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Speaker 1: Good team. It's Harps Today. I want to talk to

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Speaker 1: you about overthinking the propensity we have to overthink things,

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Speaker 1: to keep ourselves awake at night, to not do things

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Speaker 1: that we should do because we're overthinking it, to overthink

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Speaker 1: and underdo and underperform and cripple ourselves with fear and

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Speaker 1: anxiety and self doubt and imposter syndrome. Because we are

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Speaker 1: scared of something. We are scared of failing sometimes, we

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Speaker 1: are scared of fucking up. We are scared of looking silly.

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Speaker 1: We are scared of not belonging or being loved or

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Speaker 1: valued or respected or heard. We are scared of pain

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Speaker 1: and discomfort and messiness and uncertainty. And so we just

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Speaker 1: stand on the sidelines and do nothing, the metaphoric sidelines

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Speaker 1: and do nothing. So what I don't have day is

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Speaker 1: a three step solution. Because we are all different, there

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Speaker 1: is no for virtually anything in life. There are very

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Speaker 1: few three step solutions to any problem, challenge, sickness issue

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Speaker 1: that works universally as effectively for everyone. So rather than

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Speaker 1: give you a solution, I might give you some thoughts

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Speaker 1: and ideas around it. But I want to talk to

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Speaker 1: you about why we do it. And I think if

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Speaker 1: we can understand why we do it, how we do

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Speaker 1: it when we're most likely to do it, then we

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Speaker 1: can figure out, perhaps for ourselves, a strategy or a

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Speaker 1: path that we can take that might turn down the

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Speaker 1: volume or eliminate or reduce the analysis paralysis that we

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Speaker 1: have going on. So I have been an overthinker. I've

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Speaker 1: spent a lot of my especially younger life, not longer life,

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Speaker 1: as I almost my younger life overthinking things because because

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Speaker 1: I was scared, let's just be absolutely transparent and honest,

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Speaker 1: I was scared of not being good enough, and then

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Speaker 1: by not being good enough, other people would know that

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Speaker 1: I wasn't good enough, that I wasn't you know what

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Speaker 1: one of my big fears was for a very long time.

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Speaker 1: I don't even know that I've ever said this out loud.

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Speaker 1: And this really stopped me. This really stopped me from

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Speaker 1: doing a lot of things. And I spent a great

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Speaker 1: deal of time overthinking, over analyzing things because I thought

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Speaker 1: this sounds weird. It's true. I had a deep seated

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Speaker 1: belief that I wasn't very smart. And I don't really

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Speaker 1: even know from where that came, but I just thought

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Speaker 1: I wasn't smart and I thought that if I said something,

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Speaker 1: or if I made certain decisions or I took certain action,

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Speaker 1: that people would know, that people would discover because I

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Speaker 1: felt like, for a long time I was getting away

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Speaker 1: with it. And you know, there are still times when

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Speaker 1: I feel that, and I'm a bit self deprecating in

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Speaker 1: some of the shows and all of that, but I

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Speaker 1: genuinely feel at times not smart enough. But there was

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Speaker 1: a long period of my life, I would say, until

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Speaker 1: my mid thirties, where I genuinely thought I was relatively

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Speaker 1: away with it and people hadn't figured out how stupid

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Speaker 1: I was. And so part of that that fear, that

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Speaker 1: self doubt, that self loathing, that lack of self belief

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Speaker 1: that led me to over analyze and overthink so many

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Speaker 1: that I didn't do. Opportunities I could have taken or

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Speaker 1: could have created, and results I could have produced I didn't.

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Speaker 1: Because I overthought everything. I created my own form of psychological, emotional,

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Speaker 1: and behavioral paralysis. I overthought the shit out of everything.

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Speaker 1: So I think there are a couple of things to

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Speaker 1: like what can I do and what can't I do?

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Speaker 1: Or perhaps a better question is what's in my control

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Speaker 1: and what's not in my control? And we spend a

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Speaker 1: like I'm not good enough. If I do this, they

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Speaker 1: by the way, of course, some people are going to

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Speaker 1: shit at, and some things you will fail at, and

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Speaker 1: sometimes you will look silly, and sometimes you will get embarrassed,

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Speaker 1: as will I, as have I many times. But in

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Speaker 1: order to at least create some kind of progress in

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Speaker 1: this space of overthinking and turning down the volume on it,

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Speaker 1: a little part of that is being mature enough and

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Speaker 1: it might not be a positive outcome, and that's okay,

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Speaker 1: and not just say that, but be true in that

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Speaker 1: when I do allow myself to be vulnerable and get uncomfortable,

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Speaker 1: I learn about me. In the middle of that, I

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Speaker 1: developed skill and knowledge and understanding and awareness and competence

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Speaker 1: and resilience. And it's not until we step into our fears,

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Speaker 1: or face our fears, or lean in a little bit

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Speaker 1: that quite often the volume goes down on the overthinking.

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Speaker 1: So overthinking is generally about fear. What is the fear?

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Speaker 1: What am I afraid of? I was very afraid for

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Speaker 1: a very long time of all of those things that

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Speaker 1: being embarrassed, being a failure, what people. I was very

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Speaker 1: and nobody did this to me. This was just a

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Speaker 1: byproduct of things. And I don't blame anyone, and I'm

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Speaker 1: not mad at anyone, but one of the byproducts of

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Speaker 1: didn't feel all of those things. Now, the truth was

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Speaker 1: that I probably was enough. But being enough and believing

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Speaker 1: us is not to find some magic switch to turn

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Speaker 1: off the overthinking, but to rather understand ourselves and understand

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Speaker 1: our overthinking. What is the source of this cognitive mayhem?

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Speaker 1: Why is it so busy in my head? What am

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Speaker 1: I really really scared of. I'm scared of failure. I'm

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Speaker 1: scared of rejection. I'm scared of having no money. I'm

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Speaker 1: scared of being uncomfortable or embarrassment or uncertainty, your unfamiliarity.

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Speaker 1: What if I took that chance? What if I just

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Speaker 1: addressed all of this with courage? What if I went, well, yeah,

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Speaker 1: all of those things could be happed, could happen, But nonetheless,

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Speaker 1: I'm going to make a decision. I'm going to step forward.

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Speaker 1: I'm going to step up, not down. I'm going to

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Speaker 1: take a chance. I'm going to lean in, and quite often,

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Speaker 1: if not most of the time, what happens is that

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Speaker 1: thing that we were terrified of proves to be false.

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Speaker 1: It proves to be something that we didn't need to

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Speaker 1: we didn't think we could do. We do it, or

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Speaker 1: we do a version of it. We build confidence, skill, resilience,

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Speaker 1: and now we're overthinking less. Do I ever think it

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Speaker 1: disappears for most of us. No, I think it's part

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Speaker 1: of the human condition. I mean, thinking a lot is

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Speaker 1: not the same as overthinking thinking a lot and and

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Speaker 1: from that kind of epicenter of us, which is our mind.

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Speaker 1: That's very normal. I'm talking in this conversation about the overthinking,

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Speaker 1: that destructive overthinking that can derail our power, possibilities and potential.

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Speaker 1: Let's take a quick break and we'll come back and

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Speaker 1: wrap up. All right, we're back. So I don't know

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Speaker 1: how good that was today. I'm overthinking how good that was.

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Speaker 1: I don't think it was brilliant, but I'm opening the door.

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Speaker 1: I could almost press the delete button on this episode,

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Speaker 1: but I'm not going to. I'm not going to. I'm

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Speaker 1: not going to give in to that fear. It's funny

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Speaker 1: that I have been overthinking this conversation about overthinking with you,

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Speaker 1: about how I might share it articulated, because I don't

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Speaker 1: have an answer, you know what I mean. I like

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Speaker 1: in inverted commas. I don't have and I've thoughts and ideas.

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Speaker 1: So in terms of opening the door and moving forward

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Speaker 1: turning on being less controlled by fear and being less

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Speaker 1: of a chronic overthinker, my questions for you are these. One,

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Speaker 1: what fear is at the core of your overthinking? It

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Speaker 1: might be many things, but I think there might be

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Speaker 1: a consistent, reoccurring theme for many people. It's the fear

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Speaker 1: of discomfort, whether that's physical, mental, emotional, social, or financial discomfort.

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Speaker 1: But what fear is at the core of your overthinking?

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Speaker 1: And also question two, I'm not even charging you for

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Speaker 1: this second question. I'm chucking it in. Fuck it. It's

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Speaker 1: how I roll. Question two is what am I currently

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Speaker 1: wasting energy on? What am I obsessing over? What am

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Speaker 1: I overthinking? What am I focusing on? Because where your

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Speaker 1: mind is, your emotion, where your emotions are, your body is,

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Speaker 1: and where all of that is, you are. What am

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Speaker 1: I currently wasting energy on that I need to let

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Speaker 1: go of. I'm going to overthink this episode for the

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Speaker 1: next day, so yeah,