WEBVTT - 41 - Mary Laws (Monsterland)

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<v Speaker 1>From Kurt Coe media there's no place like.

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<v Speaker 2>Welcome to another special episode of Hollywood unscripted stuck at home.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm Jenny Curtis and today I'm virtually sitting down with

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<v Speaker 2>playwright screenwriter and showrunner Mary laws. She's written on AMC

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<v Speaker 2>is Preacher. HBO succession and created a new anthology series

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<v Speaker 2>on Hulu called Monster land.

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<v Speaker 3>Mary thank you so much for joining me. Hi. I

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<v Speaker 3>want to start at the beginning. So you grew up

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<v Speaker 3>in suburban Texas. Your parents were ministers. How did you

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<v Speaker 3>find your way to the arts.

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<v Speaker 4>Doesn't that answer your question. I grew up in Texas

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<v Speaker 4>and my parents are suburban Minister.

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<v Speaker 5>I grew up in a household where my mother read

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<v Speaker 5>to me all the time and there was a great

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<v Speaker 5>love of literature. And so from an early age she

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<v Speaker 5>took me to a lot of dance tons of ballet

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<v Speaker 5>when I was a kid. A lot of theater and

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<v Speaker 5>I just fell in love. I didn't fall in love

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<v Speaker 5>with movies. I fell in love with the theater I

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<v Speaker 5>fell in love with the live performance aspect of things

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<v Speaker 5>and so started doing theater as a kid. I just

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<v Speaker 5>watched 10 15 and there's a couple of episodes about

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<v Speaker 5>middle school theater that just made me absolutely weep because

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<v Speaker 5>those were my formative years. I couldn't make it in

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<v Speaker 5>my hometown theater troupe. I never got cast in anything.

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<v Speaker 5>I think partly because sometimes a lot of kids who

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<v Speaker 5>got like the lead roles and stuff their parents were

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<v Speaker 5>like doing a lot of stuff behind the scenes and

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<v Speaker 5>giving money. My parents were like We're not doing that

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<v Speaker 5>for you. You will work your way there which I

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<v Speaker 5>have growing up with ministers for parents. We grew up

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<v Speaker 5>without a lot. And so they really kind of taught

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<v Speaker 5>me work hard at an early age. And so because

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<v Speaker 5>I couldn't work with the cool like community theater in

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<v Speaker 5>my hometown I like went to the neighboring town where

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<v Speaker 5>the community theater was full of all these old hippies

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<v Speaker 5>who like worked at the Texas Renaissance Festival and they

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<v Speaker 5>like Smoked blunts backstage on their break and they like

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<v Speaker 5>wore face paint just to wear it. I was just

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<v Speaker 5>like this is my family I'm home.

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<v Speaker 4>The rest is history I guess. Then you went to

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<v Speaker 4>school as an actor didn't you. I went to undergrad

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<v Speaker 4>and studied performance.

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<v Speaker 5>Definitely there are some youtube videos of me like singing

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<v Speaker 5>dancing that I'm not proud of. I just really was

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<v Speaker 5>looking for my way and I think to storytelling and

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<v Speaker 5>I thought to myself well I can probably do this

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<v Speaker 5>that or the other I could be a dramaturg or

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<v Speaker 5>I could make costumes or I could be an actor

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<v Speaker 5>or something. I never thought I could be a writer

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<v Speaker 5>which I really wanted to do. I just admired them

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<v Speaker 5>so much and I thought they were so smart. It

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<v Speaker 5>was hard to finally admit to myself well that's the

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<v Speaker 5>thing that I've always wanted to do and all these

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<v Speaker 5>other avenues have just been me getting to that place

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<v Speaker 5>of telling stories my own stories in my own words.

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<v Speaker 5>I had a teacher when I was an undergrad who

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<v Speaker 5>pulled me aside one day and was like you would

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<v Speaker 5>be a half rate actor but you might be a

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<v Speaker 5>really good writer. But I needed to hear it and

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<v Speaker 5>really truly from not weave forward. I was like This

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<v Speaker 5>is it. This is what I want to do as

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<v Speaker 5>an actor.

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<v Speaker 6>Was it heartbreaking to hear. Or was it like oh

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<v Speaker 6>no way. You're right. I mean if I was that

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<v Speaker 6>teacher I wouldn't maybe phrase it exactly like that but

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<v Speaker 6>no it wasn't.

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<v Speaker 7>It was like someone giving me permission to stop trying

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<v Speaker 7>to fit in with all of my other classmates who

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<v Speaker 7>wanted to be actors because that's kind of your way

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<v Speaker 7>into theater right.

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<v Speaker 1>You're either like an actor or you're a techie. Those

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<v Speaker 1>are the two avenues. But being a writer it just

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<v Speaker 1>felt like he was giving me permission to say yes

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<v Speaker 1>to myself. And so I took a playwriting class and

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<v Speaker 1>the same teacher helped me get a playwriting Grant and

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<v Speaker 1>I went to New York and I wrote some terrible

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<v Speaker 1>plays and had some staged readings of them. I just

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<v Speaker 1>never stopped after that. So it was really more permission

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<v Speaker 1>than anything else.

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<v Speaker 3>What was the first play you wrote on.

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<v Speaker 5>What was the first play I wrote. Oh God. It

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<v Speaker 5>was called Singles cave which is like a cave off

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<v Speaker 5>of the shores of Scotland. Great composers have written classical

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<v Speaker 5>pieces about it. And I wrote a story about three

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<v Speaker 5>people who I don't fucking remember kayakers and only three

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<v Speaker 5>people ended up in this cave and they were all

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<v Speaker 5>grappling with problems in their personal lives. One kid was

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<v Speaker 5>blind and I don't know it was very sappy and sappy.

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<v Speaker 5>It was a short play I hadn't read in a

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<v Speaker 5>festival for the great playwright Tina Howe who is sort

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<v Speaker 5>of like the moderate or the judge of a festival.

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<v Speaker 5>And it was the most nervous I've maybe ever been

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<v Speaker 5>to date even probably more than having a television show

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<v Speaker 5>released out into the world at large. I think I

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<v Speaker 5>was just horrified and she was so warm and so

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<v Speaker 5>receptive and she told me I'll never forget. She said

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<v Speaker 5>oh my aren't you a little girl with a great

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<v Speaker 5>big cathedral inside of you. And I was just like

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<v Speaker 5>Oh my God. Those formative years when you're just starting

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<v Speaker 5>out it's so important. It's the most important thing to

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<v Speaker 5>have someone to say you can do it. I feel

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<v Speaker 5>for my friends and fellow artists who didn't have that

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<v Speaker 5>because I think it makes it harder. I certainly didn't

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<v Speaker 5>have a ton of people just telling me all the

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<v Speaker 5>time how wonderful I was. But like those few that

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<v Speaker 5>you really remember and you hold on to still I'm

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<v Speaker 5>a 34 year old woman. This was more than 10

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<v Speaker 5>years ago.

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<v Speaker 3>And then you went to Yale School of Drama.

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<v Speaker 5>I went to New York for a couple of years

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<v Speaker 5>after undergrad and I was so starving so poor I

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<v Speaker 5>worked as an intern at a theater called a battle

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<v Speaker 5>stick Playwrights Theater which is in the village. It's an

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<v Speaker 5>amazing place. I went there because I was obsessed with

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<v Speaker 5>this one play called The Pavilion which Craig Wright who

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<v Speaker 5>is also a television showrunner. He had written and I

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<v Speaker 5>was in New York and like the sea of like

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<v Speaker 5>endless possibilities and I was like What do I do.

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<v Speaker 5>And I looked up where that play was originally produced

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<v Speaker 5>and it was at this bitter battle stick and I

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<v Speaker 5>was like Hey are you guys hiring interns. And they

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<v Speaker 5>were like not really. And I was like Well I'll

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<v Speaker 5>work for free. So I did. I like work for

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<v Speaker 5>free and I would like work a job at like

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<v Speaker 5>hedge funds and I would save up a bunch of

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<v Speaker 5>money and then quit and then go back to the

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<v Speaker 5>theater and I would like writing plays and trying to

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<v Speaker 5>get into graduate school because it felt like the thing

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<v Speaker 5>that would open some doors for me helped me find

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<v Speaker 5>an agent or just get to practice meet other people

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<v Speaker 5>who are impressive artists were young like me. So yeah

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<v Speaker 5>that's what I did. How to apply three times before

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<v Speaker 5>I got in. Which I always love to tell people

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<v Speaker 5>don't give up. They only take a couple of people

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<v Speaker 5>a year so if you're looking for a graduate program

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<v Speaker 5>just keep applying until they get so sick of you

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<v Speaker 5>that they only let you in.

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<v Speaker 3>What was that like the place it was Yale or

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<v Speaker 3>bust it was Yale or bust.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah I applied deal all three years and only applied

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<v Speaker 5>to Yale the first two years. My third year I

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<v Speaker 5>thought about the encouragement of my friends and parents who

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<v Speaker 5>were like Maybe third time's not always a charm. So

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<v Speaker 5>I applied a bunch of other places there incredible drama schools.

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<v Speaker 5>I was really excited about UTI. Orson has an amazing

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<v Speaker 5>program Mr. center and there are so many. But for

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<v Speaker 5>me I like to think about the thing that I

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<v Speaker 5>feel like I could never actually do and then try

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<v Speaker 5>to do it. I think that's how I just live

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<v Speaker 5>my whole life. It's like what is something that seems

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<v Speaker 5>so impossibly out of reach and for me as like

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<v Speaker 5>I said my poor kid who grew up in Texas

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<v Speaker 5>who was again like top of my parents go work

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<v Speaker 5>your way into whatever you want to have. I was

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<v Speaker 5>like Well Yale seems like something that I'll never have.

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<v Speaker 5>So I just was determined and I was so privileged

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<v Speaker 5>to go there and I got to study with some

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<v Speaker 5>amazing people.

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<v Speaker 7>Paul a vocal was one of my primary mentors while

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<v Speaker 7>I was there. He was unbelievable playwright and person who

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<v Speaker 7>really truly has taught me some stuff about being in

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<v Speaker 7>an artistic community and being in a rehearsal room that

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<v Speaker 7>I've gotten to take with me into television about what

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<v Speaker 7>it means to be an artist. I was telling someone

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<v Speaker 7>the other day how we ran out on monster land

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<v Speaker 7>because I think by and large we had a pretty

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<v Speaker 7>happy sight set where everyone had a voice which was

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<v Speaker 7>really important to me was really important to the whole team.

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<v Speaker 7>And Paula at Yale I remember seeing the biggest deal

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<v Speaker 7>in the room should always be the play and I

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<v Speaker 7>thought that that was really an amazing way to think

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<v Speaker 7>about like how to bring people together who all have

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<v Speaker 7>big egos because you kind of have to have an

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<v Speaker 7>ego if you're like look at me listen to my story.

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<v Speaker 7>You have to have a little bit of that if

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<v Speaker 7>you're going to survive but thinking about that in terms

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<v Speaker 7>of the play but also in terms of television the

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<v Speaker 7>episode and the story that we were telling always got

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<v Speaker 7>to be the loudest and the most needy and the

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<v Speaker 7>most vocal thing rather than any of us who were

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<v Speaker 7>creating it. She was just a wonderful wonderful teacher at

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<v Speaker 7>Yale and so many gems of wisdom I hold on to.

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<v Speaker 3>What brought you to L.A. and how did you end

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<v Speaker 3>up on preacher.

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<v Speaker 5>So when I was at Yale I had a playwriting

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<v Speaker 5>agent who was like hey have you ever heard of

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<v Speaker 5>this guy Nick Ruffin. He is a film director and

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<v Speaker 5>he's looking for someone to write a horror movie with him.

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<v Speaker 5>And I threw your name in the pot and he

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<v Speaker 5>liked your play and he wants to meet with you.

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<v Speaker 5>And I was just like what is a film.

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<v Speaker 8>You know I like I'd never ever thought about it.

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<v Speaker 8>I don't even have final draft which is the program

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<v Speaker 8>you write a film.

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<v Speaker 5>I was like I don't know my ass from my

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<v Speaker 5>elbow but I met with Nick. I'm not a cinephile

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<v Speaker 5>at all but he directed this movie that I really

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<v Speaker 5>loved called Bronson which is so innovative in terms of

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<v Speaker 5>its production design the whole thing is shot in one

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<v Speaker 5>house and it looks like you're going all over the

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<v Speaker 5>country all over the world. It's really fantastic. But it

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<v Speaker 5>is also so visceral. It felt like it was jumping

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<v Speaker 5>out of the screen at me in this way that

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<v Speaker 5>I had only ever experienced that kind of feeling in theater.

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<v Speaker 5>I was like Sure I'll talk to him and I

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<v Speaker 5>talked to him I had a conversation with him for

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<v Speaker 5>an hour and a half one day and he was

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<v Speaker 5>like Hey do you want to write this movie with me.

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<v Speaker 5>And I was like yeah sure you seem really cool.

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<v Speaker 5>It was such an unusual Hollywood experience. It feels almost

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<v Speaker 5>unfair because it doesn't happen that easily for a lot

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<v Speaker 5>of people. But you know I wanted to be a

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<v Speaker 5>playwright like it wasn't what I wanted at all. It

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<v Speaker 5>just felt like a really interesting upper. And so I

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<v Speaker 5>said yes and came out to L.A. and I worked

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<v Speaker 5>for like a year with him. It was like one

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<v Speaker 5>year and we wrote a script together. And then the

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<v Speaker 5>movie went into production and was released like a year

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<v Speaker 5>later was very fast and it was really exciting because

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<v Speaker 5>he was just like I want to make a movie

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<v Speaker 5>that's not like any other movie and I was like

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<v Speaker 5>well that's great. I don't know how to write. I

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<v Speaker 5>was like aren't movies supposed to have like three acts.

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<v Speaker 5>I think I heard that one that seems boring hours

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<v Speaker 5>should have four you know. And he was so game

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<v Speaker 5>and I think really wanted someone to partner with him

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<v Speaker 5>on the film that didn't know how to do things right.

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<v Speaker 7>Our movie was called the neon demon and it was

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<v Speaker 7>a wonderful opportunity to like explore the horror genre for

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<v Speaker 7>the first time. And I just sort of fell in

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<v Speaker 7>love because the movie is about femininity and the male

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<v Speaker 7>gaze and about what women then do to each other

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<v Speaker 7>as a result of being subjected to the male gaze

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<v Speaker 7>for so long. It's about models in L.A. who eat

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<v Speaker 7>themselves alive literally but like I just thought wow what

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<v Speaker 7>a great opportunity for me who is not a model

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<v Speaker 7>but who is a woman to talk about what it

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<v Speaker 7>feels like to be objectified and hurt by men in

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<v Speaker 7>the world and by the patriarchy and by the way

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<v Speaker 7>that people talk and look at my body and I

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<v Speaker 7>sort of just fell in love with the horror genre.

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<v Speaker 4>But that's why I came to L.A. and I have

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<v Speaker 4>such a good experience working on that that I was

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<v Speaker 4>like Maybe I'll just stay here. I watched it last

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<v Speaker 4>night actually it's a very upsetting movie. It's not nice.

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<v Speaker 7>I think it's a really great marriage of Nick and

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<v Speaker 7>me like my outlook as a woman and then Nick

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<v Speaker 7>as a man. It's a movie where two contradictions sort

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<v Speaker 7>of bump up against each other a lot.

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<v Speaker 3>Had you co-written before.

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<v Speaker 7>No I never had. I never even thought about it

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<v Speaker 7>but I love it. I love writing with other people.

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<v Speaker 7>If it's a really good fit I think it's maybe

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<v Speaker 7>even more magical than writing by yourself sometimes. It was

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<v Speaker 7>so wonderful working on Preacher and then I worked on

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<v Speaker 7>succession for a season and now this show my show.

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<v Speaker 7>You know I love getting to hear other voices sort

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<v Speaker 7>of bounce up against mine.

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<v Speaker 5>It's like laughing What's the thing about marriage where it's

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<v Speaker 5>like marriage should be like two rocks in a tumbler

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<v Speaker 5>like shaking around making each other smooth. Which I think

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<v Speaker 5>is so wonderful and I think it's the same thing

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<v Speaker 5>about co writing it's just like you put like two

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<v Speaker 5>people in a jar and shake them around you end

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<v Speaker 5>up working out the kinks and the bumps in each other.

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<v Speaker 5>And I don't know you make a baby together.

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<v Speaker 8>I don't there's a lot of mixed metaphors.

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<v Speaker 3>So when the baby was a TV show for preacher

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<v Speaker 3>and succession which swept the Emmys. So congratulations on that.

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<v Speaker 3>Moving from theater to film to TV. What was the

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<v Speaker 3>experience like. How did it change the way you approach

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<v Speaker 3>your writing.

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<v Speaker 7>Well I think that there was something inside of me

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<v Speaker 7>that I was more able to tap into in television

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<v Speaker 7>writing and in cinematic writing which is like a visual

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<v Speaker 7>kind of storytelling that you can get in the theater

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<v Speaker 7>world but not with such frequency. Television is a visual

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<v Speaker 7>medium period film is a visual medium period. The best

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<v Speaker 7>films you can watch them with the sound off and

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<v Speaker 7>you still know what's happening. And that allowed me to

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<v Speaker 7>flex a different kind of muscle. I'm certainly not by

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<v Speaker 7>any stretch a visual artist. I can't draw a doodle

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<v Speaker 7>to save my life but I have something in my

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<v Speaker 7>head and I think being able to put that down

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<v Speaker 7>on paper and then have collaborators bring that to life

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<v Speaker 7>is so exciting to me.

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<v Speaker 9>And so I think the switch from playwriting to television

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<v Speaker 9>because I really rarely write plays anymore and for a

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<v Speaker 9>while guilt in myself about that and don't anymore I

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<v Speaker 9>think this is a medium that is much more suited

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<v Speaker 9>for me. And I think a lot of it was

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<v Speaker 9>about being able to hone and use the skills of

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<v Speaker 9>structure and character development and dialogue that I really got

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<v Speaker 9>from my theater background. In addition to this visual language

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<v Speaker 9>that is just so thrilling for Monster land I was

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<v Speaker 9>really obsessed with the photography of Gregory Crewson and Todd

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<v Speaker 9>Ito and so a lot of the images that are

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<v Speaker 9>in the series were inspired by that kind of visual

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<v Speaker 9>art and that just feels like something that again you

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<v Speaker 9>can certainly have an interesting visual landscape in theater because

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<v Speaker 9>you're dealing with real time space. But I find that

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<v Speaker 9>it's such an exciting space to play with visual language

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<v Speaker 9>and in film and television.

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<v Speaker 10>Hi I'm Robert Raz host of cars that matter you

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<v Speaker 12>So monster land your first time as a show runner.

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<v Speaker 12>It's interesting that you say like this is a better

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<v Speaker 12>landscape for you because it feels to me like an

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<v Speaker 12>anthology series like this is just a series of one

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<v Speaker 12>act plays. Kind of yeah. What was the experience creating

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<v Speaker 12>your first show.

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<v Speaker 7>Oh it was stressful. I came to L.A. and sort

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<v Speaker 7>of fell in love with the film and television industry

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<v Speaker 7>and it was again that thing like I'm going to

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<v Speaker 7>get into Yale no matter what. I was just sort

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<v Speaker 7>of like I want to run a show that seems

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<v Speaker 7>really hard and like something that they wouldn't let a

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<v Speaker 7>young female 30 year old lesbian do. So I was

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<v Speaker 7>like I want to do this and it's been possibly

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<v Speaker 7>the biggest experience of my life. It has stretched me

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<v Speaker 7>in ways that are unimaginable because as a showrunner you're

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<v Speaker 7>not just a creative voice You're not just a writer

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<v Speaker 7>but you're a producer and you're a champion of others

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<v Speaker 7>you paved roads for other people. You have to be

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<v Speaker 7>a maternal figure paternal figure at different points you wearing

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<v Speaker 7>so many different hats. And I think navigating that and

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<v Speaker 7>having to make excruciatingly hard decisions that affected other people's

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<v Speaker 7>performance and experience on the show and income livelihoods especially

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<v Speaker 7>during a pandemic I never thought I'd run my first

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<v Speaker 7>show during a pandemic.

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<v Speaker 5>It's been the hardest and the most rewarding thing I've

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<v Speaker 5>possibly ever done.

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<v Speaker 3>The series is based off of Nathan Ballon Grubbs North

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<v Speaker 3>American Lake Monsters which is a series of short stories.

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<v Speaker 3>It seems that you really were influenced by it but

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<v Speaker 3>a lot of the stories were very much your own.

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<v Speaker 3>What was the creative process there.

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<v Speaker 13>Nathan's book North American Lake Monsters is absolutely beautiful and

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<v Speaker 13>apart from this series which I hope everyone will watch

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<v Speaker 13>I hope they'll read his book too because there are

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<v Speaker 13>several stories from which episodes are directly adopted and then

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<v Speaker 13>there are many that we did not adopt that are

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<v Speaker 13>well worth a read. They're absolutely beautiful. I read the

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<v Speaker 13>first story in Nathan's book and thought This is what

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<v Speaker 13>I have to do. It was a really interesting and

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<v Speaker 13>different kind of horror that I had seen in a while.

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<v Speaker 13>And it was again doing some of those things that

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<v Speaker 13>we talked about like really able to tap into character

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<v Speaker 13>and real issues while also holding space within the genre.

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<v Speaker 13>I was really excited about telling stories about complicated people

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<v Speaker 13>who make terrible or difficult decisions but aren't necessarily monsters.

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<v Speaker 13>They're just human. I think that's the way that I

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<v Speaker 13>have experienced my own choices in my own world and

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<v Speaker 13>also different traumas in my life. So it was just

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<v Speaker 13>very inspirational. And there were some of his stories that

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<v Speaker 13>we felt as a writers room were more relevant and

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<v Speaker 13>more timely than others.

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<v Speaker 14>And so those were the stories that we really felt

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<v Speaker 14>as a community of five. We had four writers working

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<v Speaker 14>on the show with me. We felt these feel like

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<v Speaker 14>stories we really need to put out in the world

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<v Speaker 14>right now because they're saying something about her current moment

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<v Speaker 14>or current climate. And so we ended up adopting three

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<v Speaker 14>from the book and then the rest are as you

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<v Speaker 14>say inspired by. But we had these and come into

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<v Speaker 14>the room with us for the first two weeks the

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<v Speaker 14>first two weeks were sort of dedicated to deciding what

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<v Speaker 14>stories we wanted to tell and coming up with new

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<v Speaker 14>stories or jumping off of stories from Nathan's book to

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<v Speaker 14>then create as sort of the genesis of an idea

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<v Speaker 14>for a new story. And Nathan was really instrumental in

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<v Speaker 14>those two weeks. I remember him bringing forward ideas for

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<v Speaker 14>some of the stories that did end up in the

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<v Speaker 14>season of 8. So it was really about having a

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<v Speaker 14>diverse array of characters and also finding stories that felt

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<v Speaker 14>like they were tapping into. I don't want to say

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<v Speaker 14>issues because I'm not very interested in writing about issues

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<v Speaker 14>but they were tapping into the current worlds and what

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<v Speaker 14>people in our lives and in the world were grappling

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<v Speaker 14>with in the moment that we were writing. We really

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<v Speaker 14>wanted the series to be reflective of the United States

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<v Speaker 14>and the turmoil that the US was going through and

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<v Speaker 14>the different people that it affected. And as a result

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<v Speaker 14>how these people were grappling with their own day to

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<v Speaker 14>day lives.

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<v Speaker 3>I mean it is reflective of the United States especially

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<v Speaker 3>because you have named each episode after the location. What

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<v Speaker 3>was the thought process behind that.

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<v Speaker 13>Well what I loved about Ethan's book also many things

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<v Speaker 13>I love about his book but what I also loved

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<v Speaker 13>about his book was that his protagonists were not your

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<v Speaker 13>typical protagonists. They were blue collar workers in the Gulf

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<v Speaker 13>Coast or single down on their luck moms who don't

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<v Speaker 13>get written about and those are people like that's what

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<v Speaker 13>the country is made up of.

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<v Speaker 14>You know we're not a country made up of politicians

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<v Speaker 14>and billionaires we're a country of real people dealing with

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<v Speaker 14>a lot of day to day stuff that doesn't make

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<v Speaker 14>the news. And that doesn't make the next episode of

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<v Speaker 14>whatever show you're watching. And so I think that naming

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<v Speaker 14>each episode after a particular city was our way of

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<v Speaker 14>highlighting sometimes issues and sometimes problems like Eugene Oregon deals

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<v Speaker 14>with some systemic racism and I think our episode entitled

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<v Speaker 14>Eugene Oregon deals with some of the same stuff but

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<v Speaker 14>also just remembering that we are a massive country with

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<v Speaker 14>pockets of people who are affected deeply by the decisions

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<v Speaker 14>being made by the 1 percent by the people at

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<v Speaker 14>the top by the politicians. We're not just a city

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<v Speaker 14>of Los Angeles Chicago New York. There are smaller places

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<v Speaker 14>that I think deserve investigation. So that was what was

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<v Speaker 14>behind naming each episode after particular city it felt like

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<v Speaker 14>we were giving a broader outlook on the United States.

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<v Speaker 3>The writers room you compiled had some more veterans and

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<v Speaker 3>some playwrights such as yourself and Emily Kazmierczak. How did

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<v Speaker 3>you staff your room I mean kind of exactly like that.

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<v Speaker 5>I. I was like Well I want to have a

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<v Speaker 5>room that's again like a diverse group of people with

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<v Speaker 5>different kinds of backgrounds from different age brackets who come

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<v Speaker 5>from different parts of the world and different experiences and

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<v Speaker 5>so that's kind of what I did. One of our

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<v Speaker 5>staff writers Oliver Brown have lived all over the world

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<v Speaker 5>and came to the book with such a unique perspective.

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<v Speaker 5>Emily comes from playwriting as you mentioned and then two

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<v Speaker 5>of our other writers Scott COSAT and Wesley Strick both

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<v Speaker 5>had their roots in film writing but had very different

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<v Speaker 5>backgrounds and growing up experiences. But everyone had a real

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<v Speaker 5>grounded ness to them. No one was to quote unquote

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<v Speaker 5>Hollywood and I thought that that was really important in

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<v Speaker 5>the creation of the series that again if we're going

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<v Speaker 5>to tell stories about real people we needed to be

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<v Speaker 5>able to tell them in real ways and in everyone's

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<v Speaker 5>interview I was also really open I was like We're

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<v Speaker 5>gonna talk about stuff in the room I talk about

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<v Speaker 5>my traumas very openly I talk about my personal experiences

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<v Speaker 5>growing up in a really conservative area very openly and

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<v Speaker 5>my struggle with coming out as a gay person very

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<v Speaker 5>openly and so I wanted to open the door to

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<v Speaker 5>people who had experiences and were willing to also talk

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<v Speaker 5>about them and go to some really like vulnerable and

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<v Speaker 5>dark places with me because I think as long as

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<v Speaker 5>you're doing that and really safe and healthy way which

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<v Speaker 5>you think the writers room it's very important to have

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<v Speaker 5>a really safe and healthy writers room I think that's

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<v Speaker 5>where the really good good stories come from.

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<v Speaker 3>How do you create an environment where people are being

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<v Speaker 3>so open that is safe and healthy.

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<v Speaker 9>You check in with people you don't offer judgment on

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<v Speaker 9>other people's stories you listen you make sure everyone has

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<v Speaker 9>a voice and that if people disagree they're allowed to

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<v Speaker 9>say that they disagree. And I think it's really important

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<v Speaker 9>for the showrunner to do this. I've worked in places

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<v Speaker 9>with groups of people where the person at the top

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<v Speaker 9>is not accepting or has a judgment and that they

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<v Speaker 9>bring to the room or point of view that's sort

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<v Speaker 9>of toxic that they bring to the room and while

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<v Speaker 9>I certainly didn't do everything right there's no way I

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<v Speaker 9>did everything right. I do feel like I used that

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<v Speaker 9>experience of like that kind of more negative type of

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<v Speaker 9>environment and said day one like we're not going to

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<v Speaker 9>have that. We didn't talk a lot about politics we

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<v Speaker 9>did from time to time but I feel like politics

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<v Speaker 9>can be kind of messy in the workplace and I

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<v Speaker 9>think co-workers should be able to talk about that on

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<v Speaker 9>their own time. But we didn't start every day like

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<v Speaker 9>talking about what was in the news what happened the

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<v Speaker 9>day before. I just think it's important that everyone feels

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<v Speaker 9>heard and seen. I don't really believe in hierarchy within

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<v Speaker 9>a room other than the hierarchy that I'm the one

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<v Speaker 9>that starts and stops the show. I'm the one that

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<v Speaker 9>can shut down a conversation and I'm the one that

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<v Speaker 9>makes the final decisions on things. But as long as

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<v Speaker 9>that much is clear then I think everyone should be

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<v Speaker 9>able to have a voice and feel seen and heard

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<v Speaker 9>and and that their stories are going to be protected.

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<v Speaker 9>Do you share something vulnerable it's going to stay right

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<v Speaker 9>there in the room and we're gonna take care of

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<v Speaker 9>it and we're not going to judge you for it.

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<v Speaker 9>We're really grateful that you shared that and that that

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<v Speaker 9>could become a part of one of our stories. If

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<v Speaker 9>you allow it to be and it's definitely challenging I

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<v Speaker 9>think to be in a room not vulnerable but I

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<v Speaker 9>think as long as you're approaching everything with kindness I

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<v Speaker 9>don't know.

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<v Speaker 3>So day one on set. What was the first scene

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<v Speaker 3>you shot and what was it like being on set.

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<v Speaker 14>Day one like God. Do you remember. I think the

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<v Speaker 14>very first thing we shot was a scene with Caitlin.

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<v Speaker 14>It's sort of on the docks and she's running late

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<v Speaker 14>to work and she has to drop her care for

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<v Speaker 14>the baby sitter. Denise the whole series we shot in

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<v Speaker 14>New York.

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<v Speaker 15>We shot all over the place and so we were

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<v Speaker 15>shooting New York for Louisiana. And so we were out

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<v Speaker 15>in Timbuktu shooting on these docks and it was so

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<v Speaker 15>windy and I was incredibly worried about sound that day.

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<v Speaker 15>I think I was just incredibly anxious in general it

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<v Speaker 15>was the first pilot I've ever shot and kept running

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<v Speaker 15>up to the sound booth and being like oh do

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<v Speaker 15>we get it. What words did we get. What do

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<v Speaker 15>we need. I think the whole day just sort of

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<v Speaker 15>went by in a blur. Actually I think other shooting

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<v Speaker 15>days feel much clearer in my mind. But it was

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<v Speaker 15>great we had an amazing production designer Ola Malik who

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<v Speaker 15>was able to make New York look like a different places.

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<v Speaker 15>It was truly spectacular.

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<v Speaker 3>So Caitlin's character comes back a few times throughout the series.

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<v Speaker 3>Was that in the book or was that a tool

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<v Speaker 3>that you implemented to kind of give it a through line.

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<v Speaker 14>Yeah. No that was just us. You know Nathan's book

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<v Speaker 14>felt very much like one world. And since we wanted

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<v Speaker 14>to tell a story about our current world we were

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<v Speaker 14>like Oh what are ways in which we could tie

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<v Speaker 14>these episodes together. And some of those original ideas sort

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<v Speaker 14>of fell out the window. But there are definitely some

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<v Speaker 14>Easter eggs within all of the stories. You know there

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<v Speaker 14>are a couple of politicians running for office and there's

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<v Speaker 14>this disastrous oil spill that's covered in a couple of

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<v Speaker 14>the episodes. So there are things that pull the series together.

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<v Speaker 14>Caitlin I think being the largest you know after she

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<v Speaker 14>disappears in the first episode we get to see her

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<v Speaker 14>again in the middle of the series. And then again

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<v Speaker 14>in the finale and kind of catch up with her

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<v Speaker 14>as an organizing principle but also seeing what happens after

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<v Speaker 14>her sort of disastrous choice that she has to make

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<v Speaker 14>in the pilot. Do you have a favorite monster. Oh

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<v Speaker 14>gosh no I love them all. I think maybe the

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<v Speaker 14>monster I'm the most proud of is the mermaid. Coming

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<v Speaker 14>from the theater world I didn't want to use a

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<v Speaker 14>lot of visual effects. I wanted to use as few

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<v Speaker 14>as I could because I love practical theatricality and I

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<v Speaker 14>feel like as a viewer I can tell when something

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<v Speaker 14>is a visual effect. We're all so used to watching

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<v Speaker 14>so much that I feel like anyone can tell. And

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<v Speaker 14>so I was like How can we make a mermaid

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<v Speaker 14>that doesn't feel like that. It doesn't. Whenever you see

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<v Speaker 14>her take you completely out.

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<v Speaker 15>So we made her totally practically and Adria who played

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<v Speaker 15>the mermaid was so game to put on that suit.

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<v Speaker 5>We had two wheeler around in a wheelchair and have

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<v Speaker 5>like 10 men lift her into the water and she

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<v Speaker 5>was so awesome and would just hang out in this

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<v Speaker 5>like tank of water while we were shooting other angles

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<v Speaker 5>because it took so much time to get her in

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<v Speaker 5>and out so she would just sit there and with

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<v Speaker 5>her head on the lip of the tank and like

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<v Speaker 5>watch the scene that another actor was shooting. But I

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<v Speaker 5>feel very very proud and I think it turned out

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<v Speaker 5>really beautifully and we shot that episode in like eight

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<v Speaker 5>days or something like that.

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<v Speaker 14>Talking about the monsters we worked with Greg like a

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<v Speaker 14>terrorist company can be. Who does the walking dead and

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<v Speaker 14>they're just unbelievable monster makers and so they came up

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<v Speaker 14>with some pretty cool constructions for us for our actual

0:27:40.250 --> 0:27:42.680
<v Speaker 14>monsters the people are monsters too. But for our actual

0:27:42.680 --> 0:27:45.530
<v Speaker 14>monsters we shot all of these like it was like

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<v Speaker 14>lightning speed our pilot we ended up having most days

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<v Speaker 14>which I think was like 11 but then by the

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<v Speaker 14>time we got to some of the other ones we

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<v Speaker 14>were shooting them in six or seven days which for

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<v Speaker 14>a monster show is not enough to give us more

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<v Speaker 14>days next time.

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<v Speaker 19>dot.com slash a moment of your time.

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<v Speaker 12>Because it was your first show running experience. What was

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<v Speaker 12>the feeling of calling rap on the last day.

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<v Speaker 20>Oh my God it was like a blur of emotions.

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<v Speaker 20>I did this thing which I'm really glad that I

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<v Speaker 20>did where I had someone take a photo of me

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<v Speaker 20>on like kind of the first major milestone day.

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<v Speaker 14>And on that rap day I was like wow I

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<v Speaker 14>have changed so much because I think it was like

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<v Speaker 14>the biggest experience and personally it felt like Wow I

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<v Speaker 14>had run not just a marathon but like eight marathons.

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<v Speaker 14>And how much that had taken from me and how

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<v Speaker 14>much that had given to me. I felt the unbelievable

0:29:49.460 --> 0:29:53.450
<v Speaker 14>privilege of getting to work with such amazing talent the

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<v Speaker 14>production team especially. I mean we had the most amazing

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<v Speaker 14>actors but I think the production team I thought these

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<v Speaker 14>people had just pushed a boulder up a mountain with

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<v Speaker 14>me and like how lucky I was. Everyone said it

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<v Speaker 14>was one of the hardest shows that they had ever

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<v Speaker 14>worked on.

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<v Speaker 15>I think by nature of the anthology where you're basically

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<v Speaker 15>doing a total reset every single episode you're not using

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<v Speaker 15>any of your same sets. Any of your same costumes

0:30:17.630 --> 0:30:20.360
<v Speaker 15>and none of your same actors even you know everything

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<v Speaker 15>is new and starting over is really really hard because

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<v Speaker 15>you have to redesign re scout. I mean there are

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<v Speaker 15>like eight many movies basically. And so doing that and

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<v Speaker 15>the amount of time that we had which was very

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<v Speaker 15>compressed our shooting schedule was just rapid fire and we

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<v Speaker 15>had no breaks in between episodes I know like Black

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<v Speaker 15>Mirror is even able to take some breaks in between

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<v Speaker 15>there we have no breaks.

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<v Speaker 14>So it was a very very very ambitious project and

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<v Speaker 14>I was just looking around that the sea of faces

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<v Speaker 14>of people who were willing to ride that ride with

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<v Speaker 14>me and do it with so much heart and so

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<v Speaker 14>much positivity. It just it was a very overwhelming day.

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<v Speaker 14>It was a very overwhelming time ending production on the

0:31:00.260 --> 0:31:02.930
<v Speaker 14>series because again it it just felt like we'd all

0:31:02.930 --> 0:31:05.660
<v Speaker 14>run an ultra marathon together and everyone had had at

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<v Speaker 14>least sort of like one little break down and we'd

0:31:08.570 --> 0:31:10.940
<v Speaker 14>gotten up gotten back on the horse and we're all

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<v Speaker 14>still quite friendly with each other too which I think

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<v Speaker 14>you know everyone would love to come back and do

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<v Speaker 14>another season and I think that's really saying something about

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<v Speaker 14>the kinds of people who worked on the show and

0:31:21.110 --> 0:31:23.810
<v Speaker 14>the kind of like grit. Also that you have to

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<v Speaker 14>have to shoot in New York. We shot in the winter.

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<v Speaker 14>I mean just everything hard we did it. And I'm

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<v Speaker 14>just completely blown away by the team and we'll never

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<v Speaker 14>be able to say thank you enough.

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<v Speaker 4>So yeah I guess those are some of the feelings

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<v Speaker 4>on wrap day.

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<v Speaker 6>Also just like where's my martini. Can I sleep now.

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<v Speaker 6>Those things too.

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<v Speaker 3>What have you taken away from this experience is this

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<v Speaker 3>finding who you are or is this another step along

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<v Speaker 3>your path.

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<v Speaker 14>Well my joke is always like I want to be

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<v Speaker 14>Shonda Rhimes. I would love to have like multiple shows

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<v Speaker 14>going on at once but I don't even know if

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<v Speaker 14>that's true. I'm not sure what's next. To be totally

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<v Speaker 14>honest this was a huge goal and a huge achievement

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<v Speaker 14>and a big milestone. And I think that I want

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<v Speaker 14>to do it again. It again it feels like one

0:32:12.740 --> 0:32:16.070
<v Speaker 14>of those things that felt impossible and yet I did it.

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<v Speaker 14>And our whole team did it. We did it together

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<v Speaker 14>and whether this show another season or it or another

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<v Speaker 14>show I want to do it again because I know

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<v Speaker 14>I can do it better. What's so exciting to me

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<v Speaker 14>about television is that you're able to tell stories on

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<v Speaker 14>such a large scale. I mean theater it's like there's

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<v Speaker 14>nothing like it when you see a really good play

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<v Speaker 14>it changes your whole life. It changes your DNA. But

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<v Speaker 14>what I like about television is that you can do

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<v Speaker 14>that to such a wide wide audience and that's really

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<v Speaker 14>exciting to me because as a gay person like I

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<v Speaker 14>have this opportunity now to put more gay people on

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<v Speaker 14>the screen and to see characters or women grappling with

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<v Speaker 14>things on screen that I've grappled with in my own

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<v Speaker 14>life that I never got to see growing up you

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<v Speaker 14>know growing up we were Huck Finn you know or

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<v Speaker 14>we were Peter Pan and we had to be these

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<v Speaker 14>male protagonists and it's such a privilege and an opportunity

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<v Speaker 14>to tell stories about people that don't always make it

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<v Speaker 14>to screen and also not just people on screen but

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<v Speaker 14>behind the screens you know like as much as there

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<v Speaker 14>has been like quote unquote progress in Hollywood. It's just

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<v Speaker 14>fucking not enough. And if I can do it again

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<v Speaker 14>and paved roads for other people to then do it

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<v Speaker 14>again and bring different kinds of people to the forefront

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<v Speaker 14>of our minds and imaginations. I don't know maybe I'm

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<v Speaker 14>really optimistic but I think that's world changing. I really

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<v Speaker 14>really do because the kinds of things that you see

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<v Speaker 14>coming out of Hollywood is how you think about the

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<v Speaker 14>world that is absolutely how you think about the world.

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<v Speaker 14>I was talking to a friend the other day about

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<v Speaker 14>rom coms just generally speaking rom coms are always about

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<v Speaker 14>the straight white girl and the straight white guy and

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<v Speaker 14>that's not how I experienced my romantic life growing up

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<v Speaker 14>at all. But that's what we're taught and that's what

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<v Speaker 14>we see and that's what comes into our homes. And

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<v Speaker 14>I think that if you're able to change people's minds

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<v Speaker 14>on screen and open up people's minds on screen I

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<v Speaker 14>think that's world changing. I really do. So. To fucking

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<v Speaker 14>do it again. I want all of my writers to

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<v Speaker 14>be able to do it. Then you know like I

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<v Speaker 14>think part of being a really good leader and a

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<v Speaker 14>good show writer is passing tools down to the people

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<v Speaker 14>that you're working with that they have a roadmap and

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<v Speaker 14>they have the knowledge to know like I can do

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<v Speaker 14>this too if like this like for preacher's daughter from

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<v Speaker 14>Texas can do it I can fucking do it too.

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<v Speaker 14>And here's how. And here are the pitfalls and here's

0:34:33.860 --> 0:34:35.840
<v Speaker 14>the support that I need. And then I can get

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<v Speaker 14>my unique an untold story told. Yeah I'm going to

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<v Speaker 14>do it again and I'll know what's going on out

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<v Speaker 14>there but somethin.

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<v Speaker 3>So my final question is always what does it mean

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<v Speaker 3>to you to have a life and storytelling. But I

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<v Speaker 3>think you just answered.

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<v Speaker 14>Think about that. I think that's a I'll say another

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<v Speaker 14>thing too. This is a more personal reason I guess.

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<v Speaker 20>I've had a good and privileged life in these 34

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<v Speaker 20>years that I've walked on the earth but I've had

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<v Speaker 20>some really hard stuff too. I've dealt with my fair

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<v Speaker 20>share of trauma. I've dealt with my fair share of

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<v Speaker 20>not feeling like I am the norm because of my

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<v Speaker 20>femininity or my sexuality and I think that the thing

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<v Speaker 20>that has personally saved my life over and over again

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<v Speaker 20>has been writing about it that anytime I can put

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<v Speaker 20>pen to paper and walk myself through my own story

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<v Speaker 20>I'm able to see myself a little bit better more clearly.

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<v Speaker 20>I'm able to sort of put those ghosts to bed.

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<v Speaker 20>I'm able to in a healthy and productive and creative

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<v Speaker 20>way work through my shit and I truly think that

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<v Speaker 20>that has kept my heart beating. I think that has

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<v Speaker 20>given me a positive outlook on the effects and the

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<v Speaker 20>burdens of trauma or abuse that you can actually turn

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<v Speaker 20>it into something that helps you saves your life. Even

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<v Speaker 20>turn it into something good. So I guess personally that

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<v Speaker 20>is why I will keep writing. I always say it's

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<v Speaker 20>like the one thing no one can take from me.

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<v Speaker 20>I can be unemployed and I can still as long

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<v Speaker 20>as I have a napkin and a pen. I can

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<v Speaker 20>write my story down I can write any story down

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<v Speaker 20>and I just think that thought is like the greatest

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<v Speaker 20>gift in the world. It makes every other thing I've

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<v Speaker 20>ever been able to do in my life possible because

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<v Speaker 20>I've been able to write.

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<v Speaker 3>Mary thank you so much for joining me. Monster land

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<v Speaker 3>is available on Hulu. It is a great show. Very

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<v Speaker 3>well done.

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<v Speaker 16>Thank think. Fan so happy and fun and I have

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<v Speaker 16>so much anxiety usually when I do these and it's

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<v Speaker 16>been such a very easy pleasure to talk to you.

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<v Speaker 16>Thank you ma'am. Hollywood unscripted was created by Kurt Commedia.

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