WEBVTT - Teresa Palmer And The 10 Page Letter That Changed Her Life 0:00:10.365 --> 0:00:15.005 You're listening to a MoMA Mia podcast. Mamma Maya acknowledges 0:00:15.045 --> 0:00:17.645 the traditional owners of land and waters that this podcast 0:00:17.765 --> 0:00:19.925 is recorded on. It's nice to fall in love with 0:00:19.965 --> 0:00:23.805 a person's way rather than just like the way they look, 0:00:23.925 --> 0:00:27.365 or sexual chemistry or whatever. It was just like a 0:00:27.605 --> 0:00:30.965 really deep understanding of each other before we even were 0:00:31.005 --> 0:00:32.565 in person for the first time. 0:00:40.525 --> 0:00:45.525 Hi, I'm Kate Lanebrook. Welcome to No Filter. Teresa Palmer 0:00:45.805 --> 0:00:49.365 is an open book in the most generous, heartfelt way, 0:00:49.765 --> 0:00:53.125 whether she's sharing stories on her podcast, The Mother Days 0:00:53.685 --> 0:00:56.965 or offering wisdom through her best selling book, The Zen 0:00:57.125 --> 0:01:00.605 Mama Guide to Finding Your Rhythm in Pregnancy, Birth and Beyond. 0:01:01.405 --> 0:01:02.805 Teresa has a. 0:01:02.725 --> 0:01:06.205 Remarkable way of letting you into her world. And what 0:01:06.245 --> 0:01:10.965 a world it is, a whirlwind of creativity, chaos, and love. 0:01:11.565 --> 0:01:16.205 Her family a traveling circus. Her words not mine, but 0:01:16.325 --> 0:01:18.845 she does. She's got a big family, She's got lots 0:01:18.845 --> 0:01:23.605 of projects and deeply personal experiences that she's never been 0:01:23.645 --> 0:01:27.645 afraid to share. In this special bonus episode of No Filter, 0:01:28.125 --> 0:01:31.285 Teresa sits down with our head of Entertainment, Laura Brodnick, 0:01:31.725 --> 0:01:35.565 to talk about her latest role in the Last anniversary, 0:01:36.085 --> 0:01:39.805 which is a great show, but the conversation quickly becomes 0:01:39.885 --> 0:01:42.485 so much more than that. With her heart firmly on 0:01:42.565 --> 0:01:45.885 her sleeve, Teresa opens up about the village of women 0:01:45.965 --> 0:01:50.165 who've helped her balance a thriving career with motherhood. She 0:01:50.325 --> 0:01:53.605 reflects on the deep female friendships that keep her grounded 0:01:54.325 --> 0:01:57.485 and the story of how she met her now husband Mark, 0:01:58.205 --> 0:02:03.605 after writing a ten page manifestation letter to the universe, 0:02:04.965 --> 0:02:10.005 let's get scribbling. She's a dreamer, a doer, and above all, 0:02:10.485 --> 0:02:11.885 someone who leads with heart. 0:02:12.445 --> 0:02:13.965 This is Teresa Palmer. 0:02:15.485 --> 0:02:18.685 Well, Teresa Palmer, Welcome to Mama MEA thank you. 0:02:19.005 --> 0:02:21.965 I have been a big fan OFS for a very 0:02:22.005 --> 0:02:22.405 long time. 0:02:22.445 --> 0:02:24.445 Oh look, every softime we see you like our Instagram 0:02:24.445 --> 0:02:26.085 post and we do get quite excited because we're a 0:02:26.125 --> 0:02:27.205 big fan of yours as well. 0:02:27.405 --> 0:02:29.365 I'm I legit, I am a super fan. 0:02:29.485 --> 0:02:31.965 And I've listened to so many of the podcasts, the 0:02:32.045 --> 0:02:35.285 True Crime podcast I've listened to every episode. 0:02:35.445 --> 0:02:36.965 Oh I'm really. 0:02:36.725 --> 0:02:39.925 Caught up ringing in doors. So last time I saw 0:02:39.965 --> 0:02:42.565 you you was last night walking the red carp at 0:02:42.605 --> 0:02:44.965 the State Theater, up on stage with just a casual 0:02:45.045 --> 0:02:48.285 Leanne Moriarty to your right, launching your new series in 0:02:48.325 --> 0:02:50.925 a beautiful gown, full hair and makeup, And I wanted 0:02:50.925 --> 0:02:52.485 to ask you about the logistics of that because I 0:02:52.485 --> 0:02:55.245 know you have four children at home and another on 0:02:55.325 --> 0:02:58.245 the way. Yes, when you're doing these big traveling press stays, 0:02:58.285 --> 0:02:59.645 what are the logistics of that? Do you get to 0:02:59.645 --> 0:03:02.725 go and be in a hotel room by yourself for Oh okay, great, 0:03:02.765 --> 0:03:03.445 tell me about. 0:03:04.765 --> 0:03:09.445 So I'm actually expecting our sixth baby because I have 0:03:09.445 --> 0:03:11.485 a step son as well, who was there last night. 0:03:11.605 --> 0:03:15.085 Oh lovely, Isaac Raicht Isaac exactly. He's about to be 0:03:15.165 --> 0:03:17.645 seventeen and he lives in America most of the time. 0:03:17.685 --> 0:03:20.925 He's at a very academic high school, so he doesn't 0:03:20.965 --> 0:03:23.925 get to venture to Australia that often. But it just 0:03:24.005 --> 0:03:26.365 so happened that he flew in the day of the premiere. 0:03:26.365 --> 0:03:29.045 So I was like, right, you're coming with me, first 0:03:29.085 --> 0:03:32.205 time on the red carpet with him and the boys. 0:03:32.325 --> 0:03:35.645 But we just decided we're a bit of a traveling circus. 0:03:35.725 --> 0:03:39.925 So when we work away, Mark's working away at the moment, 0:03:40.245 --> 0:03:42.605 he's here in Sydney, but we live in Byron Bay, 0:03:43.365 --> 0:03:45.325 so we just thought if I'm going to be in Sydney, 0:03:45.365 --> 0:03:48.125 Mark's gonna be working in Sydney, Isaac's flying into Sydney. 0:03:48.285 --> 0:03:50.645 Let's just take the whole crew. So I had all 0:03:50.685 --> 0:03:54.725 the kids. I had to just ring a local nanny 0:03:54.765 --> 0:03:59.685 agency right to be with the little girls because I 0:03:59.725 --> 0:04:02.525 knew the show wasn't probably appropriate for them. 0:04:02.565 --> 0:04:03.365 They're five and three. 0:04:03.525 --> 0:04:05.165 Yeah, maybe not that first episode, I know. 0:04:05.365 --> 0:04:07.925 I was like even my eight year old when there's 0:04:07.925 --> 0:04:09.725 the scene that I make out with when he was 0:04:09.765 --> 0:04:10.445 like ooh. 0:04:10.685 --> 0:04:12.965 Oh rosum and I was like, oh, I'm so sorry, 0:04:12.965 --> 0:04:13.925 I forgot about that part. 0:04:14.325 --> 0:04:18.205 But we have yeah, we have three rooms, hotel rooms. 0:04:18.245 --> 0:04:20.245 Isaac's about to be seventeen, He's got his own room. 0:04:20.405 --> 0:04:24.605 And then we have to do adjoining rooms, suitcases everywhere. 0:04:25.165 --> 0:04:28.045 Kids on one side, well, the boys on one side, 0:04:28.085 --> 0:04:30.045 the girls in the bed with Mark and I with 0:04:30.085 --> 0:04:32.925 a trundle bed, and it's musical beds, like all night, 0:04:33.165 --> 0:04:36.085 everyone's moving into a different bed at some point. My 0:04:36.165 --> 0:04:38.405 husband ended up on the single bed last night and 0:04:38.445 --> 0:04:40.085 I had three kids in my bed. 0:04:40.685 --> 0:04:42.285 Anyway, that's the way it is. 0:04:42.205 --> 0:04:44.565 Like's not a glamorous lead, and in the best possible way, 0:04:44.605 --> 0:04:46.005 I'm bring them all with you. 0:04:46.045 --> 0:04:49.365 No, it's just that's how we figure it out, is 0:04:49.725 --> 0:04:52.205 we just make it work. Usually my mom's with us, 0:04:52.245 --> 0:04:54.885 so it's easier, but this time around she was back 0:04:54.925 --> 0:04:58.565 and Byron, so luckily I rang this nanny agency that 0:04:58.645 --> 0:05:02.645 I love and was like, do you have anyone available? Yeah? 0:05:02.885 --> 0:05:05.125 And I wanted to take you back to the beginning 0:05:05.125 --> 0:05:08.205 before we're walking these premieres and having these world premieres 0:05:08.245 --> 0:05:10.805 of your new show of growing up in Adelaide and 0:05:10.845 --> 0:05:13.125 I'm assuming in you know, a smaller town in Australia, 0:05:13.245 --> 0:05:15.805 so far removed from Hollywood, in that industry and that 0:05:15.885 --> 0:05:18.245 glam life. How do you go from a young girl 0:05:18.325 --> 0:05:20.845 living in Adelaide dreaming of that and I'm assuming just 0:05:20.845 --> 0:05:24.485 like you know, normal family, no famous relatives in the background, 0:05:24.845 --> 0:05:27.365 willing to step in or anything like that, how do 0:05:27.405 --> 0:05:29.445 you go from that to this career? What was the 0:05:29.445 --> 0:05:32.325 first kind of moment that moved you there? Well? 0:05:32.365 --> 0:05:36.525 So I grew up moving between two homes, actually three homes. 0:05:37.365 --> 0:05:42.805 My dad had two houses because my stepmom also has children, 0:05:42.925 --> 0:05:45.765 and so her kids would stay in one house and 0:05:46.205 --> 0:05:48.765 her and her ex husband would rotate to keep her 0:05:48.845 --> 0:05:51.325 sons in that house, so I would rotate with them, 0:05:51.685 --> 0:05:54.205 which meant that every second week I was in a 0:05:54.205 --> 0:05:57.765 different house with my dad, and then with my mom. 0:05:58.565 --> 0:06:01.325 We grew up in housing trust units and so we 0:06:01.445 --> 0:06:04.885 traveled a lot. She was on a disability pengine. So 0:06:04.925 --> 0:06:08.005 I will say that the dream felt quite far away. 0:06:08.525 --> 0:06:13.085 I couldn't see how the dream could be a reality, 0:06:13.885 --> 0:06:17.645 but I just kept plodding away at it. 0:06:17.685 --> 0:06:19.925 I just thought, all right, if this. 0:06:19.845 --> 0:06:22.085 Is my dream, And it sort of dawned on me 0:06:22.125 --> 0:06:24.445 at eight or nine that I wanted to do this. 0:06:24.525 --> 0:06:26.565 I watched a movie called a Little Princess. 0:06:26.925 --> 0:06:28.565 Oh yes, a classic. 0:06:28.205 --> 0:06:31.925 A classic Alfonso Curan. And back then, I don't know 0:06:31.965 --> 0:06:34.845 if you remember, but on the DVDs or the VHS, 0:06:35.445 --> 0:06:39.765 there'd always be this little like behind the scenes where 0:06:39.765 --> 0:06:41.125 they would do the making off. 0:06:40.965 --> 0:06:42.845 All the little featurettes, the featurettes. 0:06:43.045 --> 0:06:46.245 Yeah, And I saw the featurette and saw this little 0:06:46.245 --> 0:06:49.365 girl on set and saw her like having all this 0:06:49.565 --> 0:06:53.125 fun and being, you know, on camera and playing with 0:06:53.165 --> 0:06:54.405 these other little girls, and. 0:06:54.325 --> 0:06:56.205 I was like, I want to do that. I want 0:06:56.245 --> 0:06:57.005 to be an actress. 0:06:57.405 --> 0:06:59.205 And that sort of planted the seed at such a 0:06:59.205 --> 0:07:01.245 young age, and I just banged on about it for 0:07:01.285 --> 0:07:03.525 so long to everyone who would listen, I'm going to 0:07:03.525 --> 0:07:04.085 be an actress. 0:07:04.165 --> 0:07:05.485 Yeah, I'm going to be in Hollywood. 0:07:05.485 --> 0:07:07.365 I'm going to be represented by the same agent as 0:07:07.445 --> 0:07:08.205 Nicole Kidman. 0:07:08.565 --> 0:07:09.725 That was like my statement. 0:07:10.285 --> 0:07:12.765 And then eventually I convinced my dad to give me 0:07:12.885 --> 0:07:17.245 acting lessons and he said he would do it, and 0:07:17.325 --> 0:07:20.085 so he paid for me to have acting lessons at 0:07:20.085 --> 0:07:23.285 a local acting agency. When I was sixteen. Wow, and 0:07:23.405 --> 0:07:26.365 I just started auditioning for things. And I always say 0:07:26.365 --> 0:07:28.685 this to people who want to get into the film industry. 0:07:29.245 --> 0:07:31.965 I was yes, and I was like, there is a 0:07:32.045 --> 0:07:35.325 student film. I'm not getting paid any money. Cool, I'm 0:07:35.365 --> 0:07:37.485 just going to go and have that experience. Like, oh, 0:07:37.485 --> 0:07:39.605 there's a tiny little short film, I'm going to go 0:07:39.645 --> 0:07:42.205 on star in that. And I did so many of 0:07:42.245 --> 0:07:45.965 those experiences. And then I was an extra on a 0:07:45.965 --> 0:07:50.365 bigger movie, Wolf Creek, which is one of Australia's. 0:07:49.925 --> 0:07:51.485 Another conic in a different way. 0:07:51.405 --> 0:07:53.085 Yeah, iconic horror films. 0:07:53.165 --> 0:07:57.005 And I was pool party person in the background and 0:07:57.085 --> 0:08:00.765 I remember being there watching everyone and watching Nathan Phillips 0:08:00.805 --> 0:08:03.285 and this the lead actress. Her name was Kesty Morassy 0:08:03.965 --> 0:08:07.805 and she was so brilliant. She was so brave she 0:08:07.885 --> 0:08:12.605 had to act drunk. Remember watching her as an extra, thinking, oh, 0:08:12.645 --> 0:08:16.605 she's not embarrassed, she's just out there, she's trying things. 0:08:16.605 --> 0:08:19.125 She's so big and bold and like, look at her 0:08:19.205 --> 0:08:20.645 go so uninhibited. 0:08:20.685 --> 0:08:21.965 And she was really excellent. 0:08:22.725 --> 0:08:25.925 And the first ad at the time would sort of tell. 0:08:25.725 --> 0:08:26.605 The extras what to. 0:08:26.525 --> 0:08:30.325 Do, and I didn't listen, and I thought, in fact, 0:08:30.445 --> 0:08:31.925 I want to get in front of the camera, like 0:08:32.085 --> 0:08:34.845 I'm going to start splashing lead guy and Nathan Phillips 0:08:35.245 --> 0:08:37.965 in the background and try and get on camera. And 0:08:38.005 --> 0:08:40.685 so you actually see me kind of in the background, 0:08:41.325 --> 0:08:43.485 leave the spot I was meant to be standing in 0:08:43.605 --> 0:08:46.565 like way way far back, and I come and I 0:08:46.565 --> 0:08:48.965 start interacting with the lead guy and I actually ended 0:08:49.045 --> 0:08:51.085 up using it and I'm splashing him. And there have 0:08:51.165 --> 0:08:55.285 been some sleuths who have found images of me, like 0:08:55.405 --> 0:08:59.325 screenshotted images of me in Wolf Creek as poor party 0:08:59.365 --> 0:09:02.205 person number one. And that was it, Like I saw 0:09:02.245 --> 0:09:04.565 that I was on that set and I was like, 0:09:04.965 --> 0:09:07.005 this is it. This is what I am doing for 0:09:07.005 --> 0:09:09.845 the rest of my life. And yeah, and I continued 0:09:09.885 --> 0:09:12.325 doing extra work and eventually I did I said yes, 0:09:12.325 --> 0:09:15.645 to a student film. The premiered at cann at the 0:09:15.685 --> 0:09:19.765 Camp Festival, and that is where it all started. But 0:09:19.845 --> 0:09:23.725 if I had not said yes to this little student film, 0:09:24.245 --> 0:09:28.045 it would have been a much more difficult journey to 0:09:28.125 --> 0:09:30.125 get to where I am, right. 0:09:30.005 --> 0:09:32.485 Because that film had quite a bit of international acclaim 0:09:32.565 --> 0:09:34.405 and got a lot of attention. Is that how you 0:09:34.405 --> 0:09:37.205 were able to get your agents in America and stuff? 0:09:37.445 --> 0:09:39.165 And I've heard you tell a story where you walked 0:09:39.205 --> 0:09:41.525 in and said, I really want to do this. I 0:09:41.565 --> 0:09:43.885 love acting, but I'm going to be a mom. And 0:09:44.605 --> 0:09:46.885 it's really nice. I didn't turn your way because in 0:09:46.885 --> 0:09:49.925 some places they'd say, well, if you're not completely committed, 0:09:49.925 --> 0:09:50.925 which obviously you were. 0:09:51.685 --> 0:09:55.085 Well it was just it was my truth. And I 0:09:55.085 --> 0:09:57.965 think because I was nineteen and I was just bold 0:09:58.005 --> 0:10:02.125 and brave, and I just landed in America. I just 0:10:02.565 --> 0:10:06.445 got with this incredible manager. His name's David Seltzer. I'm 0:10:06.485 --> 0:10:09.365 still with him today, and he really believed in me. 0:10:09.405 --> 0:10:11.565 And I really had only done at that point this 0:10:11.605 --> 0:10:14.805 little student film, and I had booked what I had 0:10:15.485 --> 0:10:19.005 and Churchill Brown from Shanahan, who was in fact Nicole 0:10:19.085 --> 0:10:23.885 Kimman's agent. Oh wow, Yes, she really took a punt 0:10:23.925 --> 0:10:27.485 on me at such a young age and decided to 0:10:27.525 --> 0:10:29.685 sign me at Shanahan, which was the biggest agency in 0:10:29.685 --> 0:10:32.565 Australia at the time and the most powerful, exciting one. 0:10:33.245 --> 0:10:36.805 And she sort of sent me to la for rehearsals 0:10:36.805 --> 0:10:38.965 for this little Australian movie I did, and that's where 0:10:38.965 --> 0:10:41.485 I met my manager who had seen me at kenn 0:10:41.605 --> 0:10:44.085 and he took me around to all these big agencies. 0:10:44.085 --> 0:10:47.405 I decided to sign with the Willie Morris agency and 0:10:47.605 --> 0:10:51.365 I signed with Scarlett Johanson's agent at the time. His 0:10:51.445 --> 0:10:54.205 name was Scott Lambert. So Scott brings me into this 0:10:54.245 --> 0:10:57.045 big boardroom to meet all the part all the partners, 0:10:57.085 --> 0:11:01.205 like the biggest, most senior agents at this agency, and 0:11:01.725 --> 0:11:04.085 they kind of just hand the mic over to you. 0:11:04.125 --> 0:11:07.125 They're just like, here she is talk about yourself to 0:11:07.165 --> 0:11:10.365 this boardroom of people. And I was quite nervos nineteen 0:11:10.405 --> 0:11:12.405 and I was like, Hi, I just want to let 0:11:12.445 --> 0:11:15.605 you all know this is very exciting and all I'm 0:11:15.725 --> 0:11:20.805 really proud of this opportunity and I have to just 0:11:20.845 --> 0:11:23.805 give your heads up though that my real passion is 0:11:23.885 --> 0:11:27.525 motherhood and I'm planning on having six children and it 0:11:27.645 --> 0:11:29.445 was like dead silent. 0:11:30.045 --> 0:11:31.365 And they all thought it was a joke. They were 0:11:31.445 --> 0:11:32.285 kind of looking at each other. 0:11:32.205 --> 0:11:34.565 Like, oh, she's doing it aha, like. 0:11:34.885 --> 0:11:38.805 Lol, And then my manager's like, no, she's actually serious, 0:11:38.885 --> 0:11:40.645 like she's just letting you know she wants to. 0:11:40.605 --> 0:11:42.205 Be a mom as well. And I don't know what 0:11:42.285 --> 0:11:42.645 it was. 0:11:42.805 --> 0:11:44.805 I just thought I should announce it at the time, 0:11:45.085 --> 0:11:47.525 let them all know. But at least I planted that 0:11:47.565 --> 0:11:49.805 seed early on, and so I was never met with 0:11:49.925 --> 0:11:55.765 any real disappointment. That's prosative agents, and I'm perpetually pregnant, 0:11:55.805 --> 0:11:58.325 like I'm all, I will not stop having babies. 0:11:58.365 --> 0:12:01.525 So for them it's a little bit like, oh, she's 0:12:01.645 --> 0:12:02.325 pregnant again. 0:12:02.405 --> 0:12:03.125 Here we go again. 0:12:03.165 --> 0:12:04.765 But you could give them a heads up so they 0:12:04.805 --> 0:12:05.805 can't say anything about that. 0:12:05.925 --> 0:12:08.125 I was like, you know who you signed. I mean, 0:12:08.165 --> 0:12:11.045 I told you from day But do you know what 0:12:11.165 --> 0:12:14.325 a great blessing to be able to do both things? 0:12:14.525 --> 0:12:14.845 Yeah? 0:12:14.885 --> 0:12:17.685 Exactly, to live out both dreams and I get to 0:12:17.725 --> 0:12:21.245 do this in tandem. I don't have to give up 0:12:22.125 --> 0:12:25.885 either of them. And I did think after my first child, 0:12:25.965 --> 0:12:26.765 I thought. 0:12:26.965 --> 0:12:27.645 Well, this is it. 0:12:27.685 --> 0:12:30.685 The opportunities will dry up, and that's okay. I'm so 0:12:30.765 --> 0:12:33.845 fulfilled in what I'm doing, and even if I get 0:12:33.885 --> 0:12:36.885 to go and do one job every couple of years, 0:12:36.885 --> 0:12:38.485 I'll still be really grateful for that. 0:12:39.325 --> 0:12:41.885 And I found that I actually had the opposite fact. 0:12:42.085 --> 0:12:46.805 Really, my career really started gaining momentum after I had kids. 0:12:46.725 --> 0:12:48.565 Which so interesting. Do you know if there was a 0:12:48.565 --> 0:12:51.365 correlation there Is there something like that you're putting into 0:12:51.445 --> 0:12:54.005 your work, or is there something maybe like a depth 0:12:54.205 --> 0:12:56.485 of characters you get into when you were talking to directors, 0:12:56.525 --> 0:12:58.805 because you do hear these horror stories, not just in 0:12:58.845 --> 0:13:00.845 the film industry. I think every woman at the moment 0:13:00.925 --> 0:13:03.925 is in that crossroads of like it's career or parenthood. 0:13:04.045 --> 0:13:07.805 Well, I did have that anxiety that, oh, this is it, 0:13:07.845 --> 0:13:10.285 and I chose to have kids right at the peak 0:13:10.325 --> 0:13:14.205 of my opportunity. So Warm Bodies had just come out, 0:13:14.285 --> 0:13:17.925 and it was such a big break for me internationally, 0:13:18.765 --> 0:13:21.525 and I was like, now it's haid to have a baby. 0:13:22.925 --> 0:13:29.285 Oh I was twenty seven. I think I was really nervous, 0:13:29.405 --> 0:13:33.965 But then suddenly all my eggs weren't in one basket. 0:13:34.645 --> 0:13:38.005 I was really fixated. 0:13:37.325 --> 0:13:41.565 And had such like an obsession with this dream I 0:13:41.565 --> 0:13:44.325 had wanted my whole life to be a mum and 0:13:44.445 --> 0:13:47.365 something that my nana, who's like a was always such 0:13:47.405 --> 0:13:50.365 a great mentor for me. She had eight children. She 0:13:50.485 --> 0:13:53.365 was like, right before she passed away, she said, I 0:13:53.445 --> 0:13:58.005 know that acting is so exciting, and I know that 0:13:58.085 --> 0:13:59.565 you are going to reach. 0:13:59.405 --> 0:14:01.085 All of those goals. 0:14:01.725 --> 0:14:03.765 But knowing you and knowing who you are and the 0:14:03.805 --> 0:14:07.405 spirit of you, like you your true your truest dream 0:14:07.485 --> 0:14:09.165 is to be a mother. And I was like, You're 0:14:09.205 --> 0:14:12.965 so right. And once I had that baby, it was 0:14:13.045 --> 0:14:17.885 like everything was for him, about him, it was it 0:14:17.925 --> 0:14:22.285 was everything to me. And so suddenly the auditions weren't 0:14:22.725 --> 0:14:26.445 as scary or I didn't put too much stock in 0:14:26.565 --> 0:14:30.005 any of these things, whereas I think pre babies, it 0:14:30.125 --> 0:14:32.845 was like, this is all I have, This is the 0:14:32.885 --> 0:14:37.325 trajectory of my career. And I got really fixated on 0:14:37.605 --> 0:14:40.565 my career path. And then suddenly I was kind of like, 0:14:40.845 --> 0:14:43.245 I don't really care as much about that because I'm 0:14:43.245 --> 0:14:47.205 in this other season of my life and the opportunities 0:14:47.205 --> 0:14:49.965 started coming. And I think maybe the letting go of 0:14:50.005 --> 0:14:54.645 the control meant that maybe I was more present in 0:14:54.685 --> 0:14:55.885 the auditions or in the. 0:14:55.845 --> 0:14:57.925 Maybe because the nerves weren't there because it wasn't like 0:14:58.005 --> 0:15:00.485 life or death exactly. Yeah. 0:15:00.525 --> 0:15:04.965 Absolutely, And then I started booking these bigger and bigger jobs. Yeah, 0:15:04.965 --> 0:15:06.605 I was like, oh my god, I can just bring 0:15:06.645 --> 0:15:08.565 my baby. I can bring my baby with me and 0:15:08.645 --> 0:15:11.405 I can still can cotinue to breastfeed and have that relationship. 0:15:11.445 --> 0:15:16.405 And I will say that not everyone has afforded that opportunity. 0:15:17.085 --> 0:15:19.485 And I was able to bring my children to work 0:15:19.925 --> 0:15:24.325 and given the space to breastfeed on demand and to 0:15:24.405 --> 0:15:27.085 be and nurture my child and have my child there, 0:15:27.125 --> 0:15:29.325 and I understand what a luxury that is, and I 0:15:29.405 --> 0:15:32.085 don't take that for granted. And it's not afforded to 0:15:32.285 --> 0:15:36.285 all actors either. I mean, if you're sort of one 0:15:36.365 --> 0:15:39.965 of the lead actors or one of the supporting actors, 0:15:40.725 --> 0:15:44.205 you have a certain privilege that day players don't get, 0:15:44.245 --> 0:15:46.925 and that people who pop in here and there aren't 0:15:46.965 --> 0:15:50.005 afforded that same luxury. So I really recognize that too, 0:15:50.045 --> 0:15:51.925 and I'm careful when I talk about it because I 0:15:51.965 --> 0:15:54.005 want to really highlight that. 0:15:54.085 --> 0:15:56.005 I know that that's a rarity, yes, but also I 0:15:56.045 --> 0:15:58.285 think it's good to share different realities. Otherwise we're just 0:15:58.325 --> 0:16:00.285 looking at these very glossy pictures of people and thinking 0:16:00.365 --> 0:16:02.365 how are they doing that? That's why their life is 0:16:02.365 --> 0:16:04.245 different to mine. Is that something that you have written 0:16:04.285 --> 0:16:06.605 into a contract or you tell production beforehand, I'm going 0:16:06.645 --> 0:16:08.645 to have my kids there, I'm going to need to breastfeed. 0:16:08.685 --> 0:16:10.485 I'm assuming that's not on a schedule, so you need 0:16:10.525 --> 0:16:13.245 to be flexible with filming. Is that all set up beforehand? 0:16:14.005 --> 0:16:18.565 Not really. You do have meetings with producers and I 0:16:18.565 --> 0:16:22.925 always talk about it, and especially in those earlier days, 0:16:23.005 --> 0:16:27.965 mean I'm pregnant again, but my youngest is three, so 0:16:28.125 --> 0:16:30.685 she hasn't really been nursing on demand for a while, 0:16:31.085 --> 0:16:34.125 so things are a little bit different nowadays. But definitely 0:16:34.165 --> 0:16:38.165 in my contract, I have way more airfares than the 0:16:38.205 --> 0:16:40.645 majority of actors, so I've. 0:16:40.485 --> 0:16:41.525 Got to fly the whole family. 0:16:41.725 --> 0:16:44.805 Fly the whole family, or at least you know, they'll 0:16:44.845 --> 0:16:47.085 fly half of them and I fly the other half. 0:16:48.045 --> 0:16:49.805 So there are certain things like that which I. 0:16:49.725 --> 0:16:52.005 Thought it would mean that if they were picking out 0:16:52.045 --> 0:16:56.325 of two actors, I would be the less interesting choice, 0:16:56.405 --> 0:16:58.845 because it meant I'm more expensive because I have a 0:16:58.845 --> 0:17:03.405 big family, and also then the housing situation I need 0:17:03.485 --> 0:17:06.965 instead of just a hotel room for myself. I come 0:17:07.045 --> 0:17:11.045 with a housing need where like my mom lives with us, 0:17:11.405 --> 0:17:14.565 my husband, I've got all these kids, so usually I 0:17:14.605 --> 0:17:16.405 need at least a three We can make a three 0:17:16.405 --> 0:17:19.805 bedroom work three bedrooms? Who can make work? 0:17:20.325 --> 0:17:21.765 Four bedrooms is ideal? 0:17:22.725 --> 0:17:25.645 But yeah, so I thought all of that would go 0:17:25.725 --> 0:17:28.525 against me. And actually it's one of the reasons I'm 0:17:28.565 --> 0:17:31.525 so grateful to Bruna pap Andrea. She not only gave me, 0:17:31.565 --> 0:17:34.645 she's the producer of this show the last anniversary, and 0:17:34.685 --> 0:17:34.965 I know. 0:17:34.965 --> 0:17:36.685 She produced your show, Your Mom and Me. 0:17:36.805 --> 0:17:41.125 Yeah, but she has advocated for me and has been 0:17:41.125 --> 0:17:44.765 my biggest supporter, and she keeps hiring me no matter 0:17:44.765 --> 0:17:47.405 how many children I have. She keeps hiring me and 0:17:47.525 --> 0:17:51.365 encouraging others to do so too, And I'm truly grateful 0:17:51.405 --> 0:17:51.605 for that. 0:17:51.845 --> 0:17:53.645 Oh, that's a lovely side of the industry that you 0:17:53.645 --> 0:17:56.885 don't hear as much. That's very nice. Yeah, and you're 0:17:56.885 --> 0:18:00.005 talking about booking those first big roles those studio movies 0:18:00.085 --> 0:18:02.365 Warm Bodies, which I loved, by the way, I wanted 0:18:02.405 --> 0:18:04.685 to sort of know what was like in that moment 0:18:04.725 --> 0:18:07.165 when you're starting to book these blockbusters and you're starting 0:18:07.205 --> 0:18:09.965 to be catapulted this different part of fame. I remember 0:18:10.045 --> 0:18:12.245 when those movies were coming out and seeing photos on 0:18:12.285 --> 0:18:15.005 magazines and on red carpets. What's that like? To go 0:18:15.085 --> 0:18:17.645 from working in a student film to them being on 0:18:17.685 --> 0:18:18.685 billboards everywhere. 0:18:19.965 --> 0:18:24.165 It's pretty surreal, I would say, really exciting. Just felt 0:18:24.165 --> 0:18:27.685 like a well wind. And in fact, I have quite 0:18:27.685 --> 0:18:31.085 a bad memory because so much happened to me in 0:18:31.125 --> 0:18:35.805 that period of time. It was travel every week, it 0:18:35.885 --> 0:18:40.565 was events, it was press, it was different photoshoots, and 0:18:40.965 --> 0:18:46.565 like not sleeping so much, and just this wild, adventurous life. 0:18:46.685 --> 0:18:49.565 And because I jam packed so much into that period 0:18:49.605 --> 0:18:53.445 of time, I'll often forget about amazing experiences. Someone will 0:18:53.485 --> 0:18:55.445 remind me, you remember when we're in Paris and we're 0:18:55.445 --> 0:18:57.005 at that event, we went to that fashion show. I 0:18:57.045 --> 0:18:59.325 was like, was I there? Did I do that? And 0:18:59.365 --> 0:19:01.325 I'll have to go back and google images? Which is 0:19:01.365 --> 0:19:03.925 so good about that aspect. You could go back and 0:19:03.965 --> 0:19:05.285 google back I was there. 0:19:05.245 --> 0:19:07.045 It's all being cataloged on for you. 0:19:07.445 --> 0:19:09.325 Catalog I was like, oh my god, I was there. 0:19:09.885 --> 0:19:13.605 I do remember that. And so that's that's kind of 0:19:13.605 --> 0:19:17.125 this idea of this whirlwind. It just was kind of 0:19:17.165 --> 0:19:21.605 happening to me and I had so much energy, and I. 0:19:21.685 --> 0:19:24.165 Just was enthralled. 0:19:24.325 --> 0:19:31.365 It was so unbelievably exciting, and I loved every most 0:19:31.405 --> 0:19:34.205 moments of it. Not all of it, of course, I've 0:19:34.245 --> 0:19:37.645 had my share of, you know, hardships in the industry 0:19:37.685 --> 0:19:40.765 as well, but so much of that I just was 0:19:41.205 --> 0:19:45.045 rimming with gratitude. Really, that's always the word I keep 0:19:45.085 --> 0:19:48.685 coming back to. It's just it happened. That thing that 0:19:48.765 --> 0:19:53.125 I wrote about in my journals from such a young age, 0:19:53.485 --> 0:19:56.485 it actually happened. And now reading back, I found all 0:19:56.525 --> 0:19:57.565 my journals. 0:19:57.165 --> 0:19:59.245 Just really, have you been rereading them? 0:19:59.365 --> 0:20:03.045 I've been rereading everything, and I have journal done memorily. Yeah, 0:20:03.165 --> 0:20:08.845