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Speaker 3: I'd really love some advice on how to navigate a

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Speaker 3: situation with my stepdad. He's raised me since I was two,

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Speaker 3: so he's basically my real parent. He struggled with addiction

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Speaker 3: started sending me constant suicidal messages, telling me he was

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Speaker 3: it would be my fault. He blamed me for his

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Speaker 3: me horrible names. I was genuinely terrified for his safety,

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Speaker 3: he's turned on me even more. The blame, the guilt tripping,

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Speaker 3: me and I've always thought so highly of. I love him,

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Speaker 3: and I feel this deep responsibility because of our history.

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Speaker 3: But I also know that I'm being emotionally abused intensely,

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Speaker 3: How do you support somebody in addiction and crisis without

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Speaker 2: Oh my goodness, I'm so curious. Is her mum's still

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Speaker 1: That's all the context, babe.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, oh wow, I'm so sorry to you going through that.

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Speaker 1: That is absolutely awful.

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Speaker 2: I can't imagine how hard that is because you would

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Speaker 2: But from other people that I've known that have known,

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Speaker 2: Like you can't stop an addict so taking drugs, Like

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Speaker 2: suicide's hard, isn't it, because yeah, you'll be terrified to

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Speaker 2: But like I just want to tell you, like, it

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Speaker 2: is not your fault, never will be your fault. I personally,

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Speaker 2: I do think you're going to have to have some

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Speaker 2: Pushing and pushing and pushing, and your mental health is

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Speaker 2: it sounds like there needs to be some strong boundaries

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Speaker 2: it's not all on you. It sounds like you're really

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Speaker 1: Else might be around.

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Speaker 3: And it might even be perceived like that because he's

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Speaker 3: behaving like that too, Yes, like he's putting everything on you.

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Speaker 3: Like I haven't experienced what you're going through right now,

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Speaker 1: To the relationship. So it's like a manipulation. Yeah, it

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Speaker 1: So I mean that was my experience.

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Speaker 1: So I don't really think you can do much more.

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Speaker 3: No, but you do have to protect yourself from like

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Speaker 2: Yeah, I'm really hoping there's someone else that you can

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Speaker 1: I suppose you could still be there.

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Speaker 2: I don't know what capacity that is, but I do

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Speaker 1: Yeah, I'm really sorry. This is happening. That's so tricky.

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Speaker 3: It's so hard to and there's like a parent or

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Speaker 1: Even your stepdad anymore, though, is it. No, But it

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Speaker 3: No. You know, it's like because we have expectations of

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Speaker 3: oh my god, now my heart is broken because I

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Speaker 2: I wonder what made him go sober, How he went sober,

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Speaker 1: How did he do that before? Yeah?

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Speaker 2: I love that another way to explore it, because he's

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Speaker 2: So that's something I'd be looking at as well. Yeah,

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Speaker 2: But wow, yeah, because it wasn't the same man. How

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Speaker 2: They'd be devastating, absolute devasthating, because you're grieving someone that's

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Speaker 3: But then as well, it's hard to because in these

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Speaker 2: It's even like this is where it's hard, not having

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Speaker 2: we all do to rally together, bring a community, help together.

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Speaker 2: I'm a woman that needs help, you know, rally a

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Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, rally on community. I love that.

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Speaker 2: I think that's epic. And there's lots of like AA

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Speaker 2: because they're dealing with it all day, every day, whereas

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Speaker 2: this isn't something that I've had experience in.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, so that's probably where I would look for support

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Speaker 2: And even if you don't have support to help him,

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Speaker 2: having someone that understands what you're going through it can

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Speaker 2: I hope that's helped, and if not, we're just sending

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Speaker 1: You know you can't continue like this forever.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, do what you have to do to keep yourself

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Speaker 2: Don't feel guilty about it, or because the only person's

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Speaker 1: Yeah. You can't help someone that doesn't want to be helped. Yeah, yeah.

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Speaker 3: Love bye all right, Gillies Bye,