WEBVTT - A Naked Mole Rat, Asses Out & Acting Advice

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<v Speaker 1>Welcome to first things First, I'm blurt. My pronouns are

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<v Speaker 1>sheet and heart.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm Maddie meals. My pronouns are he and him. And

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<v Speaker 2>before we get started, we'd like to acknowledge the custodians

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<v Speaker 2>of the land on which we record. And for me

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<v Speaker 2>that's the gatigl people of the.

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<v Speaker 1>Urination, and for me it's the roundry people of the

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<v Speaker 1>cooler nation.

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<v Speaker 2>Let's get into it.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm done with feelings. Can I not have them? Can

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<v Speaker 1>I not? Please? I just don't want them anymore.

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<v Speaker 2>Let's talk about it. Okay, what are you currently feeling?

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<v Speaker 1>This year has possibly been the hardest year of my life.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm like, not even exaggerating, catastrophizing or being over dramatic, Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>this year has actually been the hardest year of my

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<v Speaker 1>life emotionally, mentally, physically, and spiritually. Like it's been so hard,

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<v Speaker 1>Like I have dug so far into muddy waters into

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<v Speaker 1>my soul, and I feel like I don't know if

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<v Speaker 1>it's clearing. I don't I feel like a clearness. I

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<v Speaker 1>feel heavy, and I feel yucky, and I feel muddy,

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<v Speaker 1>and I'm like, what is this feeling? And I've felt

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<v Speaker 1>it like this whole year because obviously I've been in it,

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<v Speaker 1>and I'm just like, when is it going to go away?

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<v Speaker 2>Okay?

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<v Speaker 1>Hard? I know, And I had a reality check because

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<v Speaker 1>it's like.

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<v Speaker 2>When you say that, I think to myself, You've been

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<v Speaker 2>through a lot, right, and if this is the year

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<v Speaker 2>that is the hardest, you must be fucking going through

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<v Speaker 2>it mentally.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, Like every day is a struggle. And if I

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<v Speaker 1>don't have routine and structure, I honestly wouldn't get out

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<v Speaker 1>of it. If I didn't have things that I needed

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<v Speaker 1>to get to, Like, if I didn't have commitments like

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<v Speaker 1>school and the podcast and work, I would honestly be

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<v Speaker 1>in bed.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, that's tough. That's an indicator that you know, things

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<v Speaker 2>are getting heavy for you, you know.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I feel it.

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<v Speaker 2>How's therapy going? Is it helping?

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<v Speaker 1>Honestly? Like, today was probably one of the hardest moments

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<v Speaker 1>in therapy that I've had since doing it. I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, the early stages when you start talking to someone,

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<v Speaker 1>you do surface those emotions, you know, quite I don't

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<v Speaker 1>know how you felt with yours, but you know, I

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<v Speaker 1>feel like once you open the can of worms, it's

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<v Speaker 1>hard to close it.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh, you know what I'm scared of opening the can

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<v Speaker 2>of worms.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, fucking don't do it doesn't happen.

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<v Speaker 2>It doesn't happen for me often because I was in

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<v Speaker 2>therapy for months and months and I didn't cry, So

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<v Speaker 2>I feel like I had that. Well, I don't know.

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<v Speaker 2>I think you know, the grass is always greener. It's

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<v Speaker 2>like for me, I wish that I could open up

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<v Speaker 2>in a way that is a release, and it's really

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<v Speaker 2>hard for me to do that. I think I'm quite

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<v Speaker 2>bottled up still even after all the work. So for

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<v Speaker 2>you to be able to let it out, there must

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<v Speaker 2>be some sort of release that you feel or not.

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<v Speaker 1>Really there's yeah, there's releases, but they're so fatiguing as well.

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<v Speaker 1>Like today, I feel like fucking cooked.

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<v Speaker 2>I thought you just said fuockdor.

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<v Speaker 1>I feel cooked. No, Honestly, I don't know how people

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<v Speaker 1>do it. I don't. I'm putting in the work. I

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<v Speaker 1>know it's an investment into myself, and I know that

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<v Speaker 1>I start my week off. You know, I'm like, I'm

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<v Speaker 1>the one running into the fire, as they say that

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<v Speaker 1>as an actor, but I feel like I'm also just

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<v Speaker 1>doing that as brook, like constantly just running into the

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<v Speaker 1>fire and being like and dealing with the consequences, but

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<v Speaker 1>the consequences are really like tormentedive right now, Like they're

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<v Speaker 1>really tormenting me. This year has been so weird. Like obviously,

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<v Speaker 1>I feel feel so liberated in the things that I've

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<v Speaker 1>been able to achieve, like perform and go on stage

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<v Speaker 1>and break down this anxiety and this and you know,

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<v Speaker 1>shed some shame. But at the same time, yeah, you're

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<v Speaker 1>sort of living in this like mucky yucky uncovering, challenging,

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<v Speaker 1>unlearning kind of phase and it just feels so fucking exhausting.

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<v Speaker 1>And I feel like, you know, normally I'm a really

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<v Speaker 1>soft person, you know this, Like I'm, like you said,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm so soft, like a little marshmallow, like you know,

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<v Speaker 1>and I don't want to ever lose that. But there

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<v Speaker 1>is some part of me that's like, fuck, I just don't.

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<v Speaker 1>I just want to hard put the walls up. I

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<v Speaker 1>don't want to deal with some stuff right now. And

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<v Speaker 1>I'm like, nah, I can't, like.

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<v Speaker 3>You know, and testament to you every time I do that, Yeah,

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<v Speaker 3>every time I like want to do that, like put

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<v Speaker 3>the walls up, I again be like, no, this is

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<v Speaker 3>what you're meant to you know, You're meant to be

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<v Speaker 3>not doing that, you know, like I challenge it and

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<v Speaker 3>then I lay myself bare and I'm you know, raw,

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<v Speaker 3>I mean my raw.

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<v Speaker 1>I feel like I'm in my raw rest form. That's

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<v Speaker 1>probably what it is. I'm in my row rest mom.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm like shed everything that I'm practically a naked bole rat.

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<v Speaker 2>Well I think pretty one at that. But what I

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<v Speaker 2>will say, Look, if you think about the year that

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<v Speaker 2>you've had and you say it's been a really tough year,

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<v Speaker 2>I think it's been a different year for you. You've gone

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<v Speaker 2>into an institution, You've gone into a really strict schedule

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<v Speaker 2>with like learning, you know, and through that learning as acting,

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<v Speaker 2>you're uncovering parts of yourself. So it's like as much

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<v Speaker 2>as this is like a growth period for you and

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<v Speaker 2>it's like tough, I think that acting can be grueling

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<v Speaker 2>in a sense that you have to sometimes face in

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<v Speaker 2>emotional parts of yourself because that's what you need to

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<v Speaker 2>bring to the work. So it's like you're doing that

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<v Speaker 2>so often and in the.

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<v Speaker 1>Paper every day, like literally every day.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, and you had such a strict routine with something

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<v Speaker 2>like an education journey or like an institution, it's been

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<v Speaker 2>a while, Yeah, not until.

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<v Speaker 1>Like since UNI or you know, working on nine to

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<v Speaker 1>five when I was playing footy, like back to back, Like, yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>I thrive in in routine. Yeah, but it has Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>you're right, it has been a while since I've been that,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, hard strict Monday to Friday.

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<v Speaker 2>Like freelancing and having this sort of freedom of being

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<v Speaker 2>able to create your own work and be your own boss.

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<v Speaker 2>And then you go into a rigid, you know, structure

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<v Speaker 2>and you're putting your body through that every day. It's

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<v Speaker 2>like that's a big shift and a big change and

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<v Speaker 2>it's not something that you get used to so quickly.

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<v Speaker 2>So it's like maybe just understanding your environment has changed

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<v Speaker 2>a lot. Yeah, you know, and you're and you're coming

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<v Speaker 2>up against it. So it's like I think it's normal

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<v Speaker 2>and this is temporary. It's not going to be forever.

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<v Speaker 1>That's what my you know, I keep convincing myself too,

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<v Speaker 1>and you're so right, like this is you know, I'll

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<v Speaker 1>be away in Sydney, will have the good time, the

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<v Speaker 1>best time when I'm filming the movie. When the movie

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<v Speaker 1>is done, i'll graduate Howard and you know I'll have

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<v Speaker 1>then a break. Yeah, I don't know, but it's like

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<v Speaker 1>the next three months are going to be so gun ho,

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<v Speaker 1>and I'm I think you do want to think it is?

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<v Speaker 1>I'm actually fucking terrified that I'm going to be really

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<v Speaker 1>shit in this movie or this film. Sorry, I feel

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<v Speaker 1>like I'm just gonna be so shit.

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<v Speaker 2>Do you know you want to know something? Every single person,

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<v Speaker 2>let me tell you. I've worked with the fucking A listers.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm talking Austin Butler, Tom Hanks. We had conversations in

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<v Speaker 2>the sound stage once where it's like, does that doubt

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<v Speaker 2>ever go away? And it never does because in your

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<v Speaker 2>mind everything is revolving around you, right as a character

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<v Speaker 2>in a film or on set. The reality is is

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<v Speaker 2>that everything that is revolving around you is supporting you.

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<v Speaker 2>So you've got so many elements to this puzzle that

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<v Speaker 2>are like lifting you up. It's not you going in

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<v Speaker 2>and trying to make something amazing. It is you going

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<v Speaker 2>in and enhancing something or creating, you know, a moment

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<v Speaker 2>with all these resources, all these people who make it

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<v Speaker 2>great because that's their job to do it. I'm talking lighting,

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<v Speaker 2>I'm talking directors, you know, makeup artists.

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<v Speaker 1>And just saying that actually made me just feel like,

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<v Speaker 1>oh yeah.

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<v Speaker 2>Well, you know what you have to see as you're

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<v Speaker 2>a small piece of this puzzle and everyone else is

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<v Speaker 2>having the exact same feeling. But when it comes together,

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<v Speaker 2>you'll be so surprised. You will see something back and

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<v Speaker 2>you'll be like, fuck, that is not how I saw

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<v Speaker 2>this world. You know, it's because all the elements that

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<v Speaker 2>make film and TV so great are supporting you. You know,

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<v Speaker 2>it's not your shooting the scene in your lound room

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<v Speaker 2>and criticizing yourself watching it back, it's like the worst

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<v Speaker 2>it is with the support of everyone, and everyone in

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<v Speaker 2>that in that place is going through the same thing.

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<v Speaker 2>The person who's doing your makeup is thinking, fuck, am

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<v Speaker 2>I doing the right thing? Am I portraying this character

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<v Speaker 2>the right way? You know? The director is thinking what

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<v Speaker 2>the fuck am I doing?

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<v Speaker 3>God?

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<v Speaker 1>I sound like an absolute fucking narcissist, isn't.

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<v Speaker 2>No, no, no, no. Everyone everyone is that. Everyone is

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<v Speaker 2>going through it. So it's like you're not alone in that.

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<v Speaker 1>I love you see a little manny online It's yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>it is because I care as well. Like if I

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<v Speaker 1>don't care, I'll be fucking don't do the industry get.

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<v Speaker 2>Out and you know what. The best advice that actors

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<v Speaker 2>can be given is don't be afraid to be ugly,

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<v Speaker 2>and I struggle.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm agree every day whatever, I don't care.

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<v Speaker 2>What doesn't mean looking bad, It means going to places

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<v Speaker 2>that you think is awkward or yeah. And what I

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<v Speaker 2>would say is, if you're in the space and they

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<v Speaker 2>say to you, like if you walk into a space

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<v Speaker 2>and you want it and you're about to do a scene,

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<v Speaker 2>and if they give you the opportunity to do it

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<v Speaker 2>the way that you want to do it, and they say,

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<v Speaker 2>do it first, give them everything that you've been doing

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<v Speaker 2>in behind the closed doors at home, you know what

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<v Speaker 2>I mean, Like, give them how you would do it,

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<v Speaker 2>and not think what do they want? Think about what

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<v Speaker 2>you want, and then they will come in and go, great,

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<v Speaker 2>thank you so much for showing us. That will change

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<v Speaker 2>it if we want to, you know what I mean.

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<v Speaker 2>But like show them what you have seen in your

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<v Speaker 2>head already, because that's what you're most connected to at

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<v Speaker 2>that point. So it's like the best advice I've been

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<v Speaker 2>given is when you know, Shari Sevans once told me

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<v Speaker 2>she's like, now fuck it up, and that gave me

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<v Speaker 2>permission to do so something that was like outside of

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<v Speaker 2>the box, and we ended up going with it. We

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<v Speaker 2>ended up going with that take.

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<v Speaker 1>Something just popped up in my head just now and

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<v Speaker 1>I was like, of all the industries that I've chosen

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<v Speaker 1>in life, I have chosen the one that the thing

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<v Speaker 1>that I hate the most, which is rejection. Because yeah, right,

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<v Speaker 1>an activity get constantly rejected on social media, you get rejected.

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<v Speaker 1>People don't like you, they don't like you whatever. They'll

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<v Speaker 1>let you know. Yeah, I work with kids. They often

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<v Speaker 1>will fucking reject you.

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<v Speaker 2>They tell you exactly how they feel, right, they see

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<v Speaker 2>a wound in their like salt here we go, like.

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<v Speaker 1>You men make up today?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, it's like, yes, i am your little fuck up.

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<v Speaker 1>And also I've chosen to go fucking and dating I

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<v Speaker 1>guess dating shows and reality TV, and that's like the

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<v Speaker 1>biggest rejection before. Oh what, and I'm a Capricorn for

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<v Speaker 1>Fox's sake, we don't deal with rejection. Well, I have

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<v Speaker 1>a mess.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah. I think it comes down to a little bit

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<v Speaker 2>of like accepting that that's a part of it. And

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<v Speaker 2>you have obviously because this is what you chose to do.

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<v Speaker 2>So it's like I think that, like rejection is so important.

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<v Speaker 2>Rejection is realignment.

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<v Speaker 1>Character building, Yeah, character building realignment redirection, yep.

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<v Speaker 2>Because if everyone accepted us, we'd end up in some

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<v Speaker 2>dodgy places, you know what I mean. Like if everyone

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<v Speaker 2>was like yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, we would be

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<v Speaker 2>in places that we are just not meant to be

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<v Speaker 2>and we'd probably be fucked up. So like, let's look

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<v Speaker 2>at the positives. Let's look at the positives. When people

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<v Speaker 2>say no. I was going to do the Michelle Obama.

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<v Speaker 2>When people go low, we go high. When people say no,

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<v Speaker 2>we say thank you. But yeah, I just feel like

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<v Speaker 2>rejection is it's hard to take in the initial moments,

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<v Speaker 2>but friends and I just got like, basically I thought

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<v Speaker 2>I had this role recently recent example of rejection. I

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<v Speaker 2>thought I had this role. And the conversations that were

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<v Speaker 2>happening were like, keep the dates, Okay, you've made it

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<v Speaker 2>to the top two. The director just wants to see

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<v Speaker 2>one more person. Yeah, And I was like on top

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<v Speaker 2>of this world, thinking, oh, I've got this, I can

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<v Speaker 2>see it, I know exactly where I'm like this is

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<v Speaker 2>going to happen. And then I got the email saying sorry,

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<v Speaker 2>they've decided to go in the other direction and they'll

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<v Speaker 2>think of you for something else down the track. And

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<v Speaker 2>how I thought that would hit me. Wasn't how it

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<v Speaker 2>hit me. I literally looked at it, okay, put the

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<v Speaker 2>phone down, and went on with my day. So that

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<v Speaker 2>does come a point where you're like, huh oh, okay,

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<v Speaker 2>that's all right. I know that that wasn't meant for me.

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<v Speaker 2>And then I think about it now, and I was thinking,

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<v Speaker 2>it's so funny you say, like we're talking about this,

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<v Speaker 2>because on the way in, I was thinking about if

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<v Speaker 2>I got that role, how much drama and how much

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<v Speaker 2>like negativity surrounded that role in terms of the storyline,

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<v Speaker 2>and how much like negative negativity that I would be

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<v Speaker 2>living in every day shooting. Yeah, you become grateful when

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<v Speaker 2>you have hindsight as well, so like rejection is a

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<v Speaker 2>part of it, and yeah, you just got to accept

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<v Speaker 2>that one.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm done with this year, guys, I'm really done with

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<v Speaker 1>this year. So can we wrap it up? Can we

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<v Speaker 1>wrap this motherfucking year up?

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<v Speaker 2>Well, you've got a really exciting time ahead. Let's see

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<v Speaker 2>it as you're gonna smash it. And if you need

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<v Speaker 2>any help, call me. I will be your little hype

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<v Speaker 2>man and we'll get you to the level that you

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<v Speaker 2>just walk in there and fucking smash it.

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<v Speaker 1>I just need some color too, gray.

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<v Speaker 2>Get out in the sun.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm so gray. So what.

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<v Speaker 2>I mean, I'm like, I reckon, Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>Moment my mom said that I'm gray, Like I did

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<v Speaker 1>a FaceTime chat and Troy goes, you need some color.

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<v Speaker 2>Well, it's just it's just the end of winter, like

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<v Speaker 2>not like we live on the West Coast, you know

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<v Speaker 2>what I mean. But I would say, when you're in Sydney,

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<v Speaker 2>get out in the sun.

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<v Speaker 1>You going to turn my asshole.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm gonna neude peach.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna moon that sun so hard.

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<v Speaker 2>Speaking of asses, and my ass is out on my Instagram?

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<v Speaker 2>What do you think? Oh?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I did say that, you little peach, your little

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<v Speaker 1>perky peach.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh yeah, it's little, it's beautiful.

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<v Speaker 1>Did I say little? I did say little?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 1>Big?

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<v Speaker 2>But I do you think it's too risky that content

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<v Speaker 2>or it's okay? No?

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<v Speaker 1>Fuck it up?

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<v Speaker 2>Seriously. I'm like in my head, I'm like, oh, I'm

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<v Speaker 2>so sick.

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<v Speaker 1>Of Oh you didn't get a job because your ass

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<v Speaker 1>is out? Fuck it. Yeah, I've uploaded a naughty little

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<v Speaker 1>lingerie photo. You saw that.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I was a bit spicy, and I think, like,

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<v Speaker 2>I'm so done of trying to appeal to Sunrise in

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<v Speaker 2>the Today Show, like I'm not a forty five year old.

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<v Speaker 1>Man, like I agree might live my life. I'm a

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<v Speaker 1>little bit the same because I'm always like, oh well,

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<v Speaker 1>I go into politics later. I probably will, but you

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<v Speaker 1>know what, enough time will go by and I'll forget

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<v Speaker 1>about it. Everyone forgets they bring it up.

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<v Speaker 2>I'll be really proud of my young, perky ass.

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<v Speaker 1>Same like you're just jealous because you're as sag you

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<v Speaker 1>are saggy, You're just jealous. I love this saying like

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<v Speaker 1>they're mindful, like.

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<v Speaker 2>Very mindful, very perky.

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<v Speaker 1>I got interviewed at Oscar on Friday Night, right, and

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<v Speaker 1>they're like, what do you think of the ballet? Like

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<v Speaker 1>taking on something like Oscar that's like a queer story

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<v Speaker 1>around Oscar Wilde he was writer. Anyways, os Ballet is

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<v Speaker 1>obviously quite conservative, but like queenness exists exists in the

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<v Speaker 1>os Ballet for years, like guys are tights like.

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<v Speaker 2>Across the stage.

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<v Speaker 1>Exactly like what the fuck? And then so they will

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<v Speaker 1>trying to make it as if like the os Ballet

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<v Speaker 1>were like yeah, like very revolutionary. And I was like

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<v Speaker 1>they asked me the question and I was like, yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>like we need more queer stories. But I mean queenness

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<v Speaker 1>has existed in oz ballet, like I trying to make

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<v Speaker 1>it out. Anyways, They were like, what do you think

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<v Speaker 1>of the ballet? Like this is my first time. I

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<v Speaker 1>was like, very mindful, very demure, so like, if that

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<v Speaker 1>gets reposted, yeah.

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<v Speaker 2>It's good. That is good something. Yes, if you were

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<v Speaker 2>to rap about this year, okay, what would you wrap be?

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<v Speaker 1>Twenty twenty four? So poor? Oh I'm gonna say yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>I was gonna say something else. I was like, I've

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<v Speaker 1>been a bit of a whrror. No, I have been

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<v Speaker 1>My god, I also need to give you up. I

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<v Speaker 1>wasn't me on the floor, give me some more.

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<v Speaker 2>And then I closed the door and said we're over.

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<v Speaker 1>Thank you so much for listeners this dumb ass episode.

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<v Speaker 1>So you know what, guys, thank you so much for

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<v Speaker 1>listening to my ship. Every week. I am going through it,

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<v Speaker 1>you know what. And it goes to show that as

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<v Speaker 1>much as fucking people might look glamorous on the outside,

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<v Speaker 1>it's not like that. It's not like that. It's it's like,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, that little duck that's gliding along with the

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<v Speaker 1>water underneath, and the little legs are going. That is

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<v Speaker 1>literally me. That is me. I'm running like a little

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<v Speaker 1>fucking duck. I'm just so thank you so much for

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<v Speaker 1>sticking it without sticking it with us. Thank you so

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<v Speaker 1>much for sticking it out with us.

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<v Speaker 2>It really appreciate you.

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<v Speaker 1>Stick Yeah yeah, yeah, very demure. Goodbye. Anyways, if you

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<v Speaker 1>love what you here, probably not leam. It's a rating

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<v Speaker 1>interview and if you want us to cover anything on

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<v Speaker 1>the pod, honestly, just reach out by our socials. Had

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<v Speaker 1>a beautiful message the other day someone emailed me, which

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<v Speaker 1>was quite nice. Go check it out on my socials.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, yeah, yeah, I love that. Brooks Handle is a

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<v Speaker 2>brooked up Blert minds at its muddy milk. Bye bye