1 00:00:05,921 --> 00:00:13,281 Speaker 1: Apoday production. We begin today by acknowledging the traditional custodians 2 00:00:13,281 --> 00:00:15,721 Speaker 1: of the land on which we gather today and pay 3 00:00:15,761 --> 00:00:18,961 Speaker 1: our respects to their elders past and present. We extend 4 00:00:19,001 --> 00:00:22,800 Speaker 1: that respect to Aboriginal and Torres Strait Islander people's here today. 5 00:00:25,041 --> 00:00:28,561 Speaker 1: Welcome to the Grow and Glow Podcast. I'm Ashy, I'm Kiara. 6 00:00:28,921 --> 00:00:31,241 Speaker 1: This is a podcast where we learn, laugh, and level 7 00:00:31,321 --> 00:00:34,441 Speaker 1: up together. Let's go deep, let the emotions flow, combine 8 00:00:34,481 --> 00:00:37,161 Speaker 1: the lessons to grow and Glow. Nothing is off the 9 00:00:37,161 --> 00:00:38,961 Speaker 1: table with Grow and Glow, and we're here to be 10 00:00:39,081 --> 00:00:43,081 Speaker 1: your expander. 11 00:00:43,881 --> 00:00:47,201 Speaker 2: Hello everybody, welcome back to Grow and Glow. We're back 12 00:00:47,241 --> 00:00:50,721 Speaker 2: in your ears. Hello, but today it's a little bit 13 00:00:50,760 --> 00:00:54,161 Speaker 2: different and it's some very bittersweet, but we've got a 14 00:00:54,200 --> 00:00:56,441 Speaker 2: big announcement to announce. 15 00:00:56,881 --> 00:00:59,961 Speaker 1: This is going to be my last time in your Ears. 16 00:01:00,001 --> 00:01:02,561 Speaker 2: Straight into it, just straight in. Yeah. 17 00:01:02,641 --> 00:01:04,321 Speaker 1: I mean, I don't feel like there's anyway to really, 18 00:01:04,401 --> 00:01:07,281 Speaker 1: you know, like in what this episode is about. And 19 00:01:07,321 --> 00:01:09,041 Speaker 1: I feel like I've had so much that I wanted 20 00:01:09,081 --> 00:01:11,521 Speaker 1: to say, and I didn't really know where to even start. 21 00:01:11,560 --> 00:01:13,841 Speaker 1: So I actually wrote something out so I thought it 22 00:01:13,840 --> 00:01:16,041 Speaker 1: would be nice to just read exactly what I've written 23 00:01:16,041 --> 00:01:18,640 Speaker 1: from my heart and kind of relate to everyone why 24 00:01:18,681 --> 00:01:22,360 Speaker 1: I've made this choice. And yeah, closing. 25 00:01:21,961 --> 00:01:24,321 Speaker 2: The chapter of Grow and Glow, I know, crazy doesn't 26 00:01:24,321 --> 00:01:26,720 Speaker 2: feel real, I know. Yeah, take it away. 27 00:01:26,840 --> 00:01:32,041 Speaker 1: Okay, Wow, what an episode. Goodbye Grow and Glow. Firstly, 28 00:01:32,041 --> 00:01:35,321 Speaker 1: I want to say this decision was something I wholeheartedly made. 29 00:01:35,761 --> 00:01:37,561 Speaker 1: I chose to leave Grow and Glow, and here's a 30 00:01:37,601 --> 00:01:40,761 Speaker 1: little rundown of why. When I first started my business 31 00:01:40,801 --> 00:01:42,920 Speaker 1: seven years ago, my favorite thing about it was that 32 00:01:43,000 --> 00:01:45,281 Speaker 1: I got to work around my family. I woke up 33 00:01:45,280 --> 00:01:47,561 Speaker 1: every morning at four am when Curdie left for plumbing, 34 00:01:47,961 --> 00:01:50,441 Speaker 1: worked until the kids woke up at seven am, worked 35 00:01:50,441 --> 00:01:52,241 Speaker 1: in their naps and when they went to bed, and 36 00:01:52,281 --> 00:01:54,481 Speaker 1: throughout the day. I really got the opportunity to soak 37 00:01:54,561 --> 00:01:56,921 Speaker 1: up every answer to them and always be there throughout 38 00:01:56,961 --> 00:02:00,121 Speaker 1: the days if they needed me. I didn't have to 39 00:02:00,161 --> 00:02:02,161 Speaker 1: operate this way and didn't all the time like the 40 00:02:02,281 --> 00:02:04,361 Speaker 1: days when I had help from Curti's mum. But this 41 00:02:04,401 --> 00:02:06,921 Speaker 1: is what felt so beautiful and aligned with my values. 42 00:02:07,401 --> 00:02:09,921 Speaker 1: Grow and Glow has been such an epic adventure. As 43 00:02:09,961 --> 00:02:12,081 Speaker 1: she and I were so excited to start this chapter 44 00:02:12,201 --> 00:02:14,561 Speaker 1: and sit down and chat together. We had such a 45 00:02:14,561 --> 00:02:16,841 Speaker 1: beautiful friendship and I was so excited to Grow and 46 00:02:16,881 --> 00:02:20,641 Speaker 1: Glow alongside her. When we first started Grow and Glow, 47 00:02:20,721 --> 00:02:22,641 Speaker 1: it was just a fun little project that we literally 48 00:02:22,680 --> 00:02:25,041 Speaker 1: paid out of our own pockets to do together. It 49 00:02:25,121 --> 00:02:28,081 Speaker 1: was so fun exciting connecting, and also as she and 50 00:02:28,121 --> 00:02:30,120 Speaker 1: I got to spend so much more time together, which 51 00:02:30,201 --> 00:02:32,201 Speaker 1: was so nice. Plus I still had a lot of 52 00:02:32,240 --> 00:02:36,481 Speaker 1: flexibility and could still balance everything else really well. Over 53 00:02:36,481 --> 00:02:38,961 Speaker 1: the years, it has grown rapidly, which is so exciting 54 00:02:39,201 --> 00:02:41,241 Speaker 1: but also does make it need a bit more of me, 55 00:02:41,881 --> 00:02:44,081 Speaker 1: especially the next year with doing live events on top 56 00:02:44,121 --> 00:02:46,761 Speaker 1: of already releasing two new episodes a week. I just 57 00:02:46,800 --> 00:02:49,081 Speaker 1: didn't see how I could comfortably fit that inside my 58 00:02:49,121 --> 00:02:52,281 Speaker 1: schedule while running another business, having three little kids, and 59 00:02:52,321 --> 00:02:53,881 Speaker 1: showing up as a mum in a way that I'm 60 00:02:53,921 --> 00:02:56,721 Speaker 1: proud of, especially with how much they've been needing me lately. 61 00:02:57,481 --> 00:02:59,241 Speaker 1: In saying this, I made it loud and clear I 62 00:02:59,281 --> 00:03:01,361 Speaker 1: did not want to hold Grow and Glow back. It 63 00:03:01,401 --> 00:03:03,681 Speaker 1: has had so much potential and I didn't feel like 64 00:03:03,721 --> 00:03:05,721 Speaker 1: it was fair for me to hold no Ashy back, 65 00:03:05,761 --> 00:03:08,361 Speaker 1: but our producers as well, So this was completely my 66 00:03:08,481 --> 00:03:11,121 Speaker 1: choice to part ways. I also did say on my 67 00:03:11,161 --> 00:03:13,001 Speaker 1: stories a couple of months ago that the more I 68 00:03:13,081 --> 00:03:15,481 Speaker 1: was taking in from self development, I was feeling like 69 00:03:15,520 --> 00:03:17,281 Speaker 1: I was becoming less and less in touch with who 70 00:03:17,321 --> 00:03:19,800 Speaker 1: Kia is and less and less authentic because I was 71 00:03:19,841 --> 00:03:22,721 Speaker 1: always trying to be better or change something rather than 72 00:03:22,800 --> 00:03:24,641 Speaker 1: just being okay with where I was at and just 73 00:03:24,680 --> 00:03:27,241 Speaker 1: being me. I'm excited to get back in touch with 74 00:03:27,321 --> 00:03:30,400 Speaker 1: Kiara at her core, getting more internal and taking less 75 00:03:30,401 --> 00:03:32,281 Speaker 1: self development for a little while to just be and 76 00:03:32,321 --> 00:03:35,281 Speaker 1: connect with myself. I want this to be a reminder 77 00:03:35,401 --> 00:03:37,641 Speaker 1: that you are okay just as you are right in 78 00:03:37,681 --> 00:03:39,961 Speaker 1: this moment. It's okay to grow when you feel like 79 00:03:40,001 --> 00:03:42,441 Speaker 1: you need to, but also okay to just accept yourself 80 00:03:42,481 --> 00:03:45,601 Speaker 1: as you are right now, especially while navigating different seasons 81 00:03:45,641 --> 00:03:48,601 Speaker 1: of life. I wanted to end on a little story 82 00:03:48,681 --> 00:03:50,921 Speaker 1: about how I came to this decision and why it's 83 00:03:50,921 --> 00:03:52,801 Speaker 1: so important to always listen to your gut and the 84 00:03:52,841 --> 00:03:56,001 Speaker 1: science of universe is giving you. Around four months ago, 85 00:03:56,241 --> 00:03:58,481 Speaker 1: maybe even longer, I did a master class that was 86 00:03:58,521 --> 00:04:00,841 Speaker 1: so incredible. I feel like it was the start of 87 00:04:00,881 --> 00:04:03,921 Speaker 1: me really getting back in tune with myself again. In 88 00:04:03,961 --> 00:04:06,361 Speaker 1: this master class, It was all surrounding, entering a new 89 00:04:06,401 --> 00:04:09,321 Speaker 1: timeline and letting go of anything that didn't feel aligned anymore. 90 00:04:09,761 --> 00:04:11,720 Speaker 1: I had a huge breakthrough during this class and was 91 00:04:11,721 --> 00:04:13,801 Speaker 1: a sobbing mess on the ground. At the end of 92 00:04:13,801 --> 00:04:16,201 Speaker 1: the session, she said to pick something you'd never notice 93 00:04:16,281 --> 00:04:18,881 Speaker 1: or see to be a sign. I sat there for 94 00:04:18,881 --> 00:04:21,640 Speaker 1: a while thinking about what it could be, and living 95 00:04:21,681 --> 00:04:24,041 Speaker 1: near the beach, we rarely ever see red rocks anywhere, 96 00:04:24,241 --> 00:04:26,841 Speaker 1: and that was what I chose as my symbol. Fast 97 00:04:26,880 --> 00:04:29,841 Speaker 1: forward a few months later, I completely forgot about this 98 00:04:29,961 --> 00:04:32,641 Speaker 1: red rock and kept living my life as usual. I 99 00:04:32,681 --> 00:04:34,801 Speaker 1: was having a little menty bee in the shower on 100 00:04:34,841 --> 00:04:38,241 Speaker 1: a casual Sunday morning, as you do, really questioning whether 101 00:04:38,281 --> 00:04:40,200 Speaker 1: Grow and Glow was something I wanted to continue to 102 00:04:40,201 --> 00:04:42,880 Speaker 1: do next year or not. I was bawling and looked 103 00:04:42,961 --> 00:04:44,721 Speaker 1: up to the roof and said, please just give me 104 00:04:44,761 --> 00:04:46,241 Speaker 1: a sign and let me know if this is the 105 00:04:46,320 --> 00:04:49,121 Speaker 1: right choice. I took rega girl out for a walk 106 00:04:49,161 --> 00:04:51,400 Speaker 1: that morning. Just as we went out the gate, she 107 00:04:51,481 --> 00:04:53,801 Speaker 1: ran up to me with her little fist clothes and said, Mommy, 108 00:04:53,841 --> 00:04:55,841 Speaker 1: I have a present for you. She opened a the 109 00:04:55,961 --> 00:04:58,481 Speaker 1: little hand and said, it's a red rock. And you 110 00:04:58,601 --> 00:05:00,440 Speaker 1: in that moment that I needed to make this choice. 111 00:05:01,721 --> 00:05:03,721 Speaker 1: I wanted to thank Ashy for going on this journey 112 00:05:03,721 --> 00:05:06,201 Speaker 1: with me. There's been so much any incredible memories and 113 00:05:06,241 --> 00:05:09,241 Speaker 1: beautiful moments of creating such a beautiful bond over the years. 114 00:05:09,641 --> 00:05:11,760 Speaker 1: I also wanted to thank our producers for just being 115 00:05:11,761 --> 00:05:14,921 Speaker 1: such epic, amazing humans. I wish everyone all the best 116 00:05:14,921 --> 00:05:17,641 Speaker 1: with the future of Grow and Glow. I also thank 117 00:05:17,721 --> 00:05:19,961 Speaker 1: you to every beautiful human out there that has supported 118 00:05:19,961 --> 00:05:21,841 Speaker 1: me on this journey. I love you guys so much, 119 00:05:21,880 --> 00:05:25,001 Speaker 1: and you're such a beautiful community of people. Thank you 120 00:05:25,001 --> 00:05:32,720 Speaker 1: guys so much. I love you.