1 00:00:02,680 --> 00:00:07,320 Speaker 1: Life audio Hope doesn't erase the pain, but it refuses 2 00:00:07,400 --> 00:00:09,880 Speaker 1: to let pain be the ending. That's what we're going 3 00:00:09,960 --> 00:00:17,720 Speaker 1: to talk about in today's episode. Hello, Hello, Hello, ladies 4 00:00:17,720 --> 00:00:19,800 Speaker 1: and gents, and welcome to this week's episode of The 5 00:00:19,840 --> 00:00:22,840 Speaker 1: Bottom Beloved Podcast. As always, it's a girl Kirby Kelly 6 00:00:23,120 --> 00:00:25,720 Speaker 1: back at it again. And if you clicked on this 7 00:00:25,760 --> 00:00:29,440 Speaker 1: week's episode, you already know what I'm going to announce. You. 8 00:00:29,640 --> 00:00:35,839 Speaker 1: Girl wrote another book. I wrote another book. I can't 9 00:00:35,840 --> 00:00:39,800 Speaker 1: believe it. I have been working on this for like 10 00:00:40,240 --> 00:00:42,760 Speaker 1: a year and a half, two years now. I have 11 00:00:42,880 --> 00:00:46,479 Speaker 1: kept this secret lockdown quiet. I feel like a lot 12 00:00:46,479 --> 00:00:48,159 Speaker 1: of y'all kind of like figured out when I was 13 00:00:48,200 --> 00:00:51,120 Speaker 1: writing book number one. But I feel like I've done 14 00:00:51,120 --> 00:00:53,360 Speaker 1: a good job with keeping Book number two a secret. 15 00:00:53,360 --> 00:00:55,840 Speaker 1: But I have it right here. If you're watching on 16 00:00:55,880 --> 00:00:58,000 Speaker 1: YouTube and you're watching the video portion, then you can 17 00:00:58,000 --> 00:01:01,280 Speaker 1: see it on the screen. Isn't it such a beautiful 18 00:01:01,360 --> 00:01:04,880 Speaker 1: book cover? I'm obsessed with it. The title of the 19 00:01:04,880 --> 00:01:08,440 Speaker 1: book is called The Fabric of Hope. How God weaves 20 00:01:08,480 --> 00:01:14,920 Speaker 1: redemption into every season. And not only do I just 21 00:01:14,959 --> 00:01:18,720 Speaker 1: feel so passionate about this topic because I think we 22 00:01:18,760 --> 00:01:21,080 Speaker 1: all need a little bit of hope, probably a lot 23 00:01:21,080 --> 00:01:24,720 Speaker 1: of bit of hope, but it is something that I have, 24 00:01:25,040 --> 00:01:29,080 Speaker 1: especially in recent years, have lived out. I think my 25 00:01:29,120 --> 00:01:31,960 Speaker 1: whole life is a testament to hope. But specifically the 26 00:01:32,040 --> 00:01:35,920 Speaker 1: subtitle of this book, which is how God weaves Redemption 27 00:01:36,440 --> 00:01:40,800 Speaker 1: into every season. Literally, I can think back to every 28 00:01:40,880 --> 00:01:43,120 Speaker 1: season of my life where there was this weird tension 29 00:01:43,200 --> 00:01:48,680 Speaker 1: of pain and sorrow and trauma and trial, but also 30 00:01:49,360 --> 00:01:53,200 Speaker 1: this coexisting tension of holding on to hope in Christ, 31 00:01:53,320 --> 00:01:57,840 Speaker 1: like actually being sustained by His peace, his presence, the 32 00:01:58,000 --> 00:02:01,000 Speaker 1: joy that he supplies, the faith that He gives us 33 00:02:01,040 --> 00:02:04,000 Speaker 1: in those moments where we might be tempted to doubt. 34 00:02:04,440 --> 00:02:08,919 Speaker 1: And it's just really beautiful to now have that story, 35 00:02:09,320 --> 00:02:11,800 Speaker 1: my whole life story, really parts of my story that 36 00:02:11,840 --> 00:02:17,200 Speaker 1: y'all have never heard before, encapsulated in a book that 37 00:02:17,360 --> 00:02:22,360 Speaker 1: I'm really praying and believing will minister to so many people, 38 00:02:22,680 --> 00:02:26,160 Speaker 1: to so many people. I'm excited. It's available now for 39 00:02:26,280 --> 00:02:29,200 Speaker 1: pre order everywhere books are sold, So whether you're an 40 00:02:29,240 --> 00:02:32,679 Speaker 1: Amazon person, or you're an audible listener when it comes 41 00:02:32,680 --> 00:02:36,520 Speaker 1: to audiobooks, or if you love to support just like 42 00:02:36,919 --> 00:02:40,600 Speaker 1: local bookstores, I don't know, you can pre order the 43 00:02:40,600 --> 00:02:43,400 Speaker 1: book today, and when you do preorder, I will link 44 00:02:43,520 --> 00:02:46,240 Speaker 1: everything down below in the show notes. When you do preorder, 45 00:02:46,440 --> 00:02:48,000 Speaker 1: as long as you have proof of that pre order 46 00:02:48,040 --> 00:02:50,840 Speaker 1: purchase and you head over to my website in the 47 00:02:50,840 --> 00:02:53,919 Speaker 1: book landing page, I have tons of freebies as well 48 00:02:54,040 --> 00:02:57,080 Speaker 1: that you can get. I have a five part devotional 49 00:02:57,240 --> 00:02:59,800 Speaker 1: video series where I go in and I answer some 50 00:02:59,840 --> 00:03:03,760 Speaker 1: of the hard questions of hope, like why does God, 51 00:03:04,040 --> 00:03:06,520 Speaker 1: a good and loving God, allow for us to go 52 00:03:06,560 --> 00:03:11,480 Speaker 1: through suffering? Can God really redeem everything? And so many more. 53 00:03:12,000 --> 00:03:16,480 Speaker 1: There's also a prayer guide journaling prompt thing that I 54 00:03:16,600 --> 00:03:19,600 Speaker 1: made that walks you through being able to just like 55 00:03:19,720 --> 00:03:23,639 Speaker 1: analyze and really deepen an understanding of how God is 56 00:03:23,840 --> 00:03:28,640 Speaker 1: rewriting or continuously repurposing your story and infusing hope into it, 57 00:03:29,160 --> 00:03:31,760 Speaker 1: and you can read. I think it's like the first 58 00:03:31,840 --> 00:03:36,040 Speaker 1: two chapters ahead of time, like before it's even out, 59 00:03:36,080 --> 00:03:39,119 Speaker 1: before it even hits your your cart or your doorstep 60 00:03:39,240 --> 00:03:42,440 Speaker 1: or whatever. So when you preorder, you get all of 61 00:03:42,480 --> 00:03:44,800 Speaker 1: those free pre order bonuses. I'll link them down below. 62 00:03:45,000 --> 00:03:49,080 Speaker 1: But today I want to talk about hope specifically, this 63 00:03:49,200 --> 00:03:54,000 Speaker 1: idea that hope is not just a feeling that we feel, 64 00:03:54,360 --> 00:03:57,400 Speaker 1: but it really is a fight. I'm sure that many 65 00:03:57,440 --> 00:03:59,800 Speaker 1: of y'all know that that hope really can be a 66 00:04:00,280 --> 00:04:02,800 Speaker 1: for your life, especially when you feel like you're in 67 00:04:02,920 --> 00:04:05,320 Speaker 1: the pit, especially when you feel like you have just 68 00:04:05,360 --> 00:04:07,840 Speaker 1: gone through the trenches of life. Like you know, the 69 00:04:07,880 --> 00:04:11,080 Speaker 1: whole saying, when life gives you lemons, make lemonade. Even 70 00:04:11,120 --> 00:04:13,560 Speaker 1: Forrest Frank came out with a song about that, and 71 00:04:13,760 --> 00:04:15,840 Speaker 1: I literally was like, this is so timely because that 72 00:04:15,920 --> 00:04:18,479 Speaker 1: is a huge analogy that I used throughout the book 73 00:04:18,800 --> 00:04:23,120 Speaker 1: of just how life has chucked so many lemons at me, 74 00:04:23,600 --> 00:04:26,960 Speaker 1: like life has bruised me with the amount of lemons 75 00:04:26,960 --> 00:04:31,320 Speaker 1: that it has chucked at my face. But Jesus really 76 00:04:31,440 --> 00:04:35,240 Speaker 1: is the sugar who comes in and just sweetens it 77 00:04:35,360 --> 00:04:38,679 Speaker 1: up to actually make it lemonade, to go from something 78 00:04:38,760 --> 00:04:42,120 Speaker 1: that was almost like a place of ruin to a 79 00:04:42,160 --> 00:04:46,880 Speaker 1: place of redemption, a place of refreshment. And I know 80 00:04:46,960 --> 00:04:49,520 Speaker 1: that if that was true for me and true for 81 00:04:49,640 --> 00:04:52,520 Speaker 1: so many people in my life, and true for people 82 00:04:52,600 --> 00:04:56,320 Speaker 1: in scripture, then it can be true for you to 83 00:04:56,440 --> 00:05:01,000 Speaker 1: actually live out a redeemed story, redeemed hope, to actually 84 00:05:01,080 --> 00:05:04,880 Speaker 1: live out a life that is marked by peace and joy, 85 00:05:05,320 --> 00:05:08,920 Speaker 1: and faith. So today that's what I want to talk about. 86 00:05:09,839 --> 00:05:12,280 Speaker 1: I don't want to just announce the book because then 87 00:05:12,279 --> 00:05:14,200 Speaker 1: that would literally be the end of the podcast. I 88 00:05:14,200 --> 00:05:16,599 Speaker 1: want to talk about the very heart behind it, which 89 00:05:16,640 --> 00:05:20,800 Speaker 1: is hope, not the fluffy kind, not the pinterest quote kind, 90 00:05:20,920 --> 00:05:24,640 Speaker 1: not even the you know everything happens for a reason kind, 91 00:05:24,800 --> 00:05:27,000 Speaker 1: because when you're going through the thick of it, the 92 00:05:27,080 --> 00:05:29,160 Speaker 1: last thing you want to hear is like, oh, well, 93 00:05:29,279 --> 00:05:32,480 Speaker 1: you know, God gives the toughest battles to his strongest soldiers, 94 00:05:32,480 --> 00:05:37,560 Speaker 1: and it's like, Nancy, I'm struggling. I have been faithful, 95 00:05:37,640 --> 00:05:41,200 Speaker 1: I've been praying, and life keeps throwing lemons at me, 96 00:05:41,440 --> 00:05:45,560 Speaker 1: like where is the silver lining in this? And that's 97 00:05:45,600 --> 00:05:48,320 Speaker 1: why it's called the fabric of hope, actually is because 98 00:05:48,360 --> 00:05:54,240 Speaker 1: God stitches together and weaves together beauty and his silver 99 00:05:54,360 --> 00:05:57,760 Speaker 1: lining thread in those places where we otherwise wouldn't have 100 00:05:57,760 --> 00:06:00,960 Speaker 1: been able to see redemption. But I want to talk 101 00:06:01,000 --> 00:06:04,479 Speaker 1: about the kind of hope that you need when life 102 00:06:04,520 --> 00:06:08,200 Speaker 1: hurts you, when it feels dangerous, or when you really 103 00:06:08,200 --> 00:06:10,520 Speaker 1: have to fight for it. Because there were so many 104 00:06:10,520 --> 00:06:14,200 Speaker 1: seasons where I had to fight to cling on to hope. 105 00:06:14,560 --> 00:06:19,520 Speaker 1: So maybe for you, the idea of hoping again feels risky. 106 00:06:20,440 --> 00:06:22,599 Speaker 1: I get it. That's like a very vulnerable thing to do. 107 00:06:23,240 --> 00:06:26,800 Speaker 1: Maybe you've thought, I can't get my heart broken like 108 00:06:26,839 --> 00:06:29,520 Speaker 1: I did last season, so why would I even hope? 109 00:06:29,640 --> 00:06:34,080 Speaker 1: Or maybe you've even thought like, yeah, I love you God, 110 00:06:34,200 --> 00:06:36,400 Speaker 1: but I don't know if I necessarily have any more 111 00:06:36,440 --> 00:06:39,840 Speaker 1: expectation that you're going to move in my life. If 112 00:06:39,839 --> 00:06:42,560 Speaker 1: that's the case, One, the fabric of hope is for you, 113 00:06:42,680 --> 00:06:46,760 Speaker 1: but two, this episode is for you, so let's be honest. 114 00:06:47,040 --> 00:06:50,920 Speaker 1: Hope feels good, It feels real, feels like a tangible 115 00:06:50,960 --> 00:06:55,599 Speaker 1: concept when life is good right, when prayers are being answered, 116 00:06:55,640 --> 00:06:59,920 Speaker 1: when relationships are healthy, when dreams are unfolding, when you 117 00:07:00,160 --> 00:07:04,520 Speaker 1: feel close to God. But when life breaks you, hope 118 00:07:04,600 --> 00:07:09,480 Speaker 1: feels different, all right. Hope feels different after loss, after betrayal, 119 00:07:09,920 --> 00:07:16,320 Speaker 1: after unanswered prayers, disappointment, trauma, after waiting longer than you 120 00:07:16,480 --> 00:07:22,400 Speaker 1: thought you would. At that point, hope starts to feel dangerous, vulnerable, naive, 121 00:07:22,800 --> 00:07:28,560 Speaker 1: even because hope means that you might end up disappointed again. 122 00:07:29,360 --> 00:07:31,800 Speaker 1: Hope means that you might have to learn how to 123 00:07:31,880 --> 00:07:35,800 Speaker 1: trust again. Hope means that you might have to open 124 00:07:35,920 --> 00:07:40,080 Speaker 1: up your heart again, or start believing again. And if 125 00:07:40,120 --> 00:07:44,679 Speaker 1: you've been hurt deeply, that doesn't feel brave, that feels stupid, 126 00:07:45,240 --> 00:07:47,880 Speaker 1: like I've gone through heartache. I've gone through the hurt. 127 00:07:47,920 --> 00:07:51,680 Speaker 1: Why would I even dare to hope again? Feels like 128 00:07:51,720 --> 00:07:53,640 Speaker 1: the dumbest thing I could do. I feel like an 129 00:07:53,640 --> 00:07:58,440 Speaker 1: idiot for clinging onto something like that. But the thing 130 00:07:58,480 --> 00:08:00,680 Speaker 1: is is that a lot of us who might be 131 00:08:00,760 --> 00:08:05,320 Speaker 1: struggling with hope or hopelessness today. It's not that we 132 00:08:05,360 --> 00:08:08,080 Speaker 1: struggle with it because we're faithless, those of us who 133 00:08:08,080 --> 00:08:10,880 Speaker 1: are Christians. I think a lot of us stop hoping 134 00:08:11,320 --> 00:08:17,120 Speaker 1: because we're tired. We are tired, we're exhausted. We're exhausted 135 00:08:17,160 --> 00:08:20,200 Speaker 1: from the let down, we're exhausted from the lemons hitting 136 00:08:20,280 --> 00:08:23,440 Speaker 1: us again. Great, another bruise that I need to treat. 137 00:08:24,720 --> 00:08:28,520 Speaker 1: Maybe we stopped hoping because disappointment trained you to lower 138 00:08:28,560 --> 00:08:32,600 Speaker 1: your expectations. Maybe you stopped hoping because it felt safer 139 00:08:32,640 --> 00:08:37,280 Speaker 1: to expect nothing than to just hope for something anything. 140 00:08:38,320 --> 00:08:41,800 Speaker 1: But this is what I've learned. It's we don't stop 141 00:08:41,840 --> 00:08:46,160 Speaker 1: hoping because we don't care. We often stop hoping because 142 00:08:46,200 --> 00:08:50,440 Speaker 1: we do care. We've cared so much and Because of that, 143 00:08:50,480 --> 00:08:54,480 Speaker 1: the loss feels greater, the disappointment feels greater, the pain 144 00:08:54,600 --> 00:08:57,560 Speaker 1: feels greater. We care so much that we do not 145 00:08:57,679 --> 00:09:00,920 Speaker 1: want to experience that level of pain again, so we 146 00:09:01,000 --> 00:09:02,800 Speaker 1: say things like, well, I don't want to get my 147 00:09:02,840 --> 00:09:06,400 Speaker 1: hopes up, I'm just trying to be realistic. I don't 148 00:09:06,400 --> 00:09:11,440 Speaker 1: want to be disappointed. But what we're really communicating in 149 00:09:11,520 --> 00:09:13,839 Speaker 1: saying those things is I don't know if I can 150 00:09:13,920 --> 00:09:17,560 Speaker 1: survive another heartbreak. I don't know if I can survive 151 00:09:17,960 --> 00:09:22,200 Speaker 1: another letdown like I did last season or my whole life. 152 00:09:23,320 --> 00:09:26,960 Speaker 1: And that's not weakness, like that's human. That's human to 153 00:09:27,000 --> 00:09:29,079 Speaker 1: feel like that. I get that I felt like that. 154 00:09:29,120 --> 00:09:30,560 Speaker 1: Why do you think I wrote a book on it? 155 00:09:31,720 --> 00:09:35,360 Speaker 1: The Bible never shames that either. This is what Psalm's 156 00:09:35,400 --> 00:09:38,800 Speaker 1: thirty four eighteen says. It says the Lord is close 157 00:09:39,280 --> 00:09:42,680 Speaker 1: to the broken hearted and saves those who are crushed 158 00:09:42,800 --> 00:09:45,920 Speaker 1: in spirit, not the people who have it all together 159 00:09:46,280 --> 00:09:50,680 Speaker 1: or who never struggle or always feel hopeful. The broken hearted. 160 00:09:51,120 --> 00:09:54,920 Speaker 1: The Lord came and is close to those people. So 161 00:09:55,240 --> 00:10:00,000 Speaker 1: if hope feels risky for you today, it's probably because 162 00:10:00,040 --> 00:10:03,720 Speaker 1: you've been wounded. I've been there. But here's where things 163 00:10:03,800 --> 00:10:09,920 Speaker 1: get interesting. Biblical hope. Biblical hope is what makes this 164 00:10:10,000 --> 00:10:13,400 Speaker 1: conversation different because I think there's an expectation of what 165 00:10:13,679 --> 00:10:16,200 Speaker 1: hope is or a definition of what hope is in 166 00:10:16,240 --> 00:10:21,440 Speaker 1: the world, but there's a completely different explanation definition for 167 00:10:21,520 --> 00:10:23,760 Speaker 1: what hope is biblically, and I'll get to that in 168 00:10:23,760 --> 00:10:26,960 Speaker 1: a second. I think one of the biggest reasons people 169 00:10:27,000 --> 00:10:30,319 Speaker 1: struggle with hope is because we have misunderstood what it is. 170 00:10:30,760 --> 00:10:36,240 Speaker 1: We've been taught that hope is a feeling. I feel hopeful. 171 00:10:37,240 --> 00:10:40,800 Speaker 1: That if you're hopeful, then you're optimistic, you feel light, 172 00:10:40,920 --> 00:10:45,000 Speaker 1: you feel positive, you feel encouraged. But that is not 173 00:10:45,160 --> 00:10:51,000 Speaker 1: the essence of what biblical hope is. Like that definition 174 00:10:51,320 --> 00:10:56,079 Speaker 1: or lack thereof, is a mood based optimism, and Biblical 175 00:10:56,120 --> 00:10:58,559 Speaker 1: hope is not a mood. It's not a vibe. It's 176 00:10:58,600 --> 00:11:00,800 Speaker 1: not a personality trait that some people have and some 177 00:11:00,840 --> 00:11:04,320 Speaker 1: people don't have. No Biblical hope. First of all, it's 178 00:11:04,320 --> 00:11:09,240 Speaker 1: a choice. It's a choice to hope. Biblical hope, in 179 00:11:09,320 --> 00:11:14,480 Speaker 1: many situations is also defiant to what our circumstances speak. 180 00:11:15,600 --> 00:11:20,240 Speaker 1: Biblical hope looks like, hey, I understand the reality of 181 00:11:20,280 --> 00:11:24,440 Speaker 1: what's going on. But I also understand the reality of 182 00:11:24,520 --> 00:11:31,360 Speaker 1: who my God is, and I have confident conviction of that. 183 00:11:31,360 --> 00:11:34,960 Speaker 1: That is where my hope comes from. It's confident conviction 184 00:11:35,240 --> 00:11:38,040 Speaker 1: in the truth of who our God is and what 185 00:11:38,200 --> 00:11:45,160 Speaker 1: he has said, not a feeling truth. Truth. The cornerstone 186 00:11:45,200 --> 00:11:48,640 Speaker 1: Bible verse of my book, the Fabric of Hope comes 187 00:11:48,640 --> 00:11:52,400 Speaker 1: from Romans fifteen thirteen, And I love this Bible verse. 188 00:11:52,720 --> 00:11:56,720 Speaker 1: I love it like if you guys, could just spend 189 00:11:57,679 --> 00:11:59,720 Speaker 1: the next few months as you wait for this book 190 00:11:59,760 --> 00:12:05,000 Speaker 1: to your doorstep, just meditating on this verse alone. Oh 191 00:12:05,040 --> 00:12:08,880 Speaker 1: my gosh. Romans fifteen thirteen says, may the God of 192 00:12:09,040 --> 00:12:12,400 Speaker 1: Hope fill you with all joy and peace as you 193 00:12:12,520 --> 00:12:16,240 Speaker 1: trust in Him, so that you may overflow with hope 194 00:12:16,480 --> 00:12:19,960 Speaker 1: by the power of the Holy Spirit. I love that. 195 00:12:20,040 --> 00:12:22,000 Speaker 1: Let me read it one more time. May the God 196 00:12:22,040 --> 00:12:25,920 Speaker 1: of Hope fill you with all joy and peace as 197 00:12:25,960 --> 00:12:30,080 Speaker 1: you trust in Him, so that you may overflow with 198 00:12:30,160 --> 00:12:35,120 Speaker 1: hope by the power of the Holy Spirit. Notice something here, 199 00:12:35,480 --> 00:12:39,599 Speaker 1: Hope does not come from your circumstance. Hope comes from God. 200 00:12:40,440 --> 00:12:43,800 Speaker 1: It is we are empowered to hope by the Holy Spirit. 201 00:12:43,840 --> 00:12:45,920 Speaker 1: But it's also a choice in which we have to 202 00:12:46,040 --> 00:12:50,040 Speaker 1: trust in the God of Hope. That's where our joy 203 00:12:50,040 --> 00:12:53,640 Speaker 1: comes from. That's where our peace comes from. Hope is multiplied, 204 00:12:53,679 --> 00:12:58,600 Speaker 1: it overflows within us, and it comes as you trust him. 205 00:12:58,760 --> 00:13:02,960 Speaker 1: Not after everything it's fixed, or everything makes sense, or 206 00:13:03,280 --> 00:13:06,000 Speaker 1: or all your pain is gone, or life is finally 207 00:13:06,040 --> 00:13:09,080 Speaker 1: going good. No, you choose to hope in the middle 208 00:13:09,120 --> 00:13:12,120 Speaker 1: of the storm, in the middle of the season, in 209 00:13:12,160 --> 00:13:15,439 Speaker 1: the middle of the grief, in the middle of the heartbreak, 210 00:13:15,720 --> 00:13:18,160 Speaker 1: in the middle of the loss, in the middle of 211 00:13:18,160 --> 00:13:20,920 Speaker 1: the trial, in the middle of the valley at the 212 00:13:21,000 --> 00:13:26,240 Speaker 1: bottom of the pit. We trust God in that place, 213 00:13:26,360 --> 00:13:30,080 Speaker 1: not outside of that place or beyond that place. We 214 00:13:30,160 --> 00:13:34,079 Speaker 1: trust Him in that place. Like I said, hope, it's 215 00:13:34,080 --> 00:13:37,480 Speaker 1: not a feeling, it's a fight. It is something that 216 00:13:37,520 --> 00:13:40,360 Speaker 1: we have to choose. It is a posture that we 217 00:13:40,440 --> 00:13:43,600 Speaker 1: have to take on, a position that we must stand 218 00:13:43,679 --> 00:13:47,800 Speaker 1: firmly in. It's choosing to believe God is who he 219 00:13:47,880 --> 00:13:51,679 Speaker 1: says he is when your life looks like nothing you expected. 220 00:13:52,720 --> 00:13:54,640 Speaker 1: There's another verse that I love that I talk about 221 00:13:54,640 --> 00:13:57,760 Speaker 1: in the book, and it comes from Hebrews six nineteen, 222 00:13:58,160 --> 00:14:01,960 Speaker 1: and it says, we have this hope as an anchor 223 00:14:02,000 --> 00:14:07,680 Speaker 1: for the soul, firm and secure. Think about an anchor. Okay, 224 00:14:08,679 --> 00:14:12,280 Speaker 1: what is the purpose of an anchor. It's not just 225 00:14:12,360 --> 00:14:16,880 Speaker 1: a cute accessory on a boat, all right. An anchor 226 00:14:17,240 --> 00:14:21,400 Speaker 1: does not exist for the calm water. An anchor exists 227 00:14:21,440 --> 00:14:25,680 Speaker 1: for the storm. That is what hope is for. We 228 00:14:25,760 --> 00:14:28,200 Speaker 1: need to hope in the middle of the storm. We 229 00:14:28,280 --> 00:14:31,880 Speaker 1: need to hope in all seasons and circumstances, but especially 230 00:14:31,920 --> 00:14:37,040 Speaker 1: those places where we are in tumultuous waters. We need hope. 231 00:14:37,680 --> 00:14:42,000 Speaker 1: We need hope, and hope is available to us in Christ. 232 00:14:42,720 --> 00:14:44,760 Speaker 1: If hope we're just a feeling, God would not call 233 00:14:44,800 --> 00:14:50,480 Speaker 1: it an anchor. Hope is a fight because despair is loud. 234 00:14:51,200 --> 00:14:54,440 Speaker 1: It's loud. Cynicism is loud. Maybe you feel like you 235 00:14:54,480 --> 00:14:57,520 Speaker 1: have just fallen into this cynical place when it comes 236 00:14:57,520 --> 00:15:00,880 Speaker 1: to your faith or your belief in God God, if 237 00:15:00,920 --> 00:15:05,360 Speaker 1: you're being completely honest, the disappointment can be loud. The 238 00:15:05,400 --> 00:15:10,240 Speaker 1: fear can be loud. The anxiety, the trauma, the depression, 239 00:15:11,040 --> 00:15:15,280 Speaker 1: the doubt, and all of those feelings will try to 240 00:15:15,440 --> 00:15:18,560 Speaker 1: write the end of your story. They'll say, this is 241 00:15:18,600 --> 00:15:22,000 Speaker 1: all that there is to your life. God forgot you. 242 00:15:22,480 --> 00:15:25,920 Speaker 1: Nothing's going to change. You should have known better. You 243 00:15:25,960 --> 00:15:31,280 Speaker 1: were stupid to believe. Here's the thing. Hope doesn't mean 244 00:15:31,280 --> 00:15:34,880 Speaker 1: that you won't hear the taunting voice of the enemy 245 00:15:34,920 --> 00:15:38,880 Speaker 1: in that way. But what hope does mean is that 246 00:15:38,960 --> 00:15:42,680 Speaker 1: you do not have to let them or that declear 247 00:15:42,760 --> 00:15:46,760 Speaker 1: the final word over your life, over the season that 248 00:15:46,800 --> 00:15:49,880 Speaker 1: you're in, over the storm that you are going through. 249 00:15:50,840 --> 00:15:55,840 Speaker 1: Hope can define your story. Jesus Christ, the one who 250 00:15:55,960 --> 00:16:00,680 Speaker 1: founded and perfects our faith, are redeemer who live. He 251 00:16:00,960 --> 00:16:06,200 Speaker 1: is the one who is actively continuously repurposing and writing 252 00:16:06,600 --> 00:16:11,640 Speaker 1: your story. If it hasn't been redeemed yet, God's still 253 00:16:11,720 --> 00:16:15,600 Speaker 1: working out on it. He still has time and space 254 00:16:15,960 --> 00:16:20,200 Speaker 1: to move within that place in your life. But hope 255 00:16:20,480 --> 00:16:23,480 Speaker 1: is the thing that we have to cling to, and 256 00:16:23,520 --> 00:16:26,800 Speaker 1: we have to trust in God in order to open 257 00:16:26,920 --> 00:16:31,360 Speaker 1: up ourselves that we can let him in and begin 258 00:16:31,840 --> 00:16:35,560 Speaker 1: to start writing that story, writing that ending, working on 259 00:16:35,640 --> 00:16:38,640 Speaker 1: the chapter that we closed on our life and said 260 00:16:39,080 --> 00:16:42,720 Speaker 1: nothing good could come from this. We have to be 261 00:16:42,800 --> 00:16:47,320 Speaker 1: willing to hope and believe despite what feelings or voices, 262 00:16:47,400 --> 00:16:51,240 Speaker 1: or outside influences or the enemy tries to tell us. 263 00:16:52,480 --> 00:16:54,280 Speaker 1: This is why I wrote the fabric of hope. Really, 264 00:16:54,520 --> 00:16:59,040 Speaker 1: it's not because I have everything figured out. It's not 265 00:16:59,080 --> 00:17:02,880 Speaker 1: because I never struggled. I have absolutely struggled. That is 266 00:17:02,880 --> 00:17:07,000 Speaker 1: where this book came from. Like this book was written 267 00:17:07,040 --> 00:17:11,560 Speaker 1: on the struggle bus as I was driving it. I 268 00:17:11,600 --> 00:17:15,240 Speaker 1: haven't written this book because I've mastered all of these things. 269 00:17:15,320 --> 00:17:19,240 Speaker 1: I wrote this because I have lived in seasons where 270 00:17:19,240 --> 00:17:26,680 Speaker 1: it felt impossible to hope yet God, but God. Because 271 00:17:26,760 --> 00:17:31,800 Speaker 1: of God, I was able to actually endure and last 272 00:17:31,880 --> 00:17:36,040 Speaker 1: and come out the other side with hope, with seeing 273 00:17:36,119 --> 00:17:39,280 Speaker 1: His redemption, not always in the way I expected, but 274 00:17:39,480 --> 00:17:43,719 Speaker 1: always in the way that I needed. That was better, 275 00:17:43,840 --> 00:17:49,879 Speaker 1: That was best, That developed my character, That grew me 276 00:17:50,000 --> 00:17:54,000 Speaker 1: in my intimacy and love and knowledge of God. That 277 00:17:54,119 --> 00:17:57,479 Speaker 1: made me more empathetic for people, That made me a 278 00:17:57,520 --> 00:18:01,920 Speaker 1: greater catalyst for the kingdom. God worked it all out 279 00:18:01,960 --> 00:18:06,760 Speaker 1: for good, all of it. Everything I've done wrong, everything 280 00:18:06,960 --> 00:18:09,600 Speaker 1: that was wrong that was done to me, He worked 281 00:18:09,600 --> 00:18:13,919 Speaker 1: it all out for good. I know God is a redeemer. 282 00:18:14,400 --> 00:18:17,879 Speaker 1: I have hope, and I know that seasons will come 283 00:18:18,000 --> 00:18:22,560 Speaker 1: where more storms are gonna be faced, more trials, more traumas. 284 00:18:23,200 --> 00:18:28,560 Speaker 1: That's life, life's lemons. But I know that God is 285 00:18:28,640 --> 00:18:31,560 Speaker 1: good and he has been good, so he will continue 286 00:18:31,560 --> 00:18:38,640 Speaker 1: to be good, he's unchanging. We need something stronger then 287 00:18:39,040 --> 00:18:42,400 Speaker 1: you know everything happens for a reason, or God won't 288 00:18:42,400 --> 00:18:44,000 Speaker 1: give you more than you can handle, or just be 289 00:18:44,040 --> 00:18:47,840 Speaker 1: positive or have more faith. Trust me. I've tried all 290 00:18:47,880 --> 00:18:50,720 Speaker 1: those things. I've clung to all those things. But at 291 00:18:50,760 --> 00:18:52,520 Speaker 1: the end of the day, it was hope in Jesus 292 00:18:52,520 --> 00:18:58,040 Speaker 1: that actually kept me steady and secure, His strength, his supply, 293 00:18:58,680 --> 00:19:02,640 Speaker 1: the fruits of His spirit, lovejoy, peace, patience, kind of goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, 294 00:19:02,640 --> 00:19:07,160 Speaker 1: self controls that didn't come from me. That came from 295 00:19:07,200 --> 00:19:10,720 Speaker 1: my abiding, my opening myself up to actually daring to 296 00:19:10,840 --> 00:19:15,920 Speaker 1: hope again and trust in who God is, his character, 297 00:19:16,400 --> 00:19:22,320 Speaker 1: not my circumstance. I needed a hope that could survive disappointment, 298 00:19:22,359 --> 00:19:26,280 Speaker 1: that was bigger than my own manufacturing and striving and 299 00:19:26,400 --> 00:19:30,280 Speaker 1: strength the little that I had. I wrote this book 300 00:19:30,440 --> 00:19:34,000 Speaker 1: for the person who still believes in God but doesn't 301 00:19:34,080 --> 00:19:37,199 Speaker 1: know how to trust him like they used to. I 302 00:19:37,240 --> 00:19:40,600 Speaker 1: wrote this book for the person who's tired of pretending 303 00:19:41,359 --> 00:19:44,720 Speaker 1: like everything is okay. I wrote this book for the 304 00:19:44,720 --> 00:19:47,399 Speaker 1: person who wants to hope again, but maybe you just 305 00:19:47,520 --> 00:19:52,480 Speaker 1: don't know what that even looks like. This book doesn't 306 00:19:52,920 --> 00:19:56,400 Speaker 1: rush you in your healing. It doesn't minimize your pain, 307 00:19:56,480 --> 00:19:59,800 Speaker 1: and it doesn't shame your questions either. The purpose of 308 00:19:59,800 --> 00:20:02,239 Speaker 1: the this book is to walk alongside you in the 309 00:20:02,359 --> 00:20:06,360 Speaker 1: valley and point you to the empowering truth of our 310 00:20:06,520 --> 00:20:13,199 Speaker 1: savior and redeemer, Christ Jesus. I wrote this book because 311 00:20:13,800 --> 00:20:17,199 Speaker 1: there were countless seasons of my life where I needed 312 00:20:17,200 --> 00:20:19,600 Speaker 1: to hear these words, and I kind of had to 313 00:20:19,760 --> 00:20:24,080 Speaker 1: figure it out through reading scripture and going through really 314 00:20:24,200 --> 00:20:27,080 Speaker 1: long dark nights where I felt like I was alone 315 00:20:27,080 --> 00:20:29,639 Speaker 1: and I cried out to God and He gave me 316 00:20:29,680 --> 00:20:34,040 Speaker 1: what I needed in those moments. But I'm hoping that 317 00:20:34,119 --> 00:20:37,840 Speaker 1: this book serves as further encouragement. And just like you 318 00:20:37,840 --> 00:20:39,680 Speaker 1: know in gymnastics, how you can like run and you 319 00:20:39,840 --> 00:20:41,720 Speaker 1: go off the springboard and you do a flip, I'm 320 00:20:41,720 --> 00:20:45,960 Speaker 1: hoping this is a springboard that just catapults you into 321 00:20:46,000 --> 00:20:49,440 Speaker 1: a place of a freedom in your life and redemption 322 00:20:50,040 --> 00:20:52,639 Speaker 1: in those areas that you thought God could could never 323 00:20:53,359 --> 00:20:57,200 Speaker 1: touch and bring good in that area. I used to 324 00:20:57,240 --> 00:21:00,360 Speaker 1: think that hope was something that like you either had 325 00:21:00,440 --> 00:21:04,080 Speaker 1: or you didn't, almost like a personality trait, like, oh, 326 00:21:04,160 --> 00:21:06,520 Speaker 1: that person is just like naturally hopeful. And I'm just 327 00:21:06,640 --> 00:21:10,439 Speaker 1: always a pessimist, right, But that's not true. Hope is 328 00:21:10,480 --> 00:21:15,440 Speaker 1: something that you build. Hope is something that God forms 329 00:21:15,840 --> 00:21:18,679 Speaker 1: within you. And for a long time I didn't know 330 00:21:18,720 --> 00:21:22,520 Speaker 1: how to do that. I had a couple people discipling me, 331 00:21:22,680 --> 00:21:24,600 Speaker 1: but really a lot of my faith walk was just 332 00:21:24,640 --> 00:21:28,080 Speaker 1: me navigating it with God alone, like it was just 333 00:21:28,240 --> 00:21:33,000 Speaker 1: the two of us. Really. I thought that if God 334 00:21:33,160 --> 00:21:35,840 Speaker 1: was good, well, then shouldn't life make sense? Like this 335 00:21:35,880 --> 00:21:39,359 Speaker 1: was my theology growing up. If God is so good, 336 00:21:39,480 --> 00:21:43,280 Speaker 1: then life should make sense. If God is present, then 337 00:21:43,280 --> 00:21:46,480 Speaker 1: my pain should be minimal. If I trust in God, 338 00:21:46,520 --> 00:21:49,359 Speaker 1: then things should go the way that I planned. But 339 00:21:49,440 --> 00:21:54,600 Speaker 1: here's the thing. They didn't. And I didn't just lose peace, 340 00:21:54,840 --> 00:21:57,560 Speaker 1: joy and faith. I lost a lot of trust in 341 00:21:57,600 --> 00:22:00,880 Speaker 1: God when my dad died, when my parents got divorced, 342 00:22:00,880 --> 00:22:04,359 Speaker 1: from when my parents were both going through addiction, like 343 00:22:05,280 --> 00:22:09,840 Speaker 1: when I went through seasons where people, friends, men betrayed 344 00:22:09,880 --> 00:22:13,240 Speaker 1: trust boundaries and I was like, God, where are you? 345 00:22:13,480 --> 00:22:17,880 Speaker 1: I mean, even continuously going through so many health issues, 346 00:22:17,920 --> 00:22:21,160 Speaker 1: like chronic health issues where nobody can give me a diagnosis, 347 00:22:21,240 --> 00:22:26,359 Speaker 1: It's like God, what is going on? How do I 348 00:22:26,480 --> 00:22:28,880 Speaker 1: keep clinging on to hope when it's just one thing 349 00:22:29,080 --> 00:22:33,240 Speaker 1: after the next, like, will you give me rest and relief? 350 00:22:34,880 --> 00:22:36,880 Speaker 1: You know, I'll give you a spoiler alert. He did, 351 00:22:37,040 --> 00:22:39,800 Speaker 1: and he does. But I know some of you know 352 00:22:39,920 --> 00:22:43,000 Speaker 1: exactly what I mean. I know exactly how I feel. 353 00:22:43,560 --> 00:22:46,679 Speaker 1: You didn't just lose the thing. You lost your confidence 354 00:22:47,000 --> 00:22:52,080 Speaker 1: in God's goodness, You lost your sense of safety, you 355 00:22:52,160 --> 00:22:55,879 Speaker 1: lost your sense of emotional footing. And no one is 356 00:22:55,960 --> 00:22:58,359 Speaker 1: really talking about that part. They kind of just slap 357 00:22:58,440 --> 00:23:02,160 Speaker 1: on a God is good and sticker and it's like, yeah, 358 00:23:02,200 --> 00:23:04,520 Speaker 1: he is good, But I'm also going through these things. 359 00:23:04,920 --> 00:23:07,720 Speaker 1: How do I How do I make sense of a 360 00:23:07,760 --> 00:23:10,320 Speaker 1: good and loving God and a broken world and hold 361 00:23:10,359 --> 00:23:13,760 Speaker 1: that tension and still have hope? That's what this book 362 00:23:13,800 --> 00:23:20,119 Speaker 1: is about. Trust is hard after disappointment, betrayal and unanswered prayers. 363 00:23:20,200 --> 00:23:23,280 Speaker 1: Trust is hard when you begged God for something and 364 00:23:23,320 --> 00:23:30,639 Speaker 1: the answer was no. But hope, real, unshakable hope helps 365 00:23:30,720 --> 00:23:35,920 Speaker 1: us build trust again with God and see things from 366 00:23:35,960 --> 00:23:41,080 Speaker 1: his perspective. Could we get answers yes? Will we always 367 00:23:41,080 --> 00:23:44,600 Speaker 1: get answers? No? But the one thing that I'm certain 368 00:23:44,680 --> 00:23:49,760 Speaker 1: of that Hope does teach us is is who who 369 00:23:49,800 --> 00:23:54,280 Speaker 1: to trust in and why to trust in him? Hope 370 00:23:54,280 --> 00:23:58,080 Speaker 1: doesn't erase your pain. It gives you permission to believe 371 00:23:58,119 --> 00:24:01,520 Speaker 1: that your pain is not the end end. And I 372 00:24:01,560 --> 00:24:05,680 Speaker 1: love what Romans eight eighteen says. It says, I consider 373 00:24:06,000 --> 00:24:09,400 Speaker 1: that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the 374 00:24:09,440 --> 00:24:13,840 Speaker 1: glory that will be revealed in us. That doesn't mean 375 00:24:13,840 --> 00:24:17,040 Speaker 1: that suffering doesn't hurt. It does. What it means is 376 00:24:17,040 --> 00:24:21,280 Speaker 1: that suffering is not final. It's not final. That doesn't 377 00:24:21,280 --> 00:24:24,880 Speaker 1: have to define your life and be your whole life. 378 00:24:25,000 --> 00:24:27,840 Speaker 1: Hope doesn't tell you get over it. It tells you 379 00:24:28,400 --> 00:24:33,040 Speaker 1: this is not the end to your story. Hope doesn't 380 00:24:33,119 --> 00:24:37,679 Speaker 1: rush you. It roots you in what is true and 381 00:24:37,720 --> 00:24:41,639 Speaker 1: what is true. Psalm sixty six ten through twelve says 382 00:24:41,880 --> 00:24:45,399 Speaker 1: for you, God tested us, You refined us like silver. 383 00:24:46,119 --> 00:24:49,320 Speaker 1: You brought us into prison and laid burdens on our backs. 384 00:24:49,320 --> 00:24:52,160 Speaker 1: You let people ride over our heads. We went through 385 00:24:52,240 --> 00:24:56,959 Speaker 1: fire and water, but you brought us to a place 386 00:24:57,440 --> 00:25:02,520 Speaker 1: of abundance. God's redemption. That's the whole meta narrative of 387 00:25:02,560 --> 00:25:07,440 Speaker 1: the Bible. God is our redeemer. He doesn't waste seasons, 388 00:25:07,520 --> 00:25:11,320 Speaker 1: not even the painful ones. Nothing is a waste. Your 389 00:25:11,320 --> 00:25:15,720 Speaker 1: wounds are not wasted when they are handed over, yielded over, 390 00:25:15,840 --> 00:25:21,640 Speaker 1: and trusted to God to bind up. God doesn't waste 391 00:25:21,680 --> 00:25:24,480 Speaker 1: the painful seasons, the confusing seasons, the ones that feel 392 00:25:24,520 --> 00:25:27,960 Speaker 1: absolutely pointless. That doesn't mean that the pain was good. 393 00:25:28,240 --> 00:25:32,320 Speaker 1: It just means that God is greater. God is greater. 394 00:25:33,440 --> 00:25:36,479 Speaker 1: I didn't write this book to tell you, you know, everything's fine, 395 00:25:36,680 --> 00:25:40,639 Speaker 1: like just diminish your pain, ignore everything's okay. I wrote 396 00:25:40,680 --> 00:25:44,240 Speaker 1: this book to tell you that God is still with you, 397 00:25:44,680 --> 00:25:47,919 Speaker 1: and he is a redeemer who lives, a redeemer for 398 00:25:48,000 --> 00:25:52,879 Speaker 1: both our sins and shame. Yes, but even our sorrows 399 00:25:52,920 --> 00:25:56,920 Speaker 1: and suffering. My first book mainly focuses on God's redemption 400 00:25:57,320 --> 00:26:00,520 Speaker 1: as when it comes to our sin and shame. But 401 00:26:00,600 --> 00:26:03,040 Speaker 1: this second book is really about God being our redeemer 402 00:26:03,080 --> 00:26:06,159 Speaker 1: when it comes to our sorrows and our suffering. And 403 00:26:06,200 --> 00:26:08,879 Speaker 1: I think that's the best good news, Like all of 404 00:26:08,920 --> 00:26:11,280 Speaker 1: that is the best good news that we could receive. 405 00:26:12,600 --> 00:26:15,760 Speaker 1: I wrote this book for the person that's exhausted at 406 00:26:15,760 --> 00:26:18,119 Speaker 1: trying to hold it all together. That was me growing 407 00:26:18,200 --> 00:26:21,719 Speaker 1: up the perfect poster child, where it was like my 408 00:26:21,800 --> 00:26:27,359 Speaker 1: dysfunctional family was consistently falling apart, and I felt like 409 00:26:27,400 --> 00:26:31,200 Speaker 1: I had to have it all together, and all my energy, 410 00:26:31,400 --> 00:26:34,480 Speaker 1: any ounce of strength, went to that. And when it 411 00:26:34,520 --> 00:26:37,840 Speaker 1: came to me, it was like, what is left for Kirby. 412 00:26:39,520 --> 00:26:42,280 Speaker 1: I'm being everything for everyone. I'm trying to hold everything 413 00:26:42,320 --> 00:26:46,760 Speaker 1: all together. And God, in his kindness showed me, Kirby, 414 00:26:46,840 --> 00:26:50,480 Speaker 1: you don't have to have it all together. You can 415 00:26:50,600 --> 00:26:54,439 Speaker 1: actually trust me and put your hope in me, not 416 00:26:54,600 --> 00:26:58,240 Speaker 1: in those people who broke you, not in these systems 417 00:26:58,280 --> 00:27:02,520 Speaker 1: that failed you, in these places and things that have 418 00:27:02,680 --> 00:27:08,200 Speaker 1: disappointed you. Put your hope in me. And I really 419 00:27:08,240 --> 00:27:11,639 Speaker 1: had to learn and unlearn many things to get to 420 00:27:11,680 --> 00:27:14,320 Speaker 1: that point where I not only learned how to trust 421 00:27:14,400 --> 00:27:16,720 Speaker 1: in God, but I got to a place where He 422 00:27:16,840 --> 00:27:19,560 Speaker 1: changed me, and that ended up changing so much of 423 00:27:19,560 --> 00:27:23,040 Speaker 1: my situation. God changed a lot of my situation and 424 00:27:23,080 --> 00:27:26,000 Speaker 1: circumstance to don't get me wrong, he did a lot, 425 00:27:26,880 --> 00:27:29,640 Speaker 1: but He did a lot in me as well. That 426 00:27:29,680 --> 00:27:33,439 Speaker 1: completely gave me a renewed mind and outlook on the 427 00:27:33,520 --> 00:27:36,680 Speaker 1: people in my life, the things that I went through, 428 00:27:36,720 --> 00:27:42,240 Speaker 1: the hurt that I had to go through, unfortunately, and 429 00:27:42,280 --> 00:27:46,479 Speaker 1: He redeemed it all. So, yeah, if you're exhausted from 430 00:27:46,560 --> 00:27:49,280 Speaker 1: trying to hold it all together or if you're tired 431 00:27:49,359 --> 00:27:52,720 Speaker 1: of trying to pretend to be strong, if you don't 432 00:27:52,720 --> 00:27:57,480 Speaker 1: want to hear another Christian cliche, as you're actually seeking 433 00:27:57,520 --> 00:28:01,719 Speaker 1: out prayer and counsel and you want real advice and encouragement. 434 00:28:02,880 --> 00:28:05,240 Speaker 1: That's what this book is about. It's not about pretending 435 00:28:05,280 --> 00:28:09,439 Speaker 1: life is pretty. It's about believing that God really is present, 436 00:28:10,000 --> 00:28:13,040 Speaker 1: He's working, and how you can begin to see that 437 00:28:13,119 --> 00:28:17,040 Speaker 1: in your life. Psalm one twenty six five says those 438 00:28:17,080 --> 00:28:24,240 Speaker 1: who sow with tears, Oh, I love this verse. Those 439 00:28:24,280 --> 00:28:30,120 Speaker 1: who sow with tears will reap with songs of joy. 440 00:28:30,200 --> 00:28:33,200 Speaker 1: If there's another scripture that talks about how God keeps 441 00:28:33,200 --> 00:28:36,879 Speaker 1: our tears in a bottle, he stores them. And I 442 00:28:36,920 --> 00:28:39,160 Speaker 1: feel like the tears that I've cried in my life 443 00:28:40,000 --> 00:28:44,680 Speaker 1: could amount to an ocean. But doesn't that just mean 444 00:28:44,720 --> 00:28:47,600 Speaker 1: that when I give it to the Lord and I 445 00:28:47,680 --> 00:28:50,880 Speaker 1: pour it out on his feet as an offering, as 446 00:28:50,920 --> 00:28:57,080 Speaker 1: a sacrifice of trust, lament, praise all the things, the 447 00:28:57,560 --> 00:28:59,960 Speaker 1: tears that I've cried that I have amounted to an ocean. 448 00:29:00,960 --> 00:29:03,960 Speaker 1: I can't even begin to imagine the fruit of joy, 449 00:29:04,040 --> 00:29:07,880 Speaker 1: the abundance of joy that is going to grow out 450 00:29:07,920 --> 00:29:10,800 Speaker 1: of that I've already begun to experience that fruit in 451 00:29:10,880 --> 00:29:15,560 Speaker 1: my life. I know I will continue to because I 452 00:29:15,600 --> 00:29:19,840 Speaker 1: already have. I have that hope, and I want you 453 00:29:19,920 --> 00:29:22,960 Speaker 1: to have that hope too. This verse doesn't say those 454 00:29:23,000 --> 00:29:26,440 Speaker 1: who sow with perfection and performance and trying to get 455 00:29:26,480 --> 00:29:28,600 Speaker 1: it all together and trying to keep their life from 456 00:29:28,640 --> 00:29:34,000 Speaker 1: falling apart. No, the person who cries, tears and is 457 00:29:34,040 --> 00:29:38,200 Speaker 1: in need of hope and joy and God's peace and intervention. 458 00:29:39,240 --> 00:29:41,840 Speaker 1: That's what this verse is about, and that's what this 459 00:29:41,880 --> 00:29:47,160 Speaker 1: book is about. Pre Ordering this book it means a 460 00:29:47,200 --> 00:29:50,160 Speaker 1: lot to me, more than I can explain. I mean, 461 00:29:50,200 --> 00:29:54,800 Speaker 1: it tells publishers that people need this message. It helps 462 00:29:54,840 --> 00:29:59,080 Speaker 1: get the book into bookstores. It reaches people who don't 463 00:29:59,080 --> 00:30:02,240 Speaker 1: even know how to articulate what they're feeling. And really 464 00:30:02,280 --> 00:30:05,360 Speaker 1: what I'm hoping for. I'm hoping every Christian will read this, 465 00:30:05,440 --> 00:30:08,160 Speaker 1: but I'm really hoping that even the non believers in 466 00:30:08,200 --> 00:30:10,520 Speaker 1: your life that you know will read this too and 467 00:30:10,760 --> 00:30:14,480 Speaker 1: actually be will actually begin to understand. Wow, God is 468 00:30:14,600 --> 00:30:20,080 Speaker 1: good and suffering is real, and I can reason the 469 00:30:20,200 --> 00:30:25,760 Speaker 1: existence of both being true. That life is unfair, but 470 00:30:25,840 --> 00:30:29,560 Speaker 1: God is fair. How do we begin to make sense 471 00:30:29,600 --> 00:30:35,800 Speaker 1: of that? Huge theological understanding, discussion, whatever you want to say, 472 00:30:37,520 --> 00:30:39,680 Speaker 1: that's what this book is about. That's who this book 473 00:30:39,760 --> 00:30:44,120 Speaker 1: is for. And I'm praying it just it impacts people. Really, 474 00:30:44,200 --> 00:30:47,160 Speaker 1: I poured my heart into this. I wrote this book 475 00:30:47,720 --> 00:30:51,200 Speaker 1: from a season of grief and lament with my mom dying, 476 00:30:52,080 --> 00:30:54,160 Speaker 1: So even as I was writing it, I was living 477 00:30:54,160 --> 00:30:57,280 Speaker 1: it out. And now with the book being out and 478 00:30:57,320 --> 00:31:01,120 Speaker 1: available for pre order, going through this season of you know, 479 00:31:01,240 --> 00:31:06,719 Speaker 1: becoming a mom while grieving my own, I'm crying many tears, 480 00:31:06,720 --> 00:31:11,320 Speaker 1: but I'm also reaping so much joy. I'm experiencing so 481 00:31:11,560 --> 00:31:14,560 Speaker 1: much hope and redemption in this season. And my daughter 482 00:31:14,600 --> 00:31:18,200 Speaker 1: isn't even here yet. And it's so funny because this book, 483 00:31:18,880 --> 00:31:21,160 Speaker 1: obviously I was working on it before I got pregnant. 484 00:31:21,840 --> 00:31:25,960 Speaker 1: The book comes out April seventh, beginning of April. My 485 00:31:26,120 --> 00:31:28,560 Speaker 1: daughter is due at the end of April. She might 486 00:31:28,880 --> 00:31:32,520 Speaker 1: come in May, who knows if she's like later or whatever. 487 00:31:33,440 --> 00:31:37,520 Speaker 1: But I just think it's really funny how like two 488 00:31:38,080 --> 00:31:42,840 Speaker 1: labors of love that are completely stitched together by God 489 00:31:43,600 --> 00:31:46,040 Speaker 1: and topped off with the most beautiful bow of hope 490 00:31:46,720 --> 00:31:50,960 Speaker 1: are coming in the same month. I just see God's 491 00:31:51,360 --> 00:31:57,040 Speaker 1: hand in everything in this season and in every season, 492 00:31:58,520 --> 00:32:01,360 Speaker 1: but I especially do in this So this book is 493 00:32:02,160 --> 00:32:07,360 Speaker 1: extra special because not only of what God did, but 494 00:32:07,480 --> 00:32:11,680 Speaker 1: what He is doing right now. I feel like the life, 495 00:32:12,200 --> 00:32:16,520 Speaker 1: the season I'm in right now is like the missing chapter, 496 00:32:16,680 --> 00:32:21,440 Speaker 1: the unwritten chapter to this book that I'm currently living out, 497 00:32:21,800 --> 00:32:28,400 Speaker 1: and I'm excited just to see what God does in everything. Obviously, 498 00:32:28,440 --> 00:32:30,720 Speaker 1: I can't go on a huge speaking tour or anything 499 00:32:30,760 --> 00:32:34,200 Speaker 1: because I'm literally gonna be a balloon, Like I'm gonna 500 00:32:34,200 --> 00:32:36,160 Speaker 1: be huge. I won't be able to get in a 501 00:32:36,200 --> 00:32:40,120 Speaker 1: plane and travel and everything that I'm thankful for every 502 00:32:40,120 --> 00:32:42,560 Speaker 1: opportunity I've had so far to go and travel and 503 00:32:42,640 --> 00:32:46,560 Speaker 1: speak about it, every opportunity I've had to like go 504 00:32:46,600 --> 00:32:49,280 Speaker 1: on different podcasts and talk about it. If you have 505 00:32:49,360 --> 00:32:55,520 Speaker 1: a church or a podcast or anything. After my maternity leave, 506 00:32:55,560 --> 00:32:57,600 Speaker 1: I would love to even partner with you and your 507 00:32:57,640 --> 00:33:03,240 Speaker 1: ministries and come and share this message of hope to 508 00:33:03,680 --> 00:33:08,239 Speaker 1: your people, to your communities, to your friends. Let me know. 509 00:33:08,680 --> 00:33:11,160 Speaker 1: I'd love to reach out. I'd love to partner in 510 00:33:11,200 --> 00:33:14,960 Speaker 1: this message. But more importantly, I just I hope that 511 00:33:15,000 --> 00:33:18,400 Speaker 1: you get the book and that it blesses you. Because 512 00:33:18,440 --> 00:33:21,560 Speaker 1: as much as the book has blessed me. It's not 513 00:33:21,600 --> 00:33:23,560 Speaker 1: the book, it's the story I lived. It's the God 514 00:33:23,600 --> 00:33:26,960 Speaker 1: that I know that has blessed me with hope, real hope. 515 00:33:27,600 --> 00:33:31,120 Speaker 1: So yeah, I'll link everything down below if you want 516 00:33:31,160 --> 00:33:33,640 Speaker 1: to get it. If you do pre order it, which 517 00:33:33,680 --> 00:33:36,000 Speaker 1: I really encourage you to do, there's a bunch of 518 00:33:36,040 --> 00:33:38,920 Speaker 1: freebies on my website on the book landing page. You 519 00:33:38,960 --> 00:33:42,680 Speaker 1: can just go to my website Kirbydashkelly dot com. You'll 520 00:33:42,720 --> 00:33:45,400 Speaker 1: go to the book tab. It'll send you to where 521 00:33:45,400 --> 00:33:47,640 Speaker 1: it needs to send you, and you'll be able to 522 00:33:47,640 --> 00:33:51,320 Speaker 1: get access to the Prayer Journaling Guide, which is awesome. 523 00:33:51,480 --> 00:33:55,240 Speaker 1: It's like a thirteen day thing that you can read 524 00:33:55,280 --> 00:33:57,360 Speaker 1: the first few chapters of the book before you even 525 00:33:57,360 --> 00:33:58,840 Speaker 1: get the books, so you can get like a little 526 00:33:58,840 --> 00:34:02,240 Speaker 1: taste for what the whole book entails. And you'll get 527 00:34:02,240 --> 00:34:06,200 Speaker 1: my five day video devotional series where I'm answering some 528 00:34:06,240 --> 00:34:09,279 Speaker 1: of the hard questions when it comes to hope, suffering, 529 00:34:09,920 --> 00:34:12,239 Speaker 1: and just questions that we wrestle with when it comes 530 00:34:12,280 --> 00:34:15,520 Speaker 1: to why, God, why is this happening? How are you good? 531 00:34:15,880 --> 00:34:19,120 Speaker 1: When will it end? Like? What can you really do 532 00:34:19,320 --> 00:34:23,080 Speaker 1: with my life? So I'm hoping that it encourages you. 533 00:34:23,600 --> 00:34:26,880 Speaker 1: All those free resources do. But I love you, guys. 534 00:34:26,960 --> 00:34:29,840 Speaker 1: I'm excited for this season, and I'm excited for you 535 00:34:29,920 --> 00:34:32,440 Speaker 1: to get your copy of the Fabric of Hope. How 536 00:34:32,480 --> 00:34:36,040 Speaker 1: God weaves redemption into every season. I love you, guys, 537 00:34:36,280 --> 00:34:38,600 Speaker 1: and I will see you here next week with another episode. 538 00:34:38,600 --> 00:34:42,640 Speaker 1: But until then, get the book, and I love you. Bye. 539 00:34:44,480 --> 00:34:47,760 Speaker 1: For more life giving, faith based podcast just like this one, 540 00:34:47,880 --> 00:34:51,000 Speaker 1: check out lifeaudio dot com, a proud partner of the 541 00:34:51,320 --> 00:34:53,520 Speaker 1: beloved podcast