1 00:00:00,400 --> 00:00:03,080 Speaker 1: Good a team. Welcome back to part two of the 2 00:00:03,080 --> 00:00:06,720 Speaker 1: Conversation with the Lovely Leila and I. If you haven't 3 00:00:06,760 --> 00:00:08,440 Speaker 1: listened to part one, you might want to go back 4 00:00:08,520 --> 00:00:10,799 Speaker 1: and do that, or you could just jump in. Of 5 00:00:10,800 --> 00:00:14,320 Speaker 1: course they're different, they're different subjects, but probably this to 6 00:00:14,320 --> 00:00:18,000 Speaker 1: part one and then this hope you enjoy it? Ready, 7 00:00:18,280 --> 00:00:23,040 Speaker 1: set go, all right, let's let's open another door. Tell 8 00:00:23,120 --> 00:00:25,560 Speaker 1: us about farmer once a while? Do you get sick of? 9 00:00:26,400 --> 00:00:28,760 Speaker 1: Do you get sick of? Like when I read all 10 00:00:28,760 --> 00:00:30,400 Speaker 1: the shit that you've done, I'm like, how do I 11 00:00:30,520 --> 00:00:31,840 Speaker 1: make this not the same? 12 00:00:32,800 --> 00:00:32,959 Speaker 2: How? 13 00:00:33,560 --> 00:00:36,680 Speaker 1: Like? Oh, so you know, tell us about your experience 14 00:00:36,720 --> 00:00:39,040 Speaker 1: on like whatever you want to tell us or not 15 00:00:39,120 --> 00:00:42,960 Speaker 1: tell us. I guess we can't talk to you. We 16 00:00:43,000 --> 00:00:45,559 Speaker 1: can't have a chat with at least mentioning that because 17 00:00:45,760 --> 00:00:47,720 Speaker 1: my audience is going to want to know a little bit. 18 00:00:47,720 --> 00:00:49,400 Speaker 1: Did you love it? Did you hate it? Was it 19 00:00:49,440 --> 00:00:52,600 Speaker 1: a fucking nightmare? How do you reflect upon it now? 20 00:00:53,240 --> 00:00:53,440 Speaker 2: Yeah? 21 00:00:53,479 --> 00:00:56,520 Speaker 3: It was? It was a really freaking weird experience. Like 22 00:00:56,560 --> 00:00:58,200 Speaker 3: and I was a baby when I was on it. 23 00:00:58,240 --> 00:01:00,360 Speaker 4: I was twenty one, like I've had you know, my 24 00:01:00,440 --> 00:01:03,360 Speaker 4: emotional intelligence was shitz. 25 00:01:03,520 --> 00:01:04,400 Speaker 1: How old are you now? 26 00:01:05,000 --> 00:01:05,880 Speaker 3: I'm thirty six. 27 00:01:06,280 --> 00:01:08,240 Speaker 1: Okay, wow, that was a while ago. 28 00:01:08,680 --> 00:01:11,960 Speaker 3: Yeah, yes, it was a while ago. And I went 29 00:01:12,000 --> 00:01:12,280 Speaker 3: on it. 30 00:01:12,440 --> 00:01:14,360 Speaker 4: My dad said he disowned me if I went on it, 31 00:01:14,440 --> 00:01:18,200 Speaker 4: which is hilarious. And I really thought, oh shit, I 32 00:01:18,200 --> 00:01:20,000 Speaker 4: shouldn't do it. But my nan was the one that 33 00:01:20,080 --> 00:01:22,679 Speaker 4: actually convinced me to do it, and she's been, you know, 34 00:01:22,720 --> 00:01:24,640 Speaker 4: a huge role model in my life. But she said, 35 00:01:25,319 --> 00:01:28,080 Speaker 4: what's the best lesson you're ever going to get in life? 36 00:01:28,160 --> 00:01:28,800 Speaker 3: Experience? 37 00:01:28,880 --> 00:01:31,160 Speaker 4: So why not go and do it and experience and 38 00:01:31,200 --> 00:01:33,759 Speaker 4: you'll you'll learn from it. So I was like, oh, okay, Radio, 39 00:01:33,880 --> 00:01:34,520 Speaker 4: I'll go do it. 40 00:01:35,720 --> 00:01:36,360 Speaker 3: And it was Yeah. 41 00:01:36,360 --> 00:01:38,039 Speaker 4: I think it was probably one of the most emotional 42 00:01:38,040 --> 00:01:39,960 Speaker 4: traumatizing experiences of my life. 43 00:01:40,080 --> 00:01:43,040 Speaker 1: Really, ah good. I'm glad I opened the door. 44 00:01:43,120 --> 00:01:47,080 Speaker 4: How so well because I was just so impressionable, like 45 00:01:47,120 --> 00:01:49,200 Speaker 4: and I just remember the first time because I didn't 46 00:01:49,400 --> 00:01:50,040 Speaker 4: my best. 47 00:01:49,800 --> 00:01:51,840 Speaker 3: Friend nominated me for it, put me in for it. 48 00:01:51,880 --> 00:01:53,600 Speaker 4: So my same best friend that I grew up through 49 00:01:53,640 --> 00:01:56,480 Speaker 4: school and she's on the Australian story with me, like 50 00:01:56,520 --> 00:01:57,760 Speaker 4: we've been best friend since. 51 00:01:57,680 --> 00:02:00,320 Speaker 1: I one that facilitated your cheating. Let's be honest. 52 00:02:00,720 --> 00:02:03,200 Speaker 3: No, it wasn't cheating. She just put my name down. 53 00:02:04,320 --> 00:02:06,840 Speaker 1: No, No, I mean the one at school who used 54 00:02:06,880 --> 00:02:08,079 Speaker 1: to the answer. 55 00:02:08,000 --> 00:02:12,079 Speaker 3: Yeah, exactly. Yeah. 56 00:02:12,120 --> 00:02:17,880 Speaker 2: Sorry, oh that kind of cheating. 57 00:02:18,080 --> 00:02:22,200 Speaker 3: Ah h yeah, that kind of cheating. Yeah, she Yeah. 58 00:02:22,240 --> 00:02:23,240 Speaker 3: So I thought I'll go on it. 59 00:02:23,280 --> 00:02:26,440 Speaker 4: And I remember seeing the person who i'd been matched with, 60 00:02:26,480 --> 00:02:28,919 Speaker 4: the farmer, walking down the stairs. That's the first time 61 00:02:28,919 --> 00:02:30,880 Speaker 4: I'd ever seen him, and like, I just thought to 62 00:02:30,919 --> 00:02:34,040 Speaker 4: myself instantly, my inter like your intuition just said to me, 63 00:02:34,280 --> 00:02:36,079 Speaker 4: you don't like him, like he's. 64 00:02:35,840 --> 00:02:37,720 Speaker 3: Not for you. 65 00:02:38,560 --> 00:02:42,160 Speaker 4: But somehow the whole experience, they convinced me that I 66 00:02:42,320 --> 00:02:47,359 Speaker 4: did because they'd already pre constructed a story for the show, 67 00:02:47,600 --> 00:02:49,280 Speaker 4: because we were going to be like a kind of 68 00:02:49,280 --> 00:02:51,040 Speaker 4: happily ever after couple. 69 00:02:52,080 --> 00:02:54,840 Speaker 1: Hang on, how on? How on? So are you telling 70 00:02:54,880 --> 00:02:58,160 Speaker 1: me that they choreographed that and that's got to be 71 00:02:58,240 --> 00:02:58,880 Speaker 1: the outcome? 72 00:02:59,360 --> 00:03:01,640 Speaker 3: Basically yeah, yeah. 73 00:03:01,280 --> 00:03:02,320 Speaker 1: Oh my god. 74 00:03:03,160 --> 00:03:04,320 Speaker 4: And you know, I don't know if that's how they 75 00:03:04,360 --> 00:03:06,919 Speaker 4: still do it now or whatever, but it's Saint God, 76 00:03:06,919 --> 00:03:09,320 Speaker 4: it wasn't before, like it was all before social media 77 00:03:09,320 --> 00:03:11,760 Speaker 4: for me, because like we would have been eaten alive 78 00:03:11,840 --> 00:03:14,520 Speaker 4: really because he picks me at the end. But we 79 00:03:14,520 --> 00:03:17,240 Speaker 4: were never we were never a couple, Like I went 80 00:03:17,280 --> 00:03:19,320 Speaker 4: and hung out with him for a week or so 81 00:03:19,520 --> 00:03:22,040 Speaker 4: between to see, you know what, you know, if we 82 00:03:22,040 --> 00:03:23,760 Speaker 4: were compatible, and we. 83 00:03:23,760 --> 00:03:25,959 Speaker 3: Just clearly weren't. We were never going to be anything. 84 00:03:26,040 --> 00:03:28,760 Speaker 4: Like he was a really party, party kind of guy, 85 00:03:28,960 --> 00:03:32,519 Speaker 4: and and I just, yeah, am not like I don't 86 00:03:32,560 --> 00:03:34,280 Speaker 4: get me wrong, I love a good time, but I wasn't. 87 00:03:34,800 --> 00:03:36,400 Speaker 4: I couldn't keep up with his level. 88 00:03:36,200 --> 00:03:39,200 Speaker 1: Of partying, right, and. 89 00:03:39,800 --> 00:03:42,400 Speaker 4: Yeah, and then I was just you know, he was 90 00:03:43,000 --> 00:03:45,080 Speaker 4: he's not a farmer now, Like he grew up on 91 00:03:45,160 --> 00:03:48,360 Speaker 4: a farm and we were. It was on his parents' farm, right, 92 00:03:48,480 --> 00:03:50,800 Speaker 4: I mean his sisters and her partner actually are the 93 00:03:51,000 --> 00:03:52,800 Speaker 4: you know, ones that run the farm. So a lot 94 00:03:52,840 --> 00:03:54,480 Speaker 4: of these farmers that are on Farmer Wants a Wife, 95 00:03:54,480 --> 00:03:58,280 Speaker 4: they're not actually farmers. They've they're probably using someone else's 96 00:03:58,320 --> 00:04:02,920 Speaker 4: farm or Yeah, it's kind of a bit you so interesting. 97 00:04:03,440 --> 00:04:07,480 Speaker 1: Yeah, calling back to Curtains, so many disappointed people. 98 00:04:07,840 --> 00:04:11,000 Speaker 4: No, like on a few episodes ago or seasons ago, 99 00:04:11,800 --> 00:04:14,520 Speaker 4: he was a builder and he wasn't he They just 100 00:04:14,560 --> 00:04:16,120 Speaker 4: put him on a farm and made him look like 101 00:04:16,120 --> 00:04:20,040 Speaker 4: a farmer. So like, I think they need to kind 102 00:04:20,040 --> 00:04:22,920 Speaker 4: of change the title to country Boy Wants a wife, 103 00:04:22,960 --> 00:04:26,880 Speaker 4: not farmer, just like getting country boys that aren't you know, 104 00:04:27,040 --> 00:04:28,279 Speaker 4: they can and some. 105 00:04:28,160 --> 00:04:30,680 Speaker 3: Of them have even like that have ended up together. 106 00:04:30,720 --> 00:04:33,359 Speaker 4: They've actually stopped working in agriculture and they've moved to 107 00:04:33,360 --> 00:04:35,520 Speaker 4: the city to be with the person that they've ended 108 00:04:35,600 --> 00:04:38,920 Speaker 4: up with. So yeah, and they took all of our 109 00:04:38,960 --> 00:04:41,000 Speaker 4: phones off as while we were filming, so I couldn't 110 00:04:41,000 --> 00:04:45,240 Speaker 4: really contact anyone to sort of run what was going 111 00:04:45,279 --> 00:04:47,080 Speaker 4: through my head with someone else, to sort. 112 00:04:46,920 --> 00:04:52,080 Speaker 3: Of clarify what I was feeling was relevant or a 113 00:04:52,160 --> 00:04:55,440 Speaker 3: different thing. So yeah, it was a very very interesting experience. 114 00:04:55,480 --> 00:04:57,360 Speaker 4: But then had I not gone on it, I wouldn't 115 00:04:57,360 --> 00:05:00,720 Speaker 4: have then gone home the day after we wrapped and 116 00:05:00,760 --> 00:05:03,120 Speaker 4: had our you know, rap party and everything and met 117 00:05:03,320 --> 00:05:04,200 Speaker 4: my now husband. 118 00:05:04,360 --> 00:05:06,440 Speaker 3: So from all things, something good comes. 119 00:05:06,440 --> 00:05:08,040 Speaker 4: And I made some really good friends out of it, 120 00:05:08,040 --> 00:05:09,560 Speaker 4: Like I ended up living with one of the other 121 00:05:09,800 --> 00:05:13,960 Speaker 4: like a contestant on the film after in Geelong and 122 00:05:14,000 --> 00:05:16,000 Speaker 4: different things. So yeah, some great things have come out 123 00:05:16,000 --> 00:05:16,839 Speaker 4: of it. 124 00:05:16,839 --> 00:05:21,920 Speaker 1: It seems like it's sure and your husband, isn't it. Yeah, 125 00:05:22,000 --> 00:05:28,880 Speaker 1: you and him are really different, really different, and I 126 00:05:28,920 --> 00:05:31,760 Speaker 1: think that's maybe that's part, not all, but part of 127 00:05:31,800 --> 00:05:32,280 Speaker 1: the magic. 128 00:05:32,400 --> 00:05:36,000 Speaker 4: Right, Yeah, Yeah, like he's he's quite happy being here 129 00:05:36,040 --> 00:05:39,320 Speaker 4: on the farm, and you know, he's sixth generation here 130 00:05:39,360 --> 00:05:43,000 Speaker 4: and he doesn't mind me going and living and. 131 00:05:42,839 --> 00:05:44,560 Speaker 3: Traveling the world and doing things. 132 00:05:44,640 --> 00:05:48,320 Speaker 4: And he's just you know, he's played at the same 133 00:05:48,320 --> 00:05:51,600 Speaker 4: footy club his whole life. And yeah, so we're very different. 134 00:05:51,640 --> 00:05:54,000 Speaker 4: He doesn't say a lot, and I say too much. 135 00:05:56,920 --> 00:06:00,840 Speaker 1: I was surprised to hear. Now, we can cut any 136 00:06:00,920 --> 00:06:03,160 Speaker 1: of this out, but let's just keep rolling. But I 137 00:06:03,200 --> 00:06:08,120 Speaker 1: was surprised to hear. Was I surprised, not majorly, but 138 00:06:08,160 --> 00:06:10,520 Speaker 1: a little bit surprised here because you're so happy, go lucky, 139 00:06:10,640 --> 00:06:16,320 Speaker 1: so you know, cheerful. You're probably not a complete extrovert, 140 00:06:16,400 --> 00:06:20,240 Speaker 1: but you seem like you are. That you suffered from 141 00:06:20,279 --> 00:06:23,760 Speaker 1: anxiety and depression or you do periodically, and you were 142 00:06:23,800 --> 00:06:26,680 Speaker 1: I don't know if you were or still are medicated. 143 00:06:26,800 --> 00:06:29,720 Speaker 1: And tell us as much or as little as you 144 00:06:29,760 --> 00:06:32,159 Speaker 1: want to about that, Leila, because I think that's kind 145 00:06:32,160 --> 00:06:34,760 Speaker 1: of broadly relevant, broadly relevant. 146 00:06:35,360 --> 00:06:38,240 Speaker 4: Yeah, and I guess I'm probably an introvert disguised as 147 00:06:38,240 --> 00:06:42,000 Speaker 4: an extrovert, Like you really know me. I actually I 148 00:06:42,040 --> 00:06:44,320 Speaker 4: probably like I shouldn't say it, but like I hate people, 149 00:06:45,040 --> 00:06:47,280 Speaker 4: I like my own company. I like my horses. That's 150 00:06:47,320 --> 00:06:51,280 Speaker 4: my meditation time. But I don't find it hard to 151 00:06:51,800 --> 00:06:54,640 Speaker 4: match other people's energy, you know. And I don't drink, 152 00:06:54,720 --> 00:06:58,480 Speaker 4: so I don't. I haven't drank for probably seven years now. 153 00:06:58,760 --> 00:07:01,640 Speaker 1: Wow, I reckon, you're I reckon. You're an ambivert. Have 154 00:07:01,720 --> 00:07:02,839 Speaker 1: you ever heard of that? No? 155 00:07:03,040 --> 00:07:03,440 Speaker 3: What's that? 156 00:07:03,800 --> 00:07:06,560 Speaker 1: An ambivert is someone who can I reckon. That's me 157 00:07:06,640 --> 00:07:09,880 Speaker 1: as well. It's like I can do both. I can 158 00:07:09,880 --> 00:07:11,840 Speaker 1: do what we're doing. I can talk to you, I 159 00:07:11,840 --> 00:07:14,360 Speaker 1: can or I can stay for three days in my 160 00:07:14,440 --> 00:07:16,960 Speaker 1: house by myself and just write shit and study and 161 00:07:17,840 --> 00:07:20,160 Speaker 1: go out and get a coffee, come home. I don't 162 00:07:20,200 --> 00:07:23,320 Speaker 1: need to talk to anyone. It's like you can do both. 163 00:07:23,440 --> 00:07:27,400 Speaker 1: But you're probably leaning. You know. The funny thing about 164 00:07:27,600 --> 00:07:31,480 Speaker 1: introversion extraversion, it's really a scale and it's not like 165 00:07:32,160 --> 00:07:35,560 Speaker 1: most people are clearly an introvert or clearly an extrovert. 166 00:07:36,280 --> 00:07:39,680 Speaker 1: But I think you, yeah, you're probably closer. Especially I 167 00:07:39,720 --> 00:07:43,320 Speaker 1: was listening to the when you won that award. You 168 00:07:43,400 --> 00:07:47,640 Speaker 1: were terrified to go up and accept like apparently you 169 00:07:47,720 --> 00:07:51,080 Speaker 1: were terrified of public speaking. Well that's that's introversion. 170 00:07:51,120 --> 00:07:55,040 Speaker 4: Yeah, yeah, And I sort of a way that I 171 00:07:55,120 --> 00:08:00,160 Speaker 4: pushed myself to get over that that terrified of being 172 00:08:00,680 --> 00:08:03,880 Speaker 4: a being in public and people looking at me. And 173 00:08:03,880 --> 00:08:05,080 Speaker 4: if he's like I was just sort of kid that 174 00:08:05,120 --> 00:08:07,480 Speaker 4: would walk into a shop and if I couldn't find something, 175 00:08:07,480 --> 00:08:08,400 Speaker 4: I'd rather walk out. 176 00:08:08,440 --> 00:08:10,360 Speaker 3: Thank some arks for where it was. 177 00:08:10,720 --> 00:08:11,040 Speaker 1: Wow. 178 00:08:11,640 --> 00:08:14,600 Speaker 4: So when I moved to Sydney for UNI, I knew 179 00:08:14,600 --> 00:08:18,160 Speaker 4: how to get to UNI the shop, like the grocery store, 180 00:08:18,560 --> 00:08:20,440 Speaker 4: work and home, and that was it. I didn't go 181 00:08:20,480 --> 00:08:22,400 Speaker 4: off that path for like six months because it was 182 00:08:22,440 --> 00:08:26,160 Speaker 4: that was my comfort zone. And then I thought, I'm 183 00:08:26,160 --> 00:08:28,160 Speaker 4: not going to get anywhere doing this. How do I 184 00:08:28,240 --> 00:08:30,600 Speaker 4: really throw it? And I'm one of those crazy people 185 00:08:30,680 --> 00:08:33,200 Speaker 4: now because I just got such a thrill out of it. 186 00:08:33,200 --> 00:08:34,520 Speaker 3: Throwing myself in the deep end. 187 00:08:34,520 --> 00:08:37,080 Speaker 4: And I wouldn't suggest this be for everyone because it's 188 00:08:37,160 --> 00:08:39,319 Speaker 4: kind of like a bit frowned upon now. But I 189 00:08:39,520 --> 00:08:43,920 Speaker 4: got into modeling and particularly sports and bikini modeling. 190 00:08:44,360 --> 00:08:45,320 Speaker 1: Wow wow. 191 00:08:45,360 --> 00:08:47,520 Speaker 4: And if I could get up on stage in front 192 00:08:47,559 --> 00:08:50,080 Speaker 4: of people and beauty pageants, if I could get up 193 00:08:50,080 --> 00:08:52,480 Speaker 4: on stage in front of people and walk around and 194 00:08:52,600 --> 00:08:55,439 Speaker 4: start to just forget about the fact that people were 195 00:08:55,440 --> 00:08:57,520 Speaker 4: looking at me, I was like I can do anything. 196 00:08:57,960 --> 00:09:00,560 Speaker 4: And that's how I broke down that barrier of just 197 00:09:00,640 --> 00:09:03,520 Speaker 4: being so terrified of people seeing me and looking at me. 198 00:09:03,559 --> 00:09:05,880 Speaker 4: It was just going, okay, well, if I can't get 199 00:09:05,960 --> 00:09:07,520 Speaker 4: up on stage and talk about people, I'm going to 200 00:09:07,600 --> 00:09:08,199 Speaker 4: go like to the. 201 00:09:08,280 --> 00:09:10,480 Speaker 3: Extreme and I'm going to be on stage in a bikini. 202 00:09:10,720 --> 00:09:14,880 Speaker 1: Wow. When did you now? I know? Correct me if 203 00:09:14,920 --> 00:09:17,840 Speaker 1: I'm wrong, because I'm recalling I think two thy and 204 00:09:17,960 --> 00:09:22,199 Speaker 1: seventeen y one Missus Australia. Firstly, what is missus Australia. 205 00:09:22,640 --> 00:09:23,920 Speaker 3: Oh, yeah, no, that's funny. 206 00:09:24,760 --> 00:09:27,440 Speaker 4: So I'd done a few pageants with friends before that 207 00:09:27,480 --> 00:09:29,840 Speaker 4: when I was in Sydney, because it's just fun. Everyone 208 00:09:29,880 --> 00:09:31,480 Speaker 4: loves to get dressed up and get in address and 209 00:09:32,080 --> 00:09:34,240 Speaker 4: wear makeup and look pretty like we're all doing it. 210 00:09:34,240 --> 00:09:35,880 Speaker 4: It was like, it's kind of thing at my girlfriend's 211 00:09:35,880 --> 00:09:37,520 Speaker 4: and I do just because we could. 212 00:09:37,960 --> 00:09:40,280 Speaker 1: It was just too But that's just Saturdays. But we'll 213 00:09:40,280 --> 00:09:41,040 Speaker 1: get to it later. 214 00:09:41,679 --> 00:09:43,080 Speaker 3: Yeah. But yeah. 215 00:09:43,080 --> 00:09:45,280 Speaker 4: Then when I started the my husband, I started our 216 00:09:45,280 --> 00:09:47,600 Speaker 4: non for profit. We're trying to work out ways of 217 00:09:47,800 --> 00:09:51,240 Speaker 4: getting it into the media and promoting mental health in 218 00:09:51,320 --> 00:09:54,000 Speaker 4: farming communities, and I thought this is good of a 219 00:09:54,000 --> 00:09:56,320 Speaker 4: platform as any I know how to speak now, like 220 00:09:56,360 --> 00:09:58,880 Speaker 4: I've done it before, how can we do it? So 221 00:09:58,960 --> 00:10:02,960 Speaker 4: I entered missus Australia and like I'd never won anything 222 00:10:03,000 --> 00:10:06,640 Speaker 4: before because I'm not as poised and as professional as 223 00:10:06,679 --> 00:10:09,400 Speaker 4: all the other girls. And yeah, probably accidentally drop the 224 00:10:09,440 --> 00:10:10,920 Speaker 4: F bomb in a speech somewhere. 225 00:10:11,440 --> 00:10:14,560 Speaker 1: Yeah, and you probably shouldn't wear those RM Williams on stage. 226 00:10:14,559 --> 00:10:16,240 Speaker 1: I don't know if that's going to be a handicap. 227 00:10:16,640 --> 00:10:16,960 Speaker 3: Yeah. 228 00:10:17,000 --> 00:10:19,440 Speaker 4: Well yeah, but then it was very Australian and that's 229 00:10:19,480 --> 00:10:22,160 Speaker 4: why they picked me because I was what they see 230 00:10:22,280 --> 00:10:24,520 Speaker 4: the quin Central Australia. 231 00:10:24,600 --> 00:10:26,240 Speaker 3: My accent paid off for once. 232 00:10:28,000 --> 00:10:31,400 Speaker 1: Excuse my ignorance, But is it What I was going 233 00:10:31,480 --> 00:10:33,600 Speaker 1: to say, is that a beauty pageant is what is 234 00:10:33,640 --> 00:10:35,439 Speaker 1: it judged on? That's a much better question. 235 00:10:35,960 --> 00:10:36,320 Speaker 3: Yeah. 236 00:10:36,360 --> 00:10:40,400 Speaker 4: So it's more judged on your platform that you speak 237 00:10:40,440 --> 00:10:44,320 Speaker 4: on behalf and how well you promote it and how 238 00:10:44,360 --> 00:10:47,600 Speaker 4: well you advocate for it, because they want to help. 239 00:10:47,800 --> 00:10:50,960 Speaker 4: It's a platform to try and get attention for your platform. 240 00:10:51,000 --> 00:10:54,680 Speaker 4: And I think again it comes back to authenticity, Like 241 00:10:54,760 --> 00:10:57,880 Speaker 4: I just didn't go and pick a charity because I 242 00:10:57,920 --> 00:11:01,120 Speaker 4: wanted to do the competition. I had my cause and 243 00:11:01,200 --> 00:11:03,720 Speaker 4: went and did the competition because I need I wanted 244 00:11:03,760 --> 00:11:05,559 Speaker 4: to promote what we were doing. 245 00:11:06,840 --> 00:11:09,480 Speaker 1: So yell us about that. What is You're not for profit? 246 00:11:10,520 --> 00:11:13,040 Speaker 4: So it's called Live Rural And it kind of all 247 00:11:13,080 --> 00:11:15,160 Speaker 4: just started when we wanted to run an event to 248 00:11:15,240 --> 00:11:17,840 Speaker 4: bring people together in our little farming community. So we 249 00:11:17,880 --> 00:11:20,240 Speaker 4: started an event called Mellow in the Yellow. Hence I 250 00:11:20,280 --> 00:11:21,960 Speaker 4: love yellow. It's my favorite color since I. 251 00:11:23,000 --> 00:11:27,760 Speaker 1: Saw that great, big, that big square where everyone, yeah, 252 00:11:28,320 --> 00:11:29,840 Speaker 1: in the middle of all of that what are those 253 00:11:29,840 --> 00:11:33,760 Speaker 1: Excuse my ignorance, what are those yellow flowers called? Again? Well, 254 00:11:33,760 --> 00:11:37,160 Speaker 1: that's fucking that image. When I was looking at them, 255 00:11:37,160 --> 00:11:38,959 Speaker 1: I'm like, what is that? And II lean and I went, 256 00:11:39,200 --> 00:11:40,320 Speaker 1: how gorgeous is that? 257 00:11:41,000 --> 00:11:41,360 Speaker 3: Yeah? 258 00:11:41,400 --> 00:11:44,040 Speaker 1: And like, so explain to people what I'm talking about. 259 00:11:44,840 --> 00:11:45,080 Speaker 3: Yeah. 260 00:11:45,120 --> 00:11:48,200 Speaker 4: So it's like we growkenola on the farm or in 261 00:11:48,240 --> 00:11:49,839 Speaker 4: this district we have it, so it's on a different 262 00:11:49,880 --> 00:11:53,000 Speaker 4: farm every year, and it's quite a lot of planning 263 00:11:53,040 --> 00:11:54,880 Speaker 4: because whoever's going to host it, they've got to make 264 00:11:54,920 --> 00:11:57,679 Speaker 4: a square in the middle of their canola crop where 265 00:11:57,679 --> 00:11:59,920 Speaker 4: we're going to have a lawn. And when the canole 266 00:12:00,240 --> 00:12:02,680 Speaker 4: in flower in October, we put a marquee in the 267 00:12:02,679 --> 00:12:05,000 Speaker 4: middle of it. We get a band, we bust everyone 268 00:12:05,040 --> 00:12:07,880 Speaker 4: to and from the event. It's free drinks and food 269 00:12:07,920 --> 00:12:09,839 Speaker 4: for the day, and we have a guest speaker come 270 00:12:09,880 --> 00:12:13,320 Speaker 4: and speak about mental health and the importance of you know, 271 00:12:13,760 --> 00:12:16,439 Speaker 4: looking after our mental health in farming communities because it's 272 00:12:16,440 --> 00:12:22,400 Speaker 4: such a busy, you know, labor intensive, demanding lifestyle, and 273 00:12:22,440 --> 00:12:24,480 Speaker 4: a not a lot of farmers have time to sort 274 00:12:24,520 --> 00:12:26,840 Speaker 4: of take time and in that time, like we're in now, 275 00:12:26,880 --> 00:12:30,080 Speaker 4: we're in drought, Like my husband's gone at five o'clock 276 00:12:30,080 --> 00:12:32,520 Speaker 4: in the morning and doesn't come into like eleven twelve 277 00:12:32,600 --> 00:12:36,480 Speaker 4: at night. They're the times when we need they need help, 278 00:12:36,480 --> 00:12:40,880 Speaker 4: but not necessarily help because they're suffering mentally. It's just 279 00:12:40,920 --> 00:12:44,000 Speaker 4: the fatigue that then has a flow on effect to 280 00:12:44,040 --> 00:12:46,640 Speaker 4: your mental health, or even just the financial pressure that 281 00:12:46,679 --> 00:12:49,079 Speaker 4: then flows onto your mental health. So getting them all 282 00:12:49,080 --> 00:12:52,599 Speaker 4: off farm in one place to enjoy themselves and celebrate 283 00:12:52,760 --> 00:12:55,720 Speaker 4: the amazing work that farmers do while kind of also 284 00:12:55,840 --> 00:12:57,520 Speaker 4: reminding them, you know, take a little bit of time 285 00:12:57,600 --> 00:12:59,400 Speaker 4: to look after your mental health as well. 286 00:13:01,040 --> 00:13:03,960 Speaker 1: This is maybe a weird question, but what is the 287 00:13:04,040 --> 00:13:06,640 Speaker 1: attraction like from the outside, Like I grew up in 288 00:13:06,679 --> 00:13:09,079 Speaker 1: the country, not on a farm but near farm, so 289 00:13:09,160 --> 00:13:12,000 Speaker 1: I kind of get it. And my mum literally grew 290 00:13:12,080 --> 00:13:13,720 Speaker 1: up on a farm, so I'm a little bit more 291 00:13:15,400 --> 00:13:19,000 Speaker 1: familiar with it. But what's the attraction because it just 292 00:13:19,080 --> 00:13:23,600 Speaker 1: seems like being a farmer just seems like yeah, I know, 293 00:13:24,200 --> 00:13:27,640 Speaker 1: like fuck, it's so hard and like what you just discribe. 294 00:13:27,760 --> 00:13:30,280 Speaker 1: My husband leaves at five, gets home sometimes at midnight. 295 00:13:30,600 --> 00:13:35,240 Speaker 1: Well that's seventeen hours. Some people do that in a week. 296 00:13:35,840 --> 00:13:39,800 Speaker 4: Yeah, And I've like, you know, I've always thought, you know, 297 00:13:39,840 --> 00:13:42,240 Speaker 4: it's an identity, You're born to be a farmer, all 298 00:13:42,240 --> 00:13:44,920 Speaker 4: that sort of thing. And it's so now that I've 299 00:13:44,920 --> 00:13:48,960 Speaker 4: got a son, and my son is just it is 300 00:13:49,000 --> 00:13:52,240 Speaker 4: in his DNA, Like I can't I can't explain it 301 00:13:52,240 --> 00:13:55,480 Speaker 4: the way he knows things that at nine year old 302 00:13:55,600 --> 00:13:59,560 Speaker 4: shouldn't know like it should but it's just instinctively give 303 00:13:59,600 --> 00:14:02,680 Speaker 4: me an ex so like just how to like when 304 00:14:02,760 --> 00:14:05,600 Speaker 4: we're getting the sheep in, he just knows where to. 305 00:14:05,520 --> 00:14:07,160 Speaker 3: Move, how to move around them. 306 00:14:07,120 --> 00:14:11,480 Speaker 4: Or is just he's like even just with his toys, 307 00:14:11,480 --> 00:14:14,040 Speaker 4: like he doesn't play with any other toys except farm toys, 308 00:14:14,080 --> 00:14:17,520 Speaker 4: and he's setting up his own farm with toys, and 309 00:14:17,559 --> 00:14:20,640 Speaker 4: he knows where he systematically knows where he's got to 310 00:14:20,640 --> 00:14:23,040 Speaker 4: put everything so it economically works properly. 311 00:14:23,080 --> 00:14:26,160 Speaker 3: And it's just all he thinks, dreams does. 312 00:14:26,360 --> 00:14:30,240 Speaker 4: Like, it's just you're like, wow, okay, it's in his 313 00:14:30,400 --> 00:14:31,680 Speaker 4: DNA to be a fan. 314 00:14:31,840 --> 00:14:34,720 Speaker 1: Well, isn't your husband a sixth generation farmer? 315 00:14:35,280 --> 00:14:37,640 Speaker 3: Yeah? Yeah, so my husbands I'm pretty. 316 00:14:37,360 --> 00:14:39,160 Speaker 1: Sure he's going to be generation seven. 317 00:14:39,680 --> 00:14:44,440 Speaker 3: Yeah yeah. And like if you were doing if you 318 00:14:44,480 --> 00:14:46,880 Speaker 3: were a farmer, for the money, you you you just 319 00:14:46,920 --> 00:14:48,760 Speaker 3: wouldn't do it. There's no money in it. You do 320 00:14:48,800 --> 00:14:51,000 Speaker 3: it because they love it and it's their identity. 321 00:14:51,040 --> 00:14:52,960 Speaker 4: And I think that's what a lot of older farmers 322 00:14:53,000 --> 00:14:56,000 Speaker 4: struggle with is when the son comes home takes on 323 00:14:56,040 --> 00:14:58,480 Speaker 4: the farm, It's like, what is their identity now? Because 324 00:14:58,480 --> 00:15:02,720 Speaker 4: they've always they'd rather a dead farmer than be a 325 00:15:02,800 --> 00:15:04,040 Speaker 4: human being not farming. 326 00:15:04,400 --> 00:15:09,240 Speaker 1: Wow. Wow, that is a profound they'd rather be a 327 00:15:09,280 --> 00:15:15,760 Speaker 1: dead farmer than not a farmer or what So when 328 00:15:15,760 --> 00:15:18,560 Speaker 1: you've grown up, obviously you had your own. By the way, 329 00:15:18,600 --> 00:15:20,240 Speaker 1: are you still good to keep going for a while? 330 00:15:20,240 --> 00:15:21,680 Speaker 1: Are you ghausted? Are you sick of me? 331 00:15:22,720 --> 00:15:24,240 Speaker 3: I'm good? How long we've been here? 332 00:15:24,720 --> 00:15:25,560 Speaker 1: We've been here an hour? 333 00:15:25,960 --> 00:15:26,120 Speaker 3: Good? 334 00:15:26,200 --> 00:15:28,960 Speaker 1: Good, we're gone, all right, We're going all right. You 335 00:15:29,080 --> 00:15:33,920 Speaker 1: got those good bloody country jeans. Energy. So when you're 336 00:15:33,920 --> 00:15:36,520 Speaker 1: grown up as a kid, I mean there were peaks 337 00:15:36,520 --> 00:15:38,480 Speaker 1: and troughs, there were good days and bad days, there 338 00:15:38,480 --> 00:15:39,760 Speaker 1: were struggles. 339 00:15:39,240 --> 00:15:41,240 Speaker 3: And we were talking about yeah, my medication. 340 00:15:42,440 --> 00:15:45,200 Speaker 1: Well, no, I want to know in terms of now 341 00:15:45,240 --> 00:15:49,000 Speaker 1: you're a mum, now you've got your own kids, do 342 00:15:49,040 --> 00:15:53,440 Speaker 1: you do you have a particular parenting style or does 343 00:15:53,480 --> 00:15:57,000 Speaker 1: the way that you experience life as a kid does 344 00:15:57,040 --> 00:16:00,560 Speaker 1: that influence how much you lean in and how much 345 00:16:00,600 --> 00:16:03,080 Speaker 1: you get out of the way with your kids development? 346 00:16:04,880 --> 00:16:07,520 Speaker 4: Yeah, I guess I want my kids to grow up 347 00:16:08,320 --> 00:16:10,960 Speaker 4: being kids, Like I don't want to expose them to 348 00:16:11,880 --> 00:16:15,000 Speaker 4: the world that you know, kids grow up in now 349 00:16:15,040 --> 00:16:16,680 Speaker 4: too much. I just want them to be able to 350 00:16:16,720 --> 00:16:19,520 Speaker 4: play and be innocent. And we're very lucky where we 351 00:16:19,640 --> 00:16:22,160 Speaker 4: live that with like we'd called what you call a 352 00:16:22,160 --> 00:16:24,520 Speaker 4: bush school. It's still a normal primary school, but it's 353 00:16:24,560 --> 00:16:27,280 Speaker 4: a bush school. There's only like twenty eight in the 354 00:16:27,280 --> 00:16:32,400 Speaker 4: whole primary school, and we're you know, they're out of town. 355 00:16:32,720 --> 00:16:35,360 Speaker 4: All the kids know each other, they all play together, 356 00:16:35,440 --> 00:16:37,840 Speaker 4: They've got chucks and you know, all these other things 357 00:16:37,840 --> 00:16:40,200 Speaker 4: they play in the sandpit like the year six kids 358 00:16:40,240 --> 00:16:43,120 Speaker 4: are still kids. They you know, Santa Claus hasn't been 359 00:16:43,200 --> 00:16:45,720 Speaker 4: ruined for my kids because the bigger kids know that. 360 00:16:46,360 --> 00:16:48,840 Speaker 4: You know, we all we all believe in Santa like 361 00:16:49,320 --> 00:16:52,120 Speaker 4: to be a nine year old and still fully believe 362 00:16:52,160 --> 00:16:56,000 Speaker 4: those little elves are real. Like it's beautiful, absolutely beautiful. 363 00:16:56,800 --> 00:16:59,000 Speaker 4: Not only nine year olds still believe that those little 364 00:16:59,040 --> 00:17:03,360 Speaker 4: elves are real. I want them to just be like, 365 00:17:03,480 --> 00:17:05,960 Speaker 4: you know, we we don't. My kids don't have an 366 00:17:06,000 --> 00:17:08,639 Speaker 4: iPad each. We've got like their school tablet, but that 367 00:17:09,400 --> 00:17:11,400 Speaker 4: when they get home from school, Like, that's not They're 368 00:17:11,400 --> 00:17:13,280 Speaker 4: allowed an hour on the TV a day. 369 00:17:13,160 --> 00:17:14,080 Speaker 3: That's it. 370 00:17:14,200 --> 00:17:16,359 Speaker 4: Other than that, they've got to be outside playing or 371 00:17:16,359 --> 00:17:20,080 Speaker 4: helping us, or in their room playing Like I just 372 00:17:20,119 --> 00:17:22,840 Speaker 4: don't like this whole idea of devices. And you know, 373 00:17:22,880 --> 00:17:24,320 Speaker 4: some people say, oh, you're putting your kids at a 374 00:17:24,359 --> 00:17:27,080 Speaker 4: disadvantage because they're not, you know, learning how to use 375 00:17:27,119 --> 00:17:29,600 Speaker 4: the devices. Trust me, when they want to use it, 376 00:17:29,720 --> 00:17:31,680 Speaker 4: they'll they'll learn it pretty quick. 377 00:17:33,840 --> 00:17:37,239 Speaker 1: Really, people say that that you that is such a 378 00:17:37,440 --> 00:17:41,200 Speaker 1: fucking weird perspective to say that you are disadvantaging your 379 00:17:41,280 --> 00:17:43,919 Speaker 1: kid when you have a look at the evidence for 380 00:17:44,000 --> 00:17:48,240 Speaker 1: what's going on with mental health and screen addiction and 381 00:17:48,720 --> 00:17:51,960 Speaker 1: fuck and hell, there's so much there's so much tough 382 00:17:52,000 --> 00:17:58,800 Speaker 1: stuff going on at the minute with kids, and. 383 00:17:56,920 --> 00:17:59,600 Speaker 4: And just knowing that mental health is in my family 384 00:17:59,640 --> 00:18:03,640 Speaker 4: and my husband's side of the family genetically, that we 385 00:18:03,720 --> 00:18:05,960 Speaker 4: need to be more aware of it with our kids. 386 00:18:05,960 --> 00:18:08,200 Speaker 4: So that like, and that's where I was really lucky 387 00:18:08,200 --> 00:18:10,520 Speaker 4: that my dad was really open about his mental health 388 00:18:10,560 --> 00:18:13,080 Speaker 4: when we were kids. Like I remember going to horse 389 00:18:13,119 --> 00:18:15,160 Speaker 4: events in the truck, and you know, we'd be sitting 390 00:18:15,200 --> 00:18:17,880 Speaker 4: in the truck with dad driving, and we'd just talk 391 00:18:17,960 --> 00:18:21,320 Speaker 4: about the world and you know, all these the questions 392 00:18:21,320 --> 00:18:23,320 Speaker 4: we'd fire at my dad, like you know, about the 393 00:18:23,440 --> 00:18:26,920 Speaker 4: universe and oh there are aliens. And we'd have deep 394 00:18:27,359 --> 00:18:31,440 Speaker 4: philosophical conversations with my dad, and then he'd talk about, 395 00:18:31,800 --> 00:18:34,280 Speaker 4: you know, his mental health and how you know, he'd 396 00:18:34,440 --> 00:18:36,880 Speaker 4: like he ran away when he was twenty one because 397 00:18:36,880 --> 00:18:39,399 Speaker 4: he just couldn't handle the pressure of life and he 398 00:18:39,520 --> 00:18:41,360 Speaker 4: just one day just got on a bus and just 399 00:18:41,640 --> 00:18:44,040 Speaker 4: went to wa to clear his head. 400 00:18:44,080 --> 00:18:46,320 Speaker 3: And how he just always. 401 00:18:46,040 --> 00:18:48,800 Speaker 4: Said, you've got to look after your head because in 402 00:18:48,920 --> 00:18:50,920 Speaker 4: like his era, it was you were crazy if you 403 00:18:51,000 --> 00:18:54,800 Speaker 4: had something, you know he had and he was just 404 00:18:55,000 --> 00:18:56,840 Speaker 4: and I think he's just problem was that he was 405 00:18:56,920 --> 00:18:59,919 Speaker 4: just so self aware and people around him weren't. 406 00:19:01,040 --> 00:19:04,480 Speaker 1: Now, am I right? And remembering your dad has bipolar 407 00:19:04,760 --> 00:19:09,119 Speaker 1: and got diagnosed a while ago, Am I right? 408 00:19:09,240 --> 00:19:09,440 Speaker 3: Yeah? 409 00:19:09,760 --> 00:19:11,680 Speaker 4: Yeah, but he's a height like I guess he's been 410 00:19:12,040 --> 00:19:14,439 Speaker 4: like that's what they've labeled him as. But he's a 411 00:19:14,600 --> 00:19:18,360 Speaker 4: highly functioning, normal person. Like if you met him, it's 412 00:19:18,440 --> 00:19:21,080 Speaker 4: like me, you think I'm like a happy, bubbly person, 413 00:19:21,119 --> 00:19:23,520 Speaker 4: Like no one would ever know Dad's the same. No 414 00:19:23,560 --> 00:19:25,680 Speaker 4: one would ever Like, I think no one really knew 415 00:19:25,760 --> 00:19:28,240 Speaker 4: until the Australian story came out in our hometown why 416 00:19:28,320 --> 00:19:30,320 Speaker 4: dad stopped drinking at age thirty five. 417 00:19:30,359 --> 00:19:32,399 Speaker 3: They just thought he just made his random decision to 418 00:19:32,400 --> 00:19:33,080 Speaker 3: stop drinking. 419 00:19:34,400 --> 00:19:38,119 Speaker 1: But he seems really good now. See he's like on 420 00:19:38,280 --> 00:19:42,800 Speaker 1: the Austrains, seemed great, like switched on, Like, yeah, you're right, 421 00:19:42,840 --> 00:19:44,240 Speaker 1: you would not have a clue. 422 00:19:44,880 --> 00:19:46,440 Speaker 3: No. 423 00:19:46,640 --> 00:19:48,720 Speaker 1: What I loved about your dad is he goes, yeah, 424 00:19:48,760 --> 00:19:52,200 Speaker 1: I reckon, I'm I'm about ninety eight percent right, I'm 425 00:19:52,200 --> 00:19:56,520 Speaker 1: about about ninety eight percent good, And I'm like, yeah, 426 00:19:56,600 --> 00:20:00,960 Speaker 1: yeah good. I wish I wish my number was that. 427 00:20:00,960 --> 00:20:05,119 Speaker 4: High God who knows. My dad just thought that was 428 00:20:05,160 --> 00:20:07,480 Speaker 4: a piss because they're like, you're about fifty percent ching. 429 00:20:07,680 --> 00:20:11,880 Speaker 1: Like yeah, yeah, you're getting ahead of yourself chair absent. 430 00:20:11,920 --> 00:20:13,879 Speaker 1: But you tell the world that if you want to. 431 00:20:13,920 --> 00:20:15,720 Speaker 3: But yeah, and. 432 00:20:15,600 --> 00:20:19,320 Speaker 1: What about what about you now? Because I mean, you 433 00:20:19,359 --> 00:20:20,480 Speaker 1: have to be a mum, you have to be a 434 00:20:20,480 --> 00:20:22,159 Speaker 1: business woman, you have to be a wife, you have 435 00:20:22,200 --> 00:20:24,960 Speaker 1: to be a daughter, You've got to be this you know, 436 00:20:25,200 --> 00:20:30,680 Speaker 1: business person. How do you like, what do you need 437 00:20:30,720 --> 00:20:33,919 Speaker 1: to do for you to manage you to look after 438 00:20:34,000 --> 00:20:36,560 Speaker 1: you mentally, emotionally, physically. 439 00:20:38,000 --> 00:20:42,159 Speaker 4: Yeah, and sometimes I probably don't manage it the best, 440 00:20:42,200 --> 00:20:44,040 Speaker 4: like I sort of you know, Dad always said to us, 441 00:20:44,520 --> 00:20:46,640 Speaker 4: you know, if you've got to play sport, because that's 442 00:20:46,640 --> 00:20:48,920 Speaker 4: how your release a like that was my dad's answer. 443 00:20:49,080 --> 00:20:52,679 Speaker 4: Just sport, play sport, physical, get it all out and 444 00:20:52,760 --> 00:20:54,960 Speaker 4: keep your brain, keep your brain busy, because when your 445 00:20:55,000 --> 00:20:56,880 Speaker 4: brain's not busy, that's when you start to go down 446 00:20:56,920 --> 00:21:00,720 Speaker 4: a hole and think about things and not you know, 447 00:21:00,800 --> 00:21:02,800 Speaker 4: logically start going what's my purpose? 448 00:21:02,880 --> 00:21:04,680 Speaker 3: Like what am I doing with my life? So to 449 00:21:04,760 --> 00:21:06,359 Speaker 3: keep busy was his answer. 450 00:21:06,359 --> 00:21:08,600 Speaker 4: And sometimes I don't manage that very well because I 451 00:21:08,640 --> 00:21:11,480 Speaker 4: do get myself too busy, and I can kind of 452 00:21:11,520 --> 00:21:13,160 Speaker 4: get to a point of like I need a rest, 453 00:21:13,200 --> 00:21:17,439 Speaker 4: I'm burning out. But I do need to be busy 454 00:21:17,480 --> 00:21:19,800 Speaker 4: and have something happening all the time. It's just I've 455 00:21:19,840 --> 00:21:22,920 Speaker 4: got to get better at managing how busy and asking 456 00:21:22,960 --> 00:21:25,359 Speaker 4: for help from people to come in and help me. 457 00:21:25,440 --> 00:21:27,359 Speaker 4: So now I'm actually starting to build a team of 458 00:21:27,400 --> 00:21:29,320 Speaker 4: people around me that I can be like, Okay, I 459 00:21:29,359 --> 00:21:32,960 Speaker 4: can't do everything, can you do this job for me now, 460 00:21:33,040 --> 00:21:34,959 Speaker 4: or you know, instead of just thinking I can do 461 00:21:35,000 --> 00:21:39,399 Speaker 4: everything on my own. But yeah, keeping that busy, but 462 00:21:39,520 --> 00:21:42,400 Speaker 4: I do need my time away from everything, and that's 463 00:21:42,440 --> 00:21:45,359 Speaker 4: my horses. And as you know, cliches that might sound 464 00:21:45,400 --> 00:21:48,080 Speaker 4: like they're my meditation, because when I'm riding a horse, 465 00:21:48,920 --> 00:21:51,080 Speaker 4: I can't have any other distractions. I can't be on 466 00:21:51,119 --> 00:21:53,040 Speaker 4: my phone when I'm riding a horse, I can't be 467 00:21:53,080 --> 00:21:54,960 Speaker 4: thinking about something else. I've just got to be with 468 00:21:55,000 --> 00:21:58,440 Speaker 4: that horse present in that moment because it has its 469 00:21:58,480 --> 00:22:00,480 Speaker 4: own brain as well, and I have to be ready 470 00:22:00,480 --> 00:22:03,040 Speaker 4: for whatever it throws at me at the same time. 471 00:22:03,080 --> 00:22:05,080 Speaker 4: So that's just my sort of switch off time, and 472 00:22:05,119 --> 00:22:07,159 Speaker 4: I you know, in an ideal world, i'd love to 473 00:22:07,240 --> 00:22:09,080 Speaker 4: ride every day, but at the moment, I'm just a 474 00:22:09,080 --> 00:22:10,720 Speaker 4: bit too busy, So I try and get two or 475 00:22:10,720 --> 00:22:13,919 Speaker 4: three rides in a week, Right, I can go. And 476 00:22:13,960 --> 00:22:16,800 Speaker 4: I guess that's what meditation is for some people, and 477 00:22:17,160 --> 00:22:18,639 Speaker 4: that's where they get their time. 478 00:22:19,160 --> 00:22:22,040 Speaker 3: I've heard people say dancing. They go and dance. 479 00:22:21,800 --> 00:22:23,640 Speaker 4: Because that's a time when they've got to move their body. 480 00:22:23,680 --> 00:22:25,840 Speaker 4: They can't be on the phone, they can't be doing anything. 481 00:22:26,000 --> 00:22:28,880 Speaker 4: They're only thinking about what they're doing in that moment 482 00:22:28,920 --> 00:22:29,720 Speaker 4: while they're dancing. 483 00:22:29,760 --> 00:22:31,520 Speaker 3: And I guess that's what sport is as well. 484 00:22:32,000 --> 00:22:36,880 Speaker 1: Yeah. Yeah, And it's funny because like different things work 485 00:22:36,920 --> 00:22:40,000 Speaker 1: for different people. You know, some people get on a 486 00:22:40,000 --> 00:22:42,400 Speaker 1: horse and it's like, oh my god, it's like therapy, 487 00:22:42,440 --> 00:22:45,639 Speaker 1: it's like connection. It's like all of a sudden, your 488 00:22:45,680 --> 00:22:49,680 Speaker 1: parasympathetic nervous system, you know, the calm. Other people would 489 00:22:49,680 --> 00:22:51,080 Speaker 1: be terrified to get on a horse. 490 00:22:51,280 --> 00:22:53,200 Speaker 4: Yeah, and it's something got to do from you know, 491 00:22:53,640 --> 00:22:56,800 Speaker 4: a young age to feel safe doing it too. It's 492 00:22:56,800 --> 00:22:59,120 Speaker 4: not like you just go, oh, thirty. 493 00:22:58,840 --> 00:23:00,560 Speaker 3: Six and I'm going to go and ride a horse. 494 00:23:01,760 --> 00:23:05,920 Speaker 1: It's funny I talk about I talk about motorbikes because 495 00:23:05,960 --> 00:23:10,080 Speaker 1: I grew up on motorbikes and I ride more than 496 00:23:10,119 --> 00:23:12,479 Speaker 1: I drive, right, So I've got four motorbikes, and if 497 00:23:12,480 --> 00:23:15,280 Speaker 1: I've got to go most of the time, if I'm 498 00:23:15,320 --> 00:23:17,920 Speaker 1: commuting anywhere, it's on a bike, like eighty percent of 499 00:23:17,960 --> 00:23:21,400 Speaker 1: the time bike, twenty per cent car. It's funny because 500 00:23:21,400 --> 00:23:24,680 Speaker 1: when I'm on a bike, which it seems like stupid, 501 00:23:24,760 --> 00:23:27,879 Speaker 1: but I'm relaxed. Yeah, it's like, yeah, but you're on 502 00:23:27,920 --> 00:23:31,480 Speaker 1: a motorbike and it's Melbourne and it's traffic, and I go, yeah, 503 00:23:31,600 --> 00:23:35,160 Speaker 1: can't explain it, but like I feel, all is that one. 504 00:23:35,280 --> 00:23:37,280 Speaker 1: I'm like, you know, I'm still aware and alert and 505 00:23:37,280 --> 00:23:40,680 Speaker 1: I'm still careful, but I endure. Like when I get 506 00:23:40,680 --> 00:23:42,520 Speaker 1: in a car, it's just a thing that takes me 507 00:23:42,560 --> 00:23:44,880 Speaker 1: from A to B and it's it's good and I'm grateful, 508 00:23:45,359 --> 00:23:47,560 Speaker 1: but I don't go, oh fuck, yeah, I'm in the car. 509 00:23:49,119 --> 00:23:52,240 Speaker 1: Oh god, this is so good. In the car, I'm like, yeah, 510 00:23:52,320 --> 00:23:54,439 Speaker 1: it's just a car. But when I'm on a bike, 511 00:23:55,240 --> 00:23:57,320 Speaker 1: even I've got like a shitty little bike, and I've 512 00:23:57,320 --> 00:23:59,520 Speaker 1: got some great bikes, but even if I'm on the 513 00:23:59,560 --> 00:24:04,520 Speaker 1: shitty crappy bike, have the best fucking time ever. Now 514 00:24:05,119 --> 00:24:08,240 Speaker 1: I'm just realizing that we haven't even spoken about your film, 515 00:24:08,240 --> 00:24:10,680 Speaker 1: which is probably the biggest thing, or one of the 516 00:24:10,680 --> 00:24:12,919 Speaker 1: biggest thing that you've done, other than crank out a 517 00:24:12,920 --> 00:24:14,840 Speaker 1: couple of kids and marry a good bloke and you know, 518 00:24:14,960 --> 00:24:18,720 Speaker 1: I mean there's that too. So you made a film 519 00:24:19,320 --> 00:24:23,040 Speaker 1: called Just a Farmer, and you have no right to 520 00:24:23,080 --> 00:24:28,000 Speaker 1: make a film. No, no, I don't think you understand 521 00:24:28,040 --> 00:24:30,439 Speaker 1: how hard it is to make a film and to 522 00:24:30,760 --> 00:24:33,520 Speaker 1: take that idea and turn it into a reality. I 523 00:24:33,560 --> 00:24:35,560 Speaker 1: think one of the people on your doco or the 524 00:24:36,400 --> 00:24:39,520 Speaker 1: Australian Story said one in seven trillion, which was the 525 00:24:39,640 --> 00:24:43,960 Speaker 1: name of your show. The show was called, the movie 526 00:24:44,080 --> 00:24:48,000 Speaker 1: was called Just a Farmer, tell us how the fuck 527 00:24:48,080 --> 00:24:51,120 Speaker 1: that happened and tell us a little bit about that journey. 528 00:24:52,119 --> 00:24:53,879 Speaker 4: Yeah, and it is quite just one of those things 529 00:24:53,920 --> 00:24:55,439 Speaker 4: where people say, like, how did it happen. I'm like 530 00:24:55,480 --> 00:24:57,560 Speaker 4: sometimes I'm like, I don't even fucking know how it happened, 531 00:24:57,560 --> 00:24:58,399 Speaker 4: but anyway, it happened. 532 00:24:58,680 --> 00:25:01,200 Speaker 1: And by the way, everyone, it's not a documentary, it's 533 00:25:01,240 --> 00:25:02,720 Speaker 1: a move. It's a movie. 534 00:25:02,640 --> 00:25:05,440 Speaker 3: Yeah, yes, it's a drama. 535 00:25:06,320 --> 00:25:10,480 Speaker 4: And yeah, I guess for me growing up, you know, 536 00:25:10,560 --> 00:25:13,760 Speaker 4: I it is it is my identity and I come 537 00:25:13,760 --> 00:25:14,720 Speaker 4: back to it a lot, and I don't know if 538 00:25:14,720 --> 00:25:16,760 Speaker 4: it annoys people, but yeah, but growing up and I 539 00:25:16,800 --> 00:25:21,720 Speaker 4: still am dyslexic, movies were what I connected to the 540 00:25:21,760 --> 00:25:25,160 Speaker 4: world through. Like, I loved movies. I love watching them. 541 00:25:25,200 --> 00:25:27,960 Speaker 4: I love going on the emotional rollercoasters that they gave me. 542 00:25:28,000 --> 00:25:29,879 Speaker 4: And some people have that with books, but I just 543 00:25:29,920 --> 00:25:33,879 Speaker 4: never got that opportunity. So, you know, that's how I 544 00:25:34,000 --> 00:25:37,600 Speaker 4: learned about the world and how I got introduced to 545 00:25:37,640 --> 00:25:40,960 Speaker 4: different cultures or ideas or things outside of my little 546 00:25:41,040 --> 00:25:43,920 Speaker 4: community and group and comfort zone was through movies. 547 00:25:43,920 --> 00:25:44,760 Speaker 3: Like I'd walk down to. 548 00:25:44,680 --> 00:25:47,880 Speaker 4: The video store every every sad day, get my video 549 00:25:47,920 --> 00:25:50,920 Speaker 4: and come home with my chocolate paddle pop and watch it. 550 00:25:52,160 --> 00:25:54,480 Speaker 3: Yeah, they were fifty cents back then too. 551 00:25:54,640 --> 00:25:58,320 Speaker 1: Well, videos pos pattle pops. You have to sell a 552 00:25:58,359 --> 00:26:01,080 Speaker 1: kidney to get a paddle pop those days. Yeah, they're 553 00:26:01,080 --> 00:26:02,440 Speaker 1: not giving that shit away. 554 00:26:02,800 --> 00:26:03,880 Speaker 3: And they're getting smaller. 555 00:26:03,960 --> 00:26:06,600 Speaker 4: But anyway, so that's where like I've always come on 556 00:26:06,640 --> 00:26:07,560 Speaker 4: streets do better. 557 00:26:07,920 --> 00:26:10,920 Speaker 3: Yeah, Yeah, just been a massive movie lover. 558 00:26:12,480 --> 00:26:16,359 Speaker 4: And then we're during COVID, we were watching you know, 559 00:26:16,440 --> 00:26:19,840 Speaker 4: everyone was watching series movies. That's where we were getting 560 00:26:19,840 --> 00:26:22,280 Speaker 4: our human connection, Like it was a topic of conversation 561 00:26:22,400 --> 00:26:25,080 Speaker 4: like some of the TV series that got traction during 562 00:26:25,119 --> 00:26:27,159 Speaker 4: COVID You're like, what was wrong with us all? Like 563 00:26:27,200 --> 00:26:31,040 Speaker 4: what were we thinking? Like Tiger King, like how we 564 00:26:31,080 --> 00:26:32,240 Speaker 4: all had to watch it? Right? 565 00:26:32,280 --> 00:26:35,199 Speaker 3: But it was so ridiculous. It was stupid. If it 566 00:26:35,240 --> 00:26:36,960 Speaker 3: came out now, no one could watch it. 567 00:26:38,560 --> 00:26:41,680 Speaker 1: That's very true. That was very fucking random, that thing. 568 00:26:42,000 --> 00:26:45,000 Speaker 1: And that was not only did people watch it, it 569 00:26:45,119 --> 00:26:47,399 Speaker 1: was the biggest thing on Netflix for a while, Like 570 00:26:47,480 --> 00:26:48,360 Speaker 1: that was massive. 571 00:26:49,280 --> 00:26:52,320 Speaker 4: Yeah, you just kind of got addicted to the ridiculousness 572 00:26:52,320 --> 00:26:55,440 Speaker 4: of it, Like it was, yeah, we gave this psychopath 573 00:26:55,520 --> 00:26:56,960 Speaker 4: traction anyway. 574 00:26:57,840 --> 00:27:01,119 Speaker 1: So you went, if they can get exposure. 575 00:27:01,560 --> 00:27:05,240 Speaker 4: Yeah, well, and then we found that like the Jeremy 576 00:27:05,240 --> 00:27:09,480 Speaker 4: Clarkson Clarkson's Farm and my son were watching that, and 577 00:27:09,560 --> 00:27:11,560 Speaker 4: my son loved it because it was the first show 578 00:27:11,640 --> 00:27:15,360 Speaker 4: he'd seen on TV where his job was being celebrated, 579 00:27:15,480 --> 00:27:18,359 Speaker 4: like what he loves doing was also being celebrated. And 580 00:27:18,359 --> 00:27:21,480 Speaker 4: I said, my husband, this is the only farming show 581 00:27:21,560 --> 00:27:24,880 Speaker 4: I've ever watched that is kind of close to what 582 00:27:24,960 --> 00:27:28,160 Speaker 4: farming is actually really like like he was just blunt, 583 00:27:28,760 --> 00:27:31,960 Speaker 4: you know, was so honest about not having any idea 584 00:27:31,960 --> 00:27:33,560 Speaker 4: of what it was like to farm. He was, you know, 585 00:27:33,640 --> 00:27:36,280 Speaker 4: honest with his profits, Like he's like, I made forty 586 00:27:36,280 --> 00:27:38,880 Speaker 4: five dollars this year or forty five pounds this year. 587 00:27:38,880 --> 00:27:42,359 Speaker 4: If I wasn't a millionaire backing it, I'd have nothing, 588 00:27:42,640 --> 00:27:44,560 Speaker 4: you know, so fluntly honest. 589 00:27:44,560 --> 00:27:45,920 Speaker 3: And I said, that's it. 590 00:27:46,160 --> 00:27:51,359 Speaker 4: That's how we can penetrate a different audience and stop 591 00:27:51,520 --> 00:27:56,479 Speaker 4: constantly preaching to the converted through a movie. And I said, like, 592 00:27:56,560 --> 00:27:58,480 Speaker 4: being a school teacher, you say to kids, do you 593 00:27:58,520 --> 00:28:00,600 Speaker 4: want to watch a documentary a movie? They're going to 594 00:28:00,640 --> 00:28:02,879 Speaker 4: want to watch a movie, Like to me, like, there 595 00:28:02,880 --> 00:28:05,000 Speaker 4: are some really good docos out there, but for me, 596 00:28:05,119 --> 00:28:07,040 Speaker 4: they're personally a bit boring. They don't take me on 597 00:28:07,040 --> 00:28:09,399 Speaker 4: an emotional journey. So I was like, we have to 598 00:28:09,400 --> 00:28:12,800 Speaker 4: create a story and subconsciously have the message in it. 599 00:28:12,840 --> 00:28:14,119 Speaker 3: So that's where we're like. And then I was like, 600 00:28:14,119 --> 00:28:15,000 Speaker 3: we're going to make a movie. 601 00:28:15,040 --> 00:28:16,960 Speaker 4: And my husband's like, oh, yeah, whatever, off you go. 602 00:28:18,320 --> 00:28:21,600 Speaker 4: So yeah, it's sort of and my stupid idea of 603 00:28:21,640 --> 00:28:23,399 Speaker 4: like learning how to make a movie was to go 604 00:28:23,440 --> 00:28:25,679 Speaker 4: to acting school. Like that was yeah, that was a 605 00:28:25,720 --> 00:28:27,320 Speaker 4: bit of a all. 606 00:28:27,240 --> 00:28:31,159 Speaker 1: Right, hang on, like I talk to people all the 607 00:28:31,160 --> 00:28:33,919 Speaker 1: time about setting goals, create a plan, create a timeline. 608 00:28:34,400 --> 00:28:37,200 Speaker 1: You know, what are your KPIs, what are your resources? 609 00:28:37,320 --> 00:28:44,200 Speaker 1: I mean, it's a credit to you. It's fucking amazing. 610 00:28:44,440 --> 00:28:46,960 Speaker 1: I don't know if you realize, but to sit at home, 611 00:28:47,520 --> 00:28:50,920 Speaker 1: like when did you have this idea? Where did you 612 00:28:50,960 --> 00:28:53,959 Speaker 1: have the idea? When did you have it? When was that? 613 00:28:54,040 --> 00:28:54,719 Speaker 1: What year was at? 614 00:28:55,240 --> 00:28:57,320 Speaker 3: Like was it twenty twenty one? 615 00:28:57,360 --> 00:28:59,480 Speaker 4: We're in COVID, just sitting on the couch in there 616 00:28:59,520 --> 00:29:01,440 Speaker 4: watching and I was like, that's it, that's how we 617 00:29:01,480 --> 00:29:01,760 Speaker 4: do it. 618 00:29:01,800 --> 00:29:08,400 Speaker 1: This is twenty one. The woman who's never acted goes, 619 00:29:08,480 --> 00:29:10,920 Speaker 1: I want to make a movie twenty twenty four, the 620 00:29:10,960 --> 00:29:16,920 Speaker 1: movies out and released in cinemas, and you're acting in it? 621 00:29:17,880 --> 00:29:20,000 Speaker 3: Yeah? Bit nuts? Actually, I mean. 622 00:29:21,280 --> 00:29:23,480 Speaker 1: We don't have time, but give us a little bit 623 00:29:23,520 --> 00:29:28,640 Speaker 1: of the between the conceptualization and the and now he's 624 00:29:28,680 --> 00:29:29,400 Speaker 1: our movie. 625 00:29:30,120 --> 00:29:30,400 Speaker 3: Yeah. 626 00:29:30,480 --> 00:29:34,160 Speaker 4: Well, I guess like I thought, I was a bit 627 00:29:34,240 --> 00:29:37,440 Speaker 4: like what's his name Tarantino, Like when he first wanted 628 00:29:37,440 --> 00:29:39,920 Speaker 4: to get into movies, he just thought he had to 629 00:29:39,920 --> 00:29:41,680 Speaker 4: be an actor because that's all he's seen on the 630 00:29:41,720 --> 00:29:45,360 Speaker 4: TV screen. But then when he went and did acting, 631 00:29:45,440 --> 00:29:47,479 Speaker 4: he worked out. He hated acting, and he wanted to 632 00:29:47,520 --> 00:29:50,440 Speaker 4: make movies because he couldn't be what he couldn't see. 633 00:29:50,720 --> 00:29:52,800 Speaker 4: So when he's seen that there was people behind the 634 00:29:52,840 --> 00:29:54,680 Speaker 4: scenes making them, he was like, that's what I want 635 00:29:54,680 --> 00:29:54,920 Speaker 4: to do it. 636 00:29:54,920 --> 00:29:59,240 Speaker 3: I don't want to be And he's pretty rubbish atted anyway, so. 637 00:30:00,440 --> 00:30:02,480 Speaker 4: Or acting in them acting him, he's pretty good at 638 00:30:02,520 --> 00:30:03,880 Speaker 4: making them, but yeah, rubbish out. 639 00:30:04,400 --> 00:30:06,320 Speaker 3: Yeah, So that's what I thought. I was like, I'll 640 00:30:06,360 --> 00:30:07,680 Speaker 3: go and learn how to be an actor. 641 00:30:07,800 --> 00:30:10,840 Speaker 4: So I like looked up all these you know, acting schools, 642 00:30:10,840 --> 00:30:12,760 Speaker 4: and it had to suit my lifestyle and so you've 643 00:30:12,760 --> 00:30:14,680 Speaker 4: got your nighters and all those but that's full time. 644 00:30:14,720 --> 00:30:16,080 Speaker 3: I couldn't do that where I was. 645 00:30:16,120 --> 00:30:18,680 Speaker 4: So I found this place that had a short course 646 00:30:18,680 --> 00:30:21,320 Speaker 4: and everyone said that Damian Welsh Howling's the best acting 647 00:30:21,360 --> 00:30:22,760 Speaker 4: coach in Melbourne. So I was like, well, I got 648 00:30:22,760 --> 00:30:25,560 Speaker 4: to get into his class and he does advanced acting 649 00:30:25,600 --> 00:30:27,320 Speaker 4: for advanced actors. And I was like, well, I don't 650 00:30:27,360 --> 00:30:29,160 Speaker 4: have time to start at the bottom. I've got to 651 00:30:29,200 --> 00:30:30,200 Speaker 4: go straight into that one. 652 00:30:30,200 --> 00:30:32,760 Speaker 1: How do I? She did? Of course she did, Yeah, 653 00:30:32,800 --> 00:30:35,720 Speaker 1: did you go. Look, I've never acted. I don't know, Dick, 654 00:30:36,480 --> 00:30:39,080 Speaker 1: but I'm here you're welcome. Yeah. 655 00:30:39,080 --> 00:30:41,520 Speaker 4: Basically, well, I rang up and said did they have 656 00:30:41,600 --> 00:30:43,800 Speaker 4: a spot because it was starting in a few days, 657 00:30:43,840 --> 00:30:45,719 Speaker 4: and they said, oh, yeah, we'll send through your resume. 658 00:30:45,840 --> 00:30:48,160 Speaker 4: We'll need to check that you've got the experience and 659 00:30:48,200 --> 00:30:50,360 Speaker 4: blah blah blah, and if we've got a spot, will 660 00:30:50,400 --> 00:30:52,640 Speaker 4: put you in. And so I just made up a 661 00:30:52,680 --> 00:30:56,400 Speaker 4: resume like as you do fraud. Isn't that what they 662 00:30:56,440 --> 00:30:56,720 Speaker 4: call it? 663 00:30:58,320 --> 00:31:01,040 Speaker 1: Yeah, well I don't think you're a but I think 664 00:31:01,080 --> 00:31:02,720 Speaker 1: we could just call it fibbing. 665 00:31:02,480 --> 00:31:04,000 Speaker 3: Again, that's it fibbing. 666 00:31:04,800 --> 00:31:06,160 Speaker 4: And then they're like, oh, you need to send in 667 00:31:06,200 --> 00:31:07,880 Speaker 4: a show reel, and I was like, what the fuck's 668 00:31:07,880 --> 00:31:10,040 Speaker 4: a show real? So I just I was having like 669 00:31:10,240 --> 00:31:13,160 Speaker 4: technical issues and whatever, and then they just said, okay, 670 00:31:13,160 --> 00:31:13,800 Speaker 4: we've got a spot. 671 00:31:13,800 --> 00:31:14,400 Speaker 3: We'll let you in. 672 00:31:14,440 --> 00:31:17,320 Speaker 4: So I was like, gosh, shit, that was a bit easy. 673 00:31:17,400 --> 00:31:19,960 Speaker 4: And then you turned up and then I realized I 674 00:31:19,960 --> 00:31:21,560 Speaker 4: was like, shit, I'm in over my head, Like these 675 00:31:21,560 --> 00:31:24,400 Speaker 4: people are all real actors, you know, going around the 676 00:31:24,440 --> 00:31:26,680 Speaker 4: circle and they're all doing the actor thing. They introduced 677 00:31:26,680 --> 00:31:28,320 Speaker 4: themselves and what they've done, and. 678 00:31:29,040 --> 00:31:32,360 Speaker 3: I'm going they've done some really, like they've done stuff. 679 00:31:33,000 --> 00:31:35,120 Speaker 1: Did you go farmer, wance a wife, You're welcome. 680 00:31:35,440 --> 00:31:37,240 Speaker 4: Well, I just it got to me and I kind 681 00:31:37,240 --> 00:31:40,360 Speaker 4: of panicked and I went, I've done nothing. 682 00:31:42,680 --> 00:31:44,880 Speaker 1: And are they like how did you get in here? Yeah? 683 00:31:44,880 --> 00:31:47,040 Speaker 3: Well Damien was like how did you get here? 684 00:31:47,120 --> 00:31:49,160 Speaker 4: And I was like, oh, I just just put in 685 00:31:49,200 --> 00:31:52,080 Speaker 4: a like resume and they said that a spot. 686 00:31:52,160 --> 00:31:52,920 Speaker 3: So they let me in. 687 00:31:54,480 --> 00:31:57,520 Speaker 4: But now we got along really well because in his words, 688 00:31:57,520 --> 00:31:59,480 Speaker 4: he just goes Leela's good at acting because she gives 689 00:31:59,560 --> 00:32:03,840 Speaker 4: zero f about everything, and that's like the thing I didn't. 690 00:32:04,280 --> 00:32:06,240 Speaker 4: He said, I had no bad habits for him to fix, 691 00:32:06,320 --> 00:32:09,880 Speaker 4: so he was just like play and b and But 692 00:32:09,920 --> 00:32:11,600 Speaker 4: then I worked out there's a whole lot more to 693 00:32:11,680 --> 00:32:17,680 Speaker 4: films than just the actors. So I, you know, had 694 00:32:17,680 --> 00:32:19,640 Speaker 4: the script and I had a few people that read 695 00:32:19,680 --> 00:32:21,800 Speaker 4: over it for me and helped me work out how 696 00:32:21,800 --> 00:32:22,400 Speaker 4: you format it. 697 00:32:22,400 --> 00:32:23,840 Speaker 3: Like the first time I wrote the script, it was 698 00:32:23,880 --> 00:32:24,680 Speaker 3: just in a word doc. 699 00:32:24,800 --> 00:32:26,480 Speaker 4: Didn't even know that there was a way you had 700 00:32:26,480 --> 00:32:29,440 Speaker 4: to put a script together and all these programs and 701 00:32:29,480 --> 00:32:30,440 Speaker 4: stuff that you can use. 702 00:32:30,480 --> 00:32:32,479 Speaker 3: So now they made life a bit easier. 703 00:32:33,400 --> 00:32:36,480 Speaker 4: And you know, some people reading my script were really like, 704 00:32:36,800 --> 00:32:38,880 Speaker 4: I don't even know how Sometimes like I got a 705 00:32:38,920 --> 00:32:41,840 Speaker 4: really high profile going in Hollywood to read it, and 706 00:32:41,880 --> 00:32:44,440 Speaker 4: he just tore my like script to pieces. It was 707 00:32:44,480 --> 00:32:48,280 Speaker 4: soul destroying, and he did what they call a pass 708 00:32:48,320 --> 00:32:51,160 Speaker 4: on it and he wrote his version of the story. 709 00:32:51,160 --> 00:32:52,920 Speaker 4: And I remember the first time reading it back and 710 00:32:52,960 --> 00:32:56,840 Speaker 4: I just cried. I'm like, he's massacred my story. He's 711 00:32:56,840 --> 00:33:00,000 Speaker 4: written it like he's lives in Malibu his whole life 712 00:33:00,080 --> 00:33:02,400 Speaker 4: life and he's trying to write a story about an 713 00:33:02,400 --> 00:33:06,080 Speaker 4: Australian farmer. I was like, it's got no idea, Like 714 00:33:06,120 --> 00:33:08,920 Speaker 4: he had dying dogs at the end and all like 715 00:33:09,000 --> 00:33:12,200 Speaker 4: it was just so melodramatic. And I just thought, nah, 716 00:33:12,360 --> 00:33:16,840 Speaker 4: like he may be a Hollywood like in one oscars 717 00:33:16,520 --> 00:33:18,840 Speaker 4: for writing and things, but I was like, he doesn't 718 00:33:18,880 --> 00:33:19,520 Speaker 4: know my story. 719 00:33:19,560 --> 00:33:22,440 Speaker 3: I've got to stick to my guns. So that's what 720 00:33:22,480 --> 00:33:22,800 Speaker 3: the other thing. 721 00:33:22,880 --> 00:33:24,880 Speaker 4: I had to believe in the story and our mission 722 00:33:24,880 --> 00:33:27,600 Speaker 4: and what we were trying to do. And got some 723 00:33:27,640 --> 00:33:29,160 Speaker 4: other people to read it, and you take the good 724 00:33:29,160 --> 00:33:30,920 Speaker 4: and the bad. Like some of the feedback you get 725 00:33:30,960 --> 00:33:33,080 Speaker 4: you're like, oh whatever, and then some feedback you're like, yeah, 726 00:33:33,080 --> 00:33:35,200 Speaker 4: that's that really makes sense, Like that will make my 727 00:33:35,240 --> 00:33:37,120 Speaker 4: script better. So you've got to be good at taking 728 00:33:37,120 --> 00:33:40,840 Speaker 4: criticism and actually taking it on board and changing it 729 00:33:40,880 --> 00:33:41,400 Speaker 4: for the better. 730 00:33:42,160 --> 00:33:45,360 Speaker 1: And that is a really good point, right, because I 731 00:33:45,480 --> 00:33:50,479 Speaker 1: think like people, everyone says they want feedback until they 732 00:33:50,480 --> 00:33:53,720 Speaker 1: get feedback that and want and they're like fuck you. 733 00:33:54,360 --> 00:33:57,440 Speaker 1: So yeah, well okay, well you don't want feedback then 734 00:33:57,480 --> 00:33:59,760 Speaker 1: you just want praise and accolades and endorsement. 735 00:34:00,400 --> 00:34:01,560 Speaker 3: Yeah. Yeah. 736 00:34:01,680 --> 00:34:04,600 Speaker 4: And I had a mentor who at the very start, 737 00:34:04,640 --> 00:34:05,120 Speaker 4: and she's a. 738 00:34:06,640 --> 00:34:08,920 Speaker 3: Novel writer. She's not a scriptwriter, but she was. 739 00:34:09,560 --> 00:34:12,080 Speaker 4: She knew more than me about writing scripts anyway. 740 00:34:12,400 --> 00:34:15,440 Speaker 3: And she said to me, you're making a film. 741 00:34:15,480 --> 00:34:19,520 Speaker 4: It's the most collaborative creative project that you're ever gonna do. 742 00:34:19,680 --> 00:34:22,200 Speaker 4: If you don't want to collaborate and take on people's 743 00:34:22,280 --> 00:34:27,240 Speaker 4: ideas and opinions and their creative creative perspective of the film, 744 00:34:27,360 --> 00:34:27,759 Speaker 4: she's like. 745 00:34:27,760 --> 00:34:29,840 Speaker 1: Write a book, right. 746 00:34:29,840 --> 00:34:33,160 Speaker 4: And every time I didn't agree with someone in their perspective, 747 00:34:33,200 --> 00:34:35,560 Speaker 4: I came back to that and thought, no, this is 748 00:34:35,600 --> 00:34:36,880 Speaker 4: a collaborative project. 749 00:34:37,040 --> 00:34:38,240 Speaker 3: They want what's best. 750 00:34:38,040 --> 00:34:39,880 Speaker 4: For the film as well, like we all want it 751 00:34:39,920 --> 00:34:43,719 Speaker 4: to be really good. Yes, my opinion's not always the 752 00:34:43,760 --> 00:34:46,840 Speaker 4: best opinion, So go away for a couple of hours, 753 00:34:46,840 --> 00:34:49,319 Speaker 4: and think on it and see their side of their 754 00:34:49,360 --> 00:34:52,799 Speaker 4: perspective and work out what's best for the film. Because 755 00:34:52,840 --> 00:34:54,840 Speaker 4: at the end of the day, that's what every decision 756 00:34:54,920 --> 00:34:56,759 Speaker 4: came back to. It was what was best for the 757 00:34:56,800 --> 00:34:59,040 Speaker 4: film and the message that we were trying to portray. 758 00:34:59,640 --> 00:35:01,239 Speaker 4: And I I think that's why we ended up with 759 00:35:01,280 --> 00:35:03,960 Speaker 4: such a beautiful film because there was no egos involved. 760 00:35:04,200 --> 00:35:06,799 Speaker 4: It was all about the message and the film. Like 761 00:35:07,520 --> 00:35:09,759 Speaker 4: even when we interviewed people to come and work on 762 00:35:09,800 --> 00:35:12,640 Speaker 4: the film, we were just straight up we just said, 763 00:35:12,719 --> 00:35:15,399 Speaker 4: this isn't a career climbing venture, like we don't even 764 00:35:15,480 --> 00:35:18,279 Speaker 4: know if it's going to make anything. You need to 765 00:35:18,320 --> 00:35:21,360 Speaker 4: be on board for the message and have some type 766 00:35:21,360 --> 00:35:25,279 Speaker 4: of personal reason for wanting to be involved. And yeah, 767 00:35:25,400 --> 00:35:27,960 Speaker 4: I think that's why we were able to create something 768 00:35:28,000 --> 00:35:30,880 Speaker 4: because everyone wanted it to be something beautiful. 769 00:35:32,080 --> 00:35:34,879 Speaker 1: But I think I think with that ownership thing too, 770 00:35:35,120 --> 00:35:37,880 Speaker 1: like either write a book or do a film, like 771 00:35:37,920 --> 00:35:41,760 Speaker 1: it's collaboration and it's not yours. It's ours. 772 00:35:42,360 --> 00:35:43,960 Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, our. 773 00:35:43,960 --> 00:35:46,400 Speaker 1: Film, not your film. Then the moment that you start 774 00:35:46,440 --> 00:35:50,479 Speaker 1: to become possessive, you kind of push people out because 775 00:35:50,520 --> 00:35:53,879 Speaker 1: you want people to buy into your vision. But yeah, 776 00:35:54,120 --> 00:35:56,960 Speaker 1: you're telling everybody they can't have any input. Then it's 777 00:35:57,040 --> 00:36:00,319 Speaker 1: not how can they buy into the vision if it's 778 00:36:00,560 --> 00:36:03,600 Speaker 1: it's you know, it's all you. So that makes complete sense. 779 00:36:04,400 --> 00:36:06,719 Speaker 4: Yeah, and like and I was just so lucky, like 780 00:36:06,800 --> 00:36:10,960 Speaker 4: Simon Lindon, who's the director of the film, because you know, 781 00:36:11,000 --> 00:36:12,720 Speaker 4: at the start, I thought I was going to do everything. 782 00:36:12,760 --> 00:36:14,399 Speaker 4: I was even going to direct it at one point 783 00:36:14,440 --> 00:36:17,120 Speaker 4: as well. I was just going to do everything. But 784 00:36:17,440 --> 00:36:21,920 Speaker 4: I needed to find a director that understood the film 785 00:36:21,960 --> 00:36:24,520 Speaker 4: and the message and what the people were going through. 786 00:36:24,520 --> 00:36:27,040 Speaker 4: And I went through a few directors like it was, 787 00:36:27,440 --> 00:36:29,400 Speaker 4: you know, they wanted it to be melodramatic, or they 788 00:36:29,480 --> 00:36:31,759 Speaker 4: added all these scenes in there, or just you know, 789 00:36:31,800 --> 00:36:35,239 Speaker 4: they just didn't get the people. And just randomly it 790 00:36:35,280 --> 00:36:39,279 Speaker 4: was in col Rain helping because a friend of mine sat, oh, 791 00:36:39,320 --> 00:36:41,719 Speaker 4: they're doing this little shoot down here, come down here 792 00:36:41,719 --> 00:36:43,759 Speaker 4: and help out, and so you can see what it's 793 00:36:43,800 --> 00:36:44,640 Speaker 4: like to be on a set. 794 00:36:44,680 --> 00:36:47,680 Speaker 3: And I went down and a randomly met Simon. 795 00:36:47,760 --> 00:36:49,960 Speaker 4: I had no idea who he was at the time, 796 00:36:50,400 --> 00:36:52,840 Speaker 4: and like he probably wasn't in his best state of 797 00:36:52,880 --> 00:36:55,920 Speaker 4: mind when I met him either, and I asked him 798 00:36:55,960 --> 00:36:58,040 Speaker 4: to read the script and he just got it because 799 00:36:58,040 --> 00:37:01,480 Speaker 4: he'd been through his own own journey with mental health 800 00:37:01,520 --> 00:37:03,560 Speaker 4: and it's and you know, to this day, he's still 801 00:37:03,760 --> 00:37:04,640 Speaker 4: still going through it. 802 00:37:04,680 --> 00:37:06,680 Speaker 3: He's a recovering addict. 803 00:37:07,960 --> 00:37:11,800 Speaker 1: And he's quite open about that. His knees quite Yeah. 804 00:37:11,880 --> 00:37:16,319 Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, he's good for him. Yeah. So yeah, three 805 00:37:16,400 --> 00:37:18,920 Speaker 3: years with a heroin addiction. 806 00:37:19,160 --> 00:37:22,279 Speaker 4: So he's and he's been cleaned for fifteen years now, 807 00:37:22,400 --> 00:37:26,239 Speaker 4: but he struggles most days, he says, but there's a 808 00:37:26,280 --> 00:37:27,560 Speaker 4: beautiful soul in there. 809 00:37:27,640 --> 00:37:29,080 Speaker 3: And that made me think so. 810 00:37:29,120 --> 00:37:33,600 Speaker 4: Differently of addiction as well as in getting to know 811 00:37:33,719 --> 00:37:36,200 Speaker 4: Simon and what he goes through. Like I just you know, 812 00:37:36,520 --> 00:37:38,759 Speaker 4: like he probably was a bit naive because I've never 813 00:37:38,800 --> 00:37:42,320 Speaker 4: been addicted to anything, like saying, oh, you know, just stop, 814 00:37:42,440 --> 00:37:45,800 Speaker 4: like how can But getting to know Simon and his journey, 815 00:37:45,840 --> 00:37:50,560 Speaker 4: I'm like, wow, Like it's a it's a totally different 816 00:37:50,600 --> 00:37:53,080 Speaker 4: experience for that person. And yeah, like I have a 817 00:37:53,080 --> 00:37:56,160 Speaker 4: whole different perspective on it now. But yeah, meeting him 818 00:37:56,280 --> 00:38:00,760 Speaker 4: was sort of very random. Yes, I've been other directors 819 00:38:00,760 --> 00:38:02,680 Speaker 4: and he was just helping me on the script and 820 00:38:02,680 --> 00:38:05,200 Speaker 4: giving me ideas at the time, and then one day 821 00:38:05,360 --> 00:38:09,360 Speaker 4: I just sort of thought like Simon didn't anything. He 822 00:38:09,400 --> 00:38:12,000 Speaker 4: hadn't been anything for a long while, and I just thought, 823 00:38:12,000 --> 00:38:14,359 Speaker 4: you know what, he's the only person that gets it 824 00:38:14,560 --> 00:38:17,080 Speaker 4: in this industry that I've spoke to, as like on 825 00:38:17,320 --> 00:38:19,680 Speaker 4: a creative level. I'm just going to ask him to 826 00:38:19,719 --> 00:38:21,799 Speaker 4: direct it. And it was so beautiful. I asked him, 827 00:38:21,800 --> 00:38:23,640 Speaker 4: and he just goes my heart says yes. 828 00:38:26,440 --> 00:38:26,840 Speaker 3: Yeah. 829 00:38:26,920 --> 00:38:28,839 Speaker 4: So he came and lived with us for a few 830 00:38:28,840 --> 00:38:30,880 Speaker 4: months on the farm to sort of get an understanding 831 00:38:31,080 --> 00:38:32,880 Speaker 4: and meet the locals. And then when he said he 832 00:38:32,960 --> 00:38:36,000 Speaker 4: got here and he met everyone, he's like, I understand 833 00:38:36,080 --> 00:38:39,120 Speaker 4: it even more now, Like I understand because he found 834 00:38:39,200 --> 00:38:41,760 Speaker 4: the farmer to be quite a victim when he first 835 00:38:41,800 --> 00:38:43,839 Speaker 4: read it, like, you know, oh, poor him, like he's 836 00:38:43,880 --> 00:38:46,439 Speaker 4: being he's been a bit of a silk. But when 837 00:38:46,440 --> 00:38:49,600 Speaker 4: he met my husband, he's like, I get it now, 838 00:38:49,920 --> 00:38:52,359 Speaker 4: Like you know, when he read the script and he says, oh, 839 00:38:52,400 --> 00:38:55,160 Speaker 4: I'm tired, and you know I've been working and blah 840 00:38:55,200 --> 00:38:57,520 Speaker 4: blah blah, he thaught it. He sounded like I felt 841 00:38:57,560 --> 00:38:59,840 Speaker 4: like the farmer was winging. But when he met Sean 842 00:38:59,880 --> 00:39:02,640 Speaker 4: and he's Shan talk, He's not winging. It's just a 843 00:39:02,640 --> 00:39:04,719 Speaker 4: matter of fact. This is the fact I'm tired, I 844 00:39:04,719 --> 00:39:08,200 Speaker 4: haven't had sleep, blah blah blah. Yeah, working, So it 845 00:39:08,280 --> 00:39:10,719 Speaker 4: was great that he came and did that, and then. 846 00:39:10,760 --> 00:39:12,560 Speaker 3: We just put it down to synchronicity. 847 00:39:12,600 --> 00:39:16,759 Speaker 4: Like I can't even explain how we found all the 848 00:39:16,800 --> 00:39:19,000 Speaker 4: other people that came on and everything, but it just 849 00:39:19,040 --> 00:39:21,360 Speaker 4: sort of everyone just sort of came in out of 850 00:39:21,360 --> 00:39:24,720 Speaker 4: the universe at us. We had no like, I can't 851 00:39:24,719 --> 00:39:28,440 Speaker 4: even explain it. It's kind of sometimes a miracle, I think, 852 00:39:28,440 --> 00:39:30,160 Speaker 4: because yeah. 853 00:39:29,840 --> 00:39:33,759 Speaker 1: It's bloody incredible. I'm not going to feb and say 854 00:39:33,760 --> 00:39:36,160 Speaker 1: I've watched it because I only discovered yesterday. But it's 855 00:39:36,960 --> 00:39:41,279 Speaker 1: my weekend viewing. Is your movie, So I'm going to 856 00:39:41,480 --> 00:39:44,560 Speaker 1: send you a message after I watch it. But where 857 00:39:44,560 --> 00:39:46,399 Speaker 1: can people watch it? It's on Apple, isn't it. 858 00:39:46,520 --> 00:39:47,280 Speaker 3: Yeah, it's on Apple. 859 00:39:47,320 --> 00:39:50,040 Speaker 4: So we've just recently had it up on Apple because 860 00:39:50,040 --> 00:39:52,160 Speaker 4: that was a whole new side of filmmaking that I 861 00:39:52,239 --> 00:39:55,280 Speaker 4: had no idea about. Once you actually making the films 862 00:39:55,280 --> 00:39:58,240 Speaker 4: the easy part. It's the distribution that's the hard party. 863 00:39:58,920 --> 00:40:01,759 Speaker 1: It's like writing a book. I've written a books. It's like, 864 00:40:01,880 --> 00:40:03,920 Speaker 1: oh I wrote a book, Great, how the fuck do 865 00:40:04,000 --> 00:40:04,719 Speaker 1: I sell it? Now? 866 00:40:05,080 --> 00:40:06,920 Speaker 3: Yeah? Yeah, how do you get people to see it, 867 00:40:06,960 --> 00:40:09,840 Speaker 3: read it, appreciate it all these You're like, oh, that's 868 00:40:09,920 --> 00:40:10,680 Speaker 3: the hard part. 869 00:40:10,760 --> 00:40:13,920 Speaker 4: And in Australia there's so many people that think they 870 00:40:13,960 --> 00:40:17,200 Speaker 4: hold the key to doing that, and I had to 871 00:40:17,239 --> 00:40:19,279 Speaker 4: work out how to get around those people and then 872 00:40:19,360 --> 00:40:21,200 Speaker 4: do it myself because they're like, no one wants to 873 00:40:21,239 --> 00:40:23,360 Speaker 4: watch a film about farmers or mental health. 874 00:40:25,880 --> 00:40:29,040 Speaker 3: Okay, thank you for that. 875 00:40:30,160 --> 00:40:33,200 Speaker 1: Thanks for your feedback. That's super nice, yer. 876 00:40:33,680 --> 00:40:39,920 Speaker 5: Yeah, next, when you I mean, I'm sure you saw 877 00:40:40,560 --> 00:40:43,160 Speaker 5: bits and pieces of the film as it was under 878 00:40:43,200 --> 00:40:45,080 Speaker 5: construction for one of a better term. 879 00:40:46,800 --> 00:40:48,879 Speaker 1: Do you remember when you sat down the first time 880 00:40:48,920 --> 00:40:51,799 Speaker 1: and just watched the finished products start to finish. 881 00:40:53,560 --> 00:40:55,360 Speaker 4: Yeah, So it was a bit like I was a 882 00:40:55,520 --> 00:40:59,120 Speaker 4: very involved producer, so like I'd be in the edit 883 00:40:59,200 --> 00:41:02,439 Speaker 4: probably once or twice a week watching everything. Simon would 884 00:41:02,440 --> 00:41:04,840 Speaker 4: always double check and he was very respectful of the 885 00:41:04,920 --> 00:41:08,600 Speaker 4: story and it was a big collaborative project making sure 886 00:41:08,600 --> 00:41:11,880 Speaker 4: everything was really authentic and what we wanted it to look. 887 00:41:11,840 --> 00:41:13,400 Speaker 3: Like, which was amazing. 888 00:41:13,520 --> 00:41:16,640 Speaker 4: And yeah, I learned like the editor is probably the 889 00:41:16,680 --> 00:41:19,520 Speaker 4: most important person in putting a film together because they 890 00:41:19,600 --> 00:41:23,960 Speaker 4: understand timing. You know, when something's taking too long, And 891 00:41:24,000 --> 00:41:26,600 Speaker 4: I think that's where a few Australian films go wrong, 892 00:41:26,760 --> 00:41:30,480 Speaker 4: is they're too long, like they sit in one like 893 00:41:30,719 --> 00:41:32,920 Speaker 4: you need to keep progressing the story. 894 00:41:32,600 --> 00:41:35,239 Speaker 3: Forward all the time. And I do worry sometimes that 895 00:41:35,320 --> 00:41:36,520 Speaker 3: our film starts. 896 00:41:36,200 --> 00:41:40,800 Speaker 4: A bit too slow because I hate like I personally 897 00:41:40,880 --> 00:41:42,239 Speaker 4: was like, I don't want my film to be one 898 00:41:42,280 --> 00:41:44,200 Speaker 4: of those films where people are sitting there going shit, 899 00:41:44,320 --> 00:41:48,120 Speaker 4: like what's going to happen next? But like you want 900 00:41:48,160 --> 00:41:50,520 Speaker 4: it to keep moving forward, and that's the editor's job. 901 00:41:50,600 --> 00:41:53,680 Speaker 4: So if if movie moves and keeps going really well 902 00:41:53,880 --> 00:41:57,160 Speaker 4: and you engage the whole way through, the editor has 903 00:41:57,200 --> 00:42:01,800 Speaker 4: a really good understanding of people's attentions and then progressing forward, 904 00:42:02,200 --> 00:42:05,040 Speaker 4: the director's kind of the artistic person to make sure 905 00:42:05,080 --> 00:42:09,200 Speaker 4: everyone's performance is a good or everything looks good and 906 00:42:09,239 --> 00:42:11,680 Speaker 4: different things and they've got to have a good team, 907 00:42:12,800 --> 00:42:14,800 Speaker 4: be a good team. And then me being the producer 908 00:42:14,840 --> 00:42:16,720 Speaker 4: coming in like I had to then you know, sign 909 00:42:16,719 --> 00:42:18,239 Speaker 4: off on things and make sure it was all good. 910 00:42:18,280 --> 00:42:20,680 Speaker 4: So but I do remember sitting down for the first time, 911 00:42:21,000 --> 00:42:23,800 Speaker 4: we all watched like we'd watched scenes everywhere, like scenes 912 00:42:23,880 --> 00:42:28,239 Speaker 4: cut together in like a zoo in different ways, but 913 00:42:28,360 --> 00:42:30,880 Speaker 4: watching the whole film in one go. I kind of 914 00:42:30,920 --> 00:42:33,719 Speaker 4: actually had a little bit of a mental breakdown afterwards, 915 00:42:33,760 --> 00:42:35,440 Speaker 4: which was really interesting, and I. 916 00:42:35,360 --> 00:42:37,799 Speaker 3: Couldn't work out what the hell was going on. 917 00:42:39,680 --> 00:42:41,640 Speaker 4: So I rang Damien and I was like, I can't 918 00:42:41,680 --> 00:42:44,640 Speaker 4: stop crying, Like what's wrong? Like I don't know what's 919 00:42:44,680 --> 00:42:48,120 Speaker 4: going on. I'm not sad, I just can't stop crying. 920 00:42:48,160 --> 00:42:50,560 Speaker 4: And he literally said to me, did you watch the 921 00:42:50,560 --> 00:42:51,840 Speaker 4: film for the first time today? 922 00:42:51,880 --> 00:42:54,759 Speaker 3: Start to finish? And I said yeah. 923 00:42:54,800 --> 00:42:58,640 Speaker 4: And he's like, you are now processing all the feelings 924 00:42:58,680 --> 00:43:02,040 Speaker 4: of Alison that you didn't deal with while you were filming. 925 00:43:03,200 --> 00:43:03,520 Speaker 1: Wow. 926 00:43:03,640 --> 00:43:06,760 Speaker 4: And he's like, your subconscious doesn't know the difference between 927 00:43:06,760 --> 00:43:10,000 Speaker 4: what's real and what's not and what you experienced as 928 00:43:10,120 --> 00:43:13,440 Speaker 4: your character if you really live it. 929 00:43:13,520 --> 00:43:14,359 Speaker 3: And I did some. 930 00:43:14,280 --> 00:43:16,040 Speaker 4: Of those scenes I blacked out in and I don't 931 00:43:16,080 --> 00:43:19,480 Speaker 4: remember filming them. He said, your subconscious is now dealing 932 00:43:19,560 --> 00:43:20,680 Speaker 4: with those emotions. 933 00:43:21,280 --> 00:43:23,719 Speaker 3: And I was like, holy shit, Okay. 934 00:43:23,560 --> 00:43:26,200 Speaker 1: Now I'm walking about that, Damien. 935 00:43:26,360 --> 00:43:29,640 Speaker 3: Sorry, Damien Welsh howling. So he was my right, right, 936 00:43:29,719 --> 00:43:30,320 Speaker 3: right right. 937 00:43:30,280 --> 00:43:31,880 Speaker 1: Sorry, yep, yep, yep, yep. 938 00:43:31,920 --> 00:43:36,640 Speaker 2: That's yeah, But did you know what what was dawning 939 00:43:36,640 --> 00:43:40,120 Speaker 2: on me is like, here's the here's the year nine 940 00:43:40,200 --> 00:43:44,160 Speaker 2: girl who couldn't read a fucking sentence, who wrote a 941 00:43:44,280 --> 00:43:45,600 Speaker 2: fucking film? 942 00:43:45,880 --> 00:43:46,160 Speaker 4: I know? 943 00:43:46,280 --> 00:43:46,799 Speaker 3: I love that. 944 00:43:46,880 --> 00:43:48,400 Speaker 4: Like if any of girls I go to went to 945 00:43:48,400 --> 00:43:51,000 Speaker 4: school with ever thought of me writing a full script 946 00:43:51,120 --> 00:43:53,080 Speaker 4: like something over one page, they'd be. 947 00:43:53,000 --> 00:43:54,880 Speaker 1: Like, what the fuck exactly? 948 00:43:55,840 --> 00:43:56,720 Speaker 3: You wrote something? 949 00:43:57,840 --> 00:43:59,920 Speaker 1: Do you know what else? I'm proud of you? Or 950 00:44:00,840 --> 00:44:03,560 Speaker 1: we've opened the swearing door and you've come running through 951 00:44:03,560 --> 00:44:06,760 Speaker 1: it with all of your own fucks. I couldn't be prouder. 952 00:44:07,600 --> 00:44:10,200 Speaker 1: I dare say you're never going to do anything ever 953 00:44:10,280 --> 00:44:13,480 Speaker 1: again in media where you swear so much? I feel 954 00:44:13,480 --> 00:44:17,560 Speaker 1: like I've empowered you. Are you going to do? Are 955 00:44:17,600 --> 00:44:18,759 Speaker 1: you going to do another movie ever? 956 00:44:19,800 --> 00:44:22,160 Speaker 4: I would love to, but I can't fund it the 957 00:44:22,200 --> 00:44:23,360 Speaker 4: way I funded this one? 958 00:44:23,719 --> 00:44:23,919 Speaker 1: Right? 959 00:44:24,239 --> 00:44:25,960 Speaker 3: Would you find other people to help me? 960 00:44:27,520 --> 00:44:29,440 Speaker 1: I mean the bits and pieces that I saw of 961 00:44:29,480 --> 00:44:33,000 Speaker 1: the movie again, I would if I didn't think, if 962 00:44:33,000 --> 00:44:34,719 Speaker 1: I didn't believe what I'm about to say, I just 963 00:44:34,760 --> 00:44:35,680 Speaker 1: wouldn't mention it. 964 00:44:36,000 --> 00:44:37,920 Speaker 3: Okay, but you like. 965 00:44:37,880 --> 00:44:42,719 Speaker 1: A real deal actor, dude like you like it? When 966 00:44:42,760 --> 00:44:45,080 Speaker 1: I saw it, I went, how's this going to be? 967 00:44:45,840 --> 00:44:46,080 Speaker 2: You know? 968 00:44:46,160 --> 00:44:48,200 Speaker 3: Because oh no, it's great? 969 00:44:48,200 --> 00:44:51,640 Speaker 4: Because everyone goes in with low expectations, like even my mentor, 970 00:44:52,320 --> 00:44:55,680 Speaker 4: David Gregory, who is a beautiful man, and when he 971 00:44:55,719 --> 00:44:58,080 Speaker 4: first watched it, he admitted to me, He's like, when 972 00:44:58,160 --> 00:45:00,319 Speaker 4: you contacted me and asked me to watch this movie, 973 00:45:00,320 --> 00:45:01,680 Speaker 4: I was like, this is going to be a bit shit, 974 00:45:01,800 --> 00:45:04,880 Speaker 4: isn't it? Like ah, And then he goes but it 975 00:45:05,000 --> 00:45:07,680 Speaker 4: wasn't shit. I'm like, that's great because everyone goes in 976 00:45:07,680 --> 00:45:10,880 Speaker 4: with low expectations and then they're just they're sweetly surprised, 977 00:45:10,880 --> 00:45:11,800 Speaker 4: which is quite nice. 978 00:45:12,680 --> 00:45:14,680 Speaker 1: You could write, you could use that in the reviews. 979 00:45:14,800 --> 00:45:15,600 Speaker 1: It wasn't shit. 980 00:45:16,040 --> 00:45:16,960 Speaker 3: Yeah, it wasn't shit. 981 00:45:16,960 --> 00:45:20,200 Speaker 1: It wasn't shit. Hey, I could talk to you forever. 982 00:45:20,400 --> 00:45:22,880 Speaker 1: I'm so pleased that I've met you and that my 983 00:45:23,000 --> 00:45:29,680 Speaker 1: audience has met you. You're genuinely amazing. Thanks for taking 984 00:45:29,680 --> 00:45:32,960 Speaker 1: an hour and a half out of your life before 985 00:45:33,000 --> 00:45:35,320 Speaker 1: we go. What do you want to promote or share 986 00:45:35,360 --> 00:45:38,279 Speaker 1: with people? I've got a fair few listeners, So is 987 00:45:38,320 --> 00:45:40,560 Speaker 1: there anything that you where do people find you or 988 00:45:40,560 --> 00:45:42,920 Speaker 1: connect with you? Or do you want to steer my 989 00:45:43,320 --> 00:45:47,040 Speaker 1: audience towards you're not for profit? Or I'll give you 990 00:45:47,080 --> 00:45:48,200 Speaker 1: the mic for a minute. 991 00:45:48,680 --> 00:45:51,480 Speaker 4: Oh okay, Well I guess I just love people to 992 00:45:51,600 --> 00:45:54,759 Speaker 4: watch the film and experience it, like it isn't experience, 993 00:45:54,840 --> 00:45:58,760 Speaker 4: it is going It's designed to take you on a journey, 994 00:45:58,800 --> 00:46:01,920 Speaker 4: like so so prepared for that, and like if you 995 00:46:01,960 --> 00:46:04,400 Speaker 4: don't feel something, then you're weird. 996 00:46:05,160 --> 00:46:06,239 Speaker 3: And if you don't have a cry. 997 00:46:06,239 --> 00:46:07,440 Speaker 4: I don't want to say it too much, but if 998 00:46:07,440 --> 00:46:09,320 Speaker 4: you don't cry, then you're made of ice. 999 00:46:10,800 --> 00:46:11,879 Speaker 1: What is wrong? What is wrong? 1000 00:46:12,239 --> 00:46:13,120 Speaker 3: What is wrong with you? 1001 00:46:13,400 --> 00:46:16,280 Speaker 4: But that's the point, And to build empathy. I think 1002 00:46:16,640 --> 00:46:19,200 Speaker 4: we lack empathy in the world. So for people to 1003 00:46:19,880 --> 00:46:25,560 Speaker 4: cry and feel what that family is going through, it's creating. 1004 00:46:25,760 --> 00:46:28,400 Speaker 3: A natural empathy in people. And then at the end, 1005 00:46:28,440 --> 00:46:28,799 Speaker 3: like there. 1006 00:46:28,760 --> 00:46:30,560 Speaker 4: Is hope and you hopefully have a good laugh too, 1007 00:46:30,600 --> 00:46:33,759 Speaker 4: because Rob Taylor is hilarious. He plays oh and the 1008 00:46:33,800 --> 00:46:35,640 Speaker 4: old character in the film, and he's a bit of 1009 00:46:36,239 --> 00:46:37,759 Speaker 4: Half of his lines is made up and they're the 1010 00:46:37,800 --> 00:46:41,919 Speaker 4: funniest ones. But yeah, to go on watch it. It's 1011 00:46:41,920 --> 00:46:44,160 Speaker 4: on Apple. You can just type in just a farmer 1012 00:46:44,160 --> 00:46:45,440 Speaker 4: in Apple and it'll come up. 1013 00:46:46,000 --> 00:46:47,600 Speaker 3: And after you've. 1014 00:46:47,400 --> 00:46:50,120 Speaker 4: Watched it, oh, you get your friends to watch it, 1015 00:46:50,400 --> 00:46:53,080 Speaker 4: catch up with your friends a few days afterwards, and 1016 00:46:53,160 --> 00:46:56,120 Speaker 4: actually talk about the themes in the film and how 1017 00:46:56,160 --> 00:46:58,040 Speaker 4: it made you feel and white it made you feel 1018 00:46:58,040 --> 00:47:01,560 Speaker 4: that way, because I think that reflects is really important afterwards, 1019 00:47:01,560 --> 00:47:05,600 Speaker 4: because it's designed to open conversations with among families and 1020 00:47:05,680 --> 00:47:08,719 Speaker 4: friends and then share with us what you thought too. 1021 00:47:10,200 --> 00:47:12,600 Speaker 1: I'm going to be doing that. Don't worry about that, Leila. 1022 00:47:13,200 --> 00:47:16,800 Speaker 1: Thank you so much for connecting with us, and thanks 1023 00:47:16,800 --> 00:47:20,000 Speaker 1: for coming on the You project. I really appreciate the chat. 1024 00:47:20,080 --> 00:47:22,560 Speaker 1: This is I've done eighteen hundred plus. This is one 1025 00:47:22,560 --> 00:47:25,319 Speaker 1: of my favorites. It's going in my top ten straight up, 1026 00:47:26,560 --> 00:47:29,080 Speaker 1: So thank you very much. We say goodbye off air, 1027 00:47:29,160 --> 00:47:32,160 Speaker 1: but for the moment, Thanks for your time, and thanks 1028 00:47:32,239 --> 00:47:35,840 Speaker 1: for being so open and vulnerable and super clever. 1029 00:47:36,360 --> 00:47:38,160 Speaker 3: No, thank you for having me