1 00:00:05,921 --> 00:00:13,201 Speaker 1: Appogie Production. I'm Mickey Fisher, and welcome to the Village 2 00:00:13,201 --> 00:00:13,961 Speaker 1: Crazy Lady. 3 00:00:14,361 --> 00:00:17,480 Speaker 2: People are talking to me and they are not physically 4 00:00:17,521 --> 00:00:21,281 Speaker 2: in this room, so just strap in for that. Can't 5 00:00:21,281 --> 00:00:23,961 Speaker 2: call me crazy, so I said it first. Whoever, try 6 00:00:24,001 --> 00:00:26,160 Speaker 2: to come through, whatever messages need to come through, like, 7 00:00:26,281 --> 00:00:26,800 Speaker 2: just bring it on. 8 00:00:26,921 --> 00:00:28,081 Speaker 1: Let's do it. 9 00:00:28,281 --> 00:00:35,601 Speaker 2: Crazy Crazy Crazy the Village Crazy Lay Podcast. Hello, gorgeous legends, 10 00:00:35,641 --> 00:00:38,841 Speaker 2: and welcome to another episode of the Village Crazy Lady. 11 00:00:39,641 --> 00:00:43,321 Speaker 2: This week, I mean, for starters, happy Pride Month everybody, 12 00:00:43,400 --> 00:00:46,001 Speaker 2: and it feels appropriate that we're. 13 00:00:45,801 --> 00:00:46,521 Speaker 1: In Pride Month. 14 00:00:46,801 --> 00:00:51,161 Speaker 2: And I had this message come through in a healing 15 00:00:51,241 --> 00:00:52,641 Speaker 2: that I did the other week, So if you were 16 00:00:52,641 --> 00:00:54,921 Speaker 2: a part of that healing, you would know sort of 17 00:00:54,961 --> 00:00:57,560 Speaker 2: a little bit what I'm about to talk about. But 18 00:00:57,681 --> 00:01:04,121 Speaker 2: someone came through during this healing that really fucking schooled me. 19 00:01:04,641 --> 00:01:09,081 Speaker 2: I was like, Wow, it felt really true to hear 20 00:01:09,721 --> 00:01:13,601 Speaker 2: and it might ruffle some feathers. It might be I 21 00:01:13,640 --> 00:01:16,560 Speaker 2: don't know, maybe controversial depending on who you are and 22 00:01:16,840 --> 00:01:19,961 Speaker 2: what you think or whatever, but I just want people 23 00:01:20,041 --> 00:01:23,281 Speaker 2: to think of it as a different perspective and just 24 00:01:23,321 --> 00:01:25,521 Speaker 2: like to me, it was just really interesting and such 25 00:01:25,521 --> 00:01:29,000 Speaker 2: a different just a really interesting perspective to take on board, 26 00:01:29,321 --> 00:01:32,401 Speaker 2: and it's more of like an evolutionary thing because the 27 00:01:32,401 --> 00:01:35,481 Speaker 2: way that they sort of really brought this message in 28 00:01:35,840 --> 00:01:38,680 Speaker 2: was very like, all right, i think it's now time 29 00:01:38,721 --> 00:01:41,360 Speaker 2: to start looking at this thing in a different way. 30 00:01:41,721 --> 00:01:47,200 Speaker 2: So today, just to preface that today is about masculine 31 00:01:47,761 --> 00:01:53,761 Speaker 2: feminine energies and how productive it is to call them 32 00:01:53,761 --> 00:01:58,601 Speaker 2: that essentially. And again, I'm so aware that there will 33 00:01:58,641 --> 00:02:00,041 Speaker 2: be some people who will be like. 34 00:02:00,441 --> 00:02:04,441 Speaker 1: No, me, me, me, me me, and that's fine, that's 35 00:02:04,521 --> 00:02:06,681 Speaker 1: so fine, each to their own. 36 00:02:07,161 --> 00:02:09,481 Speaker 2: But yeah, this message came through and it actually just 37 00:02:09,521 --> 00:02:14,120 Speaker 2: felt really really really really powerful and extremely empowering and 38 00:02:14,321 --> 00:02:17,721 Speaker 2: gorgeous timing because we are in Pride month and yeah, so. 39 00:02:17,641 --> 00:02:20,161 Speaker 1: I just feel like it's really appropriate to share with everybody. 40 00:02:20,841 --> 00:02:23,361 Speaker 2: So when I was doing this healing and often like 41 00:02:23,401 --> 00:02:26,121 Speaker 2: when I'm working with energies, the reason that it felt 42 00:02:26,201 --> 00:02:28,161 Speaker 2: very like, oh, it's really random, but all of a 43 00:02:28,201 --> 00:02:31,561 Speaker 2: sudden they're talking about it in this way is because 44 00:02:32,081 --> 00:02:34,201 Speaker 2: for anyone who I guess, like you know, has done 45 00:02:35,041 --> 00:02:38,121 Speaker 2: any sort of reiki training or works with energies or 46 00:02:38,401 --> 00:02:41,161 Speaker 2: psychic medium sort of stuff, the more that you kind 47 00:02:41,201 --> 00:02:43,961 Speaker 2: of tune in you start to understand. At least for me, 48 00:02:44,481 --> 00:02:46,161 Speaker 2: and I know this is true for a lot of 49 00:02:46,201 --> 00:02:50,041 Speaker 2: other people. Is that so for me, like, my right 50 00:02:50,081 --> 00:02:53,441 Speaker 2: side's always sort of been the more masculine energy side, 51 00:02:53,481 --> 00:02:56,841 Speaker 2: and my left side is feminine energy. And like often 52 00:02:56,881 --> 00:03:00,120 Speaker 2: I find certain beings will come through on different sides, 53 00:03:00,240 --> 00:03:02,921 Speaker 2: they'll chill on different sides. They'll like, if it's on 54 00:03:03,321 --> 00:03:05,601 Speaker 2: the mother's side, it's normally for me it's on the 55 00:03:05,680 --> 00:03:07,601 Speaker 2: left side of its farther side, it'll be on the 56 00:03:07,680 --> 00:03:08,881 Speaker 2: right things like that. 57 00:03:10,201 --> 00:03:11,441 Speaker 1: And so I've always. 58 00:03:11,201 --> 00:03:17,240 Speaker 2: Used sort of the masculine feminine archetypes and energies as 59 00:03:17,281 --> 00:03:23,201 Speaker 2: sort of a way to understand just the different types 60 00:03:23,240 --> 00:03:25,680 Speaker 2: of energies. And you know, if we've heard it, I'm 61 00:03:25,680 --> 00:03:28,001 Speaker 2: sure you've heard it so many times, this whole concept 62 00:03:28,041 --> 00:03:30,881 Speaker 2: of like, you know, leaning more into your feminine or 63 00:03:31,001 --> 00:03:35,041 Speaker 2: understanding the masculine, and you know, and like there's so 64 00:03:35,121 --> 00:03:37,081 Speaker 2: many ways that that's sort of been told. You know, 65 00:03:37,641 --> 00:03:40,841 Speaker 2: if you're in a relationship, you know someone needs to 66 00:03:40,961 --> 00:03:43,801 Speaker 2: like then if someone's leaning into their masculine, the other 67 00:03:43,841 --> 00:03:47,641 Speaker 2: person leans into their feminine, and you know, whatever it is, 68 00:03:47,681 --> 00:03:51,521 Speaker 2: there's a million different things going around and I've explored. 69 00:03:51,161 --> 00:03:52,961 Speaker 1: All of that. I've been on the journey. 70 00:03:53,121 --> 00:03:58,321 Speaker 2: I've tried leaning into different parts of myself, and I 71 00:03:58,361 --> 00:04:02,001 Speaker 2: think it has like a really beautiful place. Especially the 72 00:04:02,041 --> 00:04:05,401 Speaker 2: concept of the masculine feminine energies can some some times 73 00:04:05,441 --> 00:04:11,201 Speaker 2: really help us step out of man woman and instead 74 00:04:11,241 --> 00:04:14,601 Speaker 2: it can open us too. To me, they're just archetypes, 75 00:04:14,641 --> 00:04:16,361 Speaker 2: and that's sort of like what was told to me. 76 00:04:16,841 --> 00:04:20,161 Speaker 2: They're an archetype. So when you think of like a 77 00:04:20,241 --> 00:04:24,721 Speaker 2: masculine energy, and this is the thing that came through, right, 78 00:04:24,801 --> 00:04:27,041 Speaker 2: I'm just gonna just I'm not gonna fucking beat around 79 00:04:27,041 --> 00:04:30,440 Speaker 2: the bush. They said, it's about time that we actually 80 00:04:30,521 --> 00:04:34,521 Speaker 2: start to step outside of using the terms masculine feminine 81 00:04:35,320 --> 00:04:42,601 Speaker 2: simply because we attach them to a gender. Like even 82 00:04:42,761 --> 00:04:47,760 Speaker 2: I'm someone who's very fluid and open and I try 83 00:04:47,841 --> 00:04:50,761 Speaker 2: not to, you know, like, I've worked really hard on 84 00:04:50,841 --> 00:04:55,881 Speaker 2: sort of unschooling myself in regards to boys look like this, 85 00:04:56,001 --> 00:04:58,640 Speaker 2: girls look like this, and you know how society sort 86 00:04:58,641 --> 00:05:04,681 Speaker 2: of places everyone based on their gender. But I still 87 00:05:05,401 --> 00:05:10,161 Speaker 2: when I think of a masculine energy, my brain still 88 00:05:10,241 --> 00:05:17,601 Speaker 2: goes man or like you know, a stereotypical man. And 89 00:05:17,641 --> 00:05:22,440 Speaker 2: when I think of feminine, my brain like goes to 90 00:05:22,521 --> 00:05:26,201 Speaker 2: a stereotypical woman, whatever that is, Like, really, what is 91 00:05:26,201 --> 00:05:29,801 Speaker 2: that stereotype anyway? And so when they said this, when 92 00:05:29,801 --> 00:05:34,641 Speaker 2: they brought through this concept of understanding the different energies 93 00:05:34,681 --> 00:05:39,481 Speaker 2: within ourselves firstly and then of course the different energies 94 00:05:39,601 --> 00:05:44,601 Speaker 2: outside of ourselves, they said, it's maybe time to start 95 00:05:44,801 --> 00:05:47,921 Speaker 2: just being curious with the concept of taking away the 96 00:05:48,001 --> 00:05:52,801 Speaker 2: masculine feminine of them simply because it does really it 97 00:05:52,921 --> 00:05:56,121 Speaker 2: kind of like restricts them and waters down what they 98 00:05:56,201 --> 00:06:01,121 Speaker 2: really are because we attach them to genders and it's 99 00:06:01,161 --> 00:06:03,001 Speaker 2: sort of then we feel like we need to lean 100 00:06:03,081 --> 00:06:07,201 Speaker 2: into one more than the as opposed to actually finding 101 00:06:07,241 --> 00:06:10,681 Speaker 2: the balance between them both. Because what they were trying 102 00:06:10,721 --> 00:06:16,440 Speaker 2: to explain is is that within ourself, within the universe, 103 00:06:16,721 --> 00:06:22,521 Speaker 2: within Earth, within the collective, there are always opposing energies. 104 00:06:23,561 --> 00:06:29,200 Speaker 2: And by posing they really mean all every every single 105 00:06:29,721 --> 00:06:32,640 Speaker 2: like if there's a plus as a minus, if there's 106 00:06:32,681 --> 00:06:35,481 Speaker 2: a dark, there's a light, and between that there's a 107 00:06:35,521 --> 00:06:38,641 Speaker 2: million different types of gray as well. You know, what 108 00:06:38,721 --> 00:06:41,841 Speaker 2: they're trying to say is it's not one and the other. 109 00:06:42,241 --> 00:06:45,320 Speaker 2: It's not there really is this concept and I think, 110 00:06:45,481 --> 00:06:49,001 Speaker 2: you know, we've lived for so long feeling quite safe 111 00:06:49,601 --> 00:06:53,601 Speaker 2: when there's two things to choose from, when things are labeled, 112 00:06:53,641 --> 00:06:59,521 Speaker 2: when things are stereotyped, like it's like for our human brains, 113 00:06:59,841 --> 00:07:02,440 Speaker 2: we're like great, stunning, that makes sense. And we've lived 114 00:07:02,440 --> 00:07:04,841 Speaker 2: in a society where everything's sort of like we've been 115 00:07:04,880 --> 00:07:06,241 Speaker 2: to hold what things are. 116 00:07:07,081 --> 00:07:10,241 Speaker 1: But they said, like within this sort of like evolution 117 00:07:10,761 --> 00:07:11,321 Speaker 1: of us. 118 00:07:11,401 --> 00:07:14,321 Speaker 2: And I've said many times before that gender is going 119 00:07:14,361 --> 00:07:17,801 Speaker 2: to be one of those things that our grandkids will 120 00:07:17,801 --> 00:07:20,921 Speaker 2: be like looking at us and they'll be like, that's 121 00:07:21,321 --> 00:07:24,081 Speaker 2: you weird, like will be the boomers, and I will 122 00:07:24,081 --> 00:07:27,321 Speaker 2: be like, that's fucking crazy that you guys were so 123 00:07:27,361 --> 00:07:31,401 Speaker 2: obsessed with genders, Like truly, that's crazy. And I know 124 00:07:31,481 --> 00:07:34,961 Speaker 2: for a lot of people that concept, even within itself, 125 00:07:35,121 --> 00:07:39,321 Speaker 2: is still something that might feel a little bit you know, triggering, 126 00:07:39,481 --> 00:07:42,161 Speaker 2: or not feel right or whatever it is. 127 00:07:42,481 --> 00:07:43,681 Speaker 1: But I if. 128 00:07:43,361 --> 00:07:45,521 Speaker 2: You're listening to this already and you're starting to sort 129 00:07:45,521 --> 00:07:47,681 Speaker 2: of feel like, no, but a woman is this and 130 00:07:47,721 --> 00:07:49,521 Speaker 2: a man is this, and like, you know, we shouldn't 131 00:07:49,521 --> 00:07:54,401 Speaker 2: be whatever the stories of the narratives are, I invite 132 00:07:54,401 --> 00:07:57,041 Speaker 2: you to just sort of like ask yourself. 133 00:07:56,761 --> 00:07:57,561 Speaker 1: Where they come from. 134 00:07:57,921 --> 00:08:01,241 Speaker 2: I would really love to invite you to just really explore, 135 00:08:01,441 --> 00:08:06,641 Speaker 2: like what the fear is around the rules not existing, 136 00:08:07,521 --> 00:08:10,081 Speaker 2: and what your body means to you, and even what 137 00:08:10,121 --> 00:08:12,721 Speaker 2: it means within yourself, you know. Even the more that 138 00:08:12,761 --> 00:08:14,921 Speaker 2: I question myself and sort of start to bring it 139 00:08:14,961 --> 00:08:16,881 Speaker 2: into my own life, and the more that i've like, 140 00:08:17,321 --> 00:08:23,081 Speaker 2: I feel freer in fluidity, and I don't know what 141 00:08:23,121 --> 00:08:26,361 Speaker 2: that means. All I know is that I think that 142 00:08:26,441 --> 00:08:32,801 Speaker 2: there's something really beautiful about removing the rules, removing the restrictions, 143 00:08:33,201 --> 00:08:38,161 Speaker 2: removing the stereotypes, and allowing people to just fully feel 144 00:08:38,201 --> 00:08:44,881 Speaker 2: into themselves and who they are without the conditioning of like, well, 145 00:08:44,961 --> 00:08:46,761 Speaker 2: this is how you were born, so this is how 146 00:08:46,801 --> 00:08:50,241 Speaker 2: you must act, this is what you must like, this 147 00:08:50,401 --> 00:08:55,161 Speaker 2: is how you must behave because I feel like that's 148 00:08:55,201 --> 00:09:00,081 Speaker 2: such a dissurface to our earth, because we're not getting 149 00:09:00,081 --> 00:09:02,881 Speaker 2: the whole of people. And that's a beautiful seguay back 150 00:09:02,921 --> 00:09:05,281 Speaker 2: to this whole concept of what they were talking about 151 00:09:05,121 --> 00:09:11,161 Speaker 2: as when it comes to these opposing energies, or not 152 00:09:11,161 --> 00:09:15,481 Speaker 2: not even opposing, but these the completeness of energies as 153 00:09:15,521 --> 00:09:19,801 Speaker 2: far as there's everything, that's what that wholeness is that 154 00:09:19,921 --> 00:09:23,281 Speaker 2: wholeness within ourself because a lot of us feel so 155 00:09:23,441 --> 00:09:26,721 Speaker 2: much shame. We hold so much shame within our bodies, 156 00:09:26,721 --> 00:09:29,041 Speaker 2: We hold so much shame, and that shame that we 157 00:09:29,081 --> 00:09:32,641 Speaker 2: hold within ourselves, we then project that outside of ourself 158 00:09:32,681 --> 00:09:36,401 Speaker 2: as well, and we find ways to see shame within 159 00:09:36,641 --> 00:09:40,601 Speaker 2: other people and other societies and other ways of doing things. 160 00:09:41,601 --> 00:09:42,641 Speaker 1: And so I'm going. 161 00:09:42,641 --> 00:09:45,241 Speaker 2: To read sort of like because like, as I was 162 00:09:45,241 --> 00:09:47,161 Speaker 2: doing this yealing, I'm writing a lot of things and 163 00:09:47,161 --> 00:09:48,601 Speaker 2: writing sort of what they wrote, so. 164 00:09:48,641 --> 00:09:50,601 Speaker 1: I'll just just read it. 165 00:09:50,641 --> 00:09:56,121 Speaker 2: So they said the energies become imbalanced because people see 166 00:09:56,361 --> 00:10:01,761 Speaker 2: them as man energy and female energy, and they said, 167 00:10:01,841 --> 00:10:08,001 Speaker 2: think of it more as parent child, el as teacher, student, 168 00:10:09,321 --> 00:10:15,001 Speaker 2: light dark ying yang. You know when they said that, 169 00:10:15,081 --> 00:10:16,961 Speaker 2: I really that made a lot of sense to me, 170 00:10:17,081 --> 00:10:19,921 Speaker 2: This concept of like when we're looking at things as 171 00:10:20,041 --> 00:10:25,401 Speaker 2: masculine feminine, instantly we're constricting them and we're watering them 172 00:10:25,441 --> 00:10:28,121 Speaker 2: down because we really do. It's hard for us to 173 00:10:28,121 --> 00:10:30,401 Speaker 2: see past men and woman just simply because of the 174 00:10:30,441 --> 00:10:32,481 Speaker 2: society that we've grown up in and the world that 175 00:10:32,521 --> 00:10:35,121 Speaker 2: we've grown up in, and that's what we've been conditioned 176 00:10:35,161 --> 00:10:37,281 Speaker 2: to sort of see things as. Yeah, so think of 177 00:10:37,281 --> 00:10:40,641 Speaker 2: it more as parent child, teacher, student energy, and again 178 00:10:41,721 --> 00:10:45,401 Speaker 2: try not to attached even those energies to a gender. 179 00:10:45,481 --> 00:10:49,521 Speaker 2: So even when you're thinking light, dark, ying yang, parent child, 180 00:10:49,721 --> 00:10:52,561 Speaker 2: and instantly you're like, well, which one's the more masculine, 181 00:10:52,561 --> 00:10:56,761 Speaker 2: which is more like just really try and like bugger 182 00:10:56,801 --> 00:11:01,321 Speaker 2: off that whole concept and instead understand that we've in you. 183 00:11:01,521 --> 00:11:04,441 Speaker 2: There is a positive to every negative and up to 184 00:11:04,481 --> 00:11:08,121 Speaker 2: every down, a high to every low. So start to 185 00:11:08,281 --> 00:11:12,121 Speaker 2: understand your energies this way and you will truly start to. 186 00:11:12,161 --> 00:11:13,481 Speaker 1: That's where balance comes from. 187 00:11:13,601 --> 00:11:17,321 Speaker 2: Essentially, they're trying to say that for us to find 188 00:11:17,321 --> 00:11:19,481 Speaker 2: this balance, and they keep using the word a whole, 189 00:11:19,521 --> 00:11:22,481 Speaker 2: they keep saying to me, like a wholeness, because there's 190 00:11:22,521 --> 00:11:25,761 Speaker 2: so much of ourselves that we deny. There's so much 191 00:11:25,761 --> 00:11:28,281 Speaker 2: of ourselves that we don't explore. There's so much of 192 00:11:28,321 --> 00:11:31,921 Speaker 2: ourselves that we don't even know about, and we haven't 193 00:11:31,961 --> 00:11:36,161 Speaker 2: even given ourselves the space to know or love and 194 00:11:36,281 --> 00:11:40,801 Speaker 2: accept and recognize the power in it because we instantly 195 00:11:40,841 --> 00:11:43,881 Speaker 2: shame it. We instantly go, well, that's not a part 196 00:11:43,921 --> 00:11:45,601 Speaker 2: of me, or that's a shameful part of me, or 197 00:11:45,601 --> 00:11:47,121 Speaker 2: I don't want to know that part of me, and 198 00:11:47,161 --> 00:11:49,601 Speaker 2: this is like, you know, another good way to look 199 00:11:49,601 --> 00:11:52,641 Speaker 2: at it is, you know when people talk about shadow work, 200 00:11:53,241 --> 00:11:57,121 Speaker 2: which I think is beautiful and powerful. And if there's 201 00:11:57,161 --> 00:12:00,081 Speaker 2: one thing I've really even just learned this year, this 202 00:12:00,241 --> 00:12:04,201 Speaker 2: concept of like taking the charge away from things because 203 00:12:04,721 --> 00:12:08,561 Speaker 2: so much many of us hold so much shame about 204 00:12:08,801 --> 00:12:12,561 Speaker 2: ourselves and the parts of ourselves that we really struggle 205 00:12:12,641 --> 00:12:15,441 Speaker 2: to like. And I actually read a really good book 206 00:12:15,481 --> 00:12:19,161 Speaker 2: it's called existential Kink, and it's like a type of 207 00:12:19,161 --> 00:12:24,601 Speaker 2: psychology where essentially when the parts of yourself come up 208 00:12:24,761 --> 00:12:27,481 Speaker 2: that you, I guess really struggle with or you start 209 00:12:27,521 --> 00:12:30,001 Speaker 2: to notice where like blockages or whatever coming up in 210 00:12:30,001 --> 00:12:30,481 Speaker 2: your life. 211 00:12:30,521 --> 00:12:32,081 Speaker 1: Like money is a really good example. 212 00:12:32,281 --> 00:12:35,081 Speaker 2: Say you're like, really you have a not very good 213 00:12:35,081 --> 00:12:36,161 Speaker 2: relationship with money. 214 00:12:36,241 --> 00:12:38,881 Speaker 1: You seem to always just be struggling. 215 00:12:38,521 --> 00:12:41,161 Speaker 2: With it, which is like probably a fucking majority of 216 00:12:41,281 --> 00:12:44,921 Speaker 2: us these days cost of living to sort of instead 217 00:12:44,921 --> 00:12:48,561 Speaker 2: of going like I can just never get enough money, 218 00:12:48,921 --> 00:12:53,041 Speaker 2: I'm always poor, I'm always struggling, I'm always this. Instead 219 00:12:53,081 --> 00:12:56,801 Speaker 2: you like flip it and you go, I fucking love 220 00:12:57,441 --> 00:13:01,321 Speaker 2: not making money. I love not making money. And the 221 00:13:01,481 --> 00:13:05,481 Speaker 2: concept of that is is that there is a part 222 00:13:05,521 --> 00:13:08,601 Speaker 2: of you where that is truth and there are these 223 00:13:08,801 --> 00:13:11,161 Speaker 2: kinky and that's why she calls it, like these kinks, 224 00:13:11,361 --> 00:13:14,521 Speaker 2: this kinky part of you that kind of fucking loves 225 00:13:14,561 --> 00:13:18,961 Speaker 2: it because it feeds another part of you that feels 226 00:13:19,521 --> 00:13:22,641 Speaker 2: safe when you're not making money because that's what you're 227 00:13:22,721 --> 00:13:24,961 Speaker 2: used to, or like it's like this deep sort of 228 00:13:25,041 --> 00:13:29,841 Speaker 2: psychological thing where essentially it's just recognizing these truths within 229 00:13:29,881 --> 00:13:32,921 Speaker 2: yourself because so many of us are really dishonest with. 230 00:13:32,961 --> 00:13:36,161 Speaker 1: Ourself because we tell ourselves. 231 00:13:35,721 --> 00:13:38,121 Speaker 2: Stories to make ourselves feel better. And the reason I'm 232 00:13:38,121 --> 00:13:40,041 Speaker 2: telling you this and I've gone on a bit of 233 00:13:40,041 --> 00:13:43,201 Speaker 2: a fucking like story time here, but the concept of 234 00:13:43,241 --> 00:13:44,521 Speaker 2: it is that there is so. 235 00:13:45,441 --> 00:13:46,641 Speaker 1: Much more to you. 236 00:13:47,521 --> 00:13:51,441 Speaker 2: There are so many energies within you, and the fact 237 00:13:51,481 --> 00:13:54,961 Speaker 2: that you shame it just creates so much more like 238 00:13:55,081 --> 00:13:59,161 Speaker 2: animosity around it, and like there's actually so much to 239 00:13:59,201 --> 00:14:02,241 Speaker 2: be learned within all of these parts of you, and 240 00:14:02,281 --> 00:14:04,561 Speaker 2: to just forgive them and to love them and to 241 00:14:04,641 --> 00:14:06,641 Speaker 2: allow them to be a part of you, because like, 242 00:14:07,081 --> 00:14:10,041 Speaker 2: if you're not accepting them, if you're not looking them 243 00:14:10,081 --> 00:14:11,641 Speaker 2: in the face, if you're not giving them love, if 244 00:14:11,641 --> 00:14:13,841 Speaker 2: you're not accepting them as part of yourself, then how 245 00:14:13,841 --> 00:14:17,361 Speaker 2: are you able to grow on it, because otherwise they're 246 00:14:17,401 --> 00:14:19,361 Speaker 2: just going to those energies are going to be stuck 247 00:14:19,441 --> 00:14:23,201 Speaker 2: in that little shame bubble forever. But actually, I've been 248 00:14:23,241 --> 00:14:25,521 Speaker 2: thinking about this story a lot lately, and this is 249 00:14:25,561 --> 00:14:27,401 Speaker 2: a part of myself that I would have that I 250 00:14:27,481 --> 00:14:31,801 Speaker 2: shamed for a long time. So when I was I 251 00:14:31,801 --> 00:14:34,681 Speaker 2: would have been about twenty years old, and I was 252 00:14:34,721 --> 00:14:38,681 Speaker 2: living with some housemates, when I was like studying, when 253 00:14:38,721 --> 00:14:41,081 Speaker 2: I was at UNI, one of the fucking degrees that 254 00:14:41,161 --> 00:14:44,201 Speaker 2: I was doing, I think I was studying acting. And 255 00:14:44,521 --> 00:14:49,161 Speaker 2: I'd just been through some really hard times in my life. 256 00:14:50,081 --> 00:14:51,161 Speaker 1: I'd like just. 257 00:14:52,641 --> 00:14:56,921 Speaker 2: Finally managed to get out of a DV relationship after 258 00:14:57,081 --> 00:15:01,681 Speaker 2: falling pregnant at nineteen years old and almost dying because 259 00:15:01,721 --> 00:15:05,001 Speaker 2: I had an ectopic and left it for too long 260 00:15:05,881 --> 00:15:08,761 Speaker 2: and it eruptured. Anyway, it was all dramatic and everything, 261 00:15:08,761 --> 00:15:11,601 Speaker 2: and I just kept getting sick and unwell and anyway 262 00:15:11,921 --> 00:15:12,441 Speaker 2: not good. 263 00:15:12,561 --> 00:15:15,561 Speaker 1: And then like someone in my life had passed away. 264 00:15:16,201 --> 00:15:18,481 Speaker 2: So it was a pretty dark time and I was 265 00:15:18,721 --> 00:15:22,161 Speaker 2: every day felt like a struggle. Every day felt dark. 266 00:15:22,321 --> 00:15:27,081 Speaker 2: I'd been to doctors, like you know, within those few years, 267 00:15:27,121 --> 00:15:29,841 Speaker 2: and every single time. They were like, you know, I 268 00:15:29,841 --> 00:15:33,041 Speaker 2: think you have anxiety, and they kept trying to give 269 00:15:33,041 --> 00:15:38,201 Speaker 2: me medication. But for some reason, I was always like no, no, no, no, no, 270 00:15:39,081 --> 00:15:40,441 Speaker 2: I'm not I'm fine. 271 00:15:40,481 --> 00:15:40,921 Speaker 1: I'm good. 272 00:15:40,961 --> 00:15:43,361 Speaker 2: I'm good because I always have this thing where I'm 273 00:15:43,401 --> 00:15:46,041 Speaker 2: like I'm a copa. I remember my mum saying to 274 00:15:46,081 --> 00:15:48,721 Speaker 2: me during that time, You're a cope McKey, like you 275 00:15:48,761 --> 00:15:51,441 Speaker 2: always cope, whatever it is, you always cope. So I 276 00:15:51,481 --> 00:15:53,441 Speaker 2: had that in my head, and I'm going, well, I cope, 277 00:15:53,641 --> 00:15:57,201 Speaker 2: like you know, I'm fine. And so I lived with 278 00:15:57,241 --> 00:16:00,041 Speaker 2: these two sisters and they were both older than me, 279 00:16:00,721 --> 00:16:05,081 Speaker 2: and we got along really really well. We had a 280 00:16:05,121 --> 00:16:12,601 Speaker 2: great time. We did until my energy started to affect 281 00:16:12,641 --> 00:16:16,801 Speaker 2: theirs because I was in a really quite dark place. 282 00:16:17,561 --> 00:16:20,961 Speaker 1: I was super negative. I was so negative. 283 00:16:21,121 --> 00:16:24,961 Speaker 2: I was very like I'm sick all the time. Everything 284 00:16:24,961 --> 00:16:28,001 Speaker 2: always happens to me. Of course this is happening to me, 285 00:16:29,121 --> 00:16:33,601 Speaker 2: and like my obsession with like I was just mentally 286 00:16:33,721 --> 00:16:40,001 Speaker 2: quite like unwell, and so I wasn't that fucking fun 287 00:16:40,041 --> 00:16:43,401 Speaker 2: to be around at all. I was drunk all the time, 288 00:16:43,881 --> 00:16:47,121 Speaker 2: like I was just I was trying to like black 289 00:16:47,201 --> 00:16:51,801 Speaker 2: out my life as much as possible, and eventually I 290 00:16:51,841 --> 00:16:55,601 Speaker 2: remember both of the girls brought me into their room 291 00:16:55,761 --> 00:16:57,681 Speaker 2: and this is like after living with them for like, 292 00:16:57,801 --> 00:17:00,441 Speaker 2: I don't know, eight months or something, and they said, 293 00:17:01,561 --> 00:17:06,400 Speaker 2: we actually like, we're really sorry and we love you 294 00:17:06,481 --> 00:17:12,801 Speaker 2: and we we you know, respect you, but we need 295 00:17:12,801 --> 00:17:19,041 Speaker 2: to ask you to move out because you your energy 296 00:17:19,640 --> 00:17:22,681 Speaker 2: and they literally use the word like your energy. It's 297 00:17:22,840 --> 00:17:26,680 Speaker 2: like you have bought a darkness to this house. And 298 00:17:27,360 --> 00:17:31,120 Speaker 2: that was one of the biggest fucking punches in the face. 299 00:17:32,001 --> 00:17:34,161 Speaker 2: But also I look back and I go, God, they 300 00:17:34,201 --> 00:17:37,161 Speaker 2: made the rightest move. That's not a word, but they 301 00:17:37,241 --> 00:17:41,680 Speaker 2: made the rightest move because what they said was so fair. 302 00:17:42,281 --> 00:17:44,041 Speaker 2: And I look back and I go, good on them 303 00:17:44,080 --> 00:17:47,080 Speaker 2: for protecting their energy, and good on them for recognizing 304 00:17:47,281 --> 00:17:52,840 Speaker 2: that they needed to make some shifts and changes. And 305 00:17:52,880 --> 00:17:57,241 Speaker 2: I truly was that And I don't think i've literally 306 00:17:57,400 --> 00:17:59,961 Speaker 2: ever shared that with anyone, because that was the most 307 00:18:00,120 --> 00:18:04,920 Speaker 2: embarrassing thing ever. I look back on that time and 308 00:18:05,120 --> 00:18:08,841 Speaker 2: all I think is like, how embarrassing because people look 309 00:18:08,880 --> 00:18:11,761 Speaker 2: at me now and they're always like even yet yesterday 310 00:18:11,801 --> 00:18:14,360 Speaker 2: I went to an appointment and she's probably listening, So 311 00:18:14,400 --> 00:18:17,721 Speaker 2: shout out to Zoe, and she said some beautiful words 312 00:18:17,721 --> 00:18:20,561 Speaker 2: to me, and she said, just being around you, like 313 00:18:20,640 --> 00:18:24,121 Speaker 2: your energy is so beautiful, and she's like, you're literally 314 00:18:24,201 --> 00:18:27,761 Speaker 2: like human sunshine. And it's so interesting how she said that. 315 00:18:27,840 --> 00:18:30,961 Speaker 2: And then I think back to those to even this story, 316 00:18:31,001 --> 00:18:34,920 Speaker 2: and I think I haven't always been like or I 317 00:18:35,041 --> 00:18:38,600 Speaker 2: have not at all, and yet even I struggle to 318 00:18:38,880 --> 00:18:43,960 Speaker 2: remove the shame around past versions of myself where I 319 00:18:44,001 --> 00:18:46,521 Speaker 2: haven't been who I am now, where I was like 320 00:18:46,600 --> 00:18:49,201 Speaker 2: almost a real opposite version of who I am now, 321 00:18:49,961 --> 00:18:55,440 Speaker 2: where I was like so fucking dark Eyore that people 322 00:18:55,481 --> 00:18:57,681 Speaker 2: literally said I can't live with you or be around 323 00:18:57,721 --> 00:19:02,080 Speaker 2: you because your negative shit is like literally affecting me. 324 00:19:02,801 --> 00:19:05,360 Speaker 2: And so I just wanted to share that stuf, sorry, 325 00:19:05,880 --> 00:19:12,001 Speaker 2: just to remind you of our potential, of our resilience, 326 00:19:13,160 --> 00:19:20,720 Speaker 2: of how kind of claiming or reclaiming these parts of 327 00:19:20,761 --> 00:19:24,761 Speaker 2: ourselves that we've struggled to love, and these parts of 328 00:19:24,801 --> 00:19:30,001 Speaker 2: our selves that we've struggled to accept, and we haven't 329 00:19:30,201 --> 00:19:32,041 Speaker 2: given any forgiveness or. 330 00:19:32,041 --> 00:19:34,001 Speaker 1: Love towards because we're. 331 00:19:33,761 --> 00:19:35,801 Speaker 2: Just going instead, we've just put our fingers in our 332 00:19:35,880 --> 00:19:38,720 Speaker 2: years and we've just gone, Nope, that wasn't me, that 333 00:19:38,880 --> 00:19:40,480 Speaker 2: was me. I looked I used to look back and 334 00:19:40,521 --> 00:19:43,601 Speaker 2: go that, Nope, that wasn't me. Anyone who knew me then, 335 00:19:43,681 --> 00:19:46,480 Speaker 2: you do not know me now, And like truly, I'm like, 336 00:19:46,600 --> 00:19:49,001 Speaker 2: I would have nothing to do with anyone who knew 337 00:19:49,041 --> 00:19:52,241 Speaker 2: me then, because there is no way that that version 338 00:19:52,281 --> 00:19:55,001 Speaker 2: of me and this version of me can possibly exist. 339 00:19:55,241 --> 00:19:58,321 Speaker 2: And yet it does, and that version of me was 340 00:19:58,360 --> 00:20:01,200 Speaker 2: a really important part and a really important version. 341 00:20:01,600 --> 00:20:04,721 Speaker 1: And I think back on the hardest times, some of 342 00:20:04,761 --> 00:20:05,160 Speaker 1: the hard. 343 00:20:05,201 --> 00:20:08,761 Speaker 2: Time to my life, and I think, you know what, 344 00:20:08,801 --> 00:20:12,921 Speaker 2: that was like a really important time. And that's sort 345 00:20:12,961 --> 00:20:15,521 Speaker 2: of when I started that kind of journey of like 346 00:20:16,681 --> 00:20:21,120 Speaker 2: no one's coming to save me from this. And those girls, 347 00:20:21,160 --> 00:20:24,960 Speaker 2: those two sisters literally saying to me, you are the 348 00:20:25,001 --> 00:20:26,720 Speaker 2: opposite of a fucking joy to be around. 349 00:20:28,120 --> 00:20:31,681 Speaker 1: You are not enjoyable to be around. 350 00:20:31,561 --> 00:20:36,080 Speaker 2: At all, was the absolute slap across the faith that 351 00:20:36,120 --> 00:20:39,041 Speaker 2: I needed to go, Okay, I actually no, I'm not 352 00:20:39,080 --> 00:20:41,080 Speaker 2: that person. I know I can be a joy to 353 00:20:41,080 --> 00:20:43,200 Speaker 2: be around. I know I can be a joy to 354 00:20:43,201 --> 00:20:45,720 Speaker 2: be around myself. I don't want to be around myself 355 00:20:45,801 --> 00:20:50,001 Speaker 2: if I can hate it myself with an absolute burning passion. 356 00:20:50,241 --> 00:20:56,481 Speaker 2: So I hope that you can start to learn these 357 00:20:56,561 --> 00:21:01,281 Speaker 2: parts of yourself and start to forgive parts of yourself 358 00:21:01,281 --> 00:21:05,521 Speaker 2: and versions of yourself that haven't always been version that 359 00:21:05,561 --> 00:21:08,121 Speaker 2: you're proud of, or a version that you look back 360 00:21:08,160 --> 00:21:11,640 Speaker 2: on with fucking love, and you know, you look back 361 00:21:11,681 --> 00:21:13,280 Speaker 2: and you go, that was such a great time in 362 00:21:13,321 --> 00:21:17,640 Speaker 2: my life because those parts, it's not that they're just 363 00:21:17,681 --> 00:21:20,001 Speaker 2: important and that there's something to be learned from them, 364 00:21:21,041 --> 00:21:24,120 Speaker 2: but it's more that it just is that's. 365 00:21:24,001 --> 00:21:27,961 Speaker 1: As much you as you are you now. And I think. 366 00:21:29,441 --> 00:21:32,640 Speaker 2: The more that we start to claim these parts of 367 00:21:32,640 --> 00:21:35,681 Speaker 2: ourselves and love them and accept them and forgive them, 368 00:21:36,281 --> 00:21:41,041 Speaker 2: we start to deepen our capacity for love a lot. 369 00:21:41,561 --> 00:21:44,160 Speaker 2: And it's really like the more that I've sort of 370 00:21:44,241 --> 00:21:47,480 Speaker 2: journeyed into these past versions of myself that I really 371 00:21:47,721 --> 00:21:51,761 Speaker 2: struggled to love, and I was really embarrassed of the 372 00:21:51,761 --> 00:21:54,761 Speaker 2: more I've just looked at other people with so much 373 00:21:54,840 --> 00:21:58,201 Speaker 2: less judgment because I'm like, who fucking knows what part 374 00:21:58,241 --> 00:22:00,681 Speaker 2: I'm getting you at. I might be getting you at 375 00:22:00,681 --> 00:22:03,801 Speaker 2: the part where like that I was at a million 376 00:22:03,880 --> 00:22:06,680 Speaker 2: years ago or whatever. You know, Like, I just I 377 00:22:06,721 --> 00:22:08,921 Speaker 2: don't know what's gone on in your life. I don't 378 00:22:08,961 --> 00:22:10,840 Speaker 2: know what you've seen. I don't know what you've done, 379 00:22:11,160 --> 00:22:14,200 Speaker 2: and all I can do is just be responsible for 380 00:22:14,281 --> 00:22:17,120 Speaker 2: me and protect my own energy. But I also just 381 00:22:17,721 --> 00:22:20,081 Speaker 2: wherever you're at, I've got love and compassion for it. 382 00:22:20,801 --> 00:22:24,801 Speaker 2: So I hope that helps you just start to love 383 00:22:24,840 --> 00:22:27,080 Speaker 2: and accept all of these parts of yourself as well, 384 00:22:27,241 --> 00:22:32,481 Speaker 2: and also then to lean into these whole energies within us, 385 00:22:33,001 --> 00:22:36,521 Speaker 2: not just not masculine and feminine, just all of them, 386 00:22:36,761 --> 00:22:41,440 Speaker 2: every single part of it, the being, the doing, the nurturer, 387 00:22:42,001 --> 00:22:50,080 Speaker 2: the care the supporter, the provider, the I don't know 388 00:22:50,241 --> 00:22:55,081 Speaker 2: all of them, the power, the strength, because they're all you. 389 00:22:55,241 --> 00:22:57,360 Speaker 1: And it doesn't matter what body you're in, it doesn't 390 00:22:57,400 --> 00:22:59,041 Speaker 1: matter who you think you are. 391 00:23:00,041 --> 00:23:02,761 Speaker 2: You have them all, every single every single one of 392 00:23:02,840 --> 00:23:06,441 Speaker 2: those energies. You have them, and you it is your 393 00:23:06,481 --> 00:23:09,161 Speaker 2: birthright to have them, and so. 394 00:23:09,120 --> 00:23:10,761 Speaker 1: I encourage you to. 395 00:23:10,761 --> 00:23:13,041 Speaker 2: Explore them and get to know them and start to 396 00:23:13,160 --> 00:23:17,200 Speaker 2: understand and find the balance within yourself so that you 397 00:23:17,241 --> 00:23:21,201 Speaker 2: can start to understand the balance outside of yourself. Thank 398 00:23:21,241 --> 00:23:26,641 Speaker 2: you so much for listening to that deep, dark, wonderful 399 00:23:26,681 --> 00:23:29,641 Speaker 2: tale and for giving me the space too. You don't 400 00:23:29,640 --> 00:23:32,360 Speaker 2: even know it. I'm talking to absolutely fucking nobody right now. 401 00:23:32,400 --> 00:23:35,001 Speaker 2: But also everyone at the same time. But thank you 402 00:23:35,561 --> 00:23:39,601 Speaker 2: if you love this podcast, it really does mean won 403 00:23:39,681 --> 00:23:41,760 Speaker 2: the world to me. I love when people send me 404 00:23:41,761 --> 00:23:45,881 Speaker 2: messages about how they felt about different episodes. I love 405 00:23:45,921 --> 00:23:49,761 Speaker 2: hearing your responses to you know, meditations that I've done, 406 00:23:50,120 --> 00:23:52,561 Speaker 2: and all the different stories of like where you're out 407 00:23:52,561 --> 00:23:55,681 Speaker 2: at your journey and what you've learned and what you've 408 00:23:55,681 --> 00:23:59,321 Speaker 2: connected to. Like it's really special getting to see people 409 00:23:59,481 --> 00:24:03,041 Speaker 2: who never thought that this was for them realizing that 410 00:24:03,120 --> 00:24:06,480 Speaker 2: it is just because they You're human, so it is 411 00:24:06,521 --> 00:24:10,081 Speaker 2: for you. And it also really helps when you review 412 00:24:10,120 --> 00:24:13,640 Speaker 2: the podcast. If you're listening on Apple, please once you 413 00:24:13,721 --> 00:24:17,521 Speaker 2: finished listening to this, please review it because it's honestly 414 00:24:17,681 --> 00:24:22,041 Speaker 2: fucking legendary move and rating reviewing, subscribe, I don't think 415 00:24:22,080 --> 00:24:25,321 Speaker 2: it's called subscribing. I think you follow it. All of 416 00:24:25,321 --> 00:24:27,281 Speaker 2: these things are super helpful. And tell your friends, to 417 00:24:27,360 --> 00:24:31,001 Speaker 2: your family, share it on Instagram, share it around, tell everybody, like, 418 00:24:31,080 --> 00:24:33,680 Speaker 2: let's get this shit into the mainstream, and thank you 419 00:24:33,721 --> 00:24:35,960 Speaker 2: for being part of this community. I love the Village 420 00:24:36,001 --> 00:24:43,080 Speaker 2: Crazies because what's better than being fucking crazy? Bye.