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Speaker 1: Apodjay Production. Welcome to the She Rises Podcast. I'm Ashy

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Speaker 1: and I'm Tiana. This podcast is about female empowerment.

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Speaker 2: And encouraging you to be your biggest, boldest, and most

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Speaker 2: authentic version of yourself.

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Speaker 1: We help you shed the shame, grow to a new level.

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Speaker 1: We're gonna laugh, cry, and talk about the topics everyone

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Speaker 1: else is too afraid to talk about.

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Speaker 3: Get ready for your next level of self.

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Speaker 1: Hello everybody, Welcome back to she Rises. We've got quite

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Speaker 1: a cute episode today, but before we actually get into it,

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Speaker 1: let's do our shares of the week. Yes, so mine

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Speaker 1: is just something I'm going to read out to all

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Speaker 1: of you that I think we all just need to

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Speaker 1: hear a little bit more often. You are not a machine.

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Speaker 1: You're a soul who needs music, connection, sunsets, laughter, and

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Speaker 1: small pockets of joy. Prioritize them like your life depends

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Speaker 1: on it, because it does. Life isn't meant to be

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Speaker 1: a cycle of stress and survival. Pause, look up, Let

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Speaker 1: the sunset remind you you're here to live, not just hustle.

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Speaker 1: Life is not meant to be a big to do list.

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Speaker 1: It's a gift to walk slower, hug longer, laugh, louder

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Speaker 1: and love deeper. The clock may be ticking, but your

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Speaker 1: presence is timeless. We've been conditioned to believe that the

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Speaker 1: constant productivity equals worth, but humans weren't designed for endless output.

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Speaker 1: We need moments of wonder, connection, and rest, not as

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Speaker 1: rewards for hard work, but as essential ingredients for a

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Speaker 1: meaningful life. Isn't that so beautiful? It's so nice a

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Speaker 1: reminder I think we all need. I feel like we

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Speaker 1: need to hear that more often. Put it on our walls. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: every day I've been kinder to ourselves.

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Speaker 3: It's so beautiful.

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Speaker 2: My share of the week is actually to do with

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Speaker 2: skin care. So I've been following this girl online who

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Speaker 2: talks about skin flooding, and basically what that is is

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Speaker 2: she just like hydrates her skin like crazy with like

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Speaker 2: Tona's and sprays and things like that before she does

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Speaker 2: her skin care. And she has like the Glossier skin

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Speaker 2: It's insane. There's this one product that I've been absolutely

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Speaker 2: obsessed with that I've already gone through three cans.

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Speaker 3: It's called grape water.

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Speaker 1: Yes life starting.

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Speaker 3: You know, it's really good.

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Speaker 2: So I use it morning night and like you spray

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Speaker 2: it on your face. For like seven seconds, like the

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Speaker 2: fax gets quite wet. But it's from a brand called

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Speaker 2: I'm probably gonna butcher this colderly So it's c au

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Speaker 2: Da l i E and it's great border you can

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Speaker 2: buy it at Sephora. Honestly, hands down one of the

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Speaker 2: best products that I've used.

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Speaker 1: How cool. Alrighty, So today we're going to ask each

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Speaker 1: other ten hard questions. Well, it's a bit of it hard,

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Speaker 1: just rogue rogue, deep questions. I've obviously written mine to Tiana,

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Speaker 1: she's written hers to me, and we both don't know

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Speaker 1: what we're going to ask each other. Yes, so it's

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Speaker 1: almost like a bit of a mystery episode. But they're

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Speaker 1: gonna be really deep and beautiful. I think it's going

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Speaker 1: to spark some awesome conversations. And if you like conversation cards,

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Speaker 1: could be cool questions that you could also write down

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Speaker 1: and do with your friends or your family. I love

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Speaker 1: a good conversation card path.

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Speaker 2: Absolutely, and this is something that we do even when

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Speaker 2: we have little staycase, we are always you know, asking

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Speaker 2: each other deeper questions. So we thought, why not bring

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Speaker 1: Okay, cool, are you ready? I'll go first?

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Speaker 2: Do it.

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Speaker 3: Let's go.

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Speaker 1: Was there a moment you wish I was there for

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Speaker 1: but I wasn't And what was it? And how do

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Speaker 1: you think it would have changed what had happened if

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Speaker 1: I was there for you?

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Speaker 3: Oh, that's a really good question.

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Speaker 2: The first thing that comes to mind is my friendship

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Speaker 2: breakdown with my last best friend.

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Speaker 3: I feel like I was really.

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Speaker 2: Alone in that time and I didn't know how to

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Speaker 2: process what it was that I was feeling. I blamed

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Speaker 2: I was really deep in like taking overly taking responsibility,

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Speaker 2: making myself feel wrong, and like just punishing myself for

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Speaker 2: the experience basically. And something that you've taught me in

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Speaker 2: now friendship is you help me balance that out where

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Speaker 2: anytime I'm overly taking responsibility, you'd like, no, that's theirs,

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Speaker 2: give that to them and take responsibility for what's yours.

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Speaker 2: And you feel like you really helped balance me out

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Speaker 2: in that time of my life because I feel like

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Speaker 2: I was abandoned for parts of myself that I already judged,

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Speaker 2: whereas like I don't feel that with you, like you

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Speaker 2: don't judge me for when I'm anxious or when anything

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Speaker 2: comes up for me, like you love me in my

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Speaker 2: entirety of who I am as a woman, And yeah,

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Speaker 2: I would have loved to have that then, because I

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Speaker 1: Oh that's beautiful. Yeah, yeah, And I wish I could

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Speaker 1: have held you really well on that and reminded you

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Speaker 1: of who you are and that you are not too

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Speaker 1: much in those parts of yourself that she couldn't hold

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Speaker 1: that I could hold easily, which I do now. You know,

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Speaker 1: I just love you more for it, right I can.

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Speaker 2: What's one part of you that you are still learning

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Speaker 2: how to love?

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Speaker 1: Oh? I think my fiery side, like I love her

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Speaker 1: sometimes and sometimes I'm like, oh, turn it down. But

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Speaker 1: I think I've shamed myself for having a fiery side

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Speaker 1: before because it comes across to other people as aggressive,

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Speaker 1: So I'm trying to like find that middle ground of

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Speaker 1: loving that fire, because a coach once said this to me.

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Speaker 1: Without my fire, I wouldn't have done all the things

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Speaker 1: I've done. My fire is what leads, it's what spreads,

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Speaker 1: and it does big things, like when I'm on stage

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Speaker 1: in front of thousands of people, that is fire. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: that's not chill, that's you're getting shit done, your big

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Speaker 1: expanse of your bride. You're passionate, passionate. Yeah, you're spreading

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Speaker 1: like wildfire, like you're spreading your love, your excitement, your enthusiasm,

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Speaker 1: your lessons, your wisdom like that fire is beautiful. But yeah,

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Speaker 1: I think I've shamed myself for being fiery. Sometimes I

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Speaker 1: think I'm still on the path of Sometimes that it

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Speaker 3: Do I not?

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Speaker 1: Coulda done that better?

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Speaker 1: How can I love more of that?

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Speaker 2: So yeah, I think that part of me like old

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Speaker 1: So yeah, and being aggressive and what's the story that's

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Speaker 1: too much? It's not lovable. Yeah, it's not acceptable. People

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Speaker 1: into it. Yeah, scene is too much? Scene is not kind. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: a lot of perceptions of what other people may think

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Speaker 2: That's interesting what you said about some people see it

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Speaker 2: dependent on the receiver behave.

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Speaker 1: Where they're out.

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Speaker 3: Yeah.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, I love your firing, Stephanie. Having the alter ego

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Speaker 1: name has really helped me. And when I see fire

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Speaker 1: and other girls too, I'm like, fuck, yeah that means

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Speaker 3: It's empowering.

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Speaker 1: It's lit up for a reason. Yeah, and bring that forward,

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Speaker 1: like why would you shut that down? So I'm like

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Speaker 1: when I get that to other one and I'm like,

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Speaker 3: Yeah, Yeah, that's okay.

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Speaker 1: If no one was to ever judge you, what would

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Speaker 1: you do differently in your life? Like would you teach differently?

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Speaker 1: Would you show up differently? Would you talk differently? If

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Speaker 1: there's no judgments?

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Speaker 3: Oh that's a good question.

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Speaker 1: Steve asked me this question the other day. It's why

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Speaker 1: I was like, oh, I want to ask you.

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Speaker 3: Can you repeat it for me, babe?

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Speaker 1: Yeah? If no one was to judge you on anything,

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Speaker 1: what would you do differently. I think I would show

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Speaker 1: more of my humor. That's cool.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, I feel like in certain environments when I don't

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Speaker 2: feel fully comfortable, I can be quite reserved when I

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Speaker 2: don't feel fully safe fully noon and like, I don't

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Speaker 2: I show up on social media and things like that,

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Speaker 2: there's a whole side to me that is like big personality, silly,

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Speaker 3: I'm very playful.

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Speaker 2: I do. It's a very if I could label it,

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Speaker 2: it's a very cheeky energy.

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Speaker 3: It is very cheeky.

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Speaker 2: And I feel like I don't show enough of that side.

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Speaker 2: how people will receive that part of me. And also

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Speaker 2: in the past, that part of me has got me into.

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Speaker 2: So it's like sometimes it can be misconstrued. Sometimes it

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Speaker 2: So it's I think because of that I've toned it down,

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Speaker 2: but it is a huge part of who I am,

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Speaker 2: and I think, yeah, if I didn't care what people thought,

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Speaker 2: I would express that more on social media when I'm

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Speaker 2: and just be less coached on it and more just

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Speaker 3: That's so cool.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, I love the cheeky side of you. So funny.

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Speaker 1: It was actually so funny.

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Speaker 2: It feels good to be in that energy. It feels

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Speaker 1: But it feels like it can be judged. It's not. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: you don't feel fully safe and embodied, and it yet

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Speaker 1: to do it whenever, whenever.

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Speaker 2: Yes, abound, whoever, And I think the last twelve months

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Speaker 2: has really been about that for me, really stepping into

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Speaker 2: So I'm still learning and there's always new levels to that, right,

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Speaker 2: there's every new level. There's a new devil, so there's

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Speaker 2: that too. But yeah, this is probably the most embodied

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Speaker 2: that I've ever been, which is nice.

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Speaker 1: But it's really cool, long way ago work in progress. Yes,

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Speaker 1: we all laugh about the human experience, isn't it.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, when was the last time that you felt completely

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Speaker 2: misunderstood or judged? And what do you wish someone would

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Speaker 2: have asked you or considered.

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Speaker 1: I think in a previous friendship breakdown, I chose to

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Speaker 1: be quiet and to not speak share my experience, my truth,

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Speaker 1: and that led to being very misunderstood and judged because

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Speaker 1: there was a certain narrative that was created and when

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Speaker 2: Yeah, conversations we have behind closed doors, having had everywhere

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Speaker 1: What's a silent battle? You are tired of carrying alone?

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Speaker 1: The first thing that came to mind is heartbreak. The

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Speaker 1: not going to try to challenge that. I think that's

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Speaker 1: To what degree that relationship hurt me? Yeah, it meant.

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Speaker 2: And I think I push it aside a lot. I mean,

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Speaker 2: And then I think the loneliness that comes with that

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Speaker 2: something that I've always carried his loneliness. And I feel

437
00:18:47,961 --> 00:18:51,521
Speaker 2: like an old soul who's like sounds really fucked up,

438
00:18:51,561 --> 00:18:54,281
Speaker 2: but like supposed to journey life alone It's like I

439
00:18:54,321 --> 00:18:56,201
Speaker 2: always thought that I had to do it alone, and

440
00:18:56,400 --> 00:18:58,120
Speaker 2: I thought my journey was going to be alone and

441
00:18:58,160 --> 00:19:00,200
Speaker 2: I was never going to have good people in my

442
00:19:00,281 --> 00:19:03,001
Speaker 2: life to support me on the journey. So I think

443
00:19:03,041 --> 00:19:05,840
Speaker 2: that feels like a burden that I carry. Yeah, yeah,

444
00:19:05,921 --> 00:19:07,360
Speaker 2: even though I know it's not true.

445
00:19:07,360 --> 00:19:11,600
Speaker 1: It's true. You know, it's your experience right now. Yeah.

446
00:19:11,640 --> 00:19:14,321
Speaker 2: And then when we did Human Design with Fee and

447
00:19:14,360 --> 00:19:16,120
Speaker 2: she said, like, you have a lonely journey, you have

448
00:19:16,120 --> 00:19:17,920
Speaker 2: a lonely soul, I was like, I feel that with

449
00:19:17,961 --> 00:19:20,400
Speaker 2: every answer my being. It doesn't matter if I'm surrounded

450
00:19:20,441 --> 00:19:22,120
Speaker 2: by people, there's always an inkling in the back of

451
00:19:22,120 --> 00:19:22,561
Speaker 2: my head.

452
00:19:22,441 --> 00:19:23,440
Speaker 1: That comes up. Wow.

453
00:19:24,201 --> 00:19:25,641
Speaker 3: Yeah, not always. Not now.

454
00:19:25,640 --> 00:19:29,680
Speaker 2: I have more fulfilling relationships now that really soothe that

455
00:19:29,721 --> 00:19:31,960
Speaker 2: part of me. But like, over the years, it's definitely

456
00:19:31,961 --> 00:19:35,041
Speaker 2: been heavy. Yeah yeah you yeah.

457
00:19:35,160 --> 00:19:40,440
Speaker 1: Yeah. So ex partner, if you're listening to this, thanks, No, no, no, no,

458
00:19:40,801 --> 00:19:41,400
Speaker 1: not that it was.

459
00:19:44,120 --> 00:19:47,241
Speaker 2: And he didn't do anything like it was a great relationship.

460
00:19:47,481 --> 00:19:50,680
Speaker 2: We had some challenges and some hurdles and things that

461
00:19:50,681 --> 00:19:51,801
Speaker 2: we couldn't work out together.

462
00:19:56,160 --> 00:19:59,001
Speaker 1: Fay, That's all I have to say about that. But

463
00:19:59,041 --> 00:20:04,001
Speaker 1: if you're listening well, you're welcome insight to my mind. Yeah.

464
00:20:04,041 --> 00:20:06,880
Speaker 1: But anyway, and someone says like he didn't do anything,

465
00:20:06,921 --> 00:20:12,120
Speaker 1: I'm like, yeah, that's the problem. He didn't do enough. Yeah,

466
00:20:12,120 --> 00:20:14,400
Speaker 1: he didn't step up, he didn't do the work, he

467
00:20:14,600 --> 00:20:17,761
Speaker 1: wasn't willing. Yeah. It sounds nice when you say like, oh,

468
00:20:17,880 --> 00:20:20,480
Speaker 1: he didn't do anything wrong. Yeah, but he also didn't

469
00:20:20,481 --> 00:20:24,521
Speaker 1: do anything to make that yeah commitment and make it work.

470
00:20:24,600 --> 00:20:26,441
Speaker 2: I know, I get that, and I think, like I've

471
00:20:26,521 --> 00:20:29,001
Speaker 2: just sat with it so many times that I kind

472
00:20:29,001 --> 00:20:31,241
Speaker 2: of have been through the whole anger and been through

473
00:20:31,241 --> 00:20:33,641
Speaker 2: the frustration, and been through the why couldn't you have

474
00:20:34,201 --> 00:20:36,521
Speaker 2: you know, stepped up or met me where I needed

475
00:20:36,521 --> 00:20:37,080
Speaker 2: you to meet me.

476
00:20:37,360 --> 00:20:39,521
Speaker 3: But this is not how I choose to remember him.

477
00:20:39,761 --> 00:20:41,001
Speaker 2: You know, it's not what I want to choose to

478
00:20:41,001 --> 00:20:42,720
Speaker 2: hold on to any more because it only punishes me

479
00:20:43,400 --> 00:20:45,681
Speaker 2: and it makes me paint him to be the villain

480
00:20:45,721 --> 00:20:46,600
Speaker 2: and I don't want to do that.

481
00:20:47,080 --> 00:20:49,521
Speaker 1: You know, you just an acceptance. Acceptance.

482
00:20:49,640 --> 00:20:51,801
Speaker 2: It doesn't mean that hurt isn't there, Yes, you know,

483
00:20:52,080 --> 00:20:55,400
Speaker 2: for a multitude of reasons, but it's just it's not

484
00:20:55,441 --> 00:20:57,321
Speaker 2: what I want to hold on to. No grateful for

485
00:20:57,321 --> 00:21:00,041
Speaker 2: the experience, I have him changed me as a woman

486
00:21:00,481 --> 00:21:01,201
Speaker 2: in the best way.

487
00:21:01,281 --> 00:21:03,960
Speaker 1: And even when you meet your person, yeah, like you

488
00:21:04,080 --> 00:21:06,600
Speaker 1: know that chapter had happen otherwise you wouldn't have the

489
00:21:06,640 --> 00:21:09,201
Speaker 1: relationship you've got with that man. You know, you look

490
00:21:09,241 --> 00:21:11,120
Speaker 1: back and be like, wow, I really needed that. I did.

491
00:21:11,281 --> 00:21:13,281
Speaker 2: I honestly I grew so much as a woman from

492
00:21:13,281 --> 00:21:15,761
Speaker 2: that relationship. Anyway, we're going on a super tangent.

493
00:21:15,840 --> 00:21:19,801
Speaker 1: But that's where the gratitude comes in though, and that's done. Yeah, yeah.

494
00:21:19,880 --> 00:21:22,001
Speaker 2: Do you truly believe that everything happens for a reason

495
00:21:22,120 --> 00:21:24,401
Speaker 2: or do we give things meaning afterwards?

496
00:21:24,961 --> 00:21:27,120
Speaker 1: No? I think everything happens for a reason. Yeah, okay,

497
00:21:27,201 --> 00:21:30,081
Speaker 1: for a purpose. I think I truly do believe life

498
00:21:30,080 --> 00:21:33,920
Speaker 1: happens for us. Even like we did a beautiful balancing

499
00:21:34,281 --> 00:21:36,360
Speaker 1: what do you call it, not ceremony with Lewis, what

500
00:21:36,400 --> 00:21:38,120
Speaker 1: do you call it? Therapy session?

501
00:21:38,721 --> 00:21:39,640
Speaker 3: It was a therapy session.

502
00:21:39,640 --> 00:21:39,920
Speaker 1: Therapy.

503
00:21:40,241 --> 00:21:41,641
Speaker 3: We were crying our eyes out.

504
00:21:41,600 --> 00:21:44,281
Speaker 1: Yeah, but it was just like we had to pinpoint

505
00:21:44,481 --> 00:21:46,640
Speaker 1: a really painful moment in our life. And this is

506
00:21:46,681 --> 00:21:48,200
Speaker 1: even then, it was just more evidence for me of

507
00:21:48,481 --> 00:21:54,081
Speaker 1: everything happened for me, every micro moment, huge moment, every challenge,

508
00:21:54,120 --> 00:21:58,080
Speaker 1: every rejection, every redirection. I would not be who I like.

509
00:21:58,120 --> 00:21:59,761
Speaker 1: I wouldn't be in the studio talking to you. I

510
00:21:59,761 --> 00:22:01,801
Speaker 1: wouldn't be who I am. I wouldn't have people in

511
00:22:01,801 --> 00:22:03,200
Speaker 1: my life. I wouldn't have the kids, it wouldn't have

512
00:22:03,241 --> 00:22:05,840
Speaker 1: any of it. If all of those things happen, I

513
00:22:05,840 --> 00:22:07,640
Speaker 1: feel like the universe does always have our back and

514
00:22:07,681 --> 00:22:09,880
Speaker 1: it's always tends up ahead of us. Yeah. I truly

515
00:22:09,921 --> 00:22:11,840
Speaker 1: do trust that. So, yeah, I do think everything happens

516
00:22:11,840 --> 00:22:13,640
Speaker 1: for a reason, and that's how I choose to live

517
00:22:13,681 --> 00:22:17,081
Speaker 1: my life. I just trust everyone. Shit's going down, I'm like, oh, man,

518
00:22:17,120 --> 00:22:18,480
Speaker 1: I don't know why this is not that that I

519
00:22:18,561 --> 00:22:20,241
Speaker 1: fucking know there's a high reason why.

520
00:22:20,441 --> 00:22:21,001
Speaker 3: Oh why.

521
00:22:21,880 --> 00:22:23,761
Speaker 1: I know that there is going to be a reason why.

522
00:22:23,801 --> 00:22:25,921
Speaker 1: And in three months, six months, nine months, twelve months,

523
00:22:25,961 --> 00:22:28,721
Speaker 1: I will look back and like, oh that's why. Yeah,

524
00:22:28,761 --> 00:22:30,241
Speaker 1: oh my gosh. If that didn't happen, I wouldn't be

525
00:22:30,241 --> 00:22:32,440
Speaker 1: here now this. I wouldn't be having this conversation. Yeah,

526
00:22:32,481 --> 00:22:34,481
Speaker 1: I wouldn't have remembered that. I wouldn't have learnt that.

527
00:22:34,880 --> 00:22:37,721
Speaker 1: Thank you. And I'm always thinking the universe. Hindsight is

528
00:22:37,721 --> 00:22:40,041
Speaker 1: such a beautiful thing, isn't it. If you truly trust

529
00:22:40,041 --> 00:22:42,401
Speaker 1: and believe that like life just isn't as painful. It's

530
00:22:42,400 --> 00:22:44,441
Speaker 1: not as painful. It's so true it can move through

531
00:22:44,481 --> 00:22:46,160
Speaker 1: it with a little bit more ease. It doesn't mean

532
00:22:46,201 --> 00:22:49,160
Speaker 1: pain's not there, frustration is not there. All those human

533
00:22:49,360 --> 00:22:51,121
Speaker 1: emotions are going to be there. You're a human, You're

534
00:22:51,120 --> 00:22:54,200
Speaker 1: not a fucking robot. But when you truly believe that

535
00:22:54,241 --> 00:22:56,601
Speaker 1: there's light there and there's a reason why it's happening,

536
00:22:57,041 --> 00:22:57,600
Speaker 1: you get through.

537
00:22:57,600 --> 00:22:59,801
Speaker 2: It just means like it's not excruciating and you don't

538
00:22:59,801 --> 00:23:02,961
Speaker 2: fall into victim either, yes, because that doesn't save you. No,

539
00:23:03,281 --> 00:23:05,041
Speaker 2: it gets stuck there real quick's stuck there.

540
00:23:05,120 --> 00:23:05,600
Speaker 3: Yeah.

541
00:23:05,721 --> 00:23:10,360
Speaker 1: Yeah, What's something about me that's impacted you that you've

542
00:23:10,400 --> 00:23:12,600
Speaker 1: never told me? All in a negative way or a

543
00:23:12,600 --> 00:23:14,561
Speaker 1: positive way I ever told you? Yeah, So it could

544
00:23:14,561 --> 00:23:16,600
Speaker 1: be something I've said that you like, really upset you.

545
00:23:16,721 --> 00:23:19,121
Speaker 1: Or it could be something powerful that I've done that's

546
00:23:19,160 --> 00:23:21,881
Speaker 1: like wow, that really shaped me or helped me. Could

547
00:23:21,880 --> 00:23:24,481
Speaker 1: be either way and I can hold either of them,

548
00:23:24,561 --> 00:23:26,041
Speaker 1: so bring them in. I'm trying to think of what

549
00:23:26,080 --> 00:23:27,561
Speaker 1: I haven't actively voiced to you.

550
00:23:27,761 --> 00:23:31,841
Speaker 3: I could just tell you in the moment your decision

551
00:23:31,880 --> 00:23:32,920
Speaker 3: to do the podcast with me.

552
00:23:35,201 --> 00:23:35,761
Speaker 1: That's cool.

553
00:23:36,041 --> 00:23:39,680
Speaker 2: Yeah, I think that decision honestly, it was like like

554
00:23:39,761 --> 00:23:42,641
Speaker 2: our friendship and then even before the podcast, but then

555
00:23:42,681 --> 00:23:44,881
Speaker 2: that decision there, it was like it awakened something in

556
00:23:44,921 --> 00:23:47,080
Speaker 2: me that had been like lying dormant for so long,

557
00:23:47,120 --> 00:23:49,521
Speaker 2: and it just like this whole other side to me

558
00:23:49,561 --> 00:23:56,280
Speaker 2: came out. Vulnerability, openness, exploration, curiosity, like impact, drive, all

559
00:23:56,321 --> 00:23:58,041
Speaker 2: these things that were kind of already there that were

560
00:23:58,120 --> 00:24:00,321
Speaker 2: kind of stale, stale.

561
00:24:00,521 --> 00:24:02,881
Speaker 1: Yeah, all the things are doing with the podcast too,

562
00:24:02,961 --> 00:24:06,761
Speaker 1: was things that you already wanted to do. Events, impact, speaking,

563
00:24:06,840 --> 00:24:09,680
Speaker 1: kind of audience in stage or treats. Yeah, it just

564
00:24:09,801 --> 00:24:11,201
Speaker 1: kind of this is the foundation.

565
00:24:11,441 --> 00:24:13,080
Speaker 2: It's like I already knew that I wanted to do

566
00:24:13,120 --> 00:24:15,001
Speaker 2: those things, and even from a young age, knew that

567
00:24:15,041 --> 00:24:16,761
Speaker 2: I was going to be speaking on stages, but didn't

568
00:24:16,801 --> 00:24:19,160
Speaker 2: know how. I didn't know what context it was going

569
00:24:19,241 --> 00:24:22,200
Speaker 2: to be in. And so this was the thing that

570
00:24:22,360 --> 00:24:24,680
Speaker 2: was like, oh, this is the direction, this is the path.

571
00:24:24,761 --> 00:24:28,240
Speaker 2: And yeah, your decision to ask me to join you

572
00:24:28,281 --> 00:24:30,801
Speaker 2: as co host on the podcast, honestly, like it was

573
00:24:30,801 --> 00:24:33,441
Speaker 2: a really pivotal moment in my life. Yeah, it awakened

574
00:24:33,441 --> 00:24:34,001
Speaker 2: so much to me.

575
00:24:34,441 --> 00:24:38,600
Speaker 1: So cool, Yeah, I love that. Ooh, okay, are you ready?

576
00:24:38,761 --> 00:24:38,961
Speaker 2: Yeah?

577
00:24:39,201 --> 00:24:41,360
Speaker 3: I think no, it's okay.

578
00:24:41,801 --> 00:24:45,081
Speaker 2: What's a past version of you that deserves more compassion?

579
00:24:47,201 --> 00:24:49,321
Speaker 1: Do things come to mind? So either one of these,

580
00:24:49,761 --> 00:24:52,360
Speaker 1: I'll speak on both of them. I think just a

581
00:24:52,360 --> 00:24:54,440
Speaker 1: little girl so badly wanted to be loved by a

582
00:24:54,561 --> 00:24:57,521
Speaker 1: father figure. I look back, I'm like, how the fuck

583
00:24:57,600 --> 00:25:00,600
Speaker 1: did I process that as a little girl, Like my

584
00:25:00,721 --> 00:25:04,600
Speaker 1: father walking out signing custody papers like he's taking a

585
00:25:04,640 --> 00:25:07,041
Speaker 1: sip of the coffee, No big deal, done, no fight,

586
00:25:07,201 --> 00:25:09,721
Speaker 1: like doesn't need to do with us. And then this

587
00:25:09,840 --> 00:25:13,281
Speaker 1: stepdad that just fucking hated my guts, Like talk about

588
00:25:13,321 --> 00:25:17,240
Speaker 1: abandon and a rejection and not two men that didn't

589
00:25:17,281 --> 00:25:17,761
Speaker 1: care for me.

590
00:25:17,880 --> 00:25:18,080
Speaker 2: You know.

591
00:25:18,801 --> 00:25:20,321
Speaker 1: Yeah, I wish I gave my little girl so much

592
00:25:20,360 --> 00:25:23,160
Speaker 1: more luve back then, and that's my work now. And

593
00:25:23,201 --> 00:25:26,440
Speaker 1: then also just the younger version of myself that was

594
00:25:26,481 --> 00:25:29,761
Speaker 1: going through all the online trolling that was really hard.

595
00:25:30,160 --> 00:25:32,120
Speaker 1: I don't think I held myself very well in that

596
00:25:32,481 --> 00:25:34,960
Speaker 1: or like allowed myself to be in the pain. I

597
00:25:35,001 --> 00:25:37,001
Speaker 1: just tried to like push it aside and pretend everything

598
00:25:37,080 --> 00:25:40,880
Speaker 1: was okay, but it's so was not okay. Yeah, So

599
00:25:40,921 --> 00:25:46,080
Speaker 1: I think those two moments, those chapters. Yeah, moments like

600
00:25:46,120 --> 00:25:49,481
Speaker 1: those chapters in my life were really hard. I look back,

601
00:25:49,521 --> 00:25:51,561
Speaker 1: I'm like, oh gosh, I just want to give you

602
00:25:51,600 --> 00:25:52,360
Speaker 1: the biggest hug.

603
00:25:52,640 --> 00:25:52,920
Speaker 3: Yeah.

604
00:25:53,281 --> 00:25:54,921
Speaker 1: Yeah, I wish someone came and gave me.

605
00:25:54,880 --> 00:25:56,241
Speaker 3: A big heart. You told you it was going to

606
00:25:56,281 --> 00:25:56,680
Speaker 3: be okay.

607
00:25:56,801 --> 00:25:59,680
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, and I'm sure they did, but I didn't

608
00:25:59,681 --> 00:26:00,161
Speaker 1: believe it.

609
00:26:00,281 --> 00:26:03,120
Speaker 2: So yeah, do what you had to in the moment

610
00:26:03,160 --> 00:26:06,840
Speaker 2: to survive full survival. Yeah, so much resilience for both

611
00:26:06,840 --> 00:26:07,841
Speaker 2: of those experiences.

612
00:26:08,080 --> 00:26:10,121
Speaker 3: Yeah, three of the experiences.

613
00:26:09,640 --> 00:26:12,561
Speaker 1: For sure. If you're in a child could ask me something,

614
00:26:12,840 --> 00:26:15,120
Speaker 1: what do you think it would be? I think if

615
00:26:15,160 --> 00:26:17,080
Speaker 1: I was answering that to you, I would ask you

616
00:26:17,080 --> 00:26:18,001
Speaker 1: if I'm going to be okay?

617
00:26:18,840 --> 00:26:19,400
Speaker 3: Yeah, okay.

618
00:26:19,400 --> 00:26:20,801
Speaker 1: A little girl would look up to you because you'd

619
00:26:20,840 --> 00:26:22,400
Speaker 1: be someone I would be inspired by and see you

620
00:26:22,441 --> 00:26:24,801
Speaker 1: doing great things, right, Okay, be like, oh my gosh,

621
00:26:24,840 --> 00:26:25,600
Speaker 1: am I going to be okay?

622
00:26:25,600 --> 00:26:25,840
Speaker 3: Okay?

623
00:26:25,880 --> 00:26:28,001
Speaker 1: That helps me have context. Yeah, yeah, I'm going to

624
00:26:28,041 --> 00:26:30,640
Speaker 1: be okay, Okay, what did your little girl want to

625
00:26:30,801 --> 00:26:34,600
Speaker 1: ask me? Is it safe to be myselfiful?

626
00:26:34,600 --> 00:26:35,600
Speaker 3: I don't know why that just came.

627
00:26:36,041 --> 00:26:39,640
Speaker 2: Yeahful, Like the word play came into mind, And then

628
00:26:39,681 --> 00:26:40,961
Speaker 2: the words can I play?

629
00:26:41,681 --> 00:26:44,001
Speaker 1: Is it safe to be myself? Is it safe to play? Yeah?

630
00:26:44,041 --> 00:26:48,481
Speaker 1: That's cool. Yeah, random, so cool question, that's so cool.

631
00:26:48,721 --> 00:26:51,321
Speaker 3: Love We don't we were sucker for them?

632
00:26:51,441 --> 00:26:53,561
Speaker 1: Yeah? Okay.

633
00:26:53,801 --> 00:26:56,160
Speaker 3: Most recently, what has made you feel the most alive?

634
00:27:01,201 --> 00:27:11,761
Speaker 1: Oh? Just sex? Yeah? Yeah, yeah, intimacy. Yeah, with Steve,

635
00:27:11,961 --> 00:27:16,561
Speaker 1: just exploring and deepening our connection. It makes me feel

636
00:27:16,600 --> 00:27:18,400
Speaker 1: so alive. Yeah, Like I actually feel like I have

637
00:27:18,400 --> 00:27:20,921
Speaker 1: an addiction at the moment. I can't get enough. That's

638
00:27:20,961 --> 00:27:23,881
Speaker 1: all I think about. We're just so connected right now.

639
00:27:24,321 --> 00:27:26,520
Speaker 3: Really good season between you two, really good season.

640
00:27:26,840 --> 00:27:30,720
Speaker 1: Yeah. Our communications, where we're at, we talk about it

641
00:27:30,761 --> 00:27:32,561
Speaker 1: all the time. We're like, oh, look at us at

642
00:27:32,600 --> 00:27:34,880
Speaker 1: like five years ago, ten years ago, fifteen years ago.

643
00:27:34,961 --> 00:27:39,161
Speaker 1: I'm like, whoa, what were we doing? How do we survive?

644
00:27:39,360 --> 00:27:39,680
Speaker 3: Yeah?

645
00:27:40,241 --> 00:27:42,681
Speaker 1: Like where we're our heads at, how do we get

646
00:27:42,681 --> 00:27:45,561
Speaker 1: by communicating the way that we did. We're never abusive

647
00:27:45,561 --> 00:27:48,561
Speaker 1: to each other or anything, but just how far we've come, say,

648
00:27:48,521 --> 00:27:52,080
Speaker 1: if we feel, how ground we are within ourselves, the

649
00:27:52,160 --> 00:27:55,480
Speaker 1: level of safety, the level of trust, it's just so

650
00:27:55,561 --> 00:27:58,561
Speaker 1: different now. And yeah, the last couple of months, that

651
00:27:58,840 --> 00:28:01,721
Speaker 1: beautiful energy has just brought us so close that our

652
00:28:01,761 --> 00:28:04,561
Speaker 1: intimacy has just deepened, and I feel so alive.

653
00:28:05,080 --> 00:28:07,440
Speaker 2: That's beautiful, cool, and it's so beautiful as well to

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Speaker 2: see you guys after seventeen years together show that it

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Speaker 2: is possible, right, that is possible to deepen and connect

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Speaker 2: and for it to increasingly get better with time, as

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Speaker 2: opposed to the usual story that you hear, which is

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Speaker 2: that you know, people get more and more disconnected with time. Like,

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Speaker 2: it's very rare that you hear people have really strong,

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Speaker 2: bonded relationships, and it's just such beautiful evidence to see it.

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Speaker 1: I always talk about to like the deaths of old marriage,

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Speaker 1: and I feel that it's like we're in a new

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Speaker 1: marriage again.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, that's cool.

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Speaker 1: I feel like we've had eight different marriages in the

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Speaker 1: seventeen years, Like this is like a new one. We

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Speaker 1: feel like honeymooners.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, like he's reintroducing your new selves to each other.

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Speaker 3: Yeah. Yeah, I love the honeymoon stage fear.

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Speaker 1: Yeah. He's just such a different man to who he

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Speaker 1: was a year ago and to five years ago and

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Speaker 1: who you were a year Yeah, And I just love

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Speaker 1: him so much as he is now. I've loved him

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Speaker 1: in all stages, but this is like the most safest,

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Speaker 1: deeply connected that I've ever felt to him. Wow, which

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Speaker 1: is really powerful, powerful, so cool, makes you so happy?

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Speaker 3: Oh I love that.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, I love feel very lucky, very blessed. And it's

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Speaker 1: cool our kids get to see this too. Yeah, as

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Speaker 1: they grow up, you do hear of that, Like I'm

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Speaker 1: being together for ages, like you don't make the effort

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Speaker 1: and the spark's gone and.

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Speaker 3: People hate each other, hate each other.

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Speaker 1: The sex gets boring and it's like just so the

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Speaker 1: opposite for us, which is really cool.

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Speaker 3: It's cool.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, feeling alive. I love that. So cool.

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Speaker 3: Well, thank you for joining us, guys. That's all for

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Speaker 3: the questions we have today.

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Speaker 2: We thought it'd just be super fun and I love

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Speaker 2: these questions when they're super raw and just you never

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Speaker 2: know what to.

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Speaker 1: Expect, you know, I don't know what's going to come up.

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Speaker 2: Hey, the most raw, authentic off the casp answers always

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Speaker 2: come out, and I feel like there's always such really

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Speaker 2: good nuggets in those.

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Speaker 1: It is. Thank you for joining us, and yeah, you

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Speaker 1: can always go back, rewind and write these questions down

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Speaker 1: and do them with your girlfriends like why not? Yeah,

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Speaker 1: so fun, so much fun. Thank you for us, we'll

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Speaker 1: see you on the next one. Bye bye,