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Speaker 1: Hello, good morning, good afternoon, good evening, good whatever time

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Speaker 1: it is for you, it's me. It's the You Project.

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Speaker 1: So yesterday, team, I was in the thriving metropolis of

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Speaker 1: Ballarats side note I was born in Ballarat, lived there

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Speaker 1: for the first two years of my life. Got to say,

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Speaker 1: can't remember a lot. Anyway, I was doing a gig

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Speaker 1: with Lara Secondary College. A bunch of kids and teachers,

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Speaker 1: the boys and girls, the young men and women about

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Speaker 1: to head into you while just starting year twelve, Day

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Speaker 1: one of Year twelve. Imagine day one of Year twelve.

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Speaker 1: Jumbo rocks up, Fatty Harps rocks up to talk to you,

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Speaker 1: to give you the lowdown on what's coming up in

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Speaker 1: the next world, the world's worst Year twelve student. How

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Speaker 1: ironic turning up to talk to a bunch of year

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Speaker 1: twelve students about how to navigate the next kind of

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Speaker 1: nine slash ten months of academ and personal survival. Anyway,

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Speaker 1: it was fun. They were good. Shout out to the team,

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Speaker 1: all the teachers and all the kids. They were fun.

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Speaker 1: You know what I love about what I love about

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Speaker 1: working with that age. They're not children, but they're not

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Speaker 1: really kind of adults. They're in that they've got kind

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Speaker 1: of one foot on each side of that line. And

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Speaker 1: they they are still at school, so they haven't begun work.

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Speaker 1: And you think they're either going to step out of

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Speaker 1: they're definitely stepping out of being a teenager, although they're

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Speaker 1: still a teenager at eighteen, aren't they, but out of

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Speaker 1: being a child technically to being an adult. And so

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Speaker 1: it's a whole new world. And I don't need to

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Speaker 1: tell you that, but you know, now you can drive,

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Speaker 1: and now you can vote, and now you can drink,

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Speaker 1: and although we don't want you to do all of

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Speaker 1: those things at the same time. But it was really

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Speaker 1: interesting to talk to them about, you know, talk to

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Speaker 1: them about a bunch of things, but interestingly, we open

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Speaker 1: the metacognition door, and I spoke to them about how

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Speaker 1: they think and why they think, and how they see

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Speaker 1: and why they think about themselves for better or worse

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Speaker 1: the way that they do, and the way that we

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Speaker 1: school away from school with family with friends, with work eventually,

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Speaker 1: and you know how the way that we think impacts

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Speaker 1: that for better or worse. And I was talking to

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Speaker 1: them a bit about self doubt and self limitation, and

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Speaker 1: I mentioned that, you know, there are times when so

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Speaker 1: even after thirty five years of being paid to speak

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Speaker 1: probably only really the last twenty years only I would

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Speaker 1: say that I've been somewhere between not terrible and recently

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Speaker 1: good at it. But you know, doing lots and lots

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Speaker 1: of that, and I've done I don't know how many

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Speaker 1: I've done, but in the thousands thousands of professional gigs

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Speaker 1: this year, i'll do around one hundred. I've already got

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Speaker 1: a lot of work book, which is great. But anyway,

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Speaker 1: that's not the point. The point is I was talking

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Speaker 1: how we think, like what is what do I think of?

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Speaker 1: What do I feel versus what is real? Like what's

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Speaker 1: I was telling him about even though I've done this

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Speaker 1: and evidence and data and feedback. I objectively know that

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Speaker 1: I'm quite good at my job. I don't think I'm

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Speaker 1: I get paid reasonly well, and I'm represented by quite

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Speaker 1: at the same time, I have this ability, as I'm

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Speaker 1: that I'm quite good at something while also feeling I'm

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Speaker 1: And today's going to be the day where that gets

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Speaker 1: my business and my income. Pretty soon I'm going to

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Speaker 1: be fucking broken. I'm gonna and so on. Now, that

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Speaker 1: might not be you, but it might be a version

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Speaker 1: my thoughts and my feelings have been you know, like

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Speaker 1: So I've always had when I say chronic self doubt,

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Speaker 1: But I've always had a low hum. There's always been

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Speaker 1: with some things, obviously, I've done many things that didn't

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Speaker 1: go great, and that didn't work. And from an outcome

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Speaker 1: But I've also done things that you know. I've written books,

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Speaker 1: a pretty good podcast, thanks to you for following and supporting.

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Speaker 1: I've built businesses. I've owned multiple gyms, I've employed hundreds

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Speaker 1: is despite all of those wins and all of those successes,

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Speaker 1: And it's this is and I'm sure so do you.

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Speaker 1: I'm sure that there have been times when, despite the

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Speaker 1: experience that wasn't great, but what it was what was

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Speaker 1: and I'm not an international male model, never will be,

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Speaker 1: and all of that, I'm in pretty good shape. Nonetheless,

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Speaker 1: So that's the evidence that the data. You know, I

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Speaker 1: now I know objectively that isn't true. Neither do I

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Speaker 1: By the way, if you haven't seen that, fucking hell,

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Speaker 1: go and have a look at Declan. Here's a unit

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Speaker 1: he's going to be. He might be the next big thing.

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Speaker 1: Great kid, nice young man, six ' five six ' five,

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Speaker 1: Good genetics. Anyway, we were chatting and we got a

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Speaker 1: And for a moment I could objectively, objectively realize that,

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Speaker 1: have to be scared to be brave. Can you do

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Speaker 1: amazing things despite the fact that you don't feel amazing?

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Speaker 1: Course you can. Can you create amazing outcomes and impact

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Speaker 1: the world or a few people, or make your own

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Speaker 1: life better and your mental and emotional health? Yeah you can.

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Speaker 1: You can. You know, perception is not potential, feelings are

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Speaker 1: not facts. And you, my friend, you've got way more

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Speaker 1: potential and way more possibilities than I think. Do you think?

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Speaker 1: See you next time?