WEBVTT - EXCLUSIVE: Stephanie Browitt Survived The White Island Volcano. This Is Her Mother’s Story Too.

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<v Speaker 1>I got to a hospital and I was sat in

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<v Speaker 1>the kitchen with no information, and I continued to ask,

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<v Speaker 1>and they brought up Paul's name and Stephanie's name, but

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<v Speaker 1>Crystal's name was never brought up. And I continued to

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<v Speaker 1>ask about Crystal, and they continued to say, there's no

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<v Speaker 1>such person. Hello.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm Kate Langbrook, host of No Filter, and my guests

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<v Speaker 2>today are Stephanie and Marie Browitt. In December twenty nineteen,

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<v Speaker 2>the Melbourne mother and daughter boarded a cruise through New

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<v Speaker 2>Zealand with their family. During the trip, Stephanie, her father Paul,

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<v Speaker 2>and her younger sister Cristal joined a tour to Wakari,

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<v Speaker 2>also known as White Island, an active volcano off the

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<v Speaker 2>coast of New Zealand. At two eleven PM, the volcano erupted.

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<v Speaker 2>Crystal was killed on the island. Stephanie and her father Paul, survived,

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<v Speaker 2>but suffered catastrophic burns. Weeks later, Paul died from his injuries. Also,

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<v Speaker 2>Stephanie spent months in hospital undergoing surgeries, skin grafts, and rehab,

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<v Speaker 2>while Marie faced the unimaginable reality of caring for her

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<v Speaker 2>surviving daughter while grieving both her husband and youngest child.

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<v Speaker 2>But this conversation is not simply about the eruption itself.

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<v Speaker 2>It's about what happens after survival. It's about grief, visible scars, motherhood,

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<v Speaker 2>survivor's guilt, humor, resilience, and the extraordinary bond between a

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<v Speaker 2>mother and daughter forced to rebuild their lives side by

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<v Speaker 2>side after unimaginable loss. This is Stephanie and Marie Browitt.

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<v Speaker 2>Stephanie Browitt, Marie Browitt, Welcome.

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<v Speaker 1>To No Filter.

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<v Speaker 3>Thank you, thank you having us.

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<v Speaker 2>I am.

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<v Speaker 1>My girlfriend.

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<v Speaker 2>Jane Kennedy, who I know you know, wrote the forward

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<v Speaker 2>to your book and speaks very beautifully of you, and

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<v Speaker 2>she says in the forward this book you may need

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<v Speaker 2>to put down and take a few breaths while you're

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<v Speaker 2>reading it, because both of you have endured unimaginable anguish.

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<v Speaker 2>But you have also both of you fought for your lives.

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<v Speaker 2>And it's an expression that people use, you know, casually sometimes,

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<v Speaker 2>but both of you literally have, and the story of

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<v Speaker 2>your survival both of you strikes me very much as

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<v Speaker 2>a tale of love, a mother's love, a daughter's love,

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<v Speaker 2>a sister love, a father's love, and the love of

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<v Speaker 2>strangers who rose to meet you along the way. Why

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<v Speaker 2>did you decide that now was the time to share

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<v Speaker 2>your story with your book out of the ashes?

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<v Speaker 3>I know for me personally, I needed to be in

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<v Speaker 3>the right headspace emotionally, and I feel like I was

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<v Speaker 3>going through so much still for many years after the

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<v Speaker 3>eruption had taken place, because the recovery and the surgeries

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<v Speaker 3>and operations that I was going through was taking a

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<v Speaker 3>long time, much longer than I anticipated or thought it

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<v Speaker 3>would take. And then we had so much going on

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<v Speaker 3>in our lives in terms of the court case that

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<v Speaker 3>we had, yes, and once that was behind us in

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<v Speaker 3>a sense and we were able to go back to

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<v Speaker 3>New Zealand and Fuckatani and meet some of the locals

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<v Speaker 3>there and my heroes. I feel like that felt like,

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<v Speaker 3>even though you can never know the perfect time, the

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<v Speaker 3>perfect right time, but that felt like it had led

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<v Speaker 3>us to the moment that was right to finally share

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<v Speaker 3>our story.

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<v Speaker 2>How did the conversation come about with your mum?

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<v Speaker 1>Who?

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<v Speaker 2>I imagine Steph that it was you that you lead

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<v Speaker 2>the charge on Is that right, Marie?

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<v Speaker 1>It was always Stephanie's idea. I never planned to be

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<v Speaker 1>a part of it. I'm glad I did, because I

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<v Speaker 1>remained silent throughout the years and was somehow invisible and

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<v Speaker 1>out of the picture. You were busy. I was very busy,

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<v Speaker 1>but I never spoke, so my voice was quite silent.

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<v Speaker 1>Stephanie did. She she took over and spoke out and

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<v Speaker 1>so forth, and she really did want me to partake.

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<v Speaker 1>And a few people said, look, you know, it is

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<v Speaker 1>great that Stephanie has this power and this tool where

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<v Speaker 1>and she has the ability and determination to write this book,

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<v Speaker 1>which she actually started writing in hospital. Ah. She started

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<v Speaker 1>writing it in rehab when I bought her a phone, yes,

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<v Speaker 1>because her fingers, and I thought, I, if I buy

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<v Speaker 1>her this phone or this iPad, we can commence rehabilitation

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<v Speaker 1>and she can reconnect with the world. And because I

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<v Speaker 1>saw a darkness in her eyes at that point, and

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<v Speaker 1>I thought I was going to lose her, and I thought,

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<v Speaker 1>she's completely disconnected. If I can somehow give us something

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<v Speaker 1>back and reconnect her with the world or something or

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<v Speaker 1>friends or anything, maybe she can gain some you know,

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<v Speaker 1>perspective and get a fight back, her spirit back. And

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<v Speaker 1>it did it work. So she started drotting things down.

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<v Speaker 1>Whether it was to maintain memory, I'm not sure, so

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<v Speaker 1>I always knew she wanted it out there. And it

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<v Speaker 1>took a while because, as she said, we did have

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<v Speaker 1>the case, the court case, and we had so much

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<v Speaker 1>happening in Stephanie's operations of just being countless, and there's

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<v Speaker 1>been so much healing, and when I was asked to join,

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<v Speaker 1>I thought, no, this is Stephanie's project. I couldn't possibly

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<v Speaker 1>And then I was convinced that, you know, there's so

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<v Speaker 1>much in a hospital bed, but then nobody knows about

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<v Speaker 1>the flip side of what was happening around her and

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<v Speaker 1>what was happening in the background, and the failures that

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<v Speaker 1>I noticed that took place, well, may failed me or

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<v Speaker 1>the system and the people that came to support us,

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<v Speaker 1>and nobody heard that story, and and you know, it

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<v Speaker 1>was an insurmountable, you know, a tragedy, and it was

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<v Speaker 1>you know, the odds were all against us, and Stephanie's

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<v Speaker 1>fight was incredible, and I'm glad that she put that

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<v Speaker 1>to paper, and that's why I joined you. And I thought, okay,

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<v Speaker 1>I'll tell it as I remember it the word, and

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<v Speaker 1>from what we experienced, I hope it represents us well

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<v Speaker 1>on it. As you said, our family and the love

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<v Speaker 1>that we share in the bond that we have. We've

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<v Speaker 1>always had that bond.

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<v Speaker 2>How was your family, So we're going back to twenty nineteen,

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<v Speaker 2>and it was before the what's known as the White

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<v Speaker 2>Island incident, the volcano, the volcanic eruption, that you were

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<v Speaker 2>visiting as a family, not you, Marie, but on part

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<v Speaker 2>of a cruise that you'd take in a celebratory cruise

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<v Speaker 2>with your beautiful daughter and sister Crystal with Kay that's right,

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<v Speaker 2>and your husband Paul had gone with the two girls.

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<v Speaker 2>What did your family look like, because the sense is

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<v Speaker 2>that they were a very that you're a very beautiful,

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<v Speaker 2>bonded family.

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<v Speaker 3>Well, we were always very, very close, and I mean

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<v Speaker 3>close enough that we could pick on each other and

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<v Speaker 3>fight with each other and then love each other all

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<v Speaker 3>in one day. It didn't matter. But I valued our

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<v Speaker 3>time together so so much, and when it came to

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<v Speaker 3>things like birthdays or celebrations, I didn't care so much

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<v Speaker 3>to catch up with people outside of the family. The

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<v Speaker 3>thing I looked forward to most was our time getting

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<v Speaker 3>out of the house and spending time together because we

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<v Speaker 3>always had so much fun with each other. You know,

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<v Speaker 3>Dad would joke around and act silly all the time

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<v Speaker 3>and do silly things, and then we'd pick on. Mum

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<v Speaker 3>always took everything with great you know, you took it

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<v Speaker 3>really greatly. But we just you could see everyone on

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<v Speaker 3>the outside, I don't know, could see how much we

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<v Speaker 3>loved each other because we were loud, we were happy,

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<v Speaker 3>we were joyous. We always had people at our place

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<v Speaker 3>when we would celebrate or have Christmas East or anything

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<v Speaker 3>like that. Mum would host the gatherings. Mum would cook

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<v Speaker 3>up storm and my friends would always want to come

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<v Speaker 3>around to have some of Mum's food, but also just

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<v Speaker 3>to be around our family because it was infectious. And

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<v Speaker 3>I felt very lucky and fortunate to have a family,

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<v Speaker 3>to have the family that I did, and to see

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<v Speaker 3>how much other people wanted to join and be a part,

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<v Speaker 3>because I knew that not everyone gets that, not everyone

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<v Speaker 3>gets happy family or you know, so I knew how

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<v Speaker 3>valuable and lucky I was to have that as well.

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<v Speaker 2>So at that stage, you were twenty three and Crystal

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<v Speaker 2>had just turned twenty one, you'd had her twenty first

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<v Speaker 2>and to celebrate that, you had gone on a family cruise,

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<v Speaker 2>which you had done before and which was also a

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<v Speaker 2>source of much joy and fun for you. And when

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<v Speaker 2>you're on board the boat, which is a Royal Caribbean cruise,

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<v Speaker 2>you hadn't been on that line before.

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<v Speaker 1>We had. We had taken a Royal Caribbean cruise only

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<v Speaker 1>eleven months before with a different evasion of disease was one.

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<v Speaker 1>The other one was I can't remember the friendship, I continued,

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<v Speaker 1>But you loved cruising. You were a cruising family. Were

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<v Speaker 1>we holidayed. We made sure we took a holiday with

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<v Speaker 1>the killers once a year. We wanted them to have

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<v Speaker 1>a rest. Because of their studies. They worked quite hard

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<v Speaker 1>and very long hours. Crystal especially would work the hours

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<v Speaker 1>of a full time employee, supervising at our local woollies

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<v Speaker 1>and also studying. Ven studied full time. She studied full

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<v Speaker 1>time at university, and she also volunteered with r SBCAS

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<v Speaker 1>And at the time she had just completed her her

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<v Speaker 1>two days placement at Lord Smith Animal Hospital, which is

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<v Speaker 1>where she was supposedly going to work because that's what

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<v Speaker 1>she wanted to do, and I asked her to work locally.

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<v Speaker 1>She said, no, I don't want to be part of

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<v Speaker 1>a veterinary clinic which spends most of its time doing

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<v Speaker 1>small things on euthanasia, which is something like I can't tolerate.

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<v Speaker 1>I would rather be in a hospital saving saving souls

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<v Speaker 1>rather than you know, I want to be part of

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<v Speaker 1>the healing process. And yeah, so and Stephanie too, the

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<v Speaker 1>poor thing. She was coming home so late at night.

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<v Speaker 1>She was she had completed her art's degree and then

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<v Speaker 1>did another hey, I'd find course and that was just

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<v Speaker 1>coming to one end. So literally every year when you know,

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<v Speaker 1>we were all so exhausted because I was also mum's

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<v Speaker 1>care or seven days a week as well as working,

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<v Speaker 1>and I thought it was a good good time to

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<v Speaker 1>have a break with the girls. And we had taken

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<v Speaker 1>this cruise before, but not this particular ship. We were

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<v Speaker 1>constantly looking at upgrading to give the family something more interesting,

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<v Speaker 1>something different, And we'd never been to New Zealand before

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<v Speaker 1>and this was the first time we were going, and

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<v Speaker 1>we were going to be celebrating or continue the celebration

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<v Speaker 1>of my daughter's twenty first birthday.

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<v Speaker 2>And also that was a lovely way for you to

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<v Speaker 2>enjoy the family as well, because the against the backdrop

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<v Speaker 2>of the family is that you also have a mess

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<v Speaker 2>that you had had for a couple of decades. That's right, so,

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<v Speaker 2>and that brings its own attendant issues. So a cruise

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<v Speaker 2>is a perfect environment that you can all kind of

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<v Speaker 2>relax together. And how beautiful that your girls wanted to

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<v Speaker 2>come with you. Oh, they didn't have much choice.

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<v Speaker 1>Always got a choice, Marie, No, they do. We were

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<v Speaker 1>very lucky that we had two beautiful daughters. Very proud

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<v Speaker 1>of both our girls. Very good kids. Actually they never

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<v Speaker 1>posed an issue. They were you know, they were very loving,

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<v Speaker 1>and they were dedicated to their education and to be

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<v Speaker 1>inn a valuable member of society. They were, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>they had very good morals and principles and we were

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<v Speaker 1>very proud of that. As to you know, we did

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<v Speaker 1>our all to install that in them and make sure

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<v Speaker 1>that we were also blinded and connected as a family.

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<v Speaker 1>And to do that, we wanted to make sure that

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<v Speaker 1>we spent a lot of time together and we had

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<v Speaker 1>dinners together rather than one in front of the TV.

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<v Speaker 1>And now they're in the Yeah, so I you know,

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<v Speaker 1>I always said we need to sit down at the

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<v Speaker 1>table and connect. Food in our family was more about

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<v Speaker 1>connecting mother than eating. But I made sure that that

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<v Speaker 1>time was our time. It was a valuable time, it

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<v Speaker 1>was productive. If we had something to speak about or

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<v Speaker 1>something to that needed discussing or sorting out. This is

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<v Speaker 1>the time to do it. Any concerns. And we laughed

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<v Speaker 1>around the table, and we threw food at each other,

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<v Speaker 1>so I had to clean up, of course. And yes,

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<v Speaker 1>I was the source of their banter, and I did

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<v Speaker 1>take it very well. And how we loved a joke,

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<v Speaker 1>and we really value and valued and cherish the laughter

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<v Speaker 1>in our home. We laughed and screamed a lot. We

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<v Speaker 1>were so loud, I think the next suburb could hear

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<v Speaker 1>us because my front door was always open and it

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<v Speaker 1>was open to anyone that entered.

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<v Speaker 2>And they were valued like family. So yeah, and also

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<v Speaker 2>the girls you love nature, Stephanie and your sister, Yes,

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<v Speaker 2>that's right. So then when you're on the on the

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<v Speaker 2>bouche and one of the tours that's offered is an

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<v Speaker 2>extraordinary opportunity really to go see to go to this

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<v Speaker 2>place called White Island. What did you know of that

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<v Speaker 2>at the time.

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<v Speaker 3>Well, we were already on the ship at that moment

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<v Speaker 3>when we came across the tour in one of the

0:14:46.480 --> 0:14:49.440
<v Speaker 3>pamphlets that was on the cruise that was given to us,

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<v Speaker 3>so nothing, we literally knew nothing except what we had

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<v Speaker 3>just come across on that day. Right, We were a

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<v Speaker 3>few days in and we thought we'd have a look

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<v Speaker 3>at the pamphlet just to get an idea of things

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<v Speaker 3>to do in New Zealand, not necessarily to book it

0:15:06.760 --> 0:15:09.960
<v Speaker 3>to our from the ship itself, but just to get

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<v Speaker 3>an idea of things that we could do it some

0:15:12.600 --> 0:15:16.760
<v Speaker 3>of us stops, and that was one we came across,

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<v Speaker 3>and I remember thinking, oh, this just sounds like something

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<v Speaker 3>you can't really does elsewhere, and we may not come

0:15:26.320 --> 0:15:29.080
<v Speaker 3>across this sort of thing again, maybe we can look

0:15:29.120 --> 0:15:31.960
<v Speaker 3>into this one. So that's where my mind went when

0:15:32.000 --> 0:15:36.400
<v Speaker 3>I first saw it. It didn't really say much except

0:15:36.640 --> 0:15:42.000
<v Speaker 3>that we'd be taking a cruise out to White Island

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<v Speaker 3>and enjoy as a beautiful lunch on board, and that

0:15:47.040 --> 0:15:51.640
<v Speaker 3>it would be very scenic, yes, and it had the duration,

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<v Speaker 3>and that we would need to be wearing clothes shoes

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<v Speaker 3>because of the walking that would take place.

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<v Speaker 2>And because of the walking. Your mom didn't end up

0:16:01.840 --> 0:16:05.040
<v Speaker 2>going on that trip, and because of your limitations, you

0:16:05.120 --> 0:16:07.840
<v Speaker 2>were like, this is I won't be able to do this.

0:16:08.520 --> 0:16:12.480
<v Speaker 2>But Paul and the girls said, off, that's right, yes, Paul.

0:16:13.240 --> 0:16:16.720
<v Speaker 2>When they noticed it. It's not like a colored illustration

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<v Speaker 2>or anything like that. It's just a photocopy insert that

0:16:19.840 --> 0:16:21.760
<v Speaker 2>they put in in every day.

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<v Speaker 1>It's like a daily And it was just like a

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<v Speaker 1>paragraph and there was a few to choose from, and

0:16:29.240 --> 0:16:31.920
<v Speaker 1>it just caught Stephanie's eye. It sounded, you know, it

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<v Speaker 1>sounded great. Really. I remember Kristal not being so. She

0:16:35.480 --> 0:16:39.120
<v Speaker 1>was a little apprehensive because christ said, what a ripoff, right,

0:16:39.480 --> 0:16:42.840
<v Speaker 1>because the boat excursions are always expensive. She said, this

0:16:42.880 --> 0:16:44.760
<v Speaker 1>is a ripoff. Why should I pay this money?

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<v Speaker 3>And we did.

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<v Speaker 1>We never did partake in these excursions because we were

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<v Speaker 1>very independent. We liked doing our own thing. But it's

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<v Speaker 1>good to go through them because you had ideas of

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<v Speaker 1>what you can do, and this one wasn't one we

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<v Speaker 1>can It was something that you were forced to do

0:16:58.720 --> 0:17:00.800
<v Speaker 1>with them, or you went with that. And the girl,

0:17:00.920 --> 0:17:05.359
<v Speaker 1>Stephanie was very determined that she this sounded exciting, and

0:17:05.359 --> 0:17:09.439
<v Speaker 1>it said sounded colorfull and life. She actually said, this

0:17:09.480 --> 0:17:11.879
<v Speaker 1>is one since you actually said that. They were your

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<v Speaker 1>actual words at the time. And I remember saying please, no, no,

0:17:15.400 --> 0:17:20.240
<v Speaker 1>you know, and do a different one, and and and

0:17:20.760 --> 0:17:22.840
<v Speaker 1>Paul said, and I'd say, okay, but I'll stay with

0:17:22.880 --> 0:17:24.600
<v Speaker 1>you and I said, you're not staying with me. If

0:17:24.600 --> 0:17:26.920
<v Speaker 1>the girls leave, you leave with them. And I remember

0:17:27.000 --> 0:17:28.920
<v Speaker 1>him saying, I'm not leaving you here on your own,

0:17:28.960 --> 0:17:33.240
<v Speaker 1>and I laughed, thinking, in a ship thousands of people,

0:17:33.640 --> 0:17:35.480
<v Speaker 1>I'm not the one that's going to be alone. The

0:17:35.520 --> 0:17:37.320
<v Speaker 1>girls will be you need. If they go, you go.

0:17:37.480 --> 0:17:40.159
<v Speaker 1>And I said those words, and they did go. And

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<v Speaker 1>I stayed behind on the ship because, as you said,

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<v Speaker 1>because of my mess, my my ability was restricted. And

0:17:46.119 --> 0:17:49.199
<v Speaker 1>in that brochure, in that in that paragraph, there was

0:17:49.240 --> 0:17:53.320
<v Speaker 1>a picture of stairs because they have like yees and

0:17:53.400 --> 0:17:58.160
<v Speaker 1>the only warning, and the only only warning was wear

0:17:58.359 --> 0:18:02.600
<v Speaker 1>comfortable shoes, right. And immediately I said to poor I

0:18:02.640 --> 0:18:06.320
<v Speaker 1>can't go, and he knew, and so off they went.

0:18:06.440 --> 0:18:09.719
<v Speaker 1>And I didn't think that it would be dangerous.

0:18:09.760 --> 0:18:12.399
<v Speaker 2>And in the meantime, Crystal had entrusted you with a

0:18:13.640 --> 0:18:17.320
<v Speaker 2>with a with a mission, which was to get her

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<v Speaker 2>key ring, which she collected from everywhere.

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<v Speaker 1>I gathered that you went everywhere we went in it

0:18:24.480 --> 0:18:26.600
<v Speaker 1>didn't matter where it went we went, which she collected

0:18:26.600 --> 0:18:29.600
<v Speaker 1>a coin, and she collected a carring and souvenirs and

0:18:30.640 --> 0:18:35.920
<v Speaker 1>also the what do you call them? The globes. Yeah,

0:18:35.960 --> 0:18:39.359
<v Speaker 1>she always collected those, and on this particular one, it

0:18:39.480 --> 0:18:41.199
<v Speaker 1>was like, well, if we're going out there, how am

0:18:41.240 --> 0:18:44.239
<v Speaker 1>I going to get a caring? And I remember as

0:18:44.280 --> 0:18:45.840
<v Speaker 1>I was getting pleased, I mean, I said, well, I

0:18:45.840 --> 0:18:48.679
<v Speaker 1>don't really know where the ship stocked from where we

0:18:48.680 --> 0:18:50.600
<v Speaker 1>were facing, you couldn't really see. And I said, I

0:18:50.640 --> 0:18:53.000
<v Speaker 1>don't know it all all depend And she said please,

0:18:53.040 --> 0:18:54.879
<v Speaker 1>and I said, and I know I can't heat and

0:18:54.920 --> 0:18:57.159
<v Speaker 1>I can't do walking, and at the time I couldn't

0:18:57.160 --> 0:18:59.280
<v Speaker 1>walk far. I was with a walking stick at the time,

0:19:00.000 --> 0:19:02.000
<v Speaker 1>and I was using the aid and I said, look,

0:19:02.040 --> 0:19:05.640
<v Speaker 1>I can't promise you. And it wasn't until stephany timing

0:19:05.720 --> 0:19:08.040
<v Speaker 1>much later that she was asking total strangers to get

0:19:08.040 --> 0:19:11.320
<v Speaker 1>this caring for her. But I felt terrible halfway through

0:19:11.359 --> 0:19:12.600
<v Speaker 1>the day and I thought, no, I've got to do

0:19:12.640 --> 0:19:16.240
<v Speaker 1>this for my baby, and I wanted to surprise the girl.

0:19:16.320 --> 0:19:18.639
<v Speaker 1>So I did get off and surprisingly the buses were

0:19:18.680 --> 0:19:22.040
<v Speaker 1>right there. It was all organized and was quite easy, yes,

0:19:22.080 --> 0:19:24.159
<v Speaker 1>and they circled the town and it was either a

0:19:24.160 --> 0:19:26.280
<v Speaker 1>public holiday or a Sunday. I think it was a

0:19:26.320 --> 0:19:29.000
<v Speaker 1>public holiday, and ninety percent of the shops were shut,

0:19:29.200 --> 0:19:32.280
<v Speaker 1>probably ninety five. And I did manage to go in one,

0:19:32.320 --> 0:19:36.960
<v Speaker 1>and I actually found her name with the K, very unusual.

0:19:37.440 --> 0:19:40.840
<v Speaker 1>First on the day. I can't believe it. On the day.

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<v Speaker 1>What are the chances of that? Her entire life, she

0:19:43.760 --> 0:19:47.720
<v Speaker 1>looked for anything carrying anything with a K. Her name

0:19:47.800 --> 0:19:51.960
<v Speaker 1>was always it was always c which was after when

0:19:51.960 --> 0:19:54.240
<v Speaker 1>the Fairies had come out. I remember thirty years ago

0:19:54.320 --> 0:19:57.760
<v Speaker 1>now the products and the show, and it became a

0:19:57.880 --> 0:20:01.400
<v Speaker 1>very popular name. But she's like she named after my grandmother,

0:20:01.800 --> 0:20:04.600
<v Speaker 1>the great grandmother. That's my great grandmother's it's a very

0:20:04.720 --> 0:20:08.359
<v Speaker 1>old Greek name, and it's Costalo. What does it mean.

0:20:08.640 --> 0:20:14.399
<v Speaker 1>It means purity and clarity, and that's what she was.

0:20:15.960 --> 0:20:18.560
<v Speaker 1>She was very crystal clear, just like her name.

0:20:20.160 --> 0:20:23.760
<v Speaker 2>So you're on your mission to get the key ring

0:20:23.880 --> 0:20:30.240
<v Speaker 2>and you're miles away Stephanie doing undertaking what has proven

0:20:30.280 --> 0:20:34.080
<v Speaker 2>to be a really arduous trip, which also was not flagged.

0:20:34.160 --> 0:20:35.480
<v Speaker 3>Yes, how hard.

0:20:35.200 --> 0:20:36.919
<v Speaker 2>It was going to be to get there, that a

0:20:37.080 --> 0:20:40.119
<v Speaker 2>boat ride in which everyone was violently ill.

0:20:40.520 --> 0:20:44.159
<v Speaker 3>That's right, it, yeah, it. We saw the duration of

0:20:44.200 --> 0:20:47.760
<v Speaker 3>the tour. We didn't realize that majority of that duration

0:20:47.880 --> 0:20:52.360
<v Speaker 3>would be just getting to and from. Yes, I had

0:20:52.359 --> 0:20:54.520
<v Speaker 3>no idea that the port we were stopping at was

0:20:54.560 --> 0:20:56.439
<v Speaker 3>so far from where we needed to go for this

0:20:56.480 --> 0:21:01.320
<v Speaker 3>particular tour. So we stopped at Taranga and there was

0:21:01.359 --> 0:21:04.359
<v Speaker 3>a bus ride involved, which we had already become a

0:21:04.400 --> 0:21:07.760
<v Speaker 3>big motion sick from that, and then that led us

0:21:07.760 --> 0:21:14.120
<v Speaker 3>onto this little cruise boat, like a little jetboat. I'd

0:21:14.160 --> 0:21:17.520
<v Speaker 3>say it wasn't very big, which was the one that

0:21:17.880 --> 0:21:20.520
<v Speaker 3>was apparently advertisers being a scenic boat where you could

0:21:20.600 --> 0:21:25.000
<v Speaker 3>enjoy your lunch on it, And it very much wasn't that.

0:21:25.400 --> 0:21:28.200
<v Speaker 3>It left us seasick almost immediately.

0:21:28.560 --> 0:21:30.800
<v Speaker 2>How many people on the boat forty.

0:21:31.760 --> 0:21:35.640
<v Speaker 3>There were forty two of us, Yeah, yeah, forty two

0:21:35.680 --> 0:21:39.200
<v Speaker 3>of us, including some of the guides that were going

0:21:39.240 --> 0:21:43.399
<v Speaker 3>to be running the tours when we arrived. But a

0:21:43.440 --> 0:21:46.280
<v Speaker 3>lot of those people, I'd say at least half were

0:21:46.560 --> 0:21:50.159
<v Speaker 3>very much seasick. It was noticeable pretty much straightaway, with

0:21:50.240 --> 0:21:53.960
<v Speaker 3>vomit bags being handed out, people being moved around the

0:21:54.000 --> 0:21:56.560
<v Speaker 3>boat towards the back because that was apparently a better

0:21:56.560 --> 0:22:00.920
<v Speaker 3>position to be in for the seasickness. But you felt

0:22:00.960 --> 0:22:04.600
<v Speaker 3>it the whole way. It was just awful? Did it feel?

0:22:05.200 --> 0:22:08.120
<v Speaker 2>And I know that to have these conversations in retrospect

0:22:08.320 --> 0:22:12.600
<v Speaker 2>is different, but did it when you arrived at this

0:22:13.160 --> 0:22:18.400
<v Speaker 2>you describe it as like almost a moonscape. Yes, this barren,

0:22:18.560 --> 0:22:26.119
<v Speaker 2>rocky thrust of an island. Did it did anything about

0:22:26.119 --> 0:22:29.560
<v Speaker 2>it other than the illness feel ominous to you?

0:22:29.600 --> 0:22:29.800
<v Speaker 1>No?

0:22:29.920 --> 0:22:34.680
<v Speaker 3>Not when we had just landed there, because I think

0:22:35.080 --> 0:22:40.600
<v Speaker 3>we were so focused on just okay, we're finally on land. Yes,

0:22:41.280 --> 0:22:43.680
<v Speaker 3>that wasn't my first thought, because I had already begun

0:22:43.720 --> 0:22:47.880
<v Speaker 3>to feel bad for dubting Crystal for bringing for tuesdays

0:22:48.520 --> 0:22:51.480
<v Speaker 3>just from the sea sickness. I was already feeling like crap. Yeah,

0:22:52.200 --> 0:22:53.920
<v Speaker 3>and then once we were there, I was like, Okay,

0:22:53.960 --> 0:22:58.359
<v Speaker 3>maybe it's going to be a bit better now, which

0:22:58.400 --> 0:23:02.479
<v Speaker 3>is hard to say now back, but yeah, that's what

0:23:02.520 --> 0:23:04.720
<v Speaker 3>we thought. So our main focus was Okay, let's just

0:23:04.800 --> 0:23:07.000
<v Speaker 3>we're going to feel better now the sea sickness is gone.

0:23:07.560 --> 0:23:10.320
<v Speaker 3>And then we're just taking in our surroundings and looking

0:23:10.359 --> 0:23:13.400
<v Speaker 3>around at what's around and you know, it's very unusual.

0:23:13.440 --> 0:23:16.359
<v Speaker 3>It's not something you see every day, let alone probably

0:23:16.400 --> 0:23:19.680
<v Speaker 3>ever think you're going to see again. So it's cool

0:23:19.720 --> 0:23:23.119
<v Speaker 3>in the moment. Yep, it looks very cool, very different

0:23:23.119 --> 0:23:27.560
<v Speaker 3>and unique, very photographic, something fun to share. So in

0:23:27.560 --> 0:23:30.000
<v Speaker 3>that moment, we're just taking in and you can't really

0:23:30.080 --> 0:23:34.400
<v Speaker 3>I couldn't really see much from the crater itself from

0:23:34.400 --> 0:23:36.359
<v Speaker 3>where we were beginning the tour.

0:23:36.400 --> 0:23:40.919
<v Speaker 2>Right, So then you walked up a path to the crater.

0:23:42.080 --> 0:23:46.640
<v Speaker 3>Yes, So then once the tour began, after the we

0:23:46.640 --> 0:23:50.120
<v Speaker 3>were placed into two separate groups with two tour guides each.

0:23:51.040 --> 0:23:54.240
<v Speaker 3>My family we were in the second group to be

0:23:54.320 --> 0:23:58.880
<v Speaker 3>walking around the island that day. So we were following

0:23:58.880 --> 0:24:00.800
<v Speaker 3>the tour GUIDs with one at the front and one

0:24:00.800 --> 0:24:04.199
<v Speaker 3>at the back in a single file line so that

0:24:04.240 --> 0:24:10.680
<v Speaker 3>we wouldn't separate and get lost. Yeah, so they were

0:24:10.680 --> 0:24:14.640
<v Speaker 3>taking us around a pathway that they said we had

0:24:14.640 --> 0:24:17.640
<v Speaker 3>to follow, which wasn't It wasn't a very clear pathway,

0:24:17.720 --> 0:24:19.240
<v Speaker 3>to be honest, but we made sure to try and

0:24:19.400 --> 0:24:23.800
<v Speaker 3>stick to where their feet were whilst they were sharing

0:24:23.880 --> 0:24:28.880
<v Speaker 3>some information about you know, what some of the rocks were,

0:24:28.320 --> 0:24:32.800
<v Speaker 3>and you know, there's a little stream running along and

0:24:33.040 --> 0:24:34.800
<v Speaker 3>you know, have a feel, have a touch, you can

0:24:34.840 --> 0:24:37.320
<v Speaker 3>do this and that takes some photo opportunities. Before we

0:24:37.400 --> 0:24:42.320
<v Speaker 3>had arrived at the crater, which probably took about twenty

0:24:42.400 --> 0:24:44.960
<v Speaker 3>five minutes to get there. You know, we weren't walking

0:24:45.000 --> 0:24:49.399
<v Speaker 3>fast or anything. We were slowly but surely following along,

0:24:50.800 --> 0:24:53.720
<v Speaker 3>and you know, as you were getting closer to the crater,

0:24:53.880 --> 0:24:58.719
<v Speaker 3>you could tell because of the smell that was coming

0:24:59.720 --> 0:25:05.600
<v Speaker 3>from very sulfurous, eggy, very strong and irony in a

0:25:05.680 --> 0:25:09.359
<v Speaker 3>sense like if you were bleeding in your mouth. That

0:25:09.560 --> 0:25:13.480
<v Speaker 3>sort of smell and taste you could feel inside your body.

0:25:14.920 --> 0:25:17.320
<v Speaker 3>And that's when you start to realize, oh wow, this

0:25:17.480 --> 0:25:20.240
<v Speaker 3>is huge. As you start to see the crater alive,

0:25:20.840 --> 0:25:23.480
<v Speaker 3>it felt, yes, yes, it was in that moment, it.

0:25:23.440 --> 0:25:26.600
<v Speaker 1>Felt a living lagon under the earth.

0:25:26.560 --> 0:25:29.960
<v Speaker 3>That right, but very different from anything I had pictured

0:25:30.080 --> 0:25:34.800
<v Speaker 3>because it's it wasn't explained to us exactly what we

0:25:34.840 --> 0:25:38.760
<v Speaker 3>would be seeing, and in my mind, I'm picturing something

0:25:38.920 --> 0:25:41.760
<v Speaker 3>like what other people go and see.

0:25:42.640 --> 0:25:48.880
<v Speaker 2>Like a lava volcano, volcano from Hawaii, yes, which this

0:25:49.119 --> 0:25:49.640
<v Speaker 2>wasn't it.

0:25:50.320 --> 0:25:53.240
<v Speaker 3>And they were telling us, you know, to stay behind

0:25:53.280 --> 0:25:56.160
<v Speaker 3>a certain line so that you don't get too close

0:25:56.240 --> 0:26:01.080
<v Speaker 3>because it's like a huge ledge that was extremely far

0:26:01.119 --> 0:26:03.359
<v Speaker 3>from one side to the other, and you're very much

0:26:03.760 --> 0:26:06.480
<v Speaker 3>inland at this point because there are huge walls now

0:26:06.560 --> 0:26:10.280
<v Speaker 3>that are surrounding you and if you look straight down,

0:26:10.400 --> 0:26:13.000
<v Speaker 3>there was meant to be. It's meant to be a lake,

0:26:13.200 --> 0:26:18.800
<v Speaker 3>crater lake, but that wasn't visible. It was covered in steam, right,

0:26:19.040 --> 0:26:22.880
<v Speaker 3>and was it that day because of how boiling hot

0:26:23.080 --> 0:26:30.399
<v Speaker 3>the crater lake itself was. Which way, which, yeah, very different.

0:26:30.440 --> 0:26:32.720
<v Speaker 3>It's not what I expected, you know. I expected to

0:26:32.760 --> 0:26:39.679
<v Speaker 3>see maybe some gray clouds rising out, or even just nothing,

0:26:39.800 --> 0:26:41.359
<v Speaker 3>maybe just some bubbling down.

0:26:41.560 --> 0:26:44.440
<v Speaker 2>So it's a gas volcano.

0:26:46.040 --> 0:26:51.160
<v Speaker 3>It's a gas yes. So it's a freeotic eruption, which

0:26:51.200 --> 0:26:55.040
<v Speaker 3>is a I think less common than the regular eruptions

0:26:55.040 --> 0:26:58.840
<v Speaker 3>that people know of, so it produces it's a steam eruption,

0:26:59.119 --> 0:26:59.879
<v Speaker 3>a gas eruption.

0:27:01.640 --> 0:27:04.919
<v Speaker 2>I'll be back with Marie and Stephanie after this short break.

0:27:07.119 --> 0:27:10.199
<v Speaker 2>And then at what point did it become apparent that

0:27:11.640 --> 0:27:13.080
<v Speaker 2>you shouldn't be on the island?

0:27:13.359 --> 0:27:16.679
<v Speaker 3>Well, I was a bit iffy from the get go

0:27:16.800 --> 0:27:20.240
<v Speaker 3>once we were on the island itself, when the tour

0:27:20.320 --> 0:27:23.400
<v Speaker 3>guide at first mentioned that it was a level two

0:27:23.400 --> 0:27:24.760
<v Speaker 3>and we didn't need to be doing this a bit

0:27:24.800 --> 0:27:25.960
<v Speaker 3>quicker than usual.

0:27:26.119 --> 0:27:29.320
<v Speaker 1>Right, And how many levels are there at that time?

0:27:29.320 --> 0:27:32.720
<v Speaker 3>I had no idea, but I believe now there's five, right,

0:27:32.960 --> 0:27:36.439
<v Speaker 3>But the problem is three is an eruption, so twos

0:27:36.480 --> 0:27:40.840
<v Speaker 3>one before an eruption right, But that wasn't explained to us,

0:27:41.080 --> 0:27:43.359
<v Speaker 3>and we didn't really get a chance to ask questions

0:27:43.400 --> 0:27:45.879
<v Speaker 3>before they moved on to the next thing that they

0:27:45.880 --> 0:27:50.680
<v Speaker 3>were discussing. So in my mind it wasn't the two necessarily,

0:27:50.760 --> 0:27:52.800
<v Speaker 3>It was that we need to move a bit quicker.

0:27:52.760 --> 0:27:57.920
<v Speaker 2>Right some stage there, so they're hurrying you along, yeah,

0:27:58.080 --> 0:28:01.919
<v Speaker 2>with a sense of urgency, or it didn't.

0:28:01.640 --> 0:28:05.880
<v Speaker 3>Show a sense of urgency, but it was very much

0:28:05.880 --> 0:28:08.600
<v Speaker 3>you know this, and then onto the next thing, this,

0:28:08.680 --> 0:28:10.760
<v Speaker 3>and then onto the next thing. And we could see

0:28:10.800 --> 0:28:14.000
<v Speaker 3>the other group up ahead and we were trailing a

0:28:14.000 --> 0:28:17.399
<v Speaker 3>little bit of a distance behind them. But that was

0:28:17.440 --> 0:28:20.960
<v Speaker 3>the first sense of okay, this does feel a little

0:28:20.960 --> 0:28:22.919
<v Speaker 3>bit more dangerous. And then when they were mentioning that

0:28:23.040 --> 0:28:25.879
<v Speaker 3>rocks could fall down and the possibility of rocks falling

0:28:25.920 --> 0:28:28.400
<v Speaker 3>down from the side of the walls and to keep

0:28:28.440 --> 0:28:30.760
<v Speaker 3>your heart hat on and everything, because none of this

0:28:30.920 --> 0:28:33.359
<v Speaker 3>was mentioned until we were on the island itself. Yes,

0:28:33.440 --> 0:28:36.320
<v Speaker 3>so that's the first time where the sense of okay,

0:28:36.400 --> 0:28:40.040
<v Speaker 3>this is a little bit more dangerous than I expected began.

0:28:40.920 --> 0:28:44.160
<v Speaker 3>But then as we were near the crater edge, yeah,

0:28:44.200 --> 0:28:47.440
<v Speaker 3>I was a little bit scared just being close to it,

0:28:48.520 --> 0:28:51.360
<v Speaker 3>not even because of an eruption itself, but just you know,

0:28:51.600 --> 0:28:54.040
<v Speaker 3>I felt like this could crumble at any moment. You know,

0:28:54.120 --> 0:28:56.720
<v Speaker 3>I don't want to get too close to that. Even

0:28:56.760 --> 0:28:58.400
<v Speaker 3>as close as they were saying, I was like, yeah,

0:28:58.440 --> 0:29:00.239
<v Speaker 3>maybe we can stay a little bit further back than

0:29:00.280 --> 0:29:04.000
<v Speaker 3>what they're it did. So it was little things along

0:29:04.040 --> 0:29:06.800
<v Speaker 3>the way that sort of set off a bit of

0:29:07.400 --> 0:29:11.040
<v Speaker 3>you know, apprehensiveness. But then it was like, okay, but

0:29:11.120 --> 0:29:14.880
<v Speaker 3>then they've brought us here. We wouldn't be here if

0:29:14.920 --> 0:29:17.000
<v Speaker 3>they felt it wasn't a good day to be here,

0:29:17.120 --> 0:29:17.920
<v Speaker 3>or if it wasn't.

0:29:18.640 --> 0:29:21.520
<v Speaker 1>That if it was as an excursion.

0:29:21.560 --> 0:29:25.440
<v Speaker 3>So that's where my mind's going. But then, you know,

0:29:25.520 --> 0:29:27.920
<v Speaker 3>there was nothing to give away that an eruption was

0:29:27.920 --> 0:29:30.040
<v Speaker 3>going to take place, not that I know of, Not

0:29:30.200 --> 0:29:34.120
<v Speaker 3>that a noise sound or a look per se, or

0:29:34.760 --> 0:29:37.920
<v Speaker 3>any concern on the guides up to a guide's eyes

0:29:38.040 --> 0:29:41.720
<v Speaker 3>or anything like that. You know, it didn't feel like

0:29:42.280 --> 0:29:45.920
<v Speaker 3>that was going to take place, And the chance of

0:29:45.960 --> 0:29:48.880
<v Speaker 3>an eruption was never brought up either, So it's not

0:29:48.960 --> 0:29:53.400
<v Speaker 3>on my mind. So we had taken our photos there,

0:29:53.440 --> 0:29:57.120
<v Speaker 3>one of the last and final photo opportunity, and then

0:29:57.440 --> 0:29:59.600
<v Speaker 3>we were told it's time to turn back around.

0:30:00.160 --> 0:30:03.040
<v Speaker 2>And we're Crystal and your dad at this point in

0:30:03.120 --> 0:30:04.120
<v Speaker 2>relation to you.

0:30:04.480 --> 0:30:07.360
<v Speaker 3>So we're all traveling towards the back end of this

0:30:07.440 --> 0:30:11.560
<v Speaker 3>singlephile line, and me and my dad are a few

0:30:11.560 --> 0:30:15.360
<v Speaker 3>feet ahead of my sister because she's a bit further

0:30:15.400 --> 0:30:18.960
<v Speaker 3>towards the back with the last tour guide practically taking

0:30:18.960 --> 0:30:21.640
<v Speaker 3>a few more photos, and every so often Dad and

0:30:21.680 --> 0:30:24.000
<v Speaker 3>I would turn back around just to make sure we

0:30:24.000 --> 0:30:26.400
<v Speaker 3>were getting too far apart and to let her catch up.

0:30:27.040 --> 0:30:29.120
<v Speaker 3>And I could see her chatting away as well, with

0:30:29.200 --> 0:30:31.640
<v Speaker 3>the tour guide back there and looking like she was

0:30:31.720 --> 0:30:36.640
<v Speaker 3>enjoying a nice conversation with him as well. So we

0:30:36.680 --> 0:30:38.320
<v Speaker 3>were a few feet away, but still not far.

0:30:38.720 --> 0:30:44.080
<v Speaker 2>And then, sorry, Marie, how is this for you to

0:30:44.120 --> 0:30:45.560
<v Speaker 2>hear about this on the day?

0:30:47.160 --> 0:30:50.080
<v Speaker 1>Not what I know now and listening to to Stephanie

0:30:50.080 --> 0:30:53.080
<v Speaker 1>speak of it. I look at her and I know

0:30:53.200 --> 0:30:58.680
<v Speaker 1>she's a miracle. She truly is a miracle. As you hear,

0:30:59.800 --> 0:31:01.840
<v Speaker 1>they were at the back of the line, Yeah, that

0:31:01.960 --> 0:31:03.200
<v Speaker 1>were the very last.

0:31:02.960 --> 0:31:05.200
<v Speaker 2>Few And that means because you're at the back of

0:31:05.240 --> 0:31:07.360
<v Speaker 2>the line, Stiff, does that mean that you were the

0:31:07.360 --> 0:31:13.400
<v Speaker 2>closest to the eruption when it happened. What happened?

0:31:13.400 --> 0:31:17.400
<v Speaker 3>Then, Yeah, that's right. So one of the last moments

0:31:17.400 --> 0:31:20.400
<v Speaker 3>we turned back around to check on Crystal again, and

0:31:20.480 --> 0:31:23.840
<v Speaker 3>it was only then that we had saw some dark

0:31:23.920 --> 0:31:26.800
<v Speaker 3>row clouds coming out from the crater, coming out from

0:31:26.840 --> 0:31:30.320
<v Speaker 3>where we just were a few minutes ago. And we

0:31:30.360 --> 0:31:32.800
<v Speaker 3>didn't know that that was the beginning of an eruption,

0:31:33.880 --> 0:31:36.120
<v Speaker 3>because there were clouds rising anyway, they were just a

0:31:36.160 --> 0:31:40.880
<v Speaker 3>different color, yes, But so my dad's first thought was,

0:31:40.920 --> 0:31:42.600
<v Speaker 3>you know, take a picture, you know, look at this,

0:31:43.040 --> 0:31:46.960
<v Speaker 3>what's happening, not realizing that it's coming towards us. It

0:31:47.000 --> 0:31:49.240
<v Speaker 3>doesn't look like that. It looks like it's just rising

0:31:49.320 --> 0:31:53.080
<v Speaker 3>up and down. And then we heard someone from a

0:31:53.120 --> 0:31:55.840
<v Speaker 3>distance as we were taking a photo quickly, and other

0:31:55.840 --> 0:31:58.720
<v Speaker 3>people were stopping because they started to notice as well,

0:31:59.320 --> 0:32:03.120
<v Speaker 3>the word run. And then that's when it's so someone yelled,

0:32:03.480 --> 0:32:06.680
<v Speaker 3>someone yelled run from the very very beginning of the

0:32:07.040 --> 0:32:10.800
<v Speaker 3>front of the line, which I presume was the tour guide.

0:32:10.680 --> 0:32:12.520
<v Speaker 1>Who knew what was happening.

0:32:12.200 --> 0:32:14.560
<v Speaker 3>Because even we had a tour guide at the back

0:32:14.720 --> 0:32:17.560
<v Speaker 3>with us as well, and they were just staring at

0:32:17.560 --> 0:32:21.120
<v Speaker 3>it with us as well in awe. So then the

0:32:21.200 --> 0:32:24.240
<v Speaker 3>seriousness kicked in and Dad. You know, it's just seconds.

0:32:24.480 --> 0:32:30.000
<v Speaker 3>Dad's repeatedly repeating the same words, run, run, run, and

0:32:30.920 --> 0:32:34.920
<v Speaker 3>I just remember turning around and sprinting. You know, I'm

0:32:34.960 --> 0:32:37.120
<v Speaker 3>thinking to myself, we're going to get hit with lava.

0:32:37.880 --> 0:32:41.680
<v Speaker 3>That's my thought, because I didn't know what this volcano was, like,

0:32:41.800 --> 0:32:44.360
<v Speaker 3>I just knew what I knew from movies or past

0:32:44.400 --> 0:32:48.440
<v Speaker 3>things I had seen. And we're not going to make

0:32:48.480 --> 0:32:50.880
<v Speaker 3>it if that's the case. So that's my line of thinking.

0:32:52.000 --> 0:32:56.440
<v Speaker 3>So I was just very much focused on my feet

0:32:57.520 --> 0:32:59.040
<v Speaker 3>and not tripping and falling.

0:32:58.760 --> 0:33:00.640
<v Speaker 1>Over on the uneven that's right.

0:33:00.840 --> 0:33:04.480
<v Speaker 3>It's a very rocky uneven surface. Yeah, And I was

0:33:04.520 --> 0:33:06.760
<v Speaker 3>worried if I'd fallen, I wouldn't be able to get

0:33:06.840 --> 0:33:10.160
<v Speaker 3>up again. And I could hear my dad and my

0:33:10.280 --> 0:33:12.479
<v Speaker 3>sister not far behind me, so I knew they were

0:33:12.520 --> 0:33:15.719
<v Speaker 3>right behind me, but I also scared to turn around

0:33:16.240 --> 0:33:18.720
<v Speaker 3>also running. Everyone was running, but I had lost sight

0:33:18.840 --> 0:33:20.920
<v Speaker 3>of everyone because I was so focused on the ground

0:33:20.920 --> 0:33:25.240
<v Speaker 3>and not tripping, whilst also trying to put on this

0:33:25.760 --> 0:33:29.600
<v Speaker 3>gas mask that we were provided right that no one

0:33:29.680 --> 0:33:31.640
<v Speaker 3>was wearing at the time, because we weren't told that

0:33:31.680 --> 0:33:34.480
<v Speaker 3>we had to wear this thing. At any point. It

0:33:34.520 --> 0:33:37.520
<v Speaker 3>was as you needed right, so no one had their

0:33:37.680 --> 0:33:41.720
<v Speaker 3>on so that was my main focus. And it feels

0:33:41.760 --> 0:33:45.000
<v Speaker 3>like there's a lot of time making these decisions.

0:33:45.680 --> 0:33:48.600
<v Speaker 2>But within split second, twenty.

0:33:48.400 --> 0:33:50.640
<v Speaker 3>Seconds or so of running, we were hit.

0:33:51.960 --> 0:33:57.240
<v Speaker 2>And when you say hit, is it a blast is

0:33:57.240 --> 0:33:58.560
<v Speaker 2>it a it's.

0:33:58.440 --> 0:34:01.960
<v Speaker 3>A huge knock you down for just a force, something

0:34:02.240 --> 0:34:05.600
<v Speaker 3>hitting you from behind like it could have been a vehicle,

0:34:05.680 --> 0:34:12.000
<v Speaker 3>a train, just something that you could not stop. It

0:34:12.719 --> 0:34:14.560
<v Speaker 3>pushed me down and it held me down, you know,

0:34:14.600 --> 0:34:17.440
<v Speaker 3>it was rolling. I couldn't fight it. And then at

0:34:17.480 --> 0:34:20.360
<v Speaker 3>the same time, while this thing is shoving me around

0:34:20.400 --> 0:34:24.160
<v Speaker 3>and pushing me down with such force, you know, I'm

0:34:24.200 --> 0:34:26.320
<v Speaker 3>being burnt alive, really.

0:34:26.280 --> 0:34:28.960
<v Speaker 1>Ash, You're you're falling into.

0:34:28.800 --> 0:34:32.600
<v Speaker 3>Ash yep, vision gone, sight, sound gone. You know it's

0:34:32.640 --> 0:34:34.840
<v Speaker 3>so loud at this point because you're in it, in

0:34:34.880 --> 0:34:38.279
<v Speaker 3>the middle of it, in the midst of it. You're

0:34:38.280 --> 0:34:42.920
<v Speaker 3>getting pummeled with just this huge, overbearing heat, but also

0:34:43.600 --> 0:34:46.520
<v Speaker 3>little stones, rocks, things hitting you at the same time.

0:34:46.560 --> 0:34:50.280
<v Speaker 3>That's also stinging on top of the burns itself. Whilst

0:34:50.280 --> 0:34:53.600
<v Speaker 3>being shoved around on rocks and trying to you know,

0:34:53.719 --> 0:34:56.160
<v Speaker 3>of course, my thinking is you've got to keep your

0:34:56.200 --> 0:34:59.600
<v Speaker 3>eyes closed. You've got to not breathe, hold on to

0:34:59.680 --> 0:35:03.520
<v Speaker 3>your keep your mouth closed. But it's very hard to

0:35:03.520 --> 0:35:06.040
<v Speaker 3>do when you're fighting for your life and you know,

0:35:06.080 --> 0:35:08.400
<v Speaker 3>you just want to scream because of the pain that

0:35:08.440 --> 0:35:08.759
<v Speaker 3>you're in.

0:35:09.960 --> 0:35:11.440
<v Speaker 1>And then you can hear your dad.

0:35:11.840 --> 0:35:14.919
<v Speaker 3>I couldn't really hear anyone at that point. I think

0:35:14.960 --> 0:35:20.760
<v Speaker 3>once I was hit, just the sound of the eruption itself,

0:35:23.160 --> 0:35:25.319
<v Speaker 3>like a collapsed building or something like that.

0:35:26.360 --> 0:35:27.960
<v Speaker 1>And how long did that last?

0:35:28.840 --> 0:35:34.000
<v Speaker 3>I'm it felt like ages, but I think it was.

0:35:34.520 --> 0:35:38.080
<v Speaker 3>It lasted maybe for like a minute or so for us.

0:35:39.520 --> 0:35:43.520
<v Speaker 3>I think because we were at the back and our

0:35:43.640 --> 0:35:47.360
<v Speaker 3>group was the most inland and closest to the crater,

0:35:47.960 --> 0:35:51.320
<v Speaker 3>we were in that pyroclassic flow longer than other people.

0:35:52.680 --> 0:35:56.680
<v Speaker 2>So I didn't understand this either until I was reading

0:35:56.800 --> 0:35:59.880
<v Speaker 2>what You Shard in the book. So what was hitting

0:36:00.560 --> 0:36:06.760
<v Speaker 2>was acid, heat and acid and rocks.

0:36:06.760 --> 0:36:09.680
<v Speaker 1>You could have got a massive rock ten times the

0:36:09.719 --> 0:36:12.280
<v Speaker 1>size of your head, or you could have got small rocks, right,

0:36:12.360 --> 0:36:17.080
<v Speaker 1>and there were thousand degrees in heat, and so then

0:36:17.160 --> 0:36:21.080
<v Speaker 1>you're lying in the midst of the burning earth and

0:36:21.239 --> 0:36:23.280
<v Speaker 1>ash and debris.

0:36:23.880 --> 0:36:29.359
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I'm I didn't think i'd survive just being in

0:36:29.400 --> 0:36:33.960
<v Speaker 3>that paraclassic fly as it was happening. So once it

0:36:34.040 --> 0:36:38.680
<v Speaker 3>finally stopped, I thought that was a miracle in itself. Yes,

0:36:38.760 --> 0:36:43.000
<v Speaker 3>because I didn't think that would happen. I didn't think

0:36:43.000 --> 0:36:47.640
<v Speaker 3>it would end, So it suddenly stopped, and it's just like, okay,

0:36:47.680 --> 0:36:52.480
<v Speaker 3>now what And my first train of thought is I've

0:36:52.520 --> 0:36:55.400
<v Speaker 3>got to get out of here. I cannot believe this

0:36:55.440 --> 0:36:57.960
<v Speaker 3>has happened. It's so unbelievable. I cannot believe this has

0:36:58.040 --> 0:37:01.200
<v Speaker 3>just happened. What are the chances and why?

0:37:01.520 --> 0:37:02.040
<v Speaker 4>Why? Else?

0:37:03.960 --> 0:37:07.480
<v Speaker 3>But I can't stay here if I'm alive now, I

0:37:07.520 --> 0:37:11.200
<v Speaker 3>need to stay alive. And I instantly Mum's coming to

0:37:11.280 --> 0:37:15.880
<v Speaker 3>my mind because she had always done her best in

0:37:15.960 --> 0:37:19.880
<v Speaker 3>all to protect us from everything in life. She was strict,

0:37:21.600 --> 0:37:24.439
<v Speaker 3>not for bad reasons, for good reasons, because she cared

0:37:24.440 --> 0:37:26.600
<v Speaker 3>and loved us and didn't want us to ever get hurt.

0:37:27.400 --> 0:37:29.360
<v Speaker 3>So Mum's coming to my mind because I know this

0:37:29.480 --> 0:37:31.640
<v Speaker 3>is like the worst thing. Could it happen. It's our

0:37:31.680 --> 0:37:33.359
<v Speaker 3>fear come true, her fear come true.

0:37:34.000 --> 0:37:37.760
<v Speaker 2>And is a part of you thinking, oh my god,

0:37:38.239 --> 0:37:40.520
<v Speaker 2>when I get back to the boat, I have to

0:37:41.640 --> 0:37:45.120
<v Speaker 2>like Mum will be furious about this or were you

0:37:45.160 --> 0:37:46.200
<v Speaker 2>thinking at this point.

0:37:46.920 --> 0:37:50.400
<v Speaker 3>Partially it was just I need to stay alive to

0:37:50.400 --> 0:37:54.279
<v Speaker 3>get to Mum right because she won't I don't know

0:37:54.600 --> 0:38:00.319
<v Speaker 3>if she would make it is happening to us. But also, yeah,

0:38:00.320 --> 0:38:03.759
<v Speaker 3>there's a little bit of you know, she'd warn us

0:38:03.760 --> 0:38:05.920
<v Speaker 3>the whole lives to be careful and everything like that,

0:38:06.000 --> 0:38:09.160
<v Speaker 3>and then this has happened, and a bit of both.

0:38:10.520 --> 0:38:12.680
<v Speaker 3>But then so my thought is I have to get up,

0:38:13.040 --> 0:38:15.319
<v Speaker 3>you know, I can't stay here. Staying here is a

0:38:15.360 --> 0:38:20.000
<v Speaker 3>death is going to lead to death. So that's what

0:38:20.080 --> 0:38:23.440
<v Speaker 3>I did. I attempted to get up so that I

0:38:23.440 --> 0:38:26.200
<v Speaker 3>could get away and make it to the shore to

0:38:26.280 --> 0:38:29.640
<v Speaker 3>where the jet boat had dropped us off to be seen.

0:38:31.920 --> 0:38:34.320
<v Speaker 3>And I couldn't see anyone around me. I was alone

0:38:34.600 --> 0:38:37.279
<v Speaker 3>at that point in time. And after a few goes,

0:38:37.280 --> 0:38:41.280
<v Speaker 3>I did manage to get up and drag myself because

0:38:41.320 --> 0:38:44.480
<v Speaker 3>I couldn't. I didn't have the energy to walk or

0:38:44.520 --> 0:38:47.200
<v Speaker 3>take steps. I had to drag my feet through the

0:38:47.239 --> 0:38:49.960
<v Speaker 3>burning hot ground, through the ash that was now you know,

0:38:50.239 --> 0:38:55.760
<v Speaker 3>at ankle at reaching my ankles, and then what felt

0:38:55.800 --> 0:38:59.080
<v Speaker 3>like forever, I then ended up landing. I fell down

0:38:59.120 --> 0:39:02.520
<v Speaker 3>a little Mound Hill, and I remember landing among a

0:39:02.520 --> 0:39:04.239
<v Speaker 3>group of people, and it was the first time I'd

0:39:04.239 --> 0:39:10.279
<v Speaker 3>seen anyone since since the eruption had taken place, and

0:39:10.360 --> 0:39:13.960
<v Speaker 3>I was just taking in who was around, trying to

0:39:13.960 --> 0:39:16.480
<v Speaker 3>receive if Dad and Crystal were there, and they weren't,

0:39:17.320 --> 0:39:19.480
<v Speaker 3>and I just remember thinking, I hope they're okay. I

0:39:19.520 --> 0:39:23.040
<v Speaker 3>hope they're somewhere nearby, and I'm not far. But then

0:39:23.080 --> 0:39:25.680
<v Speaker 3>I realized at that point that I couldn't get back up.

0:39:27.400 --> 0:39:30.319
<v Speaker 3>Once I had fallen back down, I couldn't get back up.

0:39:30.320 --> 0:39:31.080
<v Speaker 1>I was stuck there.

0:39:32.360 --> 0:39:36.840
<v Speaker 3>And then my main focus was to just stay conscious,

0:39:36.880 --> 0:39:40.439
<v Speaker 3>to stay awake, right, yes, because rescue would come.

0:39:41.040 --> 0:39:46.640
<v Speaker 2>Well, this is the other part of this tragedy of errors,

0:39:47.560 --> 0:39:54.200
<v Speaker 2>is it's a natural presumption that help will come. Such

0:39:54.200 --> 0:39:59.400
<v Speaker 2>a catastrophic happening, help will come. But help wasn't coming

0:40:00.560 --> 0:40:05.000
<v Speaker 2>unbeknownst to you obviously, you know you find this out later.

0:40:05.520 --> 0:40:12.239
<v Speaker 2>But the actual rescue helicopter had been had decided not

0:40:12.360 --> 0:40:17.080
<v Speaker 2>to come because it was too dangerous. So you're there

0:40:17.280 --> 0:40:18.760
<v Speaker 2>with the other injured.

0:40:20.080 --> 0:40:25.200
<v Speaker 3>For an hour, yeah, over an hour.

0:40:25.239 --> 0:40:31.280
<v Speaker 2>Over an hour, that's and three guys. And I say guys,

0:40:31.360 --> 0:40:34.600
<v Speaker 2>because that I want to say normal, but they're the

0:40:34.640 --> 0:40:36.040
<v Speaker 2>most extraordinary people.

0:40:37.400 --> 0:40:37.799
<v Speaker 1>That's right.

0:40:38.280 --> 0:40:42.759
<v Speaker 2>They had heard what had happened, and they decided just

0:40:42.800 --> 0:40:47.880
<v Speaker 2>to chop her out themselves and start helping m.

0:40:49.560 --> 0:40:57.520
<v Speaker 3>Yep. I didn't know it at the time, but once

0:40:57.560 --> 0:41:00.319
<v Speaker 3>they were once I heard voices on the island telling

0:41:00.400 --> 0:41:03.600
<v Speaker 3>us that help is here, I just remember thinking, Okay,

0:41:04.480 --> 0:41:08.120
<v Speaker 3>thank god, someone's here now, so that I can stop,

0:41:08.800 --> 0:41:11.960
<v Speaker 3>so that this pain can finally ease, so that I

0:41:12.000 --> 0:41:15.080
<v Speaker 3>can get out of here. I thought this hard so far.

0:41:16.000 --> 0:41:18.560
<v Speaker 3>Now I've got the help to get me, help me

0:41:18.600 --> 0:41:22.200
<v Speaker 3>do the rest, and just not to lapse into exactly consciousness.

0:41:22.520 --> 0:41:26.759
<v Speaker 3>That would have been like a blessing. But you had

0:41:26.760 --> 0:41:29.040
<v Speaker 3>to resist it. Yeah, I knew. I knew. I felt

0:41:29.040 --> 0:41:30.520
<v Speaker 3>it in me that if I had closed my eyes,

0:41:30.560 --> 0:41:34.239
<v Speaker 3>I wouldn't they wouldn't open again. I knew that, so

0:41:34.280 --> 0:41:38.160
<v Speaker 3>I couldn't let that happen. And then these people are here,

0:41:38.200 --> 0:41:40.399
<v Speaker 3>and I can hear voices finally telling us that help

0:41:40.480 --> 0:41:43.040
<v Speaker 3>is here. Help is here, and then they're trying to

0:41:43.280 --> 0:41:46.040
<v Speaker 3>I can hear them assessing people, and one of them

0:41:46.040 --> 0:41:47.799
<v Speaker 3>comes up to me and he's rolling me over in

0:41:47.800 --> 0:41:51.759
<v Speaker 3>a recovery position and trying to get the gas mask

0:41:51.840 --> 0:41:53.920
<v Speaker 3>back on my face properly so that I'm not breathing

0:41:53.960 --> 0:41:56.640
<v Speaker 3>in because it's ash and the airs filled with all

0:41:56.680 --> 0:42:00.359
<v Speaker 3>this gases as well that we're still breathing in. So

0:42:00.400 --> 0:42:04.759
<v Speaker 3>they were doing that, and then after a while, finally

0:42:04.960 --> 0:42:06.759
<v Speaker 3>it was like, Okay, we're going to help you get

0:42:06.760 --> 0:42:09.719
<v Speaker 3>onto the helicopter. We're going to get you off. And

0:42:09.840 --> 0:42:13.120
<v Speaker 3>I just remember being so thankful, feeling some relief to

0:42:13.160 --> 0:42:15.480
<v Speaker 3>be off the burning ground and to know that I

0:42:15.560 --> 0:42:19.879
<v Speaker 3>was coming close to being in a hospital finally, and

0:42:19.960 --> 0:42:23.319
<v Speaker 3>they placed me in a helicopter, and I think one

0:42:23.320 --> 0:42:29.080
<v Speaker 3>of my first thoughts was, where's machinery, equipment, something for

0:42:29.560 --> 0:42:32.280
<v Speaker 3>our injuries? But there wasn't any of that.

0:42:32.280 --> 0:42:35.440
<v Speaker 2>That's when you became aware that it wasn't a medical rescue.

0:42:35.719 --> 0:42:38.400
<v Speaker 3>I think subconsciously I became aware that it wasn't, But

0:42:38.440 --> 0:42:40.439
<v Speaker 3>at the same time, I'm just thinking, Okay, maybe they're

0:42:40.520 --> 0:42:42.440
<v Speaker 3>just in a rush, you know, I'm trying to find

0:42:42.440 --> 0:42:46.320
<v Speaker 3>a reason for this, and then it's just okay, stay awake.

0:42:46.600 --> 0:42:49.600
<v Speaker 3>We're nearly there. Once they had taken off. But then

0:42:49.640 --> 0:42:53.320
<v Speaker 3>to find out that yeah, they were civilian, just random

0:42:53.360 --> 0:42:58.960
<v Speaker 3>civilians who have to own a helicopter company themselves that

0:42:59.160 --> 0:43:01.640
<v Speaker 3>had seen what it happened and heard about it and

0:43:02.040 --> 0:43:06.239
<v Speaker 3>came out there to do what they did. That there

0:43:06.239 --> 0:43:08.359
<v Speaker 3>are no words, because it means so much more to

0:43:08.400 --> 0:43:11.160
<v Speaker 3>me than anyone could ever know, to know that they

0:43:11.239 --> 0:43:15.359
<v Speaker 3>risk their lives for people that they don't know. They

0:43:15.480 --> 0:43:17.640
<v Speaker 3>just did what they thought was the right thing to do.

0:43:19.520 --> 0:43:22.120
<v Speaker 3>They did what they could for a fellow human being.

0:43:23.480 --> 0:43:30.840
<v Speaker 2>Along the way, you, Marie and Stephanie, have encountered people

0:43:31.600 --> 0:43:39.319
<v Speaker 2>like that who do who go above and beyond. The

0:43:39.360 --> 0:43:45.360
<v Speaker 2>next part of this, obviously, is Marie, you finding out

0:43:45.400 --> 0:43:51.280
<v Speaker 2>what's happened, which I gather was also a very complicated

0:43:51.360 --> 0:43:55.839
<v Speaker 2>and chaotic chain of communication on board the boat.

0:43:56.640 --> 0:44:00.799
<v Speaker 1>Barely any communication at all. I was very excited to

0:44:00.840 --> 0:44:04.680
<v Speaker 1>hear my name get announced, thinking I'm getting called to reception,

0:44:05.000 --> 0:44:08.000
<v Speaker 1>so they because Paul and the girls are back, and

0:44:08.040 --> 0:44:10.440
<v Speaker 1>it's just an easier way for us to get together.

0:44:11.280 --> 0:44:13.400
<v Speaker 1>I need to find that. There were a few people

0:44:13.440 --> 0:44:17.520
<v Speaker 1>standing there and we still hadn't entered into a room

0:44:17.560 --> 0:44:20.880
<v Speaker 1>where we could be spoken to for an announcement. I

0:44:20.920 --> 0:44:23.839
<v Speaker 1>could hear people speaking amongst themselves in groups, and I

0:44:23.920 --> 0:44:27.360
<v Speaker 1>was all by myself with a walking stick and everyone

0:44:27.440 --> 0:44:31.880
<v Speaker 1>had company, and you know, and I heard I heard

0:44:31.920 --> 0:44:36.040
<v Speaker 1>the word and I thought, no, this can't be true.

0:44:36.120 --> 0:44:41.640
<v Speaker 1>What word eruption of volcano? I heard the word eruption?

0:44:42.840 --> 0:44:44.960
<v Speaker 1>Of course not. You know, they look too happy, they're not,

0:44:45.280 --> 0:44:48.279
<v Speaker 1>they don't look concerned. They're just talking amongst themselves about it.

0:44:48.320 --> 0:44:51.719
<v Speaker 1>That this can't be real. So I continue to stand there.

0:44:51.719 --> 0:44:53.440
<v Speaker 1>I thought, they're going to speak to us. Why are

0:44:53.440 --> 0:44:56.320
<v Speaker 1>we just standing here for so long? Just standing there?

0:44:56.800 --> 0:45:02.080
<v Speaker 1>And so then I called on someone and her English

0:45:02.160 --> 0:45:04.280
<v Speaker 1>was very poor, and I said to her, look, I'm sorry,

0:45:04.320 --> 0:45:08.920
<v Speaker 1>but I'm hearing whispers. Is this true? And justest that

0:45:09.239 --> 0:45:12.600
<v Speaker 1>we believe? So something along those lines, and then we

0:45:13.120 --> 0:45:15.719
<v Speaker 1>got taken into a very large room, look like a

0:45:15.760 --> 0:45:19.200
<v Speaker 1>massive conference room, and people continued to talk in there,

0:45:19.239 --> 0:45:22.400
<v Speaker 1>where I asked the questions and I said, no, this

0:45:23.640 --> 0:45:26.080
<v Speaker 1>where are they now? This is they're back, right? And

0:45:26.160 --> 0:45:29.200
<v Speaker 1>she said no, and I said where are all the

0:45:29.239 --> 0:45:33.719
<v Speaker 1>passengers and she said, well, knife there alive. She went

0:45:33.760 --> 0:45:36.760
<v Speaker 1>along the lines of more than what kind of erupted?

0:45:36.800 --> 0:45:38.920
<v Speaker 1>And there's been no rescuers. They're all still there, so

0:45:39.080 --> 0:45:49.520
<v Speaker 1>we don't believe any survivors. And that was how I explode. Yep,

0:45:49.760 --> 0:45:53.000
<v Speaker 1>that's our casually, just from a junior person behind a

0:45:53.040 --> 0:45:56.279
<v Speaker 1>reception desk that was speaking to me in broken English

0:45:56.360 --> 0:46:00.440
<v Speaker 1>that could barely answer any questions of mine. As my

0:46:00.480 --> 0:46:05.120
<v Speaker 1>insides exploded, I was left alone and she's talking to

0:46:05.120 --> 0:46:08.080
<v Speaker 1>me about my entire family. That was my entire world,

0:46:08.760 --> 0:46:13.200
<v Speaker 1>that's the whole fat, my entire existence, my purpose in life.

0:46:13.239 --> 0:46:16.719
<v Speaker 1>And she's just like, oh, well, just like that. So

0:46:18.440 --> 0:46:22.279
<v Speaker 1>as a mother, you could probably understand. And at that

0:46:22.400 --> 0:46:28.600
<v Speaker 1>moment I died. And I remember a teenage girl walking

0:46:28.719 --> 0:46:32.000
<v Speaker 1>from across the other side of the hallway and swore

0:46:32.120 --> 0:46:34.920
<v Speaker 1>straight into my face with the foulst of language and

0:46:35.760 --> 0:46:38.960
<v Speaker 1>time to shut the earth up. And then not even

0:46:39.000 --> 0:46:42.440
<v Speaker 1>five minutes later, her elderly grandparent. I'm assuming, but they

0:46:42.480 --> 0:46:45.000
<v Speaker 1>were all together. A family came up and said, excuse me,

0:46:45.160 --> 0:46:50.080
<v Speaker 1>you know there are children present, can be quiet. This

0:46:50.280 --> 0:46:54.080
<v Speaker 1>was my entire family, and I was told to be great. Right,

0:46:54.200 --> 0:46:59.560
<v Speaker 1>So at what point did you find out that I

0:46:59.640 --> 0:47:04.640
<v Speaker 1>went in for rule and Stephanie had made it to hospital.

0:47:06.840 --> 0:47:09.520
<v Speaker 1>I was taken eventually back to the cabin and I

0:47:09.520 --> 0:47:12.920
<v Speaker 1>was told to pack all our belongings. There was a

0:47:13.280 --> 0:47:15.840
<v Speaker 1>I don't know how many people in that tiny cabin

0:47:17.400 --> 0:47:21.239
<v Speaker 1>just watching me pack, and I'm just packing crystals and

0:47:21.440 --> 0:47:25.960
<v Speaker 1>packing Pauls packing mine and Stephanie's and their carry bags.

0:47:26.040 --> 0:47:29.719
<v Speaker 1>And I remember grabbing because we collected all the paperwork

0:47:30.000 --> 0:47:32.319
<v Speaker 1>to all the excursions and all the places we visit.

0:47:32.360 --> 0:47:34.239
<v Speaker 1>We always had the girls use them and cut them

0:47:34.239 --> 0:47:38.080
<v Speaker 1>out in their albums, and I collected even the compass

0:47:38.120 --> 0:47:40.439
<v Speaker 1>for that day. I had every single compass for every

0:47:40.480 --> 0:47:44.000
<v Speaker 1>single day, including that excursion. They were zipped up into

0:47:44.080 --> 0:47:48.200
<v Speaker 1>our bags, which later disappeared, so I never got them back.

0:47:48.760 --> 0:47:51.320
<v Speaker 1>None of that was returned to me. I don't know why,

0:47:51.840 --> 0:47:55.160
<v Speaker 1>but when we got our belongings back, that paperwork was missing,

0:47:57.040 --> 0:48:00.400
<v Speaker 1>and people were watching, and I'm on the bed waiting

0:48:00.440 --> 0:48:02.239
<v Speaker 1>because they kept sending it and now taking to the

0:48:02.239 --> 0:48:05.319
<v Speaker 1>hospital because they believed some survivors have made it there.

0:48:05.800 --> 0:48:08.160
<v Speaker 1>And I kept asking about my family, and they said

0:48:08.719 --> 0:48:11.600
<v Speaker 1>they were talking in a different language. They were talking

0:48:11.640 --> 0:48:14.160
<v Speaker 1>in two or three different languages, barely any English at

0:48:14.200 --> 0:48:17.640
<v Speaker 1>all unless I spoke out and asked questions. And I

0:48:17.680 --> 0:48:20.480
<v Speaker 1>think at this stage I was shaking, and I was trembling,

0:48:20.520 --> 0:48:25.360
<v Speaker 1>and my heart rate was about one hundred and sixty

0:48:24.360 --> 0:48:31.120
<v Speaker 1>and I was crying, and I kept begging and begging, please, please, anything,

0:48:31.280 --> 0:48:34.640
<v Speaker 1>just any shred of information. And eventually they said, we

0:48:34.800 --> 0:48:39.920
<v Speaker 1>believe a man identified himself as Paul Brower at the hospital.

0:48:40.200 --> 0:48:41.880
<v Speaker 1>Now I remember, I don't know where I am. I

0:48:41.920 --> 0:48:46.239
<v Speaker 1>just know that I'm in a town for Katani. That's

0:48:46.239 --> 0:48:48.560
<v Speaker 1>all I know. And I saw somewhere in New Zealand,

0:48:48.560 --> 0:48:50.960
<v Speaker 1>and I have no idea where I am, and I'm lost,

0:48:51.000 --> 0:48:55.799
<v Speaker 1>and I'm confused and petrified. And then they I kept

0:48:55.840 --> 0:48:58.239
<v Speaker 1>asking about I said, we have two daughters. What about

0:48:58.239 --> 0:49:01.719
<v Speaker 1>my two daughters? I know. Half an hour later, we

0:49:01.800 --> 0:49:06.080
<v Speaker 1>believe a girl also identified herself as Stephanie. Is that

0:49:06.120 --> 0:49:08.719
<v Speaker 1>your daughter? I said yes? And Crystal, No, no one's

0:49:08.840 --> 0:49:11.960
<v Speaker 1>identified them I said, no, I have another daughter, Crystal,

0:49:12.520 --> 0:49:15.200
<v Speaker 1>And they said no, no one's identified themselves as Crystal.

0:49:15.840 --> 0:49:19.800
<v Speaker 1>But you know, we're just waiting for confirmation. We're waiting

0:49:19.840 --> 0:49:22.480
<v Speaker 1>for a car to come and get you. I don't

0:49:22.480 --> 0:49:25.040
<v Speaker 1>know where everyone else went, or I don't know anything

0:49:25.040 --> 0:49:27.680
<v Speaker 1>about anyone else in that other room because I was

0:49:27.719 --> 0:49:32.840
<v Speaker 1>taking a little medical room where I kept begging for

0:49:32.960 --> 0:49:38.560
<v Speaker 1>help and begging for sedation, and they took me hours

0:49:38.600 --> 0:49:42.520
<v Speaker 1>and hours later they sent her a young girl. I

0:49:42.560 --> 0:49:45.360
<v Speaker 1>think she said she was part of hospitality or kitchen

0:49:45.960 --> 0:49:48.080
<v Speaker 1>with me in a car with an elderly gentleman that

0:49:48.160 --> 0:49:51.800
<v Speaker 1>drove down this windy road for three and a half hours.

0:49:51.800 --> 0:49:53.439
<v Speaker 1>And I got to a hospital and I was sat

0:49:53.480 --> 0:49:56.960
<v Speaker 1>in the kitchen with no information, and I continued to ask,

0:49:57.040 --> 0:49:59.680
<v Speaker 1>and they continued. They did say paula. They brought up

0:49:59.680 --> 0:50:02.399
<v Speaker 1>Pauls name and Stephanie's name, but Crystal's name was never

0:50:02.440 --> 0:50:05.600
<v Speaker 1>brought up. And I continue to ask about Crystal and

0:50:05.640 --> 0:50:09.080
<v Speaker 1>they continue to say there's no such person. You end

0:50:09.160 --> 0:50:13.600
<v Speaker 1>up in hospital in New Zealand and Paul's in hospital

0:50:13.640 --> 0:50:14.400
<v Speaker 1>in New Zealand.

0:50:16.239 --> 0:50:25.640
<v Speaker 2>You then get transferred to back to Australia. Daniel, Crystal's boyfriend,

0:50:27.480 --> 0:50:32.160
<v Speaker 2>has volunteered to stay. I think with you, Stephanie, while

0:50:32.640 --> 0:50:34.800
<v Speaker 2>you're with Paul Marie.

0:50:35.800 --> 0:50:37.719
<v Speaker 1>When I was taken to the hospital, I assume my

0:50:37.760 --> 0:50:39.160
<v Speaker 1>whole family were at a hospital.

0:50:39.200 --> 0:50:39.399
<v Speaker 2>Yeah.

0:50:39.560 --> 0:50:41.640
<v Speaker 1>Remember I don't know what hospital I was. I don't know.

0:50:42.280 --> 0:50:47.000
<v Speaker 1>I wasn't in any state too. There's so much that

0:50:47.239 --> 0:50:50.279
<v Speaker 1>I've just lost. I can't remember. But at that time

0:50:50.320 --> 0:50:54.560
<v Speaker 1>I was in shock, as you would imagine. And they

0:50:54.640 --> 0:50:57.920
<v Speaker 1>then said we've got I can't remember who I was

0:50:58.040 --> 0:51:01.680
<v Speaker 1>even saw first now and I said, well, can I

0:51:01.719 --> 0:51:03.880
<v Speaker 1>see them? I'm not yet they were in surgery or

0:51:03.880 --> 0:51:06.560
<v Speaker 1>not yet or not yet. Eventually I saw one of

0:51:06.600 --> 0:51:08.680
<v Speaker 1>them and I said, well, where are the other two?

0:51:08.920 --> 0:51:11.520
<v Speaker 1>We don't know where Crystal is, but your other I

0:51:11.520 --> 0:51:13.600
<v Speaker 1>can't remember. It was Paul or step was flying to

0:51:13.640 --> 0:51:17.200
<v Speaker 1>a different hospital. I thought, oh my god. So I

0:51:17.200 --> 0:51:22.640
<v Speaker 1>only saw one at the three and then I was

0:51:22.880 --> 0:51:25.759
<v Speaker 1>flown I think the next other day after to see

0:51:25.800 --> 0:51:30.120
<v Speaker 1>the other one. But by this stage I was missing.

0:51:30.360 --> 0:51:33.600
<v Speaker 1>The Australian Embassy hadn't found me yet. Despite all my

0:51:33.719 --> 0:51:38.879
<v Speaker 1>efforts to, you know, to identify myself and say this

0:51:38.960 --> 0:51:41.719
<v Speaker 1>is my family. Paul is my husband, Stephanie is my daughter,

0:51:41.800 --> 0:51:45.480
<v Speaker 1>Crystal Brow, the embassy had yet to find me. I

0:51:45.560 --> 0:51:48.520
<v Speaker 1>was just somewhere. I was left in a kitchen, and

0:51:48.560 --> 0:51:50.680
<v Speaker 1>then I was placed in a child's bedroom at a

0:51:50.719 --> 0:51:53.480
<v Speaker 1>different hospital when I was transferred, and then I was

0:51:53.520 --> 0:51:55.600
<v Speaker 1>told that oh, they flew Paul out in the middle

0:51:55.640 --> 0:51:58.799
<v Speaker 1>of the night and that they were about to fly

0:51:58.840 --> 0:52:01.520
<v Speaker 1>stephan yet and I needed to leave. And I remember

0:52:01.520 --> 0:52:05.279
<v Speaker 1>saying I'm not going anywhere without Crystal, and I have

0:52:05.360 --> 0:52:08.040
<v Speaker 1>another daughter and they kept saying, no, we have not

0:52:08.120 --> 0:52:12.319
<v Speaker 1>recovered a Crystal. She's not in any hospital. But she was.

0:52:13.520 --> 0:52:16.600
<v Speaker 1>She was at Fakatani, which is their first place. It

0:52:16.719 --> 0:52:19.360
<v Speaker 1>was the first little hospital they were taken to before

0:52:19.360 --> 0:52:21.360
<v Speaker 1>they were sent out to bigg A Hospital.

0:52:21.520 --> 0:52:23.840
<v Speaker 2>And you didn't find this out till much later.

0:52:24.280 --> 0:52:26.600
<v Speaker 1>Didn't find out until I was at the Alfred Hospital

0:52:26.640 --> 0:52:29.400
<v Speaker 1>in Melbourne. They forced me to leave. They said you

0:52:29.440 --> 0:52:32.200
<v Speaker 1>have to go because Sephanie and paul a critical, so

0:52:32.520 --> 0:52:34.879
<v Speaker 1>you may miss the opportunity. You need to go there

0:52:34.920 --> 0:52:36.400
<v Speaker 1>critical and.

0:52:36.920 --> 0:52:40.839
<v Speaker 2>Crystal had, as it turned out, made it onto the helicopter.

0:52:42.480 --> 0:52:47.120
<v Speaker 2>You found this out from the three the three angels

0:52:47.120 --> 0:52:48.279
<v Speaker 2>who flew the helicopter.

0:52:50.480 --> 0:52:55.279
<v Speaker 1>She was alive, That's what they told me. And you're right.

0:52:55.640 --> 0:52:59.120
<v Speaker 1>They are angels. They saw smoke from the mainland and

0:52:59.200 --> 0:53:02.560
<v Speaker 1>decided to contact each other and say, look, can we

0:53:02.640 --> 0:53:05.720
<v Speaker 1>just fly over, what if there are people there? And

0:53:05.760 --> 0:53:08.439
<v Speaker 1>they did the unthinkable, and they risked their lives, the

0:53:08.480 --> 0:53:13.520
<v Speaker 1>total strangers, and they saved lives. They did what you know,

0:53:13.640 --> 0:53:15.840
<v Speaker 1>rescue was supposed to do, what they were being paid

0:53:15.880 --> 0:53:18.759
<v Speaker 1>to do. It's like having a fireman say sorry, I'm

0:53:18.800 --> 0:53:21.200
<v Speaker 1>not going into that burning building. It's just too risky.

0:53:21.360 --> 0:53:24.719
<v Speaker 1>It's good enough for a towelp apparently it's not good

0:53:24.840 --> 0:53:29.000
<v Speaker 1>enough to rescue anyone from that tour. But despite all

0:53:29.040 --> 0:53:31.880
<v Speaker 1>they you know, they did. They're all these heroes and

0:53:31.920 --> 0:53:34.319
<v Speaker 1>when I met them, it took five long years to

0:53:34.320 --> 0:53:38.759
<v Speaker 1>build the courage to go there, and they had been

0:53:38.960 --> 0:53:42.680
<v Speaker 1>and I asked Crystal. They told me that Paul refused

0:53:42.719 --> 0:53:45.200
<v Speaker 1>to get on the helicopter. He was dying, but he

0:53:45.239 --> 0:53:49.520
<v Speaker 1>refused to get on without with that, he said, I'm

0:53:49.560 --> 0:53:52.240
<v Speaker 1>not getting on unless the girls and everyone else going first.

0:53:53.239 --> 0:53:56.920
<v Speaker 1>And then he went on last. And they said she

0:53:57.160 --> 0:54:01.439
<v Speaker 1>was unconscious but alive, and they promised me. They sat

0:54:01.640 --> 0:54:07.280
<v Speaker 1>beside Paul and that Stephanie was seated right up front,

0:54:07.719 --> 0:54:09.600
<v Speaker 1>and every so often they had to push her back

0:54:09.840 --> 0:54:14.880
<v Speaker 1>because she kept leaning forward, almost falling into unconsciousness. They

0:54:15.239 --> 0:54:17.640
<v Speaker 1>and I asked them how long and they said the

0:54:17.680 --> 0:54:21.920
<v Speaker 1>trip was about seventeen minutes to the hospital, but they

0:54:21.960 --> 0:54:24.279
<v Speaker 1>don't know what happened after that. But then I was

0:54:24.320 --> 0:54:28.960
<v Speaker 1>told that the hospital pronounced her unrespensive, so in that

0:54:29.120 --> 0:54:34.600
<v Speaker 1>seventeen minutes, I don't know much more than that, But

0:54:34.719 --> 0:54:40.920
<v Speaker 1>what you do know is that your husband Paul and

0:54:41.000 --> 0:54:50.440
<v Speaker 1>Stephanie are also perilously close today. Yep. So I was

0:54:50.480 --> 0:54:52.719
<v Speaker 1>forced to leave New Zealand and come back with them,

0:54:52.760 --> 0:54:57.160
<v Speaker 1>and the beautiful Daniel stayed behind, my beautiful sister in

0:54:57.280 --> 0:55:00.720
<v Speaker 1>or FI owner which said I'll stay behind and and see,

0:55:01.920 --> 0:55:09.400
<v Speaker 1>and Daniel came back with her on the aeroplane Talomarine Airport. No,

0:55:09.440 --> 0:55:12.719
<v Speaker 1>it was it Tolomraene air I can't even remember or

0:55:12.800 --> 0:55:15.480
<v Speaker 1>was it? Essence? I can't. If it doesn't matter, I can't.

0:55:15.640 --> 0:55:19.799
<v Speaker 1>I just can't. My head. It's just too traumatic for

0:55:19.840 --> 0:55:22.799
<v Speaker 1>me to recall and revisit a lot of things. Some

0:55:22.880 --> 0:55:25.839
<v Speaker 1>memories are quite vivid, others are quite vague because it's

0:55:25.960 --> 0:55:27.600
<v Speaker 1>just too traumatic.

0:55:28.120 --> 0:55:32.479
<v Speaker 2>But then you have to encounter another trauma a word

0:55:32.520 --> 0:55:38.640
<v Speaker 2>that's overused. This is genuine trauma of watching Stephanie in

0:55:38.760 --> 0:55:45.120
<v Speaker 2>hospital who's got burns to seventy percent of her body,

0:55:47.440 --> 0:55:55.040
<v Speaker 2>and your husband, Paul. You're trying to navigate being with

0:55:55.160 --> 0:55:59.440
<v Speaker 2>both of them, You're trying to will them both alive.

0:56:00.480 --> 0:56:04.719
<v Speaker 2>And Stephanie, where are you at this point? Are you aware?

0:56:04.880 --> 0:56:10.239
<v Speaker 2>Are you conscious of what's happened to you? Your bandage

0:56:10.280 --> 0:56:11.120
<v Speaker 2>like a mummy?

0:56:12.400 --> 0:56:12.640
<v Speaker 3>Yep?

0:56:13.040 --> 0:56:16.560
<v Speaker 2>Where are you mentally or spiritually or.

0:56:17.480 --> 0:56:24.279
<v Speaker 3>I was comatose for a few weeks, and then it

0:56:24.400 --> 0:56:30.759
<v Speaker 3>took a few days slowly waking up before I came

0:56:30.800 --> 0:56:38.760
<v Speaker 3>to fully. And the moment I was awake, I knew

0:56:38.760 --> 0:56:43.000
<v Speaker 3>what had happened, but I wasn't sure where I was.

0:56:43.000 --> 0:56:44.720
<v Speaker 3>Was I back home? Was I still there?

0:56:45.239 --> 0:56:45.640
<v Speaker 1>Yes?

0:56:46.320 --> 0:56:49.200
<v Speaker 3>So that's on my mind. And then of course it's

0:56:49.400 --> 0:56:53.080
<v Speaker 3>Dad and Crystal. Are they okay? You know where am I?

0:56:53.120 --> 0:56:57.799
<v Speaker 3>Are they okay? Mum's the first face I see, as

0:56:57.840 --> 0:57:00.560
<v Speaker 3>well as a nurse because they have an nurse sitting

0:57:00.640 --> 0:57:03.719
<v Speaker 3>in the ICU room twenty four seven. Because you're so

0:57:03.800 --> 0:57:08.879
<v Speaker 3>critical and I couldn't really get a sentence out. It's

0:57:08.920 --> 0:57:15.879
<v Speaker 3>just words and if you need But Mum's telling me, yep,

0:57:16.600 --> 0:57:21.680
<v Speaker 3>that's okay. He's here. Crystal's okay, she's at another hospital.

0:57:22.880 --> 0:57:26.800
<v Speaker 3>So in my mind, that's the best case in Harrio

0:57:29.240 --> 0:57:31.440
<v Speaker 3>that we all made it back and that we were alive,

0:57:32.080 --> 0:57:37.280
<v Speaker 3>because I'm thinking, come away, come here. I'm conscious, surely

0:57:37.680 --> 0:57:39.080
<v Speaker 3>this is going to be okay. Now we're going to

0:57:39.120 --> 0:57:44.160
<v Speaker 3>recover and be fine, not really understanding and grasping just

0:57:44.240 --> 0:57:46.680
<v Speaker 3>how long this recovery is going to be and how

0:57:46.680 --> 0:57:51.320
<v Speaker 3>strenuous and horrific it is, but also not realizing that

0:57:51.360 --> 0:57:56.040
<v Speaker 3>we're not really out of the woods yet. So that's

0:57:56.120 --> 0:57:58.240
<v Speaker 3>my first train of thought. And of course, I see

0:57:58.240 --> 0:58:03.760
<v Speaker 3>you is very my memories here and there, because I'm

0:58:03.840 --> 0:58:05.840
<v Speaker 3>having operations every second day.

0:58:05.880 --> 0:58:09.280
<v Speaker 2>I'm predated, dated, dated, drugged.

0:58:09.760 --> 0:58:14.440
<v Speaker 3>Sleeping all the time, so I know some things but

0:58:14.600 --> 0:58:21.080
<v Speaker 3>not everything. So it wasn't until I was moved around

0:58:21.160 --> 0:58:23.600
<v Speaker 3>Year's Eve to the Burns Unit that I was sort

0:58:23.600 --> 0:58:28.440
<v Speaker 3>of more aware of my surroundings and what's going on.

0:58:28.600 --> 0:58:33.360
<v Speaker 2>And so that's been like twenty something days at that point.

0:58:33.200 --> 0:58:34.400
<v Speaker 3>Or yeah, nearly a month.

0:58:35.080 --> 0:58:40.040
<v Speaker 2>A month later, stay with us. My conversation with Marie

0:58:40.080 --> 0:58:45.320
<v Speaker 2>and Stephanie continues after this break and so your Dad's

0:58:45.360 --> 0:58:50.520
<v Speaker 2>still alive at this point, Paul's still alive, but your mum, Marie,

0:58:50.560 --> 0:59:00.440
<v Speaker 2>You've made the agonizing decision to let Stephanie and Paul

0:59:00.600 --> 0:59:05.160
<v Speaker 2>believe that Crystal is alive because he knew.

0:59:06.640 --> 0:59:12.000
<v Speaker 1>I couldn't I could possibly I couldn't possibly hurt them

0:59:12.040 --> 0:59:18.080
<v Speaker 1>many more than they were hurting. They were physically broken

0:59:18.120 --> 0:59:23.240
<v Speaker 1>into pieces. Then mine was shattered. The trauma that was

0:59:23.240 --> 0:59:28.520
<v Speaker 1>suffering I'm taking, trying to take the weight from them

0:59:28.560 --> 0:59:31.360
<v Speaker 1>as much as possible, and all I could do really

0:59:31.480 --> 0:59:34.120
<v Speaker 1>was lie, and I just felt horrible doing that. And

0:59:34.680 --> 0:59:38.000
<v Speaker 1>the entire time I was reminded by the staff that

0:59:38.040 --> 0:59:41.200
<v Speaker 1>if I didn't do it, they would, and I remember

0:59:41.280 --> 0:59:41.800
<v Speaker 1>thinking that.

0:59:41.840 --> 0:59:44.600
<v Speaker 2>Was very cruel. Tell them tell the truth about that.

0:59:44.800 --> 0:59:48.040
<v Speaker 1>They continued to warn me that if I didn't tell

0:59:48.040 --> 0:59:51.040
<v Speaker 1>them that they would, because when they were asked questions,

0:59:51.120 --> 0:59:55.360
<v Speaker 1>they weren't comfortable with not telling them. And I remember saying,

0:59:55.400 --> 0:59:57.360
<v Speaker 1>that was my family and it was my place, and

0:59:58.560 --> 1:00:00.480
<v Speaker 1>I will do it when I knew the time be right,

1:00:00.560 --> 1:00:02.240
<v Speaker 1>that I didn't want to hurt them anymore than they

1:00:02.240 --> 1:00:06.520
<v Speaker 1>were hurting. So I told Stephanie that Crystal was in

1:00:06.560 --> 1:00:10.120
<v Speaker 1>a better condition than her, but just at the raw maltbour,

1:00:10.240 --> 1:00:14.479
<v Speaker 1>I think, I said. And then when Paul's in and out,

1:00:14.600 --> 1:00:19.640
<v Speaker 1>in and out, he really was in and out, mostly him.

1:00:20.800 --> 1:00:25.640
<v Speaker 1>He asked if Stephanie was alive, and I'd say, yes,

1:00:25.760 --> 1:00:28.040
<v Speaker 1>she's in the room beside you. She's doing really well.

1:00:28.080 --> 1:00:30.720
<v Speaker 1>We're just waiting for you to come home to get well.

1:00:31.400 --> 1:00:33.560
<v Speaker 1>And then it says Crystal alive, and I'd say, of

1:00:33.600 --> 1:00:37.000
<v Speaker 1>course she is. You know, we're all just waiting for you.

1:00:37.080 --> 1:00:40.720
<v Speaker 1>To get better, and Stephanie would say the same thing.

1:00:40.760 --> 1:00:43.240
<v Speaker 1>I'd say, Dad's right beside you, and he really was.

1:00:43.360 --> 1:00:46.880
<v Speaker 1>They were side by side in ic you you know,

1:00:46.960 --> 1:00:49.760
<v Speaker 1>they couldn't see each other. Of course, there was a wall,

1:00:49.800 --> 1:00:52.800
<v Speaker 1>and then the glass was too high up which was frosted,

1:00:52.880 --> 1:00:56.560
<v Speaker 1>and I had posters up and photos up, so I'd

1:00:56.600 --> 1:00:58.880
<v Speaker 1>like to eat one of them to keep them fighting.

1:00:59.040 --> 1:01:02.200
<v Speaker 1>I was too scared. I didn't. I knew that my

1:01:02.320 --> 1:01:05.840
<v Speaker 1>husband would not have wanted to go on if he

1:01:05.920 --> 1:01:10.280
<v Speaker 1>thought he and I both lived for our children. He

1:01:10.320 --> 1:01:13.439
<v Speaker 1>would have done because he was with her. He would

1:01:13.440 --> 1:01:17.000
<v Speaker 1>have borne the brunt of that. I don't know what

1:01:17.120 --> 1:01:21.480
<v Speaker 1>he knew, but I believe he knew the severity of

1:01:21.520 --> 1:01:28.560
<v Speaker 1>her because they gave me mybile phone and they told

1:01:28.680 --> 1:01:31.920
<v Speaker 1>me it was paulse But I knew Paul didn't have

1:01:31.960 --> 1:01:37.160
<v Speaker 1>a chance of charging his mobile phone between the three

1:01:37.200 --> 1:01:44.280
<v Speaker 1>of us the girls, you know, the powerpoints charge their phone,

1:01:44.360 --> 1:01:46.160
<v Speaker 1>so he left his phone behind, and I had his

1:01:46.520 --> 1:01:48.800
<v Speaker 1>mobile phone, so he knew it wasn't here. Son, it

1:01:48.880 --> 1:01:51.400
<v Speaker 1>wasn't his, So I thought, could this be crystals? Because

1:01:51.440 --> 1:01:57.600
<v Speaker 1>I knew the police had Stephanie's. So I was very eager,

1:01:58.480 --> 1:02:02.840
<v Speaker 1>and it was crystals. It was shattered. It was the

1:02:02.880 --> 1:02:05.400
<v Speaker 1>glass was shattered. The phone was off, and I mean

1:02:05.440 --> 1:02:09.800
<v Speaker 1>the battery had gone anyway, but it was broken. So

1:02:10.040 --> 1:02:13.560
<v Speaker 1>for him to have her phone with one of her

1:02:13.600 --> 1:02:18.240
<v Speaker 1>ID cards in the back of the means that she

1:02:18.400 --> 1:02:21.640
<v Speaker 1>dropped it. He knew, and he took put on his person.

1:02:24.240 --> 1:02:27.320
<v Speaker 1>She was unconscious, but she filmed her. She filmed the

1:02:27.360 --> 1:02:31.880
<v Speaker 1>whole thing. She filmed it, the whole thing, right up

1:02:31.880 --> 1:02:35.160
<v Speaker 1>to her death. It was just black. All you do

1:02:35.320 --> 1:02:38.040
<v Speaker 1>is all you can do is hear the cries and

1:02:38.080 --> 1:02:43.480
<v Speaker 1>the screams in just title blackness, which I then Stephanie

1:02:43.520 --> 1:02:46.800
<v Speaker 1>took off me because I don't think I could hear

1:02:46.800 --> 1:02:50.800
<v Speaker 1>the end of that. I knew that and I have

1:02:50.960 --> 1:02:56.800
<v Speaker 1>never tried too, because I heard a nervous giggle as

1:02:56.800 --> 1:03:00.720
<v Speaker 1>she was running for a life. That's my babe born girl.

1:03:01.480 --> 1:03:05.160
<v Speaker 1>She was a premie baby. She was one of the

1:03:05.160 --> 1:03:08.240
<v Speaker 1>girls you thought you'd never be able to have. She

1:03:08.400 --> 1:03:12.040
<v Speaker 1>was my premie baby, and she thrived. She was so

1:03:12.200 --> 1:03:16.520
<v Speaker 1>hard working AND's so smart, so kind and generous, the

1:03:16.600 --> 1:03:20.080
<v Speaker 1>most honest thing on this planet. She couldn't tell her life.

1:03:20.120 --> 1:03:29.760
<v Speaker 1>She tried, So what you have now endured would reduce

1:03:29.960 --> 1:03:33.560
<v Speaker 1>most people to a helpless mess. But you can't be

1:03:33.600 --> 1:03:39.880
<v Speaker 1>a helpless mess because you have Stephanie Paul. When you

1:03:39.960 --> 1:03:44.880
<v Speaker 1>found out that your dad was dying, which was like

1:03:45.000 --> 1:03:48.600
<v Speaker 1>a month after you'd been in hospital, on the anniversary,

1:03:48.800 --> 1:03:51.640
<v Speaker 1>one month for the latter, on the ninth of January,

1:03:52.360 --> 1:03:56.360
<v Speaker 1>I noticed she was slipping away and I was doing

1:03:56.440 --> 1:03:59.320
<v Speaker 1>like all and yelling and asking for them to take

1:03:59.400 --> 1:04:02.240
<v Speaker 1>him back into you. I don't know why that took

1:04:02.320 --> 1:04:05.560
<v Speaker 1>him out of ICU, and they took equipment off him

1:04:05.600 --> 1:04:08.880
<v Speaker 1>when he was struggling to stay alive, and he wasn't

1:04:09.000 --> 1:04:11.720
<v Speaker 1>raped properly, and he had exposed skin and I could

1:04:11.800 --> 1:04:15.680
<v Speaker 1>see it and smell it and the oxygen, and he

1:04:15.760 --> 1:04:19.360
<v Speaker 1>had no fluids and no bloods. They were just nothing nothing.

1:04:19.440 --> 1:04:22.840
<v Speaker 1>There was nothing being replenished. And I didn't understand why

1:04:22.840 --> 1:04:25.560
<v Speaker 1>he was there. And when I was talking to him

1:04:25.560 --> 1:04:28.680
<v Speaker 1>and asked him about his pain threshold, he said fifteen.

1:04:29.120 --> 1:04:31.120
<v Speaker 2>And he gave him what he said, one to teen

1:04:31.200 --> 1:04:33.000
<v Speaker 2>and he said fifteen.

1:04:32.720 --> 1:04:35.640
<v Speaker 1>And then yeah. I asked him to fight, and I

1:04:35.680 --> 1:04:38.680
<v Speaker 1>said please, and he said he yelled at hell, and

1:04:38.720 --> 1:04:41.160
<v Speaker 1>he tried to lift his arms, but he was weighed

1:04:41.200 --> 1:04:47.560
<v Speaker 1>down and I could see his arms were but and

1:04:47.640 --> 1:04:50.000
<v Speaker 1>I kept begging, and they kept saying, we've let the

1:04:50.040 --> 1:04:53.480
<v Speaker 1>doctors know. The entire day was we've let the doctors know.

1:04:54.320 --> 1:04:57.120
<v Speaker 1>And there wasn't anybody that dared to come into that room.

1:04:57.440 --> 1:04:59.600
<v Speaker 1>People that were going in to say Stephanie would not.

1:05:00.400 --> 1:05:02.960
<v Speaker 1>They were too petrified to enter his room because he

1:05:03.080 --> 1:05:05.720
<v Speaker 1>was only two doors from her, and so you had

1:05:05.720 --> 1:05:08.080
<v Speaker 1>to pass him, and they looked the other way. It

1:05:08.120 --> 1:05:11.680
<v Speaker 1>wasn't It was pretty yeah, And so I kept begging

1:05:11.720 --> 1:05:14.240
<v Speaker 1>and begging, and then at night, idiot night, not a

1:05:14.280 --> 1:05:17.400
<v Speaker 1>burns doctor or anyone from there, just an emergency doctor

1:05:17.520 --> 1:05:21.440
<v Speaker 1>was came up because his alarms kept going off because

1:05:21.440 --> 1:05:26.480
<v Speaker 1>there's blood pressure and his heart rate were extremely dangerous levels.

1:05:26.520 --> 1:05:29.240
<v Speaker 1>It wasn't looking good. And his eye one of his

1:05:29.560 --> 1:05:32.800
<v Speaker 1>he was staring through me rather than at me. He

1:05:32.880 --> 1:05:35.040
<v Speaker 1>was tearing through me and through the photos I was

1:05:35.040 --> 1:05:38.440
<v Speaker 1>trying to show him to encourage got them to skin graft.

1:05:39.240 --> 1:05:41.520
<v Speaker 1>I asked them too when he was in ICU, because

1:05:41.560 --> 1:05:43.920
<v Speaker 1>it was they never switched off those lights. The lights

1:05:43.920 --> 1:05:47.200
<v Speaker 1>were just when his eyelids were gone. His eyelids were

1:05:47.360 --> 1:05:52.880
<v Speaker 1>slightly burst. I asked the heather Cleland, the wonderful Heather

1:05:52.920 --> 1:05:56.760
<v Speaker 1>Cleland that saved Stephanie's life, if she could please grab

1:05:56.880 --> 1:05:59.680
<v Speaker 1>some skin on his eyes because it was cruel. He

1:05:59.760 --> 1:06:02.880
<v Speaker 1>hates the lights. He hated when I slept with the

1:06:02.920 --> 1:06:06.320
<v Speaker 1>TV on, he would put a blindfold on because he

1:06:06.400 --> 1:06:11.560
<v Speaker 1>hated the lights. And she did, she did. But he

1:06:11.640 --> 1:06:14.600
<v Speaker 1>was quite grave at this stage, and they promised me

1:06:14.680 --> 1:06:18.120
<v Speaker 1>that they would look after him, and they told me

1:06:18.200 --> 1:06:21.200
<v Speaker 1>to please go home. They continued, you need to go home.

1:06:21.840 --> 1:06:24.680
<v Speaker 1>And that was on the ninth of January, and on

1:06:24.720 --> 1:06:28.800
<v Speaker 1>the tenth I found him in I found him back

1:06:28.800 --> 1:06:32.120
<v Speaker 1>in ICU. And you knew when you saw him he

1:06:32.240 --> 1:06:39.720
<v Speaker 1>was incubated again, I think, because but this time just

1:06:40.280 --> 1:06:42.520
<v Speaker 1>other than from the night before. The night before, he

1:06:43.360 --> 1:06:45.520
<v Speaker 1>was lucky to look like he was forty five kilos

1:06:45.560 --> 1:06:47.400
<v Speaker 1>and he was a six foot man. He was a tall,

1:06:47.760 --> 1:06:51.880
<v Speaker 1>tall man. And then the next day he was enormous.

1:06:51.920 --> 1:06:54.560
<v Speaker 1>He was swollen and enormous, and I couldn't understand it.

1:06:55.440 --> 1:06:58.720
<v Speaker 1>And I walked in and I was just so happy

1:06:58.760 --> 1:07:01.760
<v Speaker 1>that they put him back into a coma because I thought,

1:07:01.760 --> 1:07:05.360
<v Speaker 1>now he won't he won't feel any pain they've induced him,

1:07:05.400 --> 1:07:07.920
<v Speaker 1>and he won't be in any pain, and I'll give

1:07:07.960 --> 1:07:12.760
<v Speaker 1>him time to heal. And then I went up to

1:07:12.760 --> 1:07:14.440
<v Speaker 1>see Stephanie, and I went back to see him. Then

1:07:14.440 --> 1:07:17.400
<v Speaker 1>I went back up to Stephany. He was unconscious. I

1:07:17.400 --> 1:07:20.040
<v Speaker 1>could just hear the heartbeat. All I could. He was

1:07:20.040 --> 1:07:23.240
<v Speaker 1>the oxygen, the machine, the oxygen, his lungs going in

1:07:23.280 --> 1:07:26.240
<v Speaker 1>and out in the heart. And then the next morning,

1:07:26.280 --> 1:07:29.240
<v Speaker 1>as I was waiting for as the driver, the taxi

1:07:29.320 --> 1:07:33.760
<v Speaker 1>driver that came fair became, here's my stay in my

1:07:33.840 --> 1:07:38.040
<v Speaker 1>stadion and they rang and said what time are you

1:07:38.080 --> 1:07:40.880
<v Speaker 1>coming in? I said, now, I'm just waiting for my

1:07:40.960 --> 1:07:44.480
<v Speaker 1>left and they said, oh, his brain activity doesn't look

1:07:44.520 --> 1:07:46.760
<v Speaker 1>the best. You might want to come in as soon

1:07:46.800 --> 1:07:51.040
<v Speaker 1>as possible. And when I got in, instead of letting

1:07:51.040 --> 1:07:53.440
<v Speaker 1>me see him, they took me straight into a meeting

1:07:53.480 --> 1:07:56.480
<v Speaker 1>room and there were two mile doctors there telling me

1:07:56.520 --> 1:08:01.240
<v Speaker 1>that there was no brain activity in and they couldn't

1:08:01.240 --> 1:08:03.760
<v Speaker 1>give me a straight answer as to why.

1:08:04.720 --> 1:08:09.480
<v Speaker 2>And then Stephanie got wheeled in to say goodbye to

1:08:09.520 --> 1:08:18.800
<v Speaker 2>your dad. Yep, And you were only barely out of yeah,

1:08:19.000 --> 1:08:21.840
<v Speaker 2>out of your coma and yourself.

1:08:21.800 --> 1:08:22.679
<v Speaker 3>That's right, yep.

1:08:22.760 --> 1:08:23.200
<v Speaker 1>I wasn't.

1:08:23.680 --> 1:08:28.320
<v Speaker 3>I had been awake not long at that point, but

1:08:28.400 --> 1:08:31.360
<v Speaker 3>long enough to have been told about my sister's passing,

1:08:33.600 --> 1:08:39.280
<v Speaker 3>and then that's the worst news I could hear. But

1:08:39.360 --> 1:08:43.760
<v Speaker 3>I'm thinking, Okay, a month later and I'm hearing things

1:08:43.760 --> 1:08:48.479
<v Speaker 3>about Dad every now and then, possibility of him passing away,

1:08:48.520 --> 1:08:51.519
<v Speaker 3>of anything else happening at this point doesn't cross my mind.

1:08:51.560 --> 1:08:54.280
<v Speaker 3>It doesn't feel like it could bear thing. I'm thinking,

1:08:54.320 --> 1:08:57.640
<v Speaker 3>if we're in hospital this long, we've made it so

1:08:58.439 --> 1:09:02.920
<v Speaker 3>to have Mum and staff be present and tell me

1:09:03.040 --> 1:09:08.720
<v Speaker 3>that he's on life supporting, we're going to have to

1:09:08.800 --> 1:09:09.280
<v Speaker 3>let him go.

1:09:10.240 --> 1:09:12.600
<v Speaker 1>Hmm it.

1:09:14.720 --> 1:09:20.479
<v Speaker 3>Yep. It was shocking in every way imaginable because it

1:09:20.520 --> 1:09:25.760
<v Speaker 3>didn't feel like it could be real, didn't feel like

1:09:25.800 --> 1:09:27.680
<v Speaker 3>it could be a possibility. And then to hear the

1:09:27.760 --> 1:09:34.360
<v Speaker 3>impossible happened in my mind. This my dad, who you know,

1:09:36.560 --> 1:09:39.479
<v Speaker 3>he had always been. He's always been a soft a

1:09:39.560 --> 1:09:41.920
<v Speaker 3>softy at heart, but he'd always pretend and put on

1:09:41.960 --> 1:09:45.840
<v Speaker 3>a facide, you know, of being a strong person, Marcho man,

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<v Speaker 3>a protector, a protector.

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<v Speaker 4>And then to see him when I was taken into

1:09:52.760 --> 1:09:56.120
<v Speaker 4>the room the way that he was, and after hearing

1:09:56.240 --> 1:09:59.960
<v Speaker 4>him and the pain in his voice on the island

1:10:00.160 --> 1:10:01.160
<v Speaker 4>that day, as well.

1:10:03.160 --> 1:10:06.240
<v Speaker 3>It didn't feel right. I didn't want to see him

1:10:06.240 --> 1:10:09.840
<v Speaker 3>in that way you hear him in that way. I

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<v Speaker 3>didn't want to lose him after everything that we had

1:10:12.520 --> 1:10:18.360
<v Speaker 3>already gone through losing Crystal. Yeah, it was you had

1:10:18.360 --> 1:10:22.960
<v Speaker 3>to let him go, yep. And I had to see

1:10:23.000 --> 1:10:25.960
<v Speaker 3>him like when that opportunity when they said to do that,

1:10:26.000 --> 1:10:29.559
<v Speaker 3>I could not do that. I had to to say

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<v Speaker 3>my goodbyes and to let him know how grateful I

1:10:32.320 --> 1:10:35.080
<v Speaker 3>was for what he had done. You know, he broke

1:10:35.200 --> 1:10:38.400
<v Speaker 3>he kept me alive that day when he was shouting

1:10:38.400 --> 1:10:42.599
<v Speaker 3>my name, and you know, not realizing until later, but

1:10:42.640 --> 1:10:45.519
<v Speaker 3>he had also made sure we got on the helicopter first.

1:10:45.560 --> 1:10:47.720
<v Speaker 3>Put his kids first. And I always knew that's the

1:10:47.720 --> 1:10:49.920
<v Speaker 3>type of parents we had. They always put us first

1:10:49.920 --> 1:10:54.000
<v Speaker 3>in life. So that was the least I could do,

1:10:54.160 --> 1:10:56.160
<v Speaker 3>was to see him and thank him and share my

1:10:56.200 --> 1:11:00.160
<v Speaker 3>love with him. As emotionally traumatizing as it was to

1:11:00.160 --> 1:11:05.400
<v Speaker 3>to see him that way, and to witness Mum and

1:11:05.439 --> 1:11:08.920
<v Speaker 3>the way she was when she was saying her yep

1:11:09.800 --> 1:11:10.240
<v Speaker 3>as well.

1:11:11.680 --> 1:11:16.680
<v Speaker 2>And this is at this point, you're still in a

1:11:16.760 --> 1:11:19.040
<v Speaker 2>perilous situation, yourself.

1:11:18.640 --> 1:11:24.000
<v Speaker 3>Physically heavily bandaged and can't even I can't even kiss

1:11:24.080 --> 1:11:28.080
<v Speaker 3>him or touch him properly because of the way I was.

1:11:28.920 --> 1:11:34.360
<v Speaker 3>And when I found out about him as well, I

1:11:34.439 --> 1:11:40.200
<v Speaker 3>was angry at myself for not seeing him before, even

1:11:40.240 --> 1:11:42.240
<v Speaker 3>though I don't know how that would have worked because

1:11:42.240 --> 1:11:44.519
<v Speaker 3>of the way I was and the way he was.

1:11:45.479 --> 1:11:47.519
<v Speaker 3>But I felt angry at myself like I had let

1:11:47.560 --> 1:11:50.639
<v Speaker 3>him down because I didn't get to see him when

1:11:50.640 --> 1:11:52.799
<v Speaker 3>he was conscious.

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<v Speaker 1>Sometimes or that was my fault. That was my fault. Yeah,

1:11:56.360 --> 1:11:59.360
<v Speaker 1>but I couldn't. That was my fault. I don't know

1:11:59.400 --> 1:12:02.599
<v Speaker 1>how it would have been possible because I've been connected

1:12:02.600 --> 1:12:06.200
<v Speaker 1>to all the wires and the screens. But that is

1:12:06.320 --> 1:12:09.120
<v Speaker 1>my fault. That's not your fault. That was me. That's

1:12:09.120 --> 1:12:10.960
<v Speaker 1>just how it is. That was me, but more wanting

1:12:11.000 --> 1:12:12.880
<v Speaker 1>you to see him in that statele for him to

1:12:12.880 --> 1:12:14.040
<v Speaker 1>see you in that state.

1:12:14.800 --> 1:12:18.679
<v Speaker 2>But also it may not have been possible. It doesn't

1:12:18.720 --> 1:12:24.160
<v Speaker 2>seem like it was physically possible, and also like the

1:12:24.320 --> 1:12:28.080
<v Speaker 2>hospital would have been able to facilitate that, because then

1:12:28.200 --> 1:12:34.320
<v Speaker 2>your focus has to change to literally keeping Stephanie alive.

1:12:35.080 --> 1:12:35.240
<v Speaker 3>Yep.

1:12:35.960 --> 1:12:38.720
<v Speaker 1>And even when Stephanie was awake, she did us, she

1:12:38.760 --> 1:12:44.479
<v Speaker 1>didn't to see him. How could I if Paul had

1:12:44.680 --> 1:12:50.320
<v Speaker 1>seen Stephanie in that state, yes, that would have been

1:12:50.360 --> 1:12:52.120
<v Speaker 1>the end of him, in that very moment. He would

1:12:52.120 --> 1:12:55.920
<v Speaker 1>have had a heart take. Yes. And remember I'm lying

1:12:56.360 --> 1:12:58.640
<v Speaker 1>at this stage still Stephanie and telling her that a

1:12:58.760 --> 1:13:03.719
<v Speaker 1>dad is recovering. Well, yes, I'm saying to one of her, yes,

1:13:04.360 --> 1:13:07.040
<v Speaker 1>going they weren't. Neither one was doing well. And even

1:13:07.080 --> 1:13:10.640
<v Speaker 1>when Stephanie went into the Burns unit upstairs, I was

1:13:10.880 --> 1:13:14.760
<v Speaker 1>constantly reminded that she was still in a very very

1:13:14.800 --> 1:13:17.960
<v Speaker 1>precarious situation, that there was no promise of her life.

1:13:18.360 --> 1:13:22.160
<v Speaker 2>You know, I said earlier that it's a tale about

1:13:22.240 --> 1:13:27.280
<v Speaker 2>mother's love. Well, that's the hard part of it that

1:13:27.320 --> 1:13:31.080
<v Speaker 2>you took on. That's the hardest thing.

1:13:30.920 --> 1:13:34.080
<v Speaker 1>That you could do. But you did it because you

1:13:34.160 --> 1:13:35.840
<v Speaker 1>knew that it was the right thing to do to

1:13:35.840 --> 1:13:39.479
<v Speaker 1>help Stephanie. I didn't have any choice. I had to

1:13:39.479 --> 1:13:43.040
<v Speaker 1>fight for them and advocate kareher, and I had to

1:13:43.080 --> 1:13:46.599
<v Speaker 1>take the brunt of all of it to pretend. I

1:13:46.600 --> 1:13:49.240
<v Speaker 1>hope I was protecting I was trying my best to

1:13:49.240 --> 1:13:51.680
<v Speaker 1>protect them their entire life. I did might want to

1:13:51.720 --> 1:13:54.599
<v Speaker 1>protect them. Maybe I was a little over protective. I

1:13:54.600 --> 1:13:57.760
<v Speaker 1>don't know, but I was proud of the fact that

1:13:57.800 --> 1:14:00.600
<v Speaker 1>they were doing well in life and no healthy and

1:14:01.240 --> 1:14:06.320
<v Speaker 1>then this happens. I don't understand. I can't fathom it.

1:14:06.360 --> 1:14:09.200
<v Speaker 1>I just I just I still haven't accepted a lot of.

1:14:09.200 --> 1:14:13.839
<v Speaker 2>Day in the book, we ran out of luck.

1:14:15.840 --> 1:14:19.160
<v Speaker 1>Because I felt so lucky to have had my own

1:14:19.280 --> 1:14:26.200
<v Speaker 1>family and a beautiful husband and children, a dedicated a

1:14:26.640 --> 1:14:30.080
<v Speaker 1>father and family man that preferred the company of his

1:14:30.160 --> 1:14:32.879
<v Speaker 1>own family then going to the footy or the cricket

1:14:32.960 --> 1:14:35.120
<v Speaker 1>or the golf and I would have to force him

1:14:35.160 --> 1:14:38.559
<v Speaker 1>out of the house and go, go away, go play

1:14:38.640 --> 1:14:39.160
<v Speaker 1>some cricket.

1:14:39.479 --> 1:14:43.479
<v Speaker 2>But all of this was through no fault of your

1:14:43.479 --> 1:14:52.320
<v Speaker 2>own and Stephanie, Stephanie's suffering, which was that in itself

1:14:52.479 --> 1:14:59.600
<v Speaker 2>is an extraordinary story of your spirit and your will prevailing,

1:15:00.960 --> 1:15:04.599
<v Speaker 2>but that your mum also took on when you had

1:15:04.640 --> 1:15:07.000
<v Speaker 2>to have eight of your fingers amputated.

1:15:09.040 --> 1:15:10.360
<v Speaker 1>That your mom once.

1:15:10.160 --> 1:15:12.960
<v Speaker 2>Again was like, she has to hear this from me,

1:15:14.240 --> 1:15:18.559
<v Speaker 2>That you never took the path of letting you know,

1:15:18.760 --> 1:15:23.120
<v Speaker 2>doctors break these terrible news. That you were always like,

1:15:23.680 --> 1:15:24.680
<v Speaker 2>I will tell her.

1:15:26.400 --> 1:15:30.160
<v Speaker 1>I didn't want her to break because I remember, this

1:15:30.240 --> 1:15:35.800
<v Speaker 1>is my child that has very naive and innocent, and

1:15:36.120 --> 1:15:38.800
<v Speaker 1>she was thrown into a situation where this is your

1:15:38.800 --> 1:15:42.280
<v Speaker 1>worst nightmare, this is what nightmares are made of. And

1:15:43.680 --> 1:15:45.479
<v Speaker 1>I thought, she's not going to You can't have a

1:15:45.520 --> 1:15:49.760
<v Speaker 1>stranger to say this. She's psychologically she will not take

1:15:49.880 --> 1:15:52.760
<v Speaker 1>well to this. I'm going to lose her, and I

1:15:52.760 --> 1:15:58.639
<v Speaker 1>almost did after fingers were amputato and that was needed

1:15:58.640 --> 1:15:59.280
<v Speaker 1>to come from me.

1:16:00.040 --> 1:16:05.400
<v Speaker 2>Yes, when when you first saw your unwrapped body, which

1:16:05.479 --> 1:16:08.920
<v Speaker 2>was six months maybe was it?

1:16:10.000 --> 1:16:15.720
<v Speaker 3>No, No, it was I'd say about two months months

1:16:16.800 --> 1:16:21.320
<v Speaker 3>towards the end of February. They felt that I was.

1:16:23.400 --> 1:16:26.880
<v Speaker 3>They thought I'd be able to get through the dressing changes,

1:16:27.120 --> 1:16:29.160
<v Speaker 3>which were done previously under sedation.

1:16:29.240 --> 1:16:31.000
<v Speaker 2>This whole time, I was so agonized.

1:16:31.360 --> 1:16:36.320
<v Speaker 3>They're one of the worst parts of the recovery. They

1:16:36.360 --> 1:16:39.160
<v Speaker 3>thought I'd be able to tolerate it whilst awake, but

1:16:39.240 --> 1:16:44.200
<v Speaker 3>with strong medic pain medication, and I just thought, if

1:16:44.240 --> 1:16:46.160
<v Speaker 3>they're telling me that I should give it a go,

1:16:46.240 --> 1:16:48.080
<v Speaker 3>I guess I can give it a go. But that

1:16:48.240 --> 1:16:52.519
<v Speaker 3>meant also seeing my body unwrapped for the first the

1:16:52.560 --> 1:16:55.200
<v Speaker 3>first time, because under sedation they'd unwrap me and wrapped

1:16:55.200 --> 1:16:59.040
<v Speaker 3>me back up. By the time I'm awake again, So

1:16:59.360 --> 1:17:01.200
<v Speaker 3>that was the first first time when they took me

1:17:01.280 --> 1:17:04.880
<v Speaker 3>in to do that, that I saw my body, and

1:17:04.960 --> 1:17:07.960
<v Speaker 3>it was very conflicting and confusing, and a lot of

1:17:07.960 --> 1:17:12.519
<v Speaker 3>emotions were We're going on inside my brain, you know,

1:17:12.600 --> 1:17:15.799
<v Speaker 3>I'm seeing my skin and it's black in some areas,

1:17:15.840 --> 1:17:18.519
<v Speaker 3>and I'm thinking to myself, is this necrotic? And my

1:17:19.520 --> 1:17:22.519
<v Speaker 3>legs can't falling off of they dead? And then they're

1:17:22.520 --> 1:17:25.679
<v Speaker 3>having to explain to me, no, no, no, that it's

1:17:25.680 --> 1:17:28.760
<v Speaker 3>this silver material that we're using and it's stained your

1:17:28.800 --> 1:17:31.760
<v Speaker 3>skin gray. And then I'm looking at my fingers that

1:17:31.840 --> 1:17:34.400
<v Speaker 3>have been amputated, and I'm seeing all these stitches and

1:17:34.479 --> 1:17:38.799
<v Speaker 3>it just looks in my eyes, it looks horrible, looks horrendous.

1:17:38.800 --> 1:17:41.760
<v Speaker 3>It's ugly to look at, and I'm thinking, how these

1:17:41.800 --> 1:17:44.439
<v Speaker 3>fingers are gonna heal? They look disgusting. There's like a

1:17:44.520 --> 1:17:46.800
<v Speaker 3>skin patch here, a skin patch there, And they're telling

1:17:46.840 --> 1:17:49.000
<v Speaker 3>me it's still early days, you.

1:17:48.960 --> 1:17:50.600
<v Speaker 4>Know, you.

1:17:52.080 --> 1:17:56.000
<v Speaker 3>Had point my body was the first part that i'd seen.

1:17:56.000 --> 1:17:59.640
<v Speaker 1>It was not wanting you to see your face or

1:18:00.160 --> 1:18:03.519
<v Speaker 1>her face, So your face in New Zealand, I walked

1:18:03.560 --> 1:18:05.360
<v Speaker 1>into a room and she was just laying on a

1:18:05.439 --> 1:18:11.200
<v Speaker 1>silver metal table like they have a cadabra. She's laying there, unconscious, flat,

1:18:11.840 --> 1:18:14.200
<v Speaker 1>and I looked at her face and I that as

1:18:14.280 --> 1:18:18.120
<v Speaker 1>part of your ear was chopped, and she had dark

1:18:18.240 --> 1:18:20.599
<v Speaker 1>skin here and a patch there, and it looks like

1:18:20.640 --> 1:18:23.320
<v Speaker 1>she was somebody had sewn and put together in a quilt,

1:18:23.720 --> 1:18:26.360
<v Speaker 1>and blood here and blood there, and wall sticking out,

1:18:26.400 --> 1:18:29.519
<v Speaker 1>and your eyes looked like they were glued together. They

1:18:29.680 --> 1:18:31.679
<v Speaker 1>I don't know what they had. And I thought, my

1:18:31.680 --> 1:18:34.559
<v Speaker 1>man here on my own and I remember screaming, you

1:18:34.600 --> 1:18:36.840
<v Speaker 1>know that, because nobody was sort of holding me up.

1:18:36.920 --> 1:18:41.839
<v Speaker 1>And then I walked out and I I just couldn't

1:18:41.840 --> 1:18:43.679
<v Speaker 1>believe it. I thought, no, this is just not goot

1:18:43.760 --> 1:18:46.200
<v Speaker 1>to make it. This is not my child. And she

1:18:46.360 --> 1:18:49.160
<v Speaker 1>was swollen, that was so swollen, and I thought, there's

1:18:49.160 --> 1:18:51.960
<v Speaker 1>no way known Stephanie would want to live like this.

1:18:52.560 --> 1:18:56.320
<v Speaker 1>I didn't realize that. Progress look look at it today

1:18:56.400 --> 1:18:59.960
<v Speaker 1>and I think the grit this girl hats, the determination,

1:19:00.880 --> 1:19:03.960
<v Speaker 1>her determination. I don't know if it's stemmed from the

1:19:04.040 --> 1:19:06.479
<v Speaker 1>love she has for life or me. I don't know

1:19:06.520 --> 1:19:09.800
<v Speaker 1>if she says incredible. In fact, you said something I

1:19:09.880 --> 1:19:14.080
<v Speaker 1>love in this book and it's really simple, but it's

1:19:14.280 --> 1:19:21.599
<v Speaker 1>just so perfect, it says where you're talking about what

1:19:21.680 --> 1:19:32.639
<v Speaker 1>you can endure, and you say, I learned something new

1:19:32.680 --> 1:19:36.120
<v Speaker 1>about myself almost every day in hospital, not just how

1:19:36.160 --> 1:19:39.479
<v Speaker 1>amazing my body was and how it functioned in ways

1:19:39.520 --> 1:19:43.880
<v Speaker 1>I never imagined, but also the power of the mind.

1:19:44.560 --> 1:19:48.160
<v Speaker 1>Body strength is one thing, but the strength that comes

1:19:48.160 --> 1:19:52.120
<v Speaker 1>from your soul is a superpower waiting to be tapped.

1:19:53.400 --> 1:19:55.719
<v Speaker 3>Yep, it's true.

1:19:55.960 --> 1:19:57.160
<v Speaker 1>Absolutely.

1:19:57.360 --> 1:20:00.439
<v Speaker 3>You don't realize it until you have to through it,

1:20:00.560 --> 1:20:05.080
<v Speaker 3>until you're forced to find it. But when you need it,

1:20:05.080 --> 1:20:09.120
<v Speaker 3>it's there in your mind, in your body. And you know,

1:20:09.240 --> 1:20:11.680
<v Speaker 3>looking back when I see photos of myself at the

1:20:11.680 --> 1:20:17.320
<v Speaker 3>beginning in my comra and just hearing about my injuries

1:20:17.600 --> 1:20:21.120
<v Speaker 3>and what the surgeons thought when they saw me, and

1:20:21.160 --> 1:20:23.320
<v Speaker 3>then seeing where I am today and what I've had

1:20:23.360 --> 1:20:28.040
<v Speaker 3>to go through, I know it's remarkable.

1:20:28.720 --> 1:20:28.920
<v Speaker 4>You know.

1:20:29.040 --> 1:20:32.120
<v Speaker 3>It's something I look at myself and I think to myself,

1:20:32.160 --> 1:20:37.040
<v Speaker 3>it's stuff that I shouldn't have survived, or it's very

1:20:37.040 --> 1:20:40.400
<v Speaker 3>odd to see how far the skin has come from

1:20:40.400 --> 1:20:43.040
<v Speaker 3>what it looked like on day one. It's just I

1:20:43.080 --> 1:20:46.639
<v Speaker 3>would have never believed it if I hadn't seen these

1:20:46.640 --> 1:20:49.200
<v Speaker 3>photos or heard what I and knew what I knew

1:20:49.240 --> 1:20:53.519
<v Speaker 3>about my injuries and understood so to know that the

1:20:53.560 --> 1:20:57.200
<v Speaker 3>body can actually endure that and come out the other side.

1:20:58.360 --> 1:21:02.000
<v Speaker 3>But you know that's through all of the help of

1:21:02.720 --> 1:21:06.880
<v Speaker 3>the pilots who rescued me, the surgeons, the physiotherapists, every

1:21:06.920 --> 1:21:10.200
<v Speaker 3>single the nurses, everyone. But then I have to remind

1:21:10.240 --> 1:21:12.840
<v Speaker 3>myself because people are always telling me how strong I am,

1:21:12.840 --> 1:21:15.320
<v Speaker 3>how stronger I am, and it's like, I don't know.

1:21:15.320 --> 1:21:17.519
<v Speaker 3>I just dive it. I had to. But then I

1:21:17.880 --> 1:21:20.799
<v Speaker 3>sometimes I do sit back and I think to myself, No, Stephanie,

1:21:20.840 --> 1:21:23.960
<v Speaker 3>you need to give yourself some more credit, because there

1:21:24.000 --> 1:21:25.720
<v Speaker 3>were so many moments where you wanted to give up.

1:21:25.760 --> 1:21:28.480
<v Speaker 3>There were so many days where I was just screaming,

1:21:28.520 --> 1:21:30.640
<v Speaker 3>and I was needing top ups of medication just to

1:21:30.680 --> 1:21:33.720
<v Speaker 3>be touched, and I had Mum in tears because I'm

1:21:33.760 --> 1:21:36.559
<v Speaker 3>in tears screaming and yelling at everyone not to touch me.

1:21:37.200 --> 1:21:39.080
<v Speaker 3>You know, there were so many horrible days like that.

1:21:39.800 --> 1:21:42.960
<v Speaker 3>But I made the choice to keep fighting. There were

1:21:43.040 --> 1:21:45.599
<v Speaker 3>choices made, whether I realized it or not at the time.

1:21:46.160 --> 1:21:48.479
<v Speaker 3>I could have given up and just stayed in that state,

1:21:50.000 --> 1:21:52.720
<v Speaker 3>but I chose to continue on. I chose to do

1:21:52.760 --> 1:21:58.200
<v Speaker 3>the recovery. I chose to get through the therapy sessions,

1:21:58.600 --> 1:22:01.439
<v Speaker 3>so I have to remind myself sometimes yes, of that

1:22:01.560 --> 1:22:02.080
<v Speaker 3>as well.

1:22:02.400 --> 1:22:07.240
<v Speaker 1>It is a choice despite if it wasn't for the staff,

1:22:07.280 --> 1:22:10.720
<v Speaker 1>the incredible surgeons and the nursing and the specialists and

1:22:10.760 --> 1:22:13.719
<v Speaker 1>the heroes and everyone in between. You know, the body

1:22:13.760 --> 1:22:17.599
<v Speaker 1>is an amazing thing. The human body is an amazing thing,

1:22:17.640 --> 1:22:18.880
<v Speaker 1>and how it heals and now.

1:22:19.640 --> 1:22:22.160
<v Speaker 2>In tandem with the spirit. But that's what I say.

1:22:22.240 --> 1:22:27.559
<v Speaker 1>But if we don't have that connection and the mind

1:22:27.960 --> 1:22:30.000
<v Speaker 1>is not at play, there is no way known she

1:22:30.040 --> 1:22:33.240
<v Speaker 1>would have survived. She had bad days, Don't get me wrong.

1:22:33.280 --> 1:22:35.000
<v Speaker 1>She had days where she did want to give up,

1:22:35.040 --> 1:22:39.519
<v Speaker 1>and she questioned, of course, she questioned her her future,

1:22:39.520 --> 1:22:42.639
<v Speaker 1>and she questioned her life and asked why she also

1:22:42.720 --> 1:22:46.720
<v Speaker 1>has this? She lived with guilt, Why me? Why did

1:22:46.800 --> 1:22:49.439
<v Speaker 1>I survive? Why aren't they here? I don't want to

1:22:49.439 --> 1:22:51.280
<v Speaker 1>go on anymore? And what sort of a life am

1:22:51.280 --> 1:22:54.040
<v Speaker 1>I going to have? What's the point. These were the

1:22:54.120 --> 1:22:58.080
<v Speaker 1>days that she was reminded of her value of a spirit.

1:22:58.520 --> 1:23:02.000
<v Speaker 1>And every day I told of the one thing morning

1:23:02.040 --> 1:23:05.679
<v Speaker 1>and night, and that giving up. And there were even

1:23:05.760 --> 1:23:07.880
<v Speaker 1>posters at home. It was all over the fridge, all

1:23:07.880 --> 1:23:11.719
<v Speaker 1>over the walls. Giving up is not a choice. Giving

1:23:11.800 --> 1:23:14.360
<v Speaker 1>up it was never I made sure she knew it

1:23:14.520 --> 1:23:15.679
<v Speaker 1>was never a choice.

1:23:15.920 --> 1:23:19.679
<v Speaker 2>But also it was not a choice for you, because Marie.

1:23:19.800 --> 1:23:24.640
<v Speaker 2>If Stephanie had given up, where would you be? I

1:23:24.680 --> 1:23:32.840
<v Speaker 2>almost did because I saw my child. When you see

1:23:32.840 --> 1:23:38.960
<v Speaker 2>a child returned to you in the way she was returned,

1:23:39.760 --> 1:23:43.720
<v Speaker 2>you die. I don't see colors anyway, and you see

1:23:43.760 --> 1:23:47.519
<v Speaker 2>gray now. And it doesn't matter what people say. You

1:23:47.560 --> 1:23:51.439
<v Speaker 2>don't hear from losing a child. Some people are braver

1:23:51.600 --> 1:23:55.080
<v Speaker 2>than I am. Perhaps I don't know, but time has

1:23:55.120 --> 1:23:57.559
<v Speaker 2>not helped me in that respect. And then to watch

1:23:57.560 --> 1:24:02.040
<v Speaker 2>your husband suffered a death and the screaming, it's just

1:24:02.160 --> 1:24:04.880
<v Speaker 2>it's just too traumatic for the mind. Sometimes it breaks you.

1:24:05.360 --> 1:24:09.080
<v Speaker 1>But when I've got when I thought about Stephanie and thought,

1:24:09.120 --> 1:24:12.559
<v Speaker 1>what if she does survive, I'm not leaving my child

1:24:12.560 --> 1:24:16.439
<v Speaker 1>here on her own. The love I have for family

1:24:16.520 --> 1:24:19.840
<v Speaker 1>is far greater than any pain that I felt. And

1:24:19.880 --> 1:24:24.080
<v Speaker 1>that was the Thing's The love I have for family

1:24:24.360 --> 1:24:27.479
<v Speaker 1>is far greater than any pain I could have felt.

1:24:27.680 --> 1:24:32.559
<v Speaker 1>So I had to put myself last. I always put

1:24:32.640 --> 1:24:36.960
<v Speaker 1>myself last. I was never considered I never considered myself.

1:24:37.080 --> 1:24:39.679
<v Speaker 1>I never fed myself, I never took care of myself

1:24:40.160 --> 1:24:44.080
<v Speaker 1>because I was no longer important. My priority was to

1:24:44.120 --> 1:24:46.960
<v Speaker 1>make sure for each of one of them was taken

1:24:47.000 --> 1:24:50.200
<v Speaker 1>care of till the very end. And I you know,

1:24:50.360 --> 1:24:53.800
<v Speaker 1>somebody said to me, you're you're so brave. We don't

1:24:53.800 --> 1:24:56.519
<v Speaker 1>know where you get your strength, and you know you're

1:24:56.920 --> 1:25:01.599
<v Speaker 1>where you know. I was like, well, I'm not. I didn't.

1:25:01.760 --> 1:25:05.679
<v Speaker 1>I don't have strength. Strength found me. I didn't find strength.

1:25:05.720 --> 1:25:08.960
<v Speaker 1>Strength found me. It found me when I needed it

1:25:09.000 --> 1:25:11.479
<v Speaker 1>to survive. And I had to survive to help Stepney

1:25:11.520 --> 1:25:14.400
<v Speaker 1>subvibe because I knew she wouldn't want to be here

1:25:14.479 --> 1:25:14.920
<v Speaker 1>without me.

1:25:15.160 --> 1:25:18.120
<v Speaker 3>I don't know where I would be today if I

1:25:18.160 --> 1:25:20.519
<v Speaker 3>didn't have my mum by my side throughout all of it.

1:25:21.800 --> 1:25:25.519
<v Speaker 3>I needed her, you know, I would. She'd be with

1:25:25.560 --> 1:25:28.040
<v Speaker 3>me practically all the time. But it didn't matter. The

1:25:28.120 --> 1:25:30.479
<v Speaker 3>moment she left, just to go to bed at night,

1:25:30.680 --> 1:25:33.360
<v Speaker 3>just to go home, just for the night, I would

1:25:33.680 --> 1:25:35.840
<v Speaker 3>cry and begar not to leave, and it'd be like,

1:25:35.880 --> 1:25:38.960
<v Speaker 3>please come back, please come back. That's how much I

1:25:39.000 --> 1:25:43.040
<v Speaker 3>relied on her support and just her presence, and she

1:25:43.200 --> 1:25:44.800
<v Speaker 3>was there every single day, no matter what.

1:25:45.280 --> 1:25:49.120
<v Speaker 1>And when she came home things changed too. I didn't

1:25:49.160 --> 1:25:51.160
<v Speaker 1>want her to know the truth of the shock of

1:25:51.240 --> 1:25:54.160
<v Speaker 1>what the help home was, that the home had gone.

1:25:54.280 --> 1:25:56.760
<v Speaker 1>There was no longer home. It was just a It

1:25:56.800 --> 1:26:00.120
<v Speaker 1>was just a dark house, got the blinds down, and

1:26:00.360 --> 1:26:04.680
<v Speaker 1>there was nothing your dog about her. He had the

1:26:04.760 --> 1:26:10.000
<v Speaker 1>dog six months is only six months old. When he

1:26:10.120 --> 1:26:13.240
<v Speaker 1>was a surprise, because I've been we'd lost a collie

1:26:13.280 --> 1:26:18.280
<v Speaker 1>not long before, and the girls that his suffering was

1:26:18.360 --> 1:26:21.960
<v Speaker 1>quite tremendous, and it wasn't. It was something that was

1:26:22.000 --> 1:26:24.840
<v Speaker 1>fixed in crystals and stuff and his memories. And I thought,

1:26:24.840 --> 1:26:26.760
<v Speaker 1>what do I do? And somebody said, we'll get him

1:26:26.760 --> 1:26:28.920
<v Speaker 1>another colleague as soon as you can. It will help

1:26:29.000 --> 1:26:32.599
<v Speaker 1>heal their hearts and so forth. So we had already

1:26:32.800 --> 1:26:35.960
<v Speaker 1>organized this holiday and paid for it, and then came

1:26:36.040 --> 1:26:39.360
<v Speaker 1>the collie, and I thought, oh goodness, because the last

1:26:39.360 --> 1:26:40.920
<v Speaker 1>thing I wanted to do was put a six month

1:26:40.960 --> 1:26:45.280
<v Speaker 1>old popular kennel. But I had no choice. As I said,

1:26:45.280 --> 1:26:47.800
<v Speaker 1>he was a surprise, and I did fight for him.

1:26:48.000 --> 1:26:50.360
<v Speaker 1>Is the best thing that's ever happened to us. He

1:26:50.479 --> 1:26:55.600
<v Speaker 1>certainly saved my life. But he knew there was a

1:26:55.600 --> 1:27:01.519
<v Speaker 1>difference in him. I thought, I saw his spirit fade away.

1:27:00.760 --> 1:27:04.439
<v Speaker 1>He used to talk to us, didn't he He'd talk

1:27:04.560 --> 1:27:08.519
<v Speaker 1>and how like a like a husky and tell usoft

1:27:08.560 --> 1:27:10.680
<v Speaker 1>and he was so playful. And then each day when

1:27:10.720 --> 1:27:13.880
<v Speaker 1>I got home, he became very depressed, so much so

1:27:13.920 --> 1:27:16.800
<v Speaker 1>that he ended up in hospital three times himself. Oh,

1:27:16.880 --> 1:27:20.120
<v Speaker 1>he was very depressed. He got very, very sick because

1:27:20.120 --> 1:27:23.680
<v Speaker 1>he slept in Crystal's room. And I think Crystal and

1:27:23.760 --> 1:27:28.519
<v Speaker 1>Dad were more his person than we were. And they

1:27:28.600 --> 1:27:31.720
<v Speaker 1>soiled him. Yeah, they spoiled him rotten. Crystal bought him

1:27:31.760 --> 1:27:35.000
<v Speaker 1>a toy every three or four days. He was the

1:27:35.040 --> 1:27:38.200
<v Speaker 1>most spoiled and still is the most spoiled baby. But

1:27:39.920 --> 1:27:43.080
<v Speaker 1>he saved my life because one day I went home

1:27:43.600 --> 1:27:46.360
<v Speaker 1>when Paul had passed, and then I was told that

1:27:46.400 --> 1:27:51.360
<v Speaker 1>Stephanie probably wasn't likely to make it either. And I

1:27:51.439 --> 1:27:55.559
<v Speaker 1>lived in lines were down, the doors were closed. I

1:27:55.600 --> 1:27:58.160
<v Speaker 1>was too scared to go into my bedroom or into

1:27:58.160 --> 1:28:03.080
<v Speaker 1>my cupboard, scared to enter Crystal's room that would just flowers,

1:28:03.160 --> 1:28:08.160
<v Speaker 1>candles and cards everywhere. And I had no one at

1:28:08.160 --> 1:28:10.679
<v Speaker 1>the house. There was nothing. All I had this coffee

1:28:10.720 --> 1:28:13.640
<v Speaker 1>and a jar of jam that I took my medication,

1:28:14.600 --> 1:28:22.000
<v Speaker 1>and I said goodbye to God, my God. I remember

1:28:22.040 --> 1:28:24.800
<v Speaker 1>looking up thinking, how could you be so cruel? We

1:28:24.880 --> 1:28:29.960
<v Speaker 1>begged he went there, and then I got a phone.

1:28:30.120 --> 1:28:32.559
<v Speaker 1>After the Arlo barked me and looked up at me,

1:28:33.680 --> 1:28:36.479
<v Speaker 1>and I just looked at me and wrapped himself around

1:28:36.520 --> 1:28:39.880
<v Speaker 1>my legs and he jumped up, and I thought, but then,

1:28:39.920 --> 1:28:43.960
<v Speaker 1>what will happened to you? And I cried. I remember

1:28:44.000 --> 1:28:45.919
<v Speaker 1>falling to the tires in the middle of a hallway

1:28:46.400 --> 1:28:48.600
<v Speaker 1>while people were knocking on the door, and it was

1:28:48.640 --> 1:28:50.880
<v Speaker 1>the media. The media were just knocking on the draw

1:28:50.960 --> 1:28:53.639
<v Speaker 1>and the phone was ringing, and that too was the media.

1:28:54.280 --> 1:28:57.000
<v Speaker 1>And I just kept crying and screaming and holding my

1:28:57.080 --> 1:28:59.160
<v Speaker 1>ears because I thought, how do I escape? Because I

1:28:59.200 --> 1:29:02.880
<v Speaker 1>just wanted to get to hospital. But then I lost

1:29:02.920 --> 1:29:05.679
<v Speaker 1>sight there for a moment and almost took my life.

1:29:06.360 --> 1:29:09.919
<v Speaker 1>And if it wasn't for Lah, it wouldn't be here today.

1:29:09.920 --> 1:29:11.880
<v Speaker 1>It reminded me that he too needed me.

1:29:12.439 --> 1:29:18.040
<v Speaker 2>The strength of both of you is quite remarkable, and

1:29:19.080 --> 1:29:22.360
<v Speaker 2>the people that you have attracted to yourselves because of

1:29:22.400 --> 1:29:29.960
<v Speaker 2>your strength and the beauty of your spirit. And I'm

1:29:30.160 --> 1:29:33.760
<v Speaker 2>very happy that your court case, the prolonged and protracted

1:29:33.880 --> 1:29:39.200
<v Speaker 2>and brutal court case with Royal Caribbean was settled in

1:29:39.240 --> 1:29:47.120
<v Speaker 2>your favor obviously. Do you feel like I know that

1:29:47.160 --> 1:29:51.520
<v Speaker 2>you have come to love yourself against stef.

1:29:53.160 --> 1:29:53.880
<v Speaker 1>What do you.

1:29:55.320 --> 1:30:01.080
<v Speaker 2>Dream of, think of wish for for the future.

1:30:01.920 --> 1:30:06.160
<v Speaker 3>I want a family of my own. That's incredibly important

1:30:06.200 --> 1:30:09.640
<v Speaker 3>to me because of how much I valued us and

1:30:09.680 --> 1:30:11.760
<v Speaker 3>the memories we made and shared. I want to be

1:30:11.840 --> 1:30:14.360
<v Speaker 3>able to pass that on and crept my own family.

1:30:17.080 --> 1:30:21.000
<v Speaker 3>But I I just want to live a very fulfilled life.

1:30:21.240 --> 1:30:23.559
<v Speaker 3>I want to make the most of it because I

1:30:23.640 --> 1:30:26.720
<v Speaker 3>know how close I was to losing it, and my

1:30:26.800 --> 1:30:29.680
<v Speaker 3>dad and sister did lose their lives. They deserve to

1:30:29.680 --> 1:30:32.840
<v Speaker 3>be here still, and I don't want to let them down.

1:30:34.400 --> 1:30:37.320
<v Speaker 3>So I just I just want to live a life

1:30:37.320 --> 1:30:41.000
<v Speaker 3>where I can help other people and make a difference

1:30:43.320 --> 1:30:47.040
<v Speaker 3>and just pass on stuff that I've learned myself after

1:30:47.080 --> 1:30:48.200
<v Speaker 3>what I've had to endure.

1:30:48.600 --> 1:30:50.760
<v Speaker 1>I think this is already making a difference.

1:30:51.760 --> 1:30:52.080
<v Speaker 3>I hope.

1:30:52.160 --> 1:30:56.800
<v Speaker 1>Sorry, don't you think as a mother watching her evolve

1:30:56.920 --> 1:31:00.559
<v Speaker 1>and grow and find herself again and accept her self

1:31:01.080 --> 1:31:04.400
<v Speaker 1>for who she is, and the beauty of watching that

1:31:05.080 --> 1:31:09.760
<v Speaker 1>is just extraordinary. And we were an ordinary family. It's

1:31:09.800 --> 1:31:15.160
<v Speaker 1>thrown into you know, an extraordinary predicament, and she just

1:31:15.160 --> 1:31:18.040
<v Speaker 1>wants to be ordinary again. She wants to have an

1:31:18.120 --> 1:31:22.599
<v Speaker 1>ordinary family, but on the same token make a difference

1:31:22.600 --> 1:31:27.439
<v Speaker 1>to body positivity. Through her experience, she can honestly say,

1:31:27.880 --> 1:31:30.720
<v Speaker 1>you know, when she says burn survivor, she doesn't mean

1:31:31.200 --> 1:31:37.240
<v Speaker 1>burn survivor. She's a survivor of a volcano, not just

1:31:37.240 --> 1:31:40.120
<v Speaker 1>a burn. I know that she is quite freely at

1:31:40.120 --> 1:31:44.080
<v Speaker 1>the moment, which almost diminishes. You know, that's not without

1:31:44.920 --> 1:31:47.440
<v Speaker 1>you know, I'm not trying, you know what I'm saying.

1:31:47.280 --> 1:31:49.840
<v Speaker 2>Because I learned from the book the nature of the

1:31:49.880 --> 1:31:52.960
<v Speaker 2>burns are very different, very much, and normal burons that

1:31:53.000 --> 1:31:53.880
<v Speaker 2>the acid.

1:31:53.600 --> 1:31:55.320
<v Speaker 1>Continues to burn continus.

1:31:55.439 --> 1:31:58.120
<v Speaker 2>Doctors had to keep taking tissue and tissue so.

1:31:58.240 --> 1:32:01.000
<v Speaker 1>An unbandage and there'd be you know, so I had

1:32:01.000 --> 1:32:03.720
<v Speaker 1>it that it went really well. Bart and then two

1:32:03.840 --> 1:32:06.520
<v Speaker 1>because she was having surgery. Both of them were having surgery.

1:32:06.760 --> 1:32:08.799
<v Speaker 1>You know, they say twenty in the book, it's not twenty.

1:32:09.040 --> 1:32:12.280
<v Speaker 1>She was having surgeries every second day. Both of them

1:32:12.280 --> 1:32:14.800
<v Speaker 1>were having surgeries every second day. And on the day

1:32:14.840 --> 1:32:19.000
<v Speaker 1>they weren't, they were in a hyperbartic chamber for hours

1:32:19.040 --> 1:32:20.120
<v Speaker 1>and it was just and then.

1:32:20.200 --> 1:32:23.040
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, well, you're talking about people who have boons.

1:32:23.240 --> 1:32:25.519
<v Speaker 1>Yes, yes, And that's when I was told. Because we

1:32:25.560 --> 1:32:29.040
<v Speaker 1>had meetings every Tuesday, which I tried to avoid because

1:32:29.320 --> 1:32:31.800
<v Speaker 1>I found the truth too hard to bear. I just

1:32:31.840 --> 1:32:34.040
<v Speaker 1>wanted to run in. I just couldn't get that fast enough.

1:32:34.120 --> 1:32:37.320
<v Speaker 1>I couldn't breathe just about like the oxygen mistaken. I

1:32:37.400 --> 1:32:40.479
<v Speaker 1>needed to physically see them. And remember, I can't even

1:32:40.520 --> 1:32:43.000
<v Speaker 1>touch them. I can't kiss them, I can't hold their hands,

1:32:43.320 --> 1:32:45.880
<v Speaker 1>can't do anything, just talk and all you want to

1:32:45.880 --> 1:32:48.240
<v Speaker 1>do is hold them, and you can't, not even a touch,

1:32:50.000 --> 1:32:52.920
<v Speaker 1>and I was reminded of their fragility, so I couldn't

1:32:52.920 --> 1:32:54.840
<v Speaker 1>but I just wanted. I was so eager to get

1:32:54.880 --> 1:32:56.920
<v Speaker 1>to them rather than be in a meeting. And I

1:32:56.960 --> 1:32:59.639
<v Speaker 1>knew the meeting was never good news. It was never

1:32:59.640 --> 1:33:03.160
<v Speaker 1>good news. And I remember one Tuesday, I was told

1:33:03.160 --> 1:33:07.360
<v Speaker 1>that even though that grafted, the grafts came off, the

1:33:07.400 --> 1:33:10.880
<v Speaker 1>graphs did take and I never understood why. And they said, well,

1:33:10.960 --> 1:33:14.439
<v Speaker 1>every time we take the bandages of, we have to

1:33:14.560 --> 1:33:18.360
<v Speaker 1>keep cutting again because it's still it's still it's still

1:33:18.400 --> 1:33:21.800
<v Speaker 1>the acid is still going, it's still eating the flesh away,

1:33:21.840 --> 1:33:24.479
<v Speaker 1>and it's still and I kept saying, well, don't touch

1:33:24.520 --> 1:33:26.879
<v Speaker 1>her hands. You know they will grow back, skin grows.

1:33:26.920 --> 1:33:29.360
<v Speaker 1>Give it a chance. No, no, no, Marina said, no, no, no,

1:33:29.400 --> 1:33:31.960
<v Speaker 1>you are not touching her hands. You promised me you

1:33:32.000 --> 1:33:35.080
<v Speaker 1>would wait, because I didn't. I didn't know, I've never

1:33:35.360 --> 1:33:38.320
<v Speaker 1>I didn't see the photos at that stage. Yeah, and

1:33:38.400 --> 1:33:41.200
<v Speaker 1>I kept saying, but skin grows, give this chance, give

1:33:41.280 --> 1:33:44.280
<v Speaker 1>us fingers a chance to heal, because I didn't think

1:33:44.400 --> 1:33:48.360
<v Speaker 1>that she would cope. If you know, but not only

1:33:48.360 --> 1:33:54.160
<v Speaker 1>is she coping, she's thriving because she's got this positive attitude.

1:33:54.200 --> 1:33:57.559
<v Speaker 1>She doesn't ever complain. When she came home.

1:33:57.680 --> 1:34:00.599
<v Speaker 2>She did because she hated herself. She hated what when she.

1:34:00.720 --> 1:34:03.559
<v Speaker 1>Looked in the mirror, which I did my all to

1:34:03.640 --> 1:34:05.880
<v Speaker 1>hide from her in hospital. The first thing I did

1:34:05.880 --> 1:34:07.439
<v Speaker 1>when I entered the room was looked for a mirror,

1:34:07.479 --> 1:34:08.960
<v Speaker 1>and the last thing I did when I left was

1:34:09.080 --> 1:34:12.000
<v Speaker 1>make sure there was no mirror because I thought, I

1:34:12.040 --> 1:34:15.439
<v Speaker 1>don't want her yes to confront what she said was

1:34:15.439 --> 1:34:18.120
<v Speaker 1>to confront you. I didn't want to see anything. I thought,

1:34:18.400 --> 1:34:22.120
<v Speaker 1>give it some more time, it will get better. But so, yeah,

1:34:22.200 --> 1:34:25.880
<v Speaker 1>so you know, to see her go from that to

1:34:25.920 --> 1:34:29.679
<v Speaker 1>where she is today, she's beautiful, credible, And she did

1:34:29.720 --> 1:34:32.720
<v Speaker 1>complain then, but she doesn't. She's never complained since. She

1:34:32.880 --> 1:34:35.280
<v Speaker 1>just because she that was the that was the fight,

1:34:35.400 --> 1:34:38.479
<v Speaker 1>that was the fight she had to overcome. She overcame it,

1:34:38.800 --> 1:34:41.439
<v Speaker 1>and she did it and now she's as she looks

1:34:41.479 --> 1:34:44.200
<v Speaker 1>at her cars differently. They tell a story of her survival.

1:34:44.439 --> 1:34:46.920
<v Speaker 1>They tell a story of her journey. They tell a

1:34:47.040 --> 1:34:49.479
<v Speaker 1>story of her grit. And you know, she says, I've

1:34:49.479 --> 1:34:52.080
<v Speaker 1>got you to thank for that, because you, you know,

1:34:52.479 --> 1:34:55.559
<v Speaker 1>you inspired me, you inspired my fight. But no, I

1:34:55.560 --> 1:34:59.160
<v Speaker 1>think she did it all by herself. But she doesn't

1:34:59.280 --> 1:35:01.080
<v Speaker 1>think that she extraordinary.

1:35:02.040 --> 1:35:07.480
<v Speaker 2>You are extraordinary. That's not even kind reminded of to repeat,

1:35:07.520 --> 1:35:08.920
<v Speaker 2>who I meant a lot to you?

1:35:09.040 --> 1:35:10.120
<v Speaker 3>That's right, yep.

1:35:10.479 --> 1:35:14.400
<v Speaker 2>And her partner said, people talk about going through hell,

1:35:15.200 --> 1:35:18.280
<v Speaker 2>but Teria went to hell and hell spat her out.

1:35:19.240 --> 1:35:23.559
<v Speaker 3>Yes, that's exactly right, and hell spat you out. She

1:35:23.680 --> 1:35:26.680
<v Speaker 3>inspired me in so many ways. The same with her

1:35:26.960 --> 1:35:30.440
<v Speaker 3>her friend Kate, who was a part of the same bushfire.

1:35:31.520 --> 1:35:34.880
<v Speaker 3>And you know, to have someone like her out there

1:35:34.920 --> 1:35:38.640
<v Speaker 3>online for me to see, you know how fast she

1:35:38.760 --> 1:35:41.439
<v Speaker 3>has come from her own injuries, which I know were

1:35:41.479 --> 1:35:46.800
<v Speaker 3>just as awful that really gave me an extra layer

1:35:46.840 --> 1:35:50.160
<v Speaker 3>of fight to get to where I am today, and

1:35:50.200 --> 1:35:52.280
<v Speaker 3>so I felt it was just as important for me

1:35:52.360 --> 1:35:55.200
<v Speaker 3>to do what she did, which was to share her story,

1:35:55.320 --> 1:36:00.760
<v Speaker 3>speak up and help other people by bringing awareness, but

1:36:00.880 --> 1:36:05.639
<v Speaker 3>also you know, by giving people insight into who she is,

1:36:05.720 --> 1:36:08.800
<v Speaker 3>just who she is today, an everyday person, her life's real,

1:36:08.960 --> 1:36:13.320
<v Speaker 3>her family. She's showing people that it's possible to live

1:36:13.360 --> 1:36:17.679
<v Speaker 3>an ordinary life after going through something so extraordinary, and

1:36:18.080 --> 1:36:21.639
<v Speaker 3>that's what motivated me, I think also to speak out

1:36:21.720 --> 1:36:25.599
<v Speaker 3>and share myself, my story and my recovery online. And

1:36:26.240 --> 1:36:28.280
<v Speaker 3>you know, at the time, I was a bit iffy

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<v Speaker 3>about doing so, because you know, I'm opening up and

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<v Speaker 3>sharing things that I wasn't feeling great about myself. I

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<v Speaker 3>wasn't even sure I was in the right headspace. But

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<v Speaker 3>I pushed myself to do it, and I'm glad I

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<v Speaker 3>have because it helped me as well mentally recover. I

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<v Speaker 3>didn't realize it at the time, but by sharing and

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<v Speaker 3>with my dark sense of humor sometimes which I get

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<v Speaker 3>from my dad, I don't think I would be where

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<v Speaker 3>I am today, but to hear how it's helped other

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<v Speaker 3>people to inspire some fight to get through hardships for

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<v Speaker 3>other people, but also to see other people and read

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<v Speaker 3>messages about people getting through and overcoming their own body

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<v Speaker 3>issues with their own body, their skin, their looks, disabilities,

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<v Speaker 3>and how it's had a positive impact on them. Just

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<v Speaker 3>being who I am, just sharing stupid things, sometimes funny things,

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<v Speaker 3>you know. I look back at some of the videos

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<v Speaker 3>and nar a bit I feel a bit cringe and

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<v Speaker 3>I'm like, no.

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<v Speaker 2>But that's always the way.

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<v Speaker 3>I'm grateful, and I'm grateful to all the people who

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<v Speaker 3>have supported me along the way. Whether they've realized it

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<v Speaker 3>as well, the community means so much to me, and

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<v Speaker 3>they've helped me as much as they say I've helped them.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, oh brow, it's Stephanie, Marie. I cannot thank you

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<v Speaker 2>enough for sharing yourselves with us. I wish you every happiness.

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<v Speaker 2>I hope, I hope that comes in a form. Think

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<v Speaker 2>what stayed with me after my meeting with his mother

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<v Speaker 2>and daughter wasn't only the scale of what this family

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<v Speaker 2>has lost, but the extraordinary tenderness between them, the way

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<v Speaker 2>they carried each other through something almost impossible to comprehend,

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<v Speaker 2>and also somehow the humor they've managed to hold on

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<v Speaker 2>to alongside all of that grief. Stephanie often speaks about

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<v Speaker 2>wanting peace, and I think that's what moved me most

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<v Speaker 2>listening to her, not just her survival, but the life

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<v Speaker 2>she's slowly rebuilt afterwards. In a body and a world

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<v Speaker 2>changed forever Today, Stephanie has become a powerful advocate for

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<v Speaker 2>burn survivors and body acceptance, sharing her journey publicly with

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<v Speaker 2>hundreds of thousands of people around the world. Stephanie and

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<v Speaker 2>Marie's memoir is called Out of the Ashes, and it's

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<v Speaker 2>out now. If you like to hear more conversations like

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<v Speaker 2>this one, follow no Filter wherever you get your podcasts.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm Kate Lanebrook and I'll be back next Monday with

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<v Speaker 2>another unforgettable interview.