WEBVTT - The Conversation You Didn't See Coming 0:00:00.040 --> 0:00:03.080 We acknowledged the traditional custodians of the land we're recording 0:00:03.120 --> 0:00:03.720 on today. 0:00:06.760 --> 0:00:09.200 Can you not argue with me when you haven't watched 0:00:09.200 --> 0:00:10.320 the show and I did. 0:00:11.840 --> 0:00:15.200 You're so annoying somehow. I was like my hairdresser told 0:00:15.240 --> 0:00:16.400 me that that's what happened. 0:00:18.840 --> 0:00:22.480 Hello, and welcome back to eat, Sleep, shit Repeat. 0:00:23.000 --> 0:00:26.920 I'm in your ap edition. I'm Key Resells. I'm Kelly McCarron. 0:00:26.960 --> 0:00:30.280 And while Key gallaghavants overseas, I'll just mope around in Sydneys. 0:00:30.280 --> 0:00:33.760 That don't mind me gallivant, sweetie. Oh, I like to 0:00:33.760 --> 0:00:34.880 say gallagavan. 0:00:36.479 --> 0:00:39.479 Moving on. You knew exactly what I meant. Therefore it 0:00:39.600 --> 0:00:41.879 is a okay word to you. You are that mean? 0:00:41.960 --> 0:00:44.240 That's like I'm too old to care about making typos 0:00:44.240 --> 0:00:45.320 and messages. Deal with it. 0:00:46.080 --> 0:00:46.280 Yeah. 0:00:46.360 --> 0:00:47.800 I have been making a lot of typos in my 0:00:47.800 --> 0:00:50.000 messages early, so it's going on with my phone and 0:00:50.040 --> 0:00:53.520 I just don't care. I am an elderly gentleman. 0:00:53.680 --> 0:00:55.800 You are. I'm no longer a middle aged white man. 0:00:55.920 --> 0:00:56.520 I'm now an. 0:00:56.440 --> 0:00:59.600 Elderly Watch out, she's a boomer. I'm gonna stuck getting 0:00:59.600 --> 0:01:03.240 real ranky. This is the first episode in our Unhinged 0:01:03.320 --> 0:01:07.039 Keys on Holiday series is so welcome. Like, I don't 0:01:07.080 --> 0:01:09.959 know what this episode's actually called yet, I've simply called 0:01:09.959 --> 0:01:10.880 it conversations. 0:01:11.040 --> 0:01:13.720 It's just a long form interview, like you tell me more? 0:01:14.200 --> 0:01:16.479 Are we the ABC all of a sudden, Isn't that what? 0:01:16.600 --> 0:01:17.959 That's very unbrand. 0:01:17.640 --> 0:01:22.680 For me because I've been collecting great questions that I've 0:01:22.720 --> 0:01:25.240 just thought of or seen on the Internet as really 0:01:25.240 --> 0:01:28.080 good conversation starters, and I thought we would briefly touch 0:01:28.160 --> 0:01:30.600 on them today next minute. It's like three hours long, 0:01:31.160 --> 0:01:33.200 and I want you to join in on the conversation 0:01:33.319 --> 0:01:36.600 in our Facebook group or on Instagram. Well, of that 0:01:37.200 --> 0:01:41.000 tell me about someone who had a significant influence on 0:01:41.040 --> 0:01:43.600 you in your life, but they wouldn't know or realize 0:01:43.640 --> 0:01:46.000 that or even maybe remember you. 0:01:48.680 --> 0:01:52.600 I do think about this quite a lot. 0:01:52.480 --> 0:01:54.520 Realcause, well, yeah, I think there are a lot of 0:01:54.520 --> 0:01:57.360 people that were like really integral to who I've ended 0:01:57.400 --> 0:02:01.080 up being from like my really formative youe in primary. 0:02:00.680 --> 0:02:02.120 School in New Zealand. 0:02:02.360 --> 0:02:05.680 Oh that like I don't really have any contact now, 0:02:05.800 --> 0:02:07.320 but like I think. 0:02:07.240 --> 0:02:10.760 It was just the. 0:02:09.680 --> 0:02:12.120 Friends that I made in that primary school and their parents. 0:02:12.160 --> 0:02:14.240 It was like I went to this inner City Primary 0:02:14.240 --> 0:02:18.680 school and it was very artsy. Like from a young age, 0:02:18.720 --> 0:02:20.720 I was allowed to walk from school to my mum's 0:02:20.760 --> 0:02:23.480 work with another girl because I worked together. I just 0:02:23.560 --> 0:02:27.840 remember this whole time in my life, being really independent 0:02:27.919 --> 0:02:32.119 as a kid, but being exposed to like really different things, 0:02:32.160 --> 0:02:35.600 Like some of the parents are super arty. One was 0:02:35.639 --> 0:02:38.480 like a fashion designer. Like my best friend when I 0:02:38.480 --> 0:02:40.840 was little Mark, he was gay and he was also 0:02:40.880 --> 0:02:42.280 a Jehovah's Witness. 0:02:42.000 --> 0:02:44.000 So like I just hate to Jovah's Witness. 0:02:44.080 --> 0:02:46.360 Yeah, it wasn't it wasn't a good mix, but like 0:02:47.040 --> 0:02:51.240 that timing was really quite pivotal in I. 0:02:51.160 --> 0:02:53.920 Guess my exposure to like different people. 0:02:54.400 --> 0:02:56.760 And I would say that my best friend growing up, 0:02:56.760 --> 0:02:58.240 her name was Ivy, and her. 0:02:58.240 --> 0:03:00.440 Mum Billy was just so cool. 0:03:00.440 --> 0:03:02.480 So her mum Billy worked at the school, and I 0:03:02.520 --> 0:03:05.560 was obviously always an after schoolcare and her mum ran 0:03:05.720 --> 0:03:08.360 the after school care, but I always stayed at the house, 0:03:08.560 --> 0:03:11.320 and like, I don't know, she was just so cool, 0:03:11.360 --> 0:03:13.120 like because she was a fashion designer. She'd let us 0:03:13.120 --> 0:03:16.760 like cut the Barbie doll's hair and like do the clothing. 0:03:16.840 --> 0:03:18.840 She also like let us watch the coolest movie so 0:03:18.840 --> 0:03:21.480 I feel like I have Like cry Baby was like 0:03:21.480 --> 0:03:23.200 one of my favorite movies growing up. 0:03:24.200 --> 0:03:26.560 He's not just antisocial Jedi. 0:03:27.160 --> 0:03:32.960 He was born to be bad, not having I believe 0:03:32.960 --> 0:03:34.040 with Johnny Depp. 0:03:35.880 --> 0:03:40.760 Grab it's a Johnny Depp film, and it's just like, basically, 0:03:40.920 --> 0:03:42.080 this is back when he was hot. 0:03:42.160 --> 0:03:44.000 I remember I saw like top of him back in 0:03:44.040 --> 0:03:46.320 the day, and he was hot, very very good looking. 0:03:46.760 --> 0:03:49.520 But I feel like I was really exposed to a 0:03:49.600 --> 0:03:53.800 lot of cool art, different things than I ever would 0:03:53.840 --> 0:03:54.120 have been. 0:03:54.160 --> 0:03:55.080 Like she was just a. 0:03:55.000 --> 0:03:58.440 Really cool person and really cared a lot about me, 0:03:59.200 --> 0:04:02.480 and even she was a single mom to Ivy, like 0:04:02.520 --> 0:04:05.840 she'd always have me over and I always think about that. 0:04:05.840 --> 0:04:09.920 And I think I found Ivy on Instagram really weirdly, 0:04:09.960 --> 0:04:12.000 like when I was pregnant, I went back and tried 0:04:12.040 --> 0:04:13.760 to find all the people that I went to primary 0:04:13.800 --> 0:04:16.000 school with. It's so weird, it's so weird, but I 0:04:16.040 --> 0:04:17.799 found them all, and I found Ivy and started following 0:04:17.800 --> 0:04:19.799 her on Instagram. And she was pregnant at the same time, 0:04:19.839 --> 0:04:21.480 so she had ended up having a little boy just 0:04:21.520 --> 0:04:24.960 before Ru was born. And I think I said to her, like, oh, 0:04:25.000 --> 0:04:28.600 your mom was such an important person in my childhood, 0:04:28.640 --> 0:04:31.359 Like I think about her really fondly often, And she 0:04:31.440 --> 0:04:34.559 said so many people have come up to her later 0:04:34.600 --> 0:04:37.080 in life that went through like that after schoolcare program 0:04:37.640 --> 0:04:39.000 and said the same thing to her that. 0:04:39.279 --> 0:04:40.560 She's dedicated her life to. 0:04:40.560 --> 0:04:43.039 Kids, like she still works with special needs kids now, 0:04:43.080 --> 0:04:48.240 and she's just like a really cool motherly figure in 0:04:48.279 --> 0:04:50.400 my life. Like I think, on reflection, a lot of 0:04:50.440 --> 0:04:54.200 the time, I realized that I did have these particularly 0:04:54.240 --> 0:04:57.359 women that really took an interest in me, because I 0:04:57.360 --> 0:04:59.560 think that they could see that you needed that, that 0:04:59.640 --> 0:05:02.480 I need that, and like if I wanted to come 0:05:02.560 --> 0:05:04.760 over or have a sleepover, like I was always just 0:05:04.880 --> 0:05:07.800 their second kid. It wasn't like a big thing to 0:05:07.880 --> 0:05:11.880 have me around. So I think definitely her for sure. 0:05:12.080 --> 0:05:13.200 That is so nice. 0:05:13.440 --> 0:05:16.480 Yeah, yeah, you should reach out to Billy and let 0:05:16.520 --> 0:05:17.839 her know. You could send her an email. 0:05:18.000 --> 0:05:20.680 I know I should, shouldn't I I just couldn't know, 0:05:21.320 --> 0:05:23.320 But think about it, if you were Billy, would you 0:05:23.360 --> 0:05:24.000 not want to know that? 0:05:24.360 --> 0:05:25.279 Yes? So true. 0:05:25.400 --> 0:05:28.000 I do follow her on Insta, Oh Billy is yeah. Yeah, 0:05:28.040 --> 0:05:30.120 And she was like I should, I should, and she 0:05:30.160 --> 0:05:31.880 was like, oh my god, you haven't changed. It's still 0:05:31.880 --> 0:05:33.320 the same as you were when you were a little girl, 0:05:33.360 --> 0:05:35.640 and I was just like, there's not many people who've 0:05:35.720 --> 0:05:37.359 known me since I was a little girl, you know, 0:05:37.640 --> 0:05:39.440 so it was like quite comforting. 0:05:39.640 --> 0:05:41.479 I don't know, it was just really nice. And I 0:05:41.520 --> 0:05:42.840 think that, you know. 0:05:42.800 --> 0:05:46.200 That was probably for four or five years of my 0:05:46.320 --> 0:05:48.720 life that they were in my life, and to think 0:05:48.760 --> 0:05:52.280 of them so much now at this age fondly, like 0:05:52.360 --> 0:05:54.640 it means it made a big impression on like who 0:05:54.680 --> 0:05:56.120 I am. 0:05:56.160 --> 0:05:58.720 I love that, thanks so much, but random, but yeah, 0:05:58.760 --> 0:06:02.360 that's the truth. Okay, tell me about a person that's 0:06:02.400 --> 0:06:04.320 made a really big impact on your life that they 0:06:04.400 --> 0:06:04.720 might not. 0:06:04.839 --> 0:06:07.680 Well, it's funny because as you were just talking about that, 0:06:07.720 --> 0:06:10.680 I did. I started thinking about all these different teachers 0:06:10.720 --> 0:06:13.760 that I had that were really impactful. But I'm going 0:06:13.839 --> 0:06:16.640 to stick to the person that first popped into my 0:06:16.720 --> 0:06:21.680 mind when I read that, because he would not remember me, 0:06:21.839 --> 0:06:26.880 I don't think. Yeah, this guy was the CEO of 0:06:27.160 --> 0:06:29.360 a company I worked for my first year out of UNI. 0:06:29.440 --> 0:06:31.279 This is a weird story, Like you're going to be like, 0:06:31.279 --> 0:06:33.719 how did this guy positively impact you? 0:06:33.839 --> 0:06:34.640 I don't understand. 0:06:35.400 --> 0:06:38.160 And I was terrible at my job. Yeah, but they 0:06:38.240 --> 0:06:41.800 just always encouraged me so much with my other things, 0:06:42.480 --> 0:06:45.600 Like they taught me how to do websites, and then 0:06:45.600 --> 0:06:47.760 they bought me my first domain and like set me 0:06:47.800 --> 0:06:49.080 up with a blog so that I could do it 0:06:49.120 --> 0:06:49.880 in my spare time. 0:06:50.480 --> 0:06:51.840 That's encouraged it. 0:06:51.960 --> 0:06:56.400 Anyway. I sucked so bad at my actual job though, 0:06:56.839 --> 0:06:59.520 that they ended up having to fire me because I 0:06:59.640 --> 0:07:03.640 really wasn't good and I made some quite bad mistakes. 0:07:03.720 --> 0:07:09.000 I'm just thinking of free on below. Dam Bri. I'm sorry. 0:07:09.279 --> 0:07:13.880 Your lack of experience shows in you not being aware 0:07:14.120 --> 0:07:15.280 how a both works. 0:07:15.760 --> 0:07:18.520 So they had to fire me. And in this firing 0:07:18.640 --> 0:07:21.880 you're like, why is this impacting you in a good way? 0:07:22.160 --> 0:07:25.000 Being fired? Marcelo said to me. 0:07:25.440 --> 0:07:28.680 Firstly, they wrote it off as a redundancy, so they 0:07:28.720 --> 0:07:32.960 a gave me a redundancy payout I didn't deserve or 0:07:33.040 --> 0:07:35.200 they didn't need to give me. I'd been their lesson. 0:07:34.920 --> 0:07:36.880 A year out of will that they literally, out of the. 0:07:36.840 --> 0:07:39.840 Goodness of their heart, they gave me a redundancy package 0:07:39.960 --> 0:07:41.840 and they passed off as a redundancy so I'd find 0:07:41.840 --> 0:07:43.520 it easier to get another job rather than having to 0:07:43.520 --> 0:07:46.800 say I'd been fired. And he sat me down, and 0:07:46.840 --> 0:07:49.000 he was like, I want to help you. And I 0:07:49.120 --> 0:07:52.280 was too stubborn and young and upset and embarrassed to 0:07:52.280 --> 0:07:55.080 take him up on it. But he was like, you 0:07:55.920 --> 0:08:00.160 are so passionate that when you figure out what you 0:08:00.200 --> 0:08:03.160 want to do, you're going to be so good at it. 0:08:03.320 --> 0:08:05.160 Yeah. Yeah, I know you're. 0:08:04.960 --> 0:08:06.720 Going to be successful with what you decide that you 0:08:06.720 --> 0:08:10.360 want to do. It's not this, yeah, but I just 0:08:10.400 --> 0:08:12.440 want you to know that, like, you're just so passionate 0:08:12.440 --> 0:08:14.760 that you just need to figure it out. And it's 0:08:14.800 --> 0:08:18.320 just really stayed with me because he was so right, 0:08:18.560 --> 0:08:20.440 and I it wasn't the first job that I had 0:08:20.440 --> 0:08:23.360 that I wasn't very good at, but I just think 0:08:23.400 --> 0:08:28.600 that having people like that, and also as a manager, 0:08:29.600 --> 0:08:33.800 you need to think about the person. I don't know 0:08:33.840 --> 0:08:35.640 what I'm trying to say, it's just that made an 0:08:35.640 --> 0:08:37.200 impact on me. And he wouldn't even remember me because 0:08:37.200 --> 0:08:38.280 I didn't work there for long. 0:08:38.480 --> 0:08:40.640 No, you're right, because it's probably the first time that 0:08:40.679 --> 0:08:44.360 someone ever said to you you're capable, but you're shit 0:08:44.520 --> 0:08:46.560 at this at this, but when you find what you're 0:08:46.679 --> 0:08:48.600 really good at, you're going to be And it was. 0:08:48.600 --> 0:08:50.600 Just really good advice. As well, that just because you're 0:08:50.600 --> 0:08:51.840 not good at this doesn't mean you're not going to 0:08:51.840 --> 0:08:54.640 be good at something else. And having belief in someone 0:08:54.679 --> 0:08:57.040 that much as well, someone that's not good at what 0:08:57.080 --> 0:08:58.800 you hired them to do, Well, that's the thing. 0:08:58.960 --> 0:09:01.559 Saying like we're fine ring you and then actually taking 0:09:01.600 --> 0:09:03.840 the time to give you some feedback. 0:09:03.920 --> 0:09:05.679 That's very rare. 0:09:06.520 --> 0:09:08.800 Just cost some money. They were like, when you come 0:09:08.880 --> 0:09:11.560 back next week to like pick up your shit, we'd 0:09:11.600 --> 0:09:14.280 love to like sit down with you. Who are our contacts, 0:09:14.320 --> 0:09:16.080 who can we help you meet? Set up coffees with. 0:09:16.160 --> 0:09:18.040 That's what they wanted to do for me. They were 0:09:18.120 --> 0:09:23.880 the best people my solo on Malcolm Great, great chaps, Eminem, Yeah, Eminem, listen. 0:09:23.880 --> 0:09:26.800 They're definitely not shitters as they are middle aged white men. 0:09:26.920 --> 0:09:29.680 So maybe it was from them I got my confidence 0:09:29.679 --> 0:09:30.920 of a middle aged white man. 0:09:30.960 --> 0:09:32.080 So true. 0:09:32.480 --> 0:09:34.680 All right, I'm up, and I'm just gonna get this 0:09:34.760 --> 0:09:36.040 question out of the way. I feel like I need 0:09:36.120 --> 0:09:38.800 some control over it, because when you sent this roll, 0:09:38.800 --> 0:09:40.520 I was like, oh. 0:09:40.200 --> 0:09:41.520 You could have just said that you didn't want to 0:09:41.520 --> 0:09:42.000 answer it. 0:09:42.120 --> 0:09:43.880 No, I think I think it's good to answer. I 0:09:43.920 --> 0:09:45.719 think I can work through something here. And figure out 0:09:45.720 --> 0:09:46.200 what it might be. 0:09:47.080 --> 0:09:49.199 What do you think people would say about you behind 0:09:49.240 --> 0:09:49.600 your back? 0:09:49.720 --> 0:09:49.920 Oh? 0:09:50.000 --> 0:09:53.120 My god, yeah, you're like, oh blah blah like you. 0:09:53.320 --> 0:09:54.200 I couldn't kill it me. 0:09:54.280 --> 0:09:56.720 I'm like rocking back and what would they say? 0:09:56.880 --> 0:09:59.240 I love this question. They actually ask this question on 0:09:59.280 --> 0:10:02.880 The Imperfect. Oh. I love that podcast, and that's what 0:10:02.960 --> 0:10:04.280 made me want to put it in here. I just 0:10:04.640 --> 0:10:08.600 I love this question so much. I think that people 0:10:08.679 --> 0:10:10.800 would say she's wildly unhinged. 0:10:11.520 --> 0:10:13.600 Yeah, but you say that anyway, Yeah, I do tell 0:10:13.640 --> 0:10:13.880 me something. 0:10:14.120 --> 0:10:16.840 It was so funny because we were talking with some 0:10:16.880 --> 0:10:19.320 of my girlfriends. We found out, like this other girlfriend 0:10:19.320 --> 0:10:20.880 she loves to have a bitch every now and then 0:10:20.880 --> 0:10:23.120 she bitches about everyone. And we were just laughing because 0:10:23.120 --> 0:10:26.280 we were like, oh, what's worse to say about us? 0:10:26.280 --> 0:10:28.000 And I'm like, oh, I know what everyone would say 0:10:28.000 --> 0:10:29.800 about me. And then my girlfriend Belle was like that 0:10:29.840 --> 0:10:32.319 you're a cranky bitch, and I'm like, obviously. 0:10:32.000 --> 0:10:33.560 Yeah, I'm so moody. 0:10:34.080 --> 0:10:36.520 So people just bitch about how moody I am. I 0:10:36.559 --> 0:10:40.280 know how annoying it is. But it's also funny because 0:10:40.480 --> 0:10:42.760 I'm so aware of it, and I know that everyone 0:10:42.760 --> 0:10:45.560 around me is so aware. So I know that if 0:10:45.600 --> 0:10:47.720 I go on a girl's weekend, some of the girls 0:10:47.760 --> 0:10:50.360 will bitch about me for being a moody bitch. That's okay. 0:10:50.840 --> 0:10:53.679 I deserve to be bitched about for being a moody bitch. Yeah. 0:10:53.679 --> 0:10:57.600 People would say that I'm very obnoxious and annoying, which 0:10:57.720 --> 0:11:00.440 I am. I don't know if you hadn't, if you 0:11:00.480 --> 0:11:01.840 don't know me, I'm obnoxious. 0:11:02.000 --> 0:11:05.280 I thought you're loud. I'm not saying that this is true. 0:11:05.640 --> 0:11:09.960 However, I am. I am very cranky. I can sometimes 0:11:09.960 --> 0:11:11.360 be a bit ob nonxious and annoying. 0:11:11.520 --> 0:11:13.199 Everyone can. Ye, Yeah, I'll give it to you. I'll 0:11:13.200 --> 0:11:15.880 give it to you, and that's pretty much it. 0:11:16.080 --> 0:11:19.640 I'm pretty much afect otherwise, doesne I do things? 0:11:19.760 --> 0:11:21.640 Oh? Actually, I do think some people probably think I'm 0:11:21.720 --> 0:11:24.120 stupid and might say that I'm stupid. Oh okay, But 0:11:24.240 --> 0:11:26.520 once again, I just think that's funny. Yeah, because you're not, 0:11:26.640 --> 0:11:28.880 because I know that I'm not, and I'm a little 0:11:28.920 --> 0:11:32.120 bit arrogant. I actually I am very arrogant. 0:11:32.400 --> 0:11:33.720 I was like, that's a good one. 0:11:34.200 --> 0:11:35.760 But I don't think people would say that about me 0:11:36.760 --> 0:11:39.319 because they don't. Is it arrogant or is it confidence 0:11:39.480 --> 0:11:42.640 not arrogant? With like my intelligence, I think I'm probably 0:11:42.679 --> 0:11:45.720 a little bit arrogant. It's only in my favor totally, 0:11:45.720 --> 0:11:47.800 because I will walk into a situation and know that 0:11:47.880 --> 0:11:51.240 people are probably like, oh, this chick is blonde with 0:11:51.280 --> 0:11:55.520 a big fake titties. Oh, but I think, well, I 0:11:55.679 --> 0:11:58.360 know that I'm smarter than a lot of those people. 0:11:58.640 --> 0:12:02.400 Yeah, yeah, that makes sense. It's arrogance, that's arrogance. Yeah, 0:12:02.760 --> 0:12:04.400 but that's confidence slash arrogance. 0:12:04.480 --> 0:12:04.680 Yeah. 0:12:04.760 --> 0:12:07.720 Yeah, you tell me what you think people would say 0:12:07.760 --> 0:12:09.760 about you. Maybe I'll think of some more things. 0:12:09.840 --> 0:12:12.440 Cut at the moment, I'm like, I can't imagine people 0:12:12.440 --> 0:12:14.839 would have that much bad things to say about me. 0:12:15.200 --> 0:12:18.440 I remember the specific day that I realized that people 0:12:18.520 --> 0:12:19.800 would be bitching about. 0:12:19.600 --> 0:12:23.079 Me, Like I know, I know, like obviously it gets 0:12:23.120 --> 0:12:25.680 bitched about all the time, obviously, but all the time. 0:12:25.720 --> 0:12:26.920 But I had never considered it. 0:12:27.000 --> 0:12:28.640 So I was like with a friend and we're having 0:12:28.679 --> 0:12:31.120 a little bit about someone, and then I just went 0:12:31.160 --> 0:12:33.240 in my head people about me? 0:12:33.400 --> 0:12:35.760 What would they say? And I was just like, oh, no, 0:12:36.080 --> 0:12:38.080 never think about that again. Put that out of the head. 0:12:38.320 --> 0:12:41.040 So were so funny when the question kept was like 0:12:41.200 --> 0:12:43.480 oh no, what's going You're like, now I've got to 0:12:43.559 --> 0:12:44.319 think about it, and now. 0:12:44.240 --> 0:12:46.680 I'm going to think about it. I think people would 0:12:46.760 --> 0:12:49.640 say that I'm like hot and cold. 0:12:50.000 --> 0:12:52.400 I think people would say that you overthink everything. 0:12:52.679 --> 0:12:55.040 Yeah, well that's no do I overthink everything? 0:12:55.120 --> 0:12:57.640 But I think hot and cold is one because I 0:12:57.800 --> 0:13:00.559 feel like, isn't that the same as moody or a 0:13:00.720 --> 0:13:01.560 slow burn? 0:13:01.920 --> 0:13:04.880 Oh definitely, Like I see, definitely, I'll tell you what 0:13:04.960 --> 0:13:07.760 people say by I'll tell you what I said behind 0:13:07.800 --> 0:13:08.120 your back. 0:13:08.840 --> 0:13:11.720 Well, I'm just like I don't open up easily to people. 0:13:11.880 --> 0:13:15.440 I like to put them through a few hurdles. 0:13:15.320 --> 0:13:18.520 Not necessarily me making them do things like but watching 0:13:18.640 --> 0:13:21.240 them feeling like I can trust them or let them 0:13:21.280 --> 0:13:23.520 into like my inner circle or yeah, you know that 0:13:23.679 --> 0:13:25.760 kind of thing. So I think slow burn may be 0:13:25.800 --> 0:13:26.800 a bit hot and cold. 0:13:27.280 --> 0:13:32.040 Definitely bitching though that's just a personality trait, okay, which 0:13:32.120 --> 0:13:34.839 is just that's also just like common, Like I say 0:13:34.920 --> 0:13:37.199 all the time when someone's like, oh my god, he 0:13:37.320 --> 0:13:39.079 was so funny on that episode, I'm like, fuck people, 0:13:39.400 --> 0:13:41.839 if you're not a regular listener or you don't know 0:13:41.960 --> 0:13:43.920 key that, well, you don't know how funny she is, 0:13:45.400 --> 0:13:47.000 I wouldn't be friends with I wouldn't work with her 0:13:47.000 --> 0:13:47.920 if she wasn't hilarious. 0:13:47.960 --> 0:13:48.320 Obviously. 0:13:48.440 --> 0:13:51.480 Obviously, I think people would say that I'm a little 0:13:51.520 --> 0:13:59.480 bit negative, so negative every time I leave Lucy Friend 0:13:59.520 --> 0:14:02.079 of the Pods after we've done a record, I'll just 0:14:02.160 --> 0:14:04.040 be like, I'm gonna do better next time. 0:14:04.040 --> 0:14:06.000 I promise not to be so negative. I'm just like 0:14:06.080 --> 0:14:08.840 a negative Nancy. I am a little bit n negg. 0:14:09.120 --> 0:14:11.320 I'm on the nag train too. 0:14:12.520 --> 0:14:15.920 Do you really care? Though, I'd be like, well, it's truth, 0:14:16.080 --> 0:14:18.160 and also, you know what, Lucy will give you seven 0:14:18.240 --> 0:14:20.240 years to your our age and then maybe you'll join 0:14:20.320 --> 0:14:22.840 us in our has a mystic. 0:14:22.640 --> 0:14:27.040 Yeah, a real deep dark sadness. 0:14:27.560 --> 0:14:30.720 I think people would say that maybe they might feel 0:14:30.760 --> 0:14:32.960 like a friendship is one sided or I don't make 0:14:32.960 --> 0:14:35.040 an effort, And it's not because I don't want to. 0:14:35.160 --> 0:14:37.800 It's because I when things are hard in my life, 0:14:37.920 --> 0:14:41.360 I tend to be very internal, kind of like close, 0:14:42.040 --> 0:14:44.000 and so that's one thing I'm always really conscious of 0:14:44.080 --> 0:14:46.440 as like, oh fuck, Like they probably. 0:14:46.200 --> 0:14:49.040 Just actually get you're so shit at keeping like on 0:14:49.160 --> 0:14:51.440 top of your comms and stuff. Oh my god, I'm 0:14:51.440 --> 0:14:53.920 not supposed to be validating you, whether positive or negative. 0:14:54.960 --> 0:14:58.840 You want to be neutral. You are shit. Actually, yes, yes, 0:14:58.960 --> 0:15:01.760 that's what you give me. You are arrogant. You are shit. 0:15:03.200 --> 0:15:05.200 But I think that's what people would think, or I 0:15:05.240 --> 0:15:08.400 would worry that they would say, oh, she thinks her 0:15:08.480 --> 0:15:10.920 time's more important. Oh, she never gets back to me, 0:15:11.280 --> 0:15:15.840 when really it's like, oh, I'm just so overwhelmed by 0:15:16.040 --> 0:15:18.120 life in general that for me, I just have to 0:15:18.200 --> 0:15:20.480 be like I need to focus on getting up. 0:15:20.440 --> 0:15:23.640 And moving in the morning. I can't think about anything else. 0:15:24.000 --> 0:15:27.600 You don't have capacity for anything else, yeah, like mental capacity. 0:15:27.720 --> 0:15:30.800 But I do feel bad because then like every two months, 0:15:30.840 --> 0:15:32.760 I'm like on the blow. 0:15:33.360 --> 0:15:37.840 Oh she's back, she's alive. Yeah, a little miss mooie. 0:15:43.120 --> 0:15:46.600 What legacy or impact would you like to leave behind 0:15:46.720 --> 0:15:49.560 in the world. How would you like to be remembered 0:15:49.720 --> 0:15:50.480 by others? 0:15:54.400 --> 0:15:56.000 I think just showing that. 0:15:56.320 --> 0:16:01.000 Like you can overcome things and that you really are 0:16:01.280 --> 0:16:03.160 kind of the master of your own destiny. 0:16:04.000 --> 0:16:08.120 Like I think, fuck you, you're so mean to me 0:16:08.400 --> 0:16:13.760 all the time, the master of your own destiny. Or 0:16:13.880 --> 0:16:16.320 I'm sorry, and I'll say it in a different way. 0:16:16.800 --> 0:16:19.880 To go get some crystals and will place them on you. 0:16:20.320 --> 0:16:24.720 I just mean that like I was not given anything 0:16:25.400 --> 0:16:28.360 on a platter. No, you know, like everything that's happened 0:16:28.480 --> 0:16:31.000 is because I made it happen. And it's something that 0:16:31.080 --> 0:16:34.200 someone pointed out to me recently, like you've made all 0:16:34.240 --> 0:16:35.240 these things happen. 0:16:35.160 --> 0:16:36.800 Like oh, yeah, you should be so proud. You did 0:16:36.880 --> 0:16:39.680 not have anyone legging you up in anything, and. 0:16:39.760 --> 0:16:43.440 Not even just like in an encouragement capacity, Like I 0:16:43.560 --> 0:16:46.240 think that I just through Like how I'd want her 0:16:46.320 --> 0:16:50.400 to remember me was that Mum really did that, Like 0:16:50.800 --> 0:16:53.600 everything that she laid, she did it like she made 0:16:53.640 --> 0:16:56.520 things happen, and like I can do that too, And 0:16:56.640 --> 0:16:58.280 that's what I think, like with the pod that we do, 0:16:58.600 --> 0:17:00.280 like we talk about all of the things that we 0:17:00.480 --> 0:17:01.520 go through as mums. 0:17:01.320 --> 0:17:03.840 But we get such nice messages when I said this morning, 0:17:04.880 --> 0:17:08.280 both cried about this feedback message this morning, so nice. 0:17:08.080 --> 0:17:10.160 And I think that's a legacy. Is like I gave 0:17:10.240 --> 0:17:11.280 it a crack and. 0:17:11.600 --> 0:17:14.639 I did my absolute best and sometimes it's amazing and 0:17:14.720 --> 0:17:17.439 sometimes it's just what I can do because there are 0:17:17.560 --> 0:17:20.680 people out there that just don't have the resources and 0:17:20.800 --> 0:17:24.440 things deduction, yeah to do things. So I think that 0:17:25.240 --> 0:17:27.200 I would want to be a role model for someone 0:17:27.280 --> 0:17:31.159 that maybe doesn't have that really big support system, like 0:17:31.359 --> 0:17:33.760 to be like okay, well you know, because that's how 0:17:33.800 --> 0:17:37.040 I feel about like makeup artists and entrepreneur Hillary Homes. 0:17:37.080 --> 0:17:39.040 She was like the first person I ever heard publicly 0:17:39.080 --> 0:17:40.840 talk about being a strange from her parents. And I 0:17:40.960 --> 0:17:44.719 was just like, Wow, that's incredible and has success and amazing. 0:17:44.880 --> 0:17:46.760 She's like a really successful makeup artist. She has her 0:17:46.760 --> 0:17:47.520 own makeup brand. 0:17:47.520 --> 0:17:49.600 Shout out to Hillary, we need to pop the link 0:17:49.640 --> 0:17:52.200 in the show notes because every single product of hers 0:17:52.359 --> 0:17:54.000 is incredible, so good. 0:17:54.080 --> 0:17:57.080 And I just think that like me, And all I 0:17:57.160 --> 0:18:00.320 did was got her Blush launch and heard her talk right, 0:18:00.440 --> 0:18:02.240 and I was like wow. And then I followed her 0:18:02.280 --> 0:18:03.520