WEBVTT - Happy ending? NOT SO HAPPY ENDING?! 🥺🔞🍆

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<v Speaker 1>Appologie production.

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<v Speaker 2>I need your advice.

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<v Speaker 1>Are you okay? What happened? Promise it won't be too much.

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<v Speaker 1>Bring it in.

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<v Speaker 2>Welcome to our bestie segment, my girl, this is the

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<v Speaker 2>place for you.

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<v Speaker 1>Hello everybody, Welcome back to another bestie segment. Today is

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<v Speaker 1>quite a long story, so buckle in, but it's a

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<v Speaker 1>very interesting one. I feel like we're going to have

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<v Speaker 1>very interesting perspectives on this. Yeah, but thank you once

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<v Speaker 1>again for being so open and vulnerable. If you're new here,

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<v Speaker 1>we're in your ears four times a week and on

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<v Speaker 1>a Tuesday. It is a bestI advice segment. So basically,

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<v Speaker 1>for anyone who wants our perspective on something, maybe you

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<v Speaker 1>don't have a close circle of friends around you. Maybe

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<v Speaker 1>it's something you want to keep it a bit harsh because

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<v Speaker 1>it's your close circle. You don't want to knowing all

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<v Speaker 1>the details or something, but you want an outside person's perspective.

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<v Speaker 1>Take with a grain of salt or hopefully it lands.

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<v Speaker 1>But get into today's episode. Let's do it. My amazing husband,

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<v Speaker 1>who was a very involved father, partner and the absolute

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<v Speaker 1>love of my life, was recently offered a happy ending

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<v Speaker 1>slash hand job at an Asian massage shop. Bearing in

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<v Speaker 1>mind both of us have used the same establishment for

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<v Speaker 1>deep tissue massages and found it completely above board and

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<v Speaker 1>fine in the past. Without thinking, he said yes. As

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<v Speaker 1>the massagers started to get closer to his package and

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<v Speaker 1>he had become erect after a minute or two of

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<v Speaker 1>the hand job, it was obvious his post massage erection

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<v Speaker 1>was fading as he now was actually realizing the enormity

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<v Speaker 1>of his choice. The therapist then began to perform oral

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<v Speaker 1>sex on him without asking. After thirty seconds or so,

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<v Speaker 1>he asked her to stop. It was clear he couldn't

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<v Speaker 1>become erect again, and he also knew he'd made a

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<v Speaker 1>really poor choice. He tells me that when he said

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<v Speaker 1>yes initially, he said yes with curiosity and not much

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<v Speaker 1>other thought. Delving into this moor, he also felt a

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<v Speaker 1>desire to have attention spent on him, as a level

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<v Speaker 1>of intimacy in our relationship was a little low at

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<v Speaker 1>that time, whilst we were fairly stressed and sleep deprived

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<v Speaker 1>from having kids and hectic work schedules. He tells me

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<v Speaker 1>he had zero emotional or physical connection to that therapist,

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<v Speaker 1>and I believe that upon leaving, he was asked to

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<v Speaker 1>pay two hundred and fifty dollars cash on top of

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<v Speaker 1>his regular massage fee, despite no actual happy ending, and

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<v Speaker 1>went home feeling so much shame that he got straight

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<v Speaker 1>into the shower and proceeded to catastrophize for the next

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<v Speaker 1>fortnight about how he should tell me and how he

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<v Speaker 1>might lose me and our two kids under six due

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<v Speaker 1>to his poor choice. By the time he told me

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<v Speaker 1>what had happened, a fortnight had passed, and in that

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<v Speaker 1>time he'd been driven to the point of planning his

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<v Speaker 1>own suicide as a workplace accident to avoid the shame

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<v Speaker 1>he felt that he was going to be bringing into

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<v Speaker 1>our relationship to further his psychological stress. He had a

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<v Speaker 1>rash pop up on his genitals and rushed to the

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<v Speaker 1>GP for an STI screening. When he finally told me

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<v Speaker 1>this information, after a fortnight of his intense anxiety and

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<v Speaker 1>being completely alone in all, I was deeply shocked. The

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<v Speaker 1>hardest part was also knowing he waited a whole fortnight

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<v Speaker 1>to tell and what he had gone through was all alone.

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<v Speaker 1>We previously both had loyalty as a true call value,

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<v Speaker 1>and in the ten years we been together married and

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<v Speaker 1>had kids, not once had I ever seen him look

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<v Speaker 1>at another woman in the form of attraction, etc. Given

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<v Speaker 1>my gauge on who I believe him to be, I

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<v Speaker 1>chose to respond with compassion for him a man who

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<v Speaker 1>was a good man who made a bad choice, and

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<v Speaker 1>it had paid for his choice over the last fortnight,

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<v Speaker 1>where he clearly was not himself, was not sleeping well.

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<v Speaker 1>I had noticed that, but thought it might have been

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<v Speaker 1>just general stress, and had even considered on how to

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<v Speaker 1>take his own life and make it look like a

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<v Speaker 1>workplace accident, so shame was not brought to our relationship

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<v Speaker 1>for his choice. In the moment, I hugged him, I

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<v Speaker 1>told him that it was going to be all okay,

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<v Speaker 1>and I was so relieved he hadn't ended his life.

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<v Speaker 1>I was also relieved that the cheating was more of

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<v Speaker 1>a business transaction than a true emotional or attraction based affair,

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<v Speaker 1>where I would have been one hundred percent done with

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<v Speaker 1>a relationship. He cried and was very emotional. He was

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<v Speaker 1>also very open with me. He told me he was

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<v Speaker 1>willing to answer any questions I might have now or

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<v Speaker 1>even in the years to come, as he realized these

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<v Speaker 1>could still pop up. He told me he takes one

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<v Speaker 1>hundred percent responsibility and his choice wasn't a reflection of

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<v Speaker 1>our relationship. He was very surprised I decided to stay

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<v Speaker 1>and work through this together, as his inner critic is

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<v Speaker 1>often very loud and had convinced him that I would

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<v Speaker 1>leave him. I think I surprised myself too, but I

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<v Speaker 1>also could see that this could either break us or

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<v Speaker 1>make us stronger as a couple, and the perhaps we

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<v Speaker 1>needed to really take stock of each other's needs that

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<v Speaker 1>maybe might not be getting met prior to this incident,

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<v Speaker 1>which he was very sure to totally take one hundred

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<v Speaker 1>percent responsibility for his choices. After a few months of

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<v Speaker 1>me processing and coming to terms, I felt able to

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<v Speaker 1>be intimate with him once again, and our relationship has

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<v Speaker 1>healed stronger than it ever has before. We've both grown

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<v Speaker 1>in terms of being able to voice what our needs

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<v Speaker 1>are and not push them aside. We've become better communicators,

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<v Speaker 1>and I'm truly glad that I made the decision that

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<v Speaker 1>I did in staying. We have both had individual and

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<v Speaker 1>couples counseling around all and it wasn't easy at times,

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<v Speaker 1>but I'm glad I made the choice that I did.

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<v Speaker 1>We've both been cheated on in the past, and so

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<v Speaker 1>this was always a hard no for both of us.

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<v Speaker 1>So it's totally new territory for me to be able

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<v Speaker 1>to allow any kind of rule bending. I definitely have

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<v Speaker 1>left if it was an emotional connection, or if it

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<v Speaker 1>didn't show the devastation and responsibility of his choice. But

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<v Speaker 1>my question is what would you girls do in this situation?

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<v Speaker 1>And I wonder if these dodging massage shops are more

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<v Speaker 1>common than we realize. Question Mark. I'm interested to hear

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<v Speaker 1>all of your thoughts or what I realized might be

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<v Speaker 1>a controversial choice that I have made. I'm sorry for

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<v Speaker 1>the long story. Firstly, You've got nothing to be sorry about.

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<v Speaker 1>We actually much prefer long stories and more context. We

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<v Speaker 1>love it. We feel like we can give better advice.

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<v Speaker 1>Everyone writes in two sentences. We're like, we don't have

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<v Speaker 1>enough context in your opinion, you know. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 2>Firstly, Wow, For one, you sound very self aware, which

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<v Speaker 2>is amazing, and it sounds like, even in the beginning

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<v Speaker 2>of your relationship, like you guys have a very strong foundation.

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<v Speaker 2>You've made a very conscious choice to be with each other,

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<v Speaker 2>which is the first thing.

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<v Speaker 1>I thing what you guys have been through is so inspiring.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm in awe of you both. I think even the

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<v Speaker 1>way you said, like a good human made a bad choice,

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<v Speaker 1>I just think you've navigated this so beautifully, both of you.

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<v Speaker 1>Like you both sound like such fucking amazing humans, so

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<v Speaker 1>self aware. He took full responsibility. Yeah, he made a

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<v Speaker 1>bad choice, but it was over very, very quickly. And

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<v Speaker 1>I just think you've done it perfectly. Yeah, I didn't

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<v Speaker 1>even have any further advice of I would have done this,

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<v Speaker 1>I would have done that. I think I probably would

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<v Speaker 1>have done exactly what you've done. Yeah, although I think

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<v Speaker 1>I probably would have had a bit more anger first

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<v Speaker 1>finding out, but then in saying that if your partner

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<v Speaker 1>is saying they were planning to commit suicide, maybe I wouldn't. Yes,

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<v Speaker 1>that's so freaking sad yeh. And with the ghost show,

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<v Speaker 1>how much he regretted his decision, how much he cares

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<v Speaker 1>for you and the relationship. And I just think you

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<v Speaker 1>guys have navigated this so beautifully. I'm so glad you

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<v Speaker 1>sent this in. Yeah, well freaking done.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, that's not an easy thing to have to navigate.

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<v Speaker 2>So it's really not and it's as you can tell.

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<v Speaker 2>You can see that you've taken time to really make

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<v Speaker 2>the decision that you've made, and to think about it

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<v Speaker 2>and to make sure that you're not making any irrational decisions,

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<v Speaker 2>making any decision based off emotion. And you know the

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<v Speaker 2>fact that you guys have gone to counseling and you've

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<v Speaker 2>addressed it with a third party, with the mediator, is

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<v Speaker 2>a really good way to go about things when you're

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<v Speaker 2>navigating with relationship struggles. I think that's really cool. I

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<v Speaker 2>feel like I have betrayal wounds and things like that,

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<v Speaker 2>so I think for me, I definitely would have allowed

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<v Speaker 2>myself to process more of the anger and to be

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<v Speaker 2>seen in the hurt. And I feel like you, by

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<v Speaker 2>the sounds of it, it sounds like you did do that. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>I would agree with Actually, I feel like I would

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<v Speaker 2>have a lot of anger and stuff like that I

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<v Speaker 2>would have need to work through. But also the good

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<v Speaker 2>human making a bad choice. And I think we're not

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<v Speaker 2>perfect humans. We fuck up, we make mistakes, and I

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<v Speaker 2>think there's the reality of it is that no one

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<v Speaker 2>is perfect in any given relationship, and we are in

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<v Speaker 2>some way gonna hurt our partners even if we don't

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<v Speaker 2>mean to. And yeah, I just think that it did

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<v Speaker 2>really well.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, yeah, it's a tricky situation. I think you

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<v Speaker 1>guys did so well.

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<v Speaker 2>I think it's cool that you reacted based on the

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<v Speaker 2>caliber of the situation. You know within yourself that if

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<v Speaker 2>he had cheated and it was emotional connection and genuinely

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<v Speaker 2>had like an affair, then you would be like, that's

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<v Speaker 2>my limit, that's my boundary, I'm out. But given the

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<v Speaker 2>situation and he came to in the moment and realized,

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<v Speaker 2>oh shit, I've made a really terrible decision and it

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<v Speaker 2>lasted thirty seconds or it happened in the spur.

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<v Speaker 1>Of the moment, and it caught himself.

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<v Speaker 2>Came from curiosity, he caught himself. Yeah, it took accountability

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<v Speaker 2>for that in the moment and obviously stopped things.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, and then came to you after. I think every

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<v Speaker 1>relationship too, goes through so many different things, like when

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<v Speaker 1>you're in a long term relationship. I haven't ever been

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<v Speaker 1>through cheating, but I do believe everyone is capable of change,

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<v Speaker 1>and everyone is capable of making mistakes. You know your

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<v Speaker 1>strong boundaries. Like for me, definitely, emotional connection of cheating

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<v Speaker 1>would be an absolutely, I couldn't go back from that.

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<v Speaker 1>But something like this, I think I think I would

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<v Speaker 1>have done what you've done, and I think I would

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<v Speaker 1>have stayed and all the evidence of ten years of

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<v Speaker 1>amazing relationship with strong foundations, and you know what, sometimes

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<v Speaker 1>sometimes shit happens and breaks down so that you guys

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<v Speaker 1>can work through things. And it actually brings so much

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<v Speaker 1>more to the table as to what was underneath all

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<v Speaker 1>of this reading in that you guys were not intimate,

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<v Speaker 1>you were stressed, you were tired, and you weren't pouring

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<v Speaker 1>into each other, and then that curiosity to get the

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<v Speaker 1>better of him. So now it's like, Okay, you've learned

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<v Speaker 1>how to communicate. You now know what your needs are,

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<v Speaker 1>what his needs are. You're going to talk about that

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<v Speaker 1>all the time as your season has changed, and that's

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<v Speaker 1>really cool. Now that's a skill you probably didn't have before.

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<v Speaker 1>So it's like everything happens for a reason. So much

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<v Speaker 1>good can come from mess and chaos and shitty situations.

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<v Speaker 1>You can learn so much from it and grow so

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<v Speaker 1>much from it. And that's what you guys have done.

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<v Speaker 1>That's really cool. I love that. I admire both of you.

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<v Speaker 1>It's really cool. That's awesome. Yeah, so thanks for saying

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<v Speaker 1>in and well done, and yeah, you asked what we

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<v Speaker 1>would do. I would have done exactly what you've done.

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<v Speaker 1>Very cool, King and Queen. Well done guy, Thanks for

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<v Speaker 1>joining us and was he tomorrow? Bye bye