Speaker 1: Maybe because of my past experience as a holding me
Speaker 1: back from allowing myself to feel the things that I
Speaker 1: know I deserve. No, I was like, hey, you're trying
Speaker 1: to eventate my voice.
Speaker 2: No, it could be better than that. Go wait, give
Speaker 2: me a sentence.
Speaker 1: Hey guys, it's easy.
Speaker 3: Hey guys, that was pretty good.
Speaker 1: That was that was bad. I don't come back control it.
Speaker 1: I asked her to do that. Guys, I'm not offended.
Speaker 1: Welcome back, we are.
Speaker 3: Sam has just come back from Australia Fashion Week. I
Speaker 3: only went to one show. Obviously everyone's seen on the
Speaker 3: fucking internet right now. The uproar that Sidney Fashion Week
Speaker 3: has caused, and going off what we said last week
Speaker 3: with this whole parasocial like online hate and everything like that,
Speaker 3: it really was even heightened even more this week.
Speaker 1: I just feel like, let people wear what they're comfortable in.
Speaker 1: Fashion week is also hard. It's a lot of pressure
Speaker 1: to wear so but no, you want to feel good
Speaker 1: and I feel like there's a lot of comparison, which
Speaker 1: is natural for a fashion week. So it's like, if
Speaker 1: you're comfortable and that's what you're stepping out in, you're
Speaker 1: at home. Girl, Why are we judging the people putting themselves.
Speaker 1: And I know some people would love to go and
Speaker 1: like they'd love to have the opportunity, but it's like,
Speaker 1: let's just you know, these are people. This how they
Speaker 1: express themselves. This is what they feel comfortable, and it's
Speaker 1: what they want to wear.
Speaker 2: Who cares. No one's telling you to wear it.
Speaker 3: Like I just honestly don't get it, Like I feel
Speaker 3: so insecure at those things. I saw soap video about it,
Speaker 3: and like, no matter what sophs and I pass is,
Speaker 3: Like I still think she's a fucking boss girl. Like
Speaker 3: she's fucking killing it this year, like absolutely rocking the
Speaker 3: influence of well.
Speaker 1: Aaron Bailey Siktok's are mine your favorite thing to us?
Speaker 3: Oh my god, Like they fucking kill it, but like
Speaker 3: they're absolute rips to shed that she got just like
Speaker 3: trying to do something different because if she went basic,
Speaker 3: people would have ripped into it.
Speaker 2: If she went over the top.
Speaker 1: She did go basic this year, so why are we
Speaker 1: calling her a micro trend final boss? I feel like
Speaker 1: the big issue with fashion Week, which obviously we're not
Speaker 1: going to touch too heavily on it, but the interviewer
Speaker 1: is asking questions purely for other creators to answer and
Speaker 1: drag down someone else. This should be like what SO said.
Speaker 1: It should be a place for uplifting small businesses or
Speaker 1: creators for you know, what they're wearing, not who's up
Speaker 1: fits the ugliest? So who's the micro trend? Final boss?
Speaker 1: Like who cares?
Speaker 2: Yeah?
Speaker 3: Or like I remember last year I got asked about
Speaker 3: my wage, like how much I earned, which is like
Speaker 3: everyone knows you don't ask people how much they earn
Speaker 3: because like again, like imagine if I turn around being like, well,
Speaker 3: how much are you getting paid for an hourly rate?
Speaker 3: To interview me at carriage works, Like that'd be rude
Speaker 3: and everyone would be like she's so rude, But it's
Speaker 3: like why is she not rude for asking me that question?
Speaker 3: Like again, I feel like there's a separate standards for
Speaker 3: like influencers. We need to be open and transparent, but
Speaker 3: like the interviewees don't.
Speaker 2: And I'm just like it's really weird.
Speaker 3: So I avoided fucking h I saw an interview, I
Speaker 3: saw people with microphones and I run in the opposite direction.
Speaker 2: I was like, I'm here to watch the passion and
Speaker 2: that's it.
Speaker 1: I just don't know what happened this year. I feel
Speaker 1: like this year was really the worst year for the interviews,
Speaker 1: where they were purely only trying to find controversial answers
Speaker 1: relating to other creators in the space as well for years. Yeah,
Speaker 1: which you don't have to get views on that, and
Speaker 1: that's once again you intentionally you might not be the
Speaker 1: one answering the question, but you've made that a unsafe
Speaker 1: space for someone to be torn down and you shouldn't.
Speaker 2: Like I saw this.
Speaker 3: Thing, like I even saw this thing of like this
Speaker 3: brand called every Jewels when around the shopping center asking
Speaker 3: young girls Hailey, Team Haley or Salina. It's like that
Speaker 3: was their marketing tactic, and it's like you're selling jewelry.
Speaker 3: You're selling jewelry, Like why are you doing that? It's
Speaker 3: just like all for reviews thing. But I'm like, wait,
Speaker 3: can we just like go back to what we're originally doing?
Speaker 1: Yeah, And I think everyone looked amazing. I wish I
Speaker 1: was there. I didn't go this year purely just because
Speaker 1: obviously I got home quite I got home from America
Speaker 1: pretty quickly, like it would have been a really quick turnaround,
Speaker 1: and I am a homebody relaxer. I needed to like
Speaker 1: recover at home. I was jealous and everyone looked beautiful
Speaker 1: and it's such so much fun when you let it be.
Speaker 1: So I feel like we need like I hope you
Speaker 1: had a good time, but like it's just that negativity
Speaker 1: of the interviews that I think really caused problems this
Speaker 1: year and took away from the actual outfits.
Speaker 3: I only went to one show and just did work
Speaker 3: around it. And it was like nice to catch up
Speaker 3: with the Adelaide girls, which I don't get to see
Speaker 3: Brooke l and as well, Like they were really nice,
Speaker 3: Like oh such a chit of sad minch didn't come up,
Speaker 3: but like, yeah, it was nice to see and catch
Speaker 3: up with my inter state friends.
Speaker 2: But I didn't do too much fashion.
Speaker 1: Especially with the with the world online being so easy
Speaker 1: to pick people apart, it is scary. Yeah, I just
Speaker 1: tried to protect The first year we went, we went
Speaker 1: to like six shows. We had so much fun. There
Speaker 1: was no drama like it was it was just a
Speaker 1: cloud nine. And then this it was like it's too
Speaker 1: much pressure sometimes because I wasn't prepared enough. So I
Speaker 1: was like, now that I'm not prepared on my outfit
Speaker 1: is not going to be good and is it going
Speaker 1: to be a problem online? So I was like, I'm
Speaker 1: just gonna see it.
Speaker 3: Which it shouldn't be, Like we should all be celebrating
Speaker 3: the amazing Australian fashion which we have.
Speaker 1: Like, but everyone looked sligh killed it and.
Speaker 3: I'm done killed it all Right, let's go.
Speaker 1: Into question of the week.
Speaker 3: Would you rather date someone who's chronically online or someone
Speaker 3: who has no social media and won't even pose for
Speaker 3: photos chronically online?
Speaker 2: I want to be showed off.
Speaker 1: I want to be about to say no social media,
Speaker 1: But someone that won't pose for photos means I then
Speaker 1: won't even be able to have photos with, say my partner,
Speaker 1: do you know what I mean, whether I post them
Speaker 1: or not. It's like you love looking back through those
Speaker 1: photos with you and your partner and it's like it's
Speaker 1: so camory sweet. So it's like chronically online. Yeah, sadly probably,
Speaker 1: but that's like that's not what I want to either.
Speaker 3: Yeah, Like I wouldn't love like an influencer boyfriend, but
Speaker 3: like if that's.
Speaker 1: If they're me, they can do whatever they want.
Speaker 2: Yeah, please.
Speaker 4: I love it when boyfriends post their girlfriends on their stories.
Speaker 2: It's so cute.
Speaker 1: In my last relationship, and I think that was a
Speaker 1: big part of like are you not proud of me?
Speaker 3: Like?
Speaker 1: Do you not want people to know your dating? Do
Speaker 1: you want people to know your single?
Speaker 3: Like?
Speaker 1: I feel like that's a big point of contention for
Speaker 1: a lot of relationship.
Speaker 3: A lot of girls like boyfriends. Just fucking post your girlfriends.
Speaker 3: It's not that hard, even if they're.
Speaker 1: Just sitting at dinner. Just get a kick, a little
Speaker 1: photo of them with their fucking wine, post a photo
Speaker 1: with the back of their head when they're walking down
Speaker 1: the street. No one gives a fuck to post them. Yeah,
Speaker 1: they It means so much to girls. I don't know
Speaker 1: why I can't down an album and saving for the rest.
Speaker 3: I can't explain the psychology behind it, but we really
Speaker 3: like it.
Speaker 2: We like being showed off.
Speaker 1: Yeah, you want people to know that you're with someone,
Speaker 1: and you want people to know them. Yeah, your girlfriend.
Speaker 1: I don't get why posting your partner is ever a
Speaker 1: big deal. They're probably the person who spend the most
Speaker 1: time with so I don't I don't know. I just
Speaker 1: I just do put on social media. I just don't
Speaker 1: want people to like pick you apart. I'm like, babe,
Speaker 1: I'll worry about that myself.
Speaker 3: Yeah, but I just don't like put on social media.
Speaker 3: But you'll post a Guinness, you post.
Speaker 1: Your feet when you're sitting town Nimbali, yeah, post me.
Speaker 1: I don't get it. I think it's stupid. So chronically
Speaker 1: online is the answer that I guess sadly.
Speaker 2: Well, yeah, what else do we have the to update
Speaker 2: the girls on.
Speaker 1: I'm getting mush noozz done into it. Fuck, it's been
Speaker 1: a year since my boobs. Like last week the best
Speaker 1: thing I ever did. Really happy with it. Once again,
Speaker 1: always all preface. This isn't me telling you to do
Speaker 1: it yourself, but I have a it's medical and cosmetic.
Speaker 1: I'm not going to sit here and say it's all medical.
Speaker 1: It's not. You know, forever. I'm not the biggest fan
Speaker 1: of my nose, so I think this is something I've
Speaker 1: wanted done the longest. But because it is your face,
Speaker 1: it definitely scared me a lot more than boobs.
Speaker 2: I just got a wave of anxiety come over me.
Speaker 1: For you when ia face and you're looking at my face. Yeah,
Speaker 1: I know I'm scared, but I'm so excited. Like I
Speaker 1: think I also loved to get me because I was
Speaker 1: in my reading girl era, I just signed it. So
Speaker 1: I was reading Akata and I like the whole fucking
Speaker 1: series for like those two weeks.
Speaker 2: I just had an excuse.
Speaker 1: Yeah, and I have an excuse to be my lazy
Speaker 1: yourself and I can't fuckings. But so I have a
Speaker 1: deviated septum on my left side. They're straightening all that up.
Speaker 1: So usually you would think I should be able to
Speaker 1: breathe out of my right side, but we have these
Speaker 1: glands in our nose called turbinites, and the one on
Speaker 1: my left side has swollen up to fill the whole
Speaker 1: airway on that side as well, so I can't breathe
Speaker 1: out of either side. So actually I'm wondering will my
Speaker 1: voice sound less nasally once. Maybe it won't be higher
Speaker 1: because I just have a deep voice, but I think
Speaker 1: it'll probably sound a bit less interesting, namely because I
Speaker 1: can breathe out of my nose. But so they're fixing
Speaker 1: all that. That's all medicare covered.
Speaker 2: But you sleep with your mouth.
Speaker 1: I sleep out of my nose, but it's like I
Speaker 1: just can't breathe very well. So I think it'll just
Speaker 1: be like I can breathe out of my nose, but
Speaker 1: not not well, so I think that will be great,
Speaker 1: and I blow my nose.
Speaker 3: Every fucking five minutes. I'm a granny, like my existence. Yeah,
Speaker 3: like hold back, it's just feeling. I'm on a date
Speaker 3: and I wip out a fucking tissue and blow my nose.
Speaker 2: Well, hank you that you're hide in your bra.
Speaker 1: Well, I go to the toilet and do it. I
Speaker 1: try not to blow my nose in front of people.
Speaker 1: It's really fucking embarrassing. But that will be fixed. But
Speaker 1: I am really scared because obviously I do breathe out
Speaker 1: of my nose, but I'll have to breathe out of
Speaker 1: my mouth. And apparently, like when the U sorry, that
Speaker 1: will sound different. Merrily I'll say apparently apparently apparently, Oh
Speaker 1: my god, I really do say it like that, don't know.
Speaker 1: Every time I say apparently, someone goes I've never been
Speaker 1: on my television before. They stick at to you down
Speaker 1: your throat, and it's different to where they stick it
Speaker 1: down your throat when you just go under normal anesthesia,
Speaker 1: and they like they do it rough and it like
Speaker 1: scrapes your fucking esophagus. So apparently it's like you're swallowing
Speaker 1: shards of fucking glass for the first day because you
Speaker 1: can only breathe out of your throat that's just been
Speaker 1: like scraped, So that, I think is what I'm scared. Like,
Speaker 1: we've all experienced a fucking soort throat and it is hell.
Speaker 1: It's agony. Yeah, but you'll have to to read out
Speaker 1: of that. You can't read out of your nose, so
Speaker 1: that's gonna suck. I bought a pregnancy pillow ylast night,
Speaker 1: I bought a Humida fire.
Speaker 2: Are you gonna stay at your mums?
Speaker 1: No, I'm staying at home. Mum and Riley are away.
Speaker 1: My mom and my oldest sister are away for when
Speaker 1: I get my nose done, which is I think that's
Speaker 1: what I'm scared about. But obviously you guys have heard
Speaker 1: me talk about leg my best friend on here, her
Speaker 1: oldest sister, and Nushka is like she's a nurse. She
Speaker 1: is a nurse. Well she's I think she's studying nursing
Speaker 1: and she's just like I've known her for fifteen years.
Speaker 1: She's such a little mother and she loves cooking. So
Speaker 1: she's gonna come hang out. She's gonna look after me
Speaker 1: for the first five days or so, and I think
Speaker 1: by then I'll be fine because it's not like I
Speaker 1: can't drive, whereas with boobs it's like you can't use
Speaker 1: your arms, so I couldn't push myself out of bed
Speaker 1: or anything like that, and I couldn't drive for two weeks.
Speaker 1: But I think nos, it'll just be like I'll need
Speaker 1: to be in bed for the first couple days and
Speaker 1: I won't want to do much. But like once I
Speaker 1: I can walk around, I can probably drive and everything
Speaker 1: after a couple of days.
Speaker 3: So it's seven A little band each on your nose, Yeah,
Speaker 3: just a little bit tape and when they take the
Speaker 3: stints out those things in your nostrils apparently that really hurts.
Speaker 1: That really hurts. But I'll have that because I'm getting
Speaker 1: a septoplastic because they need to straighten the inside, so
Speaker 1: I'll have those stints in my nostrils.
Speaker 2: God, I know you need to like send me like
Speaker 2: snapchap updates.
Speaker 1: I think I'm just gonna really lug it all online.
Speaker 1: I really really am, because I'm like it is such
Speaker 1: that there's obviously if I could have seen someone go
Speaker 1: through all those little steps and processes, I would have
Speaker 1: loved that. I feel like it's so interesting and helpful
Speaker 1: for people that also maybe having that.
Speaker 3: But yeah, I'll be in London. I can't look after you.
Speaker 3: Yeah you can't. It's so sad you've got me boobcake
Speaker 3: last time.
Speaker 2: I might have to order it for you.
Speaker 1: It's a little very expensive plastic surgery habit. You're picking up.
Speaker 1: I'm like, shut up. That's all I have to say.
Speaker 1: It's your money, babe, it's my money. It's my body,
Speaker 1: it's my face. It's my choice. That's all I have
Speaker 1: to say on that. I don't intend on getting. I'm
Speaker 1: not getting a little button nose, by the way, Like,
Speaker 1: I love your nose, but I'm not stupid, and I
Speaker 1: wouldn't suit my face, so my nose physically won't be
Speaker 1: changing too much. I love ago.
Speaker 3: I know who's got a nose job and her nose
Speaker 3: just got straightened.
Speaker 1: Yeah, they're straightening the front and then they're just fixed
Speaker 1: and they're making it look a bit more even decide
Speaker 1: I like to decide that I don't like, and they're
Speaker 1: just kind of going to even it out so it
Speaker 1: won't look too hectically different. It'll even probably look bigger
Speaker 1: for the first couple of weeks because of the swelling
Speaker 1: because they're actually not like taking much off, They're not
Speaker 1: like shaving it down much. But I'm scared, but I
Speaker 1: will keep you in the loop. And obviously, once i'm
Speaker 1: you know, able to come back and record, I'll talk
Speaker 1: to you about the process, the recovery, the journey so wild.
Speaker 1: Here we are again one year later.
Speaker 2: What does recovery look like?
Speaker 1: I don't really know. I know it's like I'll have
Speaker 1: that cast on my nose and I think there's splints
Speaker 1: in for two weeks. I think I have my first
Speaker 1: my appointments on the second of June, so everyone send
Speaker 1: me your love and prayers on the morning of the
Speaker 1: second of June, thank you, and I get my I
Speaker 1: have my second appointment on this seventeenth, so I will
Speaker 1: have all that shit on it, like all the casts
Speaker 1: and everything for like that's fifteen days.
Speaker 2: So I think you do go in and get some
Speaker 2: of the cast change and wraps and stuff.
Speaker 1: Yeah maybe, but yeah, that's obsessed with watching because I've
Speaker 1: already pre booked me in for my like two second
Speaker 1: post off appointments and then.
Speaker 2: Washed sky Wheeley's no shrub on YouTube.
Speaker 1: I should because I feel like I just need more
Speaker 1: info and then I'll have to tape it at night
Speaker 1: for like eight weeks or something. It's I just think
Speaker 1: those first couple of days are going to be brutal
Speaker 1: and you have to like there's like nasal you have
Speaker 1: to like spray stuff up your nose and like comes up.
Speaker 1: I'm scared.
Speaker 4: Actually, yeah, I don't. I've never had surgery.
Speaker 3: I've never been put under, so like knowing that you're
Speaker 3: voluntarily going and doing that like scared of me.
Speaker 1: It's something I've I wanted this for like boobs are
Speaker 1: the best thing ever, but knows, it's something I've always
Speaker 1: wanted more. I just was too scared to commit to it.
Speaker 1: But yeah, it's gonna swell. Obviously, we've seen Indy Clinton
Speaker 1: go through her thing, and I feel for her so
Speaker 1: much because like everyone's ripping out of shreds online. You
Speaker 1: think Indy probably wanted it to swell like that on
Speaker 1: evenly and like have everyone hate her online. No, but
Speaker 1: that's the process. It's gonna it's at least a year
Speaker 1: until your nose.
Speaker 2: Actually, it's nice.
Speaker 3: To trust the process because it's there's so much carliage
Speaker 3: and everything that shapes around your nose, so like never
Speaker 3: probably like doesn't settle like.
Speaker 1: Usually they say, if you like how it looks when
Speaker 1: the cast comes off, it's probably not done well because
Speaker 1: it will shrink, it'll swell down, and then it will
Speaker 1: probably be be tiny in a year. But it's like
Speaker 1: it's gonna be a process. So I'm just gonna try
Speaker 1: and be open online because it's interesting.
Speaker 2: To be nice.
Speaker 3: So be nice, thank you, Be nice to her, be
Speaker 3: nice to me because I am a sensitive Really, We've
Speaker 3: always said don't comment on things that can't be changed
Speaker 3: in ten seconds, Like, oh, you've got a bit of
Speaker 3: food in your teeth, great, tell me I'll take it out. Yeah,
Speaker 3: don't tell me that the surgery I've just done is
Speaker 3: stupid because it's healing.
Speaker 1: It's gonna be a year. Yeah, in a fucking year.
Speaker 1: If you think it looks ugly, then fucking fine, I'll
Speaker 1: probably love it by then, and I won't give a shit.
Speaker 1: But like, it'll be a journey.
Speaker 3: It's gonna be a moment of time where where it's
Speaker 3: like you're you also don't recognize yourself, so like people
Speaker 3: commenting on it, it's like it will be really hard
Speaker 3: and it.
Speaker 1: Knows is your face like boobs, I could hide in
Speaker 1: the videos. But I'm like, I also don't want to
Speaker 1: go offline for like a month, because it's my job.
Speaker 1: I love posting. I love posting stuff for you guys.
Speaker 1: So it's like if I have to then go offline
Speaker 1: because like people are reaping me the shreds, it's like,
Speaker 1: I'll do that, and you don't want me to because
Speaker 1: you miss me too. M m.
Speaker 3: So I'm missing of love. Think I need to know
Speaker 3: what you're doing with you. I know, I know, I
Speaker 3: love watching your six.
Speaker 1: Yeah.
Speaker 3: So I'm leaving in nine days.
Speaker 2: Fuck fuh.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I'm really excited for this chapter. I have gotten
Speaker 3: nothing organized going to London.
Speaker 4: Going to London for a couple of months.
Speaker 3: I booked eight weeks of accommodation, but I hope, like
Speaker 3: I could stay longer, but eight weeks minimum. Hopefully I'll
Speaker 3: do some trips in between. Melita and I are starting
Speaker 3: to plan that. And the amazing thing is you're like
Speaker 3: a train right away from like Powers exactly exactly. So
Speaker 3: I'll base myself out of London, meet new people, just explore,
Speaker 3: like I've got nothing really holding me back, and like
Speaker 3: if I can, if I again like easy and I
Speaker 3: spend our money differently if I have the financial freedom
Speaker 3: and I can't afford that right now, like I will,
Speaker 3: Like I like, that's like my idea of spending my money.
Speaker 2: So that's what I'm going to do. I don't have
Speaker 2: anything I planned or organized.
Speaker 3: I haven't bought anything for the troop because I'm like,
Speaker 3: all the shops are over there too, and I can
Speaker 3: get everything there for eight weeks, that's exactly, and I
Speaker 3: can order stuff to can.
Speaker 1: I ask, what's your sitch with what you're bringing over?
Speaker 2: What do you mean?
Speaker 1: Like are you just bringing like two big suitcases, just.
Speaker 3: Two big suitcases, Like wait, no, I mean like a
Speaker 3: long term like rental, so it's like I had a
Speaker 3: full apartment like furnished.
Speaker 2: Yeah yeah, but I'm bringing over.
Speaker 3: Two suitcases just so I have a wardrobe, yeah, and
Speaker 3: bait and stuff with euro summer.
Speaker 1: And hopefully crazy.
Speaker 3: I'm really going in with like no expectations because I
Speaker 3: don't want to go in with an expectation around mind.
Speaker 2: Yeah, but like I don't know, I really don't know.
Speaker 3: I need to get my hinge back up and running
Speaker 3: and unsuspended. She's real, I know, like how your she wants.
Speaker 1: She's on there.
Speaker 2: I want a UK boyfriend.
Speaker 1: You'll find a UK boyfriend I need. I feel like
Speaker 1: it's Australia is the one place I feel like where
Speaker 1: people are less open, less forward.
Speaker 3: And I'm way more open and like things when I'm
Speaker 3: not in Australia, Like I I find it really weird.
Speaker 3: When I'm in Melbourne, I'm like so closed off, but
Speaker 3: when I'm in another country, I'm like, no one knows
Speaker 3: who I am, Like no re percussions, Like I can
Speaker 3: just fuck off and go back to my own country
Speaker 3: and never have to.
Speaker 2: Worry about it.
Speaker 3: Yeah, like there is something I really like about a
Speaker 3: guy not being in my country. Like I literally dated
Speaker 3: a guy in Balley because I'm like, you aren't easily
Speaker 3: available to me. I know, yeah, yeah, it's a weird situation.
Speaker 3: I know you mean that, and just like way more
Speaker 3: open and it's like a clean slate. You haven't heard
Speaker 3: things from or you haven't slept with this person than
Speaker 3: this person and dated this person. Like it's like I'm free,
Speaker 3: rain baby, free rain Damn Bike.
Speaker 1: I didn't know down bike in London, babe.
Speaker 2: Yeah, Bike's gone to fucking London. Joking, We're fully joking.
Speaker 3: I'm like literally scared of intimacy on that I have
Speaker 3: realized and I don't know, you've probably seen the TikTok
Speaker 3: as well. I've realized I'm demisexual.
Speaker 1: Do you know what that you have to actually form
Speaker 1: a connection with it completely?
Speaker 3: Yeah, I'm so Like when I saw that, I was like,
Speaker 3: oh my god, that's speaking to me.
Speaker 2: I'm demisexual.
Speaker 3: Yeah, like I cannot remember I've never got anyone who
Speaker 3: I don't have feelings with it, or like see your
Speaker 3: possibility of going somewhere, I'm like, apart from that, and
Speaker 3: like saying with you as you said you were telling
Speaker 3: me before, I think it was off offline. You're like
Speaker 3: when you're like not sure if you're into them and
Speaker 3: you don't like them touching you, but like when they
Speaker 3: like you, you like, yeah, I.
Speaker 1: Need to wait until like a physical touch or something
Speaker 1: I love And Sam that you love that, I'm like, yeah,
Speaker 1: but if I can't articulate my feelings yet, I get
Speaker 1: it scares me. I need to know how I'm feeling
Speaker 1: before I want to be like touched.
Speaker 3: Oh, is he going through a hard time?
Speaker 1: Is he just going through a transitional period where I
Speaker 1: think I guess I'm talking to someone? Yeah, and he
Speaker 1: doesn't live here, and he came down in the weekend.
Speaker 1: He's here.
Speaker 2: He Now, did anyone see you?
Speaker 1: We were at the footy together.
Speaker 2: Yeah, when they saw you.
Speaker 1: We were actually in like a sort of like outer suburb,
Speaker 1: getting like stuff from the grocery store. And some girl goes,
Speaker 1: oh my god, is he Oh my god, Jack Jack.
Speaker 1: We'll come on Jack. His name's not Jack. Oh my god?
Speaker 3: Jack?
Speaker 1: Wait? What the fuck? Wait?
Speaker 2: What the fuck?
Speaker 1: Why are you guys together? And we're like, uh so,
Speaker 1: I don't know, but it's not online anyway. I don't
Speaker 1: really care, like where. He's a great guy. He's been
Speaker 1: older than me. That's what I wanted.
Speaker 4: I just think he ticked all of the body, and
Speaker 4: I don't want it.
Speaker 1: Like it's it's more just yeah, I've been single for
Speaker 1: a really, really long time, and I think I'm struggling
Speaker 1: to let anyone in, let people in. I really am,
Speaker 1: And I didn't think I had that because like I'm
Speaker 1: always on here saying how much I want love and
Speaker 1: how much I want that connection. So I think when
Speaker 1: finally faced with the possibility of that, I think my
Speaker 1: walls go up really high. So I'm just trying to
Speaker 1: don't sell sabotage. Yeah, and I think I'm really I
Speaker 1: can do that really easily if I let myself. So, like,
Speaker 1: I'm just trying to have an open mind and have fun.
Speaker 1: And what my boys said to me is all I
Speaker 1: need to think about is do I want to see
Speaker 1: them again? I don't need to think too far in
Speaker 1: the future, you know what I mean. So I'm just
Speaker 1: trying to allow myself because he's like so great, so complimentary,
Speaker 1: and that is all things that I love and I
Speaker 1: needed and getting that I almost don't know what to
Speaker 1: do with it, you know what I.
Speaker 2: Mean, Just embrace it.
Speaker 1: Yeah, So I just need to try and turn my
Speaker 1: brain off a bit because I think it's like, I'm
Speaker 1: just an anxious person, you guys know me. So I
Speaker 1: think I'm overthinking every step of it, and I'm just
Speaker 1: gonna try and enjoy him while he's here and then
Speaker 1: figure things out. I just I can't articulate my feelings.
Speaker 2: I'm trying to analyze it myself.
Speaker 1: I'm trying to give it time. I obviously like the
Speaker 1: guy I do, but I'm like, maybe just because I've
Speaker 1: been single for so long, singleness always just seems easier.
Speaker 2: So I wish I could be like Hannah.
Speaker 1: Hannah's fucking great.
Speaker 2: I know she always just fucking falls in love, and
Speaker 2: she's just to.
Speaker 1: See, how do you do it? Because I've been through it.
Speaker 1: I've been through it. Why how do you do it?
Speaker 1: Should they just go in like all but guns blazing,
Speaker 1: like head first and it works out amazing, and like
Speaker 1: that's what I want. I just I hate that there's
Speaker 1: bits of my brain that, maybe because of my past experience,
Speaker 1: as holding me back from allowing myself to feel the
Speaker 1: things that I know I deserved.
Speaker 3: You better write No. I was like, I was like,
Speaker 3: oh my god, she was looking at me. I'm like, honey,
Speaker 3: I'm not gonna cry.
Speaker 1: It's all sad. I'm just like I'm just angry at
Speaker 1: myself that I like I can't express these emotions the
Speaker 1: way that I would have thought I could have until
Speaker 1: I'm finally in a position where I probably need to.
Speaker 3: I had the same chat with my kinesiologists the other
Speaker 3: day about it, because like, I feel like I do
Speaker 3: have amazing people come into my life and like express
Speaker 3: interest in me, but like I almost am scared to
Speaker 3: like I'm almost so insecure to like allow people to
Speaker 3: see almost a real me instead of like the confidence
Speaker 3: version that I put out of myself.
Speaker 4: So I always like sabotage it, Like I always.
Speaker 3: Cut it off before they have the opportunity to cut
Speaker 3: it off, because it's like I want to get the
Speaker 3: upper end.
Speaker 2: And like she's like, you're why are you doing that?
Speaker 3: I'm like, I don't know, Like I just really really
Speaker 3: struggle to like let people.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I also think I worry about maybe leading someone on,
Speaker 1: but it's like I'm allowed to figure I'm allowed to
Speaker 1: take more time if someone knows Now, that's amazing and
Speaker 1: that's sweet and that's great, but you're also allowed to
Speaker 1: figure it out in your own timeline.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I don't know.
Speaker 3: I'm very much like you, like I literally can't let
Speaker 3: someoney in, Like I literally can't.
Speaker 1: Just think I'm frustrated with myself because I didn't realize
Speaker 1: it until now that that would be how I am.
Speaker 2: You kind of know it. You knew it the guy
Speaker 2: that you were seeing a little bit last year.
Speaker 1: You're like, yeah, I think I was just I can
Speaker 1: very quickly turn myself right off a situation. But then
Speaker 1: I'm like, I don't think it's benefiting me to do
Speaker 1: that because I think there are great guys that are
Speaker 1: really going to be really good for me. But because
Speaker 1: I am the way I am, I'm like.
Speaker 3: You know what, what what do you want out of
Speaker 3: a relationship, Like, let's speak about this like.
Speaker 1: She's lent in, she's right there, Like, no.
Speaker 3: Do you want to be like starting to settle down
Speaker 3: and create a life, Like do you want to still
Speaker 3: be partying every weekend?
Speaker 1: I want someone that will get me out of that phase.
Speaker 1: I am a party girl. We can say that through
Speaker 1: and through.
Speaker 2: I love an six five party girl.
Speaker 1: Thy six five party girl. I'm chelli sex, but I
Speaker 1: love going out and drinking with the girls. But I've
Speaker 1: never been like a big clubber. And I don't like clubbing.
Speaker 1: I just like having a wine and going to a
Speaker 1: nice bar.
Speaker 3: I don't want like what stage of your life do
Speaker 3: you want to step into in the next year?
Speaker 1: Responsibility?
Speaker 2: Okay? And what does that look like?
Speaker 1: Waking up earlier, going home earlier, and focusing on work
Speaker 1: and fitness and all that jazz. I just I feel
Speaker 1: like having a partner will be really good for me.
Speaker 1: I don't have an answer to any of this stuff.
Speaker 1: I think that's wy I'm struggling because I'm just like,
Speaker 1: I can't articulate any of my feelings right now.
Speaker 3: So it's maybe therapist, yeah, or maybe a life coach.
Speaker 1: No, a therapist, Okay, psychiatrists yeah, maybe actually was meant
Speaker 1: to start seeing one.
Speaker 3: Recently, I got diagnosed with ADHD by my psychiatrist.
Speaker 1: I've got apparently. I'm like, it's all just too much.
Speaker 1: I'm just a girl.
Speaker 3: Yeah, But like if we get on top of it,
Speaker 3: I mean, our lives maybe be so much easier. Maybe,
Speaker 3: Like I'm speaking of this like I'm asking your questions,
Speaker 3: but like I think I'm also asking myself these questions
Speaker 3: one hundred percent. I'm a fucking mass bitch, like.
Speaker 2: Kidding me, Like I act like you've got it all together.
Speaker 1: We don't know, but that you don't need to. I
Speaker 1: don't need to either. We're figuring out nice, you know. Yeah,
Speaker 1: it would be nice. Twenty three year old has their
Speaker 1: whole fucking life put together. Yeah, true, And anyone that
Speaker 1: does doesn't, and they just want people on line to
Speaker 1: think they do.
Speaker 3: Yeah, But like when it comes to like when you're saying,
Speaker 3: like having a partner, it would be so nice to
Speaker 3: experience life together. But I'm so hyper independent that I
Speaker 3: couldn't imagine someone in my life, Like I could not
Speaker 3: imagine having a partner, Like what you mean you like
Speaker 3: cook meat dinner, and like.
Speaker 1: You mean that I have to share a bed every now, Yeah,
Speaker 1: because my cat's on the end of it.
Speaker 2: Yeah, Like my cat joins me in the shower.
Speaker 1: Really he loves it.
Speaker 2: Cat's hate water, No, he loves it.
Speaker 1: But yeah, we're just we're figuring it out. We're lost,
Speaker 1: and I wish I had answers, and like I feel
Speaker 1: like I want that now, and I want that for
Speaker 1: the guy. I don't want to not be able to.
Speaker 3: I think you're also putting these feelings first though I
Speaker 3: don't know what my feelings are.
Speaker 2: Exactly, and you're putting it.
Speaker 3: You're putting stress in yourself to have that figured out
Speaker 3: because you're thinking about him. But just like think about you.
Speaker 1: And he's right, Like he gives me the grace and
Speaker 1: the time to like figure it out. He's not like
Speaker 1: pushing anything. I just I like knowing how I feel,
Speaker 1: and like when I don't, I don't. I don't like it.
Speaker 2: You know anyway, maybe journdle it out. I can't write
Speaker 2: type it out on notes.
Speaker 1: I don't like doing that. Either I spell everything wrong.
Speaker 1: Just think about it. Okay, I'll think about it where
Speaker 1: I go to bed. But like then it's like I
Speaker 1: try and get out of my head or you know me,
Speaker 1: I'm someone that's never in my own brain. I'm watching
Speaker 1: TV when I'm fucking on the toilet. I'm watching TV
Speaker 1: while i'm doing my makeup. I'm listening to a podcast
Speaker 1: while I'm trying to go to sleep. I never allow
Speaker 1: myself to.
Speaker 3: Actually, maybe you need to go on a walk and
Speaker 3: you need to listen to Doma's podcast that we listen
Speaker 3: to again because you sat in that podcast room and
Speaker 3: you were really inspired once you walked out. Maybe you
Speaker 3: need to listen back on your old self and take
Speaker 3: some of the stuff that she said to us.
Speaker 1: Yeah, but then I have to listen to my own voice.
Speaker 4: Okay, well just she has her own podcasts.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I listen to dom dom Alissa.
Speaker 2: I'll fave yeah beautiful or even mel Robbins.
Speaker 1: Yeah true, Well maybe she just listen there nothing or.
Speaker 2: Do you fucking mind? She's really good.
Speaker 1: Okay, Okay, stuff helps, Yeah, thank you to walk?
Speaker 3: So I listen to like how someone got on a walk. Well,
Speaker 3: just like don't listen to crime. Then, like while you're
Speaker 3: cooking dinner, don't watch friends. Listen to something that's gonna
Speaker 3: benefit you.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I could do that. She won't. She won't. I'm
Speaker 1: not going to. I'll do when I walk. But like
Speaker 1: I enjoy my little routines. Okay, guys, that.
Speaker 2: Was we're figuring it out. We'll check back in and.
Speaker 3: We'll see you next week where hopefully something got more answers.
Speaker 2: But right now, right now, weird limbo phase.
Speaker 1: We're both in a funny little phase. Right now, I
Speaker 1: feel like I'm floating. I'm figuring it out. I saw
Speaker 1: that's a song my feet on on the ground. If
Speaker 1: we can't touch the girl, I don't know. Okay, we
Speaker 1: love