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<v Speaker 1>Appod Shape Production. Welcome back to another episode of Am

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<v Speaker 1>I A Mad Mom?

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<v Speaker 2>Podcast?

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<v Speaker 1>It blows my mind when I think about when we

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<v Speaker 1>started this podcast, because now I've got sixteen year olds.

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<v Speaker 3>I sent some photos to you because you were like, hey,

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<v Speaker 3>have you got any recent pics of us? And I

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<v Speaker 3>then was like looking through the folder, and you know

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<v Speaker 3>when you go back through the folder, and then I

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<v Speaker 3>go to like, I think it was like the original

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<v Speaker 3>photo shoot that we did for this particular podcast, and

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<v Speaker 3>your girls were so small and mine were even smaller,

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<v Speaker 3>like Elsie was tiny on my sitting on my lap.

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<v Speaker 2>It was crazy. Yeah, now you got grown ups that

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<v Speaker 2>are taller than you. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, and what's funny is when you think about you

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<v Speaker 1>that age, because I'm like, wow, at that age, I

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<v Speaker 1>was practically an adult sixteen.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah. I look at your girls and they're doing stuff

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<v Speaker 3>as well like that, I go, stop growing up so fast,

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<v Speaker 3>like I always say to my girls, and go, you

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<v Speaker 3>don't want to grow up faster than you have to.

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<v Speaker 3>Trust me, being an adult is really not that much fun.

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<v Speaker 3>It's not And for everyone, just chill, just enjoy the

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<v Speaker 3>ride right now, because you've got it so goddamn easy.

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<v Speaker 2>You actually don't know how easy you got it.

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<v Speaker 3>But at the same time, they've got big emotions, they've

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<v Speaker 3>got big feelings, and I'm trying to be respectful to

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<v Speaker 3>that because what seems really small to me is so

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<v Speaker 3>big for them.

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<v Speaker 2>Do you know it's really interesting.

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<v Speaker 1>Someone said to me the other day that it is

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<v Speaker 1>an actual thing that teenagers. You think you're going to

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<v Speaker 1>get to teenagers and then not going to need you anymore.

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<v Speaker 1>He need you more than younger kids.

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<v Speaker 2>Well, yeah, I do say about a bit now. I go.

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<v Speaker 2>I actually thought life was really hard.

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<v Speaker 3>Like looking at that photo, I can imagine like my

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<v Speaker 3>thought process would have been, oh my gosh, I've got

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<v Speaker 3>two girls under six, Like this is hectic years, this

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<v Speaker 3>is so busy.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh my gosh, it's gonna be all different when they

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<v Speaker 2>go to school. Katie, I don't have a life. I

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<v Speaker 2>don't have a life.

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<v Speaker 3>All I do is drive those girls from pillar to

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<v Speaker 3>post and do everything that they need to be doing.

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<v Speaker 1>I would say that moms. I know, we wear a

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<v Speaker 1>lot of hats, and the two that the kids use

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<v Speaker 1>us for the most is bank manager.

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<v Speaker 2>Uber. Yes.

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<v Speaker 1>They call me or text me yeah for either money

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<v Speaker 1>yeah or picking them up yeah.

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<v Speaker 2>Not mum, how are you?

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<v Speaker 3>No?

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<v Speaker 2>Never? Never?

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<v Speaker 1>How is your day?

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<v Speaker 2>Ever? Am I a bad mum for not speaking up?

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<v Speaker 3>I hesitated about talking about this one, but I'm gonna

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<v Speaker 3>because there was a part of me, Katie that was

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<v Speaker 3>a little bit sad that I didn't speak up. Went

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<v Speaker 3>and took my girl to Grace Abrams.

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<v Speaker 2>Did I get that right? Yeah, she's sing a song.

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<v Speaker 2>She's just sing a songwriter. I only came out and COVID.

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<v Speaker 3>She's like literally made it happen since COVID, she said, yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>Her dad is a producer, Yeah, producer, yeah, jj Abrams.

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<v Speaker 3>Her music is beautiful though, and her voice is stunning,

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<v Speaker 3>but she's just naturally beautiful.

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<v Speaker 2>She's not all dolled up.

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<v Speaker 3>She's not trying to be anyone, you know what I mean.

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<v Speaker 3>Like that really came through with the way that she

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<v Speaker 3>was singing. Now, for my girls being ten and twelve,

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<v Speaker 3>it's quite refreshing to see this place was packed.

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<v Speaker 2>I thought of your girls and in that middle wash

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<v Speaker 2>they were all touching so closely. I was like, that

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<v Speaker 2>is not for me. The girls are yeah, your girls

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<v Speaker 2>are at the front. That was definitely not for me.

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<v Speaker 3>But we were on the side and we were sort

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<v Speaker 3>of closer to the front, so we had really good seats.

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<v Speaker 3>Right now, there's a back row behind me, and I

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<v Speaker 3>had two girls behind me. I sat on one end,

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<v Speaker 3>then there was Gracey, Evie Elsie, and then Christie was

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<v Speaker 3>on the other end.

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<v Speaker 2>But these two particular girls were right behind me. It

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<v Speaker 2>would have been no.

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<v Speaker 3>I'm going to say between twenty and twenty five. They're

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<v Speaker 3>obviously just hating on life. And you know when people

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<v Speaker 3>start to make comments that are loud enough and are

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<v Speaker 3>obnoxious enough to say, but like if I turned around

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<v Speaker 3>and said, he you talking to me directly, that they

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<v Speaker 3>would probably go, what are you talking about? There was

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<v Speaker 3>about four different parts of my brain working all at once,

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<v Speaker 3>and I was starting to like so she started off saying, like,

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<v Speaker 3>because the girls were yelling out to Gracie like the

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<v Speaker 3>rest of fucking boondle. She goes, I wish these kids

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<v Speaker 3>would just learn to shut the fuck up. And I

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<v Speaker 3>was thinking, Oh, my gosh, you're talking about us, the.

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<v Speaker 1>Kids excited to see a concert.

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<v Speaker 3>Right There was just constant comments coming out Katie, And

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<v Speaker 3>you know, I think you just know. The gut feeling goes,

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<v Speaker 3>I know you're talking about us and the girls were

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<v Speaker 3>yelling out to her.

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<v Speaker 2>Elsie at this particular one moment screens.

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<v Speaker 3>Out Gracie really love you, and Gracie turns and waves

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<v Speaker 3>like it was a direct moment where we all went

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<v Speaker 3>I think she just waved to you will. It got

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<v Speaker 3>worse after that. The girls behind me just kept on going.

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<v Speaker 3>She goes, I can't stand any of these irresponsible, fucking

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<v Speaker 3>parents bringing these kids to these concerts.

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<v Speaker 2>Going off Katie right like, I.

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<v Speaker 3>Had a full body response. It went from top to bottom.

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<v Speaker 3>So then in one time of my brain, I'm going,

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<v Speaker 3>don't say anything, Rachel, You're responsible mom. You've got your

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<v Speaker 3>kids sitting right next to you. Be a good example.

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<v Speaker 3>Like talking myself off the edge, I'm talking the other

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<v Speaker 3>side of my brain. Katie was from like that movie

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<v Speaker 3>Elemental the Fire, like the rage that just keeps raging,

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<v Speaker 3>Like it was flicking from one side of my brain

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<v Speaker 3>to the other. Don't turn around, Like at one stage,

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<v Speaker 3>I'm pretty sure in my head I was like, I'm

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<v Speaker 3>going to turn around, and I was almost picturing myself

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<v Speaker 3>turning around and like punching her in the head. That's

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<v Speaker 3>how much she'd pushed me over the edge because of

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<v Speaker 3>what she was saying about a my parenting and be

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<v Speaker 3>my children.

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<v Speaker 1>Why would you sit there and say it that loudly though?

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<v Speaker 2>Because she wanted me to hear.

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<v Speaker 3>And then when she went to my parenting and like

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<v Speaker 3>irresponsible fucking parents, and I was like, oh my gosh.

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<v Speaker 2>Look around you.

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<v Speaker 3>Look around you. This place is full of this demographic

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<v Speaker 3>full you. Yeah, you are the one that is a

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<v Speaker 3>minority right now. Look around us, Like there's little girls

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<v Speaker 3>like between ten and sixteen crying their eyes out.

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<v Speaker 2>Because I was so excited to be seeing her.

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<v Speaker 3>What was irresponsible because we hadn't taught this is what

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<v Speaker 3>she said word for word. These irresponsible parents haven't taught

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<v Speaker 3>these young kids that they've decided to bring any concert

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<v Speaker 3>etiquette constant etiquette. Oh interesting, all right, well do you

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<v Speaker 3>want to talk about concert etiquette and your potty mouth

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<v Speaker 3>in front of my children?

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<v Speaker 2>Where's your etiquette as a human being?

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<v Speaker 1>That's irresponsible.

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<v Speaker 3>I'd gone from rage. I went into calm down, you're

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<v Speaker 3>a mom, you're this. I could have ramped up completely

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<v Speaker 3>going the other way. I could have made an absolute

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<v Speaker 3>dick of myself, but I was just like, no, no, no, no,

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<v Speaker 3>stay in mum mode, Stay in.

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<v Speaker 2>Mummoes rise to the bay in mum mode.

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<v Speaker 3>You know how they say you can't bottle up your

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<v Speaker 3>emotions when you start to feel that, you have to

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<v Speaker 3>feel the feeling.

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<v Speaker 2>And then I started to just write it down. I

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<v Speaker 2>was so angry.

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<v Speaker 3>I was like putting in my phone and then all

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<v Speaker 3>of a sudden I sent it to Christy and was like,

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<v Speaker 3>if you see me turn around and brawl in a second,

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<v Speaker 3>can you just make sure I don't just pull me off, like,

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<v Speaker 3>don't let it happen. I'm at that edge. I'd say

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<v Speaker 3>I'm probably at ninety nine percentes. She turns to me,

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<v Speaker 3>but remember there's three kids between us, so she's now

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<v Speaker 3>face seeing them. She goes what She's like, who the

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<v Speaker 3>fuck's saying that like that? She's looking back at them,

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<v Speaker 3>and I was like, oh, oh.

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<v Speaker 2>That was wrong. I had that moment of going, should

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<v Speaker 2>I have just spoken up?

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<v Speaker 3>Should I have turned around and stuck up for my

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<v Speaker 3>kids and gone, excuse me, don't speak like that.

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<v Speaker 1>It would have been so interesting to know what would

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<v Speaker 1>have happened if you had just turned around and gone,

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<v Speaker 1>excuse me, you're talking about us? Yeah, And then I

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<v Speaker 1>guarantee she would have gone.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh no, I just wanted.

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<v Speaker 3>To turn around and then this is probably the sarcastic

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<v Speaker 3>part of me.

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<v Speaker 2>I wanted to turn around and just say to it.

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<v Speaker 2>Did you miss out on your childhood? Do you want

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<v Speaker 2>to talk about your childhood? Are you really sad? Going

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<v Speaker 2>on with you? What's up with you? Are you okay?

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<v Speaker 2>Was your ten year old girl self?

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<v Speaker 3>Like?

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<v Speaker 2>Is she feeling a little bit unloved right now?

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<v Speaker 3>Because we're a really good parent because we brought our

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<v Speaker 3>kids to this sort of stuff? Yeah?

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<v Speaker 2>What kind of trauma is this bringing up for you?

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<v Speaker 2>But I did it.

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<v Speaker 3>I did.

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<v Speaker 2>It's good for you. I didn't say anything.

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<v Speaker 3>But then for the next day and a half, I

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<v Speaker 3>was like, did you not stand up for your kids

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<v Speaker 3>because you didn't say anything?

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<v Speaker 1>Like, no, you didn't say anything because you didn't want

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<v Speaker 1>to call the scene. And I would actually say the

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<v Speaker 1>other way, you were being a good parent, that you

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<v Speaker 1>were ignoring it so that they could still enjoy the

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<v Speaker 1>experience because they probably didn't notice.

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<v Speaker 2>They didn't know a thing what she was oblivious.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, so you allowed them to enjoy the concerts and

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<v Speaker 1>have a great time.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I was responsible, Mum. You were responsible. Wasn't a

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<v Speaker 2>bad mum?

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<v Speaker 3>No, I wanted to be a bad I wanted to

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<v Speaker 3>really just.

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<v Speaker 2>I also would

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<v Speaker 1>Have quite enjoyed hearing about