all the comments underneath were like, James,

661
00:41:06,719 --> 00:41:10,160
Speaker 2: you're such a good witness. We choose love with you.

662
00:41:10,400 --> 00:41:15,240
Speaker 4: And I'm just like, oh my right, I mean, man,

663
00:41:15,360 --> 00:41:18,360
Speaker 4: when Jesus comes back riding on his horse with the

664
00:41:18,400 --> 00:41:21,680
Speaker 4: sword and fire in his eyes, like people are like

665
00:41:22,520 --> 00:41:26,840
Speaker 4: they just you know, but as with everything, as with

666
00:41:27,160 --> 00:41:31,759
Speaker 4: everything Abby, And again you and I also have this

667
00:41:33,000 --> 00:41:38,000
Speaker 4: dare I say, authority influence very much more you, so

668
00:41:38,560 --> 00:41:42,080
Speaker 4: very much more you. But with our numbers and our platforms,

669
00:41:42,440 --> 00:41:46,560
Speaker 4: anyone with a large platform has this influence and power

670
00:41:47,239 --> 00:41:52,840
Speaker 4: to literally condition their followers or people who come across

671
00:41:52,920 --> 00:41:56,040
Speaker 4: what they're saying. We will literally That's why that's why

672
00:41:56,040 --> 00:41:59,880
Speaker 4: they're called influencers. And again you and I talk about

673
00:42:00,040 --> 00:42:03,560
Speaker 4: the heaviness of that responsibility because we have to answer

674
00:42:03,560 --> 00:42:08,840
Speaker 4: to God for you know, truth or things of omission

675
00:42:08,880 --> 00:42:11,760
Speaker 4: that we didn't share that we should have or whatever

676
00:42:11,800 --> 00:42:15,799
Speaker 4: it might be. But again, this is I think we

677
00:42:15,880 --> 00:42:19,439
Speaker 4: all need to remember. I mean, what God says about

678
00:42:19,560 --> 00:42:23,000
Speaker 4: lukewarm Christians, Like I really feel like we're trying to

679
00:42:23,239 --> 00:42:26,880
Speaker 4: change what it means to be a Christian, Like, no

680
00:42:26,960 --> 00:42:32,040
Speaker 4: one wants to pick up their cross, right, follow Jesus.

681
00:42:32,120 --> 00:42:34,480
Speaker 4: Did Jesus live in a palace and have this life

682
00:42:34,480 --> 00:42:35,160
Speaker 4: of luxury?

683
00:42:35,200 --> 00:42:35,319
Speaker 3: Like?

684
00:42:35,400 --> 00:42:38,719
Speaker 4: What did he tell us? I mean, will it be

685
00:42:38,920 --> 00:42:42,680
Speaker 4: worth it? Did he promise and guarantee us that? Absolutely

686
00:42:42,760 --> 00:42:45,640
Speaker 4: he did? Did he promise you a life of zero

687
00:42:45,760 --> 00:42:50,480
Speaker 4: suffering or zero persecution? No, he told you the opposite, right,

688
00:42:50,719 --> 00:42:54,919
Speaker 4: that's what he told you. And and so I think

689
00:42:55,000 --> 00:42:58,879
Speaker 4: we forget like the whole basis of what the son

690
00:42:58,960 --> 00:43:03,400
Speaker 4: of God warned us. What it is to me to

691
00:43:03,600 --> 00:43:06,520
Speaker 4: earn paradise, not that we can earn it, but what

692
00:43:06,600 --> 00:43:10,000
Speaker 4: it means to like unite ourselves into our.

693
00:43:10,280 --> 00:43:13,439
Speaker 2: Yeah yeah, so like we have to have fruit, right

694
00:43:13,600 --> 00:43:18,960
Speaker 2: like yeah, yeah, And so again people need to remember.

695
00:43:19,120 --> 00:43:22,200
Speaker 4: So many people and I've always used this saying abby

696
00:43:22,200 --> 00:43:24,960
Speaker 4: and I'm probably going to they think it's like Willy

697
00:43:25,080 --> 00:43:28,720
Speaker 4: Wonka with golden tickets that we just repasses to heaven

698
00:43:28,760 --> 00:43:33,439
Speaker 4: because we love Jesus and we proclaim he's the son

699
00:43:33,480 --> 00:43:35,120
Speaker 4: of God and he died for us and he rose

700
00:43:35,160 --> 00:43:38,200
Speaker 4: from the dead. And while that's great, Satan will tell

701
00:43:38,239 --> 00:43:40,520
Speaker 4: you all of that. The deacons will tell you all

702
00:43:40,560 --> 00:43:43,359
Speaker 4: of that they and they tremble before God.

703
00:43:44,000 --> 00:43:47,640
Speaker 2: So yeah, it's like when people go, well, I'm spiritual,

704
00:43:49,160 --> 00:43:49,960
Speaker 2: Hill is the devil?

705
00:43:50,719 --> 00:43:53,799
Speaker 4: Yeah, And the couple can tell you all the facts

706
00:43:54,040 --> 00:43:56,719
Speaker 4: he can recite, and the devil knows he'll tell you

707
00:43:56,800 --> 00:44:00,759
Speaker 4: exactly what Jesus did in all the those things. Tell

708
00:44:00,760 --> 00:44:03,680
Speaker 4: you he's the son of God that he's Oh yeah,

709
00:44:03,760 --> 00:44:06,440
Speaker 4: so is that enough because Satan can do that, the.

710
00:44:06,400 --> 00:44:07,360
Speaker 1: Demons can do that.

711
00:44:07,880 --> 00:44:11,320
Speaker 4: Yeah, And so it's much more than that. And again

712
00:44:11,440 --> 00:44:14,680
Speaker 4: because we are humans and so weak and frail. Yes

713
00:44:14,719 --> 00:44:17,720
Speaker 4: we need a savior. Yes, we need our heavenly Father.

714
00:44:17,880 --> 00:44:20,879
Speaker 4: And it takes that humility every day to go to him. Lord,

715
00:44:20,920 --> 00:44:22,880
Speaker 4: I'm giving you my life. I'm laying myself with my

716
00:44:22,920 --> 00:44:25,640
Speaker 4: family at the foot of the cross. Give me wisdom,

717
00:44:25,680 --> 00:44:30,759
Speaker 4: give me discernment, give me obedience, you know, and I

718
00:44:30,920 --> 00:44:35,400
Speaker 4: just you know, I tell everyone and I myself. You know,

719
00:44:35,440 --> 00:44:38,800
Speaker 4: we all have to be on guard of the shiny

720
00:44:38,840 --> 00:44:42,479
Speaker 4: things out there and anything that is trying to tell

721
00:44:42,520 --> 00:44:48,080
Speaker 4: you from a biblical standpoint or from an eternity standpoint,

722
00:44:48,320 --> 00:44:51,400
Speaker 4: anything to make it easier, or anything to water it

723
00:44:51,520 --> 00:44:55,160
Speaker 4: down or anything. Oh, happy, happy, happy, love, love love,

724
00:44:55,200 --> 00:44:58,560
Speaker 4: love love. It's just it's okay. God wants you to

725
00:44:58,600 --> 00:45:01,080
Speaker 4: be happy, to do what ever your little heart tells

726
00:45:01,120 --> 00:45:05,279
Speaker 4: you to do. No, your emotions will lie to you. Yeah,

727
00:45:05,320 --> 00:45:08,920
Speaker 4: so yeah. I think they're the mo when people and

728
00:45:09,000 --> 00:45:09,839
Speaker 4: people say like.

729
00:45:10,640 --> 00:45:12,960
Speaker 2: You know, well, it's just all about love and love

730
00:45:13,080 --> 00:45:15,960
Speaker 2: is love, and I'm like, well, water is water, so

731
00:45:16,040 --> 00:45:19,719
Speaker 2: go drink out of the toilet, like no, right, it

732
00:45:19,840 --> 00:45:24,480
Speaker 2: is not no, like it is not just about all

733
00:45:24,600 --> 00:45:27,719
Speaker 2: love or it's not just all about no. It is

734
00:45:28,560 --> 00:45:33,680
Speaker 2: like it is so like our relationship with God is

735
00:45:33,719 --> 00:45:39,400
Speaker 2: not just that easy, right, Like it is intimate, it

736
00:45:39,520 --> 00:45:44,400
Speaker 2: is all knowing. It takes me to be stripping human.

737
00:45:44,440 --> 00:45:48,759
Speaker 2: It takes work, just like any relationship, right right. It's

738
00:45:48,760 --> 00:45:51,200
Speaker 2: not like you have a one time encounter with a

739
00:45:51,239 --> 00:45:54,000
Speaker 2: friend and then you never speak to them again for

740
00:45:54,040 --> 00:45:56,160
Speaker 2: the rest of your life and then you're like, that's

741
00:45:56,239 --> 00:46:00,160
Speaker 2: my best friend. I met them one time forty years

742
00:46:00,200 --> 00:46:02,719
Speaker 2: ago and they've been my best friend ever since. Like

743
00:46:03,280 --> 00:46:07,080
Speaker 2: that would be ridiculous. Like you have to foster a friendship.

744
00:46:07,200 --> 00:46:09,720
Speaker 2: You have to nurture a friendship. You have to nurture

745
00:46:09,800 --> 00:46:13,520
Speaker 2: all relationships if you want them to be strong. It's

746
00:46:13,560 --> 00:46:18,680
Speaker 2: the same with the Lord absolutely, And in any relationship,

747
00:46:18,719 --> 00:46:21,480
Speaker 2: there's going to be hard times, there's going to be

748
00:46:21,520 --> 00:46:25,160
Speaker 2: difficult times, there's gonna be times of struggle. But the

749
00:46:25,520 --> 00:46:29,920
Speaker 2: difference is that there's a certainty in your relationship with

750
00:46:30,000 --> 00:46:34,680
Speaker 2: God that he will never abandon you, never, never, And

751
00:46:34,280 --> 00:46:36,920
Speaker 2: that's that's the difference. That's the security.

752
00:46:37,640 --> 00:46:42,480
Speaker 4: And as someone who has a paralyzing fear of abandonment,

753
00:46:43,360 --> 00:46:49,440
Speaker 4: that is it's that word like security. It's like only

754
00:46:49,520 --> 00:46:52,200
Speaker 4: he can give that to me, like no one else

755
00:46:52,239 --> 00:46:54,359
Speaker 4: on this earth is ever going to be able to

756
00:46:54,480 --> 00:46:58,239
Speaker 4: fill that void. And you know, Abby, so often, I

757
00:46:58,239 --> 00:47:01,319
Speaker 4: feel like one of the most common essians I get

758
00:47:01,360 --> 00:47:05,400
Speaker 4: from people is whether they've never really had a relationship

759
00:47:05,480 --> 00:47:08,600
Speaker 4: or God or fallen away. They're just like, how do

760
00:47:08,640 --> 00:47:10,719
Speaker 4: you like pray? And how do you like talk to God?

761
00:47:10,760 --> 00:47:13,920
Speaker 4: And how do you start it? And I'm like, start

762
00:47:13,920 --> 00:47:16,800
Speaker 4: it by going to him and saying that, like, Lord,

763
00:47:16,840 --> 00:47:18,839
Speaker 4: I'm here and I don't know what to do, and

764
00:47:18,960 --> 00:47:22,440
Speaker 4: I feel lost, and I feel angry, and I feel scared,

765
00:47:23,360 --> 00:47:27,080
Speaker 4: and you are my father, And I said, talk to

766
00:47:27,320 --> 00:47:31,520
Speaker 4: him as he is your father, because he is. And

767
00:47:31,560 --> 00:47:33,799
Speaker 4: so I even tell people and I'm very open. I

768
00:47:33,840 --> 00:47:37,919
Speaker 4: go to God. I approach him like my father all

769
00:47:37,960 --> 00:47:40,520
Speaker 4: the time, and sometimes that's like a three year old

770
00:47:40,600 --> 00:47:44,279
Speaker 4: stomping their feet, Like I literally go to God is

771
00:47:44,360 --> 00:47:48,640
Speaker 4: my dad all the time, in so many different aspects,

772
00:47:48,800 --> 00:47:52,440
Speaker 4: and I feel like while there's such again a reverence

773
00:47:52,480 --> 00:47:55,840
Speaker 4: and like I just tremble at the thought of kneeling

774
00:47:55,880 --> 00:47:58,840
Speaker 4: before God one day, there's such a love and comfort

775
00:47:58,960 --> 00:48:01,200
Speaker 4: that it's like I just feel like I can also

776
00:48:01,320 --> 00:48:03,640
Speaker 4: curl up on his lap and just be like God

777
00:48:03,760 --> 00:48:07,279
Speaker 4: just told me, just give me that security. And so

778
00:48:07,400 --> 00:48:10,360
Speaker 4: you just I go to God with everything, all the emotions,

779
00:48:10,400 --> 00:48:13,160
Speaker 4: and He's pay like, there's my girl, there's.

780
00:48:12,920 --> 00:48:13,919
Speaker 1: My unhinged girl.

781
00:48:14,080 --> 00:48:15,480
Speaker 3: Covin ha.

782
00:48:16,320 --> 00:48:20,359
Speaker 4: But and so, you know, kind of coming back to

783
00:48:20,600 --> 00:48:25,560
Speaker 4: our main point of this podcast and seeing this beautiful

784
00:48:25,600 --> 00:48:31,279
Speaker 4: girl who was who was legally murdered in a hospital.

785
00:48:33,520 --> 00:48:38,040
Speaker 4: We all have suffering, We all have these we all

786
00:48:38,120 --> 00:48:40,680
Speaker 4: carry a certain pain abby that no one else is

787
00:48:40,719 --> 00:48:44,200
Speaker 4: going to understand. I've told you about some of mine,

788
00:48:44,440 --> 00:48:46,080
Speaker 4: You've told me about some of yours.

789
00:48:46,520 --> 00:48:49,040
Speaker 1: What this beautiful.

790
00:48:48,520 --> 00:48:52,759
Speaker 4: Young woman under went through none of us would be

791
00:48:52,800 --> 00:48:53,600
Speaker 4: able to understand.

792
00:48:53,640 --> 00:48:55,759
Speaker 1: But only God understands it.

793
00:48:56,440 --> 00:49:01,640
Speaker 4: He knows exactly what we've endured, and so I just

794
00:49:02,520 --> 00:49:07,040
Speaker 4: my goodness, whoever is hurting, whoever is suffering, or if

795
00:49:07,040 --> 00:49:11,279
Speaker 4: you're in a good spot, like, be aware that at

796
00:49:11,320 --> 00:49:15,279
Speaker 4: some point the bottom may possibly drop out. And you

797
00:49:15,520 --> 00:49:18,880
Speaker 4: have to know that when you were having those intense

798
00:49:18,920 --> 00:49:21,560
Speaker 4: emotions like this is it, this is it, I do

799
00:49:21,600 --> 00:49:23,960
Speaker 4: not want to be here anymore. Like you have to

800
00:49:24,000 --> 00:49:27,120
Speaker 4: know who is speaking those thoughts into your head, right,

801
00:49:27,640 --> 00:49:32,120
Speaker 4: and we have to realize that that is not that

802
00:49:32,320 --> 00:49:36,360
Speaker 4: is not a natural test, that is not in any way,

803
00:49:36,719 --> 00:49:39,439
Speaker 4: shape or form. All you have to go to is say,

804
00:49:39,480 --> 00:49:40,759
Speaker 4: would God approve of this?

805
00:49:41,239 --> 00:49:42,280
Speaker 3: Right? Again?

806
00:49:42,360 --> 00:49:45,120
Speaker 4: Would God ever approve of the of the pulling of

807
00:49:45,160 --> 00:49:47,680
Speaker 4: the limbs of his child in the womb? I don't

808
00:49:47,719 --> 00:49:51,080
Speaker 4: care how that baby was conceived. He would never, under

809
00:49:51,080 --> 00:49:55,200
Speaker 4: any circumstance approve of that. Would he approve? Yes, my

810
00:49:55,360 --> 00:49:59,279
Speaker 4: poor daughter has suffered so greatly, so I want you

811
00:49:59,760 --> 00:50:02,759
Speaker 4: to kill her by injecting her with these things. Never

812
00:50:02,920 --> 00:50:04,520
Speaker 4: in a billion years would he do that.

813
00:50:05,120 --> 00:50:08,360
Speaker 2: Yeah, but have you watched have you been watching the

814
00:50:08,400 --> 00:50:09,600
Speaker 2: Pit on HBO?

815
00:50:09,680 --> 00:50:10,040
Speaker 3: Max?

816
00:50:11,719 --> 00:50:15,920
Speaker 2: They are you know, of course it's on HBO, So

817
00:50:16,040 --> 00:50:19,560
Speaker 2: I mean, you know, you expect all the cultural things

818
00:50:19,640 --> 00:50:22,440
Speaker 2: right now, But they were Okay, let's see in the

819
00:50:22,480 --> 00:50:27,080
Speaker 2: past two episodes, Noah Wiley's in it and he's received

820
00:50:27,080 --> 00:50:30,040
Speaker 2: like all the awards for it, and like it's a

821
00:50:30,080 --> 00:50:31,920
Speaker 2: good show. There's good acting and stuff in it. But

822
00:50:32,680 --> 00:50:36,600
Speaker 2: let's see the last two episodes, they have completely demonized ice.

823
00:50:37,840 --> 00:50:41,800
Speaker 2: They have pushed a woman, They did euthanize a woman

824
00:50:41,880 --> 00:50:49,160
Speaker 2: in the hospital, and you know, made it totally like normal. Yeah,

825
00:50:49,239 --> 00:50:52,120
Speaker 2: she had the answer, and so they just totally normalize that,

826
00:50:52,320 --> 00:50:55,560
Speaker 2: you know, like, well, this is her choice, this is

827
00:50:55,560 --> 00:50:59,040
Speaker 2: what's best for her. She had two young children. You know,

828
00:50:59,120 --> 00:51:00,560
Speaker 2: she's didn't want to fly anymore.

829
00:51:01,600 --> 00:51:04,480
Speaker 4: Baby, It's going to be a total escape from suffering.

830
00:51:04,640 --> 00:51:07,120
Speaker 4: No one has to suffer any Yes, no one has

831
00:51:07,160 --> 00:51:08,040
Speaker 4: to suffer anymore.

832
00:51:08,520 --> 00:51:11,600
Speaker 2: And I and I just think like it's so, it's

833
00:51:11,719 --> 00:51:17,520
Speaker 2: just so our culture is so influenceable, Oh yeah, by

834
00:51:17,560 --> 00:51:21,160
Speaker 2: these messages, and this is these are this is a

835
00:51:21,200 --> 00:51:26,040
Speaker 2: TV show. This is fake right right, This isn't even

836
00:51:26,080 --> 00:51:30,279
Speaker 2: like someone's real story. This is like, hey, okay, these

837
00:51:30,280 --> 00:51:36,880
Speaker 2: are actors, but people are coming to conclusions and opinions

838
00:51:37,640 --> 00:51:43,560
Speaker 2: about other people's real lives based on stories that they

839
00:51:43,640 --> 00:51:49,600
Speaker 2: see by actors. And I'm like, oh my gosh, like,

840
00:51:50,040 --> 00:51:55,919
Speaker 2: how stupidly vulnerable is our society right now?

841
00:51:56,640 --> 00:51:59,839
Speaker 4: Well, we've done that with everything from even just from

842
00:52:00,400 --> 00:52:05,840
Speaker 4: Abby the culture around sexuality. Oh, it's from it's from Netflix,

843
00:52:06,000 --> 00:52:09,680
Speaker 4: is from HBO, it's from it's from series, it's from movies,

844
00:52:10,160 --> 00:52:14,640
Speaker 4: it's from TV shows of normalizing it and putting it

845
00:52:14,719 --> 00:52:20,920
Speaker 4: out there funny, qubickly and in that this is honestly,

846
00:52:21,280 --> 00:52:27,080
Speaker 4: I think we probably don't even realize being euthanized. It's

847
00:52:27,080 --> 00:52:31,480
Speaker 4: probaced so much more underway.

848
00:52:31,719 --> 00:52:32,799
Speaker 1: I think that that.

849
00:52:32,840 --> 00:52:37,279
Speaker 4: We're ready to realize this isn't just like random one here,

850
00:52:37,520 --> 00:52:39,040
Speaker 4: one here, isolated in the.

851
00:52:39,120 --> 00:52:42,800
Speaker 2: Center, happening like it's already happening in like Oregon, Washington

852
00:52:42,960 --> 00:52:46,440
Speaker 2: State like happening, and it's happening in New Mexico.

853
00:52:47,080 --> 00:52:52,760
Speaker 4: Going to accelerate with stories like this and TV shows

854
00:52:52,800 --> 00:52:56,840
Speaker 4: like this, and again with the programming around it. This

855
00:52:57,000 --> 00:53:00,959
Speaker 4: is uh, don't let your mother in law suffer, don't

856
00:53:01,040 --> 00:53:03,560
Speaker 4: let your husband suffer, you know what I mean?

857
00:53:03,719 --> 00:53:06,279
Speaker 1: And it that terrifies me.

858
00:53:06,520 --> 00:53:11,120
Speaker 4: And this will be accelerated to be the next normalized

859
00:53:11,160 --> 00:53:16,239
Speaker 4: thing as Satan laughs, because this is what we do,

860
00:53:16,360 --> 00:53:21,080
Speaker 4: our sick culture, our evil society. We take everything that

861
00:53:21,160 --> 00:53:24,440
Speaker 4: is good and holy, and we twist it, and we

862
00:53:24,560 --> 00:53:29,360
Speaker 4: contort it, and we take it to the exact opposite,

863
00:53:30,040 --> 00:53:30,919
Speaker 4: farthest from God.

864
00:53:31,080 --> 00:53:33,279
Speaker 2: Well, and conservative Christians are falling for it.

865
00:53:33,719 --> 00:53:36,360
Speaker 1: Yes, that's the worst part. Abby.

866
00:53:36,480 --> 00:53:40,840
Speaker 4: I can't even I can't even identify anymore. Literally, I

867
00:53:41,560 --> 00:53:44,200
Speaker 4: just I can't even identify. I feel like identifying even

868
00:53:44,239 --> 00:53:46,759
Speaker 4: as a Republican, like I always tell people I'm a

869
00:53:46,760 --> 00:53:51,719
Speaker 4: far right Christian conservative, but like, what again, everyone in

870
00:53:51,800 --> 00:53:54,520
Speaker 4: our I feel like I've ticked off all the Republicans

871
00:53:54,560 --> 00:53:56,879
Speaker 4: now too. I've always done a great job calling out

872
00:53:56,880 --> 00:54:00,520
Speaker 4: the Democratic Party, which I have no alignment with, so

873
00:54:00,560 --> 00:54:02,399
Speaker 4: I'm not saying that. But when you call out your

874
00:54:02,440 --> 00:54:06,080
Speaker 4: own party, they think, oh, you're automatically a Democrat. Oh

875
00:54:06,200 --> 00:54:09,200
Speaker 4: you're And I'm always like people are like hey, people

876
00:54:09,200 --> 00:54:11,560
Speaker 4: who are just stumble upon a post of mine and

877
00:54:11,640 --> 00:54:17,960
Speaker 4: my wording for just calling it like it is, Oh yeah,

878
00:54:18,040 --> 00:54:19,080
Speaker 4: she wanted Kamala.

879
00:54:19,200 --> 00:54:20,960
Speaker 1: Are you kidding me? Are you kidding me?

880
00:54:21,239 --> 00:54:22,120
Speaker 3: No? I'm just not.

881
00:54:22,120 --> 00:54:24,440
Speaker 4: Afraid to tell it like it is. And it breaks

882
00:54:24,520 --> 00:54:27,960
Speaker 4: my heart when I see people on the same quote

883
00:54:28,040 --> 00:54:31,120
Speaker 4: unquote team as me who are falling for it, who

884
00:54:31,160 --> 00:54:35,920
Speaker 4: are conforming who are bending, who are same like you said,

885
00:54:36,320 --> 00:54:40,640
Speaker 4: Appy has called it like it is because especially in

886
00:54:40,680 --> 00:54:44,840
Speaker 4: the pro life movement, why is the other side winning

887
00:54:44,880 --> 00:54:48,359
Speaker 4: because they never bend, They do not bend, And what

888
00:54:48,440 --> 00:54:52,520
Speaker 4: does our side do? We always bend, we always will. Okay,

889
00:54:52,719 --> 00:54:55,400
Speaker 4: let's just give it a like. That's not much at least, No,

890
00:54:55,480 --> 00:54:59,040
Speaker 4: that's not winning. You have to plant your feet in

891
00:54:59,080 --> 00:55:04,560
Speaker 4: the cement, not bend, because on most things it is

892
00:55:04,680 --> 00:55:09,880
Speaker 4: black or white. And too many people on our team

893
00:55:10,239 --> 00:55:12,319
Speaker 4: who are playing for God and who are playing for

894
00:55:12,360 --> 00:55:16,440
Speaker 4: the Christians and the Conservatives, they are they are abby.

895
00:55:16,480 --> 00:55:19,200
Speaker 4: They are being swiftly carried into the gray area.

896
00:55:19,920 --> 00:55:26,160
Speaker 2: Yeah, and it's it's flarming willing, I mean willingly, willingly.

897
00:55:25,920 --> 00:55:29,160
Speaker 4: Like again, and so when I'm seeing an Abby, I'm like, Okay,

898
00:55:29,520 --> 00:55:32,400
Speaker 4: are they doing this blindly? Are they doing this for money?

899
00:55:32,840 --> 00:55:37,200
Speaker 4: Is Satan literally just blind siding them? Is it all

900
00:55:37,239 --> 00:55:37,840
Speaker 4: of the above?

901
00:55:38,719 --> 00:55:40,960
Speaker 1: And it's and.

902
00:55:41,000 --> 00:55:45,040
Speaker 4: Again I'm just like, man, this is such a crazy time,

903
00:55:45,520 --> 00:55:48,640
Speaker 4: Like you have to be armored up, you have to

904
00:55:48,680 --> 00:55:55,240
Speaker 4: be praying for graces. This is such spiritual warfare. And again,

905
00:55:55,320 --> 00:55:57,920
Speaker 4: what Abby and I always say, and I know her,

906
00:55:58,040 --> 00:56:00,320
Speaker 4: you know Abby and Doug do this with their chill children,

907
00:56:00,400 --> 00:56:03,319
Speaker 4: and I do this with mine. You constantly have to

908
00:56:03,360 --> 00:56:07,040
Speaker 4: be having very open conversations with your children. You constantly

909
00:56:07,080 --> 00:56:10,560
Speaker 4: have to be praying with them, constantly praying over them.

910
00:56:11,280 --> 00:56:14,640
Speaker 4: And again, you can't put them in a bubble. They

911
00:56:14,680 --> 00:56:18,120
Speaker 4: have to face evil head on. And so you have

912
00:56:18,200 --> 00:56:20,160
Speaker 4: to do it with them. I mean, that's the thing.

913
00:56:20,239 --> 00:56:23,120
Speaker 4: You have to do it with them. You have to

914
00:56:24,200 --> 00:56:28,000
Speaker 4: and just can't leave them like spiritually unprepared.

915
00:56:28,840 --> 00:56:30,640
Speaker 1: No, no, and it is.

916
00:56:31,400 --> 00:56:35,200
Speaker 4: It's it's literally armoring your kids up and armoring up

917
00:56:35,200 --> 00:56:38,680
Speaker 4: beside them and knowing this is truth.

918
00:56:39,160 --> 00:56:39,959
Speaker 1: This doesn't bend.

919
00:56:40,040 --> 00:56:43,839
Speaker 4: It's never going to change, no matter what your teacher says,

920
00:56:43,840 --> 00:56:46,840
Speaker 4: no matter what Johnny tells you in class, no matter

921
00:56:46,880 --> 00:56:47,799
Speaker 4: what the Netflix.

922
00:56:48,360 --> 00:56:50,359
Speaker 1: You know, the series tells you that.

923
00:56:51,920 --> 00:56:52,480
Speaker 2: What was what?

924
00:56:52,640 --> 00:56:55,640
Speaker 4: Oh Abby and I what was so innocent? For years,

925
00:56:55,680 --> 00:56:58,719
Speaker 4: our little boys loved cocoa melon, and then like a

926
00:56:58,760 --> 00:57:01,840
Speaker 4: year or two ago that that completely went sideways.

927
00:57:01,920 --> 00:57:02,480
Speaker 3: Yeah and so.

928
00:57:04,880 --> 00:57:09,160
Speaker 4: Yeah, and so it's like like come on, coco melon,

929
00:57:09,640 --> 00:57:13,000
Speaker 4: come on, like Abby, years, we gave you years with

930
00:57:13,080 --> 00:57:17,320
Speaker 4: kJ and fulls and and so it is that's suffer

931
00:57:17,880 --> 00:57:22,000
Speaker 4: we sufferg he sufferd through the music and the kJ

932
00:57:22,120 --> 00:57:23,160
Speaker 4: always had his hair.

933
00:57:23,120 --> 00:57:25,840
Speaker 2: AJ and JJ.

934
00:57:27,760 --> 00:57:30,240
Speaker 1: And and so it's.

935
00:57:30,080 --> 00:57:32,520
Speaker 4: Like, yeah, it's not a fairy tale. It's never going

936
00:57:32,560 --> 00:57:34,360
Speaker 4: to be And this is the world we live in.

937
00:57:34,720 --> 00:57:37,640
Speaker 4: And again we're called to be saints, we are called

938
00:57:37,640 --> 00:57:41,240
Speaker 4: to race saints. So it's like we can complain about

939
00:57:41,240 --> 00:57:43,880
Speaker 4: the times we're living in or we can also feel

940
00:57:43,960 --> 00:57:48,320
Speaker 4: honored to be like, dang, God shows us. God chose

941
00:57:48,400 --> 00:57:53,040
Speaker 4: us right now for right now. So let that light

942
00:57:53,080 --> 00:57:55,680
Speaker 4: of fire in you all. Yeah, because there are days

943
00:57:55,680 --> 00:57:58,120
Speaker 4: where I'm like, dang, this would just this sucks, man,

944
00:57:58,320 --> 00:58:01,720
Speaker 4: this sucks to be alive during this time while literally

945
00:58:01,800 --> 00:58:05,360
Speaker 4: all of Heaven and the saints you're envious of us

946
00:58:05,680 --> 00:58:09,000
Speaker 4: where they are just like if they even knew, what

947
00:58:09,160 --> 00:58:13,040
Speaker 4: a time to be alive, to to really soldier up

948
00:58:13,080 --> 00:58:16,800
Speaker 4: for God, what a time to be alive, to try

949
00:58:16,800 --> 00:58:20,440
Speaker 4: to become a saint, to try to raise saints, to

950
00:58:20,560 --> 00:58:25,040
Speaker 4: be a soldier for Christ amongst this evil, to stand

951
00:58:25,160 --> 00:58:28,800
Speaker 4: up against Satan, to stand up against the sick, evil world.

952
00:58:29,120 --> 00:58:32,400
Speaker 1: Man, the saints in Heaven are all envious.

953
00:58:32,760 --> 00:58:38,400
Speaker 2: So literally those are totally and abounds.

954
00:58:38,800 --> 00:58:41,600
Speaker 4: Grace abounds even more so when I do get scared

955
00:58:41,640 --> 00:58:47,000
Speaker 4: and like man, Lord. It's like his mercy does has

956
00:58:47,240 --> 00:58:52,040
Speaker 4: will abound even more. And so I'm telling you i'd

957
00:58:52,040 --> 00:58:53,960
Speaker 4: be when I need to give myself a pep talk

958
00:58:54,400 --> 00:58:57,240
Speaker 4: and a reminder of who I am and speak in

959
00:58:57,360 --> 00:59:01,440
Speaker 4: authority over the enemy. It's like I am and not

960
00:59:01,560 --> 00:59:05,440
Speaker 4: have a pity party for myself. Yeah, it's like the

961
00:59:05,560 --> 00:59:08,800
Speaker 4: daughter of the Most High, my father's the king of

962
00:59:08,840 --> 00:59:09,560
Speaker 4: the universe.

963
00:59:09,880 --> 00:59:10,760
Speaker 2: Yeah, you know what I mean.

964
00:59:11,320 --> 00:59:15,680
Speaker 4: Like it's it's like, man, we've got to step up

965
00:59:15,720 --> 00:59:19,520
Speaker 4: and stand out and be courageous and not bend, not

966
00:59:19,640 --> 00:59:21,040
Speaker 4: bend flipping inch.

967
00:59:21,760 --> 00:59:23,400
Speaker 2: Nope, that's what we've got to do.

968
00:59:24,320 --> 00:59:27,760
Speaker 7: Yeah, just stop getting in, stop stopping getting in.

969
00:59:28,440 --> 00:59:30,840
Speaker 4: I mean so many times, and we're gonna wrap here.

970
00:59:31,120 --> 00:59:34,919
Speaker 4: Like Abby has called me over the months and she's like, rag,

971
00:59:34,960 --> 00:59:37,680
Speaker 4: what am I doing? Like I'm the only one out

972
00:59:37,720 --> 00:59:39,560
Speaker 4: here on the slim Like am I crazy?

973
00:59:40,200 --> 00:59:40,480
Speaker 3: Am I?

974
00:59:40,680 --> 00:59:44,240
Speaker 4: Like? Should I back? And I'm like, dude, what an honor?

975
00:59:45,040 --> 00:59:49,680
Speaker 4: What an honor that it is? You saying certain things,

976
00:59:49,760 --> 00:59:54,680
Speaker 4: taking persecution being out on that plank all alone, Like

977
00:59:54,880 --> 00:59:57,720
Speaker 4: what an honor? And I think that's what I mean.

978
00:59:57,800 --> 01:00:01,320
Speaker 4: Abby's the first one to be humble. She's the first

979
01:00:01,360 --> 01:00:04,440
Speaker 4: one to list all her sins to you know, everything

980
01:00:04,440 --> 01:00:07,160
Speaker 4: of her past is out there. But it's like if

981
01:00:07,200 --> 01:00:09,760
Speaker 4: there's one thing, it's like Abby's going to shoot straight

982
01:00:09,840 --> 01:00:12,760
Speaker 4: with you and she's going to be like whatever, I'm

983
01:00:12,760 --> 01:00:14,160
Speaker 4: not moving, I'm not bending.

984
01:00:14,800 --> 01:00:15,680
Speaker 1: Say what you want.

985
01:00:16,040 --> 01:00:20,160
Speaker 4: And I think that is one of the most admirable

986
01:00:20,280 --> 01:00:23,680
Speaker 4: things where we know we're if we're we're on the

987
01:00:23,760 --> 01:00:26,480
Speaker 4: right side, if we're if we're if we're doing it

988
01:00:26,520 --> 01:00:29,760
Speaker 4: for Christ, and we know it's like, man, no matter what, again,

989
01:00:29,840 --> 01:00:32,640
Speaker 4: what a blessing to be persecuted. I think you know,

990
01:00:32,680 --> 01:00:34,960
Speaker 4: I have people coming at me left and right, and

991
01:00:35,000 --> 01:00:36,760
Speaker 4: some people are like, doesn't that hurt your feelings?

992
01:00:36,840 --> 01:00:39,640
Speaker 1: I'm like, you know what, this is all. It's embarrassing

993
01:00:39,640 --> 01:00:41,480
Speaker 1: to even compare it to what Jesus.

994
01:00:41,080 --> 01:00:41,520
Speaker 2: Did for me.

995
01:00:41,560 --> 01:00:42,280
Speaker 1: It's embarrassing.

996
01:00:42,360 --> 01:00:43,040
Speaker 7: It's nothing.

997
01:00:43,560 --> 01:00:45,920
Speaker 4: It's like every little thing that might get to me

998
01:00:46,080 --> 01:00:48,680
Speaker 4: or might hurt my feelings, I offer it up to God.

999
01:00:48,760 --> 01:00:51,160
Speaker 4: This is a drop in the bucket. This is it's

1000
01:00:51,200 --> 01:00:54,240
Speaker 4: beautiful to be persecuted and to suffer.

1001
01:00:55,000 --> 01:00:58,000
Speaker 2: Yeah, I mean it's hard. It comes with the cost,

1002
01:00:58,160 --> 01:01:02,160
Speaker 2: but it's like us, do you know, whatever the penalty is,

1003
01:01:02,240 --> 01:01:04,400
Speaker 2: whatever the caust say is like Jesus, take care.

1004
01:01:05,080 --> 01:01:07,120
Speaker 1: This is a blip, your guys.

1005
01:01:07,280 --> 01:01:11,800
Speaker 4: Eternity is forever and ever and ever, and so you know,

1006
01:01:12,000 --> 01:01:14,760
Speaker 4: I pray every single person listening to this, I pray

1007
01:01:14,840 --> 01:01:17,360
Speaker 4: that God blesses you abundantly. I pray that He blesses

1008
01:01:17,400 --> 01:01:21,560
Speaker 4: your family abundantly with peace and joy and health and

1009
01:01:21,720 --> 01:01:26,600
Speaker 4: safety and perseverance, perseverance because again, yeah, I mean, we

1010
01:01:26,680 --> 01:01:29,160
Speaker 4: could all be just sitting in a closet crying, rocking

1011
01:01:29,280 --> 01:01:32,280
Speaker 4: back and forth, knowing the evil in this world. Or

1012
01:01:32,440 --> 01:01:35,640
Speaker 4: we can be like Lord, use me. I'm a I'm

1013
01:01:35,760 --> 01:01:39,200
Speaker 4: just your lowly servant. But use me, Lord, use me.

1014
01:01:39,480 --> 01:01:43,080
Speaker 4: Let me at least do something for you and your kingdom.

1015
01:01:44,040 --> 01:01:45,920
Speaker 4: And that just by the grace of God and what

1016
01:01:46,080 --> 01:01:49,680
Speaker 4: Jesus did for us, that I'm able and my children

1017
01:01:49,760 --> 01:01:53,440
Speaker 4: are able to spend eternity with you, worshiping you, and

1018
01:01:53,880 --> 01:01:57,280
Speaker 4: just let it light you on fire again, God shows

1019
01:01:57,320 --> 01:02:01,280
Speaker 4: you for this insane time, no matter how sinful you are,

1020
01:02:01,400 --> 01:02:03,880
Speaker 4: no matter how far off the path you are. I

1021
01:02:04,000 --> 01:02:07,200
Speaker 4: need again, Abby, one of my favorite verses. I mean,

1022
01:02:07,680 --> 01:02:11,120
Speaker 4: all of Heaven rejoices over that one that comes back

1023
01:02:11,280 --> 01:02:13,600
Speaker 4: versus the ninety nine that have been doing good because

1024
01:02:13,640 --> 01:02:15,480
Speaker 4: I know I've been there when I look at these

1025
01:02:15,520 --> 01:02:18,000
Speaker 4: super holy people and I'm like, man, I'm just so

1026
01:02:18,200 --> 01:02:22,520
Speaker 4: unworthy and gross and sinful. And then it's like all

1027
01:02:22,640 --> 01:02:25,400
Speaker 4: of Heaven is rejoicing. Every time I try to get

1028
01:02:25,440 --> 01:02:27,080
Speaker 4: back on track, They're like, she's back.

1029
01:02:27,680 --> 01:02:30,120
Speaker 1: She's back, she's enjoying it again.

1030
01:02:31,280 --> 01:02:32,120
Speaker 3: She's doing it.

1031
01:02:32,320 --> 01:02:32,800
Speaker 2: Folks.

1032
01:02:33,000 --> 01:02:37,720
Speaker 4: Come on like literally, guys like, I've gotta hype myself

1033
01:02:37,800 --> 01:02:38,320
Speaker 4: up like this.

1034
01:02:38,640 --> 01:02:41,680
Speaker 1: All of Heaven is like our girl's back. She's back.

1035
01:02:41,800 --> 01:02:45,360
Speaker 4: She is clawing away to get up here with us.

1036
01:02:46,040 --> 01:02:48,520
Speaker 4: And that's how you have to think of it. Literally, God,

1037
01:02:48,800 --> 01:02:52,280
Speaker 4: just use me, and I promise God will does not

1038
01:02:52,520 --> 01:02:55,840
Speaker 4: know how to say no when you are truly saying Lord,

1039
01:02:56,080 --> 01:02:58,920
Speaker 4: use me as a vessel, pour your graces into me.

1040
01:02:59,120 --> 01:02:59,880
Speaker 1: I promise you.

1041
01:03:00,160 --> 01:03:01,400
Speaker 4: He can't not do that.

1042
01:03:02,200 --> 01:03:03,640
Speaker 2: Yeah, and he will.

1043
01:03:04,360 --> 01:03:04,720
Speaker 1: He will.

1044
01:03:05,480 --> 01:03:08,920
Speaker 2: He will just have to have an open spirit, yes, and.

1045
01:03:09,000 --> 01:03:12,040
Speaker 4: Be willing to suffer, and be willing to suffer. You

1046
01:03:12,200 --> 01:03:17,640
Speaker 4: have to, because what that does come peace and joy there.

1047
01:03:18,320 --> 01:03:20,560
Speaker 4: It's an unexplainable peace and joy.

1048
01:03:20,800 --> 01:03:24,520
Speaker 2: I look at Job. If you've read the book of Job.

1049
01:03:25,080 --> 01:03:29,560
Speaker 4: Wild Man wild nobody got the shaft more than Job

1050
01:03:30,560 --> 01:03:33,480
Speaker 4: right and again it's not like he even had an

1051
01:03:33,560 --> 01:03:37,040
Speaker 4: inkling or because again, God knows her thoughts. It wasn't like, Okay,

1052
01:03:37,680 --> 01:03:39,960
Speaker 4: maybe if I push this out a little longer, I'm

1053
01:03:40,000 --> 01:03:41,360
Speaker 4: going to be blessed tenfold.

1054
01:03:41,560 --> 01:03:43,440
Speaker 2: No, it's like job's like man.

1055
01:03:45,120 --> 01:03:46,200
Speaker 4: Like, it's all gone.

1056
01:03:48,000 --> 01:03:50,200
Speaker 3: It's like I got boils on my body.

1057
01:03:50,680 --> 01:03:56,000
Speaker 4: Right, it's like dag, this is I can't get any lower.

1058
01:03:56,200 --> 01:04:00,800
Speaker 3: But you know why, God is good? Got boiled.

1059
01:04:02,800 --> 01:04:04,400
Speaker 1: It just hurts to be alive.

1060
01:04:06,480 --> 01:04:11,840
Speaker 4: You don't want to, right, You're probably moments Lord, if

1061
01:04:11,880 --> 01:04:17,200
Speaker 4: you want to bring me up, okay, anytime, any time good.

1062
01:04:17,920 --> 01:04:22,800
Speaker 4: But again, there was this something inside him that was like,

1063
01:04:23,000 --> 01:04:25,680
Speaker 4: you know what, No, you're not taking my worship away

1064
01:04:25,720 --> 01:04:29,160
Speaker 4: from God. You're taking my peace and joy away of

1065
01:04:29,360 --> 01:04:32,640
Speaker 4: my love for God. You know, he told his wife basically,

1066
01:04:33,400 --> 01:04:34,840
Speaker 4: what the hell are you speaking?

1067
01:04:34,960 --> 01:04:35,240
Speaker 3: Woman?

1068
01:04:35,520 --> 01:04:39,480
Speaker 1: I get behind me, sane? Literally, don't you.

1069
01:04:39,640 --> 01:04:42,800
Speaker 5: Dare All the all the apostles, like the way they

1070
01:04:42,840 --> 01:04:46,320
Speaker 5: were killed, they were like killed in horrific ways, right,

1071
01:04:47,600 --> 01:04:50,760
Speaker 5: they were like you know, crucified upside down. They're like

1072
01:04:50,960 --> 01:04:54,720
Speaker 5: flat open, like you're headed, like burned alive, like all

1073
01:04:54,760 --> 01:04:57,560
Speaker 5: these they're terrible and at any point in time they

1074
01:04:57,600 --> 01:05:01,400
Speaker 5: could have been like just kidding, like I didn't really

1075
01:05:01,680 --> 01:05:05,440
Speaker 5: see Jesus, like just kidding, like I wasn't the Last Supper,

1076
01:05:05,720 --> 01:05:08,080
Speaker 5: Like I didn't really see your rise from the dead.

1077
01:05:08,160 --> 01:05:11,760
Speaker 2: But like they were so sure, and they were so

1078
01:05:12,080 --> 01:05:13,200
Speaker 2: because they did see what.

1079
01:05:13,240 --> 01:05:16,280
Speaker 4: They dies and no one dies for a lie, No

1080
01:05:16,400 --> 01:05:18,520
Speaker 4: one dies for a lie, no one dies for life.

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Speaker 4: And the Apostles were able to have this man, if

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Speaker 4: I can only suffer a little more for what they saw,

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Speaker 4: they they saw it, and so they were like, let

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Speaker 4: me suffer more. No, you want to crucify me. No,

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Speaker 4: I'm not worthy. Do it upside down, I'm not worthy

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Speaker 4: to be crucified.

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Speaker 2: Because I think it's like Saint Stephen was like he

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01:05:43,040 --> 01:05:45,800
Speaker 2: was like being burned alive and he's like he's like,

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01:05:45,920 --> 01:05:47,880
Speaker 2: turn me over, I'm done on this side.

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Speaker 4: Literally like yeah yeah, like yeah, yeah, the other way.

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Speaker 2: And so these were people that like knew I mean

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Speaker 2: like they knew Jesus. And so look at.

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Speaker 4: Saint John before being beheaded, there was like this peace

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01:06:03,960 --> 01:06:07,720
Speaker 4: and calmness and and it's like even you know, you know,

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01:06:08,240 --> 01:06:10,920
Speaker 4: just he knew what he was going towards. And it's

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01:06:11,040 --> 01:06:13,840
Speaker 4: like literally to be is and I always feel like

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Speaker 4: I'm a little unhinged like Saint John. Like not I'm

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01:06:16,920 --> 01:06:18,400
Speaker 4: not trying to say good, but like I feel like

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01:06:18,440 --> 01:06:20,960
Speaker 4: I'm a little unhinged like Saint John, like all eating locusts.

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01:06:21,080 --> 01:06:26,480
Speaker 4: And but it's like to know, like, man, I'm about

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01:06:26,560 --> 01:06:28,000
Speaker 4: to be beheaded for God.

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Speaker 1: This is so great, man.

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Speaker 4: I mean, if we could all only write right and

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01:06:35,640 --> 01:06:39,000
Speaker 4: so and so, maybe we just pray that we can

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01:06:39,200 --> 01:06:43,600
Speaker 4: persevere until there and it will all be beheaded for Christ. Right,

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Speaker 4: So literally, abby, I do There are times over a

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01:06:47,920 --> 01:06:50,680
Speaker 4: dozen i'd say that I have prayed for martyrdom, but

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01:06:50,800 --> 01:06:54,600
Speaker 4: I will say in the same breath I prayed two

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01:06:54,720 --> 01:06:57,680
Speaker 4: things that I never watched my children suffer and that

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01:06:57,760 --> 01:07:00,160
Speaker 4: they don't have to, And so I kind of put

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01:07:00,240 --> 01:07:01,200
Speaker 4: like little things on it.

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Speaker 2: And I'm also like, Lord, if it could just be

1113
01:07:03,280 --> 01:07:05,720
Speaker 2: really quick, it could just be and I could be

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01:07:05,800 --> 01:07:07,040
Speaker 2: dying in a state of grice.

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01:07:07,240 --> 01:07:11,000
Speaker 4: Okay, So I've always liked me like, really really fast,

1116
01:07:11,480 --> 01:07:14,080
Speaker 4: and that's it, and don't let my children suffer or

1117
01:07:14,200 --> 01:07:16,560
Speaker 4: let me see them supper, and it could be really quick,

1118
01:07:16,600 --> 01:07:17,120
Speaker 4: and I'm in a.

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01:07:17,120 --> 01:07:20,800
Speaker 2: State of grace missions on this martyrdom, Okay, verry Lord,

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Speaker 2: just those few, just those few, okay, and.

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01:07:25,600 --> 01:07:31,840
Speaker 4: That'll be okay, Oh my gosh. And again but Abby,

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01:07:32,000 --> 01:07:35,840
Speaker 4: and let's end on this statement. It is about those

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01:07:36,520 --> 01:07:42,479
Speaker 4: who persevere until the end, and so may we pray it's.

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01:07:42,400 --> 01:07:46,720
Speaker 2: A gift of the Holy spirits fortitude to persevere until

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01:07:46,760 --> 01:07:49,600
Speaker 2: the very end, no matter when that day comes.

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01:07:50,400 --> 01:07:53,040
Speaker 4: And I mean literally that should be in it. That

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01:07:53,080 --> 01:07:55,920
Speaker 4: should that should be the prayer, one of the many prayers,

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01:07:55,960 --> 01:07:59,680
Speaker 4: but a pretty frequent prayer. May may I persevere until

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Speaker 4: the endlae four two dude, Yes, amen, Yeah, I.

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01:08:06,520 --> 01:08:08,040
Speaker 2: Just say I just want fortitude.

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01:08:08,080 --> 01:08:10,560
Speaker 3: Dude, Amen, I mean a.

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01:08:14,040 --> 01:08:18,600
Speaker 4: Well, I uh I pro people are probably like, we

1133
01:08:18,760 --> 01:08:21,200
Speaker 4: just never know what's coming from Abby and Reagan never know.

1134
01:08:21,800 --> 01:08:22,640
Speaker 3: You just never know.

1135
01:08:22,960 --> 01:08:24,960
Speaker 4: That's and Abby and I never know what's coming. And

1136
01:08:25,040 --> 01:08:26,160
Speaker 4: that's the best part about it.

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01:08:28,080 --> 01:08:28,519
Speaker 3: I love it.

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01:08:28,800 --> 01:08:31,360
Speaker 1: Well, I'm so glad y'all joined us.

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Speaker 4: I am going to follow up with Abby and her

1140
01:08:33,720 --> 01:08:37,240
Speaker 4: assistance to make sure we get some airport updates over

1141
01:08:37,320 --> 01:08:41,200
Speaker 4: the next week or so and uh so peak at

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01:08:41,200 --> 01:08:46,680
Speaker 4: Abby socials for that. And truly, I really want everybody

1143
01:08:47,000 --> 01:08:52,400
Speaker 4: to remember this and stay steadfast until next time.

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Speaker 2: Keep raising your little Saints

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01:08:55,520 --> 01:09:09,759
Speaker 4: Opted the little daring, take hard